Married To The Enemy by Gelix

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Married to the Enemy by Gelix
MarriedtotheEnemybyGelix
Summary:
AfteranightofcelebrationinVegas,Bellafindsherselfmarriedtothemanwho
madeherlifealivinghellforsevenyears.Followherasshefindstruelovewhere
sheleastexpectedit!
AU/AUOCC.Canonpairing.RatedMforfuturelemons.
Categories:Twilight,AllHumanCharacters:None
Genre:None
Language:None
TWCSRomanceContest:None
Challenges:None
Series:Ageise02'snotreadyet,LeslieWhitlock'scompleted&recommendedread
stories,IWhitlock'sread,Amberina'sCompletedFavsList,KuuFaves,Misstoria's
StoriestoRead
Chapters:50Completed:YesWordcount:315953Read:216599Published:
14May2010Updated:28Jan2011
1.VegasbyGelix
2.PurpleNurplebyGelix
3.Mrs.CullenbyGelix
4.RoadtripbyGelix
5.HusbandandWifebyGelix
6.TheWeddingbyGelix
7.BreakdownbyGelix
8.TimegoesbybyGelix
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9.GoodbyebyGelix
10.ThePastbyGelix
11.BirthdaybyGelix
12.UnknownbyGelix
13.LeavingonajetplanebyGelix
14.GoalsbyGelix
15.IloveyoubyGelix
16.TheDatebyGelix
17.TogetherbyGelix
18.SecretsbyGelix
19.ThanksgivingbyGelix
20.TheLetterbyGelix
21.PlansbyGelix
22.ChristmasbyGelix
23.NewYear'sEvebyGelix
24.TheHoneymoonbyGelix
25.AvisittotheHospitalbyGelix
26.HeartbeatsbyGelix
27.IforgiveyoubyGelix
28.GrandparentsbyGelix
29.BlossomingFlowerbyGelix
30.BoyorGirl?byGelix
31.NewBodybyGelix
32.SurprisebyGelix
33.BabysittingbyGelix
34.StoodupbyGelix
35.Amother'stouchbyGelix
36.BestbirthdayeverbyGelix
37.ScaredofsomethingbeautifulbyGelix
38.StartingofanewlifebyGelix
39.EmilyGraceCullenbyGelix
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40.ComingHomebyGelix
41.OnourownbyGelix
42.HalfwaytofiftybyGelix
43.TherapybyGelix
44.AloneTimebyGelix
45.Epiloguenr1byGelix
46.S:FirstdayinschoolbyGelix
47.S:AShockingSurprisebyGelix
48.S:HighSchoolReunionbyGelix
49.S:Father'sDaybyGelix
50.S:EpiloguebyGelix
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VegasbyGelix
Author'sNotes:
A/N:Youcancheckoutthegoodies,sneakpeaksandotherthingsat
http://marriedtotheenemy(dot)blogg(dot)se
Beta'dbyrhapsody.Secondbeta'dbyHeatherT
Disclaimer:IdonotownthecharactersbutIdoowntheplot!
Prologue
IfyouwouldhavetoldmetwelveyearsagothatIwouldbemarriedtothemanwhomademylifealivinghell
forsevenyears,Iwouldhavelaughedinyourface.
Iwasn'tsosureanymore.
IhadalwaysbeenTheNobody.TheshygirlthateveryoneenjoyedpickingonbecauseIdidn'tputupafight,
Ijusttookit.AndmaybethatiswhyIfoundmyselfmarriedtothatmanIjustwentwiththeflow.
Overtheyears,I'dlearnedtoexpecteverythinglifethrowsatyouandtobenumbaboutit.Itdidn'tmatterhow
manysurprisesyougot,lifealwaysmovesforward.
Although,wakingupmarriedtoEdwardCullenwasonethingIneverinmylifeexpected.
Vegas
BPOV
Haveyoueverwishedthatyoucouldgobackintimeandchangesomething?
IhavesomanytimesthatIstoppedcountingthem.Maybemylifewouldhavebeenbetter,ormaybeitwould
havebeenworse,ifthatsevenpossible.
HereIamattheageoftwentythree,justgraduatedfromcollegeandstilldidn'thaveareallife.Iwasstuckin
theworldofbookswhereyoucouldfindromance,princesandprincesses.Ihadneverexperiencedtruelove,or
aboyfriendand,eventhoughitwasbeyondembarrassingtoadmit,akiss.IreadaboutitallthetimeandIstill
haven'texperiencedanyofit.WouldIwanttogobacktotheageofsixteenorseventeentochangethat?
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Mylifeinhighschoolhadbeenmyownpersonalversionofhell.EventhoughIwasstillthatshygirlthatdidn't
standout,IwonderedifIcouldhavedonesomethingtomakeitbetter.WouldIhavethecouragetogoback
andstandupformyself?Probablynot.
Ihaveatotaloftworealfriendsatthismoment.EvenifyoucountedtheonesthatIwasn'tthatcloseto,Istill
onlyhadenoughtocountononehand.Iwasn'tsocialandittookmybestfriend,Alice,alongtimetobreak
through,andafteralmostsixyearsshewasstillbymyside.ShewasthemoststubbornpersonIhaveevermet
andmaybethatwasswhyshecouldbefriendswithme.Iwasn'taneasypersontobewithIwasbrokenand
depressingifyouaskedme.AlongwithAlicecameRosalie,myotherbestfriend.Shelookedlikeamodeland
couldbeatruebitch,althoughshehasaheartofgoldwhenitcametopeopleshecaredabout.
Theybothhadaprettyperfectlifeandtheperfectsomebodytoshareitwith.Alicemarriedherhighschool
sweetheart,Jasper,lastyearaftershegraduatedcollege.Rosaliewasabouttogetmarriedtotheloveofherlife,
Emmett,inaweek.Theyweretheonlyguys,exceptformyfather,thatIwascomfortablearound.LikeIsaid,I
wasn'taverysocial,anddefinitelynotaroundguys!
Bella,hurryuporwe'regoingtobelate,andIdontwanttomissVegasbecauseyoucouldntgetupwhen
youweresupposedto!Rosaliesvoicebroughtmebacktothepresent.
Okay,okay.Imalmostdone.Givemefiveminutes,IsaidasIputonmyjeansandmyDefLeppardtshirt.
IfIwasgoingtositonaplaneforseveralhoursIwantedtobecomfortable.
ThegirlsweretakingmetoLasVegastocelebratemygraduationandtohaveRosaliesbacheloretteparty.It
wouldbemyfirsttimegoingsomewherewheretheonlyintentionwastoparty.I'venevergottendrunk,butI
haveafeelingthatwasgoingtochangethisweekend.
Ipackedthelastofmythingsandheadedouttothekitchenwherethegirlswerewaiting.
Ifwewerentlate,IwouldnotallowyoutogotoVegasdressedlikethat!Aliceexclaimedannoyed.
Well,maybethatwastheexactreasontowhymybodydecideditwouldbebesttosleepalittlebittoolong,I
said,happyaboutnothavingtochangemyclothes.
IhaveaplanB,sodontsoundsohappy,shesaidsmuglyaswesteppedintoRosaliesredBMW.
Ugh.AndwhatisyourplanBexactly?Igroaned.KnowingAlice,itwouldn'tbesomethingIliked.
Thatisformetoknow,andforyoutofindout,shesaid.
Ibreathedoutaheavysighandlookedoutthroughthewindowfortherestoftheridetotheairport.After
checkinginourbagsandboardingtheplane,Imademyselfcomfortablefortheflight.Thinkingaboutallthat
stuffthismorningmademybraintakeatimetravelbacktomyhorriblehighschooldays.
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IhadjustfinishedourlabreportwhenMr.Bannertoldustocleanupourtable.Edwardcontinuedtoflirtwith
Jessicawhosatatthetablebehindus.Withasigh,Istartedtocleanup.
DoIreallyneedtodoeverythingaroundhere?We'relabpartnerswhichmeansthatwehelpeachother.So,
whydontyoufinishcleaningup,sinceIdideverythingelse?EdwardsaidasIcamebacktoourtableto
gatherthelastitemstoputback.
Jessicaandeveryoneelsearoundusjustsnickeredandstaredatme.IwasonthevergeoftearsasIputback
thelastofthesupliesandgatheredmybooksjustasthebellrang.
IheardthelaughterasIranoutoftheroomandstraighttothebathroom.Icouldntholdbackthetears
anymore,soIjustletthemfall.IdontknowhowlongIhadbeeninthebathroom,butwhenIgotoutitwas
timetoheadouttothebusses.IranuptomylockertoputawaymystuffandgathermyhomeworkbeforeI
wentouttothebus.IsatinmyusualspotinthefrontofthebusasEdwardandhisbestfriendJamesgoton.
IheardEdwardcoughGeekunderhisbreathashewentpastme,andIwasnottheonlyonewhoheardit
aseveryonearoundusstartedlaughingalongwithEdward.Iwasonceagainfightingbackmytears.Whathad
Ieverdonetohimtodeservehisremarks?DuringthetwoyearsIdknownhim,Ihadneveroncetalkedtohim
orhisfriends.Iwasjustthere,sowhyme?
IgotoffthebusandranhomeandupthestairstomybedwhereIcriedforhours.Ineverlethimgettomethis
way,buttodayitjustgottoomuchtohandle.EventuallyIranoutoftears,sowhenIheardthefrontdooropen
andcloseIgotuptostraightenmyselfupinthemirrorbeforemeetingCharlie.
HiBells,Ibroughthomedinnertodaysowedontneedtogoanywheretoeat.ThereisabiggametonightI
dontwanttomiss,CharliesaidasIcamedownstairs.
Great,Ireplied,feelingslightlyrelievedthatIdidn'tneedtogoanywhere.Istillmisshavingagoodhome
cookedmeal,sinceIhaven'thadonesinceIleftPhoenixandmymomtwoyearsago.
So,howwasschooltoday?Anythinginterestinghappen?Charlieasked,breakingthesilence.
Itwasfineandthereneverisanythinginterestinghappening,Isaid,notbringinguptheincidentinbiology.
Neitherofmyparentsknewhowmylifeinschoolwas,andIintendedtokeepitthatway.Theonlypeoplewho
knewthetruthweretheoneswhoactuallysawitandmyfriendsdownatthereservationinLaPushJacob,
Leah,EmilyandSam.TheyweretheonlyonesIcouldactuallytalktowithoutbeingafraidofaccidently
slippingandsayingsomethingthatwouldgivemeaway.Ididntseethemveryoften,butwhenIdid,Ifeltlike
myselfagain.
IwasjoltedawakebyRosalieshakingme.
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Bella,youneedtowakeup.Werehere!shesquealed.
Ihadtearsinmyeyes,andIwonderedifIhadbeencryinginmysleepconsideringthedream,orrather
memory,Ihad.Iwasthankfulforbeingwokenupbeforethememorycouldhavegoneanyfurther,becauseifit
had,Ididn'tknowwhatkindofcompanyIwouldbetonight,andIdidn'twanttoruinthisnightforRosalie
evenifitwasforthebothofus.
Aftergettingofftheplaneandretrievingourbags,weheadedoutsidetograbacabtoourhotel.Aftergettingin
thecab,athoughtsuddenlyoccurredtome.
Rose.Alice.Whataretheboysdoingwhileyoureherewithme?Iaskedcuriously.
Oh,umm,theyarehavingEmmettsbachelorpartyIguess.JasperandEdwardkidnappedhimyesterday
morningforaguysonlyroadtrip.Ihavenoideawheretheyaregoingthough,shesaidinaworriedtone.
EverytimethisEdwardsnamecomesupIfeltapanginmychest.Ihadnevermethim,buthewasEmmetts
cousin,soitsnotlikelythesameEdwardwhomademylifehellforsevenyears.Icouldn'tshakeoffthat
feeling,though.Whataretheodds?
Whatsupwiththatworriedexpression?Itsnotlikehesnotingoodhands,Aliceaskedlikeshewas
thinkingwhatIwasthinkingaminuteago.
ItsjustthatIhaventbeenabletogetaholdofhim.Hehasn'tpickuphisphone,oransweredmytexts,
Rosaliesaid.
Well,Imsurehe'llbeintouchwhenhegetstotheirdestinationorsomething.Andifithelps,Jasperhasnt
answeredyeteither,Alicesaid.
Justthen,wearrivedatthehotel,sowepaidthedriverandgotourbags.Onourwayuptoourroom,Icouldnt
helpbutthinkaboutwhatRosaliehadsaid.ItsnotlikeIcarethatmuchaboutwhattheguysdid,itjustseemed
suspiciousforsomereason.EmmettalwayscheckedinonRosaliewheneitherofthemwentsomewhere.Jasper
andAlicewerethesame.
Aswemadeourwayintoourroom,Icouldnthelpbutgasp.Theroomwashugewithadiningroomtableto
therightandnexttoitwereacoupleofcouchesinfrontofabigTV.
Alicetippedtheguythathelpeduswiththebagsanddraggedmethroughapairofdoubledoorswhichledto
thebedroom.Inthemiddlewasahugekingsizedbedwithpurplecoversandbigpillows.Isteppedthroughthe
doorwhichledtothebalconywehadthemostamazingviewoverthestrip.
WhenIsteppedbackintotheroom,Alicewasalreadypackingupallthestuffsheneededtoworkhermagic
fortonight.
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Okay,letsgo.Weneedtogetreadyfortonight!shesaidenthusiastically.
Ijustgroanedandcamebacktoreality.Ofcoursewewouldbegoingouttonight,eventhoughwejustgothere.
Idraggedmyselftothebathroomwithmytoiletriesandtookashowertogetridoftodaystravel.WhenIwas
done,Rosaliewaswaitingwiththehairdryerandacurlingiron,andAlicewiththemakeup.Imentally
preparedmyselfforacoupleofhoursoftortureasIsatdowninfrontofthemirror.
AsAliceworkedonmymakeup,Rosaliecurledmyhairinbigcurlsthatflowedjustbelowmyshoulder
blades.EventhoughIhatethetorture,Ihadtoadmitthatmygirlswerelikeprosatthisstuff.
Allthewhile,Rosaliehadadistantlookonherface,andIknewshemustbethinkingandworryingabout
Emmett.EventhoughIhadnoexperiencewhatsoeverinthatdepartment,Iknewitmustbetoughforher.
Twohourslaterwewerealldonewithhairandmakeup.Alicelookedgreatwithherhairslightlycurled,
smokyeyes,andpinklipgloss.Shelookedlikethepixieshewas.RosaliehadherhairupinalooseFrench
braidthattwistedandrestedonherleftshoulder.Hermakeupwaslightwithbigredlips.Ihadmyhairin
long,curlylocksthatfloatedjustbelowmyshoulderblades.Mymakeupwasminimalwithahintofpowder,
mascara,andbrowneyeshadow.IhadredlipglossonandIactuallyhadtoadmitthatIlookeddecent.
Yourdressisonthebedalongwithyourshoes.Nowhurryupsowecangetoutofhere!Alicesaidasshe
lefttogoputonherownclothes.
Onthebedwasablackandwhiteshortsleeveddressandapairofredheels.Howsheexpectedmetobeable
towalkinthoseshoeswasamysterytome.Thedressendedmidthighandshowedsomeofmycleavagea
littletoomuchformytaste.IguessthisiswhatAlicemeantbyPlanB.Ishouldhaveknownshewouldntlet
medressbymyself.
Wow,Bella.YoulookevenbetterthanIimagined!Aliceexclaimedasshesteppedintotheroom.
Sheherselfhadonthecutestdresseveritwasaunusualshadeofpinkwithblackaroundthebreastsandwent
tomidthigh.Shehadonapairofblackpeeptoeheelsthatmatchedthedress.
Whenwelefttheroom,IsawRosaliestandinginfrontofthefoyermirror.Shelookedabsolutelyamazingin
hershortblackdressthatshowedenoughofhercleavage,andherwhiteLouboutins.Ifeltleftout,somehow
average,againstthesetwogoddesses.
AlicemadeanexcitingsquealandclappedherhandbeforeshewalkedtothedoorfollowedbyRosalie.
Letsgetthispartystarted!sheshoutedasIclosedthedoortoourhotelroom.
Jesus,whathaveIgottenmyselfinto?
EndNotes:
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So,anythoughts?
Pleasereviewandletmeknow!
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Author'sNotes:
Okay,sothisischapter2.Theupdateswon'tcomesoclosebetweenlater,thenext
updatewillbeonWednesdaysoI'mgoingtotrytoupdatetwiceaweekandmaybe
sometimesmoreoften.
I'msohappyabouttheresponseI'vegotsofar.Thankyouso,somuch!
Beta'dbyProjectTeamBeta
Also,Iforgottotellyouthatyoucanfindoutfits,carsetc.on:
http://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
PurpleNurple
BPOV
WesteppedintothefirstMcDonaldswefound.Ifeltawkwardgoinginthereintheseclothes,andIwas
surprisedAliceletuseatthereinfancydresses.ButIknewshestoppedtoeatatthisplaceformesoIshouldbe
grateful.Plus,IheardthatdrinkingonanemptystomachisapainintheasslaterandIdregretit.
IllneedtodanceallnighttogetridofallthesecaloriesImabouttoeat,Rosaliesaidasshelookedather
fries.
Oh,Iveheardthatthiskindoffatdoesntleaveyourbody,nomatterhowhardyouworkout,Isaid,
winkingather.
Alicedroppedherburgerlikeitwasonfireandlookedatmewithashockedexpression.Itsnotlikethey
neededtoloseweightanyway,soIdidntseethebigdeal.
Okay,Imgoingtobuysomefruitandsomecarrotsinstead.Itsnofatinthose,right?sheasked.
No,Ithinktheyshouldbesafe,Isaid,holdingbackmylaughter.Theywereridiculousifthefoodtastes
good,Ididntseetheproblem.
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Maybeyoushouldbuymesometoo,Alice,Rosaliesaid.
IjustlaughedtomyselfandwonderedifIwouldevergetthemtogotoMcDonaldsagain.
WhenIhadfinishedhalfofmyBigMacandeatensomefries,theywerelongdonewiththeirfood,orshouldI
sayfruit.IalwaysfinisheatinglastIhateitbecausethentheyjustsitthereandlookatmeuntilImfinished.Its
liketheyarethinking,OhmyGod,cantshejustfinishalready?Iwanttogo.Iknowthattheyarenot
thinkinglikethat,butIcanthelpwondersometimes.IjustleavewhatsleftofmyfoodImfullanywayand
standup.IwantthisweekendtobeoversoIcangohometomyoldapartmentanddowhatIdobestreada
bookandgotowork.
Whereareyougoing,Bella?Aliceasked.
Imgoingtotheclub?Itsoundedmorelikeaquestion.ButIdidntunderstandwhatshemeant.
Butyourenotfinishedeating,shesaidsoftly.
IknewwherethiswasgoingandIdidntlikeit.
Yes,Iam.Imfull,andIthoughtyouwantedtogoclubbing,soweshouldgetgoing,Isaid.
Youshouldprobablytrytoeatafewmorebites.Itwouldnthurt,andIdontwanttofeelresponsibleif
somethinghappenstoyoutonightjustbecauseyoudidnteat.Rose,theBitchwasheretoplay.
Ineedtoeatmore?Iasked.Iatemorefoodthanyoutwoputtogether!
ButBellaAlicestarted.
No.ImnotachildandImsickofyoutwoactinglikeIam.Imalmosttwentyfouryearsoldandcantake
careofmyself,Isaidinasadvoice.Look,Idontwanttofighttonight,socanwejustpleasego?
Fine,butIdontwanttohearitifsomethinghappenstoyoutonight,Rosaliesaidinasternvoice.
Okay,Ianswered.
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Youknowweloveyou,right?Aliceasked.Thatiswhywekeepdoingthis.Wedontwantanythingbad
happentoyou,thatsall.
Iknow,Alice,Iknow.AndImsorry,butitisannoyingtohavetwoextramoms.Iwantmyfriends,okay?I
asked.
Okay,theysaidatthesametime.
Wehuggedeachotherandthenheadedofftotheclub.
Itwasafewhoursintoourpartying,andIwasalreadystartingtofeelabuzz.Ihadntdrunkthatmuchthough,
justtwobeers,whichwashardtogetbecauseAlicedidntthinkitwasagirlydrinksoIletherbuymea
Cosmopolitanasapeaceoffering.
IhadjustfinishedmyCosmowhenIsawaveryfamiliarface.IguessbachelorpartiesandVegasareamatch
madeinheaven.
Hey,Alice!Dontyouknowtheguythatisstandingatthebar?Iasked.
OhmyGod!Jasper?!shescreamedasshestooduptogotohim.Shemusthavebeendrinkingalotmore
thanIhad,becauseshewasswayingallthewayovertohim.
Rosaliewasonthedancefloordancingoffallthosecaloriesinthesinglefryshehadeaten,soIjustsatthere
andconsideredwhetherIshouldgoovertothebarandorderanotherdrink.BythetimeIhadmadeupmy
mindtogo,AlicecameoverwithJasperonherheelsjustasRosaliecamebackwithEmmettintow.
Guys,look.Ifoundmyteddybearonthedancefloor.Iguesshecouldntstayawayfrommethatlong,she
said,pressingherlipstoEmmettsjustashewasabouttosaysomething.
Thiswholesituationjustseemedfunnyallofasudden,andIstartedgigglinglikeamadman,andonceIstarted,
Icouldntstop.
Jesus,Alice,howmuchdidyougiveherexactly?Jasperasked,lookingatme.
Notthatmuch.ShehasntbeenkeepingupwithmeandRoseatleast,sheslurred.
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Well,Idontthinkherbodycanhandlemuchmoretonight.MaybeweshouldgetEdwardandjustleave
together,Jaspersaid,beingtheresponsibleoneofthegroup.
JustthenmyeyesflashedoverthedancefloorandnoticedamopofhairIdcometohate.ButjustasfastasI
sawit,itwasgone.
Uhuh.No,no,no.Itcantbe.IneedsomethingforthesehallucinationsImhaving.
Justthenatrayfullofpurpleshotswentbyme.
Oh,Ilikepurple.Iwantoneofthose!
No,youcangowithoutmeIneedoneofthoseprettylookingshots.Seeya!IsaidtomyfriendsasIleftfor
thebar.
Ittookawhiletogetthroughtothebartender.Ihatebeingthisshortnothinggoodcomeswithit.
Hi!Iwantoneofthosepurpleshots!IsaidtothebartenderwhenIfinallycaughthisattention.
YoumeanaPurpleNurple?heasked.
Yes!Isaid,happytofinallyknowitsname.Imadesuretorememberitforfuturereference.
Afterfourshots,Ifeltsomebodywatchingmeandlookedaroundtheclub.Myeyeslandedonapairofgreen
eyesstaringbackatme.Ihadseenthoseeyesbefore,andIdhadeveryintentionsofneverseeingthemagain.
So.ThatisprobablywhymybrainhadstartedplayingtricksonmeitwasnothappyaboutallthealcoholId
consumed.Butthebuzzfeltnice,soitshouldbehappy.
Iorderedthreemoreshotsandignoredtheweirdlooksthebartendergaveme.Ididnotwantthese
hallucinations,sohecouldstareallhewanted.
Afteronlytwoshots,someonegrabbedmyhand.IturnedaroundtoseeJasperandAlicestaringbackatme.
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Honey,maybeyoushouldstopdrinkingthoseandgobacktothehotelwithus,JaspersaidinhissexyTexas
accent.
No,Iwantthehallucinationstogoaway,Islurred,andthesehelp.Plustheyarereallycutedontyou
think?Iasked.
Ithinktheyareanythingbutcute,andImsureyouwillagreewithmeinthemorning,heargued.
Comeon,Bella,maybeweshouldgobacknow,Alicesaidsleepily,notatallconvincing.
No,youtoldmetohavefun,letgo,andcelebrate,sothatiswhatIwillbedoingtonight!IsaidasIdrankthe
lastshotandwavedtothebartender.
Andremember,Isignedoffyourresponsibilitiesfortonight,sogo!Iexclaimed.Enjoyandhavefun.Go
dancewithyourhunkyhusband!
Iorderedafewmoreshotsalongwithabeer.IcouldntbelievewhatIhadmissedallthoseyearsIwasathome
whilemyfriendshadallthisfun.Afterfinishingmybeer,Iheadedtothedancefloor.
Whynot?Ithoughttomyselfandstartedmovingtothemusic.Afterafewsongs,Ifeltbig,stronghands
encirclemywaist.Itfeltgoodandsafe,soIstarteddancingwiththemanbehindmewithoutbotheringtolook
toseewhoitwas.
Whocares?Ilovepartying!
EPOV
Ihadjustfinisheddancingwithahotblondechickandwasabouttotakeherintoadarkhallwayforsome
actionwhenIsawher.Atfirst,allIsawwasherbackshehadlongbrownhair,aniceassthatwashugged
perfectlybyhershortdress,creamylegsaccentedbyapairofredfuckmeheelsontopofthat.Iinstantly
grewhardandforgotabouttheblondeIwastakingtothathallway.
JustasIwasabouttotakeasteptowardsthesexybrunette,shelookedupatme,andIgasped.Iwouldknow
thoseeyesanywhere.Theybelongedtonootherthanmyhighschoolcrush,IsabellaSwan.
Comeon,baby,werentwegoingsomewhere?theblondegirlcooedinmyear.
Notanymore.Youneedtofindsomeoneelse,Ireplied.Ihadasuddenneedforacigarette.
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WhenIsteppedintothenight,Iquicklylitmycigaretteandinhaled.Iinstantlyrelaxed.
Fuck,Ihadntseenthatfaceandthosebeautiful,deepbrowneyesinsolongsincehighschoolgraduation
fiveyearsago.
Iwouldprobablynothaverecognizedherifitwerentforhereyes.TheBellaIknewhadbeencuteverycute,
butthewomanIhadseeninsidewasagoddess.ShehadlongerhairthantheBellaIremember,andshewas
alsoalotskinnier,butIwasabsolutelysurethatitwasshe.
Ididnoteverexpecttoseeheragain.IdefinitelydidntbelieveinGod,butitwaslikeIhadbeengivena
secondchance,andIdbedamnedifIdidnttakeit!
Ithrewawaymycigaretteandstompedbackinsidetoordersomeliquidcourage.Idneverneededitbefore,but
forsomereason,Iwasnervousashellrightnow.IscannedtheroomforBellabutdidntfindherIdid
however,findmyfriendsinthecornerwiththeirwives,oratleastonewithhiswifeandtheotherwithhis
fiance.Somebachelorpartythisturnedouttobe!
Dude,whatsupwiththatlookonyourface?EmmettaskedasImademywayuptothem.
Ifoundagoddessbefore,butnow,Icantseeheranywhere,Ianswered.
Well,gofindanotheronethenjustlikeyouusuallyto,Emmettsaid,earningasmackintheheadfrom
RosalieandaglarefrombothmeandAlice.
IwantherIdontwantanybodyelse,Isaid,annoyed.Canyoupleasehelpmelookforher?Shehasona
blackandwhitedresswithkillerheels.Andshessexyashell.
Thegirlsweregiggledandtheguysjustshooktheirheads.
What?Iasked,lookingatallfourofthem.Haveyouseenthegirlornot?!
Oh,weveseenherallright,Rosaliesaid.Sheswithus,andbeforeItellyouwheresheis,Ihavetowarn
you,ifyouhurtherinanyway,youwonthaveadicktomorrow.Understand?
Ijustnoddedfranticallyandurgedhertocontinue.Instead,itwasJasperwhospokeup.
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ThelasttimeIsawher,shewasatthebarbeforeheadingouttothedancefloor.SoIwouldsearchthereifI
wereyou,hesaid.Oh,andshesreallydrunk,sobecareful.
Iheadedforthebartotakeonemoreshotbeforegoingtothedancefloor.WhileIstoodwaitingformydrink,I
sawheragain,dancingbyherself.
Fuck,shesgorgeous.
Idownedmydrinkandmovedtothedancefloorandstoppedbehindher.Istoodthere,mouthhangingopen
liketherestofthemen,andjustwatchedherforacoupleofseconds.ThenItookthefinalsteptowardher,
circledmyarmsaroundherwaistandmovedalongwithher.
Shesmelleddeliciouslikestrawberriesandvanilla.Icouldstayhereforever.
Shedidntturnaroundortellmetogoaway,soIjustcontinueddancingwithher.
SecondchanceswereallIcouldthinkaboutIhadtomakeitrightthistimeandnotfuckitupagain.Ineededto
provetoherthatImnotthesameguyIwasinhighschool,andIneededtomakesuresheknewwhyIdid
whatIdidbackthen.SheprobablyhatedmerightnowIwould.Ithadbeenkillingmealltheseyearssinceshe
leftForksthatshemighthavethoughtthatIhadhatedherwhichcouldntbefurtherfromthetruth.
BPOV
Myheadhurts...bad.Mystomachfeelslikeitsgoingtoturnitselfinsideout.Andwhatintheworldisontop
ofme?Icantevenbreathe.
IrealizedImusthavewhatpeoplecalledahangover,butIdidntunderstandwhy.Ididntdrinkthatmuchlast
night,right?
Ugh,Igroanedandshifted.
AsIdidso,whateverwaspushingmedownshiftedandIdecideditmustbeAlicecuddlingmeinhersleep,
probablythinkingIwasJasper.ButthenIrememberedsomething.Didntweseehimattheclublastnight?
WhywouldshewanttosleepwithmewhenshehadJasperwithinreach?
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Alice,youneedtoletmego,Itoldher.Icantbreathe,andmystomachdoesntfeelverywell.
ThenIfeltsomethingpokemeinmybackandsomethingscratchyagainstmyshoulderbladesastheperson
behindmenuzzledfurtherintome.AndthatpersonwasdefinitelynotAlice!
EndNotes:
Excitedforthenextchapter?
Well,yougettoseewhoitisBellawakeupnexttoonWednesday!Youallprobably
knowwhoitisalreadybutyoucanneverbesure!
IvestartedworkingwithProjectTeamBetasoIhopethechaptersaregoingtobe
beatadsoon.Itwontbeformaybetwochaptersbutlateroninthestory!Thankyou
forputtingupwithmywritingsofar!:)
NowovertoanimportantquestionIhadnointensionsatfirsttohavetheEPOVin
thestoryatall,butIhadafewrequestsonthatonesoIdidatry.Now,doyouthinkI
shouldkeepitorshouldIjustcontinuewithBPOVonly?
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A/N:Okaysohereischapter3!Itsverylong,Ithinkitsaboutalittleover9pagesin
Word.IjustcouldntstopwritingthereweresomanythingsIwantedtogetoverwith
sowecanstarttherealthing.
Asalways,goodiessuchasclothes,carsetc.canbefoundat:
http://marriedtotheenemy(dot)blogg(dot)se
Beta'dby'ProjectTeamBeta'
BPOV
Iwokeup,notknowingwhereIwas,orwhoIwaswith.AllIsawwashair,andnotjustanyhairbronzehair
thatcouldonlybelongtoEdwardCullen.
IguessthehallucinationsdidntgoawayorIhavetheworstluckknowntomankind.
Whathappenedlastnight?
MyshiftingmusthavewokenhimupbecauseIstartedfeelingkissesonmyneckanduptomyear.
God,thatfeelsgood.
Hemusthavefallenbackasleepbecausethekissingstoppedandhisbreathingwenteven.Luckyforme,
becauseIdontknowifIwouldhavebeenabletostophim.Whichisdefinitelynotgoodconsideringthisisthe
manwhoruinedhighschoolforme.
Withthatthought,Iboltedupfromthebed,alittletoofast.Theroomstartedspinning,andmyheadfeltlikeit
wasabouttoexplode.
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Bella?Edwardaskedwithavoicethickwithsleep.
HowdoyouknowwhoIam?
WhywouldntIknow?heshotback.Now,comebacktobed.Itstooearlytobeup,andIwasntreadyto
wakeupjustyet.
What?No,Iwontcomebacktobed!Iyelled.Ishouldntevenhavebeenintherewithyouinthefirst
place!
Helookedatme,andIsawhissmirkspreadacrosshisbeautifulface.IlookeddownandrealizedIwasnaked.
OhmyGod!PleasetellmeIdidntlosemyvirginitytoEdwardCullenwhileIwasdrunk!
Instinctively,myhandwentdowntomycrotchtoseeiftherewasanydamage.Iveheardthefirsttimeis
painful,soIshouldfeelsomething,right?
Ifyouregoingtotouchyourself,cantyoupleasetakeittothebedsoIcanhelpyou?Edwardasked.
Myheadsnappedup,andIrealized,onceagainthatIwasnaked,andhecouldseeallofme.Ireachedoutfor
thebedsheetIwaswrappedupinearlierwhenIwokeup.Bydoingthat,IalsouncoveredEdwardssnaked
body.Boydidhehaveafinebody!
Stopit!ThisisEdward,remember?
Baby,allyouhadtodowasask,andIwouldhaveshowedyoumyself,hesaidwithasmirk.
Iseeyouarestillthecockybastardyouwereinhighschool,Isaidwithsuddencourage.
No,Imaybecocky,butImnotabastard.
Yes,youare!IscreamedalittletooloudlywhenIsawthathehadaweddingbandonhislefthand.A
cheatingbastardiswhatyouare!
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What?heasked,confused.
Yourweddingband.Doesyourwifeknowthatyouspentthenightherewithme?
Hesearchedtheroom,lookingforsomething.Ismiled,thinkingIputhiminhisspot.Ifeltpowerful,Ihadno
ideawherethiscouragecamefrombutIfeltgreat.Itsalmostlikeanadrenalinerush.Maybeitwasfromthe
leftoversofthePurpleNurple.
Well,IguessifImcheating,thensoareyou,Mrs.Cullen,hesaid,pointingtowardsadiscandsomepapers
onthefloor.
ThetextonthediscreadWeddingpicturesMr.andMrs.Cullen
Ilookeddownonmylefthand.Andindeed,therewasasimple,goldweddingbandonmyfinger,too.
Tooshockedtospeak,Ijuststoodthere,openingmymouthbutthenclosingitagainlikeagoldfish.What
actuallyhappenedlastnight?Ihadnomemoryofgettingmarried,anddefinitelynottoEdwardCullen!
Okay,letsjusttakeadeepbreath,andwellfigureoutwhattodo.
First,Ineededtogetoutofhere.Icouldntthinkwhenmylifetimeenemywaslyingonthebed,naked,looking
allsexy.
Ibeganthesearchformyclothes.Theymustbeheresomewhere.
Bella,whatareyoudoing?Edwardaskedfromthebed.
Imlookingformyclothes.WhatdoesitlooklikeImdoing?Ishotback.Haveyouseenthem?
No.
Well,maybeifyougotupfrombed,andactuallylookedyouwould!
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Look,justtakesomeofmyclothes,andIllgiveyouyourdressbackwhenIfindit.Ifyoureallyarethat
desperatetoleave.
Fine.Ireallyneededtogetoutofhere.Ihadtoomanythingstothinkabout,Ineededtodosomethingto
clearmyhead.
Ifoundablacktshirtonthefloorandputiton.IlookedatEdward,silentlyaskingforapairofboxersor
somethingtoputon.
Inthebagbythedesk,hesaid,knowingwhatIwaslookingfor.
Isearchedthroughthebag,andfoundapairofgreyboxers,hopefullycleanones,andputthemon.Theywere
waytoobig,soIrolledthewaistbandup.
Ifoundapairofblackflipflopsbythedoorandslippedthemon.ThenIturnedtowhereEdwardwasstilllying
onthebed.
IguessIllseeyouaround,Edward,Itoldhim,knowingIhadtodealwithhimsoonerorlater.Butrightnow
IhadsomethingIneededtodo,anditcouldntwait.
Oh,wewillbeseeingeachotherallright,hesaidinaconfidenttone.CanIhaveyournumber,soIcould
callyou?
ItsinthePhonebook.
So,youmeanIshouldlookthroughthewholePhonebookinsteadofyoujustgivingmeyournumber?
Yes,oryoucouldjustgotothepagewithmynameandnumberonit.Itwouldsaveyousometime,soI
recommendthatoption.Oreveneasierdontcall,IsaidasIclosedthedoorbeforehegotachancetomakea
retort.
IwouldworrylateraboutfacingEdwardagain.Iwasonamission.
Imadeitbacktoourhotelroom,afterwalkingforanhourtryingtofindtherightplace.Ishouldhaveasked
Edwardforsomemoneytoacabheowedmethatmuch.
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IhadtoknockonthedoorbecauseIdidnthaveakey.IttookalmosttenminutesbeforeAlicecametothe
door.IguessmyfriendswerealotmorehangoverthanIwas.Finally,Aliceopenedthedoor.
Whatareyoudoinghere?sheasked,lookingconfused.
Umm,thisismyroomtoo.Isaid,thoughitsoundedmorelikeaquestion.
Iknowthat.WhatImeanis,whatareyoudoinghereinsteadofinyourbed?
Idontknowhowthathappened,butIneedashower,sopleaseletmein,IsaidasIpushedmywayaround
her,andheadedforthebathroom.
Bella,whyareyouwearingmycousinsclothes?EmmettaskedbeforeImadeittothebathroom.
Imnot.Imwearingmyhusbandsclothesbecauseheletmeborrowthem,IsaidasIclosedthedoor.Ifelt
feistytoday!
Wait,didhesaycousin?!
SothatfeelingIvehadeverytimehementionshiscousinEdwardwasntfornothing.Ishouldhaveknown.
Boy,canthisdaygetanybetter?
Theshowerfeltsoothing,andonceIwascleanandfreshagainIdriedoffandwrappedmyselfinthebigfluffy
towel.
AsIsuspected,Ihadtwogirlssittingonmybed.
BeforeyousayanythingIdontknowhowIendedupwithEdwardlastnight,andIhaveabsolutelyno
memorywhatsoeverofgettingmarried.Now,ifyouladiesexcuseme,Ihavesomethingtodo,Itoldthem,
andlefttheroomwithsomeclothestoputon.
Ilookedmyselfoverinthebathroommirror.Ihadonapairofwashedoutjeansshortswithaloosetanktop
andsomeblackflipflops.ItwilljusthavetodoIdonthavetimeforanythingelserightnow.Ineedtodothis
beforemyrushfadedaway.
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Ihurriedoutofthebathroom,andrushedoutoftheroombeforeanyonehadthechancetosayanything.Ijust
madeittotheelevatorassomeonecamerunningbehindme,screamingmyname.Alice.Ishouldhaveknown.
Imcomingwithyou,anddontyoudarearguewithme!shesaid,pointingafingeratme.ThisisVegas
youdontknowwhatcouldbehidingbehindthecorner.
Fine,Ihuffed.
EPOV
Iwatchedasmywife,steppedoutthedoorinmyclothes.IcanhonestlysayIdontremembermuchatallfrom
lastnight.ButIdontthinkwehadsex,Iwouldremembersomethinglikethat,right?
Ineededtodealwiththisassoonaspossible.Ididnotwantadivorce,Istillbelievedinsecondchances,and
nowmychancewithBellawashere.Ijustwantedtotalktoher,maybegoonadatetogettoknoweachother,
orsomething.Imean,wearehusbandandwife,shouldntyouknowoneanother?
Ugh,lastnightmusthavebeenrough.Afterthatlongdrive,wejustheadeduptoourroomtounloadourstuff.
Thenwentstraightfortheclub.
Somebachelorpartythatwas,withEmmettspendingitwithhisfianceandJasperwithhiswife.
Arentbachelorpartiessupposedtobeguysonlykindofthing?
AtleastIgottoseeVegas.Andfindmyselfasmokinghotwife
IdecidedonashowerbeforecallingEmmettforBellasnumber.Iwasnotgoingtolookforaphonebookeven
thoughIknewhername,orhermaidenname.
WhenIsteppedoutoftheshower,Igatheredherclothesbutkeptthepanties.Yes,Iknewwheretheywerethe
entiretime.Ihadseenherdressontopofthecabinetfrommyspotonthebed.Ijustwantedtoseeherinmy
clothesandfuck,didshelooksexy!
WhenIfinallyfoundmycellafterafewminutesofsearching,IsawthatIhadatleast10missedcallsfrom
Emmett.IguesshemetBella,inmyclothes.SheactuallytooktheonewithCullenwritteninbiglettersonthe
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back.Idontthinkshewasawareofthatfactthough,butEmmettandeveryoneelsewouldseeit.
Ipickedupmyphoneanddialedhisnumber.Hepickeduponthesecondring.
Edward,whatthehellhaveyoudone?hedemandedthroughthephone.
Umm,IguessIgotmarriedlastnight.
Yeah,Iknowyougotmarriedlastnight.UnlessBellamarriedanotherguynamedCullen?
No,thatwouldbeme.Whereareyouguys?ImheadingoverIneedtotalktoBella.
Wereatthegirlsroom.ButBellaisnthere.Shestormedoutoftheroom15minutesago.Dontworry
though,Alicewentafterher.Sinceneitherofthemcameback,Imguessingsheswithher.
Okay,well,givemetheaddress,andIllwaitforherwithyouguys.
Hegavemetheaddress.IgrabbedBellasdressandshoesandheadedout.
Wevebeenwaitingforoveranhournow,andthereisstillnosignofthem.Imstartingtoworrythequestions
stoppedawhileagosonowIhavenothingtokeepmythoughtsoccupiedwith.Theyhadntgottenmany
answersoutofme.Istillcantremembermuch,andthethingsIdorememberarenotsomethingIwanttoshare
beforetalkingwithBella.
Canyougivemehernumber,soIcantrysendingheratexttoseeifshesokay?IaskedRosalie.Ijust
neededasignthatshewasstillalive,atleast.
Youthinkshewouldansweryouofallpeoplewhenshedoesntevenanswerme?sheaskedindisbelief.
Itsworthatry,Isaid.Maybeyoudontwritetherightthing.
Shestoodup,andlookedlikeshewasgoingtoattackme,butluckilyformeEmmettstoppedherjustintime.
ItsnotlikeIwouldnthavebeenabletotakeherdown,Ijustdonthitwomen.Iwasraisedbetterthanthat.
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Rosiebaby,justgivehimhernumber,andletsseewhathappens.Itsnotlikeitcouldgetanyworsebyjust
givingittohim,Emmettsaid.
ShereluctantlygaveittomesoIgavemybestshotandhopedshewouldanswerme.
Please,justsendatextorcalltoletusknowyoureokay.Imsorryaboutthismorning.E
IsatwaitingforafewminutesbeforeIactuallygotananswertoeveryonessurprise.IcouldtellRosaliewas
nothappythatIgotananswerwhenshedidnt.
Imherhusband,sogetusedtoit!
Youmustbeareallyfastreader.B
IjustlaughedatherresponseatleastnowIknowsheissomewhatsafe.ThisissonottheBellaIknewfrom
highschool.
Afewminuteslater,Rosaliesphonebeepedindicatinganewmessage.Ilookedupatherexpectantlyand
waitedforhertotelluswhatitsaid.
Alice,shemumbled.
Shelookedupconfusedfirst,butthenthelookturnedangry.
Shegotatattoo!!sheyelledatme.Whatexactlydidyoudotoher?!Shehasneverdoneanythinglikethis,
butafteranightwithyoushedecidestogoallrebelliousatus!
IalreadytoldyouseveraltimesthatIdonotrememberwhathappened.Forthismorning,allwedidwas
bicker,andthensheleftsayingthatshellseemearound.Thatsall,Isaid.Itwassomewhatofawhitelie
sinceIdidremembersomethings,butshedidntneedtoknowthat.
No,Ibetthereissomethingaboutthisthatyourehiding
Babe,letsnotgothererightnow,Emmettcutheroff.Atleastweknowtheyresafenow.Welldealwithit
whenthetimecomes.
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Godblesshim.
Wewaitedforanotherhourbeforeweheardthelockbeingturned.InsteppedanannoyinglookingAliceanda
happylookingBella.Shelookedsexierthanever,okay,maybeshelookedsexierwithmyclotheson,butthe
clothesshehadonrightnowscreamedBella.Andtheconfidencethatwereseepingthroughhermadethelook
evenbetter.
Whatareyoudoinghere?sheasked,lookingstraightatme.
Well,ItoldyouIllbeseeingyou,sohereIam,Ianswered.Plus,Ibroughtyourclotheswithme.
Maybeweshouldletthemtalkinprivate,Jaspersaidmotioningforeveryonetocleartheroom.
Whentheywereallgone,wejuststoodtherestaringateachotherforafewminutesbeforeshebrokethe
silence.
HowdidyouknowwhoIwasthismorning?
IknewwhoyouwerethefirsttimeIsawyouatthebarlastnight.Itskindofhardtoforgetyoureyes,Itold
hertruthfully.
Myeyes?sheasked.
Yes,Irememberyoureyesfrombackinhighschool.IneverthoughtIwouldseethemagain.
Shejustlookedatme,andtheroomwentsilentonceagain.Ididntknowwhattosaytoher.Sorry?No,itsnot
goodenough.
Idontknowwhatyourproblemis,butIllbetitshardtopronounce!
Look,ImsorryforthewayIactedinhighschoolIknowthatsorryisntgoodenoughforwhatIdid.Im
askingyou,please,givemeanotherchance!
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Youreaskingmeforasecondchance?sheaskedindisbelief.Aftergivingmehellforsevenyears,you
wantanotherchance?!
Yes,Iansweredweakly,oratleastletmeexplainmybehaviorandthenconsidergivingmeachancetostart
overourrelationship.
Wemaybemarried,butwedonthavearelationship.Icantdothisrightnow.Ijustwanttogohome,and
forgetthiseverhappened.
ForthesecondtimeinmylifeIlethergo.
IstillrememberthatdayalltooclearlyitsamemoryIwanttoerase.Whowantstorememberthedaythelove
ofyourlifewaslosttosomeoneelse?
April17th2005
IwasonmywaytomynextclasswhenIsawherforthefirsttimethatday.Shewastalkingtosomeoneonher
cellherlookwasdistantanddead.Iveneverseenherlikethis,sure,sheneversmiledallhoursoftheday
butstillshehadlifeinhereyes.Today,theyweredeadandfulloftears.
Iwantedtokillthebastardontheotherendofthelineformakinghercrylikethis.JustsaythenameandIll
doit!
Shehunguphercell,andIwatchedassheslumpeddownthebrickwallandfelltothehardground,sobbing.
Itmademyheartbreakandthatisnotaneasythingtodo.
ShouldIgotoher?Comfortherorsomething?
Itmightblowmycover,butIfeltlikeIneededtomakeherfeelbetter.
Ihadjustdecidedtojustgotoherandseewhatswrong,whenIsawatallguypracticallyrunningtowards
her.Hegrabbedhertohischestandhuggedherhardwhileshecontinuedsobbing.
Iwantedtothat.Whowasthisguyandwhyishehuggingmygirlinsteadofme?
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Ijuststoodtherewatchingthem.IdontknowhowlongIdbeenthere,butsuddenlyIfeltJamespunchmein
myarm.
Dude,whatareyoustaringat?heasked.Itsjustthegeekhuggingsomeguytogetsomeattention.
Ifelttheangerbubblinginme.IwantedtoyellthatshewasfuckingcryingandIwastoochickentogotoher,
andnowsomeotherguydidwhatIshouldhavedone!
Instead,IjustmutteredaNothingandwenttoclass.
Theweekwenton.ItriedtostopthinkingaboutthatguyhuggingBella,butitwasuseless.Icouldntgetthat
imageoutofmyheadnomatterhowhardItried.
Ididntseeherallweek,noteveninthecorridors,andIknewherwellenoughthatshewouldntskipschool,
sosheshouldhavebeeninbiology.
EverydaywasanoshowforBellaandIstartedtogetworried.HadIdonesomething?
Shewouldntmovewithjustamonthlefttograduation,right?
Shedidcomebackeventually,buttheBellawhocamebackwasnottheBellawholeft.
Thistimewasdifferent.Thistime,Iwouldfightforher,harderthanIeverhavebefore.
Shewillbemine.
Withthatthought,Ishookmyheadandstartedgoingafterher.However,asIputmyhandonthehandle,I
heardpeoplearguing.
IcantbelieveyoureTeamEdwardonthis!IrealizeditwasBellawhowasyellingatwhoevertheother
personwas.Youresupposedtobemybestfriend,abestfriendwhoshouldbeonmyteam!
AllImaskingforisforyoutogivehimachance.ItwasAlice.Iknowyoutwoareaperfectmatch,and
youshouldknowbetterthantobetagainstme.
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Youdontevenknowthewholestory,Bellaargued.
Thenwhywontyouenlightenme?
Exactly,maybeitstimeyoutellussomeofyourhistory,Rosaliesteppedin.Weveknoweachotherfor
almostfiveyearsnow,andyoubarelyeverspeakaboutyoupast.
TheydidntknowwhatIdidtoherinhighschool?NowIhopetheyneverfindsoutbecauseifRosalietreats
melikeajerknowIdontevenwanttothinkaboutwhatshewilldoifshefindsout.
Maybebecausethepastisthepast,anditshouldstaythere!Bellayelledinanannoyedtone.
Look,itdoesntmatterItookthebusinessintomyownhandssinceIfeareditwouldgothisway,Alicesaid.
Whatdidyoudo,Alice?Bellasaid,clearlyveryangrynow.
WhileyouwereintherewithEdward,Icanceledyourflightandbookedtwoticketsfortheotherboys.You
willgohomewithEdwardinhiscar,andyouwillworkoutyourproblems,oratleasttalkthemoverbecause
youaremarried!
Wow,Iwouldhavekilledmybestfriendifhepulledastuntlikethatonme.
IsuddenlyrealizedInowhadatwentyhourdrivebacktoSeattle,alone,withBella.
Ahugesmilespreadacrossmyface.
EndNotes:
A/N:Sowhatdoyouthinksofar?
Iguesswehavealongdriveaheadofuswithalotofarguingandbickering,butwhat
else?
CheckinonSundayandyoullhaveyouranswer!
Thatwasallforthisweek,checkouttheblog
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A/N:So,chapter4andtheroadtriparefinallyhere!Thelongestchaptersofar,Im
notsureiftheotherchapterswillbethislongbutIhopeso!
Iwanttopointsomethingouttoyoubeforeyougoaheadandreadthisstorywill
mainlybetoldfromBPOV,Edwardwillcomefromtimetotimesodontworry)
Asusual,thegoodiescanbefoundat:http://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
Beta'dbyMcGeeandChristinefromProjectTeamBeta.
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EPOV
JustasIsteppedintotheroom,IsawBellasretreatingform,andheardthedoorslam.Hard.
Whatwasthatallabout?IaskedAlice.
Dontplaydumbwithme,shescolded.Iknowyouheardeverything,andbeforeyousayanythingtheonly
reasonIdidthatwasbecauseyousomehowmanagedtogetheroutofhershell.Ivetriedforalmostfiveyears,
andallittookyoufivehours.
Ishecutmeoff,beforeIgotanyfurther.
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Imnotfinished!EventhoughIdontlikeBitchyBella,Ilovethatshesfinallyspeakingup,andsayswhats
onhermindinsteadofgoingwiththeflow.Didyouknowthatshesbeentalkingaboutthattattooforyears,
andnowallofasuddenshehaditdone?!IalmostcriedbecauseIwassohappyforher,andifkeepingyouin
herlife,husbandornot,isthewaytokeepheroutofthatshell,Imgoingtodoeverythinginmypowertodo
that.
Shetookadeepbreath,andwhenIopenedmymouthtospeaktoher,sheraisedherhandtostopme.
Idontwanttohearit,Edward.Ifyouplanonstoppingonthewayforsomethingtoeat,whichIreallyhope
youdo,IsuggestyoutakehertoMcDonalds.Thatis,ifyoudontplanoncookingyourself,butIhighlydoubt
that.Getherhomeinonepiece.
Withthat,shelefttheroom,andIstoodthere,staringafterher.Eithersheistheworstfriendinhistoryfor
puttingBellathroughthis,orsheisthebestfriendeverforhelpingher.Imnotsurewhichoneyet,butIm
leaningtowardsthelatter.Inherdefense,she,apparently,didnotknowaboutBellasandmypast.
BPOV
Howcouldshedothistome?!
Afteralltheseyears,shechosetheenemysside.IthoughtImeantmorethanthistoher,andRosejuststood
therewatchingaseverythingwentdown.
Icouldjustbookmyselfanotherticketbut,knowingAlice,ImsureshetookmypassportandeverythingelseI
wouldneedforthat.Shewasgreatmostofthetime,butattimeslikethis,shewasthedevil.
Iwasntupforstayinghereanylonger,andsinceIdidntneedtowaitforaflight,Iwantedtogohome.So,I
decidedtocutthistripshort.Ijustneededtofindmychauffeur.
Ipackedmybelongings,includingEdwardsclothes.Forsomestrangereason,Iwasntreadytogivethem
backtohimjustyet.
Itookashower,thenchangedintoacomfortabledarkbluejumpsuitbeforeIsteppedoutofmyroom.Onlyto
findEdwardsittingonthecouch.
Whyareyoustillhere?Iasked.Shouldntyoubeinyourroompackingyourthings,sowecangoalready?
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Iwaswaitingforyoutocomeout,soIwouldknowthatyouwereokay.Wearentsupposedtoleaveuntil
tomorrow,hestated.
Yousureknowhowtoworry,Isaid.Iwanttoleavenow.Ifyouhaveaproblemwiththat,Iwilljustgo
standbytheroadandwaitforaserialkillertohitchhikewith.
Okay,okay.Wellgotoday.Letmejustgotomyroomandgrabmythings.Weneedtotelltheotherswere
leaving,aswell.
Fine,Illjustwaithereuntilyougetback.
Arentyougoingtosaygoodbyetothegirls?heasked.Theyreinmyroom.
No.Hurryup.
Iwastoomadtotalktothemrightnow,soitwasmuchsaferformetojustwaithere.Afterawhile,Igotbored,
andtookmyiPodandlayonthebed.
Sometimelater,Iheardavelvetvoiceinmyear.
Baby,wakeup,saidthevoiceIrecognizedasEdwards.
Iwasntreadytowakeupjustyet.Iwashavingthisamazingdreaminvolvingapairofamazinglyskilledlips
andabig,fluffybed.Willingthedreamtocomeback,Igroaned,andwhisperedno,beforerollingovertothe
otherside.
Sorry,Bella,butyoutoldmeyouwantedtogohomenow,soImjustfollowingorders,hesaidashepicked
meupandthrewmeoverhisshoulders.
Whatawaytowakesomebodyup.
Okay,Imup,Ihuffed.Whenhedidntletmego,Itriedagain.Putmedown,now,EdwardCullen!
AllIgotinresponsewasasmackonmyass,andalaughbeforeheleaneddownabit,sohecouldreachmy
bagonthefloor.Istillcouldntgetoutofhisgripthough.
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Iwasthesameheightashisperfectass,andbeforeIgotachancetooverthinkit,Isunkmyteethintoit.With
that,hefinallyputmedown,andstartedrubbinghisass.
Didyoujustbitemyass?!
No,Isaid,withmybestinnocentlook.
Hejustshookhishead,stillrubbinghisass,andnarrowedhiseyesatmebeforestormingofftowardsthe
elevators.WhenIarrived,hewaswaitingformewiththedoorsopen.
Youknow,youshouldntholdthedoorsup.Therecouldbeotherpassengerswaiting,IsaidasIstepped
inside.
Well,ifyoucouldjustmoveatanormalpace,Iwouldnthaveto.
Noteveryonehasmilelonglegs!
Imgladyoudont.Youwouldntbesogoddamncuteifyoudid,hesmirked.
Eventhoughthatcommentshouldmakememad,itwastoohardwhenhestoodtherelookingallsexyinblack
jeansandawhitetshirt.
Tooannoyedtospeak,Ikeptmymouthshutfortherestoftheridedown.
Howdareheworkhischarmonme?
Iwasalreadyhiswife,eventhoughthatwassomethingIplannedtochange,soitwasnotlikeheneededthat.
Oncewewereoutonthestreet,hestoppedtopullsomethingoutofhispocket.Cigarettes.Ishouldhave
known.
Smokingisbadforyourlungs,Itoldhim.
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Yeah,Iknow,butifImgoingtobetrappedinacarwithyouandyoursmartasscomments,Ireallyneed
one.
HadIreallybeenactinglikeasmartass?
Isitme,orisitmycommentsyoudontwanttospendtimewith?Ihadtoknow,eventhoughIfeltstupidfor
asking.
Yourcomments.IwouldnthavemarriedyouifIcouldntstandyou.
Okay,listenletsmakeadeal.Illtrytokeepmycommentstoaminimum,ifyoutrynottobeallcockyand
arrogant.
Deal,hesaid,asheputouthiscigaretteandstartedwalking.Ifollowedhimuntilhestoppedatablack
Volvo.
Thiscouldntbehiscar,couldit?
Thisisyourcar?!Iasked,surprised.
Yeah,so?
ItsaVolvo.
Yes,andshesnotanitshesmybaby.Besides,IvealwaysdrivenaVolvo.
Iremember,butIalwaysthoughtitwasyourparentscar,orsomething,IsaidasIshruggedmyshoulders,
andslidintothepassengerseat.
Anhourintodriving,thingsstartedtogetreallyboring.Wehadntsaidasinglewordtoeachother,justlistened
tothemusicthatwascomingthroughthespeakers.Edwardschoiceofmusic,ofcourse,butitwasntbadat
least.DecidingIwastoobored,Iswallowedmypride,andbrokethesilencebetweenus.
Doyouwanttoplayagame?Iasked.
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Helookedoveratme,searchingmyfacetoseeifIwasjokingbeforeanswering,Sure,whatdidyouhavein
mind?
Iveheardalotaboutsomethingcalled20Questions.Ivealwayswantedtotryit,anditgivesusachanceto
gettoknoweachotheralittlebetter.IhavenoideawhyIsaidthat.Ididntwanthimtoknowme,butIwasa
littlecuriousabouthim.Titfortat,Iguess.Youhavetoexplaintherulesthough.
Youveneverplayed20Questions?heaskedasIshookmyhead.Fine,um,itssimplereally.Youaska
questionandIanswerit.Thenitsmyturntoaskyouaquestionwhichyouwillanswer.Youhavetoanswer
truthfully,andyoudontgettoaskthesameastheotherdid.ThatsitIguess.Doyouwanttogofirst,or
shouldI?
Youcangofirst,ifyoulike,Ianswered,hopinghewouldpickquestionsthatwerenttoohardformeto
answer.
Okay,Illgoeasyonyou,hesaidashethoughtaboutaquestion.Howmanyboyfriendshaveyouhad?
Thatwasaneasyone?Itwaseasytoanswer,butitwaskindofpersonal.Iguessitgoeswiththewholegetting
toknoweachotherthing.
None,Itoldhimhonestly.
Seriously?!Youhaventhadasingleboyfriend,ever?
Ithoughtitwasmyturntoaskyouaquestion.
Goon,hesaid,defeated.
Whatdoyoudoforaliving?Iknewitwasalamequestion,butIcouldntthinkofanotherone,andIdidnt
wanttogettoopersonalyet.
IownacompanywithEmmett.WehelpcompaniesthatneedhelpwiththeirPR.Cullen&McCartyPR,he
answered.
IknewthatwhydidIaskaquestionIalreadyknewtheanswerto?
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Myturn.WhyhaventyoutoldAliceandRosalieaboutwhatIdidtoyouinhighschool?
Iknewhewasgoingtoaskquestionslikethis.Iwasnotgoingtobackdownthough.Istartedthis,andIm
goingtofinishitaswell.
BecauseIthinkthepastshouldstayinthepast.Besides,theresnotthatmuchtotellreally.Ihadsomeone
whomademyhighschoolexistencemiserable.Whodidnt?Iaskedsarcastically.
Look,Imreallysorry,Bella.Ifyouwouldjustletmeexplainhestarted.
Notrightnow,weareplayingagame.Itsmyturn.ThetruthwasIwasntreadytoheartheexplanationhe
had.
Howmanypeoplehaveyouhadsexwith?Ididntwanthimtoaskmethatquestion,noneedtoembarrass
meevenmore.ThatswhyIaskedinstead.
Seven,andtwoofthemweregirlfriends.
Soyoureintothewholeonenightstandkindofthing?
Nuhuh.Donteventry.Itsmyturn,baby.
WhydoIgettheselittlebutterfliesinmystomachwhenhecallsmebaby?
Ifyoucouldhaveanything,whateveryouwantedintheworld,whatwoulditbe?
Realistic?
Yeah,Iguess.
Iwantadog.Ivealwayswantedadog,butIvebeentoobusywithschooluntilnow.
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Edwardjustlaughed.Maybeifyoucouldhaveanythingyouwanted,mostpeoplewouldntgoforadog.He
wantedarealisticanswer,orelsemyanswerwouldhavebeentotallydifferent
Thenextcoupleofquestionswereprettysimple,likeWhatwasyourmajorincollege?,andWherewould
yougoifyoucouldgoanywhereyouwanted?
Wehadthreemoreturnsleftwhenhestartedaskingmorecomplicatedquestions.
Whywereyoucryingthatdayatschool?
Hehadseenme?IthoughtIwashidingwellenough.
Iwasntreadyforthisatall.NotevenAliceandRosalieknewthewholestoryaboutthat.
Idontknowwhatyouaretalkingabout,Imumbled.
Yes,youdo.Isawyouthatday,aboutamonthbeforegraduation.Iwasjustabouttogoovertoyouwhen
anotherguyturnedup.
Somethingbadhappenedtoafriendofmine.Thatsallyouregoingtogetfornow.
Okay.Willyoutellmesomeday?
Maybe.Itsmyturntoaskyouaquestion.Ithoughtforawhilebeforecomingupwithaprettygoodone.
HowwillyourparentsreactwhenyoutellthemthatyougotmarriedinVegas?
Honestly,Ithinktheyllbethrilled.Momwillprobablybelittleadisappointedthatshedidntgetabig
ceremony,butwhenshefindsoutwhoIgotmarriedto,shesgoingtobeecstatic.
Okay,nottheanswerIwasexpecting.Waitaminute
Whywouldshebeecstaticthatyoumarriedme?Iasked.
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Holdyourhorses,babyitsnotyourturn.IwanttoknowwhyyougraduatedayearlaterthanAliceand
Rosalie.
NotsomethingIliketotalkabouteither.
Stuffhappened,andIhadtotakeabreak,Iansweredvaguely.
Fairenough.Iwillgetfullanswerssomeday.
Wellseeaboutthat.Nowanswermyquestion.Whywouldyourmombeecstaticthatyoumarriedme?
BecauseshesomehowknewIlikedyoubackinhighschool.Plus,youretheChiefsdaughter,hesmirked.
Thelatteroneisonlygoingtogiveyoutrouble.Hehasagun,andyoumarriedhisdaughterwhileshewas
drunk.Goodluckwiththat,Isaidwithmyownsmirk.
Icouldseeonhisfaceasthisdawnedhim,andhisAdamsapplebobbedasheswallowed.
IthinkIcanhandleit.Now,tellmewhatyoufearmostinlife.
ItwaskindofironicthatheaskedmethatjustafterIremindedhimofmyfather,butIwashappythathechose
aneasierquestion.
Water.IcantbathewhereIcantseethebottom,andevenifIcan,thereisthefishthatisscaringme.Its
easierinapool,oratub,butImstillscaredofthedrains.
ItstrueIvenevertakenabathinthetub,andIneverswimintheoceanoralake.Idontknowwhythough.
Therehasntbeenadrowningaccidentoranythingtoscareme.
MaybeIvewatchedtoomanymovies.
Icantbelievethatyoudbeafraidofwater,Edwardsaid,andlaughed.
Youneverknowwhatcouldbelurkinginthere!Iarguedloudly.
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Iguessyoureright,hesaid,tryingtocontrolhislaughter.
IknowIam,sogetusedtoit.Now,whydoyoualwaysdriveaVolvo?
Hetookaminutebeforeanswering,Becauseitsanice,smoothcar.Plus,itsreallysafetodrive.Iguessthe
Swedesmakegoodcars,hesmiled,andIknewbythelookonhisfacethatthiswasmorethanjustacar.
Hestoppedthecar,andIlookedwhenIsawthatwewereinaMcDonaldsparkinglot.
McDonalds?Iasked.
Yes,ordoesthatnotsuittheprincess?
Howdidheknow?
ToeatatMcDonaldswhileyourewithagoodlookingguyisveryembarrassing.Evenmoreembarrassingis
whenhewatchesyoueatinanotsoglamorousway.
Afterdinner,thecarridecontinuedinrelativesilence.Imusthavefallenbackasleep,becausethenextthingI
knew,IwasbeingwokenbyEdwardforthesecondtimethatday.
Whyarewestopping?Iasked.
BecauseIneedtosleep,andthiswasthefirstmotelIcouldfind.
Theroomhegotuswassmall,withonebed,atableandtwochairs.Theroomhadredwalls,redcarpetandred
sheets.Somehow,thismadeitlooklikearoomyourentbythehour,andIwasthehooker.
Theresonlyonebed,Itoldhim.
Yes,Iknow.Itwastheonlyroomtheyhadleft.
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So,whereareyousleepingthen?Onthefloor?Thatcantbeverycomfortable.Maybeweshouldgetanextra
room.
LikeIsaidthiswastheonlyroomtheyhadleft.Iwillbesleepingonthebed,hepaused,withyou.Then
hewentintothebathroomtogetreadyforthenight.
Wellbesleepinginthesamebed?CouldIhandlethat?
Thebathroomisallyours,hesaidashewalkedoutonlywearinghisboxers.
Holy.
Iquicklygrabbedmythingsandclosedthedoorbehindme.HowwasIsupposetohandleanentirenightnext
tohimlookinglikethat,whenIcantevenbeinthesameroomwithhimformorethanfiveseconds.
Ididmynightlyroutine,andtookcareofmytattoobeforeputtingabandageonitagain.Whenitcameto
gettingdressed,Ipanickedslightly.
WhatthehellshouldIweartobed,thebedImsharingwithEdward?
ItsnotlikeIusuallycarewhatclothesIwore,butrightnow,Idid.IdecidedIhadthreeoptions.One,Icould
wearthetinypajamasAlicepackedforme.Two,IcouldgoandaskEdwardforatshirtorsomething.Three,I
couldwearthetshirtItookfromhimthismorning.
Thefirstoptionwasoutofthequestion,andoptionnumberstwoandthreewereequallyembarrassing.I
mentallycursedmyselffornothavingthoughtaboutpackingsomethingIcouldsleepin,andputonEdwardst
shirtfromearlierintheday.
Edwardmusthavebeenreallyexhaustedbecause,whenIsteppedoutintotheroom,hewaslayingfacedown
onthebed.Hedidntevenlookup.
Dontyoudareleaveyoursideofthebedduringthenight!
Wouldntdreamofit,hemumbledintothepillow.
Welayinsilenceafterthat,butitdidntappearhewasasleepyet.TherewassomethingIdesperatelyneededto
know,soIthoughtnowwasasgoodasever.
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Edward?Iaskedintothedarkness.
Yes,Bella?
CanIaskyousomething?
Ithoughtthatswhatwedidearlier.
Please?
Sure,butonlyifIcanaskyousomethinginreturn.
Ilookeduptheceiling,gatheringcouragebeforeIaskedhim,Didweum,didwehavesexlastnight?
Iwasonlymetwithsilence.Istartedtofeartheworst,butthenhefinallyspoke.
Nowedidnt.Dontgetmewrong,Ireallywantedto,andstilldo,butyoupassedoutonmebeforewegot
thatfar.Besides,Iwouldnttakeadvantageofyoulikethat.
Ifeltmybodyinstantlyrelax,atleastwedidnthavesex.
Buthowfardidwegoexactly?
CouldyoutellmehowfarwegotbeforeIpassedout?Iaskedhim.
Notyet,baby,notyet.Ihavetoaskyoumyquestionbeforeyougettoaskanotherone,remember?hesaid
sleepily,andIfeltterribleaboutkeepinghimawakewhenheclearlywasexhausted.
Sorry,goahead.
Areyouavirgin,Bella?heasked,andIfeltmycheeksinstantlygored.
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Whatkindofquestionisthat?
Yes,Iansweredquietly,afteramomentofsilence.
ItsokayBella.Iwontjudgeyou.Ijustwantedtoknowsinceyouseemedsorelievedwhenyoufoundout
thatwedidnthavesex.Thatsall.
Okay.
Whatelseistheretosaytosomethinglikethat?Myhighschoolbullyjustsaidhewontjudgemeforstillbeing
avirginattwentythree.
Andtoansweryourquestionallwedidwaskissandundress.Therewassomegropinggoingon,butwe
nevertouchedintimately,hesaidintothedarkness.
Allofthesudden,Ifeltstinginginmyeyes,andasmycheeksgotwet,Irealizeditwastears.
Icantremembermyfirstkiss,andIvehearditssupposedtobewonderful!
Imnotacheesyperson,butIwantedtoatleastrememberit.Atthatthought,Isniffled,andEdwardheardit.
Bella,whatswrong?heaskedinaconcernedvoice.Baby,whyareyoucrying?
Itsnothing,Isaid,andturnedaround,mybackfacinghim.Iwilljustletyousleepnowwehavealong
drivetomorrow.
NotuntilyoutellmewhatIdidwrong!ItwasobviouslysomethingIsaid.
IjustwishIcouldrememberit,thatsall,Iwhispered.
Well,wehavealotofpicturesofthewedding,maybeifyoulookthemover,itwillcomebacktoyou,he
saidreassuringly.
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Yeah,maybe.GoodnightEdward.
Goodnight.
IwokethenextmorningfeelingwarmandmorerestedthanIhadinyears.Notwantingtoopenmyeyes,I
inhaledthewonderfulscentthatsurroundedme.
Strange,Ididntknowthathookerroomscouldsmellthisdivine,Ithoughtandsnuggledcloserintothe
warmth.
Onlythen,didIfindthewarmthactuallymoveacrossmybarestomach.
MyeyesshotopenandIfoundmyselfinEdwardsembrace.Iwassnuggledclosetohisbody,withmyfacein
hiscrookoftheneck,himlyinghalfwayontopofme.
Howcomethisfeelssogoodandsosafe?ThisisEdwardforcryingoutloud!
IgroanedandsnuggledcloserbeforerealizingwhatIwasdoing,andthentriedtogetawayfromhim.Itwasnt
easysincehewasheavywithallofhisdeadweight.SoItriedspeakingtohim,hopinghewouldwakeup.
Edward,Isaid,butallIgotwasagruntinresponse.
Edward,Itriedagain.Thistime,hejustsnuggledcloser.
DecidingIneededtoberougher,Igrabbedhishair,andGod,itfeltgoodbetweenmyfingers!
Thisactionjustmadehimmoan,soIjerkedhisheadbackandhefinallywokeup.
Fuck!WhatareyoudoingBella?heaskedinagroggyvoice.
Youareonehardmantowakeup,Isaid.Nowcanyoupleasegetoffme,soIcangoandgetready?
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No,Imtoocomfortablerighthere,hesaidashekissesmyneck.
Oh,whatawonderfulfeeling.
Well,Iwanttogethomesometimetoday,soyouneedtomove.Bythistime,hisbighandwascaressingmy
barestomach,whilehismouthworkeditsmagiconmyneck.
Please,dontstop.
Fine,hehuffedandrolledoffofme.Myhandsautomaticallyslidoutofhishair,andIinstantlymissedits
silkysoftness.Whathappenedtoyourwrist?!hesaidashenoticedmybandagedwrist.
Igotatattoo,remember?
CanIseeit?heaskedexcitedly.
Notrightnow.Ineedtogetready.BythewaydidntItellyoutostayonyoursideofthebedlastnight?!I
yelledinaloudly.
Baby,youareonmyside.Istayedhereallnight,hesmirked.
Youprobablywentovertomysidetodragmeovertoyourside,justsoyouwouldntbeguiltyinthe
morning,Isaid,andIsteppedoutofthebedtograbapairofjeans,atanktop,andalightsweater.
Sothatswheremytshirtwent?heaskedsmugly.
Seemslikeit,IsaidasIclosedthebathroomdoor.
Afteradisgustingbreakfastandsomecoffee,wewerebackontheroadagain.Wehadaboutthreehoursleft
untilwegottoSeattle,whenEdwardbrokeourcomfortablesilence.
Willyoupleaseletmeexplainmybehaviornow?heasked.
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DoIreallywanttohearit?
Look,Edward,Ibegan.Thingshaventchangedthatmuch.Imstillthegeekygirlwholikestoread.I
haventhadaboyfriend,Ihaveyettohavesex,andyouareprobablytheonlyguyIveeverkissed.Whathas
changedisImighthavelongerhair,lostsomeweight,IdontwearmyglassesexceptforwhenImreading,
andthatwearenowmarried.Idontseewhatyourexplanationisgoingtochange.Iletoutabiggushofair,
relievedtofinallyhavethatoffmychest.
Bella,youmightbegeeky,butIdontseeyouthatway,Ineverhave.EveninhighschoolIlikedyou.Ijust
guessIshoweditthewrongwayhesaidbeforeIcuthimoff.
Likedme?Whatwereyoufiveyearsoldorsomething?!Youdontshowthatyoulikesomeonebybeing
meantothem!
Iknowsorryisntgoodenough,butIreallyamsorry.Backthen,Iwasafraidofmyownfeelingstowards
you.IhadneverfeltthatbeforeandIfeltweak.So,IdidwhateverIcouldtohidemyfeelingsfromyou,from
everybodythebestwaypossiblebybeingmeantoyou.Ihatedmyselfeverydayfordoingthattoyou!Then
theweeksturnedintoyears,andIstartedtorealizethatmyfeelingsforyoudidntmakemeweak,theymade
mehuman.Bythenitwastoolatetodosomethingaboutit,hetookapausetogatherhisbreathbeforestarting
again.ThenIsawyouwiththatguy,andIthoughtIfinallylostyou.Iknewitwasjustamatteroftimebefore
ithappened,butthatdidntmakeitanyeasier.
Sothatswhyyoustoppedtalkingtome?BecauseyouthoughtIwaswithsomeoneelse?Iasked.Thats
crazy,Edward,andhowcouldyouevenhavefeelingsforme?Youdidntevenknowme!
Ilikedthatyouwerentliketheothergirls,andthatyoudidnttrytoblendin.Youwere,andstillare,
beautiful.Youjusthavetobelievethattoo.
Well,thebadstuffisalwayseasiertobelieve,ImumbledbeforeIcontinued,andyoulikedtheactionsand
nottheperson.
Well,okay.ThenIwouldliketogettoknowyou,morethanIfoundoutyesterdaywith20Questions.
Whatsthepoint?Weregettingadivorce,anditsnotlikewellbeseeingeachotherthatmuchafterthat.
Wearenotgettingadivorce.
ClearlyImustbehearingthingnow,becausethereisnowayhejustsaidthat!
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What?!Iyelled.
Isaid,wearenotgettingadivorce,hesaidasthoughIwasanidiot.
Yes,weare.Thereisnowaywecancontinuethiswholemarriagething.
Whynot?
Becausewedontloveeachother!
Well,itsnotlikeyougavemeachancetoprovethatIvechanged,andiftheonlywaytomakeyoudothatis
bythismarriagethenwearenotgettingadivorce.
Angrytearsstartedtowellupinmyeyes,andIfoughthardtokeepthemback.
Whyishedoingthistome?Hasntheruinedmylifeenough?
Youcantforcemetostaymarriedtoyou,Isaidinashakyvoice.
No,Icant,butyoucantforcemetosignthepaperseither.
Mymindcameupblank.Ihadnoideawhattodonow,couldIgivehimanotherchance,orshouldIusemy
lastsavingstohireagoodlawyerwhocouldgetmeoutofthismess?Woulditbeworthitintheend?Or,I
couldjuststaymarriedtohim,andmovetotheothersideoftheworld,butthenIwouldntbeabletoget
marriedifIfindmyPrinceCharming.
Somyoptionsnowwere:Icoulddowhathewantedandgivehimachance,orIcoulduseupallthemoneyI
hadleft,andthenprobablynotevengetthedivorcebecausehewouldhaveanevenbetterlawyer.
OrIcouldrunaway,Ithought.
Bella,letsmakeadeal,hestarted.Ifyougivemeoneyear,andyoustillwantadivorce,Iwillsignthe
papersforyou.Onlyifyougivemeanhonestchance,whichmeansthatwewilllivetogetherandintroduce
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eachotherashusbandandwife.ThenwillIsignthepapers.
Areyouserious?!Doyouexpectsexinthatequationaswell?
Imcompletelyserious,baby,andIdontexpectsexunlessyoureupforit,thatis,hesaidlookingsmug.
Whyareyoudoingthistome?Iaskedinaweakvoice.
BecauseIwantyou.NowthatIlegallyhaveyou,Imnotgoingtogiveawaythechancetohaveyou,without
fighting,heexplained.
Ithoughthardaboutwhathehadsaid,andaboutmyoptions.Figuringtherewasnowayoutofthismarriage
withoutdoingasheasked,Igiveup.Ihadnoenergyleft,andaslongashedidntexpectsex,itwilljustlike
havinganewroommatethatyouintroduceasyourhusband.
IfIdothis,willyouletmegowithoutanydifficulties,whentheoneyearisup?Iasked.
Yes,Iwill,butonlyifyouwantmeto.
ThisdoesntmeanIforgiveyou,butyouwillhavetodrivemetoAliceandJaspershousesoIcangetmy
stuff.
EndNotes:
A/N:Sowhatdidyouthink?WasBellatooeasyonEdward?
OnWednesdaywellgettomeetAliceandtherestofthegangagain!Oh,andyouwill
gettoseeBellastattooaswell:)
IlltellyousomethingIhadmyownEdwardinhighschoolwhichIlaterfoundout
wasmeantomeonlybecausehelikedme.ImnotmarriedtohimthoughbutIdont
knowifIwouldhavegivenhimahardtimebeforeforgivinghim.Iwouldlethimwork
forit,justnotmaybeashardasBellaislettingEdwarddo.
HestoppedpickingonmewhenIliedtoeveryoneandsaidIhadaboyfriend.Iknow
itswrongtolieandIstilltothisdaycantbelieveIdidthatandwhyIdidit,but
everyonestopped.Ijusthadafewmoremonthsuntilgraduating9thgrade(thegrade
youreinwhenyoure1516yearsold)butitwasthebestmonthsIhadbeforestarting
thehighereducation.
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Crazy,right?
Anyway,justthoughtIwouldsharesomething.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:So,wearealreadyonchapter5.MaybeI'mtooquickintheupdates?)
Anyway,hereisthefirstnight/dayasroommates,nothingspecial.We'llgetabrief
encounterfromCarlisleandEsmeaswell.
Andasusual,thegoodiescanbefoundat:http:/marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
Beta'dbyChristineandKatelynfrom'ProjectTeamBeta'!
HusbandandWife
BPOV
Westayedsilentfortherestofthedrive,apartfromtheoccasional,Areyouokay?fromEdward,andwere
nowparkedbehindAlicesblackVWBeetleandmypinkMiniCooper.Thelightswereonwhichmeantthat
AliceandJasperwerehome.SinceRosescarwasparkedbythecurb,thatmeantsheandEmmettwerethere
aswell.
IgroanedIdidnthavetheenergytodealwiththis.Iwasstillangrywiththem,andEdwardsdealdidntmake
mefeelbetteraboutthings.
Baby,youneedtofacethemsoonerorlater.Letsjustgetitoverwith,Edwardsaid,inatiredvoice.
Iguesshewastiredofsittingherewithmewhilehisfriendswereinthehouse.
Serveshimrightafterthedealhetalkedmeinto.
IshothimanevilglarebeforesteppingoutofthecarandslamminghiscardoorashardasIcould.
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Childish,Iknow,butIcouldnthelpmyself.Ineededtoaimmyangeratsomething,andthecarhadtodo,
sinceEdwardstolerancewithmemadebeingangrywithhimnofun.
Iheardfootstepsbehindme,soIturnedaroundonlytofindEdwardfollowingme.
Whatareyoudoing?Isneered.
Imgoinginside,heanswered,takenabackbymytone.
Why?
Towaitforyouandmeetmyfriends,hesaid,walkingpastmetowardsthedoor.
Thereisnoneedforyoutowaitforme.
Oh,soyouknowthedirectionstomyapartment,then?
Justthen,Aliceopenedthedoor,soIbrushedmywaypastthemandranuptowardsmyroombeforeshegot
thechancetosayanythingtome.
Mostofmystuffwasalreadypackedinboxes,sinceIhadntplannedtolivewithherformuchlonger,andId
onlylivedhereforaboutamonthsinceImovedoutofmydorm.
Igrabbedaboxandwentbacktothedoor,grabbingmycarkeysfromthebenchbythedoor.Iopenedthecar
doorandrealizedIcouldntfitalltheboxesinmysmallcar,IwouldhavetoaskEdwardtotakesomeofthem.
Great.
IwentbackintothehouseandfoundAliceintears.Therestofthemwereinshock,exceptEdwardwho
lookedrelaxed.
Bella,pleaseAlicestarted,followingmeintomybedroom.
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No,Alice,youvedoneenoughalready,Isaid.
Butwasitreallyenoughforyoutoactuallymoveout?!Whereareyougoingtolive?
Edwarddidnttellyou?Immovinginwithhim,soyougotwhatyouwantedafterall,Isaidinabittertone
asIpackedafewthingsinoneoftheboxes.
Butifyouremovinginwithhim,thenyoumustlikehim.Sowhyareyousomadatme?
IdontlikehimAlice!Infact,Ihatehim.Or,atleast,IhatetheEdwardIusedtoknowenoughtonotwantto
bewiththisEdward.
Butwhyareyoumovinginwithhim,then?Youreconfusingme.
Otherwisehewontsignthedivorcepapers!
HesareallygoodguyBella,maybeyoushouldgivehimachance,shesaidcarefully.
Igrabbedanewboxandwentouttothecaragain,needingtogetawayfromAlicebeforeIdidsomethingI
wouldregretlater.Ilovedher,Itrulydid,butforcingmetospendtimewithEdwardwasnotacceptable.When
Iwentbackinside,IstoppedbythelivingroomtoseeEdward.
Couldyoupleasetaketherestoftheboxesandputtheminyourcar?Icantfitanymoreinmine,Iasked
him.
Sure,showmetheway,hesaidandstoodfromthecouchhewassittingon.
Hetookthetwoboxesthatwereleftandtoldmehewouldwaitbythecarforme.
Whenheleft,IturnedtoAliceandsaid,Hemaybethegoodguytoyou,buttomehewasnt.
Wouldyoupleasejusttellmewhathedidthatwassobadyoucantevengivehimachance?sheasked,and
extendedherarms,clearlyfrustrated.
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Aftershesaidthat,Iburst,unabletoholditbackanylonger.
Hemademylifelikehellforsevenfuckingyears,Alice!Hemademyhighschoolexperiencemiserablefrom
thefirstdaywemet!Isthatwhatyouwantedtohear?!Iyelled.
Ididntknow
No,youdidnt,butyoushouldhavetrustedme,asmybestfriend,whenItoldyouIdidntlikehim!
Imsorryshestarted.
Saveit.IllseeyouonWednesday,asusual,Isaid,stormingoutoftheroomwithmypillowandsomeofmy
clothesundermyarm.
WillIbeseeingyouonWednesday?Rosalieaskedverycarefully,asshefollowedmeoutthedoor.
Edwardwasstandingbyhiscar,smokingacigarette,whilehewaited.Somehow,thatnastyhabitmadehim
lookevensexier.
Yeah,youwill,IansweredRose,whenIreachedmydoor.
Bella,pleasetellmethatisnotyourcar!Edwardsaid,pointingtowardsmyMiniCooper.
Itismycar,actually.
YoureplacedyourImpalawiththispinkchickthing?!
IhadntthoughtofmypreciousoldcarinagesImissedit.Itwasoneoftheonlygoodthingsaboutmylife
backinForks.Nowitwasparkedinmydadsgarage,collectingdust.
YouhadanImpala?!Roseasked.
WaytogoEdward,nowwellneverleave.
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Yes,IhaveaChevyImpala,Isaid,lookingatEdward.
Whatyear?Rosalieasked,excited.
67.
Well,ifyoustillhaveit,whyonearthwouldyouwanttodrivethisgirlything?Edwardasked.
DontpickonitIlovethiscar.TheImpalaneedswork,andwouldyoudriveacarlikethatonthebusystreets
ofSeattle?
Whyhaventyoutoldme?Iwouldhavefixeditforyou,Roseasked,clearlydisappointed.
WhywouldI?SoIcouldhaveitheretemptingmetodriveit?Acarlikethatissomethingyoushouldbe
carefulwithandnotdriveitwhereitseasilyscratched.
Now,canwepleasego?IaskedEdward.
Sure,justfollowme,hesaid,openinghiscardoorandclimbingin.
IllseeyouonWednesday,Rose.Imstillmadatbothofyoufordoingthis,sopleasegivemesomespace
untilthen,Itoldher.Iloveyou.
Iloveyou,too.Besafe.
Iwill,Isaid,steppingintothecaranddrivingoffbehindEdward.
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IknewBellawasbeyondangrywithmebecauseofthedealItalkedherinto,butIwantedtogivethis
relationshipachance.Thatwasthefirstthingthatcametomymind.MaybeIshouldnthavepushedherso
hard,but,likeIsaid,Iwantedthistoworkout.
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Iwonderifshewilleverfindoutthatshecan,atleastatthispoint,getitannulled.
God,Ihopenot!
Bellafollowedbehindmeinherpinkgirlycaraswedrovetomyapartment.Itotallygotitwhenshesaidshe
didntwanttodrivetheImpalainthecitytraffic,butdidshehavetogetapinkcar?!
Imean,whoisshe?ParisfuckingHilton?
IpulledintomyregularspotintheparkinglotandwaitedforBellatoparknexttomebeforesteppingout.
Igrabbedthetwoboxesthatwereinmycarandthenledherintothebuilding.Weweremetbythesecurity
guard,Seth.
Heyman,couldyougrabtheboxandtheotherstuffthatleftinthePinkMiniCooperandbringitupforme?
Iasked.
Sure,justgivemethekeysandIlldoitmyself,heanswered.
Great.Baby,youneedtogivehimyourkeys,IsaidtoBella.IwatchedasshehesitatedbeforeItoldher,Its
okayhewontdamageitorstealit.Hesjustgoingtogetthelastthingssowedontneedtomakeanother
trip.
Fine,butIwillknowifyoudidanythingtomycar,shesaidasshehandedSeththekeys.
Hisfacewentalittlepale,buthequicklyrecoveredandnoddedhishead.
IledBellaintotheelevatorandpushedthebuttonindicatingthe26thfloor,whichwaswhereIlived.
Youreawfullyquiet,areyoualright?Iaskedher.
Imfine.
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Thatstheseventhfinesincewemadethedeal,dontyouhaveanyotherword?
SureIdodoesAssholesoundbettertoyou?
Ouch!
IthinkIpreferFine.
Thenstopcomplaining,shesaid,asshesteppedoutoftheelevator.
Iledhertomydoorandunlockedit,beforeshowingherinside.
Shestoodintheentrywaytakingeverythingin.Theapartmentwaspaintedinlightcolors,andthewallsfacing
outsideweremadeofglass.
Itookhertothekitchenfirst.Totherightyouhavethekitchenareawithadiningtablerightinfrontofyou,
andthentoyourleftisthelivingroom,Itoldher.
Iheardhermutterawowasshelookedaround.ItoldhertocomewithmeasIledherbackintothehallway
andthentothebedroom,whereIplacedthetwoboxesonthefloorbythebed.
So,thisisthebedroom,IsaidasIwatchedher.
Thebedroomwasliketheotherroomsintheapartment,paintedinlightcolors.Ithadonekingsizebed,aTV
andasmallsofabythebigwindow.
Shewalkedintotheadjoinedbathroom,whichhadthesamecolorschemeasthebedroom.Itwasbigenoughto
holdtwosinksandashowerwithabathtub.Ithenrememberedthatsheisafraidofbathingandsmiled.Could
shegetanycuter?
IwouldhavetohelphergetoverthatfearbecauseIwanttotakeabathwithher.
Thenwehavethecloset.ItsawalkinclosetandIdonthavemanyclothes,soImsureyourswillfitinhere
aswell,Itoldherwhenwehadreachedthecloset.
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Thatsit,Ithinkyouveseenthewholeapartmentnow,Isaidtoher,aswewalkedbackintothebedroom.
Theresonlyonebedroom,shestated.
Yeah,Iknow.Idonthaveaguestroom.ImsorryIcansleeponthecouchifyouremorecomfortablewith
that.
Shejustnoddedherheadbeforeshesaid,Itsgettinglate,andyouprobablyhavetogetupearlytomorrow.
Yeah,Ido.So,whendoyouleaveinthemorning?
Oh,Idontstartworkfortwoweeks,andthenImmostlygoingtoworkfromhomeanyway.
Okay,whatkindofworkdoyoudo?
Imabookeditor,sheanswered.
Justthen,thedoorbellrang.Ihavetogetthat.Yougetcomfortableinhere,andIllbebackinjustasecond.
IopenedthedoorandfoundSethstandingtherewiththeboxandsomeclothesinhisarms.
Hey,Imsorry.IttookawhilebeforeIcouldgetawayfromthestation,hetoldme.
Noworries,Isaid,takingthethingsfromhisarmsandgivinghimatip.Illseeyoutomorrow,okay?
Yeah,ofcourse.Goodnight,Mr.Cullen.
HowmanytimesdoIhavetotellyoutocallmeEdward?Sethjustlaughedandshookhishead.Goodnight
Seth.
WhenIgotbacktothebedroom,IcouldntfindBella,soIsatdownonthesofatowaitforher.Ifiguredshe
wasinthebathroomgettingreadyforbed.
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Fiveminuteslater,sheemergedfromthebathroom,cladonlyinmyblacktshirtandprobablyapairofpanties,
althoughIcouldntseethem.
Seeingherstillwearingmyclothes,eventhoughshehadotheroptions,mademesmile.
Oh,Ididntknowyouwereouthere,shesaid.Ihopeyoudontmindmewearingthisagain.Idonthave
theenergytolookthroughtheboxesformyclothes.
No,no,itsdefinitelyokay,Itoldher.Muchmorethanokay,Iaddedundermybreath.Iwilljustget
readyandgrabsomesheetsfortonight,thenIwillbeoutofyourway.
Okay.
Iwenttothebathroomtogetreadyforbed,andwhenIwasdone,Iwenttotheclosettograbablanket.
IsitokayifIjustgrabapillow?IaskedBella,whowasnowlyingonthebed.Shewasntonmyside,
though.
Sure.ItsnotlikeIlluseallofthemanyway.
Okay.Oh,andbytheway,Iputyourcarkeysinthebowlbythedoor,andthereisakeytotheapartmenton
thetablenexttoit.
Okay.Goodnight,Edward.
Goodnight,Isaid,walkingoutoftheroom.
Isatdownonthecouch,noticinghowmuchmoreuncomfortableitseemedatthismoment.Iwouldjusthaveto
getanotherbedorsomething,ifIwasgoingtobesleepingonthecouchforthenext12months.Ijusthopedit
wouldnttakethatlongtogethertowarmuptotheideaofbeingmarriedtome.
Iwokeupthenextmorningtothehatefulsoundofthealarmonmyphone.Imnevergoingtogetusedtobeing
wokenupbyamachine.WhenIturneditoff,IsawthatIhadthreemissedcallsandonenewvoicemail.
Sighing,IdialedthenumbertothevoicemailtolistentothemessageIknewIwasntgoingtoenjoy.
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Edward,Alice,IshouldhaveknownIknowyourehomebynowsoanswerthephone,Goddamnit!
Therewasaslightpausebeforeshecontinued.Fine,IjustwantyoutoknowthatBellatoldmesomeofyour
history,andIcantbelieveyoutreatedherlikethat!Ilikeyou,okay?ButrightnowIcantbeonyoursidejust
asmuchasIcantbeonBellas.IneverexpectedhertobemaybeonBellasside,butnotonmine.Shejust
hadtolearnhowtomindherownbusiness.Dontthinkyoureoffthehookjustbecauseyourenot
answering!IcouldhearJaspersvoiceinthebackground,tellinghertojustletitgo.Alright,youhavesome
explainingtodo!TellBellaImsorry,please?Bye.
Igotupfromthecouchandstretchedmysorebody.ImademywaytothecoffeemachinebutjustasIwas
abouttoturniton,Inoticedthatitwasalreadyonwithcoffeeinit.
Huh,IguessBellamustbeupalready.Strange,consideringIhadntheardher.
Igrabbedmycoffeeandwentouttothebalconytosmokemymorningcigarette.Bellahadntaskedmetoquit,
soIwasgoingtocontinuethehabit,untilIwastoldnotto.
WhenIwasdone,Iputoutthecigarette,putmycupinthedishwasherandwenttothebedroom,inordertoget
tothebathroom.ButwhenIgottothebedroom,Istoppeddeadinmytracks.Thereonmybed,andnowalso
onmyside,wasBella.
Shewaslyingflatonherstomachwithherfacepresseddirectlytothemattress.Herfacewasrelaxedina
peacefulsleepandherlipswereinaslightpout.Itmademewonderwhysheevenbroughtapillowalongifshe
wasntgoingtouseit.
Shehadsomehowmanagedtokickthecomforterdowntoherfeet,soIcouldseethoseamazinglegs.Myt
shirt,whichshewasstillwearing,hadriddenupsomostofherlowerbackwasonfulldisplay,alongwiththe
purplepantiesthathuggedherperfectass.
Itwasasighttobehold,andifIhadntseenhernakedbefore,Iwouldmostdefinitelysaythatthiswasoneof
hersexiestmomentsever.
Iwasinstantlyhardandwishedmorethananythingthatshewouldletmesleepinthesamebedwithhersoon.I
wantedtowakeuptothatsighteverymorning.
Noticingthegoosebumpsonherskin,Irealizedthatshemusthavebeencold,soIgentlytuggeddownthet
shirtandpulledthecomforteruptoherchin.
IneededtogetawayfromBellabeforeIattackedher,soIleftthebedroomtogetreadyfortheday.Itfelt
wrongtojerkoffwithBellainthenextroom,soIsettledforaveryuncomfortableandcoldshowerbefore
gettingdressed.
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WhenIsteppedbackintothebedroom,Bellahadntmovedmorethantoclutchthecomforterinhersmall
hands.ShelookedsopeacefulthatIdidntwanttowakeher,butIstillwantedtotellhergoodmorning.I
settledforanoteinstead.
Goodmorning,baby.
Ididntwanttowakeyou,butIneededtogettowork.
Ifyouneedanything,pleasecallmeonmycellIllhaveitwithmeallday.
IllseeyoutonightIshouldbehomebysixoclock.
xoxo
Edward
Ileftthenotebyhercell,sothatshewouldseeitwhenshewokeup.Iresistedtheurgetokissherandleftfor
work.
Itwasjustaftertwo,whenIfeltmyphonevibrateinmypocket.HopingitwouldbeBella,Iquicklypulledit
out,onlytofindthewordMomonthedisplayscreen.
Sighing,IpressedtheTalkbuttonandsaid,Hi,Mom!
DontMommeEdward.Ijustfoundoutyougotmarriedthisweekend,frommysister!
Shit,Ishouldhavetoldherbeforeshecouldfindoutfromanyoneelse.
Imsorry,Mom,IknowIshouldhavetoldyoubutithasjustbeenalittlecrazyrecently.
Thatsnotaverygoodexcuse!ImyourmotherforChristssake!Shepausedforaminutebefore
continuing.Please,justtellmeitsnotthatLaurengirl.
ThatLaurengirlwasmymostrecentgirlfriendandatotalbitch.IbrokeupwithheraboutamonthagoI
guessmymomhadntgottenthenews.
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ItsnotthatLaurengirl,Isaid,mimickingherwords.Infact,Ithinkyoulllovethisgirl.
Whoisshe?Iwanttomeether.Shewasnolongerabletobeangrywithmeanymore.
Youalreadyhavemetheracoupleoftimes.ItsIsabellaSwan,theChiefsdaughter.Ismiledintothephone
asIspoke.
Oh,EdwardIcouldhearherhappytearsthroughthephone,whichonlygotmetosmileevenwiderIm
sohappyforyou!AlthoughIamdisappointedthatIdidntgettoseethewedding!
IknowImreallysorry
Youllmakeituptomesomedaybygivingmegrandchildren,shecutmeoff.
Ihadnteventhoughtaboutkidsyet,butIcouldpicturealittleminiatureBella,withmyhair,runninginour
home
Whattimewillyoubehometoday?sheasked,endingmythoughts.
Umm,aroundsix,Ithink.Whydoyouask?
Good,yourfatherandIareonourway.Weleftfifteenminutesago,soweshouldbeatyourplacearound
sixthirty.
Mom,Isaidinawarningtone,BellaandIarentreallyreadyforthewholemeettheparentskindofthing
justyet.
Yourenotreadytomeettheparents,butyourereadyformarriage?Werenotgoingtobiteher.Relaxand
Illseeyouinacoupleofhours.Iloveyou!shesaidandhungupthephone.
Great,nowtheyregoingtoscareheroff!
IquicklydialedBellasnumbersoIcouldgivehersomekindofwarning.
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Shepickeduponthethirdring,Hello?
Hi,itsme,Edward,Itoldherlamely.
Yeah,Iknow.So,whatcanIdoforyou,Edward?sheaskedinabitchytone.
Ijustwantedtoaskhowyourdayis,Isaid,chickeningoutatthelastminute.HowwasIsupposedtotell
her?
ItsfinesofarIwasjustatthegrocerystorebuyingsomefood,sincesomebodydoesntseemtohandlethat
verywell.
ImsorryIjustdidnteatmuchfoodbackattheapartment,orIboughttakeout.
Yeah,yeah.Thatsgoingtochange,soyoubetterstarttakingcookinglessonsorsomething.
Ijusthuffedinresponse.Iknewhowtocookthebasicstuff,butIguessIpreferredtakeout,ormymoms
cooking,insteadofsomedrypasta.
So,listen.Ijustgotacallfrommymomsheknowsthatwegotmarriedthisweekendandshewantstomeet
you,Itoldher.
Thelinewentsilentforawhile,andIwonderedbrieflyifshehunguponme,butthenshesqueakedouta
What?
Yeah,thatsnotallofit.ShecalledfromtheroadmydadandherareontheirwaytoSeattle.Theyshould
arrivearoundsixthirty.
OhmyGod,shegroaned.Youretellingmethisnow?!
Shejustcalled.IwouldhavetoldyousoonerifIknewsooner.
Ihavetogetdinnerstarted.Bye,shesaidandhungup.
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Fuck.IneededtogetoutofhereandgohomesothatIcouldhelpher.Theyweremyparentsafterall.
IfinishedupthestuffatworkthatcouldntwaitfortomorrowandtoldTanya,mysecretary,thatIwouldbeout
fortherestoftheday.
WhenIparkedmyVolvoinmyparkingspaceatmyapartment,itwasfourthirtyandIhadtwohoursbefore
myparentsarrived.
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Iwasexhausted,andEdwardsphonecalldidntmakethingsanybetter.Ihadntbeenabletosleeplastnight,
andaftertossingandturningforacoupleofhours,Ihadgottenuptounpacksomeofmythings.Whiledoing
so,IrealizedthatIdidnthavemanyclothesIhadthrownoutmostofthemwhenImovedoutofthedorm.
IguessIwouldhavetogoshoppingforsomenewones.
Aftermystuffhadbeenunpacked,Iwentouttothekitchentogetsomecoffee.WhileIhadbeenwaitingfor
thecoffeetofinish,IhadnoticedEdwardonthecouch.Itdidntlookverycomfortableconsideringhewasso
tallthathislegshungofftheendofthecouch.
Imayhavebeenangrywithhim,butIwasntabitch,andIactuallyfeltsorryforhim.Ijustneededhimto
sweatforafewmoredays,beforehecouldhavehisbedback.Hedid,afterall,offertosleeponthecouch,
whichwasasweetgestureandagoodstarttothisrelationship.
Isighed,puttingthelasagnaIwasmakingfortonightintheoven,beforegoingtothebathroomforashower.
Thebandagewasreadytocomeoffmywrist,andItookagoodlookatmytattoo.Itwassimplereallyitwas
thewordsNobodyputsBabyinacornerwrittenintwolinesacrossmyleftwrist.Thewordswould,toan
outsider,justbeassociatedwiththemovieDirtyDancing.
Igotintheshower,andIfeltmywholebodyrelaxunderthespray.Unfortunatelythehotwaterdisappearedall
toosoonandIhadtogetout.Idressedcasuallyinjeansandablacklongsleevedtshirt.Iputmyhairupina
ponytailandwenttocheckonthelasagna.
JustasIenteredthekitchen,thefrontdooropenedandEdwardappeared.
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Isitalreadysixoclock?!Iaskedinapanickedvoice.
Hejustchuckledbeforesaying,No,itsaboutfourfortyfive.Theresnoneedtoworry,baby,theyre
harmless.
Well,IlltellyouthesamewhenwegomeetCharlie,andthenagainwhenmymomfindsoutandwantstosee
you!
Youllhavemyback,right?heasked,slightlyworried.
Wellseehowtonightgoesnowhopintheshowersoyoucanhelpmewithdinner,Itoldhimsnickering
sinceIknewtherewasntanyhotwaterleft,andwavedhimoffwithmyhand.
Bysixfortyandtheystillhaventshowed.Weweresittingonthecouchwaitingforthem,andImstartedtoget
nervous.
Whatiftheydontlikeme?
Relax,Bella.Theywillloveyou,Imsure,hetriedtoreasonwithme.
Ijustnoddedmyheadandwentbacktomyfidgeting.
Baby,lookatme.
Idid.Istaredintothosewonderfulgreeneyesofhisandgotlostforamomentbeforehisvoicebroughtme
back.Dontbenervous.Illbebyyoursideallnight,andIwontletanythinghappentoyou,okay?
Okay,butwhatarewegoingtotellthem?
Whatdoyoumean?heasked.TheyalreadyknowwegotmarriedinVegas.
Yeah,butarewegoingtotellthemaboutthedeal?
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Doyouwantto?
Ithoughtaboutthatforaminute.Ifwedid,theywouldprobablybeevenmoredisappointedinus.Ifwedidnt,
theywouldbedevastatedwhenwegotdivorced,butiftheygottoknowmemaybetheywouldntbethatangry
withme.Itwaswrongofmetothinklikethat,butIwas,afterall,justhuman.
No,Ifinallywhisperedjustasthedoorbellrang.
Illgetit,Edwardsaidandgotupfromthecouch.
IfollowedhimshortlyafterandwasafewfeetawaywhenIheardEsmesvoice,Whereisshe?
HelloMother,itsnicetoseeyoutoo,Edwardsaidtoherandkissedhercheek,beforeshakinghisdads
hand.
So,whereisthiswifeofyours?Carlisleasked.
Baby?Edwardasked,andlookedaroundforme.
HelloMr.andMrs.Cullen,it'snicetomeetyou,IsaidnervouslyandsteppedoutfrombehindEdward.
"Oh,Bella,it'ssogoodtoseeyou!"Esmeexclaimed,andbroughtmeinforahug."Thereisnoneedforthose
kindsofformalities.PleasecallusEsmeandCarlisle."
"Welcometothefamily,Bella,"Carlislesaid.
"Thankyou.Dinnerisreadyifyouwantsome,"Itoldthem.
"Wesuredo,dear.Itwasalongdrive,"Esmesaid,andstartedwalkingtowardsthekitchen.
Edwardputhisarmaroundmyshouldersinacomfortinggestureandwhisperedinmyear,"Sofarsogood?"
Ileanedintohisframe,absorbingthecalmnessitbroughtme,andnodded.Hekepthisarmaroundmeuntilwe
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reachedthekitchenandIhadtograbthelasagna.
Thefirstpartofthedinnerwentbysmoothly,andIstartedtoreallylikeEdward'sparents.Theyaskedmeafew
questionsaboutmyjobandwhatmylifewaslikesinceleavingForks.Theydidn'taskanypersonalquestions,
forwhichIwasgrateful.
Edwardbroughtindessert,carrotcake,whenEsmestartedaskingwhatIhadplannedtodowhileEdwardwas
atwork.
"Ineedforsomenewclothes,especiallyclothesforwork,soIwasthinkingIwouldgoshoppingtomorrow."
"Wouldyoulikesomecompany?Icouldgowithyouandhelpyoupickoutsomeoutfits.Carlisleisgoingto
spendthedayatthehospitalanyway."
DidIwanttospendawholedayshoppingwithmynewmotherinlaw?
Oh,whynot?Ilikeher!
ImetEdward'sworriedeyesbeforeanswering,"Sure,Iwouldloveto."
Beforetheyleftforthenight,EsmeandIdecidedtomeetattheapartmentattenoclockthefollowingmorning.
"Areyousureyou'reokaywithgoingshoppingwithmymom?"Edwardasked,whilewedidthedishes.
"Yeah,I'msure.Ilikehershe'sreallysweet."
"Yes,sheis,"hesaidandsighed.Itoldyoutheywereharmless.
"Edward?"
"Yes,Bella?"
"Weneedtohavesomekindofrulesifthisdealisgoingtowork,"Itoldhim.
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ItwassomethingIhadthoughtalotaboutthenightbeforewhenIcouldn'tsleep.
"Whatdidyouhaveinmind?"heasked,ashehandedmeaplatetoputinthedishwasher.
"Well,nokissingonthemouthandnosex..."
"SoIcankissyouanywhereelse,exceptonthemouth?"heasked,cuttingmeoff.
"Yes,ifpeoplearegoingtobelievethatwearemarried,weneedtobeaffectionateinpublic.Justnokissingon
themouth.Istilldon'trememberuskissingthefirsttime,somynextkisswillbelikeafirsttome.Idon'twantit
tohappenjustbecauseweretryingtoconvincepeoplethatweremarried,"Iexplained.
"Okay,fairenough.Iwon'tdoanythingaslongasyoudon'twantmeto."
"Ifyouhaveanypornomagazinesormovies,don'twatchthemwhenI'maround,please.Idon'tthinkIcould
handlethat."
"WhydoyouthinkIwouldhaveporn?"
"Well,you'reaguy,"Itoldhimlikeitwasanobviousexplanation.
Wasn'tit?
"Okay,Iagreetoallyourrules,butIhaveoneruletoaddtothose."
Uhoh,pleasedon'tletitbeanythingIcan'thandle!
"Iwanttosleepinthebedwithyou.Thecouchiskillingme,andIpromiseIwon'ttouchyou...consciously.I'll
evenletyouwearmytshirtthatyoulikesomuch."Hesmirked.
"Deal,"Isaid,reachingoutmyhandforhimtoshake.
Inbedthatnight,Ilaystaringupattheceilingforhours.IcouldhearEdward'scomfortingsnoresbesideme,
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butitwasn'tenoughtobringmetosleep.AllIwantedtodowassnuggleclosetohimandinhalethatwonderful
scentthatwasallEdward.
Stupid,Ithoughttomyself,andturnedmyhead,soIcouldseewhattimeitwas.
Threefortyfive,tenminutessincethelasttimeIchecked.
Groaning,Isteppedoutofbedandwentouttothelivingroom.Ididn'tknowwhatIwasgoingtodosoIjust
satonthecouch,lookingaroundforsomethingtodointhemiddleofthenight.Myeyeslockedontheone
thingIhadfoundcomfortinforduringthelastcoupleofyears.
Titanic.
Igotupfromthecouch,putthemovieintotheDVDplayer,turnedthesoundonlow,andlaydownonthe
couch.
ThelastthingIrememberedwasJacktakingRosedowntothirdclass.ImusthavedozedoffbecauseIfelt
somethingbrushingthroughmyhair.IopenedmyeyesandfoundEdwardstaringdownatme.
"Goodmorning,sunshine!"Hesmiled."Wasitreallythatbadtosleepnexttomethatyouhadtosleeponthe
couch?"heasked,sadly.
"Icouldn'tsleep.Whattimeisit?"Iasked,lookingattheTVandseeingthattheshiphadalreadystartedto
sink."Ohno!Imissedthebestpart!"
"It'sjustaftersix."
ThatexplainedwhyIwastiredashell,andwasalsowhyIjustnoddedmyheadandturnedaroundtofallback
asleep.
"Comeon,baby,let'sgetyoutobed.Iknowhowyourbodywillfeelifyoudon't,"hesaidandliftedmeup
bridalstylefromthecouch.
IwastootiredtocarethathesawandtouchedmybodywhileIwasonlycladinhistshirtandpanties,soIjust
snuggledclosertohiswarmness.Heloweredmedownontothebedandbroughtthecomforteruptocoverme.
Ifelthiswarm,softlipspressagainstmycheekbeforehelefttheroom.
EndNotes:
A/N:Whatdidyouthink?
Nexttimewehavelunchwiththegirls,ashoppingtripwiththemotherinlawanda
weddingtolookforwardto!
BTW,66%ofyouwantedBellatoworkasabookeditor!
Youcanvisit/followmyTwitterifyouwantupdatesonhowthestoryisgoingandwhen
theupdateisgoingtobe!http://www.twitter.com/gelixs
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Hereisthenewchapter!IhaveafewthingsIwanttosaybeforeyoureadit
firstlyIwanttothankallofyouamazingreviewers,THANKYOU!Ivetriedtoanswer
mostofthembutIhavelaidmostofmyenergyonthenewchapter,sosorrytoyou
whoIhaventanswered.Ialsoknowthatitwasabitunfairtoonlygiveoutpreviews
toafewofyou,sorryaboutthat.
Secondly,IhadfourreadersnoticingthePrettyWomanlineIusedinchapter5.I
alsohadareaderwhosuggestedthatIsetupalittlecompetitionandusemovie
lines(andfromTVshows,booksetc.)andseehowmanyofyoucanfigureitout.That
iswhatIvedoneinthischaptersoletsseewhocanfindit!(ItsNOTthepoemfromA
walktoremember)
Thegoodiescanasusualbefoundat:http://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
Beta'dbyChristineandDianafromProjectTeamBeta.
TheWedding
EPOV
ItwashardtoleaveBellathismorning.Itwasalwayshard,butthismorninghadbeendifferent.Ihadfoundher
onthecouchwatching'Titanic,'orrathersleepingto'Titanic.'FirstIhadthoughtshewantedtogetawayfrom
me,butwhenshesaidshecouldn'tsleepIhadfeltrelievedthatIwasn'ttheproblem.
ShehadbeensowarmagainstmychestwhenI'dcarriedherbacktoourbedroom.Ithadmademewanttostay
inbedwithherallday,butIsettledforakissonhercheekinstead.ShehadsaidthatIcouldkissheranywhere
butonthemouth,sowhynottakeadvantageofthat?
"Hello,Tanya,howareyoutoday?"IaskedmysecretarywhenIarrivedattheoffice.
"Hi,Edward!I'mreallygood,stillalittletiredfromtheweekendthough,"sheanswered.
"You'renottheonlyone,"Itoldherandwentthroughmyschedulefortheday.
"So,whatdidyoudothatgotyouallwornout?"
"Igotmarried,"Istatedsimply.
Icouldseethelookofshockonherface,butsherecoveredquickly.
"Wow,EdwardCullenfinallygotmarried.Ididn'tevenknowyouwereengaged,"shesaidandbreathedouta
biggushofair."Whoistheluckylady?"
"IsabellaSwan,orIsabellaCullen.WegotmarriedinVegas.Wehadn'tseeneachotherforfiveyears.I'm
happyaboutit,though,"Isaidandsmiled.
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ItoldTanyaalittleaboutourpast,leavingoutthepartwhereIwasmeantoBella,andsheoohedandaahedat
therightplaces.
"WhendoIgettomeether?"sheaskedexcitedly.
"I'llaskher.I'msureshewouldliketoseeyoutoo."
IhadknownTanyaforafewyearsnow.Ihaddatedhersister,Kate,forabouttwoyearsbackincollege.We
hadendedthingsongoodtermsandwerestillfriends,althoughwedidn'tseeeachotherveryoften.Katewas
theonewhohadintroducedmetoTanyawhenIwaslookingforasecretary.
AfteransweringquestionsfromTanyaforawhile,IhadtogetbacktoworkifIwantedtohavesomething
donebytheendoftheday.
BPOV
IledEsmedowntotheparkinggaragewhereIhadmycar.IsaidhellotoSethandPaul,thesecurityguards
thatwereworkingtoday,onmywaydown.Ilikedthesecurityguys,especiallySeth.
Whenwegottothecar,Esmestoppedinhertracksandjuststared.
"Esme,areyoualright?"Iaskedinconcern.
"Doyouactuallyownapinkcar?"sheasked.
"Yes,thisismybaby.Rosaliechangedthecoloronitformybirthdaylastyear.Itusedtobeblack."
"You'reoneluckygirl,"shesaidandsighed,apparentlyenviousaboutmycar.
"Well,yoursondoesn'tshareyourthoughtsonthatsubject."
"WhocaresaboutEdwardwhenyouhaveacarlikethis?"shesaidandwinkedatme,lettingmeknowthatshe
wasonlyjoking.
Weweretwohoursintoourshoppingwhenwedecidedtohavelunch.Sofarithadbeengreat.Esmefeltlikea
secondmotheranddidn'tjudgemeformarryingEdwardinVegas.Infact,sheseemedreallyhappythatIdid.
Iorderedachickensalad,sinceIdidn'tlikesaladIcouldjusttrytakingitawaydiscreetlyandjusteatthe
chicken.Itwasn'tlikeIwantedtotakemymotherinlawtoMcDonald's.Thatwouldhavebeenasight,butI
knewbetterthanthat.Plus,Ineededtoworkoneatingsomewherethatisn'tMcDonald's.
"So,wheredoyouwanttogonext?"Esmeaskedwhenourwaitresshadleftourtable.
"Idon'tknow.SofarI'vegotabag,someclothesforworkandshoes.Somaybewecouldgotoashopthathas
jeansorsomething,becauseIneedapair."
"Sure,Icoulduseapairortwomyself,"shesaidandsmiled.
Wemadesmalltalkaswewaitedforourfood.SheandCarlisleweregoingbacktoForksthatafternoon,andI
beggedhernottotellCharlieanything.Iwantedtobetheonewhotoldhim.Asthekindpersonshewas,she
promisedthatshewouldn't.
"Now,spillthejuicydetails,Bella,"shesaidwhenthefoodhadarrived.
Iwasn'tsureofwhatdetailsshewantedexactly,soIjustasked,"Whatdoyoumean?"
"I'mnotstupid,Bella,Iknowwhatit'sliketobeanewlywed,"shesaidbeforecontinuing,"So,how'sthesex?"
Inearlychokedonmydrinkwhensheaskedthat.
Whatkindofquestionisthat?Whatmotherwantstoknowabouttheirson'ssexlife?
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"Oh...umm,it'sgreatactually,"Istammered."Idon'thaveanycomplaints!"
Ifeltsostupidforlyingtoher,andevenmorestupidsinceIdidn'tevenknowhowsexwassupposedtobe.It
wasn'tlikeitwassomethingEdwardandIhaddiscussed...yet.Thatwasgoingtochangetonight,though.
"Don'tbesomodest,Bella.Iknowmysonhassex,andsinceyou'remarriednow,it'snotlikeyoucanhidethat
fact,"shesaidsoothingly.
"Iknow,it'sjustnotsomethingI'mverycomfortablespeakingabout.Especiallynotwithmymotherinlaw,"I
saidapologetically.
"It'sokay.Wedon'thavetodiscussitifyoudon'twantto."
Neitherofusbroughtupthesubjectagain.Icouldtellthatshereallywantedto,butshekepthermouthshut.
Sheletafewcommentsslip,though.Iwasstandinginthechangingroom,tryingonapairofjeanswhenthe
firstonecame.
"Wow,theylookabsolutelyperfectonyou!Edwardwon'tbeabletokeephishandstohimself,soyouwillbe
guaranteedtogetsome,"shesaidandgiggled.
Ican'tbelievethiswomanismymotherinlaw!
Itwasbothdisturbingandfunny,althoughitwasmoredisturbingthanfunny,andthatwaswhyImademyway
toEdward'sofficeforatalk.I'dneverbeentohisofficebefore,butIknewitwasareallysuccessfulcompany,
sowhenIgettotheofficeandIsawthatitwasinahighskyscraper,Iwasn'tsurprised.
"Hello.WelcometoCullen&McCartyPR.HowmayIhelpyou?"aprettyblondgirlaskedmeasIstepped
inside.
"I'mlookingforMr.Cullen.I'mhiswife."Iaddedthelastpartincasehewashardtogetintouchwith.
"He'sinhisofficeonlevelthirtytwo,Mrs.Cullen,"shesaidandsmiledsweetlyatmeasshestaredmedown.
Wow,hisofficeisevenhigherupthanhisapartment.
Isteppedoutoftheelevatorwhenitreachedthefloorandwasmetbyanotherwoman.Thisonewasalso
blond,andreallybeautiful.NotinRosalie'sleague,butreallyclose.
"Hi,I'mheretoseeMr.Cullen.I'mBella,"Itoldher.
"Hello,Bella.It'snicetofinallymeetyou.I'mEdward'ssecretary,Tanya."
Beautifulandnice,Ihaven'tseenthatinawhile.
"It'snicetomeetyoutoo.DoyouknowwhereIcanfindhim?"
ShetoldmethatIcouldfindhiminhisofficeandpointedtowardsthedooronherleft.Istormedasgracefully
asIcouldwithoutlookingsuspiciousintoEdward'sofficeandslammedthedoorbehindme.Helookedup
fromthepapersonhisdeskwithasurprisedlookonhisface.
"Whatareyoudoinghere,baby?Istheresomethingwrong?"
"Yes."
"Whathappened,Bella?"
"Yourmomdecidedduringlunchthatitwasagoodtimetohave'theTalk'!That'swhat'swrong!"Iyelledand
startedpacinginfrontofhisdesk.
"Thetalk?"heaskedconfused.
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"Thesextalk,Edward."
"Oh."
"'Oh'?Isthatallyou'vegot?"Iasked."Ijustspentfivehoursshoppingwithyourmomandhersexcomments
aboutme'gettingsome,'andallyouhavetosayis'Oh?'"
"Well,whatanswerdidyouexpect?"
"Idon'tknow.Morethan'Oh,'atleast."
Hisphonerangatthatexactmoment,endingourconversation.Apparentlyitwasimportantandhehadtogo.
"We'llcontinuethiswhenIgethome,okay?"heaskedandInoddedmyheadinresponse.
"I'llseeyoulater,"hesaid,kissingmycheekandsteppedoutoftheoffice.
TanyashotmeanapologeticglanceandsaidgoodbyewhenIwasleaving.WhenIgothome,Iputawayallthe
newclothesIbought,tookashower,andshruggedintomysweatsandanoldGunsn'Rosesshirt.
Istoodinthekitchen,contemplatingwhatIshouldmakefordinner.Iwasn'tupforanythinginparticular.I
guessitwasmymood.IlovedtocookevenifIdidn'tenjoyeatingit.
IhadreallylikedspendingthedaywithEsme,andIwashappythatshewasmymotherinlaw,butthesextalk
wasstillbotheringme.SowhenEdwardsteppedthroughthedoor,Istillhadn'tstarteddinner.
"Youcanmakedinnertonight,Idon'tfeelupforit,"Itoldhim.
"Hi,honey,I'mhome.Howwasyourday?"hesaidsarcastically."Ican'tcookanythinggood."
"ThenIfeelsorryforyou,"Isaid,floppingdownonthecouch.
Heactuallymadedinnerwithoutburningit,justregularpastawithsomekindofmeatsauce,butitwas
somethingtoeatatleast.Iwasstillupsetwithhimfornotgivingmesomekindofwarningabouthismother's
interestinoursexlife,sowedidn'ttalkmuch.Iguesshesensedmymoodbecausehedidn'ttrytomake
conversation.
Feelingextrabitchy,Isteppedintothebedroomtocollecthispillowandablanket.Iwenttothelivingroom,
wherehewassittingonthecouchwatchingsomekindofhorrorshow,handinghimthethings.
"What'sthisabout?"heaskedconfused.
"You'resleepingonthecouchtonight,"Iexplained.
"Whatabouttherules?"
"We'refightingrightnow,andwhencouplesfighttheboyfriendorhusbandsleepsonthecouch.LasttimeI
checked,youwere,infact,myhusband."
"Butwearen'tfighting."
"Maybenot,butI'mstillmadatyou,soyou'renotwelcomeinthebedtonight,"IsaidasIstartedwalking
towardsthedoor.
"Idon'tevenunderstandwhatIdidwrong!"heyelledbackatme.
"Youcouldhavewarnedmethatyourmomlikedtotalkaboutherson'ssexlife!"
"She'sneverdonethatbefore,sohowcouldIknow?"heasked."Whatdidyoutellheranyway?"
"Itoldheritwasgreat!Areyouhappynow?Yourmomthinksyou'regreatinbed!Whatarewegoingtosayto
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thenextpersonasks?IknowmoreaboutAlice'sandRose'ssexlifethanIdomine!"
"Tellthemthatit'snoneoftheirbusiness,becauseit'snot.Whatwedo,ordon'tdo,behindcloseddoorsisour
deal,nottheirs.Ifyouarethatcuriousaboutit,thenlet'shavesex!"hearguedback.
Whydidhehavetobethereasonableone?
"I'mnotreadytohavesex!Plus,it'snotpartofourdeal!"Iyelledandslammedthebedroomdoor.
Thefunnythingisthathedidn'ttrytoreasonwithme.Hedidn'teventrytocomeintothebedroom.Itisthings
likethisthatmakesmedoubtmythoughtsabouthim,andmaybeIshould.Highschoolwasalongtimeago.
Maybeitwastimetoletitgoandmoveon.Thisyearwouldn'tbeeasyoneitherofusifIcouldn'tstopacting
likethis.
Itwasthesweetgesturesthathehaddonesofarofferingtosleeponthecouch,leavingmeanotetheother
morning,andnowthis,takingmymoodswingswitheasethatmakemewanttogivehimthesecondchance
thathewasaskingfor.
Isatonthecouchbythelargewindowinthebedroom,justlookingdownonthebusystreets.Ihadbeensitting
thereforacoupleofhours,sinceIcouldn'tsleep,whenEdwardsoftlyopenedthedoorandtriedtosneakin.I
didn'tthinkhenoticedmebythewindow.
"Youcantryallyouwant,butI'llstillnoticeyou,"Isaidsoftly,butstillloudenoughtoscaretheshitoutof
him.
"Fuck,Bella!Youcan'tscaremelikethat,Imighthaveaheartattack,"hesaid,pinchingthebridgeofhisnose.
"I'msorry,"Isaid.
"It'sokay.Don'tdoitagain,please."
"Iwon't.Youcansleepinthebedifyouwant,"Iofferhim.
"Iplannedonit,"hesaidasheslidintohissideofthebed.
Icontinuedtostareoutofthewindow,lookingattheapartmentsaroundus.Itwasstrangehowwellyoucould
seeintothemifthelightwasstillon.
I'llhavetothinkaboutthat,Idon'twantanyonetostareintoourapartment.
"Aren'tyoucomingbacktobed?"Edwardasked.
"Ican'tsleep."
"Comehere,"hesaid,pattingthespotnexttohim.
"What?"
"Iwanttotrysomething,justtrustmeandcomehere."
Thinkingbacktomypreviousthoughts,Igotupandcrawledintobednexttohim,lookingdownonhim
questioningly.HebroughtouthisarmsandembracedmesoIwaspositionedhalfwayontopofhimwithmy
noseinthecrookofhisneck.Oddlyenough,itwasreallycomforting.
"Now,tryandgetsomesleep."
"I'mseeingAliceandRosetomorrow,"Iblurtedout.
"Ifyouneedmeoranything,likeyoudidtoday,pleasecallmesowedon'thavetofightifIdosomething
wrong."
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"Iwill.Goodnight,Edward."
"Goodnight,baby,"hetoldmeandkissedthetopofmyhead.
IwokeupthenextmorningwhenEdward'salarmwentoff,andhetriedtogentlyshiftmeoffofhimsohe
couldgetup.IwassotiredIjustsnuggledintohispillowandwentbacktosleep.
ItwasnoonwhenImetupwiththegirlsatStarbucksforourusualcoffeeandgossip.
"Hi,Bella,"Alicesaidcarefully,steppingtowardsme."Ibroughtyourmailforyou.Ithoughtmaybeyou
wouldwantit."
"Thankyou,"Isaidback.Iwouldhavetogothroughthemail,butdecidedtowaituntilaftertheweekend.It
wasprobablyjustbillsandjunkmailanyway.
"It'snicetoseeyou,Bella,"IheardRose'svoicebehindme.
Wesatdownatourusualtable,andanuncomfortablesilencewashedoverus.Theminutespassed,andwhenit
allbecametoomuch,Ibrokethesilence.
"Arewegoingtoignorethebigelephantintheroom,orarewegoingtodealwithit?"
"I'msorrythatIdidn'ttrustyoubackinVegas,butI'mactuallynotsorryaboutpushingyoutwotogether.It
wouldhavehappenedsoonerorlateranyway,"Alicesaid.
"Don'tyouthinkit'stheirresponsibilitytogetcloser,orwhatevertheydecidetodo?"Roseaskedher.
"Okay,stop.Alice,whatyoudidwaswrong.Rosalieisright,itwasn'tyourbusiness.I'msorrytoo,aboutnot
sharingmypast.Somethingsaretoohardtoshare,that'sall.I'mwillingtosharesomeofmypastwithEdward
now,though,ifyoustillwanttohearit?"
Theybothnoddedtheirheadseagerly,soItoldthem,noteverything,butthethingsthatwerealittlebiteasierto
talkabout.Itoldthemhowhetreatedmeinbiology,howcruelhecouldbe,andhowheactedtowardsmein
thecafeteria.HowIwassometimesforcedtohidefromhim,sothathewouldn'tgettome.
ThedayBellaandEdwardbecamelabpartners
Ihurrieddownthehallwayformynextclassbiology.Iwasn'tlate,butIwantedtobethefirstonetheresoI
didn'thavetowalkthroughtheclassroom,whiletheotherstudentsglaredatme.
Isatdowninmyregularseatbythewindowandstartedtogothroughthesectionwehadbeenworkingonin
class.Afterafewminutes,theotherstudentsstartedtoarrive,andIgentlyclosedmybooksandwaitedforthe
teacher.Ihadmydesktomyself,whichIwasgratefulforsinceIpreferredtoworkalone.
EdwardCullenwalkedinjustastheteacher,Mr.Banner,didandsatdowninthebacknexttoJames.
"Okay,quietplease.Todaywearegoingtostartwithchanginglabpartners,"Mr.Bannersaidtotheclass.
What?No,Ididn'twanttochangelabpartners.Iwasperfectlyhappyaboutworkingalone!
"Beforeyousayanythingno,youcannotchoosewhoyougettobepartneredwith.I'llbetheonedoingthat,"
Mr.Bannercontinued.
Hestartedcallingthenamesofthestudentswhowouldbeworkingtogether,andthenhesaidthemostdreaded
wordsIhadeverheard.
"IsabellaSwanandEdwardCullen."
"What?You'rekidding,right?"Edwardasked."Ican'tbelabpartnerswithher!Shecan'tevenwalkonflat
groundwithoutfallingorbumpingintosomething!"
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Itwasmostlytrue,Ididn'tfallallthetime,justveryoften.Ibumpedintohimonce,anditlookedlikehecouldn't
letthatonego.
"Now,Mr.Cullen,I'mnotamanwholikestojoke,sono,I'mnotkidding.You'llbeworkingwithMs.Swanfor
therestoftheyear.Now,gatheryourthingsandgotoyournewpartner!"
Edwardslumpeddownintheseatnexttome,IshiftedmychairsoIwasasfarawayaspossible,andhedid
thesame.
Thiswasgoingtobealongyear.DidGodallofasuddendecidetopunishmeevenmore?
"IfyoumakemelosemyAinthisclass,I'llmakeyourlifemiserable,"Edwardseethedatme.
Didn'thealreadymakemylifemiserable?
Iknewbetterthantoanswerhimback,soIjustnoddedandtheclasscontinued.Iwasluckywedidn'tdoalab
today.Idon'tknowwhatcouldhavehappenedifwedid.
Itfeltsurprisinglygoodtoletitoffmychest.IknewIhadtotellsomeoneabouteverything,butIwasn'tready
forthatmuchyet.IsawthisasasteptowardthenewBella,theonewhowasn'tgoingtoputupafightwithher
husband,andtheonewhowasn'tgoingtotakecrapfromherbestfriends.
ThenewBella,Ilikethethoughtofthat!
WhenIwasdone,theywerebothinawe,shakingtheirheadsindisbelief.
"Ican'tbelieveEdwarddidallthosethingstoyoubecausehelikedyou!"Roseexclaimed.
"Meneither,Imean,theEdwardweknowwouldneverdosomethinglikethat,"Alicesaid.
"Iknow.I'mstartingtoseetheEdwardyouknow.SpeakingofEdward,IneedtogethomesoIcanmakehim
an'I'msorry'dinner,"ItoldthemasIgotupfrommyseat."I'llseeyouonSaturdayateleveno'clockforthe
wedding,okay?"
"Yeah,I'llbethegirlinwhite,"Rosesaid.
"Funny.Iloveyouguys!"
"Loveyou,too,"theybothsaid.
Thefollowingdayswentbyratherquickly.Edwardacceptedmyapologyandheapologizedforhismotherand
onceagainaboutthepast.Itriedtosleeponmysideofthebed,butIalwaysendedupsnuggledcloseto
Edwardintheend.Itwasnotsomethingwetalkedabout,butwebothknewthatitmeantIwasslowlystarting
towarmuptohim.Whiletheoldmewouldhavefoundthatdisturbing,thenewmefoundthattobeaprogress.
Istoodinfrontofthemirror,examiningmyself.Ihadonakneelengthpurpledress,itwasmultilayeredand
strapless.Itwasalsoabridesmaiddress,designedbyAlice,forRosalie'swedding.Imustsay,itwasreallya
pieceofart,butthesilverJimmyChoosAlicemademeweartomatchitweren't.Myhairwasdoneinloose
curlsthatflowedovermyshoulders.
IslippedtheshoesonandsteppedoutofthebedroomtogofindEdwardsothatwecouldleave.
ItseemedasifIdidn'tneedtosearchforhimsinceIbumpedrightintohiminthedoorway.
"Maybeyoushouldwatchwhereyougoing?"Iasked,butwhenIlookedupIgasped.
Therehewasstandinginblackslacks,whiteshirtandatiehewasassexyasIhaveeverseenhim,likea
Greekgod.Hewasalsomyhusband.
"Bella?Areyoualright?"heasked.
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"Yeah,I'mfine.Let'sgosowearenotlate.Rosewouldkillme,"Itoldhimandlickedoffthedroolthatwason
itswayout.
HeinsistedthatwetaketheVolvosincehedidn'twanttobeseenina'pinkchickcar'.Hewasbeingridiculous,
butIdidasheaskedandsteppedintothepassengersideofhispreciousVolvo.
AssoonasIwasin,Istartedscrollingthroughhismusic,butwasstoppedbyhimswattingawaymyhand.I
lookedathim,annoyed,beforehespoke.
"Houserules,Isabella.Driverpicksthemusicshotgunshutshercakehole,"hesaidwithasmirk.
"Youknow,Isabellaisachubbyseventeenyearold.It'sBella,okay?"
