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Best at Dying
Best at Dying
by Joshua Allen
these days. Brad felt the ground slam his back. Pretending to
soldiers died for their friends and brothers. They fell down
flat because they couldn't feel, and they didn't ever, ever
flinch. Brad was the best at dying. His brother Connie, the
the attentive older brother, the one Brad knew would always take
good times.
him from his dream. Brad woke when a metallic click snapped into
The dark empty barrel of a gun was staring back at him and
been dreaming of dying. But then the gloved hand behind the gun
tightened and the dark-skinned face behind the hand snarled. The
him in the temple with the cold steel tube. Then, in a voice
that sounded almost introspective and educated, he added, "Or I
dream world in his eyes. He put the car in reverse. Blinked. The
paper bag held near his lips. Brad backed out of the diagonal
parking spot along the side of the street and into the road. He
The kid lowered the gun out of sight and smirked, but
had a Plexiglas shield between himself and the back seat, but
The kid looked away for a moment. "Fucking right." The kid
pressure from his bladder. "You can have the car too." The cab
Brad's heart leapt. How could this kid know anything about
him?
Brad turned under the bridge and up the low hill on the
other side. The bridge would have taken them back to Dubuque,
Iowa, back to where there were still cars and people driving
them who'd had a bit too much to drink. All the nights Brad had
them. The kid pointed the gun instead down a long road that Brad
down. Except for the occasional passing barge, the Old Man would
Brad glanced in his rearview. The kid was looking out the
some event coming up. The kid winced. Maybe he was worried about
a school project.
from the marina, not with the noise of the tug and the river
filling their ears. Most of the boats were out of the water this
Brad tried to wet his lips, but his tongue was like
sandpaper. He'd made sense of the boy in the back seat's words:
preacher's kid. His mind's calculus could draw only one
Connie.
behind him knew that fact about Connie, he knew that about Brad,
Connie any day now, but he'd been expecting a return to jail, or
death--not this.
Brad glanced in the mirror. The kid scratched his head with
the barrel of his gun. Brad said, "I'll get out here." The kid
hour to walk back to a phone from here, but I won't even call
bolder. "You can have my cell phone and my credit cards. I won't
say anything."
The kid turned his attention back to Brad. Brad could see
the kid aiming the gun at the back of the driver's seat. "Sorry."
The kid said the word with a shrug. ain't it, Preacher's Kid."
parking lot. This was the last bit of pavement on this stretch.
The river filled the space on three sides of them now. The
them.
The kid motioned with the gun to the far corner, close to
was going to be all right. The kid was meeting someone. He just
wanted a free ride, that was all. The rest was a joke. One of
even be allowed to keep his cab. The kid probably just needed
Brad stopped the cab with the tires still on the pavement,
but just barely so. The black kid said nothing. The CB blared to
Brad glanced back at the kid. The kid motioned with his
wrong, PK." Again the kid pushed up his invisible hat. His eyes
The radio came to life again, but it was muffled this time
as Brad stepped out and closed his door. His hopes of keeping
the cab sank. But surely they wouldn't kill him. Why would
anyone want to kill him? They meant to get some money out of
The back door of the other car opened. The kid pushed Brad
forward with his gun. When they were close, Connie stepped out.
felt initial relief, but the feeling died the next instant.
"This our man, PK?" The kid stabbed Brad in the shoulder
staring right at him. Connie nodded. Brad waved his hand. Surely
The kid put his hand on Brad's chest and pushed him
backward one step. The gesture was almost polite. The kid
pointed the gun back into the car, where Connie was sitting. "Be
gun swiveled and now Brad was again the target. "I put you down
twenty-four at the time. Brad could see the story play out with
instant clarity, like a holy vision. Connie had traded Brad's
The kid with the gun looked at Brad and shrugged. "Say
goodnight, PK."
Brad saw the dark barrel of the gun come up to his face.
Would he see the bullet coming at him, or would the world just
go black and that would be all she wrote? Would he feel his
bowels empty?
"Wait, man." Connie's voice from the back seat, shaky and
distant, like a man about to lose his hold on reality. The kid
which blended in with the kid's coat and were nearly lost in the
darkness. A few quick moves later the gun was aiming butt first
the air, adjusted his grip a couple of times, and then pointed
eyes.
Brad opened his mouth to respond. All the fights they'd had
over the years flashed through Brad's mind in that instant: the
time Connie had been high and mad at his girlfriend and had
roughed Brad up, the time Connie had locked Brad in the basement
all night with no lights, the time Connie had snuck into Brad's
Brad thought.
shrugged. Brad could see another gun emerge from his coat as he
spoke. "That's right, PK. Make sure you put it right between the
head. The gun shook. Brad thought about the games they used to
play, about the fake deaths he used to perform for his brother,
dramatic. He wondered what he'd say for his last words. Brad
about himself and Connie playing army in years and now this.
only hope was if this were true. Something leapt out of his
chest and like a cold wind on his face and gave him a gentle
shove.
He felt his body hit the gravel at the edge of the parking
lot, as limp as the dead. Or maybe he was dead. Maybe dead was
Then there was another pop, this one distant and buried in
a small box on some island far away from where Brad was. Brad
felt something heavy land on top of him, big and heavy as the
wetness dribbled down his face and the taste of blood entered
hell: damned to choke on this mess for eternity. Brad kicked out
his arms and legs, suddenly panicking for air. He was losing
He emerged from under the weight that had fallen on him and
into the night air. His blew the chunky liquid out of his mouth
shaking hand finally wiped his face, clearing the mess. Brad sat
down on the bumper of his taxi cab and stared at what had been
lying on him.
Brains were everywhere, spread out across the gravel and sand
like sticky bread for seagulls. Brad steadied himself, glad now
his fingers to give him a report of the damage. The bullet had
gouged a crooked path in his skull, but the bullet had gone just
high, delivering only a glancing blow. His brains were still
tucked safely away. Spiny bone poked his finger through blood
"You armed kid? You need an ambulance?" The voice was down
answer.
A man approached from the darkness. "I saw you land. You
didn't even flinch, man. I thought you were really dead there."
That was fucking awe-SOME! Connie squealed from Brad's mind. The
and fresh death, like the rabbits their dad used to make Brad
himself think about what had just happened, to put all the
slipped away like wet soap. He felt tired. Maybe he'd just sleep.
them.
THE END