nikolo miwiSvili

G gardacvaleba
_ poema _

1.

ucxoeTi. stamboli. Sav-zRvas gaRma _ saqarTvelo.

adgili, sadac stiroden qarTvelebi istoriulad da gahyurebden
pontos: dioskuriamde. Aamxela manZili da amxela xani. Ees kmara
imisaTvis, rom iTqvas yvelaferi. iwyeba axali da uCveulo. am Cvenebis
win unda aRimarTos warsuli. gadiferos saxeebi. dalagdes dReebi
dacvenili.

***

Mmeore romi _ gadaWrili namgalaTi. Nnamgala _ moxrili cxenis

nalad da gza nalze gadarebuli. cocxldeba yvelaferi, rogorc
sizmari sindbadis. Ggadmodis maRlidan locva da _ angelosi gaSlilis
wigniT. es wigni, jer waukiTxavi da auxsneli _ hbindavs mzes da, am
bindSi muxlmoyrili, vimeoreb me Zvel fics da aRTqmas Soreuls. Mmas
vxatav aq, rogorc pirobas _ dasturdacemuls. Dadginebuls CemiT _
Cemze. Eesaa yivili. gaTeneba ekiTxos RmerTs.
Aamitom iwyeba laparaki sakuTar TavTan. iwereba dasawyisi misa, rac
iyo. dasasruli bnelia da sqeli, rogorc Rame tropikebze. rogori
iqneba imis bolo, rac aq iwereba dasawyisad, Sexvdeba es Tavi da bolo
msgavsebasa da erTianobaSi, Tu SevZleb Secvlas, Sebrunebas _ esaa neba
RvTis.

***

Aavtobiografia ar epatieba aravis. Dda me arasodes ar davwer mas. aq

iwereba mxolod qirurgia sulis da saxe _ morgSi. Aambavi fizikuri
yofnisa aris anegdoti. uxeiro da mCate epizodi, romlisaTvis sivrce
policiels protokolis sakmarisia yovelTvis. aris sxva, risTvisac
scxovrob da rac gacxovrebs.
,,kurTxeul ars saxeli Seni“. da es saxeli aris CemTan. Yyvelaferi
misganaa da mis mier. is damifaravs me da saxe misi iqneba CemTan.

Mmeoce weli saukunis. leqsi dastambuli. qoronikoni. aqedan iwyeba

yvelaferi da Cndeba sityva, monaberi qarisagan. fesvi am sibnelis
dafarulia yvelasTvis. Aarc exla gavaxeleb me am saSinelebas, romelmac
misrola napirze, rogorc iona _ veSapma. arcaa es savaldebulo.
poetisTvis savaldebuloa ambavi RvTisa da poeziisa. es ambavi daiwyo
aqedan. gaCnda mexsiereba da is, rac ar daikargeba arasodes.
 tfilisi pirvelad. gza poeziisaken, rogorc gza _ damaskomde da
feriscvaleba Zvlebis. Aaqedan gaiSala wlebi, rogorc gardamoxsna,
Wriloba Zmargadasxmuli. yovelTvis mdumare. arasodes gaxarebuli.
ukmayofilo yvelafriT da iWviani, rogorc uria _ videqi me ase:
Rrubeli gafituli. Rrubeli sveldeboda sxvisi cvariT. sxvisi
aRtacebiT. sxvisi sixaruliT: me arasodes vyofilvar bavSi da gamsrisa
man, rac iyo pirvel leqsamde.

***

Ppoezia gaxda iordaned. survilebi mogrexil dReebis aenTo saxed

meSvide angelosis.
Ppoezia gaxda Sinaarsi. ukanaskneli da pirveli xmiadi. poezia _
nugeSi, survili. siyvaruli da simware sazRvareuli.

***

uxmo. usityvo. usixarulo vimalebodi me amoglejilis eniT da

vmalavdi: _ ubedurebas Casresil gulSi. ar iyo kedeli da mikedleba. ar
iyo toli. Zma. ar iyo aravin.

***

sxvasTan misvla niSnavs _ mitanas. mihxarebas. Mmitana sixarulis

gamarTlebulia camde. Mmisvla ubedurebiT _ aris igive ubedureba. da
gamoCena misi Znelia da mZime imdenaTve, ramdenad saSinelia tareba misi
da amitom videqi me marto da vixrebodi aqlemis kuzad _ miwamde.