"Sorry,can'thearyou.Themusicistooloud!"
Somehow,thisannoyingsideofhimoutdidthesexyone,andIwasonceagaininacrappymood.Thedrive
wasaboutanhour.TheweddingwasbyalakejustoutsideSeattleandtheweatherwasnicesofar,soIhada
goodfeelingaboutthisday.
IwalkedintotheroomwhereRosaliewas,butstoppedwhenIsawher.Shewasabsolutelybreathtakinginher
simple,long,loosefittingstraplessdress.Herhairwasupinabunwheretheveilhadbeenput.
"Thereyouare,Bella.Iwasstartingtogetworried,"Alice,thecontrolfreak,saidwhenshesawme.
"I'mnotlate,Alice,"Isaid,walkingtowardsRosalietogiveheragentlehug.
Ihelpedwiththelastdetails.Alicehadalreadydonemostofitsotherewasn'tmuchtodo.BeforeIknewit,it
wastimetowalkdowntheaisle.IwalkedbehindAlicealongtheredcarpetthathadbeenplacedonthelawn.
Itwasaslowwalk,andtoconcentratesoIwouldn'tfall,IlookedintoEdward'sbeautifulgreeneyesthatwere
lockedonminethewholeway.
ThenitwasRosalie'sturntowalk.Herdadwastheonetogiveherawayandsomehowthatgesturemademe
feelapanginmychest.Itwasn'tlikeIwantedabig,fancywedding,buttohavemydadgivemeawaywas
somethingInowrealizedIwouldhavewanted.
Theprieststartedtalking,itwastheusualwordsyouhearatweddingsbutinsteadofvows,theyhadpickedout
apoemRosalieoncehadheardinamovie.ItturnedoutthatitwasalsoaverseintheBible.
"Loveisalwayspatientandkinditisneverjealous.Love
isneverboastfulorconceited...
Itisneverrudeorselfish...Itdoesnottakeoffense,andit
isnotresentful.
Lovetakesnopleasureinotherpeople'ssinsbut
delightsintruth.Itisalwaysreadytoexcuse,totrust,to
hope,andtoendurewhatevercomes."
Allthewhile,whenthepriestreadit,myeyeswereonceagainlockedonEdward's.Whenitwastimefor
Emmetttokissthebride,Ihadtolookaway.Iwantedtohavethatsomuch,Icouldn'tevenlookwhenmybest
friendkissedherhusband.
Edwardledmebackdowntheaisleandleanedinandaskedme,"Areyouokay?"Ijustnoddedmyhead.It
wasnotsomethingIwantedtotalkabout,especiallynotwithhim.
EPOV
Bellalookedabsolutelystunninginherpurpledress.Icouldn'tbelieveshewasmine.Whenshehadbumped
intomethatmorning,Ialmostlostmybreathshelookedlikeanangel,myownpersonalangel.
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IcouldtellthatBellahadaroughtimewiththeweddingthough.Itallshowedinhereyes.Iwishedtherewas
somethingIcoulddo,butshedidn'twanttotalkabouttheproblem.Isatnexttoheratthetableandkeptmy
handonherkneetohelpherrelax.Sinceshedidn'ttrytopushitaway,Iassumedshedidn'tmind.Iwas
startingtoworrywhenshedidn'teventouchherfood.Iknewshehadissuesaboutfood,butsinceshemoved
inwithmeIhaven'tseenanythingstrange,likeherthrowingthefoodawayoractinglikeshehadaeating
disorder.
"Baby,youneedtoeatsomething,"ItoldherassoftlyasIcould,notwantingtoupsether.
"I'mnothungry,"shemumbled.
"DidIdosomethingtoupsetyou,orhasmymomsaidanythingagain?"
"No,neitherofyouhavedoneanything.It'sjustthatIwishIcouldremembermyownwedding,that'sall."
Fuck.Iknewitwassomethinglikethat,andforthefirsttimesincewegotmarriedIfeltlikeanassholeaboutit.
Ofcourseshewantedarealweddingandaweddingshecouldremember.
"Itellyouwhat,let'ssitdownsomedayandlookatthephotosfromourwedding,andI'lltellyouwhatI
remember.Howdoesthatsound?"
"Iwouldlikethat,thankyou,"shesaid,squeezingmyhandthatwasonherknee.
Thereceptionwentonsmoothly.IgavemyspeechasthebestmanjustlikeAlicedidasthemaidofhonor.
EmmettandRosaliefedeachothercakeandthensharedtheirfirstdanceasamarriedcouple.Whentheylet
othersdancealongwiththem,IgotupandreachedoutmyhandtowardsBella.
"Wouldyouliketodance?"Iasked.
"Ican'tdance,sorry."
"I'llteachyou,andI'veseenyoudance.Vegas,remember?So,comeon,"Isaidanddraggedhertothedance
floor.
Iheldherascloseaspossibleandstartedswayingusfromsidetoside.
"Youlookabsolutelygorgeoustonight.DidItellyouthat?"
"Youdidnow.Youdon'tlooksobadyourself,"shesaid.
Shesteppedonmytoesafewtimesinthebeginning,butgotahangofitthelongerwedanced.Ienjoyedthe
wayherbodyfeltagainstmine,andwiththoseheelson,herfacecameuptomyshoulder.She'ssoshort,but
withheritwasmorecutethanannoying.Atleastitisnow.Ihaven'tkissedherwithoutherheelsonbeforeand
IguessmyneckwillprotestwhenIdo.Thatwasright,whenIdo,becauseIhadeveryintentionofdoingthat
someday.
"Edward,canIaskyousomething?"sheasked,bringingmebacktoreality.
"DoIgettoasksomethinginreturn?"Ijoked.
"Edward,"sheadmonishedme.
"Sorry,goaheadandask."
Shetookamomentbeforeasking,"Whydoyouputupwithme?"Ijustlookeddownatherconfused,soshe
triedagain,"WhatImeanisthatI'mdamagedgoods,Ithinkyou'venoticedthatbynowwithallmymood
swings,andallthebitchfightsIstartwithyou...Whywouldyouwanttoputupwiththat?"
"Becauseit'sapartofyou.Withoutit,youwouldn'tbeBella.Ilikeyoujustthewayyouare,okay?Never
doubtthat."Shejustnoddedherhead,releasedmyhandandbroughtherarmsaroundmywaist,huggingme
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close.
"Thankyou,"shewhispered.
"DoyoumindifIaskyousomethingnow?"
"Ican'tpromiseI'llanswer,"shesaidinalowvoice.
"I'vebeenlookingatyourtattoonowforacoupleofdays.Whydidyoupicka'DirtyDancing'quote?"
"Howdoyouknowthatit'sfrom'DirtyDancing'?It'sachickflick,"shesaidinatonethatsoundedlikeshe
wassmirking.
"Ihaveamotherwholikesit,soI'veseenitacoupleoftimes,andthatlineisaclassic,"Iexplained.
"IthastodowiththatfriendItoldyouabouttheotherday.Theonesomethingbadhappenedto.I'lltellyou
someday,justnotrightnow,okay?"
"Promise?"
"Ipromise,Edward."
"DoyoumindifItakeover?"IheardEmmettaskwhileputtingahandonmyshoulder.
IlookeddownatBella,askingwithmyeyesifshewasokaywithit.ShenoddedherheadsoIanswered,
"Sure,goahead.IneedtodancewithmyMomanywayorI'llneverlivethatdown."
IgaveheronelastsqueezeandwenttogolookformyMother.IfoundherwithRosalie'smother,Katherine,
gushingabouthowbeautifulthegirlsweretoday.
"Hello,ladies,"IsaidasIsteppedtowardsthem.
"Hello,Edward.Don'tyoulookabsolutelydashingtoday."Katherinesmiled.
Ijustchuckled.Ihadgottenthatimpressionfrommywifeaswellwhenshehadbumpedintomethismorning.
Shehadn'tbeenabletoshuthermouthandhadstoodthereshockedintosilence.Ithadbeenquiteamusing.
"Thankyou.Icameoverheretoseeifyouwantedtodance,"IsaidtoMom.
"OfcourseIdo,honey!"
Itookhertothedancefloor,closetowhereEmmettandBellaweredancingsothatIcouldkeepmyeyeson
mywife.Somehow,Emmetthadmadeherlaughanditfeltgoodthatshefinallyseemedtoenjoythewedding.
"She'sbeautifultonight,isn'tshe?"Momaskedknowingly.
"Shesureis,"Ianswered.
IwonderedifIshouldbringuptheconversationshehadwithBelladuringtheirshopping.Itwasn'trightofher
tosnooplikethat,butIdidn'twanttoembarrassBellaevenfurtherbybringingitup,soIdecidedtojustletitgo
andenjoythedance.
Whenthedancewasover,shethankedme,andIwalkedoutofthetenttograbasmoke.IspottedJasperand
EmmettdownbythelakesoIwentdowntothem.
"Hey,man,"Emmettsaid.
"Hey,"IsaidasIlitupmycigarette."So,howdoesitfeeltofinallybeamarriedman?"
"Idon'tfeelanydifferent.Theonlythingsthathavechangedareherlastnameandthatshe'snowmywife
insteadofgirlfriend."
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"Dude,youforgotthering.Nowalltheothermenaregoingtoknowthatshe'staken,"Jaspersaid,andI
chuckled.
"You'reright,thatdoessoundverygood,"Emmettsmirked.
"Well,welcometotheclub,"Itoldhimandputoutmycigarette.
"Ican'tbelieveBellaallowsyoutosmokethosethings,"Jaspersaid,shakinghishead.
"NeithercanI,butIwillcontinueuntilshetellsmenottooruntilwehavekids,"Isaid.
"Kids?Howmanydrinkshaveyouhadtonight?"Emmettasked.
"Justacouple.Iwantkidssomeday,andIwantthemwithBella.What?Don'tyouwantany?"
"Sure,butwemarriedourwivesbecausewelovethem.YoumarriedBellainVegaswhileyouwereboth
drunk,"Jasperreasoned.
"Thatdoesn'tmakemelikeheranyless.Ireallybelievewecanloveeachotherinthefuture."
"Look,youshouldgoeasyonher.Sheisn'tusedtothiskindofthing,andbythingImeanarelationship.She
mayalreadybeslowlyfallinginlovewithyou,butyoushouldtakethingsatherspeed,"Jaspertoldme.
"That'swhatwearedoing,"Isaid."Doyoureallythinkshe'sfallingforme?"
"Dude,anyonecanseethedifferencefromaweekago!"Emmettboomed.
"Whatdidyousaytoherwhileyouweredancing?"Iwondered.
"Justthatsheshouldgiveyouachance,andseewherethingsgo."
"Thanks,man,Ioweyou."
BPOV
IsawEdwardwalkintogetherwithJasperandEmmett.Hehadgottenridofhissuitjacket,andhadrolledup
hissleevesandloosenedhistie.Atthatmoment,Icouldn'tbelievethatIgottocallthismanmyhusband.Sure,
itwasEdward,butdamn,hewasgoodlooking.
"Hey,where'syourjacket?"Iaskedhimashecameuptome.
"It'sonmychair,whydoyouask?Areyoucoldagain,baby?"IjustnoddedmyheadbecauseIwas.Thedress
didn'thaveenoughfabrictokeepmewarm.
"You'realwayscold,"hesaid,shakinghishead."I'llgogetitforyou.I'llberightback."
Hecamebackafewsecondslaterwithjacketinhand.Hehelpedmegetitonandrolledupthesleevesbecause
itwaswaytoobigonme.
"Thankyou,"Isaid.
Before,whenEdwardhadaskedmeaboutthetattoo,IhadfeltamazinglysafeinhisarmsandIknewthathe
wasthatsomebodyIwantedtosharemypastwith.Ifounditoddthatitwashimthatshowedupinmymind
andnotmybestfriends.ThatwaswhyImadehimthepromisetotellhimsomeday.ItwasapromiseIintended
tokeep.
WewavedtoEmmettandRosalie,whoweregoingtotheairport.TheyweregoingtoHawaiiforaweekon
theirhoneymoon.Ihuggedherbeforeshegotintothecartowishheragoodtripandtoldhertocallme.
Whenwegottothecar,IsawEdwardwalkingtowardsthedriver'sside.
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"Ohno,mister,youaren'tdrivinghome!"
"OhyesIam,baby.ThereisnootherwayhomeandIdon'twanttostayheretonight."
"Givemethekeys,I'mdriving,"Isaid,reachingoutmyhandforthekeys.
"You'rekidding,right?"Helaughed."ThereisnowayI'mlettinganyonebutmedrivetheVolvo."
"Fine,thenI'lljustsitherewhileyoudrivehomebyyourselfthen,becauseI'mnotgettinginthecarifyou're
goingtodrive.Youdrankbeertonight,whichmeansyou'llbeadrunkdriver!"
"I'mnotdrunk,"heargued.
"Maybenot,butthepolicewon'tseeitthatwayiftheypullyouover.Itwillevenbeinyourrecord,andthen
CharliewillfindoutandyoucanimaginehisreactionwhenheseesthatI'mmarriedtoaguy,whowasbeing
pulledoverfordrunkdriving."
"Thatwassonotcool.Youdon'tplayfair,"hesaid,givingmethekeyswithapout.
"NeversaidIdid."
Ihoppedupintheseat,butwhenIwasseated,Irealizedthatmyfeetdidn'tevenreachhalfwaytothepedals.I
heardEdwardlaughreallyhardaboutthat.
"Ha,ha,funny.Youshouldstoplaughingandhelpmeinstead,oryourcarwon'tbehappywhenweget
home,"Ithreatened.
Thatshuthimupreallyquicklyandhefinallyhelpedme.ThecarwasalotbiggerthanIwasusedto,butitwas
actuallyreallycomfortabletodrive.
Whenwegothome,bothEdwardandIhurriedtogettobedanddozedoff,exhaustedfromthelongday.I
didn'tevenconsidersleepingbymyself.Instead,IsnuggledupagainstEdward,wholaidhisarmaroundme
likeitwasthemostnaturalthingintheworld.
Therestoftheweekendwentbyquickly.EdwardwenttothegymdownstairsSundaymorningwhileIcleaned
uptheapartment.Itriedcallingmymotherforthethirdtimethisweek,butstilldidn'tgetanyanswer.Philmust
havetakenherforthisyear'ssurprisevacationsincehedidn'tanswereither.
EdwardwenttobedearlysincehehadworkonMonday,sohewasalreadyasleepwhenIwenttobedaswell,
buthestillwrappedhisarmaroundme.
WhenIgotupforbreakfastonMondaymorning,Iwalkedpastthepilethatconsistedofmymail.IknewIhad
todealwithitsoonerorlater,soIgrabbeditandwenttogetacupofcoffeeandsatdownatthecounter.
JustasIthought,themailwasmostlyadsandafewbills,buttherewasoneletterthatstoodout.Therewasneat
handwritingonthefrontindicatingitwasforIsabellaSwan.
Iopeneditandtookthecontentsout.WhenIhadfinishedreadingit,awaveofgriefwashedovermeasthe
invitationfelltotheground.
Youarecordiallyinvitedtocelebratetheweddingof
LeahClearwater
and
JacobBlack
onSeptember12th
atFirstBeachinLaPushreservation
followedbyareception
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A/N:So,exciting?DidyoufindthelineIused?
Inthenextchapterwewillleavehappinessandfunforalittlewhile,butdontworry
becauseitwillcomebacklateron!
AbigthankyoutoKris10Skimmerwhoprereaditforme!
Btw,youcanfollowmeonTwitter:http://twitter.com/gelixs
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A/N:Chapter7isnowhere!
MaybeIshouldputatissuewarningtothisone.Icried,butmaybethatsjustbecause
itmademethinkaboutmystory.Idontknow,itdependsonwhoyouareandhowyou
reacttothiskindofthings.
NooneseemedtofindthequoteinthelastchapterIthoughtIpickedaneasyone?
IusedadialoguefromSupernatural,S01E01:
"Houserules,Sammy.Driverpicksthemusicshotgunshutshercakehole.
"Youknow,Sammyisachubbytwelveyearold.It'sSam,okay?"
"Sorry,can'thearyou.Themusicistooloud!"
TheonewhofindstheoneIusedinthischapterwillgetapreview!Ididntusea
dialogue,moreofanideaorconceptfromamovie.Youjustneedtomentionwhatitis
andwhichcomedy/movieIborroweditfrom.
Goodiescanbefoundathttp://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se..Iforgottoshowyoua
pictureofTanyainthelastchapter,I'veputoneupnow!
ThankyouKris10Skimmer,whoprereadthischapter!
Beta'dbyChristineandDianafrom'ProjectTeamBeta'
Disclaimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplot!
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EPOV
IhadfinishedworklatetonightwewerebusynowthatEmmettwasoutoftownforhishoneymoon.The
apartmentwasdarkwhenIgothome.Sinceitwastooearlytogotobed,IfiguredBellawaswithAliceor
something,butIstillcalledoutforher.Ididntgetanyanswerthough.
Iwasstarving,soIwenttothekitchentogetsomethingtoeatbeforeItookmyshowerandchangedintomore
comfortableclothes.Icouldntfindanyfood,soIjustsettledforafrozenpizza.
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WhenIsatdownatthecounter,InoticedBellascupsittingtherewithcoffeestillinit.
Huh,strange.Sheneverforgetstoputthedishesaway.
ThenInoticedthesurroundingareaandsawapileofmailandanopenedletterlyingthereaswell.Ipickedup
theletterandstartedreadingit,eventhoughIknewIshouldnt.
Hi,Bells!
Itsbeenawhilesincewetalked.Ivetriedtocallyou,butIguessyouvechangedyournumber.Igotthis
addressfromyourfather.
Anyway,LeahandIfinallydecidedonaweddingdate,sothatswhyImsendingyouaninvitation.Youcan
bringyourfriendsifyoulike.Iknowitshardforyoutobehere,butIwouldreallyappreciateifyoucould
come.Itsbeentoolong,forallofus.
Pleasecome,
Jake
WhowasJake,andwhydidhewantmyBellatocometohiswedding?
IlookedattheinvitationandsawthattheweddingisbeingheldinLaPushonSeptember12th,almostsix
weeksfromnow.
LaPush?ThatsjustrightoutsideForks,sowhydontIknowwhothisJacobBlackis?
Frustrated,Ithrewtheletterandtheinvitationbackdownonthecounterandfinishedmypizza.Iputaway
Bellascupanddidmyowndishesaswell.Ithadbeenbeenalongandexhaustingday,soallIwantedtodo
wasflopdownontothecouchandwatchsomeTVbeforegoingtobed.
IwenttothebedroomandturnedthelightsonsothatIcouldseewhereIwasgoing.WhenIturnedtowardthe
bathroom,IsawBellalyingonthebed.Shewaslyinginthemiddleofit,facingthewindow.
Sorry,Ididntknowyouwerehome.ImjustgoingtograbmythingsandthenIllturnthelightoffagain,I
toldher,butIdidntgetanyanswersoIfiguredshewasasleep.
Igrabbedapairofsweatsandatshirt,turnedoutthelights,andgotintheshower.Theshowerfeltamazing
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aftermylongday,andevenbetteristhatitsmelledlikeBellasstrawberryshampooandvanillasoapinhere.
WhenIgotbacktobedroom,Itookinthesceneryinfrontofme.ThiswasntrightIcouldfeelitinmygut.
First,shedidntanswermewhenIcalledouthername,whichwasloudenoughtowakeher.Then,sheleftthe
almostfullcoffeecuponthecounteralongwiththeletterandweddinginvitation.Shedidntevenmoveaninch
whenIturnedonthelight,andshedidntsayanythingbackwhenItalkedtoher.AnotherthingInoticedwas
thatshewasrestingherheadonmypillow,andsheusuallydidntsleeponone.
ConcernedthattherewassomethingwrongwithBella,Iwalkedaroundthebedandturnedonthebedside
lamp.Shewasntasleep,andwhatIsawmademyheartdroptomyfeet.Hereyeshadtheexactsamelookas
theydidthedayIlostherbackinhighschooldead.
Bella,whatswrong?Iaskedinaworriedvoice.
Shejustcontinuedtostareintospace,justlikeIwasntthere,letalonetalkingtoher.Thismademeevenmore
worried.
Whatthehellhappenedtoher?
Ihuncheddown,grabbedherhandsthatwereinfrontofher,andpleaded,Baby,pleasetalktome!Tellme
whatswrong.Istartedtopanic.
Istilldidntgetananswer,andnowIwasscaredshitless.ItriedtogetbackonmyfeettocallAliceor
someone,buthersmallhandsgrabbedaholdofmytshirt.
Please,dontgo,shesaidbarelyinawhisper.
Shesoundedsosmallandbroken.
Okay,Isaid,andgotinbesideher.
Shestillhadherhandsclutchedtomytshirt,andItookthatasasignthatshewantedtobeclose.Iwrappedmy
armsaroundherandheldhertighttomybody.Thatswhenthetearsstartedtoarrive,firstIcanonlyfeltthem
soakingmyshirt,butafterafewsecondsIcouldhearhersobsloudandclear.Itbrokemyheart,butinsteadof
cryingwithher,Ijustheldherandlethergetitalloutwhateveritis.
Shh,itsokay.Ivegotyou,baby,Itellheroverandoveragaininasoothingvoice.
Welaythereforhours,meholdingher,andshecryingherheartout.Shefinallyexhaustsherselfinto
unconsciousness,andIfellasleepalongwithher.
ThenextmorningwhenIwokeup,Bellawasstillasleep,butIhadafeelingthatwhateverthiswas,itwasnt
over.Inoticedthatitwasjustafterseveninthemorning,soIcarefullyshiftedtoreachmyphoneonthebedside
tableanddialedthenumbertomyoffice.
ThankyouforcallingCullen&McCartyPR,howmayIhelpyou?Tanyasaid,verycheerfullyeventhough
itwassoearlyinthemorning.
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Hi,Tanya,itsEdward.IjustcalledtoletyouknowIwontbeabletocomeintotheofficetoday.Soclearmy
schedulefortoday,andtobeonthesafeside,cleartomorrowsaswell,Iwhisperedintothephone.Ididnt
wanttowakeBellaup.
Okay,Edward.AreyousurethatwecanhandlethatnowwhenEmmettandnowyou,isnthere?sheasked
carefully.
Yeah,Imsure.IlljusthavetoworkevenharderwhenIcomeback.Ireallycantcomeintoday.Illcallyou
laterortomorrowmorningtoletyouknowifIllbeinornot.Haveaniceday.
Youtoo.Bye.
Bye,Isaidandhungup.
IembracedBellaonceagain,andshesnuggledcloser.IlaidtherethinkingaboutifIhaddonesomething
wrong,orifitwassomethingaboutJacobthatmadeherlikethis.
IfIwastheonewhohaddonesomething,shewouldntwantmehere,right?
Itwasalmostanhourlater,andBellastillhadntwokenup.Iguessallthatcryinghadgottentoher.Idecided
thatIcouldntdothisalone,soIgotmyphoneoutagainandtextedJasper.
911,bringAlice!E
Ihopedhedidntworkearlytoday.Hewasahighschoolhistoryteacher,butmostdayshedidntbeginuntil
latemorning.Aliceworkedmostlyfromhomeandhadstaffworkingatherstore,soIdidntthinkshewould
haveanyproblems.
Myphonevibratedindicatinganewtext,luckilyfromJasper.
WereonourwayJ
IknewIcouldalwaystrustJasper,whichwasoneofthebestthingsabouthim.Itwouldprobablytakeanhour
atthemostforthemtogettomyapartment,sincetherewasalotoftrafficsoearlyinthemorning.
IshiftedussothatBellanowhadherlegthrownovermywaistandherheadwasrestinginthecrookofmy
neck.Iknewthatthispositionusuallycalmedherdown.
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Icaressedherbackwithmyhands,andsheletoutacontentedsigh.WelaylikethatuntilIheardthefrontdoor
beingopened.Jasperhadhisownkey,whichwasgreat,especiallytodaywhenIdidntwanttomove.Iheard
footstepsandvoices,andthenthebedroomdoorcreakedopen.
Whatswrong?Jasperwhispered.WhydidIneedtobringAlice?
ItsBella.IneededAlice,butIdonthavehernumber,andthesecurityguysknowwhoyouare.Thatwould
havebeenaproblemwithAlice.
WhatswrongwithBella?Aliceasked,steppingoutfrombehindJasper.
Idontknow.Iwaskindofhopingyoucouldtellme,Iwhispered.Ifoundherinbedlastnight,staringinto
space,andshedidntanswermewhenItalkedtoher.WhenItriedtogetup,shegrabbedmyshirtandtoldme
tostay,soIdid.Wehavebeenlyingheresinceeightoclocklastnight.
OhGod.Ohno,pleaseno!Alicecriedout,andwenttostandinfrontofus,startingtocaressBellashair.
What,Alice?Doyouknowwhatitis?Iasked.
Yes,shewhispered.Orno,notallofit,butwevebeenthroughthisoncebefore.
Doyoumindtellingmewhattodo?Iaskedher,raisingmybrows.
Idontknowwhattodo,shesaid.
Alicecrawledupontothebed,bringingJasperalongwithher,sothatshewasfacingmeandBellaandJasper
wasspooningher.
ShehasbeendownsincethefirsttimeRoseandImether.Wethoughtwecouldhelpher.Ithinkwedida
little,atleast.Shewasntsadallthetime,butshewasnttrulyhappyeither,shepausedforasecondbeforeshe
continued,Wehadknowneachotherforthirteenmonthswhenithappenedthenewschoolyearhadjust
started.Wefoundherinherbed,lyingjustlikeyousaidshehadbeenlastnight.Shedidntrespondtoanyofus
morethantotellustoleaveheralone.Shewasjustthereshebarelyateormovedmorethantousethe
bathroom.Idontevenknowifsheslept.
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Icouldseethetearsinhereyeswhenshetoldmethis.Iknewfromexperiencehowhelplessyoufelt,andtonot
getanyreactionatallmusthavebeenalotharder.
Jaspercomfortedherbymovinghishandsupanddownherarms.
Sheeventuallygotupafterafewdays,butshewasneverthesame.Shewasevenworsethanwhenwefirst
mether!Shewouldnttalktousortelluswhatwaswrong.Shejustsaidthatthepastshouldstayinthepast.So
atleastweknewitwassomethingaboutherpast,shesaid,andtookadeepbreathtostopthetearsfrom
falling.Lastweekwasthefirsttimesheevertoldusawholestoryaboutsomethingfromherpastshetoldus
someofherhistorywithyou.Before,therehaveonlybeenafewthingsatatime.Wefoundoutthatherfriend
died,butwedontknowhoworwhen,justthatshediedandthatBellatookithard.Mytheoryisthatthe
breakdownshehadincollegehadsomethingtodowiththatfriend.
IcouldhearBellasvoiceinmyheadtellingmeabouthertattoo.
IthastodowiththatfriendItoldyouabouttheotherday.Theonesomethingbadhappenedto.
DidJakehavesomethingtodowithit?Ifhedid,how?
So,howdidshebecomehappyagain?Iasked.
Shedidnt,Edward.Shetookoffwedidntseeheruntilschoolstartedagainthenextyear.Shekeptintouch
butdidntsaymuchaboutwhereshewas,justthatshewouldcomeback.ItwasntuntilafteryourweddingI
thatactuallysawatrulygenuinesmileonBella.
Doyouthinkshelltakeoffagain?Andwheredidshego?
Idontknow.Idoubtit,butIcantsayforsure.IthinkshewenttoJacksonville,tohermom.
IdidntwanthertoleaveIpromisedtofightforhersothatiswhatIamgoingtodo.Iamgoingtodo
everythinginmypowertohelpherdealwiththis.
Isntthereanyonewecouldcall,maybehermomordad?Iasked.
Hermomhasntpickedupthephoneallweek,andherdadwouldprobablytakethisveryhard.Hedidnttake
itverywellthelasttime,soIwouldsuggestthatyoucallhimasalastresort.
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TheroomhadbeensilentforawhilewhenIfeltBellashift,soIlookeddownatherandwasmetbythesame
lookinhereyesthatIsawlastnightthedeadlook.Shedidntsayanything,though.Idontthinksheeven
noticedJasperandAlicebeforeshelookeddownagain.Ifelthergriparoundmetighten,soIbroughtmyhands
backtocaressingherback.
Welaythereforwhatfeltlikehours,butitwasprobablyonlyminutes.Bellahadfinallyseenthatwehad
guests,butdidntacknowledgethem.Ireallyneededtousethebathroom,butIdidntwanttoleaveBellaalone.
IfiguredthebesttimetogowaswhilebothAliceandJasperwerestillhere.
BellawhimperedwhenItriedtopullaway,andthesoundalmostbrokeme.
Bella,Ireallyneedtousethebathroom.IllcomebacktoyouassoonasIpossiblycan,okay?
AllIgotasananswerwasherhandsreluctantlylettinggoofme.Ihurriedtothebathroomtobrushmyteeth
andtakecareofmybusinesstheshowerwouldhavetowait.IknewthatBellamustreallyneedtouse
bathroomaswell,butmaybeshewastooembarrassedtogowhenJasperandAlicewerehere.Imadeamental
notetoaskheraftertheyleft.
Imsorrybutwebothhavetogotoworknow.Wewouldhavestayedotherwise,Jaspersaidcarefully.
Itsokay,thankyouforcomingoversoquickly.Ireallyneededthat,Itoldthem.
Willyoupleasepromisetocallifthereisanychange?Aliceaskedinasadvoice.
Ipromise,Isaidandwalkedovertothemandgavethemeachahug.
Iwalkedthemout.Onmywayback,IbroughtBellaaglassofwaterandabanana.Iplacedthethingsonthe
bedsidetableandcrawledbackintobedbehindhersothatIwasnowspooningher,butshedidntwanttohave
anyofthatandturnedaround,facingme.
Okay,whateversheneeds,Ithought.
Ilaytherewithherforafewmoreminutesbeforeasking,Doyouneedtousethebathroomorsomething,
Bella?WhenIdidntgetanyanswerItriedagain,Itsokay.Illberightherewaitingforyou.
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Thistime,shenoddedherheadandslowlygotupfromthebedtogotothebathroom.Atleastsheisdoing
something,andIgotareactionoutofherlikeAlicesaidtheyhadnt.
IwonderwhysherespondedtomeandnotAlice.
Whenshecamebackafewminuteslater,shehadputupherhairinamessybun,butotherthanthat,shelooked
justasdeadandexhaustedasshedidwhenshehadleft.
Shestoodinthedoorway,seemingtohesitate,shiftingfromonefoottotheother.IguessshewasafraidthatI
didntwantherinthebedanymore,butallIwantedwastobethereforherandifmycompanywaswhatshe
needed,thenIwasgoingtogiveittoher.
Itsokay,baby,comehere,Isaid,pattingthespotnexttome.
Shequicklycameoverandgotinbesideme,andIbroughtherbacktomyarms,whereshebelonged.
Imsosorry,shecroakedout,andthetearsbegantosoakmyshirtonceagain.Itdidnttakelongbeforethe
sobscame.
Shh,itsokay.Imhereforyounomatterwhat,Itoldher,unsureifsheheardmeornot.Here,youneedto
drinkthis.
Igavehertheglassofwater,whichshequicklyemptied,butshedidntwanttoeatthebanana.
Iwouldhavetotryagainlater.
Thistime,ittookherfourhourstofallasleep,andwhenIwasabsolutelysureshewasfastasleep,Igentlygot
upfromthebedandstretchedmybody.Lyinginbedthislongdefinitelydidthingstoyourbody.
Iwentintothekitchenandmademyselfanotherfrozenpizza.Ihadnteatenanythingsincethenightbefore,so
Iwasstarvingagain.IfoundsomesaladandsomebreadthatIatealongwiththepizza.
ItriedtohurryupsoIcouldgetbacktoBella.WhenIhadfinished,ItookcareofthedisheswhileItriedto
figureoutawaytohelpher.MaybesomethingfamiliarcouldhelpIknewitwouldprobablyhelpme.
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IwentovertotheDVDshelftoseeifIcouldfindDirtyDancing,orsomethingelsefamiliar.IfIwaslucky,
mymomwouldhaveboughtmeacopy.WhenIscannedthetitles,IsawthatIhadthreecopiesofTitanic.
Huh,IdidntevenknowIhadone,sowhythehellwouldIhavethree?
Thenamemoryflashedinmymind,theoneofBellalyingonthebedsleepingtoTitanic,andIfiguredit
couldbehers.SinceIdidntfindDirtyDancing,IgrabbedoneoftheTitanicDVDsandwentbacktothe
bedroom.EvenifitdidnthelpBella,itwouldgivemesomethingtodo.
BellawasstillasleepwhenIwalkedbackintothebedroom,soIwenttothebathroomonceagainbefore
puttingtheDVDintotheDVDplayerandthenwalkingbacktothebed.
Bellawasclutchingmypillowtighttoherchest.ItriedasgentlyasIpossiblycouldtopryitawayandreplaceit
withmyself.
AllthewhileIwaswatchingthemovie,shedidntmovemuch.ShesaidmynameafewtimesthefirsttimeI
thoughtshewasawake,butshewasstillasleep.IdidntknowifIshouldworryabouthersayingmynamein
hersleep,orifIshouldletmyheartswellwithprideinstead.
Thedayandnightwentoninthesamemannershesleptalotandcriedalot.Iwasashelplessasever,and
sincemytheoryaboutfamiliaritydidntworkthewayIwashopingitwould,Ididntknowwhattodo.Ihad
onelastidea,andthatwastocallmyfather,notasafatherinlawtoBella,butasadoctor.
Icalledtheofficeagainthismorningsincethesituationhadntchanged.Theywerebusy,butIhadntexpected
anythingelse.
IllhavetoworkmyassoffwhenIgetback.
IleftasleepingBellaandgotuptotakeashower.Ireallyneededone,anditfeltgoodtobecleanagain.My
bodyfeltsoreandmymuscleshurt.Ifmybodyfeltthisbad,IwonderedhowBellasfeltatthatmoment.
IdecidedthatIreallyneededsomeprofessionalhelp,soIsatdownatthekitchentableandcalledmydadathis
office.
Hello,Dr.Cullenspeaking,hesaidinhisbestdoctorvoice.
Hi,Dad.Itsme,Edward.
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Edward,whatcanIdoforyou?
Ineedyourhelp,IsaidasItriedtocontrolthetearsthatwantedtospill.ItsBella.
Whatswrongwithher,son?
Idontknow.Shewonttalktome.Shesjustlyinginbedandsleepsandcriesallthefuckingtime.Idont
knowwhattodo.ThetearsIhadfoughtsohardtocontrolhadnowstartedtorolldownmycheeks.
Howlonghasshebeenlikethis?Doyougetanyreactionatallfromher?heaskedinhissoothingdoctor
voice,whichwaswhatIwanted.
IfoundherlikethisMondaynight,butIthinkshehasbeenlikethissinceMondaymorning.Ivegottensome
reaction,butshedidntreacttoAliceorJasper.Igothertogotothebathroom,butafterthatshetoldmeshe
wassorryandstartedtocryagain,Itoldhim.Itriedtowatchamovieshewasfamiliarwith,butshedidnt
evenreacttoitshejustkeptsleeping.
Hassheeatenordrunkanything?
Notmuch,Ithinkshehasbeendrinkingthough,becauseIhavebeenrefillingherglassafewtimes,andIgave
herabananathatshereluctantlyate.
Okay.Itsaslowdayhereatthehospital,soIllgetDr.RobertsontocovermypatientsandIllcomeassoon
asIcan,okay?
Thankyou,Dad.CouldyoupleasenotmentionthistoMom?Idontwanttoworryher.
Iwont.Trytogethertotakeashower,andmaybeeventoeatsomething.Illbethereinafewhours.
Okay,Iloveyou,Dad.
Iloveyou,too,son.Illseeyousoon,hesaidandhungup.
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IsatthereatthetableforafewminutestocollectmyselfbeforegoingbacktoBella.
JustasIsuspected,shewasstillinbedwithherheadonmypillow.
Whydoessheusemypillowwhenshebroughtherown?
Ilovedititsjustthatitdoesntmakeanysense.
IhuncheddowninfrontofherandbroughtmyhandtohercheektostrokeitasIsaid,Baby,couldyouplease
openthosebeautifuleyesforme?
Ittookafewsecondsbeforesheopenedthem,butwhenshedid,IwasntgreetedwiththelookIwantedtosee.
Imissedtheoldone,thedeterminedandhappyone,notthisblanklookIhadseenthelastcoupleofdays.
Comeonletsgetyouashowerandsomefreshclothes,shallwe?Isaidandliftedthecoveroffofher.
Imanagedtogetherintoasittingposition,butshedidntmakeanymovetogetup,soIliftedher.She
automaticallywrappedherlegsaroundmywaistandherarmsaroundmyneck.
Iturnedonthelightinthebathroomandwalkedtowardsthebathtub.WhenItriedtosetherdownontheedge,
herholdjustgottightertothepointwhereitwashardformetobreathe.
Bella,youneedtoletmegosoyoucantakeyourshower,Itoldhersoftly,butshejustshookherhead.
Yes,youdo,orImgoingtotickleyouwiththebeardthatsgrownonmychinandcheeksoverthelastcouple
ofdays,Ithreatened,tryingtoliftthemoodalittle.
Whenshedidntmove,Itriedtomassageherlegs,andthenImoveduptoherarms.Itworkedeventually,andI
setherdownontheedgeofthetub,butshequicklymovedawayandsatdownonthefloorthreefeetaway.
Icanthandleanymorefears,shewhispered,soquietlythatIhadtostrainmyearstohearher.
Ofcourse,youstupididiot!Thetubshesafraidofit,andyouputherdownrightonit!
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WouldithelpifIwasrightherebesideyou?Iaskedher,andwhenIdidntgetanydirectanswerfromherI
triedagain.Doyouwantmetohelpyou?Itsokayifyouwantmeto.Iwonttryanything.
Atthat,shenoddedherheadandliftedupherarmssoIcouldgethershirtoff,andthenmovedtogetherway
toobigsweatpantsoffaswell.Thepantiescameoffnext.
MostpeoplewouldprobablythinkthatIwouldtakeadvantageofherandstarelikeanidiot,butIdidnt.AllI
sawwasalostgirlwhowantedhelp,andthatsheagreedtoletmehelpherwasastepforward.
Igentlygotherinthetub,asfarawayfromthedrainaspossible.Igrabbedtheremovableshowerheadand
startedthewater.Bellahadherkneesbroughtuptoherchestwithherarmsaroundthem,rockingslightly.I
couldseethefearinherbodylanguage,andIstillcouldntbelievehowshecouldbesoscaredbyasimpletub.
Oncethewaterwasattherighttemperature,Ibroughttheshowerheadtowardsherandaskedifshewasready.
Shenoddedherheadandtippeditbackwardsoitwaseasierformetowashherhairwithouthurtingher.Even
thoughthewaterwasrunning,Icouldseehertearsfallfromhereyes.
Itookawaytheshowerhead,laiditbehindher,andcuppedherface.
Hey,lookatme,Itoldher,andsheactuallydid.
WhatIsawalmostmademesmile,andIfeltlikeajerkforit.Inhereyes,thedeadlookhadbeenreplacedwith
sadness,butatleastitwaslifeinhereyes.
Iusedmythumbstodryhertearsawayandsaid,Itsokayifyoudontwanttotellmewhatswrong.Imhere
foryouanyway,okay?
No,itsnotokay.Ivebeenlikeavegetable,andyouvebeentakingcareofmewhenyoushouldhavebeenat
work.Sodontsithereandtellmeitsokay,becauseitsnot.Idontdeserveyou,eventhoughitshouldbethe
otherwayaroundconsideringhowyoutreatedmeinhighschool,sheraspedoutthroughhertears.
Wow,shehasntspokenthatmuchfordays!
IfIdidntwanttotakecareofyouIwouldnthave,butIwantto,andthatswhyImhere.Itreallyistheother
wayaround,andwebothknowit,Isaid,andbroughtbacktheshowerhead,continuingtowashherhair.
Ilatheredupherhairwithherstrawberryshampooandmassagedherscalp.Idneverwashedagirlshair
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before,butBellassomewhatpeacefullookwassayingthatIdidsomethingright.
Icalledmydad.Ifeltherbodytenseupatmywords,soItriedtoexplainmyselfbeforeshedidanything
Dontworry,Icalledhimasadoctorbecauseyouvebeenscaringmetodeath.Youvebarelyeatenanything
forthreedays.Youneedtoseeadoctor,andheshouldbehereinacoupleofhours.
Ididntgetanyresponse,butIknewsheheardeverywordIsaid.
Doyouthinkyoureabletowashyourbody,ordoyouwantmetodoitforyou?Iaskedhergently.
IdidntthinkIwouldbeabletokeepmyhandsincontrolifIhadtodoit.Ithinksheneedstobemore
comfortablearoundmebeforedoinganythinglikethat.SoIwasrelievedwhenshenoddedherhead,andI
handedherthebodywash.
Whenshewasdone,IturnedthewateroffandgrabbedthetowelIhadlaidout.Igentlydriedherwithit,and
whenIwasdoneIwrappeditaroundhershoulderstokeepherwarm.
Areyouokay?Iaskedher.
Yeah.Thankyou,shewhispered.
Whatdoyouwanttowear?
Justyourtshirtandsomepanties.
Areyousureyoudontwantanypants?
Okay,Illputonsomepantsalso.
Isteppedoutofthebathroomtogiveheramomenttoherselfifsheneededtousethetoiletorsomething.Iwent
totheclosettograbtheclothes.Ifoundsomeregularpantiesandapairofyogapants,butIcouldntfindthet
shirt.WhenIsearchedthroughherunderweardrawer,Icouldntstopmyselffromlooking.Shehadmostly
regularcottonpanties,butshehadafewlacy,seethroughonesaswell.Iguessmygirlwasmoreinterestedin
comfortthanlookingsexy.Itwasntlikethecottonpantieswerentsexy,buttheywasntassexyasthelacy
ones.
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IhopethatsomedayIcouldseeherinthemunderdifferentcircumstances.
Ilefttheclosetandfoundthetshirtonthecouchbythewindow.Ibroughttheclothestoher,andthistimeI
didntevenaskherifshewantedanyhelp.Ihelpedheranyway.
Whenweweredone,Iledherbackouttothebedandsatherdown.
Letmejustgetyourbrush,andIllhelpyoubrushyourhairaswell,Itoldherandwentbacktothe
bathroom.
Brushingagirlshairisalotharderthantowashingit,butafterIgotalltheknotsoutitwentbetter.Shedidnt
cryoutinpainatleast.
CanIgobacktobednow?sheaskedwhenIwasfinished.
Youneedtoeatfirst,Bella.
Please,shepleaded.
Okay.Iletoutabigsigh,gotoffthebed,andmovedtowardsthedoor.
Edward?
Iturnedaroundtolookather.Shewasbitingherlipandlookedhesitantonceagain.
Whatisit,baby?
CanyoustaywithmeuntilIfallasleep?
Ofcourse.Iturnedthelightsoffbeforegoingbacktobed.
AssoonasIwasbesideher,shelaidherheadatthecrookofmyneckandinhaled.Ihuggedhertighttomy
chest,andshewrappedherarmsaroundme.
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Thankyou,shewhispered.
Eventhoughshehadsleptforcountlesshoursduringthelastcoupleofdays,shewasoutwithinminutes.
Igotupaftertwentyminutestogetsomethingtoeatbeforemydadarrived.JustasIfinishedthedishes,Iheard
aknockonthedoorandwhenIopenedit,Isawmydadstandingthere,andawaveofreliefhitsme.
Oh,Edward,hesaidandsteppedforwardtohugme.Ihuggedhimback,butIdidntletgoofthetearsthat
werethreateningtospillagain.
Thankyouforcoming,Dad.
Thereisnoneedtothankme.Hastherebeenanychangesincewetalked?
Igothertotakeashowerandtoputonsomefreshclothes,butshedidntwanttoeatanything.
Okay,wellthen,whileImtalkingtoher,Isuggestyoumakesomethingshereallylikestoeatandtrythat
whenImdone.
Okay,letmejustwakeherupbeforeyougoin,Isaidandwalkedbackintothebedroom.
Bella,baby,itstimetowakeup.IstrokedhercheekasIsaidit,andhereyesflutteredopen.
Goodmorning,sunshine.Mydadishereandhewantstotalktoyou:Illberightoutsideifyouneedme,
okay?
ShenoddedherheadandsatupIkissedthetopofherheadbeforesteppingout.
Shesasreadyasshelleverbe,Itoldmydad.
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Hello,Bella.Howareyoufeeling?Carlisleaskedwhenhesteppedintothebedroomandsatdownonthe
couchinfrontofme.
Ishekiddingme?
Ikeptmymouthshut.IfhecouldntseehowIwasfeeling,Ididntknowhowhecouldbeadoctor.
Okay,couldyoupleasetellmewhattriggeredthis?
Icouldnt.Instead,thetearsstartedflowingdownmycheeks.Idbeenrelivingmypastforthelastcoupleof
days,anditwasnotsomethingIeverwantedtodoagainafterlasttime.
WhycantIjustbelikenormalpeople?Theonesthatwouldbehappywhenanoldfriendsendsthema
weddinginvitation,eventhoughtheyhaventtalkedformonths.
ButImnotlikenormalpeopleandinsteadofbeinghappy,Ibecomeawreckwhodependsonherhusband
waytoomuch.
Wesatinsilenceforalongtime.Ithinkhewasstudyingmybehaviororsomething.Itdidntmatterhecould
studymeallhewanted.
Illberightback,Bella,hesaidandgotupfromthecouch.
Isatthereonthebedinadaze,lookingoutofthewindow.IfounditstrangethatEdwardwastheoneIhadlet
closeandnotAlice,whoactuallycameovertoseeme.IfeltsaferwithEdwardthanIhadeverfeltwith
someoneelse,evenmyfather.
Whatsevenstrangeristhathestayed.
Carlislesteppedbackintotheroomandwalkedovertothecouchagain.Ididntcarewherehewent,buthe
probablywenttohaveatalkwithEdwardandtoaskhimthingsIdidntwanttoanswer.
DoesthishaveanythingtodowithEmilyClearwater?
Howdidheknowhername?Inevertoldthattoanyone!
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Ilookedupthen,shockedthatheknewsomethingaboutmethatonlyfivepeopleknew,andtheywerealong
wayfromhere.
Imnotastupidman,Bella.Edwardshowedmetheinvitationandtoldmeaboutafriendofyoursthathad
died.
InevertoldEdwardthatmuchbutAliceprobablydid.
ImadeaconnectiontoLaPushandEmily.Shewasapatientofminebeforeshewastransferredto
Vancouver.
Please,Idontwanttohearit.Iknowwhathappened,sotheresnoneedtotellme.
Idontthinkanydoctorwouldforgetsuchararecase.Shewasspecial.
Icouldnthandleanymorethen,soIbroughtmyhandsuptomyearstocoverthem.Shewasntspecial
becauseofwhathappenedtohershewasspecialbecauseshewasEmily.Thememoriesstartedtoflow
throughmyheadoftheirownaccord,justliketheyhadfordaysnow.
April17th,fiveyearsago
IwasonmywaytomynextclasswhenIfeltmyphonevibrateinmypocket.
Shit,Idonthavetimetotalk!
IgrabbedmyphoneanywayandsawthatitwasEmilycalling.
Strange,Ithoughtthehospitaldidntallowanyphones.
Emilyhadbeeninthehospitalforafewweeksnowthedoctorsdidntknowexactlywhatwaswrongwithher,
buttheysuspectedararegeneticdiseaseanastyone.Iprayedtomyselfeverynightthattheresultswould
comebacknegative.
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Ihadnttalkedtoherinsolong,andthatiswhyIpickedupthecallIlongedtotalktoher.
Hello?IansweredandwenttostandbehindabuildingwhereIcouldbealone.
Bella?Suesvoiceasked.
SuewasEmilyandLeahsmother.Ididnttalktoherverymuch,especiallynotonthephone.Mygutwas
tellingmethatthiswasntsomethingIwouldenjoy.
Yeah,whyareyoucallingonEmilysphone?Iasked,butIdidntreallywanttoknowtheanswer.Itonly
meantsomethinghadhappened.
Imsosorry,shecroaked.
NO,NO,no,no,no.Thiscantbehappeningitwasntright.
Thetearsstartedtofallandmykneeseventuallygaveout.Ifeltmyselfslidingdownonthehardground,butI
didntcare.Iwastoonumbtofeelanything.IcouldstillhearSuesvoiceinthebackground,butIcouldnt
makeoutexactlywhatshewassaying.
finallydiagnosedjustassuspectedsaidgoodbyetenseventeenlastnightanypainandloved
youall
IhungupthephonethenIdidntwanttohearanything,andshewaslying.Thiswasnthappeningitwasjust
areallybadnightmare.
Imsorry,Bella.Iwonttalkaboutitifyoudontwantto,Carlislesaidandtookmyhandsawayfrommy
ears.
WouldyoubemorecomfortabletotalktomeifIbroughtEdwardinhere?
WouldI?
Ididntknow,butwhatIdidknowwasthatIdidntliketobesodependentonsomeone,andthatisexactly
whathashappenedwithEdward.
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Itsokay,Bella.Itslikeacircleoftrustandeitheryoureinitoryourenot.Edwardhasobviouslywalked
rightintoyoursyourfriendsmaybejustinside,orontheirwayin.Improbablynotinityet,consideringIm
prettymuchstillastrangertoyou.
Thatwasonewaytolookatit,buthowcouldEdwardhavewalkedrightintoit?
Okay,Ifinallywhispered.
IknewjustaswellasCarlislethatIwouldbemorecomfortablewithEdwardbesideme.Thelastcoupleof
dayswereproofofthat.Afewminuteslater,Ifeltthebedshiftbesideme.
Imhere,baby.Imhere,Edwardsaidandliftedmeontohislap.
Carlislegavemeaminutetocollectmyselfbeforehewalkedinandsatdownonthecouchonceagain.
Okay,letsstartover.Bella,willyoupleasetellmehowyoufeel?
Therewasthatstupidquestionagain,butthistimeEdwardsqueezedmybody,lettingmenowthathewas,in
fact,thereforme.
Helplessexhaustednothing,Iansweredhim,bringingmyfacetomycomfortzoneEdwardsneck.
Theexhaustionisprobablycausedbylackofnutrition,sothatcaneasilybefixed.
IwasnthungryIneverwassosayingitwouldbeeasytofixwasnottrue.
HaveyoueverbeendiagnosedwithanythingrelatedtohowyoufeelaboutEmilysdeath?
What?WasheaskingifIhadamentalillness?
Dad,Edwardsaidinawarningtone.
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ImsorryIdidntmeanitlikethat.Iwasjustkindofwonderingifyouhadtalkedtosomeoneaboutthis.It
mighthelpyouifyoudid.
Idontwanttotalktoastranger,IwhisperedintoEdwardsneck.
Youdonthaveto,justtalktosomeone.MaybeEdward,whoknewyoubackthen.Thatcouldmakeit
easier.
DidheknowthatIwasplanningondoingexactlythat?
Ijustwanttosleep,soIcangotoworkonMonday.Imsotired,IsaidasEdwardbegancaressingmyback.
Icant,asadoctor,letyougobacktoworkifyoudontstarteating.
Please,Ipleadedpathetically.
Imsorry,Bella,thatsthedeal.IlltalktoyouonSundaytoseeifyourefitforworkornot,hesaidandgot
up.
HestrokedmyhairandpattedEdwardonhisbackbeforesaying,Goodluck.
Thankyouforcoming,Dad,Edwardsaid.
Yourewelcome.Takecare,bothofyou.Illletmyselfout.
Thenhewasgone,andEdwardandIwereonceagainalone.
IgotyouaBigMac.Couldyoupleasetrytoeatit?heasked,andInoddedmyhead.Iwantedtogotowork
onMonday.Okay,comeon.Letseatinthekitchen.
Edwardsatwithmeatthetableforthewholehourittookmetofinishmyfood.Hehadfinishedhis
cheeseburgerinfiveminutes,soIfigureditmustbeboringforhimtojustsitthere,buthedidntsayanything
aboutit.
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Improbablygoingtothrowitallupagainbecausemybodyisntusedtothismuchfood,ImumbledwhenI
wasdone.
Thenwelljustgetanewone,washissolution.
Doyouwanttowatchamoviewithme?heaskedwhenhehadfinishedputtingthedishesinthedishwasher.
InoddedmyheadIcouldusesomethingtodistractmyselfwith.
Whatdoyouwanttowatch?
Titanic?
EndNotes:
A/N:Didyoulikeit?Diditbringanytearstoyoureyes?
Emilysdiseasewillbeknowninchapter10.Itsthesameonethatmyfrienddiedfrom
almost4yearsago.ThatswhyIcriedalittlewhilewritingthis
DidyoufindwhatIborrowedandfromwhatmovie?Ifyoudid,Iwillgiveyoua
previewonthenextchapter!
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**THEFLASHBACKINTHISCHAPTERISBASEDONATRUESTORY**
Asusual,thereisamoviequoteinthischapteraswell.Finditandyoullbegettinga
previewonthenextchapter.
ThelastonewasfromMeettheparentswiththeCircleofTrust
Thegoodiescanbefoundathttp//marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
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Isatonabenchthatwaslocatedattheedgeoftheparkwatchingaskidsplayedwiththeirparents.This
morningtheapartmenthadseemedsoempty,Ihadn'tfeltsoaloneinsuchalongtime.Ihaddriventoa
playground,notfarfromEdward'soffice,justtoclearmyheadfromthepastcoupleofdays.
Edwardhadmademeagreetohavelunchwithhimtoday,andIhadafeelingthiswasastartofanewroutine.
Aslongashewasgoingtoworkinsteadofbeinghome,babysittingme,Iwasfinewithit.Itwasn'tlikeIdidn't
wanthimathomewithme,itwasjustthatIknewhemissedalotbycallinginsicktowork.
Idon'tknowhowlongIsatthere,buteventuallythesunstartedbotheringmyeyes,soIlookedaroundinmy
bagtoseeifIhadapairofsunglassesIcoulduse.Luckilyforme,IhadputoneofmyRayBansinthere.
Ialsofoundmyphone.ImusthaveforgottenittherethelasttimeIusedit.
IhadovertenmissedcallsfromAliceandafewdozentexts.Iguessshereallyneededtogetaholdofme,soI
sentheratextsayingIwasokayandIwouldcallherwhenIhadthetime.Ididn'twanttodealwithherright
now.
Iwasstillangrywithheraboutputtingmeinacar,alone,withEdward.Shehadnorighttodoso,andthento
expectthatIwouldforgiveherassoonasIgothomewasjustcrazy.Iwasgoingtoforgiveherwhenshe
apologizedforherscheming.
AtleastshehadstoppedbythisweekwhenIwasatmyworst.LasttimeshehaddonewhatIaskedhertodo
leavemealone.Iwasgladthatshedidn'tbothermebackthen,butnowIjustrealizehowlonelyIwas.IfI
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wouldhavetoldEdwardtojustleavemealone,hewouldn'thave.
FindingmyphonealsoremindedmethatIneededtocallmydad.Ihadtotellhimaboutgettingmarried.Itwas
notsomethingIwaslookingforwardto,butitwassomethingIhadtodo.Ihadnottalkedtohimforawhile,so
Ididn'tknowhowIwassupposedtobreaksuchnewstohimwithoutgivinghimaheartattack.
IalsoknewIhadatleasttwomoreimportantphonecallstomakeonetomymomandonetoJacob.IfIwas
lucky,IwouldjustgetvoicemailwhenIcalledJacob,becauseIwasn'treadytohavethattalkyet.Ineededto
talktoEdwardbeforeIcalledJakethough,toaskhimifhewantedtocomewithmetoJake'swedding,soI
decidedtocallmydadfirst.
"ChiefSwanspeaking,"mydadsaidwhenheansweredthephone.
"Hi,Dad,it'sme,Bella,"Itoldhim,eventhoughheprobablyknewitwasmewhenIcalledhim'Dad.'
"Bells!Howareyou?AreyoucominghomeforJakeandLeah'swedding?"heasked.
"Idon'tknowyetIneedtospeaktosomeonefirstbecauseIdon'twanttocomealone."
ThetruthwasthatifIwasgoingtoaplaceIhadavoidedforthelastfiveyears,Ineededthecomfortand
safenessIfoundinEdward.
"Youshouldcomeweallwanttoseeyou.It'sbeenfiveyears.Youneedtoletitgo."
"Iknow,"Iwhispered."Butthisisn'twhyIcalled.IhavesomethingIneedtotellyou."
"Okay,whatisit,Bella?"
"Well,IummIkindofgotmarriedwhenwewenttoVegas,"Iblurtedout,notevensureifheunderstood
whatIjusttoldhim.
Thelinewentcompletelysilent,andIwasafraidthatIdidcausehimaheartattackafterall.
"Dad?"Iaskedintothephone.
"Pleasetellmeyou'rejoking,"hebegged.
"It'snotajoke,Dad.We'retryingtoworkthingsoutandstaymarried."Ihatedlyingtohim,butIreallydidn't
wanttodisappointhimevenmorethanIalreadyhad.
"Ididn'tevenknowyouhadafianc,orevenaboyfriend,"hegrumbled.
"Ididn't.Ican'tremembermuch,butIwokeupmarried.RoseandAliceknewhimfrombeforeandsodid
I."
"Isthatanicewaysayingthatyougotdrunkandcan'tremembergettingmarried?"hesaidandsighedbefore
continuing,"I'msorry,Bells.It'sjustkindofashocktome,that'sall.Yousaidyouknewhimfrombefore,isit
anyoneIknow?"
"Yes,it'sEdwardCullen.Wewenttoschooltogether."
"Thedoctor'skid?"
"Yeah,thatwouldbehim."
"Huh,wellIwanttomeethim.Ican'tbelievehemarriedadrunkengirl,mybabygirl."Idon'tthinkIwas
meanttohearthatlastsentence,butIdid.
"Iknow.I'llbringhimtothewedding"HecutmeoffbeforeIcouldfinish.
"Doesthatmeanyou'recoming?"
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"I'mnotsure,butIwillbringhimifIam.I'llcallJakelatertolethimknowmydecision,andhecantellyou,
okay?"
"Surething,Ineedtogo.I'llseeyousoon,Bells.Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,Dad,"Isaidandhungup.
Iwasamazedathowwellthecallwent.Ihadexpectedalotofanger,butmaybeangerwouldhavebeenbetter
thanthedisappointmentIcouldclearlyhearinhisvoice.
Ilookeddownattheclockandsawthatitwasalmostoneintheafternoon.Sincewewerehavingourlunchat
one,Igotupfromthebenchandstartedwalkingtowardhisoffice.
WhenIgottoEdward'sfloor,IwasonceagaingreetedbyTanya.
"Welcome,Bella.Edwardisonthephonerightnow,butyoucansitherewithmeifyoulikeuntilhe'sready,"
shesaidsmiling.
"Sure.Thanks,"Isaid,sittingdowninoneofthechairsbyherdesk.
"So,howareyoutoday?"sheaskedme.
"Um,good.,alittlebored,butgood,"Ilied.
Iwasn'tfeelinggood.Iwasfeelinglonelyanddepressed,butIwasn'tgoingtotellherthat,nomatterhow
sweetshewastome.
"Whatdoyoudoforwork?Andwhodoyouworkfor?"shecontinuedwithherquestions.
"IstartmynewjobatVolturiPublishingonMonday."
"That'sjustdownthestreet,right?"
"Yeah,itis."
"Good,thenIhopeI'llgettoseeyoumoreoften.Edwardismuchbroodierwhenhehasn'tseenyouina
while,"shesaidandlookeddownatthephone."He'sdonenow,soyoucangoinsideifyoulike."
"Thankyou,itwasniceseeingyouagain,"Isaid,gettingup.
"Youtoo,takecare.I'llseeyousoonagain,"shesaid,smiling,andgotbacktowork.
IknockedsoftlyonEdward'sdoorandheardafaint'Comein,'soIopeneditandsteppedinside.Hewassitting
byhisdeskwithhisheadinhishands.
"Hi,"Isaid.
"Bella?Isitalreadyoneo'clock?"
"Yes,itis,"IsaidasIsteppedforwardandputmybagononeofhischairs.
"Comehere."Hewavedmetowardhimwithhishand.
AssoonasIwaswithinhisreach,heputhisarmsaroundmywaist,bringingmetostandbetweenhislegs
whilehehuggedmywaist.
"God,I'vemissedyoutoday,"hewhisperedandseemedtoinhalemyscent.
HisaffectionmadeoverwhelmedmeIwasn'tusedtothis.Noonehadevercaredthismuchaboutmebefore.
Tearsstartedrollingdownmycheeks.Myemotionswereallovertheplace,andIwassosickofit!
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Ibroughtmyhandsuptohissofthair,twinningitbetweenmyfingers.
"Areyoufeelingbettertoday?"
"No,"Iwhisperedthroughmysilenttears.
"Hey,"hesaidandlookedupatme,"don'tcry.I'msorry."
Ijustshookmyheadhehadn'tdoneanythingwrong.Iwasjustanemotionalmess.
Hegotupfromhischairandstartedtokissmytearsaway.Hebeganwiththeonesonmycheeksandthen
carriedontokissingmyeyelids.Eventuallyhepepperedmywholefacewithfeatherlightkisses.
Edward'skisseswentafewstepsbeyondtheusualpecksonmycheeks.EventhoughIshouldhavebeen
botheredbythisnewintimacy,Iwasn't.IknewIshouldbebotheredbyalotofthingsthathadhappenedthis
pastcoupleofdays,butinsteadIcravedEdward'stouchneededitlikeairtobreathe.
Wewereinterruptedbyasoftknockonthedoor.IburiedmyfaceinEdward'schestIdidn'twantwhoever
wasatthedoortoseemelikethis.
"Yes?"Edwardasked.
IheardthedoorcrackopenandthenTanya'svoice."I'msorry,Mr.Cullen,butthemailjustgothere.Ithought
I'dgiveittoyoubeforeyougo."
"Thankyou,Tanya."
Edwardputafingerundermychintotiltmyheadup,sothathecouldlookatme.
"Areyoureadyforlunch?"Inoddedmyheadinresponseandhestartedtodrytheremainsofmytearsaway.
WeateattheofficecafeteriasinceEdwardneededtogetbacktoworkassoonaspossible.Beinghere
remindedmealotofhighschool.Theroomlookedalittlemoreexpensivethanahighschoolcafeteria,butit
wasclose.TheglaresIgotfrommostofthefemaleswerejustliketheonesIusedtogetbackinhighschool,
exceptwewereolder.
"Bella?"Edward'svoicebroughtmebacktothepresent.
"Sorry,Ijustspacedoutalittle."
"Icouldtell.Sowhatwereyouthinkingabout?"
"Highschool,"Isaid,andwhenIsawEdward'sworriedlookItriedtoexplainwhatImeant."It'sjustthatthe
glaresIgetherearethesameastheonesIusedtogetinhighschool."
"They'rejustjealous,"hesaid,smirkingatme.
"Ha,ha.Veryfunny,"Isaid,butIknewhewasmostlikelyright.
IcontinuedtopickatmysaladandtriedtoignoretheglaresanddaggersIcouldfeelinmyback.
"Idon'twanttosoundlikeyourfather,baby,butyouneedtoeat."
"Iknow,"Isaid,andbroughtabitofcucumbertomymouthtoprovethatIactuallyate.
"Speakingoffathers,Icalledmydadtoday,"Itoldhimandwatchedashisfacefell.
"Whatdidhesayaboutthewedding?"
"Notmuch.Hewasdisappointed,butIalreadyknewthathewouldbe."
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"Okay,"hewhispered."I'msorry."
"Oh,andhewantstomeetyou."Atthathejustnoddedhishead,andIknewthiswasthemomentIneededto
askhimaboutthewedding.
"Edward?"
"Yes,baby?"heaskedhesitantly.
"MydadwantsmetocomehomeforJake'swedding."
"Doyouwantto?"
Ithoughtaboutthatforaminute.Ididn'tknowifIcouldhandleit,butIknewthatIshouldgoanyway.
"Idon'tknow."
"Areyougoingbyyourselfifyoudecidetogo?"
Thatwasoutofthequestion.Ihadmydadandoldfriendsthere,butIneededsomeoneelse,andthatsomeone
satinfrontofme.
"Idon'tthinkIcouldhandlethat."Somehow,Iwastoomuchofacowardtoaskhimstraightout.
"Bella,allyouneedtodoisask,andIwillcomewithyou.Iwill,however,notinvitemyself.Justsaythe
word."
Ipinchedatomatowithmyfork,capturedit,andateitbeforeasking,"Edward,wouldyouliketogowithme?"
"Sure,Bella,"hesaid."DoesthismeanthatIhavetomeetyourdadinsixweeks?"
Iactuallyletoutasoftlaugh.Hewassoworriedaboutmeetingmydad,andIfeltlikeabitchfornottellinghim
abouthoweasymydadhadbeenwhenItoldhimaboutmymarriageonthephone.Itwassixweeksuntilthe
wedding,andIcouldusemydad'sreactiontomyadvantageifEdwarddecidedtoturnintoanassholeagain.I
couldalwaystellhimaboutmydad'sreactionwhenwewereinthecaronourwaytoForks.
"Don'tworry,I'llkeepyousafe,"Ismirked.
Ieventuallyfinishedmyfood,andEdwardhadtogobacktowork.Hegavemeabighuginthelobby,and
mademepromisetocallhimifIneededhim,beforegoingbackuptohisoffice.
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"Howwaslunch?"TanyaaskedmeasIgotbacktomyoffice.
"ApartfromtheevilglaresBellagotfromtheladies,itwentfine,"Isaidandsighed."Youcanhaveyourlunch
nowifyoulike."
"Thosebitchesarejustjealous!"
ThatwaswhatIlikedaboutTanyashewasneverafraidtospeakwhatwasonhermind,evenifitwastocall
hercoworkersbitches.
"Yeah,that'swhatItoldher,"IsaidandstartedwalkingbacktomyofficewhenIsuddenlyremembered
something.
"Hey,Tanya,waitupasec.Ihaveafavortoaskofyou.Bella'sbirthdayiscomingupandIwanttogiveher
this,"IsaidasIhandedherthepaperthatheldtheinformationaboutthegiftIwantedtobuy."Iknowweare
reallybusy,butifyoufindsometimetoseeifyoucanfindsomewhereIcangetaholdofit,thatwouldbe
great."
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"Youaregoingtogiveherthis?"
"Yes,oristheresomethingwrongwithit?"
"No!IjustwishGarrettwoulddosomethinglikethisformybirthday."
GarrettwasTanya'sboyfriendtheyhadbeentogetherforalmostfouryears.
"Askhimandhemightdoit,"Itoldher.
"Agirlshouldn'thavetotellherboyfriendwhattobuyherforherbirthday,Edward.Don'tworryaboutthe
presentI'llseewhatIcando."
"Thankyou,Ioweyouone,"Isaidandgaveherasmilebeforegoingbacktomyoffice.
Icouldn'twaittogiveBellaherbirthdaypresentIreallyhopedshewouldlikeit,butIwasalmostcompletely
positivethatshewould.
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IwentbacktotheparkagainonFriday.Itbroughtmesomewhatcalm,andwhenIdidn'thaveEdwardaround,
Ineededthat.
Iwatchedasthemomsplayedwiththeirkids,andIbrieflywonderedifIwouldeverhavethat.
Probablynot.
Iwastooscaredofthephysicalpainthatitwouldbring,andIwouldprobablyneverfindmyperfectmatchto
haveakidwith.
Youalreadyhave,mystupidmindsaid,butIquicklypusheditaway.Ididn'twanttohavethosethoughts.
Edwardwasn'tmyperfectmatch,butmaybewecouldstayfriendsafterallthiswasover.
Myphonerangthen,andwhenIlookeddownatthedisplayitreadEdward.
Iguessit'stimeforlunch.
"Hi,"IsaidasIansweredthephone.
"Hi,baby.Areyoureadyforlunch?"heasked.
"Yeah,sure,butcouldwemaybeeatsomewhereelsetoday?"Ididn'twanttodealwithallthestupidstaring
andwhisperingtoday.
"Okay,I'lljustcomebytopickyouupthen."
"Oh,I'mintheparkjustoutsideyouroffice,sowecanjustmeetattheentrancetoyouroffice."
"Whatareyoudoinginthepark?"heasked,andIcouldhearinthebackgroundashesaidgoodbyetoTanya.
"I'llexplainlater.Seeyouinaminute."
"Okay,bye,"hesaidandhungup.
Therestofthedaywentbyquickly.Edwarddidn'tgethomeuntilteno'clock,andbythenIwasalreadyinbed
waitingforhim.
IfoundEdwardonthecouchwatchingthathorrorshowhewasalwayswatchingonSaturdaynight,threedays
aftermybreakdown.Iwenttostandrightinfrontofhimtocatchhisattention.
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"Hey,doyoumindifIborrowyourphoneforasec?"Iaskedhim.
"Huh?You'reinmyway,baby,"hesaid,clearlynothearingwhatIjustsaid.
"Isaid,canIborrowyourphoneforasec?"
"Why?Don'tyouhaveoneofyourown?"
"Yes,Ido,butIwanttoborrowyours.Soareyougoingtogiveittome,oramIgoingtobestandinghereall
night?"
"Here,nowmovesoIcanwatch,"hesaidwhilehehandedmehisphone.
JustasIwasabouttoleave,hesmackedmeontheass.
"Edward!"
"What?"heasked,lookingallinnocent."Paybackisabitch."
IsteppedoutontothebalconyandsearchedforJake'snumberinmycellbeforedialingitonEdward's.Ihad
waitedtocallhimbecauseIwantedtocallwhenhewouldbebusy.OnaSaturdaynighthewouldeitherbe
workinginhisbodyshoporpartyinginPortAngeles.
HeandSamhadopenedagaragetogetherthreeyearsago,andasfarasIknewtheirbusinesswassuccessful.I
hadn'tseenJakeintwoyearsand,tobehonest,Iwasbothexcitedandterrifiedtoseehimagain.
MyhandswereshakingthiswasnotaphonecallIwascomfortablemaking,butIknewIhadto.
Please,don'tpickup,Ichantedtomyselfwhilethephonerang.
"Hi,you'vereachedJake!Ican'tpickuprightnow,soleaveamessageandI'llcallyoubackassoonasIcan.
Thanks."
AssoonasIheardhisvoice,IfelttheairleavemylungsandIhadtroublebreathingforasecond.Ifitwashard
tohearhisvoice,howhardwoulditbetoactuallyseehim?
"HiJake.It'sme,Bella.Umm,IjustcalledtoletyouknowthatIwillbecomingtoyourwedding.Yeah
soumm,Iwillbringsomeonewithmeaswell.Soyoucanaddtwomoreonyourguestlist.IguessI'llsee
youinafewweeksbye."
God,thatwasawkward!
Ihadjustputmyphonedown,afterleavingthathorriblemessage,whenmyphonerangagain.
Please,don'tbeJake.
IhadcalledhimonEdward'sphonesinceIdidn'twanttospeaktohimmorethanIhadtoIwasn'tready.The
talkingwouldhavetowaituntilthewedding.
Irealizeditwasmyphonethatwasringing,andwhenIlookeddownatthedisplayIletoutasighofrelief.
"Hi,Mom,"Ianswered.
"Hi,honey!Guesswhat?IjustgothomefromVenezuela.Philtookmethereforthisyear'svacation."Shekept
tellingmeabouthowgreatithadbeenIdidn'tevengetawordin.
"Mom!"Isaidloudly,tiredofhearingabouttheAngelFallsforthethirdtime."IhavesomethingIneedtotell
you."
"Whatisit,baby?"sheasked.SomehowEdward'snicknameformedidn'tsoundrightcomingfromhermouth.
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"Igotmarriedtwoweeksago."ThelinewentcompletelysilentforaminuteandIwasafraidthatshehadhung
uponme,butthenshespoke.
"What?I'msorryIdon'tthinkIheardyouright.Yousaidyougotmarried?"
"ThatwasexactlywhatIsaid.IgotmarriedonwhileinVegasforRose'sbacheloretteparty."
"Ican'tbelieveyouofallpeoplewoulddosomethinglikethat!"TherewasaslightpauseandIheardsome
hushedvoicesinthebackground."I'msorry,Bella,butIhavetogo.Philisgettingimpatient.Wehaveadinner
reservation.Thisconversationisnotover,younglady!"shesaidloudly,clearlyannoyed.
Great,nowI'vepissedmymotheroff!
"Fine,Iloveyou."Itriedtosuckuptoher,hopingitwouldmakeherlessupset.
"Loveyou,too,"shesaidandhungup.
Iwentbackintotheapartment.Itwasprettylate,soIwenttothebedroomtochangeintoEdward'stshirtanda
pairofyogapants.TheshirthadstoppedsmellinglikehimIwouldhavetowashitandthengethimtowearit
foradayorso,beforetakingitback.
WhenIwasdone,IfloppeddownbesideEdwardonthecouch.Hewasstillwatchingthatshow.
"Thankyoufortheloan,"Isaid,handinghimhisphoneback.
"Whatdidyoudowithit?"heasked,nottakinghiseyesoffthescreen.
Iguessitmustbeonehellofashow.
"IcalledJake,lettinghimknowthatwewouldbecomingtothewedding."
"Oh,whydidyouusemyphoneforthat?"heasked,confused."Andwhatdidhesay?"
"Ididn'twanthimtocallmeback,sonowhewillcallyouinstead.Hedidn'tsayanythingbecausehedidn't
pickup.Ilefthimavoicemail."
HejustnoddedhisheadandwentbacktowatchingtheTV.Ididn'teventhinkheheardthepartwhereJake
wouldprobablycallhiminsteadofme.AtleastIgavehimsomekindofwarning.
"Whatareyouwatching?Arealityshow?"Iasked.
"Pfft,yeah,right,"hesaidandhandedmeaDVDcasewhichread'Supernatural.'
Oh,Iwanttoseethis,IthoughtwhenIsawtheguysonthecover.
IbroughtmyfeetupontoEdward'slapandturnedtowardstheTV.
"Edward?"
"Hm?"
"DidyoucallAlicethisweek?"Iasked,worriedthatshehadbeenwaitingformewhenweweresupposedto
meetforcoffee.
"Yeah,Idid.Don'tworry."Itwasclearthathedidn'twanttotalk,soIturnedmyattentionbacktotheTV.
Ishouldn'thave.'BloodyMary'willforeverhauntmythoughts.
Thefurtherwegotintotheepisode,thecloserImovedtowardEdward.Intheend,myfeetwereinbetweenhis
legs,myarmswrappedaroundhisbicep,andmyfaceburiedinthecrookofhisneck.
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Whentheepisodewasover,EdwardpriedmeoffandturnedofftheTV.Hegotupfromthecouchandwentto
thebedroom,turningoutthelightsashewent.Ijustsatthereonthecouch,tense,staringintospace,waitingfor
himtocomebacktogetme.Iwastooafraidtogobymyself.
Afewminuteslater,hedidcomeback,probablywonderingwhyIhadn'tfollowedhim.
"Areyoucoming,orareyougoingtosithereinthedarkallnight?"Ijustnoddedmyhead,notsurewhat
questionIwasanswering.Itcouldbeeitherone.
"Baby,what'swrong?"heaskedashestartedwalkingtowardsme.
"BloodyMary,"Iwhispered.Hejustchuckled.
"Pleasetellmethatyoudidn'tgetafraidofafuckingTVshow!"
Ijustshruggedmyshoulders.WhatwasIsupposedtosay?Yes,I'mscaredshitlessbecauseIcouldn'ttakemy
eyesoffthescreen.
No,Iwasn'tgoingtoadmitthatonetohim.
"Comeon."Hetriedtodragmefromthecouchbymyarm,butdidn'thaveanyluck.Hemighthavesucceeded
ifhehadputsomemorestrengthintoit.
TherewasnowayIwasputtingmyfeetdownonthefloor.Youneverknewwhatcouldlurkunderthecouch.
"Okay,fine.I'llcarryyou.Happynow?"Inoddedmyhead,andhebentdowntoliftmeup.
Iwrappedmylegsaroundhiswaistandmyarmsaroundhisneck,sotightlythathemighthavetrouble
breathing.
Hesatusdownonthebed,butIdidn'twanttolethimgo.Thatstupidgirlstillplaguedmymind.
"Bella,neitheroneofushascalledherthreetimesinamirror,nowhavewe?"Ishookmyheadtoanswerhim.
"Thatiswhatyouneedtodo,orelseshewon'tcome.You'resaferighthere,soyoucanletmegonow."
"Okay,"Iwhispered,carefullylettinghimgoandcrawledunderthecomforter.Ipulledoffmypantsbefore
lyingdown.
AssoonasEdwardwasbesideme,Iaskedhim,"Couldyoupleaselayontopofme?Likeablanketor
something?"
"Whywouldyouwantthat?"heaskedinanamusedtone.
"Please.Justlikeyoudidwhenwewokeupatthatmotel."
Hedidn'tsayanything,butdidasIaskedandlaidhisheadonmychestandwrappedhisarmaroundme.Sleep
camesoonerthanIwouldhavethought.
Iwokethenextdaytosoftkissesallovermycollarbonesandbighandscaressingmybackunderneaththet
shirt.Itfelttooamazingtobereal,soithadtobeadream.
"Baby,youneedtowakeup."
"No,justfivemoreminutes.I'minheaven."
Edwardjustchuckledandsaid,"Sorry,you'vealreadyhadyourfiveminutesinheaven,andifyoudon'twake
upyou'regoingtobelateforwork."
Oh,shit!I'mstartingmynewjobtodayItotallyforgot.
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IopenedmyeyesassoonasIrealizedthisandwasmetbyatiredlookingEdward.
"Ican'tbelieveyousleptthroughtheannoyingsoundofthealarm,"hesaid,shakinghisheadindisbelief.
"I'mtired.Whattimeisit?"
"It'salmostsixforty."
"Ugh,"Igroaned,"Ineedtogetready."
"Yes,youdo.I'llgoandputonthecoffeeforusinthemeantime,"hesaid,gettingup.
Ifinallymanagedtogetupandgetintotheshower.Itwokemeupslightly,butwhatIreallyneededwascoffee.
Carlislehadcalledyesterdaymorning.HehadmainlyaskedabouthowIwasfeelingemotionally.Ihadbeen
honestandtoldhimitwasupanddown,butheseemedtothinkthatwasjustnormal.Iguesshemusthave
talkedtoEdwardbeforemebecausehebarelyaskedifIwaseatingornot.
Igotoutoftheshoweranddriedmyselfoffbeforeputtingminimalmakeupon.
Iknewhowtomakemyselflookgoodinclothes,butIalwayshadtroublepickingoutsomethingtowearfora
specialoccasionsthefirstdayatanewjob,forinstance.Thankfully,Esmehadhelpedmepicksomethingto
wearfortheoccasionfromtheclothesIhadboughtlastweek.
Shehadpickedoutaverylightgreyandcreamcoloredtanktop,andakneelengthpencilskirt.Itwasavery
chicandstylishoutfit,andIlikedit,butthefabricwasverythinandIwasafraidthatIwouldbecoldduringthe
day.Igrabbedalightblacksweater,justincase,andthentheblackheeledshoeswithsmallsilverstudsallover
them,andthenIwentouttothekitchen.
"Theshowerisfreenowifyouwanttouseit,"IsaidtoEdwardafterIhadputtheshoesbythedoor.
"Wow,youlookamazing,"hesaid,lettingoutabiggustofair.
"Thankyou."Icouldfeeltheblushcreepupontomycheeks.Iwasn'tusedtogettingthatkindofcompliment
fromaguy.
"I'mjustgoingtotakeashower,"hesaid,pointingtowardsthebathroom,butnotmovinganinch.
"Yougodothat."Icouldn'tstoptheamusedsmilethatspreadacrossmyface.
Iwentandgrabbedmyselfacupofcoffeeandsatdownbythecountertoreadthenewspaper.
Edwardcamebacktothekitchenfifteenminuteslaterhehadonblackslacksandawhiteshirtwiththesleeves
rolleduptohiselbows.Nowhewastheonewhomademespeechless.
"Doyouknowifwehaveanychocolatemilk?"heaskedwhilehewassearchingthecabinets.
"What?"IaskedasIcamebackfromthedaze.
"Youknow,akindofchocolatepowderyoumixwithmilk.Chocolatemilk.Doyouknowifwehaveit?"
"Um,notunlessyouhaditbeforeImovedin."
ChocolatemilkOfcourseIknewwhathemeant.
NewYear'sEve,7yearsago
"321HAPPYNEWYEAR!"weallyelledout.
Ididn'thaveanybodytokiss,soIwatchedasmyhappyfriendsgottheirfirstkissoftheyear.JacobandLeah,
andEmilyandSam.TheywereallfromNativeAmericanfamilies,andallhadthatrussetcoloredskinand
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longblackhair.Iwasthetotaloppositewithmypaleskin,butIdidn'tfeellikeanoutsiderhere.Ifeltloved.
WehadmadeitatraditiontospendNewYear'stogetherwealwayscelebratedinLaPushandwatchedthe
fireworksfromFirstBeach.OurparentswouldspendthenightattheBlacksandwewouldspenditat
Clearwaters.
EmilycameovertomewhenSamreleasedherandgavemeahug.
"HappyNewYear,Bella,"shesaid.
"Youtoo."
ThebestpartaboutEmilywasthatshedidn'tletSamcontrolhertime.Shealwaysmadetimeformeevenif
Samwaswithus.Theyweren'tlikeJakeandLeah,whocouldn'tkeeptheirhandsoffeachother.
"So,whatisyourresolutionthisyear?"Iaskedheraswestoodandwatchedfireworksreflectofftheblack
water.
"I'mnotgoingtodrinkasingledropofchocolatemilkthisyear,"shesaidproudly.
Emilywasobsessedwithchocolatemilkshedrankitforbreakfast,lunchandbeforeshewenttobed.Her
resolutionwouldprobablybehardforher,butifshereallywantedit,Iwassureshecoulddoit.
"Goodluckwiththat,"Isaidandlaughed.
"Well,it'sbetterthantheoneSamsuggestedearlier."
"Whatdidhesuggest?"
"ThatIstayawayfrom'DirtyDancing'forthewholeyear,butwhocangiveupJohnnyandBabyforawhole
year?"
Atthat,Ilaughedoutloud.OfcourseSamwouldsuggestsomethinglikethat.Healwaysthoughtwewatched
thatmovietoomanytimes.
"Iguessgivingupchocolatemilkisbetter,"IsaidwhenIhadcalmeddownabit.
"Haveyoumadeanyresolutionsyet?"
"No,Ialwaysendupbreakingthemanyway."
Wewenttobedaroundtwointhemorning,afterstayinguptowatchallthefireworks.Emily,LeahandIslept
onthepulloutsofainthelivingroomandtheboyssleptonanairmattressonthefloorrightnexttous.Sleep
camequicklyeventhoughJake'sloudsnoresshouldhavekeptmeupforhours.
Thenextmorning,Iwokeuptothesmellofcoffeeandtoast.Iwasstarving,soIdidn'tevenbotherchanging
outofmypajamasbeforeheadingtowardthekitchen.
"Well,goodmorning,sunshine!"JakewasstuffingabigblueberrymuffinintohismouthsoIhadtrouble
hearing,butIjustlaughed.
Ihadafeelingthatthiswasgoingtobeagoodyear.
IsatdownnexttoEmilywhohadjuststartedherbreakfastwithchocolatemilkandtoast.
"Emily,couldn'tyouatleastwaittwentyfourhoursbeforebreakingyourNewYear'sresolution?"Iaskedher.
"What?"sheasked.
"You'redrinkingchocolatemilk.Youmadearesolutionlastnightthatyouwouldn't,"Itriedtotellherwhile
stiflingmylaughter.
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"Whatareyoutalkingabout?Ididn'tmakearesolutionlikethat!"
"Um,baby?"Samasked."Youdidactually.Butdon'tworry,Iloveyouanyway."
ExceptEmily,wewerealllaughingourassesoff.Sheeventuallyjoinedusoncesherealizedhermistake.
"Oldhabitsdiehard,guys,"shesaidoncewehadcalmeddown,andthatjustmadeuslaughagain.
"Bella?Hello?"Edwardsaidashewavedhishandsinfrontofme.
"Sorry,Igotstuckinmyhead."
"Whatdidyoudointhere?"heasked,sittingdownbesidemeashesippedhiscoffee.
"Tookatripdownthememorylane."
"Agood,orabadone?"
"Definitelyahappyone,"Isaid,gettingupfrommyseat.
"Caretoshare?"
DoIwantto?
IcouldhearCarlisle'swordsinmyhead,tellingmethatitmighthelpmetotalkaboutit.Onestepclosertoget
better,right?
"EmilymadethisNewYear'sresolutionafewyearsbeforeshedied,"Ibegan,butthelastwordstuckinmy
throat."Shehadthisobsessionwithchocolatemilkandsaidshewouldn'tdrinkitforawholeyear.Whenwe
atebreakfastthenextmorning,onNewYear'sDay,shedrankaglassofchocolatemilkanddidn'teventhink
abouttheresolutionshehadmadeonlyeighthoursbefore."
AllIdidwassmile.TherewerenotearsasIretoldthestory,andthatalonemademethinkthatIcouldlook
backtomypastandrememberthegoodthingsoneday.
"Thankyouforlettingmein,"Edwardsaidwhilegettingupfromhischairtogivemeahug.
Ihuggedhimbackandstoodonmytoestogivehimakissonthecheek.Icouldn'treachthathighup,though,
soIsettledforhisneck.
"Doyouwanttocarpooltoworktoday?"heaskedwhenhereleasedme.
"Why?Wedon'tworkatthesameplaceandyoudon'tgetoffworkuntilsix,andIleaveworkatfive."
"It'syourfirstdayIwanttogiveyouaride.Icangetoffanhourearlier.Emmettisback,sonowit'shisturnto
workhisassoff."
"Doyouwanttoholdmyhandaswell?"Ismirked.
"Baby,pleaseletmedothis."Hesawmehesitatingandmadeanothermove,"I'maskingnicelyhereyoudon't
wanttoseemenotaskingnicely."
Icouldtellfromthewayhespokeandhisbodylanguagethathewasonlyjoking,butthatdidn'tmeanI
couldn'thavemyownfun.
"I'mnotafraidofyou."
"Well,maybeyou'renotafraidofme,butI'msureyou'vethoughtaboutmenaked,huh?"heasked,waggling
hiseyebrows.
Itwasreallyhardtocontrolmyfacewhenhesaidthat,becauseallIwantedtodowaslaughoutloud.
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"AmIthattransparent?Iwantyou,Ineedyou,ohbaby,ohbaby,"Isaid,sarcastically."Besides,I'vealready
seenyounaked.Frombehind,atleast."
Bythatpoint,IwasstandingpressedagainstthecounterwithEdwardhoveringovermeandhisarmsoneither
sideofme.
"Please?"Hegavemehisbestpoutandpleadingstare.
Whocanresistthat?
"Fine,butonlyfortoday!"
"Thankyou,"hesaid,andkissedthetipofmynosebeforetakingastepback.
Ididn'tknowifitwasdeliberateornot,butEdwardhadmademefeelbetterwiththejokingthatmorning.Even
ifIhadahappymemorytoday,thinkingaboutEmilywerestillhard.
"Notthatyoudon'tlooksexyashell,butwhydoyouinsistonwearingthosekillerheelswhenevenIknow
thattheyaren'tcomfortable?"Edwardaskedwhenwerodedownintheelevator.
"Theygowiththeoutfit,andtheymakemyasslookgood,don'tthey?"Ijoked,turningaroundforhimtosee.
IthinkIgothimbecausewhenIturnbackagain,hismouthwasopenslightlyandhecouldn'tstopstaringatmy
behind.
"Closethemouth,honey,"Itoldhimastheelevatorreachedthegroundfloor.
Iwasinaverygoodmood,andIcouldn'tfigureoutwhy.MaybeitwasbecauseI,foronce,hadahappy
memoryaboutEmily,orbecauseIwokeupinheaven.
"Willyoucallmewhenyou'refreeforlunch?"Edwardaskedwhenhedroppedmeoff.
"Sure.SayhitoTanyaforme,"Isaidandgavehimakissonthecheek,whichhereturned.
VolturiPublishingisasmallbookpublishingcompany,buttheyhavehadalotofsuccessovertheyears.Ihad
cometodoaninterviewforabookeditorposition,andIgotitrightthereonthespot.
"Hello,I'mheretoseeMr.Voltouri.I'mIsabellaSwan,"Itoldthereceptionist.Shehadlonggoldenbrownhair
thatshehadputupinaponytail,andstrikinglygreeneyes,almostasbeautifulasEdward's.Almost.
IknewIwasnolongera'Swan,'butIdidn'tthinkIwouldberecognizedasIsabellaCullenhere,yet.
"Yes,he'sexpectingyou.Youcanjustsitdownonthecouchbythewindowandhe'llberighthere."
"Thankyou,"Isaidandwalkedtositdownonthecouchshehadreferredmeto.
"Bella!It'ssogoodtoseeyouagain,"IheardMr.Voltourisayashesteppedintotheroom.
"It'snicetoseeyou,too,Mr.Volturi,"Isaid,gettingupfromthecouch.
"Please,callmeAro."
Tomysurprise,hegavemeahugandakissoneachcheek.
"Letmeshowyouaroundandintroduceyoutoeveryone,"hesaidandstartedwalking.
"First,wehaveGiannawhoisourreceptionistyou'vealreadymether,"hetoldmeandwavedtowardthe
beautifulgirlIhadjustspokenwith.
Therewerealotofpeopleworkingonthisfloor,andIhopedIwouldbeabletorememberthem.Iwouldonly
beworkingfromtheofficeonMondaysandWednesdays,orifIhadsomeimportantmeeting.Itwouldbehard
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torememberthenamesandfaces,buthopefullyIwouldgetthemrightsomeday.
"Andthisisyouroffice,"hetoldmeasheledmeintoasmallroomwithadesk,computer,andanofficechair.
Itwasn'ttoobigornottoosmall,justthewayIlikedit.
Thesignonthedoorread'IsabellaSwan,'andwhenIsawthatIfeltobligatedtotellArothatI'dchangedname.
"Excuseme,Aro.Um,yousee,Igotmarriedafewweeksago,somynameisnolongerIsabellaSwan."
"Really?Iloveweddings!"heexclaimed."Whatshouldthesignsaythen?"
"IsabellaCullen,sir."Icouldn'thelpthe'sir'thatescapedmymouth.
"Cullen?AsinCarlisleCullenandCullen&McCartyPR?"heasked,surprised.
"Yes,Carlisleismyfatherinlaw.ImarriedhissonEdward."HeseemedtoknowabouttheCullenfamily,and
Iwonderedifheknewthempersonally.
"Whatasurprise!CarlisleisaverygoodfriendofminewemetwhilestudyinginItaly.Edwardismygodson."
Greatjustgreat.
"Wow,whatasmallworld,"Isaidnervously.
"Comeon.Wehaveonemorepersontomeet,"Arosaid,thankfullyendingtheconversationabouttheCullens.
Heledmeintotheofficerightnexttominewhereapetitebrunettewithblackglasseswassitting.
"Angela,thisisBella,theneweditor.Bella,thisisAngela,yourassistant,"heintroducedus.
"It'snicetomeetyou,"Itoldher,andextendedmyhandforhertoshake.
"Youtoo."
"I'msurewe'llgetalongverywell."Ismiled.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Chapter9everyone!
Inthelastchapter,manyofyoureactedonEdwardsbehaviorwhilewatchingTV.I
hadareasonfordoingityouseemtothinkheisthisperfectguy,buthesonlyhuman.
Thatwasawaytoshowittoyou.
Igaveoutalotofpreviewslasttime.Thequotewasfrom10thingsIhateaboutyou:
"Well,maybeyou'renotafraidofme,butI'msureyou'vethoughtaboutmenaked,
huh?
AmIthattransparent?Iwantyou,Ineedyou,ohbaby,ohbaby,"
Thequoteinthischapterisfromahilariousmovie,thequoteisntfunny,butthe
movieis.Itsjustasentencethistime,soletsseeifyoucanfindit!
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforgivingmesomeideasforthischapter!
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BPOV
TheweekspassedinablurbothEdwardandIhadalottodoatwork,andwehardlyspentanytimetogether
exceptforsleeping.Ilovedmynewjob,butIhopedeverythingwouldcalmdownonceIgotintoaroutine.My
firstweekhadbeentheworstIhadtocancelontheweeklycoffeewiththegirls.Ididseethemthefollowing
weekthough.
CoffeewithAliceandRosalie
IlookedaroundinthesmallStarbuck'scafandspottedRosaliesittingbyherselfinourusualspot.Iwalked
overtoherafterorderingmyregularcoffee.
"Hey,where'sAlice?"Iasked.
"Shesaidshewouldbeherealittlelater.Thestoreisreallybusytoday,Iguess."
It'snotlikeIdidn'tloveAlice,butthisfactgavemesometimetohearaboutRose'shoneymoon.
"SotellmeaboutHawaii!"
Herwholefacelitupwithexcitementbeforesheanswered,"ItwasgreatjustbeingalonewithEmmettfora
wholeweeknoworkandnostress."
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Shelookedtowardsthedoorasiftoseeifsomeonewascoming."IhavesomethingIwanttotellyou.Ihaven't
toldAliceyetIwantedtotellyoufirst...I'mpregnant."
"What?Ohmy,God.I'msohappyforyou!"Iexclaimed,andwentovertohersideofthetabletogivehera
bighug."Isitlikesomebigsecret,orsomething?"
"No,it'snotthat.I,orEmmettandI,wantedtoaskyouifyouwantedtobethebaby'sGodmother."
Ihadagreed.ItturnedoutthattheyaskedEdwardtobethebaby'sGodfather,soinsixmonthswewillbecome
Godparents.
Alicehadshowedupafewminuteslater,leavingRosalieunabletoquestionmeaboutmybreakdown.Iknew
shehadwantedtobadly,soIhadmadeapromisetotellherlater,andIhad.Shehadfeltguiltyaboutnotbeing
thereforme,butwhenItoldheraboutEdwardsheeasedupalittle.
Alicestillhadn'tsaidsorryforwhatshedidbackinVegas.EventhoughEdwardandIhadbecomefriends,I
stillfoundmyselfbecomingmoredistanttowardsher.Iguesswewerebothwaitingfortheothertocome
around.
EdwardandIhadbecomemuchcloserduringtheseweeksIwasmorecomfortableintellinghimsmallstories
aboutmypast.Justthehappyones,butIstillbelievedthatsomedayIwouldtellhimthewholestory.
OnthedaysthatIworkedfromhome,IspentlunchwithEdward.Itwaseasytofeellonelyotherwise,andit
feltgoodtocomeoutafterspendingseveralhoursinsidetheapartment.
WewerenowonourwaybacktoForks.Thecloserwegot,themorenervousIbecame.Ihadconfessedto
Edwardearlierthismorningabouthowthephonecallwithmydadhadgone.Hewasn'tpleased,butsincehe
haddonesomethingwrongaswell,weforgaveeachotherquickly.
Earlierthismorning
Isteppedintothebathroomtobrushmyteeth.IwasmorecomfortablewithEdwardnowandcouldbrushmy
teethwithhimstillinthebathroom.Hestoodbyhissinkandshaved.SomethingIdidn'tlike,Ilikedhimbest
whenhehadsomestubbleleftIhadn'ttoldhimthatthough.
Maybeit'stimetodothat.
"Whyareyoushaving?"Iaskedhim,takingmytoothbrushfromthestand.
"Um,whatdoyoumean?"
"ExactlywhatIasked."
"Idon'tknow,maybebecauseIdon'twanttohavealongbeardinmyway."
"Yeah,Igetthat,butwhydoyoushaveitalloff?Youcanalwaysleavesome,youknow."
HelookedatmelikeIwasanidiot,andmaybeIwas.
"Areyoutryingtosaysomething?"heasked.
Mycheeksturnedreadthisplandidn'tworkoutexactlyasIplanned.
"Um,no?"Isaid,andstartedbrushingmyteeth.
"Yes,youare.Iknowyouwellenough,andthatblushjustgaveyouaway,baby."
Ifinishedwithbrushingandsaid,"I'mnotblushingandIwasn'ttryingtosaysomething."
Iwentbacktofacingthemirrortoputmyhairupinamessyponytail.That'swhenEdwarddecidedtomake
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hismove.
"Youwilltellme,orelse"
"Orelsewhat,Edward?We'vealreadybeenthroughthis,I'mnotafraidofyouanymore."
"Youmaynotbeafraidofme,butIknowsomeoneelseyou'reafraidof."
Oh,no,hewouldn't!
Heturnedtowardsthemirrorandstartedsaying,"BloodyMary,Bl"
Hedidn'tgetanyfurtherbeforeIrushedoutofthebathroom.
"EdwardAnthonyCullen,youareonesickbastardforpullingthatstunt!"Iyelledfromthebedroom."You're
onyourownnow,Iwon'tcometoyourrescueifsheshowsup,andIsureashellwon'tsleepinthesamebed
asyou!"
"What?Iwasonlyjoking,Bella,"hesaidashesteppedintothebedroom.
"Ha,ha,veryfunny.DoesitlooklikeIenjoyedit?Youarebravethough,forpullingastuntlikethatsixhours
beforemeetingmydad."
"You'rejustaslowasIamforalwayspullingthat'Daddycard'wheneverIfuckup,"hereasoned.
Wehadbeendoingthisalot,himbringingup'BloodyMary'andmebringingupmydadeverytimehedid.He
teasedmeoftenaboutbeingscaredofher,butstillwatchingtheshow.Maybeitwasalittlestrange,butitwas
agoodshowandIhadn'tbeenthatscaredagain.
"I'monlydoingitwhenyou'reanasshole.Besides,youhavenothingtoworryabout."
"Nothingtoworryabout?He'sanangrymanwithagun,Bella!"
"Yeah,buthewasn'tangrywhenIspoketohim,justdisappointed."
"What?"
Whoops!
Helookedatmewithadeterminedlookinhiseyes.Iknewwhathewasgoingtodoevenbeforehedidit,but
hestillgotmeonmybackonthebedwithhimontop,ticklingmysides.
"Edwaaard,stop!"Itriedtosaybetweenlaughs."Ican'tbreathe."
"Tellmeyou'resorryfornottellingme,andthentellmewhatyouwerethinkinginthebathroom,"hesaid,and
continuedwiththetickling.
"Fine,fine!Juststopforasecond."Hedid,buthedidn'tgetoffme.
"I'msorryIshouldhavetoldyouaboutmydad.Nowsayyou'resorryabout'BloodyMary'andI'lltellyou
whatIwasthinkingearlier."
"I'msorry,nowtellme!"
"Youlookmuchhotterwithalittlestubbleonyourchinandcheeks,"Iblurtedout,andburiedmyfaceinmy
hands.
EPOV
BellaseemedlostinthoughtduringourtripbacktoForks.Ihadafeelingthatthistripwouldinvolvesomebig
changesinourrelationship.
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Wehaddecidedthatwewouldstayatmyparent'shouse.CharliewouldbehelpingJacob'sdadwiththe
wedding,andwouldn'tbehomemuchanyway.Mymomwasthrilledthatwewerespendingtheweekendhere.
TheweddingwasgoingtobeheldonSunday,sowehadSaturdaytoourselves.
IwasnervousashelltomeetCharlie,butwhatBellahadsaidearliertodaymademerelaxalittle.
"IthinkIneedtotellyousomething,"Bellasaidquietly.
"Whatisit?IstheresomethingelseIneedtoknowaboutyourdad?"
"No,thisisnotaboutmydad.It'saboutJake."
NowIwasstartingtoworry.WhatifthisJakeissomeonesheusedtohaveacrushonorsomething?
Jacobhadactuallycalledmeafewweeksago.
PhonecallwithJacob
Ifeltmyphonevibrateinmypocket.Bellawasworkingfromhometoday,soIwashopingitwouldbeher
needingsomecompany.
WhenIlookeddownatthedisplayIdidn'trecognizethenumber.AtfirstIwashesitantifIshouldansweror
not,butthendecidedImightaswell.
"Hello?"
"Um,IthinkI'vecalledthewrongnumber.I'mlookingforBellaSwan,"amale'svoicesaid.
"Whoisthis?"
"I'mJake.Bellacalledmefromthisnumber,soIassumeditwasherphone.I'msorry."
ThenIrememberedthatBellahadusedmyphonetocallhim,justsoshewouldn'thavetotalktohim.
"Yeah,shedid.Listen,Bellaisn'thererightnow.Doyouwantmetotakeamessageorsomething?"Iasked,
tryingtobepolite.
"No,it'sfine.I'lljusttalktoheranothertime.Bye,"hesaid,andhungup.
Isatthere,staringatmyphone,wonderingifIshouldtellBellathathedidcall.
"WhataboutJacob?"Iaskedher.
"Haveyoumethimbefore?Doyouknowwhoheis?"
"No,Idon'tthinkso,"Ianswered.
"Howcomeyou'veneveraskedme,then?"IjustshruggedmyshouldersbecauseIdidn'thaveananswerto
that.
"JakeistheguyyousawthatdaywhenIwascryingbackinhighschool."
What?
"AreyoutellingmethatJakeistheguyIlostyouto?"
"No,Edward,youcan'tlosesomethingyouneverhad."
"Yeah,butstill,wereyoutwoinlove?"Iasked,beforeIhadthechancetothinkaboutwhatIjustsaid.
"I'vealreadytoldyouthatI'veneverhadaboyfriend,remember?"
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"Youcouldhavebeeninloveanyway.Comeon,baby.Youneedtostartgivingmesomeanswershere,"I
pleaded.
"No,Idon't,"shesaid,andpulledoffherflipflops,sothatshecouldputherfeetontheseat.
Shehadbecomesosmallduringtheselastcoupleofweeks.IknewsheatebecauseIatewithhermostofthe
time,butitstillmademeworry.Itwastheonlysign,apartfromhereyes,thatshowedsomethingwasn'tright.
Shehadputonagoodcharadetotheoutsideworld,butIknewbetter.
IpulledupandparkednexttoCharlie'spolicecruiser,justanotherreminderthatthisguyhasagun.Istopped
thecarandgrabbedthesteeringwheelhard.
"Edward,it'sokay.IpromiseI'llprotectyou,andit'sjustforafewminutesanyway."
Inoddedmyheadandletgoofthewheel.Itwasjustlikeshesaid,andthenwewouldgotomyparents,which
wereslightlymorecomfortable.
"Thesamestorywetoldyourparents,remember?"Bellaasked,aswemadeituptothefrontdoor.
"Yeah,Iremember.Heregoesnothing,"Isaid,andknockedonthedoor.
"Bella!"Charlieyelled,andpulledherintoatighthug."It'sgoodtohaveyouhome."
"I'mhappytoseeyou,too,dad."
Charliereleasedherandtookagoodlookather.Icouldseethedisapprovalonhisface,buthedidn'tsay
anything,whichwasabigsurprise.Thenheavertedhiseyesontome.
"Dad,thisisEdward.Edward,thisismydadCharlie."
"It'snicetoseeyouagain,ChiefSwan,"Isaid.
"Edward,"hegruntedinresponse.
Thisisgoinggood,Ithoughtsarcastically.
"CanIgetyouanythingtodrink?"heasked.
"No,thankyou,"bothBellaandIsaid.
BellaandIsatdownonthecouch,andCharliesatintherecliner.Therewasanawkwardsilencebeforehe
spoke.
"So,Edward,whatdoyoudoforaliving?"
"Irunacompanywithmycousin,Cullen&McCartyPR."
"Soyouworkwithadvertising,then?"
"Yes,sir.WehelpcompaniesthatneedhelpwiththeirPR."
RightthemBella'sphonevibratedbetweenus.IsawonthedisplaythatitwasRosaliewhocalled.ThatmeantI
wouldbeleftalonewithCharliewhileBellaansweredherphone.ShenevermissedacallfromRosaliesince
wefoundoutshewaspregnant.
"I'msosorry,Ineedtotakethis,"shesaid,andshotmeanapologeticglancebeforegoingupthestairs.
"Edward,"Charlie'svoicebroughtmyattentionbacktohim,"Ihaven'tseenBellathisaliveforyears,shehas
beenashelloverthepastcoupleofyears.Ifyoudoanythingthatmakesherpullbackagain,Iwillhurtyou
myself,understood?"
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"Yes,sir,"Isaid,andgulpedbecauseIknewthathewascompletelyserious.
"Good,it'smybabygirlandIdon'twanttoseeherlikethateveragain."
"Iunderstand,sir.Idon'twantthateither."Henoddedhishead.
Wesatinsilenceforafewminutes.WecouldhearBella'svoicefromupstairs,butIcouldn'tmakeoutthe
words.
"Whydidyoumarrymydaughter,Edward?"heasked.
"BecauseIloveher,"Isaidsimply.
Wait,what?DoIreallyloveher?
Yes.
Hedidn'tsayanything,justnoddedandturnedontheTVtowatchsomebaseball.
BPOV
IhatedtoleaveEdwarddownstairsalonewithmydad,butIcouldn'tignoreRose'scall,itcouldbeimportant.
"Hi,Rose!"Ianswered,andwentintomyoldbedroom.
"Bella,whereareyou?Iwentbyyourapartment,butthesecurityguytoldmeyouweregonefortheweekend."
"I'minForksthisweekend,remember?"Iasked,andsatdownonthebed.
"Shit,I'msosorry,Bella!Icompletelyforgotthatitwasthisweekend."
"It'sokay.Wastheresomethingyouneeded?"
"Iwasjustwonderingwhatyouwantedtodoforyourbirthday."
That'srightmybirthdaywascominguponMonday.
"Idon'tknow,Rose.Maybewegirlscouldjusthangoutandthenlateronwecouldgoouttodinnerwiththe
guys?"
Ididn'twantanythingbig.I'msureIwouldbeexhaustedafterthisweekend,andIworkedfromtheofficeon
Mondayswhichwouldonlymakemeevenmoretired.
"Soundsgoodtome,I'llletAliceknowandthenI'llcallyouonMonday,orsomething."
"Thanks,Ishouldprobablyheadbackdownstairs.Edwardisalonewithmydadrightnow."
"WhatIwouldn'tdotoseethat!How'sitgoing?"sheasked,laughing.
"It'sreallytense,"Isaid,andcouldn'thidemygiggle.
"Okay,gosavehim.I'lltalktoyousomeothertime.Iloveyou!"
"Iloveyou,too,"Isaid,andhungup.
Istoodinthemiddleofmyroomandlookedaround.ItlookedexactlythesameasitdidwhenIwasheretwo
yearsago.Thephotoswerestillhangingonthewall,thebedsheetswerestillthesamenothinghadchanged.
Isteppedovertomymirror,wherephotosofme,Emily,Sam,LeahandJakewerehanging.Itookaphotoof
meandEmilywelookedsohappy.Itwastakenthesummerbeforeshediedwewereatourspotonthecliffs.
Wehadourarmsaroundeachother'sshouldersandsmiledintothecamera.
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IlookedatmyselfinthemirrorIdidn'tlooklikethegirlinthephoto.Ihadchangedsomuchsincethen.
Therewasasoftknockonthedoor,soIputthephotobackintoitsplaceandturnedaround.
"Hey,baby.Ithoughtyouhadfallenasleeporsomething,"Edwardjoked.
"I'msorryIleftyoudownthere.Ijustgotstuckuphere,"Isaid,andsteppedforwardtogivehimahug.
Hehuggedmebackandsaid,"Itsokay.Yourdadhastogetbacktowork,soareyoureadytofacethein
laws?"
"Yeah,butatleastI'vemetthembefore."
WewalkedbackdownstairswhereCharliewasnowputtingonhisgunbelt.IcouldfeelEdwardtenseup
besidemeandhadtostiflemylaugh.
"Bye,Dad.Iloveyou,"Isaid,andgavehimahug.
"Iloveyou,too,Bells.I'llseeyouattheweddingtomorrow."
"Yeah."
EPOV
"WhatdidRosewantwhenshecalled?"Iaskedonourwayovertomyparents.
"ShewantedtoknowwhatIwantedtodoformybirthday."
"Whatdidyousay?"
"ThatIwantedtohangaroundandmaybegooutfordinner,justsomethingquiet."
"Okay,"Isaid,andputthecarintopark.
WewalkedinsideIdidn'tbotherknockingtheyknewwewerecominganyway.
"Mom,I'mhome!"Iyelled.
"Oh,Edward,I'msohappyyou'rehome,"Momsaid,asshecameoutfromthekitchenandgavemeahug.
"Andyou,too,Bella!"
"It'sgoodtoseeyouboth,"Dadsaid,andshookmyhandandkissedBella'scheek.
IledBellaupthestairstomyroom,sothatwecouldputourbagsthere.Mymomhadn'tmadeanybigchanges
inheresinceIleftforcollege.Shehadonlychangedthesheets,butotherthanthat,itlookedalmostthesame.It
feltsmallerthough.
"So,thisismyoldroom,"Isaid,puttingourbagsonthebed.
"Interesting,"Bellasaid,andwalkedaround.
Ican'tbelieveshewasactuallyhereafterallthoseyearsIhaddreamtofhavingherhere,andinmybed.I
wouldn'tseethatuntiltonightthough,ifIwaslucky.Shehadsaidthismorningthatshewouldn'tsleepinthe
samebedasme.
"Edward,canItalkwithyouforaminute?"Dadaskedwhenwegotbackdownstairs.
IlookedatBellatoseeifshewasokaywithbeingalonewithmymom.Shenoddedherheadandgavemea
smile,soIguessshewas.
"What'sup?"Iasked,andclosedthedoortohisofficebehindme.
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"HavetherebeenanyproblemswithBellasincelasttime?"heaskedcarefully.
Iknewthiswascoming,hehadseenher,too.Shedidn'tlookhealthy,soofcoursemydadwouldreact.
"Iknowwhatitlookslike,butI'veseenhereat.Shedoesn'teatmuch,butshe'seating.Therehaven'tbeenany
morebreakdownsshehasactuallybeenlettingmeinmoreandmore.ShetellsmeshortstoriesaboutEmily,
nothingaboutwhathappened,butshe'sstartingtoopenuptome."
"Okay,that'sgood.Youhavetogethertoeatmorethoughtherecouldbesomeseriousdamagesifshe
doesn't."
"Iknow,I'mtrying,dad.Ireallyam."
"I'msureyouare,son.Maybeweshouldheadbacktotheladies,"hesaid,andgotup.
"Dad,canyoupromisethatyou'llleaveBellaalonethisweekend?Itwillbehardenoughforher."
"Fine,I'llleaveitalone,butifshecomestomeIwon't."
"Fairenough."
IdoubtedthatBellawouldaskforhelp,especiallythisweekend.Evenifshedid,Idon'tthinkshewouldgoto
mydad.
WhenwegotbacktothekitchenBellaandmymomhadalreadysetthetable.
"Itsmellsdelicious,Mom,"Isaid,andkissedhercheekbeforesittingdownnexttoBella.
"Sohowisyournewjob,Bella?"mydadasked.
"It'sgreat.Alottodorightnow,butIreallylikeit."
"Doyougettoreadanygoodmanuscripts?"
"Yeah,sometimes,it'smorebadonesthangood,butitdoeshappen."
Conversationflowedeasythroughoutlunch.IcaughtmydadstaringatBellapickingherfood.Shetookher
time,buteventuallyshehadeateneverythingonherplate.
"Doyouwantmetohelpyoucleanup,Esme?"Bellaasked.
"No,dear,I'vegotit.Youkidsshouldgooutandenjoythisfantasticweather.Wehaven'thadthiskindofheat
inalongtimeitwouldbeashametowasteit."
"Comeon,Iknowsomethingwecando,"Isaid,anddraggedBellaupthestairsandintomyroom.
"Putonyourbikiniandmeetmedownstairswhenyou'redone,"Itoldher.
"Edward,Ididn'tpackabikini."
"No,butIdiditforyou,"Ismirked.
Igrabbedmyswimtrunksandwenttotheguestroomtochange.AfterIwasdoneIwentbackdownstairs.
"So,whatareyouguysdoingthisafternoon?"Momasked.
"We'rehangingbythepool,"Itoldher.
Bellacamedownthestairsbeforemomgotthechancetoreply.Shelookedabsolutelyamazinginherblack
bikinithathadawhitepatternonit.IgaveherabighugandliftedherupalittlesoIcouldreachherear.
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"Youlookbeautiful,Bella,"Iwhispered."Areyouready?"
Shenoddedherhead.Iledheroutsidetoourbackyardwherethepoolwaslocated.Ihadplansontakingher
foraswim,orsomethingsheneededtogetoverherfearofthewater.
"Whatarewedoingbythepool?"sheasked.
"We'retakingaswim."Isawthefearinhereyeswhensheheardmyplans."Don'tworry,we'lltakeitslowand
stopifyoureallycan'tdoit,okay?"
Shenoddedherhead.Idoveintothewateratthedeependandswambacktowhereshewasstanding.
"Sitdownandjustputyourfeetdownintothewater,"Itoldher.Shedidsoverycarefully.
IstoodinthepoolsothatIwasstandingbetweenherlegs,andsheautomaticallywrappedthemaroundmy
waist.
"Baby,thewholepointindoingthisissothatyoucancomeinthewaterwithme,soyouneedtoputyourlegs
down,"Isaid,andmassagedherthighs.
"Okay,I'msorry."
Wecontinuedlikethatformaybethirtyminutes,justenjoyingeachother'scompanyandthewarmweather.She
seemedtorelaxalittlemoreastimewentby.
"Areyouokaywithcomingdownintothewaternow?Thedrainisbythedeepend,sowecouldstayright
here."
"Icantry,justdon'tletgoofme!"
Ichuckled.TherewasnowayIwouldletgo,andwebothknewit.Sheeventuallycamedownandwrapped
herarmstightlyaroundmyneck.Westayedlikethatforawhilebeforesherelaxedandeasedhergriponme
slightly.
"I'mtakingabathinapool,"shesaid,amazed.
"Yes,youare."Ikissedhernoseandsmiledather.Shewassocuteandhappyaboutdoingsomethingsimple
asthis.
Afterawhilesheletgoofmyneckandbentbackwards,floatingonthesurfaceofthewater.Herlegswerestill
tightlywrappedaroundme.Sheclosedhereyesherhairwaslikeadarkhaloaroundherheadandherarms
wereextended.Shelookedlikeanangel,justlikeshedidatEmmettandRosalie'swedding.
SeeingherlikethisalsoremindedmeofsexshelookedlikewhatIimagineshewouldafteranorgasm.Itmade
mehard,andIhadtoshiftBellaalittlesothatshewouldn'tnoticeit.
Whenshecamebackupafterafewminutes,sheaccidentallybrushedagainstmyhardon.Amoanescapedmy
lipsatthesensation.Judgingbythe'O'thatherlipsformed,shenoticedwhatshehaddone.
"I'msorry,"shesaid,andblushed.
"It'sokay,maybeweshouldgetoutsothatwecangetreadyfordinner?"
"Okay."
Awkward.
Iwalkedhertothestairsandgotoutafterher.AssoonasIwasupIwrappedatowelaroundmywaisttohide
myarousal.
Wequietlymadeourwayupthestairstoshower,IletherusemybathroomandIusedtheguestroomonce
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again.
WhenIwasdoneIrealizedIhadforgottenmyclothesbackinmyroom.Igentlypushedmybedroomdoor
open,hopingIwouldn'twalkinonherorsomethingtomakeoursituationevenmoreawkward.
Luckilyformesheseemedtostillbeintheshower,soIwentovertomybagandpickedoutapairofdark
jeans,agreytshirt,andablackandwhiteshirt.
JustasIfinisheddressing,Bellasteppedoutofthebathroom.Shehadonapairofbluejeansandsomesortof
bluetunicwithsomethingwhiteonit.Shelookedbeautifulasusual.
"Look,Bella.I'mreallysorryaboutbefore"Istarted.
"No,no.It'sokay,thingslikethathappen.Justletitgo,okay?"Inoddedmyheadinresponse.Ifshewas
willingtoletitgo,Iwasn'tabouttoargue.
Dinnerwentbyinthesamemanneraslunchhad,conversationwaseasy.BellaandIwerenowsittingonthe
couch,watchingsomelameshowonMTV.Thingswerestillprettyawkwardbetweenus,andwedidn'tsit
cuddledclosetogetherlikeweusuallydid.
"Can'twedosomething?"Bellaasked,afteraboutanhour."Weactlikewe'resixtyinsteadoftwentyfour.I
didsomethingbigtodayIswaminapool,somethingIhaven'tdoneinyears.Solet'sdosomething!"
"Whatdidyouhaveinmind?"
"Idon'tknow,whatdidyouusedtodoontheweekendsinhighschool?"
WasIreallyupforthis?
"Um,Icanshowyou,butitinvolvesbooze,"Isaid,hesitantly.
"That'sevenbetter!Comeon,let'sgotothestoreandgetsome,"Bellasaid,andjumpedupfromthecouch.
ThisistheBellaIhadmetinVegas.Ihadn'tseenhersincethen,soIwasjustasexcitedasher.
IdroveusquicklytotheonlyThriftstoreinForks.
"I'mjustgoingtogetsomething,"Bellasaid,andwalkedoffintothestore.Iwenttogettheliquorandsome
cigarettes.
"Well,well,well.Lookwhothecatdraggedin,"Iheardafamiliarvoicesaybehindme.
IslowlyturnedaroundandfoundJessicastandingtherewithherarmscrossedoverherchest.Iwishedmore
thananythingthatBellawouldhurryupwithwhatevershewenttoget.
"Hello,Jessica,"Isaidcurtly.
"Ifitisn'tEdwardCullen,finallycominghomefromthebigcity,"shesaid,smirking.
"I'mnotcominghomeI'mhereforawedding."
"Honey,arethesethecondomsyouwerelookingfor,"Bellasaid,showingmeaboxofcondomsandcircled
herarmsaroundmywaist.
Istoodthereshockedforafewsecondsbeforerecovering.
"They'lldue,thankyou,baby,"Isaid,andkissedthecornerofhermouth
WhowouldhavethoughtBellawoulddosomethinglikethis?
"ItlookslikeForkshasbeenfeedingyouwell,Jessica,"Bellasaid.
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"Areyoublind?I'mpregnant!"Jessicasneered."Andwhothehellareyou?"
"Oh,I'mIsabellaCullen,butyoucancallmeBella."
"Jessica,thisismywife,"Isaidcalmly.
"HowdidyouknowwhoIwas?Ineversaidmyname,"Jessicasaid.
"Whodoesn't?You'rethegirlinhighschoolwhoflirtedwitheveryguyinschool,andprobablyspreadherlegs
forthemaswell.Thenyouwinduppregnantbyalocalloser,andyoubothgetstuckwithakidinasmall
town.Ontopofthat,youlostthemostwantedguy,EdwardCullenhimself,tothegirlwhowasknownas'The
Nobody'.DoesthenameIsabellaSwanringanybells?"Jessicastoodtherewithhermouthopeninshockas
Bellatalked."You'retheclich."
Fuck,thisishot!
"Areyoureadytogo,Edward?I'mstartingtogetalittletired,"Bellasaid,pointingtotheboxofcondomsin
myhand.
"Yeah,sure,letmejustgrabafewthingsfirst,"Itoldher."Itwasgoodtoseeyou,Jessica,butIhave
somethingIneedtodonow.Soifyou'llexcuseus."
Ithrewtheboxofcondomsupintheair,andcatchingthem.Justtoprovemypoint.
Iputthethingsinthebasket,andthat'swhenIsawwhatBellahadgonetoget.
"Really,Bella,Harlequin?"
"What'swrongwiththat?"sheasked.
"It'spracticallyporn,baby,"Istated.
"So,what?Agirlcan'treadporn,butit'scompletelyokayforaguytowatchit?"sheasked,andputherhands
onherhips.
"No,Ididn'tmeanitlikethat"
WhatdidImean?ThatIwasjealousofthosebooks?
"Whatever,let'sgo,"shesaid.
Weproceedtothecheckout.IwonderedifIshouldtossthecondomsonsomerandomshelforsomething.I
didn'tgetthechancethough,beforeBellaspoke.
"Edward,youneedtogivethethingstothecashiersowecanpay."
IgavethegirlthethingsIwascarryingthevodka,thecigarettesandeventhecondoms.Shelookedatme
seductivelythroughherlashesitbotheredmethatshehadthenervetoflirtwithmewhenitwasclearthatIwas
herewithBella.
Igaveherthemoneysherequestedandgrabbedourstuff.Bellacouldn'thidehergigglewhenwegotoutside.
Thegigglethenturnedintoafulloutlaugh.IguesseditwasJessicathatmadeherfeellikethis.
"Ohmy,God!Thatfeltgood!"Bellascreamedaswemadeittothecar.
"Yeah,didyouseethelookonherface?"Itriedtosaybetweenmylaughter.
"HowcouldIhavemissedit?"Bellasmirked.
Itwasobviousthatshewasproudofherself,andsheshouldbe.
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Wewerestilllaughingwhenwegothome.Ihadtotellhertobequietsowedidn'tcatchmyparent'sattention.I
didn'twanttoexplainwhywehadgonetothestoretogetliquor.
"So,areyoureadyforthis?"Iaskedherwhenwegottomyroom.
"Yes!"sheexclaimed,andhoppedupontomybed.
"Okay,sohere'sthedeal.Wearegoingtoplaypoker.Whenyoulose,you'llremoveapieceofyourclothing,
andthendrinkoneshotofthis"Iheldupthebottleofvodka"andthentheotheronegetstoaskyou
whateverheorshewants.Anyquestions?"
"That'snotfair,youhavealotmoreclothesonthanIhave,andyoucanhandleyouralcoholbetterthanme.
Plus,Idon'tknowhowtoplaypoker,"shesaid,andshruggedhershoulders.
"Nothinginthisworldisfair,baby,"Ismirked."Doyouknow'GoFish',then?"Ididn'twanttoexplainhowto
playpoker,whichwouldtakeallnight.
"Whodoesn't?"
Ijoinedheronthebedandhandedoutthecards.IwonthefirstroundshehadtheworstpokerfaceIhadever
seen,soIknewwhenshegotacardIhadrequestedearlier.
"Okay,givemeashotofthevodka,"shesaid.
"Removesomethingfirst,"Ismirked.
"Fine,"shehuffed,andremovedhertunic.Sadlyshehadatanktopunderit.
"Happy?"
"Notyet,butIwillbeafterafewrounds,"Isaid,wagglingmyeyebrows.
Ihandedherashotofvodka,butsheonlydrankhalfofit.
"I'mhalfyoursizeandyoucanhandlethealcoholalotbetter,soit'sonlyfair,"shesaid,beforeIhadthe
chancetoargue.
"Fine,nowtellmewhyyouwantedthoseHarlequinbooks!"
Thisshouldbeinteresting.
"Ienjoyreadingthem,that'sall."
"No,tellmetheexactreasonwhyyouboughtthem."Icouldtellfromherblushthattherewasmoretoitthan
justenjoyingthereading.
"BecauseI'mcurious,okay?"
"Curiousaboutwhat?Thesex?"Iteased.Iknewtheanswertothatalready.
"Yes,istheresomethingwrongwiththat?"
"No,notatall.It'sjusteasiertogoonlinethantoreadawholebook,"Ismirked.
"Well,itdoesn'tfeelsodirtytoreadabook."Ijustlaughedandgaveoutthecardsforroundtwo.
Thistimeshewon,butitwasonlybecauseofluck.Wewereevenduringthewholegame,butthenshegotthe
lastcardfromthepileonthebed.
Ihadmysockson,soItookoneofthemoff.
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"Nuuh,thosecountsasonetogether,"Bellaargued.
"No,theydon't!"
"Yes,theydo.Idon'thaveanysockson,sotobefair,yoursshouldcountasone."
Itwaslikeplayingwithafiveyearoldeverythinghadtobefair.Isighedandremovedtheothersockaswell,
andthenItookafullshotofvodka.
"Earlierinthepoolwereyouattractedofme,orwasitsomethingelseIfelt?"shesmirked.Sheknewthe
answer,butshewantedtohearit.
"I'malwaysattractedtoyou,baby,"Istated."Itwasjustthefirsttimethatyouactuallynoticedit.I'mpretty
goodathidingit"
"Oh."
"Yeah,readyforroundthree?"Iasked,andhandedoutthecards.
"Bringiton!"
Iwonthisround.She'ssuchabadloserthough.
"Howcomeyouwinallthetime?"sheaskedloudly,andtookoffherjeans.
"Youhaveabadpokerface,baby,that'swhy,"Ismirked.
"Wedon'tplaypoker,sowhydoIhavetohaveagoodpokerface?"
Icouldn'ttellifshewasjokingornot.ShelookedsoseriousthatIfiguredshehonestlydidn'tknow.
"It'sjustsomethingyousaywhenyouplaygames.Nevermind."
Shedranktherestofhervodkaandwaitedformetoaskheraquestion.
"Haveyoueverhadanorgasm?"Iasked,thinkingaboutearlierwhenwewereinthepool.
"What?"shesqueakedout,andturnedbeatred.
"Youheardme,"Ichallenged.
"No."
"No,what?You'veneverhadanorgasm,ornoyoudidn'thearme?"
"No,I'veneverhadone."
"Well,haveyoutried?"Sheshookherhead."Soyou'retellingmethatyourcuriousaboutsex,butyouhaven't
eventriedtopleasureyourself?"
"Exactly,nowhandoutthecards!"
Ididasshesaid.WeplayedafewmoreroundsIcouldtellbyherquestionsthatshegotbraverthemoredrinks
shehad.Ihadjustlostyetanotherroundandtookoffmytshirt,thendownedmyshot.WhenIlookedatherI
couldseeherlickingherlipslikeshehadseensomethingshewantedtoeat.Ittookeverythinginmypowernot
tolaughather.
"Whatdoyouthinkaboutwhenyouyouknow?"sheasked,andwavedherhandinfrontofher.
"No,Bella,Idon'tknow.Youhavetotellme."
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"Whenyoumasturbate,orwhateveritisyoucallit,"sheclarified.
"Oh,youwanttoknowwhatIthinkaboutwhenIjackoff?"Shenoddedherheadshyly."That'seasyIthink
ofyou."
"What?"sheasked,andlookeddownatherbody.Shestillhadherbraandpantieson.
"You'rehot.Iwouldbeanidiotfornotthinkingaboutmywife."
SheblushedandIdecidedtoenditthere.Ihandedoutthelastround,whichshelost.Igaveherapillowsothat
shecouldcoverherselfup.EvenifIdidwanttoseehertits,Iwantedhertobecomfortable.
Thistimeshedrankthewholeshotandgrimaced.Sheclutchedthepillowtighttoherchestandwaited.
"Tellmeaboutoneofyoursexfantasies?"
"Idon'tknow.Iwanttokisssomeoneintherain,"shesaid,andshruggedhershoulders.
"That'sit?Youdon'thavesomedarkfantasyaboutfucking?"
"No,becauseIdon'tknowwhatfucking,asyousonicelyputit,wouldfeellike.So,no,Idon'thaveone."
"Well,howwouldyoulikeyourfirsttimetobe,then?"Itried.
Shethoughtaboutitforafewminutes,andthenanswered,"Aslongasitisn'tclichwithcandlesandromantic
music,Idon'treallycare.IwantittohappenwhenithappensitcouldbeonthecouchforallIcare,oronthe
kitchencounter."
What?Ithoughteverygirlwantedtheclich.
"Trustme,youdon'twanttoloseyourvirginityonthekitchencounter,"Isaid.
"Whynot?Wheredidyouloseyourvirginity?"
"Rightwhereyou'resitting,"Ijoked.
Shejumpeduplikeshehadbeenhitbylighteningandlookeddownatthespotwithadisgustedface.
"Baby,relax.Iwasonlykidding.I'veneverhadsexinthisbed.Now,comebackhere."Isaid,andpattedthe
spotnexttome.
"Wheredidyouloseit,then?"sheasked,andclimbedbackontothebed.
"IlostitinmyoldcarintheparkinglotatForksHigh.IwouldtakeitbackifIcould,butIcan't."
"Wow,Iwouldneverhaveguessed.So,wasitwithsomeoneIknow?"
Iwishedshehadn'taskedthatquestion.ItwassomethingIwasashamedof.
"Jessica,"Iadmitted.
"Oh,please!Ineedanotherdrink,"shesaid,andpouredherselfanothershot,andthenanother.
BPOV
Iwokeuptoaterribleheadachethenextmorning.IgroanedandturnedaroundsothatIwaslyingflatonmy
stomach.Istretchedmyarmsout,searchingforEdward,buthissideofthebedwasempty.
ThebathroomdooropenedandEdwardcameoutwhistlingatunethatdrovemeinsane.
"Pleasestop,myheadhurts,"Isaid,andlookedathim.
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Hewasbeyondgorgeous.Thetowelhewaswearingwashanginglowonhiships,revealingtheperfect'V'.
Hishairwasasusualmessy,butwet.LookingatEdwardallwetmademerememberyesterdayatthepooland
Ifeltmycheeksturnred.
Hecontinuedwhistlinglikehehadn'theardme,soIreachedoutforapillowtocovermyheadwith.
"Whyareyousocheerytoday?"Imumbled.
"I'mexcited.Here,drinkthisandtakethesepills,andmaybeyou'llbecomejustascheeryasIam,"hesaid,and
handedmeaglassofwaterandsomewhitepills.
Itriedtogetupandthat'swhenIrealizedIwasnaked.Thiswasstartingtolookmoreandmorelikethe
morningIhadinVegastwomonthsago.
"I'mnaked,"Isqueakedout,andtriedtocovermyself.
"No,you'renot.Youstillhaveyourpantieson."
"ThankGodforsmallmiracles."
OnceIwasshoweredandshavedIputonapairofshortsandatanktop.Itwasstillafewhoursbeforethe
wedding,sowehadsometimetogooutforbreakfast.
WhenwegotdownstairsInoticedthatthehousewasempty.
"Where'sCarlisleandEsme?"Iasked.
"Theyhadsomethingtotakecareofthismorning.Theyshouldbehomebeforeweleavetonight."
Iwasstillfeelinghangover,soIonlygotcoffeeandabagelforbreakfast.IthinkIwasnervousaboutseeing
Jake,LeahandSamagainaswell.
EdwardandItookashortwalkbeforegoingbacktohishousetogetreadyforthewedding.Ihadbroughtthe
dressIhadwornatAlice'swedding.Itwasapinkkneelengthonewithtwostrapsformingacrossonmybare
back.Itamazedmethatitstillfitafterawholeyear,butitdid.
Ihadputmyhairupinaloosebun.Iwasn'taproatfixingmyhair,butIwaspleasedwiththeresult.Sincethe
weddingwassupposetobeonthebeach,Ihadonapairofsimplewhitesandalsthatwentwellwithmydress.
Edwardlookedamazingasusualinhisblackslacksandwhitebuttonupwiththesleevesrolleduptohis
elbows.Todayhealsohadonablacktie,whichmadehimlookevenmoregorgeousthanhenormallydid.He
hadn'tshavedthismorningandIcouldn'thidemysmile,hehadactuallylistenedtowhatIsaid.
"Stopfidgeting,it'sgoingtobeokay.Theyarelongingtoseeyou,Bella."
