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When y o u look out over the city of Rome, walk in its streets or ride
its buses, y o u quickly realize that it is a crowded city full of houses,
full of people, full of cars, yes, even full of cats. You see men and
women moving rapidly in all directions, y o u hear joyful and angry
voices mixed with a great variety of street sounds, y o u smell m a n y
odors, especially capuccino, and y o u feel the Italian embrace by which
y o u gain a friend or lose y o u r money. It is a busy, congested city in
which life manifests itself in all its boisterous intensity.
But in the midst of this lively and colorful conglomeration of houses,
people and cars, there are the domes of Rome pointing to the places
set apart for the Holy One. The churches of Rome are like beautiful
frames around e m p t y spaces, witnessing to him who is the quiet, still
center of all h u m a n life. The churches are not useful, not practical,
not demanding immediate action or quick response. They are spaces
without loud noises, hungry movements or impatient gestures. They
are tranquil spaces, strangely e m p t y most of the time. They speak a
different language than the world around them. They do not want to
be museums. They want to invite us to be silent, to sit or kneel, to
listen attentively and to rest with our whole being.
A city without carefully protected empty spaces in which one can
sense the silence f r om which all words grow, and rest in the stillness
f r o m which all actions flow, is a city in danger of losing its real center.
I wo n d er if the busy city with its many quiet places c a n n o t offer
us an image o f what celibacy might mean in our c o n t e m p o r a r y socie-
ty. After all, isn't the active street life an expression of t hat part o f us
that wants to be with others, to move and to produce? And isn't the
dome, carefully protecting some e m p t y space, a reminder o f that oth-
er part o f us th at needs to be p r o t e c t e d and even defended so that
our lives are n o t r obbe d of their c o m m o n center? Our inner sanctum,
t h a t inner holy place, t ha t sacred center in our lives where only God
may enter, is as i m p o r t a n t in our lives as are the domes in the city of
Rome. Much can be said a b o u t celibacy. But I want to speak a b o u t
it tonight from just one perspective. I want to l ook at celibacy as a
witness to the inner sanctum in our own lives and in the lives of oth-
ers. By giving a special visibility to this inner sanctum, this hol y emp-
t y space in h u m a n life, the celibate man or wom an wants to affirm
and proclaim that all h u m a n intimacy finds its deepest meaning and
fulfillment when it is experienced and lived as a participation in inti-
macy with God himself.
In order to explore a little more the meaning of the witness of the
celibate life, I would like to focus on three areas: the world in which
celibacy is lived; the nature of the witness which the celibate offers
to this world; and the way of life through which this witness is en-
hanced and strengthened.
The World
We indeed need each ot her and are able to give each ot her m uch
m or e than we o f t e n realize. T o o long have celibates been burdened
by fear and guilt, and t oo long have we denied each other the affec-
tion and closeness we rightly desire. We therefore have much t o learn
fr o m those who are trying to open up new and more creative inter-
personal relations.
But still, critical questions need to be raised too. Can real intimacy
be reached w i t h o u t a deep respect for t ha t holy place within and be-
tween us, that space t h a t should remain u n t o u c h e d by h u m a n hands?
Can h u m a n intimacy really be fulfilling when every space within and
between us is being filled up? Is the emphasis on the healing possibili-
ties of h u m a n togetherness n o t of t e n the result of a one-sided percep-
tion o f our h u m a n predicament? These questions have a new urgency
in the time of the hum a n potential movements. I often w o n d e r if we
do n o t th in k or feel t ha t our painful experiences o f loneliness are pri-
marily a result o f a lack of interpersonal closeness. We seem to think,
" I f I could just break through m y fear of expressing m y real feelings
of love and hostility, if I could just feel free to hold a friend, if I could
just talk honestly and openly with m y own people, if I could just live
with someone who really cares . . . . then I would have again some in-
ner peace and experience again some inner wholeness."
