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Evil Insider Her
Evil Insider Her
by Joshua Allen
For three days the girl came in and said nothing. She
usually came in when other people were around and left before
Father Joseph could speak with her. He wanted very much to speak
with her. She was a strange girl: plain, she wore no makeup,
on the impulse, Father Joseph couldn't help but find the girl
about her long after she'd gone, dream, even fantasize about
her. He told himself fantasies not acted upon were harmless, but
he couldn't help but feel uncomfortable with just how often he
Then, one night, she came into the sanctuary when no one
but more than once, he'd gone to lunch and come back to find the
booth.
"No, Father." She burst into tears, big wet sobs that took
"Calm, child. You have come here because the Lord has put it
in your heart that you have sinned. You have done the right
purification."
Joseph put his knuckles into the corners of his eyes. How many
times had he dealt with this exact situation? He knew what came
"Have you asked the young man if he will do the right thing
"Teddy--he's so young."
Father Joseph's blood ran cold. "Did you call him Teddy?"
"Yes, that's his name, Father. Teddy. He's a good boy, but I
back his emotion anymore. "What is the boy's last name? Perhaps
right?"
"Father?"
apologize. This isn't about Teddy Variasco. It's about you and
your decision. What will you do? Teddy is a good boy. He will do
"Father..."
two days. Until then, try to pray, reflect on what has happened.
* * *
made straight for the top floor and burst into the Mother
instant, no more.
rant from you, Joseph. I don't want you laying even an ounce of
blame on me."
before she became Sister Mary Frank. Joseph only used her given
can't watch the boy every single second of the day. And he is
jerked him around and aimed a finger at his eyeball. "No! You
"Kathleen, I--"
She sat down on the edge of her desk, her rosary tinkled
way."
was a young priest. I know you challenged the notion that women
chastity.
pregnant, not that her sisters had helped her conceal it, then
helped her birth the baby, and then helped her raise him. No,
her real regret was that she'd chosen this man to be the father
"So the girl is pregnant. We do for her what you should have
done for me. We take her to a clinic and we get it taken care
of."
"Yes, Joseph. You think Teddy can care for a baby? The boy
Kathleen's shoulder all those years ago. She'd always done the
best she knew how to do. Teddy wasn't that bright, it was true,
and happy, and that those normal two people had died and were
smiling down on him from heaven. Joseph and Kathleen had never
"Agreed."
"Kathleen?"
worse," he said.
the system. Let's just get past this and never speak of it
again. Once this mess is cleared, we will send the boy off to
discussed the matter, but usually the boys left the convent when
they were sixteen. Teddy was already a year past that. They had
kept him under the pretense that he was still trying to finish
high school, that his learning disability was holding him back.
Really, they were just afraid to let him go. How would a boy so
* * *
The girl didn't come until after dark on the day Joseph had
had settled over the city and there was little hope she would be
on the verge of turning in when the door opened and the snow
swirled in. The girl entered, wearing a black skirt that barely
passed her thighs and deep red, almost burgundy, boots up to the
base of her knees. Her hair was twisted into a bun and she
Joseph watched her all the way to the dais, where she knelt
Joseph sat near her on the pew, but not too close. He didn't
dare sit too close to her. This girl emanated sex like a
She also didn't sound out of breath, though her chest continued
to heave.
considered..."
"Yes. But Father, I couldn't," she looked into his eyes with
circumstances."
"I'm a man of the world, young lady. I know how life really
She touched his knee. "You know I would never hurt you?"
his neck. It was warm and soft and like nothing he'd ever felt
before.
Joseph leapt to his feet. "Enough! What is wrong with you?
being refused. Then, slowly, she softened. She finally shook her
head and burst into tears. "I don't know why I do it, Father. I
"Nonsense."
"No, its true, Father. It's why I seduced the boy. I knew it
was wrong. It's why I do the terrible things I do." She bit her
lip. He could see that she had something important to tell him,
sexuality. Now she was a quiet, humble girl, one he could safely
were..." Again she hesitated. She took a deep breath. "They were
America."
"I am, Father. I was adopted very young by a nice older
couple who wanted a third child, but couldn't bear one. They
was good in it, he had always felt, though the Church had
"Then how do you know they were evil? You say you were
adopted as a baby."
"Of home?"
She shook her head. "Maybe. I don't know. They were horrible
pommels on the saddles were heads. The men held huge, inhuman
weapons. Swords and guns the likes of which I'd never seen."
"Did you find such horrid riders back where you were born?"
villagers, when they met me...they knew. They said I wore a cowl
superstitious bullshit."
What matters is this: those old stories only have power if you
away."
"No, you are not evil. You can make different decisions by
training your mind to make them. It may take years, but it can
be done."
the world, you can, but for the time you are there, you will
She clutched her belly. "I cannot give it up, Father. Not
for anything."
* * *
church nearly every day. Father Joseph watched her for signs of
lusted for people she worked with and people she saw on
out, that Haven was around the bend, but he could tell that the
boy was good with his hands, if dull in the mind and tongue.
Father Joseph never heard more from Teddy during the girl's
was finally able to convince the Haven to take her in. They
agreed that she was a worthy cause, a bright and virtuous young
woman who could shape and mold herself into brilliance if she
could only polish off the dark smear on her soul. Delivering
this news to the girl, he expected her to take it with tears and
Father Joseph was repulsed. The girl was plump with her
baby. The thought of men who would even want to have sex with
her sickened him. According to her, there were not only men
willing, there were men eager. There were men willing to pay.
always the same, "But Father, Haven will change me. I will
change then."