"Iknowtheyare,it'sjustthisplaceitholdstoomanymemories."
"I'llberightbesideyou,baby.I'mnotgoinganywhere."
WewereparkedbythebeachIcouldseeallthepeoplefromhere.Theceremonywouldstartinjustafew
minutes,soIknewIneededtogetdownthere.
"Okay,let'sdothis,"Isaid,andopenedthedoor.
Wewalkeddownthestepstothebeach.TherewereafewseatsinthebackthatIchose.Iwouldn'tbenoticed
soeasilyifIsatattheback.
Jakestoodupthen,tostandinfrontofeveryone.HelookedalmostthesameasthelasttimeIhadseenhim.He
hadshorterhair,buthewasstillthesameguyIhadleftbehindme.
IfeltapangofguiltinmychestwhenIsawhim.IshouldhavecalledhimbackthedayEdwardsaidhecalled.
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Itwasjustsohard.
Themusicstartedtoplay,andwestoodupandwatchedasLeahmadeherentrance.Edwardmusthavefeltmy
discomfortandtookmyhand.Isqueezedhishard.
Leahlookedstunning.ShehadasimilardresstoRosalie,itwaslosefittingwithabandjustbelowthebreasts.It
wasbeingheldupbytwostrapsthatbothbeganononeside,butpartedaroundherneck.
Shesawmeasshewalkedpast,andahugesmilespreadacrossherface.Ismiledbackandgaveherasmall
wave.
TheceremonywentonIhadtolookawaythistimetoo,astheykissed.Edwardbroughtmeclosertohimand
kissedmytempleasIlookedaway.Heknewmesowellalready,andwehadonlyknowneachotherfortwo
months.
AsJakeandLeahmadetheirwaybackdowntheaisle,LeahpointedtowardsmeandJakelookedrightatme.
Atfirsthelookedconfused,butthenahugesmilespreadacrosshisfaceaswell.
"Areyoureadytofacethem?"Edwardasked,andstoodup.
"It'snotlikeIhaveachoice,"Isaid,andtookhishand.
"Bella!Ican'tbelieveyouactuallycame!"Jakeyelled,andpickedmeupforahug.
ThisactionmademereleaseEdward'shandandtheonlycomfortIhad.
"I'msorryIdidn'tcallyouback,"Isaid,andhuggedhimback.
"Don'tworryaboutit.Iknowhowhardthisisforyou.I'mjusthappyyoumadeit."
OncehereleasedmeIreachedoutforEdward'shandagain."Jake,thisismyhusbandEdward.Edward,thisis
Jake,anoldfriendofmine."
"Iknowwhoyouare.You'retheguythatwasalwaysonBella'scaseinhighschool."
Iknewthiswouldhappen.Ihadn'thadthechancetowarnEdwardeither.Hedidn'tdeservethishehadn'tbeen
anythingbutgoodtomethesepasttwomonths.
"Jake,"Isaidinawarningtone,"thingshavechangedsincethen.So,Iwantyoutomeetmyhusband
Edward."
"Nicetomeetyou,Jacob,"Edwardsaid,andextendedhishandforJaketoshake.
"Likewise,"Jakesaid,andshookEdward'shand.Icouldtellneitherofthemmeantit,butatleasttheywere
civiltoeachother.
"Comeon,let'smeettherest,"Jakesaid,andwalkedofftowardsthereceptionarea.
"I'msosorry,Edward.Ithoughthewouldhaveforgotten,orsomething."
"It'sokay,thankyouforstandingupforme,"hesaid,andkissedmycheekbeforefollowingJake.
"Ifitisn'tlittleBells!"IheardSamsaybeforepullingmeintoahug.
"It'sgoodtoseeyou,Sam."
"You,too.Andwhoisthisguy?"
"Sam,thisismyhusbandEdward.Edward,thisisSamwhoalsoisanoldfriendofmine."
IhopedIwouldn'thavetointroducehimtoeveryone.Itwasgettingoldtosaythesamesentenceoverandover.
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"Nicetomeetyou,"Samsaid,andshookEdward'shand.Atleasthehadthedecencytoplaynice.
"Youlookdifferentbutamazing,Bella,"Leahsaid.
"Thankyou.Youlookabsolutelystunningtoday.IwishEmilycouldhavebeenheretoseeit,shewouldhave
beensoproud."
"Me,too,honey."Igaveherabighug.Iwasn'ttheonlyonewhohadahardtimetoday.Leahhadlosther
sister.
EdwardwenttogetussomefoodwhileIgrabbedsomeseats.Ihadbeensittingthereforaminuteortwowhen
mydadshowedup.
"Hi,Bells.Youlookamazingtoday."
"Sodoyou,dad,"Isaid,smiling.
"I'mhappyyougotthatsparkinyoureyesback.Ihaven'tseenitinawhile,andifitisthisEdwardthatmakes
yousohappy,thenyouhavemyblessing,okay?"
"Whatdoyoumean?"Iasked,confused.
"Ihaven'tseenyouthishappyinsolong,andyoulookevenhappieraroundhim."
Idid?Ihaven'tthoughtaboutthat.
"Thankyou,dadthatmeansalot."
Edwardcamebackshortlyafterwithourfood.Mydadleftwithanodandasmile.
"Whatdidhesay?Doeshehateme?"Edwardasked.
"Itwastheotherwayaroundactually.Hegaveushisblessing."
"Wow,whowouldhavethought,"Edwardsaid,amazed.
Ilookedaroundusasweate.TheyalllookedsohappyandIwasgladthatIhadchosentocomehere.Ineeded
toseethis,andIneededtoseethemevenifithadbeenjustforamoment.
"Edward,canIhaveawordwithyou?"mydadaskedwhenwehadfinishedourfood.
"Sure,I'llberightback,Bella."Inoddedmyheadandwatchedastheymadeitdowntowardsthewater.
IlookeduptowardsthecliffIhadbeenavoidinglookingatallday.Iheardmydad'swordsechothroughmy
head.
"Youneedtoletitgo."
Hewasright,Icouldn'tlivelikethis.Ineededtoputastoptothis.Whatkindoflifedoyouhavewhenyou
onlyhaveashellofyourselftooffer?
IsawEdwardtalkingtomydadafewfeetaway,soItookmychanceandgotuptogotothecliffs.Hikingin
theseshoeswasn'tsuchagoodidea,soItookthemoffandthrewthemalongthetrail.
Itwasn'taneasywalkup,buteventuallyIreachedmydestination.Istoodtenfeetawayfromtheedgeofthe
cliffandjustbreathedinthesaltyair.Icouldfeelthewindcatchingmydress,butitwasn'tcold,itwasawarm
breeze.
Oh,God,I'vemissedthisplace!
Itookafewstepstowardstheedge,andlookeddownonthebeachwherethepartywasstillgoingon.Edward
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wasprobablylookingformebynowIhadn'ttoldhimaboutthisplace,sohewouldhaveahardtimefinding
me.
Idon'tknowhowlongIstoodthere,memoryaftermemoryflashingthroughmymind,buteventuallyItookthe
finalstepandstoodattheedgeofthecliff.Thewindwasalotharderouthere,andbothmyhairanddresswere
initspower.
Istoodthere,inhalingtheairandbroughtmyarmsoutasifIwasflying.Ilookeduptowardstheclearbluesky
andsaidmylastword.
"Goodbye."
EndNotes:
A/N:Whooops?
ThenextchapteristheOneyouhaveallbeenwaitingfor!
you'rewelcome!
Untilnexttime.
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ThePastbyGelix
Author'sNotes:
A/N:Thewantedchapter10ishere!
**INMEMORYOFHANNA890622060616**
Thankyouforrespectingmywishestoupdatetoday.Therewasareasonforthis.On
June16th2006myfrienddiedaweekbeforeher17thbirthday.ThesamewayEmily
died.Iwouldliketodedicatethischaptertoherbytellingapartofherstory.Itstold
frommyPOVandnotadoctorsPOV.(Thesurroundings,reactionsandpeopleare
fictionalthecauseofdeathisnot.)
Nobodyfoundthequoteinthelastchapter.Itwasreallyhard,Iadmit,becauseitfitted
sowellandmaybeitsacommonsentence.
Howtoloseaguyin10days:
Youcantlosesomethingyouneverhad.
Letsseeifyoucanfindthequote/sentenceinthischapter,youllgetapreviewifyou
do.Itsfromavery,veryknownmovie.Ibet8090%ofyouhaveseenit.
Goodiescanbefoundat:http://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforallyourwonderfulideas!
ThePast
EPOV
Charlietookmetotheedgeofthewater.Helookedouttowardstheoceanwithadistantlookonhisface.
"IthinkIspeakforallofuswhenIsaythatI'mgratefultoyouforbringingBellabackhere,"hefinallysaid.
"Ididn'tdoanything,sir.Shecamehereofherownfreewill."
"Iknowshedid,"hesaid,lookingatme."Butshewouldn'thaveifitwasn'tforyou.You'reherrock,Edward.
Justlookatthewaysheholdsontoyou."
IguessIcouldseehispoint,andbythelookinhiseyes,Icouldseethathemeantitwhenhehadsaidthathe
wasgrateful.
Charlieturnedhisgazebackouttotheocean.Westoodlikethatforafewmoresecondsbeforehespokeagain.
"PleasetellmeIcantrustthatyou'lltakecareofmylittlegirl,Edward."
"Youcantrustme,sir,"Isaidconfidently.
IknewwitheveryfiberinmybodythatIwoulddoeverythinginmypowertotakecareofBella.
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"Thankyou."Westartedwalkingbacktotheparty.
"AndEdward?"Iturnedtolookathim."Pleasedon'tcallme'sir',itmakesmefeelold.MynameisCharlie."
"Sorry,Charlie,"Isaidandsmiledathim.
WhenIgotbacktoourtable,Icouldn'tfindBella.Ilookedaroundthebeach,butshewasnowheretobeseen.
ThefeelingIhadinmygutrightbeforeBella'sbreakdownwasback.
Thiswasn'trightshewouldn'tjustleavewithouttellingme.
IfoundLeahandJacobatoneofthetables.
"Hey,guys.I'msorrytointerrupt,buthaveyouseenBella?"Iaskedthem.
"WhywouldItellyou?Maybeshejustwantedtogetawayfromyouforalittlewhile,"Jacobsaid.
"Please,itisimportant,"Ipleaded.
LeahlaidahandonJacob'sshoulderbeforehecouldarguebackagain."Wehaven'tseenher,butifsheisn't
aroundheresomewhere,IwouldsearchthecliffsifIwereyou."
"Thecliffs?"Iaskedconfused.
Shepointeduptowardsthehighcliffsthatsurroundedthebeach."SheandEmilyusedtohangoutthere."
"Okay,thankyou!"Igavethemaquicksmilebeforeleavingthem.
IwalkedasfastasIcouldwithoutrunning,Ididn'twanttodrawanyattentiontome.IfoundatrailthatI
followed,butcouldn'tfindanytraceofher.
IhadbeenwalkingforafewminuteswhenIfoundhershoestossedtothesideofthetrail.AtleastIwasonthe
righttrail,soIcontinuedwalking.WhenIdidn'tfindheranywhere,Istartedcallingoutforher.
"Bella?"Therewasnoanswerbutthewind.
IfeltmyheartratequickenwhenIhadcalledouthernamefivetimeswithoutanyanswer.ThatwaswhenI
startedrunning.Iranallthewayuptothetopwithoutseeingher.AtfirstIthoughtIhadmissedheror
something,butthenIsawher.
Shewasstandingalmostattheedgeofthecliff.Myminddidn'tregisterthatfactatfirst.AllIcouldthinkabout
washowbeautifulshewas.Herdress,alongwithherlongbrownhair,wasflowinggracefullybehindherinthe
wind.
Thenshetookthefinalstepsothatshestoodattheedge.Iwatchedasshebroughtherarmsupanddroppedher
headbacktolookatthesky.
Iheardhersay"Goodbye,"andmywholeworldfellapart.
Ican'tloseher.Dosomething!
BPOV
Eventhough"Goodbye"isjustaword,itfeltliketheworldhadbeenliftedoffmyshoulders.IknewIcouldn't
changemylifeovernight,butnowIfeltlikeIhadthechancetochangeitatleast.Ihadn'tfeltthatbefore.
AfewsecondsafterIhadsaidtheword,Iheardafaint,"Pleasedon'tjump,Bella."
ItstartledmeatfirstbecauseIthoughtIwasaloneuphere.IturnedaroundandfoundEdwardonhiskneeson
theground.Helookeddevastatedandhadtearsrunningdownhischeeks.
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"What?"
"Don'tjumpIloveyou,Bellapleasedon'tjump,"hesaidbetweenhistears.
Shit,hemusthavethoughtIwouldjump!
"I'mnotsuicidal,Edward,"Isaid,walkingovertohim.
AssoonasIgotwithinreach,hegrabbedmebythewaistandhuggedmehard.Hecontinuedtosilentlycry
withhisfaceagainstmystomachandIcouldfeelthetearssoakingmydress.Ibroughtmyfingerstohishairto
comforthim.
"Iloveyoupleasedon'tleaveme,"hecontinued.
Didhejustsayhelovedme?
"Edward,lookatme."Ittooksometime,buteventuallyhelookedupatme."I'mnotgoinganywhere,okay?"
Idriedhistearsoffhisfacewithmyhands.WhenIwasdonehebroughthisfacebacktomystomach.
"Thenwhatwereyoudoinguphere?"hemumbled.
Thisisit,Ineedtodoit.
"Areyoureadytohearthestoryofmypast?"HelookedupatmetoseeifIwasserious.
Idoubtedthathewouldfindanythingbutmyhonesty,becauseIwastrulyreadytotellhimmystory.
"Areyousure?"
"Yes,butthereissomethingIwantinreturn,andIwantitbeforeItellyouanything."
TherewassomethingIhadwantedtodonowforawhile.Ididn'thavethecouragetoaskhimstraightout,even
thoughIknewhewouldwantitaswell.Thiswasagoodstarttolettingmyoldlifegothiswillbeabigstep
towardsmyfuture.Inolongerwantedtobethebystander.
"I'lldoanything,youknowthat,"hesaidasthoughitwasobvious.
ItookadeepbreathandletitoutbeforeIaskedhim,"Couldyoupleasekissme?"
Isawhiseyeswidenabit.Hegotupfromhiskneesandgrabbedmyshoulders.
"I'llonlydoitifyou'recompletelysure,notbecauseyou'reafraidthatI'llleaveafteryoutellmeaboutyour
past."
"Mypastisn'tthatbad,Edward.Ireallywantyoutokissme."
TheonlyreasonwhyIwantedhimtodoitbeforeItoldhimwasbecauseIdidn'twanthimtodoitoutofpity.
"Whatabouttherules?"hewhispered.
Whyishetryingtofindexcuses?
Ifoughthardagainstthetearsthatwantedtospill.Ifeltsohumiliated.HereIwas,begginghimtokissmefor
himtogivememyfirstkissandhedoesn'twantit?
EdwardsawmyreactionandtriedtoholdmeagainsthimwhileIwasfoughttogetaway.
"No,no,baby.Please,Ididn'tmeanitlikethat!IreallydowanttokissyouIjustwanttoknowwhatitwould
meantous.Willwegobacktowhatwearenow,orwillwebearealcouple?"
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Ithoughtaboutthat.Ididn'tknowwhatIwantedallIknewwasthatIwantedtokisshim.
"Idon'tknow,"Iwhispered,andbroughtmyfacetohischesttohidemytears.
"Okay,I'lldoit.Thenafterwardswecouldseewhatwefeellikedoing.Doesthatsoundgood?"Inoddedmy
headinresponse.Itfeltlikeagoodplan.
"Doyoumindifwesitdown,though?Iwanttothoroughlyenjoythis."
IletoutasoftlaughbecauseIknewthatheprobablymeantthatIwastooshort.Iwantedtoenjoyit,too,soI
noddedmyhead.
"Comeon,there'ssomethingIwanttoshowyou,"Isaid,leadinghimtotheedgeofthecliffandsatdown.
"Doesn'titlookamazing?"
YoucouldseeallofwhatLaPushhadtoofferfromupherethebeach,thesmallhouses,thestore,andalso
theparty.
"Wow,it'sbeautifuluphere,"hesaidandletoutabiggushofair."Wasthisthereasonyoucameuphere?"
"Uuhu.Kissfirst,storylater,remember?"Iaskedandwenttostraddlehislap.Inthisposition,Iwasatperfect
heightofhisface.
"WheredoIputmyhands?"Iaskedinsecurely.
"Justputthemwhereveryouwantto."
Iputthemoneachsideofhiswaist.Iwantedtobringthemuptohishair,butmyinsecurityonceagainflooded
mymind.Hishandswenttomythighsandhestartedstrokingthemunderneathmydress.
Hebroughthisfacetominesothatourforeheadsweretouching.Icouldfeelhisbreathonmyfacewhenhe
leanedcloserandcloser.Iclosedmyeyesoninstinctively.
Thisisit!I'mfinallygettingmyfirstkiss
Heghostedhiswarmlipsoverminebeforeheplacedagentlekissonmylips.Hepulledback,butIdidn'topen
myeyestolookathim.
That'sallI'mgoingtoget?
HebroughthislipsbackbeforeIcouldthinkanyfurther.Thistimethekisswasalotharder.Edward'slips
capturedmybottomlipandstartedtosuckandnibbleonit.MyinstinctstookoveronceagainandIstarted
doingthesameonhistoplip.IfeltasthetinglesIusuallyfeltwhenhetouchedmeintensified,andthe
butterfliesIusuallyfeltwhenhecalledme'Baby'multiplied.
AfterawhileIfelthistonguelickmylips.Ihadnoideaofwhattodo,butIfeltmymouthopenuptohimon
itsownaccord.Histonguecarefullymadeitswayintomymouth.Istartedshylytomovemytonguealongwith
hisinaslowdance.Hetastedlikespearmintwithahintofcigarettes.
Iwantedmore,soIremovedmyhandsfromhiswaistandputthemwhereIwantedthemfromthebeginning
inhishair.Ifistedmyhandsinittobringhisfaceimpossiblycloser,andhisarmshuggedmywaisttobringme
closer.Itwaslikewecouldn'tbecloseenough.
Thisismyversionofheaven.
Edwardmoanedintomymouthwhichmademewhimperinresponse.
Unfortunately,IreallyneededairandIreluctantlybrokeourkiss,butEdwarddidn'tstopwiththekissing.His
lipscontinuedtomovealongmyjaw,myneck,anddowntomycollarbonesandthenupagainontheother
side.
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Iwantedtofeelhismouthagainstmineagain,soIbroughthisfacetomine.Thiskisswasn'tasdeepasthe
otheronehadbeen.Therewerenotonguesinvolved,butitwasamazinganyway.
EventuallythekissfadedandEdwardendeditwiththreelightpecksbeforehesaid,"I'msorry,baby,butwe
shouldstop."
"Why?DidIdosomethingwrong?"Iaskedinsecurely.
"No,no.ThatwaseverythingI'vedreamedof,andsomuchmore.Trustme,"hesaid,andhuggedmeeven
closer."It'sjustthatifwedon'tstopnow,Iwon'tbeabletoholdittogether."
Ilookedathim,confused.Ididn'tunderstandwhathemeantbythat.
Whenhesawthelookonmyface,hepressedmedownontohiscrotchandIfeltthereasonwhyweneededto
stop.Mymouthformedan'O'andmycheeksgotred.
"That'sthesecondtimethisweekend,"Isaid,nervously.
"Thatyouknowof."Hesmirked."ItkindofhasitsownlifewhenI'maroundyou."
MyheadfellbackandIletoutafullheartedlaugh.Iknewitwasprobablytrue,butthewayhesaiditmade
himlooklikeakidwhodidn'tgethisway.
"Sohowwasthatforafirstkiss?"heaskedwhenIhadcalmeddown.
"Canwedoitagain?"Ireallywantedtofeelhimpressedagainstmeonemoretime.Iwouldprobablywantit
morethanonetime,though.
ThistimeitwasEdward'sturntolaugh.Helaughedsohardthathefellbackwardswithmefallingontopof
him.Ididn'tmindthisnewpositionatall.
"Ijustneedsometimetocooldownfirst,orI'llravageyourighthere."
"Okay,"Isaid,likingtheideaofhimravagingmeallofasudden.
Ikissedhisneck,similartowhathehaddoneearliertome.Iheardhissoftmoansinresponse.
"I'mserious,Bella.Whydon'tyoutellmewhyyoucameuphere,andwe'llseeifI'mcalmenoughwhenyou're
done."
IhadcompletelyforgottenthatIwassupposedtotellhimaboutmypast.
"Okay,I'msorry,"Isaidandgotuptositbesidehimontheedgewithmyfeetdanglingintheair.
"Youhavenothingtobesorryfor.Ienjoyedthatverymuch,maybetoomuch."
Hehadalsogottenupfromtheground.Iturnedtohimandasked,"Doyouwanttoknowthewholestory,or
justwhyI'muphere?"
"Whateveryouwanttotellmeisfine.I'mnotgoingtopushyouintosomethingyou'renotcomfortablewith,
okay?"
"Okay,I'llstartfromthebeginning,itwouldprobablybeeasier."
Ithoughthardaboutwhatexactlywasthebeginning.Thereweresomanyoptions,butIsettledwiththe
absolutebeginning.
"WhenIfirstmovedhere,Ihadnoone.Youmadethestudentsinschoolavoidmeliketheplague,soIwasall
alone"EdwardcutmeoffbeforeIgotthechancetocontinue.
"I'msosorry,Bella.Inevermeantforthemtodothat"
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"Stop!I'mtellingyoumystory,andyou'renotgoingtolikesomepartsofit,butIdon'twantyoutointerrupt
metoapologize.You'vealreadydonethat,sothere'snoneedtodoitagain."
Hepretendedtolockhislipsandthrowthekeyaway.Itookthatasasignthathewouldtrytostayquiet.
"ThesummerwhenIwastwelve,mydadtriedtotakemefishing.Hedidn'tsucceed.Iwastooafraidofthe
waterandtherewasnowayIwantedtospendalldayjuststaringatit.Hecouldn'tfindababysitteranddidn't
wantmetospendthewholedayalone,sohebroughtmetotheClearwaters."
Somememorieshavefadedawayduringtheyears,butthisoneIstillremembered.
"That'sthefirsttimeImetEmily.JacobBlackwasthereaswellbecausehewasdatingLeah,Emily'sbigsister,
atthattime.JakeandIalreadykneweachotherfrombeforesinceourdadswerebestfriends.EmilyandIhitit
offreallywell,andwewereprettymuchinseparablethatsummer.Evenafterschoolstarted,wewouldhangout
anddohomeworktogethersomedays."
Sofar,thethingsItoldEdwardwerehappythings.Theywerehardtotalkabout,soIdidn'tknowhowIwas
supposedtotellhimaboutmydarkestmemories.IknewIneededtodothis,soIcontinued.
"JakeandLeahhungoutwithusfromtimetotime.Jakewaslikeabrothertome.HeandLeaharetwoyears
olderthanme,sotheywereonlywithuswhenweweren'tacting'childishly,'"Isaidandmadethequotation
markswithmyhands.
"Then,whenIwasfifteen,Samcameintothepicture.HestarteddatingEmily,andtheysoonbecameacouple.
TheyweredifferentfromJakeandLeahthough,becausetheycouldkeeptheirhandstothemselvesforafew
hours.ThebestthingwasthatEmilystillmadetimeformeaswellinsteadofspendingallhertimewithSam.
Thefiveofusbecamethisgang,andeventhoughIlookeddifferent,IneverfeltlikeanoutsiderlikeIdidin
school."
Thehardpartwascoming,andIcouldfeelthetearsstinginginmyeyes.ItookadeepbreathbeforeIstarted
again.
"ItwasChristmasbreak.EmilyhadbeenawayatcollegeinVancouverforfourmonths,andIhadn'tseenher
sinceThanksgiving.Itwaskindofabigshocktoseeherbecauseshelookedsodifferent.Shehadprobablylost
thirtypounds,andatfirstIthoughtshehadanorexia,orsomethingsimilar.ThenshetriedtotalkIdidn't
understandmuchofwhatshewassaying.ThenIwatchedasshetriedtoeat.Shecouldn'teat,andthat'swhy
shehadlostsomuchweight."
Thetearsstartedrollingdownmycheeksnow.Theguiltthathadhauntedmeforthepastfiveyearsstartedto
crawlitswaybacktothesurface.IfeltEdward'sarmaroundmyshoulder,butIknewIwouldn'tbeabletotell
himifIwastooclosetohim.Iwouldhavetosavethecomfortforlater.
Ishruggedhisarmoffofmeanddriedmytears."I'msorry,it'sjustthatIcan'ttellyouthisifwe'rethatclose.I
wouldjustcryevenmore,"Itoldhimapologetically.
"Shehadseensomanydoctors,butnooneknewwhatwaswrongwithher.ThatNewYear'sEve,Jake
proposedtoLeahandwewereallgladtogetahappydistraction.Emilywasprobablytheonewhowasthe
happiestbecauseshewasnolongerthecenterofattention.
"ThatwasthelasttimeIsawher.ShehadtogobacktoVancouvertohavesomemoretestsdoneatthe
hospital.Ionlyhadcontactwithherovertheinternetsinceshecouldn'ttalk.Weneverspokeaboutwhatcould
bewrongwithher,butIstillrememberhowproudshewaswhenshegainedtwopoundsfromdrinkingthese
specialdrinkstogainweight."
Ismiledatthememory.Shehatedthosedrinks,butshewassodeterminedtogetwellagain.
"Then,afewweeksafterNewYear'sEve,shewentbacktothehospital.Shedidn'tcomebackafterthatvisit.
Shebecamehospitalizedandwelostalmostallcontactbecauseofthehospital'spolicyofnocellphones.
"Idon'tknowexactlywhathappenedafterthat.AllIknowisthatshegotdiagnosedwithadiseasecalled
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ALS*,thesamediseasehergrandmotherhaddiedfromwhenEmilywasyoung."
Isobbedhardnow.Iwasclosetotheend.IsawEdward'spainedfaceandhishandreachingoutformyleg.
"Please,don't,"Isaidandlookedaway.IttookafewminutesbeforeIwasabletocontinue.
"Thediseasebreaksdownyournervoussystem.Itdestroyedhervocalcords,herthroat,andhermuscles.By
thetimeshewasdiagnosed,shecouldn'teat,talkorwalk,andshehadtroublewithherbreathingsoshehad
thismachinehelpingheratnight.Iwasn'teventheretohelpher.
"ThedoctorssaidshewasspecialbecausetherewasnorecordofanyonethatyoungwithALS.Mostpeople
didn'tgetituntiltheyhitfortyorfifty,butshegotitwhenshewasnineteen.
"Whenshewastoldthatshehadaboutfiveyearslefttolive,itwaslikeshegaveup.Shediedlaterthatnight
andIdidn'tevengettosaygoodbyetoher.
"Hermomsaysthatshedidn'twanttolivelikeavegetableforfiveyears.Unabletospeak,walk,breatheonher
own,oreatjustlayingthere."
Ilookeduptowardsthesky,wonderingifshewasupthere.
Ireallyhopeso.
"SuecalledmethenextdayfromEmily'sphone.IthoughtitwasEmilyfinallygettingoutofthatawful
hospital,insteaditwasSuecallingmetogivemethebadnewsIhadbeendreadingforweeks.
"That'sthephonecallyousawmecryingoverinschool.JakehadgottenthenewsfromSamearlier,sohe
cametoschooltogetme.Whichyoualsosaw.
"ThefuneralwasprobablythehardestthingIhaveeverhadtolivethrough.Itmadeitlooksoreal,seeingher
coffinstandingthere,everybodycrying,andthepriesttalkingabouther.
"YouaskedmewhyIhadchosentocomeheretoday.ThisistheplaceEmilyandIshared.Thisiswherewe
usedtogo.Thisisalsowheretheyspreadherashes.Ihaven'tbeenheresincethatChristmasbreakwhenIlast
sawher."
ThistimewhenEdwardbroughtmeintohisarms,Ididn'tprotest.Ineededhiscomfortthistimejustasmuchas
heneededmine.Ihadneverseenhimcrybeforeandthiswasthesecondtimetoday.
Ididn'tsayanythingelse.Ididn'tknowwhathewantedtoknow.Ihadtoldhimthemostimportantpartofthe
storyaboutEmily,whichwassomethingIhadn'teventoldAliceorRosalie.
Westayedquietforafewminutes.IfeltEdward'sfingersghostovermytattoo."Whataboutthis?Whydidyou
writethesewords?"
"Emily'sfavoritemoviewas'DirtyDancing,'weusedtowatchitliketwotimesaweek.Webothknewevery
singleline,butweonlysaid'NobodyputsBabyinacorner'alongwithJohnny.Everytimewesawit.
Sometimes,ifwedidn'thaveenoughtimetowatchthewholemovie,wewouldjustwatchtheend.Ihaven't
seenitsinceshediedWeevenboughttheworkoutDVDandlearnedallthesteps."
"I'msosorrythatyouhadtogothroughallthat,Bella."
"Iliketobelievethateverythinghappensforareason,"Itoldhim.
"Sothe'goodbye'Iheardbefore"
"WasbeingsaidtoEmily.Ineedtoletthepastgoandmoveforward."
Silencefelloverusaswewatchedtheview.JustlikeIhadimagined,itfeltgoodtofinallytalktosomeone.I
hadn'ttoldhimeverything,butIhadtoldhimthemostimportantthings.
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"Awoman'sheartisadeepoceanofsecrets.Nowyouknowapartofminethatnotevenmyclosestfriends
know,"Isaid,gettingupfrommyspot.
"Yeah,thankyousomuchfortrustingmewiththis.Itmeansalottome,"hesaidandgotupaswell.
Hepressedaquickkissonmylipsandthenpulledback,butIwantedmorethanthat."Canyoupleasedothat
again?Onlythistimealittleslower."
Henoddedandsmileddownatme.Itfeltgoodtoseehimsmileagainafterallthetearswehadshedtoday.
HecradledmyfaceandIsteppeduponmytoessothathecouldreachbetter.Myhandsfistedhisshirtand
broughthimclosertome.
Hepressedhislipsfirmlyagainstmineandstartedmovingthem.Ourtonguesmetafewsecondslaterandthey
wereonceagaindoingsomesortofslowdancetogether.
Ican'tbelieveIcouldsay'no'tothis!
Hebrokeawayalltoosoon,butIguessitwasinevitable."Maybeweshouldgobackdowntoyourfriends."
"Yeah,Iguessweshould,"Isaidandreleasedmygriponhim.
"Ifoundyourshoesbeforeifyouwantthemback."HewenttogetthemformeandIlookedaroundonelast
timebeforefollowinghim.
"Thanks,"Isaidandputthemon.
Goingdownprovedtobealotharderthangoingup.Ialmostfellseveraltimes,butEdwardcaughtmebeforeI
felltotheground.
"Letmecarryyoudowninstead.ThisisgoingtoendbadlyifIdon't,"hepleadedafterawhile.
"Idon'twantyoutohurtyourback,sonothankyou."
"Itwasn'taquestion.Now,hoponmyback."
Ididn'targuebecausethetruthwas,Ididn'tmindridingonhisback.Itwasagoodexcusetobeclosertohim.
AssoonasIwasupIwrappedmylegsaroundhiswaistandmyarmsaroundhisshouldersIdidn'twantto
stranglehim.Ilaidmyfacebyhisneckandinhaledhisscent,thenplacedakissonthesideofhisneck.
Whenwegotdownfromthecliff,thepartyhadbeguntowinddownabit.Thecakehadalreadybeeneaten.I
couldfeelJakestaringatus,andbythewayEdward'sbodytensedunderneathme,Icouldtellhefeltit,too.
"Don'tworry.Hejustdoesn'tliketheoldyouandhasn'tgottentoknowthenewyou.JustlikeIhadn'ttwo
monthsago,andlookwherewearenow,"IwhisperedinEdward'sear.
Heturnedhisheadtolookatmeandsmiledhiscrookedgrin."Akisswouldmakemyworriesgoaway."
Ileanedforwardandpressedmylipsagainsthis,butIdidn'tallowthekisstogetanydeeperbecauseIwasn't
thatcomfortablewithPDAyet.
"I'mgoingtograbasmokeandleaveyoutwototalk,okay?"Edwardaskedwhenwepulledback.
"Okay,don'tletmydadseeyou,though.Justincase,"Ianswered,andclimbeddownfromhisback.
"I'llbedownbythewaterifyouneedme,"hesaidandgavemeonelastpeckonthemouth.
IwalkeduptoJake,whowasstillglaringatEdward.Iwavedmyhandinfrontofhimtogethisattention.
"Hey,what'sthematterwithyou?"Iasked.
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"Whydidyoumarrythatjerk?"
"Don'tcallhimajerk!Highschoolwasalongtimeago,andwe'vebothgrownupsincethen."
"Thatstilldoesn'texplainwhyyoumarriedtheguy."Hesoundedlikeasmartass.
HowdoyouexplainthatwithoutturningEdwardintothebadguy?
"Honestly,that'snoneofyourbusiness,Jacob."
"Oh,I'mprettysureitis!Youshowupatmyweddingmarriedtotheguywhobulliedyoueverydayinschool.
Tellmedidhebullyyouintomarryinghimaswell?"
Ididn'tthinkherealizedhowdeadonhewas.ItwastruethatEdwardhadbulliedmeintostayingmarriedto
him,buthehadalsosavedmefrommyself.Hewasn'tthebadguyanymore.Ididn'tliketheoldEdward,butI
didlikethenewEdward.
"Look,Jake.Youaskedmetocomehere,andIdid.YouhaveEdwardtothankforthat,becausewithouthim,I
wouldn'tevenhaveconsideredcoming.Youdon'thavetolikehim,butIwantyoutorespecthimandour
marriage,orI'moutofhereandIwon'tlookback!"Ithreatened.
Helookedstunnedatmyoutburst,andIdidn'tblamehimbecauseIneverusedtospeakupbefore.Thenhe
narrowedhiseyesattheocean.Hedidn'tsayanything,soItookthatasasignthatIwasnolongerwelcome
here.
"Fine.Iwishyouthebestofluckinthefuture,"Isaidandstartedwalkingaway.
Ididn'tgetfarbeforehereachedouttograbmyarm."I'msorry,Bella.It'sjust"
"Iknow,butallIaskforisrespect."
"I'msorry.IpromiseI'lltry.Pleasedon'tleave."
Iguessthat'sallhecoulddo.Tryingisalotbetterthannothing.
"Okay,let'stry,"Isaidandwalkedovertohimtogivehimahug.
Hehuggedmebackandsaid,"Maybewecouldexchangenumbers.SamandIaremovingourbusinessto
Seattle,sowewouldbeabletoseeeachothermore."
LetgoofthepastthenewBellaletgoofthepastthenewBella,Ichantedinmyheadashesaidthe
words.
"Iwouldlikethat,"Isaid,lookingupathim.Hopefullyhedidn'tseethehesitantlookonmyface."Ihaveyour
numberalready,somaybeIcouldgiveyoumine,andthenyoucouldgiveittoLeahandSam."
"Okay.Here,writeitonmyhandsoIwon'tloseit,"hesaid,extendinghishandandgivingmeapen.
Iwrotedownthenumberonhishand.WhenIwasdone,IhadtoexcusemyselftogofindEdward.Ineeded
himsothatIcouldcalmdown.
Ifoundhimstandingbythewaterjustlikehesaidhewouldbe,butIdidn'tgoovertohim.Instead,Ijust
stoppedandlookedathim.HewasstandingtheretalkingtoQuil,oneoftheguysfromthereservation,while
smokingandlaughing.Helookedsosexyandhappy.
Ididn'twanttointerrupt,soIsatdownonabenchafewfeetfromwhereIwasstanding.IcouldseeEdward
fromhere.Iwouldprobablylooklikesomecrazypersonforjustsittinghere,staringatmygorgeoushusband,
whenIcouldwalkovertohiminstead.
Icouldn'thearwhattheyweretalkingabout,butEdwardsmiledandlaughedalot.Itmademehappytoseehim
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sohappy.Idon'tthinkIhadeverseenhimsocarefree,anditmademewonderifIhadsomethingtodoaboutit.
"DoyoumindifIsit?"Samasked,interruptingmythoughts.
Igesturedwithmyhandthatitwasokay.Hesatdownnexttome,leanedbackandputhisarmtorestbehind
me.IletmyeyesgobacktowatchingEdward,andSam'sgazemusthavefollowedmine.
"You'rereallyhappywithhim,aren'tyou?"heaskedcarefully.
Itookamomenttothinkaboutit.IknewIhadn'tfeltthisaliveinsomanyyears,ifIhadeverbeen.Hemade
mefeelsafeandwanted.Ihadhoughtabouthimmoreasmyfriend,butafterthisafternoonmythoughtshad
turnedinanotherdirection.
"Yes,Iam,"Ifinallyanswered.
"I'mreallyhappyforyou,Bells.Youdeserveit,"hesaidandbroughthisarmtomyshouldersandsqueezed.
"Thankyou,"Iwhisperedandputmyheadonhisshoulder.
"Whataboutyou?Haveyoufoundanyone?"Iaskedafterafewminutesofsilence.
"Ihaveactually.She'sthefirstgirlI'vedatedseriouslysinceEmily,"hesaid,lookingoutovertheocean."I
reallylikeher.We'vebeendatingforaboutfivemonths.Shecouldn'tcometoday,thoughI'msureyouwould
havelikedher."
"I'mhappyforyouaswell,Sam.MaybewecouldmeetupinSeattleandyoucouldbringheralong."
"SoJaketoldyouaboutSeattle,huh?"
"Yeah,hedid,"Isaid."So,what'shername?"
"Jane."
"That'saprettyname,"Ioffered.
HetoldmesomemoreaboutJaneandabouthisandJake'sbusiness.Itsoundedliketheyhadbeenbusywith
themove.Someonehadboughttheirbodyshoptwomonthsagoandtheyonlyhadonemonthleftbeforethey
hadtobegone.
IsawQuilleavingEdwardandpointedtowardshimwithanapologeticlookonmyface.
"Go!I'llbefine,"SamsaidandgavemeonelasthugbeforeIgotup.
"It'sreallynicetoseeyouagain,"Itoldhimhonestly.
"You,too.Don'tletittakethislongbeforethenexttime,okay?"
"Iwon't,"Isaidandstartedwalkingdowntothewater.
EdwardwasstillsmokingwhenIreachedhim,anditmademewonderhowmanycigaretteshehadactually
smokedsinceheleftme.Ididn'twanthimtodiefromlungcancer.
"Hi,"Isaidandstoodbesidehim.
"Hi,baby,"heansweredandputthecigaretteout.
"HowmanyofthosehaveyouhadsinceIsawyoulast?"
"Justafew.IneededtocatchupontheonesImissedthisweekend.Mymomdoesn'treallylikethehabit."
"AndIwonderwhy,"Isaidsarcastically.
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IlookeddownatmyfeetandforsomereasonIwiggledmytoes.Ididn'tknowhowtobreakmyproblemto
Edward.
"What'swrong?"heasked,andsighed.
"Nothing,"Iansweredquickly.Ididn'twanttoruinhisgoodmoodwithmyproblem.
"Comehere."Hepulledmeintohisarmsandhuggedme.Ipressedmyfaceintohischestandhuggedhim
back."Iknowyouwellenoughtoknowwhensomethingisbotheringyou."
"Idon'twanttoruinyourgoodmood.I'mfine."
"Pleasetellme.Youwon'truinanything,okay?"
"JakeandSamaremovingtheirbusinesstoSeattleandIgaveJakemynumber."
"Whydidyougivehimyournumberifyoudon'twanthimtocall?"heasked,confused.
"That'stheproblem.I'mhappytohavemyoldfriendsbackinmylife.Ijustdon'tknowhowtohandlethe
constantreminderofthepast."
"Well,nooneisforcingyoutopickupiftheycall,"hejoked,makingmelaugh.
"It'sthateasy,huh?"Ismiledandlookedupathim.
"It'sthateasy,"heconfirmed.
"Okay,let'sgobackandsaygoodbye.IwanttogotoMcDonald's,I'mstarving!"
Edwardlaughedoutloudandsaid,"Yourwishismycommand."
"That'sright."Itookhishandandstartedwalkingbacktotheparty.
Beforewecouldevenreachtheothers,IsawmydadgivingSueakissonhercheek.Icouldseealltheway
fromherethatitwasn'tafriendlykiss.Itwasthekindofkissyougivesomeoneyoulove.
Istoppedwalkingforasecond.Iwassurprisedandmaybealittledisappointed.Notthattheyseemedtobea
couple,butthatCharliehadn'ttoldme.
"Whydidyoustop,Bella?"Edwardasked,pullingmyhand.
"MyDadIneedtotalktohim."
"Okay,let'sgothen."
WewalkeduptoSueandCharlie.Theydidn'tseemtonoticeusasweapproached.
"Dad?"Iasked.
Heturnedaround,surprisedandmaybealittleembarrassedthathehadbeencaught.Suegaveusacautious
smileandwalkedaway.
"Whenwereyougoingtotellme?"Icouldfeelmytearsburninginmyeyes.
"I'msosorry,Bells.Ijustdidn'twanttotellyouoverthephone,andthenwhenyougothereyouseemedso
happy.Ididn'twanttotakethatsmileoffyourface."
"WhywouldIbesadoveryourrelationshipwithSue?"
"You'renot?"
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WhywouldIbesadaboutmydadfinallyfallinginloveagain?
"No!I'mhappyforyou.Ijustwishyouwould'vetoldme,that'sall."
"I'msorry,honey.IknowIshouldhave."
"Iforgiveyou,Dad.Justdon'thidethingslikethatfrommeagain."Igavehimahugandakissonhischeek.
"EdwardandIaretakingoff.WeneedtoheadbacktoSeattle."
"Okay,we'llseeyousoon."
"Yeah,"Ianswered,andwentovertoLeahandJaketosaygoodbyetothemaswell.
EPOV
Ididn'tknowifBellawastellingthetruthaboutbeinghappyforCharlie.Iknewthatshewasupsetabouthim
nottellingheraboutit,butsheplayeditcool.
Herstoryhadtakenmebysurprise.Ihadnoideawhathadhappened,butIhadn'texpectedwhatshetoldme.It
wasactuallythefirsttimeIhadcriedsinceIwaslittle.IwouldbecoldheartedifIhadn'tcried.
Thenwehadthekiss.HerrequesthadalsotakenmebysurpriseIhadbeguntothinkthatIwouldn'tgettokiss
herbeforeour'trialyear'wasover.IhadtriedtokeepmyselfcalmforhersakeIdidn'twanthertofreakout.It
hadworkedinthebeginning,butwhenthingsstartedtoheatupIcouldn'tholditbackanymore.
"Thankyouforinvitingme,butwehavetogetbacktoSeattlenow."Bella'svoicemademerealizethatwehad
reachedJakeandLeah.
"Thankyouforcoming,"Leahsaid,givingBellaahugandakissonhercheek."Itwasnicetomeetyou,
Edward."
"You,too,"Isaidandsmiledmysignaturesmile.
"I'llseeyousoon,Bella."Jakeglaredatmewhilehewashuggingher.
"Jacob,"Isaidandnoddedmyheadbeforeleaving.
"Edward."Hedidthesame.
Idon'tthinkIwouldeverlikethatguy.ItwaslikehewantedmeoutofBella'slife,evenifImadeherhappy.
Likehedidn'tcareaboutherhappiness,aslongasIwasoutofthepicture.MaybeBellashouldteachhimher
motto:thepastisthepast.
"IwantaBigMacandacoke,please,"BellasaidtothegirlbehindthecounteratMcDonald's.
"Makethattwo,"Isaidandhandedhermycreditcard.
"Theburgerswillbeoutshortly,"thegirlsaid.
Great.Theybetterhurryup,orI'llhavetodealwithacrankyBella.
Wetookaseatbythewindow.TherewereafewthingsIhadbeenwonderingsinceBellatoldmeaboutEmily,
butIdidn'tknowifnowwasagoodtimetobringthemup.ButifIdidn't,IhadnoideawhenIcould.
"Bella,doyoumindifIaskyouaquestion?"
Sheshruggedhershoulder."Youcanask,butI'mnotsureifI'llanswer."
"WhydidyoureactsostronglytoJacob'sweddinginvitation?"
"We'rejustfriends,Edward.He'slikeabigbrothertomeifthat'swhatyoumean."
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"Nothat'snotwhatImeant.Itrustyouwhenyousaythatyou'refriends.I'mjustcuriousaboutyour
reaction."
"Oh,"shesaid.Sheseemedlostinthoughtforafewsecondsbeforesheanswered."YourememberhowItold
youaboutthatNewYear'sEvewasthelasttimeIsawEmily?"Inodded."Well,justlikeIsaid,that'swhen
JakedecidedtoproposetoLeah.NowallIcanrememberisthatproposalandalmostnothingabouthowEmily
was.It'slikemymindhaschosentowipeoutthatmemoryandonlykeeptheproposal.WhenIsawthat
weddinginvitation,IwasrememberedaboutthatnightandhowIneversawEmilyagain.HowIwasnotthere
tosaygoodbyetoher,orjustspendtimewithheronelasttimeallIwantistosaygoodbyeatleast."
"I'msorryIbroughtitup."ItookherhandacrossthetabletogiveherthesmallamountofcomfortIcould.
"It'sokay,Iunderstand."
"Ifitisn'tthelovebirds.Areyoustalkingmeorsomething?"
Jessica.
WhenIturnedtolookather,IsawthatshehadonaMcDonald'soutfitandhadoneBigMacsineachhand.
"Whywouldwestalkyou?Itcouldbetheotherwayaround,youknow,"Bellasaid.
"Oh,Idon'tknow.Maybeyouwantedtoaskmeforsometipsonhowtopleaseyourhusband."Jessica
smirked.
"Bellabringsmemorepleasureinonenightthanyougavemeduringthewholeyearyouweremycallgirl.On
topofthatIloveherIneverlovedyou,"Isaid."Now,giveusourburgerssowecangohomesometime
tonight."
BothBellaandJessicahadastunnedlookontheirfaces.Ididn'tunderstandwhy,Ihadonlytoldthemthetruth.
"Fine."Shetossedtheburgersontothetableandstormedoff.
Bellastilllookedatmewithwideeyes.
"What?"Iaskedandopenedtheboxthatcontainedmyburger.
"Youkeepsayingthatyouloveme."
"So?It'sthetruth."
"Edward"shestarted,butIcutheroff.
"It'sokay,youdon'thavetosayanythingback."
"Ilikeyou,Edward.Alot.Ihatetheoldyoufromhighschool,butIreallylikethisnewversion."
Thosewordsmademesmile.Atleasttheywerealotbetterthan'Ihateyou'.
Shestartedtakingoffonepattyandonesliceofbreadfromherburger.
"Ifyou'restarving,whyareyoutakingoffhalfoftheburger?"Iasked,confused.
"IwanttosavesomeroomfortheFrenchfries,"sheanswered,likeitwasthemostobviousthingintheworld.
"ThenwhybuyaBigMacinthefirstplace,andnotaregularburger?"
"Thenitwouldn'tbeaBigMac,nowwouldit?"
Thisgirldoesn'tmakeanysenseatall,butthatwaswhyIlovedher.Atleastshe'seating.
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"Whatisthis?Somefuckingreunion?"Bellahissedwhenwewerealmostdone.Bellaneversworesoher
wordstookmebysurprise.
"What?"Iasked,lookingaround.
"YouroldBFFseemstobeintown,"shesaidandpointedtowardsthedoor.
TherewasJameswitharedheadedgirlandalittleboyonhisshoulders.Ihadn'tseenhimsinceIleftForksto
attendNYU.Hehadn'tchangedmuchhehadlosthisponytailandcuthishair,andhadamoretonedbody.
Otherthanthat,helookedthesame.
"Doyouwanttoleave?"IaskedBella.
"It'stoolate.Hehasalreadyseenyou.Justdon'tmentionweknoweachotherfromhighschool."
Ididn'tgetachancetorespondbeforeJameshadreachedourtable.
"EdwardCullen?Didn'tthinkIwouldseeyouagain!"hesaidloudly.
"Yeah.NicetoseeyouJames."Ikeptitshort.IwantedtogetoutofhereforBella'ssake.
"Sowhoisthisprettylady?"heaskedandturnedtowardsBella.
"I'mBellaCullen,Edward'swife,"shesaidsweetly,althoughIknewitwasanact.Shecouldn'tlikeJames
morethanshelikedmeinthebeginningofourmarriage.
Jamesletoutalowwhistle."You'vedoneyourselfgood,Cullen.Havewemetbefore?"
Iknewitwastimetogetoutofherebecauseitwasonlythematteroftimebeofrehewouldfindoutwhoshe
was.
"No,Idon'tthinkso,"Bellasaidwithasmile.
"Huh.Highschool,right?"heasked,deadon."You'rethegirlCullencouldn'tgethiseyesoff."
"Hi,baby.Wheredoyouwanttosit?"theredheadaskedJames,savingusfromtheconversation.
"Idon'tknow.Anywhere,itdoesn'tmatter.There'ssomeoneIwantyoutomeet,"hesaidandtookherwaistto
bringherforward."Vicky,thisisEdwardCullen,mybestfriendfromhighschool,andhiswife,Bella.Edward
andBella,thisismywifeVictoriaandmysonRiley."Heruffledthelittlekid'shair.Itwasastrangecolorof
redandblond,andhehadfrecklesalloverhisface.Theysuitedhim,though,andhewasreallycute.Hewas
maybetwoorthreeyearsold.Theymusthadgottenhimwhentheywereincollege.
"Nicetomeetyouboth,"Victoriasaid.
"You,too.Nicekidyougotthere,James,"Isaidpolitely.
"Thankyou."YoucouldtellfromhistonethathewasveryproudofRiley.
"I'msorry,butwereallyneedtogetgoing.WehavealongdrivebacktoSeattle."
BothBellaandIgotupfromourseats,relievedtogetoutofhere.Thisweekendhadbeenfullofmeetingswith
thepast.Sofar,Jessicahadbeentheworst,butIdoubtedthatshewouldsayanythingthenexttimewewentto
Forks.
AftersayinganawkwardgoodbyetoJamesandVictoria,wewerefinallyonourwaybacktomyparents'
house.ItwasgoingtobelatewhenwearrivedinSeattle,butIcouldn'tcarelessbecauseIhadonemorething
todobeforeweleftForks.
"OhmyGod,I'mexhausted.Ican'twaituntilwegethometoourbig,comfybed,"Bellasaidwhenwereached
thehouse.
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Myheartswelledeverytimeshereferredtosomethingasours.Itcouldbetheapartment,thebed,oranything.
Itdidn'treallymatter,myheartgotbiggereachtime.
"Well,wehaveonemorethingtodo,thenwecangobackhome."Igotoutofthecarandshequickly
followed.
"What?Ithoughtwewouldjustgrabourthingsandgo."
IopenedthefrontdoorwheremyMomandDadwerestandingwithBella'sbirthdaypresent.
"Happybirthday,baby,"Itoldherandgaveherakissonherforehead.
"Happybirthday,Bella,"MomandDadsaidinunion.Theysteppedforwardtohugherandhandoverthegift.
"Noway!It'smine?"shescreamedindisbelief.Ijustnoddedmyhead.
Shejumpedupandwrappedherlegsaroundmywaistandarmsaroundmyneck.Shepepperedmywholeface
withkisses.Thenshefinishedwithabigkissonthemouth.Aftereachkissshesaida'thankyou,'soIfigured
shereallylikedmygift.
*)ALS,alsoknownasAmyotrophiclateralsclerosis,isaformofmotorneurondisease.(readmoreon:
http:/en(dot)Wikipedia(dot)org/wiki/Amyotrophic_lateral_sclerosis)
EndNotes:
A/N:Sowhatdidyouthink?Wasitlikeyouexpected?
IcantbelievesomeofyouactuallythoughtIwouldkillBella!
*Getsonmykneesandbeg,Pleasereviewandgivemeyourthoughtsandideas.*
IhaveopenedupaforumonTwilighted,soifyou'reinterestedindiscussingthisstory,
liketheirfirstkiss,you'rewelcome!
Whatwasyourfirstkisslike?
NextupdatewillbeeitheronSundayorWednesday!
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Firstofall:THANKYOUforallthereviews,andcondolences.Theymeantalot.
Also,itwassofunnytoreadaboutyourfirstkissestheysoundedsosweet,allofthem!
Therewereafewofyouwhofoundthequoteinthelastchapter.ItwasfromTitanic:
Awomansheartisadeepoceanofsecrets.
Letsseeifyoucanfindthequoteinthischapter.ItnotfromTwilight,itsfrom
anothermovie.Adrama,Ithink.
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforallyourideas!
**PLEASEREADBOTTOMA/N**
Birthday
BPOV
WhenEdwardhadopenedthedoorIcouldntbelievewhatIhadseen.EsmeandCarlislewerestandingthere
withthecutestdogIhadeverseen.Ithadapinkbowwrappedarounditsneck,soIhadahunchthatitwasfor
me.IstillhadtoaskEdward,though,justincase.Iwastoohappytocareaboutmyreaction,andIthink
Edwardenjoyeditanyway.
CanIholdit?Iasked,whenIcamedownfromEdwardsarms.
Sureyoucan.Itsyourdogafterall.
Esmebroughtthedogtomeandgavemeakissonmyforehead.Happybirthday.
Thankyousomuch,Itoldhersincerely.
ThankEdward.Weonlypickeditupandboughtsomeoftheaccessories.Shesmiled,andsodidCarlisle.
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Wefiguredyoucouldneedsomehappiness,andbyjudgingyourreactionithasdoneitspurpose,Carlisle
said.
Thankyou.Icouldntthankthemenoughforthis.
Ilookeddownatmydog.ItappearedtobesomekindofwhitePug,andhowEdwardcouldhaveknown
exactlywhatkindofdogIwantedamazedme.Itsalotsmaller,though,andtheeyesaresobigtoitslittlehead.
ItsreallythecutestdogIveeverseen.
IcantbelieveyourememberedIsaidtoEdward.IthadbeentwomonthssinceIhadtoldhimthatI
wantedadogifIcouldhaveanythingintheworld.
LikeIwouldforgetsomethinglikethat.Plus,yousaidthatyoufeellonelysometimes.Hestrokedthedogs
head.Bytheway,itsashe.
WesaidourgoodbyestoCarlisleandEsmewithapromisetomeetupagainsoon.Itwasgettinglate,soIdidnt
evenbothertotellEdwardtoslowdownonourwaybacktoSeattle.Itdidntreallymatter,becauseIfeltsafe
withhimandIwantedtogethomeasquicklyaspossible,too.
Iwasalmostasleepwhenasuitablenameformydogpoppedupinmyhead.
"Elsa,"Isaid,lookingdownather.
Idon'tknowwhereIgotthenamefrom,shejustlookedlikean'Elsa',andshedidntseemtoobject.
"What?"Edwardasked,butdidn'tturnhisfocusofftheroad.
HelookedsosexywhiledrivingIhadneverthoughtmuchofituntilnow.MaybeitwasbecauseIhadbeen
lookingathiminadifferentwaysincewekissed.Ihadnoideaaboutwhatourfuturewouldbehold,though,
anditscaredme.
"I'mnamingherElsa,"Iexplained.
"Whywouldyouputherthroughthat?"
"Whatdoyoumeanby'putherthroughthat'?"
"Theotherdogswillpickfunofherbecauseofthename.She'sapuppyandnotanoldlady."
Somehow,thatfeltlikeapunchinthegut.Idon'tknowwhy,becauseitwasn'tlikehehadpickedfunofmein
highschool,hehadjustbeenmeantome.Itstillhurt,though.
"Well,thenIguesswe'llhavesomethingtoincommontotalkaboutthenmeanpeople,"Ishotathim.
"Fuck,"hecursed."Ididn'tmeanitlikethat,Bella.I'msorryit'sjustthatElsaisanameIassociatewithanold
lady,that'sall."
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Ijustlookedoutthewindow.Ididn'twanttoarguewithhim,Iwastoohappyabouttheoutcomeofthisday.
"It'syourdogandyoucannameherwhateveryouwant.Iwon'tsayanotherwordaboutiteveragain,okay?"
hetriedwhenIstillhadn'tsaidanything.
"Yes,yougotherforme,butshesourdogandIwantyouropinion,Edward.Ijustdon'twanttobereminded
fromyouabouthighschool...andI'mnamingherElsa."
Westayedsilentforawhile.Ihadalreadyforgivenhimforhisslip,butIdidnthaveanythingtosay.The
silencewerentawkward,soIdidntmind.IwasalmostasleepagainwhenEdwardspoke.
Whatarewegoingtodoabouttherules?heasked.
Idontknow.Iseriouslydidntknow.AllIknewwasthatIlikedkissinghimandwouldntminddoingit
again.Ihadnoideaofwhatarelationshipwouldmean,andwhathewouldexpectofme.
Doyouwantmorethanwehadbeforethekissing,ordoyouwanttogobacktowhatwewerethen?
AllIknowisthatIwanttokissyouagain.Idontknowanythingaboutbeingsomeonesgirlfriendorwife,I
admitted.
Itsokay.Wecantakethisasslowasyouwantto,baby.Ifyouwanttokissme,thenkissme.
Ilikethesoundofthat.
DoesthatmeanIcankissyouwheneverIwantaswell?heaskedcarefully.
Yeah,youcan.Ihadlikedhissweetspontaneouskissesonmycheekbefore,sotherewasnoreasonforme
tosayno.
IlookeddownatElsainmylap.Shewassleeping,andwatchinghersleepsomehowmademeevenmoretired.
ImusthavefallenasleepafterallbecausethenextthingIknewwashearingEdwardssoftvoice.
Bella,werehomesoyouneedtowakeup.
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No,Imtootired,Imanagedtowhisper.
Iheardhimchucklequietlybeforesaying,Icantcarryyou,Elsa,andallourstuffinthebackseat,soplease
wakeupforafewminutes.
Fine,butonlybecauseyouaskedsonicely.Myvoicewasthickwithsleep,anditmademewonderhowlong
Ihadbeensleeping.
Ilookedovertotheclockonthedashboard,itshowedthatitwasfourteenminutespastmidnightwhichmeantI
musthavebeensleepingforatleasttwohours.
ImsorryIwasntabettercompany,Iapologized.
Dontworryaboutit.Youreverycutewhenyousleep.Hesmirked.
WestayedoutsideforafewminutessothatElsacoulddoherbusinessbeforewewentuptoourapartment.
Iwasalmosttootiredtostandupstraight.LuckilyformeEdwardwastheretosupportme,eventhoughwe
bothhadthingsoccupyingourarms.
Elsawashappytoseehernewhomeandranstraightforthekitchenandthelivingroom.IgroanedbecauseI
definitelyhadnoenergytochaseafterher.
Illgether.YougoandgetreadyforbedandIllbewithyouinaminute,Edwardoffered.
Thankyou,Isaid,andwenttothebathroom.
AfterIwasdonebrushingmyteethIsteppedoutofmydressandputonEdwardstshirt.Iwasonceagain
remindedofthefactthatIneededtowashit,butIwastootiredtocare.
WhenIsteppedoutofthebathroom,EdwardhadsetupElsasbedbythewindowandhadchangedoutofhis
clothestohisboxers.
Iwasnttootiredtoenjoytheview.Itdisappearedalittletoosoonformyliking,though,whenEdwardwent
intothebathroom.
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Isighedandcrawledintothebed.IdidntfallasleepassoonasIhitthepillow,likeIthoughtIwould.InsteadI
justlaythere,staringupattheceiling.AfterawhileIfeltthebedshift.
Holdme,ItoldEdward,andmademywayovertohim.
Hejusthuggedmetohischest.Goodnightandhappybirthday.
DoyoumindifIgiveyouagoodnightkiss?Iasked,andlookedathim.
Youdonthavetoask,baby.
Icarefullybroughtmylipstomeethis.Itwasjustaquickkiss,butitwasenoughtowakethebutterfliesinmy
stomach.
Goodnight,Isaidwhenwebrokeapart.
Itwasreallyhardtogetupafteronlyfivehoursofsleep,butElsahadherownwayinsayinggoodmorningso
Ifinallymadeitup.HerkisseswerentasgoodasEdwards,though.
Iquicklygrabbedashowerandthrewonasimplepairofblackjeans,awhitetanktopandagreycardigan.I
wastootiredtocareaboutwhatIlookedlike,eventhoughitwasmybirthday.
Comeon,Elsa!Letsgoforawalk,Isaid,andputonherleash.Edward,IlljusttakeElsaoutsideforafew
minutes.
Hehadjustgottenupfrombedandhadthatsexy,sleepylook.Hehadhisclothesinhishands,sohewas
probablyonhiswaytotakeashower.
Okay,Illfixussomebreakfastaftermyshower.Hesteppedovertomeandgavemeaquickkissonmy
mouth.Happybirthday.
Howmanytimesareyougoingtosaythat?Ismiled.
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Yourebirthisdefinitelysomethingtocelebrate,sodonttellmetostop.
HeshutthebathroomdoorbeforeIgotthechancetoargueaboutthat.
IjustwalkedElsaaroundtheblock.Shedidntseemtoneedamuchlongerwalk,whichwasgoodbecauseI
didntexactlyhavetimeformuchmore.
WhenIwalkedthroughourfrontdoor,Iwashitbythesmellfromthecoffee.Itsmelledwonderful,soI
releasedElsafromherleashandwentstraighttothekitchenandpouredmyselfabigcup.
Yourealifesaver,ItoldEdwardwhenIhadtakenthefirstsip.
Doyouwanttohavelunchwithmetoday?
ItsMonday.Iwasconfused.WeonlyatelunchtogetheronthedaysIworkedfromhome.
Yeah,butitsyourbirthday.Hesmiledatme.Iwanttotakeyououtsomewherenice.Justthetwoofus,
becausetonightwewontbealone.
Likesomethingromantic?
Notifyoudontwantto.WecouldgotoMcDonaldsifthatswhatyouwant.
Surpriseme,butIdontwantanythingromantic.Justsomethingcasual,Isaid,andthrewthelastofmycoffee
inthesink.
Iwenttograbmybagandblackballetflats.Isawoneofmyscarveshangingbytheshoes,soIputitonto
makemyoutfitalittleclassier.
Areyoureadytogo?EdwardaskedwhenIgotbacktothekitchen.
Yeah.Canwedrivemycartoday?
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Why?WhatswrongwiththeVolvo?
Nothing,butitsmybirthday.IsmirkedbecauseIknewhewouldgiveupwhenImentionedthat.
Fine,butonlybecauseitisyourbirthday.
Edwardwasfairlyquietallthewaytohisoffice.Iknewhewasnthappyaboutbeingseeninapinkcar,butI
didntcarebecauseIlovedthiscar.
Illcomebyyourofficearoundoneoclock,Isaidwhenwepulledup.
Okay.CanIhaveagoodbyekiss?Ismiledandnodded.
Heleanedoverthecentreconsoleandbroughthislipstomine.Hesuckedonmybottomlip,andIonhistop
lip.ItwasjustasgoodasIrememberedittobe.
Bye,hewhisperedagainstmylips.
Illseeyousoon.
HegotoutofthecarandIcontinuedovertomyoffice.Mylipsstilltastedlikehim,andtheytingledwhich
mademesmiletomyself.
Roughweekend?Angela,myassistant,askedwhenIwalkedintomyoffice.
Huh?IwasstilllostinmythoughtssoIdidntunderstandwhatshemeant.
Youlookunusuallytiredtoday.Shesmiled.
Oh,yeah.WewereataweddingyesterdayanddidntgetbacktoSeattleuntilaftermidnight.
Iloveweddings!Shehadfollowedmeandwasnowstandinginfrontofmydesk.Hopefullyitwontbea
roughday.YouhaveafewmanuscriptstolookoverbeforehandingthemovertoAro.Thenyouhavetoattend
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thestaffmeetinginanhour.Otherthanthat,itshouldbeaneasyday.
Thankyou,Angela.
Shewasright.ThedaywentprettysmoothlyandafterafewmorecupsofcoffeeIwasfinallyfeelingmore
awake.BothRoseandAlicehadsentmeatexttowishmeahappybirthdayandthatwewouldseeeachother
tonight.
BeforeIknewit,itwastimeformetogetbacktoEdwardsofficeforourlunch.Iwasfeelinglikeateenage
girlthathadahugecrushonacelebrity.InthiscaseIwastheteenagegirlandEdwardwasmybigcrush.
Maybehewas.
Hi,Bella!TanyagreetedmewhenIsteppedoutoftheelevator.
Hi.IsEdwardaround?
Hesinameeting,buttheyshouldwrapupinanyminutenow.Youcouldwaitinhisofficeifyoudlike,she
offered.Istartedwalkingtowardshisdoorwhenshestoppedme.Bythewayhappybirthday.
Icouldntbelievehehadtoldheritwasmybirthday.Itriedtosmileagenuinesmileandsaidathankyou
beforeclosingthedoorbehindme.
ItsnotlikeIdidntappreciatethatpeoplerememberedmeonmybirthday,itwasjustannoyingtohearthe
samethingoverandover.
Iwalkedovertohisofficechairandsatdown.Itwasalotmorecomfortablethanmine.Hiswholeofficewasa
lotbetterthanmine.Ileanedbackinthechairwhensomethingonhisdeskcaughtmyeye.
There,byhiscomputerwasapictureofme.ItwasoneofthepicturesRosehadtakenforherportfolio.My
hairwasabigmesswithcurlsandIhadonablackdress.ItwasacloseshotandIwaslookingstraightintothe
camera,buteverythinginmyfacewasfadedbythesunthatshowndirectlyintothecamera.
EvenIhadtoadmitthatitwasabeautifulpicture.Rosewasareallygoodphotographer.Icouldntunderstand
howEdwardhadgottenhishandsonthispicture,though.
Imsosorry,baby.ThemeetingwentonlongerthanIthought,Edwardsaidashewalkedintotheroom.
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Wheredidyougetthis?Iasked,butdidntlethimanswerbeforeaskingmynextquestion,Andhowdid
yoursecretaryknowthattodayismybirthday?
IgotthepicturefromRosalie,andTanyaknowsitsyourbirthdaybecauseshehelpedmelocateyour
present.
Howcomehealwayshastheperfectanswertoeverything?
Whywouldyouwantapictureofmeonyourdesk?
Becauseyouremywife.Ivegotoneinmywallet,too.
ButIdonthaveoneofyou?Ifhewasgoingtohaveapictureofmeonhisdesk,Iwantedoneofhimon
mine.
Thatcanbearranged.
Okay.
Yeah.Comeon,Iwanttotakeyouout.
HetookmetoanewopenedItalianrestaurantcalledLaBellaItalia.Itwasnothingtooromanticorfancy,it
wasperfectforus.ThehostesskeptstaringatEdwardlikeshewantedtoeathim.Ididntblameher,becauseI
probablywould,too,ifIwereinhershoes,buthewasherewithmeandhewasmine.
Wewereseatedbythewindow.Edwardkeptstaringatmeanditannoyedmebecausehedidntsayanything,
hejuststared.
What?DoIhavesomethinginmyface?Iaskedeventually.
No,yourejustsosexywhenyourejealous.Hesmirked.
Imnotjealous,Idefendedmyself.
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Howdidhenoticethatanyway?
Ifyousayso.
Thewaitresscamethenandshewasactingjustlikethehostess,ifnotworse.
WhatcanIgetforyou?sheaskedEdward,notevenlookingatme.
Bella?Helookedatmeforananswer.
Iscannedthemenuagainandthengavehermyanswer,Mushroomravioliandadietcoke.
Isthateverything,miss?sheasked.
ItsMrs.,andyes,thatseverything.
Makethattwo,Edwardsaid,andthewaitressleftwithasmiletowardshim.Yourenotjealousatall,are
you?
Smartass.
Eventhoughthestaffwereabunchofbitches,thefoodwasreallygood,soImadeamentalnotetoremember
thenameofthisplacemaybetheydidtakeout.
Edwardpaidthecheckoncewehadfinishedeating.Idroppedhimoffbackathisofficewithapromisetopick
himupagainafterIfinishedwork.
Didyouforgettotellmesomething?AngelaaskedwhenIgotback.
No,why?
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Theresabigbouquetofpinkrosesonyourdesk.
What?Iasked,andwenttomyoffice.
Shewasright,thereonmydeskwastheflowersshehadbeentalkingabout.Iwentovertoreadthecardthat
wasattached.
Happybirthday,Bella!
Theyrenotasbeautifulasyouare,
buttheyhadtodo.
Illseeyousoon.
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Whatdoesitsay?Angelaaskedcuriously.
Ihandedherthecard,itwasnotlikeIhadsomethingtohide.
Happybirthday!Whydidntyoutellme?
Idontknow,IguessIgotenoughattentionfromeveryoneelse
Wegotbacktoworkafteradmiringtheflowers.Ifinishedgoingthroughthemanuscriptsfortherestoftheday,
soitwentbyreallyquickly.IpickedEdwardupatfiveoclock,andthegirlsweresupposedtoarrivearound
six.Itdidntgivememuchtimetogetready,butsinceitwouldjustbecasualitdidntreallymatter.
Thankyoufortheflowers,Isaidwhenheclimbedintothecar.
Yourewelcome.HegavemeakissbeforeIdroveushome.
IquicklywalkedElsaaroundtheblockwhenwegothome.Ididnthavetimeforashower,butIwasntreally
dirtyandIhadonethismorning.
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Areyousureyoullbeokaywiththegirlstonight?Edwardaskedwhenhewasonhiswayouttomeetup
withtheguys.
Yes!Illbeokay.ItsjustAliceandRose.Nowgoifyoudontwanttogetstuckherewiththemallnight.
ThatwouldmeanIwouldbestuckwithyou,too.
Edward,Isaidinawarningtone.
Fine.Atleastgivemeakiss.Hepoutedwhichmadehimlooklikeabigbaby.
Ismiledthen,becauseitwashardtostayannoyedwithhimwhenhewassoadorable.Hebentdowntocapture
mylipswithhis.EdwardslipsweretotallysomethingIcouldntgetenoughof.Hemovedhislipswithmine
forafewminutes.Wedidntexactlyhavetimetodeepenit,butthiswasbetterthannothing.
IguessIshouldgetgoing,hesaidwhenwebrokethekiss.
Yeah.
Callmeifyouneedanything.
Sure.Bye,Isaid,andclosedthedoorbehindhim.
AliceandRosecambyabouttenminutesafterEdwardhadleft.
Happybirthday!theyscreamedandpulledmeintoasandwichhug.
Thankyou.
Whentheyweredonehuggingme,wewenttothekitchentogetsomethingtodrink.
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WhatcanIgetforyou?Wehavecoke,beerandorangejuice.Thenthereswaterifyouwouldpreferthat.
Illhavesomeorangejuice,Rosesaid,andpattedherstomach.
Imupforabeer,Alicesaid,andbothRoseandIlookedatherlikeshehadgrownasecondhead.Ina
glass,please.
ItwasnotlikeAlicetodrinkbeer,butIguessyoucouldchangeyourmind.
Okay,Isaid,andturnedbacktothefridgetogetthedrinksandabeerforme,too.Ihadntlikedbeerbefore
either,butsinceImovedinwithEdwardthathadchanged.
Wecansitoutonthebalconyifyoudlikesinceitsstillwarmoutside.Ihandedthemboththeirdrinksand
wewentoutside.
Wow!Lookatthisview!Youreoneluckygirl,Bella,Alicesaid,andwenttotherailing.
Yeah,justdontfalldown.
Wheresthatdogofyours?Roseaskedwhenwesatdown.
HowdidsheknowIgotadogformybirthday?
Yougotadog?!Alicescreamed.
Yeah,andhowdidyouknowaboutthat?IturnedtolookatRose.
Ohum,Edwardkindofaskedmewhatkindofdogyouwereinterestedin.
Thatwouldexplainhowheknewthat.
IgotuptogograbElsafromourbedroom.Shewasstillsleepingfromherlongafternoonwalk,butshewoke
upwhenIbroughtheruptomyarms.
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Girls,mayIintroduceyoutoElsa,IsaidwhenIwalkedbackoutside.
OhmyGod.ThatsthecutestandmostdifferentlookingdogIveeverseen.Alicesteppedoverto
metogetacloserlook.
Yeah.IthinkshesaPugorsomething.Iwasntsure,butshelookedlikeone.
ShesamixbetweenaPugandaChihuahua.Rosesteppedin.Whenshesawmyconfusedlook,she
explainedfurther,ItoldEdwardyouwantedaPug,buthesaidtheymadesuchstrangenoises,sowedecided
onamixbetweenthetworaces.
Oh.Thatexplainedwhyshewassosmall.
Wesatdownatthetableandtalkedforawhile.Therewassomuchgoingoninourlivesrightnow,especially
withRoseandthebaby.
So,hasyourmomcalledyoubackyet?Roseaskedme.
Yeah.Shesstillalittlebummedovertheweddingsinceshewasnttheretoseeme,butIthinkshellgetover
itintime.
Mymomhadcalledmetwoweeksafterourlastphonecall.Ithadtakensometimetocalmherdown,but
eventuallyIdidandsheagreedtocometoSeattletomeetEdwardbeforeChristmas.
Hasshecalledtowishyouahappybirthday?
No,butsheprobablywilltomorrow.Sheusuallycallsthedayafterforsomereason.Ithasbeenlikethisfor
thelastcoupleofyears.
Ithinkitstimeforpresents!Aliceranbackinside.
Igroaned.IthoughttheyknewmebetterthantothinkIwantedanypresents.
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Justhumorus,please,RosepleadedwhenAlicesteppedbackoutside.
Fine.
So,thisiskindofapeaceoffering.IknowyouvebeensomewhatmadatmeforwhatIdidtoyouinVegas.
Imsorry,andIwantmyBellaback,Alicesaid,andhandedmeabig,butflatbox.
FinallytheapologyIvebeenwaitingfor!
Apologyaccepted.Iopenedtheboxandtherewasawhitelacedress.Ipickeditup.Itwasreallybeautiful,
butitlookedveryexpensive.
Imadeitforyou.Wedidbuytheshoes,though,butwedidsharetheprice.
Ilookedbackintothebox,andsureenough,therewereapairofblackLouboutinankleboots.Wow,thank
yousomuch.Iloveit.
Well,goonthen,putiton.Youcanmatchitwithapairofblackpantyhoseifyoudlike.
ThatswhenInoticedthattheyhaddressesonaswell.
Whereareyoutakingmetonight?Iasked,worried.
Weretakingyououttodinner,thatsallwecansay.Nowgo!Alicesaid,andwavedmeoffwithherhands.
Iwasreallyexcitedabouttryingthedresson,soIquicklywentthebedroomtochange.Itfittedmeperfectly,
butitwasalittlebittooshortsoIdidasAlicehadsuggestedandputonapairofblackpantyhose.
Ilookedmyselfoverinthemirror,andImustadmitthatIlookedsexy.ThatswhyIdidnthaveanyobjections
towearittonight.Ideservedtofeelsexythisnightitwasmybirthdayafterall.
Wow,Edwardsgoingtojizzhispants,Alicesaid,andletoutalowwhistlewhenIwentbacktothemonthe
balcony.
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Yougotthatright.
Aftergushingsomemoreabouthowgorgeousthedresswas,wewentontalkingaboutthebaby.Wewereall
soexcitedaboutit,eventhoughitssixmonthsaway.
Thenwewentontalkingaboutsomethingcompletelydifferentsex.
So,howisEdwardinbed?
Whydoeseveryonewantstoknowhowgood,orbadheisinbed?!Iyelled.FirstEsmeandnowyou
guys!
Esmewantedtoknowaboutyoursexlife?Aliceasked,shocked.
Yeah,anditsnotsomethingIeverwanttolivethroughagain.
Cantyoupleasejusttellussomethingforthebabyssake,Rosepleaded.
Whatdoesoursexlifehastodowithyourbaby?Iasked.Itdidntmakesenseatall.
ItalwaysworkswithEmmetttobringupthebabywhenIwantsomethingIthoughtitwouldworkonyou,
too.
Well,ImnotEmmett,andImnottelling.NomatterhowmuchIlovethebaby.
Yourenotfair.Wegiveyouallkindsofdetailsofours.Alicepouted.
Idontaskyouto,soifyoudontwanttotellmeitsfinebyme.
Ididnttellthemanything,becauseIcouldhearEdwardswordsabouthowitsnoneoftheirbusiness.Like
always,hesright.
Hey,Iknow!Letsmesswiththeguysalittle!Rosehadthatevilsmirkonherface.Iwascuriousandscared
aboutwhatshewasthinkingatthesametime.
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What?
Letscalloneofthemandtellthemtobuysomefeminineproductsontheirwayoverhere.
Ooh,Ilikewherethisisgoing,Alicesaid,andthentheybothlookedatme.
CallEdward.
Why?Iaskedwarily.
Becauseyouneedtotellhimtopickupsometamponsforyou
AndIneedanewlipstickAlicecontinued.
AndIneedsomehairspray,Rosefinished.
Whywouldyouneedthatnow?Cantyoujustbuythatstufftomorrow?Iwasntfollowingwheretheywere
goingwiththis.
Wedontactuallyneeditwejustwanttomesswiththem.SocallEdwardandtellhimtobuyyousome
tampons,andthentellhimtotellJasperandEmmetttopickupwhatweaskedfor.
Whycantyoucalltheminstead?
BecauseRoseandIvoted,andyoulost,Alicesaid.
Thatsnotfair!Iexclaimed.
"Comeon,Bella.It'slikeaguy'sdutytopickupsomethinglikethatatleastonce.Especiallywhenyou're
married,"Rosereasoned.
"Yeah,Jasperhasalreadydoneitafewtimesalready,"Alicesaid.
"Well,you'veknowneachothersincehighschool.It'snotthesamething,"Iargued.
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"Technicallyyou'veknownEdwardsincehighschool,too."
"Fine,"Ihuffed.
Howhardcanitbeexactly?Maybeitcouldbefuntomesswiththem.
InervouslydialedEdward'snumber.It'snotlikeIwasnervousabouttalkingtohimperse,itwasjustthe
requestIwasnervousabout.ItwasprobablyjustlikeRosesaid,andalmosteverywifeorgirlfriendhaddoneit
atleastonce.Ihadn'tthoughIwastooembarrassedaboutit.
Edwardpickeduponthefourthsignalwhichwasodd,becauseitusuallyonlytookhimtwosignalsorlessfor
himtoanswer.
"Hi,baby.Doyoualreadyneedtobesaved?"Hechuckledsoftly.
"No,that'snotwhyIcalledummcouldyoupickupsometamponsonyourwayoverhere?"
"What?"
I'msurehehadheardmeperfectlyfine,butIsaiditoncemoreanyway,"Couldyoubuymesometamponson
yourwayhome?"
"Can'twejuststopbythestoreonourwayhomefromtherestaurantinstead?"Iknewhedidn'twanttodoit,
andIdidn'tblamehim.
"Ineedthemnow,beforewego."
Pleasejustsay'yes'sowecanendthisveryembarrassingconversation!
Heexhaledadeepsigh,andIcouldpicturehimrubbinghisfacewithhisfreehand,whichhedidalmostevery
timeIgotmywayandhedidn'tcompletelyagree.
"Fine,whatkinddoyouwantmetobuy?"
Shit!Ofcoursehewouldwanttoknowthat.
IalwaysboughtthesmallestIcouldfindanddidn'tcareabouttherest.
"Um...justbuythesmallestones,theywouldprobablybefine."
"Okay,I'llseeyousoon,then."
Wait!AlicewantedyoutotellJaspertopickupalipstickwhileyoureatthestore,andRosewantssome
hairspray.
Whatarewe?Yourpersonalshoppers?
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Please?Forme?Ihopedhecouldhearthepoutinmytone.Rosewasrightthiswaskindoffunnybut
embarrassing.
Fine!Butyouowemeafterthisone.
Thankyou,Edward.
EPOV
Ihungupthephoneandstaredatit.Thiswasnotgoingtobeeasy.Ihadneverinmylifeboughtagirl
tampons.NotevenKate,whoIdatedforalmosttwoyears.IvebeenmarriedtoBellafortwomonthsandshe
alreadywantsmetodothis.
Didsomeonedie,orsomething?Emmettasked.
Um,no.Atleastnotanythingexceptmymanhood.Isighed.
Pleasetellmeshecalledyoutotellyounosexforaweek!
No,sheaskedmetobuytampons.IloweredmyvoicebeforeIsaidthelastword.Wewereatabar,andI
didntwanteveryonetohear.
Thatsnotsobad.IvedoneitforAliceacoupleoftimes,Jaspersaid.
Good,becauseyouaregoingtohelpme.Besides,AlicewantedlipstickandRosewantedhairsprayI
think.
Oh,comeon!Thatsjustembarrassing.Emmettslammedhisfistonthetable.
Tellmeaboutit.Letsgetthisoverwith,Isaid,andgotup.
Jasperdroveustotheneareststore.IcouldntbelieveIwasabouttodothis.TherewasntmuchIwouldntdo
forBella,andthiswasjustanotherthingIwoulddo.
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Whythehellcouldntshejustsaywhatbrandshewanted?!Emmettsaidloudly.Wewerestandinginfrontof
theshelfwithhairproducts.
Thatwouldvebeentooeasy,Jasperanswered.
Maybesinceshehasverylonghair,shewantsthestrongholdone?IhadnoideawhatIwastalkingabout,
butitmadesense.IguessEmmettthoughtso,too,sincehegrabbedtheoneIhadsaid.
Ifthisdoesntworkforher,shecanbuyherowndamnhairspray,hemutteredandwalkedaway.
Dude,stopcomplaining.Ihaveitalotharderthanyou,Jaspersaid,andgesturedwithhishandsinfrontof
him.
Sureenough,thereweretonsofmakeupandprobablyahundreddifferentcolorsoflipstick.
Cantyoujusttakeaprettycolor?Thatseasy,Emmetsaid.
No,becauseifitdoesntmatchherskintone,Iwontbehavingsexforatleastaweek.
Ifeelsorryforyou.Ipattedhisshoulderandhelpedhimlook.
WhydoIgetthisfeelingthatthisissomekindoftest?Emmettwondered.
Becauseitprobablyis.
Jaspersettledforalightpinklipstick.Hemutteredsomethingaboutneedingtorememberwhattogetuntilnext
time.
Wewentovertothetampons.ItwaslikeajunglefulloffeminineproductsIveneverheardofbefore.Who
knewtherecouldbesomanytypesandbrandstochoosefrom?
Didshejustgetherperiod,orhasshehaditforafewdays?Jasperasked.
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HowthehellamIsupposedtoknow?!
Youreherhusband,youshouldknow,hereasoned.
Haveyougottenlaidinthelastcoupleofdays?Emmettasked.Ijustlookedathim,becausethatwasnoneof
hisbusiness.Relax.Iwasjustaskingbecauseifyouhavent,thenshehasprobablyhaditforafewdays.
IcantbelievewearestandingherediscussingBellasperiod.
Ifshehasnt,thentheseonesworkbetterhehandedmeaboxbutifshesattheend,thenyoushouldget
theseones.
Ijustshookmyhead.Icouldntbelievehowtheybothknewsomuchaboutthis.Shejusttoldmetogetthe
smallestones.
Whydidntyoutellusthatalittlesooner?!Emmettaskedloudly.
Youdidntask.Ishruggedmyshoulders.Andhowcomeyouknowsomuchaboutthisstuff?
Yearsofpractice,man.
Here,Jaspersaid,andhandedmeyetanotherbox.Letsgetgoing.
Thecahierlookedfunnyatuswhenwepaidfortheitems.Iwouldprobably,too,becauseIhadtoadmitit
lookedfunnythatthreeguysboughtonlywomenproducts.
WhenwegotbacktomyapartmentweweremetbyAliceandRose,butBellawasnowheretobeseen.
Hi,Rose.Yourelookinggreat,Itoldher,andgaveherahugwhenEmmettreleasedher.Howsmy
Godson?
Howcomeyouguysaresosurethatitsaboy?sheasked.
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IlookedovertoEmmettandJasper,buttheyjustshruggedtheirshoulders.Emmettlookedlikehehadnteven
thoughtaboutthatitactuallycouldbeagirl.
Boys,Alicesaid,shakingherhead.Ithinkitsagirl.
Okay,enough.Itllbewhateverheorshedecidestobe.Now,weneedtogobeforeIstarvetodeath.Rose
touchedherstomachwhileshespoke.
Bellastillhadntmadeherappearance.DoyouknowwhereIcanfindBella?
Shesaidsheneededtousethebathroom,somaybeshesinthere.
IwenttoourbedroomtoseeifIcouldfindher.Shewasntinthere,though,soIgentlyknockedonthe
bathroomdoor.
Bella?
Illbeoutinaminutesheanswered.
Iwenttositdownonthebedtowaitforher.Elsawaslyinginthemiddleofthebed,sleeping,soIgentlysat
downonBellasside.Istillhadthebagfromthestoreinmyhand,soIputitonhernightstand.JustasIhadput
itdown,IheardthedooropenandBellacameout.
Shewasasusualbeautiful,buttherewassomethingabouthertonightthatmadeherfuckinggorgeous.Shehad
onawhitelacedress.Itwenttomidthighandthearmsofthedresswenttoherelbows.Itlookedlikeacold
dress,especiallyforBellasinceshewasalwayscold,butIguessthatswhysheworeblackpantyhoseaswell.
Whenshesawmyreaction,shemadeagracefultwistandIlostmybreathonceagain.Thedresshadacuton
thebacksohershoulderbladeswereshown.Herhairwasputupinsomekindofponytail,probablytoshow
offhergorgeousback.
Wow,Imanagedtosay.
Well,thankyou.Alicemadeitformeasabirthdaypresent,shesaid,andwalkedovertome.
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Youshouldgiveherathankyou,then.
Ialreadyhave.
Shewasnowstandingrightinfrontofme.Ispreadmylegssothatshecouldgetcloser,andsothatIcouldgive
herahugandakiss.Shehadntputonhershoesyet,soshewastheperfectheight.
Iputmyarmsaroundherwaisttogethercloser,andsheautomaticallybroughtherfacedowntomine.We
slowlymovedourlipstogether,neitherofustriedtodeepenit.Iguesswebothfeltthatitwaswrongsincewe
hadguestsontheothersideofthedoor.
YoureluckyIdidntputanylipglosson,Bellasaidwhenwebrokethekiss.
Yeah,thatwouldvebeenmessy.
Whatsinthebag?Shepointedatthebagonhernightstand.
That,baby,isyourrequestedtampons.IwasactuallyproudthatIhadmanagedtogetthemforher,evenifit
probablywerethewrongones.
Youactuallyboughtthemforme?
Well,yeah.Youtoldmetodoit,sowhywouldntI?Iwasconfused.
Iamsosorry!Wewerejustmessingwithyouguys,Iwouldneveraskyoutobuythoseotherwise.
Ifiguredtherewassomethingupwiththerequestshehadmade.
Well,thankstothatIcanfromnowonbuytamponsforyouwheneveryouwantmeto.Iknowwhatsizeto
buyandwhentobuythem.
Shelaughedatthat.Imnotgoingtoputthatassignmentonyou,Edward.Howdidyoulearnallthat,
though?
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Apparentlyyoulearnalotwhenyouhavebeendatingthesamewomanforadecade.SonowIneedtoknow
thoseentirethingsaboutyou,too.
Thatwouldtakesometime.Shelaughed
Idontmind.
Well,Idoubtyouwouldwanttoknoweverydetailaboutmyperiod,shesaid,andshewasprobablyright.
Yeah,butIwanttoknowwhatkindoflipstickyouuse,orhairspray.
Thatseasy,Idontuselipstickandyoucouldjustcheckinthecabinetformyhairspray.
Thatsnotthesameasyoutellingme.
Later,shesaid,andbroughtherlipstomineforanotherkiss.
Weeventuallymadeitoutofthebedroom.Therestaurantwaslocatedjustaroundthecornersoweallwalked
there.Weweregreetedbyablondehairguy,wholookedatBellaalittlebittoomuchformyliking.
BellaSwan?heasked.
Um,no.ItsBellaCullennowadays,sheansweredshyly.
Itsme.MikeNewton.
Theyobviouslykneweachotherfrombefore,anditmademehatethisguyevenmore.
Couldwejustgetourtablenow,please?Itriedtocontrolmyangerorwasitjealousy?
Sure,rightthisway.AllthewhileheonlylookedatBella,liketherewerentfiveotherpeoplewithher.
Hereyougo.Illsendthewaitressover.
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Whowasthatguy,Bella?Iaskedherwhenwewereseated.
MikeNewton.
Yeah,Iheardhim.Buthowdoyouknoweachother?
Youresosexywhenyourejealous.Shesmirked.ItwasthesamelineIhadusedonherearlierwhenwehad
lunch.
HehadabigcrushonBellaincollege,butshebarelynoticedhim,Rosesnickered.
Hewaslikethisbigpuppy.Alwaysfollowingheraround,askingherout.Alicegiggledatthememory.
Didyoulikehim?IhadtoaskeventhoughIhatedbeingthisjealous.
Whatdoyouthink?Bellaaskedback.Hewaslikeanannoyinginsect.LikeIwoulddatesomeonelike
that.
Imglad.
Luckily,ourwaitresswasagirl.IdontthinkIcouldhandleanymoreguysstaringatmywife.Bellaobviously
feltthesamewayasshedidduringlunch,becauseshetookmyarmandplaceditoverhershoulder.Likeshe
wasmakingastatementtothewaitress.Shewasadorable.
Thedinnerpassedbyquickly.Itfeltnicetobeabletohangoutwitheveryone,evenifIlikedhavingBellaallto
myself.
Imjustgoingtograbasmoke,Illberightback,Isaid,gaveBellaaquickkissandgotupfromthetable.
Okay,hurryup,shesaid.
Ireallyneededthiscigarette.Ihadneededitbackatthestore,butIwantedtogethometoseeBellasobadlyI
hadskippedit.
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Iquicklyfinishedit,andwentbackinside.WhenIopenedthedoors,IwasmetbyMike.Only,hewasnt
lookingatme,hewasstaringatBella.
ItstimeIshowthatidiotwhoshebelongsto!
WiththatthoughtIwalkedfastovertoourtable,andassoonasIwasseatednexttoBella,Igrabbedherface
andgaveherahardkiss.Shewastoosurprisedtomoveherlipsatthebeginning,butthensheslowlystartedto
movethemwithmine.
Edward,what?sheasked,confused,whenIpulledback.
IdidntanswerherinsteadIlookedovertoMike.Hequicklylookedawaywhenhesawmelooking.
Unfortunately,Bellaseyeshadfollowedmine.
Whydidyoukissmelikethat,Edward?Hervoicewasstern.
Ineededtoshowhimwhoyoubelongto,Iexplained.
Imnotyourproperty!Shegrabbedhercoatandstormedoutoftherestaurant.
Iguessthatyoudontgetanysexforaweekafterall,Emmettsaid.
Ijustglaredathim,andgotupfrommyseataswell.IcouldhearthesmackhegotinhisheadfromRose.
IfoundBellastandingagainstthewall,breathingheavily.Imsorry,baby.
Dontbabyme,Edward!Youhadnorighttodowhatyoudidinthere!Shepointedtowardstherestaurant.
Iknow.ItsjustthatIdidntlikethewayhewaslookingatyou.
Okay,soIshouldgoallcavewomanonyoueverytimeagirllooksatyoulikeshewantstoeatyou?!
Iliketheimageofthat
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Imsorry,okay?Iwontdoitagain,Ipromise.
Iwouldliketohavethatinwriting,shemumbled.Westayedquietforawhile.Ididntwanttomakeher
evenmoreupsetbysayingsomethingstupid.
Ijustwanttogohome.ImtiredandIwanttogotobed,shesaidafterafewminutes.
Okay,letsjustsaygoodbyetotheother,andthenwecango.
IhopedshewouldletmesleepnexttohertonightafterwhatIdid
EndNotes:
A/N:So,whatdidyouthinkofherpresent?Someofyouguessedright.Iwasvery
impressed:)
**PLEASEREAD**
ThisweekSwedencelebratessomethingcalledMidsummer,soImaynotbeableto
postachapterthisweekend,butIwilltry.BecauseifIdont,youllhavetowait10
daysforanupdate,andthatsalittlebittoolong,right?
Also,attheendofJulyIwillbegoingtoWales/England(/London)for8days,sothere
willbeaskipintheupdatesthatweek.(Moreinfoonmyblog,http://gelixs.blogg.se)
BTW,doesanyoneknowifRobwillbehomethen?
you'rewelcome!
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:ThequoteIusedinchapter11wasfromthemovieCrossroads:
BecauseKitandIvoted,andyoulost.
Ihadmanygoodguesses,butthisonewaswhatIwaslookingfor!
Ihopethequoteiseasiertospotthistime,andwellseewhichoneofyouwhowillget
apreview!
IthinkIhadaconcussionwhenIwrotethefirstpart,butIhopeitsnottoobad..
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforyourwonderfulideas!
Disclaimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplot.PrincessSophia
belongstoHowtoloseaguyin10days.
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BPOV
WesatinBiologyworkingonasheetMr.Bannerhadgivenus.Edwardhadfinishedhisafewminutesago.He
wasleaningbackonhischairsohecouldtalktoJessica,whodidntgiveashitaboutherpaper.
IhadfinishedminerightafterEdwardhaddecidedtoblockmypathtotheteacher.Iwasnowtrappedbetween
thewindowandEdward.
Great!
Islumpeddowninmyseatandpretendedtocontinueworkingonmysheet.Iwastoomuchofacowardto
pushmywayinbetweenEdwardandJessica.Isatthereuntilmostoftheotherstudenthadturnedtheirpapers
in,andwerenowsitting,talkingtoeachotherandwaitingforthelessontocontinue.
IfiguredthatIreallyneededtoturnmypaperinaswelloritwillbemyfaultthatMr.Bannercouldntfinish
theclass.
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Slowly,IgotupfrommyseatandstoodrightbesideEdward.Ihopedhewouldnoticemeandletmethrough,
butIknewhimwellenoughtoknowthathewouldntletmegothateasy.
Istoodthereforaminuteortwo,buthepretendedtonotacknowledgedmeeventhoughIknewhecouldsee
me.
Iclearedmythroat,butnothinghappened.Ididthatthreemoretimes,andwhenhedidntrespondItriedto
pushhischairbacktoitsplaceandIactuallysucceeded.
IthinkhewastooshockedtounderstandwhatIhadjustdonesoIdidntgetanyresponse.Imadeitovertothe
teacherandhandedhimmyworksheet.
WhenIgotbacktoourseat,EdwardwasonceagainleaningbacktowardJessica.Thistimehenoticedme,
though.
My,my,arentyoualittlevixen?Hesmirked.ThatsgoodIlikemygirlstobealittlefeistyinbed.
Couldyoupleasejustmove,soIcangettomychair?Iaskedveryquietly.
Sorry,youneedtospeakup,becauseIcanthearyou,hesaidandbroughthishandtohiseartobeableto
hearbetter.
Please,Ibegged.
Jessicajustgiggledfromwhereshewassitting,andthatswhenIrealizedalmosteveryonearounduswas
watching.Angrytearsstartedburningbehindmyeyelids.
Aww,pleasetellmeyouarentgoingtocry!
IbitmyliphardbecausecryingwasthelastthingIwantedtodorightnow.IjustdidntunderstandwhatIhad
everdonetothesepeople!
Alittlecrybaby,areyou?JessicaaskedandlookedatEdwardtoseehisreactiontoherjoke.
Hedidntlaugh,orshowanyreactionatall.Hejuststaredmedownwithhisgreeneyes.ForaminuteI
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thoughtIsawpityinhiseyes,butitwasquicklyreplacedwithdefeatandheloweredhischairbacksoIcould
gettomyseat.
Isatquietfortherestoftheclass,barelypayinganyattentiontowhatMr.Bannersaidatall.IhadGymthe
nextperiodandthatwasnotbetterthanBiologyatall.
Edwardhasalittleadmire,buthedoesntevenknowsheexistsandIalmostfeelsorryforher.Almost.I
mean,hesminesotheresnotlikeshewouldhaveanychanceanyway,IheardJessicasvoicesaywhenI
enteredthechangingroom.
Whoisshe?oneoftheothergirlsasked.
BellaSwan.Icouldhearherbittertonewhenshesaidmyname.
Theothergirlsjustgiggled.
Isatuprightinthebed,gaspingforair.
Itwasjustadreamorrather,amemory.
ForsomereasonIwasnttiredanymore,eventhoughitwasonlyfourthirtyinthemorning.Edwardmusthave
wokenupbymysuddenmovement.
Areyouokay,baby?Hesoundedlikehewasstillhalfasleep.
Yeah,gobacktosleep.Hedid,withoutquestioningmefurther.
IfeltlikeIneededashowersoIquietlygotuptogotothebathroom.OnceinsideIslippedoutofmypanties
andthetshirtandgotintheshower.
Ifeltstinginginmyeyes,anditwasnotfromthewater.ItwasfromthetearsIgotfromthememory.Ipushed
themawaywithmyhand,butassoonastheyweregone,newonesreplacedthem.
ItwastheoldEdwardwhodidthat.ThenewEdwardwouldneverdosomethinglikethat!Iscoldedmyself.
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Eventuallythewaterstartedtogetcold,soIquicklyfinishedandsteppedout.Ihadntbroughtanyclotheswith
mesoIhadtosearchthroughthelaundrybasketforsomethingtowearforawhileuntilIcouldgetmyother
clothes.
Ifoundapairofsweats,anoldtshirtandoneofEdwardshoodies.Ibrushedmyhairandputitupinamessy
bun,anddriedmyfaceonceagain.
ItiptoedthroughourbedroomsoIwouldntwakeEdwardup,andquietlyclosedthedoorbehindme.Elsa
followedmeouttothekitchensoIfiguredImightaswelltakeheroutforawalkinsteadofjustsittinghere.
IleftanoteincaseEdwardwouldwakeupbeforeIgothome.
TookElsaoutforawalk.
Illbebacksoon!
Bella
ItookElsatotheparkthatwaslocatedafewblocksfromourapartmentbuilding.Eventhoughitcouldntbe
morethanfiveinthemorning,Imetahandfulofjoggerstheywereprobablyrunningtheirroundbeforework.
Theweatherhadcooledoffalittleduringtheweek,andashiverrandownmyspine.Iputmyhandsinthe
frontpocketsofthehoodietokeepthemwarm.Ihadnointentionsofstayingoutlong,Ijustneededtoclearmy
headfromthememoryIhadbeenrelivinginmydreams.
EPOV
Ihadwokenupinanemptybed.IrememberedBellawakingupearlier,butIhadntnoticedwhensheleft.I
hadgrabbedmyshowerasusual,figuringshewasjustwatchingTV,orsomething.
WhenIwasdressedandreadyfortheday,Inoticedhowquieteverythingwas.Unlessshewaswatchingon
mute,shecouldntpossiblybewatchingTV.IstartedtopanicsinceIknewshehadnothingplannedtoday.
WhenIwalkedoutofthebedroomInoticedthattherestoftheapartmentwascompletelydark.
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Wherecouldshepossiblebeatthishour?
BeforeIgotthechancetocallher,thefrontdooropenedandBellasteppedin.Shelookedtired,butthatwasno
surprisesinceshewasupsoearly.Theclothessheworemadeherlooksosmall.
IheardhersniffleandIwonderedifitwasfromthecold,orifshehadbeencrying.
Wherewereyou?Iasked.
ItookElsaoutforawalk.Ileftyouanotebythecoffeemachine.ShetookoffhershoesandreleasedElsa
fromherleash.
Oh.Youhadmeworriedthereforasecond.
Sorry.Shedidntsayanythingelsebeforeshewenttothebedroom.
Huh,Iwonderwhatthatwasabout.
Ithoughtshehadforgivenmeforwhathappenedattherestaurantonherbirthday.Thathadbeenfourdays
ago,andshehadactedlikeIwasforgivenduringthosedays,atleast.
Figuringshejustneededsometimealone,Iwenttothekitchentograbsomebreakfast.Elsafollowedmewhich
probablymeantshewantedfood.
Hey,girl!Youwantsomedisgustingdogfood?Iasked,fakingexcitement.Itcouldntbesatisfyingtoeatthe
samefoodallthetime.
Sheletoutasmallbark,soIguessshewanteditanyway.Ipouredsomeinherbowl,andthenwenttomake
somecoffeeformyself.IfoundBellasnote,justlikeshesaid,bythecoffeemachine.
WhenIwasdoneitwastimetogettowork,soIwenttothebedroomtosaygoodbyetoBella.Ifoundher
curleduponmysideofthebed,clutchingmypillow.AsIgotcloser,InoticedElsalyingcurleduprightnext
toher,sleeping.
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Theybothlookedadorable,andIwishedIhadacameraorsomething.Shestillhadonthesameclothesas
before,soshemusthavegonestraighttobed.
IwalkedaroundthebedsoIcouldfaceher.
Bella,Imgoingtoworknow,Itoldher,butallshedidwasclutchingthepillowtighter.Icouldnthelp
myselfbeforeIsaid,Iloveyou.
IhadntsaiditsinceourtriptoForks.Ididntwanttopressureherintosayingthingsshedidntmean.
Edward,shewhispered.
Yes,baby?Shedidntsayanythingelse,soshewasprobablystillasleep.
Ipressedmylipsgentlytoherpoutingones,beforeIleftherandElsa.
Thehoursbeforelunchwerehard.IcouldntconcentratesinceIcouldntstopthinkingaboutwhatIhaddone
toBella.MymindcameupblanksoIdecidedtoconfrontherwhenshecameoverforlunch.
Edward,Tanyasvoicesaidthroughtheintercom,Bellacalledtoaskyoutomeetherattherestaurantyou
tookhertoforherbirthday.
Whyhadntshecalledme?
IcheckedmyphonejustincaseIhadamissedcalled,buttherewasnone.
Edward?
Sorry,Tanya.Didshesayanythingelse?
No,justwhatItoldyou.
Okay,thankyou.
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IguessedIwouldhavetomeethertherethen,orIwouldntgettheanswersIwaslookingfor.Itwasstillan
houruntillunchsoItriedmybesttoconcentrateonwork.
BellawasalreadywaitingformewhenIarrivedattherestaurant.Shehadntseenme,soIsatforaminutein
mycarandwatchedher.
Shehadputonsomemoresuitableclotheswhichconsistedofapairofjeansandasimplehoodie.
EventuallyIleftmycarandwalkeduptoher.
Hi,Isaidandgaveherakiss.Areyoureadytogoinside?
Yeah.
Thistime,wehadanolderwaiter,whodidntbotherus.ItcouldnthavebeenbetterbecauseIreallyneededto
talktoherwithoutanyinterruptions.
Areyougoingtotellmewhatsbotheringyou?Iaskedherwhenwehadordered.
Nothing.Sheshruggedhershouldersandwentbacktofidgetingwithhernapkin.
ThenwhydidyoucallTanya,andnotme?
Iwantedtotalktoher.
Thatsbullshit,Bella,andwebothknowit!Youhatecallingpeopleyouhardlyknow.So,whydidyoucall
Tanya,andnotme?Itriedagain.
ThistimeIthoughtIbrokethroughtoherbecauseshelookedaway,justlikeshehadbeencaughtwithher
handinthecookiejar.
PleasetellmewhatIdidwrong.AreyoustillmadaboutwhatIdidonyourbirthdayattherestaurant?
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Noshesaid,shakingherhead,butstillnotlookingatme.
Thenwhatisit?
Shelookedatmewithapainfullookinhereyes.IdidntwanttosaysomethingtoyouthatImightregret
later.
Couldyoupleaseexplain?BecauseImnotfollowingyou.
IfItellyou,willyoupromisenottoapologize,orsaysorry,oranythinglikethat?Inoddedmyhead.Ihad
thisdream,orlikeamemory,lastnightfromhighschool.
Whenshesaidthat,IknewthiswasntsomethingIwouldlikeandIinstantlyregrettedagreeingtohercondition
aboutnotapologizing.
ItwasonedayinBiology,itwasafewmonthsbeforegraduationandMr.Bannerhadgivenusaworksheet
toworkon.YoufinishedearlierandwereleaningbacktowardJessica
Iremember,Imumbled.ThatwasthefirsttimeIhadevermentionedthatIwantedherinbedwithme.Even
ifIhadntusedaverynicewaytosayit,Istillsaidit.
Thewaitercamewithourfoodthen,andwehadtopauseourconversationuntilwewerealoneagain.
Yeah,well,inGymlaterthatdayIheardJessicatalkingtoherfriendsaboutyouhavinganadmirer,butyou
onlyhadeyesforJessicaanddidntevenknewIexisted.
Ididnoticeyoueveryday.
Iknowthatnow,butIdidntbackthen.Ihavebeensayingtomyselfthatitwastheoldyou,andthenewyou
wouldneverdosomethinglikethat.ThatswhyIdidntwanttotalktoyou,becauseIwasafraidthatIwould
saystuffthatwouldhurtyou.
Youvegottotalktomeaboutthesekindsofthings,though,baby.IwasreallyafraidthatIdlostyouthis
morningwhenyoudidntwanttotalktomeatall.
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Iknow,andImsorry.IthoughtIcouldhandleitonmyown,thatsall.
Youhavenothingtobesorryfor.JustrememberthatImhereforyou,nomatterwhat.IwantedtosaythatI
wassorry,butIhadmadeherapromisenotto.
Wemadesmalltalkthroughmostofourlunch.Eventuallyshebegantowarmuptomeagain,andIwasglad
shewasabletodosoratherquickly.
Tellmesomethingtrue,shesaidwhenwewerealmostdone.
SomethingtrueIscannedmymindforsomething.Ihatepeas.
No,somethingreal,somethingnooneelseknows.
Okay,youresweet,andsexy,andcompletelyhotforme.
Sheblushedatthat,butitwasthetruthsoIdidntseeanyproblemwithwhatIhadsaid.
Edward,shewhined.Iguessthatwasnttheanswershewanted.
Fine,Iplaythepiano.
What?Youdo?Wait,doesntanyoneknowaboutthat?sheasked.Huh,fancythat.TheEdwardCullen
playsthepiano.Iwouldneverhaveguessedthat.
IaskedourwaiterforthechecksinceIneededtogetbacktowork.
Myparents,Emmett,andJasperknow,butitskindofhardtotellyousomethingnooneknows.Icouldnt
thinkofanythinganyway.
Canyouplayformesometime?
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Sure.IhadntplayedthepianosinceImovedintomyapartment,butifshewantedtohearmeplayIwould
playforher.Whataboutyou?Tellmesomethingnooneknows.
Ineverwenttomymomduringmylastbreakdown.
What?
EveryoneIknowupherethinksIwenttomymomfortheyear.MymomthinksIwasupheretheentiretime.
Ivenevertoldthemthetruth.YourethefirstoneIveevermentioneditto.
Butwhatdidyoudo,then?
Iranawayfrommyproblems,wasallshesaid.Youneedtogetgoing,oryoullbelate.
Shegotupfromherseat.Iwaskindofstunnedbyherconfessionsoittookmeaminutetocollectmyself
enoughtofollowher.
Shewasstandingoutside,waitingforme.
Willyouevertellmewhereyouwent?Iaskedherandembracedherintoahug.
Yeah,justnotrightnow.
Icandealwiththat.Ibentdowntokissher.
Sherespondedurgently,butwhenIlickedherlipsinhopesofgettingaccesstohermouth,shedidntopenit.I
figuredshedidntwanttodothatinpublic,butIstillstartedtoworryagain.
Areweokay?Iaskedwhenwebrokeapart.
Definitely,sheansweredwithasmile.
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IchastisedmyselffornottalkingtoEdwardthismorningaboutmydream.Iwasjustsoafraidthathewouldgo
backtobeingthatEdwardifhewasremindedofhim.Thatcouldntbefartherfromthetruth,butIcouldnt
helpthinkingit.
IhadntmeanttoblurtoutmysecretaboutwhatIdidaftermylastbreakdown.IknewheAlicehadtoldhim
thatIwenttomymom,butasfarassheknew,Idid.Iwasntreadytotalkaboutthat,yet,butluckilyhehadlet
itgofornow.
WhenIgothomeIdecidedtodosomelaundry.Ihadpostponeditforalmostaweeknow.Ialsodecidedtodo
EdwardsaswellsinceIwasdoingmine.Wehaddoneourseparatelaundrybefore,butIconsideredusdating
nowsotherewasnoreasonformenottobeabletohandlehisunderwear.Thathadbeenmyreasonnottodoit
before.
WhenIwashangingthefirstloadoflaundryuptodry,myphonebeepedindicatinganewtext.Itwasfrom
Edward.
GoingoutforabeerwithJandEm.IsthatOK?E
Ihavenoideawhyheaskedmeifitwasokaywithme.Itmademefeellikehismotherorsomething,especially
sinceIwasdoinghislaundry.
Sure.Havefun!B
Ididntknowwhatelsetorespond,butIfelttheneedtowritesomethingatleast.
Iwentbacktoputtinguptheclothesonthehangersbeforefloppingdownonthecouchtofinishmyworkfor
today.Elsajoinedmeafewminuteslater.
MyphonebeepedonceagainwhenIhadjuststartedgettingintothestory.
Wontbehomelate.E
OK.Illseeyoutonight.B
WhenIhadfinishedthemanuscriptsandhadhungupallthelaundrytodry,ItookElsaoutforherlastwalkof
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theday.TheclockwasalmosteightthirtybythetimeIwasdonefortheday.Igrabbedsomethingeasytoeat
beforeIwenttogetreadyforbed.
IfoundoneofEdwardsusedtshirthangingonthesmallsofainourbedroom.ImusthaveforgottenitwhenI
gatheredclothestothelaundry.Itwasawhitevnecktshirt,thecleavagewasalittletoobigonme,butit
wouldhavetodo.IcouldntfindanythingelseandIdidntwanttouseoneofminepajamas.Igrabbedmy
yogapantstogowithituntilIwenttobed.
Itwastooearlytobeinbed,butIdidntwanttolooklikeIwassittingup,waitingforEdwardtocomehome.I
tooktheHarlequinbookIboughtinForksandwenttothelivingroomtoreadanyway.
EventhoughIhadspentmostofthedayreading,thiswasanotherkindofreadingsoIdidntmind.Ididntget
veryfarbeforethefrontdoorwasopenedandEdwardcamein,though.
Hi,baby,hesaid,lyingdownonthecouchandputtinghisheadinmylap.
Hi.Didyouhaveagoodtime?Iputthebookawayandbroughtmyfingerstohishair.
Mm,wasallhecouldanswer.
Areyoutired,Edward?IsoundedlikeIwastalkingtoababy,orElsa.
No,itjustfeelssogoodwithyourhandsinmyhair,heansweredandletoutaquietmoan.Whatwhereyou
reading?
ThebookIboughtinForks.
Theporn?Hesmirked.
Itsnotporn!Itookmyhandsawayandtriedtopushhimoffofme.
Aww,comeon,baby.Ivemissedyou.Givemeakiss.Hepouted.
Onlyifyouwontaccusemeofreadingpornagain.
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Ipromise.
IsmiledandbendedmyheaddownsoIcouldgivehimakiss.Itwasjustalightone,butIcouldstilltastethe
beer.
DoyouwanttowatchsomeTVwithmebeforegoingtobed?heaskedwhenwehadfinishedthekiss.
Sure.Haveyoueatenanything?
Yeah,wegotsomepizza,heanswered,puttingonournewaddictionSupernatural.
HegotupinasittingpositionandIputmyfeetinhislap,asilentrequestthatIwantedhimtorubmyfeet.He
did,butthenhishandstraveleduptomyankleandthenundermypantstomycalf.
Edward,Iwantedyoutorubmyfeet,notmyhairylegs!
Helaughed,buthedidntremovehishand.Yourhairylegs?Comeon,baby,yourlegsarenthairy.
Yes,theyare.Ihaventshavedthemsincemybirthday.
Idontmind.HecontinuedtoabsentmindedrubcirclesonmylegwhilewatchingTV.
Fine,Ihuffed,andlaybackdownontothecouch.
Afterawhilehesomehowendedupontopofme,kissingme.Hestartedoutslow,butthenIfelthistongue
lickmybottomlip.Wehadntkissedlikethissincethatdayonthecliffalmostaweekago.Itentativelyopened
upmymouthtohim,andIfelthistongueinmymouthnotlongafterthat.Hetastedjustlikehehadthelasttime
likespearmintandcigarettes,butthistimealsoahintofbeer.
Ourtonguesmovedinsyncuntilwehadtogetupforair.Hedidntwasteanytime,though,andstartedkissing
myneckandbehindmyear.Hismouthtraveleddowntomycollarbonesanddowntomycleavage.Hestarted
togetdangerouslyclosetomybreasts.AsIfeltoneofhishandstraveldowntomyhipsanduptomystomach
undertheshirt,Istartedtogetnervous.
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AsmuchasIlikemakingoutwithmyhusbandwhilewatchingtosuperhotguysonTV,maybeweshould
pausetheshow,ormaybeweshouldcontinuethiswhenwegotobedinsteadIstartedrambling.
Bella,relax.Thereisnoneedtogetnervous.Allyouneedtodoistellmetostop,andIwill.
OkayokayIknowitsjustthatIdontreallyknowwhattodo.
Heleaneduponhiselbowsandhishandswentuptomyhairtocalmmedown.
Youredoingperfectlyfine.WastheresomethingIdidthatmadeyouthisnervous?
Ihesitantlynoddedmyhead.Maybewecouldleavemyboobsalonefornow?
OkayDoyouhaveanybraon?Ishookmyheadno.Thenyouchoseaverytemptingtshirt.
HeletoutabigsighwhileIletoutagigglebeforesaying,Sorry,butyoushouldnthaveboughtsucha
temptingtshirt,then.
Itsmine?Helookeddowntoseeitforhimself.Whathappenedtotheoldone?
Iputitinthelaundry.Ishruggedmyshoulders.
Somehow,wehadgottenofftracksfromthemakingoutandithadmademerelaxalittle.Hestartedkissingmy
neckagainwhenwegotourfocusback.
Doyouwanttotakethistothebedroom?heaskedwhenhehadpaidattentiontomyneckforafewminutes.
Iprobablyhadoneofthosehickeysbynow.
Umm,Isaid,nervously.
ItdoesntmeanImaskingforsex.AllIwantistomakeoutwithmyverysexywife,hereassuredme.
Okay.
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HeliftedmeupandIwrappedmylegsaroundhiswaist.Wecontinuedkissingandsomehowhemanagedto
getustothebedroom.Hefloppedusdownandwascarefulabouttolandonhiselbowssohewouldntcrush
me.
WescootedclosertothepillowsandImanagedtogethimtorollover,soIwasontop.Iputmyhandson
eithersideofhishead,andhebroughthistomyass.Hegentlypushedmedownontohiscrotch.Thefeeling
madememoanandhegruntedinresponse.Icouldfeelhowhardhewasbetweenus,andthistimeIwasnt
embarrassedaboutitthistimeIwantedmore.
HebroughthisarmstomytorsotopushmedownsoIcouldgetclosertohim.Wecontinuedtokissandour
tonguescontinuedtodancetogether.
Igroundedmyselfontohimonmyownaccordandthistimeandwebothmoanedatthesensationitbroughtus.
Weneedtostop.Iwasbreathinghardnow.
Why?heasked,continuingwithhiskissingalongmychest.
BecauseIhaveafeelingIwilllosemyvirginityifwekeepgoing,andImnotreadyforthatyet.Iletouta
smallmoanwhenhegottomyear.
IpromisedIwouldntgothatfar.
Yeah,youpromised.Ididnt.
Heletoutasmallchuckle.Areyousayingthatyouwouldtrytotakemewithoutmypermission?
Idoubtyouwouldbeabletosayno.
Youreright,hesaid,defeated.
Herolledusbackoversohewaslyingontopofmeagain.
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Imsorry.
Youhavenothingtobesorryfor.Hekissedmequicklyfirstonthetipofmynoseandthenmylips.Ineed
togetreadyforbed.
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ItwouldfeelterriblywrongtojerkoffwhileBellawasintheotherroom,especiallyafterwhatwejustshared.
ButIwashardasarockharderthanIveeverbeenbefore.
IguessIneedacoldshowerthen
ItriedtomakeitquicksinceIwantedtobewithBellaasmuchaspossible.Iwouldnevergetusedtothesecold
showers,though,buttheydidcomeinhandyattimeslikethis.
WhenIwalkedbackintothebedroom,Bellawaslyingonhersidewithherbacktome.IgotinbehindhersoI
wasspooningher.Asusual,sheturnedaroundinmyarmssoshewasfacingmeinstead.
Ineverunderstoodwhyshewassoagainstspooningeachother.NotthatIdidntlikethisposition,Ilovedit,
butIstillwondered.
Yourecold,shemumbled,snugglingclosertome.
Yeah,sorry.Ibroughtthecoverclosertoussoshewouldntgetcold.
Sheslowlymovedherhanduphanddownmybareribcage,probablyinatiredattempttowarmmeup.
Pleasedontleaveme.Shesoundedsosmallanddesperate.Ididntknowifshewasasleep,orifshewas
awake.
Whatareyoutalkingabout,baby?ItriedtogethertoliftherheadsoIcouldlookather.
Promisemethatyoullneverleave,shebeggedwithbothhereyesandwords.
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IpromisethatIllneverleaveyou!Ipromise,baby.
Ihuggedherclosertome,tryingtocomforther.IthinkshewenttosleepafterImadehermypromisebecause
herbreathingevenedoutandshedidntsayanythingelse.
Whydidshewantmetopromisesomethinglikethat?OfcourseIwouldntleaveherIthoughtIhadmadethat
clear.
AfterafewminutesIwenttosleepaswell,stillholdingBellaclosetome.
BPOV
Whataboutthisone?Aliceaskedandheldupadressformetosee.
Alice,RoseandIwereoutshoppingtoday.IreallyneededclothesIjustwishedIcouldgetthemwithout
shopping.
No,itstoocoldfordresses.Iwantapairofplain,blackpants,Isaid.
Thatsboring.
Luckyforyou,itsmethatsgoingtowearthem,andnotyou.
Eventually,Ifoundtwopairsofblackpantsandafewblousestogowiththem.AliceandRosewerent
finishedyet,though,sowecontinuedtosearchtheracksforsuitableclothes.
WhatdidyouandEdwarddoforyourtwomonthsanniversary?Aliceaskedwhenwehadtakenapauseand
satatacoffeeshop.
Areyousupposedtocelebrateeverymonth?Ithoughtitwasjustonceayear,Isaid,confused.
Aliceherecelebrateseveryweek.Rosesmirked.
Oh,yes,Ido,shesaidandwaggledhereyebrows.Iinstantlyknewwhatshemeantbythat.
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IjustgiveEmmettamindbowingblowjobandthenheshappy.Imean,Igivehimonefromtimetotime,but
Iputmoreeffortintheoneshegetsonouranniversaryeverymonth.
Yeah,afterIvegivenJasperone,heneversaysnowhenIwantsomething.
Guys,please!Iputmyhandsovermyearstostopfromhearingabouttheirsexlives.
Dontbesuchaprude,Bella.TellmeyourenotgivingEdwardablowjobonceinawhile,Rosechallenged.
Idont.
What?Hasntheevenaskedforone?Aliceaskedindisbelief.
No,Iansweredsimply.
Theyjustgaveeachotheralook,shruggedtheirshouldersandwentbacktotheirfood.
WecontinuedtoshopmaternityclothesforRose.Whenweweredonewiththeshopping,Iwentstraightback
home.IwascompletelyexhaustedandIsworetomyselfthatIwouldntgoshoppingwiththegirlsuntilatleast
anothermonth.
Didyouhavefun?EdwardaskedwhenIfloppeddownbesidehimonthecouch.
Yeah,Isaid,noddingmyhead.Howcomeyouveneveraskedmetogiveyouablowjob,Iblurtedout
beforeIgotthechancetothinkitthrough.
What?Hecoughednervously.
AliceandRoseactedlikeitwasthemostnormalthingintheworld,forahusbandtoasktheirwifetogive
themablowjob.Sowhyhaventyouaskedme?
Um.Youdontevenletmekissyourtits,andnowyouwanttogivemeablowjob?
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ThatsnotwhatImeant.Ijustnevermind.Isighedandgotupfrommyseat.
Hey,dontgo.Hegrabbedmyarmanddraggedmedownontohim.
IshiftedsoIwasstraddlinghim.Itwaseasiertolookathimthatway.
Doyouwanttogivemeablowjob?heasked,lookingstraightintomyeyes.
Ihesitantlyshookmyheadnoandanswered,Notyet,atleast.
Itsokay,Iunderstand.Youhavenothingtoworryabout.Ifyouneverwanttodoit,Imnotgoingtoforce
youintodoingit.
Okay.Ibentforwardtokisshim.
EPOV
Icouldntbelieveshejustaskedmeaboutgivingmeablowjob!Ihadbeencompletelystunnedatfirst,butIhad
quicklyrecovered.ItsnotlikeIdidntwantone,butIknewshewasntreadyforthatkindofthingsjustyet.
Westayedonthecouch,kissing,foralittlewhilebeforegoingoutfordinner.
Therestofthedaywentbyquickly.WehadspentmostoftheeveningonthecouchinfrontoftheTV.We
didntwatchanythingspecialwejustcuddledandenjoyedeachotherscompany.
Ihadtheurgetosaythatmylifewasperfectrightnow,butIknewthatifIdid,everythingwouldprobablyfall
apart.
SundaymorninghadpassedinthesamemannerasSaturdayhad.Wedidntdomuchexceptforlyinginbed
untilnoonandthenweatebrunch.Wehadnorush,buttherewassomethingIhadbeenthinkingaboutfora
whilenow.
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Wouldyouliketolookatourweddingpictures?Edwardasked.
Ihadcompletelyforgottenthathepromisedmetolookthemover!
Yeah,Iwouldloveto.Ismiledwidely.
Letmejustgoandgrabthem.
Isatdownonthecouchandwaitedforhim.IknewtheywereonaDVDsowewouldhavetosithereanyway.
IhopedIwouldbeabletohandlethis.Itfelthorriblenottoremembermyownwedding,buthopefullythis
wouldhelp.
Areyouready?heaskedwhenhehadputtheDVDintotheDVDplayer.
Yeah.Letsdothis!
Edwardcametositbesidemeandwrappedhisarmaroundmyshoulders.Ileanedintohimandstarted
watchingthepicturesthatrolledonebyoneonthescreen.
Inthefirstpicturesthatshowed,wehadourbackstothecamerasoyoucouldntseethatmuch.Thenthere
werepicturesofuswalkingdowntheaisle.Ihadtoadmitthatwelookedbeautifulalthoughweweredrunk.
Whatsurprisedmethemostwasthatwelookedateachotherwithloveradiatingfromoureyes.
Youdontevenlookdrunk.Ipouted.
ThatsbecauseIwasntthatdrunk,andbesides,youdontlooktotallywastedeither.
Istillcantrememberanything,though
Hopefully,itwillcometoyouintime,hesaidandgentlyslidhishandupanddownmyarmtocomfortme.
Smileintothecamera!ThemansvoicefromtheTVmademebringmyattentionbacktoit.
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EdwardandIheldeachotherandhadgoofysmilesonourfaces.IwavedshylyintothecameraandEdward
laughed.Hekissedmerightbeforethecameramanshutthevideocameraoff.
Ihadlookedsohappy.Slightlydrunk,buthappy.
Didyouknowtherewasavideo?IaskedEdward.
NoHeseemedsurprised.Ineedtoprintsomeofthesepictures.
Why?
Becauseyouresexyashell.Hewrestledmedownontothecouch,withhimfallingontopofme.
Igiggledandtriedtopushhimoffofme.Thatis,untilhestartedkissingmeliketherewasnotomorrow.Itwas
anurgentkissandIenjoyedeverysecondofit.
CanIpleasesayhellotothegirls?hepleadedexcitedly.
Icouldnotforthelifeofmefigureoutwhathemeantbythat.Whywouldhetalkaboutothergirlswhenwe
weremakingout?
What?Iasked.
Helookeddowntomyboobs,lickedhislips,andsaid,Iwanttoofficiallymeetthegirls.
ThenIfinallyunderstoodwhathemeantandcouldnthelpbuttolaughoutloud.Edward,pleasetellmeyou
didntnamemyboobs!
Whatssowrongwiththat?Hepouted.Itslikehavingthreefavoritegirlsattachedtoone.
Areyousayingthatyoullcheatonmewithmyboobs?Ilaughed.
Imserious,baby,hewhined.
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Yeah,well,letsseehowseriousyoullgetwhenInameyourpenis.
Whatwouldyounameit?HewasstillexcitedaboutallthisandIcouldnthelpwhatIansweredtothat.
PrincessSophia.Iwaslaughingsohardnow,Icouldntbreathe.
Hemusthavegottenimpatienteventuallybecausehewassilencingmewithhislips.Icouldnthelpbuttostop
mylaughingandreplacingitwithmoaninginstead.
Youregoingtopayforthatoneday,hemumbledagainstmylips.
ImsureIwill.
Ireachedmyarmsabovemyheadsohecouldremovemyshirt.Ididntevenhavetospeakmypermissionhe
knewanywayandlifteditoffofme.
Itsnotlikehehadntseenthembefore.
Ifeltreallyexposed,evenifIstillhadmybraon.Iinstinctivelyreachedmyarmsdowntocovermyselfup.
No,dontdothat.Youresobeautiful,Edwardsaid,grabbingmyarmstostopme.
Cantyouremoveyourshirtaswell?Ibegged.
Sure,hesaidandgotuponhiskneestoremoveit.
Whenhelaybackdownontopofme,thefeelingofourbarebodiespressedtogethermadememoan.
Edwardstartedkissingatrailfrommyearanddowntomycoveredboobs.Helookedupatme,silentlyasking
meifhecouldremovemybratoo.Inoddedmyhead,sayingitwasokay.
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HegentlybroughthishandtomybackandIarchedittogivehimbetteraccess.Heflickeditopeneasilyand
gentlysliditdown.Iwasnowlayingcompletelyexposedtohim.
Fuck,yourebeautiful,hegruntedanddippedhisheaddowntogivethemeachakiss.
Thiswasacompletelynewfeelingtome,butIloveditandIwantedmore.Ibroughtmyhandstohishairand
gentlypushedhimdownformore.
Hegrabbedmyrightthighandpushedituptohiship,andIautomaticallybroughtmyotheroneupinthesame
position.Thisgavehimroombetweenmylegsandhegotclosertomybody.
Edward,Imoanedwhenheflippedmynipplewithhistongue,Please.
Pleasewhat,baby?
Iwantmoreplease.
Likethis?heasked,grindinghishipstomine.Icouldfeelhiserectionpressingagainstmycrotch.Itwasthe
samelovelyfeelingIhadfeltlastnightwhenwemadeoutinthebed.
Yes.
Hecontinuedtokissandlickmynippleswhilehegroundhimselfbetweenmylegs.Heletoutgruntsand
moansjustlikeIdid.
Iwantedtofeelhislipsonmineagain,soIpulledhisheaduptomineandforcefullypressedmylipstohis.I
lickedhisbottomlip,beggingforhimtogivemeaccesstohismouth.HegreedilyopeneditandIpushedmy
tongueinsidetoexploreeveryinchofhismouth.
OhmyGod,ImoanedwhenIhadtogetupforair.Aforeignfeelingdeepdowninthepitofmystomach
hadstartedtobuilt.
Nhuhu,baby.Godisnowheretobeseen,Edwardhalfwhisperedandhalfmoanedintomyear.
HestartedtomovehishipsinafasterpaceandIwasonthebrickofcomingundone.Hesuckedandnibbled
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forcefullyonmyneck,butthepainIfeltonlyintensifiedthefeelinginmystomach.
Edward,Imoaned.
Thatsright,baby.Comeforme,hegrunted.
Somehow,hiswordsmademeexplode.Mybodywasshakinguncontrollably,mymoaninghadgoneloudand
everythingfeltsogoodthatIwantedtocryonlyhappytears,though.
Fuck,Bella,Edwardcursedandhisbodyfellontopofmine.Hisheadlandedexactlyonmyboobs,butI
couldntcareless.
Whatjusthappened?IaskedonceIhadcalmeddownenough.
Somepeoplewouldcallthathavinganorgasm.
Wow,Imumbled.
ThatmeansIhavehadbothmyfirstkissandfirstorgasminjustoneweek
Edwardsweightfeltsurprisinglygoodwhenitshouldhavefeltcrushinginstead.Hisevenbreathingwas
almostlullingmetosleepwhenasuddenthoughoccurredtome.
Didyouhaveone,too?
Yeah,Imallsticky.Hechuckledsoftlyandstarteddrawingpatternsonmychestwithhisfinger.Thisismy
newfavoritespot,hesaidandkissedeachofmyboobs.
Ilazilystartedmassaginghisscalpwithmyfingersandhehummedincontentment.
Weshouldgetcleanedup,Edwardsaidafterawhile.
Mylegsareallwobbly.Iletoutasoftlaugh.
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Minetoo,butifIdontgetcleaneduprightnow,myumjizzisgoingtodryanditwouldhurtlikehellto
removemyboxers,heexplained.
ThenIguessweshouldgetmoving.Isighedandthengiggledatoursituation.
IletEdwardusethebathroomfirstsincehehadabiggerproblemthanIdid.Plus,Iwasntcomfortableenough
tobenakedtogetheryet.
Iwenttostandinfrontofthemirrorintheclosettoseeiftherewereanychanges.Peoplealwaystalkedabout
howyoucouldseeadifferencewhenagirlhadlosthervirginity.Ihadntlostmyactualvirginity,butIhave
hadmyfirstorgasm.
Exceptforthehappinessinmyeyes,therewerenootherchanges,though.ThenInoticedthehugebruisethat
hadstartedtoshowonmyneck.
ThatstheGoddamnedhickeyhewasgivingmeearlier!
IsawEdwardcomeupbehindmeandputhisarmaroundmywaist.Herestedhischinonthetopofmyhead.
Whatswiththelookonyourface?
IjustthoughtIwouldbeabletoseethechanges.Andyouhavegivenmeahugehickey!
Changes?
Ifeeldifferent.IfeelmorealivethanIhaveeverdonebefore,butIcantseethechanges.
Ican,hesaid,kissingmycheekbeforereleasingmetogoandgetchanged.AndIlovethathickey.
Huh.Ileftitthereandwenttothebathroomtogetashower.
Wesharedglancesandsmilesallday,butweneverdidanythinglikewhatwehaddoneearlier.Itwasnt
needed.Iwantedtodoitagain,butIknewthatthetimewouldcomeeventually.
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WebothtookElsaoutforalongwalkaroundtheparkintheafternoon.Therewerealotofstaringgirls,butI
didntcareaboutthattoday.Notafterwhatwehadshared.
Thatnightweclungontighttoeachother.Likewecouldntgetcloseenough.
Mondaycouldnthavegoneanyslower.AllIwantedwastogethometoEdward.Wewerebothbusywith
workallday,soneitherofushadtimetotalk.Notevensendasimpletext.
Thatswhy,whenEdwardcamehomealmostanhourlaterthanusual,hewasalmostflooredwhenI
unsuspectedjumpedintohisarms.
