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Lol of LolthuluFINAL
Lol of LolthuluFINAL
Lol of LolthuluFINAL
Lol of Lolthulu
(A working title)
By
Tom Jarrett
My veins are already filled with lava, keep your burning needle to yourself.
Pierce the skin of this social construct you fabricated to keep the panic at bay,
tear at the bag over your head keeping the eyes from seeing and the mouth
from breathing. Stop telling me to be calm with your wrinkled brow and fake-
smiling eyes, I feel the lies from underground poisoning the well.
You’re one of them? The ones that whisper in my sleep and reach towards
me with promises of treachery. You’re one of them? One of the others then,
standing neatly in a corn row awaiting the Harvester with the slow scythe. “Not
in my lifetime” you say with smug stupidity. I see it now, the ignorance in your
eyes. You try to hide it with anger but that floats like cream atop the placid
eyes of a cow awaiting the hammer. You have the eyes but you do not see, not
in your lifetime perhaps but in the end the Harvester will have his Harvest, the
Your syringe just hides the truth behind a chemical veil. The Harvester
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You ask the questions but do not hear the answers, you want the truth but it’s
you who bought me to this place of padded rooms and silence, stopped my
Crusade with your wailing car and metal bindings. You ask and I tell: Dave lies
dead underground, feeding the slumbering beast. I killed him, led him like a
Judas Goat before the crowd. More blood will flow to feed the end, every one of
you drained dry, and it is I who will be responsible for the letting.
No! Stay still and silent. You ask to hear but do not listen, your grabbing
hands and hard restraints send reality fluttering away like a startled crow. Let
***
In this picture I see a cave filled with the screaming of a million souls. In
this one I see chitinous limbs over a wailing mouth. The third is a tentacle diving
deep into flesh, sucking the warm blood from a friend. Why ask me to describe
what is plain to see? Are those tiny wireframed lenses just for show, the carefully
shout a warning with every breath in my lungs that you drown out with softly
worded platitudes. But in the land of the blind the one eyed psychologist is king.
Dive into me and fish the words we need from the murky depths, but beware the
things that lurk beneath. They crave silence, and kill word smugglers on sight.
Take the truth and hide it, suckle and protect it, until it’s big enough to fly the
nest. Your death will have meaning, your blood will taste bitter to the
slumbering horror.
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The men with the cruel coat and liquid gag come! Hide your heart and
show them surface, they mistake depth for lies. Tomorrow you shall fish the
dark places.
***
young girls and old whiskey. Too much of both we sampled, and proud of our
fresh shame we meandered towards a final rest. Dave was my tail, ever
following and always lost. More sober in nature and bottle he halted in front of
the dark alley, protests bouncing off the alcohol effervescent in the cracks of my
brain. The longest short cut I shall ever take. A perfume of sickly-sweet refuse
smell so vile the moon itself covered its face. Despairing brickwork crumbled
around us, everything of value in this place long since fled or taken away. Even
the tramps.
And why not? Human refuse has value, it can kick and scream as well as
Red tongued explosions licked saltily at nerve endings as face hit floor,
feet kicked from underneath as I was pushed from behind. I added my own
sweet flavour to that soup on the floor. Fleeting glimpses of dark figures in dark
robes in a black night were all I saw, oily shines from distant streetlamps and a
sewer stench that mugged the nostrils. Hempen bands of steel choked hands
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and feet in burning coils. Did you know the Hangman’s noose is equally deadly
Cowls and veils and overpowering limbs, that’s all fate really is,
Follow my dragging feet if you wish to know where I went. I don’t. I might
find it again. Doors were opened, stairways descended, grates removed, locks
made pointless; you are a fucking idiot. For all your learning and arrogance you
missed this entire world in shade. I was a drunken wretch, did you think I’d find
it for you, presenting it proudly like a schoolboy with his algebra homework?
