1. This document provides an explanation of Christianity from the perspective of what it means and feels like to believe the Christian story. It aims to offer not just a summary of the biblical narrative, but a sense of embracing that narrative as part of one's own story.
2. Christianity is presented as a story that some read daily and continually discover new insights from. The story gives a sense that things hang together and provides reassurance. Children in particular are drawn to stories and know which storytellers they trust most.
3. The Christian story is described as the overarching narrative that can incorporate all other stories in one's life and in which one can invest oneself unreservedly. It is presented as the truth
1. This document provides an explanation of Christianity from the perspective of what it means and feels like to believe the Christian story. It aims to offer not just a summary of the biblical narrative, but a sense of embracing that narrative as part of one's own story.
2. Christianity is presented as a story that some read daily and continually discover new insights from. The story gives a sense that things hang together and provides reassurance. Children in particular are drawn to stories and know which storytellers they trust most.
3. The Christian story is described as the overarching narrative that can incorporate all other stories in one's life and in which one can invest oneself unreservedly. It is presented as the truth
1. This document provides an explanation of Christianity from the perspective of what it means and feels like to believe the Christian story. It aims to offer not just a summary of the biblical narrative, but a sense of embracing that narrative as part of one's own story.
2. Christianity is presented as a story that some read daily and continually discover new insights from. The story gives a sense that things hang together and provides reassurance. Children in particular are drawn to stories and know which storytellers they trust most.
3. The Christian story is described as the overarching narrative that can incorporate all other stories in one's life and in which one can invest oneself unreservedly. It is presented as the truth
soldier who asked me if there was a book which explains Christianity. We were stood in an old church, with angels faces painted all the way across the ceiling. My intent was to offer him not just a summary of the story told in the Bible, from a Christian perspective, but a sense of what it feels like to believe that story. Indeed, to be a part of that story. Any errors are my own.
The ordinary agnostic has got his facts
all wrong. He is a non-believer for a multitude of reasons; but they are untrue reasons. He doubts because the Middle Ages were barbaric, but they werent; because Darwinism is demonstrated, but it isnt; because miracles do not happen, but they do; because monks were lazy, but they were very industrious; because nuns are unhappy, but they are particularly cheerful; because Christian art was sad and pale, but it was picked out in peculiarly bright colours and gay with gold; because modern science is moving away from the supernatural, but it isnt. It is moving towards the supernatural with the rapidity of a railway train.
A child of seven is excited by being told
that Tommy opened a door and saw a dragon. But a child of three is excited by being told that Tommy opened a door. G.K. Chesterton, Orthodoxy
f all the lines in the Bible, the
one I recall the most is this: I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. I once took assemblies at a primary school on an estate in West Yorkshire. Every time I started, I was aware that, not only the children, but probably most of the staff, had little idea about God. They werent even anti-Christian, or anti-religious, but 3
most simply had no idea what any of
it was about. They had grown up without seeing people pray at home, or talking about God outside assemblies like this. I was there on behalf of a local parish, and although it was not an official Church school these visits were regular enough for me to know many of the characters in the hall, young and old, and to appreciate their position. There wasnt much difference between the staff and the smallest children, except the younger ones listened more closely. Either way, I knew that I could not get away with using the usual Christian phrases like salvation and redemption,
because they meant so little. One day
I expressed myself like this: As a Christian, I believe that God, who created the trees and the clouds, the hills, and you and me, came down to earth, not as a superhero to zap all the baddies, but as a tiny human baby, and that he grew up and died in love for you and me. Afterwards, a young child ran up to me and said I love God! Me too, I said. Maybe I should talk like that more often, I thought. You have to believe God exists before you can love him. Many dont believe, though considerably less outside Europe than within. European churches are in the habit of responding to this by conducting 5
surveys, like soft drink companies.