When any o f these experiences do becom e a reality for us, we feel
in fact a certain relief, but the question remains if the real source of
our healing and wholeness can be f o u n d in them. In a world in which
traditional patterns of hum a n c o m m u n i c a t i o n have broken dow n and
in which family, profession, or village no longer offer the intimate
bonds th ey did in the past, the basic hum a n condition of aloneness
has entered so deeply into our emotional awareness t hat we are con-
stantly t e m p t e d to want more from our fellow h u m a n beings than
t h ey can give. When we relate to our neighbors with the supposition
t h at t h e y are able to fulfill our deepest needs, we will find ourselves
increasingly frustrated. When we e x p e c t a friend or lover to be able
to take away our deepest pain, we e x p e c t from him or her something
t h at c a n n o t be given by hum a n beings. No h u m a n being can under-
stand us fully, no h u m a n being can give us unconditional love, no hu-
man being can offer c ons t ant affection, no h u m a n being can enter
into the core o f our being and heal our deepest brokenness. Every
time we forget this and e xpe c t f r om others more than t h e y can give,
we make these others into gods and ourselves into demons. When we
do n o t receive what we expect, we easily becom e resentful, bitter,
revengeful, and even violent.
82 Pastoral Psychology
Lately we have become very much aware of the fragile border between in-
timacy and violence. We see or hear about cruelty between husband and
wife, parents and children, brothers and sisters~ and we begin to notice thai:
those who so desperately desire to be loved often find themselves entan-
gled in violent relationships. Listening become overhearing, a tender gaze
becomes a suspicious look, caressing becomes slapping, kissing becomes
biting, and surrender becomes rape. The horrendous stories in the daily pa-
pers about sexual aggression, mutilation and murder evoke the vision of
people desperately grasping each other and clinging to each other, crying
out and shouting for love, but receiving nothing but more violence.
The Witness
I was deeply impressed by the way the members of the San Egidio commu-
nity in Rome described their relationship with each other. They made it
clear to me that friendship is very important to them, but that they have
to learn in their apostolate to see their relationship with each other in the
context of their common call. As soon as the relationship itself becomes
central, they are moving away from their vocation. They must be willing
to let new developments in their apostolate separate them from each other
for certain periods of time. They also must be willing to see and experience
their separations as an invitation to deepen their relationship with their
Lord and through Him with each other. This is why they feel so strongly
that their weekly Eucharist and their daily Vespers form the source of their
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love for each other. There they find each other as friends, there they strength-
en their commitment to each other, and there they find the courage to fol-
low their Lord even when he asks them to go in different directions. Thus,
their relationship is really a standing together around the altar or around
the holy empty space indicated by the icon. Together they want to protect
the empty space in and between each other.
are closely related because marriage and celibacy are two mutually
supporting ways of living within the Christian com m uni t y. Celibacy
is a support to married people in their c o m m i t m e n t to each other.
The celibate reminds those who live together in marriage of their own
celibate center which t he y need to p r o t e c t and nurture in order to
live a life that depends n o t simply upon the stability of their emo-
tions and affections, but on their c o m m o n love for the G od who
called t h e m together. On the ot he r hand, married people also witness
to those who have chosen the celibate life by reminding t h e m t hat it
is the love for God that makes rich and creative hum an relationships
possible and th a t the value of the celibate life becomes manifest in
generous, affectionate and faithful care for those in need. Married
people remind celibates that t hey t oo live in covenant and t hat they
t o o are brides and grooms. Thus, celibacy and marriage need each
other for mutual support.
In this context it might be valuable to point out that celibates can indeed
have a very good understanding of married life and married people of celi-
bate life. Remarks such as: "You don't know what you are talking about be-
cause you are not married or celibate" are very misleading. Precisely be-
cause marriage and celibacy are in each other's service and bound together
by their common witness to God's love as the love from which all human
relationships originate, celibate and married people can be of invaluable
help to each other by supporting their different ways of life.
Conclusion
Reference Note
1. Thomas Hora, Existential Metapsychiatry (New York: Seabury Press, 1977),
p. 32.