I am really beginning to feel bad …

Like I am so wrong all of the time… I never thought

a bad thing towards you…
I only meant to love you…
Now the clouds have set in
on my soul land….making me weep inside this vast
wilderness of a heart…
As the eagle inside my mind
flies off into the sun…burning his feathers for what
I’ve done.
I am so fucked up for bringing grief into your
presence…..
All of my efforts seem to have washed down the
drain of the great black hole of love taken and
shredded in its gut…
What have I done?
How can I ever win you now? Where do I turn?