The Quintessential Human Delusion

You fake a smile

Or look away
Feeling immobile
As lost as Hemingway
You keep to yourself
Try not to think
Blindly moving forward
No time to blink
You almost forget
So close to letting go
Until youre alone
Then yet again you feel hollow
Happy when you see her
Her smile brightens your day
But you know its not real
You cant help but hope anyway
Feeling abandoned
You keep wondering why
What exactly happened?
Why did you have to say goodbye?
Now here you are
Back at the start
Mental pried with a crowbar
The stake driven back through your heart
You try to move on
Leave the past in the past
Searching for a lost dawn
Your heart's constantly harassed
You think of her the instant you wake
For countless hours in bed
Relentlessly throughout the day
Like a raft drifting through your head

You think this time will be different

This time the stars will align
Everything will work out

Everything will be fine

So you jump
And senselessly hope that youll fly
Despite what you already know
Despite the facts that cant be denied
Still you hope on
Cause thats just what we do
Striving toward something greater
Simultaneously just trying to pull through
So you drift
Back and forth through the fray
Hoping with all you have
Hoping that youll get there someday