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SECOND QUARTER 1982 sicad nein born in our heats to teach
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METROPOLITAN COMMUNITY CHURCHES
‘TORERFORM
An ddtress to the 10th International General Conference of the Universal
Ghunkes, Meeting in Houston.
1COXE TO YOU today from the midst
tte, Since organizing the Pentecostal
‘eaten for Human Rights last year, T
uvebecome the subject of mumerous
ids Some, who T thought were
es’, have deserted and gone. One
tip of our church has called my name
pbily ina sermon before a jurisdictional
onérence; and another has written &
wogert article against my position in
far denominational periodical, , The
Pentostl chaplain at Howard University
fins nmoved me from my position as
indy advisor to the Pentecostal Student
Felli after having served in this
apaity for morethan seven years. And
fie krading interdenominational
Tentcostal/Charismatic magazine in the
nati, in its lastassue, called for my
Jexommunication from the church.
‘Bot these examples are not something
letsty new. All my life as a Christian T
laneinovn suffering. I was taught to
enpmy most inkezent self, flagaelate my
pia for my socalled “cernal lusts,”
fentatly grovel in the floor every time T
[noght about sex, and spend sleepless
sighs in fear that Tight die and goto
elllefore having another night's chance
i» ove that I could go to sleep with
now ascetic fantasies and dreams
have also been rejected by my wife,
shotore my two daughters from my
rest and left me without warning to
|noethe future alone - despite the fact
att had begged her to stay, had asked
lier let me live with them, and had
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assured her that my sexuality was not
the sum total of relationships (whether
Inusbanding or parenting).
Thave been told by a trusted friend
that homosexuality is most rampant
famong persons who are either extremely
Tight or extremely dark in complexion, as
if both light-skin and gayness were twin
symptoms of some physical plague or
innate deficiency.
‘Thave also suffered from the pains of
having a former pastor accuse me of
desecrating the house of God by using @
church phone to-talk to a male friond~ 3
‘pastor who threatened to eall the police
End have me arrested in his own office,
and who advised my wife (in my presen:
that she should leave me since J was unfit
to rear our children, end who forced me
to sgn a letter of confession and
resignation from the ministry under the
Iie that God would never use me to speak
God's name in public again,
Thave endured endless prophecies in
church - prophecies of God's hatred, ry
forthcoming poverty, and of having
crossed the line” which marked the
point of impossible return to grace. Even
worse, Ihave been told (and convinced,
Bt one point) that my love for men
twas the result of hordes of live,
Overpowering demons, straight from hell,
‘vithin my bosom, Who can even imagine
the total anomie, despair and sel-hatred
that were thus heaped upon me, causing
me to publicly undergo 2 ritual of
exorcism aimed at ridding my body of
jover them as the Romans now lor8 over
Ge Mary shuddered, Is there any way to
tend this fabric, to let the light of this
bother world shine through? Perhaps
SGmething of this other vision wil stil get
tough the distortion. Other people,
cron women like myself, will glimpse
Something of the real vision, and they will
| ecognize re as thet sister.
JAMES S. TINNEY
Fellowship of Metropolitan Communi
this socalled Satanic possession,
T know what it is to live, simost
daily, under the catcalls of “punk,”
“faggot,” sissy””- all announced before
friends and enemies, males and females,
sinners and saints, at every conceivable
ocation: at church, the grocery, the
comer store, school, on public transit,
Gnd more. Only these who endure such
flagrant violence to the human spisit
now the fear, the fatigue, and the
temporary emotional and mental
Gisorientation that occur under such
circumstances, causing a person to
become afraid to smile, to say Nello, oF
‘even ask a harmless question of direction,
test it be misinterpreted as a solicitation
‘and provoke a volley of verbel abuse, Nor
‘has it all been verbal. Many times Thave
been robbed, attacked, kicked, and
besten - once in broad daylight on @
crowded downtown street ~ for no ott
season than that I was who } am,
Thave had my humanity reviled, my
spisituality condemned, my academic
yesearch questioned, my speeches
{nterrupted, my job threatened, my own
family taken from me, and my own body
hhurt and abused. And for what reason?
‘Simply because I am who Tam - 2 lonely
soul erying out in the midst of
inhumane world for the freedom to love.
vAsk me not if my suffering causes ™
to long for some other orientation, som
different direction of affection - a if I
would become heterosexual if I could.
My answer is this: Never would I choos:to be other than Tam. If I were to
exchange who Iam and what I am for
some other, it would be no longer I who
lived, but them. My being is God's gift of
creation; to deny myself would be to
deny God's own self, .
‘Therefore, let the world pity me not
for my past misfortunes, as if having been
told the story of lifelong oppression they
now “understand” why I em a
homosexual - making vietimization the
cause of my identity rather than the
It of, Aslong as I can remember, 1
| have loved men as the most natural thing
Tan do, Iwas yearning for men at the
age of four, and possitly earlier, That
desire that sense of longing- has guided
every decision I have ever made, every
conflict Ihave ever resolved, every hope I
have ever dreamed, every experience of
| mind and body and spirit T have
undergone, and every lesson T have
learned. .
