The liver fell sideways And the hands too A thought climbed to the left Another to the right Carefully I put the hand back And the thought back to its nest Carefully I tried to think all my thoughts in order But as I tried to put my liver back My nails fell apart And my fingers too My nose started floating above my kidneys There were herbs in there A cup of tea was floating Still warm, between my two lungs Dizzy with confusion I kept my breath. Where am I? What is this coming my way? Who are you? And you? And you? All these shadows populating my days Men and women Children and birds Just shadows of your selves As myself a shadow of myself? What I touch is solid What I dont touch is void I close my eyes and there is nothingness resting Resting on a chair On a cushion Sleeping, waking up At times like a vitamin in water The inside of my head is dissolving The dance of particles prohibits thinking At times it feels like pure air No more lungs no more chest no eyes no mouth no hands At times I feel white and transparent and good Such warmth comes out of this nothingness And at times I cry with misery As I fail to put myself back together again What is this my lord? I am forgetting your name, their name and my name I am forgetting I and my body are one