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The Aviation of Her
The Aviation of Her
Shabazz
Shillingford
Prologue
This is dedicated to the spirit. The
creative spirit that haunts every reader
to this book and we both thank you for
coming.
Shabazz
Published by
Shabazz Shillingford Productions
Heirlooms Carved in Me
London 2009
Contents
Past Life 266
The Bread of
Shame.7
The Muse of my
Work9
Day of Reckoning, Night of
Karma..11
The Aviation of
Her..12
Freedom Notes14
The Vessel.15
Arabian Nights and its
Traveler..17
Hidden Cancers.19
Unborn Potential..22
The Shift in
Consciousness..24
Orb of Love I 25
Reverberations of Gongs and the
Gutless. 27
Wild Horses are like
Me.29
Walking these Streets at 4am..32
Modern
Bedouinism..34
Wuthering Wolf-Child.. 36
The Water Cycle 38
Papa40
Kamikaze me41
Pagan Instruments..42
Decade of the Hermit..43
Facing Mr. Ego.44
Reincarnation .
The Muse of my
Work
12
Day of Reckoning,
Night of Karma.
14
15
Freedom Notes
I tasted the air
like apples on a sidewalk palm
voyages in a barrel
swaying hips to the voice of an ocean
A taxi rhythm, when you've lost your
direction
and yet every moment
is life's destination.
A miracle within this envelope of life
In my vision
diamonds are riding waves like horses
that would gallop on white sands.
16
The Vessel
I speak conceptually
like a vase you pour
hot waters right to my top.
You expect me not to falter
between your violent eruptions.
How must I carry flowers and expect
Them not to burst into a violent chorus of
song?
But soon in water thoughts turn to lava
dropping in the ocean.
17
18
20
Hidden Cancers
You build me up
in all of these sweet confidences
I hold back the tears
because its gone.
And now I
roam the streets in agony
and then I smile again.
But its just a fading whisper
of the happy memories collected
and amassed in the circumferences
of my cheeks
21
22
Time is the
veil between
cause and
effect.
Yehuda Berg
23
Unborn potential
24
25
The shift in
consciousness
Orb of Love I
I am wading in
but the waves are high.
You are the fort, but the moat is lost
now drenched
in the sea of all our tears
writhing in heart ache I send you
a glowing gold orb
testament to my love.
Yet you ignore
When its late and half past three
you see me knocking on your window
Pain.
We think about each other
in the darkness and the ignorance of
nightfall
but that cannot be made known.
27
On this note
that is all that proves me to be alive.
That fake love stabbed me twice.
I wade seamlessly out of your
consciousness
but then I drown in the sorrow of your
regret
28
Reverberations of
Gongs and the
Gutless.
You ring like a bell deep in me
your reverberations are strong
yet I have some reservations.
I pull up then I tread inside
I try to figure out should I go and die
on this train track in this dreamy night
here
But the walk is soured
there might be nothing after
youre now a mere silhouette.
I never asked nor did I beg
I only asked that you make me
something worth living for
but now u cant I
must now die.
29
30
32
To be, but a
vegetable
33
Modern Bedouinism
35
Wuthering WolfChild
37
38
"Everyone
suspects himself
of at least one of
the cardinal
virtues, and this
is mine: I am
one of the few
honest people
that I have ever
known."
F. Scott
Fitzgerald, The
Great Gatsby
39
I placed
a million vespers into liquid urns
expelled from my eyes, tears up to God
like rain they fell back down
as to quench the thirst of a dry soil.
Why do I repeat that which soaked me?
An energy
so uniquely raw from violent dreams
boundless, lacked in shape, smoked
my insides a salmon pink so
wherever I went, I smelted
relationships, an echo left a stain.
40
A masochism of smile.
Is all I have left of his grace.
A reminder cut cold of Paris plaster,
to ghoul abstract thoughts
into prompt.
Papa
41
Standing to line.
In a mind of built up anger with a
plastic cup simplicity,
we build up a wall to Love.
42
Kamikaze me
Wave reached it
an equestrian expose.
Brazen beings neon lipstick houses
a city with lamenting chairs on the
subway tube.
A bacterium culture.
Pacific specific like a million random
images
On one body
Ruling the flash bulbs, tourists visit here.
43
Pagan Instruments
Listening to
this ancient fire, crackling in a sadistic
rhythm.
Like rusty fingertips
on an ancient harp
Im ripping up pages
and throwing them into the insides
of this book you are reading.
Just the cinders remain, chemical and
atom
residue.
When it all burnt down
in my head.
The harp moves on to a different tune
I catch the needle, thread and loot
patching up the charred ashes
into a fulfilling whole.
We sleep sweetly in a blanket of soot.
44
Decade of the
Hermit
So long ago.
Mr. Ego.
You imprisoned me, us, you
now you can no longer keep me
In those cold iron chains
you keep me in social constructs
that keep us in fear
The physical barriers
on my people
may be vanquished
the invisible ones keep me grounded
they teach me a great wisdom
I wont let you define who I am.
Where Im supposed to buy my clothes
Who Im supposed to look like
The glass ceiling
helps me see everything clearly
It may exist for some
But I smashed it mentally
I was born with a purpose
only I can fulfill.
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"What is worship?
To realise reality.
What is the sacred
law? To do no evil.
What is reality?
Selflessness"
- Sufi Proverb
Shaikh Abdulla Ansari Afghani Teacher 11th
Century
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