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Diary From The Wind
Diary From The Wind
Diary From The Wind
On one wall, my name is engraved with blade, it doesnt mean anything to anyone and bygone
days already no one remembers, except me. I shall furiously bang the window in the night
without wind, invoke the names that are just faded Polaroid pictures, the name by which are
called grandchildren, sometimes living people. I will run these halls as before, going through the
smiling, be a whirlwind there where I once laid and woke up. Whoever follows me Maybe for
one to whom I was the last picture, just shout and a flash that he saw when he blinked and
became the light, perhaps a woman with a gaunted face, of almond color, whose bitter from
poison lips I have kissed, leaving into the light and peace, I will still stayThe head follows the
sound of the piano, ghostly rocking while going through the pages written in a fever, which has
drunk poet written in Bonn attic, a century before I could walk alone on the earth.Then he will sit
in a chair curiously and their words will seek my voice, flee to their homes, talk how I was
among them, an interesting sign that there is another coast. I'll watch them, tied and fastened,
from sycamore tree ...grin happy how cheerfully they walk, signs of their warmth and affection
follow with a look deeper than the lake. And again hurry back, in circles, which I repeat deep
into the night.
Like blossoms
Whether we like it or not, the steps will never echo through the night, as they echoed back then.
The time, like a river that carries logs into the time of spring water, carries logs in time of spring
waters, carries our string memories further and further into the memories, all are now less
present and more important fossils to us. All new presents of blue fields of our days, new winters
are creeping into out bones, endless race for food and gas, this is the time when eternal noon is
stinging. But but as soon as the drum of life slow down and sometimes flashes the images
of bright colors and moving, I thing of orchards in bloom, before dawn in a special night, and
this picture grows as big as the world. And in that, there is nothing I would know to transfer to
you brothers And I would wanted that fervently. Orchard in bloom, its intoxicating scents in
the distance, and they are rushing to me, serious threats and dangers. And one inebriation, not
only from consciousness how big a judge I am for such big events..oh if I just knew but as
from unpreparedness as much as from too much oxygen. One of such melancholy nap on my feet
and passion desire to live that you suppress, because you do not know if you will be able to
satisfy it. And you think, how someone chooses us, as flowers. But I did not convey anything.,,
One fragrant and indescribable sadness, which won over all fear. And survived until today.
About anger
There is a deep root in the human species in the belief that from adversity and terror cannot be
defended without justified anger. I remember an exciting movie about exorcist with C.C. Scott in
the lead role, where he actually negotiates with demons and in the end ge falls into raging affect
and that one frightensand withdraws himself into the abyss of that anger. And the most of
American movies are actually based on revenge. From the movies about Rocky Balboa and
further on, every one is based on the story of how the hero finds himself in an unbearable
situation, losses common sense and in justified fury he wins upon a superior opponent. When
that doesnt happen in the story, we remain deceived. But every believer knows that the devil
wins only if you enter into dispute with him, like Ivan Karamazov with the devil and every
historian knows that the Russians in December of 41 did not reject Germans from Moscow , nor
they were angry because it was winter. But because they transferred 26 untouched divisions
under Moscow from the Far East. And we all know that the operation storm was a success
because it was prepared on Dinara and because the relationship greatly changed with ones wise
effort. But, we dont like to hear that. This civilization is assured over long period of time how
let the feelings out actually means to be angry and how thatsolves things.
Personally, I in my job, the only thing I do is waiting when people are a little less dumb, so I
could catch them in that time and hooked upon constructive solutions that are the best for them.
It means everything for them. And it is amazing how much these solutions are a folk-school
logical and the only ones possible, but in his justified anger, and in fear and pain, in distrust and
hysteria, people are throwing themselves left and right, so they could do anything but that what,
in the end, will again be the result. I am deeply ashamed because the thing I know is in fact
nothing. The only thing that the next is cult of insanity that is ruling, it is long, painful and
circuitous path. Anyway, millions continue to believe so, that is old and more, and more
dominant story how it is best when there is no looking back.
The anger gives a sense of greatness and that is the essence of tragedy. Because we love the
defeat, not victory. Because victories dont have incomprehensible in itself, defeats do.
But now I wonder about this, where did this come from Who seduces us and bred to, when
Hussein goes to the gallows, we call outand scream, ant by that we only stir up one big fireplace
in which is some picturesque global flame.
Who if not that abstract and metaphysical power, which does not suit, so man could live without
that fireplace, which throws onthe chuckles on his hands and legs and leads people into the
circle.
Which wants the man to be sick, so she could heal him with poisons and curb it, And that, which
wants to be distrustful and frightened creature that will reach for all kinds of fury, so he could
feed a perverse need for warmth.
But personally, I am terribly afraid of that. Sometimes I am speechless of how wide the river that
should be run over by a man is, in order to start to realize that in everything he does, he finds
reasons for his righteous wrath. It is horrible, but every simplification leads only to violence. And
all violence leads to defeat.
I do not know where is that level at which we communicate when we do not have a chance to
exchange a word even non-verbal signals, but it exists. It may be less expressive, actually
certainly, so when we maintain misguided about the others we do not know how we do this
consciously.
And not only the people but also the circumstances in which we find ourselves. And I'm not
talking about the establishment of hypnotic rapport and other satanic nonsense but something
quite intimate, more like whisper of underground waters. I do not speak, therefore, of a
deliberate, concentrated and reasonably messaging with some learned method. Some, quite
properly, calls this network.
I'd like to talk about it more and I am sure of two things. The first is that the force of these new
age allegations of this does not stand,and I am sure how we all when we were kids, and certainly
many people and later, are or have been aware of this. And finally, it is just consequently
important why something is, but more important is, that it is like that. Because all the material
that out mind digests is firstlywith that mind observed, even if he has spawned himself.
I remember thinking about the subject when it was clear it would go to war. And I wondered,
because I read that, am I contributing to that possible evil destiny by my fearfulness and of others
too. It was claimed how it is like that. And then you begin to fear that you do not fear, it's similar
to when stupid parents yell at the small children to stop to cry. Then I realized that there is a
"proper condition" in which should lead self if we want prayers to be answered. That, prayers,
because I prayed a couple of times for a purpose and I achieved nothing.
Over time things changed. And yesterday I was excited about one possible unpleasant telephone
conversation that I was supposed to do and it turned out just fine. Butsignificantly
And at the time A, I called the man and had to convince him in something. He did not answer.
sitting over coffee I prayed that all goes as was the best, but that did not returned the call. Or has
not seen or already knows what I'm going to tell him and it makes him opposed. AT the time B, I
have realized something and prayed to be the best for all. At the time C, he answers the phone
and I take care of everything, so it was clear that the prayer was answered.