Fucking idiot. All I care to remember of that trip is a journey along the sewers,
faeces and second hand toilet paper caressing my leg, a million recycled dinners
filling my long boots, soaking into my socks. Remember it too, because it’s
Can you hear them, marching towards this room? I despair, practice now
because when they come for you there’ll be no warnings, just the noose. We
talked of butterflies, rainbows and the aliens stealing my brain. Give them my
***
You look nervous. Don’t be. I gave it up long ago. Ultimately you’re just
as doomed whether you fear death or not, better to relax, make the assassins
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said, the only ones who’ll kill you is them or me. But enough frivolity, listen well.
Shit in my shoes, remember? And the light, that sickly green light of
fireflies feeding from a month old corpse. There is no metaphor here, they
skittered and danced a monstrous jig through that cold stale air even whilst they
Don’t be dense, all of that was metaphor. This was not the place of
We’re long past the sewers. Read between the lines on my forehead.
These were long tunnels of needling rocks and sly edges pulling my skin off like
an overcoat. Probably Dave’s as well. Terrible friend I was, valuing my own life
over his, my longest friend. His life was worth little; my own, nothing. So let’s
balance those tiny scales with our own blood, preferably yours. Most of mine is
Bound like a pig for roasting, feet and hands. Stupid creatures. There was no
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Really it should have been quite fun, like when you were a young boy and
your Uncle Bob dragged you around the horse yard on that old burlap grain sack.
Do you remember? It was the same thing, except without Unky Bob the sack the
yard the sun and the fun, with dark and pain and fear and piss and stink and
bugs and bugs. Pulled down that tunnel like a ferret chasing rabbits, but the
rabbit caught the ferret and now he’s taking him back where the thumbscrews
are because no one chases him oh yes the filthy fucking rodent will pay yes he
will.
And the tunnel ended, and behold the glittering warren. Oh what a
beautiful party to crash into snapping all your limbs and forcing your brain
through your nose. We stood on a stony balcony with an interstellar view, but
the firebugs had eaten all the stars, nibbling unstoppably voracious until Heaven
was devoured. There was no end to it, they’d obviously moved outer space
underground.
The worn stones floors drank in my blood and revelled in my pain, fat-man
greedy. But they gave me gravedirt in return, packed tight inside refrigerating
my organs. I’d have been disappointed in the trade were it not for the mind
shredding terror. In the light of a million frenzied star-bugs I watched them drag
Dave towards the edge of this nightmare reality, the robes the pain the insects.
The gaping abyss sucked toothily at him, its gnawing hunger awakened as
the warm salty scent of blood wafted forward. A sound, the final note on a
funeral organ, heralded its awakening. It bypassed the ears and went straight to
the gut, entering every orifice like a jet-stream of gravel. That dank
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underground air almost solidified, gurgling into my lungs and hanging over head
Dark robe bottoms stopped short of a waist high boulder before the slick
precipice, and the substellar rumbling rolled around the cavern. Before then I
didn’t know that space could rumble, but I guess my stomach does when it wants
to be filled. Stationary, the figures let off fumes of sweet rotting death, rolling
outwards in thick invisible clouds. There was a big rock (altar) there, covered in
creeping vines with thorn-like teeth. Sorry, teeth-like thorns. The surreal
tableau with the macrocosmic soundtrack lasted but a second before Dave was
flung onto the rock (altar). His skull’s echoes became a staccato counterpoint.
Our robed captors drifted into a loose circle around him, boy scouts holding
wrapped around the toilet awaiting more dry heaves. The cold leeching into my
body was from the kitchen tiles I’d collapsed onto, too drunk to make it to my
room. That howling, wind through the back alleys carrying the reek of refuse.
The raw-throated screams that clawed bleeding strips from my heart were
Dave.