What would make you come back to Church? they ask. The answers tend to fall into three broad categories: I dont believe in God; Its boring/not friendly/I had a bad experience; or I wish I had faith, but I dont Believing in God, loving God, and praying to him from a depth within me that is hardly my own, is something I know a bit about. The fact that I am far from perfect is a part of my story, but praising God is also part of my story, and the part I wish to share here. To that extent, this is offered as an account of what it feels like to be a Christian. Years ago, on a very long car journey with my son, I realised that his ideas 6
for when and where we stopped
were often better than mine. His mind seemed to be more attuned to the context and his intuition sharper. Eventually (and the journey lasted weeks) I came to the conclusion that my job was to discern which of his ideas was genius and which were selfish and short-sighted. I was better at doing that than coming up with new ideas myself. To pretend children do not have a selfish side to them would be oversentimental. They say that as infants we are unaware of any reality at all beyond our own desires. The concept of other people existing has not yet dawned, let alone empathy. It takes time to shake off the illusion 7
that the world revolves around us,
and some, bluntly, never seem to manage. Maybe none of us do entirely. Most religions and philosophies (though not all) encourage people to see beyond their self-obsession; to be community-minded and compassionate, and to contemplate a reality beyond them themselves. But, in amongst their bursts of selfish madness, children are also capable of seeing things very clearly. Sometimes frighteningly clearly. Often more clearly than adults. They arent as distracted by background thoughts of money, relationship or time. Their priorities are joy, fun and immediate warmth the sort of priorities that 8
the wise and aged encourage on their
death-beds. Children have bigger, readier hearts than most middle-aged adults. And you need a big, ready heart to enter the Kingdom of heaven, for it is a place of love. Consider this moment in the Bible: Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drove out those who bought and sold in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And he said to them, It is written, My house shall be called a house of prayer, but you have made it a den of thieves. Then the blind and the lame came to him in the temple, and he healed them. But when the chief priests and the scribes saw the wonderful things that he 9
did, and the children crying out in the
temple and saying Hosanna to the Son of David! they were indignant and said to him, Do you hear what these are saying? And Jesus said to them, Yes. Have you never read, Out of the mouth of babes and nursing infants, you have perfected praise? Children arent just at times adorable, the Bible tells us; they can be very wise.
arly Christian leaders were
sometimes referred to as Guardians of the Story. Christianity is certainly a story. Its a story that some read every day and still discover something new each time they do. Children are clever with stories. They like the voice telling the 10
story as much as the story, and they
know which voices they trust most. Stories have been a part of every human culture. They fulfil a need for more than information. In the very telling, they give a sense that things hang together, and reassurance before the lights go out. I once heard about an 18th Century English traveller who, while on a tour of Russia, visited a great, aristocratic estate. He and his host were entertained one evening by a storyteller of great charm. Disaster struck when the storyteller halted his story for a moment, for the host was so incensed at having the story broken that he had the storyteller executed. 11
Stories can and do affect our state of
mind. In our own era, publishing, music, movie-making and even the news media are huge industries for a reason: rich and poor, we consume stories. There are different kinds of stories that could be said to have an impact on us, beyond the movie or book. There are the weird, wonderful and fractal ones which we dream while we are asleep, and the (more coherent) day-dream fantasies or paranoid scenarios that we play out while awake; they all run, as do memories, into the reservoir of ones disposition. They are powerful: I have seen prisoners hang rosary crosses
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on all four of their bedposts to stop
having nightmares. Then there are the sugared stories sold to us by advertisers and businessmen, fantasies which can affect our mood and actions. To that we could add the narratives offered by managers, academics and politicians. And the Church. We are all at it, all the time. We need stories just to get through the day. Indeed, the whole medicine of psychology could be said to be the study of an individuals internal stories; which are healthy drivers of behaviour, and which arent? Everyone has stories going on. The man trying to make ends meet has just as much a driving narrative going 13
on as the man hooked on revenge, or
the prisoner of conscience refusing to refute his beliefs. Or the addict, or the determined athlete, artist or businessman. Stories can vie for attention within our mind. For example, the drive to be a great father and a success at work. But we still need stories, for we need purpose. No wonder children like stories, for stories are the currency of our human mind. To that extent, one might say that any story is better than no story. But best of all would be to have a story that incorporated all your other stories, an overarching story you could invest yourself in
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unreservedly. Ultimately, we want
the truth. What is the truth? Jesus was once asked, by a man who could not see that the truth stood right then before him. Why do we call early Christian leaders guardians of the story, rather than guardians of a story, or guardians of their story? Jesus did not answer the man. The Christian story is not a debate to be had, but a story to be believed as true, or rejected. So what is the story? As Jesus said, it is a story that one can only hope to believe as a little child. I believe the whole, miraculous story told in the holy Bible. I believe that there is a God and that He is a good God, and 15
that He created the world, the stars,
humans and other animals, the air we breathe, the sea we swim in. l believe that Jesus was standing at Gods right hand when God created these things, and that we, of all creatures, are made in Gods own image. That is to say, of everything in the universe, we look the most like God. We are uniquely important and (sometimes) uniquely infuriating to the God who made us. I believe that humans, and the choices we make, are the main reason for the whole universe existing. When we get it right, the whole of creation will have been fulfilled, like a pregnant woman giving birth to a child.