***

meSCanoba. genialoba. filisteroba. poezia _ mimatebuli erTi meores

da gamravlebuli sicocxlezed iZleva mainc sixaruls. sixaruli
iRvreboda Cems garSemo, magram is ar iyo CemTan. me ayrili mqonda
ufleba mivkarebodi im osaxnas, romelic Weramde avsebs yvelafers mzis
qvemoT. Mme vgrZnobdi, rom dabadebiTve moiwamla Cemi arseba saSineli
xrColviT. damemTxva Tavs Cveneba: daserili _ Tvalebis da amoZiruli
sixarulis. gaumTbaris da usinaTlosi. vxedavdi _ maklda grZnoba
umTavresi. grZnoba didi da mTavari, romelSiac scuravs adamiani,
rogorc haerSi.

***

saSinelia darwmuneba, rom verasodes ver igrZnob sixaruls. Dda

mTeli sococxle iqnebi erTnairi. Uufro ganmanadgurebelia Segneba, rom
eg usinaTloba da erTnairoba iqneba umwaresi da ganawamebi. adamians
sCvevia maska. Cacma axali samoselis araa marto karnaxi Hhigienis. aq
aris survili miuRwevelis da mudam ganuxorcielebeli cvalebis da
iluzia ganaxlebis. Mme warmodgenili maqvs gancda adamianis, romelic
yovelwliv icvlis saxelsa da gvars, rogorc gveli _ perangs. es
fantazia, rom dakanondes, SeiZleba axal pasportTan erTad yovel-
wliurad ganaxldes TviT buneba misi patronisa da vin icis, SeiZleba
kacobriobam dagvanaxos sul sxva gvari saxe. Cemgan ocneba mowyvetili
iyo. Mme vicodi mxolod erTi, rom cxovreba mowamluli sisxliT
SeuZlebelia da siaruli aseTis bediT _ usaSvelo. sxva bedi ki ar
mewera da ganviZraxe saqme uxerxuli:

dabadeba xelmeored.
Secvla fiziologiuri.

***

Ees ro iyves literatura _ aq iTqmeboda bevri sityva da arc erTi

niSani gramatikis ar darCeboda usaqmod. Aam sityvebis Tqmas me
SevZlebdi da am sityvebs me vnaxavdi. SeiZleba maSin Cemi azri, _ am Jamad
miaxloebuli SeSlilis dialogTan, ufro gasagebi darCeboda gonier
xalxisaTvis. sabednierod, me aRara var pedagogi da gaubraloeba
gaugebaris CemTvis savaldebulo aRaraa. SeiZleba laparaki amis Sesaxeb
iyos absurdi. magram CemTvis sakmarisia. Tundac is, rom es absurdi
iwyeba bibliidan da avsebs egviptis assiriamde.

***

jerjerobiT loRikuria mxolod coxna. pirdapiri xazi ki mosedan

laplasamde aris aseTive absurdi, moklebuli loRikas. Mmagram is
anaTebs, rogorc miRweva ukanaskneli da rogorc ukvdaveba. WeSmariteba
da ambavi sikvdil _ sicocxlisa iwereba loRikisa da gonierebis iqiTa
mxares. Dda Tu qveyanaze arsebobs mSveniereba _ amis mizezia
gadareulebi.

***

Ggoniereba adamianis bunebaSiAaxali stumaria. adamiani, rogorc

energia, rogorc stiqia da bunti, aris kategoria gadavardnis da
SeSlilobis. wuTebi umaRlesi gamZafrebis moklebulia gonierebas. me
videqi gonierebis sazRvars gadaRma da TandaTan vSordebodi mas.
gadadnoba sisxlis.
darRveva ujredebis ierarqiis.
es iyo faqti da es iyo mizani. Tu mindoda sicicxle _ es unda
qmniliyo. sicocxle mindoda, rogorc aravis da mokvdineba aseTgvari
unda momxdariyo. Aaq sdumda goniereba da argumenti. ase gadavisrole
Tavi sakireSi. ase gavTxare kubo sakuTar ZarRvebSi.

***

SeiZleba es iyo movlineba eSmakeulis. me ar mjera es dRemde, radgan

vici _ CemTanaa RmerTi. yoveli dRe Ramdeboda locviT da jvariT.
RmerTi iyo Cemi fuZe da Zala uryeveli. Cakidebuli RvTis kalTas, _ me
viyavi damkvdari mis naterfalze. mas Semdeg CamoTova wlebma da am
wlebSi grZnoba kmayofilebis iyo mxolod erTxel: ,, es saxe TandaTan
emsgavseba poetis saxes“. Ffraza Tqmuli ufro konkretulad, vinem aq
iwereba. aq iyo CemTvis niSani. _ gardacvaleba xdeboda. gardacvaleba
mTlianad, _ es iyo sazRvari. Dda es fici vesrole RameSi me jer
daubadebel Cems Tavs _ Soridan momavals.