Question- Is at the time A, he was opposed to or was asleep. The question is whether there is a
moment A beyond me at all. Because, if I had not changed my inner attitude, C would look
different, and that's for sure.
So about our prayers and attitude about her, about our awareness that the outcome depends on it,
is formed not only that time after which was outcome - that is C, but also that before.
That was impossible to man, but to God it is possible, and that is important because He is beyond
time and we speak to him.
The reality is in constant dependence of the divine, in addressing, we always exist in the present,
if so, and then the past and the future are transformed into fiction. so much of Lazarus and his
revival.
but what is that essential position that enables this, firstly it is the awareness that we are dust and
life in us as it is in the hands of God. The second is that for something to be accepted as we seek,
it must have a purpose, which is in favor of everyone, otherwise it is magic. The most important
is that we may not want it, that glass that cannot go past us, nor immediately be understood.
There is still something important, an awareness of our own ignorance, and about the whole,
because it is exactly what happens what and where we were looking for, even if it is not clear to
us. This is not the fear of fear, because fear is not punishable if it does not produce hatred and
contempt.
The circles are closing. the older I get the more I am realizing. Elijah was an angel, an angel or
as they saymelek, said- rise up and walk. Over time I was more and more clear when I need to
see what is spoken to me and why .
By communicating, therefore, mutually and without contact and in what everyone knows, we'll
find a common and benevolent hand, which stands over us in all our differences and
relationships and leads a dialogue with us, teaching us of self that isgoodness.
Do not know Is there still is a cherry under which from the red double-seat bus seatrules of one
of the pivotal people of my, indeed rarely happy childhood, measured Dumina. She was low and
wide, and her mother had a black bun and she made the best salsa uporko.Facade of their old
house was washed burgundy color ..with a shower outside. When after many years and Since
three, entered the Makarska by obelisk from Napoleonic times, so I had to bite my lip, so I would
not fall apart. . Uncle is, in fact, emotional and melancholic, always have been, and there are a
little places where remained so many burning candles in memory, as right there. From there I
would peak, among those cherries,whether will I come across my every measure of femininity,
then in their twenties I think, Belinda, which was not supposed to know my childhood dreams in
the age of ten years and that they were of romantic nature.Countless pictures ..thousands. If the
root exists, its there. And in the courtyard of the Franciscans among stone sarcophagi, in a pine
forest of St. Peter, and in ... yes, most in front of "Riviera" on the beach, with the head on an
orange bathing suit, these are the first memories.And then, it was all somehow, I met Mira, the
old Mira thatof pebbles made huge mosaics in his palace and on the stairs, over has been Sunko
lady who loved Benyamin Gigli as much as I did, and back then, small uncle. and we have seen
Mira and we recognized each other. ah.. It was awful, my legs would have hung from the stairs
because they were not reaching the level of those thirty centimeters. And now I was already
uncle. Not real, but like real.That, every square meter in this city is soaked with memories. That
over the years do not fade, but only the shadows are lengthening as the sun of life all lower.
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A German could not be a positive character in the world of Holmes and Watson, the pilot without
legs could not be the bad guy at Mrs. Christie ... but that German was not from the Ardennes, he
was from the Somme. And he is an empty symbol, almost pointed hat. This was the first. And it
has passed, and now James Bond drives"German car".The second was that Adenauer is almost
forgotten, and he was the one who gave birth to the modern Germanthat gave rise to a firm
growth and in which, after having been flat like frying pan soon began to arrive nationals of
victorious countries in search of bread. Long live that German. and Hitler ... he was in a bunker,
realizing that the 9th Army does not exist, dreaming to drown Berlin because Germans betrayed
him. and then he was gone and the German has risen like never before. But again.... Whoevers
not going to school or with women,draws with a divider swastikas or on YouTube listens "that
kind of music".
Why? Why is Lord Vader so remembered ...
Because long before the society of Thule, there is one inversion, evil and black magic that intoxicates
weak. And because Nazism was not German, but something else entirely.The first country with health
protection is Prussian, and its her spirit and militarism,moltkeovian and ludendorffiam horns and oak,
one semantics and music where the black line was stolen the "Prussians Gloria", that ritterian but
constructive world of steam punk solutions, which lives on today,had to be violated with their
negation. This negation was just the tragedy of Nazism. As much as the world of three K is not south of
the United States, so much far is to the German peasantwhat he had once been cheated. Because in
the testimony by Guido Knopp, witnessed a girl once and now an old woman. My grandfather said- what
if it is not our leader, then it is a demon, and it is.
But, why am I telling this anyway, everyone knows my standpoints and knowledge of this Maybe in
order to return in the rime of the early Teutonic order an how it was made and by whom it was funded?
And why did the Knights Hospitaller despised Tautons No, that trap I will not swallow.
But I will say- stay on guard. Recognize the colors and what they bring. Today more than ever.
And in the picture is a family coat of arms Vapp von Ruhla.
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About whole, with primitive but usable attitude (king and country are one)
There.... for some time now, last some pressures and doubts, in business or not, but everything in
the total is somehow hold tight. Yoda would say that he feels in the force something heavy.Of
course, the system is established by the Roman principle, it can take a lot of torpedoes in the side
of the ship before he leans.and so it is.
But today, on the bypass of the road, a Mercedes in drive has shut down. It turned out that it was
nothing, something in the computer has flashed. My faithful gimli, after few years almost had
an epi attack, but he fought. Uncle doesnt feel well too, he was defeated by a fatigue , a kind
that he doesnt remember. Actually, in driving, I lost consciousness for a few seconds, something
was dark, pinched inside as pliers. And those three things are related. Empire is under attack. It
was piling up.
Here, he is sitting in my room because he is afraid. Guttegimli would never admit it, but I can see
it. We are old ( not the car ), experienced and we are a whole like the a phalanx of Spartan
pedestrians. But, imperial lines war brings into the forests, where they can get lost.
Again, this is nothing, considering what we have been through. And fully aware of everything,
my uncle searches for that spark, a spark that will return a wave of coldbloodness into
truncatedsystem, and it is there. It calls him, with a prayer while walking and in inner reflex
decision.
The most important of all, I feel, literally and physically, how the streams are filled with water,
how it will be overcome with power, health and a sharp spirit. I can literally see it, as I saw when
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the cloak shrank. Now, I can clearly feel that inner flood, how it gushes out, cleans before itself
the powers of darkness and weakness, how the fire in steam punk machine is burned out and how
against us, there is no victory. And all that from a single point.
on the clock, which is a whole, it says - 17 rubies.This is the same logic and truth which they
knew in the time of Arthur and which, he who sees, knows even today.Hadrian's Wall is standing.
tomorrow can come, legionnaires in impatience are throwing shields, running down into the
valley, hungry for victory.