Ivemissedyoutoo,hesaidandlaughedbeforegivingmethekissIwaswaitingfor.
Heseemedhesitantwhenhekissedme,anditmademewonderwhatIhaddonewrong.Ipulledbacktolook
athim.Heseemedsad.
Whatswrong?Iasked,caressinghisface.
Ineedtoleave...
EndNotes:
A/N:Sorry?
So,therewontbeanotherupdateuntilSundaythe4thofJuly,(ormaybeFriday,Im
notsureyet)becausethisistheweekEclipsewillhaveitspremier!
Iwillgoonthemidnightairingthatstartsat6oclockonTuesdayandendsat2inthe
morning,sotherewillbeawholedaywhereIwontbeabletowrite.Andhowmany
ofyouwillbestayinghome,reading?
IhaveopenedupaforumonTwilighted,soifyou'reinterestedindiscussingthisstory,
likeEdwad'sfirstmeetingwiththegirls,you'rewelcome!
Areyougoingtothepremier?Orhaveyoualreadyseenthemovie?Tellmeaboutit!
(Withoutgivingmespoilers,thanks!)
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:ThequoteIusedinthelastchapterwasfrom'10thingsIhateaboutyou':
"Tellmesomethingtrue."
SomethingtrueIhatepeas.
No,somethingreal,somethingnooneelseknows.
Okay,you'resweet,andsexy,andcompletelyhotforme."
Imadeanexceptiontothosewhosaid'PrincessSophia'sinceIusedthatoneaswell.
IhaveabooklineinthischapterwhichIthinkmanyofyouwillknow.So,tellmethe
rightoneandyou'llgetapreview!(It'sNOT'Armageddon'!)
Thegoodiescanbefoundat:http://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforyourideas!
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EPOV
Butyoupromised...Icouldseethetearsforminginhereyes.IguessIshouldgopackmythings,then.
Shit!ShemustthinkI'mleavingher!
No,Bella...That'snotwhatImeant.
Shestartedfightingmyembrace.Edward,letmegonow,orsohelpmeGod!
Bella,pleaseletmeexplain!Ibegged,releasingher.
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What'sthepoint?You'releaving!Shestartedwalkingawayfromme.
I'mnotleavingyou!Ineedtogoawayforwork...
Ididn'tgetanyfurtherbeforesheslammedthebedroomdoor,saying,Leavemealone.Iheardherlockthe
doorbehindher.
God,thatwomanwasimpossiblesometimes!
IknewIcouldhavelaiditoutdifferently,butshecouldatleasthavegivenmethechancetoexplainmyself.I
hadafeelingearliertodaywhenIgotthemessageaboutleaving,thatitwouldgolikethis.That'swhyI'dtold
Tanyanottoexpectmeattheofficeuntilnoontomorrow.IneededtofixthingswithBellabeforeIwent
anywhere.
Icouldhearhermuffledscreamfromthebedroom.IfiguredshewasreallypissedatmesoIdidwhatsheasked
metodoIleftheralone.
Frustrated,Ithrewmyshoesandjacketoffbeforestormingtothekitchen.Ineededsomethingtogetmerelaxed
soItookmycigarettesandwentouttothebalcony.
ElsafollowedmearoundlikealostpuppyandIalmoststeppedonher.Shewasannoyingthecrapoutofme.It
seemedlikeeverythingwas.
Gotoyourverypissedofmommy.Ithinkshecouldusesomeofyourcompanytocooldown,Isaidtothe
dog.
Ittookfivecigarettestocalmmedownalittle.Iwasstillfrustrated,butIwasstartingtogetcoldsoIwentback
inside.TherewerestillnosignofBellaandIhadahunchthatIwouldn'tbesleepinginbedwithhertonight.
IsuddenlyfeltangrywithBellaandthatwassomethingthatneverhadhappenedbefore.Itfreakedmeoutabit.
NotknowingwhatIshoulddo,Icalledtheonepersonwhowasinprettymuchthesamesituationasme
Emmett.
Hello?Itwasn'tEmmettwhohadanswered,itwasRosalie.
Where'sEmmett?Iaskedwithoutsayinghellofirst.
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He'sintheshower.Wastheresomethingyouwanted?
HashetoldyouaboutLondon?
Oh,hetoldmeearlier.Icouldtellthatthesubjectwasbringinghermooddown.
Howcomeyoutookitsowell?That'shardlyfair,youknow.IfeltlikeIwaswhininglikeathreeyearold,
butIcouldn'thelpmyself.
IguessBelladidn'ttakeitverywell,then,didshe?
No,she'sinherroom,screamingandprobablycrying.Ihadn'tactuallyheardhercrying,butIknewBella
wellenoughbynowtoknowthatshedid.Imean,I'vebeenhereforherwheneversheneededmeduring
thesecoupleofmonths.Iheldherwhenshecriedfordays.I'malwaysthereforher,andIlikebeingthere.It's
just,allIaskforishersupportinthis.It'snotlikeshe'stheonlyonewho'llbeeffectedbythis.Ihavenoidea
howtocopewithoutherfortwofuckingweeks!
God,itfeltgoodtogetthatoffmychest!
Igetit.Butthere'ssomethingyoushouldknowbeforeyougoonjudgingherreaction...shebegan,Idon't
knowifyou'venoticedit,butyouhavethepowertobreakthatgirlintomillionshatteringpiecesifyouwanted.
ShehasbeenrelyingonyousomuchthatI'mnotevensurewhatshewoulddoifshelostyou.
Idon'twanttobreakher,Rosalie,Imumbled.Andshe'snotgoingtoloseme.
Okay,let'sputthisinreverse.WhatifshewouldhavegonebyherselftoEurope,wouldn'tyouworryabout
losinghertoanotherman?Orthattheplanemightcrash?
Iknewdeepdownthatshewasright.Ijusthadn'tthoughtaboutitthatway.Iwasalwaysscaredoflosingher
toanotherguy.
Itputthingsinperspective,didn'tit?sheaskedwhenIhadn'tansweredher.
Yeah...
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Look,justgotalktoher.Trytoconvinceherthatyouwon'tleaveherforsomeEuropeangirl,orwhatever.
Ican't.ShehaslookedthebedroomdoorandIdon'tthinkshewantstotalktomeanyway.
Ididn'tthinkyouwouldgiveupthateasily.Butokay,I'lltrycallinghertotalkthisover.
Thankyou.
BPOV
IknewIwasbeingchildish,butIcouldn'thelpit.Thewords'I'mleaving...'almostbrokeme.Itwaslikehehad
takenmyheartandjuststompedonit.Icouldn'tdealwiththis.Atfirst,allIdidwasscreamintoapillow.I
neverscreamedlikethat,Iusuallycriedinstead.Thetearshadcameeventually.Itwasjustsilenttears,though.
Myphonevibratedonmynightstandafterafewhours.MybodywasalreadylongingforEdward,butIwas
toodamnproudtogoouttohim.
Hello?Icroakedout.
Bella?Haveyoubeencrying?Rose'squestiononlybroughtmoretearstomyeyes.
Yeah,Imumbled.Edward'sleaving.
Iknow.Emmettcamehomeafewhoursago,tellingmetheyneededtogotoLondonfortwoweeks.That's
whyIcalledyou.Toseehowyoudealtwithit...
Oh.IhadheardEdwardtellingmeheneededtogoforwork.Ijusthadn'ttrulybelievedhim.Itcouldhave
beenacoveruptoendthingswithme.Why?
You'llhavetotalktoEdwardaboutthat.But,Bella?
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Yeah?
Pleasegoeasyonhim.Don'tbeghimtostayhomewithyou,becauseifyoudo,hewillstayandtheymight
losetheircompany.
Ihadn'trealizedithadbeensoserious.Tobehonest,Ihadbeenonthevergetogoouttohimandaskhimnot
togo.Thankfully,RosehadcalledrightbeforeIdidit.
Iwon't,Imumbled.
We'llworksomethingout.Ipromise.
Yeah.IshouldgotalktoEdward.I'llcallyoutomorroworsomething.
Okay.Iloveyou.
Iloveyou,too,Isaidandhungup.
Ididn'tgoouttotalktoEdward,though.Instead,Itookalongshowerandblowdriedmyhair.ThenIwentto
bed,inhopesofgettingsomesleepbeforeconfrontingEdward.
Itdidn'twork,though.ThebedfeltbiggerthanusualandIfeltalone.Itossedandturnedstubbornly,refusingto
giveup,forwhatfeltlikehours.
Eventually,Igaveupandslowlywentupfrombedtograbablanket,andtiptoedquietlyintothelivingroom.
Edwardwaslyingonhisbackonthecouchwithhisarmhidinghisface.HeappearedtobesleepingsoI
slowlymademywayovertohim.
Atfirst,allIintendedtodowastodrapetheblanketoverhimandleave.ButwhenIsawhimlyingthere,I
changedmymind.InsteadI,verycarefully,laiddownontopofhim.Hedidn'tmovemuchsoeitherhewasfast
asleep,orhewasawakebutpretendingtobeasleep.
Ibroughttheblankettocoverusandputmyheadinthecrookofhisneck.I'msorry,Isaid,placingagentle
kissonhisneck.
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EPOV
I'msorry,Bellasaidweaklyafterbumpingintomeinthehallway.
Youshouldjustwatchwhereyou'regoing!Icouldhavebeenhurt.MytonewasalotharderthanIintended
ittobe.Ihadalsomeanttosaythatwebothcouldgethurt,butIhadquicklychangedmymindIdidn'twant
toblowmycover.
Youshouldlearnhowtowalkbeforeyougointopublic.
IsaidIwassorry,shemumbledandstartedtopickupherscatteredbooks.
Sorryisn'tgoodenough,Isaid,steppingoverherbooksandwalkingaway.
IneededtogetawayfromherbeforeIdidsomethingIwouldregretlater.
WhenIwokeupthenextmorning,itfeltheavytobreathe.IslowlyopenedmyeyesandsawBellalyingthere,
ontopofme.
Well,thatexplainstheweightonmychest.
Ihadn'tfeltherlastnightsoitwaskindofasurprisetoseeherlyingthere.Especiallyafterthereactionshegot
whenItoldheraboutmeleaving.
Shehadhermouthopenslightlyandasmallspotofdroolhadformedonmyshirt.Shewastooadorableforme
tocare.ItwouldhavebeentotallydifferentifithadbeenElsa,though.Themeresightofherpushedmyanger
fromlastnightaway.
Bella,youneedtowakeup,Isaid,rubbingherback.
Allshedidwastosnugglehernoseagainstmyneckandcontinuetosleep.
Sighing,Isatupandtookheralongwithme,stillholdinghersoshewouldn'tfallbackwards.Thistime,she
wokeupslightly,butstillnotenoughtohaveourneededconversation.
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Icouldseetheclockonthemicrowavefromhere,andsawthatitwasonlyseveninthemorning.SoIleaned
backagaintocatchsomemoresleepbeforewakingBellaupcompletely.
Pleasedon'tleave,yet.Givemeafewmoreminutestoenjoythis,shewhisperedsleepilywhenIhadlaid
backdown.
I'mwon't,butcouldyoupleasejustletmeexplain,Ibegged.
Yeah,goahead.Shebroughtoneofherarmsoutlikeshewantedtohugme.
EmmettandIneedtogotoLondonfortwoweeksonabusinesstrip...
Butwhy?Yourofficeishere...inSeattle!sheinterruptedme.
OneofourfirstclientshasmovedtheirmainofficetoLondon.Itsaysinthecontractthattheywantpersonal
contactatleasttwiceayear.Oftentheycomehere,butthistimetheyweren'tabletocome.Youcouldsaythat
ourwholecompanydependsonthisclient,sowecan'tlosethem.
Okay...Iunderstand,shesaidandletoutayawn.
Good,becauseIdon'tknowhowIwouldbeabletodothiswithoutyoursupport,Bella.
IneededtoknowthatIcouldcountonher,likeshecouldcountonme.
Youhavemyfullsupport,Edward.It'sjustsohardtoletyougo.Twoweeksmayseemlikenothing,butalot
canhappenintwoweeks.
Myfeelingsforyouwon'tchange.I'llstillloveyouwhenIgetback.
Ifeltasmallkissbeingplacedonthesideofmyneck.Iwouldliketobelieveitwasherwayofshowingme
thatshelovedme,too.Shejustwasn'tabletosayitoutloudyet.
Whenwillyouleave?sheaskedafterawhile.
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OnSunday,sointhreedays.
Thatsoon?
Yeah,I'msorry.
Canyoujustholdmelikethis?IwanttoenjoythiswhileIcan.
Webothhuggedeachothercloserwhenshesaidthewords.IwantedtoenjoythefeelingofheraslongasI
possiblycould.
OfcourseIcan.
WhenIwokeupthenexttime,Bellawasn'tlyingontopofmeanymore.Infact,Icouldn'tseeheranywhere
whenIlookedaround.
TheclockwasjustaftertenandIneededtogetbacktotheofficeifIwantedsomethingdonetoday.SoIgotup
andstretchedmybody.Itwaskindofsoreafterspendingthenightonthecouch.
IfoundBellainourbedroom,changingthesheets.
Baby,whatareyoudoing?Iasked.
Shit!Youscaredme,Edward,shesaid,bringingherhanduptoherthroat.
Sorry.Ileanedagainstthedoorframewithmyarmscrossedagainstmychest,watchingher.
I'mchangingthesheets.Whatdoesitlooklike?Shesmirked,obviouslyinagoodmoodagain.
Icanseethat.Ijustdon'tunderstandwhy.What'swrongwiththeoldones?
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Nothingreally,shesaidandshruggedhershoulders.Ijustneededsomethingtodo.
Youcouldjusthavestayedonthecouchwithme,keepingmewarm.Iwentovertoherandgothertostop
withwhatshewasdoing,byembracingherintoahug.Areweokay?
Yeah.I'msorryaboutmyreaction.Iknowitwasn'tfairtoyou.
No,itwasn't,butyou'reforgiven.Ibentdowntokissherandsheeagerlyresponded.
Igentlybroughtherdownontothebedwithme.Ididn'tcarethattherewerenosheetsinit,IjustwantedBella.
ShemoanedintomymouthwhenIbroughtmyhandstoherhips.Islowlytracedthehemofhershirtwithmy
fingertips.
Comewithme,Isaidoutoftheblue.
What?sheaskedconfused.
ComewithmeandEmmetttoLondon.
Edward,I...shestarted.
ShelookedatmeandIcouldseethetormentedlookinhereyes.
Please.Thatwaywedon'thavetobeawayfromeachother,Ibegged.
Ican'tjustleavemyjobfortwoweeks.Besides,whatwouldIdowhileyou'reworking?Whichyou'll
probablydomostofthetime.AsmuchasIwouldlovetogowithyou,Ican't.Pleaseunderstand.
Iwashurtbyherrejection,butIknewshewasright.Ihadn'tthoughtaboutthatwhenIhadaskedhertocome
withme.Ofcourseshehadalifeherethatshecouldn'tleavejustlikethat.
Iunderstand.IguessIdidn'tthinkaboutthat.Ijustdidn'twanttoleaveyouhere.
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I'msorry,Edward.Andifithelps,Idon'twanttobeherewhenyou'reinLondon,either.
Shehadherhandsinmyhairandstartedmassagingmyscalp.ItfeltsogoodIjustlaidmyheaddowninthe
crookofherneckandenjoyedthefeeling.Ighostedmylipsoverherneckandthenbroughtmytongueoutto
tasteher.
Ineedtogetreadyforwork,Isaidafterawhile.
Yeah,andIshouldfinishwithchangingthesheets.ShereluctantlyremovedherhandssoIcouldgetup.
Igaveheraquickkissonherlipsandgotupfromthebed.Iheldoutmyhandtohelphergetupbeforegoing
tothebathroomtogetready.
BPOV
IfinishedchangingthesheetswhenEdwardleft,beforesittingdowntogetsomeworkdone.Ihadahardtime
concentrating,becauseallIcouldseeinfrontofmewasEdward'shurtlookwhenIhadtoldhimIcouldn'tgo
withhim.Iwantedtogosobadly,butIcouldn'taffordriskingmyjob.Wewouldhavetofindoutawaytoget
throughthetwoweeksinsomeotherway.
ImetupwithEdwardforlunch.Wewerebacktoalmostnormalagainandwebothavoidedtotalkabout
London.Itriednottothinkabouttoomuch,IwantedtoenjoythetimeIhadleftwithhim.
WhenEdwardgothomelaterthatnight,weatetakeoutbeforesittingdownonthecouch,cuddling,untilitwas
timetogotobed.
IwokeuponWednesdaymorningtotheblaringsoundofthealarm.IpreferredEdward'swakeupcalls
instead.
OurmorningroutineonthedaysIworkedfromtheoffice,remindedmeofamovie.Igotashowerwhile
Edwardmadeussomecoffeeandreadthenewspaper.WhenIwasdone,hegrabbedashowerandIreadthe
paperwhiledrinkingmycoffee.ThenEdwardwouldjoinmeinthekitchenforbreakfast.Whenwegotdown
totheparkinggaragewegaveeachotheraquickkissbeforetakingoffinseparatelycars.Ifounditkindof
funnythatwealreadyhadourownroutine.
There'saveryhandsomemanoutthere,askingforyou,Angelawhisperedwhileclosingmyofficedoor.
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Didhementionedhisname?Ismiled.
No,justthathewantedtoseeyou.Trustme,youwanttoseethismanevenifhedidn'tsayhisname.
Okay,I'llberightbehindyou,Ijustneedtofinishreadingthischapter.Ilaughedsoftlyatherbehavior.
Iquicklyfinishedthechapter,eagertofindoutwhohadcometoseeme.IhadmyguessesonEdward,but
therewasnoreasonforhimtocomeheretodaysinceweusuallydidn'thavelunchwhenIworkedfromthe
office.Plus,hehadnevervisitedmehereanyway.
WhenIwalkedoutfrommyoffice,IsawEdwardsittingonthesmallcouchwithhiselbowsonhisknees.A
smilespreadacrossmyface.
Whatareyoudoinghere,Edward?
Helookedupatmewhenheheardmespeak.Ijustthoughwecouldhavelunch.
Okay.Letmejustgrabmyjacket,Isaidandwalkedbacktomyofficetogetit.
IhadnoobjectionswhatsoeverabouthavinglunchwithEdward.
Angela,I'lltakemylunchnow.I'llbebackinanhourorso.Istillhadasmileonmyface.
Okay,havefun!
HegavemeasmallkisswhenIreachedhimandthenwewenttotherestauranthetookmetoonmybirthday.
Ithadbecomeafavoritetobothofus,especiallywhenwedidn'thaveaflirtywaitress.Weorderedourfood
andmadesmalltalkuntilitarrived.NeitherofusbroughtupLondon.
So,what'supwiththishappysurprise?Iasked,takingabiteofmymushroomravioli.
IhadameetingwithArorightbeforeIcametoseeyou,andIthoughtitwouldbenicetotakeyouout.He
smiled.
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Youneversaidyouwouldbemeetinghimtoday.
No,hecalledthismorningwhenIarrivedtotheofficeandaskedmetocome.Ihelphimsometimeswiththe
PRtosomeofthebookshe'spublishing,heexplained.
Ididn'tknowthat...
Well,knowyoudo.So,tellmeaboutyourday!Heskillfullychangedthesubject,butIdidn'tmind.
ItoldhimaboutthemanuscriptIwasworkingon,andthenhetoldmeaboutsomeofhisprojects.The
conversationflowedeasilythroughouttherestofthelunch.
I'mseeingRoseandAlicethisafternoonsoI'llprobablybehomesometimeafteryou,Isaidwhenhedropped
meoffatmyoffice.
Okay.Trynottogossipyourmouthsoff,hejokedandgavemeakiss.
I'lltry.Seeyoulater.Iclosedthedoorbehindme.
Therestofthepassedbyfast,andIdidn'tevenrealizeitwastimetoleaveuntilAngelatoldmeshewasleaving
fortheday.ItwastenminutespastfivebythenandIwastenminuteslateforcoffeewiththegirls.
IhurriedthebestIcould,butIstillmanagedtogetthirtyminuteslate.IspottedAliceandRoseatourusual
tableandgavethemawavebeforequicklyorderingmycoffee.
I'msosorryI'mlate,IapologizedwhenIreachedthetable.
Don'tworry,wehaven'tbeenwaitingverylong,Alicesaid.
Speakforyourself.I'vebeenwaitingforthissinceIhadmylastclientatthreeo'clock.RosesmiledsoIknew
shewasjoking.
Westartedtalkingaboutourjobsandhowstressfultheyallhadbeenthelastfewweeks.ThenRosetoldus
aboutthebabyandthattheywouldbeablefindoutwhatsexitwasinafewweeks.Wewereallexcitedabout
that.
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Howareyoudealingwiththewhole'Londonthing?'Roseaskedmeandsippedonhertea.
It'sstillhardandIhavenoideahowI'msupposedtogetthroughthetwoweekswithouthim,butItrymybest
toesupportive,Itoldherhonestly.
Iknowthefeeling.Imean,whatifsomethinghappenstothebabywhileEmmettisaway,whatamIsupposed
todothen?
BothBellaandIwilljustbeaphonecallaway,youknow,Aliceanswered.
Yeah,butstill.Sheshruggedhershoulders.
Ihaven'tsleptaloneinoverthreeyears,Iconfessed.Therehasalwaysbeensomeoneintheroomnextto
mine.Or,likeinthelastcoupleofmonths,therehasbeensomeoneinthesamebed.
Ihadn'tspentthenightawayfromJaspersincefreshmanyearincollegewhenwewenttoLasVegas,and
eventhenwewereabletosleeptogether,Alicesaid.
Itwaslikeweweretryingtomakeeachotherfeelbetterwithourconfessionsatthesametimeaswerevealed
thingstooneanother.
Ihaveanidea,Rosesaid,lookingdeepinthought.Whydon'tyoucomeandstayatmyhousewhilethe
guysareaway?Shelookedatmewithexcitementinhereyes.
Yeah,andIcouldcomeoverasoftenaspossiblesowecanhaveagirlsnight!Alicewasvibratingwith
excitement.
SheandJasperlivedjustafewhousesawayfromRoseandEmmett,andIknewthiswasthebestofferIwould
get.ItwouldalsobethebestwaytokeepmymindoffEdward.
I'llthinkaboutit,Isaideventually.
Good.That'sallI'maskingfor.
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Wecontinuedtalkingaboutourlives,givingawaysomegossipabouttheboysorsomethingelsethatwere
interesting.SinceAlicehadapologizedonmybirthday,itfeltlikethethreeofuswereafamilyagain.Roseand
Alice,alongwithEdward,werethepeopleIcouldcountonthemostinlife.
I'llcallyoutomorrowandletyouknowwhatIdecide,IsaidtoRosewhenwehuggedeachothergoodbye.
Okay.
Wesaid'Iloveyou'andthenwetookoffseparately.IneededtogohometoEdward.Hopefullyhewouldbe
home,eventhoughhehadalatemorning.
Thedrivehomefeltlongerthanusualandontopofthat,Ihadtowaitfortheelevatoratourapartmentbuilding
tocomedownfromthetopfloor.ItwasasecurityguyIdidn'ttalktomuchwhoworkedtonight.Thetime
wouldhavegonealotfasterifitwouldhavebeenSethinstead,becausethenIwouldhavesomeonetotalktoat
least.
IfoundEdwardonthecouch,watchingbaseball,whenIgothome.Itsmelledlikehewascookingsomething,
butIcouldn'tfigureoutwhat.
Hey,areyoumakingdinner?Iasked,straddlinghislap.
Yeah,Ifoundoneofthosehalfmadepizzasthatyoujustputintheovenforafewminutes.Hegrabbedmy
assasiftokeepmeinplace.
Well,aren'tyouamastercook.Ismirked.
Iknow.Hekissedmequicklybeforeasking,Sowhatwereyouoldladiesgossipingabouttoday?
Oh,wejustcomparedourhusbandsbedroomskillsthewholetime,Ijoked,bringingmyhandsdowntothe
hemofhisshirtandthenupunderittohisbarestomach.
Fuck,hecursed.
HestartedtokissmeurgentlyandIrespondedwithjustasmuchforce.Ifelthistonguetracemybottomlipand
Igrantedhimaccesstomymouth.Icould,asusual,tastethecigarettesandspearmintitwasheavenly.Iletout
asoftwhimperwhenhegentlybitdownonmylip.Myhipsautomaticallystartedgroundingthemselvesto
Edward'sandhishandsonmyasshelpedout.Eventhoughwebothhadjeanson,thefrictionitwascausing
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feltamazing.
Beforewegotanyfurther,thetimerontheovensetoff.EdwardandIbothgroanedinresponse.Iwasn'tupfor
anyfood,exceptforEdward.HetastedbetterthananythingIhadevereaten.
Savedbythebell,Iwhispered,placingmyforeheadagainsthis.
Ifuckinghatethattimer.
Metoo,butwedon'twantyourpizzatogetburned.Iremovedmyselffromhislapandstraightenedoutmy
clothes.
ThepizzatastedgoodandIcouldtellEdwardwassomewhatproudofmakingsomethingdifferentthandry
pasta.Evenifitwashalfmade.
WenevercontinuedwhatwestartedonthecouchwhenIgothome.WejustwatchedsomeTV,andstoleafew
kissesfromtimetotime,beforegettingreadyforbed.
Ifinishedbrushingmyteethandwenttobed,andEdwardfollowedrightbehind.Welaiddownonoursides,
facingeachother.
Roseofferedmetostaywithherwhileyou'reinLondon,Itoldhim.
Areyougoingto?Hestrokedmyhair.
Ishruggedmyshoulders.Idon'tknow...
Whynot,baby?It'snotlikeyouhavesomethingkeepingyouhere.
There'snothingofyouthere,Imumbled
Oh,Bella.Comehere,hesaid,huggingme.
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WelaylikethatforawhilebeforeIstarttalkingagain,AtleastIhavethebedherewhichsmellslikeyouandI
haveabigclosetfullofyourclothes.Iknowitsoundskindofobsessive,butit'sthetruth.
It'skindofadorable,actually.Icouldhearthesmirkinhistone.Butletmeaskyousomething.Picturea
nightrightbeforeyou'regoingtobed.Willyoubeabletosleepwithouthavingthewholeapartmentlitup?
HowdoyouknowI'mafraidofthedarkness?I'vealwayssleptwiththelightoffsinceImovedinhere.
I'mgoodatreadingpeople,hereplied.Nowpleaseanswerthequestion.
Fine,you'reright.Iprobablywon'tbeabletosleepwithoutalighton.I'mnotevensureI'llbeabletosleepat
allwithoutyou,Iconfessed.
So,maybeitwouldbebetterforyoutostaywithRose.Atleastthen,you'llhaveeachother.Andyoucould
alwaysbringmypillowandmytshirt.
Thetshirtsdoesn'tsmelllikeyouanymore,Imumbled.Theysmelllikemeinstead.
Oh,howhorrible!Myclothessmelllikemybeautifulwife,hesaidsarcastically.
I'mserious.Ipinchedhisarm.
I'msorry.I'llmakesuretowearoneofthetshirtsallSaturdayifthatwouldhelp,heoffered.
Youmakeitsoundsopathetic.Igiggledquietlyatoursituation.
Yeah,wekindofare.Hechuckled.
IknewitwouldbebetterformetostaywithRose.IhadknownitbeforeIspoketoEdward,buthemademe
realizetherewasn'treallyanyotheroptionifIwantedtogetsomesleepatall.Iwouldcallherassoonas
possibletomorrowandletherknowmyanswer.
Besides,thebabywouldprobablykeepbothmineandRose'smindofftheguys.Ifoundmyselflooking
forwardtohelpherdecoratethenurseryanddootherstuffforthebaby.
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Thursdaywentbytooquicklyformyliking,andbeforeIknewit,itwasFridaynight.ThatmeantIonlyhad
twomorenightstospendwithEdward.
IhadcalledRoseyesterdayandshehadbeenhappyaboutmydecisiontostaywithher.Iwouldleavewithher
afterwedroppedtheguysoffattheairport.
EPOV
DoyoumindifItrysomething?IaskedBella.
Wewerelyingonthebed,cuddling.ShewasreadingherHarlequinbookwhileIletmyhandsabsentmindedly
exploreherbody.
Whatwouldthatbe?sheaskedcarefully,closingherbook.
Itwillmakeyoufeelgood,evenamazing.Ipromise.Justletmedoit.Icouldn'thidetheexcitementinmy
voiceanymore.
Okay.Sheslowlynoddedherhead.ButIwouldprefertokeepmypantieson.
Fuck,Iguesswewouldhavetocompromise,then!
WouldyoumindifIwentinsideyoupanties,ifyoustillhadthemon?Iaskedgently.
Youwanttotouchmedownthere?sheaskedindisbelief,pointingdiscreetlydowntohernetherregions.
Yeah,Isaidasthoughitwasobviously.I'llstopifyoufeeluncomfortable.Letmejusttry.
Okay,shewhispered.Butcanwepleaseturnthelightsofffirst?Inoddedmyheadandsheturnedher
bedsidelampoffsotheroombecamedark.
Comehere.Ihelpedherslidedownsoshewaslyingnexttome.
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Icouldtellthatshehadtensedup,andshewasprobablynervousaboutwhatIwasgoingtodo.Istartedtokiss
hergently,tryingtoeaseherupalittle.Ideepenedthekissbylickingherbottomlip,askingforaccess,whichI
got.
Bellamoanedasourtonguesmovedtogether,andIcouldn'thelpthegruntthatslippedoutofme.Islowly
broughtmyhandsdowntothehemofhertshirt,draggingitupasImovedoverherbarestomachandribcage.
Thisneedstogo,Iwhisperedhuskily.
Okay.Shemovedherarmsaboveherheadandarchedherbacktomakeiteasiertoremove.
Ieaseditoffofherandwasgreetedbythelovelysightofhertits.MymouthinstantlyfoundthemandIstarted
tokissandlickthemlikeitwasthelasttimeIwouldseethem.Bellaputherhandsinmyhairandpushedme
down,likeshewassilentlyaskingformore.Shewouldgetmore,Ijustneededtomakeherfeelgoodfirst.
ShemoanedandwhimperedwhenImoveduptokissherneck.Itriednottosuckhardenoughtocreatea
hickey,butdeepdownIwantedeveryonetoknowshebelongedtosomeone.
Imovedoneofmyhandsdowntoherribcageandthentoherhips.Ilookedup,silentlyaskingforpermission
togetfurther.Shehesitantlynoddedherhead.
I'mnotgoingtohurtyou,baby.JusttellmetostopandIwill,Itriedtoreassureher.
Iknow.I'mjustnervous,sheadmitted.
Don'tbe.
IkissedheragaintoeaseherupbeforeIslowlymovedmyhanddowntoherpanties.Webothmoanedwhen
myhandreachedherbarepussy.Sheinstinctivelyclosedherlegsaroundmyarm,butsheslowlyletgoaftera
whileofkissing.ImassagedherlowerlipsforawhileuntilsherelaxedevenfurtherandImovedtoherclit.
Fuck,you'resowet,baby.
Mm,shemoanedintomymouthwhenIkissedher.
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Itracedherentrancewithoneofmyfingersandgentlydippeditinside.
Fuck,she'stight!
Ipushedinanotherinchandsheletoutanothermoan.Ididn'twanttogotofarandaccidentallybreakher
barrierwhichwouldonlycauseherpain.
Areyouokay?IaskedonceIhadhalfofmyfingerinsideofher.
Yeah,justgoslowly,shewhispered.
Iwill.Istartedtoslowlymovemyfingerinandoutofher.
Ididn'tbotheraddinganotherfingersinceIfigureditwouldcausehermorediscomfortthanactualpleasure.
Ifoundhergspotandcurvedmyfingertorubit.Sheletouta'Shit'andaloudmoanasIdidso.Ipressedmy
thumbagainstherclitandstartedmovingbothmyfingersinsync.
Edward,I'm...Shit!
Icouldtellbythewayherinnerwallsstartedtoclamparoundmyfinger,thatshewasclose.
Justletgoforme,baby,Iwhisperedinherear.
ShedidasIsaidandcamehard.Ifeltherwallscontractaroundmyfinger,andherjuicesspillonmyhand.
Shemoanedmynameloudly.
WhenshecamedownIgentlyremovedmyfingerandkissedheronthelips.Iwantedtotastehersobadly,but
Ididn'tknowhowshewouldreactsoIjustwipedmyfingersoffonthesheet.
Thatwas...amazing.Shebreathedheavily.Thankyou.
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Itwasmypleasure.Ilaydownontopofher,feelingherbarechestagainstmine,andkissedherdeeply.
Doyouwantmetoreturnthefavor?Shesmirked,pointingdowntomyverynoticeablebulgeinmyboxers.
No,I'mfine.Tonightwasallaboutyou,Isaid.
Areyousure?Iwouldn'tmind,youknow.
I'msure.Wecantrythatsomeotherday.Ikissedherandlaydownbesideher,takingthecoverwithme.
Isawherreachthetshirt,butIgentlystoppedher.Pleaseleaveitoff.
ShedidasIsaidandtosseditontothefloorandsnuggledclosetomychest.Goodnight,Edward.
Goodnight,baby.IhuggedhercloseatthesametimeasItriedtokeepmyerectionawayfromher.
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IwokeuptothefeelingofEdward'sfingersdrawingpatternsonmybareback.HehadprobablynotrealizedI
hadwokenup,butIcouldn'thelpthesmilethatspreadacrossmyface.
Goodmorning,sleepyhead,hesaid,placingsmallkissesallovermyshoulderblades.
Mm,whatareyoudoing?Iaskedsleepily.
Istillhadmyfaceturnedawayfromhim,butIreallydidn'tcarethatmuchaslongashekeptdoingwhathedid.
I'menjoyingmywife'ssexyback.Hewasgettinglowerandstartedplacingkissesalongmypantieline.
Icouldn'thelptheshiverthatcametome.
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Areyoucold,baby?
Justalittle,Iadmitted.Itwasn'tanythingunusualsoIreallydidn'tmind.Besides,IhadtosuitmyselfsinceI
hadn'tbotheredwithashirtlastnight.NotthatIregrettedthatwhenEdwarddidthingslikehedidthismorning.
Hestartedtoslowthekissesdown,andthenhestopped.Ifeltthecoverbeingliftup.
No,Iwantyoutocontinue,Iwhined.
Heletoutasoftchuckle.Butyou'recold.Idon'twantyoutogetsick.EspeciallysinceIwon'tbeheretotake
careofyou.
I'malwayscold.Nowcontinuewithwhatyouweredoing,please.
Heletoutabigsigh.Icouldn'tseehisface,soIcouldn'tfigureoutwhathisreactionwas.Hedidn'tremovethe
covers,buthedidthrowoneofhislegsovermineandcoveredhalfofmybodywithhishalf.
Hepushedmyhairawaysohecouldgetaccesstomyneck.Heghostedhislipsallovermyshoulderandneck
beforecontinuingwiththehalfofmyfacethatwasexposed.
CanIaskyousomething?heasked.
Sure,butIdon'tpromiseI'llanswer.Aslongasitwasn'taquestionaboutsex,Iwouldprobablyanswerhim.
HowcomeIalwaysfindyouinthissleepingposition?Ifyou'renotsleepingonme,thatis.
What?Iaskedconfused.
Well,youeithersleepwithyourheadonmychestorburiedinthecrookofmyneck.IfIhaven'tbeatyoutoit,
andI'msleepingonyourchestinsteadwhichisoneofmyfavoriteplacesrightnow.Butmypointisthat,
whenyoudon't,youalwayssleeponyourstomachwithyourfacedirectlyonthemattress,withoutanypillow.
Ijustwonderwhybecauseitcan'tbeverycomfortable.
Iwasn'tcompletelysureIunderstoodhisquestionafterallhisrambling.
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You'rejustgoingtolaughatmewhenItellyou.
No,Iwon't.Ipromise.
WhatwillIgetifyoudon'tkeepthatpromise?IaskedandtriedtoturnaroundsoIcouldfacehim.Itwasn't
easysinceIhadhalfofhisweightontopofme,butalsobecauseItriedtocovermyboobsaswell.Hehadseen
themafewtimesnow,Ievensleptwithoutashirtlastnight,butIwasn'tverycomfortableshowingmyselfyet.
Hmm,you'llgetabig,wetkissonthemouth.Hesmirkedandgentlybrushedmyhairawayfrommyface.
Won'tIgetoneanyway?Ipouted.
Please,baby.Justtellmeandyou'llberewardedwiththekiss.
Fine.Thepillowmakenoises.Neitheryounorthemattressdoes.
Okay.Thatwasthemost...unexpectedanswerI'veeverheard.Thepillowdoesn'tmakeanynoises,baby.He
laughed,eventhoughhehadpromisednotto.
Itoldyouthatyouwouldlaughatme.Iplayfullysmackedhimonhisarm.
I'msorry,Icouldn'thelpmyself.AndIwasn'tlaughingatyou,Iwaslaughingatyouranswer.Hebenthis
headdowntokissme,butIturnedmyfaceawaysoitlandedonmycheek.IthoughtIowedyouabig,wet
kiss.
I'llsavethatforlater...morningbreath,youknow.
Weeventuallygotupfrombed.EdwarddidashepromisedandworethetshirtIhadtakenfromhiminVegas.
Icouldn'thelpbuttosmileathim.
Wedidn'tdomuchthatday.Wetriedtomakethebestofitsinceitwouldbethelastdayforustobetogether
fortwoweeks.Intheafternoon,wetookElsaoutforalongwalkaroundthepark,holdinghandsalltheway.It
feltlikewewereanormalcouplewhenwedidthingslikethat.Maybewewereatthispoint,butwehad
definitelynotstartedoutlikeone.
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BellaandIwereinthebedroom,packingthelastthings.EmmettandRosaliewouldbehereanyminute,
pickingusuptogototheairport.
Didyoupackenoughunderwear?Bellaaskedallofthesudden.Idon'twantyouneedingnewboxersand
gotoastorewerethegirlswillflirtwithyou,andsuggestallkindsofboxers.Iwanttopickthemoutforyou,
notsomerandomgirl.
Shewasramblingandshecouldn'tbemoreadorable.Shewastheonewhohadpackedmostofmythingsso
sheshouldknowwhatsheputin.
Idon'tknow.Youpackedthebagsoyoutellme,Ianswered.
Doyouhaveyourpassport?sheaskedlikeshehadn'theardmespeakatall.
Baby,Isaid,embracingher.Youneedtostopbeingsofuckingadorable,orI'llmissmyflight.
Sorry,Ijustdon'twantyoutoforgetanything,shesaid,lookingupatme.
Iknow.Justrelax.IplacedafingerunderherchintoangleherfacesoIcouldgiveheraproperkiss.
Shehadputononeofmystripedtshirtsandapairoftornjeans.Shehadstartedtowearmyclothesmoreoften
nowadays,buttheylookedmuchbetteronherthanonmesoitdidn'tbotherme.
Areyoureadytogodownstairs?Iaskedwhenwebothfinishedpacking.
Yeah,I'mjustgoingtogetahoodieandapillow,thenI'mallset.
Shecamebackfromtheclosetwithablackhoodie,andthenshewenttograbmypillow.Ihadn'tthoughtshe
wouldactuallytakemine,IjustfiguredshetookitasajokewhenIhadsuggestedit.Ididn'tsayanythingabout
it,though.Ifshewantedtohaveit,Iwasn'tabouttoprotest.It'snotlikeIwouldhaveanyuseofit.
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EdwardandIsatinthebackseatofRosalie'scaronourwaytoSeaTac.Wewerealmostthere.Somehow,this
tripfeltlikeoneofthelongest,butalsotheshortestoneIhadeverdone.
Edwardwasfidgetingwithmyweddingringwhileheheldmyhandinhislap.Helookeddeepinthoughtsand
itmademewonderifhehadseconddoubtsaboutourmarriage.Iknewbetterthantothinkthoughtslikethat,
butsometimesIcouldn'thelpit.
Weshouldreplaceourweddingringswithnew,morefancyones.
Well,Ihadn'texpectedthat.ItwasthetotaloppositeofwhatIhadjustthoughthewasthinking.
Why?What'swrongwiththeseones?Iaskedandlookeddownatmyring.
Itwasplainandsimplesilverring,anditsuitedmejustfine.Evenifitwassimple,itheldalotofmemories.
Nothing'swrong,youcouldstillwearitonanotherfinger.Ijustwanttogetyouaringwithmoremeaning
behindit,hewhisperedsoRoseandEmmettwouldn'thear.
Justgethomesafeandthenwe'lltalkaboutit.Ipromise.
IshiftedmyheadsoIcouldgivehimasmallkiss.Whatstartedoutsmall,quicklyescalatedintosomethinga
litterbigger.
Guys,couldwepleasekeepthisasan'NoSex'zone,Emmettsaidandlookedbackatus.
Rosegiggledfrombehindtheweal.It'sfunnythatyouofallpeopleshouldsaythat,baby.Shewinkedat
Emmett.
Please,Idon'twanttohearanymore!Icoveredmyears.ThiswasalotmorethanIwantedtoknow.
Wepulledupattheairportandparkedthecar,thenwewalkedinside.IheldEdward'shandhardinmyown,
afraidIwouldlosehiminthecrowd.TheyneededtogothroughthesecuritysoonandIfeltmyselfpanicking.
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Thisisit!Ihavehimfortenmoreminutesandthenhe'llbegone!
IhuggedEdwardtightlyaroundhiswaistandburiedmyfaceinhischest.I'llmissyou,Imumbled.
I'mgoingtomissyousofuckingmuch,baby.
Willyoupromisetocalleveryday?Iasked.
Iwill.Andyou'llhavetopromisetocallmewheneveryouneedme,okay?
Ipromise.
Hecradledmyfacewithhisbighands.Hebroughthisfacecloseenoughforournosestotouch,buthedidn't
getanycloserthanthat.Then,tomysurprise,hestartedtosing.
Allmybagsarepacked,I'mreadytogo
I'mstandinghereoutsideyourdoor
Ihatetowakeyouuptosaygoodbye
Butthedawnisbreaking,it'searlymorn'
thetaxi'swaiting,he'sblowinghishorn,
AlreadyI'msolonesomeIcoulddie
Ifeltthetearsburningbehindmyeyelids.Ididn'twanthimtogo,evenifIknewhehadto.
Sokissmeandsmileforme
tellmethatyou'llwaitforme
holdmelikeyou'llneverletmego
CauseI'mleavingonajetplane,
Idon'tknowwhenI'llbebackagain,
Ohbabe,Ihatetogo
Dude,youtotallystolethatfromthatmovie!Emmettyelledloudenoughsoallthewaitingpassengerscould
hearhim.What'sitcallednowagain,Rosie?
'Armageddon,'shereplied,smirking.
Shutit,I'mtryingtoimpressmywifeoverhere,Edwardsaidbothannoyedandamused.
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Youalreadydo,Edward.Isteppeduptomytoestokisshim.
Wekissedforwhatfeltlikeminutes,butIcouldn'tgetenoughofhimandIwantedtorememberthatkissas
muchaspossible.
Hepickedmeup,huggingmeclose,andspunmearoundbeforesettingmedown.Lookaftermyheart,I've
leftitwithyou.
Hegavemeaquickpeckonthelips.Iloveyou.
Iloveyou,too,Iwhispered,buthewasalreadygone.
EndNotes:
A/N:Letmeknowwhatyouthought!
Also,I'vestartedaforumoveratTwilightedifyou'reinterestedindiscussingmystory!
(Ihavenoanswersyet,butIpromiseIwon'tbiteifyouwritesomething!)
Iguessthereisafewofyouwhohasseen'Eclipse'bynow,wasn'titAMAZING?!
Nextupdate:7thofJuly.
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A/N:ThequoteIusedinthelastchapterwasfromthebook'Eclipse':
Lookaftermyheart,I'veleftitwithyou.
Thequoteinthischapterisfromamovieyouallhaveheardabout(I'vechangedatiny
bit,butIthinkyou'llfinditanyway)!Findit,tellmeinareviewandyou'llgeta
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Iwhippedmyheadaround.IneededtoseeiftherewereanysignsofwhatIthoughtIjustheard.Icouldhave
swornIheardhersaytheword'love.'ButwhenIturnedaround,allIsawwasherback.
Imustbehearingthings.
Mymindmustbemakingthingsup,creatingwordsIwantedtohearmost.IwantedtohearBellasay'Ilove
you'tomesobadly,butIknewIhadtotakethingsslow,orIwouldloseher.
Comeon,man,orwe'regoingtomissourflight,Emmettsaid.
ItookonelastlookatBellaasshewalkedaway,beforeIfollowedEmmettthroughthesecurity.Wedidn'tneed
towaitverylonguntilwewereabletoboardtheplane.
Oncewewereupintheair,Emmettbegantowatchamovie.Itwaskindofannoyingsincehelaughedloud
enoughforthewholeplanetohearhim,andhewassointothemoviethathedidn'tevennotice.Theflight
attendanttoldhimtokeepitdownatleasttentimesbeforeshegaveup.
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Itriedmybesttotunehimouttogetsomesleep.Thatway,timewouldmovefasterandIcouldcallBella.I
longedtohearhervoiceagain,butIhadtowaituntilwelandedinNewYorkbeforeIcouldcall.Ibroughtmy
walletoutfrommybackpocketandthepictureIhadofBella.ItwasapictureIhadtakenmyselfwhenwehad
goneuptoForks.Shehadononeofmyoldhoodies,andherhairwasintheusualbigcurls,andshewas
showingasmallsmile.ShehadnoideaIhadtakenthisphotoshehadbeenbusytalkingtomymom.
God,she'sbeautiful!
ImusteventuallyhavefallenasleepbecausethenextthingIknewwasEmmetthittingmyarm.
Dude,stopdroolingandwakeup.We'rehere.
Iwasn'tdrooling,Imutteredandgotupfrommyseattograbmythings.
WehadalmostanhourofwaitinginNewYorkbeforetheplaneforLondonwassupposetotakeoff,sowe
wouldhavetimetocheckinonthegirls.EventhoughEmmettdidn'tseemtomissRosalie,Iknewthathedid.
Hejustdidn'tshowittotheoutsideworld.
Emmettsatdowninoneoftheseatsbythewindowatthegatewherewesupposedtoboard.Heimmediately
broughthisphoneup,andIdidn'twanttosithereandlistentowhathesaidtoRosalie.Plus,Ididn'twanthim
tolistentomeandBellaeither,soIleftmybagwithhimandwalkedaway.
IquicklyturnedmyphoneonanddialedBella'snumber.Shepickeduponthefirstringsoshemusthavebeen
waitingformycall.Hearinghervoicehadmademefeltrelieved.
Hello?ShesoundedtiredandIrealizedIhadn'tevencheckedwhattimeitwasbeforeIcalled.
Hi,baby.DidIwakeyou?
No,Iwasjustrestingmyeyesalittle,shesaid.So,howwastheflight?
Youknow,somepeoplewouldcallthatsleeping.IletoutaquietlaughbeforeIansweredherquestion,It
wasfine.Isleptthroughmostofit,though.
Smartass,Iwasn'tsleeping,shemuttered.
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Okay,ifyousayso.Whathaveyougirlsdoneallday?
Iwalkedbyagroupofgirlswhowerealllookingatme.IfeltuncomfortableundertheirstaressoIhurriedon.
Wehaven'tdonemuch.Weateapizza,tookElsaoutforawalkandthenwewerewatchingamoviewhenyou
andEmmettcalled.
Whatmoviedidyouwatch?IwantedtohearherhervoiceasmuchaspossiblebeforeIhadtogoagain.
Um,Idon'tknow.Ididn'treallypayanyattention.
It'sokay.
Ihadnoideawhattosaynext.AllIwantedwastohearher,andmostofallIwantedhertoconfirmwhatI
thoughtIhadheardearlier.Iwantedhertosay'Iloveyou,'andIwantedtosayitbacktoher.Butshedidn'tsay
anything,allIheardwasherbreathingandeventhoughthatwasbetterthannothing,Istillwantedtohearher
voice.
Baby,saysomething,Ibegged.
Whatdoyouwantmetosay?
Idon'tknow.Tellmewhatyou'rewearing.Anything,Ijustwanttohearyourvoice.
ThatcouldhavesoundedlikeIwashorny,andmaybeIwas,butIhadonlyaskedhersoshewouldspeakto
me,andthatwasthefirstthingthatcametomymind.
Okay,um.I'mwearingyourtshirtandapairofyogapants,butI'mtryingtotakethepantsoffbecauseIneed
togotobed.DoyouwanttoknowwhatkindofunderwearI'mwearingtoo?
Fuck!Wasshetryingtokillme?
Idon'tthinkIwouldbeabletohandlethat,baby,Isaidandletoutalaugh.
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Bynow,IhadwalkedbacktoourgateandIsawEmmettsittingwhereIlefthim.Irealizedweneededtoboard
theplaneanyminutenow.
I'msorry,Bella,butIneedtogo.
Okay,shesaid,soundingsad.WillyoupromisetomecallassoonasyoulandinLondon?
Ofcourse.Iloveyou,Itried.Iwantedtoseeifshewouldsaythewordsback.
Shewassilent,andforaminuteIactuallythoughtshewasgoingtosaythem.
Bye,Edward.Andshewasgone.
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Iloveyou,too.
IknewIshouldhavesaidthosewords,butIdidn'tthinkhehadheardthemattheairport.Hewouldhavesaid
somethingifhehad,andIdidn'twanttosaythemforthefirsttimeoverthephone.Iwantedtosaythemtohis
face.
Igotreadyforbed,butwhenitwastimetoactuallysleep,Icouldn'tdoit.Mymindwasbusygoingoverthings
thathashappenedbetweenmeandEdward.Bothgoodandbadthings.ItwaslikeIcouldn'tstopthinkingno
matterhowhardItried.Itossedandturnedforwhatfeltlikehours.
Iheardasoftknockonthedoor.IfigureditwasRosesincetherewasn'tsupposedtobeanyoneelsehere.
Comein,Isaid.
Hey,youcan'tsleepeither?shewhispered.
Ishookmyheadandpattedthespotnexttomeonthebigbed.Shecameoverandslidinunderneaththe
covers.
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Doyouwanttohearsomethingfunny?sheaskedandturnedtohersidesoshewasfacingme.
Sure.
Emmett,Alice,JasperandIhadplansonsettingyouandEdwarduponadateafterwegotbackfromVegas.
Weallthoughtyouwouldbeperfectforeachother,butIguessfaithhadadifferentwayofshowingthat.
What?Iasked,notknowinganythingabouttheirplan.
We'dbeenplanningitsinceEdwardbrokeupwithhisgirlfriend,aboutamonthbeforewewenttoVegas.So
ifyouguyshadn'tgottenmarried,youwouldhavebeensetuponadate.
IwouldhaveturnedaroundinthedoorassoonasIwould'veseenhim,neverlookingback,Itoldherwith
absoluteconfidentthatIwouldhave.
Iknow.That'skindofthefunnypart.Ifyouwouldn'thavegottenmarried,youwouldn'tbetogether,noteven
aftertheblinddate.Butsinceyougotmarried,you'restayingtogetherandhashelpedeachotherthroughso
much.Imean,that'sagoodstorytotellyourkidsandthentheirkids.
Yeah,ifweevergetthatfarinlife,IsaidandburiedmyheadinEdward'spillow.
God,Imisshimsomuch!
Whatdoyoumean?Thatyoudon'twantkids?
Thedealsaysoneyear,andwhatifhedoesn'twantmeafterthat?
Iwishyouwouldn'tbesoinsecureaboutEdward'sfeelingstowardyou.Everyonecanseethathelovesyou.
I'mworkingonit,Imumbled.
Well,letmeknowifyouwanthelp.I'mhereforyou.
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Elsajumpedupontothebedandcametosnuggledclosetome.Ibroughtmyhandtocaresshersmallbody.
Thanks,Iwhispered.
Wedidn'tsayanythingelseandeventuallywefellasleep.
LifehadtogoonwithoutEdwardbymyside,andthenextdayIwenttotheoffice.EventhoughallIwanted
todowastolayonthecouch,orinbedandwatchmoviesallday.RosehadgonebythetimeIwasready,but
shehadleftmeakeysoIcouldlockup.
SinceRoselivedjustoutsidethecity,thedrivetoworktookalittlelongerthanIwasusedto,butImanagednot
tobelate.
Goodmorning,Angela,IsaidwhenIsteppedinsidetheoffice.Howdoesthedaylook?
Hi,Bella.Um,let'ssee.Youhaveaslowmorning,buttheafternoonisprettyfullwithmeetingsand
deadlines.
JustwhatIneeded,somethingtodistractmythoughtsfromEdward.Great.Givemetheinformationaboutmy
meetingsandI'llletyougetbacktowork.
Shegavemeafewpapers.Ismiledandsaida'thankyou'beforegoingtomyoffice.Edwardwouldprobably
landinLondonanytimesoIhadatleastsomethingtolookforwardtothismorninghisphonecall.
Ibusiedmyselfwithascriptthatneededtobefinishedbytheafternoon.OnehourafterIhadgottentothe
office,Edwardcalled.Hedidn'thavemuchtimetotalk.Hehadtogotothehotelandprepareforthemeeting
withtheclienthehadtomorrow.Hedidn'tevenhavetimetorelaxafterafifteenhourflight,thatpoorthing.We
saidgoodbyewithapromisetocallassoonaspossible.
Ikeptbusyfortherestoftheday,Ihadbarelytimeforlunch.Thenitwasallofthesuddentimetogohome.I
drovebacktoRose'shouseandshewasalreadyhomewhenIgotthere.IwasgreetedbyaveryexcitedElsa,
soItookherforawalkbeforeRoseandIorderedtakeout.
Webothtriedtoactlikewewerefine,butIcouldtellshewasjustasmiserableasIfelt.Wewenttobedearly
thatnightandwesleptinseparatelybeds.IfeltlonelyinthebigbedandevenmoresowhenEdwardnever
called.IknewIcouldcallhiminstead,butIdidn'twanttointerrupthiminsomeimportantmeetingor
something.
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Idesperatelyneededanysignfromhim,though,soIsenthimatext.
Goodnight,Imissyou...xB
Ialmostinstantlygotatextbackfromhim.
Imissyou,too.Sweetdreams.xxE
Ifellasleepquicklyafterhisreply,exhaustedbythelackofsleeplastnight.
TuesdaypassedandsodidWednesday.Edwardcalledashepromisedeveryday,usuallyrightbeforeIwentto
bed.RoseandItalkedalot,andIstartedtofeelmoreandmoresecureintalkingtoher.Itwasn'tliketalkingto
Edward,butIcouldtalktoheraboutthingsthatwasn'tsoeasytotalktoEdwardabout.Rightnow,wewere
onceagaintalkingaboutmyinsecuritiesandmylackofselfesteem.Weweresittingonthecouchandatfirst
wehadbeenwatchingalameTVshow,butthenwehadstartedtalkingandcaredlessabouttheshow.
DoyouwanttoknowwhatIdowhenIfeelinsecureinmyownskin?Roseasked.
Sure.
IthinkbacktothelasttimeIfeltabsolutelysureofmyself,andwhenIfeltloved.
Inoddedmyheadabsentmindedly.ItwasbackinForks.Edwardhelpedmewithtakingaswiminthepool.
Afterthat,IfeltlikeIcoulddoanything.
Whatmadeyoufeelconfidentaboutthat?sheaskedsoftly,notjudging.
I'mterrifiedofwater.Ornotthewaterperse,butwhatliesunderneathandwhatlivesinit.Like,Ican'ttakea
bathinthetuborapoolbecauseofthedrains.Ican'ttakeaswiminalakeortheseabecauseofthefishesand
thebottom.
So,let'smakeaplan.Bytheendofthesetwoweeks,you'llbeabletotakeabathinthetub.
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It'snotsomethingthatwillgoawayjustlikethat,Rose,Iargued,butthetruthwasthattheideamademe
excited.
Iknow,butIdobelievethatyoushouldtrybeforeyousayitisn'tpossible.
Okay,IpromiseI'lltry...
You'regoingtomakeit,Bella.IbelieveinyouandIdon'tthinkI'mtheonlyone,shesaidandbentforward
togivemeahug.
Ihuggedherback.Thankyou.
IhadgoneuptomybathroomandhadbeenstaringatthetubforaboutanhourbeforeIwasinterruptedby
Edward.Inevermentionedtheplantohim,afraidthatIwouldfail.
Thenextmorning,Itriedtogetsomeworkdone,butitwasimpossiblesinceIcouldn'tconcentrate.Icouldn't
stopthinkingaboutthatbath.IstaredatthebathroomdoorandthenIconfidentlyputmyworkawayandwent
overtothedoor.
Icandothis!
Isatonthetoiletlid,staringatthebathtub.Isatthereforwhatfeltlikehours.Ididn'tgetanymoreworkdone
andRosewouldprobablybehomesoon.
Determined,Istoodupandstartedpacingbackandforthinfrontofthetub.Rosehadsomekindofmatthat
youcoulduseinthetubsoyouwouldn'tslip.
Icanusethattocoverupthedrain.
Iwentovertothetubandlaidthematoverthedrain,thenIcarefullysatdowninthetubasfarawayfromthe
matasIpossiblycould.Ijustsatthere,withnowater,fullyclothedandtriedtorelax.IpicturedEdward'shands
onmythighs,givingmethatsoothingmassagelikehedidbackinForks.
AllIcouldseeinfrontofmewasimagesItriedtoavoid.Imagesthatscaredtheshitoutofme.Itwaspeople
fromhorrormovies,amongstthemwere'BloodyMary'andthegirlfrom'TheRing.'Ittookeverythinginmeto
stayinthetubandnotgetupandhide.
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Icandothis,Icandothis,Ichantedtomyself,overandoveragain.
Ibroughtmykneesuptomychestandwrappedmyarmsaroundthem.Iburiedmyfaceinmyarmsandtriedto
takedeepbreaths.Thiswasn'taseasyasithadbeenwithEdwardinthepool.Thiswastentimesworse.
Ittookmealmostanhourtocalmdownandformybodytobecomefullyrelaxed.Iknewmanypeoplewould
thinkitwasonlyatinysteptowardthegoalIhadsetup,buttomeitwasabigstep.
IenjoyedthetriumphIfeltforalittlelongerbeforeIgotup.IwashappyabouttheprogressIhadmadetoday,
andhopefullyitwouldonlytakehalfanhourtorelaxwhenItriedagaintomorrow.Ididn'twanttotellEdward
untilIcouldtakeanactualbath,withwater,butIwantedtotellsomeone.
Glancingdownatmyclock,IrealizedRosewouldbehomeanyminutenow.IplacedthematbacktowhereI
founditandwentdownstairs.IheardthedooropenandsawRosesteppinginsidewhenIwashalfwaydown
thestairs.Ihurrieddownthestepsandattackedherwithabighug,carefulnottohitherstomach.
Ididit!IsatinthetubuntilIcouldrelax,andIdidit!IsaidloudlyanddidalittlehappydancewhenIhad
releasedher.
IwassoproudofmyselfthatIcouldn'thelpit.IwonderedhowhappyIwouldbeonceImanagedtotakeareal
bath.
I'msohappyforyou,shesaid,laughing.Weshouldgooutandcelebrate.
No,let'sdothatwhenI'vereachedthegoal.Ididn'tuseanywatertoday.
Okay,let'satleastcelebratewithsometakeoutandAlice,shesaidandwalkedovertothepone.
EPOV
IhadtriedcallingBellaforthethirdtimethismorning,butshewasstillnotpickingup.EversinceIleft,shehad
pickedupafterthesecondring,andthatwaswhyIwasstartingtogetworried.Iknewshewasn'tinbedyet
sinceitwasonlyteno'clockintheeveningbackinSeattle,onaSaturday.
Comeon,babe.That'shardlyfair,Emmettwhinedintothephone.HewastalkingtoRosalie.
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AskherwhyBellaisn'tansweringherphone,Itoldhim.
I'minthemiddleofsomethinghere,dude.
Doit,orI'lltellRosesomedirtysecretaboutyou,Ithreatened.
Fine...Rose,EdwardwantstoknowwhyhisbelovedBellaisn'tansweringherphone.Hewaitedforthe
answerandthenhetoldme,She'stakingabath.
What?
Oh,andshesaysyoudon'thavetoworry,it'sallapartoftheirplan.ThenhewentbacktotalkingtoRose
again.
Whatplan?
Bellahadnevermentionedanythingaboutaplanwhenwehadtalked.Especiallynotabouttakingabath.I
didn'twanttolistentoEmmett'sconversationwithRosalie,soIwalkedbacktomybedroomandturnedtheTV
on.
IhadnoideaofwhatIwaswatching,butafteranhour,Bellacalled.
Edward?sheasked.Icouldpictureherjumpingupanddownwithexcitement.Whichprobablywasn'tsuch
agoodthingsinceshewasprobablyonlywearingatowelafterherbath.Theimagemademegroanquietly.
Youhavesomethingyouwanttotellme,don'tyou,baby?
Yeah.Shetriedtosoundcoolaboutit,butshefailedmiserably.Itookabathtoday.
I'msoproudofyou,Bella.Icouldn'thelpthesmilethatspreadacrossmyfaceandIwishedmorethan
anythingthatIcouldbetherewithher.
Iam,too.Shegiggled.
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So,howdidyoudoit?Iwascurioussinceshefearedthetubmorethanthepool,andithadtakenmesome
timetogetherintherewithme.
Iimaginedthatyouweretherewithme,doingthatthingwithyourhandsthatyoudidbackinForks.Ittooka
fewtrieswithoutanywater,buteventuallyIdidit!Oh,andRosehasthismatthatyouusesoyouwon'tslip,but
Iusedittocoverupthedrain.
We'llhavetobuyoneofthose,then,sowecantakeabathtogetherwhenIgetback.
Ihadwantedtotakeabathwithherforsolong,butwehadnevertried.Wehadn'teventakenashower
together.
Yeah,weshould,shesaidhappily.So,enoughaboutme.Tellmeaboutyourday!
Ilaughedbecausesheseemedtohaveforgottenaboutthetimedifference.It'sonlyseveninthemorning,but
sofarI'vebeenwatchingsomeTVandnowI'mtalkingtoyou.
Icompletelyforgotaboutthat!Butwait,whatareyoudoingupatseveninthemorning,onaSaturday?she
askedconfused.
Iwantedtotalktoyoubeforeyouwenttobed.Besides,mybodyhasn'tgottenusedtoLondontimeyet.I
sighed.
Well,youcouldhavegottensomemoresleep,becauseI'mnotgoingtobedyet.
Youaren't?
Nope,shesaid,poppingthe'p,'Thegirlsaretakingmeouttocelebratemysuccess.
Andhowdoyouplantocelebrate?Iasked,feelingthejealousystepforward.
Oh,theysaidsomethingaboutgoingdancing,butIdon'tknowiftheymeantinaclub,orsomeplaceelse
whereyoudance.
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Okay,justdon'tletanyoftheguystouchyou.Mypossessivesidewasbeginningtoshow.
EdwardCullen,areyoujealous?sheasked,laughing.
It'snotfunny,baby.Ican'tprotectyouwhileI'mhereandyou'rebackinSeattle.
Frustrated,Idraggedmyhandthroughmyhair,pullingattheends.
Aww,IwishIcouldseeyourightnow,becauseIbetyoulookallhotandsexypullingthathairofyours.
Howdidsheknowthat?
You'lljusthavetouseyourimagination.
I'lldothat.Listen,Edward.IpromiseIwon'tletanymantouchmeinappropriately.
Don'tdancewithanyoneexceptthegirls,Itried.
Edward.Shesighed.We'vebeenoverthisoncebefore.I'mnotyourproperty,butIforgiveyouthistime
onlybecauseyou'renothere.YoujusthavetotrustmelikeItrustyou,okay?
Okay,Imumbleddefeated.
Good.Ihavetogoandgetready.I'lltalktoyousoon.
Havefun!Iloveyou,Isaid.Ihadtriedsayingthateverytimebeforewehungup,butsheneversaidthem
back.
Ihungupafteramomentofsilence,figuringitwouldbethesametoday.
Sighing,Itossedthephoneonthebedandwenttothebathroomtogetreadyfortheday.Itwasn'tlikeIwasn't
happyforher,butIwasfrustratedofalwaysputtingmyfeelingsoutintheopenwithoutgettinganythingin
return.IknewthatifIgavehertime,IwouldhearthosethreewordsIsodesperatelywantedtohear.ButIwas
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startingtogetimpatient.
ItriedtopushthosefeelingsawayandreplacethemwiththehappinessIfeltabouthersuccess.Itwasn'tan
easythingtodoandIneededsomethingtodistractme.
Hey,I'mgoingoutforawhile,ItoldEmmettwhenIhadfinishedgettingready.
DoyoumindifIcome?Iwanttoenjoyourdayoff,butIdon'twanttodoitinsidethishotelroom.
Yeah,sure.
Wehadtakenawalkaroundabigparkandgottensomebreakfast.Thenweenjoyedthecitylifewhilewalking
thestreets,notgoinganywhereparticular.
Wewalkedbyajewelerystorewhensomethinginthewindowcaughtmyeye.ItwasthemostperfectringI
couldeverimagineformeandBella.Itwasn'ttoocommonanditwasn'ttooflashy.IknewBellahadsaidthat
wewouldtalkabouttheringsonceIgothome,butIhadtogettheseonesandIdidn'tcarethatwehadn'ttalked
aboutityet.
LaterthatdayIgotatextfromRosalie.Iwassurprisetoseehernameonthedisplaysincewerarelycalledor
textedtoeachother.WeusuallyusedEmmettorBellaasamiddlehand.
ShehadtextedmeapictureofBella.IstaredatitalongtimebeforeIregaincomposure.Shehadtakena
pictureofBelladancingaroundastrippole.Iwasinstantlyjealousofeveryguyinthatroomthatwereableto
seethislive.Rosehadwrittensomethingunderthepicture.
Allthiswithoutasingledropofalcohol.R
BPOV
IsawRosewithherphone,IfiguredshewascheckinginwithEmmett,andturnedbacktodancingwithAlice.
Theyhadtakenmetoaclubwheregirlscouldcomeuponstageandtrydancingaroundastrippole.
AftersomeconvincingfromRoseandAlice,Ihadtriedit.Ifeltalittleuncomfortableinthebeginning,butonce
Igotintothesongandhearingtheaudienceapplause,Ihadletgo.Ididn'tregretasinglesecondofdoingso,
becausetheconfidenceIhadstillfeltfrommysuccessintakingabathonlyintensified.
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Iwaslucky,though,becausetherewerenodrunkguystryingtograbafeel,orhitonme.Thiswasaclubfor
girlsonly.Plus,IhadnoideahowEdwardwould'vereactedifheknewthatIhaddonethatdanceinfrontof
guys.
So,howaretheguys?IaskedRoseoverthemusicwhenAliceandIweredonedancing.
Th...Shedidn'tgetanyfurtheruntilAliceinterrupted.
No!Wearestrong,independentwomen,andwecandoonenightwithoutourmen,Alicesaid,raisingher
glasswithcoke.
Yeah,you'reright!Iyelled,clinkingmyglasstohers.
Yeah!Roselaughedandjoinedherglasswithours.
SinceRoseshouldn'tdrinkalcohol,bothAliceandIhaddecidednotdrinkiteither.Sofar,Iwasfinewiththat
decisionbecauseIhadagreattimeanyway.
WedancedforawhilelongeruntilRosestartedcomplainingonherhurtingfeetandtiredness.Whenshe
mentionedbeingtired,itwaslikeshehadmadeAliceandIrealizehowexhaustedwewere.Sowewentback
home.WedroppedAliceoffatherplaceandshepromisedtocomebytomorrowtoworkonthenursery.
AssoonasIcametothebedroomItextedEdwardtolethimnoIwashomeandsafe.
Justgotback.I'lltalktoyoutomorrow.Goodnight.xB
Iwenttothebathroomtogetready.Iwasn'tverythoroughsinceIwassotiredIcouldfallasleepwhile
brushingmyteeth.
MyphonewasblinkingwithanewtextmessagewhenIgotback.
Ihopeyouhadfun.Sweetdreams.Iloveyou.xxE
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Iwasn'ttootiredtofeelguilty,though,likeIalwaysdidwhenhesaidthosethreewords.Healwayssaidthem
whenwetalkedtoeachother,andeverytime,Iwantedtosaythemback.Itjustdidn'tfeelrighttosaythem
overthephone,notwhenIhadn'tsaidthemtohimbefore.Notasfarasheknew,atleast.
Ididn'twriteanythingback.Iwenttobedinstead,andeventhoughIwassoexhaustedittookmeatleastan
hourbeforeIfinallyfellasleep.
Sincewedidn'tgetinuntillatelastnight,wedecidednottohurryupfrombed.Alicecameatnoonandby
then,RoseandIwereeatingbreakfast.Whenweweredone,wegottowork.We,orratherAliceandI,
emptiedthenurseryfromitspreviousfurnitureswhileRosesaidwerewecouldputthem.Itwasn'tlikeshe
didn'twanttohelp,wejustdidn'tlether.Weallowedhertotakethelighterstuff,suchassparesheets.
AliceandIwerepushingtheheavycouchtotheroomnextdoor,butweonlygottothethresholdbeforeAlice
gaveup.
I'mtootiredforthisshit!sheexclaimedandfloppeddownontothecouch.
Well,thinkabouttheoutcome.Thebabywillhaveagreatplacetostay,Isaidandjoinedheronthecouch.I
wasalsotired,eventhoughIdidn'tadmitthat.
Yeah,butthat'slikemonthsaway!
IfIkeepgrowinglikeIhave,itwillprobablybesooner,Rosesaid,joiningus.
Itprobablylookedstupidtositonacouchinthemiddleofadoorway,butIthinkweallweretooexhaustedto
evencare.
Yournotthatbig,Rose,Aliceargued.
TellthattoEmmettwhenhefindsmerepulsiveandwon'tevenconsiderhavingsexwithme,shemuttered.
Hashesaidthat?Iaskedshocked.
No,butheprobablywill,andifhedoesn'tthenitwillprobablybeclosetoimpossibletohavesexwiththe
bellyintheway.
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Butwhy?Can'tyoujusttryanotherposition?Iasked,notknowingwhyIevenaskedthat.
Okay,listen,Bella.ImaginehavingsexwithEdwardwhilehavingahugestomach.Sobigthatyouwouldn't
seehisfacewhenyou'reontop,oryou'retooheavytoevenbeontop.Wouldyouevenwanttohavesexthen,
ifyouknewhewouldn'tenjoyit?
ButIdon'tunderstandwhyhewouldn'tenjoyit,Isaidconfused.
That'sjustdetails.Justanswerthequestion,Bella.
Letmegetbacktoyouonthat.Istoodupandwalkedovertothedresser,andstartedpackingthingsin
boxes.
Whycan'tyouanswermenow?Shewassmirking,whichprobablymeantthatsheknewwhy.
Somehow,Icouldn'tstanditanylonger.Iwantedtotalktosomeoneaboutthisanyway,sowhynotmybest
friends?
BecauseIcouldgiveyouamuchbetteranswerwhenIknowhowitfeelstohavesex.
Youmeanyou'veneverhadsex?Aliceaskedsurprised.
No,Itoldthemsimply.
Wow.ButyouandEdward...?
Juststartedkissingonthemouth.Hemayhavegivenmeanorgasm,ortwo,butwehaveneverhadsex,I
admittedandturnedmyfaceawayfromthem.Thiswasaembarrassingsubject,butIwantedtheiradvice.
Soyou'veneverhadsex?Withanyone?Wealwaysthoughtyousneakedoutandthenkeptitasecrettous.
No.IhadneverevenbeenkissedbeforeEdward,Iadmitted.
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Oh,thisissoromantic.Hewasyourfirstkissandnowhe'llbeyourfirstlover!Alicesaidloudly,clapping
herhands.Thenshelookedatme.Becauseyoudoplantogivehimyourvirginity,don'tyou?
I'vethoughtaboutit.Ishruggedmyshoulderlikeitwasnothing,butthetruthwasthatIhadthoughtaboutit
alot.
Youlovehim,right?RoseaskedandInoddedmyhead.That'sallthatmatters.
IguessI'mjustscared,that'sall.
What'sscaringyou?Aliceaskedsoftly.
Iwentovertothemandsatdowninmyspotbetweenthemagain.Thepain,theexpectations,andwhatifI'm
notgoodandhedoesn'twantmeafterwe'vehadsex.
I'mnotgoingtolieandsaythattherewon'tbeanypain,becausethereprobablywillbe.Butpracticemakes
perfect.Sowhatifthesexisn'tgoodthefirsttime?Edwardwon'tleaveyoujustbecauseofthat.Thingslike
thatcantaketime,especiallyifyou'veneverdoneitbefore.Rosewordsreassuredme,butIwasstillworried.
MostlyaboutthepainbecauseIhadneverhadahightoleranceofthat.
Edwardlovesyouandhewouldneverdoanythingtohurtyou.Andyoushouldtalktohimaboutyourfears
beforeyou'retakingthingsfurther,Alicesaidandhuggedme.ThenRosebroughtusbothinforahugsowe
wereallhuggingeachother.
Comeon,let'sleavethecouchandgodownstairstowatchamovie.Wecanfixthisroomupwhenwearen't
sotired,Rosesaidandgotup.
EPOV
Hello?Roseaskedintothephone.IhadtolookatthedisplaytoseeifIhadcalledthewrongnumber,butI
hadn't.
Rose?Where'sBella?
She'ssleeping,Ithink.WaitaminuteandI'llgetherforyou.Icouldhearherasshewalkedupthestairsand
knockedsoftlyonadoor.
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Pleasedon'twakeher.JustputthephonetoherearandI'lldoit,Itoldher.
Ididn'twanttowakeheratall,butthiswasmyonlychancetotalktohertodayandshehadmademepromise
tocallherdaily.AtleastIcouldbetheonetowakeher.
Okay.Um,byethen,Iguess.
Bye.
IcouldhearsomerustlingandthenwhatIfiguredwouldbeBella'sbreaths.Theyweresoftandeven,andfora
whileallIwantedtodowastosithereandlisten,butIknewRosestillheldthephonetoBella'searsoIstarted
talking.
Bella?Baby,pleasewakeupforme.
Iheardhermumbleaverytired'no'likesheusuallydidwhenItriedtowakeher.
Ichuckled.Please,baby?
Edward?Shesoundedsotired,butalsoveryhopeful.
Yeah,I'mhere,sopleasewakeup.
Oh,shecriedoutandIinstantlywonderedwhathadhappenedthatwouldcausehertosoundsosadallofthe
sudden.
Iheardsomemorerustlinginthebackgroundandasoftsob.
Hey,baby.What'swrong?Iaskedconcerned.
Nothing,justgivemeaminute,shemumbled.
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Bella,don'ttellmeit'snothingwhenIknowit'snot.
It'sjust...whenIwokeuptoyourvoiceIthoughtyouwereactuallyherewithme,but...Hervoicecracked
beforeshecontinue.
Fuck,Icursedundermybreath.I'msosorry,baby.Ididn'tmeantomakeyouupset.
Iknowthat.Justgivemeaminutetocollectmyself.
Okay.Therewasn'tmuchelseIcoulddo.Icouldn'thugher,orgiveherakisstoletherknowthateverything
wasokay.AllIcoulddowassitherandgivehertheminutesheaskedfor.
I'msorry,shesaideventually.
No,I'msorry,baby.Ishouldn'thavedonethat.
Iusuallylikeyourwakeupcalls.IguessI'mjustemotionalrightnow.Shechuckledsoftly.Ijustmissyou
somuch...
Imissyousofuckingmuch,too,Bella.Youhavenoidea.I'mcountingdownthedaysanditprobablywon't
belonguntilIstartcountingthehoursandthentheminutesaswell.
Shegiggledatthatandthesoundmademesmile.ItfeltgoodtohearherhappyafterthetearsIjustheard.
Areyougoingtotellmehowmanydaysthereareleft,then?Icouldhearthechallengeinhervoice.Likeshe
thoughtImadeituporsomething.
Ifyoudon'tcounttoday,thereareexactlysixdaysuntilIgettoseeyouagain.
That'stoolong!shewhined.
Iknow,butatleastwe'rehalfwaythroughnow.
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Yeah,you'reright,shemumbled.
So,howwaslastnight?Iasked,changingthesubject.
Itwasfun,andyoudon'thavetosoundsojealous.Therewereonlygirlsinthatclub.Ididn'tknowhowshe
couldseerightthroughmelikethatwhenshewasn'tevenlookingatme.
Well,that'snicetohear.Shelaughed.
Emmettpoppedhisheadinsidemydoor,silentlytellingmethatIneededtohangupandgettowork.
I'msorry,baby,butIhavetogo.I'llletyougetbacktosleepandI'llcallyousoonagain.
Okay,haveaniceday.Icouldhearthepoutinhervoice.
Yeah,Iwill.Iloveyou.
Ididn'tevenbothertowaitforhertosaythembackbeforeIhungup.Itwouldonlyhurtmemoretobemet
withsilence.
EndNotes:
A/N:So,whatdidyouthink?Letmeknow!
Ihadnohelpwhatsoeverwiththischapter,butIhopeyou'resatisfiedanyway!
Nextupdate:14thofJuly
Backtoindex
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Thequoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'Twilight,'Ijustchangeditintoplural:
You'reastrong,independentwoman.
Thequoteinthischapterisabeautifulonefromahilariousmovie!Although,you
probablycan'ttellfromthequotethatitis.
Forthefirsttimeever,IgiveyouabrandnewBETA'Dchapter,andit'sRhapsodywho
hashelpedmewiththis!
Iloveyou
BPOV
Istareddownatthephone.Hehadn'tevenletmesaygoodbyebeforehehungup.Hehadsoundedsosad
whenhesaid'Iloveyou,'andIdon'tblamehim.ItmademepromisemyselfthatIwouldsaythethreelittle
wordstohimbeforeanythingelsewhenhegotback.BecauseIwasstillsurethatIwantedtosaythemtohis
faceandnottothephone.Therewassomethingsopersonalaboutsaying'Iloveyou'tosomeoneforthefirst
time,andIwantedthatmomenttobesomewhatspecial,andnotoverthephone.
Iwasn'ttiredanymoresoIdecidedtogodownstairstoseeifRosewasstillup.Ifiguredshewassinceshewas
theonewhohadbroughtthephonetome.
IfoundRoseinthekitchen,bytheoven.Ifounditstrangethatshewouldbakesomethingthislateatnight.
Rose,whatareyoudoing?Iaskedandsatdownononeofthebarstools.
Christ,Bella!Youscaredme!Sheputherhandoverherheart.Ihadasuddencravingforchocolate
cookies.
Ilaughed.Yeah,thatsoundsyummy.
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Waituntilyou'repregnantandI'msureyouwon'tlaughwhenyoucravecookiesinthemiddleofthenight,
andthenrealizethatyoudon'tevenhaveany!
Okay,okay.Iraisedmyhandsinsurrender.Isthereenoughcookiesformetoo?
Yeah,thereshouldbe,dependingonhowhungrythebabyis.Shepattedherstomachlovingly.
Thegesturemademymindpicturemyselfwithaswollenstomach,andEdwarddutifullyhelpingmebaking
cookiesinthemiddleofthenight.Theimagemademesmile,butitvanishedasquicklyasitcame.Ididn'twant
togetmyhopesupforafuturelikethatwithEdward.Notyet.
Hey,Rose.CanIaskyouaquestion?
Sure,goahead.Sheturnedherfullattentiontome.
WhendidyouandEmmett,telleachother'Iloveyou'forthefirsttime?
Seniorprom,sheansweredquickly.Weweredancingandhekindofblurtedoutthewords.Isaidthem
back,knowingthatIlovedhimwithallmyheart.
Howlonghadyoubeendating?
Let'ssee,hmm...almostsixmonths.
Okay,Isaid,lookingdownatmyhands.
Whydoyouask?Hasn'tEdwardtoldyouhelovesyouyet?
Oh,hehas,countlesstimes.Ijust...haven'tsaidthemback,Iadmitted.
Youhaven't?Icouldtellthatshewassurprised.
Ishookmyhead.Itoldhimattheairport,buthewasalreadygonebythetimethewordshadleftmymouth,
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soIdon'tthinkheheardthem.
Wow...Ithoughtyoubothhadsaiditbynow.
Yeah,it'sjustthatitfeelssoimpersonaltotellhimoverthephone.Icanhearitinhisvoicethathewantsto
hearthemback,sobadly.
Idon'tthinkyoushouldsayitoverthephoneifyou'renotcomfortablewithit.Justdon'twaittoolongtosay
it,becauseeventhoughEdwardlovesyou,evenhewon'twaitforever.
Iknow,Imumbled.I'mgoingtotellhimassoonashegetsbackfromLondon.
Youdothat.
Rightthen,thetimerontheovenwentoff.Rosetookthecookiesoutandplacedthemonaplate.
Westayeduplate,watchingromanticcomediesandeatingcookies.Webothfellasleeponthecouchsometime
aftertwointhemorning.
WorkonMondaywashell,especiallyifyouconsiderthelackofsleepIgotlastnight.Ontopofthat,Ihad
meetingaftermeetingalldaylong.Ididn'tevenhaveagoodmanuscripttoread.
RoseandIhaddecidedtogooutfordinnerthatnightinsteadofjustorderinginlikeweusuallydid.So,after
work,Idrovetoherstudio.Ihadn'tbeenthereforwhatfeltlikeages.
Itwasabigroomthatlookedlikearestoredfactorywithredoldbricksandhighwindows.Therewasalsoa
smallerroomthatRoseusedasheroffice.Sherarelyhadphotoshootsheresheusuallywenttootherplaces
thatfittedthecustomerswishes.Today,though,shedidhaveaphotoshoothereandthatwaswhatshewas
doingwhenIwalkedthroughthedoors.
TherewereatleastfivepeoplesurroundingRose,helpingherwiththelightingandthemodels.Icouldn'tsee
themodels,though,sincetherewerescreensandthosewhiteumbrellascoveringthem.
Rosemusthaveheardthedoorslambehindmebecauseshelookedatmeandyelled,Bella!I'llbedoneina
fewminutes,soyoucouldwaitinmyofficeifyou'dlike.
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Inoddedmyheadandsmiled.Ididn'twanttoyellalloverthestudio.Itseemedunnecessaryanyway.
Iwalkedovertoheroffice.IthadchangedabitsinceI'dbeenherethelasttime.Thewalltomyleftwasstillthe
samewithshelvesandcamerashangingonit.Then,thewalltomyrighthadcompletelychanged.Whereithad
beenplainwhitebefore,wasnowcoveredwithphotos.Notjustanyphotos,butpicturesofEmmett,Rose,
Alice,Jasper,Edward,andevenme.Thenthereweresomepicturesofherparentsaswell,justnotasmany.
Onephotocaughtmyeye.ItwasapictureofEdwardthatIhadneverseenbefore.Hehadthatsexycrooked
smilealloverhisface.Hishairwasstyled,butstillinitsusualunrulyway.Hehadonablueshirtwithalighter
bluetshirtunderneath.Hislefthandwasrestingonhisrightcheek.HewassohandsomethatIalmostlostmy
breath.
Icouldn'thelpmyselfbuttotakethephotodownfromthewalltoexamineitcloser.Hisgreeneyeswere
radiatingandveryintense.
It'sagreatphoto,isn'tit?Rosesaid,scaringtheshitoutofme.
Whoa!I'msorry,Ijustwantedtogetacloserlook,Isaid,puttingthepicturebacktowhereIhadfoundit.
Youcanhaveitifyouwant.It'sonlyfairconsideringIhadgivenEdwardoneofyou.Shewalkedovertoher
deskandstartedsearchingthroughapileofpapers.ItookitoncewhenhevisitedmeherewithEmmett.I
neededtotakeatestshottogetthelightright,andhewasoffering.Itwasareallygoodphoto,soIneverthrew
itaway.
You'resureIcanhaveit?Imean,whataboutyourcollection?Igesturedtowardthewall.
Ihaveotherones.Takeit.
Withouthesitating,ItookthepictureandplaceditinoneofthebooksIhadinmybagsoitwouldn'tget
destroyed.ThenIwalkedovertoherandgaveherabighug.Thankyou.
I'mgoingtoputthatonmydeskattheoffice.
It'snobigdeal.Now,let'sgo,I'mstarving!
WedecidedonMcDonlad'ssinceneitherofusknewwhatwewantedtoeat,anditwasclose.
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Rosedidn'tneedtoworkthefulldayonTuesday,sowewouldhavetimetofixtherestofthenursery.Jasper
hadcomeovertohelpuswiththefurnitureSundayafternoon,sowewereallsettostartputtingupthe
wallpaperanddecorate.
So,onTuesdayafternoon,westartedtoworkonthewalls.Thewallpaperwascoloredinbrightyellowandhad
bigredladybugsalloverthem.
Haveyoudecidedonnamesyet?Iasked,dippingtherollerintheglue.
KindofIwanttonameherLilyifit'sagirlandHenryifit'saboy,sheanswered,strokingherbelly.
EmmettwantstonamehimEmmettJr.,though.
Itriedtopushawaythelaughterthatthreatenedtoescapemymouth.Ithinkthat'sabitoldfashioned.
Yeah,there'snowayI'mnaminghimEmmettJr.ifit'saboy,that'sforsure!
Good,Ichuckled.So,he'sstillsureit'saboy?
Yeah,buthe'sstartingtoliketheideaofagirltoo.Ithinkhe'llbehappynomatterwhatsexitis.
Weallwill,Ireassuredher.
Wewereabletofinishputtingthewallpaperupthatday.WedecidedtoholdoffonthefurnitureuntilEmmett
gothomesinceIcouldn'tcarryitallbymyselfandwedidn'twanttoriskanythingbylettingRosehelp.
EPOV
ImadeapromisetomyselfthatIwouldn'tgotoEuropeanytimesoonafterthistrip,becausetheplanerideback
tothestateswasapainintheass.
IhadtowaitfifteenfuckinghoursbeforeIgottoseemyBellaagain,andIcouldn'twait.Tomaketimego
faster,Idecidedtogetsomesleepuntilwehadtochangeplanes.
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Highschoolgraduation
ImadeitoutofmyVolvo,andgrabbedthegownandhat.Theywerecoloredinaterribleyellowshade.It
lookeddisgusting,butatleastIjusthadtowearitforafewhours.Islidthegownovermywhiteshirtand
blackslacks,andwentovertotheotherstudents.
Theyhadstartedtolineupaccordinglytothefirstletterinyourlastname.Iwassupposedtostandwiththe
oneswhostartedwith'C.'
Onmywaytothefrontoftheline,IsawBellastandingbehindJessica.TheyellowgownIfounddisgusting,
lookedgoodonher,butshestilllookedlikeazombie.Abeautifulzombie,likeshehadbeensinceshegotback
toschoolamonthago.Eventhoughrumorshadbeenflyingaroundlikecrazy,nooneseemedtoknowwhere
shehadbeenthatweekwhenshewasn'tinschool.Sincenoonereallytalkedtoher,Iguesswewouldnever
findout.
EvenfromwhereIwasstanding,Icouldseethesadlookonherface.Irealizedthatthiswouldprobablybethe
lastdayIwouldeverseeher.ItpainedmethatthelastimageIwouldhaveofherwaswhenshelookedsolost
andsad.
Icouldalwaystryandchangethat,though.Icouldgooverandtalktoher,maybesaygoodbye.Itwasthelast
dayofschool,soitwasn'tlikeIhadareputationtoholdanymore.
Hi,Bella,IsaidwhenIfinallyhadgatheredthecouragetogoovertoher.
Youcan'tevenleavemealoneongraduation,canyou?sheaskedweakly.
Istaredintoherchocolatebrownorbsandopenedmymouthtoanswerher,butIdidn'tgetthatfar.
Oh,Edward,thereyouare!Maybewecansneakawayforafewminutesaftertheceremony,Jessicasaid,
andlickedherlipsinwhatIguessedwouldbeaseductiveway,butitwasafarcryfromit.
No,Jessica.ItwasprobablyoneofthefewtimesIhadactuallysaidnotoher,sohermouthwashanging
openinshock.
IturnedtowardBellaagain,butshehadherheadturnedawayfromme.Ihadprobablyjustmadeherday
worsebytalkingtoher,butIwantedtoatleastsaygoodbye.
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Mrs.Copestartedtellingallthestudentstogetintheirplacessotheceremonycouldstart.
Youtoo,Mr.Cullen,comeon,shesaid,gesturingwithherhandformetofollowher.
IstartedfollowingherandthenIturnedtowardBellaagain.Goodbye,Bella.
Everyoneinlinewhohadheardme,whichwasprobablyathirdofallthestudents,turnedtheirheadsinmy
directiontoseeiftheyheardrighteveryoneexceptBella.
Frustrated,IturnedawayandfollowedMrs.CopetowhereIwassupposedtostand.
Istoppedcountingmyyawnsafterthefifthone.Theceremonyfeltlikeitdraggedonforever,allIwantedtodo
wasgetoutofhere,andIdon'tthinkIwasaloneinwantingthat.
Oncetheyfinallystartedcallingournames,Iwasoneofthefirstonestogetmydiploma,afterwardIjustsat
backandwatchedastheothersgottheirs.
Belladidn'tevensmilewhenshereceivedhers...
BPOV
Somewherefaraway,Ifeltthebedshiftbehindmeasapairofstrongarmswrappedaroundme.Ididn'twake
up,though,becauseIknewitwasadream.Edwardwasn'thomeyet,andhewouldn'tbeforanotherthree
days.That'swhyItriedtoenjoyeverysinglemomentofthefeeling,eventhoughitwouldonlymakemefeel
emptyinthemorning.AtleastIwouldgetafewhoursofhappiness,makingittotallyworththehoursof
lonelinessinthemorning.
Surprisingly,whenIwokeupthenextmorning,thearmswerestillthere.ThebreathIhadfeltonmyneckand
shoulderswerealsostillthere.
Ilookeddownatthearmswrappedaroundmeandsawhishands.TheywereEdward's.Iwouldhave
recognizedthemanywhere,withhislongelegantfingers.
TheslightmovementmyheadmadewhenIlookeddownathisarms,madeEdwardstirandIfelthisstubble
scratchmyshoulderblades.
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Ipinchedmyarmhardtoseeifitwasadreamornot.Sinceithurtlikehellandnothingchanged,Ifiguredit
wasn't.Agoofygrinspreadacrossmyfaceatthethought.
Hehadcomehomeearlyforme!
AsgentlyasIcould,ItriedtoturnoversoIcouldseehim.Hehadmeinanirongrip,butaftersomestruggling,
Iwasabletoturn.Mygoofygrindidn'tleavemyface,andonlygotbiggerwhenIsawhim.
Helookedexhausted.Hisstubblewasalittlelongerthanusual,hishairwasalotmoreuntamed,andhehad
darkcirclesunderhiseyes.Eventhough,helookedsohandsome,mydreamshadn'tmadehimjustice.
Ilaythere,staringathimwhileheslept.Allthewhilemysmileonlygotbigger.Iwasfilledwithsuch
happinessthatIcouldhavescreamedoutinjoy,butIdidn'twanttowakeEdward,soIkeptquiet.
Bella,quitstaringatme,hemumbledsleepily.
Igiggled,happythathewasfinallyawake.
Hismouthwasslightlyopened,anditcouldn'tlookmoreinviting,soIbroughtmymouthtohis.Iwasfinally
wereIbelongedagain.
Ithinkhewastooshockedandtootiredtorespondatfirst,butwhenItracedhisbottomlipwithmytongue,I
wasgrantedaccess.IgentlypushedhimoverontohisbacksoIcouldstraddlehisstomach.Thatwaswhenhe
startedtoreacttomyattentions.
HebroughthisbighandstomybackandpushedmedownsoIwaslyingflatontopofhim.Weneverbroke
thekissandwhilehetriedtogetmeclosertohim,hestartedexploringmymouthwithhistongue.Ilethimtake
overenjoyingthefeelofhim.
Hebroughthishanddownundermytshirtanduptomybareribcage.Hegentlybrushedthesideofmybreasts
andImoanedatthesensation.Then,hesatusupinasittingposition.Thismademeslidedownfromhis
stomachandontohiscrotch.Hebrokethekissandletoutaloudgrunt.
Hesqueezedmetighterandstartedkissingdownmyneck.IsawthisasagreatopportunitytosaythewordsI
hadwantedtotellhimsobadlyoverthelastelevendays.
Ibroughtmyhandstohishair,soIcouldanglehisheadtoreachhisear.Iloveyou,EdwardCullen.
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Therewassilence,andatfirst,Ifearedthathehadchangedhismindaboutus.Iknewbetterthanthat,though.I
figuredhejustneededtimetoprocesswhatIjustsaid,butwhenIfeltwetnessonmyneck,Istartedtoworry.
Hey,whyareyoucrying?Iasked,bringinghisheadupsoIcouldseehim.
Please,sayitagain,hebegged.
Iloveyou,Iloveyou,Iloveyou,IsaidwhileIkissedawayhissaltytears.
YouhavenoideahowlongI'vebeenwaitingforyoutosaythosewords,hewhispered.
Ilookeddeepintohiseyes.ThenIplacedagentlekissonhislipsbeforeIpulledbackandgrabbedhishand,
andplaceditovermyheart.
Doyoufeelthat?Iaskedandhenodded.Youaretheonlymanwhomakesmyheartbeatfasterandslower
atthesametime.
God,Iloveyousomuch,hesaid,huggingmecloseagain.
Thistimewedidn'tkiss,wejustsatthereandheldeachotherclose.Afterawhile,Edwardshiftedandbroke
thesilence.
AsmuchasIlovesittingherewithyou,IthinkweshouldmovebeforeIgetstuckinthisposition.
Ihadn'tevenrealizedhowuncomfortablehemustbewithmesittingontopofhim.Oh,I'msorry.Iwasjustso
happyyou'rehome!
IgotoffhislapandlaydownontheothersideofthebedwhereIhadbeensleepingalmostanhourago.
Edwardfollowedmeandlaydownontopofme,restinghisweightonhiselbowsbesidemyhead.Iwantedto
feelallofhim.Ididn'twantanyspaceatallbetweenus,soItriedtopushhimdownontopofme,usingmy
handsonhisback.
I'mtooheavy,I'llcrushyou,hemumbledonceherealizedwhatIwastryingtodo.
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Please,atleastforalittlewhile.I'llletyouknowifitbecomestoomuchtohandle.
ThistimeIwrappedmylegsaroundhiswaisttohelpmepushhimdown.Thistimehedidn'targue,andlaidhis
headdownonmychestfollowedbytherestofhisbody.SoonIwascovered,justlikeablanket.
Edwardmusthaveforgottentoclosethedoorproperly,becauseafterawhile,Elsacameinandjumpedupon
thebed.ShewasjustasexcitedasIwastohaveEdwardback,andshoweditbynuzzlinghernoseinto
Edward'shairandface.
ShelaydownbesidemyheadandrestedherheadontheshoulderEdwardwasn'toccupying.Shestaredat
Edward,silentlyaskinghimtopether,whichhedidafterawhile.Icouldfeelhimsmile.
Howlongdoyouthinkshe'sgoingtolaythere?heasked.
Hey,she'sjusthappytohaveyouback!
AndI'mhappytobeback,butshewaskindofinterrupting.Hewasstillstrokingherbehindherears.
Icouldhearthepoutinginhisvoice,eventhoughIcouldn'tseehisface,soIbroughtmyhandstohishairand
startedmassaginghisscalp.Hehummedinappreciation.
Thenyoushouldhaveclosedthedoorproperly,Itoldhim.
I'llrememberthatnexttime,hemumbled.
AsifshehadheardEdward'swords,fiveminuteslater,RosecalledforElsa.
Elsa,comehere!Sheletoutawhistle.It'sbreakfasttime!
Elsadidn'tevenhesitatebeforeboltingupfromthebedandrandownstairs.
Howcanshebesoexcitedaboutdogfood?Edwardaskedwithahintofdisgustinhisvoice.
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BecauseRosegivesherbacon,that'swhy.
Hejusthuffedinresponse.AfterawhilehisbreathingbecameregularandIthoughtforamomentthathehad
fallenasleep.ThenIfelthishandsmoveunderneathmyshirtandstrokingmyside.
Youknow,I'vebeengreetedbytwoofmygirlsbynow,buttherearetwomoreleft.Hegotupononeelbow
andsmirkeddownatme.
Ilookedupathim,confused,butwhenhenoddeddowntowardmyboobs,Iunderstoodwherehewasgoing
withthis.Oh!
Yeah,Helookedatmesmugly.So,areyougoingtoletmesayhitomygirls,orwhat?
Hemovedhishanduptowardmyboobsandskimmedhispalmovermyleftone.Icouldn'thelpthemoanand
nodthatescapedme.
Whocouldsaynotothisman?
Heremovedthetshirtfrommybodywithease.Thenhestoppedhisactionsandjustogledmyboobs.He
lickedhislipsandthenlookedbackupatmeagain.
Theylookbigger,hesaidinawe,lookinglikeakidinacandystore.
Igiggledwithoutrealizingitmadethembouncealittle.Therearetwothingsyoucanputtheblameon:Take
outandAuntFlow.
ThewordswereoutbeforeIrealizedit.Ihadn'tmeanttotellhimthat.Itwassonotaturnontotalkaboutmy
periodrightnow.
Who'sAuntFlowandwhatdoesshehavetodowiththesizeofyourtits?heasked,dippinghisheaddown
toplaceakissoneachofmyboobs.
Nothing,Isqueakedout,relievedthathedidn'tseemtoknowwhatImeant.
Henuzzledhisfacebetweenthemandthenhewentovertopepperthembothwithkisses.Then,wehearda
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bangonthedoor.
Stopmoaningandcomedownstairs.Rosiesaysbreakfastisready!Emmettboomed.
IlookedembarrassedatEdwardwhojustshruggedhisshoulders.Hewasjustjoking,baby.Weweren'tthat
loud.
Areyousure?Iaskeduncertainly.
Mhm,butIwouldliketohearyoumoaningmyname,somaybeweshouldeatsomebreakfastandthengo
home?
Yeah,Imumbled.Ididn'treallywanttoleavethisbed,butIwouldfeelmorecomfortabledoingthat,
whateveritwas,athome.
Comeon,mybeautifulwife,hesaid,draggingmeupfromthebedbymyhand.
Igroaned,buryingmyfaceinhisbarechest.Iplacedakissoverhisheart,andthenIlookedupathimandsaid,
Ineedashower.
Youcanhaveoneathome...withme.
Wehadnevertakenashowertogetherbefore.Wehadn'tevenseeneachothercompletelynakedsinceVegas,
andeventhen,allIsawwashisass.Theideaoftakingashowerwithhimbothmademenervousandexcited.
Okay,Iwhispered,noddingmyhead.
Ahugesmilespreadacrosshisface.Hecuppedmyfaceandthenpressedhislipstomine.Iwasstillonly
wearingmypantiessinceEdwardhadremovedmytshirt,andIdidn'twantEmmetttobargeinonuslikethis,
soIbrokethekissbeforeitgotanydeeper.
Weshouldgetdressedforbreakfast.Istillneedtopackmythings,sothesoonerwedothat,thesoonerweget
togohome.
Okay,hesaidandkissedthetipofmynose.
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IlocatedapairofoldjeansandahoodieinthecornerthatIputon.Ididn'tcareaboutabraoratshirt.Tobe
honest,Iwantedtogohomeassoonaspossibleanditwouldjusttaketimetosearchforcleanclothes.
Howniceofyoutojoinus,Emmettsaidwhenwegottothekitchen.
Roseshothimaglareandthensmiledapologeticallyatme.Itwasnicetohaveherknowwhatwasgoingon
betweenEdwardandme.UnlikeEmmettwhoprobablythoughtwehadbeenhavingsexallmorning.
So,whereisthisAuntFlowthat'sbeenfeedingyougirls?Edwardasked,takingabiteofhiseggs.Ididn't
knowanyofyouhadanauntnamedFlow.
Inearlychokedonmycoffee,andIcouldfeelmyfaceturnredfromembarrassment.Rosejustlookedathim
andthenthrewherheadbackandlaughed.
MaybeIshould'vejustsaid'period'?
Dude,Emmettsaid,shakinghishead,laughingquietly.
What?Edwardaskedinnocently.
Edward...Maybeweshouldhavethatconversationathomeinsteadofhere,atthedinnertable,IsaidwhenI
hadcalmeddownfromnearlychoking.
Fine,hemuttered.Ijustwantedtoknow.
Iknowyoudid,andI'lltellyoulater.Ipromise.Ipattedhiskneeunderthetable.
Wecontinuedtoeatmostlyinsilence.Roseletoutashortlaughfromtimetotime,butwasabletostopherself
beforeitgotbigger.IguessshewasamusedbyEdward'squestionearlier.
Emmett,whydon'tyoucleanuphere?AndEdward,youcangoupstairsandstartpackingBella'sstuff,Rose
orderedwhenwewerealldone.IneedtosaygoodbyetoBellainprivate.
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IlookedatEdward,heseemedconfused.It'sOK,I'llberightup.
IfollowedRoseintothelivingroomwhereshestoppedandturnedtolookatme.
Youtoldhimthismorning,didn'tyou?Shesmiled.
Ididn'tneedanyfurtherexplanationtounderstandwhatshemeant.
Yeah,ItoldhimthatIlovehimwhenwewokeupthismorning,Isaid,smiling.Howdidyou...?
Oh,likeyoucouldn'ttellfromthehugesmilebothofyouhadonyourfaces.
Ishruggedmyshouldersandgiggled.Ifeltlikeateenagerinlove,andIcouldn'thelpbuttosmileandlaughall
thetime.ItwaslikeaweighthadbeenliftedoffmyshoulderswhenIhadtoldEdwardthatIlovehim.
Promisemethatyou'llcallmewheneveryouneedme,shepleaded.Idon'tcarewhattimeitis,orwhatyou
wanttotalkabout.ItcanbeeverythingfromhowtomakecookiestoblowjobsandsexforallIcare!
Rose!Ihissed.
Promise!
Fine,IpromiseI'llcallyou,ifyoupromisetocallifthere'sanythingnewwiththebaby.
Deal,shesaid,walkingovertometogivemeahug.
Whenwewerefinishedwiththehugging,IwentupstairstohelpEdwardwiththepacking.Itwasmyclothes
afterall.WhenIopenedthedoortothebedroomIhadbeenusingforthelastelevendays,Edwardwasallover
theplacelikeatornado.Runningfromthedressertothebedwherethebagwas,andthentothewardrobeand
backtothebed.Itwasfunnytowatch.Heseemedeagertogohome.
Igiggledandwalkedovertositdownonthebed.Eagertogethome,arewe?
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Heturnedaround,surprised.Hedidn'tevenappeartohaveheardmewalkintotheroom.Well,yeah.He
soundedlikeitwasobvious.
Okay.Iputmyhandsupinsurrender.Then,letmehelpyousowecangethomesooner.
Hehadalreadypackedmostofthethings,includingmyunderwear.Hehadn'tpackedtheclothesIhadputin
thelaundrybasket,though,soatleastIcouldpacksomething.
Ionlyhadonebagformyclothes,andthenanothersmallerbagforElsa'sthings.Edwardcarriedbothourbags
downthestairs,whileItookElsa's.
RememberwhatItoldyouearlier,Rosesaidwhileshegavemeonelasthugbythefrontdoor.
Iremember,Imumbled.
Assoonasshehadreleasedme,Emmettcrushedmeintooneofhisbearhugs.
ThankyoufortakingcareofmyRosieandthebabyforme,hewhisperedinmyear.
Itwasmypleasure.
TheybothgaveEdwardahug,although,Emmett'shugwasmorelikeapatontheback.
Areyoureadytogohome,baby?EdwardaskedmeandInoddedmyhead.
IturnedbacktowardEmmettandRoseonemoretimeandsaid,I'llseeyousoon.
Wewalkedtothetrunkofmycartoloadthebagsin.IwatchedasEdwardputourbagsintothecar.Ididn't
evenrealizeIhadbeenstaringathimuntilhereachedouthishandfortheoneIhadcarried.
Iloveyou.Ikindofblurtedoutthewords,butIfeltlikeIhadwastedsomuchtimenotsayingthem.
Edwardsmileddownatme,ashecuppedmyfaceandplacedalightkissonmymouth.Iloveyou,too.
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ElsaobedientlylaiddownontheblanketinthebackseatwhileEdwardandIsatinthefront.Iactuallygotto
drive,butitshouldn'thavesurprisedmesinceIknewEdwarddidn'tlikemycar.
Edwardplacedhishandonmythighandkeptitthereallthewaybacktoourapartment.Ididn'tmakeany
attempttomoveitsinceIlikedthecontact,butitwaskindofdistractingtohaveittherewhileIdrove.Hedidn't
doanythingelse,though,whichwasbothareliefandadisappointment.WhenIlookedoverathim,he
appearedtobeasleep,sothatwouldexplainwhyhekepthishandstill.
Edward,timetowakeup,Isaidwhenwehadarrived.We'rehome.
Itookthehandthatwasonmythighandbroughtittomylips.WhenIkissedit,hestartedtostir.
I'msorry,hesaidsleepily.
It'sokay.Let'sgetinsideandyoucangotobedwhileIgotothegrocerystoreandgetussomefood.
Igotoutofthecarbeforehegotthechancetosayanything.Iwasunloadingourbagswhenhehadwokenup
enoughtogetoutofthecar.
No.Iwanttohavethatshoweryoupromisedmeandthen...thenIwanttogotothegrocerystorewithyou,
hemumbled.
Hehadprobablymeanttosaysomethingelsethangotothegrocerystore,andIdon'tknowwhyhehad
changedhismindinsteadofjustsayingwhathehadinmind.
Okay,let'sgetgoingthen.
WhataboutElsa?heasked,gesturingtowardthedogwhostoodbyhisfeet.
Whatabouther?
Doesn'tsheneedhermorningwalkorsomething?
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Oh,Rosehasbeentakingheroutinthemorning.Sayingsheneedsalltheexerciseshecanget.
Yeah,becauseyougetsomuchexercisefromwalkingElsaaroundtheblock,hesaidsarcastically,
Women.
It'sbetterthannothing,Iarguedandthenlaughed.
You'reright.
Wewalkedinsideandgotintotheelevator.Sethdidn'tworktoday,whichwasprobablygoodsinceEdward
seemedimpatientforthatshoweranddidn'thavetimetostopandtalk.Tobehonest,Iwaskindofimpatient
too.
Assoonasthefrontdoorhadclosedbehindus,Edwardpinnedmeupagainstitandstartedtoattackmymouth
withhislipsandtongue.Ididn'tmindatall.
HegrabbedmyasstoliftmeupandIwrappedmylegsaroundhiswaist.Elsastartedtobark,probablythinking
weweretryingtokilleachother.
Shutup,EdwardmumbledagainstmylipsandIgiggled.
Whenshedidn'tstopbarking,Edwarddecidedhehadenoughandstartedwalkingtowardsthebedroom,with
mestillclingingtohim.
Forsomereason,whenhepushedmedownontothebed,Istartedtogetnervous.Ithadbeentwoweekssince
weweremoreintimatethanjustafewkisses.Plus,IhadmyperiodandIdidn'twanthimtodoanythinglike
whathehaddonethen,whileIhadit.
Whataboutthatshower,huh?Imumbledoncehehadmovedontokissmyneck.
Mhm,wasallhesaid.
Hedidn'tstopwhathewasdoing,butIfelttheneedtostophimbeforewegotanyfurther.
Edward?
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Yes,baby?Thistimehelookedupatme.
Weweresupposedtotakeashower.Remember?
Yeah,hesoundeddisappointed,andIcouldn'thelpbuttofeelguiltyaboutit.Sorry.
Youhavenothingtoapologizefor,Ireassuredhim.
Hegotoffmeandheldouthishandtohelpmegetoffthebed.ThenwewalkedintothebathroomandIonce
againstartedtogetnervous.Hehadseenmenakedtwomonthsagoduringmybreakdown,butthiswas
different.Whatifhedidn'tlikewhathesaw?
Edwardmusthavesensedmynervousnessbecausewhenwegottothebathroomheturnedaroundtofaceme.
Baby,youhavenothingtobenervousabout,hesaid,lookingdeepintomyeyes.Ifitmakesyoufeelbetter,
Icanpromisetherewon'tbeanyfunnybusiness,justaregularshower.
Okay,nofunnybusiness.Inoddedmyhead.
Good.Now,willyouletmehavethehonorofremovingyourclothes?hewhisperedinmyear.
Howcanheexpect'nofunnybusiness'ifhe'stalkinglikethat?
Ididn'tanswerhimwithwords,andinsteadIjustnoddedmyhead.Hestartedworkingthezipperonthehoodie
downslowly,veryslowly.Thenhepeeleditoffmyshoulders,leavingmyboobsexposedtohim.Butlikehe
hadpromised,hedidn'ttryanything,andjustwentontomyjeans.
WhenIhadnothingonbutmypanties,Istartedtofeeloverexposedandstoppedhisactions.
Youhavetoomuchclotheson,Imumbledwhenhewasabouttoprotest.
Ibroughtmyhandstothehemofhistshirtandslowlymovedthemupoverhishardstomach,takingtheshirt
alongwiththem.WhenIcouldn'treachanyfurther,Edwardsteppedinandhelpedmeremoveit.
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ThenIunbuttonedhisjeansanddraggedthemdownhislegs.Hesteppedoutofthem,leavinghimonlyinhis
boxers.WewerewearingthesameamountofclothesatthatpointandIstartedtohesitateonwhetherornotI
shouldremovemypantiesfirst,orhisboxers.
Edwardansweredthatquestionformewhenhequicklyremovedhisboxersandthenstartedtotugonmy
panties.
Atfirst,Ihadwonderedwhathewouldthinkaboutmyweaklyshavingsdownthere,butonceIsawhispenis
allthoughtswentoutthewindow.
Myeyesfeltliketheywereabouttopopoutofmyhead,andIcouldn'tstopstaring.Iwassobusydoingthat,I
didn'tevennoticethatEdwardhadsuccessfullyremovedmypanties.
Hey,baby,what'swrong?Edwardputafingerundermychintogetmetolookathim.
Um...nothing,Itriedtosoundnonchalantandwenttoturnthewateron.
Bella,Isawyourface.Youwouldn'treactlikethatifitwerenothing.
Damn,heknewmetoowell!Thiswillbeembarrassing...
Iturnedbacktolookathimagainandstuttered,It'sjust...well,um...you'rebig.
What?Hechuckled,makingmeevenmoreembarrassed.
Igesturedmyhandtowardhisnetherregions,alittlefrustratedthathedidn'tseemtounderstandwhatImeant.
Oh,hesaidinsurprise.There'snoneedtoworryaboutthat,baby.
Butwhatifitwon'tfitinme?
Hedidn'tseemtounderstandwhatkindofproblemtherewouldbeforhimtogetthatinsideme.
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It'llfit,Ipromise,hesaid,kissingmyforehead.
Youcouldbarelyfityourfingerinme,sohowthehellareyousupposedtofitthat?Iaskedbothfrustrated
andembarrassed.
Hegrabbedmyfaceandplacedhisforeheadagainstmine,staringrightintomyeyes.Foramoment,Igotlost
intothosegorgeousgreeneyesofhis.
Listen,IwillfitIguaranteeyouthat.It'llprobablyhurt,I'mnotgoingtolie,butwithpatienceitwillwork
out.
Inodded,tryingtocalmmyselfdown.I'msorryIfreakedoutonyou.
Don'tworry.Iloveyou,andIpromisethatI'llbegentleoncewetakethatstep.
Iknowyouwill,andIloveyou,too,Isaid,tiltingmyheadup,silentlyaskinghimforakiss.I'mjust
nervousaboutit.
Iunderstand...Comeon,let'stakethatshower.
Westeppedintotheshower.Istoodrightunderthespraysincethatwasthefurthestawayfromthedrain.Istill
didn'tfeelcomfortablewithit.
Edwardpressedhimselfupagainstme,tryingtogetashareofthewateraswell.Whenmyhairwaswet
enoughhetookastepbackandgrabbedmyshampootowashmyhair.
Edward,whydidyoucomehomeearlier?Iaskedwhilehestartedmassagingtheshampooinmyhair.
Everythingthatwasneededtobedonewerefinished,andtheclientdidn'tneedusanymore.So,wedecidedto
gohome.Heshruggedhisshoulders.
I'mgladyoudid.Ismiledupathim.
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Metoo,hesaidandbentdowntokissmylipsquickly.
So,areyougoingtotellmewhoAuntFlowis?heasked,bringingthewatertomyhairtogetridofthe
shampoo.
Icouldn'thelpbutgiggleathim.OnceIhadcalmeddownIsaid,AuntFlowisjustanothersayingofperiod.
Ifeltmycheeksturnred.
Whydidn'tyoujustsaythatinsteadofmakingthingscomplicated?
Um,becauseIdidn'twanttobringupthewordperiod,youknow,whenmyreallyhandsomehusbandwas
pressinghishardonagainstmythigh.Besides,IthoughtyouknewwhatAuntFlowwas.Ishruggedmy
shoulders.
Well,Ididn't.
Nowyoudo,Itoldhimsimply.
So,you'reonyourperiodrightnow?
Inodded,embarrassed.Sotherewillbenofunnybusinessforyourfingerstonight!
Well,thatsucks.Helookedgenuinelydisappointedaboutthatfact.
Thenhelookeddownatmyladyparts,likehewaslookingforsomething.
Hey!Quitstaring!
I'msorryIjustcan't...seeanything.
That'swhatthetamponsarefor.It'salmostlikeyou'veneverhadagirlfriendwithaperiodbefore.
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Hecontinuedtowashmyhairanditfeltheavenly.I'veneverlivedwithanyofmygirlfriends,soyeah...
Okay.Ididn'treallywanttotalkabouthispastrelationships.
AreyouseriousthatIcan'tplaywithmyfingerstonight?heasked,wigglinghisfingersinmyface.
Imtotallyserious.Iswattedthemawayfrommyface.
Comeon,baby.Hepouted.
Igrabbedhisshampootohelphimoncehehadfinishedwithmine.Hebentdown,grabbingmyhipsfor
support,soIcouldreach.
Whenhishairwascleanandrinsedoftheshampoo,Imovedtohisearandwhispered,Justbecauseyoucan't
haveanyfunwithyourfingerstonight,doesn'tmeanIcan'thavefunwithyou.
Ihadnoideawheremycouragehadcomefrom,butitfeltfantastictohavethatkindofpoweroverhim.
Hestoodthere,shockedintosilence.Whenhedidn'treact,Itookonestepbackandturnedthehotwateroff
completely,leavinghimunderthespraywithcoldwater.Igotoutrightbeforethehotwaterstoppedrunning,
andwrappedmyselfinatowel.
Fuck,you'resogoingtogetitforthat!heyelledfrominsidetheshower.
Iheardhimfumblewiththewaterandtookthatasasigntogetawayfromthebathroom.
I'msorry,butIhadtobringyoubacktolifesomehow!Iyelledback.Besides,youseemedlikeyouneeded
acoldshower.
Thankstoyou,IheardhimmutterbeforeIranouttothebedroom.
Hewastoofast,though,andcaughtuptomebythebed.Hethrewusbothdownontothebed,withhim
landingontopofme.Hewasstillcompletelynaked,andcold.
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You'recold,Iwhinedpouting.
It'syourfault,baby.Suityourself.
Hedippedhisheaddowntokissmewhileheunwrappedmytowel.Thenhemovedhishandstocupmy
boobs.
Fuck,Iloveyourtits,baby.Hereplacedhishandswithhismouthandwhenhelickedmyrightnipple,I
couldn'thelpthemoanthatescapedme.
Iloveyou,Edward.
Hekissedhiswayuptomyear,suckinglightlyonmyneck.Iloveyou,too.
EndNotes:
A/N:So,whatdidyouthink?Letmeknow!
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Iloveyou,Edward.
Hekissedhiswayuptomyear,suckinglightlyonmyneck.Iloveyou,too.
EPOV
Icouldn'tgetenoughofhearinghersaythat,itwaslikeadrugtome.Hearinghersaythosethreewordsforthe
firsttimehadmademecry.Itwashappytears,butIdidcrynonetheless.Iwasn'tamanthatcried,butsinceI
hadmetBella,Ihadcriedtwotimesalready.Icouldn'texplainwhy,butIguessshebroughtoutthesensitive
sideinme.
Itwasworththetears,everysingleoneofthem,becauseshesaid'Iloveyou,EdwardCullen.'Ontopofthat,I
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hadherpinnedbeneathme,completelynaked.
Justlikeabuffet.
Withthatthought,Imovedoneofmyhandsslowlydownhersidetoherhip.ThatwaswhenBellarealized
whereIhadplannedonmovingit.
Edward,shesaidinasternvoice.Itoldyoutherewouldn'tbeanyfunnybusinessforyourfingerstonight,
andImeantwhatIsaid.
Baby,please?Iwhined.
No.Nottonighttomorrowmaybe,butnottonight.
Tomorrowisseveralhoursaway.Itriedtogivinghermybestpoutandpuppyeyes,butitdidn'tseemto
workthistimesincesheshookherhead.
Shewascompletelyserious.IguessIhadtowaitanotherfewhoursbeforeIgottoseethatgorgeouscumface
ofhersthatIhadmissedsodamnmuch.
Well,thatsucks.
Ishouldprobablygetdressed,then.SoIwon'ttemptyouanymore,shesaid,pattingmyshouldertogetmeto
moveawayfromher.
Ipinnedherarmsaboveherheadwithmyhands.Imovedmynoseupanddownherneck,smellingher
deliciousscent.I'mnotreadytoletyougoyet,baby.
IsmiledwhenIheardhermoan.ThatmeantIwaswellonmywaytowin.
Edward,Ineedtopee,shesaidoutoftheblue.
Igroanedinfrustration.Youdefinitelyknowhowtokillthemood,don'tyou?
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Idon'tseemtohavekilledanything.ShetriedtopointdowntowhatIguesswouldbemyveryprominent
hardonpressedbetweenus.Butyou'rekindofputtingpressureonmybladder.
Igaveupandreleasedherhands.Fine,Ibetterletyougotothebathroomthen.
Yeah,youbetter,orI'mgoingtopeeinthebed...onyourside.
Irolledoffofherandontotheothersidetolethergo,Ididn'tevenlookupather,insteadIthrewmyarmover
myeyes.Iwasn'tmadather,butIguessIwaskindofsexuallyfrustrated.
BPOV
Ididn'tmeantohurthim,orturnhimdownlikethat.Itwasreallybadexcuses,Iknewthat,butIreallydidn't
feelcomfortablewithhavinghisfingers...downtherewhileIhadmyperiod.Iwouldmorethanlovetolethim
dostufftomorrow,though.
Edwardhadactuallyputpressureonmybladder,soIquicklytookcareofthatbeforeIputontheclothesIhad
grabbedfromtheclosetonmywayinhere.ItwasjustasimplepairofblacksweatpantsandoneofEdward's
whitetshirts.ThenIbrushedmyhair,becauseIdidn'twantittobefullofknotswhenitdried.
WhenIgotbacktothebedroom,Edwardwasstilllyingonthebedinhisnakedglory.Hissizestillworriedme,
butIwaskindoffascinatedbyit.
Ihesitantlywalkedovertohim,buthedidn'tevenseemtonoticeme.
Maybehe'ssleeping.
Ididn'tcareaboutthat.Itwaslikehewassomekindofadthatsaid'Tryme,'soIneededtotry.Ididn'tknow
whatIwassupposedtotry,butIneededtodosomething.
Withthatinmind,Iwentoverandstraddledhisstomach,muchtohissurprise.
Fuck,Bella,hecursed.Whatareyoudoing?
HefinallyremovedhisarmfromhisfacesoIcouldseehim.
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Youlookedlikeyouneededsomecomfort,Ibentdownandwhisperedinhisear.
Hegrabbedmyhipsandstartedrubbingthem.You'rewearingtomuchclothes,baby.
Well,youseemedtootempted.Ishruggedmyshoulders.
IstartedslidingdowntowhereIguessedhewantedmethemost.WhenherealizedwhereIwasgoinghesat
upcuppingmyassinhishands.Hisdickwasstandingatattentionbetweenourbodies.
Wheredoyouthinkyou'regoing?heaskedseductively.
Itwaslikeallmynervousnesshadflownoutthewindowandhadbeenreplacedwithconfidence.So,insteadof
justgivinghimakissandthengettingoffhim,Igrabbedhisdickwithmyrighthand.
Shit,Ican'tevengetmyfingersaroundit!
Here,IwhisperedinhisearandthenIbitdowngentlyonhisearlobe.
Heletoutamixtureofamoanandagrunt,followedby,Fuckinghell!
IhadnoideawhatIwassupposedtodonextIknewthatIshouldmovemyhandupanddown,buthowfast
doImoveit?AndhowhardwasIsupposedtosqueeze?
Itriedmovingmyhandupanddownonce,andsinceEdwarddidn'tseemtoobject,Ididitafewmoretimes.
He'snotonlythick,butlongaswell!
Wait,Edwardsqueakedoutandstoppedmyhandbyplacinghisoverit.
Why?DidIdosomethingwrong?IthoughtIhaddoneeverythingright,butyouneverknow.
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No,no.It'sjust...waitasec.Hebentbackwards,almosttakingmealongwithhim,andstretchedouthisarm
towardhisnightstand.
Iwatched,confused,ashepulledatubeoutofthedrawer.Icouldn'tseewhatitwassincehishandcovered
mostofit.Hemusthaveseentheconfusiononmyface.
It'slotion.It'llbemore...enjoyableifyoudidn'tusedryhands...hetrailedoff.
Oh,wasallIsaid.
Ireachedmyhandoutforhimtogivemesomelotion.Hedidn'tdoanything,butstaredintomyeyes.Itwas
likehewasaskingifthiswasokay,toseeifIreallydidn'tminddoingthis.So,Inoddedmyheadandhe
squirtedoutsomelotioninmypalm.
YouhavetotellmeifIdosomethingwrong,Iwhispered.
AsifhenoticedhowinsecureIbecameallofthesudden,hewrappedhishandaroundmineandtogetherwe
placeitonhisdick.Hemovedusupanddownhisshaftforafewstrokesbeforehereleasedmyhandand
broughthistojointheotherhandonmyass.
Heletoutafewmoansandgrunts.Ineverthoughthecouldbemoregorgeous,butthepainedlookonhisface
whileIjerkedhimoffmadehimlooklikethemosthandsomeGreekGodever.
BabymoancanIseeyourtits?
Whywouldyouwanttodothat,huh?Iteased.
Please,hemoanedanditwaslikemusictomyears.Ihadneverfeltthispowerfulinmywholelife.
Ireleasedhisdicktomovemyarmsabovemyhead,indicatingthathecouldremovethetshirt,whichhedid.
Assoonastheshirtwasremoved,myhandwentbacktowhereitwasandEdwardnuzzledhisfacebetween
myboobs.
Somethingwhite,whatIguessedwasprecum,butIwasn'tsure,hadleakedoutfromhistip.Igathereditupin
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mynextstroke.
ImovedmyhandupanddownhisshaftafewtimebeforeIstartedtofeelmoreconfidentagain.
So,Edward,Ipurred.Tellmeoneofyoursexfantasies...aboutfucking.
ItwasthesamethinghehadaskedmetodowhenwewereinForksandplayedgofish.Itwasonlyfairtoask
himthesame.
Fuck,umm...youandme...inmyoffice.Ihaveyoubent...shit...overmydesk.Hedidn'tseemtobeableto
formacoherentsentence,butIknewwhathewastryingtosay.
So,youwanttofuckmefrombehindonyourdesk?Iasked,teasingly.
Hellyes!Hebitdowngentlyononeofmynippleswhenhesaiditanditmadememoanoutloud.Also,I
kindoftightenedmygriponhim.
Argh!Notsotight,baby!
Sorry...IloosenedmygripandthenIwentonwithmyactions.Doyouhaveanotherfantasy?
Oh,Ihavealotoffantasies,baby,hemanagedtosay.Itinvolvesyou...ridingme...intheVolvo.ButIalso
have...fantasiesabout...makinglovetoyou...onthisbed.
Ihavetorememberthesefantasiesofhisforfuturereference.
I'llrememberthat,Isaidoutloud.
Hechuckled,butitsoundedfunnysincehewasmoaningatthesametime.
I'mclose,hesaid,squeezingmetighter.
Nowwhat?
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BeforeIcouldaskhimwhattodo,hot,whiteliquidspurtedoutofhimandlandedonbothourstomachsandall
overmyhand.
Edward'sfaceshowednothingbutpureecstasy.Hefellbackwards,pullingmewithhim.Iwascarefulabout
nottouchinganythingwiththehandfullofhissemen.
IwassoproudofmyselffordoingwhatIjustdid.Ihadnevereventhoughtaboutdoingsomethinglikethat
beforeImetEdward.IguessIwaskindofnaveandbelievedthatcouplesonlyhadsex,andthatblowjobs
onlyoccurredinpornomovies.Iwaswrong,Irealizethatnow.
Edward?
Yes,baby?
I'mallsticky.Igiggled.
Apartofmefounditgross,butanotherpartfounditfascinatingbecauseitwasmewhohadcausedEdward
to...makemesticky.
Sorry.Helaughedandsatusbackup.Here,letmecleanyouoff.
HetookthetshirtIhadbeenwearingearlierandwipedoffmyhandandthenmystomachbeforedoingthe
sametohisstomach.
Youknow,Iactuallyplannedtowearthattshirt.Couldn'tyoujustuseatowel?Iasked.
Nope,hesaid,poppingthe'p.'Mymomalwaysforbademetojerkoffinhertowels.Sheusedtosaythat
theywouldneverbethesameifIdid.Besides,therearemoretshirtsyoucouldwear.
Istaredathimindisbelief.Seriously?Didyourmomreallysaythat?
Mhm.Henoddedhishead.
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Whataboutthetshirt?Ilikethatone.
Apparentlyit'sokaytousethem,becausesheneversaidanythingaboutthem.
Ilaughedathimbecausehewascompletelyserious.IguessI'llhavetoaskherhowsheusedtowashyour
clothes,then.
Yeah,I'llremindyouatThanksgiving,hejoked,andlaidusbackdownagain.
Welayinsilenceforawhile,justenjoyingeachotherscompanyandthecloseness.Istartedtogetcoldwithout
thetshirtanditmademerealizeEdwardwasstillnaked.
I'mcold,Imumbledshivering.
Edwardreachedforthecornerofthecoverandrolledusoversohewasontopofme,bydoingthathebrought
thecoveroverus.Itbarelycoveredus,butitwasenoughsinceEdward'sbodyheathelpedaswell.
GoodthingthatI'mheretowarmyouupthen,hesaid,kissingmycollarbonesbeforelayinghisheaddown
onmychest.
Yeah,it'saverygoodthing,Isighed,enjoyingthefeelofhim.
Baby,canIaskyouaquestion?Hedrewapatternonmyleftboobwithhisfinger.Ididn'tneedtoseehis
facetoknowthathewassmirking.
Sure.Iwasprobablygoingtoregretagreeing,butIwantedtoknowwhathewantedtoask.
DidyoutouchyourselfwhileIwasgone?Heproppedhisheadupandlookedatmewiththatsmirkallover
hisface.
IknewIwouldregretit!
What?Icouldfeelmycheeksturnredfromembarrassment.
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Youheardme.DidyoutouchyourselfwhileIwasinLondon?Hecontinuedtodrawpatternsonmyboob,
onceinawhilehegrazedhisfingerovermynipplewhichmadeitreallyhardtothink.
Itriedonetime,Iadmitted.
Onlytried?
Yeah,Iguessmyfingersaren'tasmagicalasyours,andIjustfeltstupidsoIdidn'tdoitagain.
Myfingersaremagical,huh?HissmirkonlygotbiggerandforasecondIwantedtoslapitaway.
Iliketobelieveso,yes,Istuckmychinout.Now,tellme.Didyoutouchyourselfwhileyouwerein
London?
OfcourseIdid,almosteverydayandsometimestwiceaday.
Icouldn'tbelievehowhecouldbesoopenaboutit.IguessIwouldhavetosuitmyselfsinceIwastheonewho
hadaskedhim.
Irolledmyeyesathimandpushedhimoffofme.Igotoutofbedandwalkedovertothecloset.
Whereareyougoing,baby?Edwardwhinedfromthebed.
IneedtofindanewshirttowearsoIcangotothestore,Iexplainedandtookawhitelongsleevedtshirt
fromhisdrawer.
Iremovedthesweatpantsandreplacedthemwithapairofoldjeans.Ifoundacleanbra,whichIputonbefore
IshruggedintoEdward'sshirt.
Iwanttogowithyou,EdwardmumbledwhenIsteppedbackintothebedroom.
ThenIsuggestyougetupandgetdressed.
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IwalkedoutoftheroombecauseIdidn'tthinkIcouldhandleseeinghimnakedonemoretime.Wewould
nevergettothegrocerystoreifIstayedintherewithhim.
Hecameoutfiveminuteslaterwithclotheson,buthishairwasstillmessy.
Almostlikesexhair.Iwonderhowitwilllookwhenweactuallyhavesex...
Wetookhiscartothestoreafewblocksaway.Myeyesneverlefthisbodyduringthedrive.Hereallywaslike
sexonastick,especiallywhenhewasdrivingacar.
Iwanttotakeyououtonadate,Edwardsaid,placingaboxofCocoPopsinourcart.
Youdo?Iaskedstupidly.
YesIdo,onSaturday.So,doyouwanttogoonadatewithmetomorrow?Hesmiledhissignaturecrooked
smile.
Sure.Ishruggedmyshoulder.Whereareyoutakingme,then?
That'sasurprise.Hesmirked.
Areyousureaboutthat?Ordoyoujustnotknowyet?Istoppedhimandhuggedhiswaist.
Ilookedupathimwithasmirkofmyown,butiteventuallybecameasmilebecausehewassoadorable.He
lookedalmostembarrassed,although,hedidn'tturnredlikeIusuallydid.Frustrated,hedraggedoneofhis
handsthroughhismessyhairbeforehuggingmeback.
I'msorry.Ijustwanttotakeyouout.Likeanormalcouple,hesaidapologetically.
Edward,we'rekindoffarfromnormal.Besides,that'swhyIloveyou.
Thatmadehimsmile.Iloveyou,too,baby.
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AndIwouldlovetogooutwithyouonSaturday.
IstoodonmytiptoessoIcouldplacemyarmsaroundhisneckinordertogivehimakiss.Itwaspretty
difficultformetoreachuptohismouthwithmine,buthegotthehintandmetmehalfway.
First,allhegavemewasasoftkissbeforehepulledback.Iwantedmorethanthat,though,soIpulledhishead
backandcrushedmylipstohis.JustasIwasabouttodeepenthekiss,someoneclearedtheirthroatbehindus.
Webothpulledbackfromeachotherandturnedourheadstolookatthepersonwhohadinterruptedus.Itwas
amaninhislatefortieswhojuststoodthereandglaredatus.Iwasonethevergeoftellinghimtostopwiththe
staringsowecouldcontinuewhatheinterrupted,butEdwardquicklysavedthesituation.
I'msorry,sir.Wejustgotcarriedaway.