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Unfortunately, we are not very good
at making decisions. The first two humans were a man and a woman. God placed them in an unimaginably beautiful garden and set them free to start making their own decisions. They had enough food forever, were close to the presence of God, and would never die. In essence they were in paradise. They could have built a life and family there. But they chose to do the one thing that messed this up. They tried to get equal to God. This was not possible, and it was wrong. We look like God, and we are nurtured and loved by God. We can even be filled with his glorious Holy Spirit, but we can never be equal to God, who made us, 17
and sustains us. He gives us breath
and created the universe. Forgetting that fact is the gateway to all our mistakes. The first two humans, our ancestors, had a choice: to enjoy the paradise God had given them, where they could meet with Him, or to listen to the devil, whom God had allowed to test them. The devil, in the form of a serpent, told them that if they ate a single fruit he pointed them to they could be Gods equal. The devil knew this to be a lie, but was fixed on rebellion. God had warned them not to eat that particular fruit. They believed the devil, ate the forbidden fruit he had offered them, and waited to see what would happen. 18
Something certainly happened. God
was still God, and humans were still humans, but now we were in trouble. We were going to have to embark on a long journey to get back to Gods side, to prove that he could still trust us. We were going to have to pass through many obstacles, births, miracles, wars, hard work and experiences before we got back there. But we would, and we will get back there. That, God promised to Adam and Eve as he removed them from the Garden. The two of them were taken to a harder place east of the Garden and left there. It was far less fertile, and more dangerous than the world they had known. Something else had 19
changed: they started to grow old.
Slowly, but it was happening. Adam would live to 930 years (the average age would soon start to fall) but he would know death, which had not existed at all in the Garden. Their first two sons (Cain and Abel) fought with each other, and one killed the other. That wasnt a great start either. They had other children, who bred between themselves, and produced more. They also encountered ghoulish heavenly creatures and giants in this land, who started breeding with Adams daughters and grand-daughters. It can only have been a brutal nightmare for Adam and Eve, who remembered the
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Garden, where even the animals had
cohabited and death had not stalked. Whatever Adam and Eve had told them of God, their heirs grew up for the most part brutal. They lived like the animals did. They made decisions based on brutal urges. Finally, God sent a flood to wipe them all out, save for one family, that of a man named Noah. Noah had survived by building a wooden ship, on Gods instructions, before the rains and erupting springs laid the world under water. On that ship, he had gathered a remnant of every animal species, as well as his family; his wife, sons and their wives.
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After the flood abated, Noahs family
landed, and the human story began again. Despite everything, in the years that followed the story grew dark again. As they grew more numerous, these ancestors of ours decided to build a giant tower at a place called Babel, so that they could reach God. They built vast brick kilns, as Noah had built his ark. But, unlike Noahs ship, building a tower to heaven was not only humanly impossible, but not blessed by God. Quite the opposite; it showed that we still harboured an obsession with equalling God. We hadnt changed much since the Garden. We were not, and are not, the Creator. We are part of his Creation. We could not and cannot 22
reach heaven by our own ingenuity,
but only by Gods intervention. We will reach heaven again, but not that way. So God sent a spirit of confusion among the builders of this vast and doomed tower, so that Noahs descendants started speaking in different languages. They couldnt live together after that, but began to splinter into races of shared languages, and to roam the surface of the world from which the Flood had receded. Years passed, years in which these races split further, and grew, and began to settle into nations. One day, in a place called Ur, a few weeks south-east of where Noah had 23
landed, a herdsman named Abram
was instructed by God to leave his people and travel with his wife and servants into a land he had never been to before. Abram had no children of his own, but he heard God promise that were he to trust him, and depart on this journey, he and his wife would give birth, not just to a family, but to a nation; a new nation that would lead the human journey back to Gods side. And so that journey now started. Through the faith shown by the herdsman Abram and his wife, the story turned. Abram wasnt perfect, but he trusted God at moments on that journey when everything seemed lost, and it was his faith above all that 24
pleased God. In honour of Abrams