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At some point, arrives a automobile with possible agents, which proved that those are not
policemen, but Tito pulled out a gun, and calmly puts him along himself. After he put the frame
in the gunstock, he was ready. To Krleza he gives completely coldly, advice where to withdraw
when and if he starts shooting. Few year earlier, in Caf Korzo, Tito resisted the police for a few
hours, barricaded and surrounded. Krleza was impressed. But he is also overwhelmed with
consciousness, he doesnt tell that although it is visible- this is not for me. we all know that
episode withKra and we all know how Krlezawas resented that he was not a part of that world,
where they pulling out revolvers. Ant there is one point which is the essence of this topic.
Tudjman was somewhere in a quarter distance closer to Krleza, and about three-quarters from
Tito. Tito did belong among action heroes too, unscrupulous criminals with political ambition
and with a mission. Once, he retells, with over eighty tears, how his mother held him in her arms
for a long time, when he had scarlet fever, and immediately after he heard a neighbor, who
thought that he doesnt hear him, told- he is done. And he was really deeply moved while he was
remembering that.
That pulling out of a gun on a bench and coldblooded and relaxed behavior, but we have such
even today, on all sides. Finally, the experiences from the Spanish Civil Wan to foreign legion,
they are similar, or the hijackings of plains.
And just now the question.
Is that fact of the presence of gun on the bench, causes a political options and its fruits?
Adenauer was not the gunman, neither was Roosevelt, neither was Pavlic, although Luburic was.
The man is marked by his habituation to physical jeopardy, and many of you does not know that.
Finally, Krleza heard many steps up the stair and wondered whether they will take him away.
And Tudjman too, who was , after all, textbook type. Tito was not. So, this is not a political topic,
it is only sociologically interesting.
Men who read this ...
There Women will give them to you, even without assuring yourself how it is important to be
able to carry a gun, we know that you didnt have him without a reason, but if you did. That is
sorrow and misery.And that is not the topic. At that age that will never return again. I was with
transparent veins as a young leaf of apples, at that age that will never be again When the
trouble was pulsing in anticipation of big events, and I, in my mutely anxiety, alreadywas silent.
Oh, when I only remember After all , everything was just imitation. Its hard that everyone
will knowwhat Im saying, but a skilled listener will recognize that I have to, maybe he will
knock in that step already fading sound of great Veker.
The late eighties, for us, who walked along the tracks. . . Hesse, T.S. Elliot, in the distance one
cool wind that is only about to blow, maybe just in toes, I would know how to feel that growing
shade, and a year of letters was yet to come. Ah, whatever will be later, no one can break that
restlessness out of my young lungs You know how I could run a mile faster than two and half
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minutes? That is not much, but, it is still very fast. Back then, I still wrote songs on paper,
crossed over, recited still put opium and patchouli behind my ear. I am still in prepaid
Sometimes, I smile maliciously to the fact I was so young. An no matter how much Ive darken
later, no matter how gangrenous cynical black spawn corrodes a foils of one soul, there was a
time that will, at least in the manuscript, remain ilmio Tesoro intanto. No matter what that was.
That is my big advantage and it will be later. Because, a painter remembers.Because he
flickers with a paint brush and the painting is left, an image like a print of one present. And if
everything turns around, if the painting does not burn out, she is the only testimony, the one who
is smiling on the painting. No matter how much one repents and frowns later, he remains
smiling. So, dont fear of nice things, even if you withheld them, not three, but three hundred
times.
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Indeed, it could not be easier to them than to others. But these are important things. I believe that
for the team, they were selected, perhaps by the psychological stability, if you can call it that, but
mostly by their expertise. We all could be that on the grounds of competence, and that offensive
relaxedness is exactly why- because the psyche needed to regress into most durable form. They
knew what they were doing, they knew that that must be so, and to protect themselves, they were
holding a little excursion-like. They could not get drunk, like those in firing lines, which had to
do a superb job. And of course, to survive. And live on. And they are also the victims of the
atomic bomb.
Uncles New Years speech to the earthlings on the occasion of the end of 2013 and the onset
of 2014
Tomorrow will again perform at midnight that hypothetical point of linear counting of time
where we witness repeatedly.Here, you found a purpose as some geodesic point from where is
measured and compared on the more but one side, but usually on two, as though time goes by
like a freight train in which we are arrogant packages with oranges.Everything that is along the
tracks is from a closed freight wagon, it cannot be seen. We are rethinking with passed
determined conditional now, and we dream about the future equally, it was a difficult dream, or
in love.
My dear,
That thing that will shoot tomorrow around midnight, which will open a few berks or Bacharach,
will not change anything. But it does not mean that anything can change, of course. Days will
still slide and the nodes will get involved and the man will still jump from stone to stone as
before. But there will always be
There will always be a possibility that a man will make an incredible move, brave and creative,
an entirely new and unexpected, It will flash below the frontal bone, some thought and the
lanterns will be lit up one by one through forest huts and guardhouses, ships and wandering
shelters, cornfields, under crucifixes and in monasteries. Have you forgotten how the heart is
beating in your chest when it wakes up and fire up, when the biting whispers spreads through the
streets and it becomes a roar and then thunderstorm?
Believe in man, He is the image of God himself, his footsteps no one else cannot measure.Let in
your souls raise a mighty wind, surrounded by love and strength tear the chains of fear and
drowsiness, beery evil sounds and moaning, dont let them to lead us with chains to the valley!
The ground is soaked with poisons, the words are heartwarming and committed are forgotten, in
the silence, a buzzing can be heard, a buzzing intended to conquer the sky and the earth, where
disappeared in man ability of hoping It just fell asleep. I know. Thats why I am shouting these
words , rumple with these words shirts of passing-biers- wake up. Living water is going to break
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out of the earth, blossoms of cherries and apples will burst into flames in the spring, Again will
come blood in peoples faces. The time is coming. Guard in silence. The fallen world will not
last forever.
The land is sold in prairie, for which even the Roman legions were fighting, for half a euro, for
euro. Watch how the ravens are flying over the land and measuring Yes, that evil voice is in
the air. But until the blood the peasant will bite his lip and throw in the grass rakija, he will start
to think how, and he will turn the grass green as never before, Do not lose courage. In you, in
those prairies, there are strands of young wheat from that time when people of the plow were
invited for consuls. Here, the guards of the ancient world were changing, on the Danube river,
that is out world upon which every money lender will eventually break teeth and escape. Every
disease, every seed of wheat enchanted in order to create slaves.