Themanjustgrumbledandgrabbedwhathecametogetandthenturnedaround.Icouldn'thelpthegigglethat
escapedmeandeventuallyEdwardjoinedmewithhislaughter.
Comeon,let'sfinishwiththeshoppingsowecangohome,hesaidandpushedthecartinfrontofhim.Oh,
andweneedtogotothebathroomsectiontogetthatmatyoutalkedabout.
AtfirstIdidn'tunderstandwhathemeantbythat,butthenIremembered.Youmeanforthetub?
Yeah,Iwanttotakeabathwithmybeautifulwife.Hesmileddownatme.
AndIwanttotakeabathwithmyadorablehusband.
Hestoppedthecartandlookedatme.Pleasetellmeyoudidn'tcallmeadorable.
ThenIwouldbelyingtoyou,becauseIjustdid.Ismirked.
I'mnotadorable.Youare,butI'mnot,heargued.
Whycan'tyoubeadorable?
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BecauseI'maman,baby,andIdon'twanttobecalledadorable.
ThenI'lljusthavetocallyoucute,then,Ijokedandwalkedoff.
Baby,hewhined,followingme.I'mnotadorable,andI'mnotcute.Thosearegirlwords.
WhatdoyouthinkIshouldcallyou,then?Ichallenged.
Sexy,orgorgeous,Idon'tcare,justdon'tcallmecuteoradorable.
Soyouthinkyou'resexyandgorgeous,huh?Iteased.
Youdo.Hesmirked,knowingthathegotme.
Ido.Now,let'sgosowecangohome.
Wegrabbedthelastfewthingsandthenproceededtocheckout.Luckilyforme,therewasntaprettygirl
sittingthereatthecheckout,butaboywhocouldn'tbemorethanfifteen.Edwardmusthavefeltthreatened,
though,becausewhenwehadpaidforthethings,hebentdowntokissmeonthemouthandthrewhisarm
aroundmyshoulders.
Ijustshookmyheadandrolledmyeyesathisbehavior.Itdidn'tmatterhowmanytimesItoldhimIwasn'this
property,heneverseemedtolisten.
IconvincedEdwardtomakedinnerforuswhenwegothome.IwassosickoftakeoutIcouldeatanything
thatwasn't,evenEdward'sdrypasta,although,hemadeareallytastynoodlesoupwithgarlicbread.
WespenttherestoftheafternoonwalkingElsainthepark,afterthatwesnuggledonthecouch.Itwasthings
likethisIhadmissedthemost,theclosenesswithEdwardthatIfeltwhenwedidcouplethings.
EdwardleftSaturdaymorningsayingthatheneededtoprepareforourdate.Iguessedthathehadfiguredout
whatweweregoingtodobynow,oratleastIhopedhehad.
Icalledthegirls,askingforsomehelpgettingdressedforourdatesinceIhadnoideawhereEdwardwastaking
me.Plus,IwasaloneandIwasn'tusedtothat,soIwantedsomecompany.
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RoseandAlicearrivedpreciselyattwelveo'clockjustaswehadplanned.YouhadtogiveAlicecreditsfor
beingpunctual.
Hi,Bella!AlicewalkedrightinwhenIhadopenedthedoor,takingoffhershoesandcoat.
Hi,thankyouforcoming.Ireallyappreciateit,Itoldbothofthem.
Noworries,Rosesaidandsteppedforwardtogivemeahug.Howareyou?
I'mfineIhuggedherbackandthenIdroppeddowntomykneestogiveherbellyakiss.Andhow'smy
littlebaby?
Technically,it'smybaby.Roselaughed.Butheorsheisdoingperfectlyfine.
It'smybaby,too.Ipoutedandthengiggled.
It'severybody'sbaby!Aliceyelledfromthebedroom.Now,getinheresowecangetBellareadyforthe
date!
RoseandIlookedateachotherandthenshookourheads.Alicealwaystendedtogetoverlyexcitedwhenshe
gotthechancetodresssomeone.WestartedwalkingtowardmybedroomtojoinAlice.
So,doyouknowwherehe'stakingyou?Roseaskedwhenwesteppedintotheroom.
No,hesaiditwouldbeasurprise,Isaid.
Edwardhadtoldmelastnighttomeethimatthelakeattwoo'clockthatday.IhadcalledAliceandRosehere
togivemesomeadviceonclothes,butalsofortheride.
Youdon'tknowwherehe'stakingyou?AliceaskedandIshookmyhead.
Howthehellareyoutogetdressedifyoudontknowwhereyouregoing?Roseyelledinfrustrationfrom
thecloset.
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That'swhyIcalledyouguys.Ishruggedmyshouldersandsatdownonthebed.
Andyoudidtherightthing,AlicesaidveryseriouslyandwalkedintotheclosettojoinRoseinthesearchfor
suitableclothes.
Iwaitedsilentlyonthebed,bitingmyfingernailsandstaringaroundtheroom.Ifeltnervousaboutthedate,
eventhoughitwouldjustbeEdwardandme.
Okay,takethisgraysweaterandtheseblackjeans.Alicesteppedoutoftheclosetwithmybig,fluffy,knitted
sweaterandaverytightpairofblackjeansthathadaholebytheknee.
Andtheseshoes,Rosesaid,handingmeapairofdarkgrayankleboots.
Whataboutajacket?
Youdon'tneedone,Alicesaid,pushingtheclothesintomyarms.
ButwhatifIgetcold?It'snotsummeranymore,Alice.
Well,thenEdwardwillgiveyouhisjacket,andholdyou,andkissyou...shetrailedoffdreamily.
Igotoffthebedandwalkedovertoher.Istartedwavingmyhandinfrontofherfacewithoutgettingany
reactionoutofher.Hello?
Umyeah.Sorry.Sheshookherhead.RoseandIjustlaughedather.YourstorywithEdwardisjustso
romantic.
Doyouknowwherehe'stakingme?Sheseemedsoconfidentabouttheclothes.
No,theybothsaidatonce,buttheycouldn'tfoolme.Theywerewaytooinnocent.
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Yeah,yeah.Letmegetdressedandthenyoucandomyhairandmakeup.IneedtomeetEdwardinlessthan
twohours.Iwalkedintotheclosettochange.
Oh,waitasec!Alicestoppedme.
What?Iturnedaroundtolookather.Shewaswalkingintothecloset,soIfollowedher.
Youneedsomeunderwear,shestated.Ilookedatherlikeshehadgrownasecondhead.Imean,alittle
morefancyonesthanyouusuallywear.Here!
Shethrewapinkbraandapairofmatchingthongsatme.Theywerebothlacyandseethrough,andIhad
neverwornthembefore.IdontevenknowwhyIhadboughtthem,butitwasprobablyAlicewhohadtalked
meintoitonce.
AsIwasputtingontheunderwearathoughtsuddenlyoccurredtome.
IsEdwardexpectingsextonight?
Tobehonest,Ididn'tcare.Thethoughtbothexhilaratedandscaredmeatthesametime.Itdidn'tscareme
becauseIdoubtedmyfeelingstowardhim,butbecauseofthepain.
I'mreadyforit,though.Ithink...
Shit,thesejeansaretight!IexclaimedwhenIwalkedbackouttothegirls.
They'resexyashell,sostopwhining,Alicesaid.
She'sright.Rosesmiled.Now,comeon.Let'sdoyourhairsowecangetyoutoyourPrinceCharming
sometimetoday.
Iwalkedovertothechairtheyhadputinthemiddleoftheroomandsatdown.AssoonasIsatdownonthat
chair,itwaslikemystomacheruptedwithlittlebutterfliesandIrealizedIwasreallynervousaboutthedate.I
wasn'ttheonlyonewhorealizedthis.
Bella,stopfidgeting!Rosesaidloudly.
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Yeah,whyareyousonervous?It'sonlyEdwardforcryingoutloud.
IthinkIhavetherighttobenervous!Youprobablyweretoobeforeyourfirstdate,weren'tyou?Iasked
themboth.
It'syourfirstdate?Alicestoppeddoingmymakeupandlookedatme.
Yeah,I'veneverdatedbefore,andEdwardandIhaven'tbeenoutonarealdatelikethis,Iexplained.
Whataboutthatguyfromcollege?Mike?Roseasked.
LikeIwouldhavesaidyestohim,Ithoughtyouknewmebetterthanthat.
Yeah,Rose.Eww!Alicemadeadisgustedface.Hemightbegoodlooking,butheisdefinitelynotdating
material.Asleezierguywouldbehardtofind.
Igiggledather.Shewasright,Mikealwaystriedtofeelmeupandusedtostalkme,askingmeoutonadate
onceeveryhour.Hewaslikeapuppy,followingmearound.Luckilyforme,hehadgraduatedalongwith
AliceandRose,soIgotridofhimmysenioryear.
So,whyareyounervousaboutthisdate?Roseasked,changingthesubjectawayfromMike.
Idon'tknow.Imean,howamIsupposetoact?DoIlethimpayforeverything?Howwillthedateend?Will
heexpectsexwhenthenightisover?Ishotallmyquestionsatthemandtheybothstoppeddoingwhatthey
weredoingtolookatme.
Bella,justbeyourself.Edwarddoesn'twanttogoonadatewithanyonebutyou,Rosetoldme.
Yeah,justactlikeyoudowhenyou'reathomewithhim,orevenatthegrocerystore.Hewantstherealyou.
Asforlettinghimpay,yes,youshouldlethimpay.Hewastheonewhoaskedyouout,soatleastheshould
payforeverythingyoudo.Alicenoddedinagreementandtheybothwentbacktofinishwhattheyhadstarted.
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Idon'tknowhowitwillend,orifheexpectssex.MineandJasper'sdatesusuallydo,butyouandEdwardare
differentfromthetwoofus.
Butwhatdoesitmatterifhedoesexpectit?It'snotlikehe'llforcehimselfonyou.
Inoddedmyhead.Iknewtheywereright,andsomeofthebutterflieshadbeenreassuredbytheirwords,but
someofthemwerestillthere.
Westayedquietforawhile,itwasn'tuncomfortableatall.TheycontinuedtoworkonmeandIcontinuedtobe
nervousaboutthedate.
Alldone!Aliceexclaimed,bringingmebacktothepresent.
IgotuptolookmyselfoverinthemirrorIdidn'tlookbadatall.Mymakeupwasminimal,butIstilllooked
fresh.Myhairwasinwavesthatdrapedovermyshoulder.IrealizedIneededahaircutbeforemyhairgot
belowthewaist.
Thankyou,Isaid,bringingthembothinforahug.
Comeon,let'sgetyoutoEdward,Rosesaidandreleasedus.
Okay.IgrabbedmybagandputontheshoesbeforeIfollowedthemoutthedoor.
Oh,andbringElsawithyou!
Why?Iaskedconfused.
DidEdwardwantherwithusonourdate?
I'mbabysitting,Roseexplained.
Why?Iaskedagainbecauseherexplanationdidn'tsayanything.
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Edwardaskedmeto.Now,comeon,oryou'regoingtobelate.
IyelledforElsawhoobedientlycameassoonassheheardme.Whenwegotdowntothegarage,Icouldn't
findRose'scaranywhere.IlookedaroundconfusedbecauseIknewshehaddrivenherandAliceoverhere.
Rosemusthaveseenmyconfusedlook.IhaveEmmett'scartoday.Shepointedtowardthebigblackjeep
parkedfurtherintothegarage.
Oh,whathappenedtoyours?
Emmetttookittochangethetires.Theyweregettingbaldcausinglowtraction.
Butdon'tyouusuallychangethem?WereachedthecarandIactuallymanagedtoclimbintothebackseat.It
wasawaytoobig.
Yeah,Ido,butit'skindofhardwithabigstomachinyourway.Besides,Idon'twanttoriskanything
happeningtothebaby,sheexplained.
Whenwillyoufindoutwhatsexitis?Aliceasked,changingthesubject.
Nextweek.Rosewassohappyshealmostjumpedinherseatasshedrovethecar.
Andthefirstthingyouneedtodoonceyou'vefoundout,iscallme,Isaidsternly.
That'snotfair!Iwanttobethefirstonetoknow,Aliceargued.
Hey!I'llcallyoubothonconferencecall,okay?Roseendedtheargument.
Fine,bothAliceandImumbled.
Wemadesmalltalkfortherestofthedrive.ThecloserwegottothelakeandEdward,themorenervousI
became.MypalmsbegantosweatandIdesperatelytriedtodrythemonmyjeans.Ididn'twanttogreet
Edwardwithsweatyhandsthatwasjustgross.
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We'rehere!Aliceclappedherhandslikeshewastheonewhowasgoingonthisdate,andnotme.
Thedrivedidn'ttakenearlyasmuchtimeasIhadthought.IguessIwastoolostinmyownthoughtstoeven
realizemysurroundings.
Rememberwhatwetoldyou...abouteverything.Roseleanedbacktolookingatme.
InoddedmyheadandturnedmyattentiontoEdwardwhohadopenedthecardoorforme.
Hey,baby.Iunfastenedmyseatbeltandturnedmybodytowardhim.Youlookamazing.
That'swhenInoticedwhathewaswearing.Hehadonapairofregularblackjeansthatwerewornout,with
thathehadonagrayhoodieandafaded,blackAC/DCtshirtunderneath.Icouldn'thelpbutgiggleatus.
We'rematching,Isaidandthrewmyarmsaroundhisneckandlegsaroundhiswaist.
Funny,hemumbledintomyhair,holdingmetighttohisbody.Thanks,girls,hewavedatRoseandAlice
whostaredatuswithagoofysmileallovertheirfaces.
Havefun!AliceyelledasEdwardslammedthedoorbehindus.
Heputmedownontothegroundandtookmyhand.Let'sgo,I'vemadereservations.
Inoddedmyhead,hopinghewouldn'tnoticemysweatypalms.Thatwouldbeembarrassing.
Edwardhadmadereservationsatasmallrestaurantoverlookingthewater.Itwasabsolutelybeautifuland
romanticjustlikeAlicehadsaiditwouldbe.
WhatcanIgetforyou?thewaiteraskedwhenwewereseated.
I'llhavethegrilledchickenwithmashedpotatoes,andaglassofredwine,Edwardtoldhim.
WhenthewaiterhadfinishedwritingEdward'sorderdown,heturnedtome.
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Umm,I'llhavethebeeftacoandaglassofredwineaswell,please.
Comingrightup,hesaidandleftthetable.
So,whatarewedoingthisafternoon?Iaskedexcitedly.
We'regoingtohavedinnerandthendessert.Therestisstillasecret.Hesmirked.
AndwhatifItoldyouIdidn'tlikesecrets?
ThenIwouldtellyouthatyou'lllikethisone.
IknewIwouldn'tfindoutwherehewastakingmeaftertherestaurant.Ijusthopeditwouldbesomething
good,butknowingEdward,itwouldbemorethangood.
Wemadesmalltalkuntilthewaitercameinwithourfood.Thenheaskedaboutmydayandwhatwehadbeen
doing,inreturn,Iaskedhimwhathehadbeendoing.Itturnedouthehadbeensettingupforthisdatethe
wholeday.
Itmustbesomethingreallygood,then,Imused.
Heorderedusapieceofchocolatetrufflecaketoshareasdessert.Ittastedlikeheaven.
So,howisourgodson,orgoddaughter?heasked,takingabiteoftruffle.
Good.They'refindingoutwhatsexitisnextweek.Icouldn'thelpbutsmile.
Whatareyouhopingfor?
Idon'tknow.Iwouldbehappywitheitherone,butIthinkIhavemyhopesupforagirl.AlittleRosewith
Emmett'sdarkcurls,Isaiddreamily.
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TheimageofmeandEdwardwithachildIhadwhenRosewasbakingcookiesinthemiddleofthenight
flashedinfrontofmyeyes.Icouldn'thelpbutfeelsomewhatjealousofRoseforhavingthat,butthen,sheand
Emmetthadbeendatingsincehighschool.EdwardandIhadonlybeenmarriedforthreemonths.
Hey,what'supwiththelook?Edwardasked,bringingmeoutfrommyhead.
Nothing,Isaidquickly.
Tellme,hebegged.
It'sjust...doyouwanttohavekidssomeday?
Heseemedstunnedforasecond.Iknewitwaskindofearlytodiscussthingslikethis,buthewastheonewho
wantedtoknowwhatIhadbeenthinking.
Yes,Iwouldlovetohaveafewofthemsomeday,especiallyifIgettohavethemwithyou.Hetookmy
handandsqueezedit.Why,don'tyouwantany?
Inoddedmyhead.Yeah,IthinkIdo.
Good.Hekissedmyhand.Areyoufinished?
Inoddedmyheadagainandhewavedforthewaiter.Whenwehadpaidforthedinner,Edwardgrabbedmy
handanddraggedmeoutsidetoasmallbridgebythelake.
Ihopeyou'reokaywiththis?Hegesturedtowardarowingboat.Iknowyourescaredofthewater,butI
thoughtthatmaybeyouwouldbeokaywithitifyouwereinaboat.
Theboatwasbigenoughformetobeokaywithit.Iwasstillalittlebitscaredofthewatersinceyounever
knewwhatcouldhappen.Imean,theboatcouldsinkandwewouldhavetogetinthewater.IknewEdward
wouldkeepmesafe,though,soInoddedmyheadandsmiledathim.
Hesqueezedmyhandinareassuringgestureandthenwesteppedintotheboat.Edwardsatdownbytheoars
andwaiteduntilIhadsatdownproperlybeforestartingtorow.
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Thelakewasstillandtherewerenowaves,itallfeltsopeacefulthatIhadtoclosemyeyesandjustenjoyit.
Wewerenotaloneonthewater,butitdefinitelyfeltlikeit.
Igotyousomething,Edwardsaidandstoppedrowing.
What?Ismiled.
Iknowit'skindofcheesy,andthatyoudon'tlikeitthatway,butI'vealwayswantedtodothiswithsomeone.
Andthatsomeoneisyou.Hestoppedtalkingforasecondtofishsomethingoutofhispocket.Givemeyour
hand.
Idid,andhetookitinhishandplacinganecklaceinmypalm.Itwasathinsilverchainwithasmallheart
shapedpendanthangingfromit.IbroughtmyhandclosersoIcouldseewhatitsaidinthemiddleofit.
Edward
Itactuallybroughttearstomyeyes.Noonehasevergivenmesomethinglikethis.MaybethatwasbecauseI
hadneverdatedanyonebefore,butstill.
IlookedupatEdwardwhostudiedmyreactioncarefully.Thankyou.
Youhavemyheart,Bella,Ihopeyouknowthat.Inoddedmyhead'yes.'Doyouwantanyhelp?He
gesturedtowardthenecklaceinmyhand.
Igaveittohimbeforeslowlyturningaroundtogivehimaccesstomyneck.Whenhehaditfastened,Iturned
aroundagainandbroughtmyhanduptotouchit.
Hestilllookedslightlyembarrassed,buthehadabeautifulsmilealloverhisface,soIknewhowmuchheliked
seeingthenecklacearoundmyneck.
What?Iaskedwhenhedidn'tsayanything.
I'vekindofgotmyselfsomethinglikethat,too,headmittedandshowedmehiswrist.
Therewasathickersilverchainhangingarounditwithamoremanlyhearthangingfromit.Ireachedmy
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fingersouttotouchit,althoughIalreadyknewwhatitwouldsayonit.
Isabella
OhmyGod,Iwhisperedandmyhandinstinctivelywenttocovermymouth.
Hey,baby,what'swrong?Edwardreachedouthishandasiftocomfortme.
Iloveyousodamnmuch,Edward!Iflewacrossthelittlespacethatseparatedusandkissedhimforcefully.
Theboatrockedslightlyfrommyquickmovement,butluckily,wedidn'ttipover.
Ireleasedhimafterawhileandsatbackinmyseatagain.Edwardcontinuedtorowusaroundthelakeandwe
talkedaboutnothingandeverything.Afterawhile,thesunthathadbeenpeepingthroughtheclouds
disappearedbehindthedarkgrayclouds,whichcouldonlymeanonethingrain.
Sureenough,whenwewereaboutahundredfeetawayfromthesmallbridge,itstartedpouringdown.Atfirst,
Ifeltalittlebummedaboutit,butitwasquicklyreplacedwithjoyforsomereason.
Well,theregoestheperfectdate,Edwardmuttered.
IlookedathimandallIsawwashissexywethairandhismusclesunderthewetshirtflexingwhenherowed.
No,it'sstillperfect,Ireassuredhim.
Bythetimewegottothebridge,wewerebothsoaked,soIdidn'tcareabouttherainatallanymore.Edward
obviouslydid,though.
Comeon,let'sgo,hesaidandstartedrunningtowardthecar.
Ifollowedhim,butjustbeforewereachedthecar,Istopped.
Bella!Comeon,you'regoingtocatchacold!Edwardyelledfromthecar.
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Icouldn'tcareless.Ienjoyedtherainfallingdownonmyfaceandallovermybody.Iraisedmyhandsupin
theairandspunaroundagainandagain.Imighthaveletoutalaughfromtimetotime,butIcouldn'thelpit.I
wastoohappytocare.
Yourfantasy,right?Ihadn'tevennoticedEdwardhadleftthecarandwasstandingrightinfrontofme.
Ispunaroundtofacehim,ahugesmilestillonmyface.Youremembered?
Henoddedhisheadandhuggedmeclosebeforebringinghismouthdowntomine.Thecontrastbetweenhis
hotlipsandtongueagainstthecoldrainwasincredible,ourtonguesmovedinsyncwhiletherainpoureddown
onus.
Iwrappedmyarmsaroundhisneckandheliftedmeuptospinmearoundbeforeputtingmedownagain.
Wereallyshouldgetgoing,orwewillgetsick,hesaidsternly.
Iguessthatfunwasover,butmaybewecoulddosomethingfunwhenwegotbackhome.Thatremindedme
ofsomethingIhadbeenthinkingaboutearlierwhileIwasgettingdressed.
Edward,ifItoldyou'Let'shavesex,'wouldyougowithit?Iblurtedoutwhenwewerebackinthecar.
IguessthewineIhadearlierwastakingeffect.
What?hechokedout.Baby,areyouaskingmeifIwouldpassontheopportunitytohavesexwithyou?
Well...yes,Isaidlikeitwasobvious.
No,Iwouldn'tpassthatupifyouwereabsolutelysureyouwantedit.
So,ifItoldyouIwanteditnow,andthatIwasready,youwouldn'tstopme?
Yes,Iwould.Iwasconfused,andIfeltrejected.OnlybecauseIwouldwanttotakeyouhomefirstand
maybetakeabathtowarmyouup.ThenIwouldtakeyoutothebedwhereIwouldenjoyeveryinchofyour
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bodybeforemakinglovetoyou.
Iturnedintoputtyfromhiswords.Luckyforme,IwassittingdownsoatleastIwouldn'tfall.
Oh,Imanagedtosay.
Yeah,soareyoutellingmethatyou'reready?heaskedexcitedly.
Atthatmoment,IknewIwascompletelyreadyforhim.Readyforeverythingourrelationshipwasgoingtoput
usthrough.Everything.
We'llseehowtherestofthenightgoes,Itoldhim.
Ididn'tliketheideaofplanningwhenIlostmyvirginity,,evenifitwasjustafewhoursahead.Iwanteditto
happenspontaneously.So,ifeverythingfeltrightwhenthetimecomeslatertonight,thenIwouldn'tsay'no.'
Edwarddidn'tsayanything,allhedidwassmileandthecloserwegottohome,thebiggerhissmilegot.
Sethwasstandingatthesecuritystationwhenwegothome.
Wow,you'rewet!Helaughedwhenhesawus.
WeprobablylookedlikedrownedcatsandIlaughedalongwithhim.
Yeah,it'sraining,Edwardsaidsarcasticallyandgesturedoutside.
Itwasniceseeingyou,ItoldhimwhenEdwardtuggedmyhand.
You,too,havefunyoutwo!
Didheknow?
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Oh,therewillbeplentyoffuntonight.Edwardsmirkedathim,makingmycheeksturnred.
Sethjustlaughedandshookhisheadbeforeturninghisattentiontoamanthatjustwalkedthroughthedoors.
Assoonaswewalkedthroughthefrontdoor,Edwardstormedrighttothebathroomtoturnthewaterforthe
tubon.Ifollowedbehindhimandsatdownonthetoiletwiththeliddown,watchingasheplacedthematover
thedrainandstartedthewater.
I'llberightback,hesaidandkissedmyforeheadbeforesteppingoutoftheroom.
Isatthereandstaredatthetubasitfilledwithwater.Ifeltthepanicrise,butitwasn'tasbadasithadbeenthe
firsttimeIhadtriedtotakeabath.Thistime,IwasmorecalmsinceIknewEdwardwouldbehereeverystep
oftheway.
Whyareyoustilldressed,baby?Edwardasked,steppingintothebathroom.Hestillhadonhisjeans,buthe
hadgottenridofhishoodieandtshirt.
Ican'tgetmyjeansoff,Imumbled.Itwasalie,Ihadn'teventried.Iwasstartingtogetnervousonceagain.
They'retoowet,andtootight.
Comeon,standupandI'llhelpyou,hesaid,reachingouthishandformetotake.
Itookitandstoodup.Hedidn'tstartwithremovingmyjeansinsteadhetookoffmysweater,leavingme
standingthereinthelightbluebra.Isawashelickedhislips,likehewantedtobringmyboobstohismouth.
Heprobablywantedto,buthedidn't.Next,hemovedhishandstomyjeanswhichIhadalreadyunbuttoned.
Hetuggedonthem,tryingtogetthemoffmyass.Ittooksomeeffort,buteventuallyhewasabletogetthem
downtomythighs.
SitdownsoIcangetthemofftherestoftheway,hewhisperedandIsawhisAdamapplemoveashe
gulped.
Isatdownonthetoiletlidwithoutaword.Iliftedupmylegforhimtotakeandgrabbedaholdonthetoilet
seatsoIwouldn'tfalloffashepulled.Whenhemanagedtogetoneofmylegsfreefromthejeans,Igavehim
myotherleg.
Whenhewasfinished,Istoodbackup.IstillhadmyunderwearonandIwassilentlythankingAlicefor
makingmewearthem,becauserightnow,Ifeltsexyashell.
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Fuck,you'resexy,Bella,hewhisperedhuskily.
Ireachedmyhandstohisjeanstogetthemoffofhim.He,inturn,movedhishandstomyassandbentdown
andstartedkissingalongmyneckasheremovedthestrapsonmybrafrommyshoulders.
Imanagedtounbuttonhisjeansandunziphisfly.Imovedmyhandsinsidehisjeansandslowlydraggedthem
downhislegs.WhenIbentdowntoremovethem,Iinstantlymissedhislipsonmybody.
Oncetheywerecompletelyremoved,wewerebothstandinginourunderwear.Heslowlymovedhishandsto
unclaspmybraandIletitfalldowntothefloor.
AsmuchasIlikethesepantiesonyou,Ipreferyouwithoutthem,hemumbledandtuggedonthem.
Dosomethingaboutthat,then,Ihalfwhispered,halfmoaned.
Hedidn'thesitateforonesecondbeforehepulledthemoff.Luckily,hedidn'tripthemoffbecauseIhad
plannedtowearthemalotmoreoften.
Iwasstandingcompletelynakedunderhisstare,andhewasstillwearinghisboxers.
Ican'tgetoverhowbeautifulyouare,hemurmured,strokingmyhips.
Thankyou.Ismiledstupidly.
Ituggedonhisboxers,hintingthatIwantedthemoff.Heunderstoodandwasnotslowtopullthemoff.This
timeIwasmorepreparedforhissize,itstillamazedme,butIdidn'tfreakout.
Edwardpulledawayfrommeandwenttogetintothetub.Atthatpoint,Ididstarttofreakout.JustbecauseI
hadtakenabathoncedidn'tmeanIwascuredfrommyfear,itstillfreakedmeout.
Iturnedaroundtoputmyhairupinamessybunsoitwouldn'tgetanywetterthanitalreadywas.ThenI
walkedbacktothetub,facingitonceagain.
Edwardreachedouthishandtomewhenhewasseated.Itookit,butIdidn'tgetin.Ineededaminuteortwo
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tocalmdown.Edwardneveronceduringthatminutetriestohurrymeoranything.Hejustsatthereandheld
myhandinhis.
Youcandothis,Bella.YouhaveEdwardwithyouthistime.
Itookadeepbreath.Okay,I'mready.
IsteppedintothewaterandsatdownbetweenEdward'slegs,facinghimandthrewmylegsoverhisthighs.In
returnheheldhisarmsaroundmybacksoIwouldn'tfallbackwards.
I'mhereforyou,Bella,hesaidseriously.HemusthavenoticedhowscaredIwas.
Couldyoupleaseholdmecloser?Iasked,hopingthefearwouldsubsideifwewerecloser.
Ofcourse,hesqueezedmetightersoIwasstraddlinghislap.
Irestedmyheadonhisshoulder,tryingtorelaxmybodyandenjoythis.Hemovedhisbighandsovermy
back,bringingwaterwithhimashereachedmyshoulders.Hewaswarmingmeupwiththewater,andit
wasn'tuntilthatmomentIrealizedIhadbeencold.
Tenminuteslater,allIcouldthinkaboutwashishandsonmybody.ThefearwastuckedawayfornowandI
feltbraveenoughtositbackup.Hecontinuedmovinghishands,butnowhemovedthemfurtherdowntomy
ass.Istareddeepintohiseyesandhestaredback.WithoutclosingmyeyesIinchedforwardtokisshim.
Itwasn'tuntilmylipstouchedhisthatIclosedmyeyesandenjoyedthefeelingofhim.Igrabbedhimbyhis
hairandtracedhislipswithmytongue,askingforentrance.Heletmeexplorehismouth,everyinchofit,with
mytonguebeforehebeganmovinghiswithmine.
Hesqueezedmyassandmovedmeevencloser,Ifelthisdickbetweenusanditmadememoan.Hegrowled
andpulledbackfromthekiss.
Areyouabsolutelysure,Bella?BecauseIwon'tdoanythingifyou'renot.Hebreathedheavily.
I'masreadyasIlleverbe,Iwhispered.
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Hehungrilykissedmylipsagain.Thistime,Ilethimtakecontrolofthekiss.Alltoosoon,hebrokeaway.
Fuck,IleftthecondomsbackinForks,andIdon'thaveanyhere.
Itsokay,Edward,I'monthepill,Itoldhim.
Youare?heaskedsurpriseandInodded.Huh,Ihaven'tseenyoutakeany.
Maybeyouwerelooking,butyouweren'treallyseeing.
Ididn'tlethimrespondbeforeIcrushedmylipsbacktohis.Hequicklyrespondedandwewereonceagainlost
ineachother.
Wedidn'tevenbotherwashingeachother.Thepurposeofthisbathafterallwasonlytogetwarmagain.So,I
didn'tevenprotestwhenhestoodupandsteppedoutofthetub.Instead,Ifollowedhimandwrappedmyselfin
atoweltogetdry.Myhairstillwasn'tdry,butIdidn'treallycarethatmuchanymore.
Whenwewerebothdryenough,Edwardopenedmytowelandletitfalltothefloor.Helookedatmeand
asked,Areyouready?
Inodded.
Thisisit.
EndNotes:
A/N:Whatdoyouthinkwillhappen?Aretheygoingtodoit?
You'lljusthavetowaituntilWednesdaytofindout.ThenI'llhaveasurprise...ortwo
instoreforyou!
Inthemeantimeyoucandiscussthisstorywithmeandotherreadersoverat:
Didyouknowthatmygoalwiththisstorywastoreach500reviews?Ihaven'teven
writtenathrirdyetandI'msoclosetothe500threview.So,abigTHANKYOUto
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A/N:Thequotefromthelastchapterwasfrom'ACinderellaStory':
Maybeyouwerelooking,butyouweren'treallyseeing.
Findthequoteinthischapter,andyou'llgetapreview!
So,surprise#1isinthischapterandIbegallofyouwhoareundertheageof18not
toreadthis.Also,I'msorryifthischapterdisappointssomeofyou.Ican'tpossibly
pleaseeveryoneofyou.
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Edwardgentlylaidmedownonthebedashehoveredaboveme.Wewerebothcompletelynakedinthedark
room,andIwasrelievedthathehadclosedtheblinds.Ididn'twantthesurroundingbuildingstoknowwhatwe
wereupto.
WestaredintoeachotherseyesandthenEdwardkissedmehungrily,Iwasmorethanwillingtorespond.Our
tonguesmovedtogetherinahappydance,neitherofuswantedtogiveinandlettheothertakeover.
Hestartedtokisshiswaydownmyneck,collarbonesandthenstoppedatmyboobstogivethemsome
attention.Itfeltamazinglikeitalwaysdidwhenhedidthat,butsomehowatthatmoment,itfeltlikeheaven.
Whenhewaspleasedthatbothbreastswereshownenoughlove,hemadehiswaydownmybody,peppering
kissesacrossmystomach.Ashestartedtogetlower,Istartedtogetmorenervous.
Hewasn'tgoingtokissmedownthere,washe?
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Edwardsatuponhiskneesandtookoneofmylegsandstartedtokissfromthefootuptomyknee,continuing
hiswayuphighertomythigh.
He'sstartingtogetdangerouslyclose...
JustasIwasabouttosaysomething,hechangedlegsandstarteddoingthesametomyleftone.Hewentslow,
dragginghislipsupmyleg,occasionallylettinghistonguetrailacrossmyskin.Allthewhilehekepteye
contactwithme.Ashismouthstartedmovingclosertomyladyparts,Iquicklymovedmyhandsdownto
coverme.
Whatareyoudoing?Iasked.
Iplantopleasureyouinwaysyouneverthoughtpossible,hesaidhuskily.
Withyourmouth?Downthere?
Yes,andIpromisetostopifyouwantmeto,justletmetry.
Butwouldn'titbekindofdisgustingforyou?Imean,Ican'tpossiblytastegoodthere.Iwasstillcovering
myself.
I'msureyou'lltasteheavenly,hesaidandgentlyremovedmyhandsplacingthemoneithersideofme.
Youpromiseyou'llstopifItastebad?
Ipromise.HeplacedapillowjustbelowmylowerbackandIlookedathim,confused.
Whydoesheneedapillowthere?
Hemusthaveseenmylookandexplained,Theanglewillbebetterwiththepillowplacedthere,anditwillbe
morecomfortableforbothofus...later.
Oh.
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Hehitchedoneofmylegsoverhisshoulderandthendidthesametotheotherone.Now,wherewasI?
Iwasnotbeenpreparedforwhathedidnext.Heplacedasoftkissonmylowerlipsbeforetakingalonglick
alongmyslit.
Mmm,Imoaned.
ForsomereasonIfeltembarrassedaboutthemoans,butallIwantedtodowastoshoutoutatthefeeling.It
wasbeyondeverythingIhadeverexperiencedbefore.
Youdon'thavetohide,baby.Screamallyouwant.Icouldhearthesmirkinhisvoice,soIbroughtmyhands
tohishairandpushedhisfaceclosertomycoretogethimtoshutupandgetbacktowork.
Itriedtomovemyhipsinordertogetmorefriction,butEdwardstoppedmebythrowinghisarmoverthem,
pinningmedown.
Heenteredoneofhisfingersslowlywhilesuckinggentlyonmyclit.Ashisfingerstrokedmygspot,Iknewit
wasn'tgoingtobelongbeforeIcame.Iwantedittolastaslongaspossible,butEdwardhadotherplans.
That'sit,Bella.Iknowyouwanttoletgoforme.
Thevibrationsfromhisvoiceonlyaddedtothesensation.Imoanedloudlyandoften,Imighthaveevenletout
acurseonce.
Edward,I'm...IhadnoideawhatIwasgoingtosay.
Heonlysuckedharderandstartedthrustinghisfingerfaster.HeknewIwasclosetomyorgasm.Then,allofa
sudden,everythingwithinmeburstandIsawstars.Bigwhitestars,glimmeringinfrontofmyeyesasmybody
shookviolently.
Iwasn'tevenawarethatEdwardhadstoppedhisactionsandstartedkissingmypelvicboneuntilIhadcalmed
downenoughIwastoospenttoevencare.Hecouldkissmewhereverhewantedto.
Hekissedeveryinchofmystomachwhilemybreathingwasstilllaboredcomingdownfromthatwonderful
momentIjusthad.Then,hekissedhiswayuptomybreasts,givingthemeachequalattention.Hemovedhis
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wayuptomycollarbones,andsuckedlightlyonmyneckbeforereachinghisdestinationmymouth.
IttastedkindofweirdandIrealizedhestillhadtracesofmeinhismouth.ItwasabittertasteandIcouldn'tfor
thelifeofmefigureoutwhyhehadwantedtotasteme.
Wasthatnormal?Formeto...shakelikethat,Imumbledwhenhepulledawayfromthekiss.
ItfeltsostrangethatmybodywoulddosomethinglikethateverytimeIhadanorgasm.Before,mybodydidnt
shakesomuch,butithadbeenmuchmoreintensethistime.
Yes.Yes,it'snormal,hereassuredmeandkissedmehardagain.Areyouready?
Inoddedmyhead.Icouldn'tformanywords,bothbecauseIwasnervous,andbecauseIwasexcited.Having
sexwouldtakeourrelationshiptoawholenewlevel,andIcouldn'twaitforit.
EdwardlookedintomyeyesseekingpermissionthatIstillwantedthis.Ihadneverbeensosureofsomething
inmyentirelife,soInoddedmyheadslightly.
Here,squeezemyhandwhenyou'reinpain,hewhisperedandtwinnedhisfingerswithmineoneitherside
ofmyhead.
Hereleasedonehandinordertopositionhimselfatmyentrance.Itwaslikehehadforgottenthatheactually
neededoneofhishands.Ididn'tletitbothermethough.Instead,Itwinnedmyfreehandinhishairandpulled
hisheaddownsoIcouldkisshim.
Icouldfeelhimashepushedforwardandthepainhitme.ItfeltlikeIsatdownonapadofneedles,andthe
painmoveddowntomythighs.Ifitwasthisintensenow,howwoulditbewhenhereachesmybarrier?
Iinstantlyfeltmyselftenseupfromtheintrusion.Edwardmusthavefeltitaswell.
Baby,youneedtorelax,oritwillfeelevenworse.HemovedthehandIwasn'tusingtomassagetheinside
ofmyleftthigh.
Okay,Imanagedtosay.Justgivemeasecond.
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Itookdeepbreathsandtriedtopushawaythetearsthatthreatenedtoescape.
Icandothis,Iwantthis.Icandothis,Iwantthis.Thepainwillgoaway,Ichantedtomyself.
Iliftedmychinup,silentlyaskingEdwardtokissme,whichhedid.ItwasslowandgentleandIwasonce
againcalmenoughtocontinue.
Okay,IwhisperedwhenIpulledback.
Areyousure?
Mhm,wasallIgotoutalongwithanod.
HepushedslightlyforwardandIwasonceagainhitbyintensepain.IfeltsostretchedthatIthoughtIwould
splitanysecond.Icouldn'thelpthesingletearthatescapedthistime,justlikeIcouldn'tcontrolthewhimper
thatescaped.
Iwantthissobadly,butwhydoesithavetohurtlikethis?
EdwardpushedforwardalittlemoreandIsqueezedhishandjustlikehesaidIshould,although,Ihadprobably
brokeafewofhisbonesbythatpoint.
Iloveyousomuch.I'msosorry,baby.Edwardkeptsayingashekissedthetearsaway.
Icouldn'tbelievehowthiscouldeverbecomfortableforagirl.ItriedmybesttobestrongforEdward'ssake
becauseIdidn'tneedforhimtofreakout.
StillIcouldn'thelpmyselffromasking,Isitinyet?
Justtheheadandmaybeanotherinch.Hesoundedapologetic.
Oh,Icriedout.
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I'msosorry,butyoumustrelax,hepleaded.
Iamrelaxed,Iargued.
Youhavemyhipsinavicegrip,Bella.HestartedmassagingmythighagainandIrealizedthathewasright.
Iwasfarfromrelaxed.
Sorry,juststoppushingforasecond.
Iblinkedawaythetearsandtriedtocontrolmybodyandmakeitrelax.Ittookmeafewminutestobeableto
continue.Thistime,Iwasdeterminedtogothroughwithitwithoutanyinterruptionsonmypart.Itwasgoing
tohurtevenifIwaited,soImightaswellgetitoverwith.
Eventhoughthepainwasalmostunbearable,Ididn'ttellhimtostop.Myfacewaswetfromthetearsand
Edward'shandwasprobablybluefromlackofcirculation.
Whenhehadpushedinanotherinchortwoitwashisturntostop.Hehadhitmybarrier.
Thisisit.IfIgoanyfurther,youwon'tbeavirginanymore.
Thendoit,Itoldhim.
It'sgoingtohurtevenmore,hewhispered.Doyouwantmetogoslow,orquick?
Ithoughtaboutthatifhewentslowthepainwillbelonger,butifhewentquickmaybethepainwontlastas
longoncehehadbrokenthebarrier.So,whatwouldbeworse?
Doitquick,Ifinallyanswered.
Okay,hewhisperedandbentdowntokissme.
Hedidn'tmoveanythingbuthislipsandIfelthistonguetracemylips,askingforentrance.Igaveittohimand
ourtonguesmovedtogether.
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Thenallofasudden,IfelthimmoveinsidemeandapainIhadneverthoughtpossibleshotthroughmybody.
Thistime,IdidfeellikeIhadbeensplitintwo.IreleasedEdward'slipstocryoutfromthepain,sinceItriedto
holditinitsoundedmorelikeawhimper.
I'msorry,I'msorry,I'msorry,Edwardrepeatedoverandoveragainwhileplacingfeatherlightkissesallover
myface.
HestayedabsolutelystillwhileIadjustedtohissize.Iknewthepainwouldn'tsubsidecompletelyandthat
Edwardneededtomovesoon,orhewouldprobablygocrazy.So,afterafewminutes,Itoldhim,Okay.
HeunderstoodwhatIwastalkingaboutandnoddedhisheadbeforeheslowlypulledoutafewinchesthen
thrustforwardagain.Itwasn'taspainfulasithadbeenatfirst,butIcouldn'tsayitwascomfortableeither.It
wasalotdifferentthanEdward'sfinger.
HepulledoutmoreandmoreaftereachthrustasIlayalmostcompletelystillunderneathhim.Ihadnoidea
whattodo,butIdidmassagehisscalpandkeptatightgriponhishand.Hehadplacedhisfreehandonmyleft
thighgentlymassagingit.
Hemoanedinmyearandthatwaswhatkeptmegoing.ItwaslikemusicandwithoutitIwouldprobablyhave
stoppedhimsinceithurtlikehell.
Fuck,you'resotight,hegrunted.
Isthatabadthing?Iaskedworried.
No...thrust,definitelynot.
Hecontinuedwiththethrusting.Hewasgentleandneverwenttooquickwhichwasprobablyhardforhimto
containhimselfinordertodothat.Afterawhile,histhrustsbecameshallowandhismoaningincreased.
I'mclose,baby.
ThistimeIknewwhathemeantbythatandwaspreparedwhenIfelthimemptyhimselfinsideme.Afterone
finalthrusthecollapsedontopofmeitwasover.ThefeelingIfeltyesterdayaftergivinghimahandjobwas
nothingcomparedtothis.
Areyouokay?heaskedafterawhile,lookingdownatme.
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Mhm.Inoddedmyhead.
Ihissedwhenhestartedtopulloutofme,Iwouldprobablybeverysorebytomorrow.
I'msorry,hesaidandstartedkissingmeagain.
Iwasgladforthatdistraction,eventhoughitstillhurtwhenhepulledout.IfelthistonguelickmylipsandI
openedmymouthforhim,buthedidn'tmovehistongueintomymouth.Instead,hecontinuedtolickmylips,
bythattime,hehadfinallypulledoutcompletely.
Heslowlypulledhimselfoffofmegettingoutofbed.
Whereareyougoing?Iaskedinaworriedtone.
WasIsobadthathehastoleave?
Don'tworry.I'mjustgoingtogetatoweltocleanyouup,hereassuredme.
Oh.IleanedbackintothepillowsIwastootiredtomove.
EPOV
Ileftherthereonthebedandwentintothebathroomtogetadamptowel,soIcouldcleanherup.
Thesexhadbeenamazingonmypart.TheconnectionIhadfeltwithher,Ihadneverfeltanythinglikethat
before,ever.Itwouldhavebeenalotbetterifshehadactuallyenjoyeditaswell,though.Ihadfeltlikeajerk
forhurtingherlikethat,andthentoenjoyit.
Iusedthetoweltocleanoffthebloodonmycock,moreevidencethatIhadhurther.
WhenIgotbacktothebedroomshewasstilllayingonthebedwithhereyesclosed.Shehadalsoclosedher
legs,butotherthanthat,shewasstillinthesamepositionasIhadleftherin.
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Iwalkedovertothebedtositdownbyherlegsandgentlynudgedoneofherknees.
Couldyoupleaseopenyourlegsforme,Bella?Ineedtogetyoucleanedup.
Shedidn'tsayanything,butshedidasIaskedandpartedherknees.TherewasbloodonthepillowIhadused,
aswellamixtureofmyjizzandbloodbyherpussy.Thesightmademefeelguiltyandproudatthesametime
guiltybecauseIhadcausedhertobleed,andproudbecauseitwasmyjizzonher.
IheardherhisswhenIstartedcleaningbetweenherlegs.
Howbadisit?sheasked,lookingdownatme.
Notsobad.I'malmostdone,Imumbled.
Iwipedthelastremainsoffandtossedthetowelontothefloor,Idtakecareofittomorrow.Then,Ipulledthe
pillowcarefullyfromunderneathherandthrewitdowntojointhetowelonthefloor.
Ilaydownbesideherandembracedher,lettinghersnuggleagainstmybarechest.Wewerestillnaked,andthe
feelingofhermademefeelsocomplete.Ialsoknewthatshepreferredtosleepwithatshirtsincesheusually
gotcoldduringthenight.
Doyouwantmetogetyousomethingtowear?Iasked.
No,Ilikethis,shemumbledandplacedakissabovemyheart.
Ihuggedhercloser,andstrokedherlonghair.Welayinsilenceforawhile,butIdon'tthinkshewasasleep.
Didyoulikeit?sheaskedinawhisper.
Yes,youweregreat,andI'msurethesexwillbeamazingoncewebothareableenjoyit,Itoldherhonestly.
Ihopeso,too,shemumbled.ButI'mgladyoulikedit.
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I'msor...Istarted,butshecutmeoffbeforeIwasabletofinish.
No!Iloveyou,andIdon'tregretit.
Iloveyou,too.
IwokeinthemiddleofthenightfromBella'sshivering.Ilookeddownather,butsheappearedtostillbe
asleep.Iknewshewouldgetcoldwithoutanyclotheson.Itwouldbeimpossibleformetodressherwithout
wakingherup,soIbroughtthecoversclosertousandmovedmyhandsupanddownherbacktogether
warm.IevenchangedourpositionsoIwaslyingontopofherwithmyheadonherchest.Justlikeablanket.
WhenIwokeupthenextday,Iwokeuptoanemptybed.BellawasnowheretobeseenandIinstantlystarted
toworry.
WhatifIhurthertoomuchlastnight?Orwasitjustadream?
Igotupandsawthetowelandpillowfromlastnight.Soifwehadn'tdoneanythingelseinvolvingblood,it
wastrueandnotadream.Itookthemandthrewtheminthelaundrybasket.Ihadnoideaifwewouldbeable
togetthemcompletelycleanagain,butitwasworthatry.
IfoundBellainthekitchenbythestovemakingbreakfastorsomething.Shewaswearingmytshirtfromlast
nightandapairofshorts.
Iwalkedovertoherandputmyarmsaroundherwaistandburiedmyheadinherhair.Itookadeepbreath,
inhalingherscent.Shegiggledatthat.
Weactuallydiditlastnight,didn'twe?Itwasn'tadream?Iaskedandnuzzledmynoseinherhair.
Sheturnedaround,smiling,inmyarmsandsaid,No,wereallydidit.
Howareyoufeeling?
Sore,butotherthanthatIfeelfine,sheansweredandturnedbacktowhatevershewasdoing.
Ididn'tanswerherandinsteadwenttothebathroomcabinettogetsomeTylenolforher.Iwastheonewhohad
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madehersore,soitwastheleastIcoulddo.
Here,taketheseandyoushouldfeelbetter,Isaid,handingherthetwopills.
Thanks,shemumbledandwenttogetaglassofwater.
Outofcuriosity,Ilookedinthefryingpantoseewhatshewasmakingforbreakfast.Initwassomethingwhite
andthin,almostlikeanomelet,butnotasyellow.Icouldn'tforthelifeofmefigureoutwhatitwas.
What'sforbreakfast?Iaskedher.
Sheswallowedthepillsbeforeanswering,Pancakes.
Baby,thosearenotpancakes.Ipointedtothefryingpan.
Yes,theyare.Now,movesotheywon'tgetburned.
Pancakesaresupposedtobethicker,andsmaller.Thosepancakeslookalmostliketortillas.
Ineversaidtheywereregularpancakes,justthattheywerepancakes,sheargued.
TherewasnothingIcoulddotohelpsinceIhadnoideawhatshewasmaking,butIcouldsetthetable.SoI
tookouttoplates,forksandknives.Ifiguredyouatleastatethemlikeregularpancakes.
Whatareyousupposedtohaveonthem?Syrup?Iasked.
No,youcantakeouttheraspberryjam,orstrawberryifyoupreferthatone,shesaid,flippingapancake.
Doweevenhaveraspberryjam?
Mhm,inthefridge,shesmiledatme.
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Shefinishedwiththefoodandplaceditonthetablebeforesittingdown,allthewhileshesmiled.Iwould've
likedtothinkitwasmewhohadsomethingtodowiththatsmile,whichonlymademesmile.
ShelaidapancakeonmyplateandIjuststaredatit.Itwasn'tlikeIwasafraidoftryingnewfood,anditwasn't
likethepancakedidn'tlookdelicious.ItwasjustthatIdidn'tunderstandhowshecouldcallthisapancake.
Youtakesomejamandspreaditoutalloverthepancake,likethis.Sheshowedmehow,eventhoughI
understoodwhatshemeant.Andthen,yourollittogether.
Okay,Isaid,mimickingheractions.
Thenyoueat.Sheshruggedhershouldersandcutabitebeforeplacingittohermouth.
Ichuckledbecauseshewastooadorable,instructingmehowtoeat.Ididwhatshesaidandputapieceofthe
pancakeinmymouth.Itwasevenmoredeliciousthenitlooked,ittastedsweetbecauseofthejamandthe
pancaketastedabitdifferentthanIwasusedto,butIhadtoadmit,thesebeatthenormalpancakes.
Itakeityoulikethem?sheaskedwithabigsmile.
Icouldn'ttalkbecauseofthepancakeIhadstuffedinmymouth,soInoddedmyheadandtriedtosmile.That
onlycausedhertogiggle.
WhenmymouthwasclearIasked,Wheredidyougetthisrecipe?
Sheshruggedhershoulders.It'sjustsomethingI'vecomeacross.
Well,you'remorethanwelcometodothemagain,Isaid,placinganotherpancaketomyplate.
I'llrememberthat.
WefinishedbreakfastandIhelpedherwiththedishesafterward.Wedidn'tdomuchthatmorningbesides
goingbacktobedtosnuggleabitbeforewegotbackupagain,butonlytogotothecouchtosnugglesome
more.
IneedtogotoRosesandpickupElsa,Bellasaid.Doyouwanttocome?
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Ihadplannedtospendtheafternoondownatthegym,Isaidapologetically.
It'sokay.I'lljustgobymyself,then.Atleastshedidn'tsoundangryorsadaboutthatfact.
Okay,I'llseeyoulater.Ibentdowntokissher.Iloveyou.
Shesmiledupatme.Iloveyou,too,Edward.
BPOV
Iwasstillsorefromlastnight,buttheTylenolhelpedabit.Walkingwasstilluncomfortable,though.Ihoped
noonecouldtellthatIhadlostmyvirginitylastnightbythewayIwalked.
IpulledupbesideEmmett'sJeepandgotout.EventhoughIwasmorethanhappytohaveEdwardhome,Istill
missedlivinghere.BothbecauseIhadgrownsoclosetoRose,butalsobecauselivinginyourownhouseisa
lotdifferentcomparedtolivingonthe26thfloor.
IrangthedoorbellandheardElsabarkbehindit.Ismiled.IhadmissedhereventhoughIsawhertwentyfour
hoursago.Itwouldhavebeenannoyingtohaveherattheapartmentlastnight,though,consideringwhat
EdwardandIhaddone.
Bella!Whatareyoudoingheresoearly?Roseaskedwhensheopenedthedoor.
What?Sincewhendidfouro'clockintheafternoonbecomeearly?Elsacamerunningtowardme.She
seemedjustashappytoseemeasIwastoseeher.There'smybaby!
I'mnotreadytogiveherbackjustyet.Rosepoutedandletmeinside.
IlaughedatherandpickedElsaupinmyarms.I'llrememberthatwhenIbabysitforyou.
Comeon,Iwanttohearallaboutthedate,shesaidexcitedlyandledthewaytothekitchen.Sitdownand
I'llmakeyousomecoffee.
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IhesitatedonwhetherornotIshouldsitdown.Whichwouldhurtmorestanding,orsitting?Ididn'twanttobe
rudesoIsatdownandbreathedasighofreliefwhenitdidn'thurtasmuchasIthoughtitwould.
So,spill,shedemanded,handingmeacupofcoffee.
Itoldherabouttherestaurant,therowingonthelake,IalsoshowedherthenecklaceEdwardhadgivenme,
andtalkedabouthowwehadkissedintherain.
Howdiditend?
Wegothomeandtookabathtowarmupagain.Ihesitated,notknowingifIshouldtellheraboutthesexor
not,butIwantedtotalktosomeoneaboutitanditwassomethingIdidn'twantEdwardtoknow.
There'smore,right?Sheknewmewellenoughtoreadmyfacialexpression.
Inoddedmyhead.Wehadsexlastnight.
Wow.Shelookedshockedforasecond.So,howwasit?
Painful,butpowerful,Istatedsimply.
Oh,I'msosorry.Shecameoverandhuggedme.
Whydoeseveryonekeepsaying'Sorry?'Iknewitwasgoingtohurt,Ijustdidn'tthinkitwouldhurtthat
much,butIstilldon'tunderstandwhyEdwardandnowyouapologize!Iwasfrustrated.Edwardhad
apologizedtoomanytimeslastnightandduringtheday,anditalmostmademethinkheregrettedit.
Idon'tknowwhy,shemumbled.
Ididn'tmeantogetupsetwithyou.It'sjustthatI'mkindoffrustratedEdwardkeepssayingsorry.Doyou
thinkheregretsit?
No,Idon'tthinkhedoes.Heprobablyfeelsguiltyabouthurtingyou,though.
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Yeah...
Onascaleofonetoten,howbaddiditactuallyhurt?Shehadgonebacktotheothersideofthecounterand
wasleaningonherelbows.
Iwouldsaytwenty,maybeeventhirty.Plus,ithurtslikehelltowalkandsitdown,andeventopee!
HaveyoutakenaTylenolorsomething?Itmighthelp.
Yeah,Edwardgavemetwoearlier,Imumbled.Didithurtlikethisforyoutoo?
Itdidhurt,especiallytopeethemorningafter,butitwentawayprettyquickly.Itwillprobablyhurttohave
sexthenextfewtimes,butthepainwilleaseupaftereachtimeuntilitbecomespleasurable.
Inoddedglumly.Ididn'twanttowaitforittobeenjoyable,Iwanteditnow.
Whatifthepaindoesn'tgoaway?
ThenI'llgowithyoutothegynecologistandwe'llfindoutwhat'swrong,shereassuredme.
Westayedquietforawhile.IsippedmycoffeeandthoughtaboutwhatRosehadsaidIreallyhopedthepain
wouldgoawaysoon.
HaveyoudecidedwhattodoforThanksgivingyet?sheasked,breakingthesilence.
Ishookmyhead.No,butIthinkwe'regoinguptoForkstoseeourparents.Plus,mymomsaidthatshemight
come,shewantedtomeetEdward.Whataboutyou?
Yeah,we'regoinguptoForks.SinceEmmett'sparentsdiedwehavebeenspendingtheholidayswiththe
Cullens,myparentswillbeoutofthecountryasusual.Sheshruggedhershoulders.
Maybewe'llgettospendThanksgivingtogether,then.Ismiled.
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Yeah.
Ishouldprobablygetgoing,Isaid,slidingdownfromthehighchair.HaveyouwalkedElsarecently?
Yeah,aboutanhourbeforeyougothere.
Okay,thanks.Andthankyouforlistening.
ItoldyouthatIwouldbehereforyou,nomatterwhatyouwantedtotalkabout.
ShewalkedmetothedoorandIslippedmyfeetintomyblueVansandgaveherahugbeforesteppingoutside.
WedecidedtomeetuponWednesdayjustlikeusualbeforeIclimbedintomycar.
Ididn'tgostraightbacktotheapartment,insteadIdrovearoundthecityforawhilethinkingaboutwhatRose
hadsaid.Eventually,ElsabecameimpatientsoIdrovehomeafteranhour.
Ifeellikeshit!IthoughtasIsteppedinsidetheelevator.
Myheadfeltlikeitwasabouttoexplode,mythroathurteachtimeIswallowedandIdidn'tevenwanttothink
aboutmyladyparts!
IwenttothebathroomcabinettotakeaTylenolbeforestartingdinner.IknewEdwardwouldcomebackup
soonandhewasprobablystarving,soIneededtomakesomethingthatdidn'ttakehourstomakeandcould
feedahorse.
IdecidedtomakegrilledchickenbreastwithriceandBarnaisesauce.Itwaseasyenoughanddidn'ttakemuch
energy.
EdwardcamebackjustasIfinishedcuttingthevegetables.Elsarantogreethim,sheransofastthatitlooked
likesomeonehadsethertailonfire.
Hithere,Elsa,where'syourMommy?heaskedinaveryfakevoicewhichmademegiggle.
HecameintothekitchenwithElsainhisarms.Helookedallsweaty,butsexyashellinhisbasketballshorts
andawhitetshirt.
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Hi,baby,hegreetedme,walkingovertowhereIwasstandingandgavemeakissonthemouth.
Hi,Irespondedstupidly.You'reallsweaty.
Iknow.I'mgoingtohittheshower,wanttojoinme?heaskedseductivelyinmyear.
CanIhavearaincheckonthat?Ineedtofinishdinner.
Dinnercanwait,hemumbledwhilehekissedhiswayupmyneck.
Atthatexactmomenthisstomachletoutaloudrumble.
I'msureitcanwait,Ilaughed.IpromiseI'lltakeonewithyoutomorrowmorning.
Okay,onlyifyoupromisetosetthealarmhalfanhourearlier,then.
Fine,Ipromise,IagreedbecauseIdidn'tmindgettinguphalfanhourearliertotakeashowerwithEdward.
Notatall...
God,Ineedasmoke,Edwardsaid,straighteninghimself.
Ithoughyouweregoingtotakeashower.Iturnedbacktothestoveandstirredtherice.
Iam,butIneedasmokefirst.Hekissedmyhairandthensteppedoutontothebalcony.
Isighed.Whileabigpartofmewantedhimtoquitthatnastyhabit,anotherpartofmedidn'tbecausehelooked
absolutelygorgeouswhenhesmoked.
ThedinnerwasalmostdonewhenEdwardcameoutofthebedroom,cleanandfresh.Hesmelledmanlymixed
withhisownscentandthatonlymademethinkaboutthenightbefore.
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WesatdownatthetableandEdwardhungrilyputthefoodontohisplate,italmostlookedlikeamountainwith
chicken,riceandyellowlavarunningoutofit.
Thiswasamazing,baby,hesaidwithamouthfuloffood.
Igiggled.Thankyou.
IstartedeatingmyfoodandIwassurprisedathowgooditactuallytasted.Ihadneverbeenabigfanofchicken
before.
Comehere,Elsa!Iyelled,pattingmylapwhenIwasalmostfinishedwithmyfood.
Sheranstraightupandsatdownonmylap,lookingexpectantlyatmewithherbigbrowneyes.Ifedhersome
ofmychicken,whichshegladlyaccepted.
Youshouldn'tfeedherlikethat,Edwardsaidwhilestuffingabigforkfuloffoodinhismouth.
Whynot?Igaveherapiecewithoutanyspiceonit.Icontinuedfeedinghersmallpiecesofchicken.
Becauseifyoufeedheratthedinnertable,she'sgoingtobegforfoodeverytimewesitdownatit,he
explained.
So?Letherbeg.Ishruggedmyshoulders.
I'llrememberyousaidthatwhenshedrivesyoucrazywithallthebegging.
Iloveyou,too.
EPOV
IputtheDVDintotheDVDplayerandsatdownonthecouch,waitingforBellatofinishwhatevershewas
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doing.Shesaidshewasready,sowhywasn'tshecoming?
WehaddecidedtowatchsomeTVbeforegoingtobed.Itwasstillprettyearlyintheevening,butweboth
werespentfromthenightbefore.Somehow,Ifeltlikesixtyinsteadoftwentyfourwhenwelivedlikethis
neverreallygoingout,goingtobedearly,andsoon,butIlikeditthisway.Sure,wecouldgooutmore,butat
thesametime,IwantedBellaalltomyself.
Baby,comeon!Iyelled.
Alittleimpatient,arewe?Shesmirkedwhenshefinallysatdownbesideme.
No,Imuttered.YousaidyouwerereadytowatchTV,andthenyoudon'tcome.Itsannoying.
I'msorry,shepoutedandstraddledmylap.Ijustneededtousethebathroom.
HowcanIstayannoyedwithherwhenshe'sactinglikethis?
You'reforgiven,Isaidquicklybeforecrushingmymouthtohers.
Sheheldmyfacewithhersmallhandsandrespondedveryeagerlytothekiss.Icuppedherassandheldher
whileIgentlypushedherdownonthecouchsoIwasontopofher.
Iknewshewasn'treadytohavesexagain,butwecouldatleasthavealittlefun.SoIslidmyhandsinsideher
shirtandrealizedshewasn'twearingabra,thatfactmademeletoutalowgrowlandpushtheshirtuptokiss
herlovelytits.
ShewhimperedwhenIbrokethekiss,butitwasquicklyreplacedwithamoanwhenIsuckedonhernipple.
Shebroughtherhandstomyhairasiftopushmedownfurther,ifthatwasevenpossible.
Ikissedmywayupherneck,stoppingwhenIhadreachedhalfwayuptoherear.Isuckedandnibbledonher
sensitiveskin,becauseIwantedtomarkherasmineeventhoughIknewshehateditwhenIshowedmy
possessiveside.
Ididn'tgetveryfarbeforeshestartedcoughingviolently,Ihadtolookuptoseeifshewasokay.Shehad
startedtogetredinherfaceanddidn'tseemtogetmuchair,soIsatusbackupandstartedstrokingherbackin
soothinggestures.Therewasn'tmuchelseIcoulddo.
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Ineedtogetsomewater,shemanagedtochokeout.
Shegotupfromthecouchandwalkedquicklyovertothesink.Iaskedifsheneededanyhelp,butshejust
shookherheadandwavedmeoffwithherhand.
Ilistenedassheturnedthewateronandforasecondthecoughingeasedup.IfelthelplesssoasIleanedback
inthecouchandwaitedforhertocomeback.
Shehadgottenacold,justlikeIsaidshewouldyesterday.
Ihatetosayit,butItoldyouso,Isaidwhenshegotbackfromthekitchen.
Justshutit,shemumbled.
Ichuckled.Shewastooadorableforherowngood,especiallywhenshewasannoyed.Sheangrilythrewa
pillowdowninmylapandpattedithardbeforesheletherheadfallonit.Ididn'thesitatetorunmyfingers
throughherhair.
Shehadacoughattackfromtimetotime,butnoneofthemwereasbadasthefirsthadbeen.Shemusthave
fallenasleepeventually,soIcarefullyslumpeddowninthecouchandthrewmyfeetuponthecoffeetable.She
wouldhavekilledmefordoingsoifshewasawake,butmylegsneededachangeofposition.Shemusthave
beenreallytiredsinceshedidn'tevenstirwhenIdidso.
Whentheshowwasover,Bellawasstillfastasleepwithherheadinmylap.Igentlygotupfromunderherand
layherbackdownonthecouchbeforegoingtothebathroom.IwouldhavetogobackforherlaterwhenIwas
readyforbed.
Ishouldn'thaveletherplayintherainandshewouldn'thavegottensick.ItfeltlikeIwasresponsible.
BellawaslyinginthesamepositionasIhadleftherinafewminutesearlier.Isighedandwalkedovertoher.
Baby,it'stimetogotobed.
Shedidn'trespond,soIguessshemusthavebeenreallyoutofit.Ipickedherupandcarriedherbridalstyleto
thebedroom,shewhimperedabitwhenIlaidherdownonthebedsoatleastshewasstillalive.Igently
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removedthepantsshehadbeenwearingandpulledthecoveroverher.
ThenIclimbedinbehindherandnuzzledmyfaceinherhair.
BPOV
Iwoketotheblaringsoundofthealarm,butIhadnostrengthwhatsoevertoturnitoff.Itwasonmynightstand
soitshouldhavebeenmewhodidit,butIjustwhimperedandburiedmyheadinthepillow.
Turnthefuckingalarmoff!Edwardgroanedandthrewhispillowoverhishead.
WhenIdidn'tanswerhim,hebentovermeandslammedthealarm,makingitstop.Ibreathedasighofrelief
anddecidedtogobacktosleep.
EdwardseemedtoknowwhatIwasabouttodo.No,no.Don'tgobacktosleep,baby.Youpromisedmea
shower.
I'm...Itseemedlikemyvoicedidn'thaveanystrengthlefteither,becauseIhadmeanttosay'I'msorry,I
forgot,'butitwastooraspy.
HegotoutofthebedandbeforeIhadthechancetoseewhathewasabouttodo,heliftedmeoffthebedand
threwmeoverhisshoulder.Itriedtoyelp,butnosoundcamefrommymouth.
Maybetheshowerwillhelpyoutogetyourvoiceback.
Ididn'tunderstandhowhecouldbesoawake,hewasusuallyverytiredandgrumpyinthemorningsbeforehe
gothiscoffee.
Hesatmedownonthetoiletandwenttoturnthewateron.Irubbedmyeyes,tryingtogetthemtowakeup.I
feltlikeshitandallIwantedtodowasgobacktothewarm,bigbedwithEdward.
Armsup,hesaidandstoodinfrontofme.
Edward,Iwhined.Itonlycameoutasawhisper,though.
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Bella.
Ididn'twanttoarguewithhim,especiallysinceIknewIhadmadehimapromise,andIintendedtokeepit.So,
Imusteredupallmyenergyandreachedmyarmsabovemyheadtolethimremovemyshirt.
Edwardhadalreadyremovedhisclothesandwasstandingnakedinfrontofme,soIstoodupandremovedmy
pantiesbeforesteppinginsidetheshower.Hefollowedrightbehindmeandwebothstoodunderthesprayof
thewater.
IfeltmyenergydrainagainandIhadtorestmyheadagainstEdward'schestsoIwouldn'tfalldown.Islidmy
handsuphisbackandhemovedhisarmstoembraceme.
You'retoosicktogotoworktoday,Bella,hestated.
Ishookmyhead.Eventhoughhewasprobablyright,Ididn'twanttocallinsickandmisswork.Icouldbesick
tomorrow,butnottodayIhadimportantmeetingsanddeadlinestokeeptoday.
Edwardmutteredsomethingabout'Toostubbornforyourowngood,'butIdidn'tcare.Ihadtoputmyfocuson
howIwassupposedtosurvivetherestoftheday.
WefinishedourshowerwithoutanyfunnybusinesssinceEdwardhadrealizedIwasinnomoodforthat.
Luckilyforme,Ihadlaidoutasetofclothestowearforthedaythenightbefore,soIdidn'tneedtoworry
aboutthat.
IrealizedIcouldn'twearmycontactssinceIhadacoldandtheywouldjustirritatemyeyesevenmore,soIhad
towearmyglasses.Ifeltlikeageekalloveragain,andwhatwasworse,Edwardhadn'tseenmeinglasses
sincehighschool.
WhenIwalkedintothekitchen,Edwardlookedupandalmostspilledhiscoffee.Baby...
Don't,Icuthimoff,puttingmyhanduptostophimfromsayinganything.I'mleavingforwork.Iloveyou
andI'llseeyoutonight.
IwalkedoverandkissedhimonthecheeksinceIdidn'twanthimtogetacoldtoo.
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Bella,hewhined.Youcan'tjustwaltzinhereandfuelmy'Sexylibrarian'fantasyandthenjustgo.
Watchme.Ismirkedandwalkedaway.
WhenIarrivedatwork,everythingwasalreadyinfullaction.Ihadthreemanuscriptstoturninbytheendof
theday,andtwomeetingstoattend.
Mr.Volturiisheretoseeyou,Angelasaidthroughtheintercom.
Isighedheavilybeforeanswering,Sendhimin.
Arosteppedinsidemyofficeaminutelaterandsatdowninthechairinfrontofmydesk.
Goodmorning,Aro,ItriedtosayashappilyasIcould.
Bella,hesmiledkindly.
HewantedtotalkaboutoneofthemeetingsIhadtoday.Hewantedtoattendsincehehadworkedwiththe
authorbeforeandwasinterestedinhisnewwork.
HewasjustabouttoleavewhenhesawmypictureofEdwardonmydesk.
That'sareallynicepictureyou'vegotthere,Arosaid,pickingupmyphotoofEdward.It'sbeenafew
weekssinceIlastsawhim...It'llbenicetoseeeveryoneatThanksgiving.
What?Iasked,confused.
Edwardhadn'tmentionedanythingabouthavingabiggatheringatThanksgiving,Ihadjustassumedthatit
wouldbehisparents,EmmettandRose.ThenofcourseaquickvisitwithmyDad,butnothingthatinvolved
Aro.
AndwhataboutmyMom?
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WeusuallymeetupforThanksgiving.Mydaughter,Jane,willbebringingherboyfriendthisyearaswellso
youwon'tbetheonlynewcomer,heexplained.
Iforcedasmileathimandwaseverythingawellbroughtupgirlshouldbe,inside,Iwasscreaming.
EndNotes:
A/N:PLEASEtellmewhatyouthoughtofthesexscene.Iknowitwasn't'pretty,'butI
wantedittoberealistic!It'ssohardtowritesomethingthatyouknownothingabout,
soIreallyhopeitwasOK.
Asalways,youcanfindmeontheTwilightedforum
(http://twilighted.net/forum/viewtopic.php?
f=44&t=10395&sid=0eb1809b8dd50509c485028b49c74ff6)untilthenextupdate.
Nextupdate:Sunday25thofJuly.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Thequotefromthelastchapterwasfrom'Titanic'again:
Ontheoutside,Iwaseverythingawellbroughtupgirlshouldbe,inside,Iwas
screaming.
Thequoteinthischapterisslightlychanged,butit'ssofamousyoushouldbeableto
finditanyway!(It'sNOTfrom'BridgetJones'!)Findit,andyou'llgetapreview!
ThankyoutoKris10Skimmerforherideas,andalsoabigthankyouto
edwardandbellabelong2getherforrecommendingmyfic!
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**PLEASEREADIMPORTANTA/NATTHEBOTTOM**
Secrets
BPOV
Howcouldhenottellmesomethinglikethat?
Ipunchedthesteeringwheelinfrustration.IknewIhadtocalmmyselfdownbeforeIspoketohim,Ikept
tellingmyselfthatitwasn'tabigdeal.SowhatifIwasgoingtomeethisfamily?Weweremarriedafterall.I
shouldhavemetthemmonthsago!
AssoonasIconvincedmyselfofthat,thepanicstartedtorise.Ihatedbeinginbigcrowds,pretendingtolike
everyone,andalwayshavingtokeepasweetsmileonmyface,alsoletsnotforgettalkingtopeopleIcouldn't
carelessabout.Mostofall,pressuretomakeagoodimpression.Ihavealwaysbeenbadatdoingthat.
WhenIsteppedinsidethefrontdoor,mycalmsideandmyangrysidewerefightingwitheachother.Ihad
workedovertimejusttobeabletogetmyshittogetherawayfromEdward,soIwasn'tsurprisedwhenIwalked
intoseehimsittingbythekitchencounter,eatinghisfrozenpizza.
DidyouknowthatwewouldbespendingThanksgivingwithyourwholefamilyandfriends?Iaskedcalmly,
notshowinghowupsetItrulywas.
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Yeah...heansweredwarily.
Howcomeyounevermentionedit,then?Itwouldhavebeennicetoknow.
We'veneverreallydiscussedit.Heshruggedhisshoulders.
Let'sdiscussitnow.Whataboutmyparents?IthinkmyMomandPhilhavebeenplanningtocomeuphere.
Hegulpedandstartedtolookkindofnervous.LasttimeIspoketomyMom,shehadinvitedyourfatherand
Sue,alongwithyourMomandPhiltojoinus.Shealsosaidtheyallhadagreed.
Mycalmexteriorbegantofalter.Thiscouldnotbehappening.
Pleasetellmeyou'remakingthingsup,Ibegged.
I'mnot.
Damnit,Edward!Mycalmwasdefinitelygonebythatpoint.It'sonethingforyoutonottellmeaboutyour
family,butmineyoushouldhavesaidsomethingabout!
Hey,calmdown.What'sthebigdeal?
Thebigdealisthatmyparentsgotdivorcedforareason,andtheyshouldn'tbeinthesameroomanymore.
MyvoicehadstartedtocrackandIknewitwasn'tgoodformetostrainitthismuch.Itwouldprobablyonlyget
worseifIdid,butIcouldn'thelpit.Ineededtocalmdown,orIwouldsaythingsIwouldregretlateron.
I'mtakingElsaoutforawalk.Ineedtocalmdownbeforewediscussthis,Isaidinashakyvoiceandstarted
walkingtowardthefrontdoor.
Edwardfollowedme.I'vealreadytakenherouttonight.
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Well,thenshe'sgoingoutagain.Ifoundherleashbythedoorandcalledoutforher.Shecamealmost
immediately.
Baby,don'tbringElsaintothis,Edwardargued.
Don't'baby'me,Edward!Iscoldedhim.Itrustedyouenoughtohavesexwithyou,togiveyoumy
virginity,andyoucan'teventrustmeenoughtotellmeaboutyourbigplansforThanksgiving!
Iwasgoingtotellyou...andit'smyMom'splans,notmine.
Oh,wereyougoingtotellmeinthecaronourwayuptoForks?!Well,mybossbeatyoutoit.Myboss,
Edward.Evenifit'snotyourplans,youknewaboutthem!
Ihadblownthisupfarmorethannecessary,buthedidn'tunderstandhowitwouldbeformetospendawhole
weekendwithbothmyMomandDad.LikeIsaidbefore,therewasareasonwhytheygotadivorceinthefirst
place.
Comeon,Bella.
Yeah,comeon.IfItookyoutocelebrateThanksgivingwithmywholefamily,withouteventellingyou,and
thensecretlymyMomhadinvitedyourwholefamily.Howthehellwouldyoureact,huh?!
Hedraggedhishandthoughishair,frustrated,buthedidn'tsayanything.Hewaslookingateverythingbutme,
andIknewhewouldhavereactedsimilartohowIwasreacting.
Ithoughtso.
Bella...please,justdon'tgoout.Listentoyourself,youcanbarelytalk.You'restillsick!Iloveyou...please.
Iloveyou,too,butIneedtobealoneforawhile,Isaidandsteppedoutsidebeforehehadthechancetostop
me.
Ididn'twaitfortheelevatortoarrive,insteadItookthestairs.IranasfastasIcouldwithpoorElsainmyarms.
Eventuallythough,IcouldbarelyseethroughthetearssoIhadtositdown.
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Icouldn'tstandfightingwithEdward,buthehadnorighttokeepinformationfrommeconcerningmyfamily.If
ithadonlybeenabouthisfamily,thenIwouldhaveprobablyforgivenhimrightthereonthespot,butthefactit
wasinvolvingmyownparentswasdifferent.
Ipulledmyselftogetheranddecidedtotaketheelevatorafterall.Iwasontheseventeenthfloor,soIhadalong
waybeforeIwouldreachthefirstfloor.
WhenIwasoutside,Ireallydidn'tknowwheretogo,butIsatElsadownonherownfeetandstartedwalking.
IeventuallyreachedtheplaygroundoneblockawayfromourapartmentitwasdesertedsoIsatdownonone
oftheswings,pushingmyfeetunderneaththesand.
Whydoeseverythinghavetobesodamnhardallthetime?
BeforeIcouldthinkaboutwhatIwasdoing,IpulledoutmyphoneanddialedRose'snumber.
Hello?Rosesaidintothephone.
Hi,Rose.Itriedtokeepmyvoicecalm,butevenIcouldhearthatIwascrying.
Bella?What'swrong?
Umm...EdwardandIkindofhadafight,Imumbleddryingthetearsthathadsilentlymadetheirwaydown
mycheeks.
Why?Shesoundedgenuinelyconcerned.
DidyouknowthatEsmeinvitedmyMomandPhil,alongwithmyDadandSuetospendThanksgivingwith
allofEdward'sfamilyandfriends?
IknewaboutEdward'sfamily,butIhadnoideaaboutyours,shesaidsurprised.
Well,Edwardknew,andthenmyboss,whoisEdward'sgodfather,tellsmethatwe'respendingThanksgiving
together.IfeltsodamnembarrassedwhenIdidn'tevenknow,Rose!
Soyouhadabsolutelynoideathatyourparentsweregoingtobethereaswell?
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No,andIhavenoideawhenEdwardwasgoingtotellme.MyMomhasntevencalledtosayanything!
Wow...Ihavenoideawhattosay.
Meneither,Imumbled.
Ihadcalmeddownabitbythatpoint,butIwasstillangrywithEdward.
Doyouwanttocomeover?Roseaskedgently.
Idon'twanttoimpose.Besides,IshouldgobackupandtalktoEdward,he'sprobablyfreakingoutbynow.
Youwouldn'tbeimposing,Bella.Neverthinkthat,butIgetyourpoint.
Thankyouforlisteningtomyproblemsagain,Isaidandgaveoutasmalllaughthroughmytears.Ilove
you.
Illalwaysbehere,andIloveyou,too.Callmeagainifyouneedto!
WehungupandIgotupfromtheswingglancingdownatElsa.ShewasstaringupatmeandforamomentI
thoughtIcouldseepityinherbig,browneyes.
IknewIwasn'tbeingfairtoEdward.IhadmyownsecretsthatIshouldhavetoldhimalongtimeago,butthe
differencebetweenhimnottellingmeaboutThanksgivingandmysecretswasThanksgivingactually
concernedbothofus.
Comeon,Elsa.Let'sgohome,Isaiddefeatedandstartedwalkingback.
ItwastimeforEdwardandmetohaveaserioustalk,andformetotellhimmysecrets.Oratleasttheoneshe
wantedtoknowabout.
HoweverwhenIgothome,Edwardwasnowheretobeseen.Theapartmentwascompletelyemptyandquiet.I
immediatelywonderedifIhadbeentoohardonhimearlier,butitwasquicklyreplacedbyworry.
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Whatifhe'slyinginadarkalleysomewhere?
Itriedcallinghimonhiscell,buthedidn'tpickup,andhewasn'tansweringmytexts.Thisonlymademe
worryevenmore.Afterawhile,IgaveupandfiguredhewaswithEmmettorJasper,andhewasprobablyjust
asmadatmeasIwaswithhim.
Icouldn'thelpbuttositupandwaitforhim,though.ItookElsaandsatdownonthecouch,watchingsome
badTV.
Aftertwohours,Iheardsomeoneoutsidethedoor.Ilookedattheclockandsawthatitwasalmosteleven
o'clock.Bythattime,myworryhadbecomeovershadowedwithanger.
Iwalkedovertothefrontdoorandheardrustlingjustrightoutside.
Fuck!IheardEdwardcurse.Itwasprobablyloudenoughforhimtowakeuptheneighbors.
Edward,whatthehellareyoudoing?IhissedwhenIhadopenedthedoorforhim.
Hemumbledsomethingandswayedpastme.Hewasdrunk.
Wherewereyou?Iclosedthedoorandfollowedhimintothelivingroom.
Oh,soyou'retheonlyonewhogetstoleave?Littlemissprincess,heslurredsarcastically.
Ididn'twanttofightwithhimanymore,eventhoughIwastheonewhohadstartedit,buthistonehurtme.
Well,atleastItoldyouIwasgoingout!AndI'mnotadrunkenshitrightnow!Iargued.
Yeah,you'resogood,aren'tyou?Aprudelittlegirlwhodoesn'tstayoutpasthercurfewanddoesher
homework.Ididn'twanttolistenanymore,soIpulledmyhandsuptocovermyears.Wait,you'renotthat
cutelittleprudegirlanymorebecauseItookyourvirginity.
Edward,please,Isobbed.
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Ithurts,doesn'tit?Well,ifyoumultiplythattimesten,thenyouknowhowIfeltwhenyouwalkedawayfrom
me.
Ineverwalkedawayfromyou!IwalkedawaysoIcouldcalmdownbeforeIsaidsomethingIwouldregret!
Iyelledathimthroughmysobs.ItwashardsincemyvoicebrokeallthetimebecauseofthecoldIhad.
No,Bella.Whenyouwalkedoutthatdoor,youdidwalkoutonme.HeslammedthebedroomdoorbeforeI
gotthechancetosayanything.
HowcouldasimpleargumentaboutThanksgivingturnintosomethinglikethis?Itwasallmyfault,ifIhadn't
reactedthewayIhad,noneofthiswouldbehappening.Edwardwouldn'tbedrunk,Iwouldn'tbecryingwhile
hesaidmeanthingsandwewouldprobablylayingtogetherinourbed,maybeevenmakinglove.
Sobbing,Iwenttoliedownonthecouch.Elsacameovertomyfaceandstartednuzzlinghernoseinmyhair.I
embracedherandcriedharderthanIhadinalongtime.Attimes,IcaughtmyselfwantingEdwardtocomfort
me,totakeawaythepain,butthenIwasremindedthathewastheonewhohadcausedthepainandIwould
cryevenharder.
ImusthavefallenasleepbecauseIwokeupwithastartwhenEdward'sphonestartedringinginhispocket
downthehall.ItmeantthatEdwardwasstillhome,eventhoughitwasonlyTuesdayandheshouldbeatwork.
ItwasEmmett.
Hello?Iraspedout,myvoicewasalmostdeadandIhadtotryhardtospeakuploudenoughforEmmettto
hear.
Bella?Areyoualright?Where'sEdward?heaskedworriedly.
I'mfineIjusthaveabadcold.Um,IthinkEdward'sstillasleepandIwouldn'tcountonhimtodayifIwere
you.
Whynot?
HecamehomedrunklastnightandImguessinghehasabadhangoverrightnow...Listen,I'lltellhimyou
calledandthatyou'relookingforhim,Iendedtheconversation.Ididn'tneedtogetintoanydetailswithhim.
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IlazilytriedtorubthesleepfrommyeyesandplacedEdward'sphonebackinhispocket.Iwalkedtothe
bedroomdoorandhesitated,Ididn'tknowifIshouldgotohim,orjustlethimbe,butIneededtogetreadyfor
thedayandputonmyclothesanyway.So,Iquietlyopenedthedoorandwasinstantlyhitbyabadsmell.
God,Ihopehehasn'tvomitedonthewholecarpet!
Iwalkedaroundthebedandsawhimlyingonhisside,completelynakedwithhismouthslightlyopened.I
couldn'tleavehimlikethis,eventhoughIhadplansongoingtoRosestospendthenightthere,andIstill
wouldifEdwardwantedmeto.Rightnowthough,Ihadtotakecareofhim,likehehadtakencareofme
before.
Withthat,IwenttothebathroomcabinettograbafewTylenolsforhimandaglassofwater.Iplacedthemon
hisnightstandandsatdownontheedgeofthebed.Myhandautomaticallywenttohishairandstarted
caressingit.Italwaysamazedmehowsoftitwas.
Hestartedtostirundermytouch.Edward,couldyoupleasewakeupforaminute.
Isoundedsoformalwhilesayingthat,andjustlikebefore,myvoicewasalmostgone.
Baby?heaskedafterawhile,hisvoicethickwithsleep.
Mhm.IhadtobitemytonguesoIwouldn'tstartcryingwhenheusedthatnickname.Here,taketheseand
you'llfeelbetterinawhile.
Henoddedhisheadandsatupslightly,makingiteasierforhimtoswallowthewater.Whenhewasdone,I
tooktheglassfromhishandsandheleanedbackintothepillows.Istartedtogetupfromthebed,readyto
leave,buthegrabbedmyhand.
Please,stay,hebegged,buthiseyeswerestillclosed.
Okay,Iwhisperedwhilefightinghardtokeepthetearsandsobsaway.
HehaddonethisformewhenIneededhimthemost,soIwouldbehereforhim.Whatsurprisedmethemost
wasthatIreallywantedtobehere,nomatterwhathehadsaidthenightbeforeHehadhurtme,butIhadhurt
himtoo,soforgivingwouldprobablybeeasierwhenthetimecameforthat.Thatmomentwasn'trightnow,
though.
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Islidinunderthecoversnexttohim.Iwassoclosetotheedgethatevenasinglepushwouldhavecausedme
tofalltothefloor,butEdward'sirongriponmesolvedthatproblem.Hecrushedmehardtohischest,andI
snuggledevencloser.EverythingfromlastnightwaspushedawaytothebackofmymindwhileIlaythere
withhim.
I'msorry.I'msosorry,Bella,hechantedoverandoveragain.Itwaspossiblehewascryingtoo,butitwas
hardtotell.
Shh,Iknow,Itriedtosoothhim.Shh,it'sokay.
Hedidn'tsayanythingelseafterthat,buthedidnuzzlehisfaceinmyhairandheldhisgriponme.Aftera
while,herolledusoversohewaslyingontopofme.Whenhestartedtoplacekissesonmyneckandthen
goinglower,Iknewwherehewastryingtotakethings.
No,Edward,we'renotreadyforsex.Weneedtotalkfirst,Itriedtoreasonwithhim.
Bythatpointhehadliftedupmytshirtjustbelowmybreastsandlaidopenmouthkissesallovermystomach.
Iheardhimmumblesomethinglike'Iknow'beforehecollapsedwithhisheadonmystomachandhisbodyon
topofmylegs.
Great!
Imovedmylegsfromunderneathhim,sotheywouldn'tgonumbafterawhilebecauseEdwardwaspretty
heavy.
EPOV
WhenIwokeup,Inoticedthatmypillowwasmovingupanddown.Ontopofthat,itwaswarmerthanusual.
InuzzledmyfaceintoitandrealizeditsmelledlikeBella.Asthatthoughtsunkinmyeyessnappedopen.
Bellawaslyingunderneathmewithherheadonapillow,herhairsurroundingherlikeaHalo.Herlipswerein
aslightpout,andherarmsweresprawledoutbesideher.
MyAngel.
IlookeddownandnoticedIhadusedherstomachasapillow.Itmademesmileatfirst,butwhenthememories
fromthenightbeforeonceagaincamerushingtome,thetearsbegantofall.
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ShewouldprobablynotwanttostaywithmeafterthethingsIsaid,Ihadprobablylostherforever.Idecidedto
enjoyeverysinglemomentIhadleftwithherandlaymyheadbackonher.Thetearsdidn'tstop,though.
EverythingIhadtriedtobuildthelastcoupleofmonthswasruinedallbecauseofastupidlittlefightandafew
drinks.
IfeltBellastirandwrapherlegsaroundmybody,eithershewasawake,orshewasbeginningtowakeup,soI
liftedmyheadandpulleddownhershirttodryawaymytearsthathadlandedonherstomach.
Ifelthersmallhandsinmyhairandonmyface,dryingawaymytears.
She'sawake.
Ilookedupatherandwasmetbyherbig,browneyes,staringbackatme.Ididn'tknowwhatexpressionthey
showed,Ihadneverseenitbefore,butitwasn'tangryorresentful.Besides,whywouldshewanttolaythere,
withmeontop,ifshehatedme?
I'msorry,Isaidbreakingthesilence.I'msofuckingsorry,Bella.
Imovedupandlaymyheadnexttohersonthepillow.Ihuggedherclosetome,andshedidn'tprotest.When
shehadn'tsaidanything,Ipulledbacktolookather.
Ithinkweshouldtalk,shewhispered.
Thisisit.Thisiswhenshetellsmethatshe'sleaving.
Shesatupandmovedtohersideofthebed.Shecurledherselfuptoalittleballbybringingherkneestoher
chest.Ifollowedherexampleandsatupandleanedagainsttheheadboard.Sheseemedtowantsomedistance
betweenus,soIwasgoingtodowhatshewanted.
I'mnotgoingtoapologizeforhowI'veacted,shestartedcalmly.Becauseyouhadnorighttokeepthatfrom
me,butI'verealizedthatI'vebeenkeepingthingsfromyoutoo.Eventhoughitdoesn'tinvolveyou,youhave
therighttoknow.So,askmewhateveryouwanttoknow.
Somanythingsflowedthroughmymind.IhadalotofthingsIwantedtoaskher,butIhadnoideaofwhatto
askfirst.Istartedwiththeonethathadbeenbuggingsincehighschool.
Iwanttoknowwhereyouwerethatweek,amonthbeforehighschoolgraduation.
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Shetookadeepbreathasiftocalmherself.Shedidn'tseemsurprised,though,sosheprobablyknewwhatI
wasgoingtoask.
Ispentthewholeweekinmybedroom,mostlysleepingandcrying.MyDadforcedmetogobacktoschool
otherwiseIwould'vebeengonemuchlonger.
Itremindedmeofhowshehadbeenduringherlastbreakdown.Itmusthavebeenhardforherdadtoseehis
daughterlikethat.Ithadbeenreallyhardforme,soIcouldonlyimagine.
Ireachedoutforherhand,eventhoughlasttimeIknewshedidn'twantphysicalcontactwhileshetoldme
aboutherpast.Ijustwantedtocomfortherinsomeway,andholdinghandswasalotbetterthannothing.She
hesitatedforamomentbeforeshegrabbedit.Ibroughtourjoinedhandstomyforeheadandrestedmyhead
againstthem.
Didyoueverseeapsychiatrist?Iaskedcarefully.Ididn'twanttoupsetherbyasking,butitseemedalmost
likeanobviousquestion.
Yes.Iwashospitalizedforacoupleofdays,afewweeksaftergraduation.IhadfaintedbecauseIhadn'teaten
muchinweeks,andmydoctorwantedmetoseeapsychiatrist.Ididn'thavemuchchoice.Icouldtellshewas
tryingherbestnottocryasshetookadeepbreathtocomposeherselfbeforeshecontinued.
Iwenttwiceaweekfortwomonths,butIneverreallyopenedup,soshegaveuponme.ThenIwentaway
forcollege,afterthatmyDadandIneverspokeaboutitagain.HeprobablythoughtIwasoverthelossof
Emilybythen.
Ibroughtourhandsdowntomylapandsqueezedherhand,toshowthatIwasstillhereforher.Westillsaton
separatesidesofthebed,though,andallIwantedwastograbherandholdherclosetome.
Shehadsaidshehadbeenhospitalized,andthatinstantlymademewonder,Didmyfatherevertreatyou?
No,heknewIwasinthehospital,buthewasn'tmydoctor.I'mnotsureifheknewaboutwhyIwasthere
youhavetoaskhimaboutthat.
Hewouldneveranswerthat,evenifIgotdownonmykneesandbegged,butIdidn'tneedtoask.Bellatold
meenough.
Anotherquestionpoppedupinmyhead,somethingIhadbeenwonderingsincesheplantedtheseedafew
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weeksago.
Wheredidyougothatyearincollege?Iasked,fidgetingwithherweddingband.
IwenttostaywithmyGrandma,shestatedsimply.
YouwenttoyourGrandmas?Iwassurprised.Ihadn'treallythoughtofanything,butIwouldhavenever
guessedshehadgonetoherGrandmas.
Shenodded,smilingatme.Notnearlyasexcitingasyouhadimagined,huh?
ItactuallymademechucklealittlebeforeIgotseriousagain.Whydidyougotoher?
Shebitherlipandseemedtothinkaboutwhatshewasgoingtosay.Itriednottopushheroranything,justlet
hertakethetimesheneededtotellme.
Ihadnowhereelsetogo.
Youhavemenow,andI'msorryIhurtyou.Ijust...Idon'twanttospendThanksgivingwithoutyou,andifI
hadtoldyou...
YouthoughtIwouldhaverunaway,shefinished.
Yeah,somethinglikethat,Imumbled,ashamedthatIhadthoughtsolowofher.
Icouldseedisappointmentflashthroughhereyes,butIhadtobehonestwithher.Ithadonlybeenafewweeks
agothatIfoundout,andatthattime,shewouldhaveranawayfromtheproblems.Iwasn'tsosurewhatshe
wasgoingtodonow,though.
Iwishyouwouldhavejusttrustedme.Imean,we'reinthistogether,shemumbled.
Iknow,andI'msosorry.Ireallyam.Icouldn'ttellherenoughhowsorryIwasabouteverythingthathad
causedustofightandthethingsIsaidtoher.
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Iforgiveyouthistime,butifyoueverkeepanythinglikethatfromme,orsaythingslikethatagain,Iwon'tgo
soeasyonyou,shesaidsternlyandIknewshewastotallyserious.
Thankyou,Imumbled.Don'ttakethisthewrongway,butwhyisitsohardforyoutospendtheholidays
withbothyourparents?
Becausetheyalwaysargue,andit'salwaysaboutme.Theykeepblamingeachotherforthingstheyhadno
controlover...
Comehere,Isaidandpulledherovertostraddlemylap.
Inolongerhadanycontrolovermyactions.Ijustneededtocomforther,toholdherandtojustbethereforher.
Theurgetomakethingslighterbetweenuscamewithoutwarning.
CanIaskyouonemorequestion?Ismirkedandpulledherhairbackbehindherears.
Youcanaskmeanythingyouwant.
Okay.WhythehellareyousoobsessedwithMcDonald'sfood?Ilaughedandshegiggledalongwithme.
It'snotjustanyMcDonaldsfood,it'stheBigMac,andIguessit'sbecauseI'malwayssopickywithfood.
There'salwayssomethingwrongwithwhatIeat,butwiththeBigMac...well,thereyouhaveperfection.
You'resostrange.Ilaughedatherandstartedtokissherwholeface.Okay,yourturn.
What?sheaskedconfused.
It'sonlyfairthatyougettoaskmequestionssinceIaskedyou.So,goahead.
Okay,umm...doyoureallythinkI'maprude?
Fuck,Iknewthatwouldcomebackandbitemeintheass!
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Innocent.That'swhatyouare,Itoldherhonestly.Don'tyoudarechangethat,though,becauseIloveyou
justthewayyouare.Besides,itmakesitsomuchmorefunwhenthefeistylittleBellacomesouttoplay.
Ihopedthatwasagoodenoughanswerforher,becauseitwasthecompletetruth,Ididn'tlietoher.
YoureallylikethatI'mthisinnocentandinexperienced?
Youwon'tbeinexperiencedforever,Bella,andit'snotthesexI'mtalkingabout.Thereisjustsomethingabout
youthatmakesyousoinnocentandpure.
Oh,well,I'mgladyoulikethat.
Iloveit,Ismirked.
Imovedmyhandsupunderhershirtandstrokedherback.Inreturn,Bellaplacedherhandsonmybiceps.
Wherewereyoulastnight?sheasked.
Iwenttothelittlebarrightacrossthestreetanddrankmyselfnumb,Imumbled.Ireallythoughtyouhadleft
me...forgood.
Edward,shesaidsternlyandcuppedmyfacesoIhadnooptionbuttolookherintheeyes.Ifwearegoing
towork,youneedtostarttrustingmelikeItrustyou,okay?
Inoddedmyhead.Iknow.
Good.Sheleanedbackinmyarmsandmovedherhandsbacktomybiceps.Sheseemedlostinherown
worldforawhilebeforeshespokeagain.Whenisyourbirthday?
Ichuckled.Ihadn'texpectedthatone.What?
IjustrealizedIhavenoideawhenyourbirthdayis.Idon'twanttomissit,sopleasetellme.
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You'vealreadymissedthisyearsbirthday,baby.It'sJune20th.
That'slikeshelookedlikeshewascountingsomethinginherheadalmostthreeweeksbeforewegot
married.
Yeah,soIconsideryouasmylatebirthdaypresent,andit'sbyfarthebestonesofar.
Iattackedherlipswithmyowninahungrykiss.Bellaeagerlyrespondedbymoaningintomymouthand
tracingmylipswithhertongue.Webothbattledfordominance,butneitherofusgavein.
IflippedusoversoIwashoveringaboveher.Ipulledawayfromthekissandlookeddownather.Shewasso
fuckingbeautifulitalmosttookmybreathaway.Herlipswerealreadyswollenfromthekissandlookedmore
invitingthaneverwhenshebitdownonherbottomone.
Thenshesuddenlygotwideeyes,likeshejustrealizedsomething.Shit!Ihaveacold.Youshouldn'tbe
kissingme!Shecoveredhermouthwithbothherhands.
Igentlyremovedthemfromhermouthandbentdowntogiveherapeckonthelips.Icouldn'tcareless,
baby.
Okay.Shesmiledandpulledmyheaddownforanotherkiss.
Shewrappedherlegsaroundmywaistandliftedherarmsaboveherhead.Ididn'tneedtoaskherwhatshe
wanted.Ihadlearnedbythatpointwhenshedidthat,shewantedmetoremovehershirt.Idid,leavingher
gorgeoustitsexposedtome.
Idippedmyheaddowntogreetthemwithakissoneachnipple.ThenIgavethembothamorethoroughkiss.
Edward.Iwantyou,shewhisperedandmovedoneofhersmallhandsandwrappedthemaroundmycock.
Igrunted.Fuck,Bella.Youalreadyhaveme.
Ididn'tmeanitlikethatandyouknowit.Shemovedherhandupmyshafttoproveherpoint.
Iwasalittlesurprisedthatshewastheonewhotooktheinitiativetohavesex,sinceitwassopainfulforherthe
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lasttime.Truthbetold,IwasafraidIhadscarredherforlife.
Areyoureallysureyouwantthis?Iaskedherlookingintohereyes.
Please,Iwantyouinsideofme,shewhisperedandIcouldtellthatshemeantit.ShewasaterribleliarsoI
wouldhaveknownifshewaslyingtome.
Ididn'tneedanymoreconvincing,becauseIwasdyingtofeelherwrappedaroundmeagain.Okay.
Iturnedusaroundsoshewasontopofmeagainthinkingthedifferentpositionwouldprobablybemuchmore
comfortableforher.Then,IsliduponthebedsoIcouldrestmybackagainsttheheadboard.
Whatareyoudoing?Aren'tyougoingtobeontop?sheaskedinaworriedtone.
Nope,todayisyourturn,baby.
Oh.Sheseemedsurprisedatfirst,butthatquicklyturnedintoeagerness.
Sheliftedherselfupandpositionedmycockatherentrance.Sheslowlyeaseddownafewinchesandassoon
astheheadwasinsidehertightwarmthIfeltrelieved.
ThisiswhereIbelong.
IalsonoticedhowBellasuckedinabreathandwhimperedatthecontact.Shewasprobablystillfeeling
uncomfortablewithhavingsex,andIknewIhadtoslowherdown.Thiswasn'tjustaboutmypleasureI
wantedhertofeelthattoo.
Hey,there'snoneedtohurry.Wehaveallday,takeyourtime,Itriedtoreassureher.
Butwouldn'tthatbekindofuncomfortableforyou?
Uncomfortable?Tobeburiedinsideofyou,thewholeday?No,baby,Iwouldbeinheaven.Iletoutalow
chuckle.Icouldn'tunderstandhowshecouldeventhinkthatitwouldbeuncomfortable.
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Okay...good,shesaid,noddingherhead.Itseemedlikeshewastryingtoconvinceherselfthatitreallywas
okay.
Iplacedmyhandsonherthighs,andIhadtotrymyhardestnottoslamherdownonmewhenshemovedupa
bitbeforeslidingbackdownalittlefurther.
Shecontinuedonlikethatforafewminutesbeforeshehadalmostallofmeinsideher.Thenshestopped
movingandIknewshewouldn'tbeabletotakeinanymoreofmeatthatpoint.
I...umm,Ican'tfitanymore,Bellasaid.Shesoundedalmostdisappointed.
It'sokay,itwillintime.Justrelaxandmovewhenyou'reready,Ireassuredher.
Ihadtoworkhardtokeepmyselftogether.ItwasreallyhardtodothatwhenIwasburiedinhertightwarmth.
IknewIwouldn'tlastlongwhensheactuallydecidedtomove,justlikeIhadn'tlastedverylongourfirsttime
beingtogether.Although,Ididn'tthinkBellawouldmind.
Isitpainful?Iaskedher.
Couldyoujustholdme?
ThatansweredmyquestionenoughandIdidassheaskedmeto.Iwrappedmyarmsaroundherandhugged
herclosertomychest.Thesmallmovementmadeusbothmoan,although,minewasfrompleasure,Bella'swas
not.
Iloveyou,shewhisperedinmyearandhuggedmyneck.
Iloveyou,too.Somuch,Isqueezedhertighter.
TheintensityofwhatIsaidwasmerelymagnifiedbytheconnectionofourbodies.Thewordshadneverbeen
sopowerfultomebefore.ThisevenbeatthefeelingIhadwhenIheardhersayshelovedmeforthefirsttime.
Afterawhile,shepulledbacktolookatmeandthenstartedtomoveslowly.Welookedintoeachotherseyes
asshemovedupanddownmyshaft.Ilethersetthepacehuggingherclosereverytimeshesliddown.
Thesexwasrawandintense,andIhadneverexperiencedsomethinglikethatbefore.Iwantedittolast,butat
thesametime,Ididn'twanttohurtBellamorethanIhadto.EventhoughIdidn'treallyhurther,Icouldtell
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fromtheexpressiononherfacethatshewasuncomfortable.
BellamusthavehadafeelingthatIwasclosebecausesheleanedintomyearandwhispered.Letgo,Edward,
Iknowyouwantto.
Fuck.Whataboutyou?IknewIdidn'tactuallyhavetoaskherbecausedeepdownIalsoknewshewouldn't
cumthistime.
Thisisallforyou,shesaid.
AllittookwasafewmorethrustsandIwasgone.Ipulledhertightertomeandbroughtmyfacetothecrook
ofherneckwhileshekeptmovingontopofme.IswearIcouldfuckingseestarsbehindmyeyelids.
IreleasedeverythingIhaddeepinsideofher.ShestoppedmovingandwebothstayedstillwhileIbreathed
hard.IwasspentafterthatorgasmandIcouldn'tmakemybodymove,butIwashappywhereIwasandIwas
innohurrytogetoutofhere.
Afterawhile,though,Ipulledoutofherandsetherbackinmylap.Iputmykneesupsoshecouldleanback
againstsomething.Ihadnoproblemswithherleaningonmyshoulder,butIwantedtoseeher.Seeherinthis
happyandcontentstate.
Bellagotthehintandleanedbackagainstmythighs.Sheputherhandsonmychestandstarteddrawingsome
kindofpatternonit.
Letmemakeyoucum,Ipleaded.Istillfeltlikeanassholebecauseshehadn'tgottenherrelease.
Idon'tneedanorgasm,I'mhappyjustthewayIam.Shehadmovedoneofherhandsuptomyfaceand
tracedmylipswithherthumb.Ineedtogetcleanedup.
Shedidn'tmakeanyattemptingettingup.Sheseemedbusyexploringmyfaceandupperbody.
Okay,Iwhisperedbeforecatchingherhandandkissedheronthemouth.
Itwasahotkisswithlotsoftongueandgroping,Icuppedherassandshehuggedmyneck.Afterawhile,Ifelt
somethingwetonmyabdomenandIhadtobreakthekisstoseewhatitwas.
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Bellamusthavefeltittoobecausesheletoutan'Oh,'andturnedred.Irealizedthenwhatitwasitwasmyjizz
leakingoutofher.
Fuck,Icursedandwasimmediatelyhardagain.Letmesee,baby.
IputmyhandsonherhipsandtriedtoanglethemsoIcouldseewithmyowneyes.Mythighswereintheway
soIputthemdown,bydoingsoBellafellbackwardsandhadtocatchherselfwithherhandsoneithersideof
mythighsgivingmetheperfectview.
Edward,what'stheretoseereally?Shestartedtogetbackupagain,butIstoppedherbyputtingmyhandon
herchest.
Shehuffedandlaidallthewayback,restingherbodybetweenmythighswithherlegsoneithersideofmy
hips.Thatonlygavemeanevenbetterviewofmyjizz,mixedwithherjuices,leakingoutofhersweetpussy.
That,mydearBella,itthehottestthingI'veeverseen.Apartfromyouofcourse,butthisisapartofyouso...
Itrailedoff.
What?sheaskedconfusedandgiggled.
Mymanjuicemixedwithyour...girljuiceIbroughtmyfingerstoherpussyandtracedheropeningbefore
slidingtwofingersinsideher,makinghergiggleturnintoamoanLeakingoutofyoursweet,tight,little
pussy.Iletoutalowwhistle.
Edward,shemoaned.Takemenow,orlosemeforever.
Didsheseriouslyjustsaythat?
Igrabbedherandmovedustothelowerpartofthebed,soIwasontopofher.
Whatdidyoujustsay?Iasked.
Youheardme,shechallenged.Fuckme.
Yourwishismycommand,Isaidinherear,notevenhesitatingbeforeIslammedintoher.
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IhopedIhadn'thurther,butshewaswetashell.Bothfromherjuicesandminefrombefore,andthemoanshe
letoutwasnotfrompain.
Holyshit!shescreamedout.
IgaveheraminutetoadjusttomysizebeforeIstartedmoving.Atfirst,ImovedslowlybeforeIincreasedthe
speed,goingfasterandfaster.Ihookedmyarmsunderherkneesgivingmeabetterangleandhopefully
makingmehithergspot.
Fuck,youfeelsogood,Bella...sotight,andwarm.
Shewasn'tabletorespond,butItookhermoansasagoodsign.
Ihookedherleftlegonmyshoulderandbentdowntokissher.Istartedpoundingintoherevenfasterthan
beforeandIwasgettingclosertomyrelease,butthistime,IwantedtotakeBelladownwithme.
Ibroughtmyhanddowntowherewewerejoinedandstartedtorubherclit.
Edwardmoansomethingishappening.
IknewwhatitwasbecauseIcouldfeelherwallsstarttocontractaroundmycock.
It'scalledanorgasm,baby,Igruntedandtookherhandtomoveitdowntowheremyhandhadbeenafew
secondsago.Doyoufeelthat?
Shit,shesaidwhenshefeltwhatIwantedtoshowher.
That'sright...Touchyourself.
Shedidasshewastoldandstartedtorubherclitfuriously.Wewerebothclosetotheedge,butIwantedherto
haveherorgasmbeforeme.ThatwayIwouldn'tfeellikeshitfornotbeingabletogetmywifeoffbymycock.
Cumforme,Bella,IbeggedwhenIcouldhardlystanditanylonger.
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ApparentlythatwasallittooktosendherovertheedgeasIfeltherwallsclampdownaroundme.Ithrustinto
herafewmoretimesbeforeIfoundmyownreleaseandemptiedmyselfinsideofheronceagain.
WhenIhadnothingmoretogive,Icollapsedontopofher,completelyexhausted.Welaythere,breathing
heavily,bothcomingdownfromourorgasms.
Well,nowIdefinitelyneedtocleanup,Bellasaidafterawhile.Iactuallyhavetwoloadsofyourmanjuice
inmenow.
Hey,don'tforgetyourgirljuice,Imumbledintoherhair.
WewerestillconnectedsoIgentlypulledoutofher.ShewhimperedwhenIdidthat,butIcouldn'ttellifitwas
becauseofpainornot.
Areyouokay?Iaskedjusttobeonthesafeside.
Yeah,Iwanttodoitagain!shesaidexcitedly.
Ilaughedathereagernessandlaybackdownflatonmyback.Weshould'veprobablygottenoutofbed,andI
should'vegonetowork,butIcouldn'tfinditinmetocare.Workwouldsurviveonedaywithoutme,andI
didn'twanttoleaveBella'sside.
However,wewereinterruptedbyBella'sphoneandaverygirly90'ssong.
Ugh,Alice,Bellagroanedandburiedherfaceinmychest.
Youshouldprobablyanswerthat,Imumbledtiredly.
Noway!Notafterwhatwejustdid..,Nuuh.SheshookherheadsoIfiguredshewoulddefinitelynotpick
up.
Ihatethissong,Imutteredandreachedforherphone.Itwasruiningmygoodmood.
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Bella?Aliceasked.
Nope,Edward,IansweredandBellalookedupatme.
Well,putBellaonthephone.Ineedtotalktoher,Alicedemanded.
I'msorry,butMrs.Cullencan'tcometothephonerightnow,mayItakeamessage?Iaskedverysarcastically
whichmadeBellagiggle.
Edward,cutthecrap!Icanhearher,youknow.
Sorry,butthatwasn'ther.Itwasmystomach.
Iwasn'tcompletelylying.Itdidcomefrommystomach,justthatitwasn'tactuallymystomachthatmadethe
sound.ItwasBella.Shehadmoveddownthereandhadstartedtolayopenmouthedkissesalloverit.
Veryfunny,Edward,justgiveherthephonealready!Alicestartedtogetimpatient.
Sorry,can'tdothat.Wastheresomethingyouwantedmetotellher,orareyougoingtocallherbackinafew
hours?
Fine,justtellherthatIwanttotalktoher.
Shehungupthephonewithoutwaitingforananswer.Ishruggedmyshouldersandtossedthephoneaway.I
grabbedBellabyherarmsandbroughtheruptomesoIcouldkissher.
Let'stakethatshowernow,huh?Isaidwhenwepulledback.
EndNotes:
A/N:Letmeknowwhatyouthink!
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Thanksgivingiscomingupinthenextchapter.
Asforthenextupdate.ItwillbeeitheronTuesday,orWednesday.I'mleavingforthe
U.Kat4inthemorningonWednesday,soitalldependsonifIcanfitmyminiPCin
mybackpackornot.
**IMPORTANT**
It'slikemyreaders/reviewershereonTWCSLhasgone*poof*.Wherehaveyougone?
Youweremymostsupportivefansbefore,butnow,FF.nethasbeencatchingupandis
60reviewsaheadofyou.
I'mNOTjudgingandIloveeverysinglereaderandreviewer,Ijustwanttoknowwhat
happened?Doesmystoryreallysuck,orhaveyouALLgoneonvacation?
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Quotefromthelastchapterwasfrom'TopGun':
"Takemetobed,orlosemeforever!"
Ithinkalmost90%ofyouknewthat!:)
THANKYOUforlettingmeknowthatyouhaven'tleftme!I'msorryIdidn'thavetime
toanswerallofyou!ButIhopeeveryonewhogotthequotegotapreview!
Anyway,overtomoreimportantthings.Thischapterisbyfarthelongestsofar.Ithas
beenintensewritingitintwodays,butmaybeIwantedtosuckuptoyousincethenext
updatewon'tbeuntiltheendofnextweek.
Thereisaquoteinthischapter,andIwouldlovetohearitifyoufindit,although,you
won'tgetapreviewsinceIdon'thaveoneandIdon'thavetimetowriteonesinceI
needtopack.Sosorry!
Goodiesonhttp://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforideas
Thanksgiving
BPOV
Thefollowingfourweekspassedintheblinkofaneye.Icouldn'tbelievehowtimecouldmovesofast,butit
did.IonceagainfoundmyselfinEdward'sVolvoonourwaybackuptoForks.Thistimewewouldbe
celebratingThanksgiving.
MyMomhadcalledmeafewweeksago,butshenevermentionedcominguphere,andneitherdidI.She
probablywantedittobeasurprise,orshehadchangedtheplansanddidn'twanttohurtmebytellingmethat
sheandPhilwouldn'tbecoming.
IlovedmyMomandIdidwanttoseebothherandPhil,Ijustwisheditwasunderdifferentcircumstances.
HowamIsupposedtoactaroundAro?Imean,he'smybossforcryingoutloud!Iwasstillfrustratedabout
spendingThanksgivingwithmyboss.
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Bella,relax.Justactlikeyourself,Edwardsaidtiredly.
Wehadbeenoverthisamilliontimesalready,sohewasgrowingtiredofit.Hewouldprobablybejustas
nervousasIwasifthesituationhadbeenreversed.Iwassureofit.
WhatdoyouthinkmyDadwillsaywhenwestayatyourparents'houseagain?
Wehadbeenoverthisonetoo,butIcouldn'thelpbuttoworryaboutthat.ItwasonethingformyDadtosay
thatitwasokayoverthephone.Itwasanotherthingwhenwewouldseeeachotherinreallife.
Baby,stop,Edwardwhined.Youknowyourdadwon'tmind.Hesaidsohimself,sostopworryingforjust
asecond!
Frustrated,hedraggedhishandthroughhishairandreturnedhisfocusontotheroad.IknewIwasbeing
ridiculousaboutthewholething.
I'msorry,Bella.It'sjust...youlookbeautiful,yourDadwillbehappytoseeyouandsowillyourMom,Arois
lookingforwardtospendThanksgivingwithyouandforyoutomeethisdaughter,andmyparentsarestoked
toseeyouagain,Edwardsaidwhilepullingupontothesmallroad,leadingtotheCullen'sdriveway.
Inoddedmyheadandgrabbedhishandtobringittomylap.Iabsentmindedlystartedplayingwithhislong,
beautifulfingers.Heparkedthecarandgavemythighasqueezebeforesteppingoutofthecar.
Ifollowedhimtothebackofthecartounloadourbagsfromthetrunk.Whenhewasdone,hecloseditandput
hishandsoneithersideofme,trappingmebetweenhimandtheVolvo.
Listen.Iloveyou,andnomatterwhathappensthisweekend,Iwillstillloveyou.Okay?
Inoddedandmovedmyhandstohiships.Iloveyou,too.
Hebentdowntokissme.Wewereprobablybeingwatchedsoneitherofusmadeanyattempttodeepenit.
Besides,Thanksgivingisn'tuntiltomorrow,Edwardsaidwhenwepulledawayfromthekiss.
Itookhishandandhetookourbags,andthenwestartedwalkinguptothefrontdoor.WehadleftElsawith
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AlicethisweekendsincebothherandJasper'sparentsweregoingtospendThanksgivinginSeattle.Alicehad
beenmorethaneagertobabysitforusanditwouldbenicetohaveafewdayswithouthavingtothinkabout
dogfoodorwalks.Istillmissedher,though.
Esmeopenedthedoorforus.
Oh,EdwardandBella.Finally,Ithoughyouwouldneverarrive!sheexclaimedandpulledusbothinfora
hug.
Justforyourinformation,Mom.Itdoesn'ttakefourminutestodriveuphere,ittakesalmostfourhours,
Edwardtoldher.
Ihithimplayfullyonhisarm.Shehasjustmissedherlittleboy.
Icouldn'thaveputitbetter,Bella.Now,giveyourMomakiss.
EdwarddutifullybentdownandgaveEsmeakissonhercheek.She,inreturn,gavehimone,leavingared
lipstickmarkonhischeek.Ijusthadtosmileathowadorabletheywere.
Yourroomisfinishedforyousogoaheadandputyourthingsaway.RosalieandEmmettshouldbeheresoon
andthenit'sdinner.
Where'sDad?Edwardasked.
Hewenttothestoretogetsomebeer.Sayingwineisagirlydrink,andbeerisforrealmen,Esmeimitated
Carlisle.
IgiggledatherandEdwardjustshookhisheadbeforehegrabbedmyhand,anddraggedmeupstairs.
Hisroomlookedjustlikeithadthelasttimewewerehere.Thebigbed,thewallscoveredwithCD'sand
DVD'sandabigTVfacingthebed.
Ifloppeddownonthebig,fluffybed,stillexhaustedfromthelongdriveuptoForks.Edwarddidthesameand
landedbesideme.Hetookmyhandandkissedeachandeveryfingerofmine,endingitwithmywedding
band.Hehadbeenfidgetingwiththatonealotlately.
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Iheardthedoorbellringandgotupfromthebed.IknewitwouldbeRoseandEmmett,nooneelsewasgoing
tospendthenightattheCullen's.
Didwemissthedinner?IheadEmmettsaywhenEsmehadopenedthedoorforthem.Ialsoheardthesmack
hegotinthebackofhisheadbyRose.
No,youdidn't.Esmelaughed.Infact,it'sreadyinfifteenminutes.
Nicetiming,Edwardsaidwhenwehadreachedthem.
Hi,Rose,IsaidasIgaveherahug.ThenIbentdowntokissherbelly.Hithere,mylittlegirl.
Theyhadfoundoutthattheywerehavingababygirlthreeweeksago.Wewereallexcitedaboutit,buttheone
whohadbeenthemostexcitedwasactuallyEmmett.
Youdoknowthatit'smineandRosie'sgirl,right?Notyours,Emmetttriedtoclarifyashepulledmeintoa
bearhug.
No,it'snot.MeandEdwardareadoptingher,Ijokedwhenhehadputmedown.
Edward,youbettergiveyourwifeababybeforeshekidnapsmine,hesaidlikeheactuallythoughtIwould
kidnapher.
Myfaceturnedred,butIdon'tknowwhy.EdwardandIhadn'tdiscussedbabiessinceourdateafewweeks
ago.
AndIwantsomegrandchildrensoon,Esmesaid,pattingEdward'scheekandwalkedofftothekitchen.
Thanks,man.NowI'mnevergoingtoheartheendofthat,EdwardmumbledtoEmmett.
You'rewelcome.Emmettsmirked.
EsmehadmadelasagnaforusandittastedtentimesbetterthantheoneIusedtomake.Edwarddidn'tthinkso,
though,sincehewhisperedthathewantedmylasagnawhenwegothomebecausehepreferredthatoneover
hisMom's.
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WemostlytalkedaboutRoseandEmmett'sbaby,butwealsotalkedabouttheexcitinggossipthatwasgoing
oninForks.Whichwasn'tatallexciting.Thebiggestnewssincewewereherethelasttimehadbeenthat
Jessicahadgottenherbaby.
Wegotfruitsaladwithicecreamfordessert.EdwarddiscreetlyatethepiecesoffruitIdidn'tlike,withoutme
havingtoaskhimtodothat.Hopefully,Esmedidn'tnoticebecauseIdidn'twanttohurtherfeelings.
IcaughtRosesmilingatourbehaviorafewtimes,butallIdidwastosmilebackather.IfonlyThanksgiving
couldgothiseasilywithallthesmilesandhappinessIcouldn'tbemorehappythanIwasatthatmoment.
Wheneveryonehadfinishedtheirfood,itwasprettylate.EsmeandCarlisledeclinedeveryofferofhelping
themcleanup,sayingthattheydidn'tmindandthattheyweregoingtogoforawalkafterward.
Emmett,Rose,EdwardandIallwentdowntothebasementwherethebiggerTVwaslocated.Therewasa
wholewallcoveredwithDVD'sandithadtobeextremelydifficulttodecideonwhatmovietowatchifyou
hadnoideawhatyouwantedtosee.
Ifloppeddownononeofthecouches,lettingtheguysandRosedecideonamovie.Afterawhile,theystarted
toargue.
Bella!Comeon,pleasetellthemthatyoudon'twanttoseethis,Rosesaidandheldup'Braveheart.'
Sorry.Ishruggedmyshoulders.Iactuallylikethatone,soIdon'tmind.
IknewIshouldhavesidedwithRose,butIhadtoldherthetruth.'Braveheart'wasoneofmyfavorites.
Fine,Rosehuffedandsatdownontheothercouchwithherarmscrossedoverherchest.
Comeon,babe.It'sjustamovie,Emmettsaidandsatdownbesideher.
EdwardputtheDVDinandwenttositdownbesideme.Iimmediatelycurledupagainsthim,andheputhis
armaroundme.
Ihadtoadmit,thatIhadseenthismoviesomanytimesthatmyeyelidswantedtoclosethemselves.Even
thoughthismoviewasverygood,theyseemedtohavealifeoftheirown.
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MelGibsonissohotinthatkilt,Igroaned,justsoIwouldn'tfallasleep.
Whatdidyoujustsay,baby?EdwardaskedlikeIhadgonecrazy.
Youheardme.
Youactuallythinkhe'shot?Helookeddownatme.
Yes,Isaidsimply.
Hotterthanme?heaskedjealously.
Don'tberidiculous,Imuttered.
Hescowledonthescreenforawhile,likeitwashisnewenemyorsomething.Icouldn'tbelievehowhecould
bejealousofamoviestar.Imean,hewastentimeshotter,ifnotmore,thanMelGibson.
Idon'twanttowatchthisanymore,hemutteredandturneditoff.
Hey!Iwaswatchingthat,youidiot!Emmettyelled.
Maybeyoushouldwipethedrooloffyourwife'sfaceinstead,Edwardsaidbackandgotupfromthecouch.
Sorry,Ishouldhavekeptmymouthshut,ItoldthemandhurriedafterEdward.
Iranafterhim,buthehadalreadymadeitallthewayuptohisroom.Hewassittingontheedgeofthebed
whenIcaughtupwithhim.Iclosedthedoorbehindmeandwhenitwasfullyclosed,hegotupfromthebed
andmarchedrightuptome.
Hetrappedmebetweenthedoorandhisbody.
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TellmeI'mhotterthanthatactorinkilt?Edwardbeggedanddraggedhisnoseupmyneck.
Ican'tbelieveyou'rejealousofMelGibson.Igiggledathisbehavior.Itwasridiculous.
Tellme!HeliftedmeupbymyassandIautomaticallywrappedmylegsaroundhiswaist.
Hehadmecrushedagainstthedoor.Icouldfeelhishardonpressagainstme.Wehadneverhadroughsex
before,andasmuchasthatideaexhilaratedme,Iwasnotabouttodothatwithhisparentsinthehouse.
Okay,okay!Isurrender.You'remuchhotterandsexierthanMelGibson!
That'sright,anddon'tyouforgetit!
Hekissedmehardonthemouthandtriedtopushhistongueintomymouth.IknewthatifIgavehimaccess,
wewouldhaveroughsexwithhisparentsinthehouse.
Butthatdoesn'tmeanI'mgoingtoletyoufuckmeagainstthisdoor,Itoldhimwhenhefrustratedpulled
awayfromthekiss.Now,putmedown.
Reluctantly,hedidwhatItoldhimandpouteddownatme.Ijustshookmyheadandwalkedintothebathroom
togetreadyforthenight.Itwasstillnotverylate,butIdidn'tthinkEdwardwouldwanttogetbackdownstairs
andfinishwatchingthemovie.
IbrushedmyteethandwashedmyfacebeforeputtingonEdward'stshirt.Ihadbegunusinghisblackone
whereitsaid'Cullen'onthebackagain.IthinkEdwardlikedthattshirtmorethantheothers.
Doyouwanttoknowanotheroneofmysexfantasies?EdwardaskedwhenIsteppedoutofthebathroom.
Itwasn'thardtoguessconsideringwherewewere,butIstillhadtoask.
What?IpulledmyhairupinaponytailbeforeslippingunderthecoverstojoinEdward.Hewasimmediately
ontopofme.
Itinvolvesyou...andme,hemumbledandplacedakissonmyneck.
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Oh,Isurehopeso.
Makinglove,inthisbed,hefinishedlikehehadn'theardme.
ThatwaswhatIhadbeenguessing,buttherewasnowayIwasgoingtohavesexwithhimwhenhisparents
wereunderthesameroof.
Keepdreaming,loverboy.
Baby,comeon,hewhined.I'vehadthatfantasysincehighschoolandnowyou'retellingmethatyouwon't
helpmefulfillit?
Yes.Becauseyourparentsareinthesamehouse,plus,RoseandEmmettaresleepingjustdownthehall,I
explained,buthedidn'tseemtolisten.
Instead,hejustkeptkissinghiswaylowerandinchedmyshirtupsohecouldreachmystomach.
WhatifItoldyouthatafterwe'redonemakinglove,whenyouhaverecoveredheshowedmeasmirklikeI
wastheonewhoneededtorecoverIwillfuckyouuntilyoucannolongerwalk.
ThenIwouldtellyouthatIliketowalk,thankyouverymuch.Ismirkedupathim,knowingthathestarted
tolosehispatientwithme.
You'reimpossible,hemutteredandbentdowntokissme.
Heputmostofhisweightontopofmeanditfeltwonderful.HishandsroamedallovermybodyandIwasjust
abouttoagreewithhavingsexafterall,whentherewasaknockonthedoor.
Edward?Bella?Carlisleaskedfrombehindit.
Yeah,Dad?Edwardaskedannoyed.
Areyoudecent?
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Unfortunately,Edwardmutteredandrolledoffme.
Carlislecarefullyopenedthedoorandpeekedinside.Yourmotherwantedmetotellyouthattherearesome
sparetowelsinthelinenclosetrightoutsideyourroom,andifyouneednewsheets...ifsomethingwould
happen...youcanfindsomethereaswell.
God,thatwasaawkwardwayoftellingusthat.
EdwardnoddedhisheadandCarlisleclosedthedoor.
Itoldyouso,Isaidandlaughed.Aren'tyougladIstoppedusfromhavingsex?
Shutup,smartass,hegrowledplayfullyandstartedtoticklemysides.
Edwaaard,stop!Itriedtoyellbetweenmylaughter.
Hecontinuedwiththeticklingforawhileuntilheabruptlystopped.
Okay,butonlybecauseyou'resodamnsexy,hesaidandkissedmeonthemouthbeforerollingoffme.
Thankyou,Isaidbreathlessly.
Hegotupfromthebedandwentintothebathroom.Whenhegotback,hehadremovedallhisclothesexcept
hisboxers.Likealways,itmadeitreallyhardformetosay'no'tohimwhenhelookedlikethat.
Edwardslippedunderthecoversandmovedhisheaddowntomychest,andwrappedoneofhisarmsaround
me.IguessedhewasgoingtosleepinthatpositiontonightsoIsettledmyownhandswhereIwantedthem
oneinhishairandoneonhisbicep.
Iloveyou,Itoldhim.
Iloveyou,too.
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WhenIwokeupthenextmorning,Edwardhadhisheadonmystomachandwassprawledoutalloverthebed.
Plus,hewasputtinganenormousamountofpressureonmybladderwhichwasfullasitwas.So,Icarefully
liftedhisheadawayandslippedoutfromthebed.
IwantedtohelpEsmewiththedinnerasmuchaspossibletoday,soItookaquickshowerandputonmyold
jeansandatshirt.Edwardwasstilllying,asleep,onthebedwhenIwasdone,soItiptoedmywayoutofthe
roomandwentdownstairs.
IfoundEsme,justIhadimagined,inthekitchen,makingbreakfastforeveryone.
Goodmorning,Esme,IsaidwhenIwalkedin.
Oh!Goodmorning,Bella.Ididn'trealizesomeonewasupalready.
Icouldn'tsleepanylonger,Iexplainedandwalkedovertoher.CanIhelpyouwithanything?
Ifyoureallywanttohelp,youcanfinishthepancakeswhileIfinishuptherest.Shesmiledandhandedme
thespatula.
IwasonmyfifthpancakewhenEsmespokeagain.
I'msorryforinvitingyourparentswithoutaskingyou,shesaidcarefully.
It'sokay,Esme.Justdon'tdoitagain,Itoldher.
Iwon't.
Wewentbacktomakingbreakfastandmadesomesmalltalk.Shewasexcitedtothrowthedinnerandtomeet
everyone.
IwasalmostdonewhenIfeltapairofarmsnakearoundmywaist.Iangledmyfaceandsawaverytired
lookingEdward.
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Goodmorning,beautiful,hesaidandbentdowntokissme.ImissedyouwhenIwokeup.
Icouldn'tsleepanylongerandyoulookedsotired,Iexplained.
I'msureyoucanmakeituptomesometime.Hewaggledhiseyebrows.So,you'redoingbreakfast,huh?
No,yourmomis.I'mjustflippingpancakes.IturnedbacktowhatIhadbeendoingbeforeEdward
interruptedme.
Edwardwenttogetsomecoffeeandsatdownbythecountertowatch.
Edward,honey,areyougoingtoshavetoday?Esmeaskedworriedly.
Iturnedaroundtoseewhathewasgoingtoanswertothat.Now,hehadonewomanwhowantedhimtoshave
andonewhoonlywantedhimtotrimhisstubble.Itcouldn'thavebeeneasyforhim.
Umm,no,Mom.Notshave.Trim.
ButEdward,it'sThanksgiving!sheexclaimedhorrified.
So?
HestoodupandwalkedovertoEsmeandgaveherakiss,winkedatmeandthenwalkedoutofthekitchen.
Itriedtocontainmylaughterandturnedbacktothepancakes.Hehadactuallytakenmysideoverhismom's.It
waskindofamazingsinceheseemedtobea'Momma'sBoy.'
Breakfastwentbyquicklysinceeveryonewhereinahurrytogeteverythingreadybeforetheguestsarrived.
WhileEdwardtookhisshower,Ilaidoutapairofblackslacksandawhiteshirtforhimtowear.Sincehe
wouldn'tbeshaving,atleastIcouldmakeEsmesatisfiedbydressinghimproperly.Ihadnoideawhattowear
formyself,though.
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Istoodinmyjeansandbra,holdingupaverylightpinktunicthatwentmidthighandablousethatdidn'treally
standout.
Gowiththelong...um,shirt,Edwardsaidwhenhehadsteppedoutofthebathroom.
Okay.Ididn'thavemoretimetospendinfrontofthemirror.Besides,Ihadbeenleaningtowardthatone
anyway.
Igrabbedawhitetanktopandshruggeditonsincethetunicwasalmostseethrough.
Baby,whycan'tIjustwearjeans?Edwardwhinedwhenhesawhisclothes.
Becauseyou'resomuchsexierinslacks,Isaidandturnedaround,smirking.
Oh.
HehadnoproblemswearingthemafterIhadtoldhimthatandputthemonalongwiththewhiteshirt.
EsmeletRoseandIhelpabitwiththedinner.IhadnoideawhatyouweresupposedtoeatatThanksgiving,
exceptturkey,sinceIhadneverreallyhadarealThanksgivingbefore.MyMomhadnevercaredaboutit,and
neitherhadmyDad.So,Iwasextraexcitedthisyear.
Thefirstguestarrivedpreciselyattwoo'clock.IheardmyDad'svoiceinthedoorandrushedovertohim.
Hi,Dad!Igavehimabighug.Ihadreallymissedhim.
Whoa!Hey,Bells.Hesoundedsurprisedbymybehavior,andIdidn'tblamehimsincewerarelydidthings
likethat.
IpulledbackandnoticedSuestandingbehindhim.
Hi,Bella,shesaidandsteppedforwardtokissmeonmycheek.Ididthesametoher,alittlesurprisedbyit,
butIwantedtoshowherthatIwasokaywithherrelationshipwithmydad.
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Sinceyoudidn'tgetaproperintroductionthelasttime.Sue,thisismyhusbandEdward.Edward,thisisSue,
Emily'smomandmydad'sgirlfriend.Igesturedbetweenthemboth.