faith, God renamed him Abraham, father of a multitude. Abraham had no sense of precisely where God wanted him to settle this nation-to-be, so he continued wandering as a nomadic herdsman, with no fixed abode but his tents, far from his parents and brothers. He kept moving because God told him to, and he trusted God. A miraculous child was finally born to Abraham and his wife Sarah when they were both approaching 100 years of age. They called the child Isaac. Isaac did not doubt the destiny his father told him, but his extended family was still tiny compared to the nations who considered these pasturelands of 25
Canaan their own. These people
worshipped their own national idols, and cared little for the universecreating God of Abraham. Indeed, had Isaacs clan been any bigger, these residents of Canaan would no doubt have felt compelled to push them off. But they were nothing, just a small family of travelling herdsmen. Isaac was succeeded by his son Jacob, who wrestled with both God and the scale of his familys destiny, but still he too kept believing. God called him Israel, which means wrestler. The family grew, but the nations around them were also growing. A larger nation, out of sight, but whose unsurpassed influence loomed over this country, was the southern 26
empire of the Pharaohs in Egypt. As
stories of that empires splendour reached the plains of Canaan, it must have been hard for Jacob to believe that it was the destiny of his family to rewrite the history of humankind.
hen drought struck all of
Canaan, Jacobs tiny dynasty were forced to travel down to Egypt to buy grain. Thanks to the brilliance of one of Jacobs twelve sons, Joseph, the Pharaoh of the day looked kindly on them and offered them land to settle. With no better option while the drought continued, they accepted. The stay in Egypt was to be longer, more traumatic and significant, than Jacob or anyone else could have 27
imagined. During 400 years in Egypt,
and now static, the dynasty did indeed balloon into a nation. But that very growth of population, and their obvious talents and unique nature, attracted problems, for the Egyptians became jealous and unnerved by their growth. Finally, with Jacob a distant memory, the Pharaohs moved to enslave them. They lost their land and freedom overnight, and were put to building and endless drudgery, driven on by violent slave-masters. The nation promised to Abraham had arrived, and numbered in the hundreds of thousands, but it was trapped in captivity in Egypt. They cried aloud to God.
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God heard these cries, and began to
stir the heart of a man named Moses. Moses was an official in Pharaohs government, but an Israelite by birth. Though privileged, he could not ignore his inheritance, for the Egyptians would not even eat with him at meals. They treated his compatriots meanwhile as mere donkeys, to be beaten or killed with impunity. What could he do? The Egyptians had wealth, magic and military might on their side. To every eye, it was an impossible task to challenge such an empire, but one day, in the street, Moses witnessed an incident that propelled him into leadership. An Israelite slave was being beaten in the street by an 29
Egyptian. Although Moses risked
losing his job, he killed the Egyptian. When he realised what he had done, he fled the capital, and hid deep in the desert with nomadic herdsmen who grazed, as his ancestors had done. He became a shepherd himself, married a woman called Zipporah, and tried to forget the life he had left. But God had plans for him. God is rarely in as much a rush as we are he knows what is going on at a level deeper than we can think. He is the ultimate storyteller. When Moses was almost an old man, 40 years on, resigned to his humble desert life; that was when God knew Moses was ready. He appeared to him one day in a burning bush. 30
When God speaks to people, he
does so in different ways; from a soaring conviction in their hearts, to an audible voice, to a meeting with an angel. God spoke audibly to Moses from those flames, and instructed him to return immediately to Egypt, where he was ready to use Moses to lead the Israelites out of slavery. Despite the miracle he was experiencing, Moses objected. He knew more than any Israelite the power of the Egyptian empire. He knew too that his own people had been so broken down by years of slavery that most of them could not even imagine escape anymore. He cried to God: They wont listen to me! 31
Trusting God is always the answer to
such cries. To encourage Moses further, God performed further miracles before him that day in the desert, miracles he instructed Moses to perform himself in Gods name in Egypt. Moses was emboldened, but kept objecting: he complained he was weak at speaking. Now growing exasperated with Moses lack of faith, God agreed to stir the heart of Moses brother Aaron, in Egypt, to speak on his behalf. In obedience, Moses set off with his wife and family. As he approached the city, Aaron did indeed come out to meet him. The two of them went before the Pharaoh, asking that he allow the Israelites to leave Egypt for 32
three days to worship their God with
a festival in the desert. The Pharaoh laughed at them, and even at the miracles Moses performed, calling his magicians to imitate them, which they duly did. God then sent terrible signs through Moses, including signs the magicians could not emulate. Attacks of locusts and hailstones and gnats and plagues, and torrents of blood, and death. Finally, Pharaoh submitted. Stop! Take your Israelites and get out of Egypt forever!! These miracles had been witnessed in the whole land, and the Israelites filed out of the cities in obedience to Moses and Aaron. They followed him east, as a nation for the first time, 33