Forgive one another, encourage each other and lift up the fallen, not every time is easy. It is not
hard to fall, in every persons souls attractively rattles thirty pieces of silver. Do not have hatred.
Good will conquer the darkness.
This is what I want for you, And for those, in whose lives I had some role Im sorry that I gave
you and still was too little, it will be in some hour to tell ourselves- Im here, and resurrect the
best in ourselves. Im counting on you, and I believe in the most difficult time and I believe in
myself, to be there and spread my arms for you. Believe in man. An in those who you consider as
adversaries, believe in those whom you dont trust, believe that in them will open that window
about good Polish was speaking. Because it will, they are just people, like every one of us. Love
yourself, silver will create from somewhere by itself. Dont be ashamed from pain nor from
hunger, nor from debts. Pray for your enemies, let an evil get hurt,because he failed to put out the
candle in human generation, he failed to destroy lily of love with weeds of hatred. But cautious
as serpents, always joyful.
There all of this, all in themselves. and all you know and recognize on your own, and I am one
of you, maybe sometimes grotesque and self-ironic, sometimes fly high and weak, sometimes
greedy and boastful, sometimes unreliable and distracted. But when I can already see in myself
this desire which I shared with you, I want to say it out loud. She tears apart heavy clouds, gives
courage and love, faith that we will be like mountain stream in this year which is at the door.
All the best, from uncle.
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Everything else is a lie just one aquarelle from which the steps in the night are heard
Everything else is a lie just one aquarelle from which the steps in the night are heard, old and
unskillfully painted. And that steps were interrupted by loudly slamming of the train, in the time
when something was important when people were traveling. Quiet autumn wind and I can
remember more words, but I remember voices very well. I sold the painting, but I never got rid
of it. On each wall by which I sleep, she is still hanging, and Ive never even painted her.
Sometimes is hard to breathe, and then she comes alive especially faithfully. As the water in the
streams withdraws, she heads it behind and she is reminiscent. Everything else is a lie
Just one aquarelle showing autumn night and some street, that has to be the western part of the
city, towards Crnomerac, maybe that is in the driveway or crosswise. It contains a lot of fear,
forebodings and memories when hearts were so open they could feel both what was real and
what was made up, everything as single reality. While not hungry, yet, for life froze first drops
of morning whiteness, when everything still existed And now there is nothing, only rougher
men who are fighting behind the truck with bread. No matter how much theyvestrengthen, we
are doing just that. And then Oh, then
That is that canvas cut from deepest intimacy, about which needs to be silent and/ or no one can
see it if everybody can , only pass by it Why didnt just pass then, cutthat painting, in
Hubertus Im lying. In ballonet and on purpose I planted it, but to you, its all the same. But he
knows that he adjudicated everything by himself, not others. And what happened next? Nothing.
One really difficult world happened after. It could not be stopped. And why would it.
And that picture never brings emptiness and suffering. She carries with her all the thunderstorm
of color and sound, and one creepy scream. She carries so much color, that a heart can fall apart.
Then it passes. Again, like the train then. And now strikes so deep as before, solid drum of life.
And then just passes. And bites.
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Some cars are pulling a short top on the muddy road. It has to be Galicia, an Austrian soldier is
lying on gun carriage and travels with it like that, bending tobacco and writing something down.
Maybe just this, but to him than, already all was close and understandable. I dont know what
happened with him, but some part of him was not listed, And it cannot be.
Did he write home in Moravia or whatever, also I dont know. But I know that he got away from
this evil which looking for to conquer the man.
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Circassians
Last night, with one troubled director from one public sector, commenced a lively discussion
about circassians, the cruel and wicked skilled warriors on horses and reluctant runabout. I think
that he was a little romanticized about that, but there was that nietschelianism which is common
to those born in fifties, which was bypassed by an opportunity to fell from cinema gall in their
twenties into wastelands of Dinara or into cortex of those turning points of time at which we are
still trying to be proud of. The take off, Is speaking about one type of man, that observer rapture,
in which is left a little of that unreachablefor them. I was always afraid of that ever-boyish
subjectivism, I thought if I believe in that lie I was almost fearless, that I might be more radiant,
but its safer to be aware of yourself even if it starts shooting, I will be able to cope with that,
knowing that the bullets are real. No matter about it was. When stealing at least let it be known
that its stealing. And when it was showing of, let it be aware of that, and not to imagine how its
wild and rebellious.
And in that conversation, I recognized my strong desire, to say something of which I am deeply
aware from the period of my own adolescence. Aware that savagery doesnt even intoxicates, that
Schiller is a jerk and that Im openlytend to abidermayer world, and not to that from the pen of
Russian romantics with wide soul. And since I am not really stupid, I realized right away why
did that desire effervescent. Because I am, in my incomplete life had many episodes which
reminded of something big, and that gives me goose bumps, Ive had enough and it makes
me sick.
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Only nausea and heartburn. From Tolkien counties, I choose shire trice, Rohan world does not
interest me, nor I want it. Strudel with cherries with Staub sugar is quite a good choice. forsake
me, how would say one religious nun that I know. And where from that Krakonja himselfcrept
outto me, who is constantly on the move, to explain how he admires to Circassians Of course,
I do not admire them. Nor Circassians, nor Mexican revolutionaries, nor flying barons No. and
I thought it was an open demonstration of clientilistic worldview and a way of life, which he
shows now so openly, how much he remained outside of real life, so he can and wants to reason
like this. Eh, my good doctor. Anton Pavlovic He would understand this.
And maybe he spoke stupid like this deliberately. To humiliate. To say with his stupidity I am
stupid and nave because I can be, and you cannot because you suck, you are an ordinary
shopkeeper and a thief who must constantly watch with eyes if the gendarmes are coming, in
scale and towards new customers. If he lived 80 years before, he would swear that he will go to
Abyssinia. For aviator.
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Lapis aeternus
Winters are tightening and spring weave with spidery roots, years are passing and the step is
getting firmer. One part of my total organism is both in a substance and in thought, and in
completely airy light, its depositing at the center of being. God leads me through the woods and
meadows, wasps and fieldcreatures are approaching me, I belong less and less to the temporal
world and clatter, to the noise of the world. And I dwell in that din easier and easier, because I
am not fully dependant of it, I only recognize the sounds- mine and others, and they are all mine
and not only mine. Just one part, one layer just for me
I see like imitatio of that supremacy of timeless from old Byzantine icons, one like immersion
like on Grunewalds paintings. Imago dei develops deep into the temples from what has the time
been seen when the heart was beating as in sacrificial calf, and nothing more was there,
according to this placid in the spirit of being on the move, in many ways unequal, but tighter,,
more ossifiedcenter where from the stone originates that what was once called fons vitae.
