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By Christine Macdonald
Welcome
to
the
Jungle
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I
chopped
my
coke
into
tiny
little
pieces
on
the
back
of
the
toilet.
I
smoothed each grain of powder in perfectly straight lines with fine
sophistication.
Aaaaaaalright, laaaaaadies and geentleeeemen. . .
I had sixty seconds.
The ceremony of cocaine was as much of a rush as the actual act of
snorting it. The sound of chopping, the rolling of the dollar bill, the
secrecy of it all was a different kind of intoxication. My breaths grew
louder as the burning numbness electrified my nostrils. The inside of my
brain was an itch and with every snort, I scratched. It was nirvana laced
with beauty, dipped in control.
Put your hands together for the sensaaaational Stephanieeeeeeee
I quickly straddled the white porcelain with my miniskirt hiked up
around my waist and pulled my hair to one side while snorting. I tilted
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my
head
back
and
checked
my
nose
for
powder
before
leaving
the
ladies
room and headed for the stage.
Trotting up to the stage in my six‐inch stilettos, I surveyed the
room. One of my customers was standing next to the DJ booth with his
hand extended. I took his hand to walk up the four steps to the stage. I
smiled; pulling down my spandex making sure my ass was covered. I
never wanted to be falling out of my clothes when walking the floor.
I was a lady.
* * *
The first time I did cocaine I was with my friend Leslie and these
two guys we met at a posh nightclub in Waikiki.
Earlier that night Leslie and I entered the club and felt like royalty.
The bouncers at the front door were dressed in tuxedoes and let us in
without paying cover charge or waiting in line. We stepped up the red‐
carpeted hallway trimmed with gold chandeliers and mirrored walls.
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The
sounds
of
laughter
and
clinking
glasses
coming
from
the
room
were
familiar and welcoming. It sounded like my mother’s parties muffled
through the bedroom door when I was five.
We chose a spot next to the dance floor as soon as we picked up
our drinks. I was a vodka and cranberry girl. Leslie, always Jack and
Coke.
It took a second to realize he wasn’t Rod Stewart, but between the
hairstyle and tight jeans, this guy was a dead ringer. I laughed as soon as
I heard his voice. Of course he had an English accent. His friend had one
too.
A couple of hours and several cocktails later, Leslie and I were in
the dynamic duo’s bachelor pad.
“It’s not pink. Coke is white.” I was such a snob.
“This is Peruvian, darling.” That accent just killed me.
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I
took
the
bill
in
my
hand,
rolling
it
up
like
a
little
Peruvian
rug
and snorted. There was no hesitation; no question in my mind of what
was right or wrong. I knew it was wrong and it felt incredible.
More drinks, more clinking and laughter ensued until the evening
ended abruptly.
As soon as I told Rod my answer as to why I needed to get home
we were shown the front door. “My mom thinks I am baby‐sitting.”
* * *
Six years later I found myself strutting on stage with a garter on
my thigh. When the song started up I looked at the DJ booth and shook
my head, smiling. The first song of my set was just too perfect. It was
Rod Stewart’s Hot Legs.
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