***

Ggardacvaleba ar niSnavs sikvdils. SeiZleba marto am _ astraluri

sityvis Sesaxeb daiweros yvelaze fantastiuri wigni qveynad da am wigns
daerqvas saxelad ,, saqarTvelo”. Qqveyana, damdginebeli am Segnebis da
Semqneli misi _ anaTebs, rogorc Tanabari RvTisa. gasaRebi ukanaskneli
saswaulis da Tilisma ukvdavebis hkidia mas welze, rogorc satevari
mxedars.

***

saqarTvelo warmoudgenelia sikvdilSi. is mxolod icvleba da am

gardacvalebaSi brunavs, rogorc astraluri potencia, rogorc pirveli
energia, leonardos ro abrmavebda. Ees potencia avsebs aziis
istoriamde da ebjineba pamiridan pireneebs, rogorc Cveneba ioanesi. Aam
gardacvalebaSi me vgrZnobdi Tavs Svilad qarTulis ukvdavebis.
vyridi Cems xorcs. vcvlidi Cems sisxls da vcvlidi Cems Tavs, rogorc
gatenil zambulaks.
***

A ase viryeodi yoveldRe da yoveli dRe iSleboda Cems win sxvanairad.

gasworeba siarulis. Mmisvla guliT gulTan, _ es iyo dafaruli CemTvis.
da viyavi daSTenili mdumared. ar Tqmula erTi sityva, erTi
sadRegrZelo: meSinoda ubedurebis, Cems sisxlSi Cakilulis da
Casresilis. vgrZnobdi _ amovardeboda is, rogorc tirili kedelSi
Cakiruli zurabis, daumkvidrebeli yovelTvis. Ffernacvali yoveldRes
da gawbilebuli yovelis RamiT _ me viyavi undobeli yvelasaTvis; Cemi
megobroba yvelasTan _ aSlili da mogrexili, rogorc RvleWi. magram
Cveneba CemTvis marto aq iyo. Mmxolod aqedan vxedavdi TrTolvas Cemi
dacvenili saxeebisas. Bbrunva ganaxlebisa da gardacvalebis mosCanda
mxolod aqedan.

***

M me vwonidi qveynierebas yoveldRe da vzomavdi yoveldRe ganvlil

zRvaTa sivrceebs. albaT amitomaa. rom Cems magidaze yovelTvis sZevs
metri. vxedavdi poezias da ufro axlo Cems megobrebs poeziaSi. maTSi
iyo sicocxle. mze. Bbedniereba. maTSi iyo xilva sixarulis da albad, _
gamarTlebuli da nakurTxi poezia _ iyo maTTan. CemSi ijda sikvdili.
Rame. Uubedureba. Uusixaruloba da usaSvelo ,, u ” aqedan - miuRebeli da
RvTisagan ukurTxebeli poezia Cemi. Ppoezia _ amZafrebda am grZnobas. es
axurebda tvins. idrikeboda urdulebi gonebisa da rogorc saxedari,
miveTrevodi aRsasrulisaken. Mmkvleli. jalaTi. Yyasabi sakuTaris
Tavis. Aalqimikosi da tyvia _ gadamdnari saocnebo liTonad _ es unda
momxdariyo da es unda moxdes.

***
 Cemi gvari iyo mWedeli Svidasi wlis manZilze dRemde. Aam
saukuneTa ZirSi ki zurgs mimagreben Cemi winaprebi SuamdinareTidan:
pirveli mWedlebi da mwerlebi mwerlobamde. Cems modgmaSi aris
ucnauroba gadadnobis. Dda Tu aq araa ganxorcieleba alqimiis ocnebisa,
_ aq aris dasawyisi cvalebis da gardacvalebis. Cvens gvars mosdgams
ZvelTagan damwvari, gadamdnari spilenZis saxe. Cven gvesmoda amRereba
cecxlis. Mmewamuloba cecxlis da Cven dRemdis vaRmerTebT cecxls. Mme
maxsovs bavSvoba da axali weli soflad. Mmaxsovs rituali samWedloSi
_ roca mama Cemi daanTebda sanTels rqiani grdemlis magar Sublze.
metalurgia da SinSxali cecxlis modis Soridan da am cecxls miveci
me sakuTari Tavi.

***

ase vkvdebodi aRdgomis gulisaTvis. Dda mimyveboda imedi RvTisa. Mmrwams

_ RmerTi damifaravs me. isaa saswor _ samarTali. sibrZne da sicocxle
uSreteli. simarTle Cemia da RmerTic mimyveba me.
rameTu Seni ars sufeva Zali da dideba.
riTi gaTavdeba es ambavi. ra sityviT mival imis bolomde exla rom
vswer dasawyisad _ me ar vici. Dda iqneba verasodes ver gavigeb amas,
vici mxolod, rom mwamda qveyana da mwams, rogorc Cemi Tavi.