headed on the long journey to
Canaan. They had hardly gone, when Pharaoh changed his mind and sent his army to bring them back. The imperial chariots reached them as they stood on the shores of the Red Sea. Moses held out his staff, by which he had performed all the miracles, and the waters of the sea parted, allowing the Israelites to continue to the other side. Once they were over, Moses dropped his staff, and the waters closed in and drowned the pursuing Egyptian army. Only a child-like faith can today believe this miracle actually happened. It was such an immense miracle, that Moses must have thought that it 34
would be enough to secure the
peoples trust in God forever. That so amazed and grateful would be the Israelites, they would thereafter trust him and Gods providence, as he attempted to move them all back to Canaan, the land where Abraham was buried. But humans are as capable of forgetting miracles (even big ones) as they are of forgetting God and, if we forget God, we soon turn into selfish cowards, and not the holy, brave people God would have us be. No sooner had the songs of praise faded after the disappearance of the Egyptians, but Moses found himself leading a degenerate crowd, whinging about how they were going to eat in 35
this wilderness, how they were going
to drink, and how they would survive against the armies in the North. Moses was wondering that too, but he was trusting God. The people were driving him mad. They had been slaves for so long they had forgotten how to live. So God led Moses up a mountain, to a place called Sinai, and there he gave him clear commandments to give the people, about how they should live their daily lives. Above all, they were to trust him and be respectful to each other. Regarding the other nations, God warned Moses: I will not defend you against other nations unless you live uprightly as I have instructed you. You are a small nation, and you are 36
going into a land where there are
more powerful nations, who will not be pleased to see you, and who will look to destroy you. If you trust your own strength, you will have no chance, for they are stronger than you. But if you trust me, and live as upright humans should, I will not only defend you, but bless the whole world through you. It was not a destiny that would be fulfilled in Moses lifetime. Nor would reaching Canaan, the peoples wariness and backsliding causing a constant stall on their progress. There were moments of great delivery from starvation, when the people sang the praises of God, but there were other moments when the 37
people frankly wished they were back
in Egypt. We may not have been free, they told Moses, but at least we were safe there. Moses died exasperated but confident. You have two options, he told the people with his last words: Life or death. Chose life. In other words, chose God. It became clear that if they were to reach land that could sustain them, they were going to have to fight for it. They had not fought in 400 years. Indeed, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob had been so small in number they had never been a threat, or even a prize, to the nations of Canaan. Now they were a nation, and no one was going to let them have land worth settling on without a fight. As spies brought 38
back reports of armies poised like
swarms of locusts, the men, women and children were terrified. It fell to Joshua, Moses successor, to muster a fighting spirit. Moses had placed in a wooden box the written commandments he had been given, as well as two pieces of evidence of the miraculous help they had received since leaving Egypt; a staff with a bud, and some of the miraculous bread that had appeared on the ground. Joshua took this box into battle and, as they advanced, more miracles took place: cities fell to them, vast enemy armies turned on each other, gruesome victories were won. Until enough land was secured to divide up the nation into its twelve tribes. 39
However, once they were settled in
Canaan, the people returned to their old ways with alarming speed. They established their homesteads and towns, and fretted about the business of life. The commandments gathered dust in their acacia box, as the people grew superstitious. In fact, they started to resemble any other nation. They had certainly forgotten they had destiny to lead the nations back to God.
he empires of the Philistines,
Babylonians and the Assyrians had all heard through the trade routes how the Israelites had been delivered from the Egyptians, and defeated the nations of Canaan. But whenever the Israelites slumped back 40
into complacency, God used these
same empires to wake Israel up. A deadly pattern emerged. Only in distress would Israel return wholeheartedly to God and prayer. By then, enemy armies would be gloating over her: Where is your God of Israel now!? Then God would inspire the Israelites to push them back. It was an unstable existence, and the people of Israel longed for a King, like other nations, so they could be stronger and safer. God spoke to them through a holy man called Samuel, whom he had filled with the Holy Spirit from childhood to be a prophet. Samuel told them that they did not need a king. They had the 41
Creator of the Universe Himself.