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The screams were Dave, who’d turned a cheap horror movie on, a tacky
tale of abduction and hooded figures and caverns underground, of hurt and bugs
Open eyes saw Dave writhing as if his skin were charring. They told half
truths. Reality; Dave tried to writhe, but couldn’t. Saw-like vines coiled around
arms and legs, tasting the warm flow within. They slithered over chest and face
and groin, thorns biting deep into tender flesh, ripping skin into bleeding gashes.
That’s how Dave died. His piercing shrieks faded as the cannibal vines
drank deep, swelling vegetable leeches turning crimson under the earth. The
more they suckled, the louder the rumbling became, the sound cackling taunt of
a hyena chewing on a severed jugular and the burble of an infant full of mother’s
milk. The sound was liquid mercury in my stomach, poison gnawing at every
organ.
faced the dead sky with arms pulled back. And then the veils slipped.
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I saw the truth. The truth is a chitinous shell, a full-body scab. It’s a
slender bipedal cockroach, taller than man. Serrated arms spread in unknowable
pleasure as dread music suffocates your senses, their black eye clusters above
on your best friend’s corpse, bloody strips disappearing down alien gullets.
The veil has slipped and I have seen the truth. It shall not be unseen.
Tearing skin from flesh, they forgot about me for the moment. Biting back
the creeping bile, I thrashed like a fish on hot tarmac. Rope and bloody wrists
caught in my teeth as I tried to bite through both. Acid pain poured into my
within. Skin rolled off my heel, human waste stinging exposed nerves as I hauled
at one leg. Like a fawn pulling free of a bear trap, I tore loose one bleeding shit-
encrusted foot.
I ran. I didn’t even look back, to see if one of them pulled their jaws from
Dave’s flesh to stare after me, gore stained mandibles twitching in the chill
charnel breeze.
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I didn’t remember how I got above, how many days it took. All I knew was
my heart in my throat and my bowels running loose. The clacking calls of pursuit
sucking the heat from my bones. Gulping down pooled water that tasted of
rotten vegetables. Hiding down side passages and behind boulders as rustling
The last thing I remember from that place was stumbling into that abyss
hand on a rock to steady myself, pain lanced through it: the thorny plant lunged
forwards as I pulled away. The crimson blot of my blood flowed through the vine,
Leaning over, I watched that drop flow down. That same bass groan
coalesced out of the air, encasing me in nausea and dread. It plucked the
starbugs out of the dead air, their needle legs lancing my skin as they flooded
from the corridor. As a single needling cloud they flew, following that single drop
downwards.
A lifetime later the swarm burst against the bottom. Something there,
perspective). The bugs zagged crazily over lumpy contours and glistening oily
pools, their sickly green glow making every square inch look coated in toad skin.
The scattered forms gathered piecemeal to one gnarled scar. It may’ve been a
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fingers. The world was filled with a noise like claws down a chalkboard, but the
world itself was the chalkboard. That scar, that ancient wound, was opening like
a man sawed in half, each part falling away exposing bloody gristle. It kept
opening, splitting the ground like a cleaver, and from it flew a glistening stream
of iridescence, a million more bloated bodies to join the horde. And in that
teeth as sharp as the thorns that drank Dave’s blood. Damp grey flesh
exhalation filled the air with the carrion stench of a million corpses rotting in
This was how the world would end. The veil had fallen and I alone knew
what lay beneath. Into that odorous chasm civilisation would sink, thorny vines
digging deep into arteries and innumerable insect hordes blotting out the sun.
Do you see? Do you see? You hear but do not listen, hiding cognition
behind wire-framed lenses which only let you see the rosy fiction under your
nose.
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Take me back to my room with the soft walls and high windows. I’ve no
***
This dark cell, the common mind. Trapped in the mundane perceptions of
blindfolded cattle. Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, ready or not here they
come. They will not see the truth. But you do. Those dead eyes were built for
it. That vacant head primed for it. Spewed into the world with but one goal. The
Hiss all you like. Grind the bars against your mouth parts, reach in with a
serrated limb and swipe and spit. The world is our prison, but soon one of us will
be free.
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