"RIVER OF PAIN" (TEENAGE THOUGHTS)

WRITER- HARSIMRAN SINGH GILL.

Introductionhlo everybody im harsimran,im in 10th class,this will be my little STORY"may be".it's about life of myself. 31/7/2012. my story starts nownotethis book is based on reality (real life) of writter.

31/7/2012 tuesday pain or gain

today i learned that the "dreams never come true.

dreams(your requirnments) can't be beged from anyone. you have to buy it with your's own confidence. you can't got them easily from anywhere. we have to borrow it, with hard work and allot of tuffness. 1.Life is just a bed of roses for those who are dreamy person. they failed in there life. 2. Life is ruff and tuff. you have to wake on stairs one by one. 3.no ones understands your's feeling and immotions but only you can. 4. "life is fake" Death is truth.

"you can cheat your life but can't death".

parents are just a gain. Life is filled with allot of pain. I wanna leave this fake cruel life. i wanna leave this painfull world. this life is damn bull shit,busted,f***ing,painfull stressfull.im cring like a river.thinking like sky,angering like fire. oh! god oh! god i can't live any more . my parents think any more. my parents think that im nothink but just a rubbish, non-

sence boy. no ones like me. i know that these are allot of bad habites in me, but no ones ask me--------"dis anyones try to ask me that why im bad,why im-----------------------i also want that i shall be a well educated persenality,but who trusts. so i have a painfull but simple idea.

"do or die".

i tried many times to improve myself,but result-parents behave with me negetively. when i say any wrong word to any ones my mother,brother,father or another,i also

fell very bad. i not say bad word to anyone because i fell beter or good,i say bad words when im in stress, angre, pain, or in other problems.

there is no way of lifeha!ha! who cares because i can die, i shall die,i will die. if anyones gives me more stress,sadness,unhapiness,i will .i promise i will

die. sign-

Today(tonight)i had been listned the topics of me, from my parents . they were taking about me my brother.,father,mother was saying taking about me and my habites that im duffer senceless i cant study stop his alll facilites etc----------------so im in stress after listning that now- 80% chances of death. "im hating my life ,day by day".from today i will try to don,t talk with my mother-because i can,t handle more tension ,stress,sadness. why not my parents leave me alone? why they think that im bad? why they hate me? why

?????/why???why??? guys i wanna say yo all somthing that never hope or depend so much on your parents ,be self-helper .because parents can takes cares of you uptill childhood ,when child became teenager no ones can handle you in this age of life your all growth ,lifestyle ,habities depends that what will be yours futere.never depend all common things on your parents . because whos now that when any one can die your parents also so you have to depend on yourself if you ve alone so that you can do your works own. bye guys .............................................................

1/08/2012
when i awaked up today ,i was very sad because i don't want to go to school ,but i have to go there because mother was forcing me . my school day was very bad,unhappy, when i returned to school then i was in anger, then i take some rest when i

waked up my mother was shouting on me that you ve late for tusion ,then i says im unable to attend tusion classes because im ill then mom says what rubbish just go to tusion then suddenly i was in anger i said "im not going .what can you do?" im angery with my parents because the promise me to buy a smartphone in 10th class but no they were not keepting there promise and saying we will not buy you a smartphone because if we do that then you will not study and you will fail ,they were right in there sight, but i started saying them again and again , buy me a phone,buy me a phone then they agread and ay we will buy you a phone but you promise you will improve your self in all activities ,then i say yes i will improve myself ,now im happy stress- less,now im constrating on my studies and tusions. so childrens please dont understand that your parents are your enemy ,them don't want to heart you but only them love you,you should understand them then they will understand you but death is not solution of all the problems,be

postive in studies,..........to make your constration

in studies you can do yoga exercieses

and playng games like chess etc, never think that you can't do it.be postive.