The document summarizes a company's rehearsal for a new schools project. It discusses warm-up games played to energize the group and rebuild fun and togetherness. It also describes workshops on neutral alignment, dreams and nightmares, and getting to know each other better through exercises like facial observation and massage. The writer reflects on strengthening their understanding of neutral positioning and the balance between stillness and impulses for actors.
The document summarizes a company's rehearsal for a new schools project. It discusses warm-up games played to energize the group and rebuild fun and togetherness. It also describes workshops on neutral alignment, dreams and nightmares, and getting to know each other better through exercises like facial observation and massage. The writer reflects on strengthening their understanding of neutral positioning and the balance between stillness and impulses for actors.
The document summarizes a company's rehearsal for a new schools project. It discusses warm-up games played to energize the group and rebuild fun and togetherness. It also describes workshops on neutral alignment, dreams and nightmares, and getting to know each other better through exercises like facial observation and massage. The writer reflects on strengthening their understanding of neutral positioning and the balance between stillness and impulses for actors.
We started back on the oor on Wednesday with a fun and
energised warm up. It was so much fun to be back rehearsing and about to start a new project, also I felt that the togetherness we had as a company at the end of 'Ways of Seeing' has been carried through and is getting stronger, which is fabulous! To get our bodies warm we practiced our dancing ready for the next session with Vicky and did some corner work to work on our leaps. Then we played some fun games " cut the cake, I'm a gnome and babooshka, which we haven't done in so long. We've nally got the fun back in the company and after a few weeks where things felt stressful and heavy, I feel we're now back on track with making rehearsals enjoyable and lled with laughter. 1 My Journey Games of the week: " Name ball game " Zip, Zap, Boing " I'm a gnome " Babooshka " Celebrity name game Strengths: " Playfulness " This has been an individual and a company strength this week because we've played so much and have created fun work from it, such as our dream sequence. When we've enjoyed ourselves creating the work it turns out all the better for it and rubs o# on whoever's watching, so we need to achieve this in our schools project piece. " Losing myself in the dreams and nightmares workshop. We haven't done something like this in so long so it felt great to go into my own little world and create a land in my imagination. ON OUR WAY TO NEW ADVENTURES Credited Google Images Credited Google Images Schools Project 27th October 2014 Carleigh's neutral workshop was quite the revelation as I found out that my view of what neutral was is very di#erent to what it actually is. I think throughout our two years, we've always seen getting into neutral as relaxing the body ready to start, when it's really not a relaxed position at all, but it's economical because no energy is wasted unnecessarily. Feet should be hip width apart and parallel, pelvis tucked under, back hipbone in line with the heels, slight tension in back to support chest and breathing, bring shoulder blades down to widen chest, don't bring tension to the chest, head extended up from the back of head and face relaxed but alert. Hands relaxed and arms rested by sides not in front or behind. These are my notes on how to get into neutral and it made me realise just how 'unneutrally' I was standing before. I'd seen it as just having my feet hip width apart and arms by my sides, which is easy to do and the reason why it didn't make me feel as ready and alert as the correct position does, because when it's easy to do it becomes complacent and too relaxed to stay fully alert, whereas in the proper neutral position it requires a lot more work and concentration therefore I found it easier to keep my eyes looking alert and alive and not going into a trance focus. We stood in the position for a long time and after a while I began to feel sti# in my back and my feet felt a bit numb, which Carleigh said was normal because we'd been there for a while, so I don't think that it is a good position to hold as I then wasn't ready to move and be on the balls of my feet ready to go as the stillness in my body made it go seize up. This makes me think that the whole thing of being in neutral can be quite a contradiction because I also discovered that being neutral is impossible " it requires complete stillness, which is not humanly possible and also all of our neutrals are di#erent, so we all bring our own personal touch to it in some way without meaning to, therefore we're never absolutely neutral. As well as this, we were talking a lot about impulses and as actors they're very important " they keep the work fresh and exciting when we go with our impulses, but in everyday life people tend to suppress their impulses a lot. For example, if we feel threatened by someone walking towards us, the natural impulse would be to run the other way, but we usually tell ourselves to keep going it's nothing. I understand that impulses are not always right and if we always followed them in normal life it might not turn out for the best, but as actors we have the freedom to explore and play, so I believe it very important to follow impulses because it could lead to so many discoveries. This is why I nd the whole neutral thing strange sometimes because as actors we need impulses for discoveries and to create exciting work, but then we're training our bodies to ignore impulses to move and try and be as still as we 2 My Journey Strengths continued: " Enduring the pain in the stretches. I was really proud of myself because in the cobra I didn't relax the position once and in the others I had done a couple of times because the pain was horrid, but it showed me that the more positions we did the more focused I became, therefore I was able to get through it. Weaknesses: " I wish I'd have had more time to prepare for the Beano reading as I don't feel I reached my full potential with the character or her story. I think I felt panicked that I didn't know the lines o# by heart and had to rely on the script, therefore I rushed the words just to get them out, when really I should've relaxed because I had the script with me, so I wasn't going to not know what I was saying, I should've enjoyed the words more. Schools Project 27th October 2014 can. I appreciate that we're trying to create a blank canvas to build on and that is very useful, but when we're using our neutral position in a vocal or when playing a game I nd it's so controlled and sti# that it's hard to be free and impulsive. Perhaps it's more about getting rid of habits than eradicating physical impulses when in neutral and I suppose the more we practice this the more naturally all these new things about the position will come and I'll improve my understanding of the importance of getting as close to neutral as we can as actors.