It is a strange link between various landscapes on the road toward peace and faith. Deeply old
European, this path has remembered all the languages companions were speaking, and those
from the forge of mute Argonauts prehistoric times, and those baroqueswall, which in itself
woven golden strings which were separated significantly from luxury. And that genetically
hidden whispers on the languages of ancient people who ponder ornamentationly, not narrative.
If a man must flee and be pursued with sufficiently dilated eyes, and not only physically, he will
get to know only good, himself as an crock, which has breath imprinted and the path drawn just
to become aware of that, of himself. There is a scale, on which he will be even more heavier.I
believe that when the road sets in the fog of the mountain, everything will already be full of that
life that he will not need to skip even one big rock. That fog, which good Goethe sensed in the
song Mignon, and which every Christian spirit feels like permeation of sense of self, that is
unsafe, and eternal therefore stepsonly.
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before whom a women has knelt and he gave up or had water in the knee, they did not profit
anything more serious, they just paved their way in the valley for further. And that voice- come
on, please give that people some water, was the voice of one Central European Croatia. No, we
didnt act badly if we would catch any prisoners. Not from navet, but from civilizational
superiority. I remember that voice that was afraid that someone will lose something; people who
are still living from their work and ingenuity, and nobody know that they once were, absurdly,
some warriors.
Here, I watch even now, all those values that I respect are still there equally. One young man
from the area of SanskiMost, trains MMA, struggles, lives sporty, extremely lucid. But its
already seen how he will always be positive and a straight-A student, because he thinks
positivelyand it is clear that he is indeed a certain kind of elite. Then who will survive if not him.
And my neighbor with Northeastern properties, there are always same criteria that I can see and I
know, and I cannot keep quiet how they are in several levels elitist. andthe only possible ones. I
can, with these other, comment on Ezekiel or Jung. That is elite.
And what promotes the national television, or this smallstronghold I do not watch that, and
that is a program for those who eat hamburgers. To find and good fish and wine, cheese and
interesting people. It is important to stick with some general and high quality affinities, curiosity,
role models and it can be either quality survive or quality perish. And thats all that matters.
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Steps
I remember with a mild and pleasant melancholy, Some days which would someone remembered
once with amount of sadness, but these feelings is difficult to separate, probably I grew up in all
this loud years, such as more smiling like an old man zosimethat like LjubaTadic in Marinkovics
Cyclops. I remember The sound of mine steps after the concert in the church of St. Francis,
when Mario Penzar was playing and Sergei Belov was a vocal, one fierce baritone. All time was
in front the start of those sufferings from nineties, while shared secret orders by the corpuses,
then those military in which he moved the last generation and Croatian recruits. The war was
beginning.
In the church was relatively cold, on the border between winter and spring, at least in the
calendar chronology and the year was that ninety-first. That archetypal sound I remembered
many times later, when steps echo through the streets of the Central European city that is always
a little hint of trouble,Although this observation does not make any sense. but there is always
someone arrested or carries to him some call for some court, war or serving a sentence.
The concert was exceptionally beautiful. If there was not that heavy cloud over us, it wouldnt
carry so much Bach lived in another time and in his bones was such sensitivity for the
difficultsimilarly, Professor Raucher described Richter's concert at the institute, once in the late
40swhen more families lived in the same apartment.
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Here... Just how much time has passed. Many of us were tired of the way that they have lost
those neurons that have penetrated deep into the soul,those hairs as the tips of the roots of young
radish. I did not.I still feel and remember,in me these images are multiplying even with
mimeograph machine and stored like that, fragrant and heavy in memlive cellars of my still
young heart.
Strange. I am painfully alone. Nobody remembers. People remember events, screams, divorces
and they do not remember like this. not in that way. Everything else can share my life and I, as
two day laborers. But the colors of these memories do not/ Im painfully alone.
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the rejected frames of Jackson Tolkien when he comes out of Barad-dur to warn good guys. Find
it on the YouTube.
Without a dose of effeminacy, there is no full threat, it is manly to be dumb. mordred. mordred.
And in Morgana.Slavic cruelty and the magic are. systema is Femina, they are not some stupid
egzercir and honvendic beating with the rifle.
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My man, we will again come to the same. so stop trying so much, life is one.and this
what I, teaching you, this will not save you. I know that you pay me poorly, Im not silly,
but when it gets tough, you will take out bunt like some evazionist. But to still be
equal, you teach me different than I know. Im sick of feeling like tighten bourgeois.
Eh, Amice, the point is that you are quite ambitious and you dont even notice that.
Appetite is a relative term. Only when it comes to hunger, it becomes utilitarian
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Escape from the cage - please read carefully. There is the essence of everything that I know
to say
From the cage in which we are captured are many opportunities of escape, they are so structured
that we just think that this is an escape.Lets say that ... here, as if the train slows down, near
some curve, panting man sees the opportunity to jump out of it and he jumps.He lives for days in
a pine forest, change his clothes and settles in a nearby colony of denim, live out still thinking
that he escaped the rules of world order, the matrix or whatever has not. Its just a niche in this
generator cage that is not stupid.That opportunity is set in the beginning, in order to mark out
some more entrepreneurial and to help to keep them in the system.
What would then, you ask, would even be a criterion by which we would know whether we are
slaves or where would we hide or release of something, if that sets it and if we eat healthy foods
somewhere in untouched nature, we do not kill and do not gamble, but behold, someone claims
that all of this is still within that space which is a moving radius of the dog on a chain.It's very
simple.
I watched last night on Facebook .....but wait, it does not even matter what it is Facebook and
not the actual renaissance town or anything, what kind of commune, village, whatever .... that
came up with one profound clarity how everyone types in different colors, ideologies, theories of
liberation,various not instinctive and non-confrontational teachings .... Actually,ONLY with the
intention to impose and get to the warmth, acceptance, sex and money.everything is upgrade,
method and style ..but meaning is this. Even this blog is written so I would "turned out smart" ,
satisfy mine compulsive needs to express and to be recognized by others and thus pampered and
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on concrete ways hosted and rewarded.And I would still feel like I jumped out of the train, which
forces the fallen world to transportlisted people from point to point ... giving them a pill so they
could think that they are free. All the anti-globalizationaly, all spiritual self-appraisal systems,
can service like just that reserves, beautified reality that we have become free of something,
although we didnt of, course.