They were not like other nations. They just needed to follow God, and live righteously, and he would keep them safe. But the people insisted that they wanted a king. Samuel relented, and chose a tall, strong man named Saul, to be the first king of Israel. Saul was not a great success. Although he initially looked the part, he lacked faith. The size of the enemies around, constantly looking for revenge, or to exploit any weakness, meant that physical strength was simply insufficient for Israel. They needed miracles to survive, and Saul began to lose his nerve on that front. He was scared and, fearing the Israelites 42
knew he was out of his depth, he
grew paranoid. The Philistines sensed the weakness and raided at will, even capturing the holy acacia box containing the commandments and the remnants of the miracles. With it, Israel had lost its very identity, and all that had been achieved by Abraham and Moses seemed, once more, about to be forgotten in chaos. But when humans forget about God, that does not mean God forgets about them. Indeed, he seems to watch us particularly closely when we are in trouble. Israel was in pain, and cried out again to God. Enter a boy named David, not yet old enough to carry a shield. 43
What God did through David was
certainly miraculous, and (in any ordinary sense) unbelievable. David was working as a shepherd for his father in the fields around Bethlehem, the youngest of his fathers many sons. Samuel knew that King Saul was doomed, and that God required of him to find a future leader who could lead Israel in prayer, not just battle. Samuel knew that it would be young David as soon as he saw him. Following his meeting with the prophet, David was sent by his father to take food up to his brothers, who were fighting with Saul in the apparently endless war against the Philistines. Among the Philistines number was a giant called Goliath, 44
who would come on to the
battlefield and taunt anyone to challenge him, vowing that the whole Philistine army would retreat if any challenger could defeat him in oneto-one combat. No one dared try, not even the giant Saul, who sat wretched in his tent beside the battlefield. He offered use of his armour, and a daughter in marriage, to anyone who would beat Goliath, but no one took him up, and Goliath taunted them all the more. Soon after David arrived on the front with his brothers food, Goliath came out again to mock the Israelites, and their God. Incensed, David challenged him with his shepherds sling, shot a single stone into 45
Goliaths temple, and killed him
instantly. Saul found Davids subsequent fame and popularity to be as trying as Goliaths. His depression was legendary, and had not been lifted by the retreat of the Philistines, or the further battles that David now fought in. He gave his daughter Michal in marriage, but Saul burned with resentment at Davids presence in the royal court. Among his many gifts, David played the harp. The music soothed Sauls troubled mind whenever he heard it, and half of him was glad of having him around. But the other half detested the sight of the hero whom the Israelites sang their own songs about. 46
One day, in a fit of jealous rage, he
tried to kill David as they ate together, throwing a spear at him. David vanished into the hills, joined by a group made up mostly of desperadoes who had nothing to lose. They lived as outlaws, as Saul hunted them down, falsely accusing David of attempting a rebellion. David and his men were often close to starving in the wilderness. During this time, David sang heartfelt songs to God, songs we still sing in Church today; praying to be delivered from the injustice of his plight; songs that often began with bitter complaint, but ended in praise of the God he trusted.
