I don't fit in. I haven't quite come to the acceptance of that as an integral component of my life..

It's gone from the question of How am I different? to Why am I different? to How can I be normal? Nor is it the typical How can I find a new group of friends? or How can I start a new group of friends? insofar as it is How can I visibly suppress and contain the abnormal parts of my personality so to be considered 'normal'? I guess that, deep down, in no way do I not want to be normal. Yet I'm always the odd one, the kooky one, the funny guy who mysteriously disappears. But never am I normal, and it never really matters when I go.