***

M midioda wlebi da Cemi cxovrebis ,,u” gadaiqca wmindanianad. Eexla

mivsCerebivar Cems wigns. TeTr wigns. sisxliT rom davastambe saTauri.
me maSinebs es wigni exlac. Aaq yovelive striqoni aris laxvari,
danasobi gulze. samarTebeli _ gamomZarRveli Cemi sxeulis. Yyoveli
bwkari am wignis _ sipze danarcxebaa Cemi Tavis da aSivleba
gadmonTxeuli tvinis. Aam gaxeTqil Tavidan unda gamoidenos
dauwynarebeli wivili saSineli bedis. Cemi ubedobis. Cemi cxovreba _
gacxriluli da gadarCeuli, savsebiT moklebulia moqmedebas. Teatrs,
fabulas, TiTqos daujerebelia aseTi grZnoba ubedurebis. xSiria
katastrofa adamianis bunebisa, _ adamians anadgurebs es qartexili.
xdeba xSirad datexva da afeTqeba maradiulisa adamianSi da es
anaxSirebs suls. aseTi texilebiT Raribi var me. magram aris sxva ram.
TiTqos Cemi sisxli da yoveli ujredi Cemi sxeulisa TavisTavad
imuSavebs am tkivils. TiTqos dabadebiTve damkbina me miTiurma gvelebma
da es Sxami Cairecxa Cemi sisxli denaSi saukunod. Ggvelis perangi,
gadacmuli Cemze, makivlebs me ubedurebiT. Mme ar vici raa es. Mmxolod
vici _ es araa mizezi damarcxebuli nivTierebis. Mme var jansaRi da
mamakaci sruliad. Aaris sxva. Yyovel SemTxvevaSi ufro realuri, vinem
metafizika, ufro nivTieri metafsiqikaze, damajerebeli imdenad,
ramdenadac damajerebelia frankfurteli gandegilis metafizikuri
fiziologia da feris cvaleba nivTebis. Aamaze damyarda ganCineba: _ es
sisxli unda gaSres. Ees xorci unda Seicvalos, Tu es ar moxda _
moxdeba sxva. saSineli da uaresi, raic gadaaWarbebs sakuTar Tavs. saqmea
moswrebaze.
 ***

ase hkivis ubedureba am wignSi. Aaris Sig atireba, magram araa

cremli. SeiZleba cremli banalobaa. Aalbad, magram saWiroa sixaruli.
sixarulma icis gadmotexa cremlis. Aadamiani am dros hgavs msuye miwas,
wvimisagan asurnelebuls. miwas demetras. miwas Svilians. Ees wigni ki
aris xrioki. Mmaze ar Cerdeba sisvele cxoveli da Camodis Zirs
aCqarebul Rvarad, SeiZleba is hgavdes udabnos, roca mas unda miagebos
damwvari saxe wvimas, caSi ro iRvreba, magram qviSamde rom ver uwevs.
ase vwivi me da viTxov _ wyals, neSos, Crdils da sovel miwas.

***

magram es wigni yvelafris garda, ara var me. Ees wignia is, rasac
me vklav. rac me ar minda, rom viyve. ,,wmindaniani, rogorc
literaturuli ambavi rom me ar Semexeba. Aaq ki gansakuTrebiT zedmetia
sityva maze. Yyovel SemTxvevaSi, vici rom me davrCebi. Dda rom es Tema
idges Cems win _ me Semwevs Zala davamtkico poeti nikolo miwiSvili,
rogorc Teorema poeziaSi. dRes ki es wigni CemTvis dokumentia. Eesaa
kompromisi misadmi, visac vklav da vebrZolebi. Ees wignia is sityva da
sityvebi, romelsac me vityodi, laparaki rom damewyo. Aam sityvebiT
laparaki me ar mindoda. Aam sityvebs me vaxrCobdi sxva ametyvelebisa da
Semoqmedebis gulisaTvis. Ees wigni CemTvis zRvaria – Tu gavimarjve Cems
Tavze. is iqneba mogoneba ubeduri pirvelisa da Tu es ar moxda _ dee
naxon sxvebma, Tu ram gaanaxSira suli nikoloz miwiSvilisa, maSin es
wigni iyos xelnaweri, naxuli boTlSi.
am wlebma Sescvales bevri. TiTqos gaimarTa gzebi, magram ar moxda
umTavresi. Aamitom yovelgvari miRweva mosCanda, rogorc sizmari.
mxolod erTi kaci _ poeti _ xedavda CemSi maze mets, rac unda
scodnoda sxvas. Mmxolod man igrZno saSineleba CemSi. Cemi ubedureba da
usixarulo ,,u”. magram CemTvis es iyo mxolod niSani samwuxaro. niSani,
rom Sorsaa gamarjveba.

