Love, Sophia. I miss writing those catchy words.

Post-its to colored papers to colored pens - effort wise? PERFECT. You

know how it feels when you have poured every inch of your attention
to one person, and suddenly he drifts away? Disaster. Like a shipwreck
pushed all the way to the deepest bed of Mariana Trench.
Sophia, whats with all the drama? I think all of us experienced this being left in the air, hanging. Clich to say, but thats how this whole
thing called life goes. For the ones who are close to me, they know how
I value a person so much that when that person leaves - it shatters me
to pieces I cant ever quantify. How I always put sticky notes on his
books, little notes that says, Hi babe, see you later. I love you. Little
words, which for me, means a lot. And its really true what they say
that sweetness of a person can be felt differently. It might be sweet for
you, but hell it was bitter for him.
Last letter was:
______,
I know how things were rough these days. I know how I was so
impatient. How I was so childish. How I was being unfair for being so
selfish with you. How you complain day past days. Im sorry. Im sorry
how I cant be the best one for you. I am sorry how I complicate things.
I am sorry why you cant understand me.
But I wont change for you. I think were just not meant to be. If we
were, you would give 10% percent of your patience every minute
trying to ponder how things with me go. I bet its not much to ask
because I am trying every single day - trying to understand every
detail of you.
___, I hope youll be happy. I always pray every day how to make us
work out. How our dreams for ourselves would become a reality. But,
____, things never work out the way we want it to be.
Thank you for all the wonderful memories we have spent for the last 48
months. I couldnt ask the Lord for a better person to spend that 48
years - but like seasons, ____, our preferences change. More than
anything else, you have been a part of me.
You have been a good companion and shoulder to cry on whenever I
am down and my constant cheer leader to my highs. Though things
didnt work for us, I hope well never forget the days we have spent
together. How you were happy. How I was grateful.

Lets stay friends, ___. Maybe were better off to be friends. Ill always
be here for you whenever you needed me. And just like the old times,
Ill never forget all the things you did for me.
Thank you, ___. And lastly, sorry for the things I couldnt just give. I
wont sacrifice the things which are worth waiting for. Patience is still
the key, ___. And youll understand why.
To the next girl youll date: I promise I wont let her feel inferior. She
deserves to be loved more than you did with me. Make her feel that
she is your queen, and date her like how you would like your future
daughter to be asked out.
So long. Take care.
Love, Sophia