Moving on to some yoga stretches we did a foot stretch, the child's position, cobra and on all fours into standing. The main message was 'breathe through the pain'! It denitely was about endurance, strength and achievement, which I liked because it was very painful at times, but I felt strong being able to get on with it, focus and breathe through it. It did help in this to go into a trance like focus because then I forgot about the pain, it's when I looked around and saw other people su#ering and dgeting that it reminded me that it hurt, so it really is best to keep quiet, man up and get on with it! Only the strong survive! I feel it's good to train the mind to endure things like this because as actors it's our job to explore our emotions and at times dive into some that can be di$cult to deal with, but it is what acting is about so we have to 3 My Journey Credited Google Images Weaknesses continued: " Time is ying so fast and I don't feel I'm getting anything done. There is so much I've been meaning to do, such as my scrapbook, contact schools, monologues etc. But I just don't get time. I spend so long on each piece of work that I don't get to do all the things I need to. I really must speed up. Action Plan: " Master of the House " Monologues " Scrapbook " Contact schools Schools Project 27th October 2014 be able to power through and handle it.
The nal part of the workshop helped us to get to know each other better as a company. We've been together for over two years and have been through so much that I feel they're the people who I know best and they know me best, so it was strange when it dawned on me in this workshops that there are little things I should know, but I don't and no matter how much I feel I know someone, there are always many more things to discover. From the exercises we did I saw so many more details in my company members that I haven't noticed before. The one where we studied each other's faces with the person's eyes shut felt a bit invasive to be studying them so intently when they had their eyes shut so didn't know who was looking, but I believe this shows we have a good trust in the company to be able to let each other do this and notice the tinier details in us. I liked the massage one the best because I'm not a fan of massages myself, they're not something I really enjoy, but I just found it so interesting to not be able to see the person massaging me, which therefore made me really concentrate on the feel of their hands and how much pressure they applied and if that suited their personality. I found a big thing I was relying on was smell because I do have quite a strong sense of smell and each individual has their own scent, which I recognise, bit it did help because, although I wasn't downwind of it so couldn't fully pick up the scent, it helped me to rule out people who I know really well and remember their scents to work out who it might be. I guessed right in that it was Amber and I think it's because I'd held her hand in the 'I'm a gnome' game earlier in the day, so recognised the feel of her hands. The nal game was where someone went in the middle, Carleigh asked a question, such as what is their eye colour and we'd have to pick a side of the room depending on the answer. An observation most of us made from this was that we didn't trust what we know enough and being under pressure made me doubt whether what I believed to be true was actually true. It was strange because all the questions Carleigh asked we'd happened to have conversations about in the past few weeks. We played a game in the pub where we had to say each other's eye colours to see who paid most attention, I'd asked Connor the other day if he had any brothers or sisters and Erol had measure Lewis and Amber 4 My Journey Credited Google Images Schools Project 27th October 2014 to see who was tallest, so we all knew all of the answers, but I realised that sometimes I may ask a question, but not fully take in the answer, which is bad, but I nd on occasions I can say things just to make conversations, but I don't really listen to the response. As a company, there is so much more to discover about each other and it's quite exciting to nd out more! Our afternoon workshop with Innes was great fun! We began with a game we've played many times, but this time with a twist. It was the ball game where it's thrown in pattern, but we did it whilst walking the space. It's a great focus game and I feel we get now that being focused isn't about being deadly serious and not moving an inch, but actually being able to have fun and laugh about the game and stay concentrated on it, which is what we did. It kept us amused for ages and we didn't realise that we'd been going for 15 minutes when Innes stopped us. I could've carried on it was such a fun game and we developed it further in our warm up the next day by doing it without saying each other's names, which really enhanced our spacial awareness and non verbal communication. This is something I feel is developing as a company. We've now settled into this smaller company and are learning how to work together e$ciently using each other's strengths to create the best work and this makes us much more able to work as an ensemble and move together as a company. Thinking back to our rst day of this year doing the skipping rope game where all of us had to jump under it at the same time, we were a group of individuals then and hadn't yet formed a company, so I'd love to go back to this now and note the di#erence. The colours exercise we went on to do with Innes I found so useful because I've never done anything like this before, using my body and emotions to embody a colour moving around the space. It was amazing that the thought of a colour could spark so much from me. I found I had a whole story going on for each one and I found that I wasn't a person in that story, but a 'thing' or a 'being' and the other actors in the space became a part of my world. For example, 'yellow' made me feel so happy and I imagined a big open eld with long grass on a sunny day, 'black' I felt quite mysterious and curious and became a cat hunting a mouse in the dark. For some of the colours I acted on impulse and didn't even think what I was doing, it just came to me, but for others it took me a moment to think before something popped into my head, which to me shows that I have stronger connections with some colours than others and some can instantly provoke emotions, but others I have to work out rst. This I'm going to nd so helpful approaching monologues, because I feel it'll help me a lot if I put di#erent colours to each section of the speech and see how it helps to draw the emotion out of me.
