The poem describes the speaker's internal struggle with mental health issues like anxiety, depression, and self-hatred. They feel wired to fight against their own reality and prefer living in fantasy instead. The speaker wants to be completely free of hostility and the fatality of their situation, which brings fear, violence, and thoughts of wanting to be dead or lost without a trace. They are trusting the person reading to help save them from themselves.
The poem describes the speaker's internal struggle with mental health issues like anxiety, depression, and self-hatred. They feel wired to fight against their own reality and prefer living in fantasy instead. The speaker wants to be completely free of hostility and the fatality of their situation, which brings fear, violence, and thoughts of wanting to be dead or lost without a trace. They are trusting the person reading to help save them from themselves.
The poem describes the speaker's internal struggle with mental health issues like anxiety, depression, and self-hatred. They feel wired to fight against their own reality and prefer living in fantasy instead. The speaker wants to be completely free of hostility and the fatality of their situation, which brings fear, violence, and thoughts of wanting to be dead or lost without a trace. They are trusting the person reading to help save them from themselves.
i don’t like the light it exposes me to reality so i prefer my fantasy a sublime ecstasy i have no other way to be i want to be completely free i want no more hostility i’m waiting on finality of this fatality so dark and silent here comes the fear here comes the violence i hear the blood pound with not one hint of sound all in my head spinning around i want to be dead i want to fall down i want to be lost i don’t want to be found i’m hating on me i failed can’t you see i’m trusting in you to be the saving of me