It is more honest when things are clearly set as an exchange or a spoil, but when like this,
mechanism becomes complicated because of that hunger, so we can make sure that this is not
such. But anyway. All of you have realized that there is touched a point about which spoke Ivan
Karamazov, but suicide is a victory of the system and lack of freedom rather than defeat and let's
forget this.Today it is not necessary to transport people in cattle cars, so they have to jump out, a
pill solvers everything and it does not have to be material, Ive just described it.
Abstinence from power is also an illusion. We are not Lady Macbeth and her husband, but John
Lennon and Yoko Ono, and we imagine if we are hungry of something, we will not jump on each
other We will make even the slightest movement with the mind, besides conditioning by
hunger, we tore down all that world around us. That is that grain of heartburn, which is stronger
than the mountains, about which Jesus spoke and which does not prevent us from competing in
humility to not fight again for this. And we are not for something else than the traces of the nails
in the wall of gas chamber. At the root is conditionality instinct. Not in Schopenhauer, not in
Indian magicians, we cannot suppress it with by renunciation, we can just lay low.
Then, what can we do? If we cannot give up nor win ...We can think about this. We can
recognize in ourselves the whole world and thus become aware of what is missing in this whole
which we became closer to by raising awareness. Anonymous agape will begin to appear,quiet
and unaccountable. Without collar even that is deserved and about which Paul wrote.Schindler
will begin to emerge even if it was, and was, a lot of calculations in him, but not only
those.Empathy is the only value. Only there we change something in / around ourselves.The only
marker.Antibiotic against fear. It is the only escape, and meaning.When the wolf will not
slaughter all sheep in a fold in which he entered, although he is not in a hurry.And it will not be
because of his reputation in the pack, whatever it is, and so that criterion is now set. When he
realizes what he's doing and why.
approached, but did not know whether the boat will break or land, neither he knew where. He
only knew that the wind which carries it is backing down and it becomes a burden to him. He
remembered the car from which he watched how he goes by cold and wet branches which
reminded him on the predatory fingers and old, he remembered a look iHaar church in Sunday
before he left, and whole class, he remembered the sun and the month in which the hops
becomes mature. In loved ones, in their timid days, spent in solitude.He remembered that low
officer who , outside the church saluted before passed hat, how he was mocked by the villagers
in order to protect themselves from what he brought to them,After they succumbed one by one
until they were wandering shadows. He was clumsy, famished, slow and endlessly
enthralled,movement which would slow down in moment and again recover from that, as if he
didnt come with his own will, but lead by something that makes the air thick, that beats in ears.
He remembered that year ... how they started flickering before dawn some passes and everyone
knew it , but were silent, just once that frantic relative yelled "That way will naked ride, I
know, I will come with him" and danced through the village and all who would otherwise scold
him, were now looking ahead and for a long time walked in silence.Only the pastor exhaled and
told his father, " To us, the poison is already mixed. And he remembered the raven,who
collapsed tired and tomorrow he moved on, to somewhere, to wake the chosen ones to go into
the snow. But he was now stronger and emptier, in him neither fear could spend the night, and he
decides to come closer.
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It is the only hope of the world, that at least one of the two does not begin to to hate
Now, we are again part of the military and political confrontation and association whose interests
are reaching even in distant lands, as we have always been in our history,finally, not only us but
also mostly everyone. Finally, each country is distant for someone. Here, the plains of East and
Europe are groaning again under caterpillars and boots,cutting bows of war cruisers blueness of
the Atlantic, window frames are jumping from explosions all around the world. ..Guys of hard
views that look out to the left and to the right while political leaders are speaking, loud boys who
are preparing a military suitcase, trains refugees saying good byes From thousands of
veins the blood is collected in special bottles, and yet, for many will not be enough. The struggle
for land and the throne, for petroleum and gas, grain and water.In the name of freedom, in the
name of peace, in the name of the same values that are always searching for their own.Katja
climbs the hill to watch whether or not to come,stock exchanges are shaking, bell towers and
minarets, rain, floods, its felt what shoresmanfeels when he sees a cap out of clouds on
Velebitand says summonsthe storm. We learned nothing.
But ... I actually do not know anyone in particular very insane and irrational, anyone
mindlessand so actively wild that he would want everything that is always going on. I dont
know if you know ... I do not. It sometimes happened that madness come from somewhere and
everything turns around in a flash. I do not know where it comes from, for an address or
anything. I do not know even why it comes, to ..so well, in many countries Now, are kept entirely
artificially constructed wars of some overnight incurred, the army and police against someone
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then ran over to protect some third and these fires erupt so fast and so meaningful that it is clear
how they were planted. It is in vain to speak, and it has long faded how ordinary people are
victims of those who move around the map flags or with dividers determine what shall be. They
are not. Ordinary people are that dry grass that breaks outwhen that these with dividers or
gasoline wants. and it is only the fact that there are common enough with that clumsily envy and
fear and silence, so these unusual can always organize any kind of disaster.
There is no conspiracy, this is all nonsense, there are those who think that they are making
decisions because they have become champions of their movements or services, people or
parties.And there are those who think that they are making decisions for themselves and will
leave when the opportunity arises, in any kind of robbery or arson. But what is an essence in this
is, when all that begins, when we start to agree to be a part and the generator, and finally the
victims and if we starve from the reason of yearning for one's revenge who wants us such atone.
Even when we suppress, one to another, in our lives, we're sorry for that another and we will not
do it like that.
As soon as we begin to buy jewelry from enforcement, as soon as we begin to watch movies with
young girls for whom we do not care how they found in these studies, as soon as we do not care
that someones house is on fire because he is a Muslim or because his father was Udba or loan
shark, a pedophile or anybody, as soon as we do not sayto each other - Neither are we any better,
as soon as we agree to keep quiet.Today everyone has smart phones that are connecting them
with the entire world. I read on social networks, on forums, sit in cafes and hospitals, watching
movies that are not well these movies of revenge are not anyones project to make from
people vigilantes, but those films are best-selling products.
A lot of times I failed. I was not the best. Several times I wake up at night, think about whether
they had recovered from me the ones I have disappointed.I think how I would like to do well,
those who have disappointed or hurt me.Exactly those first. And then it looks like I am in some
invisible mountain at least one flake of something, returned to his seat, so they all would now
swoop down on the village. The flakes, which we all are.
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Second reason is a global iskon of the latter. Rambo or Prle, and all others, are actually showing
how much and how is appreciated human necessity to convince people how they can spend nice
their time. If this guy, miraculously, has survived Let him keep his shame in silence. Let him
not interrupt new young and proud people who will spread democracy through the world, world
orders, freedom, whatever. This interrupts that. Its not opportuno. It distracts.
