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Living and Loving After Betrayal
Living and Loving After Betrayal
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Contents
Introduction
Core value grows out of the uniquely human drive to create valueto make people, things, and ideas important enough to appreciate, nurture, and protect. Consistently acting on the drive to create value provides a sense of meaning and purpose in life. This chapter and the next will help develop your core value as a general means of healing and growth. Although a highly developed core value wont make you forget your betrayal, it will definitely make all that you have suffered less important in your life as a whole. The past can no longer control us, once it is overshadowed by the deeply human drive to create value and give our lives meaning.
you give it valueyou invest energy and effort to fully perceive it, thus allowing you to appreciate it. While it does nothing for the sunset if you value it, valuing it does wonders for you. The moment of value creation makes you feel more vital, engaged, interested, appreciativein short, more alive. Life means more to you at the instant you create value, just as it means less to you when you are not creating value. Most positive emotion, passion, meaning, purpose, and conviction come from creating value, and most emptiness, aggression, and depression result from failure to create value. Virtually all our accomplishments occur through value creation, and virtually all our failures owe to devaluing (value destruction). Consider who is more likely to maintain healthy weight: the person who values health or the one who devalues her body? Who is more likely to succeed with fewer mistakes, the coach who values the skills and cohesiveness of the team or the one who devalues his players? Who will do better at work and feel more satisfied with it, the employee who values her contribution and her coworkers, or the one who devalues his job, peers, or managers? Now heres the really important question: Who is more likely to thrive after intimate betrayal, the betrayed partner who values her well-being, her other relationships, her strengths, and her resilience, or the one who devalues his life and most of the people in it? Unfortunately, theres a large problem with core value: Creating value consumes enormous amounts of energy. It takes a lot more effort to appreciate a sunset or a childs smile than to ignore them. Most of us try to conserve our limited stores of energy by withholding the necessary components of value creation: interest and attention. If we withhold too much too often, well end up running mostly on automatic pilot, just going through the motions of living. Eventually, well get depressed. Depression can be understood as extremely low value creation. A common way to avoid the depressed mood of low value creation is to devalueto lower the value of someone or something by
deciding that hes not good enough, or thats not worth it, or Im not worth it. Devaluing brings a temporary spike in energy, because it invokes a subtle form of anger or disgust directed at yourself or others. Devaluing behaviors (such as criticism, verbal aggression, and actions motivated by contempt or disgust) feel briefly more empowering than the depressed mood of low value creation. Everyone devalues sometimes, and were especially prone to it after intimate betrayal. But in the long run, if you devalue more than you value, your life will be pretty bad, even if a lot of good things happen to you. Ive seen considerable evidence of this since my frequent media appearances have attracted some rich, famous, and powerful clients, whose lives are filled with good fortune. Its amazing how creative they are at finding ways to make themselves miserable, simply because they choose to devalue more than they value. On the other side of the coin, if you value more than you devalue, your life will be good, even if a lot of bad things happen. My primary example is a mother I knew who lost both her teenage sons. Within a year, one son died in an accident and the other was killed while defending a preteen girl, whom he didnt know, from a bullys unwanted advances. Out of nowhere, this womans only children were taken from her. Yet she turned the deaths of her sons into inspiration for other members of the community through her impassioned advocacy for various youth groups. She was the most charismatic and genuine person Ive ever met, because, despite the enormity of her misfortunes, she valued more than she devalued.
healing and growth, it can be cultivated as a conscious mental state, in which you focus your thoughts, emotions, and behaviors on increasing the value of your experience and staying true to what is most important to you. The more you do this, the stronger your core value grows and the less likely you are to feel devalued, inadequate, or unlovable as a result of your partners (or anyone elses) behavior. Developing core value as a mental state will provide a place within, where you can go, at any time, under any kind of stress or depressed mood, to revitalize your desire to create value and meaning in your life. It will function as a primary defense against future hurt of any kind (not just intimate betrayal) and offer the greatest potential for personal healing and growth. There are many paths to a conscious state of core value. Here are three: 1. Honor the most important thing about you as a person. 2. Prove to yourself that you are worthy by doing something that makes you feel lovable and adequate. 3. Act on any one of the core value motivations.