***

madlo Rameebis, gaTenebulebis locvebSi, _ nu damtoveb Sen.

vikrebdi Rones ukanasknels. rogorc danayuli, cocxalmkvdari _ videqi
me. iyo wuTebi ukanaskneli gamoTxovebis. Dda vgrZnobdi – davardeboda
gvelis perangi. sisxli Cemi daiqceoda sitkboebad, rogorc broweulis
wyaro. wmindaniani kisermogrexili barbacobda sikvdiliT. magram daeca ara
is. siyvaruli, rogorc satevari moxvda guls da waviqeci me Secdomili.

***

siyvaruli aris miRweva. siyvarulia rwmena da rwmena, Tundac

misxali _ SesZravs mTebs. Eesaa RvTaebrivoba siyvarulis, mudam
marTalis da gamarTlebulis Tundac imiT, rom is yovelTvis aRwevs
mizans. SeiyvareT rac gindaT. SeiyvareT vinc gindaT da rogorc gindaT
_ oRond SeiyvareT da sikeTe dagadgeba Tqven. Eesaa simarTle cocxalTa.
da es simarTle damadga me rogorc graali da rogorc rusTaveli.
damaZina man da gaaRo sxeuli dabeWdili: vnaxe _ Ria guls daacxra
ayivlebuli yorani. Camodga ubedureba damZimebuli da naTeli _ Savi
mzis. wmindaniani borkildanadebi dameufla me ganmeorebiT. Aase aRsdga
mkvdreTiT ganwiruli ubedureba. Aase aiSva man, rogorc gelaTis
wyarosTan aRmaSeneblis rqianma jorma.

***

Mmze _ Sabiamani. Mmowamluli forToxali leonardosi. siyvaruli,

rogorc grZnoba sizmarSi movardnili kbilis.
undoda Svela Tavs daRupvis win da SebrZoleba kidev daRupvis karze.
,,uSvele Tavsa Sensa da RmerTi Segeweva Sen.“
da aenTo ganmeorebiT cecxli sakiresi. SeiZleba, roca aRsruldeba
ganZraxuli _ yvelaferi dadges, rogorc daujerebeli, rogorc sizmari
mogonili. Mmagram simarTle amisa damtkicdeba gamoZiebiT. Tavis Svela _
da me gavistumre Cemi Tavi zRvisaken. datvirTuli ubedurebiT.

***

gaveqeci Cems Tavs Tu uSvele mas. gaixarebs igi, Tu amoSreba gamSral

CalaT. Mme veli niSans da vicdi.

***

amiT movel aqamde da viar _ amiT. vxedav: momitaca gangebam. Gadamacva

aRviri da wamiyvana Sors. xdeba ambebi Cems garSemo. naTdeba gzebi da
SuSdeba gamoxruli quslebi _ Sori gzisaTvis.
,,da mosCans gzebi _ sonetebiT gadaqarguli“.

***

mesmis Sriali saswaulis da mwams: aRTqma, dadebuli Zvelad, exla

iwereba mxolod. Mmagram dRes simarTle misi mjera umetes da vswer ase.
M minda gavigo dasasruli. Dda mimeCqareba Zalze. Gganmeordeba ambavi
lazaresi, Tu gaTavdeba iobiT, an rodis.
minda vnaxo, roca me davaCerdebi ubedurebiT gatenil sakuTar leSs.
maSin viqnebi bednieri. Dda gavixareb maSin. maSin daibadeba poeti,
romlis saxeli jer ar vici. Dda vnaxav saqarTvelos _ maSin.

parizi

Y yvelaze savaldebulo poetisTvis, SeiZleba, biografia iyos, _

romelic arasodes ar daiwereba da ar iTqmeba. Yyovel SemTxvevaSi
gakeTeba biografiis iseTive Znelia, rogorc aSeneba piramidis. Ppoezia
iwyeba iq sadac poeti sZlevs biografias da biografia amis Semdeg xdeba
iseTive warbmaRali, rogorc TviT poezia. vin daamtkicos _ romelia
ufro ganaTebuli: is, rac daswera rusTavelma, Tu is, rac man qna da
rasac komentatorTa batalionebi verasodes ver gaigeben.
 ***

ra damrCeba me _ poezia, Tu biografia. DdarCeba orive, Tu arc

erTi ar iqneba gamarTlebuli.
mivsCerebivar Cems Tavs da vfiqrob simwariT. vswer, radgan
tirili ar SemiZlia. tirili da locva yovelTvis xelwerilia
uZlurebis, magram _ mimarTuli mfarvelisadmi _ is xdeba Zlierebad. vis
Sevabralo Cemi Tavi da vis mivatiro samZimari: mfarveli Cemi daikarga
samudamod.