Or maybe let him sort a story in which he did get hurt, possibly mentally, but he neither could
bent nor be scared, But, defying death, he was a hero. But that creaks than. And like that, this is
evidence that the bad guys got beaten up, remained in the fringe. So he would not confuse the
good guys.
Something else.. This guy is not so pressured because he was violated upon an international law
of war. He got in this state due to all rules. So, all is good. And yet
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Digression - there's a picture on social networks on which is the wolf and where he is standing Wolves don't loose sleep over the opinions of sheep. It is deeply wrong. Sheep and wolves are
equal and must be deal with what these other think. The wolf must disguise in Grandma if he
needs to, in order to have lunch. If he doesnt catch up a few times when hes rushing, he dies of
hunger. Without retirement, without anyone.
The aim of this text is to emphasize in the nature, the balance has reign, no one has advantage
or handicap. Fables are nonsense, and many other needs for symbolism. The lion is the king, but
the vegan buffaloes rejecthim the air up to five meters, if its the opportunity. A tiger is a tiger,
but non of that because he is in extinction. A rat is most vital, but its a rat. In all formulations
which begins with its better , there is a problem. Not better, nor the worse,
Most importantly, its not even a matter of choice. You are born as a puma, dealer, Bosnian or
Zulu And its like that. Only within given frame, we can move forward or fail. But mostly in
relation to the fact of those givens.
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Schindlers syndrome
Lets be aware of several things. The first one is that on more and more sides are ragging
expensive and furious wars in which many people dies, which fascinates someone, in which
civilians are killed without any regard and which are bursting forth and coming close.
Which are coordinatedwhich are coordinated and which destabilize the world, which are in the
interest of the assumed small group of powerful people. Let us be aware of how the idea of
international war and humanitarian law had nothing left and how the international organizations
have lost every neutrality or supranational purposefulness and how nation-states have become a
farce, which serves primarily to the implementation or taking positions in the aforementioned
conflicts. at the same time, all ethical consensual cores of beliefs are lost, which would
distinguish reality from reality show or from Roman coliseum in the most decadent time of his
existence.
We live in heated up organized chaos which is flooding the world of people. it is obvious how
things are getting out of control for which, every even slightly healthy man, would hope that it
exists. Strong are not even making an effort to disprove or cover their greatness, it is so hardened
and steeped in strongness as a principle, it has become so cynical, as though there is no God.
Schadenfreude has particularly increased with confidence, how people are dumb enough to live
for that, how they could be destroyed under slogans of national, racial, religious and, latest,
under slogans of protection of human rights. There are more of absurd conspiracy theories every
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day, and they seem less and less absurd, because, how to explain differently what is going on in
the world. Domestic politics and medias have become self-promotion to suzerain. Its funny
when its dressed up in a parody of some of their own will .
Briefly, nothing stands, we are reduced on searching of position without any pain, exclusively
removal against imminent stronger. When the government or non-government nominal sign,
when someone would assert something, we know what it is- as in the rawest computers shooting
gamer, the work of stronger is being dome, nothing but calumniation.
Middle Ages. Those are times when common sense and empathy begun to be considered as a
disease. Schindler's syndrome, someone would say. And what is that? It is when in times of all
sorts of degradation of man, a sinful soul surrounded by the madness that has become
axiomatically recognized as the only truth ...it begins to actively sabotage the world in which he
found himself. Like a Roman soldier who mourns for Jesus on the cross, maybe even from
calculation and maybe of empathy.
Soon, the world will hang on few flashes like those in night.
He was a war profiteer, speculator and a dork who in heart had terror and anguish from the
horrors with which he was surrounded and who was has started as much and on the only way he
knew, to sabotage that degrading system of unworthiness that was bothering him. He, forced by
internal anxiety, has became a great man. And that was it. Not Laszlo from Casablanca , but
this man. Little at a time, he was in trouble because he could not be otherwise.
There, this awaits us. Who watches the events in Gaza, Syria or Ukraine, that see how He has
getting closer to one great "to be or not to be", a man, of course. And that is not easy to be. The
only real coercion is that we will obviously have to be, because otherwise we will be eaten on the
inside by our own testimony of time, that is becoming hard.
Homicidium
Homicidium or homicide, constantly read or know, we hear ... and that, with omission can kill, as
we see. But people are really killing each other, in the moment of emotional tides etc, etc
And why, in fact, there things are happening? \
No matter how deep in a man was this or that, I claim that homicide is not a natural process, nor
in the largest disagreements but we are as a species, from fear and loneliness, have developed a
culture of violence in which is extremely dedicatedly believed. It has nothing to do with moves
and computer games, it is older and wider. so much is pronounced and so much is believed how
being wicked is identically with to be effective, that for thousands of years , among people, has
grown a habit to think that out of closed spaces comes out with less ingenuity and more with
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force. refined forms go up to unimaginable proportions, indeed in the literature killers are
portrayed as artists and chess players who are competing with those heroes who are on the side
of justice. From that, the genre has been created, from murder for fun or even from the mission.
And here we come to this, we believe that the justice is executed by force and byconstabulary. I
remember that movie "Leon", in which the main character is assassin, cleaner, shown as a
romantic heartless and which created only the identification of many, whom only the fear from
punishment kept to not finish their sufferings by shooting with sniper at neighbors and
passengers. He broke on one girl and carried on as her, equally dangerous, powerful protector,
but he has not stepped out of that world. What would he, he he, could do better ... as well as that
monkey- like patcher who would want but doesnt know how, bang that forensic lady and he was
a sniper in the soul, and remain a sniper. Ritual side of this is deeply present.
Let us be aware of how civilization promotes homicide as a solution, holds it with the ability of
determined. From the times of Kalevala.So we have a dead end, about the money, emotional
dependency, boundaries or inheritance ... I do not know how would. As misery grows, someone
reaches for the gun, stake, ax and before that, most commonly, for the bottle.
Everyone, of course, loose.And specifically and metaphysically.We have a small number of
people that this lie do not touch, many of whom are in state of fear, and they cannot, but they
wished, and someone who jumps and kill. Culture is not abstinence, it is just the opposite from
that, because the expansion of opportunities and finding of solutions for their interests. When the
odds of those mentioned above is enough, most will remove in their attitude.
And there is the key. Not in abstinence, because the murder is always out of restrain from finding
a way out it is also self-destructive. In its essence. It has always been a suicide.
Tom Sawyer does not shoot, he achieves that others paint a fence instead of him.