Nicetofinallymeetyou,EdwardsaidandshookSue'shand.
Youtoo,Edward.
EsmeandCarlislecameouttogreetthenewguestsandledthemintothelivingroomwhereweallsatdownto
waitforthenextones.
MyDadtoldussomethingsabouthisjob,andheaskedmeafewthingsaboutmine.Itwasaverysimple
conversation,justlikeitalwayswaswithmyDad.Healwaystriedtostayclearfromanythingemotional.
Sometimes,thatwasagoodthing,andsometimesitwasnot.
Afterawhile,thebellsoundedagainandIgotnervous.ItcouldbeanyonefrommyMomtomyboss.
Rememberwhatwetalkedabout,Edwardwhisperedinmyearaswestoodup.
Inoddedmyheadandgrabbedhishandasacomfort.Hesqueezedmine,lettingmeknowthateverythingwas
okay.
ItwasAroandhisdaughterJanealongwith...Sam!
Sam?Iaskedsurprised.
Hi,Bells!Hecameoverandgavemeabighug.IwantyoutomeetmygirlfriendJane.
HegesturedtothegirlIhadoftenseenatmyofficesinceshewasmyboss'daughter.Shewasasmallgirl,with
lightbrownhairandblueeyes.Shewasverycute.
Youguysknoweachother?Janeaskedsurprised.
Yeah,BellsherewasEmily'sbestfriend,Samexplained.
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SohemusthavetoldheraboutEmily.IwonderedhowitfeltforJanetoknowaboutyourboyfriendsdead
girlfriend.Icouldn'tevenimagineit.
Well,it'snicetoofficiallymeetyou.I'veonlyseenyouintheofficebefore,Janesaidandsmiledatme.
Youtoo.Ismiledback.
Weallwentbacktothelivingroomtowaitforthelastguest,whichweremymotherandPhil.Oneofmy
kneeswerebumpingupanddownandEdwardgentlylaidoneofhishandsontopofit,tostopitfrommoving.
Igrabbedthehandandheldittightinbothmine.
Whenthebellrangonefinaltime,IwassonervousIcouldhardlybreath.Ihadn'tseenmyMomsince
Grandma'sfuneralaboutfouryearsago,andthatwasalongtime.IguessmyMomandIgrewapartwhenI
movedtolivewithmyDad,butwestilltalkedsometimes.Iwasstillsurprisedthatshehadagreedtocoming
here,though.
There'smybabygirl!sheexclaimedandrushedovertome.
Shehuggedmetightlyandthenpulledmebackanarmslengthtolookatme.Shewaslikeanolderversionof
myselfwithherbigbrowneyes.Although,herhairwasmoreredthanmineandalotshorter.
Hi,Mom,Iwhispered.
Wow,you'vechanged,shesaidamazedandkissedmycheekbeforepullingmeinforanotherhug.
Iawkwardlyhuggedherback,butitfeltodd.ItwaslikeIdidn'tevenknowthiswomanandthatonlymademe
sad.Shewasmymotherforcryingoutloud!
Hi,Bella,Philsaid,wavingatme.Hewasstilllookinggoodandstillhadhisbrownhaironhishead.Hewas
atallman,justlikeEdwardandverymuscularsinceheworkedoutalmosteveryday.
Hi.Itriedtowaveback,butmyMom'shugrestrictedmymovements.
Okay,dinner'sreadyeveryone!Esmecalledout,savingmefrommyMom.
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Weallsatdownatthebigdinnertable.IhadmyMomtomyrightandEdwardtomyleft.Itwasasmall
comforttohavehimbesideme,notthathewouldsitanywhereelse,butstill.
Carlislebegancuttingtheturkeybeforepassingitouttoeveryoneatthetable.Thenwestartedgrabbingthe
otherfoodthatstoodonthetable.Idon'tthinkIhadeverinmylifeseensomuchfoodonatablebefore.
Honey,youshouldeatyourdinner,notpushitaroundyourplate,myMomsaidlikeIwasalittlegirl.
Luckilyforme,itwasn'tloudenoughforthewholetabletohear.
Iameating,Mom.Itjust...takesalittlemoretimeformethanitdoesforyou,Itriedtoexplain.
Well,maybeyoushouldeatsomemore,then.Buildupthatbodyofyours,getmorewomanlycurveslike
breasts.
Icouldn'tbelievehowshecouldbringthatupatthedinnertable.Iknewshewasonlylookingafterme,butthat
waskindofapersonalsubject.Imean,howmanypeoplediscussestheirdaughtersbreastsataThanksgiving
dinner?
Withallduerespect,mam.Yourdaughterhasthemostperfectsetoftitsintheworld.There'snoneedforher
tofeedthemwithfood,Edwardsteppedin.
Couldthisbemoreembarrassing?MyMomandmyhusband,discussingmyboobs...atThanksgiving...in
frontofmyboss,evenifhedidn'thear.
They'renotsmallbyanymeans,butthey'renotplasticeither.LikeIsaid,they'reperfect,Edwardfinished.
MyMomlookedprettystunnedbyhisstatement,andsodidRoseandEmmettwhohadobviouslyheard
everything.
Iclosedmyeyes,willingforthegroundtoeatme.
Dessert,anyone?Esmeasked.
Thankyou,Esme!
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ShehadmadesomekindofpiethattastedreallygoodeventhoughIusuallydidn'tpreferpie.Itfeltlikethe
dinnerwentonforever.Itwasawkwardtosaytheleast.MyMomandDadneverspoke,andEsmeandCarlisle
triedtoengagethembothinconversationwithoutanyluck.
Edwardkeptholdingmyhandinhislapwhilewesatatthetable.Iwasreassuredbythat,anditmademefeel
slightlybetter.
So,whycouldn'tGrandmacome?Ithoughtyousaidshewould.EdwardaskedCarlisle.
Shedecidedtogoonsomekindoftripwithaclub.Ican'trememberthename,buttheyweregoingto
ChicagoforThanksgiving.Itwasalastminutedecision,heexplained.
Oh.
Andsotheawkwardnesscontinued.IhopedtoGodeveryonehadlearnedtheirmistakefromthis,andthatnext
yearsThanksgivingwouldn'tcometothis.
Arowasreallynice,though.Itwasjustlikewhenwewereatwork,exceptwithoutthework.Hewasareally
kindmanwholistenedwhenyoutalkedwithoutlookingboredtodeath.
Afterafewhoursoftorture,Edwardfinallyexcusedusandtookmeoutside,butnotbeforemakingeyecontact
withSam,Jane,EmmettandRosetofollowus.Itwaslikehewassavingusallfromtheparents.
Thankyou,Itoldhimsimplywhenwewerehitbythefreshair.
Whatfor?Weren'tyouinthere?ThatwashorribleandIputyouthroughthat!
Yeah,youdid,butyoualsosavedmefromit.Istoodonmytoestokisshimandhemetmehalfway.
Wewereinterruptedbysomeoneclearingtheirthroat.ItwasEmmettandbesidehimstoodRose,Samand
Jane.
Sorry,Isaidshyly.
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Noworries,Samrepliedcasually.
Fuckingtorture,Emmettmutteredandsatdownonthestairs.
Atleastnowit'sover,Edwardsaidandlitacigarette.
MaybeweshouldmakeourownThanksgiving,Janesaiddeepinthoughts.
Yeah,youguysshouldcomedowntothebeachtomorrow,andmaybewecouldhaveabarbequeor
something?Samcontinued.
Wow,thatsound'sgreat,Isaidhappily.
I'min!Roseraisedherhand.
Well,ifshe'sin,thenI'min.Besides,Ineverturndownfood,Emmettsaid.
Countmein,Edwardsaidwhileblowingoutsomesmokethroughhismouth.
Itwasstartingtogetabitchilly,soIexcusedmyselfinordertogoupstairsandgetasweater.Theroomswere
emptywhenIgotbackinsideandIwonderedwhereeveryonehadgone.Itwasfinebyme,itmeantless
distraction,soIjustshruggedmyshouldersandwentupthestairstoEdward'sroom.
IquicklyputonahoodiethatIfoundonthefloorandstartedwalkingbacktoEdwardandtheothers.
AsIwalkeddownthestairs,IcouldhearmyMomandDadtalkinginhushedvoices.Thatmeanthattheywere
arguing,ordiscussingastheypreferredtocallit.
Againstmybetterjudgment,Isatdownononeofthestairstepstolisten.Iknewitwouldonlyhurtmeinthe
end,butIcouldn'thelpmyself.
Haveyouseenthewayshelooks,Charlie?myMomhissedatmyDad.
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What?Happy?Idon'tseeanythingwrongwiththat,Renee!
Anorexic,that'swhatshelookslike!You'resupposedtomakehereat.
It'sclearthatyouhaven'tseenyourdaughterforawhile,becausethat'sthebestshehaslookedforyears.
Yeah,andwhosefaultisthat,huh?
Thatwaswheretheusualblamingsetsin,ithasalwaysbeenthatconversationeverytimetheyhadseeneach
otherwhosetoblameformechoosingtolivewithmyDad,andwhosefaultitwaswhenIdidn'tcheckin
withmyparentsasoftenastheywouldlike.Alwaysthesame.
Icouldn'tstandtohearanymoresoImovedmyhandstocovermyears.Ifeltlikealittlechildalloveragain
sittinginthestairs,listeningtomyparentswhentheyfightovermewhentheythinkI'masleep.
IfeltsomeonewraptheirarmaroundmeandIleanedontheshoulder.IcouldsmellRose'sperfume,soI
figureditwasherandremovedmyhandsfrommyearstohugher.
Emmett,gogetEdward,shewhispered.Shh,it'sokay,Bella.
Ihadn'trealizedIhadbeencryinguntilshesaidthat.Itmademefeelpathetic.Imean,Ishouldhavegoneover
itbynow,buttherewassomethingaboutmyparentsarguingthathurtme.Theycouldatleasttrytobecivil
towardeachother.
...andthenshegoesofftoVegasandmarriesaguyshedoesn'tevenknow!Whatifhewasarapist,oraserial
killer?!myMomyelled.Theyhadstoppedwhisperingandwereatthatpoint,loudenoughforthewhole
housetohear.Allthatunderyourwatch!
Openyoureyes,Renee.She'shappywithEdwardandtheydidactuallyknoweachotherfromhighschool.
Andwhat'swithallthis'undermywatch?'She'sjustasmuchyourdaughterassheismine!
EPOV
IhadjustwalkedinsidethebackdoorwhenEmmettcameovertome,lookingrathernervous.
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Bellaneedsyou,man,hesaid.
What?Why?Iaskedconfused.
ThenIhearditCharlieandReneearguingandIdidn'tneedanyanswer.
Fuck,Icursed,feelingguiltysincethatwasexactlywhatBellatoldmewouldhappenifyouputthetwoof
theminthesameroom.Whereisshe?
She'ssittinginthestairs,hesaidandpointedtowardthespot.
IhurriedtoherwithEmmettfollowingbehindme.TheonlyoneswhowereleftwereBellaandme,Roseand
Em,andBella'sparentssoitwasn'thardtofindher.
BellawassittingwhereEmmetthadsaid.ShewasrestingherheadonRose'sshoulderandhadherfaceburied
inRose'shair.
RoselookedupatmewhenIcameandgavemesadsmile.
Hey,I'mrighthere,Bella,Isaidandsteppedtowardher.Shh.
IsatdownbesideherandsheimmediatelypulledawayfromRosetobeinmyarmsinstead.Imorethan
welcomedher.Shewasn'tsobbing,butIcouldtellshehadtearsfallingdownhercheeks.
Edward,pleasemakethemstop,Bellawhispered.
I'lldoit.Justgoupstairsandtakecareofher.We'llseeyouguyslater,okay?Rosesaidandstoodup.
Thanks,IsaidandliftedBellaupbridalstyle.
Itookherupstairstomyoldroom,butnotbeforeIheardwhatRosesaidtoBella'sparents.
Ithinkyoushouldtakethissomewhereelsebecausethewholehousecanhearyou.Idon'tthinkittakesa
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geniustotellwhoelseheardeverywordyoujustsaid!RosehissedatCharlieandRenee.
IshookmyheadandputBelladownonmybed.Shecurledupintoaballandhidherfaceinmypillow.Itwas
momentslikethesethatIcouldn'tbemoregratefulfornothavingdivorcedparents.Ishouldhavejusttoldmy
Momthatitwasn'tokaytoinviteBella'sparents,especiallyafterourfight,butIhadn'ttrulyunderstoodwhatit
wouldbelikeforBella.
MoveoverandI'lllaywithyouforawhile,IsaidtoherandshedidasItoldher.
Islidinbehindhersowewerespooning.Imovedmyarmunderneathherheadsoshecoulduseitasapillow,
andmyotherarmImovedaroundher.ItwasalmostlikeIwashugginghershoulders.
Edward?shemumbled.
Yes,baby?Inuzzledmyfaceinherhair.
Promisemethatwe'llneverbelikethem.
Ipromise.
ItwasapromiseIwouldtrymydamnhardesttokeep.TherewouldbenowaythatIwasgoingtoputourkids
throughthat.Noway.
Makelovetome,Bellasaidoutoftheblue.Itkindoftookmebysurprise.Please.
Ihadnoideawhattosay.Ididwanttomakelovetoher,Itrulydid.Butshouldwereallydoitwhenshewas
soemotionalandvulnerable?
Ikissedhermywayupherneckandtoherear.Why?
Ineedyou,Iwanttofeelyou...pleasejustmakelovetome,Edward.
Fuck.Itwassohardtoresistwhenshebeggedlikethat,butsomethingwasnotright.Icouldfeelitinmygut.
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Youalreadyhaveme,Bella.Wedon'tneedsexforthat,Itriedtoreasonwithher.
Shedidn'tsayanything,allshedidwasturnherfaceintomyarm.Icouldfeelherwetface,andIknewshewas
eithercrying,oritwasjusttheremainsfromtheoldones.Nomatterwhattheywere,italwaysbrokemewhen
shewascrying.
Isighed.Shehadgottentome,soItriedtogetupfrombed.Ididn'twantanyonetowalkinonus,soIhadto
lockthedoor.
I'msorry.Youdon'thavetogo,Bellachokedout.
You'resorryaboutaskingyourhusbandtomakelovetoyou?Iaskedandlookeddownather.
Yeah.Sinceheobviouslydon'twantto.Please,justdon'tgo.
SheturnedaroundandIcouldseethatshewasn'tcryinganymore,butshedidhaveahurtexpressiononher
face.Ibentdowntokisstheremainsofhertearsawayandfinishedwithasoftkissonhermouth.
NeverdoubtthatIwanttomakelovetoyou.IwasjustgoingtolockthedoorsinceIdon'twantanyoneto
walkinonus,Iexplained.
Realizationdawnedonherface.Oh.Yeah,thatwouldbekindofembarrassing.
IgaveheronelastkissbeforeIgotupandlockedthebedroomdoor.Youcouldneverknowwhomightcome
throughifIdidn't.IslowlyturnedaroundandwalkedbacktoBella.ShewaslyingjustlikeIhadlefther.
IhaddreamedofthismomentsinceIstartedfallinginlovewithherbackinhighschool.SomanynightsIhad
spentdreamingaboutthis,somanytimesIhadfoundreleasewhileIhadthisimageinmyheadandnowit
wasreal.
Itossedmyshirtontheflooralongwithmyslacks.WhenIgotovertothebed,Bellawelcomedmebyopening
herlegsforme.
Ilayontopofherandstartedtokissher.ShereachedupherarmsandIremovedherblousealongwithher
tanktop.Istartedtokissmywaydowntohertitsandremovedherbrainaquickmove.WhenIstartedgetting
lower,shestoppedme.
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Noforeplay.Ijustwantyou,shebegged.
Okay,Iwhispered.
Thiswasabouther.EventhoughIwouldgetoffonittoo,itwasstillallabouther.Iwantedtocomfortherin
thewaysheaskedmeto,andifthiswasit,thenIwoulddoit.
Igentlytookherjeansoffalongwithherpanties.ThenIgotupandremovedmyboxers.Wewereboth
completelynakedbythatpoint.Shewaslyingthere,onmyoldbed,inhernakedglory,justwaitingformeto
makelovetoher.ItwasanimageIwasgoingtohaveinmymindforaslongasIlive.
Islowlycrawledmywaybacktoherandlaybackontop.Herbodyfeltsogoodagainstmine,allwarmand
soft.JustlikemyBella.
Ilookeddownintohereyes,askingforpermission.ShenoddedherheadsoIpositionedmycockather
entranceandslowlypushedforward.Webothmoanedatthesensation.Wehadn'thadsexforalmostaweek,
shehadbeenrefusingmeeverytimeItriedanything.Ofcourseithadbeenherperiod,butshehadn'ttoldme
untiljustafewdaysago.
ShewasstillincrediblytightsoIeasedoutabitbeforeIpushedforwardagain.Ididthatafewmoretimesuntil
Iwascompletelyseethedinhertightwarmth.IheldstillsoshecouldadjusttomysizebeforeIslowlystarted
movinginandout.
Bellawrappedherlagsaroundmywaistandstartedtomeetmythrustbymovingherhipsintimewithmine.
Shehuggedmyneck,forcingmyheaddownbesidehers.Ididn'tmindandnuzzledmyfaceinherhairthatwas
sprawledoutaroundherhead.ItalsobroughtBella'smouthrighttomyearandIcouldhearhermoansand
gruntsofpleasuremuchclearer.
Iloveyouthrustwithallmyheart,Bella,Imoanedoutinherear.
God,Iloveyou,too,sheresponded.
Icouldtellbythewayherinnerwallsstartedtoclampdownonme,thatshewasclosetoherrelease.So,I
flippedusover,leavingherontopofmeinstead.
Fuck,Icursedasthenewpositionmademegodeeperinsideher.
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Sheplacedherhandsoneithersideofmyheadandtentativelyswirledherhips.Webothletoutloudmoans
whenshedidthat.Then,shestartedtomoveupanddownwiththehelpofmyhandsonherass.
HertitswerebouncingrightovermyfacesoIleaneduptokissthem,theyweretootemptingformenottodo
that.
Bellastartedmovingfasterandfasterwhichmademecomingclosertomyrelease.Ihadnointentionson
gettingtherebeforeshedid,though,soIfoughthardtokeepitin.
Comeon,baby.Letgo,Ibeggedher.
ShejustmoanedinresponsesoIstartedrubbingherclitfuriouslybecauseIwasonlysecondsawaybythat
point.
HerwallsstartedtocontractandIknewshewasclose.Icontinuedtokisshertitsandrubherclituntilshe
finallyletgoandcame.
Holyshit!Ugh,Edward!shescreamedoutbeforeshecollapsedontoofme.
IcontinuedtohelphermoveupanddownmyshaftbeforeItoocame,deepinsideofher.
Bella!Fuck!
IgavehereverythingIhadbeforeIbroughtmyhandsuptoherbackandabsentmindedlymovedthemupand
down.Iwasexhaustedfromwhatwejusthaddone,andI'msureBellawastoo.
Thankyou,Ireallyneededthat,shesaidandnuzzledherfaceinmyneck.Iloveyousomuch,Edward.
Iloveyou,too,Iwhispered.
IfiguredIshouldpulloutofher,butwhenItriedtomove,Bellagotmeinanirongrip.
Pleasedon'tmovejustyet,shebegged.
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Baby,Ihaveto,orI'mgoingtogethardagain,Iexplained.
Justoneminute.Idon'twanttoletyougoyet.
Ididn'tanswerher,butIdidassheaskedanddidn'tmoveanythingexceptmyhandsonherback.Although,
afterthatminute,Icouldherhersoftsnoresinmyearshehadfallenasleep.
Isighedandgentlybeganpullingoutofher.SheletoutawhimperwhileIdidit,butshedidn'tseemtowake
up.
AfterIwascompletelyout,Igentlylaidherdownontothebedandwrappedherupinthecovers.Iwenttothe
bathroomandcleanedupbeforeIshruggedonanoldtshirtandapairofjeans.Iwasplanningongoingback
toBellaandthebed,Ijustneededtoleteveryoneknowthatshewasokay.
Hey,howisshe?Roseaskedworriedly.
She'sfine,Ithink.She'sasleeprightnow.Ijustwantedtoletyouknowthat.
Oh,okay.Um,herdadsaidthathe'llbedownthestationalldaytomorrowifshewantedtoseehim,andher
momleftherthis.Shehandedmeaenvelopewhichread'Bella'onit.
Thanks,andgoodnight,Isaidandwalkedbackupstairs.
BellawasstillasleepwhenIgotbacktothebedroom,soIremovedallmyclothes,includingmyboxers,and
laydownbehindhersoIwasspooningher.Shestirredabit,butshedidn'twakeup.
BPOV
IhadwokenupbeforeEdwardagain.IthadonlybeenjustafterseventhensoIdidn'tevenbotherwakinghim
upbeforeIgotup.Igrabbedmyshowerandputonsomeclothesbeforegoingdownstairs.Ihadlefthimanote
thatIwouldbevisitingmyfathertodayandthatIwouldbebackbeforewehadtogotoSam.
WhenIhadputthenotebyhisphone,IhadseenaletteraddressedtomewithmyMom'shandwritingonit.I
grabbeditandputitinmybag,butIhadnointentionsonreadingitforawhile.
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Tomybigsurprise,IfoundbothEsmeandRoseinthekitchen,whisperingtoeachother.
Morning,Imumbled.Whyareyouguysupsoearly?
Lilycan'tsleepsoshekeepsbotheringme,Roseansweredandrubbedherstomach.
I'msousedtogettingupthisearlythatmybodydoesn'twanttosleepanylongerthantoseven.Esme
shruggedhershouldersandsippedhercoffee.
So,howareyou?Roseasked.
Fine,Iansweredandgrabbedmyowncupofcoffee.I'mgoingtovisitmyfathertoday.
I'msurehewouldlikethat,Esmereassuredme.
Wouldyoumindcomingwithme?IblurtedouttoRose.IcouldshowyoushowyouForksafterward.
Ifyouwantmetocome,I'llbehappytodoso.Icouldneedsomedistractiontoday.
Okay.Ismiled,happytohavesomeonetogowithme.Areyoureadytogonow?
ShenoddedherheadandwewereonourwayoutfromthekitchenwhenEsmestoppedus.
Ihavesomeleftoversfromyesterday,ifyourfatherwouldlikesome,shesaid.
I'msurehewouldloveit!
Shesmiledandwalkedovertothefridgeandpulledoutapaperbag.Shehadprobablyalreadyplannedon
givingittosomeonewhowouldwantitfortheirlunch.
Thankyou,IsaidandgaveherahugbeforefollowingRoseoutthedoor.
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IhadgrabbedEdward'scarkeyssowetookhisVolvo.Ijusthopedhewouldn'tgettoomadatmeifhefound
out.Heprobablywouldn'tifIofferedhimsexasapaymentasaverypleasurablepaymentthatIwouldn't
mindgivingatall.
MyDadapologizedoverthousandtimesforhowhehadbehaved.Iforgavehimonthespot,becauseIknewhe
neverintendedtohurtmeorformetohearthematall.HeeventriedtoapologizeformyMom,butIwouldn't
acceptthat.
Wecouldn'tstaylongatthestationsincehehadalotofworktodo,whichIfoundstrangeforsuchasmall
towncop.
IshowedRoseForksHighschoolwhereIhadspentmydaysinschool,theonlycafeinForkswhereweate
ourlunch.Then,IevenshowedherLaPush,butIdidn'ttakehertothecliffs.Iwasn'treadyforthat.Besides,
sheprobablydidn'twanttowalkallthewayupthere.
Wehaveonemorestopbeforewegoback,Itoldherandparkedthecaroutsidemyfather'shouse.Thisis
whereIlived.
It'scute,shestated.
Yeah,butthat'snotwhatIwantedtoshowyou.Comeon,Isaidandjumpedoutofthecar.
Iopenedthedoortomyfathersgarage.Itwashardsinceithadn'tbeenopenedinawhile.Assoonasthedoor
hadfinallyopened,Isawitmydear,oldbaby.
Shehadalotofrust,andthefinishhadbecomedull,butotherthanthat,itlookedlikeithadwhenIlastsaw
her.Sheneededalotofwork,thatwasforsure.
I'msorryItooksolong,Iwhisperedandslidmyfingersalongthehood.
Iturnedthekeyinthelockandopenedthecardoor.Ithadthatwonderfulcreakthatwaslikemusictomyears.
AlmostlikeEdward'smoans...almost.Ihadn'trealizedhowmuchIhadmissedthiscaruntilIgotinbehindthe
wheel.
Wow...Rosemumbled.
Yeah.Comeon,Isaid,gesturingforhertogetin.
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Sheeagerlyopenedthepassengerdoorandawkwardlyslidin.Itcouldn'tbeeasytodothingswithabellylike
that.
Edwardwasn'tkiddingwhenhesaidyouhadaImpala,huh?Sheexploredthedashboardwithherhand.
Nope,thisismybaby.Ileanedbackintotheseat.IwanttogiveittoEdward.
What?sheaskedsurprised.
IwanttogiveittoEdwardforhisbirthday,Iclarified.Hehasbeentalkingaboutthiscarandhowhewants
metorestoreit,sowecanuseitwhenwebuyahouseandhasroomforit.It'sjust...hehasbeenthereforme
moretimesthanIcancount,thiswouldbeawayofthankinghimforthat.
Bygivinghimacarthat'sworth...probablyfiftythousanddollarswhenit'srestored.Shewasn'tjudging,all
shedidwassoundingamazedbyit.
Yes.Thatwayitwillstillbebymyside.Look,Ibroughtyouhereforareason,Ibegan.
Ididn'treallyknowhowtosayitandItriedtogooveritinmyhead,butallIdidwassoundingdesperate.
Iwantyoutobetheonewhorestoreit,Iblurtedout.Iknowyou'repregnantrightnow,buthisbirthdayisn't
untilJune20thsoIthinkwewouldhavetime.I'llpayforeverything,andI'llevenbabysitforyouwhileyoudo
it.YoucanlearnLilyaboutcars!It'sokayifyoudon'twanttodoit,IcanjustaskSam,butitwouldjustbean
everydaythingforhim...
Bella!Stoprambling.Shelaughed.Iwouldlovetodoit,okay?
Thankyou!Thankyou!Thankyou!Islidovertothepassengerssideandhuggedherhard.
Iwouldbeanidiotforpassingupanopportunitytoworkonthisbeauty.
WesatthereforawhilelongerbeforeRose'sstomachstartedtorumble.Welaughedandgavethecaronelast
lookbeforeheadingbacktotheCullen's.WeneededtogetreadyforthebarbequeatFirstBeach.
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Edwardwasn'tinourroomwhenIgotback.Ijustshruggedmyshouldersandgotintotheshower.Iwasn't
usedtotakeashoweraloneanymore.EdwardandIusuallydidittogether.Itooktheopportunitytoshavemy
legssinceIwasn'tdistractedthistime.
WhenIwasdone,Iputonmyregularjeans,ablacktshirtandEdward'sgrayNikehoodie.Hecouldlive
withoutitforanight.AfterIhadputonmyclothes,Iinspectedmyselfinthemirror.Iwonderedifhavinga
boyfriend,orhusbandinmycase,madeyoudresslesschicandmorecomfortable.BeforeEdward,Ihadnever
usedmaleclothing.Now,IalmostalwaysworesomethingofEdward's.
Ididn'thavetimetothinkaboutthat,soIgrabbedmynavybluecoatandwalkeddownstairs.Icouldn'tsee
anyone,butIheardsoundscomingfromthebasementsoIputmycoatonahangerbythedoorandwalked
downthere.
IfoundEdwardandEmmettonthecouch,playingacargameontheTV.Rosewasnowheretobeseen.
EdwardsatsofaroutontheedgethatIeasilyslidinbehindhimandwrappedmylegsaroundhiswaist.He
didn'tevenseemtonotice.
Edward,weneedtogoifwewanttomakeitontime,Isaid.
Mhm,wasallIgotasananswer.
HejustkeptplayingthatgameasifIhadn'tspokentohimjustasecondago.
Edward,didyoujusthearwhatIsaid?
Mhm.Iwatchedashismusclesonthebackflexedbyhismovements.Fuck!
WhatdidIsay,then?Idemanded.
Uh,Ican'tremember.
IsaidImovedmyhandstothefrontofhisshirtandupunderit,acrosshisstomachFuckme.
Thosewordactuallygotareactionoutofhimashetossedthecontrolonthetableandgrabbedme,soIcould
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straddlehislap.
No,youdidn't,hesmirkedandstartedkissingme.
Isighedintohismouthandtracedhislipswithmytongue,beggingforpermissionwhichIwasgranted.
Comeon,Eddie,Emmettwhined.YourPDAisdisturbing.
Eddie?
You'retheonetotalk,Edwardmurmuredagainstmylips.
Webothrealizedthatourfunwasoverandweactuallydidhavetogetgoingorwewouldbelate.Edward
stoodup,bringingmealongwithhimandputmedownonmyfeet.
WefoundRosewaitingforusbythedoor.EsmewishedusagoodeveningbeforeweallpiledintoEmmett's
Jeep.
EPOV
WefoundSamandJanestandingonthebeach,rightwhereJacobandLeah'sweddinghadbeen.Theyhada
firewithlogsarounditthatyoucouldsiton.Ihadafeelingthiswasgoingtobeagoodnightafterallthe
ThanksgivingdramawithBella'sparents.
Hey,guys!theybothgreetedus.
There'sbeerinthebluecoolerifyouwantsome,andjuiceintheredon,ifyoudon't,Samsaid.
Whatdoyouwant?Bellaaskedandlookedupatme.
I'llhaveabeer.
Okay,letmegraboneandyoucanholdusaseatbythefire.
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ShewalkedoffsoIstartedwalkingdowntowherethefireswas.Samwassittingthere,preparingthefood.
TherewereenoughhamburgersandhotdogstofeedanwholearmyandfiveEmmetts.
Hey,man.I'mgladyoucouldmakeit,Samsaid.
Thanksforinvitingus.Ismiled.
IwatchedSamandJaneforawhile.Istillcouldn'tbelievehowJane,thegirlIhadbeengrowingupwith,was
datingSam,aguyBellahadbasicallygrownupwith.BellaandIseemedtobemoreconnectedthroughfriends
thaneverbefore.
Here,Bellasaid,handingmeabeerbeforesittingdownbesideme.
Thankyou,baby.Igaveherakissonthemouthasanextra'thankyou.'
You'rewelcome.Shechuckled.
Ilitupacigarette.ItfeltgoodtofinallyhaveonewithoutmyMom'sdisapprovinglooks.
RoseandEmmettcameandjoinedusbythefire.RosehadajuiceinherhandwhileEmmetthadabeer.Weall
talkedforawhileuntilthefoodwasready.
Iwantahotdog,Bellawhisperedinmyear.
Inoddedmyhead.Ihadnoideawhyshehadtoldmethat.Thefoodwasjustafewfeetaway,butIguessshe
wantedmetogetitforher,So,Igotupandfixedherahotdogwithketchuponitandgaveittoher.
Thankyou,shesaidhappily.
InoticedthatherbeerwasbasicallygonesoIaskedherifshewantedanotherone.Sheeagerlynoddedher
headsoItookthatasa'yes,'andwalkedovertothecooler.
Hereyougo,baby.Happy?Iaskedwhenshehadeverything.
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Mhm,shesaidwithhermouthfulloffood.
Good.
Iturnedbacktothefiretogetaburgerformyself.IstillhadhalfmybeerleftsoIdidn'tneedanythingtodrink.
Besides,Ihadn'tplannedondrinkingmorethanoneanyway.Notafterwhathadhappenedthelasttime.Istill
feltlikeanassholeaboutit,eventhoughBellahadforgivenme.
So,whenareyouguysgoingbacktoSeattle?Samasked.
Tomorrowafternoon,Ithink,Ianswered.AsmuchasIlovemyparents,Iwantsomealonetimebefore
goingbacktowork.
Alonetime?Bellaaskedandlookedatme.
Okay,letmerephrasethat,IwantsomeBellatimewithoutmyparentsinterruptingbeforegoingbackto
work.
Iloveyou,too,shesaidandwentbacktoherfood.
Yeah,we'llprobablyleavewhentheydo,Emmettsaid,pointingtowardmeandBella.
Whataboutyouguys?Iasked.
Oh,westillhaveafewthingstotakecareofhere.So,maybeSundayifwe'relucky.
Weallfinishedourfoodandsurprisingly,almosteverythingwaseaten.Therewerejustafewhotdogsand
burgersleftbythetimeweweredone.
JanehadboughtsomemarshmallowsfordessertwhichBellagotreallyexcitedabout.Aftertwobeersshehad
startedtogetabittipsy,butshecouldn'tbemoreadorable.
CanIcallyouEddie?sheasked.
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Okay,maybenotsoadorableafterall.
Notifyouexpectmetoanswer.
FuckingEmmettforplantingthatinherhead.Ihatedthatnickname.MynamewasEdward,notEddieor
EduardolikeEmmettcalledmesometimes.
Yeah,IpreferyouasEdward.MyEdward,shestated.
I'mglad.Ichuckled.
Shebroughthermarshmallowsoutfromthefireandpokeditbeforetakingabite.Someofitlandedonherchin
andIcouldn'thelpmyselftobringmymouthtoherandkissitaway.
Hey,that'smine!Shegiggled,butsheimmediatelystoppedthatwhenIreachedhermouthandstartedkissing
her.
Shethrewherstickonthegroundandmovedherhandstomyhair,pullingmyfaceclosertohers.Then,she
wenttostraddlemylap.IfelthertonguetracemybottomlipandIgrantedheraccesstomymouth.Shetasted
sosweetfromthemarshmallowsandthetastethatwasjustBella.
Aretheyalwayslikethis?IheardJaneaskbeforelaughingalongwithSam.
Yeah,unfortunately,Emmettmumbled.
ImovedmyhandstoBella'sassandgaveitasqueezejusttoteaseEmmett,andtofeelBellaupofcourse.
Shepulledawayfromthekissalltosoon,butshedidn'treallydoanythingbutstareatme.Ifeltherhandsmove
aroundinmyhair.
Ireallyloveyourhair,Edward.Don'tyoudarecutit!
Iputmyhandsupintheair,almostlikeIwassurrendering.
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Okay,Iwon't.
Anddon'tquitsmoking,eitherbecauseyou'resodamnsexywhenyoudothat.Shepointedherfingerinmy
faceandwastryingtolookstern,butshefailedmiserably.
Thatexplainswhyshehasn'taskedmetostop.
Okay,okay.Ilaughed.
Good.
Shestoodbackupandwasabouttositdownbesidemeagain.Although,shedidn'tsucceedwiththat.Instead,
shesatdownandfellbackwardontotheground.
I'mfine!sheyelledandwavedherhand.
Everyonejustlaughedandshooktheirheadsather.Yes,shewasadorable,butshewouldprobablyfeelthatfall
tomorrowwhenshewokeup.
IlookedovertoRose,whowaslaughingalongwiththeothers,butshenoticedmystare.Iwassilentlyasking
hertodriveushome.Shemusthaveunderstoodbecauseshestoodup.
Comeon,baby.Let'stakeyouhome,shallwe?Iaskedandreacheddownforher.
Yeah.Shenoddedherhead.Yeah,maybeweshould.I'mhorny.
Whatdidyoujustsay?Iaskedandhelpedherupfromtheground.Imusthavebeenhearingthings.
I'mhorny,soyoushouldtakemehomeandfuckme.
Idon'tthinksherealizedthateveryonearounduscouldhearherasshesaidthosewords.
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Okay.Comeon,Isaidandledherawayfromthefire.Thankyou,butweshouldreallygetgoing!Iyelled
toSamandJane.
Yeah,thankyou,Bellasaid.
Noproblems.I'llcallyou,Bella,hesaid,laughingandwaved.
EmmettandRosefollowedustotheJeepandIhelpedBellagetinside.Eventhoughshehadsaidshewanted
sex,Iknewshewouldbeoutofitbeforeweevengotbacktomyparents.
EndNotes:
A/N:LikeIsaid,alongasschapter!Tellmewhatyouthink!
Now,Ihavethreehourstopackandthreehourstogetsomesleep!I'lltrytorespondto
yourreviewsthebestIcan.IcanatleastpromiseyouthatI'llreadeverysingleoneof
them!:)
I'llbeonTwitterduringmyvacationsoifyouwantupdatesonhowI'mdoing,youcan
followme:http://twitter.com/gelixs
Withthat,Isaygoodbyefor8daysandI'lltryandmakeanupdateassoonasIget
back!
xx
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Backtoindex
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TheLetterbyGelix
Author'sNotes:
A/N:Firstly,thankyouforyourpatienceandI'msorryIwasn'tabletoanswerallyour
reviews.Ireallywantedto,Iwasjusttoobusy.Secondly,I'msorryforthischapter
beingsoshort,butIwantedtogiveyousomethingbeforeIleaveagain(Yes,I'mgoing
onyetanothervacationtomorrow,butI'llbringmycomputerandinternetwithmethis
timesoIcanWRITEandANSWER!).
Thequote,assomanyofyouknew,wasfrom'PrettyWoman'yetagain:
"CanIcallyouEddie?"
"Notifyouexpectmetoanswer."
Thereisanotherquoteinthischapter,finditandyou'llberewardedwithapreviewof
Chapter21!
TheLetter
EPOV
"Oh,Icanseesomeonewho'sinahurrytogethome,"Bellawhisperedinmyearandpalmedmycockinher
smallhand."Otherthanmeofcourse."
"Okay,okay.Igetit,baby,butI'mnotgoingtodoanythingwithanaudience,"Itriedtoreasonwithher.
"Fine,"shemuttered,pouting,andsatbackinherseat.
Shewasn'tmakingthingseasyforme.Ireallywantedher,butthechancesthatIwasgoingtogetsomewhen
wegothomeweresmall,sowhygetanyhopesup?
Asifshehadreadmythoughts,Bella'sheadfelldownonmyshoulder,indicatingthatshehad,infact,passed
out.
"Doyouneedanyhelp?"Emmettwhispered,noddingtowardBellawhenhehadparkedthecaroutsidemy
parents'house.
"No,I'vegother,"Iansweredandclimbedoutofthejeep.
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IwalkedovertoBella'ssideandopenedthedoor.Shewasstillsleeping,soIgentlyremovedtheseatbeltand
tookherinmyarms,bridalstyle.
Bellastirredandsnuggledherfaceinmyneck.
"Arewethereyet?"sheaskedsleepily.
"Yes,SleepingBeauty,we'rehere,"Ianswered.
"Good,becauseIdon'tthinkIcanhandlethisanylonger."
"Whatcan'tyouhandle,baby?"
Emmettheldthefrontdooropenforus.Inoddedmyheadandsmileasthanks.
"Feelinglikethis.Ineedyoutomakeitgoaway,"BellaansweredlikeEmmettandRosewasn'twithus
anymore.
"Justaminute.Ineedtotakeyoutoourroomfirst,andmaybegiveyouabath,huh?"
"No,notabath.Justyou,please."
Bythattime,wehadreachedthetopofthestairs.
"Goodluck,andtrynottobetooloud,wouldyou?"Emmettsmirkedaswehadreachedmyroom.
"Veryfunny.Justbecauseyoumentionedit,I'mgoingtomakeBellascreamoutloud,veryloud,inpleasure,
justtoannoythecrapoutofyou."Ismirkedbackathim."Iwouldhavekepther,andmyself,asquiteat
possible..."ItrailedoffasIsteppedinsidemyroomandclosedthedoorwithmyfootbehindus.
Isatherdownonthebed,shelookedlikeshewouldfallbackwardsanyminute,soIkeptmyholdonher
shoulders.
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Comeon,let'sgettheshoesandyourjacketoff,shallwe?
Okay,butIreallythinkIshouldbrushmyteethbecauseItastelikebeerandIdon'tthinkyouwanttohavesex
withabrewery,shesaidandcluckedhertongueandmadeadisgustedface.
Ilaughedather.Iwouldsleepwithyouevenifyoutastedlikebeer.Becauseyouknowwhat?Ithinkbeerand
Bellamixedupasonetastesdelicious.
Idon'tbelieveyou.Sherubbedhereyeswithherhands,makinghermascarasmearoutalloverherface.
Fine.Letmegetyourclothesoffandthenyoucanbrushyourteeth.
ShenoddedherheadsoIcarefullyremovedoneofmyhandstoeasehercoatoff.Shewasbeinghelpfulsoit
wasn'tashardasIexpectedittobe.Then,Iremovedthehoodieshewaswearing.Ilefttheblacktshirton,
thinkingIcouldremoveitlater.SheevenheldherselfupwhileItookhershoesoff.
Canyouwalktothebathroom,ordoyouneedmetocarryyou?IaskedwhenIwasdone.
Icanwalk,justhelpmeup.Shereachedherhandsupformetotake.
Ihelpedheroffthebedandfollowedrightbehindherincaseshewouldfalldown,butshemadeitwithoutany
injuriestothesink.
"Doyouneedanyhelp?"Iaskedher.
"No,I'mnotababy.Icanactuallybrushmyownteeth,"shesaid,puttingtoothpasteonhertoothbrush.
"Although,Igetthesebutterfliesinmystomacheverytimeyoucallmebaby."Shewavedhertoothbrushin
frontofherassheexplainedandwhenshewasdonesheputitinhermouthandstartedbrushing.
Ihadnoideathatshelikedthat.
"Huh,really?"Ismirkedandstartedbrushingmyownteeth.
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"Mhm,eversinceVegas,"shemumbled.
Ifinishedbrushingandstoodbehindher,leaningdowntoherear.
"So,baby,therewassomethingyouwantedmetodotonight,wasn'tit?"Iwhisperedseductively.
Shequicklyfinishedandturnedaroundtofaceme.
"Yeah,Iwantyoutofuckme."Shesmiled.
"SoI'veheard."Ismirkedmovingmyhanddownhersideanddownsoherass."Doyouwanttodoitherein
thebathroom?Ordoyouwantmetotakeyousomewhereelse?"
Ididn'thaveanyplanswhatsoevertofuckherinthebathroomsinceitwasn'texactlymineanymoreanditjust
feltwrong,butIlovedtohearhertalkdirty,thatwaswhyIasked.
No,Iwantyoutofuckmeontheleathercouchinyouroldbedroom,sheanswered,pointingtowardthe
door.
Anotheroneofmyteenagefantasies.
Ibentdownandthrewherovermyshoulder,causinghertoletoutayelpandthenalaugh.Ismackedheron
theassandwasearnedwithamoan.
IputherdownonherfeetwhenIreachedthecouch,andimmediatelyshebegantotugonmyhoodie.Isaved
herthetroubleandpulleditoff,alongwithmytshirt.
Ineedyou.Ineedyousofreakingbad,Edward.Shebreathedheavilyandstartedtokissmychest.
Itookhertshirtoffandthen,withoutanyproblems,Iremovedherbrabeforepushingherdownonthecouch
soIcouldfinishbyremovingherjeansaswell.
Sheletoutagiggleasshelandedonherass,butsheknewwhereIwasheadingwithmyactionsandbrought
meherlegsaftershehadremovedherjeansdowntoherthighs.
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WhenIwasdone,shesatupandunbuckledmybeltandpusheddownmyjeansandboxers.Isatdownbeside
herandremovedtherestbeforemovingtohoverjustaboveher.
Nuhu.SheshookherheadandIlookeddownather,confused.Iwanttobeontoptonight.
Ihadnoproblemswhatsoeverwiththat,soIsatbackupandshefollowedmymove.
Withouthesitation,shesliddownmycock.ShewassotightandwarmthatIthoughtIwasgoingtocumright
away,especiallywhenshedidn'tgivemeanytimetocontrolmyselfandstartedmovingupanddown.
Fuck,Ineedyoutogivemeaminute,orIwon'tbeabletofuckyoumorethanafewseconds!
Sorry,shewhisperedandslidbackdownandstayedthere.
Shelayherheadonmyshoulder,buryingherfaceinmyneck.IhuggedherasclosetomeasIpossiblycould.
Afteraminuteorso,Iwasreadytocontinue,butbythattime,Bellawasdeadweightinmyarms.
Baby?Iasked.Shestirredabit,butshedidnotanswermeback.
Pleasetellmeshedidn'tfallasleep!
Hey,comeon!Ishookhergentlyandthistimeshereacted.
Oh,sorry,shewhisperedandpulledbacktolookatme.
Shelookedextremelytired,soshehadprobablybeenasleep.Although,Icouldn'tbelievehowanyonecould
fallasleepduringsex.
AmIreallythatbad?Iaskedher.
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What?No,you'rethebestI'veeverhad.Shesmiledandgavemeaquickkissonthemouth.
IthoughtIwastheonlyoneyou'vehad.
Youare,butyou'realsothebestI'veeverhad.
Sheswirledherhips,whichremindedmethatIwasstillinsideherandmakingmemoan.
Thenwhydidyoufallasleep?Idemanded.
Youjustfeelsogood.Can'twejustsleepinthispositioneverynight?Withyou...burieddeepinsideme,she
saiddreamily.
Thatwouldbelikeheaven,wouldn'tit?Ilaughed.
Ihadcompletelyforgottenaboutbeingannoyedaboutherfallingasleepwhilewewereabouttohavesex.
Absolutely,shemumbledandinchedforwardtokissme.
Itracedherbottomlip,askingforpermissiontoenterhermouth,whichIgot.Shetastedpeppermintfromthe
toothpaste,mixedwithherownscent.Nothingfromthebeershewassoafraidthatshewouldtastelike.
Igrabbedherasstohelphermoveupanddown.Wecapturedeachothersmoanswithourmouths,andIknew
thatifshedidn'tstopsqueezingmycockwithherpussy,Iwouldn'tlastaslongasIwouldwant.
Ineedtogofaster,Bellawhisperedwhenwepulledawayfromthekiss.
Okay.Inoddedandreleasedherass,movingmyhandsdowntoherthighsinstead.
Shedidstarttomovefaster,bracingherselfwithherhandsonmyshoulders.Thefasterspeedmadehertits
bounceinmyfaceandIjusthadtotaketheminmymouth,tastingthem.Thespeedalsomademecomecloser
tothereleaseandIknewIhadtomakehercumsoon.
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Itookoneofherhandsandmoveditwithminedowntowherewewerejoined.Touchyourself,baby.
Wow,sheletoutbeforeshestartedrubbingherclit.Edward,I'mclose,shemoaned.
Metoo.Metoo,baby.
IhelpedhermoveevenfasterwhenIwasrightattheedgeandIreallyneededtocum,butIdidn'twanttodo
thatbeforeher.
Fuuuck,shecursed,whichwasrare.Edward!
Icouldn'tholditanymore,andfinallyreleasedeverythingIhaddeepinsideher.
Fuckinghell,Bella,Igrunted.
Shecameshortlyafterandmilkedmycockdry.Westayedstillforawhile,withmestillinsideher,butwhenI
triedtomoveshestoppedme.
Remember,Iwanttofallasleepjustlikethis,Shegavemealazysmile.
SheseemedonthevergetosleepsoIdidn'tcompletelydeniedherwhatsheasked,butIdidmoveustothe
bed,lyingherontopofme,withmestillinsideher.Ifeltasourmixedjuicesstartedleakingout,butIdidn't
reallycare.
Bellawasoutwithinminutes,soafterawhile,Iwasabletocarefullypulloutofher.Ilaydownbehindher,so
thatwewerespooningandfellasleepwithmyfacenuzzledinherlonghair.
BPOV
Iwokeupthenextmorning,feelingEdwardstaresonmyface.Itwasamazinghowyoucouldsometimesfeel
howyouwerebeingwatched.
Stopstaring,Imumbledintothemattress.
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Why?You'resoadorablewhenyousleep.Icouldhearthesmirkbehindhiswords.Itwaslikeyounever
stoppedhavingsexlastnight.
IsearchedforthecoverandwhenIfoundit,Ipulleditovermyhead.TheworstpartwasthatIcouldremember
everysinglethingthathadhappenedthenightbefore.EverylittlethingIsaidanddid.Itwashumiliating,andif
Icouldrememberit,thensocouldEdward.
Hey,don'thidefromme.Hepulledonthecover,butIhelditinplace.Fine,suiteyourself.
Ifeltasthebedshiftedwhenhegotupfromthebed.Ijustthoughthewasgettingreadyforthedayor
something,whatIdidn'texpectwaswhathedidinstead.
Hetookthecoverbytheendandthrewitovermyhead,makingmywholebody,exceptmyhead,exposedto
him.
Hey!I'mgettingcold!Iyelled.
Itoldyouthatyouwouldhavetosuiteyourself,herespondedandlaydownbesideme,tryingtofreemyface
fromthecover.
Yeah,butthatwassonotniceofyou,Eddie,Imuttered.
Watchthatprettymouthofyours,hesaidwithafakedangrytone.
YouthinkI'mgorgeous,youwanttokissme,Isang.
OfcourseIdo,especiallywhenyouhavethatsexyassdisplayedrightinfrontofme.Hemovedhishands
downmyspinetocupmyass.
Nicetry,Iwon'tbehavingsexwithyouuntilwe'rebackhome.That'sforthestuntyoupulledwiththecover.
Wellthen,Iwon'tbehavingsexwithyouuntilChristmasforthestuntyoupulledlastnightwhenyoufell
asleep...onmycock!IcouldhearthepoutinhisvoiceandIjusthadtogiggleathim.
Youwon'tbeabletolastthatlongwithoutsex,Edward,andwebothknowit.
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We'llsee.Now,let'sgetdownstairstogetsomebreakfast,Iwanttogohome,Ifeltthebedshiftashestood
up.
I'mnotgoing.IrefusetoshowmyselftoRoseandEmmett,Iargued.AndSamandJaneaswell.
Comeon,baby,youcan'tavoidthemforever.
Yes,Ican.
WhataboutLily?Youlovethatgirlmorethanyouloveme.Areyougoingtoavoidheraswell?
Iloveher,butIloveyoumore.Ifinallyturnedaroundandremovedthecoverfrommyhead,soIcouldlook
athim.Andno,Iwon'tavoidher,shedidn'tunderstandwhatIsaid.
Youcan'tavoidRosewhenyou'renotavoidingLily.
Smartass.I'mnotgoingdownthere.
IfItoldyouIhaveatreatwaitingforyoudownstairs,then?Hepulledonhisboxersandatshirt.
Asexualone?BecauseIwon'tfallforit.Isatup,coveringmyselfwiththecover.
No,unfortunatelyit'snot.
WillIlikeit?
Itwouldnotbeatreatifyouwouldn'tlikeit.Now,getdressed.Hetossedapairofpantiesatmeandthenmy
bra.
Fine,butI'mstillnotgoingtoeatbreakfastwiththeothers.Ipouted.
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Fine,youlittlebaby,butonlybecauseIloveyousofuckingmuch.
I'mnotalittlebaby,Isaidatadbitannoyed.I'myourbaby.
Istooduponthebedandhecameovertome,wrappinghisarmsaroundmywaistandburiedhisfaceinmy
boobs.
You'reactinglikeachild,soforthetimebeing,youarealittlebaby,butyou'restillmybaby,hesaid,kissing
theapexofbothmyboobsbeforewalkingaway.
Well,you'rea...smartass,Iretorted,notreallyknowingwhattocallhim,butIwantedtocallhimsomething.
Weputontherestofourclothesinsilence,andthenpacktherestinourbags.IwasjustaseagerasEdward
wastogethome.
EdwardkepthispromiseaboutbreakfastandusheredmeintoaroomIhadneverseenbefore.Thewallsfacing
theoutsidewasmadeofglass,makingalightglowflowintotheroom.Theotherwallswerecoveredwith
pictureframesofaboybyapianouponastage.
It'smymusicroom.Youtoldmeoncethatyouwantedtohearmeplay,so...Edwardstartednervously.
Playingformemusthavebeensomethingspecialtohimsincehewasnervous,hewasvery,andImeanvery
rarelynervous.
Iwouldloveto,Isaid,grabbinghishandandsmiledupathim.
Hegavemeasmileinreturnandledmeovertothepiano.Hesatdownonthebench,leavingasmallspotfor
metositon.Hegentlyremovedhishandfrommineandlaidbothhisonthekeys.
Then,themostbeautifulmusicI'veeverheardflowedthroughtheroom.Itwasunbelievablehowaperson
couldplaysomethinglikethatandnotbeingfamousforit.LikeMozartorBeethoven.
Irestmyheadonhisshoulder,hopingIwasn'tbotheringhimalltoomuch,butsinceheplayedonlikeitwas
nothing,Iguessedhedidn'tmindit.
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Thepiecereachedahighnoteandthentheroomfellcompletelysilent.Ididn'trealizedIhadbeencryinguntil
Edwardbroughthishanduptodrymytearsaway.Ihadneverbeenonetocrytomusicbefore.
Whatdidyouthink?heaskedcarefully.
WhatIthink?Ihavenowords,Itoldhimhonestly.Amazing,beautifulthosewordsdoesn'tevenmakeup
forit,Edward.
Thankyou,Bella.Heputafingerundermychinandangledmyfacetokissmelightlyonmylips.
Weshouldgetapiano,soyoucanplayformeeveryday,Imumbledagainsthislips.
Theapartmentistoosmall,itwouldn'tfit,heanswereddisappointed.
Thenweshouldmovetoabiggerone,orahouse.
Yeah,Iwoulddoanythingjusttohearhimplaylikethateveryday...
Yeah,maybeweshould.Hesmiledandkissedmeagain.
Canyouplaysomethingmoreforme?Ipleaded.
Sure.
Heplayedmetwomorepiecesbeforehewastoohungrytoplayanymore.IwasalittledisappointedthatI
wouldn'tbeabletohearhimplayagainforawhile,butheneededtoeatsoIdidn'tstophim.
Thekitchenwasdeserted,luckilyforme,andEdwardmadeussometoastsandcoffeeourusualbreakfast.
WequicklyfinishedeverythingandsneakedbackuptoEdward'sroomtogetourthings.EsmeandCarlisle
cametosaygoodbye,beggingustovisitatChristmas.Wetoldthem'maybe'sincewehadn'tmadeanyplans
yet.Besides,itwasstillafewweeksleftuntilthen.
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TheridebacktoSeattlewasalongoneandIhadtroublekeepingmyeyesopen,stilltiredfromthenight
before.Luckilyforme,Edwarddidn'tminddrivingthewholewayandIknewhepreferredthatnoonebuthim
drovehispreciousVolvo.
Therestoftheweekendpassedwithoutanyevents,andsodidMondayandmostofTuesday.Edwardcame
homeearlieronTuesday,sayinghewantedtospendtimewithmeinsteadofhisoffice.Ididn'tobjecttothat,
especiallynotwhenhehadaMcDonald'sbagwithhim.
Allthewhileweate,Ikeptstaringatmymother'sletter.IhadbeenavoidingitforafewdaysandIknewIhad
toreaditatsomepoint.ThatiswhyIexcusedmyselfwhileEdwardputawaythegarbageandwentintoour
bedroomtoreadit.
"I'msorryformybehaviorthisweekend.Itwasnevermyintentiontohurtyou,Isabella.ButImustsay,you've
changedalotsinceIlastsawyouandmostofitisprobablybecauseofEdward.It'slikethetwoofyouare
obsessedwitheachother.Whenhemoves,youmove.ItremindsmetoomuchofCharlieandme,soI'masking
youtodotherightthingbeforeyougetanychildren.Idon'twantyoutoenduplikeme,eventhoughIlovemy
lifeasitisnow.
PhilandIhaveareservationtogettoinVancouver,that'swhyIwrotethisinsteadofsayingittoyourface.
Iloveyou,
Mom"
Ilettheletterfalldowntomyfeet.Howcouldthewomanwhowrotethis,bemymother?Itwasn'tthesame
womanthatIhadcalled'Mom'forthelasttwentyfouryears.
IwassoangryatthatpointthatIwantedtopunchsomething.Iusuallyjustcried,butthiswasdifferent.Mom,
orRenee,hadbasicallytoldmetogetadivorce.ThatwassomethingIactuallydidn'twanttodo,andIthought
thisweekendhadprovedandshowedherhowhappyIfinallywas.
"Argh!"Iscreamedoutandstompedmyfoot.
"Hey,comeon!What'swrong?"Edwardaskedasherushedintothebedroom.
"MyMom!"Iansweredandlaughedhumorlessly.
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Iwasstillpissedaboutherwordsandjudging.Shehadnorightwhatsoevertoaskmetogetadivorce.She
didn'tevenknowEdward.
"Doyouwantadivorce?"Iaskedandstoppedmypacingtolookathim.
"What?No,ofcoursenot.Iloveyou.Where'sallthiscomingfrom?"Hewasconfused,andIdidn'tblamehim.
"MyMom."
Ipickeduptheletterfromthegroundandangrilytoreitintoamillionpieces.
"Youneedtocalmdown,baby,"Edwardpleadedfromhisspotbythedoor.
"Calmdown?WhydoIneedtobecalm,huh?MyMomjusttoldmetogetadivorcesoIwouldn'tenduplike
her."Ithrewmyarmsoutinfrustration."AndthenshedarestojudgemebythedinnertableonThanksgiving,
andthenlateronshecontinuestoarguewithmyDadaboutmelikeI'mstillalittlegirlshecancontrol."
"Iknow,andshehadnorightto,butyoucouldjustbreakallcontactwithher..."
Icuthimoff."Butshewouldstillbemymotherandshewouldstillhavedoneallthosethings!"
Hemarchedovertomewithdeterminedstepsandcuppedmyface,forcingmetolookathim.
"Calmdown.She'sjustawomanwhodoesn'tknowyou.Youdon'tneedtotakeherwordsandactionstothe
heart."Iwasunabletocalmdown,andwhenherealizedthat,hedraggedhishandthroughhishairandthen
lookedbackatme."TellmeaboutyourGrandmother."
Whydidhewantmetotalkabouther?
Iwasconfused."DidyouknowmyMomdidn'tevencometoherfuneral?"
Iwasboilingontheinsideatthatmoment.ThemoreIthoughtaboutmyMom,themoreIwonderedhowI
couldhaveputupwithallthemissedbirthdaysandforherneverhavethetimeforme.
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Ididn'trealizeIhadstartedtohyperventilateuntilEdwardshookmyshoulders.
"Calm.The.Fuck.Down."
"Okay,"Iwhisperedandnoddedmyheadbeforefallingdowntotheground,crying.IfeltasEdwardliftedme
upandcarriedmetothelivingroomandsatdownonthecouchwithmeinhislap.
EPOV
Icouldfeelherwettearsagainstmyneck,butIcouldeasilytellwhenherhotlipsstartedtokissitswayupmy
neck.
"Pleasemakelovetome,Edward,"shewhispered.
NomatterhowmuchIwouldlovetodowhatsheasked,Iwouldn'tfallforitagain.
"No,"Itoldher.
"No?"
"No.Iloveyou,butIwon'tmakelovetoyourightnow.Notwhenyou'relikethis,notbecauseyouneedto
feellovedafteryou'remotherjustmadeyoufeelunloved.Iloveyou,andIhopeIdon'talwayshavetoprove
thatbymakinglovetoyou,"IexplainedasgentlyasIcould.
Shenoddedherheadandstayedquietforawhile.Atfirst,IwasafraidthatIhadhurtherfeelingsbyrejecting
her,butthenshestartedhuggingmetightlyaroundmyneck.
Iloveyou,too,andI'msorryforeverything.
Youhavenothingtobesorryfor,Bella.Irubbedherbackinsoothinggestures,tryingtocomforthereven
thoughthecryinghadstopped.
Ifeltasshenoddedherheadandnuzzledhernoseinmyneck.Can'twejustgosomewhere?
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Ihadn'texpectedthat.Whatdidyouhaveinmind?
Nothingbigreally.IjustneedtodosomethingtostopthinkingaboutmyMom.ShepulledbacksoIcould
seeherface.HerhairwasinthewaysoIplacedthefewstrandsofherhairbehindherearsandusedmy
thumbstodryawayhertears.IwantaChristmastree.
AChristmastree?Ichuckled.
Yes.Couldyoupleasehelpmefindone?
Ofcourse.That'swhathusbandsarefor.Ismiledandcuppedherfacebeforeplacingasoftkissonherlips.
WetooktheVolvodowntown.Itwaseasytofindasellersincetheywerepracticallyeverywhere,butthefirst
onewasn'tgoodenoughforBellasowedrovebyafewotheronesaswell.Thethirdonewefoundsuitedher,
whichwasgoodsinceIhadnoideahowlongmypatiencewouldhold.
WestartedwalkingalongtheaisleandBellalookedatafewtrees,butshejustwrinkledhernoseandsaid'nah'
beforewalkingovertothenextone.EverytreeIsuggestedwaseithertooshortortoosparse.
Baby,comeon!We'vealreadyseenthesetrees.Whycan'twejustbuyaplasticoneatSears?Iwhinedlikea
baby.
Becauseaplastictreewouldn'tbethesame.Imaginemyboobswithimplantscomparedtomyrealones.
Whichwouldyouprefer?Shestoodthere,lookingatmewithherhandsonherhips.
DidyouseriouslyjustcompareyourtitstoaChristmastree?Itriedtocontainmylaughter,butitwas
impossible.
Yes,nowanswerthedamnquestion!
YouknowIloveyourtits,Bella,justthewaytheyare.
Thenwhywouldyouwanttobuyaplastictree?
It'snotthesameasyourtits,andaplastictreelastslongerandwewon'thavetobuyanewonenextyear.
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Untilthedaywegetkids,we'rebuyingarealChristmastree,understood?Shepointedherfingerinmyface,
makingherlookalotlikeAlice.
Fine,justpickone,then,Isaiddefeated.
Shefinallydecidedononeafterthethirdround,anditwasatreeshehadseenlikefourtimesbeforeshefinally
decidedonit.
Women.Itwouldhavebeensomucheasierwithaplastictree.But,whatBellawant,Bellagets.Thatwasmy
motto,evenwhenwewentChristmastreeshopping.
Itwasn'teasytoputthetreeontopofmycar.IgotsomehelpfromthesellersinceBellawastooshorttoeven
reachtheroof.Ihadbroughtablanketwithussoitwouldn'tscratchitoranything.
IfIhadthoughtthatwashard,itwasnothingcomparedtogetitintotheapartment.IhadSethhelpingustoget
itinsidetheelevator,buthecouldn'tleavethedesksoIwasbasicallyonmyownfortherestoftheway.
Nah,itdoesn'tfitverywellthere,Bellasaidwhenwetriedthefifthspottohavethetree.
Itwasn'taverylargeapartment,butBellacouldsurefindplacestoputatree,especiallysinceshewasn'tthe
onewhohadtomoveit.
Okay,I'mnotmovingthistreeanotherinchuntilyoudecideonaspotyouactuallywantiton,Itoldherand
satdownonthecouch,exhausted.
Aww,andhereIthoughtyouhadsomebigmuscles,shemocked.Isthetreetoheavyforyou?
Idohavemusclesandyouknowit,butthatthreestingssinceyouneededtoremovethecover.
Fine,justputitoverthereinthecorner,shesaid,pointingatthecornertotheright.
Youwanteditthereallalong,didn'tyou?Iaskedincredulously.
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Yes,butIneededtoseeifitwouldlookbetterinalltheotherspots.Shesmirked.
Women.
EndNotes:
A/N:Sosorryforitbeingtooshort,butit'sbetterthannothing,right?Tellmewhatyou
thinkofit!
ForthoseofyouwhoarecuriousonhowmyvacationtotheU.Kwas,cancheckout
thepicturesonmyFacebook(http://www.facebook.com/Gelixs).
Nextupdate:WednesdayAugust11th,orearlierifIhavethetimetowrite.
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A/N:*SURPRISE!*IhavesucharainyvacationthatIhaven'tdoneanythingbut
writingtoday)
Thequoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'MissCongeneality':
"YouthinkI'mgorgeous,youwanttokissme."
Ihaveoneinthischaptertoo.Findit,andyou'llgetapreviewofchapter22!:)
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TheweeksbeforeChristmasflewbyliketheywerenothingbutthewind.EdwardandIspentthemwithalot
ofworkandsex.
Wehadfinallydecidedthatwewouldn'tbespendingtheholidayswithanyonebutourselves,neitherofushad
theenergytodealwiththefamilydramaanymore.Ithadactuallybeenaveryeasydecision.
Afewweeksago
Iwanttotalktoyouaboutsomething,IsaidcarefullytoEdwardwhilewesatatthedinnertable.
Good,becauseIhavesomethingtosayaswell.Heputdownhisforkandknife.
Isitsomethingbad?Iaskedworriedly.
Itdependsonhowyou'lltakeit,butyoucangofirst,heoffered.
Okay,umm,Istammered,IwanttospendChristmaswithoutourfamiliesandfriends,justyouandme,I
sortofblurtedoutbeforeIloosedmycourage.
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Hedidn'tsayanything,instead,hestartedtolaughoutloud.HethrewhisheadbackandIjustsatthere,
staringathimandwaitingforhimtocalmdownsohecouldexplain.
Edward,Iwhinedwhenhenevershutup.
Sorry.Hetookafewdeepbreathsbeforehecontinued.It'sjustthatIwantedtotalktoyouabouttheexact
samething.
Oh.Iwasabitsurprisedbythatsinceheseemedtobeafamilyguy.Soyoudon'twanttospendthe
holidayswithyourfamily?
Nope,Ithinkweneedavacationfromallthefamilydrama.There'salwaysthenextChristmasandthenext
afterthat.Heshruggedhisshoulders.
Ithadbeenincrediblyeasytodecideonwhattodo.OurChristmaswasgoingtobespentinourapartment
wherewewouldcookdinnertogether,watchamovieandthenexchangegiftswhichwasgoingtobeoneeach.
IfIknewuswellenough,therewouldbeplentyoflovemakingaswell.AverysimpleandcozyChristmas.
Itwasstillanotherweekandahalfleftuntilthen,sowestillhadalotofworktodobeforetheholidays.
Edwardhadbeenworkinglatehoursthelasttwoweekswhichmademefeellonely,butassoonashegot
home,Ifeltlovedandsafeagain.
Hislatehourshadmademespendmoretimeatmyownoffice.IthelpedwiththelonelinessifIdidn'thaveto
spendthewholedayandeveningbymyself.
ItwasweekendandEdwardandIwerelyingonthecouch,watchingmovies.Weactuallydidwatchthem,
therewerenofunnybusinessandIthinkwebothdidn'tmindsomeregularcuddling.
Baby,stopdrooling,Edwardsaidtiredly.
ItwaspastmidnightsoIdidn'tblamehimfrombeingtired.Weweregoingtobedafterthemoviewewere
watching,whichdidn'tconsistofanyhotguys.ItwasjustoldermenandIwasn'tdrooling.
Stopit,Imumbled,punchinghimjokinglyonhisbicep.I'mnotdrooling.
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Yes,youare.You'redroolingbecauseI'msofuckinghot.
Ilookeddownathimsincehewassoslumpeddownthathewasrestingonmyshoulder,andsawthebig,tired
smirkalloverhisface.
Okay,mister,Ithinkweshouldgotobednow.Ilaymyheaddowntorestontopofhis.
Huh?Areyousohornyyoucan'tevenwaitforthemovietoend?
Therewon'tbeanysextonight,I'mtootired.Imeantit,Iwasreallytired.
Whyareyousoboring?Icouldhearthepout.What'snext?Youhaveaheadache?
Itakehisheadinmyhandsandanglehisfaceuptomine.Isqueezehischeekssohismothgetsabiggerpout
andgivehimaquickkiss.
I'msorry,IreallyamtootiredandIdon'tthinkyouwanttohavesexwithaunconsciousperson...doyou?
Heshookhisheadasbestashecouldinmygrip.IpromiseI'llmakeituptoyoutomorrow.
Promise?heaskedlikealittlekidwhowaspromiseddessertifheactedgood.
Yes.Igiggled.
Ibentdownandgavehimaproperkiss,whichheeagerlyrespondedto,beforeIgotupfromthecouchand
wenttothebathroomtogetready.
EdwardcameinjustasIfinishedbrushingmyteeth,dragginghisfeetbehindhim.Hegrabbedhistoothbrush
andstartedbrushinghisteethaswell.Whenhewasdone,heturnedaroundtofaceme,watchingasIbrushed
myhair.
Howexactlydoyouplantomakeupforthelackofsex?heasked.
Oh,thatisformetoknow,andforyoutofindout.Ismirkedandwalkedtothebedroom.
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HowIlovesurprises,hesaidsarcasticallyashefollowedme.
Ipromiseyouthatyou'regoingtolovethisone.Ismiledandtriedtowinkathim.Ihadneverbeenreally
goodatdoingthat.
IhadalreadyplannedwhatIwasgoingtodowithhim.Iknewthathewouldmostlikelylikeit,ifnotevenlove
it,butitmademekindofnervous.ItwasjustEdward,though,andnothingtobescaredof.
Iloveyou,Edwardsaidashetookmeintohisarms.
Iloveyou,too.Iangledmyfaceandgavehimakissbeforesettlinginforthenight.
Sundaywasboring.Sure,IlovedspendingtimealonewithEdward,butthatwaswhenhewasactuallyat
home.Sundaysheoftenspentdowninthebasementinthegym.Itgavehimagreatbody,though,somaybeI
shouldbethankfulforthetimehespendsdownthere.
Istartedmakingdinnersoitwouldbereadywhenhewasdone.Ihadalreadyspentmostofthedaycleaning
theapartment.ItwasthingslikeSundaysandourroutineEdwardworkingoutwhileIworkedonthe
household,thatmademefeellikeahousewife.Believeme,Ilikedit,buttherewasmomentswhenIdidn't.
Todaywasoneofthosedays.IjustmissedEdwardsomuch,andthenhespendsmostofthedayinadark
basementwhereIwastooafraidtogodowninalone.
Smellsgood,baby!Edwardyelledwhenhesteppedinside.
Dinnerisreadyinfive,Ianswered.Itwouldgivehimenoughtimetogetcleanedup.
Itwaslater,whenEdwardhadeatenfiveportionsofthechickenandnoodlesthatthingsstartedtoheatup.We
weresittingonthecouch,watchingnothingspecialontheTVwhenIstartedgettingimpatient.
Edward?
Yes,baby?heasked,lookingatme.
Areyoureadyformysurprise?Iaskedseductively,straddlinghislap.
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HegulpedoncebeforeheturnedtheTVoffwiththeremote.Areyoutryingtoseduceme?
Why?Areyouseducible?Iwhisperedinhisearbeforebitinglightlyonhisearlobe.
Iabsolutelyfuckingam,hemumbledandbroughthishandstomyass,givingitasqueeze.
Makeyourselfcomfortablethen.IsmirkedandsliddownhislapsoIwasonmykneesinbetweenislegs.
IstartedunbucklehisbeltandheliftedhishipupautomaticallysoIcouldremovehisjeansfarenough.
Baby,whatareyoudoing?heasked.
Watchandyou'llsee.
Igrabbedthehemofhisboxersandreleasedhisdickfromitsbond.Itsprangfree,alreadyhardandbig.There
wasnowayIcouldfithiswholedickinsidemymouth,thatmuchIknew,Ijusthopedhewouldenjoyit
anyway.
IlickedmylipsbeforeIplacedakissonthetip,causinghimtohiss.Ilookedupathimandsawhishooded
eyes.
He'shorny.
YouneedtotellmeifIdosomethingwrong,Itoldhim.
Justdowhatyoufeelcomfortablewith,hereassuredme.
WhenIlookedbackdownathisdick,precumhadstartedleakingout.Itookadeepbreathandinchedforward
tolickitaway.Ittastedsaltyandalittlebitter,butnothingIcouldn'thandle.
Igrabbedthebaseofhisdickwithmyhandandtooktheheadinsidemymouth.
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Fuck!Edwardcursedloudly.
Itwasn'tabadcurse,itwashiminpleasureanditencouragedmesoIbobbedmyheadupanddownafew
times.
Hishandfounditswaytomyhair,twinningitbetweenhisfingers.Hehelpedmemove,settingthespeedhe
wanted.Ihadtoletgoofhisdickandbracemyselfwithbothhandsonhisthighs.
Heseemedtoenjoyitverymuchandsoonbegantomovehiships.Although,thatonlycausedhimtoget
deeperinsidemymouth,andmygagreflexhadneverbeenthebest.IcouldfeelasIstartedtochoke,andwith
that,Istartedtopanic.
Accidentally,mymouthseemedtoprotectitselfbyslightlybitingdown.Edwarddidn'tseemtothinkitwasjust
alittlebite,though.
Fuckinghell!hehissedoutinpain,pushingonmyshoulders.
Ilandedonmyass,andEdwardgotupfromthecouch,coveringhiscrotchwithhishandsandwalkedaway.
Iheardasheclosedthebathroomdoor,Ialsofelttheangryandhumiliatedtearsonmycheeks.Ihadwantedit
tobesoperfectandthenitturnedoutintocompletedisaster.
Istoodupandwalkedovertothebathroom.Sinceitwasclosed,Iknockedthreetimes,butIdidn'ttrythe
handle.
Edward,I'mso,sosorry.Ididn'tmeantobiteyou,Isaidthroughthedoor.
Iknowyoudidn't,Bella.Just...givemeaminute,heresponded.
Okay,Isaidandwalkedbacktothelivingroom.
Ittookhimafewminutesbeforehecameback.Hedidn'tsayanything,though.Instead,hejustwalkedpastme
andwentstraightouttothebalcony.Inhisdefense,hehadprobablynotseenmewhereIwassitting.Atleast
hehadhisjacketwithhim.ItwascoldoutsideandIdidn'twanthimtogetsick.
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InervouslydialedRose'snumberandwasabouttohangupwhenshefinallyanswered.
Hello?
Ibithim,Iblurtedout.
Whatareyoutalkingabout,Bella?Whodidyoubite?sheaskedconfused.
Edward.WhoelsedidyouthinkIwouldbite?Ihissed.
Idon'tknow,thereareplentyofguysoutthere.Whydidyoubitehim,anyway?
Thisisthepartwhereitgotkindofembarrassing,butIknewIneededtotellherthestorysoIcouldgether
advice.
Well,umm...hegotalittlebit...youknow...overexcited,Istammered.
Youmeanyou'veactuallygivenhimablowjob?sheaskedincredulously.
Umm,yes.Icouldfeelasmycheeksturnedred.Butonlyahalfone,though,sincehewasn'tableto...
continue.
IlookedaroundthecornertoseeifEdwardwasstillonthebalcony.Hewas,andhewassmokinglikea
chimney.
Poorthing.
IjustwishedIcouldhelphimsomehow,makethepaingoawayorsomething,butsincehehadseemedto
preferbeingalone,Ilethimbe.
Okay,wait,IthinkweneedAlicehelpaswellonthis.Letmejustcallher.
Okay.
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Iwaitedasshecalledher,Ialsostayedquietassheexplainedthe...situationtoher.Icouldtellthattheyboth
wereclosetolaughter.Iwouldprobablyhavelaughedifthiswasn'taboutme,butitwasaboutmesoIwasn't
laughingalongwiththem.
Bella?Areyouthere?Aliceasked.
Yeah,I'mhere.Isighed.
Listen,itwasyourfirsttimesodon'tbeatyourselfoverthis.Noteveryoneisperfect,especiallynotwhile
givingsomebodytheirfirstblowjob,shetoldmereassuringly.Heck,Iwasn'tevenperfect!Although,Ididn't
biteJasper,Ijustchoked...
Yeah,Iwasn'tperfecteither.Imean,Emmett's...bigsoitwaskindofhard,Roseadmitted.
Butstill,Ibithimandhewasinsomuchpain!Iwhined.
Listen,whydon'tyoucomeoverandwe'llshowyousometechniques?Aliceasked.
What?Thanksfortheoffer,butIwon'tgiveanyotherguythanEdwardablowjob!
BothRoseandAlicelaughedagain.Theywerecrazyiftheythoughttheycouldteachmebyinstructingme
whileIgaveJasper,orEmmettablowjob.
Bella,Bella,Bella.Wedidn'tmeanitlikethat.Ofcourseyou'renotgoingtogiveanactualblowjobinfrontof
us,letaloneonmyman.That'swhatyouhavecucumbersfor,Alicesaid.
Mhm,Roseagreed.
Acucumber?Listen,I'llcomeover,butI'mnotgoingtoputacucumberinmymouth...thatway.There'sno
way!Iexclaimedhorrified.
Fine,youlittleprude.I'llmeetyouatAlice's!Rosehungupthephone.
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I'llseeyousoonthen.AndsoAlicewasgoneaswell.
Honestly,IwasabitafraidofseeingEdwardagain,butIknewthatIneededtotellhimthatIwasmeetingthe
girls.Anoteseemedsochildish.
InervouslypacedinfrontofthebalconydoorafewminutesbeforeImanagedtogainenoughcouragetoface
him.
IcarefullyslidthedooropenedandsteppedoutsidethechillyDecemberair.AtleastEdwardhadhisjacketon
sincehehadbeenstandinghereatleastthirtyminutes.
I'msorry,Isaid,causinghimtoturnaroundandfinallynoticeme.
It'sokay.Heusheredmeforwardwithhisarm.Let'sjustletthisgo.Accidentshappen.
ButIhurtyou,IsaidasIhuggedhimaroundhiswaist.
Yeah,butit'llpast.
You'retooforgiving,Imumbledinhischest,butIdon'tthinkheheardme.I'mgoingovertoseeRoseand
Alice.
Togossipaboutouraccident?
No,Ilied,becauseweprobablyweregoingtogooverthesituationsoIcouldgetsomeadviceonhowtodo
itthenexttime,ifEdwardevenletmecomenearhisdickagain.
You'resuchabadliar,baby.Hechuckled.
No,I'mnot.Ipoutedandthensighed.Iwon'tmentionthedetails.
It'sokay.Go.Whenwillyougetback?
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Idon'tknow.Dinnertimemaybe,sodoyouwantmetopicksomethingup?
Sure,justnotMcDonald'sagain,please,hebegged.
Fine,Iwon't.Isteppeduponmytoestogivehimakiss.Iloveyou.
Iloveyou,too.Havefun.
ThedriveovertoAlicewasanedgyone.Ihadnoideaonhowthegirlsweregoingtoact.Ididn'tthinkI
wouldbeabletodealwithmorelaughter.Itwassuchanembarrassingsituation.MaybeIwouldlaughaboutit
someday,butthatdaywasprobablyfiftyyearsintothefutureandEdwardhadhealed.
RosewasalreadytherebythetimeIgottoAlice.Theybothcameoverandhuggedme,notlaughinglikeIhad
expected.
Howareyou?Roseasked.
AndhowisEdward?Aliceasked.
I'mfine,maybealittlebitangryandhumiliated.Edwardsayshe'llbeokaysoIhavetotrusthimonthat.I
shruggedmyshouldersandtookmyshoesoff,thenmyjacket.
Okay,comeon.We'llmakesureyou'llblowhimlikeaprothenexttime!
Ifhe'llletmeanywherenearhimthatis,Imuttered.
Ofcoursehewill,nowcomeon,Alicewavedusintothekitchen.
Shehadmadeuscoffee,teaforRose,soweallsatdownbythedinnertablewheretheyaskedmetotellthem
thestoryagain.Idid,andthistimetherewerenolaughter,onlythoughtfulfaces.
Okay,sothereisoneproblemthatIcanhelpyouwith,Rosesaid.Youbithimbecauseyouchoked,sonext
time,breathethroughyournoseandyoushouldn'tchoke.
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Yeah,thatworksforme,Aliceagreed.Or,whenyoufeellikeyou'reabouttochoke,justpullhimoutand
relaxyourselfbeforeyoucontinue.
Inoddedmyhead,takingallthisinformationin.Whattheysaidmadesense,sotherewasnoreasonformenot
takinginwhattheysaid.
Okay,butwhataboutthepleasurepart,then?DoIjustbobmyheadupanddown?Iasked,notfeelingso
embarrassedanymore,Ireallywantedtoknow.
Yeah.Imaginelikeyou'relickingaPopsicle.Swirlyourtongueabitandfocusonthehead,that'sthemost
sensitivepart,Alicesaid.
IdothisthingwhereIscrapemyteethlightlyalongtheshaft.Emmettlovesthat.Youshouldtryit...once
Edwardhashealedthatis.
Oh,yeah,Jasperlovesthattoo!Andwhenyoumakenoises,likehumming,itkindofvibrateswhichisvery
comfortableforhim.
Yeah,Edwarddoesthatwhenhe...goesdownonme.Ihadn'tplannedongivingthatinformationup.
Uhhu,theybothagreedandnoddedtheirheads.
EPOV
IfeltsofuckingbadforBella.Myselftoo,justnotasmuch.Imean,ithurtlikehellwhenshebitdown,evenif
itwasn'treallyhard.Shehadjustbeensoashamedbythemistake.Wewereonlyhumanafterall,andIhadn't
expectedhertobeperfectherfirsttime.WhatkindofguywouldIbeifIdidthat?
Shehadleftafewhoursago.First,Ithoughtshewantedtogetawayfrommebecauseofherembarrassment,
butshehadn'tactedthatembarrassedwhenshehadcameouttome.
Bellahadtextedmeawhileago,askingwhatIwantedfordinner,soIknewshewasonherwaybackhome.
Justlikeshehadheardmythoughts,shecameinthroughthefrontdoor,carryingtwopizzas.
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Welcomehome,baby,Isaidandbentdowntokissher.
Thankyou,shemumbleagainstmylips.
Itooktheboxesfromherhandssoshecouldremovehershoesandjacket.Itookthepizzastothekitchentoput
themonplates.ItwastwosmallonesandifIknewBellawellenough,whichIdidbytheway,shewouldbe
eatingahalfandthenIwouldbeeatingtherest.
WeatethedinnerandthenspenttherestofthenightbyourusualplaceinfrontoftheTVcuddling.There
wasnolovemakingthatnightsinceIwasabit...sore.Neitherofusmentionedit,though,sotheworstwas
probablyover.
Ineveraskedwhatthegirlshadtoldher,butIfiguredtheyhadbeengivinghersomeadviceonwhattodoand
whatnottodo.
Mondaypassed,alsowithoutsex.Tuesdaypassed,butwedidhavesexbeforewewenttobed.Ithadfeltlike
agessincewehadhadsexthelasttime,butinfact,ithadonlybeenafewdays.Luckilyforme,therewasn't
anypain.Notfromme,andnotfromBella.Itwasjustperfect.
Iwokeuptothefeelingofthebedshifting.IreachedmyarmsouttosearchforBella.Shewasstilltheresoshe
hadprobablyonlybeenturning.Thealarmhadn'tgoneoffyetsowehadsometimelefttojustholdeachother
forawhile.
Bellahadotherplans,though.PlansIhadnoobjectionsofwhenIfeltherfingerstracemyhipandthenasthey
madeitswaydowntomycock.
Fuck,Icursedwhenshegrabbedaholdofme.
Iwouldliketoatleastsaygoodmorningfirst.Icouldhearthesmugnessinhervoice.
Mmm,yeah.Goodmorning,baby,Imumbledandopenedmyeyes.
Shewashoveringabovemeinhernakedglory.Hertitsjusthangingthere,beggingmetosaygoodmorningto
them.So,Ireachedmyhandouttotouchthem,butBellaquicklygotoutofmyreach.
Nuhu,IhavesometechniquesIwanttotry,ifyouwouldn'tmind?sheasked,lookingdowntomynether
regions.
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AreyouaskingmeifIwantablowjob,baby?Becausethere'snowayinhellthatyouneedtoask,Itoldher.
Good,becauseIneedsomeonetopracticeon.Shesmirkedanddivedunderthecovers.
Justlikethelasttime,shestartedwithgivingtheheadofmycockalightkiss.Thesensationofherhot,wetlips
madememoan.Imoanedevenlouderwhenshetookmein,makingmefeelthewarmthofhermouth.Imay
haveletoutafewprofanitiesaswell,butshejustseemedencouragedbythatasshetookmefurtherin.
Fuck,Bella,Ihissed.
ThehumIgotinresponseonlymadethefeelingbetter.Shebobbedherheadupanddownafewtimes.Isaw
thecovermove,butIcouldonlyfeelBella,Iwantedtowatchheraswell.
So,Iremovedthecoverandwatched,fascinated,asshetookmycockintohermouth.Shelookedupatme
underherlashesand...oh,myfuckingGod.
Myhandautomaticallywentintoherhair.Although,Ihadlearnedmylessonfromlasttime,soIjustheldit
thereandlethersetthepace.
I'msofuckingclose,baby,Imoaned.
Sheswirledhertonguearoundtheheadbeforeshetookmeinagain.Eachtimeshegotup,sheappliedmore
suctiononthehead,causingmetogetclosertomyrelease.
Ituggedgentlyonherhair,soshecouldremovehermouthfrommeincaseshedidn'twantmetocuminher
mouth.
Fuck...Bella,comeon,I'msofuckingclose,Iwarned.
Ituggedharder,causinghertoactuallyreleasemejustasIcameallovermystomachandhertits.Itfeltso
fuckingamazingthatmytoesalmostcurled.
Ilaythereforawhile,inmybliss,andwhenIopenedmyeyesIsawBellasittingthere,poutingdownatme.
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What'swrong?Iaskedworriedly,fearingthatshewasdisgusted.
WhatifIwantedtoswallow?
Okay,thatwasnotwhatIhadexpectedhertobedisappointedin.
Youwantedtoswallow?Iasked.
ShejustnoddedherheadandIsawashercheekscoloredredfromembarrassment.
Okay,I'llrememberthatthenexttime,then.Ismirkedather.
Soyouwantanexttime?sheaskedshyly.
Hellyeah!
Shegiggledandgotoffthebed.Ineedashower.
Waitforme!Iyelledafterherandrushedoutfrombed,followingherintothebathroom.
Unfortunately,wedidn'thavetimeforanyfunnybusiness.Ididn'tcomplaintothereasonwewerealreadylate,
though.Thatwas,handsdown,thebestblowjobIhadevergotten.Honestly,Ihadn'thadverymanysinceKate
hadfounditdisgustingwithoralsex,Laurenwasprettymuchthesameeventhoughwediditafewtimes.
Jessicahadbeenmyfirst,andworst.Ihadn'tthoughtsobackthen,though,butthen,shehadbeenmyonlyone
andIhadn'thadanyonetocompareto.
So,thesearethepillsthatpreventusfromhavingalittlebabyCullen?Iasked,inspectingthesmallpillsBella
hadleftonthekitchencounter.
Thatwouldbeit,yes.Bellasmiledandswallowedone.
Butwhydotheyhavedifferentcolors?Isn'tthatabitconfusing?Mybrowsfurrowedinconfusion.
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What?
IshowedherwhatImeant,butshedidn'tanswermyquestion.Instead,shejuststoodthere,staringatit.Isaw
asallthecolorinherfacedisappeared.
Thepillsthathaveadifferentcoloraresupposedtogivememyperiod,shefinallywhispered.
Butwehadsexlastnight,andafewnightsbefore,andthen...
Isaid'supposed,'Edward,shecutmeoff.
Oh,wasallIcouldsay.
Whatdidshemeanby'supposed?'Thatshehadn'thadherperiodwhenshewassupposedto,orthatshemight
bepregnant?
Ilookedupatherandsawdesperationmixedwithfearonherface.Sheneededmetosaveher,totellherthat
everythingwasgoingtobeokay.Buttruthbetold,Iwasfeelingthesameshitasshedid.Iwasalsonervousas
hellandhonestly,Ihadfeelingsofhopeandjoyinmeaswell.
Ababy...
Idraggedmyhandthroughmyhairandstooduptowalkovertoher.Ispunheraroundandembracedherwith
myarms.Shehuggedmetightly,likeIwasheracrewhoheldherinplace.
It'sokay,baby.It'sgoingtobeokay,Isoothedherandswayedusslightly.
Iheldherforawhileinmyarms,Iknewnooneofuswasgoingtoworktoday.Wehadotherthingstodothat
hadhigherpriority.
Waithereasec,Ineedtofixsomething,Itoldherandledherovertooneofthebarstoolswhereshesat
down.
Iwalkedintoourbedroomtosearchforherphone.Itshouldbeintheresomewhere.Ifounditonhernightstand
andscrolleddowntoherofficenumber.
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AroVolturi,thevoiceontheotherendsaid.
Aro,it'sEdward,Itoldhim.
Edward!heexclaimedexcitedly.WhatcanIdoforyou?
Look,Idon'thavemuchtimetotalk,Itoldhimapologetically.IjustcalledtoletyouknowthatBellawon't
beabletocomeintoday.
Isitsomethingbad?heaskedconcerned.
No,she'sjustnotfeelingverywell.Ishouldprobablygocheckonher,Ijustwantedtoletyouknow.
Ofcourse.Tellherthatshedoesn'thavetocomeinuntilshe'sfeelingbetter.
Iwill,thankyou,Isaidandhungup.
Icalledmyofficequicklyaswell,lettingthemknowIwouldn'tbeabletomakeit.ThenIwentbacktoBella.
ShewasstillsittingwhereIhadlefther,shelookedalittlebitlessscaredandwaslookingmorethoughtful.
Hey,areyouokay?Iaskedgently,hunchingdowninfrontofher.
Yeah,Ithinkso,sheansweredandnoddedherhead.
Okay,comeonthen.Istoodupandgrabbedherhandtobringheralongwithme.Weneedtofindoutfor
sure.
Whatdoyoumean?Aren'twegoingtowork?
No,Icalledusbothinsicktoday.IwanttoknowrightawayandIdon'tthinkanyofuscouldconcentrate
enoughtoactuallywork,right?
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Oh.Yeah,you'reprobablyright.
Weputourshoesandjacketsonbeforepracticallyrunningtotheelevator.Whenwefinallyreachtheground
floor,IdraggedherouttomyVolvoandsteeredustowardthenearestdrugstore.
Wherearewegoing?Bellawhispered.
Tothedrugstore.Theyhavethosetests,right?Iaskedinsecure.Ihadnoexperienceinthatdepartment.
Umm,yeah,Ithinkso.
Whenwehadarrivedandactuallyfoundthetests,itwasn'taseasyasjusttograbone.Thereweresomany
options.Whycouldn'ttheyjusthaveonewhereitstood'Areliablepregnancytest'onit?
Whichoneshouldweget?Iwhispered.
Ihavenoidea.Bellashruggedhershoulders.
Ijustgrabbedone,theywereprobablyallthesameanyway,right?Then,ItookBella'shandanddraggedherto
thecheckout.
Justbecauseofourunbelievableluck,therewasaflirty,littleblondeteenagegirlsittingbythecounter.Itmade
Bellawraponeofherarmsaroundmewaistpossessivelyandrestherheadonmyarm.
Imadesuretoshowthegirlmyweddingbandandtherecouldbenowaythatshemissedwhatwebought,but
still,shelookedatmefromunderherlashesandlickedherlips.
IquicklypaidherbeforeBellawoulddosomethingshewasgoingtoregretlateron.NotthatIdidn'tlikewhen
shebecamepossessiveaboutme,Iwasjusteagertogethome.Wehadbiggerthingstodothantogetintoacat
fightaboutme.
Doyouwantmetocomewithyou?Iaskedhercarefullywhenwegotbacktotheapartment.
Iknewthatsheprobablywantedtopeealone,butshejustlookedsoscaredandnervousthatIhadtooffermy
help.
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No,it'sfine.I'llcomeoutwhenI've...peedonthestick,shesaid,wavingtheboxwiththetestinfrontofher.
Okay,I'lljustwaitoutherethen.Ipointedtowardthecouch.It'sgoingtobeokay,Bella.Ibentdownto
giveherapeckbeforesheclosedthebedroomdoorbehindher.
Bellacameoutfromthebedroomafewminuteslater,holdingthatlittlestickinhershakinghands.Shelooked
justasnervousasIfelt,andIdidn'tblameher.Thatstickwouldmaybetellussomelifechangingnews,andit
wasn'teverydayyouhadtogothroughthat.
Comehere,Isaid,pattingthespotnexttomeonthecouch.
Shecameoverandsatasclosetomeasshepossiblycould,placingthestickonthecoffeetableinfrontofus.
It'ssupposedtotakethreeminutesbeforewecanseeanyresult,shestated.
Thenwe'llwait.
Shegrabbedmyrighthandinbothhersandsqueezed.Igaveheronebackandthenwesatinsilence,waiting
toseehowourfuturewasgoingtolooklike.
Edward,I'mscared,Bellasaidinashakyvoice.
Metoo,baby,butit'sgoingtobeokay.
ThefunnythingwasthatIhadnoideawhat'okay'was.WasIhopingforababy?OrwasIhopingforonein
thefuture,justnotsosoon?
Ilookedovertotheclockonthemicrowave.It'stime.
Okay...umm,youcanlookfirst,Bellamumbled.
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EndNotes:
A/N:ItwasawhilesinceIleftyouwithacliffy.IthoughtitwasabouttimeIdidit)
So,whatdidyouthink?DoyouwantthemtohavealittlebabyCullen,orisittoo
soon?Letmeknowwhatyouthink!
Nextupdate:WednesdayAugust11th.
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Findthequoteinthischapterandyou'llberewardedwithapreviewofchapter22!
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Christmas
BPOV
It'stime,Edwardsaid.
Okay...umm,youcanlookfirst,Imumbled,curlinguptoaballagainsthissideandhidmyfaceinhis
shoulder.
Iwasscaredshitlessabouttheresult.Iwasalsoconfusedaboutmyfeelingsapartofmewasn'treadyforkids
yetwhiletheothersidelongedforalittleminiEdwardrunningaround.
IheardEdwardletoutabigsighbeforewhisperingsolowIcouldbarelyhearhim,It'snegative.
Justlikethat,itwaslikemywholefutureflashedinfrontofmymindwithEdward,kids,marriage,summer
vacations,grandchildreneverything.
Ididn'tsayanythingbecause,whatwastheretosayanyway?Ijustturnedmyheadandstaredintothebackof
thecouch,huggingEdward'sarmalittletighter,tryingtogivehimsomecomfort.Iknewhowexcitedhewas
forkids,Ihadseenitinhisfaceearlierwhenwerushedtothedrugstore.
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Bella?Edwardasked.
Icouldherthedesperationinhisvoice,andthetears.Hehadobviouslytakenthelackofababyhard.Ihadtoo,
butmaybenotashardashehad.
I'msosorry,Isaidandthenthetearsstartedrollingdownmycheeksaswell.
Ishouldn'thavepushedyouintotakingthattest.Heshookhishead.
Iwouldhavetakenoneevenifyouhadn'tpushedme,Edward.
ItookhisheadinmyhandsandpushedhimdowntomychestasIleanedback.Helayontopofme,hugging
mewhileIwashugginghimback.
Welaylikethat,justhuggingeachother,insilenceforawhile.Wewerebothsodisappointedthatsomehow,I
couldfeelitintheair.ItwaslikeIcouldtouchitwithmyhands,thatwashowwellIcouldfeelit.
Howlateareyou?Edwardwhisperedintothecrookofmyneck.
UmIcountedthedaysinmyheadaboutaweekandahalf.
Ifeltashenoddedhishead.That'sprettylate,isn'tit?
Yeah,I'veneverbeenthatlatebefore.That'swhy...Itrailedoff.
Shh,it'sokay,hesoothed.Doyouthinktherecouldbeanotherreasontowhyyou'rethatlate?
Stressmaybe.Ishruggedmyshoulder.Myunderweight.Idon'treallyknow.
Maybeweshould...hestarted,butIcuthimoff.
No!Nodoctors,okay?Promiseme,Idemanded.
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Fine,Ipromise,butonlyifyoupromisemethatifyoumissoutonthenextoneaswell,thenwe'llgo.
Deal.ThatwasthebestIcouldget,Iknewit.
Welaysilentagainforawhile.Atfirst,IthoughtEdwardhadfallenasleep,butthenhestartedmovinghishand
upanddownmyside.
Doyouwanttoknowsomethingfunny?Iasked.Although,it'snotreallyfunny.
Sure.
Exceptwater,childbirthismybiggestfearinmylife.That'swhyIgotsoscaredoverthepossibilitythatI
mightbepregnant,butwhenyousaidthattheresultwasnegative...Ididn'tfeelrelieved.Ifeltdisappointed.I
wantedthatbaby,Edward.
Metoo,Bella.Sobadly.Hereacheduptokissme.
Itwasawetkiss,andnotbecauseofourmouthsbutbecauseofthetearsthatrolleddownbothourcheeks.It's
strangehowyourealizehowbadlyyouwantsomethingwhenyoudon'thaveit.
Neitherofuswenttoworkthatday.Instead,wejustlaidonthecouch,watchingmovies.Edwardthrewthetest
awayatsomepoint.Itbecametoohardtohaveitlyingthere,staringatus.
IwokeupearlyonChristmasDay,justlikeakid,butitwasafterallChristmasandIhadthingsIwantedtodo.
LiketocookanamazingbreakfastforEdward.HedeservedoneandIwantedthisChristmastobespecial,and
notlikeanyotherday.
IhaddecidedonmakingthosepancakesthatEdwardlovedthelasttimeImadethem.Theywereeasyenough.
Besides,IhadfoundathingthatmadethepancakeslooklikeheartswhenIhadbeenshoppingtheotherday.
IcutsomestrawberriesandlaythemonthetraybesidethepancakessinceIknewEdwardlovedthem.ThenI
wenttograbhisChristmaspresentfromthehidingspotandplaceditalongwiththeotherstuffonthetray.The
onlythingthatwasmissingwastheroseandthenitwouldbecomplete.
Wheneverythingwasready,Itookthetrayandtiptoedbacktothebedroom.Edwardwasstillsleeping,soI
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putthetraydownonthefloorbeforeIsatonthebed.Hedidn'treacttothemovementssoIlaymywholebody
ontopofhisandstartedkissinghisface,endingwithabiggerkissonhislips.
Mm,goodmorning,hemumbledagainstmylips.
MerryChristmas,Edward.Ikissedhimagainandthistime,heresponded.Neitherofuscaredaboutmorning
breath.
MerryChristmas,hesaidwhenwepulledback.Hegavemeapeckandthensaid,Iloveyou.
Iloveyou,too.IgotupfromhimandmovedtowhereIhadputthetray.Imadeussomebreakfast.
Youmadeallthis?heaskedindisbeliefwhenIputthetrayinfrontofhim.Ijustnoddedmyheadandbitmy
lip,hopinghewouldlikeit.Isthisthepancakes...?
Yeah,Ijustshapedthemdifferently,Itoldhim,suddenlyfeelingverynervous.
They'reperfect,Bella.It'salmostlikeIdon'twanttoeatthemsoIdon'tdestroythem.
Helookedsocute,eventhoughhehateditwhenIcalledhimcute,thatIjusthadtolaughathim.
Justeatthem!Icanmakemore,Isaid.
Hedivedinandmoanedasheputthefirstpieceofpancakeinhismouth.Ijustsatthereandwatchedasheate,
fascinatedoverhowmuchhecouldeatatonce.
Aren'tyougoingtoeat?heasked,takingabitofstrawberrytohismouth.
IblinkedafewtimestosnapoutofitbeforeInoddedmyheadanddugintothepancakes.Atfirst,wesatin
silence,butafterawhile,westartedtalkingaboutnothingandeverything.Welaughedalotanditfeltreally
goodtobeabletodoso.
What'sthis?Edwardaskedwhenhewasdone,takingtheenvelopethatheldhisChristmaspresent.
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It'smyChristmaspresenttoyou.Iwasfeelingnervousagain.
Whatifhewouldn'tlikeit?
Oh.Waithere,I'vegotyouoneaswell.Hegotupfromthebed,leavingmewiththebreakfast.
IfinishedmystrawberrieswhilewaitingforEdward.Hedidn'ttakelongandwasbackagainafterafew
minutes.
So,whoshouldgofirst?heaskedandsatbackonthebed.
Well,sinceIgaveyouyoursfirst,it'sonlyfairthatyoustart,Isaid.
Henoddedandsmiledexcitedly.Thenhemovedontoopentheenvelope.Iwipedmypalmsonthebedsheet
sincetheyhadbecomesweatyandIwasn'twearinganypants.Icouldn'tbelievehowIcouldbenervousabout
givingEdwardhisChristmaspresent,butIwas.
LosAngeles?heaskedsurprised.
Mhm.Inoddedmyhead.
YougotmeticketstoLosAngeles?heaskedagain.
Actually,Igaveyoutickets.Ithoughtsinceweneverhadahoneymoon,wecouldgoononenow,orit'sina
month,butanyway.Yousaidyoudidn'twanttoflyacrosstheAtlanticanytimesoon,so,Irambled.
Baby,stoprambling.Iloveit,andIloveyou.Sofuckingmuch!
Heputthetrayawayandwasontopofmeinaflash,kissingandtouchingme.Ididn'tminditatall,infact,I
eagerlyrespondedtohisactions.
Wait,youneedtoopenyoursaswell,hesaidwhenthingsstartedtoheatup.
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Oh,right.Ihadcompletelyforgottenaboutmypresent.Thenyouneedtogetoffme.Igiggled.
Hereluctantlywenttositbackonhisspotagainandhandedmethepresent.ItwasbiggerthantheenvelopeI
hadgivenhim,butnotmuch.
Iunwrappedthepaper.Ihadnoclueonwhatitcouldbe,allIknewwasthatitwasflatandnotveryheavy.
ItturnedouttobeanAmazonKindle.
Ifiguredsinceyouliketoreadalot,butalwaysforgetwhichbookyouactuallyread.Itwasamazinghow
wellheknewme.Nowyouhaveonethingtolookfor,butyoucanhaveoverahundredbooksinit.
Itwasperfect.ItwassoperfectthatIcouldn'tbelievehowIhadneverthoughtaboutgettingonebefore.
Also,it'sloadedwitheveryJaneAustenbooksoutthereandeverybookwrittenbyBarbaraErskine,he
added.
Thankyou,Ibreathedout.Buthowdidyouknow?
JaneAustenwasn'tveryhardsinceyoulovethemovies,heanswered,knowingexactlywhatImeant.AndI
hadmyresourcesonBarbara.Hesmirked.
Youandyourresources,Imumbledandbentforwardtogivehimakiss.
Heleanedbackandbroughtmealongwithhim.Ididn'tdeepenthekiss,though.Ijustwantedtolaywithhim
forawhile,snugglingandenjoythemomenttogether.ThiswasgoingtobeourfirstChristmas.
So,whatdoyouwanttodotoday?Edwardasked,movinghisfingersupanddownmyarmwhileIlayon
hischest.
Idon'tknow,Isaid,shruggingmyshoulders.Maybewecouldtakeawalkorsomethingbeforedinner?
Sure,IbetElsawouldlovethat,heanswered.
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Yeah.Isnuggledclosertohimandhetightenedhisgriponme.
Eventuallywegotupfrombed.Idressedinapairofskintightjeans,agraytanktopandalongblacksweater.
Itwascasual,butnotsloppyandIwantedtoatleastlooknicetodayeventhoughwewouldn'tactuallysee
someone.
Justlikewesaid,wedidtakeawalktogether.Itwasalongoneanditremindedmealotofamovie.Weheld
hands,smiledateachotherandlaughedalot.Elsaseemedhappyaswellandwalkedforaslongasherlegs
carriedher.Whichwasn'tverylongandwehadtocarryherforabit.Ihadboughtheradogcoatsoshewasn't
coldatleast.
EdwardandIspenttherestofthedaymakingdinner.Itwaspotatogratinandmeat.AsfordessertImadehome
madeicecream,arecipethatIhadgottenfrommyGrandmother.
Afterwebothwerefullwithfoodandicecream,wewentontowatchingmovies.TheywereallChristmas
movies,soatleastwegotthemoodright.WehadjustfinishedwatchingthelastonewhenEdwardstarted
actingstrange.
EPOV
Iwasnervousashell.Whatifshedidn'tanswerlikeIwanted,whatifshewouldjustthreweverythingaway
andrun?Whatif,whatif?Alwayswhatif.
Idriedmysweatypalmsonmyjeansandgotoffthecouch,gettingdownononekneeinfrontofher.
Thisisit!
Iknowyousaidthatwewouldtalkaboutthislater,butIcouldn'thelpmyself,sojustpleasehearmeout
beforeyousayanything.
Shenoddedherhead.What'swrong,Edward?Areyousick?Whyareyoudownthere?thequestionspoured
outofher.
Ichuckledathersinceshehadjustpromisedtohearmeoutbeforesayinganything,andyet,hereshewas,
askingquestionafterquestion.
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Ifyouwouldjustlisten,youwouldfindout.Thistime,shenoddedherheadandkeptquiet.IsabellaMarie,I
promisetoloveyoueverymomentofforever.Willyoupleasestaymarriedtome?
Iopenedthesmallboxandrevealedthering.Itwasonlyhalfsofar.Theotherhalfwassupposedtobegivento
herattheweddingceremony,orinourcase,whenweredoourwows.TheringIgavehertodaywasjusta
silverbandwithafewdiamondsinit.Simple,butclassy.
IlookedupatBellaandsawthatshehadtearsinhereyes,butshewasstillsmilingwhilebitingherliplikeshe
usuallydoeswhenshe'sexcitedornervous.
Yes,shefinallywhisperedandnoddedherhead.
Youmakemesofuckinghappy,baby,Isaidandremovedheroldweddingbandbeforeslidingonthenew
'engagementring.'
Iloveyou,Edward.Somuch.
Shethrewherarmsaroundmyneckandjoinedmeonthefloor.Shestartedkissingmeforcefully,andIeagerly
responded.
Iloveyou,too,Itriedtosay,butitwasclosetoimpossiblewhilesheinsultedmylips.
Iknewwherethiswasgoing,andIdidn'twanttomakeloveonthelivingroomfloorafterjustproposingtoher,
evenifshealreadywasmywife.So,Isatup,takingheralongwithmeandstoodup.Sheautomatically
wrappedherselfaroundmesoshewouldn'tfall.
Iletusfallontopofthebedandimmediately,Bella'shandsstartedtoroamallovermybody,justlikeminedid
onhers.Itriedtotakehersweateroff,butitdidn'tworkoutasIplanned.
Fuckingsweater,Icursed,causingBellatolaugh.Oh,youthinkit'sfunnythatIcan'tgetyounaked,huh?
Shejustshookherhead'no.'Fine,thenatleasthelpmewiththisshit.
Shewriggledherselffreefromunderneathmeandsatup,removinghersweaterwithease.Thenshecontinued
toremoveherotherclothesaswell,leavinghercompletelynakedinfrontofme.Icouldn'tdoanythingbutstare
atthebeautifulgirlinfrontofme.
Areyoujustgoingtositthereandstare,orareyougoingtogetnakedsometimetoday?sheaskedand
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cookedandeyebrowatme.
Sorry,Iofferedandremovedmyclothesaswell.
Shelaybackagainstthepillows,itwaslikeshewasmovinginslowmotionjustlikewhenImovedtohover
aboveher.Idippedmyheaddownandgaveherakiss.Shemovedherhandstomybackandgentlypushed
down,makingmeputmoreofmyweightontopofher.
ImovedmyhanddowntoherpussyandfoundthatitwasdrippingwetalreadyandIhadhardlytouchedher
yet.
Fuck,you'resowet,Bella.
Onlyforyou,shemumbledagainstmylipsandletoutamoanwhenIenteredafingerinhertightwarmth.I
wantyou,Edward.
Mywifewasn'tmuchforforeplay,sheusuallypreferredtogettothebigthingsrightaway.Ididn'tcomplain,
though.ShewentdownonmeoftenjustlikeIwentdownonher,butsometimesIwantedtoenjoyherbody
everywaypossible.
Wehavetime,baby,Ireassuredherandaddedanotherfinger.
Icontinuedtopumpmyfingersforawhile,kissingherhardasIdidso.Shedidn'tcomplainagain,butwhen
shegrabbedmycockinhersmallhandasiftochallengeme,Iknewweneededtogettothedeedsoonbecause
IwasabouttocumandIwantedtodothatinsideher.
Youwin,Itoldher,butIdon'tthinksheheardmesinceshewasreallyclosetoherrelease.
Iwithdrewmyfingers,makingherwhimperandpout,butthatwasquicklyreplacedwithpurelustasI
positionedmyselfatherentrance.
Iloveyou,baby,ItoldherasIslowlypushedintoher.
Fuck,she'stight!
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IalwayshadproblemstocontrolmyselfasIenteredher.ShewasstillsotightthatIcouldcumassoonasthe
headwasinside.
Iloveyou,too,BellamoanedasIwasfullyinsideher.
WhenIstartedmoving,sheplacedherhandonmyshoulder,stoppingmymyactions.
What'swrong?Iaskedworriedly.
Ijust...Shelookedhesitant.Ijustwanttomakethismomentlastlonger,ifyouknowwhatImean?
Iknow,IsaidandkissedthetipofhernosebeforeIslowlystartedmovingagain.
ImovedallthewayoutsojusttheheadwasinsideofherbeforeIslowlymovedbackinside.Itookoneof
Bella'slegstowrapitaroundmywaistandshequicklyfollowedwiththeother.Sheheldontomefordearlife
aswerockedourbodiestogether.
AllthewhileImovedinandoutofher,Icouldn'tstopstaringintohergorgeous,browneyesandshenever
oncebrokemystare.
Ourlovemakingwasintensethistime.ItwassointensethatIthoughtIwasgoingtocry.Everycellofmy
bodyradiatedmyloveforher,justlikeIcouldfeelherloveforme.
I'mclose.Pleasemoveslower,Bellabeggedafterawhile.
Itwouldseemlikeastrangerequesttosome,buttome,itmadeallthesenseintheworld,soIsloweddownto
barelyanymovementatall.
Shemovedherarmsfrommybicepstocradlemyface.Shepushedmyheaddowntokissmewhichonlymade
thesexevenmoreintense.Ipouredallmyloveandneedintothatkiss.
ItwasstartingtogethardtoholdbackmyreleasebythatpointandIknewthatIwouldhavetostopmovingifI
wantedtocontinue.
Idon'tthinkIcanlastmuchlonger,baby,Imoaned.
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Justalittlebitlonger.I'mrighttherewithyou.ShearchedherbackandIcouldfeelhertitsagainstmychest,
whichdidn'tmakethingsanyeasieratall.
Itriedtokeepmymindoccupiedwithotherthingsjusttoholdbackmyrelease,butitwashardbecauseallI
couldthinkofwasBella.Howgreatshefeltwithherpussytightlywrappedaroundmcock,herkisses,hertits
andmostofall:herlove.
Fuck,you'retight,Isaidoutloud.
Ugh,wasallshesaidback.
Icouldtellbythewayherlegsstartedquiveringandherwallsstartedcontractonmethatshewasclose.
That'sright,Bella.Cumforme...please,Ibegged.
Edward,shemoaned.I'm...shit!Edward!
Hermouthformedthehottestlittle'O'IhadeverseenandthatbecamemyundoingasIgaveintothepleasure
andreleasedintoherasherpussymilkedmedry.
IcollapsedontopofherfromexhaustionandbreathedheavilyasIcamedownfrommyhigh.Afterawhile,I
realizedthatshemustbecrushedundermesoIdraggedmybodyuponmyelbowsandstartedpullingoutof
her.ShewhimperedasIdidso,butitwasn'tfrompain.
Irememberthatyouoncepromisedmethatwecouldgotosleeplikethat,shesaidtiredly.
AndIremembertellingyouthatitwouldbelikeheaven,Iansweredher.
Thatyoudid,andIthinkyou'reright.Shemovedtolayherheadontopofmychest.
Iloveyou,Itoldher.
AsIloveyou.
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Weweresilentandafterawhile,IthoughtBellawasasleepandwasabouttodothesamewhenshebrought
meback.
Whenwe...um,whenwehavesex,shestammered.YoukeepsayingthatI'mtight.
Icouldfeeltheheatrushingtohercheekssinceshewaslyingonmybarechest,butIcouldn'tunderstandwhy
shewouldbeembarrassedtotalkaboutoursexlifebythatpoint.
Justspititout,baby.Ichuckled.
Shepunchedmeplayfullyonmyribsbeforecontinuing,Isthatreallyagoodthing?Imean,itmusthurtyou,
right?
What?No,ofcourseitdoesn'thurtme!Itgivesmealotofpleasureactually,Ireassuredher.
Oh.Shedrewsomepatternsonmychestwithherfinger.ButhowcanIstillbetightwhenwe'vehadsexso
manytimesalready?
Ihavenoidea,butI'mnotcomplaining.
Shedidn'tseemtohaveanymorequestionsafterthat,asshestayedquiet.Afterawhile,though,Ifeltherbody
quiverfromthecold.So,IstartedgettingupsoIcouldgethertshirtforher,andsomepantiesifIcouldfind
any.
Whereareyougoing?shemumbled.
I'mgettingyousomeclothes.
Ifoundher,itwasactuallymine,regulartshirtthatsheworntobedandapairofpurplepanties.Igavethemto
her,butsheonlytookthetshirt.
What'swrongwiththepanties?IaskedeventhoughIdidn'tmindherwithoutthem.
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Yourjizzwillruinthem.Sheburiedherfaceinherhandsfromembarrassment.
Hey,comeon,don'thidefromme!Ithrewthepantiesawayandlaybackbesideher.It'snothingtobe
ashamedof.
Sheremovedherhandsandlookedupatme.Thensheputthetshirtonandresumedherpreviousposition.
BPOV
Myphonewasringing,butitwaswaytooearlytogetup.Besides,itwasn'taworkday,somyphoneshouldn't
makethosehorriblesoundsatall.
Turnitthefuckoff,baby,Edwardgrumbledextremelytiredfrombehindme,snugglingevencloserinmy
hair.
Ididn'tevenbothertoopenmyeyes,Iwastootiredforthat.Edwardhadmeinavicegrip,thoughsoIhad
somebigproblemsgettingcloseenoughtoreachmyphone.
Thenyouneedtoloosenyourgriponme,Igroaned.
Ifeltashisgripeased,buthedidn'tletmegocompletely.ItwasenoughsoIcouldreachthephone,though.
Hello?I'mnotsurethepersonontheotherendevenheardme.
Bella?Listen,RoseandIareinthehospital...Emmettsaid.
Ididn'thearanythingelse.Suddenly,Iwascompletelyawake,andEdwardwasstoppingmefromgettingout
ofbed.
Edward,letgoofme!Iyelledathim.
Heonlytightenedhisgripwhichonlymademeannoyed.I,orwe,neededtogotothehospitalandwewould
getnowhereifhedidn'tletgo.
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Bella!Emmettscreamedintothephone.Ihadforgottenabouthim.It'snothingserious,youdon'tneedto
come.Ijustwantedtoletyouknow.
We.Are.Coming,Isaidthroughclenchedteeth.Edwardstillhadn'tletmegosoIwasannoyed,anditwas
Roseweweretalkingabout.IknewIwantedhertocomeifthesituationwouldhavebeenreversed.
Fine,Emmettgaveup.
Edward,letmegonow,oryourballsaregoingtogethurt,Ithreatened.
Okay,I'mhangingupnow,Emmettsaidandhungup.Ihadn'trealizedIstillwasonthephonewithhim.
Why?Ilikeithere,hemumbledandnuzzledfurtherintome.
BecauseRoseandEmmettareinthehospital,Iexplained.
What?heaskedsurprised.Isitserious?
Um,no,Idon'tthinkso,butwe'regoing.HefinallyreluctantlyletgoofmeandIstormedoutofbedand
startedlookingforapairofpantiesandjeans.Itwastoodarktoseeanything,though.
Ifit'snotserious,thenwhyarewegoing?Edwardaskedconfusedfromthebed.
Because...IstartedwhenIfinallyfoundapairofjeansandputthemon.Because,Iknowthatifitwould've
beenme...Iwasn'tabletofinishthesentence.Itstillhurtprettybadlyeventhoughithadbeenalmostaweek
agosincewefoundouttherewasn'tanybabyforusyet.
Okay,we'llgo.Hesighedandgotupfrombed.
Iwenttoturnonthelightsoitwouldbeeasiertosee.Itwasn'tsopopularwithEdward,though.
Fuck,Bella!Thatwasnotnecessary!
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Sorry,Imumbledandturnedthelightoffagain.I'llbewaitingbythedoor.Pleasehurry.
Iwentouttothehallwaytoputmyshoesandjacketon.Ididn'tcarethatIonlyhadEdward'stshirtandjeans
on.Iwantedtogettothehospitalasquicklyaspossible.Besides,whowouldcareabouthowIwasdressed?
WhenEdwardcame,helookedverytiredwithhisbedhairandsleepyeyes.Hehadatleastfoundapairof
jeansandanoldhoodietowear.Hewasinnostatetodrive,thatwasforsure,soIgrabbedmycarkeysand
impatientlytappedmyfoot.
Relax,baby.We'llgetthere,hesaid.
Notifyoudon'thurryupalittle,Isaidimpatiently.
Eventually,hehadfinallyputhisshoesandjacketon,andwewereonourwaytothehospital.Edwardfell
asleepassoonashehadputhisseatbelton,hedidn'tevenargueaboutthechoiceofcar.
Iwokehimuponcewehadarrived.Ithadbeenaquickdrivesincetherewasn'tmuchtrafficatthistimeofthe
day,ornightinourcase.
Iplacedmysmallhandinhisbiggeroneandheldontightly,afraidofwhatwaswaitingforusbehindthe
doors,eventhoughEmmetthadtoldmethatitwasn'tanythingserious.Ihadalwayshatedhospitals.
Hi,I'mlookingforRosalieandEmmettMcCarty,Itoldthenursebehindthedesk.
They'reonthethirdfloortoyourright,sheansweredandwentbacktoherwork.
Thanks,Isaideventhoughshedidn'tcare.
WewalkedovertotheelevatorsandIpressedfloornumberthree.
They'reokay,Bella,Edwardsaid,sensingmymood.
Iknow,Imumbled,butIwasstillworried.
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Whenwegottothefloor,wefoundEmmettpacingoutsideacloseddoor.Helookedtiredandstressedout.
Hey,man.Whyareyououthere?Edwardaskedhim.
Hey.Um,they'retakingsometestsonRosieandLily.Theyneededmetostepoutforawhile.Hesighedand
rubbedhisfacewithhispalm.
Okay,comeon.Let'ssitdownwhilewewait,Isaidandpointedtowardthechairsalongthewall.
Weallsatdownandafterawhile,Edwardbecametootiredagainandlaydownuncomfortableonthechairs
withhisheadinmylap.Istartedcaressinghishairthewayhelikeditandhewasoutwithinseconds,I
continuedmovingmyfingersinhishair,though.Itseemedtohaveacalmingeffectonmeaswell.
Fifteenminuteslater,anursestepsoutofRose'sroomandEmmettlookedatme.Icouldtellthathereally
wantedtogoinsidebyhimselfsoInodded,lettinghimknowthatitwasokay.
Hecamebackafewminuteslater,tellingmethatIcouldgoinifIwantedto.Idid,soIcarefullylifted
Edward'sheadoffmylapandplacedmyjacketunderneathitinstead.Hecontinuedtosleep,though,soIwent
toRose.
Ipeekedinsideandsawheronthebed,lyingonherside,facingthedoor.Shelookedtired,butatleastshe
lookedhealthy.
Hi,Iwhisperedandwalkedovertoher.
Hi.Shesmiled.Thankyouforcoming.Youdidn'thaveto...
Iwantedto,sothere'snoneedtothankme,Icutheroffandsmiled.
EPOV
Where'sAliceandJasper?IaskedEmmettwhenIcouldn'tsleepanylonger.
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JasperwasabletoholdAliceathomeafterIexplainedthesituationtohim.
Yeah.Iprobablywould'vetooifyouhadcalledmeinstead.
Sorry,butRoseinsistedoncallingBella.Alicejustdidn'tpickup,that'swhyItalkedtoJasperinstead,he
defendedhimself.
Igaveup.Hehadagoodreason,butIwasstilltiredandwouldhavelovedtobeinbedwithBellainsteadofin
thehospital.
So,whathappenedanyway?Iasked.
Rosehadn'tfeltLilyforawhileandstartedtoworry.So,wecamehereandtheydidafewtestsandshit,and
thenshestartedmovingagain.TheywanttokeepRosetonightforobservation,butwecangohome
tomorrow.
Wow,Isaidinlackofanythingelse.Ihadnoideawhattosay.
Yeah,itwassomescaryshit,butatleastnowthey'rebothsafe.
I'mgladtheyare,Itoldhim.
WhenBellahadn'tcomeoutfromtheroomafteranhour,EmmettandIdecidedthatitwastimeforustogoin.
WefoundRoseandBellabothlyingonthebed,facingeachother.Itwasamazinghowtheycouldbothfitin
thatsmallhospitalbed,butthenagain,Bellawasn'tverybig.
Roseopenedhereyeswhenshehearuscomein,butBelladidn'tmove.Rosemovedonefingertohermouth,
tellingustobequietwhichcouldonlymeanthatBellahadfinallyfallenasleep.
Areyouokay?IwhisperedtoRose.Shenoddedherheadinresponse.
IlookeddowntoBella,shewascurledupbesideRoseandwaspeacefullyasleep.Hermouthwasformedinto
thatadorablelittlepoutasitusuallydoeswhenshesleeps.
I'lltakehersoyoucangetsomerest,IwhisperedandbentdowntopickBellaup.
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Thankyouforcoming.Really,Rosesaid.
Itwashardnotto,Itoldher.I'llseeyouonNewYear'sEve,right?
Theybothnoddedandsmiled.WesaidourgoodbyesbeforeIwalkedoutoftheroomwithBellainmyarms.
Shemusthavebeenreallytiredsinceshedidn'tseemtonoticethatIhadpickedherup.
IplacedherinthepassengerseatwhenIreachedhercar.Shemumbled'Edward'whenIdidso,butshedidn't
wakeup.
EventhoughIdidn'tlikeit,IknewIhadtodrivethecar.Therewasn'tmuchtrafficthisearly,butstill,people
wouldsee.Ontopofthat,Iwastootallforacarlikethat,whichmadeithardformetodrivesincemylegs
didn'treallyfit.
Bellawokeupslightlywhenwearrivedattheapartment,butshewasquicklyoutagain.SowhenIgotinside
ourapartment,Icarriedherstraighttobedandlayherdownontopofit.ThenIremovedherjacket,shoesand
jeansbeforeliftingthecovertoherchin.WhenIwasdoneaswell,Ijoinedher.
Whenwewokeupthenexttime,neitherofusmadethemovetogetup.Wejustlaythere,talkingandcuddling
underthewarmcover.
Bellaheldupherhandupinfrontofusandlookedattheengagementring.Wehaddecidedtoredoourvows
onouroneyearanniversary.Thatwasalmostsevenmonthsintothefuture.
DoyouthinkthatIdidn'tgoforaannulment,becauseIknewdeepdownthatIbelongedwithyou?she
askedthoughtfully.
Iliketothinkso,yeah,Isaid.
Wait,didshejustsay'annulment?'
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EndNotes:
A/N:So,nobabyCullen...yet!You'lljusthavetowaitandseewhatIhaveinstorefor
youguys!)
WhatdoyouthinkBellameantbythatlastsentence?Letmeknow!
Nextupdate:SundayAugust15th.
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NewYear'sEvebyGelix
Author'sNotes:
A/N:Thequoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'Eclipse'anditcouldalsobeseeninthe
trailer,that'swhyIpickeditsinceIknownotallofyouhaveseenityet!
"IsabellaMarieSwan,Ipromisetoloveyoueverymomentofforever."
ThequoteinthischapterisactuallyfromasongIjustchangedoneword.It'savery
knownsongsoyoushouldbeabletopickitout.Dothat,andyou'llgetapreview!:)
Goodiesathttp:/marriedtitheenemy.blogg.se
Discmalimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplot!
NewYear'sEve
BPOV
"Whatdidyoujustsay?"Edwardasked.
"Hm?"Ilookedupathim.
"Youknewaboutthewholeannulmentthing?"
"Well,yeah."Ithoughtitwaskindofobvious."Didn'tyou?"
He,frustrated,draggedhishandthroughhishairandgotupfromthebed.Heputonapairofjeansandatshirt
beforeheturnedbacktofaceme.
"Whydidn'tyoutellme?"hedemanded.
"Icouldaskyouthesamething,"Ishotback,feelingannoyedallofasudden."Whyareyouactingso
surprised?I'mnotstupid,Edward.Ihavemyresourcestoo!"
Iwasinfactraisedbyacop,mybestfriend'sdadwasalawyerandthentherewasalwaystheInternet.LikeI
said,Ihadmyresourcestoo.
"I'msorry."Heletoutafrustratedsighanddraggedhishandthroughhishairagain."It'sjust...whereyou
planningonleavingme?"
Iwishedhehadn'tgonethere.Ididn'twanttolietohim,butIdidn'twanttohurthimeither.
"I'mnotgoingtolie.Ididconsiderit,yes,"Itoldhiminawhisper.
Henoddedhisheadsadlyandsatdownonthebedagain,buthehadhisbackturnedtowardmethistime.
"Whydidn'tyouthen?"heaskedafterawhile.
"Becauseyouweren'ttheguywhousedtobemeantomeinhighschool.Youturnedouttobethissweet,
caringguywhowouldjumpinfrontofabusforme,"Itoldhim."Youturnedouttobemysavior...myhero."
IfelttearsburningbehindmyeyelidsasIspoketohimfromthebottomofmyheart.Ihadneveradmittedthis
beforeandIrealizedIwasonceagainnervousabouthisreaction.
"So,you'rereallystaying?"heaskedwithahintofasmileinhisvoice.
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IwalkedovertohimsoIwasstandingbetweenhislegs.IlookedintohiseyesandIsawhopemixedwithfear.
"Isn'tthisproofenoughthatIloveyou,andthatI'llstaywithyoufortherestofmylife?"Iasked,showinghim
myringfingerwhichheldmynewengagementring.
"Itis."Helookedguiltyallofasudden."I'msorryIfreakedoutonyou."
"Trust.Remember?"
"I'mworkingonit."
EdwardhuggedmywaisttightlyandIdippedmyheaddowntocapturehislipswithmyown.Itwasahungry
andintensekissandItriedtopourallmylovethatIhadforthismanintoit.
Wegotinterruptedbythephone.IcouldhearEdwardmutteralotofprofanitiesbeforepickingup.
ItwasEsmeandCarlislewhowonderedifwewantedtojointhemforlunchonNewYear'sEve.Theywanted
tospendtimewithussincewehadn'tmetupforChristmas,andtheyweregoingtocelebrateNewYear'sEve
inSeattleanyway.
Thenextdayscameandwent.BeforeIknewit,itwasNewYear'sEve.MyfirstonewithEdwardandit
wasn'tgoingtobethelast.Forthefirsttimeinmylife,Ihadsomeonetokisswhentheclockturnedmidnight,
andthatthoughtmademegiddy.
Weweresittinginthekitchen,eatingbreakfast.WehadafewhoursbeforeweweresupposedtomeetEsme
andCarlisleandafterthat,weweregoingtoSamandJanefortheirNewYear'sEvegettogether.Theyhad
invitedRoseandEm,AliceandJasper,andalsoJakeandLeah.Iwasactuallylookingforwardtoitinsteadof
beinganxiousaboutit.
"I'mgoingtotakeashower,"Iannouncedandputmycoffeecupinthedishwasher.
"Wantcompany?"Edwardaskedsmuglyfromhisseat.
"Hmm,letmethinkaboutthat,"Iteasedandpretendedtothinkaboutit.IknewitdrovehimcrazywhenIdid
that.
"Therewillbenothinkinginthishouse,"hesaidandwentovertome,throwingmeoverhisshoulder.
"Technicallywedon'tliveinahouse,"Ihuffedinmybestsmartasstone.
"Youbetterwatchitthere,baby,"hewarnedjokingly.
"Areyouplanningonfuckingmeoncewe'reintheshower?"Iaskedbluntly,notreallyknowingwhatIsaid
untilthewordswereoutanditwastoolate.
Wehadreachedthebathroom,buthehadn'tputmedown.Instead,hestillheldmefirmlyoverhisshoulderand
turnedthewateronintheshowersoitwouldwarmupbeforewesteppedin.
"Ilikethatideaverymuch,baby,"hegroanedandstartedstrokingmypantycladass.
Hefinallyputmedownandstartedundressingme.WhenIwasnaked,Iturnedawayfromhimandstepped
intotheshowerwithoutwaitingforhim.
"Sorry,butI'vechangedmymind,"Itoldhimwithabig,fakesigh.
"Isthatso."Hesmirkedashesteppedinsideinfrontofme.
HeknewIwantedhimjustasmuchashewantedme.Therewasnodenyingit,butIcouldalwaysplayaround.
Thathadneverhurtanyonebefore,right?
"Itisso,"IstatedasfirmlyasIcould.
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Hethensurprisedmebybringinghishandtocupmycrotchandbenthisheaddowntomyear."Thentellme
whyyourpussyisdrippingwetforme?"
Icouldn'ttakeitanymoresoIgrabbedhiswetfaceandcrashedmylipshardtohis.Heremovedhishandfrom
mypussyandbroughtittocupmyassinstead.Itwasn'tlongbeforehehadmewrappedaroundhiswaistand
pressedupagainstthecoldtilewall.
"Edward,please!"Ibeggedpatheticallywhenhetookoneofmynipplesintohismouth.
"Sorry,Ican'treadminds.Youhavetotellmewhatyouwant."Icouldheartheassholeinhimsmirkandit
drovemeinsane.
"Iwantyoutofuckme,Edward,"Imoanedhonestlyashestartedsuckingevenharder.
"Ithoughtyouhadchangedyourmind."
Couldhebemoreannoying?
"Well,Ichangeditagain.Now,fuckme."
"YouchangeyourmindlikeAlicechangesclothes,"hesaid.
BeforeIcouldsaysomethingback,he,withoutanywarning,slammedintomeandIcouldn'thelpthegaspthat
followed.
"Fuckinghell!"Edwardgrunted.
Hebarelygavemeanytimetorecoverandstartedmovingalmostinstantly.Ihadnoproblemswiththat,
though,sinceIwasjustaseagerashewas.
"Ugh...Edward,"Imoanedashestartedthrustingfaster.
Idugmyheelsintohisperfectassandtriedtomeethisthrust,butitwasnearlyimpossiblesoIdidmybestand
enjoyedthefeelingofhimmovinginandoutofme.
IfeltashestartedsuckingeagerlyonmyneckanditfeltsogoodthatIthrewmyheadback.Itwasn'tsucha
goodidea,though,sinceithurttohitthebackofmyheadagainstthetile.
"Edward."IwastryingtowarnhimthatIwasclose,butIdidn'twanttofallovertheedgewithouthim."Shit!"
"Youlikethat,Bella?"hegruntedandstartedmovingevenfasterifthatwaspossibleandhisthrustbecame
shallower."Letgoforme,baby."
Itwashiswords,mixedwiththebitehemadewherehehadbeensuckingonmyneck,thatmademefallover
andmylegsstartedtoshake.
EdwardthrustintomeafewmoretimesbeforehejoinedmeandIfelthishotliquidfillme.Hestilledaftera
momentandjustheldmeinhisarms.
"Areyouokay?"heaskedconcerned,brushingmynowwethairfrommyface.
"I'mmorethanokay."Ismileddownathimandgavehimakiss.
"SoIwasn'ttoorough?"
Ishookmyhead."No,you'remorethanwelcometodothatagain."
"Hmm,gladly,"hemumbledagainstmylips.
