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ADDENDUM To this day, there is still a small part of me that will sometimes wonder, Did I do this to myself? whenever my skin develops a rash. Just like on the day I was involuntarily committed, I did--and still do--logically know that my skin condition is not self-inflicted. Armed with medical records in front of me depicting the actual diagnosis and explanation for why my skin condition seemed to get on an unrelenting, year-long roller coaster of severity, I should definitely feel no wavering thoughts of sanity. After all, my diagnosis was not only confirmed by definitive lab results, but by an internationally-recognized dermatologist at the top of his field. However, what I cant seem to get out of my head (or apparently refuse to accept) is the ability for two emergency room doctors to essentially transform their first-impression observations into accepted fact, using the Hippocratic Oath as a mechanism to effectively take away my constitutionally protected right to freedom. Thats just it, thoughthey cant. Its the fact that they did that continues to hinder any personal effort to move forward, or even appreciate my own tenacity for holding on to the belief that what was happening to my skin was not self-inflicted. The doctors actions on that Saturday afternoon manifested in repercussions that exist outside of the confines of my emotional and physical well-being. With the implementation of the involuntary commitment order, Wesley Long Hospital put mental health care at an unnecessary standstill; and, at that instantset mental health law decades back. Although a lot of the time I wish that this never happened to methat somehow I could erase the pastI whole-heartedly believe that my case will produce an outcome in which what I experienced will never have to happen to anyone again.