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Defiant Daughter, Divine Grace, P 74-80
Defiant Daughter, Divine Grace, P 74-80
I am pretty sure, that you, the reader, might think I am making this all up. I wish I were. I want this little journal to be a work of reflection, so now I am reflecting. I am sure
Suffice it to say, the Spirit of the Lord was with me. I didn’t yell, and I didn’t slap her. In now that it wasn’t the pith that Candi was angry about. I am guessing that her outburst
the quietest voice I could muster, I simply said, “From this day on, you will make your over the orange was triggered by something else. Maybe it was a smoke screen which
own lunch.” masked the real problems she was having in school—problems that I didn’t learn about
until later.
I can’t change anything now, but sometimes I wonder how I should have dealt with
those times. However, in all my pondering, I still don’t have a complete answer.
Candi was not the type of child to open up and speak. She kept a lot of her feel-
Wednesday, January 29, 1997
ings bottled up inside and would just explode at the slightest provocation. Even just
reminding her to feed her rabbit or mentioning any other mundane thing could initiate
Dear Candi,
a negative reaction.
Tonight was quite a little scene and you truthfully almost
Sometimes, as I look back, I think it was probably just as well that I didn’t react to
lost the opportunity to do driving lessons. Well, at least from
her outbursts. I think she needed time to work through the issues for herself. I know that
now on you will be peeling your own oranges since you expect if I had tried to reason with her, it would have only been an open door for her screaming
me to do it completely according to your standard, at all times. and blaming which would have done nothing to soothe her or calm my anger.
Sometimes I think you forget that you are sixteen. Any- Today Candi reminds me that I did often give her the silent treatment. It wasn’t
way, a simple little grounding is in order for this weekend and deliberate on my part, but it seemed like the only way to have a semblance of peace in
you will just have to make your own sandwich on Friday. my home. I cringe now at how this must have affected her. She was hurting so much
It is such a shame that ever so often you revert to your and then to have me ignore her must truly have been a lot for her to bear. For that I
little attitude. Well, try not to lose out on all your little am truly sorry. I never said I was a perfect mother. Thank the Lord for His forgiveness
benefits. and for Candi’s today.
Love, As I said, I spoke very little directly to Candi when problems occurred. However, I
Mom have informed her, now that she is grown, that I did speak. I spoke through the journal
which I handed to her when she left for college. Although my responses were not al-
ways immediate, she did learn and has finally come to understand how things were af-
fecting me. She also came to the realization that I did understand her hurt and her pain.
Trouble at School
I don’t remember much about what followed. I know that I didn’t make her lunch Approximately a week after the incident with the lunch scene, I found out that
for a while. Candi tells me now that I did go back to making her lunches again. So I am Candi was having some problems at school with a girl by the name of Melissa. This
assuming she must have apologized or begged me to continue and I did. I am pretty girl belonged to the popular “in” crowd. For reasons unknown, she started picking on
sure it wasn’t right away, though. Candi. Apparently, as Candi was running for track practice, Melissa was sitting with her
group of buddies on the sidelines, and as Candi jogged by, she stretched out her foot
76 Defiant Daughter Divine Grace Orange Peels And Basketball Boy 77
Basketball Boy
and kicked her. When I learned about this incident, I was incensed. Candi, however,
It is necessary to also note here that the incident with Melissa came shortly after
did not want me to go to school and do anything about it. She was right. It’s not good
another school-related incident. A certain basketball player took a liking to Candi. I
for kids to have their parents fight all their battles for them. I learned from Candi that
didn’t get any indication from her that she had any feelings toward this young man.
this was a one-time event. Thank God for that.
We had talked about him before. She had told me that he was a rather promiscuous
person and she had no interest in him. Thank God, Candi was not into sex, drugs, or
alcohol. However, two cousins liked this basketball player and imagined Candi to be
a threat to them.
Thursday, February 6, 1997 9:01 P.M. The two young ladies, who were a part of the Urban Suburban program, decided
to bully Candi. Now, this is how misguided society can be. Candi had no relationship
Dear Candi, with this basketball player except as a peer, yet these two girls, instead of focusing on
I think you misunderstood what I was telling you why they were being spurned by this student, decided to bully the person they per-
tonight. This girl Melissa (I think that’s her name) had no ceived to be the object of his attention.
right to hit, punch, or kick you. Sometimes I think you are They started threatening Candi. They even pulled her hair one time! Another
just too soft. As a teacher I have observed that the so-called time they followed her into the girls’ bathroom with the intention to beat her up. Candi
big, bad bullies pick on a person they perceive they can man- was aware of their intention and stayed in the stall for a long time, missing her class,
age and manipulate. I am so angry inside that I almost feel because she was afraid to come out. Thank the Lord for His mercy, they left without
THE BREAKING
POINT