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Alice Ages and Ages

Sarah White

BlazeVOX [books]
Buffalo, New York

Alice Ages and Ages by Sarah White Copyright 2010 Published by BlazeVOX [books] All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced without the publishers written permission, except for brief quotations in reviews. Printed in the United States of America Book design by Geoffrey Gatza First Edition ISBN: 978-1-60964-028-6 Library of Congress Control Number 2010931943 BlazeVOX [books] 303 Bedford Ave Buffalo, NY 14216 Editor@blazevox.org

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The Marsh Northeast of My Knee The Mirror gone, I traipse to you whose trails are blue bayou, torn fringe, coral fan patterns I peruse as old Romans read intestines of pigeons. I know you are an omen and I, a mortal woman. Tell my fortune. Show where I am going.

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Alice Ages She had the Mirror removed years ago but has never stopped studying herself. This morning, when she woke up, she took stock of her body relying on her eyes and handsand found nothing out of the ordinary. But now that she has moved about for a half-hour and sat down to rest, she encounters a mass of blue webbing on her inner thigh. The lines lie close to the surface, yet shes sure theyre connected to deeper systems. Whats going on that cannot be seen? Might she discern in the pattern of her spider veins a suggestion of events to come?

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And Ages She had the mirror removed years ago, but has never stopped studying herself. She stares at a fleshy patch upwards of her right knee. Its a maze of lavender trails that werent there a half-hour ago when she woke up and examined her legs, finding them as round and even-toned as a pears belly. Then she traipsed to the front door for the News, to the kitchen for milk and chocolate, to the cabinet for a mug, and now to the table, where she sips the fragrant concoction. She has glanced down and noticed these fan corals, torn fringes, paths that break off and lead nowhere. She thinks its an omen. She will try to read it, as ancient priests read fresh entrails to assess their citys health. Crowded streets, loud vehicles, and prophetic voices echo through the city of Alice. She listens.

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Urgent! Out with the mirror. On with the search. What, suddenly, are these inkstains on her thigh? A deep stream is blocked; new channels have formed. They lead nowhere, slow the flow, speed the days. She will have to work fast, learn shorthand.

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Contrariwise She had the Mirror brought in weeks ago, but has never begun studying herself. She failed to check out her body this morning and now is busy ignoring a pristine area on the back of her shin. Its blank expanses float above the surface, unrelated to any aspect of her being. Why should she ask whats going on? If she got an answer it would be one shed invented.

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The girl had breathed The girl had breathed within a Mirror, yawned and sallied home, preferring to remember a glass world, not to become its citizen. Now she will peruse herself in truthful daylight, and find no news, feel more or less okay. Hey, look again. Along her thigh run purple fans, furred lace, half-woven webs! They truly lie close to the surface. Spider veinsin girls, uncommon, frequent in her fellow women.

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No sense A pawn that was queened, a queen that was pawned, a fawn that was weaned, a bream that was spawned, a girl that was grown, a pearl that was gone and a man who was fond of them allall hung on the wall in a mirror. It occurred to the girl that the wonder of life would be lost if she spent her days under a splinter of glass. A lass of good sense, she rushed to dispense with the mirror that hung on the wall in spite of a forest of voices that chorused: How can you ignore us? The Deans and the Dons, the Queens and the Pawns, the fleas and the fawns, the white-paper hat
the tiny-voiced gnat

and contrariwise the plum-pudding flies

of remarkable size

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Farewell to them all Theyre gone from the wall. Her creases and twinges, the lavender tinges of each spider vein will come to her brain but never by means of a mirror.

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First Person I had the Mirror removed years ago. All the better to study myself. I move through the day observing minuscule shifts. These blue marks that thread the surface of my thigh... they werent there this morning. Their freshly woven webs resemble those I saw on my mother in her later yearspoor Red Queen. For all her grand airs, she ended in misery. Will I? These tiny vessels... I dont need them, but they must be related to those I do need. Ive never known how. I forage alone. Earths crust yields clues to its core. Each minute is a page in the Book of Last Things.

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Second Person Alice Thank God you had the Mirror removed though I see youre as selfcentered as ever. Mornings, you examine your limbs, like a star primping for a photo shoot. You find yourself drab and unremarkablesurprise! Then, after dithering around the house (you should have your agitated depression treated or youll wear yourself to shreds!) you had to sit down and rest. Then you discover those insignificant veins on your upper leg. Whats so fascinating? Youve seen the same thing on dozens of women your age. But for you, dear Alice, its some sort of oracle, as if youd found a kids doodles and assumed they MEANT something! I ask you!. For your sake I have to say that obsessive auto-inspection wont add a thing to what you already know. Youre oldsimple as that. All the more reason not to waste time! For Gods sake, theres a city out there where every hour is rush hour. Volunteer. Feed the homeless. Get OUT of yourself, woman! As ever, Red

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