clients initially respond. These are significant qualities, to be sure, but theyre not the most important thing about you. (Its a hard question to answer, because we dont typically think about our most essential qualities.) Heres a way to tease out what you might regard as the single most important thing about you: If you dont have grown children, imagine that you do. Choose how you would rather your grown childrenreal or imaginedfeel about you: Choice A: [Mom or Dad] was honest, loyal, generous, and hardworking. Im not sure [she or he] really cared about me, but [she or he] was always honest, loyal, generous, and hard-working. Choice B: [Mom or Dad] was human, and [she or he] made a few mistakes. But there was never any doubt that [she or he] cared about me and wanted what was best for me. If love is so important to you that intimate betrayal has been devastating, rather than a mere ego offense, its likely that the most important thing about you is your capacity to show care and compassion for the people you love. If you have a different answer to the most important thing about you question, try to take it a step deeper by asking yourself Why is this important to me? Is this what I will be most proud of near the end of my life? Is it what I will most regret not doing enough of? Read out loud whatever you wrote down as the most important thing about you. When you do, you will feel either empowered or uneasy. The latter indicates that you need to adjust your behavior to be consistent with your most important quality, to avoid hidden feelings of guilt, shame, anxiety, regret, inadequacy, or unworthiness. There are built-in rewards for staying true to what you regard as the most important thing about you: a sense of authenticity and conviction, with relatively little self-doubt. Those rewards are available in states of core value, which you can invoke most easily by honoring the most important thing about you as a person.
If youre in a state of core value, youre automatically trying to do one of the above. Fortunately, core value is a two-way street. When you find yourself cut off from your drive to create valuein other words, you feel numb, down, nervous, resentful, or aggressivedeliberate attempts to improve or appreciate or connect or protect will access a state of core value and set you once again on the road to healing and growth. Improve. The core value motivation to improve means striving to make something better. For optimal success in recovering from the severe effects intimate betrayal, think of improving as an incremental processmaking things a little better at a time. People sometimes stop trying to improve because they dont know how to fix a situation. In emotionally charged conditions, its nearly impossible to go directly from feeling bad to feeling 100 percent good. But once you make something 10 percent better, it becomes easier to make it 20 percent better. Then its easier to make it 40 percent better, and so on. Strive to make a bad situation a little better if you can, but if you cant, then make your experience of it better. For example, a common problem after intimate betrayal is the hard feelings of valued members of the betrayers family. You can start out thinking of what might make the situation with, say, your ex-mother-in-law 10 percent betterperhaps sending her a sincerely written card or a flower as a kind
of olive branch. If whatever you try doesnt improve the situation, change the way you experience it. In place of the self-denigrating interpretation that shes rejecting you or blaming you for the betrayal, see her as a hurt woman trying unsuccessfully to deal with her own pain. That doesnt excuse her behavior, but it improves your experience of it. Once again, we have no control over other people, but we have absolute control over the meaning of our experience. When we dont make the choice to improve the meaning we give to our experience, were likely to repeat the same mistakes and feel the same pain over and over. Keeping a log will help you focus on improving situations (or the way you experience them) in the future. Title this log My Attempts to Improve Bad Situations, and use it to track the things you have done or will do to improve by 10 percent a bad situation or your experience of it. (Examples: I have tried to communicate respectfully, even when the other person is disrespectful; I enjoy music and recorded books while in traffic jams; I will try to solve problems rather than blaming them on others.) Start out with a focus on relatively easy things to improve. As noted in Chapter 1, skills are more successfully acquired when initially practiced in relatively low-stress situations. In the beginning, practice improving situationsor your experience of situationsthat are not directly related to the betrayal. Keeping the improve log will help rewire your brain to think of ways to improve when something bad happens, rather than dwelling on how bad it is, which is likely to make it worse.
Learn from clinical psychologist and anger management expert Steven Stosny how to use compassion to heal from betrayals such as abuse, deceit, infidelity, emotional manipulation, or dishonesty in a relationship.