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hypertrophying from the usual, distinctly recognizes this identification. Some companies that are
not so organized semantic parallelism, do not have the disposition for thatsensibility.
Think about it, and you'll notice that strong dependence of the concept of own sense of value and
relationship that I have described. Like everything, I always ... but always write without any
ambition to make a value-relevant message. Im just an observer and spectator, and that is same
thing.
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About leaving
My mother left, this morning, with a boat across the bay of Makarska to search for shells on
that beach where the sun never goes down.
There. she was awaited by many dear people, and a dog Negrito, with whom he grew up in
Argentina, remained a child, a small stone from which sage and basil are growing, the heart that
recognizes all, except fear. She didnt know how to get in the sea and not dive, that is a picture
that follows me for years. She told me long ago that I am not so firm in the saddle, but soft like a
weasel, and such do not fall easily into ambush but they go into woods from which the others
stay away. And what can you give more to your son
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About whole
When I wash my face, there is through all the siphons, pressure valves, filters, water wells,
rivers, moisture in the air, sea and ocean, river, water wells, filters, pressure and angle valves ...a
touch of that water with which I wash my face, and those with which washes someone in Chile,
who had just read The Santiago times and sighed, and who will soon go to a concert, to listen to
Domenico Scarlatti. And with every other. Maybe that touch is insignificant, but significant the
fact that it exists..Although we can change the others almost insignificantly. We can help each
other or compete, we can do everything, we cannot change ourselves structurally. It is interesting
how much the disciples of Christ and with him, remained what they were, except from the love
of God and man. They did not become mutually less different than they were before, and that is a
fortune. Diversity is natural, nut also is the resemblance of value, especially in those where the
similarity is crucial. No one comes into our lives without reason, some of us actually do, and
they to us, with particular reason and that is when we matured to that touch, or we have built that
opportunity for ourselves. In that, cause-effect series is not at all the one which occurs first, nut
we grow from the inside, some seed that low, seemingly coincidence, matches with attraction of
the next moment just for what it will be. If we grow on certain way, we dont attract only certain
events which are a part of that development, as many believe, those are the arguments which are
based on the idea how we have to form our thoughts with intention and those form outcomes.
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That is not entirely so. We can form with thoughts, if those are germs of those desires in us, and
we are helping them, let the grow, but no more than that. Ambition so of western attitude, for
formation of ex nihil, in its core is tragic and impossible. A fine example of that tendency is one
of the breakpoints of that thinking nothung. It is a sword, which BlauaugenKnabe, the hero
Sigfried forged himself, with lightings and from nothing, he was an adopted of calculated dwarf
Meime, who was afraid of his strength, some forerunner of Dr. Frankenstein, with Jewish Prague
magic which creates a golem, and of course, the idea which created GMO. That work is always
futile, because in its essence hes a sin, the hunger for creation besides that what we recognize by
ourselves from the inside as a blessing. The idea of creation out of nothing, anti-divine power,
contra legem. We have come to, therefore, this Chilean and I, in mine touchiness, to question
what is the difference of influencing on reality, which is playing of God, and which always
summons the tragedy, and healthy creativity which is the use of Gods gift, those possibilities he
has invested in us with a desire- let them achieve and multiply. All relativizing minds believe that
there is no such differences, I think that Alister Crowley was there most clear, because he wasnt
hiding that that was foundation of Satanism, relativizing these two and raise Prometheuss figure
as false link between noble and brave thief who stole a secret of fire from Gods, clear symbol of
knowledge and skills ( craft, therefore )., But that is not so, there is a difference. The difference is
in that whether the motivational drive of undertaking 9is based on the desire for achieving
unnatural power or in achieving of whole. The awareness of that is just that taking is good which
will not lead you to power, but to balance, we are embedded with the fact that we are sole fruit of
Gods creation, if we, as a part of whole of created, strive to become more than that, we are
becoming demonic, not Gods student, no matter how much and whatever our beliefs were. Only
that whole is possible and achievable. Every invention that destroys the nature, will eventually
collapse and be withdrawn, every liberation war which wants and exterminate will not succeed.
Who in their struggle for freedom wants to destroy otherwise, that is like when in its desire for
coming closer to God, who seeks mortification instead of joy, or thinks that the spirit is noble
and that the body is dirty, and vice versa. Only harmony and unity may be a difference of growth
and diabolical search of dominance and hypertrophy of humanly into divine. Such reaching is at
every step. As soon it is the unity, love, humility, its completely another. Pater pio is an example
of just that. There are also examples of opposite, about that Amorth writes very clearly. We all
know this, deep down, no matter if we were Christians Muslims or Jews or Kant, who knew how
to formulate that. nor can it be full of love of man and woman, which is platonic, nor which is
animalistic, and cannot be a business success that will create and maintain a monopoly, and it
cannot be the freedom that is to someone non-freedom. Nor a medicine which is a poison, nor a
food which destroyed the field nor anything else that can survive that is not good for the whole.
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Spring, 2015
When the first suns fire up in February and sunshine the world When the first grain of morning
ice effloresces with spring which is making its way towards us impatiently and selfishly, I always
feel the arrival of underground waters which fills me up with one kinetic strength and joy. And
soon begin to crackle through the hallways of body and mined the sugar and air, approaching to
the temperature of Auto ignition which will break out as fields of petroleum.
From the most inarticulate animalistic to peaceful bundle of consciousness that has raised in
transcendence as if it plunged into the heavenly lake, everything flickers and calms down, readily
and without the slightest resistance. And I become, perhaps never like now, the heir to be like
those tribes who gather on the banks of the great rivers in the dawn of world and go where the
north and need are felt. No bone or kidney does not remain in the shade of this light, nor one
shaft or valve of aluminum engine, nor one gear of the mechanism of mint, nor a single lens with
which is observed in the spirit, does not be, and she was not offered here you go, just accept to
be passable for the roar of the superhuman and human energy that Gods hand has dropped again
on everyone who knows and wants to receive and burn with the fullness of life.
How the wounds heal, how they just stress from impatience and force that collects in them, how
inhale deeply in the joy of all our dawn braided with verses andbusy tending like bears flocks
through mountain, awakened with that first flame that broke out and raised chasing await every
trace of darkness and slumber.
And then asks, the cavalry in his restlessness and power , his heart where should we go, where
will the branches flicker until quarter of an hour before we rumble, how will the earth shake from
our steps.Where necessary and where is the source of your world, out there you go.Under the
light of cherry blossom you go to meet, be yourself, be life and not the night. because for
everything in the world there is reason to be, and for each of us.
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