***

Aaqamde viyavi, rogorc SesaZlebloba, rogorc molodini. Mme unda

movsuliyavi. Mme SemeZlo. velodi aRdgomas, Sobas _ RvTis imediT. Ees
yvelaferi gahqra da SemrCa Zalze SeZulebuli sakuTari Tavi. Mme
vTvli wignebs _ Cemgan dauwerels. vkiTxulob cxovrebas Cem mier
gaukeTebels. ,, wagebuli biografia” xdeba Cems bediswerad, cxovreba Cemi
_ ,,wagebul biografiad” da poezia dgeba, rogorc ,,ZaxTapiri” . iketeba
yvela karebi erTis garda, romelic maSinebs, ase _ wagebuli, vapireb
TamaSs, magram vin mendoba me, roca TviT aRar vendobi sakuTar Tavs.

***

Ddaikarga yvela imedi da imedic gamarjvebis. wined RmerTi iyo

CemTan, rogorc lodi _ gulze. kaTolicizmi da monasteri, amaze me
vfiqrobdi da es mexateboda, rogorc realoba, me ar vici, ram hqna es da
risTvis datrialda ubedureba kidev erTxel. vici mxolod, rom
gamoSignuli vagdivar senaze da magondeba Semodgoma imereTSi, roca mama
Cemi xis jvarze gahkidebda Zvel Coxas, _ Citebis safrTxobelad. aseTi
var me dRes. Dda awi, rogoradac ar unda Camodges cxovreba _ saxeli
Cemi darCeba gaumarTlebeli, radgan RmerTi CemTan aRaraa.
,, da roca RmerTic poetebSic CasaTvalia _
vin gaifiqros RvTis gulidan amoZirvaze”.
RmerTi da poezia. kurTxeva RvTis da kurTxeva poeziis. hqreba
orive erTad. ukurTxi sityva. wmindaniani da Cemi gamoqlibuli guli _
mrCeba mxolod.

***

Pparizi TavisTavad mocemulia, rogorc sixaruli. wera parizis

Sesaxeb gaumarTlebelia yovelTvis. parizSi daiwereba mravali wigni,
parizze ki _ arc erTi. Pparizi hgavs bibliur sizmars _ camde ayudebul
kibisa da angelozebis Sesaxeb. Qqvevidan xedav yvelafers: kibes,
angelosebs da sabaoTs, magram zevidan ar gadmouxednia aravis da aravin
icis _ ras Sexedavda kaci, zevidan rom gadmoexeda. Pparizi aseTi
sizmaria iakobis. Kkibe _ camde afrenili, romelzedac aravin asula,
magram, romelic amarTulia mainc, rogorc maradiuli SesaZlebloba
cisa da qveynis SeerTebis. dawyebuli mziT ukanasknel qvamde _ parizia
sixaruli. CemTvis ki es ganaTeba gadaiqca bosxis CaSavebul freskad.
 ***

erTxel belgielebma gamarTes Zveli brabantis da flandriis

mxatvrebis gamofena parizSi. iyo suraTi _ triptixi, ucnobi henteli
mxatvaris. Ddedo nawili misi _ ,,xareba“ moTavsebulia provansis erT
muzeumSi, meore kari _ briuselSi da mesame ekuTvnis kerZo pirs
londonidan. sami CarCo, gancalkevebuli da erTi meores damtirali,
moitanes aq sxvadasxva qveynidan. Mmraval saukuneTa Semdeg pirvelad
SeerTden isini tiuleriSi, konkordis win, sadac erTxel moxda yvelaze
ufro dramatiuli gamoTxoveba: mariam antuanetasi da giliotinaze
davardnili misi ubrwyinvalesi Tavis. Oori Tvis Semdeg es triptixi
kvlav daiSala _ iqneba samudamod. SeiZleba ukanasknelad daanaTa mas
ukvdavi henteli mxatvaris sulma. Eesaa bediswera. Aambavi sikvdil _
sicocxlisa, romelsac mixvdebi mxolod maSin, roca aRsruldeba.

***

Aase davSordi Cems Tavs. Aase davstoveT Cven erTmaneTi. Dda

makbetma ase mohkla Zili. SeiZleba am dros movkvdi mec. Dda am wigns
vswer saiqiodan. Tu cocxali var, maS ra var. Nnikoloz, ubeduri Zmao, _
ra gveSveleba. Bbrundeba ,, gamoTxoveba“ xelmeored. Dda ,, mkvdari,
fexSiSveli“ vkidivar me jvaredinze. rCeba poezia uRvTo da sikvdili.
sikvdili da uRvTo poezia. Eexla es niSnavs erTs.