Iwhimperedfromthelostwhenhepulledoutofme,buthemadeupforitwhenhestartedcaressingmywhole
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body,includingmyhair,whenhecleanedmeup.Ididthesameforhim,andaccidentallywokeuphisglorious
dick,butwedidn'thavetimeforanotherround.NeitherofuswantedtoexplaintoEsmeandCarlislewhywe
werelatesoIsteppedoutfromthebathroomtogetdressed.
Alicehadgivenmeablack,shortballerinadressfromherowncollection.Atfirst,IhadtoldherthatIcouldn't
acceptthedresssinceIknewthatherclotheswereexpensive,butwhenshearguedthatIwaslikeherliving
mannequinandthatIwouldmakeotherwomenwanttobuyit,Igavein.
"Hey,couldyougivemeahandwiththezipper?"IaskedEdwardwhenheappearedfromthecloset.
Istoppedmidtracks,though,becauseeventhoughIhadseenhiminblackslacksandawhiteshirtmanytimes,
heneverstoppedtoamazeme.Thewaytheslackshungperfectlyonhishipandhowthetieneverwastiedall
thewayupsincehealwaysgotasuffocatingfeelingwhenitwas.
"Sure."Hegulped."Um,youneedtoturnaround,though."
Whywashesonervousallofthesudden?
Islowlyturnedandfeltashishandsmadetheirwayupmyback,thenheleftthemonmyshoulders,lettinghis
fingersexploremyneckandcollarbones.
"You'resobeautiful,Bella."HebreathedheavilyandIknewwehadtostopwhathewasdoingeventhoughI
didn'twantto.
"Thankyou,"Isaidsoftly."Youlookquiethandsomeaswell."
IturnedaroundinhisarmsandsinceIhadmyheelson,Icouldjustgrabaholdofhisfaceandbenditdownan
inchbeforeIcouldkisshim.
"Weneedtogo,"Isaidandhenoddedhishead.
Therideovertotherestaurantwasaslowonesincethetrafficwasstockedtoday.Weshouldhaveknown,now
weweregoingtobelateanywayanditwasn'tbecauseofsex.
Whenwefinallyarrivedafterfortyminutes,EsmeandCarlislewerewaitingforusoutsidetherestaurant.
Edwardgavemeachastekissbeforesteppingoutofthecar,runningovertomysidetoopenmydoorandhelp
meout.NotthatIneededhishelp,butIloveditwhenhewasactinglikeatruegentleman.
"Lookatyou!"Esmeexclaimed."You'repracticallyglowing!"
ShebroughtmeinforahugandIcouldn'thelptheblushthatcreptitswayupmycheekswhileIthoughtback
tothehotshowersexEdwardandIhadbeforewecamehere.IlookedovertoEdward,buthejuststoodthere,
lookinglikeasmugbastardwithashiteatinggrinonhisface.Ijustglaredathimandbroughtmyfocusbackto
Esme.
"Thankyou,"Isaidsweetly.
"Bella,"Carlislesaid,smilingandbroughtmeinforahugofhisownonceEsmehadreleasedme.
"It'sgoodtoseeyouagain,Carlisle."
"Youtoo.Now,isanybodyhungry?"heasked.
"I'mstarving!"Isaidloudly,causingtherestofthemtolaughandmeblush.
EPOV
"So,isthereanythingyouwanttotellus?"myMomaskedknowinglyoncewehadgottenourlunch,glancing
downatBella'sring.
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Itwasamazinghowmuchthatwomansaw.IhadalwaystroublegettingawaywiththingswhenIwasakid
becausesheknewpracticallyeverything.
"Um,BellaandIaregettingmarriedagain,"Itoldthem,glancingatBellawhohadabigsmilealloverherface.
"Orredoingourwows."
"Oh,Igettoseemybabyboygetmarried!"Momsaidthroughherhappytearsandstooduptowalkovertous,
bringingbothBellaandmeinforabighug.
"Congratulations,"Dadsaidhappily,althoughhedidn'tgushlikeMomdidandforthatIwasthankful."So,
haveyousetthedate?"
"Yeah,July9th."IlookedovertoBella,smiling,andsawthatshehadtearsinhereyesfrommyMother's
outburst."It'souroneyearanniversarysowethoughtitwasthemostfittingdate."
"I'msohappyforyou."Momstillhadtearsinhereyes,butshelookedgenuinelyhappywhichmademehappy
sinceIknewshehadbeenprettydisappointedwhenshefoundoutIwasalreadymarried.
TherestofthelunchwasspentwithMomgushingoverdressesandflowerswhileBellasmiled.Iknewshe
wasn'tverycomfortablebythelookonherfacesoIheldherhandreassuringlyunderthetable.Wealsotold
themaboutourhoneymoonandtheywereabitconfusedtowhywedidn'twaituntilafterredoingourwows.
Wewerealreadymarriedsoitdidn'treallymattertouswhenwehadit.Besides,BellahadhadnoideathatI
wasgoingtoproposetoherwhensheboughtthosetickets.
"So,Igettohelpplanthewedding?"Momaskedexcitedly.
"Yeah,it'sfinebyme."Bellashruggedhershouldersandlookedupatme.
"Metoo.Justdon'tstartyet,okay?It'sanothersixmonthsandafewdaysleft."
"Ipromise."
IhadneverseenmyMomashappyasshewaswhenweleftthatrestaurantanditmademefeelwarminside.
"Callifyoueverneedsomething,"Momsaidandkissedmycheekandthentryingtowipethelipstickoff.It
mademefeellikeIwasfiveagain.
"Keepupthegoodwork,"Dadwhisperedwhenhegavemehishug.
Iknewwhathemeantbythatstatement.Bellalookedbetternowthanshehadinalongtime.
"Iwill."
Withthat,welefttherestaurantandwasonoutwaytoSamandJane'splace.Thetrafficwasapainintheass
andithadmefrustratedandBellacranky.
"Pullover.IwantaBigMac,"Bellablurtedout.
"ABigMac?"Iaskedincredulously.Shehadjusteatenforcryingoutloud.
"Yes,nowpulloversoIcangetone,"shedemanded.
"Baby,comeon!You'vealreadyhadlunchnotevenhalfanhouragowithmyparents,andwe'reprobably
gettingfoodatSamandJane'sparty.Doyoureallyneedaburgerrightnow?"Iasked.
Iwasstartingtogetfrustrated.Sure,Iwasmorethanthrilledthatshewantedtoeat,butshehadbeenbugging
meaboutMcDonald'sforthelastcoupleofdays,andshehadjusteaten.Whycouldn'tshejusthaveeatenuntil
shewasfullduringlunch?
Ilookedovertoherandshewasnoddingherhead,lookingguiltyashell.Whichinturn,mademefeellikean
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assholefornottakinghertoMcDonald's.
"Fine,"Ihuffedandstartedlookingforthesign.
"Thankyou,"shesaidsweetlybeforeadding,"I'msorry."
"Don'tapologizeforbeinghungry,Bella."IsighedandparkedthecarjustoutsideasmallMcDonald'safew
blockawayfromSamandJane'splace.
"I'mnothungry,I'mstarving!"ShelickedherlipsandrubbedherstomachbeforeclimbingoutoftheVolvo.
"I'lljustwaithere,"Itoldher.
Shenoddedandclosedthedoorbehindher.Iwatchedherasshewalkedtothedoor.Shelookedabsolutely
amazinginthedressshewaswearing,althoughitwascoveredwithacoatrightnow,butstill.
IclosedmyeyesandenjoyedthemusicwhileIwaitedforBella.Shedidn'ttakelongandwhenshegotback,
herholefacewaslitupwithhappiness.AllthatoverafuckingBigMac.
"Okay,let'sgo!"sheexclaimedexcitedlyandopenedherdoggybag.
Thewholecarwasimmediatelyfilledwiththescentfromherburger,andeventhoughIwassatisfiedwiththe
lunch,Iwouldn'thavesaidnotoacheeseburger.
Sheletoutasoftmoanasshetookthefirstbiteoftheburger.AtthatpointIwasnolongercravingaburgerand
myattentionhadgonetothesoundsBellamade
"Openup,"shesaidandIdidasshetold.
IgotrewardedwithafewFrenchfriesthatsheploppedintomymouth.Theytastedgood,butnotnearlyas
goodasthethingIwantedthemostatthatmomentBella.
"Thankyou,baby,"ItoldherasIpulledintotheparkinggarage.
"You'rewelcome."Shesmiledatme."Doyouwantsomemore?"
"No,thankyou.IactuallyplantoeatwhatJanehastooffertonight."Ismirkedatherandshehitmeonmy
arm.
"Iamtoo.Ijustcouldn'twaituntilthen."Shesighedandtookafewfriestohermouthandchewed."Doyou
mindwaitingwithmeinthecarwhileIfinish?"
"I'llwait,"Ipromised.
Bellatookhertimeonthatfuckingburger,although,itdidn'ttakenearlyasmuchtimeasitusuallydid.Muchto
mysurprise,sheateitall.Sheneverusedtodothat.Therewasalwayssomefriesleft,orhalftheburger,but
therewasnothingleftthistime.
Itookherhandwhilewewalkedovertotheelevators.SheshiveredfromthecoldsoImadesuretowalkalittle
fastersowecouldstepinsidethewarmth,although,fasterformewaslikerunningforhersoIhadtoslow
downagain.
Aswestoodintheelevator,Bellaletoutacutelittleburp.Ihadtocontainmylaughterbecausetherewasjust
somethingsogirlyabouttheburpthatmadeherlooksoadorable.
"Urgh,nowI'mgoingtoburpBigMacallnight.That'sjustgreat,"Bellamuttered.
Icouldn'tkeepmylaughteratbayanylongerandletitout.Shejustglaredatmeandlookedannoyedashell.
"I'msorry,baby.Youjusthavetosuityourself,"Itoldher."Ihavesomethingthatmighthelp,though."
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IreachedintomypocketwhereIkeptmycigarettesandgaveheragumwhichsheeagerlytook.
"Thankyou."
WereachedthedoorwewerelookingforandIknockedthreetimes.Samcametoopenthedoor.Hehad
practicallythesameclothesasIdidandIhadafeelingallofusguysweregoingtohavematchingoutfits.
"Hey,guys.Welcome!"Hesmiledandusheredusinside.
"Thankyouforhavingus,"BellasaidandhunghercoatonthehangerandIfollowedherlead.
"JaneisinthekitchenandI'msurehewantstomeetyou."
"Ijustreallyneedtousethebathroomfirstifyoudon'tmind,"Bellasaid,slightlyembarrassed.
"Sure.It'srightdownthehalltoyourleft."
BPOV
WhenIwasdoneinthebathroom,Ihesitantlywalkedoutintotheapartmentandbeganmysearchforthe
kitchen.Itwasn'thardtofindsincetheapartmentwasprettysmall,justlikemineandEdward'swas.
IfoundJaneinthekitchen,butEdwardandSamwasn'tthere.Ijustfiguredtheyweredoingsomeguystuffor
somethinglikethatandwentintosayhitoJane.
"Hi,Jane,"Isaidgently,notwantingtoscareher.
"Hi,Bella,"shesaidhappily."Welcome!"
"Thankyou."Ilookedaroundandfoundthekitchenveryniceandmodern."Youhaveagreatplace."
"Thankyou.CanIgetyouanythingtodrink?"
"Um,I'lljusthavesomewater."Ihadnoplanswhatsoevertodrinktonight,evenifitwasNewYear'sEve.
"Doyoumindusingawhiskeyglass?That'sallIhavesinceIusedalltheotherstosetthetable."
"Idon'tmindatall."Ismiled.
IgrabbedtheglassofwaterJanegavemeandsmiledather,mumblinga'Thankyou.'Shesmiledbackatme
beforegoingbacktomakingdinner.IfiguredshewantedtothataloneandwentouttoseeifIcouldfindRose
orAlicesomewhere.IfIwerelucky,theyhadalreadyarrivedeventhoughIhadn'theardthemanywhere.
"Isn'titalittletooearlyforVodka?"Edwardwhisperedinmyear,huggingmywaistfrombehind.
"Itis."Ismirkedandtookasipofthewater.
"Thenwhyareyoudrinkingitthen?"
Hesatdownonthecouch,takingmealongwithhimsoIwasplacedinhislap.
"I'mnot.It'swater,"Iexplained,giggling."Janeusedalltheglassesforthedinnersosheonlyhadwhiskey
glassesleft.Besides,I'mnotevergoingtodrinkagain."
"Whynot?"
"Youweretherethelasttime!I'mnotgoingtoembarrassmyselflikethatagain."
"Ikindoflikedit.Youwereawomanwhoknewwhatshewanted,andwasn'tafraidoftellingeveryoneabout
it."
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"Soyoudon'tliketheshyme?"Iaskedalittlebithurt.
"Ilovetheshyyou.IlikethetipsyandoutgoingBella,butIlovetheshyone,okay?"heaskedsternly.
Inoddedandbentdowntogivehimachastekiss.
"Youtastelikebeer,"Istated.Hemovedhishanduptoshowmethebeerbottlehehadinit."Ithoughtyou
saiditwastooearlytodrink?"
"No,IsaiditwastooearlyforVodka.That'snotthesameasbeer,"hestatedandtookaswig.
"Whatever.I'mgoingtofindRoseandAlice,"Itoldhim,placingakissonhischeekandgotupfromhislap.
HegavemeaswatonmyassandIturnedmyheadaroundandglaredathim,butIdidn'tmakeanyfussabout
itsinceIactuallylikedit.Hejustsatthere,lookingallinnocentwhiledrinkinghisbeersoIwalkedaway.
RoseandEmshowedupafterawhileandIhappilygreetedthemafterSamandJane.RoseandIhelpedoutin
thekitchenandwaslaterjoinedbyAlicewhoarrivedhalfanhourafterRose.Itfeltgoodtohaveeveryone
gettingalong,eventhoughIhadn'tofficiallyknowJaneverylong,Istillsawherasmyfriend.
WhenLeaharrived,thingsbecameawkwardsinceIhadnoideahowtointroducehertomyotherfriends.I
immediatelywishedIhadtoldthemaboutEmily,itwouldhavesavedmealotoftrouble.
"Leah,thisisRoseandAlice.AliceandRose,thisisLeah,afriendofmineandalsoJake'swife,"Ichoseto
sayaftersometimeofhesitation.
"It'snicetomeetyouboth,"Leahsaidandsmiled.
"Youtoo."
Well,thatwentwell.
Edwardsatdownbesidemeonceitwastimefordinnerandhadhishandonmythigh.Itfeltreassuring,butnot
asreassuringitwouldhavefeltifheheldmyhand.SoIpickedhishandupandplaceditinmyown,givinghis
alightsqueeze.Weweregoingtoannounceournewengagementorwhateveryouwantedtocallit.
"So,"Edwardsaid,gainingeverybody'sattention."BellaandIhavesomenewstoshare."
Helookeddownatmeandgavemehiscrookedsignaturesmile.
"We'regettingmarriedagain,"Iannounced.
"OhmyGod,ohmyGod,ohmyGod,"Alicesaidinarushbeforelettingoutahighpitchedsqueal."Letme
seethering!"
Istretchedoutmyhandacrossthetableforhertoseemynewring.Icouldn'thelpbuttosmilelikeabigfool.
"Wow,"allthegirlsletout.
"Iknow.We'rehavingaceremonywherewe'llberedoingourwowson9thofJuly."
"Oh,Bella!Youhavetoletushelp!"Alicebegged.
"Ofcourseyou'reallowedtohelp,Alice.Iwouldn'twantitanyotherway,"Itoldher,althoughIwaspretty
sureIwouldregretagreeingsomeday.Ijustwantedmyfriendstobehappy.
"Thereissomuchtodo..."shestarted,butshedidn'tgetfarenoughformetointerrupther.
"Alice,it'ssixmonthsaway.Wedon'thavetostartplanningtonight."
"Yeah,you'reright,"shemumbled,butIcouldseeitinherfaceasshewentovereverythinginherhead.
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"Congratulations,man,"EmmettsaidtoEdward.
"Yeah,I'mverylucky,"Edwardansweredandbentdowntokissme.
Everyonetoldustheircongratulationsandseemedhappy.EvenJakemanagedtosmileabit,butIknewthatit
wasn'ttrulygenuineanditbotheredmeabit.Sure,hehadn'tmadeasceneaboutEdwardtonight,butIstill
wantedhimtobehappyforme.
Iguesswe'vegrownapart,that'sall.
Dinnerwenton,butIhadlostmyappetiteforsomereasonandhardlyateanythingofmydessert.Usgirls
helpedJaneclearthetablewhiletheguyswentofftosomewhereelse.
Whenweweredone,weallsatdownbythebigdinnertablewhiletheboyswereinthelivingroom,testing
Sam'snewPlaystation.Ijusthadtosmileatoursituation,Ihadneverimaginedmyselfbeinginasituationlike
this.
"So,issomebodygoingtotellmewhyJaneandIaretheonlyoneswhoisdrinkingtonight?"Aliceasked,
slightlytipsyfromthewine.
"Bella'sdrinking,"Leahstatedconfused.
"Nope,I'monlydrinkingCoketonight,"Itoldthem.
"Norum?"Ishookmyhead.
RosestartedlaughingandIknewwhatshewasthinkingabout,andsodidJaneafterawhileasshejoinedher.
"What?Iwanttoknowwhat'ssofunny!"AlicepoutedandIknewIwasgoingtohearmymortifyingstory.
"Oh,Bellaisjustveryfunnywhenshedrinks,"Janesaidsweetly.
"Andveryhorny."Roselaughed."ShewaspracticallyjumpingEdward'sboneatthebarbequewehadat
Thanksgiving.Therewasn'toneminutepassingwithouthertellingEdwardhowbadlyshewantedtogohome
sohecouldfuckher."
Well,noweveryoneintheroomknewIhadthehotsformyhusband.
"OhmyGod!Iwould'vekilledtoseethat!"AlicelaughedandLeahwasnotslowonjoiningher.
Ijustsatthere,pouting,thinkingaboutthesexIactuallyhadgottenthatnightsomyeffortsingettingEdwardto
bedhadworked.
"So,what'syourreason,Leah?"Aliceaskedonceeveryonehadfinallycalmeddownfromtheirhysterics.
"Oh."Herbeautifulcheeksturnedred."I'mpregnant."
What?
"Wow,congratulations!"Rosesaidexcitedly."So,howfaralongareyou?"
"Aboutthreeandahalfmonths,"Leahansweredwithjustasmuchexcitement.
"Congratulations,"Itoldher,smilinglikeanangelontheoutside,butinsideIknewIneededEdward."Excuse
me,Ineedtogofindmyhusband."
EPOV
IsawasBellareappearedintotheroom.Sheseemedtobelookingforsomething,orsomeone.Iwatchedasshe
searched,butwhenIsawherbitingherlipandblinkinghereyestokeeptearsaway,Istartedtogetworried.I
thoughtshewashappytobehere,seeingherfriendsagain.
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Itwaslikeshefeltmystareandhereyeslookedonmine.Whensherushedovertome,IrealizedIwastheone
shehadbeenlookingforsoIstoodupfromthecouchtocaptureher.
Sheslammedintomehardandwrappedherarmsaroundmytorso.Jasper,SamandEmmettgaveme
sympatheticglancesbeforeturningtheirattentionbacktotheTV.Jakejustlookedpissedandcuriosatthesame
time.
"Hey,baby.What'swrong?"Iasked,tiltingherheadupsoIcouldseeherface.
Shehadtearsfallingdownhercheeksandshefranticallyshookherheadbeforeburyingitmychestagain.I
neededtofindaplacewherewecouldtalkinprivateandtheonlythingthatIcouldthinkofwasthebathroom
sincethebalconywastoocold.
Iledhertothebathroomandlockedthedoorbehindus.Shesatdownonthetoiletlidandstartedwipingthe
tearsawaywithherhands.Isighedandwentovertograbasmalltowelandbentdowninfrontofhertohelp
wipingthetearsawayfromherface.
"I'msorry,"Bellasaid.
"Doyouwanttotalkaboutit?"Iaskedhergently,placingthetowelbesideusonthesinkandletmyhandsrest
onherthighs.
"Idon'tevenknowwhyI'mcrying!"shewailed."Ishouldbehappyforthem."
"Happyaboutwhat?"Itried.
"She'spregnant."Itwasalowwhisper,butIcouldheareveryword.
"Who'spregnant,baby?"Iaskedandpushedastrandofherhairbehindherear.
"Leah.She'saboutthreemonthspregnant.Who'snext?Alice?Whynotrubitallinmyfaceatthesametime?I
betshe'salreadypregnant,shejustdoesn'tknowityet!"Shewastalkingfastandwasvisiblyveryupset.Ihad
noideathatthenegativepregnancytesthadeffectedherthatbadly.
"I'msureAliceisn'tpregnant.Shewouldknowthatrightaway,andyouandRosewouldbethefirstonesafter
Jaspertofindout.Asforus,Ibelievewe'llhaveababywhenthetimecomes,okay?"Itriedtoreassureher.
ItwaslikeIwastellingmyselftheexactsamethingoverandover.Ijusthadtobelieveinfaith,andthatwhen
thetimecomes,we'llhaveababyofourown.Therewasnoneedtorushit,BellawouldbemineforeverasI
wouldbehers.
"I'msorry."Bellathrewherselfforwardandhuggedmetightlyaroundmyneck."You'reright.Idon'tknow
whatsgotteninme."
ShecontinuedtocryintomyneckforawhileandIheldherasshedidso.Whenshefinallycalmeddown,I
helpedhergetcleanedupbywipingherfacefreefromtears.
"Ready?"Iaskedandhelpedherstandup.
"Yeah.DoIlookokay,though?"
"You'regorgeous"Ibentdownandkissedhereyelids"sexy"Ikissedhernose"beautiful"Ikissedher
oneachcheek"andI'mheadoverheelsinlovewithyou."Igaveheronefinalkissonthemouth.
"Iloveyou,too,"shemumbledagainstmylips.
Wewentbacktothepartyandthistime,Ididn'tleaveheraloneagain.InsteadIplacedherinmylapwhenwe
joinedtheguysonthecouch.Shehelpedmeplaythevideogameandaftersomepractice,shewasactually
prettydamngoodatit.
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IreallyneededtousethebathroomafterawhilesoIleftherwiththeboys.WhenIcamebackout,shewasso
intothegamewithhertonguestickingoutinconcentrationthatIdidn'twanttointerrupt.SoIdidn't.InsteadI
grabbedmyjacketandwentoutsidetograbareallyneededsmoke.
BPOV
IfoundEdwardoutsideonthebalcony,smokingacigarette.Itwasthreeminuteslefttomidnight,soIguessed
hehadtheintentionoflettingmehavethefirstkissoftheyearwithachimney.
Great.
Although,IonlyhadmyselftoblamesinceIwastheonewhotoldhimnottoquit.Besides,helookeddamn
sexywiththatcigaretteinhismouthandblowingsmokefromhisnoseandmouth.
"Hi,"Isaidsoftly,walkingovertohimandwrappedmyarmsaroundhisneck.
"Hey,you."Hesmiledandkissedmequicklyonthenose.
"It'salmostmidnight,"Ipointedout.
"Iknow.Iwasjustabouttolookforyou."Heturnedthecigaretteoutandtookoutagumfromhispocket.
HeknewIusuallydidn'tprefertokisshimrightafterhehadbeensmokingsoIwonderedwhyhehaddoneit
threeminutesbeforethebigkiss.
"Istheresomethingwrong?"Iaskedcarefully.
"Nope,"heanswered,poppingthe'p.'
Iwasn'tfooled."Communicate,Edward."
"Later,Bella."Hesighedandbentdowntogivemeaproperkiss,buryinghisfaceinmyhair.
IknewIshouldhavepushedhimintotellingmewhatwaswrong,butitwasjustafewsecondsuntilmidnight
sothetimingwaswrong.Ididkeepitinthebackofmyhead,though.
Icouldhearaseveryoneinsidestartedtocountdownandlookedupintomyhusbandsgorgeousgreeneyes
whilehestaredbackintomine.ThemomentwassointimatethatIwantedtocry.Although,Iwasthrough
beingacrybaby,itwastimetogrowupandIdidn'twanttoruinthemomentwithmytearseveniftheywere
happyones.
"THREE...TWO...ONE!"
Edwardhungrilycrashedhislipstomineinasearingkiss.Ifeltashisliptracedmybottomlip,butheentered
mymouthwithoutwaitingformetoopenit.Ilethimtakecontrolofthekiss,Ilethimexploreeveryinchofmy
mouthjustthewayhewanted.
Imoanedatthecontactandtwinnedmyfingersinhissofthair,makingitevenmessierthanitwasbefore.
Unfortunately,Ineededairandhadtobreakawayfromthekiss.Itdidn'tstopEdward,though.Insteadhejust
keptkissingalongmyneckandsuckedgentlyonitwhichonlymadememoanevenlouder.
Hefinishedwithpepperingfeatherlightkissesallovermyface,endingwithapeckonmyswollenlips.
"HappyNewYear,Mrs.Cullen,"hesaidbreathlessly.
"Indeed,Mr.Cullen."Ismiledathimandbroughtmyarmsbacktohisneck.
Webothstaredupattheskyandwatchedthefireworksgoingonlikecrazy.Itwasbeautiful.
"Doyouwanttohearmyresolution?"Iaskedhimafterawhileofsilence.
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"Ithoughtyoudidn'tdoresolutions."Hesmirkedandgavemeaquickpeckonmylips.
"Well,Idothisyear.Doyouwanttohearthem,ornot,Edward?"Ipoutedangrilyathim.
"OfcourseIwantto,baby."
"Well,I'mnottellingyouanymore,"Itoldhimandstartedmovingawayfromhim.
"Hey,comeon.Youcan'tjuststarttellingme,andthennotfollowthrough,"hewhined.
"Ijustdid."
"I'lltellyoumine,ifyoutellmeyours,"heoffered.
"Youhavearesolution?"Iaskedsurprised.
"Yes,nowareyougoingtoagreetomycompromise,orareyougoingtoactlikeabitch?"heaskedbluntly.
Ihadn'trealizedIhadbeenactinglikeabitchuntilhetoldme.Ihadnoideawhy,though.Myemotionswere
allovertheplace,andIhatedit.ItwaslikeIcouldn'tcontrolmyselfanymore.
"Sorry,"Imumbledandrestedmyheadonhischest.Hetightenedhisarmsaroundmeandletoutabigsigh.
"Pleasetellmewhatyourresolutionis,andthenIpromiseI'lltellyoumine."
"Okay."Heswayedusabitbeforehecontinued,"Ipromisetotakecareofyouandourfuturebaby."
"That'snotarealNewYear'sresolution,"Iargued,butmyheartswelledbyhiswords.
"Sureitis,"hesaidconfidently."Now,tellmeyours."
Iletoutabigsigh.IhadnoideawhatEdward'sreactionwasgoingtobeanditmademenervous.
"Ipromisetofixmyself."
"Fixyourself?Baby,what'stheretofix?"
"Me.Ican'tkeeplivinglikethis,Edward.Thefalsepregnancyhadmethinking."
"Okay."Hesoundedthoughtful."Sohowhareyougoingtofixyourself?"
"I'mgoingtosetupanappointmentwithapsychiatristwheneverythinghascalmeddownfromtheholidays."
Ihadputalotofthoughtsintothis,andIwasgoingtogiveeverythingatry.Itwasformyowngood,andfor
everyonelivingaroundme.
"Okay.Ifthat'swhatyoutrulywants,thenI'llsupportyou,"Edwardreassuredme.
"Thankyou."Ihuggedhimtightlyandshiveredslightlyfromthecold."Ihaveanotherone.Doyouwantto
hearit?"
Hedidn'tsayanything.Heprobablylearnedfromlasttime.Instead,hejustsmiledandnodded.
"Okay.I'mgoingtobemoresocial,"Ideclared.
"Aren'tyouthatalready?"Edwardaskedconfused.
"Notreally.Iseemybestfriendsonceaweek.Ifwehavethetimeandlatelytherehasn'tbeenmuchtime.We"
Iwavedmyhandbetweenus"hardlyevergoout,notevenonadate.Ijustneedtobemoresocial."
"YoucouldalwaysjustgetaFacebookaccount."Heshrugged."Thenyouwouldbemoresocial.Asforthe
dating,IpromiseI'lltakeyououtonthosealittlemoreoften."
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"MaybeIshould.Alicehasbeenbuggingtheshitoutofmeaboutit.Doyouhaveone?"
"Yes."Ilookedupathimsurprised.Ihadnotknownaboutthat."What?Everyonehasit.There'snothing
strangeaboutit."
"Idon'thaveone."
"Fine.Everyonebutyouthen."Hesmirked.
"Whatever.Canyoupleasejusttakemehomenowsowecaninvitethisyearproperly?"
"Gladly!"
Wesaidourgoodbyesreallyquick,notthatanyonewereverycoherent.Instead,theyseemedeitherdrunk,or
occupiedwiththeirsignificantother.
Wewentstraighttothebedroomoncewegothome,ignoringElsa'sbarking.Iknewweshouldhavetakenher
out,butthistime,shehadtowaituntilafterI'vehadmydoseofEdward.
Edwardclosedthedoorbehindusandstartedundressinghimself.Whenhewasdone,hewentovertomeand
starteddoingthesameonme.Oncewewerebothcompletelynaked,hegentlylaymedownontopofthebed,
buthedoesn'tlaydownwithme.Instead,hejusthoveraboveme,lookingovermywholebodywithhisintense
eyes.
"You'resofuckingbeautiful,"hemurmuredandstartedkissingmyneck.
Hedidn'tstopthere.Heplacedkissesallovermybody,tastingeveryinchofme.Whenhereachedtheapexof
mythighs,whereIwantedhimthemost,hejustplacedonesimplekissonmythrobbingcoreandthenmoved
uptomyfaceagain.
Ifeltashepositionedhimselfatmyentrance,andeventhoughIwantedhimsobadlythatmybodyached,I
wantedtodosomethingelsefirst.ThatwaswhyIflippedhimoverandstartedkissinghischest.
"Baby,whatareyoudoing?"heaskedconfused.
"Shh,Iwanttokissyoutoo,"Itoldhimandplaceafingeroverhismouth.
HekisseditandthenIwentbacktokissinghisbody.Insteadofdoingwhathedidtome,Iavoidedtheplacehe
wantedmetokissthemostandworkedmywayuphisbodyagain.
"Ready?"Iasked,hoveringabovehim.
"I'veneverbeenmoreready,"hesaidandplacedhishandsonmyhipsandgentlyguidedmeontohim.
Webothletoutacontentsighwhenhefilledmeinchbyinchuntilhewascompletelyinsideme.Justlikelast
time,neitherofusneededmuchrecoverytimeandIstartedmovingupanddownwithhelpfromhishands.
Itwasslowatfirst,butthingsstartedtoquicklygetheatedandEdwarddecidedthathewantedtogoevenfaster
andflippedusoversohewasontopinstead.
"Youfeelsogood,Bella,"hemoanedintomyear.
"Notasperfectasyou,"Imanagedtogetoutinbetweenthemoansandgruntsthatwerecomingoutofmy
mouth.
Hekeptthrusting,moaningandgrunting.Heevenletoutagrowlfromnowandthenwhichonlyencouraged
me.IfeltmystomachstartingtotightenedandIknewIwouldlastmuchlonger.Edwardkeptstrokingmyside
withoneofhishandwhiletheotherarmkepthimfromcrushingme.
"Edward,"Imoaned.
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"Almostthere,baby."
Icouldn'tholditoffanylongerandexplodedaroundhimandIfeltmywholebodyshakeasEdwardkept
thrusting.Iknewhewasclosesincehehadstartedthrustingfaster.Igrabbedhisasstotrytomakehimgeteven
deeperinsideofme.
"Fuck,Bella,"hegruntedasIfelthimexplodedeepinsidemebeforehecollapsedontopofme,exhausted
fromthelovemakingwejustdone.
HelayontopofmeforawhilelongerandIkeptstrokinghishairaswebothtrytocomedownfromourhigh.
Thenhepulledoutofme,muchtomydisappointment.Ialwaysfeltsomekindoflostwhenhepulledout.
"Ihaveafeelingthatthisyearisgoingtobespecial,"Edwardsaidandplacedakissonmystomach.
Forsomereason,hehadbeenquietobsessedbymystomachlatelyandIcouldn'tfigureoutwhy.
"Metoo.Iloveyou,Edward,"Itoldhimandstrokedhischeek.
"Iloveyou,too."
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TheHoneymoon
EPOV
IlookeddownatBella'ssleepingface.WehadbeensittingontheplanetoLosAngelesfortwohoursandten
minutes.Bellahadbeenasleepfortwohours.Icouldn'tunderstandhowshecouldsleepthroughallthefuss
arounduswithflightattendantsaskingifwewantedadrink,cryingbabies,annoyedparents,andeverything
elsebutBellawasstilldeadweightinmyarms.
Itremindedmethatwereallyneededthisvacation,bothofus.Ithadbeenaroughcoupleofweekssince
Christmasandthatwastwoweeksprior.Wehadfoughtalot,wehadlovedevenmoreandwehadfucked
evenmorethanthat.Thatwaswhywebothdecidedtochangethedateonourticketsandleavetwoweeks
earlierthanoriginallyplanned.
"Excuseme,sir.Ifyoucouldwakeherupnowsoshecanbutherseatbeltonagain.We'llbelandinginafew
minutes,"theflightattendantsaidsweetlyandsmiledatus.
"Sure,noproblem,"Iansweredandsmiledback.
Iturnedmyattentiontothebeautifulgirlthatrestedherbodyagainstmine.ShewasstilldeeplyasleepandI
knewIwouldregretwakingherupsinceshewouldmostdefinitelybecranky,butIhadto.
"Bella,baby,it'stimetowakeup,"Isaidandshookhergently,butshedidn'tevenflinch.
"Bella,"Isaidalittlelouderandatthat,Igota'No'fromherasshesnuggledcloserandwentbacktosleep.
Iwasjustabouttograbhertitswhenherwholeseatjerkedforward,causinghertowakeup.Iwishithadn't.
"Whatthehell?"shescreamed.
ItwasveryrarethatBellacursed.Ihadonlyheardhersayabadword,exceptshit,onceortwicesincewe
gottenmarriedandthatwasalmostsevenmonthsago.
Bellaturnedtofaceme,andiflookscouldkill,Iwouldbedeadbecausetheglareshesentmewasanythingbut
friendly.
Imovedmyhandsupinsurrender."Itwasn'tme."
Ilookedbacktothepersonssittingbehindus,andsureenough,therewasalittleboywhocouldn'tbemore
thanfiveorsixyearsoldsittingdirectlybehindBella,lookingveryinnocent.
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Bellabentoverherseattolookattheboy.IsawasshenarrowedhereyesathimandIwasquickwithtaking
herbackintomyarms.
"Hey,calmdown.Itwasjustanaccident,"Isaid.
"Yeah,right.Andmynameisn'tBella,"sheansweredsarcastically.
"Technicallyit'snot.YournameisIsabella,"Iteased,hopingtogetherintoabettermood.
"Whatever,"shemutteredandputherseatbelton.
Bellahadrentedusasmallbeachhouse,justoutsidethecity.Shehadalsogottenusarentalcar,whichjust
happenedtobeaVolvo.Ismiledatthat.Itwasamazinghowshetriedtomakeeverythingperfectforus.I
hadn'tdoneadamnthing,exceptforpackingmyownclothesandshebarelyevenletmedothat.
Shewaseageraswedrovefromtheairporttoournewhomefortheweek,therefore,shedidn'tsleepagain.
Luckilyforus,wehadaGPS.BeforeIusedtothinkthattheSeattletrafficwasroughbutitwasnothing
comparedtothetrafficinLosAngeles.
"We'rehere!"shesquealedwhenwearrivedatalittlebluehouse.
Iparkedinthesmalldrivewayandlookedatthehouse.ItliterallyscreamedBellaandIhadnoproblemsin
understandingwhyshehadchosenit.
"Okay,comeonthen,"Isaidsmilingandgrabbedoursuitcasesfromthetrunk.
BythetimeIhadgottenthesuitcaseoutBellahadalreadysteppedinsidesoIquicklymademywayintothe
house.
Thehousewassmall,maybeevensmallerthanourapartment.Thefrontdoorwasbasicallylocatedintheliving
roomwhichalsoheldthekitchen.Therewasasmallcouch,acoffeetableandaprettylargeTVintheliving
room.Thekitchenheldasmalltableandtwochairs.TherewasonlyonemoredoorandIassumedthatwasthe
bedroom.
Iwasright.Thebedroomwasprettybigifyoucomparedittohowsmalltheotherroomwas.Therewasa
smallerbedthanwehadbackhome,butIdidn'tmindthatatall.ItonlymeantthatIhadtosnugglecloserto
Bella.
Thebathroomthatwasconnectedtothebedroomwastiny.Therewasonlyasmallshower,asinkandatoilet.
Thewalls,justlikeintherestofthehouse,werepaintedinalightbluecolor.
Iactuallyfoundtheplacereallycharmingevenifitwassmall.IreallylookedforwardtotheweekIwouldbe
spendingtherewithBella.
"So,doyoulikeit?"Bellaaskedhopefully,wrappingherarmsaroundmywaistandplacingherheadbetween
myshoulderblades.
"Iloveit,"Itoldherandplacedmyhandsoverhers.
"Good.I'mgoingtomakeussomethingtoeat.Youcouldjustunpackorsomethinginthemeantime,"shesaid
andheadedintothekitchen.
ThatweekIhadbeenfixingusdinnerbecausethethoughtoffoodmadeBellasick.SothatwaswhyIlooked
forwardtoeatingwhatevershecookedImissedhercooking.
IdidasIwastoldandunpackedourthingsandputtheclothesinthedrawers.WhenIwasdone,Iwenttothe
kitchenandwashitbyasmellthatdefinitelywasn'tdinner.ItsmelledmorelikebreakfastandIunderstoodwhy
whenBellaplacedmyplateinfrontofme.
"Seriously?Youmadeomeletsfordinner?"Iaskedher.
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"Yeah.So?Iwasfeelinguptoeggs."Sheshruggedhershouldersanddugintoheromelet.
"Eggsareforbreakfast,baby.Wheredidyougetthemanyway?"
Ifollowedherexampleandstartedeatingmyomelet.IttastedreallygoodsoIstoppedcomplaining.
"Iaskedforthefridgetobestockedwithsomebasicfood."
Ididn'tquestionherbehavioranyfurther.Instead,weateinapeacefulsilence.Shehadmademetwoomelets
whichwasgoodsinceIwasn'tgoingtolastverylongonone,andIwasn'tfeelingupforcookingmyself
anything.
"Iwanttogoouttonight,"sheannouncedandwenttoputthedishesinthedishwasher.Iwassurprisedthatit
waseventhere.Itseemedoutofplacesomehow.
"Okay,wheredoyouwanttogo?"Iasked.
"Iwanttogoclubbing."
"Oh,Idon'tthinkso,"IscoffedbeforeIrealizedwhatIsaid.
Ijustcouldn'tdealwithhundredsofguysstaringatherorhittingonher.IknewIwasbeingthatpossessivejerk
shehatedbutIreallycouldn'thelpmyself.
"Youdon'twanttotakemeout?Whyareyouashamedofgoingclubbingwithme?"sheaskedandstarted
crying.
Great,nowI'vemadehercry...again!
"That'snotwhatImeantandyouknowit.Ijustdon'twanttotakeyoutoaplacewhereIknowhalfoftheguys
aregoingtohitonyou,"Iexplainedfeelingfrustratedthatshedidn'tunderstand.
"What'ssowrongwithaclub?It'snotlikeI'mgoingtoshowanyinterestinanyguyotherthanyou."
Iletoutabigsigh.Iwasn'tgoingtowinthisargument,butIreallydidn'tseewhywehadtogoclubbing.I
knewBellawasn'taverybigfanofdancingordrinkingandthatwaswhatyoudidataclub.
"Wecouldgotoagayclubiftheguyshittingonmeissuchabigproblem,butlookatitfrommywaytoogirls
willbehittingonyouaswell,"Bellasaid.
ShewentovertostandbetweenmylegsandIwelcomedher.
"I'lltakeyoutoaclubifthat'swhatyoureallywant.Butpromisemetotellmeifyoudon'tlikeitandI'lltake
youtothemoviesinstead,okay?"
"Okay."Shesmiledandwasnolongercrying."Thankyou."
ThatgirlhadmewrappedhersmallfingerandtherewasnothingIwouldn'tdoforher.Ididn'teventhinkshe
knewjusthowwhippedIwas.
Shewenttothebedroomtogetready.IlookedfinejustthewayIwasinmyjeansandtshirtsoIdidn'teven
bother.Itwasn'tlikeIwouldbelookingforsomeone.Ialreadyhadmyloveandmylife.Tonightwasallabout
doingwhatshewantedandshewantedtogoclubbing.
IgrabbedthesmalltravelguideBellahadboughtforthistripandlookedforthesectionaboutnightlife.Ihad
noideawheretotakeher,soIthoughtIneededafewtipsonsafenightclubs.
Bellaemergedfromthebedroomthirtyminuteslater.Shelookedstunningasusual.Shehadputonsomekind
offluffy,lightpinktanktopwithablackbandhuggingherwaist.Theblackjeansshewore,huggedherperfect
littleass,andthehighheelsdidwondersforherlegs.
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"Youlookutterlyamazing,baby,"Itoldherandwentovertogiveherakiss,butsheangledherfaceaway
frommesothekisslandedonhercheekinstead.
"Thankyou,butIhavelipglosson.Areyougoingtochangeorareyoureadytogo?"
"Whydidyouputthatstuffon?"Iwhined."Iwanttokissyouforfuckssake."
"Wellthenyoucankissme,forfuckssake,laterwhenit'sgone,"shesaidmimickingmywords.
Ijusthuffedandwalkedovertothephonetocallusacab.IknewIneededsomealcoholtoputupwithher
currentmood.
ThetaxicametwentyminuteslaterandIgavehimtheaddresstoaclubIfoundinthebookearlier.Bella
lookedatmeinsurprisebutIjustshothermycrookedsmilethatIknewwouldturnherintogoo.
WhenwefinallygotinsidetheclubafteranothertenminutesofwaitinginlineIorderedmyselfabeeranda
CokeforBella.TheyhadwantedtoseeherI.Dbeforetheyletusin,andIknewithadpissedheroff,butshe
seemedtohavecalmeddownwhenIgaveherthedrink.Iaskedherifshewantedtodancebutshejustshook
herheadandstaredatoursurroundings.Ihadnoideawhyshewantedtogoclubbingifshedidn'twantto
dance.
IhatedtoleaveBellaalonebutaftermyfirstbeerIreallyneededtousetherestroomanditwasn'tlikeIcould
bringheralong.
"Baby,I'mjustgoingtothebathroomrealquick,"Isaidinhereartryingtotalkovertheloudmusic.
ShenoddedherheadsoIlefthertherebythebar.ItwasintimeslikethatwhereIappreciatedbeingaguy
becausethelinetotheladiesroomseemedtobeapainintheass.Therewasn'tanylineatalltothemen'sroom.
WhenIgotbackBellawasstillsittingbythebarlookingoverthedancefloor.Shehadanewdrinkinherhand
anditwasn'taCoke.Iwentovertoherandnestledmyselfinbetweenherlegs.
"So,Ithoughtyouwouldn'tdrinkeveragain."Ismirkedandmovedmyhandstoherthighs.
"It'savirgin,"shestatedandtookasip."NotthatI'mavirginanymorebutthedrinkis,"sherambledon.
Ichuckledatherbehaviorandwords."Ihappentoknowforafactbaby,thatyou'recertainlynotavirgin
anymore."
Icapturedherlipswithmyownanddartedmytongueout.Sheeagerlygrantedmeaccessandwekisseduntil
weneededtobreakawayforair.
Thatwaswhenshesawsomethingofinterest.
"OhtheyhavePurpleNurplehere!"Sheturnedtowardthebartenderandaskedforone.
"Baby,thatonecontainsalcohol,"Itoldher.
"Iknow."Shetooktheglasstohermouthandswalloweditallinonedrink.Ijustshookmyhead.
"Youknow,thisistheshotthatmadememarryyousoyoushouldbegratefulforitsexistence,"shesaid.
"ThenthankyouPurpleNurple,"Isaidsarcasticallyandsatdownonthestoolnexttoher.
Shecontinuedtodrinkonhervirgindrinkanddidn'torderanotherPurpleNurpleandforthatIwasthankful.I
keptsippingonmynewbeerandwatchedthepeopledance.IwasjustabouttoaskBellatodanceagainbut
sheinterruptedme.
"OhmyGod!Therearestrippershere!"Bellascreamedoverthemusic.
Ijusthadtolook.IknewIhadmygorgeouswifesittingrightnexttome,buthowwasIsupposedtonotreact
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whenshesaidsomethinglikethat.
"Don'tlook!"Shegrabbedafistfulofmyhairinherhandandpushedmyheadintohertits.Sheprobablydidn't
evenknowwhereshehadpushedmyhead,justaslongasIwasn'tlookingatthestrippers.
Itookadvantageoftheopportunityshepresentedmethoughandnuzzledmyfaceevenfurtherintoher
cleavage.Itwaslikeshehadbroughtmyfacetoheaven.ShenoticedwhatIwasdoingwaytoosoonformy
liking.
"Hey,youperv.Stop!"ShegiggledsoIknewshewasn'tmadorannoyed.
"Idon'twanttostop,"Iwhined.
"Okay,fine.Let'sjustgetoutofherethenbecauseIdon'twantyoutolookatthosestrippers."
Ilovedwhenthatjealousandpossessivesideofhercameouttoplay.Itmademeextremelyhornyandifwe
hadn'tbeeninpublicIwouldhaveravishedherrightthere.
Igrabbedherhandanddraggedheroutsidetotakeacabbacktothehouse.Itfeltlikethedrivetookamillion
yearsbuteventuallywegottothehouseandIgavethedriverhismoneyandsometipbeforeItookBella
inside.
Ididn'tevengettothebedroomBellajumpedonme.Actually,IhadonlyclosedthefrontdoorbeforeIwas
pressedupagainstit.Shepushedmytshirtupandleftatrailofkissesonmystomachandchest.
"Armsup,"sheinstructedbutIknewshecouldn'treachthathighsoIremovedtheshirtmyself.
Iwenttoremovehersaswell,butitwouldn'tcomeoff.
"Whydoyoualwayshavesuchcomplicatedclotheson?"Iaskedinawhinyvoiceandshelaughedatme.
Sheliftedherrightarmupandgesturedtowardthezipper.Ipulleditdownandwasfinallyabletoremoveher
top.IwashappilysurprisedwhenIsawthatshewaswearingthesamebraasshehadwornonourfirstdate.
"There'snotimeforogling.Ineedyounow,"Bellasaidfirmly,makingmeevenmorehorny.
Itdidn'ttakelonguntilallofourclotheswerescatteredaroundus.BellatookajumpandIcaughtherinmy
armswhileshewrappedherlegsaroundmywaist.
AtthesametimeasIpushedherupagainstthedoorIslammedintoherearningasexygaspfromher.Igaveus
littletimetorecoverbeforeIstartedfuckingher.Itookoneofhertitsinmymouthandstartedsucking.Iknew
shelovedthatIloveditevenmore.
IfeltasherwallsstartedtoclamparoundmycockandIknewshewasclosetoherorgasmbutIheldonto
mine,determinedtogivehertwo.
"Edward,"shemoanedinmyearasshestartedshaking.
Isloweddownmypacealittlegivinghersometimetocomedownfromherhigh.WhenIcouldn'ttakeitany
longerIstartedgoingfasteragain.Ifelttheheelsofherfeetdigintomyasslikeshewantedmetogodeeperor
justtoholdonsoshewouldn'tfall.Likethatwasevenapossibility.
"Comeon,baby.Cumformeonemoretime,"Ibeggedandstartedsuckingoneofhernipplesagain.
"Ugh,"wasallIgot.
WhenIfeltmyselfgettingclosetomyrelease,Imovedmyhanddowntoherclitandfuriouslystartedrubbing
it,needinghertogetoffonemoretime.
ItworkedasIfeltherbodytenseupagainandbythattimeIwasjustattheedge,readytojumpatanysecond.
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"Bella...fuck...comeon,"Igrunted.
ThatdiditandIfeltherbodyshakeonceagainbringingmetomyreleasealongwithher.Ithrustintoherthree
moretimesbeforeIhadcompletelyemptiedmyselfinsideher.
WebreathedheavilyforafewsecondsbeforeBellastartedtostir.
"Edward,youneedtoletmedown,"shemumbledinmyearandplacedakissonmyneck.
Ireluctantlypulledoutofherandplacedherbackdownontotheground.Shewalked,naked,intoourbedroom
soIfollowedherfiguringweweregoingtosleep.Iwasexhaustedanditwasrightbeforemidnight,butBella
didn'tliedownnexttomeonthebed.Insteadshewalkedtowardthebathroom.
"Hey,whereareyougoing?"Iasked.
"Ineedtocleanup.I'llberightback."Shesmiled.
"Why?You'veneverdonethatbefore,"Isaid,wantingherinthebedbesideme.
"Well,thistimeyoufuckedmeagainstadoorandnowIhavesomethingrunningdownmythighs,"she
explainedanddisappearedfrommysight.
"Fuck,that'shot,"Imumbledtomyself.
Whenshecameback,shewas,muchtomydisappointment,dressedinoneofmytshirtsandprobablypanties.
Ishouldhaveknown,though,sincesherarelysleptawholenightnaked.
ShecreptunderneaththecoversandItookherintomyarmsbutIquicklychangedpositionsoIwaslyingon
herchestinstead.IneverbotheredtoputonmyboxersIwastootiredtocareandIdoubtedthatBellacared.
BPOV
Ilaythere,staringupattheceiling,unabletosleep.Ishouldhavebeendeadtotheworldaftertheamazingsex
EdwardandIhad,butIwasn't.Somethingfeltdifferent,notbaddifferent,justdifferentandIcouldn'tputmy
fingeronit.Thatwaswhatdrovemeinsane,makingmeunabletosleep.
Edwardmovedhishead,snugglingcloserintomychest.HeseemedrestlessinhissleepsoItwinnedmy
fingersinhishairandstartedtomassagehisscalp.
IhaddemandedtoknowwhatEdward'sproblemhadbeenonNewYear'sEvethedayafteritandwas
shockedtohearhisanswer.Ittookmeawhiletogettheansweroutofhim,butwhenIsucceeded,hebroke
downintearsandclungontome.
Itturnedoutthathehadbeenprettyemotionalaboutthewholebabythingaswell,butwantedtoactstrongand
notbreakdowninfrontofmewhenIneededhim.ItmademefeellikeshitandguiltythatIsomehow,
unconsciously,hadputthatpressureonhim.
Icriedwithhimthatafternoon,notbecauseofthebabyweneverhad,butbecauseEdward'spainwasmypain.
Thatdaybecameacryingfestwithsadandpassionatelovemaking.
Imusthavefallenasleepatsomepoint,though,sincethenextthingIknew,Edwardwaskissingmesoftlyon
firstmyeyelidsandthenmymouth.
"Mmm,goodmorning,"Imumbledagainsthislips,notreallycaringaboutmorningbreathatthatpoint.
"Averygoodmorningindeed."
Heliftedmyshirtupasfarupasitwouldgo,makingmyboobsfeelveryexposed.Hetookoneoftheminhis
mouthandIletoutastrangledmoanandahiss.Ithurt.IguessedEdwardhadbeentooeagerwiththemthe
nightbefore.
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"Okay,okay.Boobsareofflimitstoday,"Isaidandpushedhisheadawaywhenthepainbecametoomuchfor
ittobecomfortableanymore.
EdwardshotmealookthatalmostlookedlikeIhadrunoverhiscatwithmybikefivetimes.NotthatIwould
actuallydosomethinglikethat.
"Areyoucuttingmeoff?"heasked.
"No,theyjusthurt.Theyneedtorest,evenifthey'llmissthatwonderfulmouthofyours."
"Okay,sohowlongisthis'NotitsforEdward'campaigngoingtolast?"Hepouted.
"Ifyou'regoingtoactlikethat,Iamcuttingyouoff...bothfrommytitsandsex!"
"You'resomean,"hemumbledandscootedfurtherdownsohecouldpeppermystomachwithkisses.
"Youaretoo."Itwasmyturntopout."ButIpromisethatI'llforgiveyouifyoucontinuethatkissingalittle
furtherdown."
"Withpleasure."Hesmirkedandwasjustabouttoremovemypantieswhenmyphonestartedringing.
"BellaCullen,wantonsexgoddesswithaverybadmanbetweenherthighs,"Isaid,figuringitwasjustRose,
wantingtoasksomethingaboutElsasinceshebabysatforusagain.
"Bella?MyDadsaid."Whatthehellareyoutalkingabout?"
"Dad?"Isqueakedoutandfeltasallthebloodrushedtomycheeksfrombeingutterlymortified.
Ican'tbelieveIjustsaidthattomyDad!
IheardEdwardletoutachucklebehindme,butallittookwasaglareathimandheshutupreallyfast.
Igotupfromthebedandwalkedintothelivingroominstead.Ididn'tneedEdwardtodistractmewhileIspoke
tomyDad.
"Bella,areyouthere?"DadaskedandIrememberIhadforgottentoanswerhim.
"Yeah,sorry.Justgotalittledistracted.So,towhatdoIowethispleasure?"IaskedhimasenthusiasticallyasI
could.
"Distracted,huh?"hegrumbled."IjustwantedtoseehowyouweredoingsinceIhaven'theardfromyousince
Christmas."
"Shit!I'msorry,Dad.Thingshavejustbeenalittlecrazylately.ButIdidsendyouatextwishingyouahappy
newyear."
"Iknow.Ijustcouldn'treadit,"headmittedandIletoutagiggle."So,howareyouhangingon?"
"I'mfine,Dad.I'mjusttiredandImissyou."Itwastrue,ImissedhimalotmorethanIusuallydid.
"Imissyou,too,Bells.MaybeyouandEdwardcouldcomeupsomeweekendifyou'renottoobusy?Iknow
Suewantstoseeyouagain."
"Yeah,Iwouldreallylikethat,"ItoldhimandlookedupatEdwardwhowasstandinginthedoorway,
watchingme."Look,Ineedtogo.Edwardhasbeenbuggingmeaboutthebeachallmorning."
"You'regoingtothebeach?"Dadaskedsurprised.
"Yes,thebeach.Notthewater.IloveyouandI'llcallyouandsetadate,okay?"
"Iloveyou,too.AndSuesayshi."
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"Well,tellherIsaidhiback.Bye."
Ihungupmyphone,smiling.ItfeltgoodtotalktomyDad,itreallyfeltlikealongtimesinceIhadheardhis
voice.
"So,daddymanagedtogetyouoffyourbitchymode,"Edwardaskedandcarefullymadeitovertothecouch.
"Ha,ha,veryfunny.I'mnotbitchy,"Iargued.
"Yes,youarebutsinceIloveyousofuckingmuch,Iforgiveyou."Hesmirked."I'mgoingtomakeussome
breakfast.Whatdoyouwant?Eggs?Bacon?Pancakes?"
OhGod.Please,Edward,stopmentioningfood.
Ididn'tactuallygetthechancetotellhimthatbeforeIhadtorushtothebathroom,muchtomydisappointment.
IhadreallythoughtthatthefluwouldbeoverbynowsinceIhadn'tfeltsickwhenIwokeupearlier.
IslammedthedoorbehindmebeforeEdwardcouldfollowmeintothebathroom.Ididn'tlikeitthathehadto
seemyvomit,evenifhesaidthathewantedtobethereforme.
"I'msorry,baby!Ididn'tthinkbeforeIspoke!"Edwardsaidthroughthedoor.
Icouldn'tanswerhim,though,sincemymouthwasoccupiedwithsomethingelse.
Whenmystomachwasfinallyempty,Ipushedmyselfupfromthefloorandflushedthetoilet.Then,Ibrushed
myteethverythoroughlytogetridoftheawfultaste.
EdwardwasstillstandingbythedoorwhenIexitedthebathroom.
"IthinkI'lljustgowithsomecoffeeandmaybeabagel,"Imumbledandstartedwalkingtothekitchen.
"I'msorry.Ireallythoughtthefluwasovertoday,"hesaidandfollowed.
"Thatmakestwoofus."
"Please,letmetakeyoutothehospital,"hebeggedasImadesomecoffeeforus.
"No,"Isaidfirmly."Theywillonlykeepmeovernight,makeunnecessaryexamsandthenjustreleaseme
withouthavinganyanswer.I'vebeeninthatsituationmoretimesthanIcancountandIdon'twanttodoit
again."
"Butwehadadeal,"heargued.
"ThatsaidthatyoucouldtakemetoseeadoctorifIskippedmyperiodagain.It'snotdueuntilanotherweek
andahalf."
Ipouredsomecoffeeforbothofusandsatdownbythetable.
"Fuck.Whydoyouhavetobesostubborn?"
"That'sjustwhoIam."Ishruggedmyshouldersathim.
"Iknowbutrightnow,it'sjustannoying,"hegrumbled."Ionlywanttohelp."
"IknowyoudoandIpromiseyouthatifitgetsworse,I'mgoingtoletyouhelp."
"Fine.So,arewestillgoingtothebeach?"heasked,changingthesubject.
"Ifyoustillwantto."
Hedid,sowefinishedbreakfastandgotready.Itwasn'texactlywarmoutside,butnotreallycoldeithersoI
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grabbedalightersweaterandapairofoldjeans.Edwardputonhishoodieoverhiswhitetshirt,andknowing
him,heprobablyonlytookitbecausehethoughtIwasgoingtogetcold.
Wehadablanketwithusthatweplacedbetweenthehouseandthewater.Edwardsatdown,butIwantedto
godowntothewater.
IwenttostandjustwherethewatercameupbutIdidn'tgoanyfurther.Ijuststaredatmybarefeetandthe
waterasthewavescamecrashingin.ItmadesoothingsoundsandIclosedmyeyesandjustenjoyedthe
contentmentIfelt.
"Areyougoingin?"Edwardaskedwrappinghisarmsaroundmywaist.
"No,"Imumbled.
EventhoughIhadsaid'no,'Itookonesmallstepandthewaterhitmytoes.Thecoldwaterfeltgoodagainst
myhotfeetsoIstoodthereandletthewatercoolthemdown.
"Holyfuck!"Edwardscreamedoncehehadtakenabig,longstepintothewaterandthenquicklyranbackup
tothebeach.
Ilaughedathimfornotthinkingaboutthetemperature.Sure,itwascoldbutitwasanicecoldandIwelcomed
it.
"Fuck,it'scold!Youshouldprobablytakeastepbackbaby,soyourfeetdon'tfalloff,"hesaid.
"Doesyourmotherknowthatyoukisshercheekwiththatmouth?"Iasked,referringtohisbadlanguage.
"Ihappentoknowthatyoulovemymouth,baby."Hesmirkedandlookedallsmug,knowingthathegotme.
"Unfortunately,Ido,"Isaidandcluckedmytongueinfeigndisapproval.
Edwardgrabbedmebymywaistthenandranwithmetotheblanketafewfeetaway.Hewasgentlewhenhe
laidmedown.Itwascoldthough,andIcouldn'thelptheshiverthatranthroughmybody.Henoticedand
wrappedtheblanketarounduslikeacozycocoon.
Hebenthisheaddownandkissedthetipofmynose."Iloveyou."
"Mm,Iloveyoutoo,"Isaidandnestledfurtherintohim.
Welaythereforawhileuntilthecoldgetstoomuch,andEdward,beingEdward,becametooworriedabout
myhealth.
ThenextdaystartedthesameasmostdaysIthrewup,Edwardbeggedmetogotothehospital,Idranksome
coffeeandateabagel.IthadbeenthesameforlittleoveraweekandIknewhejustwantedtohelpbutitjust
mademeannoyedwhenhebeggedaboutthesamethingoverandover.
Ontopofthatitwasalsoraining.EdwardhadprotestedwhenIsaidIwantedtogoout.Icouldhavegoneout
anyway,butIdecidedondoingashewantedonthatsmallthingsincehewasangrywithmefornotwantingto
goandseeadoctor.
Ilookedoutattherain,itfeltsoothing,butthereasonastowhyIhadchosenL.Aasadestinationforour
honeymoonwastogetawayfromtherain.IguessIchosethewrongseasontogo.
IgotboredquicklysinceEdwardstilldidn'tletmegooutsidebecausethelasttimeIhadspenttimeintherain,I
fellsick.Itwasn'tlikeIwantedtogetsick,Ijustwantedtoenjoytherain.
Then,Isuddenlythoughtofsomethingandpickedmycomputerupandturnediton.Itwasn'taseasyasI
thought,though.
"EDWARD!"Icalledout.
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Itdidn'teventakeoneminutebeforehecamerushingfromthebedroom.Helookedabsolutelyhystericalwith
hispanickedexpression.
"What'swrong,baby?"heaskedandrushedovertomeandIjusthadtolaughathim."Whythehellareyou
laughing?"
"You'rejustlookingfunny,that'sall.Whywouldyouassumethatthere'ssomethingwrong?MaybeIjust
wantedyou."Ishruggedmyshoulders.
"Thenyoucouldhavecalledformeinanormaltone.Notyellingsothewholeneighborhoodcanhearyou,"he
saidveryannoyed.
"Well,itmadeyoucomereallyquicklydidn'tit?"Ireasoned.
"Thatitdid."Hesighedandtookaseatbesidemeonthecouch."Butyouscaredtheshitoutofme."
"Sorry."Igavehimapeckonhischeek."Ijustwantedyourhelponsomething."
"Aproperkissandyou'reforgiven."Hesmirked."Plus,I'llhelpyouwithanythingyouwant."
Iplacedaverysloppykissonhispoutinglipsandturnedmyfocusbackonthecomputer.
"IwantyourhelpwithFacebook."
"Seriously?YoualmostgavemeaheartattackoverFacebook?"
"YousaidIwouldbeforgivenafteraproperkiss,"Iargued."Andthatyouwouldhelpme.Sonowyouneed
tokeepyourpromises."
"Okay,whatisitexactlythatyouneedhelpwith?"
"Ifilledoutmynameandeverything,butnowwhat?HowdoIgetfriends?Iwanttobefriendswithyou!"
HeshowedmehowtosearchforpeopleIknew.HestartedwithRose,Alice,JasperandEmmett.Healso
showedmehowtoaskthemtobefriendswithmeandsaidthatIhadtowaituntiltheyacceptedmyrequestto
actuallybecomefriends.
"AmIsupposedtohaveapictureofme?"Iasked,gesturingtowardEmmett'sprofile.Theyallhadpictureson
theirprofiles.
"Ifyouwant.Itwillbeeasierforpeopletoknowthatit'sreallyyouifyouhaveone,"Edwardexplained.
"Oh,okay.ThenIguessIshouldhaveonethen."Iopenedthefolderthatheldmypictures.
Ididn'thavemany,butIdidhaveafewthatwoulddofineasaprofilepicture.Edwarddecidedonaheadshot
thatwassimplebutstillshowedmeinagoodlight.Edward'swords,notmine.
"Iwanttoseeyourprofile,"Itoldhim.
"It'snotmuch,"hesaid,typinghisnameinthesearcharea."Youhavetobefriendswithmebeforeyoucansee
anything,though."
HeclickedawayonthescreenandIjustsatthere,waitingforhimtodowhathehadtodo.Whenhewasdone,
heshowedmehisprofile.
Thepicturehehadchosenkindoftookmebysurprise.Itwasus,goofingaround.Ihadafirmholdonhistie
andhadasortofdreamylookonmyface.IlookedreallyhappyandEdwardjustlookedsmugandlikehewas
beingcontrolledbyme,andwithhislipinabigpout.
Igiggledandlookedovertohisinformation.Therewasthedatehewasborn,wherehelivedandhisstatus.It
obviouslysaidthathewasmarriedwhichmademesmile.
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"Here,letmejustfixsomething."Edwardtookthecomputerfrommylapanddidhisthingagainbeforehe
returnedit.
Itwasstillonhisprofile.TheonlydifferencewasthathenowwasmarriedtoBellaCullen.Thatmademesmile
evenbigger,especiallysinceitstatedthatIwasmarriedtoEdwardCullenonmyprofile.
"So,nowyouhaveaFacebookaccount,"Edwardnoted.
"Yes,thankyou."Ismiledathim.
Hegrabbedmebymywaistandpushedmeintohislap.Itwasn'tsuchagoodmovementthough,asIfeltthe
nauseahitmeonceagain.
Irushedtothebathroom,hopingIwouldgetthereintime.Itwouldbewaytooembarrassingtothrowupona
floorthatwasn'tevenmine.
IheardEdward'sfootstepsbehindmeashecaughtupwithme.Hewaskindenoughtoopenthedoorandthe
toiletlidbuthealsostayed,muchtomyembarrassment.Itwasn'ttheonlytimeIhadthrownupinfrontofhim
butaftereachtimeitonlygotmoreandmorehumiliating.
IbentovertheporcelainbowlandheavedthecontentsofmystomachoutwhileEdwardheldmylonghairin
oneofhishandsandrubbedsoothingcirclesonmybackwiththeother.
WhenIwasfinallydone,Istoodbackuponshakylegsandwipedthetearsthathadfallendownmycheeks.
Somehow,IalwaystendedtogetthewaterworksrollingwhenIthrewup,butwhendidn'ttheyfall?
"Ireallywanttotakeyoutothedoctor,Bella,"Edwardpleadedwithmeonceagain.
"No.Ijustwishyoucouldlisten.It'sasimpleno,"IstatedasfirmlyasIcouldeventhoughIwasreadyto
collapseanysecond."I'mfine.It'sjustabugorsomething."
"Abugdoesn'tlastthislong,"heargued.
"Wellitlookslikethisoneislastingthislong.Nowletmebrushmyteeth."Ipushedpasthim.
HeletoutabigsighandIknewhewasfrustratedaboutmystubbornness,butIreallydidn'twanttogotothe
doctor.Ihadalwayshateditthere.
IheardhisfootstepsashewalkedoutofthebathroomandturnedtheTVon.IknewIhadtofindawaytocalm
himdown,butfirst,Ineededtobrushmyteeth.
WhenIwasfinishedIfeltanewwaveofdizzinessandnauseahitmeandIhadtograbaholdofthesinkto
steadymyself.
Pleasedon'tmakemethrowup!Ijustbrushedmyteethforcryingoutloud!
Ichantedthatinmyheadoverandoveragain.AfterawhileIfeltthatIwassomewhatsafefromthrowingup
andIknewIneededtolaydowntorest.
WalkingprovedtobeadifficulttasksinceIwasstilldizzy.MyvisionstartedtogetblurredandbythattimeI
wasreallyworriedandscared.Ihadneverbeenreallyillduringmylifetimeandthatshitscaredme.
"Edward,"ImoanedindiscomfortasIreachedthedoorwayandleanedonit."Idon'tfeelsogood."
Ifeltmybodyhitthegroundasmylegsgavein,butIcouldn'tfeelanypainasthewelcomedblacknesstook
overme.
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A/N:So,alittlecliffythistime!
Whatdoyouthink?Ilikehearingyourtheoriessotellme!
TheFacebookpagewentalotbetterthanIexpecteditto,soit'sstillupandrunningif
youwanttojoin!:)
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Wow,just...wow.Ican'tbelievetheresponseIgotonthelastchapter.Youguys
rockmyworld!
Iborrowedthelastquotefromthefirst'BridgetJones'sDiary':
"BridgetJones,wantonsexgoddesswithaverybadmanbetweenherthighs."
Ihaveanewoneinthischapter.Findit.Tellme.Getrewardedwithapreviewof
chapter26.
ThankyoutowonderfulKris10Skimmerforallherhelpandideas!
Ihavenoideahow911works,butthisismyguess.So,remember,it'safiction,butI
hopeIgotitsomewhatright!
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EPOV
IrushedovertoBella'ssideimmediately,itwaslikemylegscouldn'tcarrymeanyfaster.Itookherintomy
arms,butshewasdeadweight.
Oh,pleaseGod,no!
"Comeon,Bella!Don'tleaveme!"Isobbed,tryingtoshakeheralive.
EventhoughIwasinhysterics,Imanagedtofishmyphoneoutfrommypocketanddial911.
"911.What'syouremergency?"theladyontheotherlineasked.
"Mywifejustpassedout,"Itoldherdesperately.
"Doesshehaveapulse?"
Imovedtwoofmyfingersdowntoherthroat,likeIhadseenonTV,andwasrelievedwhenIfeltit.
"Yeah,"Ianswered.
"Ineedtoknowyourlocation."
Isearchedthroughmymind,tryingtoremembertheaddressIhadputintotheGPS.AllIrememberedwasthe
streetname,butItoldheritwasthefirstbluehousetoyourright,hopingtheambulancecouldfindit.
Shestayedwithmeonthephone,askingquestionsaboutBella'sbehaviorthelastcoupleofdays.Itriedto
answerthemasbestasIcouldthroughmypanicwhileIwaslookingdownatBella.Shewasstillunconscious,
butthenIsawhereyesflutteropenabitbeforeclosingthemagain.
"Listen,lady.Pleasejustsendthatfuckingambulance,"IpleadedbeforeIhunguponher.Ineededtobringmy
attentionbacktoBella."Comeon,baby.Openyourbeautifulbrowneyesforme."
Shestirredabitandletoutastrangledmoan,butIdidatleastgetsomereactionoutofher.
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"Edward?"sheaskedandopenedhereyesafterawhile.Thereweretearsinthem."I'mscared."
"It'sgoingtobeokay,"Isaidthroughmyowntearsandhuggedhercloser.
IfeltlikeIwasinahazewhenthenextthingshappened.TheparamedicscameandputBellaintheambulance.
Thelookonherfacewhentheydidso,mademegoinwithher.Besides,therewasn'tmuchelseIcoulddo
sinceIwastooworriedtoletheroutofmysight.Iwouldhavetoworryaboutthecarlater.
Shekeptdozingonandoffonthewaytothehospital.Theparamedicshadgivenheroxygen,andputanIVin
herhand.Shedidn'tevenflinchwhiletheydidthat,whichonlyconfirmedmysuspicionsthattherewas
somethingwrongwithher.
Iwasn'tallowedtofollowherfurtherthantothereceptionarea.Itpainedmetoletherhandgo,butIneededto
trustthedoctorstotakecareofher.So,IfilledoutthenecessarypaperworkandthenIjustsatthereandwaited.
WhenIcouldn'tstandjustsittingthereanymore,Ipulledoutmyphoneanddialedmeparents'number,needing
thecomfort.
"EsmeCullenspeaking,"myMom'svoicesangandIimmediatelyfeltrelieved.
"Hi,Mom,"Ichoked.
"Edward!Honey,what'swrong?Ithoughtyouguyswereonyourhoneymoon!"
"Weare.It'sjust...canyouaskDadtopickuptheotherphone?Ineed...Ineedthebothofyou."
Ifeltpathetic,askingformyparentslikethat,onmyvergetotears.Ijustcouldn'thelpit.IwaslostandIneeded
myMomandDad.
"Edward?"Dadaskedconcerned.
"Yeah,it'sme."Itookadeepbreathtocalmmyself."Bella'sinthehospital."
IheardmyMomlettingoutasoftwhimperandIcouldpicturehercoveringhermouthwithherhand.
"What'swrongwithher?"Dadasked,startingtosoundmorelikeadoctorthanmyDad.
"Shefainted,"Iwhispered.
"Why?Hasshebeeneatingokay?Orhaveyouseenanyothersymptomsthatcouldhavecausedit?"Nowhe
wasinhisfulldoctormood,andIwantedmyDadback.
"Dad,please.IcalledyouandMomforcomfort,notbecauseofyourknowledge."
"Sorry,son."
"Dotheyknowwhat'swrongwithher?"MomaskedandIcouldtellthatshetriedtostaycalmforme.
"No,andtheyhaven'tletmeseeheryet.Whatifit'ssomethingreallybad?"Ichoked.
Itwouldbeallmyfault.Ishouldhaveforcedherintogoingtothehospital.
"I'msurethey'redoingeverythingtheycan,"Dadreassuredme.
Isawadoctorwalkingtowardmethen,probablyonhiswaytoinformmeaboutBella'sstate.
"Ineedtogo.I'llcallyouassoonasweknowanything.Iloveyou."
Ididn'tletthemanswermebackbeforehangingup.IwaseagertoknowwhatwaswrongwithBella,andthe
doctorwalkingtowardmehadtheanswersIhoped.
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"Hello,Mr.Cullen.I'mDr.Peterson.ItreatedyourwifeIsabella."
"Hi.PleasecallmeEdward."
"Alright,Edward.Isabellaissafe.We'vetakenafewtestsandallwehavetodonow,istowaitfortheresults.
Youcouldgoseeherifyouwant,butshe'ssleeping."Hesmiled.
ItfeltliketheweightoftheworldhadbeenliftedfrommyshouldersandIcouldfinallybreathagain.Allittook
wasthethreelittlewords.Isabellaissafe.
Inodded,unabletoreallysayanything,andhegavemethedirectionstotheroomBellawasin.
WhenIgottotheroom,IfoundBellalyingonthebedinahospitalgown.ShestillhadtheIVinherhand,but
wasfreedfromtheoxygenmask.Shelookedsofragilelyingthere.
Iwalkedovertoher,gaveherasoftkissonherpoutinglipsandsatdownintheuncomfortablechairwithabig
sigh.Igrabbedherfreehandandmassageditwithmythumb.
Iwatchedherbreathevenly,andIknewshemusthavebeeninadeepsleepsinceshedidn'teventalkinher
sleep.
Afterawhile,Iturnedmygazetotheworldoutsidetheroom.Iwatchedasdoctorsrushedfromoneroomto
anotherwithnursesfollowingbehindthem.
"Itoldyouso,"Bellamumbledsleepily,makingmeturnmyattentionbacktoher.
"Heythere,SleepingBeauty."Ibentforwardandpressedmylipsagainsthersagain.
Iwassorelievedwhenshewokeup,butIknewIhadtokeepcalmsoIwouldn'tstressherout.Shereachedthe
armwiththeIVupaboveherhead,butstoppedwhenshesawitandgroaned.
"Edward,"shesaidinaweakvoice."Couldyoupleaseremovethepillow?"
"Sure,baby."Igaveherasmileandcarefullyslidthepillowoutfromunderneathherhead.
Sheturnedtoherside,facingme,andclosedhereyesagainasifshewantedtogobacktosleep.IknewI
shouldhavelether,butIwastoohappytohaveherawakeagainthatIdidmybesttokeepherthatway.
"Whatdidyoutellme?"Itried,takingherhandinbothmineandbroughtthemuptomymouth.
Sheopenedhereyesagain."Thattheywouldkeepmehereanddounnecessaryexams."
"Theyaren'tunnecessary,Bella.You'vebeenthrowingupeverydayforoveraweekandthenyoufainted,
almostgivingmeaheartattackagain."Icouldn'tholdbacktheworryanymore.
"I'msorry,"shesaid,bringingherfreehanduptocaressmyface."It'sjustthatallthey'regoingtotellus,isthat
I'munderweightandshouldeatmore.That'swhattheyalwayssay."
Wewereinterruptedbysomeoneclearingtheirthroatbehindus.ItwasDr.Peterson.Ismiledathimand
nodded,lettinghimknowthatitwasokaytocomein.Bellasatupwithaneffort,Indianstyleonthebed,
grabbingmyhandtightlyinhers.
"Well,nowwecertainlyknowwhat'swrongwithyou,"Dr.Petersonsmiledkindlyatus."You'repregnant
whichhascausedthenausea,dizzinessandfainting."
IshookmyheadwhileBellajustsatthereincompleteshockandeyeswideopen.Hertightgriponmyhand
hadbecomelooser.
"Pregnant?Asinpregnant?"Iasked,smilinglikeanidiot.
"Congratulations."ThedoctorsmiledandlookedovertoBella."I'llgiveyouaminuteandI'llcomebacksoon
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todiscussafewthings."
Icouldn'twipethesmileoffmyface,itwaspossiblethatafewhappytearsescapedaswell.Iwasshocked,but
itwasahappyandexcitedshock.IslowlyturnedtowardBellawhostillsatinthesamepositionwithwide
eyes.
Istoodupandcuppedherfaceinmyhands,kissingheralloverherface.Ifinishedwithabig,sloppykisson
herlips,butshedidn'treactsoIbrokethekissandrestedmyforeheadagainsthers.
"I'mreallypregnant?"shewhisperedwithahintofasmileonherlips.
"Weare."Igaveheronemorekiss,butshedidn'trespondthistimeeither.
Whenshegotcompletelylimpinmyarms,Iunderstoodwhy.Shehadfainted,andIimmediatelygotworried
again.ThatwaswhyIpushedthebuttontocallforthedoctor.
Anurserushedintotheroominstead,butatleastshecouldhelpmorethanIcould.
"Shefaintedagain,"Iexplainedtoher.
ShegrabbedBella'schartfromthefootofthebedandskimmedthroughit.
"Oh,faintingduringthebeginningofapregnancycanhappen,soyouhavenothingtoworryabout.Justlether
takehertimetowakeup,"shesaidandsmiled."Congratulations."
Withthat,sheleftourlittleroomandIwasonceagainalonewithaunconsciousBella.Isatbackdowninmy
seatandwatchedher.Shehadn'tchangedsoIfoundithardtobelievethatshewaspregnant,butIguessedthat
wouldchangeintime.
BPOV
"Bella,comeon!"Emilyscreamedfromthetop.
Iwasdoingmybest,butIwasoutofbreathfromthelongwalkuptoourcliff.EmilybeingEmily,wasof
coursealreadythere,andhadbeenforalmosttenminuteswhileIdraggedmysorryassuphill.
"I'mcoming,I'mcoming,"Imuttered.
WhenIgothigher,everythingchanged.WewerestillonourcliffandEmilywasstillwaitingformeatthevery
top,butthetopwashigherupthanusual.Icouldseetheclouds,butnotaboveme.Theyweresurroundingme
andthefurtherupIgot,thelowertheysank.
"AmI...amIinheaven?"Istammeredincredulously.
"Whatdoyouthink,silly?"Emilygiggled,herblackcurlsbouncingaroundher.
"But...why?Can'twejustgohome?"
"Iwantedtoshowyousomething."Shesmiledandgesturedaroundher.
Ididn'tseeanythingspecial,though.Justthegreengrass,theblueskyandthecloudsbelowus.AndIsaw
Emily,thatwaswhatmatteredthemost.ShewasstillthenineteenyearoldgirlthatIlastsawsixyearsago,
onlythisversionwasalotmorehealthier.
Emilysatdownonourbenchandstartedhummingsomething.Ihavenoideawhatsongitwas,butitwas
beautifulsoIsteppedcloserandsatdownbesideher,wantingtohearmore.Sheglancedatme,givingmea
happysmilebeforeplacingherhandommystomach.
"Takecareofher,"shesaid.
"Whatdoyoumean?"Iasked,butshehadstartedtofadeaway.
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"Youneedtogoback.Youhavesomeonewaitingforyou."
"Sodoyou!WhataboutSam?Please,comebackwithme!"Ibeggeddesperatelythroughmysobs.
"SamknowsthatIlovehim,andIknowthathelovesme.He'shappy,that'sallthatmatters."
"WhataboutLeah?"Iasked,butEmilywasalmostgonebythen.
"She'shappytoo,andsoareyou."
Andthenshewascompletelygone,andIwasallalone.
Iwasbroughtbackbysomethingsqueezingmyhandandthefeelingofsomebodytouchingmyface.Icouldn't
openmyeyes,butIknewitwasEdward.Ifeltit.Then,somethingcoldhitmystomach,butitwasimmediately
replacedbyEdward'slips.
"Heyinthere.I'myourDaddy,andthebeautylyingnexttomeisyourMommy,"hesaid,placingseveralother
kissesallovermyabdomen."I'msofuckinghappyrightnow!"
I'mpregnant!
IhadforgottenwhatthedoctorhadtoldusuntilIheardEdward'swords.Istillcouldn'tbelieveit,Imean,the
testhadbeennegative.
Shit,shitshit!
IhadbeendrinkingthatPurpleNurpleshotafewdaysago.WhatifIhadharmedthebabywhiledoingso?It
wouldbeallmyfaultifthatwasthecase.Oh,andthebirthcontrolpills.Whatiftheyhadharmedittoo?
"Ican'twaittoseeyou.IbetyourMommyisjustasexcitedasIam,"Edwardwenton,talkingtomystomach.
"She'sfuckingamazingandIhopeyou'rejustlikeher."
AllmyfearswentoutthroughthewindowwhenIheardhiswords.
EPOV
"Hey,watchthatmouthofyours,"Bella'ssleepyvoicesaid.Icouldhearthesmileinhervoice"Idon'twant
ourbabytocurselikeasailor."
"Fuck,baby,youneedtostopscaringmewithallthefainting."ShegavemeapointedlookandIrealizedmy
mistake."Sorry."Ipattedherstomach,gaveitalastkissbeforecoveringitwiththegownandblanketagain.
Bellabroughtherfingersintomyhairandpushedmyheadupsothatshecouldkissme.Itwasafiercekiss
withalotoftongue.
"We'rehavingababy,"shemumbledhappilyagainstmylips.
"Wesureare."Iwasjustashappy,ifnothappier,overthatfact.
Ipulledbackandsatdowninmyseatagain.BellaaskedifIcouldfixherbedsothatshecouldbesittingmore
comfortable.Idid,andshelaiddownonhersideagain,halfsitting,holdingmyhand.
"So,doyouwantaboyoragirl?"sheasked,fidgetingwithmyweddingband.
"Itreallydoesn'tmatter."Ishruggedmyshoulders."Aslongashe,orshe,hasyourbeautifulbrowneyes."I
strokedhercheekwithmyfreehand.
Sheshookherhead."Iwantthebabytohaveyourpiercinggreeneyesandyourverystrange,butsexy,hair."
"You'resilly."Ichuckled.
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Onceagainwewereinterrupted,thistimebyasoftknockonthedoor.WhenIlookedovermyshouldertosee
whoitwas,IsawDr.Petersonstandinthedoorway.
"Ifit'salrightwithyou,Iwouldliketotalktoyouaboutafewthings?"Hestoodbytheendofthebed,looking
atbothmeandBella.
Wegavehimallcleartocontinue.
"So,firstthing.Bella,yourweightisgoingtobeariskforyouandthebabyifyoudon'tgainafewpounds
soon.Thelackoffood,mixedwithpregnancyiswhatcausedyoutofaint."
"Iknow,"Bellawhisperedandnodded.Isqueezedherhandincomfort.
"Also,EdwardwroteontheformthatyouwerefromSeattle,soIwouldrecommendyoutovisitaOB/GYNto
getyouandthebabycheckedupassoonasyougetback,okay?"
"Wewill,"Itoldhim.
"Otherthanthat,thereisn'tmuchmoreIcandoforyou.Bellaisbeingdischargedtoday,soyoucangobackto
enjoyingtherestofyourvacation."Hesmiledatusandwroteafewthingsonapaper.
"Thankyou,"BellaandIsaid.
Afewhourslater,andafteragrumpywheelchairdrivetothecab,wewerefinallybackatthehouse.The
doctorandthenurseshadtoldBellatogetsomeresttoday,whichonlygothermoregrumpysinceshewanted
toenjoyourlastdaysinLosAngelesoutsidethehouse.
Icalledmyparents,lettingthemknowthatBellawasokayandthatshehadbeendischarged.Ididn'ttellthem
anythingaboutthepregnancy,though.InsteadIjusttoldthemthatshehadn'tbeendrinkingenoughwaterand
thatwaswhyshehadfainted.Ididn'tknowiftheyboughtitornot,buttheyleftitatthat.
"Ithinkweshouldgohome,getyoucheckedup,"ItoldherwhenwesatinfrontoftheTV.
"What?Whydoyouwanttocutdownonourhoneymoon?"sheasked,sittingupsoshecouldfacemeand
threwthepopcornbagonthecoffeetable."IfI'mpregnantnow,I'llmostlikelybepregnantinafewdays."
"Ijustwanttoknowthateverythingisokay,that'sall.Youhavebeenthrowingupalot."
"Well,thatstuffisnormalwhenyou'repregnant,"shesaidcalmlyandconfidently.
"Iknow.It'sjust...fuck...please,letmetakeyouhome,"Ipleaded.
Shelookedtornforasecondbeforesheletoutasighandspoke."Let'scompromise.I'llletyoutakemehome
toseeadoctorifwestayonemorenight."
"What'ssoimportantthatwehavetostayhereonemorenight?"
Shesurprisedmebygettingofthecouchandstoodoneonekneebetweenmylegs.
"EdwardCullen,I'vebeenatotalbitchforthelastcoupleofdays,ifnotweeks,andIknowthatIcouldblame
thatonthehormones,butIwon't.ItwasIwhowasthebitch.So,asapeaceoffering,wouldyoupleasedome
thehonorandletmetakeyououtonadate?"
Shemadeitsoundlikeamarriageproposal,andshewassoadorable,sittingtherewithapoutonherlipsanda
lookinhereyesthatsheknewIcouldn'trefuse.
"Ofcourse,baby,"Isaid,cradlingherfaceandkissedherhardonthemouth.
EventhoughIwasscaredofharmingthebaby,wemadelovethreetimesthatnight.Apparentlyitwas
completelysafetohavesexduringapregnancy,butIwasstillgoingtoaskourdoctoraboutit.
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Thenextday,Bellatookmeoutsightseeing.WesawtheHollywoodsignandwewalkedontheWalkof
Fame.Sheeventalkedmeintobuyingoneofthose'Starmaps'andhadmedrivingbythemostimportant
celebrities'places.Shewashappy,soIwashappy.Besides,shemadeupforitwhenwewenttodinnerata
placethatwasn'tMcDonald's.Sinceitwasshewhotookmeoutonadate,Ievenletherpayforitasshe
insisted.
Muchtomysurprise,sheletmechoosethemovieweweregoingtowatch.Usually,whenwewouldwatcha
movieathome,shewouldalwayshaveatleastonecondition.
JustbecauseIcould,Ichoseanonromanticactionmovie,andBellawentontobuytheticketswithoutaword.
SheboughtussomepopcornandaCoketoshare.
Awhileintothemovie,ItoremyeyesoffthebigscreentolookatBella.Shehadn'tmovedortalkedtomefor
awhile,andasIsawher,Iunderstoodwhy.Shehadfallenasleepinmyarmswithherheadrestingonmy
shoulder.HermouthwasslightlyopenandifIwouldwaitlongenough,Iwassureshewouldbedroolingas
well.
Isnickeredtomyselfandturnedmyattentionbacktothemovie.Ilethersleep.Shewasprobablyexhausted
fromrunningaroundallday.Ijusthopedshewouldsleepthroughthenightandthatshewouldn'tbesick
tomorrowwhenwewokeup.
Ineededtobuyoneofthosebabybookstoseewhatelsewouldhappentoherbesidethemoodswingsand
morningsickness.IwouldprobablyhavetoaskEmmetthowhecouldstandallthebitchiness.
Afterawhile,awhimperescapedfromBella'slip.Ibarelyhearditsincethesurroundingwassoloud,butIdid
hearit.Shewasprobablyhavingabaddream,soIwastornwhetherornotIshouldwakeher,butwhen
anotheroneescapedalongwitha'no,'IknewIhadtowakeher.
"Baby,"IsaidinahushedwhispersoIwouldn'tdisturbtheothers,shakinghersmallbody.
Shewokeupimmediately,lookingaroundthetheaterconfused,likeshedidn'tknowwhereshewas.
"Oh,I'msorry,"shewhisperedsleepily."Imusthavefallenasleep."
"Yeah.It'sokay.Didyouhaveabaddream?"
ShehesitantlyshookherheadsoIletitgo.Sheinsistedthatshedidn'twanttogobacktothehouseyet,sowe
stayeduntilthemoviewasfinished.
BPOV
Thedatehadbeenreallygood,apartfrommefallingasleepduringthemovie.Ihadjustbeensodamntiredthat
Icouldn'tkeepmyeyesopen.Tomakemattersworse,IhadadreamaboutEmilyagain,onlythatonehadn't
endedlikethelastone.Itonlyleftmefeelingworried.
Whenwegotbacktothehouse,Iwentstraighttothebathroomtorelievemyself.IhatedpublicrestroomsandI
hadhadtheneedtogosincewewenttothemovies.IknewIneededtogetusedtotheideaofapublic
restroom,though.
Iplacedmyhandonmystomachandsmiledtomyselfbeforesteppingoutfromthebathroom.Edwardwas
lyingonthebedwithhisarmthrownoverhisface.
Ismiledatthesightandwalkedovertowheremysleepingtshirtwas.IstartedundressingandwhenIwasonly
cladinmyunderwear,Ifelttwobigstrongarmsencirclemywaist.IleanedintoEdward'sbodyandsighed.
"God,you'resofuckingbeautiful,Bella."Hekissedhiswayupmyneckandbitdowngentlyonmyearlobe.
He'sgoingtohavesomebigproblemswatchinghislanguageoncethebabyisborn.
WhenIfelthishandmovetowardthewaistbandofmypanties,IknewIhadtostophimbeforehegotany
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further.Iwassoincrediblysorefromallthesexwe'vehadlately,thathavingsexagainwouldprobablybelike
loosingmyvirginityagain.
IgrabbedEdward'shandandplaceditonmystomachinstead.Itwasprobablybadofmetousethebabyto
calmhisdisappointmentdown.
"Nosextonight."
"Whynot?"hewhined.
"BecauseIsaidso,"Itoldhim,tooembarrassedtoadmittherealreason.
"Isitbecauseofthebaby?"
"No,Ijustdon'tfeellikehavingsextonight,that'sall."ItwasacompleteliesinceIwasashornyasever.
"NotevenifItellyouhowmuchIloveyou?"Hepouted.
"No."
Hesighedandkissedmycheekagainbeforeshufflingtothebathroom.IknewIshouldhavetoldhim,butIjust
couldn't.
WhenEdwardcamebackagain,Ihadchangedintothetshirtandputmyhairupinabun.Hehadalso
changedintohisnightclothes,whichwasonlyhisboxers,butstill.
Withoutaword,hewentbacktothebedandlaydown.Iknewhewasgrumpyandsuddenlyanideacameto
mymind,hopingtogethimintoabettermood.
Istraddledhisthighsandkissedmywaydownhisbarechest.IcouldtellthatIhadtakenhimbysurprise,but
justbecauseIsaid'nosex,'itdidn'tmeanthatIcouldn'thavemyfunwithhim.
Iswirledmytonguearoundhisnipple,andthendidthesametotheotherone.Bythemoanshemade,Icould
tellthathelikedit.Infact,heprobablylovedit.WhenIkissedatrailalonghisboxerbriefs,hereactedby
moaningandstrokingmyupperarmwithhisfingers.
"Whatareyoudoing,Bella?Youcan'tjusttellmethattherewon'tbeanysextonight,andthengetmeallwind
up,"hecomplained,butevenIcouldhearthathedidn'tmeanawordofwhathejustsaid.
"Liftyourhipsup,"Iinstructed,ignoringhiscomplaint.
Hedid.Idraggedhisbriefsdownhislonglegsandtossedthemtotheside.Hislittlefriend,whowasn'tlittleat
all,wasstandingatattention,waitingformetotakecareofhim.IsmirkedandmademywayupEdward'slegs.
Whenmyfacewasjustabovethatgloriousdickofhis,Ibentdownandplacedasoftkissonthetop.Igotsome
precumonmylips,butIdidn'treallycaredandlickeditoff.IlookedupatEdwardtoseehimwatchingmy
everymovewithhoodedeyes.Hewasobviouslyhorny.
Itooktheheadintomymouth,suckingonitandthenswirlingmytonguearoundit,justlikeaPopsicle.I
enjoyedthesaltytastethatwastangledwithEdward'sowntaste.Ibreathedthroughmynose,likeRoseand
Alicehadtoldme,andtookhimfurtherin.Edwardcouldnolongerhidehispleasure.
"Fuck,"hemoaned,lettingoutahiss.
Hetwinnedhisfingersinmymessybun,guidingmeslightly,butstillletmecontrolthepaceanddepth.
Igrabbedthebaseofhisdickandhollowedmycheeks,addingtothesuction.Heseemedtolikethatashe
buckedhishipalittle.
Icontinuedtobobmyheadupanddown,swirlingmytonguearoundthehead.Edward'smoanwaswhat
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spurredmeon.Occasionally,hesaidmynamealongwithotherprofanities.
"Fuck,Bella.I'mclose,"hegrunted.
Iknewthat,butIwasn'tgoingtostopjustbecauseofthat.Iwasgoingtofinishforthefirsttime.Hehadnever
reallyallowedmetodothatbeforesincehealwayswantedtocuminsideme.Iwascurious,soforonce,Iwas
goingtoswallow.
So,whenhestartedtuggingonmyhair,Ijusthummedandcontinuedbobbingmyheadupanddown.I
decidedtobeboldandmovedmyfreehandtomassagehisballs.That,combinedwiththelookIgavehim
throughmylashes,diditandIfelthishotspurtsdownmythroat.
"Bella!Fuckinghell!"
Itriedtoswalloweverythinghegaveme,butitwasalotanditwasmessy,makingmewanttogag.Idid
swallowit,though.Ittastedsaltyandbitter.Itwasn'tverytasteful,butnotgrosseither.
Isatthere,kneelingbetweenhislegsandwatchedhimashebreathedheavilyafterhisorgasm.Itwas
fascinatingandIcouldn'thidemysmile.Iwasproudofmywork,andthatonlyintensifiedwhenIheardhim
mutter'Fuckingfantastic'and'Fuckingamazing.'
Afterawhile,thebittertasteinmymouthgotthebestofmeandIhadtogetupandbrushmyteeth.
"Hey,whereareyougoing?"Edwardaskedtiredly.
"I'mjustgoingtobrushmyteeth."Ismirkedathimandwenttothebathroomtodoso.
WhenIcamebackout,Edwardhadslidunderthecovers,soIturnedoffthelightandjoinedhiminthebed.As
soonasIwaslyingdown,hemovedsothathewashoveringaboveme.Then,hepepperedmywholefacewith
kissesandendeditwithadeepkissonmymouth.
"God,Ifuckingloveyou,baby!"hemumbledagainstmylips.
"Language,"Iscoldedplayfully."AndIfuckingloveyou,too."
Hechuckledandmovedtolaydownbehindmesothatwewerespooning.IwasabouttoturnaroundsinceI
preferredtofacehim,butwhenheplacedhishandovermystomach,Ididn'tcare.
Ifellasleepwithabiggoofysmileonmylips.Ididn'tcarethatmyboobsmadeithardtosleep,orthatIwould
probablythrowupatleastthreetimesinthemorning.AllthatmatteredwasEdward'shandonmystomach.
Weoversleptthenextmorning,andjustbecauseIhadpromisedEdwardthatwecouldflybackhometwodays
earlierthanplanned,wehadaplanetocatch.Tomakemattersworse,Igotsickandhadtothrowupnotonly
onetime,buttwo.Itendedwithme,carryingmytoothbrushandtoothpasteinmyhandluggage.
Iwaslucky,though,anddidn'tthrowupduringtheplaneride.Itdidn'tmeanthattheplaneridewentby
smoothly.Ihatedit,therewassomuchhappeningaroundmeandIgotakillerheadache.Itriedmyhardestnot
tomakeEdwardmiserable,butIcouldseethatmefeelinglikethat,madehimfeelbad.
WegotbacktoourapartmentatnoonandIwentstraighttobed,tryingtoforcemyheadacheaway.Wedidn't
haveanyAdvilonlyTylenol,whichRosesaidpregnantwomanshouldn'ttakeathometohelpmeeasethe
painawaysoEdwardwentouttobuymesome.Myhero.
Imusthavefallenasleep,though,becausewhenIwokeupagain,therewastwopillsandaglassofwateron
mynightstand.
WhenIwasreadytofacetheoutsideworldagain,IgotupandwenttofindEdward.Hewassittingonthe
couch,doingsomethingonhislaptop.
"Hey,whatareyoudoing?"Iasked,sittingdownnexttohim.
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Ibroughtmyhanduptohishairandmovedmyfingersthroughit.Hehummedinresponse,likehewas
enjoyingthefeeling.
"Notmuch.Justcheckinghowmuchtheapartmentisworth,"heanswered,shrugginghisshoulders."Areyou
feelingbetter?"
"Yes,thankyouforthepills."IknitmybrowstogetherinconfusionwhenIunderstoodwhathehadsaid.
"Whywouldyoudothat?"
"Well,wecan'traiseababyinthisplace.Weneedahouse,soIwasjustcheckingwhatit'sworth."
"Edward,youdorealizethatit'satleastanothersevenoreightmonthsleft,right?Imean,wehaven'tevenhad
ourfirstdoctorsappointmentyet,"Itriedtoreasonwithhim,tryingnottolaughathiseagerness.
"Iknow,I'mjust...sofuckinghappyandIwanttostartlookingforahometostartournewfamilyin,"hesaida
littlebitfrustrated.
Istillfounditadorablewhenheactedlikethat,becausetobehonest,Icouldn'twaiteither.Ialsoknewthatit
wouldbehardtryingtoraiseababyinasmallapartmentonthetwentysixthfloor.Besides,IbelievedthatElsa
wouldlovethefreedomitwouldgiveher.
"Okay,okay.So,tellmehowmuchisitworth?"Iasked.
"Wecan'tknowforsureuntilwe'vetalkedtoabroker,butaccordingtothiswebpagewecouldgetaroundone
andahalfforit."
"Oneandahalfwhat?"
"Million,"heelaborated.
What?
IknewIwasnavewhenIthoughthehadbeentalkingaboutafivefiguredamount,butamillionjustsounded
somuch.Ishouldhaveknowntheapartmentwasworthalot,though,sinceitwasnewandlocatedin
downtownSeattle.
"Areyouokay?"heaskedconcernedwhenIhadn'tanswered.
"Yeah,justalittleshocked,that'sall."Iwavedmyhandtodismissit.
"So,ifwesellthisplace,weprobablywon'thavetotakeabigloan,dependingonwherewewanttolive,"
Edwardwenton.
"Yeah,um,Ihavesomemoneysavedsincetherewasacertainpersonwhodidn'twantmetopayrent,"Isaid,
referringtohim.Iwasstillkindofshockedabouttheamountofmoney.
"Wheredoyouwanttolive,then?"heaskedexcitedly.
"Um,closebytoAliceandRosemaybe.It'saniceneighborhood."
Itwouldbebothgoodandbadtolivethatclose.Goodbecausethatmeantspendingmoretimewithmybest
friends.BadbecausethatmeantspendingmoretimewithAliceandRosenomorehiding.
EdwardtypedonthecomputerandthenangleditsoIcouldseeaswell.Itshowedalistofhousesforsaleinthe
neighborhoodIhadaskedfor.Heclickedonaimageandabeautifulgrayhouse,ifyouwantedtocallitthat,
cameintoview.
"Edward,that'samansion."
"So?Abeautifulmansiontomybeautifulprincess."Hesmirkedandgavemeapeckonmycheek.
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"Still"Irolledmyeyesathim"Wedon'tneedamansionwithsevenbedrooms.That'sjusttoomuchwork."
"Toomuchwork?"
"Yeah,somebodyneedstocleanit."
"We'llhireahousekeeper,"hestatedsimplyandscrolleddowntotherestofthepictures.
"No.Idon'twantsomeoneelsetocleanupafterme.Nomansionwithsevenbedrooms,"Isaidfirmly.
Hesighedandwentontothenexthousehefound.Itwasn'tamansion,butitwasstilltoobigformytaste.
"That'ssixbedrooms,"Istated,startingtogetfrustratedandtired.
"So?Iwantmorethanonekidsomeday."
"Butnotfourmore,"Iargued.
"No,butweneedatleastoneguestroom."
"Butnotmorethanone.So,lookforahousethatdoesn'thavemorethanfourbedrooms.Thatshouldbe
enough."
"Onlyfour?"heasked,lookingatmewithaprettysadexpression.
Ididn'tknowwhatitwas,butsomethingaboutthelookinhiseyesmademesoftenupabit.Maybethebaby
wasonit'sDaddy'sside.
"Fine.Five,butnotmore.FindareasonablehomeforusandI'llgohouselookingwithyou."Isighedandgot
upfromthecouch.
"Deal.Hey,waitasec.Sitbackdown,"hetoldme,gesturingtohisside.Ididashetold."I'vebeenlookingfor
anOB/GYNaswell.I'vecomeupwiththreewhosaystobethebest.Twomalesandonefemale."
"Idon'twantamale,solet'sgowiththefemalethen."
Heseemedrelaxedbymydecision.IhadchosenthefemalesincetheonlymanIwouldeverbecomfortable
withhavingdownthere,wouldbeEdward.Notthatitwouldbecomfortablewithawomaneither,itwasjusta
betteroption.
"Good.Doyouwantmetocallandsetupanappointment,ordoyouwantto?"heasked.
"I'lldoit."Ireachedoutmyhandforthephonewhichhegavemealongwiththephonenumber.
IwasabletogetusanappointmentforMondayduringourlunch.IwassurprisedthatIhadmanagedtoget
suchaquickone.ThatleftustheweekendtorelaxsincetodaywasFriday.Italsomeantthatwecouldhave
stayedinL.Afortwomoredaysasplanned.
WhenIhadfinishedthecall,IgaveEdwardsometimetolookforhousesandwenttothekitchentograbafew
crackerstomunchon.ItwasbasicallytheonlythingthatIcouldeatwithoutthrowingupfivesecondsafterI
wasdonechewingit.
Elsacamerushinginbehindme,wigglinghertale.Eithershewantedfood,orshewantedtotakeawalk.
Maybeitwasjustthecompanyshewaslookingfor,so,sinceEdwardhadalreadytakenheroutjustanhour
agoandherdinnertimecouldwait,Itookherintomyarmsandwalkedtothebedroom.
IletEdwardsearchforhousesonhisown.IhadafeelingIwasmoreinthewaythanIwashelping.Besides,I
hadtoldhimmyconditions.
IlaydownbesideElsawhowascurleduponmysideofthebed,leavingmeonEdward's.Ididn'tmind,
though,andnuzzledmyfaceintohispillow.Elsacreptclosertome,curlingupagainstmeandIbroughtmy
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handdownandstrokedhertinybodyuntilIbecametootiredandfellasleep.
IwokeuptothefeelingofEdwardnuzzlinghisfaceinmyhair.Iknewhewassleepingbyhisevenbreathing.
IlookedovertotheclockandsawthatIhadbeensleepingforalmosttwohoursandthatitwasalmostfour
thirtyintheafternoon.
IsawEdward'slaptopafewfeetawayfromusonthebed.Iwonderedifhehadwantedtoshowmesomething
whenhefoundmesleeping.
MycuriositygotthebestofmeandIcarefullygotoutofEdward'sarmsandscootedclosertothelaptop.Ihad
beenrightwhenItouchedthemouseandthescreensaverwasclosed,afewhousesshoweduponthescreen.
Ilookedthroughsomeofthemandtheywereokay,noteveryoneinmytaste,buthousesthatIwouldbe
completelyokaywith.Then,asIlookedatthefifthhouseEdwardhadputonhislist,Ifoundthehouse.The
houseIwantedtolivein,raisemychildrenin,growoldin.Itwasperfect.
"Hmm,whatareyoudoing,baby?"Edwardaskedsleepily,lettingoutayawnwhilestretchinghistallbody.
Hecameovertositbehindme,placinghischinonmyshouldersothathecouldseewhatIwasdoing.
"Iwantthishouse,"Itoldhim.
Ishowedhimthepictureofthebiglightbrownhousewithwhitecorners.Itwasbigenoughforoursmall
familyandapossibleadditionsometimeinthefuture.Thebackyardwasbig,butnottoobiganditwasseven
housesdownthestreetfromRoseandEmmett'shouse.
"Ithoughtyouwouldlikethatone,"Edwardmumbled,placingakissonmyneck.
Iheardhisphoneringinhispocket.Heletoutabigsighbeforefishingituptoanswer.
"What'sup,Emmett?"
IcouldhearEmmett'svoice,butIcouldn'tmakeoutexactlywhathesaid,butEdwardlookedupatmelikehe
wasaskingmesomething.Itdidn'ttakelongformetofigureoutthathewantedmypermissiontohangoutwith
Emmett,andpossiblyJasperaswell.Itmademefeellikehismom,andIdidn'tlikethatatall.
HewasstillwaitingformetosaysomethingsoIdid."Go,havefun!"Ithrewmyhandsupintheair.
HetoldEmmettthathewouldbetheretopickhimupassoonaspossible.Ileftthebedwhilehedidsoand
wentouttothekitchentograbafewmorecrackers.IheardEdward'sshufflingfeetbehindmebeforeIfelthis
armsaroundmywaist.Heplacedoneofhisbighandsonmystomachandkissedmycheek.
"I'mnotyoumom,soyoudon'tneedtoaskformypermissiontohangoutwiththeguys,"Imumbledand
munchedonasaltycracker.
"Iknow.I'msorry,butIjustdidn'twanttoleaveyoualone.Iwanttobewithyouifsomethinghappens."
"Youcan'tbethereformeeverysecondoftheday,Edward.Thatwon'twork."Iplacedtheboxonthecounter
andturnedaroundinhisarms."Butifitwouldmakeyoufeelbetter,Icouldspendthetimeyou'reawaywith
Rose."
"Thatwouldmakemefeelbetter,"hesaidandbentdown,givingmeakiss.
"So,wasthereanyspecialreasontowhyhewantedtoseeyourightnow?"
"Heneededtogetawayfromhisverypregnantwife.Hiswords,notmine."
"Oh."
Iwonderedwhatcouldhavehappened,andIalsowonderediftherewouldbetimeswhenEdwardwouldbe
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callingEmmettabouttheverysamething.
Probably.
HedroveustoRoseandEmmett'shouse.Onourway,wepassedthehouseIhadseenonlineanditlooked
evenbetterthaninthepictures.Edwardmadeapromisetocallfirstthinginthemorningtoscheduleashowing.
Emmettwasonthefrontporch,waitingwhenwearrived.IgaveEdwardalook,silentlyaskingwhatcouldbe
wrong.Heshruggedhisshouldersandbentovertheconsoletogivemeakiss.SinceEmmettwaswalkingover
tothecar,Ijustgavehimapeckbeforesteppingout.
"Iloveyou,"ItoldEdward.
"Iloveyou,too."Hesmiledwidely.
Emmettlookedpissedoff,butnotinascaryway.Helookedmorelikeafiveyearoldwhowaspissedoff.
"Goodluckinthere,"hemutteredbeforeclimbingintotheVolvo.
Igavethemawaveastheybackedoutontothestreet.EdwardwavedbackandIturnedaroundtofaceRose.I
hopeditwouldn'tbeanythingbad.
Iknockedonthedoor,butdidn'tbotherwaitingforhertoanswerbeforesteppinginside.
"Rose?"Icalledoutandremovedmyshoesandhungupmyjacketonthehanger.
"Inhere,"shecalledbackfromthekitchen.
"Hi,"IsaidwhenIfoundherbythekitchencounter."Ihopeyoudon'tmindmebeinghere.Ijustdidn'twantto
spendtheafternoonalone."
"OfcourseIdon'tmindyoubeinghere,Bella!"Shecameoverandgavemeahug,whichwasn'teasysinceher
bellywaskindofintheway.Igaveitakissbeforesittingdownononeofthebarstools."CanIgetyou
anything?Coffee?Asandwich?"
"Icantakeasandwich,"Iansweredsinceshewasmakingoneforherselfanyway.
"Nocoffee?"
"Nope."
"Huh."
ShelookedatmewithsuspicioninhereyesandIknewwhy.IrarelyturneddowncoffeeandIwasgoingto
haveahardtimelettingthataddictiongo.
Fortunately,Roseletitgoandwentbacktomakingsandwiches.IhadtobitemytonguesomanytimessinceI
wantedtotellheraboutthebabysomanytimes.EdwardandIhaddecidedtowaituntilafterthefirst
appointmenttotelleveryone.Itwaslikemyinsidewasbubblingwithexcitement.TherewassomethingIcould
sharewithher,though.
"EdwardandIaregettingahouse,"Itoldherandtookabiteofthesandwichshehadgivenme.
"What?Where?"Roseaskedexcitedly.
"We'regoingtolookatthehousethat'sforsaledowntheroad."
"Downthisroad?"
"Mmhm."Ismiled.
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Sheletoutasquealsoshewasobviouslyhappyaboutthat.
"Oh!Thecar!Nowyoucangiveittohimandhecanhaveitinhisgarage,"shesaid.
"That'sright.So,howisitcoming?"
"I'velookeditoverandorderedafewpartsthattakesabitlongertobedelivered.Doyouwanttotakealook?"
WehadsmuggledthecartohergaragewithoutEdward'sknowledgeandwithalittlehelpfromCarlisleand
Esme.
"Sure,"Isaid.Sheledmeouttothegarageandthereshewas,myoldbaby.Ismiledanddraggedmyfingers
acrossthehood."So,areyougoingtotellmewhat'supwithEmmett?"
"Hmpf,"shescoffed."Ifoundastashofporn.Notalittleoneeither,itwasprettyheavy.Imean,amIthat
unattractivethatheneedsporn?"
"What?No,ofcourseyou'renot!Iwouldtotally...be,um,intoyou...ifIwereaguythatit."
Shelookedatmestrangelyatfirstbeforesheburstintolaughter.
"OhmyGod,Bella!Ican'tbelieveyoujustsaidthatofallpeople."Shecontinuedtolaughhard,grabbingher
sides.
"So?Iwould,"Iwhined,butthenIjoinedherinthelaughter,gladthatIcouldcheerherup.
Wespenttherestoftheafternooninthegarage.RosetoldmeaboutthepossibilitiesforthecarandthingsI
couldaddifIwantedto.
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"Imean,isitsowrongforaguytohaveafewpornomagazines?"Emmettwhinedwhiletakingaswigofhis
beer.
WehadpickedupJasperandgonetoanearbybar,lettingEmmettletouthisfrustrations.
"Well,youdohaveahotwife,soyeah,I'mnotfollowingyou,"Jaspersaidcarefully.
"Soyouguysdon'thaveasinglefuckingmagazineormovie?Tellmethatyounevergoonlineforsome
titties?"
Ilookeddownatthetable,becausehonestly,Iwasguilty.IhadacoupleofmagazinesthatIhadn'tgottenrid
offsinceBellamovedin.Thatdidn'tmeanthatIlookedinthemanymorebecauseIdidn't.Ididn'tneedtowhen
IhadBella.
"See!That'swhatI'mtalkingabout,"EmmettsaidwhenneitherJaspernorIanswered.IguessedJasperwas
justasguiltyasIwas.
"Maybeyoushouldhavecomewithafuckingsignthatsaid:'MynameisEmmett,andI'maddictedtopornand
Imasturbateconstantly,'"Itoldhimsimply,earningabiglaughfromJasper.
"It'snotfuckingfunny!"Emmettwhined."Ihaveaangry,andaverypregnant,wifeonmyasstogetridoff
them!"
"Howdoyouhandlethatanyway?Imeanthewholebitchiness?"IaskedcuriouslywhenIhadcalmeddown.
"Ijustdon'tlistentoher,unlessit'saboutfoodbecauseI'llgetintotroubleifIdon'tgetherwhatshewants."
"Huh."Itwasasimplethingtodo,butitwasprobablysmartashell.
"AndImean,thebitchinessisn'tallthetime.Thereisthewholehornyparttoo."Hesmirked.
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Ichuckled,butIfoundmyselflookingforwardtothatpart.Imean,Bellawashornybynature,andifshewas
goingtogetevenhornier,Iwasgoingtoliveinparadise.
WeletEmmettwhineabitmorebeforeIfelttheneedtogobacktoBella.WedroppedJasperoffathishouse
andthenwedrovebacktoEmmett's.
IfollowedhiminsidesinceIfiguredBellawouldbethere.Ifoundhersmall,blueVansbythedoor,butwe
couldn'tfindthemanywhere.
"Babe!I'msorry,IpromiseI'llneverlookinthemagain!"Emmettyelled.
Iheardadoorclosesomewhereandincamethegirls,lookingveryinnocentliketheyhadbeenuptosomething
bad.Iwonderedwhatitcouldhavebeen.
ItookBellainmyarms,butshewantedmoresoshejumpedupandwrappedherlegsaroundmywaistand
startedkissingme.
"Ipromisethatassoonaswegethome,I'llthrowawayallmyporn.Pleasedon'tbemadatme,"Ibegged.
"Youhaveporn?"sheasked.
"Yeah,"Isaidguiltily.
"Oh."
"IpromiseIhaven'tlookedinthemsinceyoumovedin,"Itoldherdesperately.
Shejustchuckled."I'mnotmadatyou,Edward."
"Fuck,andIthoughtIcouldn'tloveyouanymorethanIalreadydo."
"Iloveyou,too."Shebentdowntogivemeakiss,butwewereinterruptedbysomeoneclearingtheirthroat
veryloudly.
"Otherpeopleintheroom,guys,"Emmettsaid.
"Sorry,"Bellasaid,blushingandgotdownfrommyarmstoputonhershoes.Whenshewasdone,shewalked
overtoRoseandgaveheraawkwardhug."Ihadagoodtimetoday.TakecareoflittleLily,okay?"Shebent
downtogiveRose'sbellyakiss.
WhenBellastoodbackuptogiveEmmettahugaswell,IsawinRose'seyesthatsheknewsomethingwasup.
Ididn'tblameheractuallybecausethatwasprobablytheonlytimeeverthatBellahadn'treferredtoLilyasmy
babyormyLily.
"Takecare,"ItoldRoseandgaveheraonearmhugandakissonhercheek.
"Youtoo."Shesmiled.
Afterourgoodbyes,wewentouttothecarandIstarteddrivingusbacktotheapartment.Bellawasinagood
moodwhichmademefeelgoodtoo.IstillhadEmmett'sadviceinthebackofmyhead,though.Justincase.
EndNotes:
A/N:Pleasedon'tbemadatme!Ihopeyoulikedit!
So,nowthatit'soutofthebag,Iwanttohearyourpregnancystories(ifyouhaveany).
Itcanbewhateveryouwanttoshare!:)
TheFacebookpageisstillupandrunning.Checkinthereandyou'llgetteasers,info
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Thankyoutoallofyouwhosharedyourpregnancystories!Ilovedreadingthem,
sekeepthemcoming!Also,amajorthankyoutothegirlsonFacebook/Twitterwho
supportedmethisweek.Idon'tknowwhatIwouldhavedonewithoutyou!
Thequoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'SororityBoys':
"MynameisRobertaandI'maddictedtopornandImasturbateconstantly."
Thereisanotherquoteinthischapter,asusual.Findit.Tellme.Getapreview!
ThankyoutoKris10Skimmer,withouther,thisstorywouldn'thavegonethisfar!
Again,Idon'tknowhowacheckupworksintheU.S.soifthere'sanythingwrong,I'm
sorry,butI'vetriedmybesttomakeitrealistic.
Disclaimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplotandDr.Hanna
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IplacedmyhandonBella'sbouncingknee.Sheseemedreallynervous,andtobehonest,sowasI.Wewere
sittinginthedoctor'soffice,waitingtodoourfirstpregnancycheckup.Allthepaperworkhadbeenfilledout,
soallwehadtodowastowaitforournametobecalled.
"Baby,stopbeingsonervous,"Isaid.
"It'seasyforyoutosay.You'renottheonewhoisabouttogetyourmostprivatepartsexamined,"Bella
snapped,butthenherposturesoftened."Sorry.I'mjustreallynervous."
"It'sokay.I'llbethereeverystepoftheway."Ikissedhertemple."Justthinkofitasanotherpapsmear."
"That'sthething.Ihaven'treallyhadone."Shefidgetednervouslyandgrabbedmyhandthatwasonherknee.
"Ithougheverywomanhadone."
"Ijustdidn'tgo.IneverreallysawthepointsinceIwasavirgin,"sheexplained.
"Well,I'llstillbetheretoholdyourhand,okay?"
"Yeah,thankyou."Sheturnedherfacetomeandpuckeredherlips,soIgaveherakisstoreassureherthatI
trulywasthereforher.
"IsabellaCullen,"anursecalledout.
"Ready?"Iwhispered.
"No,butI'mexcited."Shesmilednervously.
Wefollowedthenursewholedusintoanofficeandtoldustotakeaseatinthechairsinfrontofthedesk.Then
sheleftusaloneintheroom.
"Impressiveoffice.Wheredidyoufindthisdoctoranyway?"Bellaaskedamazedandsatdown.
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"Tanya,"Iadmitted,sittingdownaswell.
"Andthemales?"
"ThoseIfoundonline."
Wewereinterruptedbyafaintknockonthedoor.Webothturnedaroundandsawatallbrunettewalkingin.
Shewaswearingadoctor'scoatsoIfiguredshewasourdoctor.
"Hello,Mr.andMrs.Cullen.MynameisDr.HannaHouseman."
"PleasecallmeBella,andthisisEdward,"Bellasaid,actingalittlebitmorecomfortablethanaminuteago.
"Okay,EdwardandBella.So,whatIunderstandisthatyou'repregnant."Shesmiledatusandwebothnodded
ourheads."Doyoumindtellingmehowyoufoundout?"
"Um."BellalookedatmeandInoddedforhertocontinue."Well,Iwaslatesowedidatestathomeright
beforeChristmas,butitwasnegative.ThenIstartedthrowingupandgettingdizzy.EventuallyIfaintedand
Edwardcalledanambulance.Thedoctorsdidafewtestsandtoldusthatwewerepregnant."
"Okay,"Dr.Housemansaidandwrotedownafewthings."So,letmetellyouwhatwe'llbedoingtoday.I'm
goingtoaskyouafewquestionsfirstandthenwe'llcheckyourweightandheightandrunafewtests.After
thatwe'lldoapapsmearbeforedoinganultrasoundtoseehowyourbabyisdoing.Doesthatsoundgood?"
"Sure,"Bellasaid,noddingherheadandsqueezedmyhandtight.
"Good.So,whenwasthefirstdayofyourlastmenstrualperiod?"
IlookedoveratBellatoseethatshewassilentlycountinginherhead.Ihopedsheknew,becauseIhadnoidea
whenitwas.
"IthinkitwasaroundNovember15th."
Thedoctorwrotedownheranswerandcontinuedtoaskquestions.MostofthemIcouldtellwasembarrassing
forBella,butsheansweredthemlikeachamp.ThensheaskedaboutthesymptomsBellahadbeenhaving.I
steppedinafewtimeswithananswerofmyownifBellaforgotsomething.Sheblushedwhensheadmitted
thatshehadtogotothebathroomalotsinceshehadbeenhavingtheurgetopeeeverythirtyminutesthelast
coupleofdays.Weweretoldthatitwasnormal.
"So,Edward,howareyoufeelingaboutallthis?"Dr.Housemanasked.
"Ican'twaitforthebabytocomeout,"Itoldherexcitedlywithabigsmile.
"Well,that'snotuntilanothersevenmonthsorso."Shechuckled."Doyouhaveanyconcernssofar?"
"Yeah.Bellahasbeenthrowingupalot.Itjusthasmeworried,"Itoldher.
"It'snormal.Somewomenthrowupmorethanotherswhilesomedon'tthrowupatall.Tryhavesomecrackers
bythebedthatyoucaneatassoonasyougetup.Somesaythathelp."
"Okay.Andthesoretits?Imean,hersorebreasts,"Iasked.
Thedoctorchuckledatmyslip,andtomysurprise,sodidBella,butherswasmoreembarrassed.
"That'salsoapartofthepregnancy.Herbreastswillgrow,hernippleswilldarkenandtheveinswillbemore
evident.Howsorearethey,Bella?"
"It'shardtosleepandhugsomeonewithoutthemhurting.It'slikewhenI'monmyperiod,onlyalittleworse."
"Okay.Iwouldrecommendyoutosleepinasportsbra,itshouldhelpalittleatleast."
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"Okay."Bellanodded,takingtheinformationin."Um,Ihaveaconcernaswell.Ortwoactually.Sincewe
didn'tknowIwaspregnant,I'vebeentakingthepilleverymorningasusualandIdranksomealcoholafew
daysago."
"Itshouldbeharmless,manywomendon'tknowthey'repregnantanddrinkalcoholwithoutiteffectingthe
baby.Samewiththepill.Justaslongasyoudon'ttakeitnow."
"Oh,Istoppedassoonaswefoundout,"Bellareassuredher.
"Andwhataboutsex?"Iaskedafterafewsecondspause.
"Idon'tseeanyproblemswiththat.AslongasBellaisn'texperiencingpainorbleeding,"sheanswered."Do
youhaveanyotherquestions?"
"No,notrightnowatleast,"IsaidandlookedoveratBellawhowasshakingherhead.
"Okay,thenfollownurseJackieandshe'lltakeyourmeasurements,"thedoctorsaidandgesturedtothenurse
whowalkedinatthatexactmoment.ShelookedlikeshewasanNativeAmericanandwasalittleshorterthan
Bellawithblackhair.Shemusthavebeeninherlatefortiesorearlyfifties.
SheledusintoanexamroomandaskedBellatostepuponascale.Iwalkedovertothechairandsatdown.
Therewasn'tmuchelseIcoulddoanyway.
"Doyouknowhowmuchyouweighedbeforeyougotpregnant?"nurseJackieasked.
"Um,no.Ihaven'treallybotheredcheckingit,"Bellaanswereduncertain.
"Okay,noproblem."Jackiesmiledreassuringly."Yourweightnowisninetyfourpoundsandeightounces.
Youcanstepdownnowandgoovertheresowecantakeyourheightaswell."
TheywalkedovertothewallwhereJackiemeasuredBella'sheight.Itwasreallyinterestingtoknowthosekind
ofthings.
"You'refivefeetandtwoinches,"Jackiestated.
Wow,that'sreallyshort!
Bellaseemedtoonervoustoevenspeak.Iguessedthatwhenshehadseentheexamroomandallitsequipment,
sheknewwhatwouldsoonbecoming.
"Okay,haveaseatandI'lltakeyourbloodpressure,thenwe'redone!"Jackieinstructed,leadingBellatothe
examtable.
Whenshewasalldone,shetoldBellatochangeintoagown.ThatwaswhenBellastartedtobecomereally
nervous.WhenJackiewasoutthedoor,Bellaturnedtowardme.
"Idon'tknowifIcandothis,"shesaidinawhisper.
"Shh,it'sokay.I'mrighthere.Thinkofitthisway,we'llgettoseeourbabyafterward."Itriedtosmile,
althoughIwasnervousbecauseshewasnervous.
Shenoddedherheadthoughtfullyandslidoffthetabletogobehindthecurtaintochangeoutofherclothes.
Whenshecameback,sheshifteduncomfortablefromfoottofootwithherclothesinherhands.Ireachedout
myhandtograbthemforherandshehandedthemover.ShegotupinthechairandIplacedherclothesinmy
lapsothatIcouldgrabherhand.
Thedoctorcameinshortyafter."Okay,areyouguysready?"
"Yeah,"IsaidandBellanoddednervously.
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"Okay.So,Bella,Ineedyoutoscootdownabitandplaceyourlegshere,"sheinstructedandgesturedtothe
twothingsstickingupfromthechair.
Bellasqueezedmyhandtighteranddidasshewastold.EventhoughIcouldn'treallyseeanythingsinceDr.
HousemanhadplacedathinfabricoverBella'slegs,IguessedthatBellawasfullyexposed.
IlookedasDr.Housemangrabbedasilverinstrument.Itwasn'tuntilshestartedmovingittowardBella'snether
regions,thatIunderstoodwhereitwouldgo.
Fuck,thatcan'tbecomfortable!
Iwasright.IheardBellaletoutawhimperandsawashertoescurled,butnotfrompleasure.Icouldn'tactually
seeanything,butIunderstoodwhatthedoctorhaddone.IgaveBella'shandasqueezesinceIdidn'tknow
whatelsetodo.
"Bella,Ineedyoutorelaxorthiswillonlybemoreuncomfortableforyou,"Dr.Housemansaidfrombetween
Bella'slegs.
"Okay,"shesaidandnoddedherhead.
Iknewherbetterthanthat,though,andIknewsheneededsomecomfortinordertorelaxenough.Thatwas
whyIbroughtmyfaceclosetohersandgaveherapeckonherlips.
"You'redoingsogreat,baby,"Ireassuredherandshenoddedherheadagainstmyfaceasiftotrytelling
herselfthesamething.
Itwasinamomentlikethis,thatIonceagainfeltluckythatIwasn'tagirl.IkeptmyfaceclosetoBella'ssothat
shewouldstaysomewhatcalm.Itdidn'ttakelongforthedoctortofinishwhatshehadbeendoing.
Although,shewasn'talldone,justdonewiththesilverthing.SheputonwhatIwasguessingwaslubeontwo
ofherfingersandbroughtthemtoBella.TheotherhandsheplacedonBella'sabdomenandpressedgently.
IsawasBellagrimacedandkissedherclosedeyelid.Afterashortwhile,thedoctorwasfinallyfinishedwith
whatevershehadbeendoing.
"There,alldone!"Shesmiled.
ThedoctorwentonandaskedBellaafewmorequestionsIhadreallynoanswerfor.Shetypedintheanswers
aftereachquestion.
"You'reeightweeksandfourdaysalong.Soyourduedateis...August22nd.It'snotadefinitedate,butitgives
yousomeguidelinetowhenthebabymightdecidetoshow."Shesmiledwidelyandwenttograbsomething
acrosstheroom.
"We'rehavingababyinAugust,"Bellawhisperedhappily.
Ichuckledjustashappily."Wesureare."
"So,ifyoucouldchangeintothisgownandthenwe'llbegoingtodoanultrasoundaswell."Dr.Houseman
handedBellaanothergown."Igatheryouwanttoseeyourbabytoo?"
"Absolutely,"Isaideagerly,causingbothwomentolaugh.
Bellawentbehindthecurtainsagaintochange.IgrabbedherclothesandwefollowedDr.Housemaninto
anotherroom.BellahoppeduponthetableandIsatdowninthechairbesideit.
"So,sinceyou'reonlyabouteightweeksalong,wewouldbeabletoseethingsmoreclearlyifwedida
transvaginalultrasound."Dr.Housemanexplained.
"Whatdoesthatmean?"Bellaaskedworriedly.
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"ItmeansthatI'llinsertthiswand"sheheldupaprettylongstick"intoyourvaginaandbringituptoyou
uterus.Thatwaywe'llgetaclearervisionofthebaby."
"Okay,thenlet'sdothatone,"BellasaidalmostreluctantlyandIunderstoodwhysinceshehadbeen
uncomfortablewiththeinstrumentthedoctorusedbefore.Thewandlookedalotworse.
IgrabbedBella'shandhardassheputherfeetupsothatthedoctorcouldgetbetteraccess.Itookthehandto
mymouthandgaveitakiss.TheotherhandwenttoherhairandIstartedstrokingit,hopingitwouldhelpher
relax.
IimmediatelyknewwhenDr.HousemaninsertedthewandbecausethatwaswhenBellatensedup,butshe
didn'tsayanything.
"Okay,sothislittleblotchrighthere"thedoctorpointedatasmallspotonthescreen"isyourbaby."
Itwasjustalittlespotonthescreenthatlookedlikeapeanutorsomething,butitwasourbaby.Eventhoughit
washardtolookawayfromthescreen,IjusthadtolookdownatBella.Shewasstaringintenselyonthe
screen.
"That'sourbaby,"Iwhisperedhappilyinherearwhilelookingatthescreen.Shejustnodded,unabletospeak.
"Doyouwanttohearitsheartbeat?"Dr.Housemanasked.
"Canwereallydothat?"Iaskedsurprised.
"Ofcourse!"
ShetypedinafewthingsonthecomputerandthenextthingIknewwastheroombeingfilledwiththemost
wonderfulsoundIhadeverheardtheheartbeatsofourbaby.Itwasquickandblurry,butIhearditloudand
clear.
Ididn'tevenrealizethatIhadtearsrunningdownmycheeksuntilBellaliftedherfreehandtowipethemaway.
Shewascryingtoo,butitwasallhappycrying.
"Thankyousomuch,baby,"Isaidandleaneddowntokissher.
"Forwhat?"sheaskedconfused.
"Forgivingmeababy,forlovingme,foreverything."
"IthinkIshouldbetheonethankingyou."Shesmiledandgavemeapeckbeforeturningbacktothescreen.
"Doyouwantapicture?"Dr.Housemanasked.
"Canwegettwo?"Iasked.Iwantedtohaveoneinmywalletandoneonthefridgeaswell.
"Sure."
BPOV
Iheldthepictureinmyhand.Thepictureofourlittlebaby.Ithadallfeltsosurreal,butassoonasIhadheard
theheartbeatsandsawitonthemonitor,itallbecamerealtome.
Edwardguidedmeoutthedoctor'sofficewithhisarmaroundmyshoulders.Ifelthimsqueezeme,soIlooked
up.Hewasn'tlookingatme,insteadhewaslookingatnoneotherthanJakeandLeah.
Thisisjustgreat.
"Bella?"Jakeaskedconfused."Whatthehellareyoudoinghere?"
"I'mguessingit'sthesamethingyou'rehearfor,"Itoldhim.
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"You'repregnant?"heaskedshockedandconfused."Withhim?"
SomethingabouthiswordsmadeallthehappinessIfeltaboutfinallyseeingthebabygooutthewindow.I
knewIhadtodealwithJake'sbehaviorbeforeeverythingjustgotworse.
"Leah,doyoumindifIborrowJakeforafewseconds?Ineedtotalktohiminprivate,"IaskedLeahsweetly.
"Sure,ourappointmentisinfiveminutes,though,"sheanswered.
"Itwon'ttakethatlong,"Isaidandwalkedovertoaareaafewfeetawaywherewecouldtalkinprivate.
Jakefollowedquietlyandassoonaswewerealone,Iturnedaroundtofacehim.
"Whatthehellisyourfuckingproblem?"Iasked.
IwassomadathimthatIdidn'tcareaboutkeepingmylanguagechildfriendly.IguessedEdward'slanguage
hadstartedtowearoffonme.
"Ican'tbelieveyoufuckingmarriedtheguyinthefirstplace,andnowyou'rehavingababywithhim!"Jake
hissed.
"YouwanttoknowwhyI'mmarriedtohim,huh?"Iaskedfrustrated."Therealtruth?"
Hethrewhisarmsoutandgavemeachallenginglook,soItookthatasasignandtoldhim.
"ImarriedhiminVegas,whileIwasdrunk!Yes,itwasamistake,butyouknowwhat?Icouldhavelefthimif
Iwantedto,butIdidn'tbecauseIlovehim,okay?"
"You'resureaboutthat?"heasked."Areyousurethathedidn'tjustmanipulateyouintostayingmarried?
BecauseIfinditreallyhardtobelievethatyouloveaguywhomadeyoucryyourselftosleepinhighschool."
"Hisnotlikethatanymore!Sure,therewasatimewhenIhatedhimwitheverythinginme,butthattimeisin
thepast.This"Ihelduptheultrasoundpictureinhisface"isthefuture.It'syourchoiceifyouwanttobeinit
ornot."