Tell me no mote that I deserve the
pains of hel, the fears of conscience, and
eternal suffering, There isnot the slightest
j doubt in my mind that I have suffered
enough already to atone for every sin I
have ever done, if suffering were sufficient
to erase them. And J have suffered
‘meritoriously. 1am no martyr. But I tell
you that all the martyrs that have ever
lived have died no more senseless death
"than that which is done to my spirit and
ry integrity every day :
But I have come to the point where 1
rofuse to let fear control my life any
longer. [choose the option of confronting
both fear and those who make me fearful.
‘And I refuse to give fear more respect
than the respect T give my own nature
and my enabling God.
‘Am I saddened because of the
injustices thatthe family, the church, the
school, the government, this society, have
heaped upon me? Never. Tam not sad; T
am angry. And when I realize that my
own injustice is but @ minute part of the
injustice that is multiplied in the lives
(of millions of others like me, my anger is
compounded, Ilive every moment in the
realization that angor can be a channel of
[redemption insofar as 1 understand it,
accept it, and utilize it to struggle against
oppression. It isnot my anger, it is their
anger that cannot be understood and
rust not be accepted. My anger, your
anger, our anger, are gifts of God? and our
willingness to act upon itis the only hope
we have fora better world,
Unfortunately, much of our suffering
8 lesbians and gays comes from the
‘church itself, From the earliest beginnings
of time, there were men trom the same
rooted tree from which Judaism and
Chaistianity later blossomed, who decided
in themselves that they would preserve
for themselves the fruits of everybody's
|tabor, They woud decide who would get
| what, Of course, this hierarchical
distribution displaced certain persons
| from power, and often from sharing the
surpluses. Of course, children were put
out, women were put out, lesbians and
gays were put out, people of other faiths
were put out, and people of other
nationalities were put out - in order to
preserve the successes and royalties for a
select number of white, heterosexual
‘This practice was carried over -in the
name of God and Christianity - until
eventually the patriarchal nuclear faruily
‘was viewed as the only pattern of God for
the ages. The plan, of course, was for the
‘man the father - to be the head of that
family. The man was to control the
‘wealth, And the man would decide which
of the children would inherit the wealth
‘upon reaching adulthood,
In order to legitimize that rule, #
change was also made in the arrangement
of families into a nation-state. The
nation-state became viewed as God's own
lect nation, to the exclusion of all
others, The idea of an authoritarian and
very narrowly defined family was
transfered to the state. All femily men
then saw themselves as the progenitors of
the state and as its protectors and its
enactors,
‘These same patterns eventually were
also carried over into the synagogue and
the church, So that white straight men
also inherited the rule of the spiritual
“family of God” even as they had made
themselves the rulers of society as a
whole. Religion, in the process, became
twisted and warped. It became desecrated
in the name of God until, in many ways,
it no longer served the functions God
intended it to serve, To legitimize the
social system of oppression, people were
taught that God was only a father, but
not a mother. They were taught that God
sent Jesus Christ into the world to
establish @ hierarchical kingdom, rather
than a community of equal persons. They
‘were taught that Jesus? supreme title was
lord, rather than savior, comforter, or
Iberator. They were taught that women
‘were less than men - because God was
male, and because only men could
rightfully assume the prerogatives of God.
The oppression of lesbians and gays
‘was also legitimized by the teaching that
God was “straight,” forbidding
{homosexual men to inherit the fruits
| And they were taught, that since God hes
only one favorite nation - or, at most,
|two nations: Anglo-Saxons replacing the
| sacl of older times- whatever was done
in the name of Judaism or Christianity or
| America was okay. They taught that, not
Jonly wes God a “straight” man, but he
| also had blue eyes and white skin, Such a
portrayal of cours, leptimized oppression
of peoples of color in the name of
religion. So that Asian children, and
[Black chiléren, and Hispanic children,
ould kneel down before paintings of &
white Jesus with blonde hai.
Yet inthis construction, the church
fis betrayed its own sel. The social
institution known as the church has lft
tscaling and forsakenits Godby creating
and perpetuating thes myths of sex and
tender and race. It teaches middle class
cial values relative to sex and property,
contends that only men heterosexual
rmen-azefit to teach and to preach and
to mile the house of God. It says that
“women should keep silence in the
churches," and thatthe church i the
bride of Christ,” and that every soul
should be subject and obedient to a male
higher power. Iesays that white represents
|p00d, and black represents evi; and that,
the purpose of salvation is to “wash
sme whiter than snow,” so that we can
become “children of light” rather than
darkness, and can be clothed in "white
robes of righteousness” =
‘To seinfore such mythology, all our
children in evangelical churches’ are
own the so-called “Wordless Book.”
One page is held up- a beck page - and
the child is asked, “What is this? Its my
heart before Jesus comes into my life.”
Then s 10a page fs held up. “And what i
thie Ie isthe blood of Jesus that was
shed for my sing” And then a white page
held up and the child i told, “This is
‘what your dsty black heart will lok like
ater Tesus washes you whiter than
snow.” As # reat, from our earliest
years, all of ws Black end white ~ are
ocinlized into accepting a system of
religion that oppresses al of us. What is
wore, we don't even relize it
T'oeliove in savstion, but there are
many ways to describe sslation other
than “washing whiter than snow.” Thave
| been redeemed, Ihave been liberated. 1
have been sot fee. My sins are forgiven
| My name is written in heaven, Why do 1
[have to be “washed whiter than snow?"
| 'o say, however, that religion has
| heen twisted and changed from what it
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