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Albert Goldbarth: Smith's Cloud
Albert Goldbarth: Smith's Cloud
Smiths Cloud
It was like my fathers religion
versus my teenage beatnik poetry
his anvil-heavy leather-bound Old Testament
and my ratty paperback Ginsberg Howl
could argue, stamp their adamant textual feet all night,
could eat their way like bookworms through each other,
and yet neither would emerge from the collision
altered by even one word. Mostly, my childhood memories
are benign; we were short on money and long on affection.
My mother, although she made a show of reluctance,
still served separate food
to match the willful and disparate palates of my sister and myself;
she took us by the hand to the dime store,
to the library, where I signed up for my own card like a major!
Aunt Hannah repeatedly told the neighbors I had
bedroom eyeswhatever that was; at five or six
I only knew she thought I was the center of existence:
when I recognized a Pontiac or a Buick by its styling
she would coo as if Id just translated Etruscan.
No one lied to me. Their promises were little but
were kept. Every winter my father got out the chains
for the tires. Every spring he fermented his sticky
homemade brandy, offering up this finished thing
to the world like a million-dollar jewel
on the balsawood tray I clumsied together in wood-shop class.
A kindness, even an innocence, was the dominant tone.
When Jimmy Semkins showed me he could pack
the usual snowball around a stone
for extra hurting power, it struck me
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