Suffocated, stab, died

I have never been so empty in my life, until i lost a person whom " i thought was mine".
He was my air, light, water or in short my necessity. Maybe i thought he was. These were the
darkest and restless moments of my life.

He has, in my vivid memory, the most priceless face and a breathtaking smile. he was
everything that i could dream of. my heart almost cried in front of an angel face. Sweat bathe
me . Stuttered was I, when absentmindedly interlocked his gentle hands into mine. Words
couldn't spell out how I felt . Never did I imagine in my life that that this day would happen. If I
could only freeze time to let this moments be forever.

Days lingered as I count them one by one. All was well and beautiful in my eyes. I was
blind, blinded by the illusion of human's actions. During those times, black turned white in every
angle that i could see. I never realized that all those moments that I thought of forever was just
nothing but a mere memory for him.

Suddenly no words came out from him for straight long days. Then I found out he never
had a lingering feeling for me. His eyes and heart is for somebody else, better than me. She's
better than you could imagine. All her perfection was locked in his eyes.

I cried many sleepless nights. I was suffocated by the truth, by the searing pain of reality
and died because of him. Until one day, I was awoken by the darkness inside me: emptiness,
frustration, regret,grief , pain,and hatred. Realization hit me straight to where I lack, acceptance.
This word is never easy to swallow but we can attain them by experience. We can never make a
person love us but we can always give our love freely to others.