WRITING ASSIGNMENT

November 26, 2014

Numb, Alive, and Falling

When i was little i thought that i was the happiest little boy in the world. Then i realized
that i actually always alone in the world, despite of my mom on my side. That was not enough. I
had a complete parents, and my father rules the family less like a tyranny, anyway he taught me
anything but a friendship and the warmth of a family. Never once i'd told to look for someone for
a friend. I became a stolid and clumsy boy and it costs me really hard to deal with people. At that
time i wonder, If it's just i was born from another family, would it make any difference?. I had a
many dreams that a boy could've, i dreamt a family, brother or sister that i at least could talk
with, or at least a friend. Years passed by, and so many thing have happened. My father had
divorced from my mother. We didn't have any contact for approximately 6 years later. It didn't
bother me at all. In fact i felt free, but still numb. Things went so fast while i was still dormant
being that little boy. I've grown up to be a mature man without knowing how to make a
friendship. I became a solitary man. In a positive way i forced myself to be an independent
person. At that time i thought, there was no used for me looking for a friend. I had a principle
"Why bother looking for a friend if you can survive on your own?. I proved myself i could
survive being a solitare until i was graduated from senior high school. But still i had to pretend
to be normal.
For years i was pretending to be someone's friend, i pretended to feel the friendship from
any stranger i could've met in my life. Had only i had taught about the friendship when i was a
child, would it make me any less normal?. If only the feeling of alive could be better without
relationship to another. Sometimes i wonder, how on earth can any people connect to another
and build a relationship so easily?, which doesn't work the same for me. If only there's an instant
cure for this mentally illness, could i be saved?. Actually the cures are time and yourself. As the
time goes by, i learn to accept the condition where i live in. I know that someday i have to stop
building walls from people live around me. Right now i start feeling better. I'am trying to
develop feelings for people, and for myself. I hope during my college years i can learn a lot
about life and its components. I hope i can be a bestfriend for anybody, a decent person, a lovely
man, and off course a better person than before. If only anything in this world happens as i
expect, i would expect myself to be a normal.

Mohammad arief wibowo | Advance 1 - Helmi's class

WRITING ASSIGNMENT

November 26, 2014

Vocab: In Vain
1. He tried in vain to persuade a policeman to let him enter the crime scene.
2. The convict tried in vain to escape several times from prison.
3. I laughed into my friend's face when his pee poured down into his pants as he tried in vain to
stop the flow.
4. Bejo had an accident last night when his parent tried in vain to reach him.
5. I won't make her death be in vain.

Mohammad arief wibowo | Advance 1 - Helmi's class