***

ra unda vsTqva me amis Semdeg da amis meti me ra unda davswero. Tu

ra davkarge me _ amas ver gaigebs veravin da veravin ver igrZnobs mas.
SeiZleba aseve gaugebari darCes poeti nikoloz miwiSvili, romelmac
dakarga sakuTari Tavi, uarhyo bediswera, mohkla yvelaferi da veraferi
ver daamtkica.

***

Ddogma, argumenti, istoria da saukuneebi, dadginebuli abraamidan

rozanovamde me arafers meubneba da araferSi majerebs, garda erTis:
rom dawmendili Wkua da gawmenda Wkuisgan aris ara marto kalamburi. Aaq
ispoba yovelgvari sazRvari, es ori cneba gadadis xSirad erTi meoreSi
da xSirad ecilebian erTmaneTs uZlurebaSi, Znelia aq dadgma sazRvaris,
gansakuTrebiT, roca fiqrob varskvlavebiT gatenil cis
srulyofilobaze. Aaq rCeba mxolod rwmena da aRtaceba. Aaq erTdebian
kanti da Candala hinto, galilei da inkvizicia, foTlis Sriali da
brahmas sibrZne. xilva saswaulis da aRdgineba misi xdeba im
ubraloebaSi, romelic mosdevs miwas da bunebas bavSisas. Ees mjera miT
umetes, rom am yofaSi Cavardnils, daJinebiT mevlineba mamaCemis
gamiwuli saxe imereTis soflidan. Mme danasaviT madgia fiqri, rom Cemi
momavali poetis, Tundac agzavnili camde, ver aiwonis mamaCemis erTi
dRis wuxilsac ki Tavis dakargul Svilze. Eesaa Zaxili Soridan.
tirili gauqmebul rwmenaze da sinanuli. iWvi yvelafrisadmi, poeziasTan
erTad. Aam grZnobiT brundeboden romidan da stovebden kapitolis. Aam
grZnobiT adian albaT eSafotze. Mme ar vici raa es, magram dRes eg
Zaxili soflidan, Zaxili miwis, maRviZebs me da letargiidan gamovyavar
mxolod am xmebs. Aaq iwyeba inercia ganaxlebuli moqmedebis da mivdivar
win.

***

Dda Tu exla kidev vswer, Tu sabediswero wisqvili kidev fqvavs

Cemi fiqrebis yavasaviT Sav marcvlebs, _ amis mizezia es mogoneba da es
Zaxili parizSi _ imereTidan. inercia iSleba moqmedebad. Mmexateba
axali, sxva cxovreba da veZeb axal gamarTlebas.

***

dReebi samoTxeSi adamis marto yofnisa, albad, yvelaze saSineli

damamcirebeli dReebi iyo. Ees wuTebi Tavis SemoqmedebiT, simwariT da
buntiT udris yvelafers, rac Seiqmna amis Semdeg da vin icis, rogor
daiwereboda saxe da saxeli uflisa, rom droze ar momxdariyo
kompromisuli Seqmna meore arsebis, qriste udabnoSi da martooba
udabnoelebis _ aris wuxili uZlurebis da Zebna axali Sifris RmerTsa
da qveyanasTan salaparakod. mdumarebaSi naxulia yvela religiebi,
martoobaSi nawrTobia yoveli ganaTeba da ganaCeni, magram udabno da
mdumareba TavisTavad aris sikvdili sacodavi. verc erTi
winaswarmetyveli ver aametyvelebs qviSas. Sesvla martoobaSi
gamarTlebulia mxolod ametyvelebis, mxolod dabrunebis imediT.
amitomaa, rom udabnoze yovelTvis gadabmulia fiqri wyaros Sesaxeb.

****

Cemi gamomSrali suli eZebs am wyaros, am saxels, Cvenebas. Mme vici,

rom qristesTan erTad davasaflaveT ukanaskneli RmerTi qveyanaze.
olimpi, askiliT moSambuli, vnaxe Cemis TvaliT. RmerTebis magier iq
daCoCavs amerikeli turistebi da akmeven havannis surnelebas. pani mokvda
didi xnis wineT, xolo adamiani, rogorc kulti SeuZlebelia, Tundac
imitom rom Cven mowameni varT ukanaskneli monarqebis. Uukanaskneli
saidumloeba waiRes Tan RmerTebma da sicive umetyvelo saflavebis
ukanasknelad daitires poetebma aq, parizSi. Sekrulia yvela gza erTis
garda, magram mis boloSi sdgas daisruli saxe axali sebastianelisa,
rogorc wiTeli signali ubedurebis. Mmeti gza ar naxula.