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In fact, David was everything a boy
could hope to be: a righteous outlaw, a passionate singer; a handsome soldier who women adored, and a man whom other men would sacrifice their lives to follow. Who, after Sauls death, did indeed become King of Israel, pin back her enemies, and founded a great city. This was Jerusalem, a capital in which the worship of God was to be at the centre of everything. A place where heaven and earth would meet in prayer. Zion, the City of God. Had David been any more perfect, the whole story might have ended there. Israel would have had its ultimate role model and shepherd, to take them back to God. But David, 48
though blessed and used by God, was
not perfect. When he started plans to build an enormous temple at the heart of Jerusalem, God told him through the prophet Nathan to stop. His heirs would have to do that. David had too much blood on his hands to construct such a holy place himself. He had enjoyed war too much. David had another issue, which surfaced soon after. He fell in love with the wife of one of his generals and could not, would not, get her out of his mind. So he summoned her to his royal palace, and slept with her while her husband was at war, and then (when she fell pregnant) arranged for her husband to be killed, 49
as if by accident of war. But it wasnt
an accident, and David knew it. He begged God for forgiveness, and was granted that peace. But the human fallout included a civil war which killed his son Absalom and dominated the last days of his reign. If hard times can feel the hardest times to trust God, then good times can be the easiest times to forget him. David shone bright, and Israel had gained a confidence under him that it would never entirely lose. But he too had fallen short, and fallen hard. The story of Israel was still not finished. Davids son Solomon finished the temple, and the city prospered, as surrounding empires now sought to 50
trade rather than fight with the
resurgent nation. But, amid the prayers, business and splendour of Jerusalem, Solomon fell, like his father, to the dangers of worldly success. He was wise and eloquent, but lust ultimately overwhelmed him. He took 700 royal wives, and 300 concubines, but was cynical and unsettled. The man who had dedicated the Temple before all the people of Israel reached the point where he could barely pray to God at all. He left a Kingdom wracked in decadence and division. Israel wrangled with itself, split into two, and mourned a golden age which had glittered all too briefly. The nation may have flourished in 51
wealth and size, but that now
resembled a prize, rather than an intimidating prospect, to surrounding enemies. Dark clouds were on the horizon, and no one pronounced that clearer in the years that followed than the prophets. These were robust, mostly unpopular voices, who could see all too clearly that serious danger lay ahead if the people did not wake up to their responsibility under God. The prophets tried to wake her up, to break her obsession with worldly pleasure and petty disputes, but the nation continued to drift; increasingly splintered and alone. Enemies far more unified lined up to plunder the nation on a scale that had 52
never happened before. At one point,
the entire political, artistic and military elite of Israel was captured and transported to the city of Babylon in exile. Behind them was only rubble. The great temple in Jerusalem was ruined, and jackals haunted the once proud streets of the capital. During the rupture and loss of this second exile, the words of the prophets were no longer feared, but were treasured and repeated, for they were all that held any hope of the destiny of Israel. Amid the destruction, only the prophets voices now avowed that the nation was not broken; that the great destiny of leading the whole world 53
back to God was not subject to men,
a promise commanded by God. One prophet, Isaiah, had glimpsed, beyond the foreboding horizon, a figure brighter even than David. Like David, this redeemer would appear to the nation in the form of a child: Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a Son, and shall call his name God-with-us. Through this child, prophesied Isaiah, not just Israel but creation itself would be blessed: The leopard shall lie down with the young goat, the calf and the young lion and the fatling together. And a little child shall lead them. But, as the years wore on, no saviour child such as this appeared, nor a military leader such as Moses to 54
restore freedom. Even the prophets
fell silent. Babylons supremacy gave way to Persian, which in turn gave way to Roman occupation for Israel. The humiliation of being bossed by foreign powers with bigger army and better technology continued. Jerusalem was rebuilt, and certainly the unique story of Israel was kept alive in worship, law and custom. But, on the map, Israel had now become a small and quite battered outpost of the very modern Roman Empire.
