My Epic Regression in Time and Space

On a fresh page Let me set the stage A fretful fear, here The fear of sex A cursed hex Fear of society And the mighty Hate of power And clock and hour Fear and anger Thirst and hunger The past and pain A stubborn stain Who to blame Who to name Living abroad Faith in God Atheist Country Lone Misery Great Expectation Massive Frustration Incensed Inferiority Rejected Minority Alone in the cold Trying to be bold Desire, Fire On funeral pyre She: Beauty, Stupidity He: Magnanimity In wine drenched Completely frenched Language and color Are some other

Attitude, Ego

Fear's placebo Inferiority's cure Kill the pure Sex gratification Impurification Fear of Man Hate of Woman Hate of Authority Love of Anarchy To sleep So deep In a trance In Belle France A wonder Torn asunder In jail No bail Broken Heart Good Start Hate of Suicide Insults pride Life's a lie So don't cry Please, please Appease On the Hill The Old Man Who can Change All this Which is his A yearning A burning For love Female love A home Shalom A warm bed And head Being frank Not a crank

Life is long Mr Fong Braver Confronting danger Than without Never shout Never grow old Be bold Grow not old Die young Unsung As only a Man Alone can Woman is sex Fear of sex Fear of Man's ire Now on the pyre The End: burning Hate of immaturity Love of purity Criticism hardens me Please let me be Fiche moi la paix So that I may Live in peace In Ancient Greece Love of Divine And not wine Seeking wisdom God's Kingdom Courage and Faith Sans mate And old fear Live here

Later...
A new understanding Lunar landing A pinch of salt A pint of malt A little smile Hundred miles

So easy Squeeze me Take a joke Don't croak Laugh a bit Spit the grit Love life Bury knife Gladness No madness A smile On the Nile O so short And so hot So sing It brings Beauty Ingenuity To the mind

Another day
Sitting here Old fear Hope Stirring Vision blurring Strange worry Mind slurry Faith, sans hate Of my fate Meditation Imagination Freedom Wisdom But how ? And now ? Go slower It will come Like aged rum Let it mature Slow, yet sure Patience, man Just as you ran Now wait

The bait Let it bite Then fight And not before Jungle Lore Burns in me At night In fright The sounds The hounds The pack When it attacks The sounds In my mind pound

Many eons later...

French so rude Bach prelude Time flying Heart dying Eyes crying Man lying Cards falling Papa brawling Baby bawling Son ashamed Man untamed Family defamed All deranged Who's blamed Worked for work Fruits stale Bitter ale Life was Satan's jaws Love, Hope: Divine Dope Flying Courage Boiled Cabbage

Skies darken Spirits harken Blood simmers Eyes glimmer Shadows dance Surreal trance Surrealistic reality Schizophrenic duality Madness calls Poet falls Phlegm and Bile Stupid Smile Made Man Mad Man Culture Cringe Colonial Tinge Story so fine Pickled in brine Cast before swine Dulled by wine Left long behind Matter over mind Problem magnified Fate defied Laws trampled Idols trampled Man mummified Alive Snake Eyes

It goes on...
Time dies Earth cries God lies Wind flies Heart bleeds Man's greed Sin's need

Soul's weed Satan's need Eyes weep Oceans deep Mountains steep A Giant Leap A Massive Fall In the Gaul A bloody brawl In the bar Now so so far So far away Now, a new day Heaven sends Time bends Skies rumble Temples crumble Eyes burn Lips spurn Hearts harden Minds sharpen Innocence gone Venom born Red blood Angry flood Black eye Devil's dye Burning skin Filthy bin Fear, dread Spinning head Cherry top Went pop Sirens singing Bells ringing Clocks ticking Needles pricking Cherry top Went pop Went dead Hot lead Blaze of fire

Going Higher Spirits calling Cards falling Your drew I blew You wrote I quote

And now...after all that is passing

And on it goes In Misery's throes It was so hot My best shot Not enough Rebuffed Still at it Blood and spit Bad to worse And then hearse Fuel for the fire Of funeral pyre Sad bard Slapped hard Heart bleeding Yet not weeping Great Expectations Massive Frustration Rejected Minority Incensed Inferiority Gone by, The Hour Rum's gone sour Still working Still burning For a Tomorrow Sans sorrow A dream, a hope Hang on a rope Burn to improve Move ! move !! Meditation Precipitation Of Divine Grace

To win this race And to think Of the Past's Link

The End ?
Dog bites Man Shit hits fan Man bites Dog Prince turns Frog Blood curdles Weathers hurdles Love, Hope Divine Dope Loss:Gain Pleasure:Pain Cause: Effect Man: God's defect ? Human Animal Father Cannibal Never got paid Never got laid Love unfulfilled Hooch swilled Madness, Death Crystal Meth Kafka, Dostoevsky Pauline Medvezky Death spurns Life burns Skin flayed Dog spayed So you see Dog was me Man-Dog cries