I really enjoyed working with Innes this week, as we did a great adventurous workshop on Thursday where we went into our own worlds and traveled to a beach and then a mysterious forest whilst working on dreams and nightmares. A workshop like this we haven't done for a while, but I just loved creating and seeing my own land in my imagination and getting the chance to explore it. I found there was so much colour and vibrancy in my beach because it was like a lone island and had the sea and the sand, but also a jungle in the middle where there were beautiful exotic birds and fruits hanging from the trees. I found that when I was at the beach I could picture it all very clearly and it was very vibrant in my imagination, but I didn't really feel that much because it was all so peaceful and compared to the next one in the forest there wasn't much at stake. In the forest however, I didn't have as clear a vision of it and I feel it didn't create as many visuals in my imagination, but more sounds and feelings. I felt I could feel 5 My Journey Credited Google Images Schools Project 27th October 2014 my environment much more, the wetness of the muddy ground, the chill in the air and the more emotional feelings, such as the eeriness of not being able to see where I was going properly, questioning whether the following owl was trying to help me or hurt me, the fear at the loud footsteps getting closer and closer to where I was hiding. I felt that there was a lot at stake because I was trying to hide from this shadowy gure approaching me until it snapped me awake and out of this world. I did feel I experienced the contrast between dreams and nightmares " dreams being very peaceful and almost trance like, whereas nightmares being more active and awake with a huge adventure taking place.
Working as a company to create our own dream sequence was enormous fun. We discussed our own dreams and nightmares and came up with the most common things that occur " the feeling of ying and falling, used these as a starting point, along with a fear of being drowned and buried alive. Our piece was very Peter Pan inspired, with ying to a magical land, sailing on a ship then a battle between pirates and lost boys, a chase sequence, capture, drowning, being buried alive and then waking up. It did ow from a dream into a nightmare, which was the brief. A big thing we got out of it as a company was the feeling of complete play and euphoria at being inside this dream. Ideas owed o# of each thing we did and I felt we all had absolute belief in what we were doing, we were so into this dream that it did seem real. I feel the note we got from Innes about having neutral faces because in dreams people's faces tend to have no expression made sense, but didn't allow all this fun and excitement to pour out of us, because I could feel it inside and it wanted to come through in my face, but I had to try and hold it back. I would love to revisit this and look more into creating individual characters inside the piece, as it's a great base to begin our schools project. Lastly this week we've been rehearsing for the Beano reading and radio recording. It felt so great to get back to scene work and I just loved getting to try di#erent characters before they recast it. I've always loved Mr Shepherd and Miss Tidmarsh, but I found when reading for her I didn't quite connect as well as I thought I would and I struggled with her holding herself back all the time and suppressing her feelings. I did have a lot more fun with the su#ragettes, so was delighted to be cast as Ada because I think her bossiness is great and I empathise with the character having to keep everything together when Bess and Edna are arguing. The rehearsal time was incredibly short, so I did feel nervous on Sunday as I felt I owed it to the piece to do it justice and to tell it's story for one last time was a big responsibility, but I love a challenge! I wasn't thrilled with my performance as i feel 6 My Journey Credited Google Images Schools Project 27th October 2014 having the script hindered me and I didn't feel truly connected with the character. I would've loved to have spent much more time going through the scenes and working out the subtext and intentions behind everything she was saying, as I only had my memories of when I directed it and notes I gave, so I didn't feel my portrayal of Ada was strong enough. I didn't feel I fully got across her story " there was a lot more to be told. However, I thought overall the performance went well and we got a lovely response from the audience who found the stories much clearer without the added fuss of the full show and I thought the gags were clearer as there were a lot more laughs than I ever remember from the rst time. It was interesting to do a stripped back performance and rely on just the words in the script, it is after all the bible of any show and I enjoyed doing something di#erent to what I'm used to and testing myself. I've made a lot of discoveries this week and feel we have a lot of things to take into the schools project to create a wonderful piece " I can't wait to start!