It seemed he had given her license to sink to her lowest
baby that was coming and with that old idea that things were
Then, as suddenly as the tide turns and sinks down and out
into the sea, the baby was born, and the girl was gone to the
Haven. The convent took the baby in, but Father Joseph was there
almost every day helping the sisters care for it. It was a
precious baby, perfect and smiling all the time. A little boy.
The girl named him Joseph. The first year of baby Joseph's life
Something tragic had happened. He had to sit her down and soothed
her with tea by the bucketful until she was settled enough to
talk to him.
mugged or something?"
boiling.
Kathleen bit her lip. "I told him only to give him comfort.
their love. But it was worse. I've talked to the people at the
carpentry school, and they said he was obsessed. They said Teddy
was distracted all the time. They said he would cut himself,
She burst into tears. "He went there, but he didn't stay in
begged to see the girl, but she refused to see him. She was
give up."
him.
* * *
From that day on, Father Joseph went to the convent less and
to avoid Kathleen, but that was a lie. The truth was that the
evil. She had worked her witchcraft on his son and now his poor,
stupid son was dead. And every time he looked at that baby, he
child grew and learned to walk and did all those things that
normal kids did. He did the things Teddy would never again be
able to do. But there were incidents that stoked the fire of his
fear. The boy didn't get along with the other children. Even
their pain.
PO"
But soon, however, it was clear she wasn't taking the lessons of
the Haven to heart. She was acting out. They caught her sneaking
didn't stop her. They gave her the option to leave, but she
that the girl stayed to please him. She stayed even as the
punishments grew more severe. She stayed even when it was clear
she would never learn, that there was something buried deep
Finally, she had gotten sick. Then, she had slipped away.
A blessing, the letter concluded.
large that this girl was evil, and that Almighty God has dealt
He found his contacts at the Haven had all moved on. He quickly
Father Joseph down. "Joseph, you have to stop making noise about
the Haven. Surely you can see that they did what they could for
this girl."
twenty-first century."
girl could have left at any time. Don't you see? She wanted to
wilt to hear the details of. I understand that this girl was
have contacted him. That he was the one who could have freed the
girl, but in the end he said nothing. If it was true, then his
It was an accident. The boys had been playing and one fell
from a high perch, snapping his neck against the concrete of the
sidewalk that ran through the playground. But Father Joseph knew
better. He knew that the other boy had been pushed. He knew that
the girl, Joseph's mother, had been evil, and the boy had
* * *
The boy slept most of the way, with a smile on his face.
Keep smiling boy, Father Joseph thought, you won't have much
reason when you see where we're going. They got to the bridge a
few minutes later. The bridge was particularly high on this part
of the river, thanks to two tall hills that flanked this part of
the river. Father Joseph had chosen this spot a week ago. He had
people had leapt from the middle of this bridge and not one of
them had ever been seen alive again. His only caveat was that
only six bodies had been recovered so far. Still, the statistics
Father Joseph tried not to wake the boy, but the cold air
did the job for him. The boy looked up at him, his big, bright
eyes shining; then Joseph lifted him up over the railing. The
boy looked down and terror filled his eyes. He lunged, and he
flesh. Joseph pushed the boy down, but the boy held. He clung to
With a final heave, Joseph pitched the boy down into the
into the night. Father Joseph never heard the splash. A minute
knew he had done the right thing, assuming the boy was dead (he
had to be dead. He had to be). He knew because the boy had tried
to kill Joseph, seeing his own death. The boy had gone
not nearly as certain about what had happened. The boy had
Joseph's arms toward his head, but how else could the boy have
he'd done.
Kathleen sat on the end of his bed, smoking. She sprang to her
feet.
gone, Joseph."
"I know."
Kathleen collapsed back into the chair across his desk. The
cigarette fell from her fingers and she stomped it out only when
to the end and realize only then what we should have done with
our time. What we should have loved, what chances we should have
taken."
nodded, but didn't like this philosophical mood Kathleen was in.
young to realize that her life held a different tack. This young
dear."
noise this time, but no less insane. She smoked hard, like she
could suck the life clear out of herself. "I know that it worked
on you. You fell in love with me, only briefly. I know that it
felt like I was really helping. So when you said that you didn't
Joseph set his third glass of brandy down. "What are you
talking about?"
He laughed bitterly.
"I still do," she said. "When the boy was old enough, I
her in the position of power. But the boy was dull. Dull like
him. She couldn't control it. Poor girl thought she was cursed.
I didn't expect her to go back to her home. You know how poor,
and about her being taken to America. And Teddy...he was too
dumb. Like a dog Teddy followed my simple commands, got himself
stupidly killed."
Kathleen wiped tears from her eyes after a long moment. She
shook her head. "Just a baby, Joseph. Whatever you did--I don't
She left soon after, dragging behind snow and wind like a
continued on. The baby was never found. The rumors that Kathleen
had sold the boy to the black market, and then killed herself
when her guilty conscience got the best of her, arose and Joseph
that had come after he'd dropped the boy into the water, to its
He never knew that the scream he'd heard was his own.
THE END