f it is a stretch today for many in
Europe to believe that there is a God at all, and that he was born as a baby boy in Roman-occupied Israel just over two thousand years ago,
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then it was certainly a stretch for
Israel to believe it. There is so much that could be said about Jesus, whose name was pronounced Yeshua by his family and those who knew him. He is the most talked-about person in human history. His public life lasted but three years. He left no writings, no buildings, no army. He left only his story, a story told and countlessly re-told by those who followed him, and those like me who came to follow him. His story has been contested for authenticity, diluted, distorted, appropriated and ridiculed. Somehow, it seems to have a power to transcend all this, and its full power will not be muted. There 56
are more Christians, in more nations,
today than there have ever been. He appeals to the poor and the hurting, of which there is no shortage at present, and he appeals to children. He has had his critics from day one. King Herod tried to kill him as a baby. He was spat at by soldiers, disbelieved by religious leaders, and mocked by a criminal who lay on a cross next to him at the end. He performed miracles, but avoided publicity; preached of a Kingdom, and yet he had no house. He overcame death and yet was supremely human; weeping at the suffering of friends and the confusion of others. He was God, and yet he knew fear. He was so scared as he prayed in the Garden 57
of Gethsemane on the night before
he died, that sweat resembling drops of blood fell from him. He rose from the dead, and appeared to his disciples. My Lord and my God! said Thomas. He had asked them all months earlier: Who do you say that I am? Simon Peter had said: You are the Christ, the Son of the Living God! Christ told him. This was not revealed to you by flesh and blood, but by my Father who is in heaven. Christ means The Anointed One, the one Israel had been waiting for. And then he was gone. Seven centuries earlier, after seeing his vision of a child bringing peace to 58
the world, Isaiah had also seen a
vision of a grown man suffering; despised and rejected by men, a Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief. Isaiah saw the fullness of the prophecy: He was wounded for our transgressions, bruised for our iniquities, the punishment for our peace lay upon him, and by his stripes we are healed. At the beginning of his public life, Yeshua stood up in a synagogue, as was his custom, took the scroll of Isaiah and read from it to the congregation: The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent me to heal the broken hearted; to proclaim 59
liberty to the captives and recovery of
sight to the blind. To set at liberty those who are oppressed; to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord. After reading this, the Gospel of Luke says, Yeshua sat down, and the eyes of everyone was on him. And then He told them: Today this Scripture is fulfilled in your hearing. The people did not know what to think. I would probably have not known what to think. For thirty years of my life I did not know what to think. And then He came to me. The word bless comes from the old French word blesser, which still carries the meaning of to cut or to 60
wound. In all cultures (some still to
this day) sacrifices have been made to mark moments, or to honour spiritual entities. As the life-force left the animal, the intention behind the sacrifice was understood to be marked in time. At the temple in Jerusalem, hundreds upon hundreds of such sacrifices were performed every week to God, in guilt and gratitude. What could I do to regain the innocence I had lost as a human, even the peace I had known as a child? I had tried everything. And then, one day, in a church in Africa, I tried to believe that Jesus hung on a tree for me, like the congregation was singing. And I knew something was 61
happening, beyond entertainment.
Three days later, I asked the preacher to bless me. I knelt in a township, and he blessed me in the name of Jesus, and by His stripes and His love and His grace and the Holy Spirit, I was healed. There is a Gospel hymn I sung the other day. I must have heard it before, but the words jumped up at me: I will sing the wondrous story of the Christ who died for me; How He left his home in glory for the cross on Calvary. I was lost but Jesus found me, found the sheep that went astray; Threw His loving arms around me, drew me back into His way. 62
I believe that God is offering us
reconciliation of all that Adam lost through Jesus, and the once-and-forall sacrifice he made on the cross. He could have called down a thousand angels to stop it, but he didnt. I believe people of every race are being released by that sacrifice, because of the genuine faith that it was done for them. I was bruised but Jesus healed me, faint was I from many a fall; Sight was gone and fears possessed me, but He freed me from them all. Days of darkness still come oer me; sorrows path I often tread, But the Saviour still is with me, by His hand Im safely led. 63
The calf and the young lion have not
laid down together yet, but I believe that peace and justice are coming to transform the world. On a glorious day, when Christ returns in full glory, I believe death shall die, the dead shall rise, the earth be utterly renewed, and I will dance with the faithful from every race in the new and heavenly city of Jerusalem. There I will witness the healing of the nations and will see my God face to face. Because of the innocence Jesus restores to me I can bear seeing all that. The hymn finishes: He will keep me till the river rolls its waters at my feet,
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Then Hell bear me safely over, all my
joys in Him complete. Yes, Ill sing the wondrous story of the Christ who died for me; Sing it with the saints in glory, gathered by the crystal sea.
his is what Christianity is to me.
It is personal, and crazy, and would mean nothing if it were not true. Even still, it takes a child-like faith to believe it. My faith tells me it is true. I dont know exactly what this faith is, or where it comes from, but it came to me the day I chose to believe, and it hasnt left me yet. I value it beyond words. I have kept a sense of humour, and I still make mistakes, and I am not in denial of 65
the ways of the world. I know how
cruel it can be. I know how alluring it can be. I still have to ask God daily for forgiveness. But the older I get, the more fragile I perceive the world to be, and the more peacefully my hope, joy and my sanity rest in praising God.