***

Eenergia sicocxles moiTxovs ganaRdebas ara marto sqesSi.

sicocxle Tvalwamovardnili aris mainc sicocxle, Tundac imitom, rom
uaryofa misi iqneboda dawyeba axlis. Mme vRebulob sicocxles Zirianad,
me vixCvebi sicocxlis wyurviliT da yvelaferSi motyuebuli, mzada var
gavdge udabnoSi da gavyido sakuTari Crdili. sicocxle amdagvari iqneba
gamarTlebuli imdenadve, ramdenad gamarTlebulia cxovreba
nabuqodonosoris da lavrenti mSvenieris. Eesaa simarTle, magram
simarTle unda iwamo. Aaq saWiroa is, riTac SeerTebulia leqsebi
pifagoris da pifagoris geometria. Ees ara maqvs me dRes da ar mqonia
RvTis drosac. Aamas veZebdi me RmerTSi, amas veZeb RvTis gareSec da
vrekav, rogorc ganwiruli ,, S.O.S “ arktiul zRvebSi Cavardnili gemis.

***

dRes kviraa. Pparizi gamTbaria Semodgomis mziT da parizi

magonebs dRes qarTul gazafxuls. quCidan moismis Zveli aria, amodis
zeviT, rogorc surneleba feradi xmebis da iSleba karnavali
kaleidoskopad. Tbeba suli ucnobi mSvenierebiT da cxovreba Cemi qreba,
rogorc Soreuli varskvlavi. Kkvdeba grZnoba, qreba saxeebi da saxelebi,
xmani da sityvani da yvelaferi iRvreba usazRvroebis winaSe.

***

Mmagram, Zirs mexsierebis bskerSi, igrixeba ucxo saxe, ayivebuli

sityva: ,, evoe”. moarRvevs tvins, Sedis gulSi, rogorc maxvili
agznebuli, rogorc qva, nasroli daZinebuli wyalis pirze.

***

,, elodi saswauls da saswauli moxda. Eelodi aRdgomas da

aRdgoma ar daijere. Sen gamogepara sikvdili Seni da Senive aRdgineba.
RmerTma, Zlierma Senis ubedurebiT, migatova Sen da wariRoObediswera
Seni. wmindaniani gadahyva saukuneebs da ha, cxovreba da sixaruli, gaaRe
kari samyofelisa Senisa da miiRe stumari Soreuli. RmerTi cxoveli ki
moipove TviT“.

***

Ees Zaxili ekveTa guls, rogorc Surduli da mowyvetili

davepyar Zirs. Camodga Rame Tvaldaburvili da rvalavda mas elvareba
angelozi gaSlilis wigniT; me alfa da omega, dasabami da aRsasruli
da ara ars ra, gareSe Cemda ... gaaRe kari samyofelisa Senisa da miiRe
stumari Soreuli.

***

Ddobiloebi elevzis da saidumloebani elevzisa. cocxali StoTi

nasxurevi bedniereba da vazi, Tbili sisxliT SeRebili qarTul miwaze,
sisxli da Rvino. vazi da rkina. Eevoe. sixaruli da mze.

***

Kkari samyofelisa Cemisa daketil da ukanasknelad viSoreb

qristes xels. gamSrali Tvalebis dasaxuravad gamowvdenils.

***

eifelze rekavs T.S.F. da uxmobs nazarevels uoll _ stritze.

luqsorSi iSmuSneba tutankhamoni da irRveva sarkofagi dabeWdili.
Sekrulia gzebi iqiTa mxarisaken da TeTr spiloebad brundebian ukan _
faraonebi. Aaxlovdeba ubedureba mwvane siriusad. sqdeba moJanguli
ZarRvebi da gadazneqili zangis qali Slis alisfera tuCebs.
wmindaniani hyivis notr _ damidan da avxorca qimerebi loSnian umanko
Jenevievas TeTr sxeuls notrdamze.

***

mSvidobiT veropa. Dda mSvidobiT axalgazrdoba. mSvidobiT, Zmao

nikoloz, rom geZebdi da ver gnaxe. Ddaingra yvelaferi, rac gawvalebda
Sen. Mmokvdi, Tu cocxali xar. Eewamebi kvlav, Tu Cahqreba Savi
varskvlavi Seni.

***

Aaxali gziT. sxva fiqriT _ isev ukan. Sinisken. Bbedekeri cisaTvis

ar Sedgenila jer. Bbedekeri sakuTari sulisa furclobiT gavixmare me
msoflios daukecav Sara gzebze. Sin. Sin. saxlisaken. Mmiwisaken. Cemo
miwa da Cemo Tavsafriano deda. zarebma Seswyvites, Turme, rekva Cven
sofelSi. Mmagram xarebi isev bRavian Cvensas, hkocnian mwvane miwas da
elian dakargul patrons.

1922 _ 1923 weli.

stamboli _ parizi