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Learning To Sew
Learning To Sew
Linda Boroff
“Now girls, bend forward and let your bust faaaaaallllll into the
cup,” she commands, evoking for Deirdre a suicide plunge
from a skyscraper, or the apogee and perigee of Wile E.
Coyote. Deirdre thinks about her own “starter” bra, whose
empty cups gape before her each morning like the excavation
sites for two sports stadia. It is a struggle to even imagine the
substantial, pendulous weight, the swelling, supercharged
mystery of real breasts.
Billy holds his thumb and index finger together in a circle and
waves his other fingers. “Flying asshole,” he replies. Staring
numbly about like refugees, the students sprawl and squirm in
graffiti-scarred wooden desks. Beyond the stern, narrow
windowpanes mocks a deep blue Minneapolis sky.
The students sit in three long rows before Mr. Devlin's desk.
Karen, in the far right corner of the last row, is enviably
situated for neglect, while Deirdre, in the front row, faces Mr.
Devlin square-on. To Deirdre’s left lurks the two-headed
monster, Billy-and-Steve. When the lunch bell finally rings,
Karen leaps to her feet and charges first out the door.
In the teeming cafeteria, Deirdre and her friend Jill slide their
trays down a tubular aluminum pathway to the cashier, then
navigate the aisles to a table near the back door. Karen
lurches past with her loaded tray, in search of a place to sit.
Several tables wave her away.
“Okay okay.”
Winter mornings, massive cars with names like Star Chief and
Roadmaster lumber up and down icy, grimy streets to
disgorge their carpools. Pupating in wool and fur, the students
plod through smoky exhausts and up the stairs into
superheated fluorescent classrooms. Deirdre trudges the halls
in a gothic stupor, reflecting on her unsuitability to life in this
culture. Her only comfort is English class, where the teacher
has given her poem — about the emotions of a young woman
watching a bullfight — an A.
In sewing class, she sneaks her book into the dressing room
and discovers Marjorie Morningstar losing her virginity to her
boyfriend Noel. Deirdre reads greedily, recklessly, trying to
imagine herself that way with Bruce Dilman. Riveted by guilty
fascination, she loses track of time and is thus discovered by
Mrs. Grady, who sneaks up and yanks the curtain aside like a
Victorian gumshoe.
“Nothing!”
Mrs. Grady advances, seizes the book, and reads the open
page.
“It’s not!“
Face hot and flushed, heart pounding, hands icy, she faces
the silent, gawking classroom. She is a criminal, and her life is
ruined, almost as if she had lost her own virginity. She thinks
suddenly of Mary, Queen of Scots. Like Mary, all that is left
her now is to die well. Amid gasps of horror, she seizes her
flowered skirt, wads it into a ball, pins sticking her hands, and
hurls it into the wastebasket. Mrs. Grady, perched balefully on
her desk, announces that since Miss Deirdre Fisch cares so
little, her entire semester grade will now be an F.
“Don’t worry,” Karen tells her as the bell rings. “I get lots of Fs
too.”
In social studies, Mr. Devlin turns on a film. This will run over
into your lunch period, he warns, but if you care enough about
your country, you may stay. Deirdre subsides gratefully into
the dark. Oh Bruce, my fate, she whispers.
She thinks of her own period lurking in her womb, awaiting its
hormone trigger to do her in someday in the white skirt it will
be just her luck to wear. On the screen, Lenin harangues a
crowd of babushkas; Stalin, a smug walrus, nods at his tanks
rolling past. The lunch bell rings.
Slowly, Mr. Devlin rises, strides to the projector and flicks it off.
Steve Osby leaps to turn on the lights. Karen freezes.
“Of all the people,” Mr. Devlin begins quietly, like a gourmet
nudging a quail egg with his fork, “who need this film, you,” he
points at Karen, “need it the most. Your grades are the lowest
in the class . . . ” he pauses, eyes closed, “And you're the first
out the door!” The detonation nearly lifts both his feet from the
ground. The class flinches and ducks. Karen backs up, wheels
and flees to her desk. The skirt she has been sewing falls
from under her notebook and in her panic, she treads on it.
Mr. Devlin twists the projector back on, Steve turns off the
lights, and Khrushchev finishes pounding his shoe.
Linda Boroff's
. . . life has taken her from Minneapolis to Los Angeles, to
Berkeley and Santa Cruz, and now to Silicon Valley. Her
fiction has been published in Epoch, Prism International, In
Posse Review, Cimarron Review, Pig Iron Malt, Eyeshot, The
Fiction Warehouse, 24:7, The Pedestal, Outsider Ink,
Storyglossia, The ShadowShow, Summerset Review, The
Small Pond Magazine, Artisan, and others. She is now writing
comedy spec screenplays.
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