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The Rainbow Comes and Goes
The Rainbow Comes and Goes
close friends had recently died, and she was feeling her age
for the first time.
“I’d like to have several more years left,” she told me.
“There are still things I’d like to create, and I’m very curious
to see how it all turns out. What’s going to happen next?”
As her ninety-first birthday neared, I began to think
about our relationship: the way it was when I was a child and
how it was now. I started to wonder if we were as close as we
could be.
The deaths of my father and brother had left us alone with
each other, and we navigated the losses as best we could,
each in our own way. My father died in 1978, when I was ten;
and my brother, Carter, killed himself in 1988, when I was
twenty-one, so my mom is the last person left from my im-
mediate family, the last person alive who was close to me
when I was a child.
We have never had what would be described as a conven-
tional relationship. My mom wasn’t the kind of parent you
would go to for practical advice about school or work. What she
does know about are hard-earned truths, the kind of things
you discover only by living an epic life filled with love and loss,
tragedies and triumphs, big dreams and deep heartaches.
When I was growing up, though, my mom rarely talked
about her life. Her past was always something of a mys-
tery. Her parents and grandparents died before I was