Man-God lies All is vain As is pain The God who failed Who was jailed Who inhaled Bag of bile In political exile Drug addled Ass saddled Arse paddled Joy grappled Madness calls Poet falls Dark halls Phlegm and Bile Stupid, Stupid Smile Neurosis Psychosis Halitosis Laughter, Death Crystal Meth Piss drips Mind trips Ears trick me Fears frisk me Blood bled white Brain dead Knight Man hurting Words blurting Sperm squirting Madness calls Poet falls Curtain falls End of Act

Demon's Pact Suicide Plan Enter Hangman So you see Hangman was Me Thug was Me Fight, flight, night Yon lonely sprite Terror and Fright Brave foolish Knight Blood Bled White Brain Dead Knight Spirit percolated Man emasculated Fleeting Illusion Lingering Delusion Slumbers deep Eyes weep Troubled dreams Bleaching creams Psycho kinesis Pneuma genesis Mind stilled Spirit distilled Drank the Hemlock Cocked the Flintlock Mineral Man Water and Sand Divine Hand Wide Awake in a Surreal Dream Good bye Norma Jean You have been The one for me Now set me free From my misery From Man's apathy

I endure What I can't cure A wonder A blunder Torn asunder Scattered Shattered To the four winds In distant Hind I have sinned In the dust bin My heart drums a din: "You are the better man, Gunga Din !" Existence Substance Maya Saaya Food for the fire Of Funeral Pyre Someone died No one cried It was me Hear my plea And set me free The Shifting Sands of the Hourglass of Time Strange turns Love spurned Idiot Moron Just sail on Stairway of Existence Withering Persistence Mad Sad Cad Unsung Ballad Poor Bard Slapped hard High strung Pile of dung Strung high Eyes don't cry Lips don't lie Body does not die Soul does die Many many times

Sour stale lime Bitter bile In the smile Ran a mile In denial Pass me the vial I can end it For I can't mend it Poor bard Broken shards Of withered heart Yet looks so smart Love spurned me Death spurned me I write in vain Of the pain That I endure And cannot cure Realms apart Shattered glass heart Big huge fart Walking on broken glass My feet bleed My eyes weep The rooted weeds In my soul seep Oceans deep My eyes weep When I sleep When I slumber deep Cut the cord I am bored Voice unheard Vision blurred Speech slurred Future untold Past grown old Alone in the cold Trying to be bold Heaven sends Mind bends As I scream

In a dream Within a dream Bonhomie turned Anomie Fascination turned Alienation Passion turned Depression Repression turned Suppression Mythos turned Logos Many lives became one One death became many Patience is a virtue I don't want to hurt you Live for another day And I'll show you the way There's always another So be brave, my brother So myself I may save Who to you I gave Understand me And don't damn me A lone flight A lone fright In the cold dark night Walk alone, run alone In search of a bone That does not exist In the icy mists Of my persistent existent self Please. Someone help A lone voice from afar Calls my name Yet deaf, I can't hear Heaven Sent Man bent Force spent Spirit rent No comment Fretful pain Life inane Spirit insane

Man vain Incurred pain Going insane All over again And in pain Who can tell In what pit of hell I sank and fell Depths of Despair Broken beyond repair Down too far So below the bar Brave the next day And find another way What can I say? What else can I say? Life blisters my feet Deceit and conceit Now what remains But self-disdain And this pain Bled in vain Driven insane And one day gone Just gone The dust has flown The wind has blown And then remains none Not even God, the Son Gone, just gone Absurdity, Insanity Cold hard reality And what remains Is just the pain The fretful dividend The lonely end Of a luck-seeded gamble Begun as a lottery in a bramble Soul burning Eyes yearning Ice freezing

Chest wheezing A wonder A blunder - What matters All torn asunder Eyes weep Oceans deep A hundred miles All so futile Bells toll Existential void Psychic schizoid In wine drenched Completely Frenched A bloody brawl In distant Gaul So far, far away Now a new day And on the morrow Hope, and sorrow Stone cold Grown old Grown bold Fallen out of the fold A tale untold Glowing as gold Lo ! and behold Ben Adhem's name Led all the rest Whom love of God Hath blest

Afterword
"Ah, Mr Donkey Bong Kong I will have to inform Mr Fong About this outrageous song For it has been too long As the clock says ding dong And my marbles go bing bong But nothing's gone wrong And out comes the fungun: BANG BONG !"

"So long Mr Fong, Cuz I ain't done no wrong."