PARE PARADIS

Keyshila putri mahardika is my complete name, but my friends called me keysha. Actually my big family called me Putri but that is doesnt matter for me. Im 18 years old, this year I have finished graduate at senior high school in my district. Im very happy because in my brain after finishing study I was student of university. But that is just dream, I realized I did not clever student but I believe I can go on my study at university. Im very disa ppointed with my destiny. I looks my friends very happy, they can enter at university. Actually my heart crying but how can I cry in front of my friend? I just pray unto our God, I hope I can stand. I dont want to make my family disappointed with me. Ever ybody knows that I want to go on my study, but in fact I still failed over there. Really I am very shy if someone asks me about my planning. But I always support by myself, and I believe that is just simple problem and it is for learn me about really life in this world. Every day I spend my time for help my mother and think about my new plan. When I get brilliant feel I want to take course. But I always think about financial my family, I really know that my parents very disappointed. Im very regret about that, I hope next year I can make my parents proud of me, because during enter senior high school I always make my parents busy. Oh God, please give my parents happiness in this world and here after. That is from my deep heart.
After my brain fresh and I can receive this condition I can decides my new plan. I must go to

Pare?? What is Pare? When I ask my mom, pare is kind of vegetables. But my sister tell me that pare is English village, which is place for us to study English.