"Areyouabsolutelysurethatyoulovehim?Imean,likeyouwoulddoanythingforhim.Areyousurethathe
lovesyoubackthesameway?"heaskedseriously.
"Yes,Iam,"Iansweredconfidently.
Heshookhishead."ThenI'mgoingtoletthepastgo.Ifthat'swhatyoureallywant."
"Itis.Anddon'tthinkI'mgivingyoumorechances.Ifyouscrewthisoneup,I'mnotgoingtoforgiveyouthis
easilyagain,"Itoldhimsternly."It'snotyourjobtoprotectmeanymore,Jake."
Henodded."IpromisethatIwon'tfuckthisup.I'llevengiveCullenanhonestchance."
"Thankyou."Hetookmeintohisarmsandgavemeahug."We'regoingtogathereveryonesomedayandtell
themthenews.IwouldloveitifyouandLeahcouldcome."
"We'llbethere.Justsendmeatextaboutwhenandwhere."
"Jake,we'reup,"Leahcalledfromafewfeetaway.
"It'sokay.GoandI'llseeyousoon."Ismiledreassuringly,reallyhopingthatournewfriendshipcouldlast
becauseIhadreallymissedhimasmyfriend.
"Okay,don'tforgettotextmethen,"hesaidandwalkedaway."Andcongratulations,tothebothofyou."
IfollowedhimandwentstraighttoawaitingEdward.Hesatinoneofthechairsinthewaitingroomwithhis
elbowsrestingonhisknees.Hestoodupwhenhesawme.
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"Areyouokay?"heasked.
"Yeah.Let'sgobacktowork."
"Okay."
WeclimbedintohisVolvoandhesteeredusthroughthetraffic.Asalways,helookedsosexywhiledoingso
andIhadtobitemylipinordertonotjumphimrightthenandthere.
"Wait,maybeweshouldstopsomewhereandgrabsomethingtoeat?"Iaskedworriedly.
Dr.Housemanhadtoldmeaboutherconcernsovermyweight.MyBMIwasonlyaboutseventeenandahalf.
Ishouldbealittleovernineteen.ShesaidthatIneededtogainatleasttwentyeightpoundsduringmy
pregnancyforbothmineandthebaby'ssafety.
"Baby,weaterightbeforeourappointment.Iknowyouwanttogainweight,butifyouforcedownthefood,
you'llonlyendupthrowingitupagain,"Edwardreasoned,andIknewhewasrightlikemosttimes."Are
youreallyhungryrightnow?"
"Notforfood,no,"Iadmittedremorsefully.
"IhaveaTwixintheglovedepartmentifyouwantone.Notthatcandyisgoodfoodoranything."He
shruggedhisshoulders.
AtthementionofTwix,Ifoundmyselfwantingone,evenifIagreedwiththewhole'candyisn'tfood'thing.
ThatwaswhyIopeneditandgrabbedtheTwix.IofferedoneofthepiecestoEdwardsinceitwashis,buthe
shookhishead,tellingmethatIcouldhaveit.
EPOV
IknewBellawouldstressoutaboutherweight,butsheneededtounderstandthatshecouldn'tjustforcedown
thefoodandthenmagicallygainenoughweight.Thingsdidn'tworkthatway.
"Whendoyouwanttotelleveryone?"Iasked.
"Idon'tknow,butIthoughtthatmaybewecouldgeteveryonetogetherandtellthem."
"Sure,butIwanttodoitsoon."Icouldn'thidemyexcitementinmyvoice."Idon'tthinkIcankeepittomyself
forverylong."
Shechuckled."Meneither.Tomorrowmaybe?WecouldmeetupatStarbucksorsomething."
"So,you'relettingguysinvadeyoursecretmeetingwiththegirls."Ismirked.
"No."Shehitmeplayfullyonmybicep."Themeetingsaren'tsecret.You'rewelcomeanytime."
"Wow,howgenerousofyou."Ilaughed.
"Ithinksotoo,"shesaidandcontinuedtoeattheTwix.Hopefullyshewouldgettokeepthatonedown.
IpulledupinfrontofherofficeandgaveherakissgoodbyebeforeIdrovebacktomyoffice.Ineededtotalk
toEmmettabouttomorrowsoassoonasIsteppedinside,Iwenttofindhim.Ifoundhiminhisoffice.
"Edtotheward,"hegreetedme.
Ihadtostopforasecondtofigureoutifhehadreallysaidthat.Ishookmyhead.
"Okay,mynameisEdward,andtherewillbesomeseriousconsequencesifyoucallmethatagain.Especially
infrontofBella."Isatdowninthechairinfrontofhisdesk.
"Okay,Eddie.So,towhatdoIowethispleasure?"
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"It'sEdward.AndIwantedtoaskyouifyouandRosecouldcometoStarbuckstomorrowafterwork?"
"Why?"
"BellaandIhavesomethingtotellyou,"Isaid,smiling,andgotupfrommyseatbeforehegotthechanceto
askmesomethingelse.
Icouldhearhimaskingquestionafterquestion,butIignoredhimandwalkedbacktomyoffice.Tanyawas
sittingatherdesk.
"Whatgotyouallsmiling?"sheasked.
IknewBellaandIweren'tsupposedtotellanyonebeforetomorrow,butIcouldn'thelpmyself.Besides,Tanya
wasn'tgoingtobeatStarbuckstomorrowwhenwetoldeveryoneelse.ThatwaswhyIgrabbedmywallet
withoutawordandpulledouttheultrasoundpicture.
"BellaandIarehavingababy,"Itoldher,smilinglikeanidiotandhandedherthepicture.
"OhmyGod!"shesquealed,jumpingupfromherchairandranovertomeandsqueezedthehelloutofme.
"I'msohappyforyou!"
"Thankyou,"Isaidsincerely.
"So,whenisthebabydue?"
"August22nd."Icouldn'thidetheprideinmyvoice.
"Wow,"shesaidamazed,handingthepicturebacktome.
BPOV
Iskimmedthroughthesearchresultswithatwingeinmystomach.Ihadbeenputtingthisoffforwaytoolong
anditwastimetoactuallydosomething.Ireallyneededtomakeaneffortnowthatwehadababyontheway.
Ibrushedmyhandagainstmystomachandclickedonarandomlink.ItwasaphonenumberforaDr.Ashley
Molina.Itdidn'tsaymuchelseandsinceIdidn'thaveanyotheroptiontogofor,Idecidedtogivethemacall
andaskforanappointment.
ItwaswithshakyhandsandashakyvoicethatIaskedtheassistanttogivemeanappointment.Igotonefor
Friday.Itcouldbebothgoodandbad.GoodbecauseitsometimesfeltgoodtoleteverythingoutandIwould
behappyduringtheweekend.Badbecausesometimestalkingaboutmemoriesmademethinkaboutthemlong
afterI'dtoldthem,whichwouldmaketheweekenddepressing.
"Hey,what'swrong?"Edwardaskedwhenhecamehome,sensingmymoodrightaway.
"IgotanappointmentfortherapyonFriday,"Itoldhimandwentovertohughim.
Iburiedmyfaceinhischestandjustbreathedinhisscent.Iinstantlycalmeddownwhenheputhisarms
aroundme.
"It'sgoingtobeokay.Doyouwantmetocomewithyou?"heasked.
Ishookmyhead."IthinkIneedtodothisoneonmyown.Atleastthefirstappointment."
"Okay,"wasallhesaid.
"ImadeussomeLasagnaifyou'rehungry."
"I'mstarving!Iloveyou,"hesaid,kissingmyforehead.
"Iloveyou,too,"Iwhispered.
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EdwardwenttograbsomethingtodrinkfromthefridgeandIsawashesmiledatthepicturethatIhadputup
theretheultrasoundpicture.
"ItoldTanyaaboutthebaby,"heblurtedoutandtookmebysurprise.
HesatdownbesidemeonthebarstoolandlookedsoguiltythatIfeltsorryforhim.
"It'sokay.IkindoftoldAngela,"Iconfessed.
"Oh.Iguesswe'reeventhen."Herelaxedimmediately.
Muchtomysurprise,Igottokeepthefooddown.Sure,therewasnausea,butthatwasaboutit.Ifellasleep
whilewatchingTVwithEdward.Ibarelyfeltwhenhecarriedmetothebedroomandlaymedownonthebed.
Ialreadyhadgottenreadyforbedsoatleasthedidn'thavetodothat.
IwasalmostbacktodeepsleepagainandIthoughtIwasdreamingwhenIfeltEdwardliftingmytshirtup.
"Goodnight,mylittlebaby.PleasebenicetoMommytomorrowbecauseIfeelsohelplesswhenshe'ssick."
ThenIfeltakissjustbelowmybellybutton.
Myboobsstillhurtevenwiththesportsbra,sothemostcomfortablepositiontosleepinwasspooningso
Edwardlaydownbehindmeandpressedmeagainsthischest.
IwokeupwhenEdward'salarmgotoff.IwhimperedwhenhetriedtopullawaysinceIreallydidn'twanthim
toleave.Ineverdid,butthefeelingofemptinesswhenheleftthebedwassomuchstrongertodaythanusual.
"Letmetakeyoutoworktoday,"Iwhispered,myvoicethickwithsleepwhenEdwardhadgottendressedand
showered.
"Don'tyouneedyourbeautysleep?"heaskedandhuncheddowninfrontofmeandstartedstrokingmyhair.
"Iwanttotakeyoutowork.IcansleepwhenIgetbackhome,"Imumbled.
"Okay,I'mjustgoingtograbsomethingtoeatandthenI'mreadytogo,"hetoldmeandpressedhislipstomy
foreheadbeforesteppingoutoftheroom.
IgotupshortlyafterandcontemplatedwhetherornotIshoulddressornot.Itwasn'tlikesomebodywouldsee
me.IwasjusttakingEdwardtohisoffice.
DespiteEdward'swordsthenightbefore,IfeltthenauseahitwhenIpulledonmysweatsandIhadtorushto
thebathroom.
"God,notagain,"Igroanedtomyself.
Aftermystomachwascompletelyempty,Ibrushedmyteethandmywholemouth,tryingtogetridofthe
disgustingtastefrommyvomit.Ireallyhopedthemorningsickness,orthealldaysicknessactually,wouldjust
goawaysoon.
IwalkedouttothekitchenandfoundEdwardsittingbythecounter,readingthemagazineanddrinkingcoffee.
Iwentovertostandrightnexttohimandwrappedmyarmsaroundhisneck.Inreturn,heplacedoneofhis
armsaroundmywaist.
"Ithrewupagain,"Itoldhim.
"I'msorry,"hesaid,givingmywaistasqueeze.
"It'snotyourfault.It'syourbaby'sfault,"Ijoked.
Hedippedhisheaddownsothathewasinheightwithmystomach.
"YouneedtostartlisteningtoyourDaddy,"hescoldedplayfully.
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IchuckledandsteppedawayfromhimsothatIcouldgiveElsaherbreakfast.Shecamerunningveryfastas
soonassheheardwhatIwasdoing.
"Isthereareasontowhyyouwanttotakemetoworktoday?"Edwardaskedasheputhiscoffeecupinthe
dishwasher.
"Ijustwanttospendmoretimewithyou,andIthoughtthatmaybewecouldgohometogethertonightafter
we'vetoldeveryone."
"Okay,Idon'tmindatall."Hesmirkedandgavemeapeckonmylipsbeforehewenttograbhisthingssothat
wecouldgo.
Igrabbedhiscarkeys.Ididn'thavetheenergyforthesmallargumentwewouldgetinifIwoulddrivehimin
mycar.Besides,therewasn'tanythingwrongwithhiscar,soIdidn'treallymindanyway.
"Iforgottoaskyousomethinglastnight,"ItoldEdwardoncewewereonourwaytohisoffice.
"Whatwouldthatbe?"heasked.
"Didyoucalltherealestateagenttosetupatimewhenwecouldlookatthehouse?"
"Yeah,Idid.Itotallyforgottotellyou.IguessIwastoohappyaboutthebabytoremember."Hesmiledatme.
"We'regoingonThursday.I'llleaveworkafewhoursearlier."
"Okay,"Isaidhappily.
Idroppedhimoffwithakissandan'Iloveyou'beforeIwentbackhome.Ihadplansonjustgoingbackto
sleep,butthebedwastooemptyandcoldwithoutEdwardsoItookalongshowerinstead.WhenIwasdone,I
wentouttothekitchentotryandeatsomebreakfast.
Idecidedonmakingmyselfafriedeggandputitonmytoast.ThatwayIwouldeatmorethanjustanegg.
WitheverybiteItook,Itoldmystomachandbabytoletitstaydown,anditseemedtoworksinceallIfeltwas
alittlenauseathatquicklysubsided.
ElsaandItookalongwalkaroundtheparkwhenIwasdoneeating.Isatdownonabenchtoletherrestaftera
whileandwatchedasthekidsplayedintheplayground.Themomsmadeitlooksoeasy,andIhoped
everythingwouldbethatwayformetoo.ThatIwouldknowwhattodooncethebabywasborn.
Ihadmyinsecurities,though,andthatwaswhyIdroppedElsaoffbackhomeandwenttoabookstore.I
neededababybookthatcouldtellmethingsIhadnoideaabout.
ThatwashowIspentmydayreadinginthebabybookandtryingtogothroughamanuscriptforwork.Iwas
countingeveryminuteofthedayuntilIcouldseeEdwardagain.ItwaslikeIwashavingaweirdobsession
abouthim.So,whenfourthirtyfinallycamearound,Iwasalreadyinhiscaronmywayovertohisoffice.
"Hello,Bella,"Tanyagreetedwithaknowinglook.Ihadalmostforgottenthatsheknewaboutthebaby.
"Hi,Tanya."Ismiled."IsEdwardin?"
"Hisfinishingupthemeetingaswespeak.Youcanwaitasusualinhisofficeifyou'dlike."
"Thanks,"Isaidandstartedwalkingtowardhisoffice.
"Oh,andcongratulations.I'mreallyhappyforyou,"Tanyasaidsincerely.
"Thankyou."Ismiledevenbigger.
Edwardhadtakentheultrasoundpictureandputitinthesameframeasthepictureofme.Itracedmyfinger
overitandsmiledwhileholdingmyhandovermystomach.Hewassohappyaboutthebaby,andsowasI.
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Insteadofsittingdowninhischair,Iwalkedovertothewindow.Itwassocleanthatitalmostfeltlikethere
wasn'tanywindowthereatall.IstretchedoutmyarmslikeIwasgoingtofly.IhadnoideawhyIdidit,butit
reallyfeltlikestandingontheedgeandallIhadtodowasjumpupandIwouldbeflyingoverthecity.
"Whatareyoudoing,baby?"Edwardlaughedfromtheothersideoftheroom.HeprobablythoughtIwas
crazy.
"IthinkIwasabirdinmypreviouslife,"Itoldhim."Whatdoyouthinkyouwere?"
"Ifyou'reabird,I'mabird,"hesaidseriously.
Ireachedupmyarmsandplacedthemaroundhisneck.Ismiledupathimandhebentdowntokissme.There
wasn'tanytongueinvolved,butitwasreallypassionate.
WhenwegottoStarbucks,AliceandJasperwasalreadywaitingforus.Igavethemaquickwaveand
followedEdwardtothecounter.
"Whatdoyouwant,baby?"heasked.
"I'lltakesomehotchocolateand...acinnamonroll,"Itoldthegirlbehindthecounter.
"AndI'lljusttakeregularcoffee,"Edwardsaid.
Alicewaspracticallybouncinginherseatwhenwewentovertothem.Jaspertried,withoutsucceeding,to
keepherdown.IfIknewAlice,shehaditallprobablyfiguredoutalready.Shewasjustwaitingfora
confirmation.
"So,whyaretheboyshere,andwhyarewemeetinguponaTuesdayinsteadofWednesday?"sheasked.
"Calmdown,Alice."Ilaughed."We'rejustwaitingforeveryoneelseandthenwe'lltell."
"She'sbeenlikethissinceyouaskedustocomehere,"Jaspersaid.
"I'llbet,"Edwardmumbled.
Weweresittingbythecouches,sowhenEdwardsatdowninoneofthearmchairs,Isatdowninhislap.He
placedhisarmonmylegsandIhadoneofmyhandsinthenapeofhisneck,playingwithhishair.
Itdidn'ttakelonguntileveryonefinallyarrivedRoseandEmmett,JaneandSam,JakeandLeah.Theyallsat
downwithusandIstartedtogetnervous.IwonderedhowtheywouldreacttothenewssinceEdwardandI
hadonlybeenmarriedforsevenmonths.
"So,BellaandIaskedyoutocomeheretonightbecausewehavesomethingtotellyou,"Edwardbegan.
"Oh,don'ttellme.You'rerunningawaytoVegastoredoyourwows,"Emmettsaid,earningasmackinthe
headfromRose.
"Actually,no.We'restillplanningonredoingourwowsinJuly."
"Thenwhatisit?Comeon,I'mdyingoverhere,"Alicewhined,makingeveryonelaugh.
Leahshotmealook,tellingmetogoon.So,ItookadeepbreathbeforeIspoke.
"EdwardandIarehavingababy."
Atfirst,theroomstayedsilent,butitwasquicklybrokenbyRose.
"Iknewit."Ilookedatherconfused."You'veneverturneddowncoffee.Youbrushedyourhandoveryour
stomacheverytenminutesandIgotmyLilyback."
"Iknewittoo!Although,Ididn'tknowexactlywhenitwasgoingtohappen.Ijustknewyouweregoingto
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havekidssomeday,"Alicesaid,smiling."Oh!I'msohappyforyou!"
SheflewupfromherseatandsqueezedbothEdwardandIinhersmallarms.Jasperwasalittlemorecareful.
"Congrats,"hesaidandwentbacktohisseat."So,whenisitdue?"
"August22nd,"Itoldthemproudly.
"Ican'tbelievelittleBellsishavingababy,"Samsaidandshookhishead,buthesmiled."Congratulations,you
reallydeserveit."
"Yeah,congratulations,"Janeagreed.
"Doesthismeanthatyou'renotkidnappingmydaughteranymore?"Emmettaskedseriously.
"Iwasnevergoingtokidnapher,Emmett,"Itoldhim,tryingtocontainmylaughter.
"Good.AndI'mhappyforyouguys,congrats."
Rosedidn'tsayanything,shejustsattherewithtearsinhereyes.
"Hey,whyareyoucrying?"Iasked,worriedthatshewasupsetaboutthepregnancy.
"It'snotbad,Bella.I'mjustsofreakinghappyforyou!"shewailed.
"Thankyou,"Isaid.Myowntearswerestaringtomaketheirwayout.
"SinceIdidn'tgetachancetotellyoubeforecongratulations,tothebothofyou,"Leahsaid.
"Yeah,congratulationsagain,"Jakeagreed,anditactuallysoundedlikehemeantit.
Afterreceiving'Congratulations'fromeverybody,wecontinuedtoeatanddrink.SamandJanewerethefirst
onestoleave.TheygavebothEdwardandmeahugbeforetheyleft.
"It'slikesomebigfuckingbabyboomgoingon,"Emmettsaid."TheonlyoneswhoareleftareAliceandJane."
"Nah,we'rewaitingalittlelonger,"Jaspersaidcalmly.
"Yeah.NowIhaveanotherbabytospoil.Oh,andanotherbabyshowertoplan!"Aliceexclaimed.
"Alice,letsatleasthaveRose'sbabyshowerbeforeyoustartplanningmine,okay?"Ibeggedher.
"Fine."Shepouted,butshewasstillhappy.
Weallleftatthesametime.Whenwewereoutontheparkinglot,Leahgrabbedmyhandandledmeafew
feetawayfromtheothers.
"I'mtrulyhappyforyou,andforEdward.IjustwantedtoletyouknowthatifEmilywouldstillbealive,she
wouldbeevenhappierforyou."
"Thankyousomuch!"Ithrewmyarmsaroundherandhuggedherlikemylifedependedonit.Thewords
meanttomuch,comingfromher.
Afterawhile,wewentbacktotheothers.IdriedawaythetearsthathadescapedandwalkedovertoEdward.
"Arewestillmeetinguptomorrow?"Aliceasked.
"Sure,Idon'tmind."Ishruggedmyshoulders.
"Thenwewill,"Rosesaid."Doyouwanttocome,Leah?"
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"Sorry,butIhavetoworklatetomorrow,butthankyouforasking!"Leahanswered.
"MaybeanotherWednesday,"Isaid.
"Okay.Well,weneedtogetgoing,"Jakesaidandgavemeaquickhug."Thanksforinvitingus."
"You'rewelcome."
LeahandJakewalkedbacktotheircar,leavingtherestofusbytheentrance.
"Weshouldheadbackhometoo,"Rosesaid.
Withoutanywarning,Emmettcameovertomeandliftedmeupinoneofhisbearhugs,almostsqueezingall
theairoutofmylungs.
"Emmett,putdownmywifeandbabynow,beforeyouchokethemtodeath,"Edwardsaidinasternvoice.
"Iwasjustgivingherahug,"hemuttered.
"Yeah,yeah.Anddon'tyoudaresayanythingtomyparentsaboutthis!"
"Fine,Iwon't."EmmettgaveEdwardoneofthosemanlyhugsbeforeheandRosewalkedaway.
WesaidgoodbyetoAliceandJasperaswellbeforewetoowentbacktoourcar.
"So,whendoyouwanttotelltheparents?"Edwardasked.
"Idon'tknow."Ishruggedmyshoulders."Maybewecoulddriveupnextweekend.Idon'twanttotellthem
overthephone,andDadwantedtoseeusso..."Itrailedoff.
"Sure.Idon'tmind.Momaregoingtobesofuckinghappy."Hechuckled.
"Yeah.IhopemyDadreactslikeIknowEsmewill,"Imuttered.
"Hewill,"Edwardsaidalmostlikehewastryingtoconvincehimselfofthatfacttoo.
ItookEdward'shandinmine,placingthembothonmystomachandsighedhappily.
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Iforgiveyou
EPOV
"Whatdoyouthink?"Bellaasked.
WewerestandinginthekitchenofthehouseBellahadseenonline.Itwasalotbiggerthanouroldone,but
thatwasn'tmuchofasurprisesinceitwasahouseafterall.
Therewasasmallkitchenislandinthemiddlewhereyoucouldsit.Thecounterwasina'L'alongtwowalls
andfromwherewewerestandingyoucouldseethebackyard.
"Ilikeit.You?"Iasked.
"Iloveit."Shesmiled.
Ilookedaroundthecornerandsawthelivingroom,orwhatIguessedwasthelivingroom.Ithadastonewall
withafireplacebuiltin.
Sincetherealestateagenthadgivenussometimealonetoexplorethehouse,ItookBella'shandandledher
upstairstothemasterbedroom.Itwasroundactuallywhichmadeitunique.Thewallswerepaintedinalight
bluecolorandtherewasawhitefireplaceintheroom.
"Wow,thisonlymakesmewantthehouseevenmore,"Bellasaidamazedandstartedmovingaroundtheroom.
Itwasn'tbig,butitwasenoughforthetwoofus.
Wemovedforwardtothemasterbathroom.Itwasbig.Maybethreetimesbiggerthantheonewehadatthe
apartment.Therewasabigbathtubinthefarleftcornerandabigassshowernexttoit.
BigenoughforBellaandItohavehot,steamysexinthere.
Twodoorsdownthehallfromthemasterbedroomwasaspareroomthatcouldbeusedasanursery,according
tothebrochureatleast.Therewasn'tanythingspecialaboutit.Therewerejustplainwhitewallsandabig
window.
"Okay,nowforthebestpart,"Isaid,smiling,andgrabbedBella'shandtoleadherdowntothebasement.
Itwasreallyjustalargefuckingroom,butthatwasn'twhatIwantedtoshowher.ItwasthebigassTVthat
camewiththehouse.Itwasalmostlikeyourownmovietheater.
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"This?Youconsideralargeroomtobethebestpartofthehouse?"Bellaasked,walkingaroundintheempty
room.
"No,theTV,sillygirl."
"You'resuchaguy."Sherolledhereyesatme,sheprobablythoughtIdidn'tnotice,butIdid.
Ididn'tcare,though,becauseIknewshewouldlikethisroomasmuchasIdidoncethefurnitureswere
broughtin.
Eventually,wewalkedouttothebackyard.Itwasastrangecalmoverit.Ihadn'tlivedsomewherewitha
backyardsinceIlivedathomewithmyparents.
Nosyneighborswouldn'tbeaabigproblemthankstothefewfeethighhedge.
IturnedtoasmilingBellaandpickedherupinmyarms."Whatdoyousay?"
"Canweaffordit?"sheaskedexcitedly.
"We'llprobablygethalfofthemoneyfromtheapartment.ThenIhavemoneysavedandsodoyou,soyeah,I
thinkwecan."
"ThenIwantitifyouwantit."
"Thenwe'lltakeit."
"Good,becauseIwanttohearyouplaythepianoformeeverynight."Shesmiled."AndIthinkourbabywill
loveit,too."
IfBellawantedmetoplayforherandthebaby,Iwould.Everysingleminuteofthedayifthatwaswhatshe
wanted.
Wetalkedtotherealestateagentafterthat,tellingherthatwewantedthehouse.Shewasgoingtosendusthe
finalpapersinthebeginningofthenextweek,andthatwecouldprobablystartmovinginwithintwomonths.
Ididn'tthinkIhadeverseenBellasohappybefore.Ithinkitwasthewholesituationthatmadeherhappya
marriage,ababyonthewayandnowahouse.Hermoodmademehappy,too.
BPOV
Gandhisaidthatwhateveryoudoinlifewillbeinsignificant,butit'sveryimportantthatyoudoit.Because
nobodyelsewill.
ThiswasoneofthosemomentsthatItendedtoagreewithhim.
Iwassittingonceagaininawaitingroom,waitingformynametobecalledsoIcouldgointoanofficeandfix
myself.Becausenobodywoulddothatforme,thatwasallonme.
"IsabellaCullen?"thevoicebrokemefrommythoughts,andIlookedupatthepersonwhospoke.Itwasa
middleagedwomanwithglasses."Youcangoinnow."
"Thankyou."Itriedtosmilesweetlyather.
ItwasamiraclethatmylegswereabletoholdmeasIstoodup.Ididn'tthinkIhadbeenthisnervouseverin
mylife,notevenbeforeourpregnancycheckup,andIhadbeenreallynervousthen.
Iwalkedovertothedoorandputmyhandonthedoorhandle,andhesitated.Itookbackmyhandandlooked
aroundtheroom.Thereweretwootherpeopleintheroomtheassistantandthecleaner,buttheydidn'teven
noticedmyhesitation.
Comeon,Bella!Don'trunawaythistime!Iscoldedmyself.
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Withthat,Ionceagainbroughtmyhandtothedoorhandleandopenedthedoorbeforethehesitationcame
back.
"Hello,Isabella,"Dr.Molinasaid,walkingtowardme.
Shehadlongbrown,curlyhair.Alotlikemine,butwithalittlelightershade.Shelookedlikeshewasinher
midthirtiesandhadaslimfigure.Somethingabouthermademeinstantlylikeher.
"Bella,please,"Itoldherandshookherextendedhand.
"Okay,Bella.Whydon'twesitdown?"Shegesturedtowardachairandacouch.Isatdownonthecouch."If
youdon'tmind,Iwouldliketostartwithyou,tellingmeaboutyourself."
That'seasy.Icandothat.
"Okay,um.MynameisIsabellaCullen,I'mmarriedtoEdwardCullenandwe'reexpectingababyinAugust.
WeliveindowntownSeattle,butwe'replanningonmovingtoahouse.IcomefromForkswheremyDadis
theChiefofPolice.Yeah,that'saboutit."
"Okay,"shesaidwhileshewrotethethingsdown."WhydidyoustartwithtellingmeaboutEdward?What
madeyouchoosethatinsteadofyourage?"
"Myageisn'tasimportantasEdwardis,butifyouwanttoknow,I'mtwentyfourandmybirthdayis
September13th."
Shecontinuedtowriteonherpaper.Shewouldprobablygetcramporsomethingifshewasgoingtokeepup
likethat.
"TellmeaboutEdward."Shesmiled.
"Okay,umm...he'salsofromForks,andhe'sthesameageasme.HeownsacompanywithhiscousinEmmett.
Hesmokesandisverygoodlooking.Themostimportantthingisthathelovesmelikenooneelsehasever
done."
"Youmentionedthathe'sfromForkstoo,sowereyoutwohighschoolsweethearts?"
Iknewthiswasn'tgoingtobeeasy.
"No,wewereprettyfarfromsweethearts,"Iadmittedreluctantly.
"Whywouldyousaythat?"sheasked,lookingupfromherpaper.
Ipursedmylips,notreallyfeelinguptotalkaboutthebadtimes,butthen,whywasIhereifnottalkaboutthe
badtime?
"Isabella,tellmewhyyou'rehere,"Dr.Molinademanded.
"Ineedtofixmyself,"Iwhisperedandfidgetedwithmyarmsleeves.
"Ican'thelpyouwiththatifyoudon'tmakeaneffort.Youhavetomeetmehalfwayhere,okay?"Inoddedmy
head."Iknowalotofthingsarehardtotalkabout,butoncethey'reout,itusuallyfeelsreallygood."
Herhonestywaswhatshockedmeatfirst,butitwasalsowhatmademelikeheralotmorethanmyold
therapist.
"Iknow,"Imumbled.
"Good.Let'smakeanewtry.So,youandEdwardwasn'tsweethearts?"
"No...no,wewerenot."
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"What'sthatsmell?"Edwardaskedfrombesideme,snifflingintheair.
Iknewhewasn'ttalkingtome,soIstayedquietandtriedconcentratingonmywork,orourwork.Itwashard
sinceEdwardstartedmovingcloserandclosertome.
"Haveyoufarted,Isabella?"heaskedthen.
Istilldidn'tsayanythingbecauseIknewhewouldonlymockmeandmakingfunofme.Itwouldonlyaddto
thefire,soIpretendlikeIwasdeepintowhatIwasreadinganddidn'thearwhathesaid.
"Iaskedyouaquestion,Isabella."HewasjustafewinchesawayfrommeandIcouldfeelhishotbreathon
mycheek.
Ihatedmyname,IhatedthewaypeoplesaiditeventhoughEdward'swaywasbetterthanmyMomorDad's
wayofsayingit.
"Have.You.Farted?"
Ifinallylookedathim,rightwhenpeopleheardhimandstartedsnicker.Everyoneexcepttheteacherwho
continuedhislecture.
Islidmyglassesupmynosewithmypointfingerandlookedaroundme,seeingastheotherstudentswaited
formyanswer.
"No,"Isaidquietly.
"No?Thenwhowasit?Becausesomeonesurehas,"Edwardsaid.
Ishruggedmyshoulder,tiredofthehumiliationheputmethrough.Itwasanowinsituation,though.IfI
wouldhavesaid'yes,'thenhewouldlaughandmakefunofme.IfIsaid'no'likeIjustdid,thenhewould
humiliatemeuntilIconfessed.Thepointwas,though,itwasn'tme.
"Mr.Cullen.Ifyoucouldpleaseturnyourattentionbacktotheclass,"Mr.Bannersaid,savingmefromfurther
humiliation.
"Istillbelieveyou'retheonewhosmell,"Edwardwhisperedbeforehedidwhattheteachersaid.
"Hewasmybully,"ItoldDr.Molina.
"Yourbully?"sheaskedsurprisedandIdidn'tblameherforthat."Howdidyouendupmarriedtotheguywho
wasyourbully?"
Sheputherpaperandpeninherlap.ShelookedgenuinelyinterestedinwhatIhadtosayaboutthat.Iwould
be,too,ifsomeonehadtoldmethat.
"IwenttoVegas,gotdrunkandendedupmarried."Iendeditwithashrug.
"Wow,okay.So,haveyouforgivenhim?"
Ilookedoutthewindow,thinkingaboutherquestion.ItriedtosearchmymindtoseeifIhadactuallysaidthe
words'You'reforgiven'toEdward,butIcameupwithnothing.
Ifeltthetearsburnbehindmyeyelids.Afterallthattime,afterallthetimeswe'dsaid'Iloveyou'tooneanother
andIhadneversaid'Iforgiveyou.'
"Bella?"Dr.MolinaaskedgentlywhenIhadbeenquietforafewminutes.
"No,"Iwhisper,afraidthatmyvoicewillcrack."Ihaven't."
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"Isheforgiven?Haveyou,inyourheart,forgivenhim?"
Ishruggedmyshouldersandwipedawayafallentear."Idon'tknow.Apartofmewantstoforgivehim,but
theotherpartwondershowintheworldyoucouldforgivesomethinglikethat."
"Howdoyoumakeyourmarriageworkifyouhaven'tforgivenhimforthepast?"
"Ipretenditneverhappened.IpretendthatImarriedthenewEdward,nottheoldone."
Dr.MolinacontinuedtoaskquestionsaboutmineandEdward'srelationship,butmostlyshejustaskedabout
ourpast.Ididanswermostofthem,butIwasfairlyquiet.ItalkedalotmorethanIhadbackwhenDadforced
metoseesomeone,butIstillwishedIcouldopenupmoretoDr.Molina.
"Okay,Bella.I'mgoingtogiveyouakindofhomework,"Dr.Molinasaidandsmiled."Iwantyouand
Edwardtotalkaboutyourpast.Itcouldbeaboutsomethinghedid,oritcouldbethewholepastingeneral."
Irubbedmyhandovermyface.Itwasgoingtobehard,butIknewEdwardandIneededtoacknowledgeour
pastmorethanwehadsofar.
"Okay."
"Idon'tmeanargue,justtalk.Ibelievehe'sabigpartofthereasontowhyyou'resoinsecureinyourself.Idon't
doubtforasecondthatyoulovehim,buthisactionsinthepasthelpedshapingwhoyouaretoday."
"Idolovehim,"Imumbled.Iwasonceagainalittletakenabackbyherhonesty.
"Good.So,doyoumindcomingbacknextFriday?"sheasked.
"Um,we'regoinguptoForks,butIthinkIcouldcomesometimebeforenoon."
"Howabout"shelookedthroughhercalendar"tenthirty?"
"Um,sure."Ishruggedmyshoulders.
WhenIgothomethatdayaftertakingElsaoutonherwalk,Iwasinasuddenmoodforchickensoupand
garlicbread.ItwasstrangesinceIusuallydislikedchicken.Imean,Icouldeatit,butithadneverbeenmy
favoritesoInevercookeditunlessEdwardwantedit.
WhenIwasdone,Iputthedinnerintheovenonthelowestheatsothatitwouldn'tgetcold.Itwasthirty
minutesorsountilEdwardwouldbehome,soIdecidedtogetsomerest.Notsleep,justrestmybodyandeyes
forawhilebecauseIwasexhaustedandIneededenergyforthetalkIwasabouttohavewithEdward.
ItookElsawithmewhoweremorethanhappytocuddlewithme.WhenIwasinthebed,IrealizedhowcoldI
wasandpulledthecoverallthewayuptomynose.Iwouldhavepulledituplonger,butIalwayshatedto
breatheunderit.
Imusthavefallenasleep,though,becausethenextthingIknewwasapairofbig,strongarmswrapping
themselvesaroundmywaist.
Edwardpressedhisbodyagainsteveryinchofmybackandnuzzledhisfaceinmyhair.Iopenedmyeyesand
sawthatIhadbeenasleepfortwentyminutesandthatElsawasgone.
ImoanedsleepilyandturnedaroundinhisarmssoIwaslyingflatonmyback.Hescooteddownabitand
carefullyrestedhisheadbetweenmyshoulderandchest.
"Isthisokay?Imean,Idon'twantyourtitstohurt,"hemurmured.
"It'sfine,justdon'tnuzzleyourfacetoomuch,"Isaid,movingmyhandtocaresshishairandhehummedin
response."So,howwasyourday?"
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"Boring.Imissedyousofuckingmuch."Hemovedhishandtomyhipandstartedmovinghisthumbacross
thesliverofskinthatwasexposed."Howhaveyoubeenfellingtoday?"
"Well,themorningstartedjustlikeanyothermorning,butImanagedtokeepthebreakfastdown.Thenat
lunchIgotsickagain,butsincethenI'vebeenfine,"Itoldhim.
"WeneedtoteachourbabyhowtolistentoDaddybecauseItoldhim,orher,lastnightnottogiveyouany
problems."
"Iknowyoudid,Edward."Ichuckledsoftly."Yousaythateverynight."
Hehadyettokissme,butIdidn'treallycaresinceIenjoytheclosenessIfeltwithuslyinglikethat.
"AndI'llkeepdoingituntilitstartstolisten."Hewassoadorable,butIbityliptocontainmylaughter."So,
areyougoingtotellmehowtherapywent?"
Isighedandcontinuedtocaresshishair."Itwentfine."
"Whatdidyoutalkabout?"
"You,"Istatedsimply.
"Me?ShouldIbeworried?"heasked.
"Ineedtoaskyousomething,"ItoldhimquietlywhileIcontinuedmymovementsinhishair.
"Youcanaskmeanything,baby."Helookedupatme.
Itookadeepbreathandletitout.IknewIhadtoaskhimandthesoonerIdidit,thebetterIwouldfeel.
Hopefully.
"It'saboutonedayinBiology."
WhenIdidn'telaboratehesaid,"WespentalotofdaysinBiology."
"Itwasoneoftheraredaysyoutalkedtome."Ifeltmychinstartingtoquiver.Ididn'twanttocry."Youasked
meifIhadfartedandsaidthatIsmelled.Why?Whydidyouputmethroughthathumiliation?"
IwasfrustratedandIwascrying.Itwasn'tsadtears,though,itwasangrytearsthatalwaysshowedwhenIwas
mad.Italldependedonhisanswer,whetherornotIwasgoingtoforgivehim.Withouttheforgiveness,Iknew
wewouldn'tholdontogetherfortherestofourlivesandthatwaswhatmademeangry.
Helookedatmewithsadeyesandwipedmytearsaway.Iswattedhishandaway.Ididn'twanttobe
comfortedrightnow,allIwantedwasananswer.
"Thatwasthedayyoustartedusingyourstrawberryshampoo,"hewhisperedandlaybackdown,butnoton
mychestthistime."YousmelledsogoodthatIwantedanexcusetosniffyourhair."
"Andthatgivesyoutherighttohumiliateme?Whynotjustsmellandmovealong?"Iasked,notfeelingas
frustratedasbeforethankstohisanswer.
"IknowIhadnorighttodothatandIcan'ttellyouenoughhowsorryIamforeverythingIputyouthroughin
highschool.Thereisnoactions,orwords,thatcantakeitback.AllIcansayis:I'msorry."
"Butwhy?Whydidn'tyoujusttakeasniffandthenactlikeyoudidn't?"
"Becauseitwasn'tenoughwithjustonesniff.Iwantedmoreandthatwaswhenpeoplenoticed,Jamesnoticed,
andIsavedmyreputationbysayingthosemeanstufftoyou,"headmitted,hisvoicethickwithremorse.
Iforgiveyou.
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ThatwasallIhadtosay,andweweregoingtobeokay.OratleastIhopedwewould.Butthewordswas
stuckonthetipofmytongueandIwantedtosaythem,butsomethingstoppedme.IwishedIknewwhat.
"Ifyoucouldgoback,knowingwhatyouknownow,wouldyoustilltreatmelikethat?"Iasked.
Hewasquietforawhile,thinkingaboutmyquestion.Istaredupattheceiling,notreallyknowingwhatI
wantedhisanswertobe.
"Idon'tknow.IfIwouldchangethings,wouldIstillbeinthissituationrightnow?"Itsoundedlikehewas
askinghimself,soIdidn'tanswer."Orwouldeverythingbetotallydifferent?"
Somethingabouthisanswermadethewordsrolloffmytonguewithoutanyeffort.
"Iforgiveyou."
"What?"heasked,lookingupwithmeinsurprise.
"Iforgiveyouforeverything."
"How...why...Imean,"hestuttered.
"Iloveyou.Iwouldn'twanttobeinanyothersituationandIprobablywouldhaveifithadn'tbeenforyou.So,
Iforgiveyou,"Iexplained.
Hesurprisedmebykissingmehardonthelips."Ifuckingloveyou.SodamnmuchandIcan'tsaysorry
enough."
Hishandswhereallovermyfaceandhairwhilehislipsmovedalongmine.Wewereinterruptedbyaloud
grumblingfrommystomach.Edwardpulledawayjustaninchandlookedintomyeyes.
"Iguessweshouldgetyousomethingtoeat,huh?"Hesmirked.
"Yeah,yourbabyisverydemanding,"Ijoked,tryingtoeasethetensionintheair.
"I'llbet."Hemovedoffofmeandgotupfromthebed.
"Dinner'salreadydone,"Itoldhimandfollowedhim.
"Iknow.Isawitearlier."
EdwardandIwentbabyshoppingforRoseandherbabyshoweronSaturday.Itwaskindoflastminutesince
thebabyshowerwasonSunday,butwehadbeenbusywithotherthings.
Sincelastnight,Edwardhadbecomemoreclingy.ItwaslikehewasafraidthatIwouldleaveatanymoment,
anditmademeregrethavingthetalkatall.Atthesametime,Ididn'tregretitatall,becauseIdidlovehimandI
didn'twanteverythingtocomecrashingdownonusjustbecauseIhadn'tforgivenhim.
Besides,Ididn'tmindaclingyEdwardatall.Ilikeditwhenheheldmyhand,andcaressedmyhair,orgaveme
achastekissjustbecause.
Theactualshoppingpartwasalotdifferent,though.
"WhatintheworldarewegoingtogiveRoseforherbabyshower?"Iaskedfrustrated.
Iwastired,Iwashungry,Ineededtogotothebathroomreallybadandmyfeetwerehurting.Ididn'thavethe
energytolookinanotherstoreforsomethingtobuythatprobablysomebodyelsehadalreadybought.
"We'veonlybeentotwostores,baby,"Edwardreasoned."Maybeweshouldjustgotothatbigbabystore
downtheroadsinceobviouslynothinginherefits."
"Ijustdon'twanttobuyapairofsocks,orclothesforthatmatters.That'swhatAlicewilldo."
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"Thenletsgo."Ishruggedmyshouldersandstartedwalkingtowardtheexit.Iwastiredonshopping,
especiallysinceitwasn'tevenourbaby.Sure,itwasourgoddaughter,butstill.
"Canweeatfirst?"Bellaasked.
LikeIwouldhavesaidnotothat.Whenshewantedtoeat,thenshewasgoingtoeat,andprobablymetoo.It
usuallyendedlikethat.
"Sure."
Itookhertoahotdogstandandboughtherone.Ididn'twantone,though,soIjustwatchedhereatbeforewe
wenttothebigbabystoredowntheroad.
Luckily,wedidfoundagiftthatBellaseemedtothinkwasgoodenoughforEmmettandRose,orLily
actually.Wedidhavetolookthroughthewholestore,though,andwewerebothcrankybytheend.Bellawas
crankybecauseoftirednessandIwascrankybecauseoflackofnicotine.
Assoonaswegothome,ItookElsaoutforashortwalkwhileBelladidsomethingelse.Ihadnoideawhat,
butshewasonthecouch,watchingTVwhenIgotback.Shelookedcompletelyexhausted.
Ireallyneededasmokebythatpoint.Ihadn'thadonesinethedaybefore.Ilookedthroughmyjacket,butI
couldn'tfindmyciggsanywhere.ThenIsuddenlyrememberedhowItookthelastoneyesterdaywithout
buyingnewones.
"Baby?"Icalledout,butIdidn'tgetanyanswer.
Iknewshehadtohearmesinceshewasjustafewfeetawayinthelivingroom,becauseshehadbeenlyingon
thecouchthelasttimeIsawher.AsIwalkedbacktoseewhereshewas,shewasstilllyingonthatfucking
couchunderablanket,sowhyhadn'tsheanswered?
"Bella,wereyousleeping?"Iasked,pullingherlegsupsoIcouldsitdownandputthembackintomylap.
"No,"shemumbledandIsawasshehadtostruggletokeephereyesopen.
"Liar,yousoundtootiredfornothavebeensleepingafewsecondsago."
"Well,I'mtiredafterthatlongassshoppinground."
"Imaginehowtiredyouwouldbewhenit'sourbabywe'reshoppingfor.Ithinkweneedmorethanonething."
Ismirkedandshegroaned,pullingtheblanketoverherhead."Ineedtogoandbuysomeciggs.I'llberight
back."
Ipulledattheblanket,tryingtogetherfacetoshowsoIcouldgiveherakissgoodbye.Sheletmeremovethe
blanketenoughandherhairwasallmessy.
"Ithoughyousaidyouwouldquit,"shemumbled.
"Iam.Ijustcan'tstoplikethat.IneedtowinddownorelseI'lljustbecomeanasshole."
"Idon'twantyoutobeanasshole."
"Exactly."Ismirkedandbentdownandgaveherasloppykissonhercheeksincehermouthwasbasically
hidden.
Igotupfromthecouchandlethergobacktowhatevershewaswatching.Iputonmyshoesandjacketand
toldElsatostayput.SheprobablythoughtIwastakingherout,butshehadalreadybeenoutenoughforthe
day.
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"Edward!"BellacalledwhenIwasonemywayoutthroughthedoor.Shecamerunninginmytshirt,apairof
shortsandknittedsocksfuckingadorable."Canyougetmesomecannedmushroomsandorangejuice?"
"Cannedmushrooms?"Iaskedindisbelief.
"Yeah,so?It'sverytastyandI'llproveitwhenyougethome."
"Fine,I'llgetitforyou.IloveyouandI'llbebackinthirtyminutes."Itoldherandleft.
IwenttothestoreandboughttheverymuchneededciggsandBella'sstuff.Ittookmeawhiletofindthe
cannedmushrooms,butIdidfindthem.
IdecidedtosmokebeforeIevenwentintoourapartmentbuilding.Ireallydidneedtoquit.Ididn'twantto
exposeBellaorthebabymorethanIalreadyhad.
WhenIwentthroughourfrontdoor,IwasgreetedwithasmallbarkandElsacamerunningtowardme.Hertail
waswigglingexcitedlysowhenIhadremovedmyjacketandshoes,Ibentdownandgreetedheraswell.
Bellawasasleeponthecouch,justlikeIhadlefther.Iresistedtheurgetograbmycellandsnapapictureof
herandwenttothekitchenwithhergroceriesbeforejoiningheronthecouch.Itwasatightfit,andmyasswas
halfwayoffthecouch,butIdidn'tfalloff.
Ihuggedhertomychestandplayedwithherlong,softhairwithmyfingers.Shelookedsopeacefuland
vulnerable.ShelookedlikemyangelandIwonderedhowIcouldhavehurthersobadlyinthepast.
Iforgiveyou.
Herwordsechoedinmymind,butitdidn'thelptheguiltIfeltaboutit.Ihadbeensuchajerktoherandnow
sheneededtherapybecauseofit.IwonderedhowthingswouldhavebeenifIhadactedlikeamanandbeen
nicetoher,maybetakenheroutonadateorsomething.Wouldwehaveendeduptogether?
"Whatareyouthinkingabout?"Bellawhisperedsoftly,bringinghersmallhandtothecreasebetweenmy
eyebrowsasiftoevenitout.
"Iloveyou.Youknowthat,right?"Iasked.
"Iknow."Shenoddedherhead."Isthatwhatyouwerethinkingabout?"
"Kindof.IwasthinkingaboutourpastandwonderinghowthingswouldhaveturnedoutifIhadn'tbeen
actinglikeanasshole."
"Edward,pleasedon'tbeatyourselfupoverthat.Iloveyou,youlovemeandwe'rehavingababy.We'reeven
movingintoabighouse.Thepastisinthepast."
"Iknow,"Imumbledandnuzzledmyfaceintoherhair.Icouldn'tstopthinkingabouthowdifferentthings
mighthavebeen,though.
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EdwardandIhadbothagreedonnottellingEsmeaboutthebaby.Wewantedtodothatnextweekendwhen
weweregoingtovisitCharlie.Esmehadinvitedusoverforlunch,sothatwaswhenwehadplannedontelling
herandCarlisle.
Besides,itwasRose'sdayandbabyshower.Ididn'twanttoruinthatbytellingmymotherinlawthatshewas
goingtobeaGrandmainAugust.
EdwarddroveustoRoseandEmmett'shouseandparkedthecarinthedriveway.Hewasgoingoutwiththe
boystodayfortheirownlittlebabyshower,buttheywouldbecomingbacktoopenthegifts.
"Areyousureyou'regoingtobeokay?"Edwardasked,pressingmeagainstthepassengerdooroftheVolvo.
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"Yeah,I'msure."IsmiledasreassuringlyasIcould.
Truthbetold,Ihadnoideahowtosurvivewithouthim.IhadoneofthosedayswhenIwasobsessedwithhim,
whenIdidn'twanttoletgoandhavehimalltomyselfallday.
"You'resuchaterribleliar,baby."Hesmirkedandbentdowntokissme.
"Yo,Eddieboy!Lethergosowecanhavesomefun,"EmmettboomedwithJaspersnickeringbesidehim.
Edwardcursedunderhisbreath.Iknewhehatedthenicknames,butIcouldn'thelpthegigglethatescapedme
becausethenameswerefunny.
"Baby,don'tencouragehim,"Edwardwhined.
"Sorry,"Isaid,bitingmytonguetostopthegiggling.
"Promisetocallifyouneedanything."InoddedandhegavemeapeckonmylipsbeforewalkingtoJasper's
car.
Islowlywalkeduptothehouseandletmyselfin.Itwasn'tlikeRosewouldmind.Therewerealreadysomany
peoplethere,someofthemIdidn'tevenknowanditmademefeeluneasy.IplacedmineandEdward'sgift
amongsttheothers.
Luckily,Esme,RoseandAlicecametogreetmeoncetheysawIhadarrived.
"Bella,dear!YoulookmorestunningeverytimeIseeyou,"Esmesaidandgavemeahug.IsawRoseand
Alicesnickeralittletothemselves,buttheystoppedwhenIglaredatthem.Ididn'twantmy'secret'comeoutso
theyneededtostayquiet.
"Thankyou,"Imumbled.
Iwenttositonthecouch,avoidingmostgirlsandwomen.Rose'smotherwasthere,too,andcameuptome
andsaidhello.Sheleftrightafterthatandstartedminglingwiththeothers.IwasrelievedsinceIdidn'twantto
sitwithafakesmileonmyfaceandtalkaboutthingsIknewnothingabout.Ireallyhadnothingagainst
Kathrine,shewasagreatmomtoRose,Ijustdidn'twanttopretend.
"Hi,"Angelasaidandsatdownbesideme.
Ihadinvitedhertocomeandshehadexcitedlyagreed,sayingthatshelovedbabiesandbabyshowers.I
thoughtofherasastrongpersonsinceshedidn'tevenknowRoseandyetshecame.
"Hi,"Iansweredback.
"So,you'renotabigfanofcrowds,huh?"sheasked.
"No,notreally.Especiallywhenit'speopleIbarelyknow."
"Meneither.SodoyoumindifIkeepyoucompany?"
"Notatall."Ismiled.
Wekepttheconversationeasy.Sometimes,wedidn'tspeakatall,butitwasn'tawkward.Shetoldmethatshe
andherhusbandBenhadbeentryingforababysinceChristmas,buttheyhadn'tsucceededyet.Ireallyhoped
theywouldbecauseshedeserveditandshewouldbeagreatmom.
Alicehadplannedanumberofgames.ThebiggestonewasforustoguesshowbigLilywasandhowmuch
sheweighed.Shewrotedowneveryone'sguessesonabigboardandtoldusthatshewaskeepingituntilthe
babywasborn.
Wewereinthemiddleofsomethingthatinvolveddiapersandchocolatewhenmyphonevibrated.Ihadanew
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textanditwasfromEdward.IwantedtoreaditinprivatesoIexcusedmyselfandwenttositinthestaircase.
Iloveyou.xxE
IreadEdward'swordonthescreenuntilmyvisionstartedgettingblurry.IhadnoideawhyIwascrying,I
mean,helovesmeandIlovehimandthatwasn'tsomethingtocryover.YetthereIwas,cryingatRose'sbaby
showerwhichwassupposedtobehappy.
"Hey,sweetie,what'swrong?"Esmesaidsoothingly.Ihadn'tevennoticedthatshehadcomeuptome.
"Helovesme,"Iexplainedthroughmysobs.
"Wholovesyou?"sheasked,puttingherarmaroundmyshoulders.
"Edward,"Iwailed.
"Ofcoursehedoes,honey."Shechuckledsoftly.
ShesattherewithmewhileIcriedsilently.Itwasthesweetgesturebyjustsendingarandomtextthathadme
soemotional.
"CanIgetyouanything?"Esmeasked.
"IwantmyEdward,"Isniffled.
"Okay,letmejustcallhim,"shesaidandgotupfrombesidemeandIwasonceagainalone.
IsatthereinthestaircaseforafewmoreminutesbeforeImanagedtogathermyselfenoughtogobacktothe
party.
Rosewassittingintheloveseatwithherfeetuponthecoffeetable.Shehadbeengettingprettybigandit
wasn'tmuchofasurprisesinceshewasdueinamonthandahalf.
IwonderhowbigIwillbe?
Ifloppeddownbesideherandrestedmyheadonhershoulder.SheplacedherarmaroundmeandIfeltsafe
again,notassafeasIfeltwithEdward,butsafeandcomforted.
"What'swrong,Bella?"sheaskedquietly.
"Stupidhormones,"Imuttered.
"Whatdidtheydonow?"Shechuckled.
"TheymademecrywhenEdwardsentmeatext,sayingthathelovesme."Icouldfeeltearsburninginmy
eyesagain.
"IknowthefeelingandI'msogladit'salmostover."
"Yeah,luckyyou.Ihaveanothersevenmonthsleft."
"They'llflyby,Bella,"shereassured."CanIgetyouanything?"
Ishookmyheadno."IjustwantmyEdward,"Isniffled,missinghimmoreeverysecondthatpassedby.
"ItriedcallingEmmett,buthedidn'tpickup.It'stimetoopenthegiftsandIwanthimhereforthat.Alicecalled
Jasper,buthedidn'tpickupeither.IdobelieveEsmecalledEdwardafewminutesago,butIdon'tknowifhe
pickedup."
"Oh,"Iwhimpered.
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"Thatdoesn'tmeanyoucan'ttryyourself."
"Idon'twanttobesofreakingdesperateanddependentonhim."
"There'snothingwronginwantingtobewithyourhusband,Bella."
Inoddedandstooduptoleave.IwantedtocallhiminprivatebecauseIwassurethatIwouldburstintotears
whenIheardhisvoice.Thatwouldbeembarrassingtodowithallthoseladiesintheroom.
Iputmyjacketonandwentouttothefrontporchandsatdown.IdialedEdward'snumberwithshakyhands,
afraidthatIwouldcomeoffaspathetic.Truthwas,Iwaspathetic.
"Bella?"heanswered.
JustlikeIhadimagine,reliefwashedovermybodyandthetearsstartedpoolinginmyeyes.
"Baby,what'swrong?"Edwardaskedconcerned.
"Nothing,"Isniffled.
"Onceagain,you'reashittyliar.Tellme."
"Ijustwantyoutocomeback,"Iwhispered,tryingnottoletthesobsout.
"We'realreadyonourway.Weshouldbethereinaboutfiveminutes,okay?"
"Okay."Iwipedawaythetearsandhungup.
Theywerefasterandshowedupthreeminuteslater.EdwardhadprobablymadeJaspertospeedupwhenhe
heardmecry.Itwasbothgoodandbad.Goodbecausethatmeantthathecametomefaster.Badbecausethey
couldhavebeeninanaccidentorbeenpulledover.
WhenIsawEdwardrushovertome,Istoodupfromthecoldporch.Assoonashewasinmyheightonafew
stepsbelowme,Ithrewmyarmsaroundhisneckandleanedintohim.HesmelledlikehomeandIplacedmy
faceinthecrookofhisneck.
"Areyouokay?"heasked.
"Yeah.Iloveyou,too,"Isaid,answeringonhistextfrombefore.
Hechuckled."You'recryingbecauseyouloveme?"
"No,"Imumbled."I'mcryingbecausewemissedyousomuch."
"We?"
"YourbabymademecrybecauseImissedyousomuchsoIthinkheorshemissedyoutoo."
"Well,Imissedyou,too.Bothofyou."
Hehuggedmetohischestandstartedwalkingupthestepswithmeclingingontohim.Itmademelaugha
little.
Weremovedourjacketsandwalkedintotheroomwherethepartywasbeingheld.WhenIsawEmmettand
Jasper,Irealizedtheymusthavewalkedpastusontheporchwithoutmeevennoticing.
"Okay,nowthateveryoneishere,"AlicesaidandnarrowedhereyesatEmmett,JasperandEdward."It'stime
toopenthepresents."
ShestartedhandingRoseandEmmettpresentafterpresent.Theygotalotofsocks.Lilynowhadsockssothat
itlastedformonthswithouttheneedtowashthem.Therewereafewsweatersandpantsaswell,butmostly
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socks.
"Okay,nowwehavetheonefromEdwardandBella,"Aliceannounced,handingoverthebiggifttoRose.
Theyrippedthepaperoffandrevealedthebigboxinside.Itwasasimplegreenbabyswingwithasmallsoft
animalshangingfromit.
"I'vereadthatithelpscalmthebaby,"Iexplained.
"Iloveit,Ireallydo.Whyhaven'twethoughtofthat?"RoseaskedEmmett.
"Becausewhatwouldwehavegiventoyouifyoualreadyhadone?"Edwardasked.
"Exactly,"Emmettagreed.
"It'sperfect!"Aliceexclaimed."Okay,sowehavemineandJasper'spresentleft."
Itwasapinkbabyblanketwithdeeppurplespotsandamatchingsatinfrillgoingaroundit.ItwascuteandI
foundmyselfwantingababygirlsoshecouldgetjustascuteandpinkstuffasLily.
"Idesigneditmyself,soIhopeyoulikeit."
"Alice,Iloveit.Ilovedeverypresent,sothankyou,guys,somuch.Wereallyappreciateit."
Afterthat,itwastimeforcake.Ididn'tknowwhoorderedit,butitwasaprettyfunnycake.Itlookedlikea
pregnantwoman'sbellywithboobsandeverything.Although,itwasallcoveredwithawhite'dress'or
somethinglikethat.
Everyoneseemedtosnickeralittlewhentheysawit,andIcouldsweartoGodthatIheardEdwardgiggle,but
IcouldbewrongbecauseEdwardnevergiggles.
Wefedeachotherwithcakeandeventhoughitlookedfunny,ittastedreallygoodsoIhadtwobites.
"Whydidn'tyoupickupwhentheytriedtocallyouguysbefore?"IaskedEdward,stuffingabiteofcakeinto
mymouth.
"WeturnedourphonesoffsinceEmmettwantedittobe'guysonly'andnothavingtopickuporansweratext
fromourwives,"headmittedsheepishly.
"ButyoupickedupwhenIcalled,"Isaidconfused.
"That'sbecauseyoucalledafterweturnedourphonesbackon."
"Oh,"Isaidandcontinuedtoeatthecake.
Peoplewerestartingtoleavethepartybythen.Itdidn'ttakelonguntilitwasonlyEsmeandAngelaleftbesides
Alice,Jasper,Edwardandme.
"IthinkIneedtoheadhome,too,"Angelasaid.
"Oh,thankyouforcoming.Ialwaysenjoymeetingnewpeople!"Roseexclaimed.
"Noproblems,Ihadagoodtime."Angelalaughed."I'llseeyoutomorrow,Bella."
"Yeah,goodnight,"Itoldher.
Shenoddedandwaved,thenshewasgonetoo.Esmewasspendingthenightsinceshedidn'twanttodrive
hometoForksthatlate.
AliceandJasperleftshortlyafterandIwasbeginningtofeeltired,butIaskedifRoseneededanyhelpcleaning
everythingup.
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"No,youshouldgohomeand...rest,"shesaid,huggingme.
"Areyousure?BecauseIdon'tmind.Ikindofhelpedmakingthemessso..."Itrailedoff,butwhenIsawthe
lookshegaveme,Iknewshemeantno.
"I'llseeyouonSaturdayforlunch,Mom,"Edwardsaid,bendingdownandplacedakissonEsme'scheek.The
gesturemademesmile.
"IsCharliecomingovertoo?"sheaskedme.
"No,hehadtoworkuntiltheafternoon,"Iexplained.
"Okay,I'llseeyouthen."
ShegavemeahugandthenEdwardtuggedmyhand,leadingmeoutthedoor.
EPOV
Twoandahalfweeks.ThatwashowlongIhadsurvivedwithoutanysexorsexualcontactwithmywife.
Sure,therehadbeenkissing,butthatwasaboutitandIwassoongoingtohaveaseriouscaseofblueballs.
AnevenbiggerproblemwasthatIwasonmywayuptoForkstotellourparentsthatweweregoingtohavea
babywhileIwasextremelysexuallyfrustrated.Itwasn'tlikewewouldhavesexwhileherDadwasintheother
room.
"So,howdidyoutherapysessiongotoday?"IaskedBella,tryingtodistractmymindfromthinkingaboutsex.
"Fine."Shesighed,sinkingbackintoherseat.
"Didshegiveyouahomeworkthisweektoo?"
"No,wejustdiscussedthelasthomeworkshegaveme,"sheexplained.
"Whatgradedidyouget?"Ijoked.
"Sofar,I'mastraightAstudent."Shesmirked.
Sheappearedtobeinnotalkingmoodandreallytired,likeusual,soIlethersleep.Ifshehadn'tboughtthat
babybook,Iwouldhavebeenreallyworriedabouthowmuchshesleepsandthrowsup.Ithadbecomebetter
thispastweek,butitwasstillthere.
Ilistenedtohersoftsnoringandonceinawhile,sheletoutan'Edward'andIwonderedwhatshewas
dreaming.Iwashappythatitseemedtobeagooddreamatleast.Sometimes,shewokeupcryinginthemiddle
ofthenightandthatscaredthehelloutofme.Evenmoresowhenshedidn'ttellmewhatthedreamwasabout.
Whenwereachedthe'CityofForkswelcomesyou'sign,Inudgedhergently,wakingherup.Sherubbedher
eyessleepilyandlookedaround.
"Pityyou'renotbulletproof,"shemumbled.
"Whyisthat?"Ichuckled.
"BecausemyDadstillhasagunandyou'vejustknockedhisdaughterupaftermarryingherinVegas...while
shewasterriblydrunk,"sheramblednervouslyasIpulledupinthedriveway.
"He'salreadyforgivenmeforthat."Ismirkedandjumpedoutofthecar.Iwasbyhersidewithinafew
seconds."Besides,Imakeyouhappy."
"Thatyoudo.Youmakemeveryhappy."
Shesmiledupatmeandhuggedmywaist.Ibentdownandgaveherachastekissonherlips.Ididn'tdare
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deepenitsincetherewasaslightchancethatherfatherwaswatchingus.
IwentandgrabbedourdufflebagandwhenIcamebacktoher,Igrabbedhersmallhandinmine.
"Ready?"sheasked.
"Asreadyasever,"Iansweredandwestartedwalkingtowardthefrontdoor.
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A/N:Ithinkatleast90%ofyoumanagedtogetthequoteinthelastchapter!Amazing!
Itwasborrowedfrom'RememberMe':
"Gandhisaidthatwhateveryoudoinlifewillbeinsignificant,butit'sveryimportant
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Newchapter,newquote!I'veusedlinesfromthismoviebefore,butthat'stheonlylead
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BPOV
BothEdwardandmyDadstaredatmewhenItookmythirdsliceofpizza.Ididn'tcare.IwasjusthappythatI
hadanappetite,itwasaloteasiertogainweightifyouwereactuallyhungry,andIwas.
WehadyettotellmyDadaboutthepregnancy,butIwasfartoonervoustotellhimanything.Edwardjust
lookednormal,buthewasprettygoodathidinghisemotionssometimessomaybehewasnervoustoo,hejust
didn'tshowit.
SuewascomingovertomorrowafternoonafterDadhadfinishedwork,somaybeIshouldjustwaitandtellhim
then.
"Okay,isanyoneofyougoingtotellmewhat'sup?"Dadasked,wavinghishandbetweenEdwardandme.
"Whatdoyoumean?"Iaskedinnocentlywhilechewingmypizza.
"Don'tplaydumb,Bella,itdoesn'tsuityou.You'reeatingyourthirdsliceofpizzarightnow,youbothlook
guiltyashellandthereissomethingdifferentaboutyou,"Dadsaidthoughtfully.
"So?I'mhungry."Ishruggedmyshoulders.Ididn'thaveagoodanswertotherest.
"Yeah,butstill.Youusuallyonlyeatoneormaybeoneandahalfslice.You'repregnant,aren'tyou?"
"What?"Isqueaked.
Howthehelldidheknow?
Edwardmovedhishandtomybackandrubbeditinsoothingcircles."Actually,Charlie,you'reright.Bellais
abouttenweekspregnant."
IwasactuallynotangrywithEdwardforsayingthat,itjustmademefeelrelievedthatitwasoutintheopen.
AllIhadtodonow,wastoworryaboutmyfathersreaction.
"Huh.SoI'mabouttobecomeaGrampathen?"
"Yes,inAugust.The22nd,"Edwardsaid.Healwayssoundedsoproudwhenhesaidthat.
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"Howdidyouevenknow?"Iasked,stillabitshockedoverthatfact.
"I'vebeenlivingwithapregnantwomanbefore,evenifitwastwentyfouryearsago,andI'mnotanidiot."
"Ineversaidyouwere,I'mjustsurprisedthatyouknew."Ismirked.
"Ididn'tknow,Ijustguessed."
HesatquietforawhileandIwasabitworriedaboutwhathewasgoingtosaynext.BothEdwardandIstayed
quietaswell,munchingonthepizza.Hestillhadhishandonmyback,soImovedmyhandtohisthigh,
figuringthatheneededthereassuranceaswell.
IcouldclearlyseeasrealizationaboutwhatwejustsaiddawnedonDad.Asmiletuggedonhislipsandthen
hejustchuckledandshookhishead.Whenhelookedupatusagain,hehadtearsinhiseyes.Iimmediately
wentovertohimandgavehimahug.
"I'msorry,wedidn'tmeantomakeyoucry."
Hepattedmyarmandsniffled."I'mnotcrying,Bells.Ijust...I'mhappyforyou,youknow?AndI'mgoingto
beaGrandpa!"
"Yeah,youare,"Isaid,smilingathisreaction.
Charliewasneveronetoexpresshisemotionssothisoccasionwasrare.Wewereinterruptedbythephone.I
movedawayfromDad,allowinghimtoanswerit.Hedidn'tsoundtoohappytobetalkingtowhoeverwason
theline.
"Fine,I'llberightthere,"hemutteredandhungup.HeturnedbacktoEdwardandI."I'msorry,Bells,butI
needtogotoworkforafewhours.Embryisdowninsomekindofstomachfluandthere'snooneelsewho
cancoverhisshift.It'sjustforafewhours."
"It'sokay,Dad,"Itoldhim.
"Ijustwantedtospendtimewithyou,nowthatIfinallyhaveyouhomefortheweekend.AndIwantedto
celebrate.It'snoteverydayamanbecomesaGrandpa."
Ichuckled."We'llhavetimetomorrow,okay?"
"Surething.IguessIneedtogoandgetchangedthen,"hesaidandwalkedoutthekitchen.
Itookoutacleanplatefromthecabinetandloadeditwiththefewslicesofpizzathatwasleft.WhenIwas
done,Iputitinthefridgeandthrewthepizzaboxinthetrash.
ItoldEdwardthatIneededtousethebathroomandthathecouldwatchTVorsomethingifhewantedto.Ihad
noideawhattodoaroundhereanymoresotheTVseemedlikeagoodchoice.Edwardseemedtothinksotoo
sincehehadnoobjectionsaboutwatchingit.
WhenIwasdone,Iwenttothekitchentograbsomethingtodrink.Ifoundaboxoforangejuice,buttherewas
onlyenoughtofillaninchoftheglass.
Whothehellsavesthatlittle?
Oh,myDad.Thatwaswho.
IreallywantedorangejuiceandthemoreIthoughtaboutit,themoreIwantedit.Alongwithorangejuicecame
thesameurgetoeatcannedmushrooms.Itwasstrange,butIcouldn'thelpit.
"Edward?"Icalledout.Hedidn'tanswersoIwalkedintothelivingroom,findinghiminfrontoftheTV,
watchingsport."Theorangejuiceisgonesoweneedtogoandbuysomemore.Oh,andIwantsomecanned
mushrooms."
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"Again?Youhadthoselastweek,"hemumbled."Can'tyougetsomevariationinyourdiet?"
"Iknow,butIwantthemagain.So,letsgo,unlessyouhavenoproblemswithmegoingbymyself.Besides,
youalwayssmokethesamecigarettes,andInevercomplain."
"Baby,that'snoteventhesamething."Hechuckled,butIdidn'tbudgeonmypoint."Idohaveaproblemwith
yougoingbyyourself,though,"hesaidandgotupfromthecouch,turningofftheTV.
WegotintotheVolvoandEdwardstarteddrivingustothestore.Hewassilentanditmademesomehowthink
thatmaybehewasannoyedthathehadtotakemetothestore,butthen,itwashischoicetocomewithme.I
couldhavegonebymyself.
"Didyouknowthatyourfoot'sasbigasyourarmfromyourelbowtoyourwrist?"Iasked,tryingtobreakthe
silencewithsomerandomtrivia.
Heburstoutlaughingthenanditmademelaugh,too.
"Sothat'swhyyourfeetaresosmall?Becauseyourarmissoshort?"heasked,stilllaughing.
"Ifyoudon'tbelieveme,seeforyourself.Plus,myfeetaren'tsmall,they'renormalforagirl."
"Baby,sizesixissmall."
"Shutit,"Imumbled."So,howdoyouthinkyourparentswillreacttomorrow?"Iasked,changingthesubject.
"Ialreadytoldyouthatthey'llbemorethanthrilled."
"Yeah,buthowarewegoingtobreakthenewsthen?Whatiftheyalreadyknow,justlikeCharliedid?"
"Wecouldjustblurtitoutwhenitfeelsliketherightmoment,Idon'tknow."Heshruggedhisshoulders.
"Yeah,maybeweshould,"Imumbledandlookedoutthewindow.
Ididn'tknowhowweweregoingtotellthem,butblurtingitoutjustlikethatseemedlikethewrongwaytogo.
Easingtheminonthesubjectmighthaveworked,too,butitwashisparents,heknewwhattheypreferredmore
thanIdid.
EPOV
"Well,ifitisn'tthelovebirdsagain."
Fuck.Jessica.
IlookedatBellaandsawthatshewasn'tpleasedtoseehereither.MyMomhadtaughtmetobeatleastcivil,
soIturnedtofaceJessica.
"Hello,Jessica."
Iwatchedasshefirsteyedmeupanddown,andthenwentoveranddidthesamewithBella.Iputmyarm
aroundher,feelinglikeIneededtoprotectherfromJessica'sgaze.
"Someoneseemstobegettingcomfortableintherelationship.Letmetellyou,honey,thatifyoucontinueto
gainweight,theguyusuallyleaves,"Jessicasaid,makingmeregretbeingciviltoherinthefirstplace.Ishould
justhavetakenBellaawayfromher.
"YouhavenoideawhatIwoulddo,sodon'tactthatway,"Isnapped.Bellaleftmyside,butIneededtofinish
beforeIcouldfollowher."Iloveher,andI'llneverleave.Nomatterwhatyousay."
Afterthat,IleftJessicaandwenttofindmywife.Ittookmesometimetofindher,buteventuallyIdid.She
wasstandinginthebabysectionandasIgotcloser,Isawherholdingapairofpinkpacifierswiththewords
'Daddy'sGirl'inthemiddle.
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IcouldseethatshehadtearsrollingdownhercheekssoIputmyarmsaroundher.Shehuggedmebacktightly
andburiedherfaceinmychest.
"Ican'tbelieveI'mcrying,"shemumbled.
"I'msorry,"Itoldher.
"Youhavenothingtobesorryfor."Shereleasedhergriponmeandputthepacifiersbacktowhereshefound
them."Unlessyou'resorryfordefendingme."
"I'mnot.Whereyougoingtobuythose?"Iasked,pointingatthepacifiers.
"No."Sheshookherhead."Ijustneededtodosomethingtocalmdown,andthisiswhereIendedup.Besides,
wedon'tknowifwe'rehavingagirl."
"Wouldyouwanttoknow?Imean,whenwecan,wouldyouwanttofindoutthesex?"
"Yes,"shesaidaftersomehesitation."IthinkIdo,butit'sweeksuntilthensowedon'thavetodecidenow
anyway.Doyouwantto?"
"Yeah,Ido."
WewenttogetthedamnmushroomsandtheorangejuicebeforewewentbacktoCharlie's.Icouldtellthat
Bellawasinadownmoodsinceshedidn'tsayonewordonthewayback.NeitherdidI,figuringshejust
neededtimeorsomething.Besides,shewouldprobablyhavebitchedabouteverythingIsaid.
Shedidn'teveneatthemushrooms,shejustputthemonthecounterandtookasmallglassofjuice.Everything
wouldhavebeensomuchbetterifwehadn'tgonetothestore,thenshewouldn'tbesomoody.
"I'mgoingtotakeashower,"sheannouncedwhenshefinishedherdrink.
"Okay,I'lljoinyou,"Itoldher.
Ihadn'ttakenashowerwithherforwhatfeltlikeages.ShehadchangedherroutinetotheeveningwhileI
showeredinthemorning.ImissedhersothatwaswhyIdidn'tmindtakingasecondshowerfortheday.
IstartedthewaterintheshowerandwentbacktoBellabythetoilet.Shejustsattherewithherheaddown,
staringintospace.
Ihuncheddowninfrontofherandplacedmyhandsonherthighs.ItuckedherhairbehindherearsoIcould
seeherclearer.
"What'swrong?"Iasked.
"Nothing."Sheshruggedhershoulders.
Iknewtherewassomethingbotheringher,Ijustdidn'twanttopushittoofar.So,Igotbackupagainand
reachedforthehemofhershirt.Shedidn'twantthat,though.
"Couldyoujust...turnaroundwhileIremovemyclothes?"sheasked.
"Whatfor?I'veseenyounakedbefore,baby."
"Please?"shebegged.
"No,notuntilyoutellmewhatthehellisgoingon,"Idemanded.
Shestoodupfromthetoiletlidandfirst,Ithoughtshewasgoingtorunawayfromtheproblem,butthenshe
turnedtome.
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"Thereisnothinggoingon,"shetriedtosaywithconviction,butIknewhertoowelltoknowwhenshewas
lying.
"Thenpleaseexplaintomewhywehaven'thadsexintwoandahalfweeks,orthatyouwon'tletmetouch
youmorethantogiveyouakissorholdyouatnight."
"Oh,"wasallshesaid.
"It'snotlikeIdemandsex,becauseI'mnot.Ijustwanttoknowwhy."
ShemumbledsomethingIcouldn'thearsoIgrabbedherhandanddraggedhertome.Itrappedherbetweenthe
sinkandmybody,staringintohereyes.
"Why?"Iaskedsoftly.
Shebitherlipandlookeddownattheground,avoidingmyeyes.
"Ijustdon'tfeel...sexyanymore,"shewhisperedsoquietlythatIhadtostrainmyearstohearher.
What.The.Fuck!
"Wha...whythehellnot?"
Herchinquiveredlikeshewasabouttocry,butIwasn'tgoingtobackdownfromthesubject.Wereally
neededtotalkaboutit.
"MyboobsaresobigthatIhadtobuyabiggerbraandthenippleslookstrange.It'sonlyamatteroftime
beforeIcan'tfitintomyjeanseither,they'realreadyatightfitasitis."Shewascrying,butIheardeveryword
shesaid,loudandclear.
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"You'rethemostbeautifulandsexiestwomanIhadeverseen."Hetookmychinbetweenhisthumbandpoint
fingertoanglemyface,forcingmetolookhimintheeyes."Thefactthatyou'recarryingmychild,ourchild,
makesyouevensexier.Neverdoubtthat."
Iwantedtobelievehiswordsobadly,butIjustcouldn't.Ifeltfarfromsexy.Ihadneverfeltfatbefore,just
chubby,butthatwashowIfeltrightnowfat.Ihadneverinmylifehadtobuyabrainabiggersize,onlya
smallerone.IthinkthatwasthepointwhenIstartedfeelinglesssexy.ThatwasalsothepointwhenIstarted
lettingEdwardtouchmeintimately,oreventakingmyshowerwithhim.Ihadchangedmytimetoshowerto
whenIgothomefromworkinsteadofinthemorning.
Icouldseehowannoyedhewas,maybeevenangry,butIjustcouldn'thelpit.ThefactthatIwouldonlybe
gettingbigger,didn'thelpanything.
Icouldn'tstandhisintensegazeanymore,soImovedmyhanduptohischeekandstrokeditbeforepushing
himawayenoughformetogetaway.Thistimeheletme,butIcouldhearasheturnedthewateroffand
followedmeintomybedroom.
"Bella,weneedtofinishthisconversationbecauseIdon'twantyoutofeellikeyou'renotsexybecauseyouare
sexy!"Hepushedmedownintoasittingpositiononthebedandgrabbedthechairtositoppositeme."Hasthis
anythingtodowithwhatJessicasaid?"
"No,"Ianswered,butwhenIsawhislook,Icontinued,"Butshemadeitworse."
"You'renotfat.You'refarfromfatactually."Hesighed,pinchingthebridgeofhisnose."Youhaven'teven
startedtoshowyet."
"Yes,Ihave.That'sprobablyhowmyDadnoticedinthefirstplace,"Imumbled.
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"Okay,showmethen.ProvetomethatyouhaveababybumpbecauseIsureashellhaven'tseenone,"he
challenged."Infact,youcanremoveallyourclothesandpointoutwhat'swrong,becauseinmyeyes,there
aren'tanythingwrongwithyouoryourbody."
IshylystoodbackupandheprobablythoughtIwasleavingtheroomsohehadasurprisedlookonhisface
whenIunbuttonedmyjeans.Ididn'treallyfeelcomfortableintakingmyclothesoff,butIwantedtoprovemy
point.
Aftermyjeansfelltothefloor,Iremovedmysocks.Iknewtheydidn'tmatter,butitwouldlookevenworseifI
wasnakedwithmysockson.Myhoodieandshirtwentoffnextalongwithmybra.Allthatwasleftwasthe
pantiesandtheyweregoingtostayon.
"Well,lookthen,"Isaid,gesturingovermybody.
Edwardjustshookhisheadatme."Ican'tseemuchdifference,Bella."
Hestoodupandwentovertomycloset.Ilookedinconfusionasheopenedthedoor,butwhenheaimedthe
doorwiththemirroronittowardme,Iunderstood.
"Tellmewhat'swrong,"hetoldme.
IstaredmyselfdowninthemirrorandstartedlistingeverythingIhadaproblemwith.
"Myboobsaretoobig,mynippleslookalienandmyhipsaregettingwider."Iturnedtothesideandinspected
myprofile.Ifyoulookedreally,reallyclose,youcouldseeabump."Mytummy."
"Comehere,"Edwardsaidandtookmeintohisarms."IfI'mgoingtobehonest,Ican'twaitforyourtummyto
getbigger.Becausethatmeansourbabyisgrowing."
Itried,Ireallydid,toseeitfromhispointofview.ButIstillfeltinsecureanduncomfortableinmyskin.
Edwardprobablysenseditandledmetothebed.Ilaydowninthemiddleandhehookedhisfingersintomy
pantiesandpushedthemdownmylegs.
Hehoveredabovemeandjuststaredintomyeyes,andIstaredback,notreallyknowingwhathewasgoingto
do.
"Ibetyou'vebeenthinkingaboutmeinthisbed,haven'tyou?"Edwardsmirkedandbentdowntokissmy
neck.Hisquestionactuallybroughtmymoodupabit.
"No."Ilaughed."TheonlyguyIhaveimaginedinthisbedisLeonardoDiCaprio."
HelookedatmelikeIwascrazyanditwashardtokeepastraightface.Ihadtoldhimthetruth,though.Ihad
neverpicturedEdwardinthisbedandtheonlycrushI'dhadbeforeIfellinlovewithEdward,wasLeonardo
DiCaprio.NotthatIhadpicturedsexwithhim,butstill.
"IguessI'llhavetomakesureyouneverforgetthisthen,"Edwardsaid.
Hedippedhisheaddownandtookmyleftnippleinhismouth,itwasgentleandtomydelight,itdidn'thurt.It
wasallpleasure.ThatwaswhyIthreadedmyfingersinEdward'shairandpushedhimclosertomyboob.He
wasprobablysuffocating,buthekeptsuckingit.
"Ilovethosemoanyoumake,"hesaidwhenhechangedboob."AndIfuckingloveyourtitssodon'tyoudare
hateonthemeveragain."
"Iwon't."Ibreathedheavily."Justkeepgoing."
"Idon'tplantostopanytimesoon,baby."
Hecontinuedtosuckandteasemynipplesandthenwentontokisseveryinchofmyribcage.Whenhegotto
mytummy,hejuststoppedandseemedtogiveitanintenseinspectionbeforehekissedittoo.
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HekissedatrailfromonehiptotheotherandavoidedtheareawhereIwantedhimthemost.Hedidthaton
purposeofcourseanditmademefeellikeIwasabouttoburstfromneed.
Whenhekissedeachofmytoes,Icouldn'thelpbuttowigglethemandlaugh.
"Edward,thattickles!"
"Sorry,they'rejustsocutethatIneededtoshowthemmyappreciation."Hesmirked.
Hekissedhiswayupmyrightthigh,butstoppedagainwhenhewasabouttoreachmycenter.Ialmost
groanedinfrustration,butwhenhewasdonekissingmyleftthigh,hedidn'tstop.
Atfirst,hejustgavemeasoftkissrightonmycore,butthenhelookedupatmewithawickedgrinonhisface.
Icouldn'tfigureoutwhathewasupto,buthesuddenlycrawledbackwardsandgrabbedmywaisttofollow
him.
Hestoppedwhenmyasswasrightontheedgeofthebedandhewaspositionedonthefloor,rightinfrontof
me.ItkindoffeltsimilartowhenIhadtodoapapsmear,althoughthiswasawholelotdifferent.Something
toldmeIwouldenjoywhatEdwardhaduphissleeve.
HeputmyfeetrightontheedgesoIwasfullyexposedtohim.Itfeltabitawkwardatfirst,butwhenhe
broughthismouthtomycooch,everythingwentoutthewindow.
Hetookonelonglickalongthelipsandfinishedbytakingthebundleofnervesintohismouthandstarted
sucking.ItwasanamazingfeelingandIcouldn'thelpthemoansthatescapedme.
Edwardcontinuedtolickandsuck,eventuallyhepushedonefingerinsideofmeandthathighlightedthe
experiencetremendously.Ifeltashecurledhisfingerandbydoingso,healsohitthatsweetspotthatalmost
sentmeovertheedge.Iwantedittolastlonger,Iwantedtofeelthatamazingforaslongaspossible.
"Letgo,baby.Iknowyouwantto,"Edwardsaid,sendingvibrationstomycore.
"Ugh,"wasallIcouldanswer,butthenIfeltmywholebodybecomingrigidandvibrate."Edward."
"That'sit,"hemurmuredandlickedmedry.
Iwasstillcomingdownfrommyhighwhenhestartedkissinghiswayupmybodyagain.EventhoughI
shouldfeeldisgustedthathismouthhadjustbeendownthere,Iwasn't.Sure,Ididn'twanthiminmymouth
andheknewthat,butIstilldidn'tfeeldisgusted.
Whenhehadkisseduptomyneck,andprobablyafterleavingahickeythere,hesatdownbesideme.Hehad
somehowmanagedtogetnakedwithoutmenoticinganything.
"Comehere,"hesaid,pattinghislap.
So,hewantsmeontop.Idon'tmindatall!
Ilazilygotoffthebedandwenttositdownonhislap,buthestoppedmebygrabbingmywaistwhenIwas
abouttosit.
"No,Iwantyoutoturnaround,"hestated.
Iborrowedmybrowsinconfusion.Wehadneverhadsexinapositionwhereweweren'tfacetoface.Iwasa
bitnervousaboutthatforsomereason,andhemusthavenoticedit.
"It'sokay.Wecanstopifyoudon'tlikeit.Ijustwanttoshowyousomething,"hesaidandnudgedmetoturn
around.
"Okay,"Isaidanddidashetold.
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EdwardsteadiedhisdickandIslowlyloweredmyselfontohim.ItwasalwayshardertofitallofhimwhenI
wasontop,buteventuallyhewasfillingmewithallhislength.HegruntedandImoanatthatfactanditonly
increasedwhenIswirledmyhips,testinghim.
"Lookup,"hewhisperedinmyear,steadyingmyhipsfrommoving.
ThenIsawwhyhewantedustohavesexlikethis.Hewantedmetolookintothemirroronmyclosetdoor
whichnoneofushadclosed.Inthebackofmymind,Iknewhehadplannedallthis.
Igaveourreflectionagoodlook.Edwardhadhishandsonmyhipandmytoeswerebarelytouchingthefloor.
Whatstoodoutthemostthough,wasthesightofusbeingjoined.Ihadneverinmylifeseensuchanerotic
thing.
"Tellmewhatyouseeisn'tbeautifulorsexy.Tellmethatthegirl,sittinginmylapisn'tthemostgorgeous
personyou'veeverseen,"Edwarddemanded,stillnotlettingmemove.
"Ican't,"Itoldhim.
"That'sright,becauseitisn'ttrue,nowisit?"hemovedmealittle,makingmemoanagain.
"No,it'snot,"Iadmitted,anditwastrue.
Edwardseemedtoliketheresponsehegotandhelpedmemoveupandthendownagain.Icouldn'ttakemy
eyesoffthemirrorandneithercouldhe.Whenhestartedgoingfaster,Ithrewmyheadbackagainsthis
shoulderandbracedmyselfbyputtingmyhandsonhisthighs.
"No,Iwantyoutolook,Bella.Iwantyoutoseehowbeautifulyouarewhenyoucumallovermycock,"
Edwardsaidandstartedthrustingevenfaster.
Ididwhathetoldmetoandtriedtolookhimintohiseyesinthemirror.Myorgasmstartedbuildingitselfup
andmystomachstartedtotighten.Isqueezedmymusclesinmycoochsothathewouldfalloftheedgesoon
becauseIknewIcouldn'tholdoffanylonger.
"Jesusfuck!Wheredidyoulearnthat?"hegruntedhalfmoaned.
"Mm,Ihavemyresources,"Itoldhimsmugly.
Hemovedoneofhishandstomybundleofnervesandstartedrubbingit.Hereallydidn'tneedto,Iwasclose
anyway.
"Edward!"IalmostscreamedwhenIfeltmyorgasmhitme.
HebitdownonmyneckandIfelthotliquidbeingreleasedinsideme.Wesatquietforawhile,tiredfromthe
sexwejusthad.
"Doyoustillthinkofyourselfasfat?"EdwardaskedandIjustshookmyhead."Good,becauseyou'renot."
Ifeelsexyagain.
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"Idefinitelyneedashowernow."Bellagiggled,whichcausedherbodytomoveandmydickstartedtostir
backtolife."Seriously?You'realreadyreadyforroundtwo?"
"It'syoufault,"Imumbledandnuzzledinherneck."Besides,it'sonlysemihard."
"Idon'tdaretogoanotherround,"shesaidremorsefully."CharliecouldgethomesoonandIdon'twanthimto
walkinonsomething."
"Let'stakeashowerthen."Isighedandliftedheroffme.Ididn'twanttoreleaseher,butIdidn'twantCharlie
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tocatchuseither.Bellawhimperedatthelostasshestoodup.
Ifollowedherintothebathroomandturnedtheshowerbackonforus.IheardBellasighfrustratedsoIturned
aroundtoseewhatherproblemwas,andwhenIsaw,Icouldn'thelpbuttochuckle.
"It'snotfunny,"shehissedandgrabbedsometoiletpapertowipeoffmyjizzthathadstartedleakingdownher
thighs.
"Itis,"Isaidandsteppedintotheshower.
Wecleanedeachotherwithoutanyfunnybusiness.Bellaputonmytshirtandhershorts.Sheappearedtobe
lookingforsomething.
"CanIhelpyou?"Iasked.
"Ican'tfindmyknittedsocks,"shemumbledandsearchedthroughourbag."Ineedthemsincemyfeetalways
getfreezingwithoutthem."
Sheeventuallyfoundtheminadifferentpocketinthebagandputthemon.Wedecidedtogodownstairsto
watchsomeTV.Bellatookhercannedmushroomsandsatdownclosetome.
"Wantone?"sheasked,pushingtheforkwiththemushroomonittomyface.
"No."Ilaughed."That'sdisgusting.They'relikeoysters."
"They'redelicious."Shesmiledandpoppedthemushroomintohermouth.
IjustshookmyheadandturnedmyattentionbacktotheTV.WhenBellahadfinishedthemushroomssheput
apillowinmylapandrestedherheadonit.Itracedhercheek,mouthandherearwithmyfinger.She
scrunchedhernosewhenitstartedtoticklesoIstopped.
CharliecametojoinmeinfrontoftheTVafteranhourorso.Ihopedhedidn'tmindwatchingbaseball,buthe
didn'tsayanythingashesatdowninhisreclinersoIguessedhedidn'tmind.
IlookeddownatBella'sheadinmylapandcaressedherhair.Iwantedtokissthosepoutinglipssobadly.She
hadfallenasleepoverhalfanhourago.
MyangelicSleepingBeauty.
"Howhasshebeenhandlingthewholepregnancy?"Charlieasked,takingaswigofhisbeer.
"Mentally,she'sbeentakingitreallywell.She'strulyhappyaboutitandsoamI.Physically,Idon'tknow.I've
beenworriedabouthowmuchshethrowsupinthemorningsandsometimesduringtheday.Thedoctortold
herthatsheneededtogainatleasttwentyeightpoundsduringthepregnancy,"Iexplained.
Charliechuckled."Throwingupisanormalthing,Edward.Reneethrewupduringthewholepregnancy."
"Iknow,Ijustcan'thelpbeingworried.Imean,Ihatetoseeherfeelinglikeshit.It'sbeenbetterthelastweek,
though,sinceshestartedeatingcrackersfirstthingbeforeshegotupfrombed."
"That'sgood.AreyougoingtotellRenee?"heaskedcarefully.
Ishruggedmyshoulders."Idon'tknow.It'sreallynotmychoice,butifitwere,Iwouldn'tletherknowjustyet.
ItwouldonlyputBellaunderstressanditwouldn'tbegoodforherorthebaby."
"Iguessnot,butshe'llprobablyfindoutonewayoranother.Wordstravelsfast,youknow."
"Yeah,we'llseewhatwe'regoingtodo."
HejustnoddedhisheadandwentbacktowatchingTVandIdidthesame.Bellastillhadn'twokenupafter
anotherhourandIwastootiredtostayupanylonger.So,Igentlyliftedherheadfrommylapandstoodup.
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"Doyouneedanyhelpwithher?"Charlieasked.
"Nah,I'musedtoit."IchuckledandliftedBellaupbridalstyle."Goodnight."
"Goodnight,"hemumbled."I'llseeyoutomorrow."
Inoddedandwentupthestairs.WhenIlayBelladownonthebed,shesnuggledintothepillowsand
continuedtosleep.IwenttobrushmyteethbeforeIjoinedher.Itsomehowfeltstrangetosleepinher
childhoodbed,butitwasn'tabadstrange,juststrange.
Thenextday,weleftforlunchatmyparents'house.IcouldtellthatBellawasnervousandIwas,too,actually.
Imean,wewereabouttotellthemsomethinghugesoitdidn'tsurpriseme.
MomgushedabouthowbeautifulBellawasasusual.Shealsopinchedmycheeksandputherlipstickcovered
lipsonthem,butshewasmyMomandIlovedheranyway.
WeatelunchandbothBellaandIavoidedthebabytalk.NeitherMomnorDadseemedtonotice,though.I
mean,myDadwasadoctor,heshouldhaveseenthesignsifCharliedid.MyMomwasawomanwhohad
beenpregnant,shouldn'tshenoticed?IrealizedhoweasywegotawaythedaybeforewhenCharliebroughtit
up.
WhenMomledustothelivingroomtotalkandrelax,Icouldn'thandleitanylonger.
"BellaandIarehavingababy,"Itoldthemproudlywithabig,nervousandgoofysmile.
Mombroughtherhanduptocoverhermouthandtearsstartedpoolinginhereyes.Dadjustsatthereinshock,
holdingMom'shand.
"Edward,it'snotsomethingtojokeabout,"Momscolded.
"It'snotajoke,"Isaid,amusedbytheirreaction."Whywouldwejokeaboutsomethinglikethat?"
"You'reactuallypregnant?"shesquealed,lookingmorelikeAlicethanmyMom.
"Wow,"myDadmumbled,clearlystillinshock.
"Wasitplanned?Oh,I'mgoingtobeaGrandma."
"No,itwasn'tplanned.Iwasonthepillsoitwasanaccident.Ahappyone,though."Bellasmiled,blushing
slightlyatherconfession.
"Yup,I'msogoodthatIgotmybabypregnantwhileshewasonthepill."Ismirked,throwingmyarmaround
Bella'ssmallshoulders.
Shehitmeplayfullyonmythigh,butIbarelyfeltit.
"Edward,"Momscolded."Ican'tbelieveyousaidthat."
Dadsurprisedmebychucklingquietly,butshuthismouthwhenMomgavehimherspeciallook.Iknewitall
toowellsoImumbledanapologyandleanedbackonthecouch.
"Wow,Ican'tbelievemybabyboyisgoingtobeadaddy,"shesaidwithtearsinhereyes.
"Well,Ihavemoretroubleunderstandingthatwe'llbeGrandparents,"Dadsaidfromhisspotonthecouch.
"You'reright,"Momsaidthoughtfully.
EventuallyshewalkedovertomeandBellatohugus.Itwasatightone,butIdidn'tmind.
"I'msohappyforyou,andforme."Shechuckled."Thatkidisgoingtobespoiledrotten,Ipromise."
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"You'renottheonlyonewhoisgoingtospoilthatkid,"Dadsaidandgaveusahug,too."Congratulations."
"Thanks."
IcouldtellthatBellawasstartingtogetuncomfortablewiththeattention,soItriedtobringitallonmeand
startedtalking.
"ThebabyisdueAugust22nd,"Itoldthem.
MomsquealedandDadwashiscalmself,buthesmiledsoIknewhewashappy.Momstartedtalkingabout
decoratingthenursery,andwhenshegotstartedonthatone,shedecidedtodecoratethewholehouseinher
head.Ididn'tmindifshewantedtodecorateandneitherdidBellaifshegottohelpout.
BellaandMomcontinuedtodiscussthehousewhileDadandItalkedaboutmyworkandotherstuff.
Afterawhile,Bellaleanedintomeandwhispered,"CanIborrowyourcarforawhile?Ineedtodo
something."
"What'sthat?"
"I'mjustgoingtogoforawalk,butIdon'twanttowalkinthewoods,so..."shetrailedoff.
"Okay,sure.Willyoubegonelong?"
"Maybeanhour.JustsoIcangetsomefreshairandforyoutospendsomealonetimewithyourparents."
IhandedherthekeystotheVolvo,alittleworriedaboutthesuddenchangeofplans.Shehadn'tmentioned
anythinglikethatbeforewegothere.Sheexcusedherself,givingmeakissandan'Iloveyou'beforesheleft.
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Itookthelaststepsouttowardtheedgeofthecliff.TherainwaspouringdownwhenIhadfinallyreachedthe
topsoItookoffmyraincoatandplaceditontheground,afewfeetfromtheedgeandsatdown,lettingmybig
umbrellashieldmefromtherain.
Thetruthwas,thatIdidn'tcomeupherejusttogiveEdwardsomealonetimewithhisparents.Icameuphere
todotheassignmentDr.Molinahadgivenmeyesterday.
IhadliedtoEdwardaboutnotgettinganyhomework.Theexcusewassimple,Iknewhewasafraidofthiscliff
andwouldn'thaveletmegobymyself.Ineededtodoitonmyown.Thehealingwasallonme.Iwasgoingto
tellEdwardthetruthwhenIgotback.
Dr.MolinaandIhadn'thadmuchtimetodiscussEmily,butwehadtouchedthesubject.Shehadaskedif
Emilyhadbeenburiedorcremated.Ihadfoundthequestionoddatfirst,butwhensheexplainedthe
homework,Iunderstood.
Dr.MolinahadtoldmetogototheplacewheretheyhadspreadEmily'sashesandtalktoher.Evenifthere
wasn'tanytombstone,itwasstillaplaceconnectedtoEmily.Iwassupposedtotellherabouthappythingsthat
wasgoingoninmylife.ThatwaswhyIwasuponthecliffmineandEmily'sspot.
"Hi,it'sme.Bella,"Isaidlamelyoutintonothing.Itfeltkindofstupid,butIwantedtofulfilltheassignment.
"Um,Ijustwantedtotalktoyouaboutafewthings."
Ilookedaroundme.TherainwasstillpouringdownandIwasstillalone.Ididn'tknowwhatIhadexpected,
butmaybesomekindofsignthatshewaslistening.
"Well,EdwardandIarehavingababy,butIguessyoualreadyknewthat."Ichuckledtomyself,referringto
thedreamI'dhadatthehospital."I'msecretlyhopingforagirl.NotthatIwouldn'tbehappyifitwasaboy,but
still.Icanpicturealittlegirlrunningarounduswithbronzecoloredcurlsandbig,greeneyes.JustlikeEdward.
I'lltellyouwhatsexitissoonasIknow,Ipromise.
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ItoldherabouthowwefoundoutaboutthepregnancyandhowwehaddoneatestbeforeChristmas.Ieven
toldheraboutthefirstcheckup,feelingalittleembarrassedwhenIexplainedhowuncomfortableitwasto
havesomethinginserteddowntherethatwasn'tapartofEdward.IfoundmyselfchuckleaboutitwhenIwas
finished.Mostimportantly,Itoldherabouttheheartbeatswe'dheard.
"Anyway,we'vealsoboughtahouse.It'ssobeautifulandI'msureyouwouldhavelovedit.We'removingin
withintwomonths.Esme,Edward'smom,andIhavebeenspendingmostoftodayplanningonhowto
decorateit.Ithinkitwillbereallynice..."Itrailedoff,pickingonthegrassatmyfeet.
IglanceddownatmyclockandsawthatIhadbeensittinghereforalmostfortyminutes.IhadtoldEdwardthat
Iwouldbebackinanhoursohehadbeenexpectingmebackfiveminutesago.
"Shoot!Ihavetogo,"ItoldEmilyremorsefully.WhenIhadgottenoverthelamefeeling,Ihadenjoyedtalking
toher."Edwardisprobablyalreadyworried.He'sbeenveryprotectiveofmesincewefoundoutIwas
pregnant,ormoreprotectivethanusualatleast."
Igotupfrommyseatandputtheraincoatbackon.Ilookedaroundtheplace,butIstilldidn'tseeanything
different.
"Iloveyou,andI'llbebackassoonasIcan."
Withthat,IleftthecliffandstartedwalkingbacktotheVolvo.JustasIsuspected,EdwardwasworriedwhenI
cameback,buthecontaineditprettygood.
"Areyouokay?"heaskedwhenhehadgivenmeahug.
"Yes,"Iansweredquietly."Didyouhaveagoodtimewithyourparents?"
"Yeah,theycan'tshutupaboutthebaby."HesmiledsoIknewhehadenjoyedeverymomenttheyhadtalked
aboutourbaby.
"Oh,Bella,you'reback!"Esmesaidexcitedlywhenshenoticedme.
"Yeah,Iam.IthinkmyDadwillbehomesoonso..."Itrailedoff,notwantingtoberude,butIneededtoget
backandhelpSuewithdinner.
"Oh,noworries,dear!It'sfineifyouneedtoleave.We'lljustseeyousoon,okay?"
"Sure,Mom,"Edwardtoldherandwenttogiveherakissandahuggoodbye."Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too.Takecareofthatbabynow."
"Iam."Heturnedtohisdad."IloveyouandI'llseeyousoon."
"Loveyou,too,Son."
Withafewmorehugs,weleftanddrovebacktoDad'shouse.Iwasrelievedtohavethewhole'telltheparents'
thingover.Sure,therewasstillReneetotalkto,butIstilldidn'tknowifIwantedtotellheryet.
WhenwegotbacktoDad,hewaswatchingTVandSuewasinthekitchen,preparingdinner.Luckily,Esme's
lunchhadn'tbeenbigsoIbelievedIcouldfitsomedinnerinthereaswell.Besides,thelunchwasthreehours
ago.
"So,howareyou?"SueaskedwhenIjoinedher.EdwardhadjoinedmyDadinfrontoftheTV.
"I'mfine,Iguess.NothingIcan'thandle.Whataboutyou?"
"Oh,I'mmightyfine."Shelaughed."EspeciallynowwhenCharlie'ssohappy."
"Whatdoyoumean?Heseemstobelikehisnormalself,"Isaidconfused,takingapieceofcucumberand
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poppeditintomymouth.
"Idon'tthinkI'veeverseenhimashappyashewaswhenhetoldmehewasgoingtobeaGrandpa."
Igaspedandturnedtofaceher."Hetoldyou?"
"Uhhu."Shesmiled."I'mtrulyhappyforyouandEdward,Bella."
"Thankyou."
"So,howareyou,really?"sheasked,goingbacktothecooking.
"Emotional.IfeellikeI'mcryingsomuchthatthebabywillbecompletelydehydrated."
"Don'tworry,Idon'tthinkthatwillhappen."Shelaughed."HowisEdwarddealingwithit?IrememberHarry
freakingoutwheneverIcried."
"Ican'tbelievehowhecanstandmesometimes.Imean,lastweekIcriedbecauseImissedhimandwanted
himwithmeinsteadwithhisfriends.Then,lastnightIcriedbecauseIfeltfatandapartofmewasactually
blaminghimforputtingmeinthissituationinthefirstplace."
"Buthe'sstillheresoitlookslikehedoesn'tletallthatbotheringhim."
"Yeah.Hehasn'tlosthistemperwithmeoncesincewefoundout.Sure,helookedprettymadwhenItoldhim
Ifeltfat,butheneverrosehisvoice.Hejusttalkedcalmlyandtriedtogetmetounderstandhowhesawme."
"He'sinlovewithyou,that'swhy."Shelookedatmeandsmiledkindly."AndBella,you'renotfat."
"Iknowthatnow,"Isaid,notwantingtogetintodetailsonhowIhadcometotermswiththat.
"Whatareyoutwoladiesgossipingabout?"Edwardasked.
Ihadn'tevenrealizedhewasinthekitchen,butIwashappytoseehimsoIturnedaroundandopenedmy
arms.Asilentrequestforhimtogivemeahug,whichhedid.
"Girlstuff,"Sueansweredhisquestion.
"Oh,andhereIthoughtyouweretalkingaboutme."Hesmirked."So,when'sdinnerready?"
"Fiveminutesmaybe,"Suesaid.
Thewholeweekendturnedoutasasuccess.Sure,therehadbeensomeminorincidents,likeJessicaandmy
insecurity,butmostofitwentfine.IwashappytohavemyDadknowingaboutmebeingpregnant.Iwaseven
morehappythathehadtakeneverythingsowell.
WewereonourwaybacktoSeattlewhentheguiltfromlyingtoEdwardwasalmosteatingmeup.IknewI
hadtotellhimandwhenwewereinthecar,hecouldn'tleavesoIknewhewouldlistentomyarguments.
"I'veliedtoyou,"Ikindofblurtedout.
"You'veliedtome?"heasked,quirkingandeyebrow.
"Yeah,youaskedmeifIhadgottenanyhomeworkfrommytherapist,andIlied."
"Why?Whatdidshewantyoutodo?"
Itookadeepbreathandletitoutbeforeansweringhim,"ShewantedmetovisittheplacewhereEmily'sashes
wasspreadandkindoftalktoher.Aboutgoodstuffthat'sgoingoninmyliferightnow."
"Soyouwentuptothecliffs?Onyourown."Icouldtellthathewasalmostangrywiththatfact.
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"Yeah,"Iadmittedquietly.
"Whatifsomethinghadhappenedtoyou?Whowouldhavehelpedyouthen?"
"Ihadmyphonewithmesoitwasn'tlikeIwasentirelyhelpless,Edward."
HetookaminutetocollecthimselfandIknewhediditsothathewouldn'tupsetme.Isawhishandsgripthe
steeringwheeltightlyandittookawhilebeforeheloosenedthem.
"Itwaswhenyouleftmyparents'house,wasn'tit?"heasked.
"Yeah,"Iadmitted.
"Okay.So,whatdidyoutellEmily?Oristhatasecret?"
Hedidn'tappeartobeangryanymoresoItoldhimaboutwhatIhadsaid.Ileftoutthepartaboutthecheckup,
thatonewasstillembarrassing.WhenIwasdonetalking,westayedquietandIwasalmostasleepwhen
Edwardbrokeit.
"So,arewegoingtotellRenee?"
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Quoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'PrettyWoman'onceagain.IswearthatI
haveusedallofthembeforethisstoryisfinished,butthey'rejustsogood!
"Didyouknowthatyourfoot'sasbigasyourarmfromyourelbowtoyourwrist?"
Newchapterannewquote.I'vechangedthename,butotherthanthatit'sthesame.
(It'sNOTthe'whiplash'sentence!)
ThankstoKris10Skimmer,thankstoherInowknowaboutanotherAmerican
tradition!
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TherestofJanuarypassed.
SodidFebruary.
ThefirstweeksofMarchcameandwent.
Iwasnowexactlyseventeenweekspregnantandhadstartedtoshow.Icouldstillhideitbecausemystomach
wasn'treallybig,butwhenIwasnaked,Icouldseethebabybump.Edwardwasmorethanexcitedaboutthat
fact.HetalkedtomytummyeverychancehegotandIfounditsoadorablethatIonlysmiled.UnlessIwasina
badmood,thatis.
Wehadbeentotwomorecheckupsanditalwaysendedinhappytearsaswesawourbabyandheardthe
heartbeats.Nexttimewewouldprobablyfindoutwhatsexheorshewas,andthatmadebothEdwardandme
reallyexcitedandgiddy.Thatalsomeantthatwecouldstartbuyingbabystuffandthatfactmademorepeople
thanushappy.Alicemostly.
Ihadactuallybeengainingweight.Sure,Iwasstillunderweight,butIwasmakingprogressandthatwaswhat
matteredthemost.
Isighed,rubbingmytummyandwentbacktowhatIdidbeforeIgotcaughtupinmyheadpacking.Wehad
soldtheapartmentaweekagoandweregoingtostartmovingintothehousetheupcomingweekend.
Edwardhadfirmlytoldmenottopackanyoftheheavystuff.Infact,hedidn'twantmetopackanythingatall,
butIwasn'tgoingtositaroundanddonothing.
"Baby,I'mhome!"EdwardannouncedandIrealizeditwasalreadysixo'clock.IhadbeenpackingDVD'sfor
threehours.Itwasprobablytheperfectionistinmethatwantedtopacktheminalphabeticorderthattookso
long.
"Inhere!"Iyelledback.
Hecameupbehindme,wrappinghisarmsaroundmywaistandplacedhishandsonmystomach.Iplacedmy
handsoverhisandhekissedmyneckandhummed.
Edwardmovedtostandinfrontofmeandhuncheddown.Itwasn'tunusual.Infact,thatwashisdailyroutine.
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Hepushedmyshirtupandkissedmytummy."Howareyou,mylittleangel?"
"It'sbeenagoodday,butwithwaytoomanybathroomruns,"Itoldhim.
Hechuckledandgavemytummyafinalkissbeforeslidingtheshirtbackdownandstoodup.
"I'vemissedyou,"hesaid,cuppingmyfaceandpressedhislipstomine.
"Mm,I'vemissedyou,too,"Imumbledagainsthislips."Doyouwantdinner?"
"Likeyouhavetoask."Hechuckled.
EdwardwenttochangedoutofhisworkclotheswhileIstartedmakingussomedinner.MyphonerangwhenI
justfinishedmeasuringtheingredientsandwhenIlookeddownatit,Isawthatitwasthesamepersonwhohad
beencallingnonstopforthelastcoupleofhoursmyMom.EdwardandIhadagreedonnottellingherabout
thebabyjustyet,itwouldcausetoomuchstressforthebabyandIdidn'twantthat.Ichosemybabyovermy
Momandthatwaseasiersaidthandone.IalwaysfeltguiltywhenIignoredhercalls,butIhadtodoit.
Iputthephonebackonthecounterandcontinuedmakingdinner.Ifshestillcontinuedtocallaftertwoweeks
andhadn'tgottenanyanwswer,shecouldwaitalittlelonger.WhenEdwardputhisarmsaroundmeagain,I
feltallthetensionleavemybody.
"Whatthehellareyoumaking?"heaskedwhenhesawwhatIwasstirring."Milksoupwithmacaronis?"
Ilaughed."No,you'llseewhenit'sdone.Icanassureyouthatyou'regoingtolikeit."
"Hmpf.Doyouwantmetosetthetable?"
"Sure,dinnershouldbereadysoon."
Hesetthetableandsatdowntowaitformetofinishdinner.Icouldfeelhiseyesonme,watchingeverymoveI
made.Itdidn'tmakemefeeluneasy,justwatched.
Iputhisplateinfrontofhimandhejustlookedatit.ItremindedmeofwhenImadepancakesforhim.He
seemedskeptical,butIknewhewouldlovemydinner.
"Areyougoingtotellmewhatthehellthisis?"heasked.
"Language,"Iscolded.Hehadn'tgottenbetter,atall."Andit'smeatballs."
"Sorry,baby.AndIcouldseethatit'smeatballs,butwhat'sthewhitestuff?"
"Thewhitestuff,"Isaid,imitatinghiswords."Aremacaronisboiledinmilkinsteadofwater.It'sveryyummy,I
promise."
Igrabbedtheketchupandsquirteditoutovermyfoodandstartedeatingit.AsIdidso,Edwarddidthesame.
JustlikeIhadpredicted,Edwardmoanedandtookanotherportionbeforehewasfull.
"Good,huh?"Ismirked.
"Betterthangood,"hesaid,pattinghisstomach."Wherehaveyoulearnedallthesestrangerecipes?"
"IlearnedfromthebestmyGrandma."
"Well,IpromiseIwon'tbeskepticalinthefuturebecausethatfoodtasteslikeheaven."
Iwasgiddyoverhisreaction.Ialwaysgotlikethatwhenhepraisedmycookingorotherthings.Hisopinion
meantalottome.
NextdaywasFriday,andFridaysmeanttherapy.IhadcomealongwaysinceIstartedtalking,butIstillhada
longwaytogo.Westillhadn'ttalkedmuchaboutEmily.Dr.Molinaonlyknewthatshewasdead,butnothing
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aboutmyextremereactionstoit.Idreadedthedayweweregoingtotalkaboutit,butatthesametimeIknewit
wasnecessary.IhadeventhoughtaboutbringingEdwardtothatsessionassupport,buttherewasonlyone
problemIdidn'tknowwhenthatsessionwas.
"What'sbotheringyoutoday,Bella?"Dr.Molinaasked.
Shewasverygoodatreadingmybodylanguageandcouldalwaystellwhensomethinghadhappened.
"MyMomkeepscallingme.Shejustdoesn'tgetthehintwhenIdon'tpickup."
"Isthereareasontowhyyou'renotpickingup?"sheasked.
"Yeah,stuffhappenedatThanksgivingandIhaven'treallyforgivenheryet,"Itoldhervaguely.
"Whatstuff?"sheaskedpatiently.
ItoldDr.MolinaaboutthethingsthathadhappenedandwhatmyMomhaddone,andalsomyDad,butIleft
outthebedroomstuff.Shedidn'tneedtohearaboutthat.Shealsomanagedtogetthestoryabouttheletterout
ofmeandthatwasahardthingtotalkabout.Itwasbasicallythemilestonetotheendofmyrelationshipwith
myMother.
"Theremustbesomethingmorethanjustthatincidentthathasmadeyoucometoadecisiontoleaveyour
motheroutofthepregnancy,"Dr.Molinasaidsoftlywhilestilltakingnotes.
"It'sjustthelittlethings,likemissingmybirthdayorneverhavethetimetotalktomeforevenfiveminutes.
ThatontopofThanksgivingmakesmesofrustrated."
"Iunderstand,butdon'tyouthinkthatmaybeshehassomethingimportanttotellyousinceshe'scallingallthe
time?"
Ihadn'tthoughtaboutitthatway.AllIsawwasmyMom,wantingtogetaholdofme.Ihadneverimagined
thatitcouldmesomethingseriousandimportant.Butwhatifitwasn't?
"Fromamother'spointofview,"Dr.MolinastartedwhenIdidn'tsayanything."Ifmydaughterdidn'tpickup
whenIcalled,Iwouldbeonthefirstplanetowhereshelived.Idon'tknowifyourmotherwoulddothat,but
don'tyouthinkitwouldbemorestressfulforyouandthebabyifsheactuallyshowedup?"
"Doyoureallythinkshewoulddothat?"Iwhispered.
Shenodded."Ifshe'sdesperateenough."
"Oh."IputmyhandovermytummyasifIwastryingtoprotectthebaby.
"Ithinkwe'vefoundtheassignmentfortodaypickupthenexttimeshecallsandhearherout.Oryoucould
callherback.I'mnotsayingthatyouneedtotellheraboutthebaby,justlistentowhatshehastosay.Ifshe's
meanoranythinglikethat,youhangup."
"Um,okay,"Isaid,stillunsuretohowIfeltaboutit.
ShecontinuedtoaskmequestionsaboutmychildhoodandmyrelationshipwithmyMom.ThethingIlikedthe
mostaboutDr.Molinawasthatsheneverreallyplannedbeforehandwhatweweregoingtotalkabout.Itfelt
naturaltotalkaboutthethingsastheypoppedup,andthattheyweren'tforced.
Aftermytherapysession,IwenttoseeRose.ShewaspreparingforLilyandhadjustwashedalltheclothes.I
hadofferedtohelpheroutandwashappytodososinceitgavemesomepracticeuntilitwasmytime.
Shehadtoldmetoletmyselfinsinceshefounditdifficulttowalkthestairsupanddownallthetime.So,I
removedmyjacketandshoesandwalkedupstairs.IfoundRoseinthenursery,foldingtinyclothesandusing
hertummyassupport.
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Igiggledatthesite.Somehowitlookedsocuteandfunny.Thatwaswhenshenoticedmeandshotmeaglare.
"Areyougoingtohelporareyoujustgoingtostandthere,laughingatme?"sheasked,placingherhandson
herhips.
"Sorry,I'mheretohelp,"Isaidandsteppedinsidetheroomtohelpher.
WhenRosewasfinishedwiththebeddinginthecrib,shesatdownintherockingchairandwatchedmewhileI
foldedtheremainsoftheclothes.
"Haveyoustartedtoshowyet?"sheaskedbluntly.Ijustgapedather,wonderingifsheseriouslyhadasked
whatIthought."What?Don'tbesomodest,Bella."
"Yes,I'vestartedtoshow...alittle,"Iadmittedshyly.
"Thenwhydoyouhavebaggyclothes?Whydon'tyoushowyourcutelittlebabybump?"
Ilookeddownatmyjeansandbluetunicandfoundnothingwrongwithmyclothes.Sure,thetunicwasalose
fit,butthejeansweretight.
"What'swrongwithmyclothes?"Iasked.
"Nothing,they'recute,buttheydon'tshowthatyou'repregnant."
"So?MaybeIdon'twanttoflashmypregnancy."
"Okay."Sheputherhandsupinsurrender."Iwasjustasking."
"Well,I'llshowwhenI'mready,andbigenough.Thebumpisbarelythereanyway."
"Letmesee."Shewasexcited.
Ibitmylipandtightenedthetunic.Thatwayshecouldseetheoutline,butIdidn'thavetoshowmyactual
stomach.
"Wow,howcute,"shesaid,smiling.
"Yeah..."Itrailedoffwithasmileofmyownandwentbacktofoldingthetinybabyclothes.
Ifinishedeverythingandputitinthedrawer.Allthebabystuffmademelongingfordoingallthatformyown
baby.BothEdwardandIwantedtowaituntilwefoundoutwhatsexitwasfirst.
"Doyouwanttoseethecar?"Roseasked.
"Yes!ButIhavetomeetEdwardsoonsoIcan'tstaylong,"Isaidapologetically.
"It'sokay,Ijustwantedtoshowyou.Theonlythingslefttodoistheinteriorandthecarpaint."
Youcouldn'treallyseeanydifference,butitwassupposedtoworkanyway.Iwantedtotakeitoutonatest
drive,butIdidn'thavetimeandIwantedtowaituntilitwascompletelyfinished.
"OhGod,"Rosegroaned,coveringherstomach.
"What'swrong?"Iaskedpanicked.
"Justthedamncontractions,"shesaid,wavingitoffwithherhand.
Contractions?
"Butshouldn'tyougotothehospital?"Iasked.
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"No,thedoctorsaidIcouldbefeelingcontractionsevenaweekbeforetheactualdelivery.Besides,they'refar
apartsoit'snottimeyet."
"Oh."
IguessIwouldhavetoreadthesectionaboutlaboranddeliverysoon.Ihadbeenskippingthatpartonpurpose
becausethatwaswhatscaredtheshitoutofme.
Itdidn'tseemtoscareRose,though,sinceshewentbacktoinspectingthecaragain.Itwasgoodthatthere
wasn'tmuchleftdosinceRosewasclosetohavingLilyandEdward'sbirthdaywasonlythreemonthsaway.
EPOV
"Apushgift?"IaskedEmmett.
Hehaddraggedmeoutshopping,sayingthathehadreadanarticlesomewherethatahusbandwassupposedto
givehiswifeagiftwhenshegavebirthtoyourchild.
"Yeah.Don'tworry,Eddie,Ialreadyknowwhattobuy,"heanswered.
"Whatdoyouneedmeforthen?"
"Iwantyouropinion.Besides,youneedoneforBella."Hesmirked,knowingthathehadapoint.
"WhatifI'vealreadyfoundone?"Iaskedcockily.
"Yeah,andmynameisn'tEmmett."
"What'syournameifitisn'tEmmett?"
"Youmeanyou'vealreadyfoundagift?WhenIjusttoldyouaboutitinthefirstplacefiveminutesago."
"Idobelieveso."
"Well,tellmethen,"hedemandedwhilewewentintoajewelryshop.
"Youjusthavetowaitandsee.ImighttakeyoualongwhenI'lldoit,butuntilthen,mylipsaresealed."
Hejustgruntedandwalkedovertothesalesladyandaskedforhisorder.Ihadnodoubtthathisgiftwasgoing
tobeperfect,butIcouldtellthathewasnervous.
"Edward,comehereandlookforasec,"hesaid,wavingmeover.
HeplacedacharmbraceletinmypalmandjustlikeIsaid,itwasperfect.Thereweretwohearts,onethathad
EmmettandRosalieengravedandtheotheronereadLily.Iwasalmostjealousthathehadfoundsuchaperfect
gift.Sure,IhadasimilaronemadetoBella,butinsteaditwasanecklaceandtherewasn'texactlyroomforour
kid'sname.
"It'sperfect,"Itoldhimsincerelyandgaveitback.
Hebreathedasighofreliefandhandeditbacktothewomanbehindthedesktogetitwrappedup.Hepayed
foritandthenwewalkedbackoutside.
"So,youdon'tthinkshe'llhateitthen?"Emmettasked.
"Shewouldbeoutofhermindifshedid."
"Good."Henoddedhishead.
Laterthatday,BellaandIgotinafightoverherbodyagain.Iwouldn'texactlycallitafightsinceshewasthe
onlyonewhowasmad,butstill.Sheonceagainsaidthatshelookedfatandtherefore,shedidn'twanttohave
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sex.Itriedtellingheroverandoveragainhowbeautifulandsexyshewas,especiallynowthatshehadstarted
showing,butshedidn'tlistenonthatear.
IlaterfoundoutwhathadcauseditRose.ShehadgivenBellaaYogaDVD,sayingthatithelpedshapeup
youbodyandmadeyoumoreflexible.ThatinturnhadcausedBellatofeelinsecure.
Itwasn'tthelackofsexthatnightthatdisturbedmebecauseIhadgottenplentyofthatinthelastcoupleof
months,butitwasthefactthatshefeltinsecureandthatshehatedherbody.Ijusthateditwhenshefeltthat
waybecauseitwassofarfromthetruththatitwasridiculous.
Shedidatleastletmeholdherandcomfortherwhenshehadcalmeddownenough.ItmademebelievethatI
wasforgivenformakingherpregnant.Yes,sheblamedmeforitwhenevershefeltupsetoverthepregnancy.
BPOV
ImirroredtheverycomplicatedmovementtheYogainstructordidontheTV.Iwassooutofbreathitwasn't
evenfunny.
Oh,God.IthinkI'mstuck!
Icouldn'tgetoutofthepositionIhadputmyselfinandwhenmyphonestartedringing,Ibecamefrustrated.
Whycouldn'tthepersononthelinehavepickedalittlebettertimetocall?
Luckily,IhadputitbesidemesoatleastIcouldreachit.
"Hello?"Ianswered,stilloutofbreath.
"PleasetellmeIdidn'tcallduringoneofyoursexescapade,"Emmettsaid.
"No."Ilaughed."ButyouwereinterruptingmyYogasessionwiththeTV."
"Well,IthinkwhenyouhearwhatIhavetosay,you'llbedamngratefulthatIinterrupted."
"Tryme,"Ichallenged,butitcameoutmoreasamoansinceIwasstillintheposition.
"You'regoingtobeofficialgodmotherbeforethisdayisover...Ihope,"heannounced,makingmefallonmy
assfromshock.
"You'rekidding,right?"Iasked,stillinsurprise.
"WhywouldIjokeaboutsomethinglikemydaughter?"
"Thebabyiscoming,"Isquealedhappily."IneedtohangupandcallEdward.We'llbethereassoonas
possible.Oh,andtellRoseIsaidhiandgoodluck."
Withthat,Ihungupbeforehegotthechancetosaysomethingback.IwasinahurrytocallEdwardsowe
couldgoalready.
"Thisbetterbeimportant."Edwardbreathedheavilyintothephone,probablybecausehewasoutofbreath
fromtheworkout.
"What?AmInotimportantenoughforyoutopickupduringyourworkout?"Iasked,allofthesudden
annoyed.
"Fuck,baby,that'snotwhatImeantandyouknowit.Now,whydidyoucallmeinthefirstplace?I'mguessing
itwasn'ttoaskmeaboutyourimportance."
"SowhatifIwere?Whatwouldyouanswer?"Iasked,stillannoyed.
"ThatIloveyouandthatyou'rethemostimportantpartofmylife.Nowtellmewhyyoucalled,"hedemanded
inaslightlyfrustratedvoice.
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"Roseishavingthebaby,likenow.IhopeLilyisimportantenoughtointerruptyourworkout,"Isaidand
hungup.
God,Ihatemymoodswings,butsometimesEdwardjustpissesmeoff!
Ipackedabagwithsomefruitandwaterincasewewouldbegoneforawhile.Ialsobroughtthepinklittle
bunnyIhadboughtasLily'sfirstgiftfrommeandEdward.Thefirstofmany,Iwassure.
"Couldyoupleasejusthurryup?"IsaidasEdwardwalkedinthroughthefrontdoor.
"No,"heansweredfirmly."Notuntilyouquitactinglikesuchabitch."
"Well,whenyoustopactinglikeanasshole,I'llstopbeingsuchabitch...forawhile,"Isaid,knowingthatthe
hormonesputmeinbitchmodemoretimesthanIliked.
Hejustdraggedhishandthroughhishairlikehedidwhenhewasfrustratedandthenlefttotakeashower.Sine
Iwasalreadydonewitheverything,Iwentovertothewindowandstaredattheapartmentssurroundingus.
IfeltstupidoverhowIhadtreatedEdward.Hedidn'tdeservebeingtreatedlikethat.Notwhenhewasso
patientwithmeallthetime.
"Comeon,let'sgobegDaddyforforgiveness,"Isaidandplacedmyhandsonmybelly.
IwalkedintothesteamybathroomandsatdownonthetoiletlidwithatowelinmyhandstowaitforEdward
tofinish.Hedidn'tappearedtohaveheardmesincehedidn'tacknowledgeme.
Eventually,hefinishedandIsawhishandsearchforhistowelsoIhandedittohim.Thatactionmadehim
noticeme,buthedidn'tsayanything.Iknewhewastiredofmymood.
"I'msorry,"Iwhisperedandlookeddowninshame.
"Apologyaccepted,andI'msorry,too.Ishouldn'thaveansweredthephonelikethat."
"Apologyaccepted,"Isaidandgotuptogivehimsomeprivacy.
"Hey,comehere.Idon'twantyoutoleave,"hesaid,openinghisarmstome.
Ididn'thesitatebeforeIsteppedintohisarmsandhuggedhisbarewaisttightly.Inuzzledmyfaceinhischest
andplacedakissrightoverhisheart.
"Iloveyou,"hesaid,cuppingmyfaceandplacedagentlekissonmylips.
"Iloveyou,too,butIreallywanttogoandseemygoddaughternow."Ismiledagainsthislips.
"Youknow,she'sprobablystillinRose'sstomach,"hesaidandreleasedme.
"Iknow,butIstillwanttobethere."
"Yeah,letmejustgetdressedandthenI'mreadytoleave."
Ilefthimtogetready,whichdidn'ttakelongandwewereinthecartwentyminuteslater.EventhoughIhadn't
readthesectionaboutlaboranddeliveryyet,Iknewitusuallytooklongerthanfortyminutessowestillhad
timetogettothehospital.
WehadbeenatthehospitalforthreehoursandIwasstartingtogetrestlessandtired.ThebookIhadbeen
readingwasfinishedoveranhouragoandtherewasn'tmuchelsetodobutwait,andwait.
Sincewegottothehospital,twowomenhadcomethroughthedoor.Bothoftheminpain,holdingtheir
stomachwhiletheirhusbandspushedtheminthewheelchair.Nowthethirdwomancameandsheseemedtobe
intentimesmorepainthantheotherones.
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"Getthisfuckingbabyoutofme...NOW!"shescreamedwhiletheguybehindherwaspaleasaghost.
Ididn'tgettoheartherestoftheconversationsinceshewaswheeledaway,butitwasenoughtomakeme
nervous.
"Doyouwanttogooutsideforaminute?"Edwardasked,noticingmyreactiontothelady.
"No,I'mokay,"ItoldhimwithasmileIwassuredidn'tconvincehim.
"Bella,thestressisn'tgoodforthebabysoifyoucan'thandlethepatientsthenweshouldwaitsomewhere
else."
"Really,I'mfine."Iwasn'tunderthatmuchstress,IwasjustnervousaboutthetimeIwouldbethatwoman
whoyellslikethat.
"Ifyousayso,"hesaidtiredlyandleanedback."Comehere."Hepattedhislap.
"Why?"Iasked.
"Iwanttofeelyou,nowcomehere."
Istoodupandsatbackdowninhislap,bridalstyle,andleanedmyheadagainsthisshoulder.Heplacedone
armtorestonmythighs.Theotherarmwentaroundmywaistandhishandonmybellyandthenhestarted
rubbingit.ThegesturewassoothingandIfoundmyselfburringmyfaceinhisneckandfellasleep.
IwokeupagainwhenEdwardnudgedmeandsawanursewalkinguptous.Irubbedmyfacetotryandget
thesleepaway.Ididn'tnoticeAliceandJasperwithus,butthenIrememberedthattheywereoutoftownthis
weekend.
Perfecttimingforaweekendgetaway.
"Mr.McCarthyaskedmetoletyouknowthatyoucanseeLilynow,"thenursesaid.
WequicklygotupandfollowedthenursetoRoseandEmmett'sroom.Shegesturedtothedoorandleftus.
Iknockedsoftly,eagertoseemylittlegoddaughterbutnotwantingtodisturbaprivatemoment.
WhenIheardasoft'Comein,'IgrabbedEdward'shandtighterinmineandopenedthedoor.Roselooked
exhausted,lyingonthebedwhileEmmettheldhisdaughterinhisbigarms.IcouldpictureEdwarddoingthe
samewhenitwasourturn.
"Hey,"Isaidsoftly,walkingovertoRose.
ShesmiledbackandIcouldtellthatallshewantedtodowassleepsoImademymindupthatIwouldn'tstay
verylong.AllIwantedwastosayhellotoLily.
EdwardreleasedmyhandandwalkedovertoEmmett.IstayedwithRoseandbentdowntogiveherakisson
thecheeksinceIdidn'twanttotakeachanceandhugherandhurtherintheprocess.
"Howareyou?"Ifinallyasked.
"Exhausted,sore,happy,"sheansweredwithatiredsmile.
EdwardhadbeengivenLilytoholdandwalkedovertome.Thesightwithhimandababymademyheart
ache.
"Look,Bella,"hesaid,anglinglittleLilysoIcouldseeher.Shelookedsotinyinhisbigarms.
IplacedonearmaroundEdward'swaistandusedtheotherhandtopulldowntheblanketsfromLily'sface.She
wassuchacutiewithchubbycheeksandpoutinglips.Youcouldn'tseeneithereyecolororhaircolorbecause
shehadhereyesclosedandalittlehatonherhead.
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"She'sperfect,"Isaidwithtearsinmyeyes.
"Shesureis,"Edwardagreed."Doyouwanttoholdher?"
Ipanickedatfirst."No,whatifIdropher?"
"It'sokay,Bella.Youwon'thurther,"heassuredandstartedshiftingthebabysoIcouldtakeherinmyarms.
Shewassotinyeveninmyarms.Therewasalittlefussingonherpartonceshewasplacedinmyarms,butshe
quicklysettledandwentbacktosleep.ShewaswarmagainstmeandIneverwantedtolethergo.
"LittleLily,"Isaidtonooneinparticularandstrokedhercheekwithmyfinger.
"Itmeansblossomingflower,"Edwardsaidandlookedatherovermyshoulder.
"She'sperfect,"IsaidtoRose,wholookedlonginglyatthebabysoIreluctantlywalkedovertoherand
carefullyhandedLilytoher.
ThemomentseemedsoprivateandIfeltlikeweintrudedontheirtimewiththebaby,andevenifIdidn'twant
to,IknewitwastimeforEdwardandItoleave.
"Doyouknowwhenyou'llbedischarged?"IaskedRose.
"Inadayortwo,Ithink."
"Okay.I'llprobablycomeoveronceyougethomethen."
"Iwouldlovethat."Shesmiled."Andthankyouforcomingtoday."
"Thankyouforlettingus,"Edwardsaidandplacedhisarmovermyshouldertogivemeaonearmhug.
WithafewmoregoodbyestoLilyandhandingoverthelittlepinkbunny,EdwardandIleftthemandwent
backhome.Itstilldidn'tfeelrealtobeagodmotherandIcouldonlyguesshowRosefelt.
IwastiredandexhaustedfromthelonghoursatthehospitalandsowereEdward,sowewenttogetreadyfor
bed.
Asusual,Edwardpushedmytshirtupsohecouldtalktothebabybeforeweturnedthelightsoff.Itwasapart
ofhisnightlyroutineandIenjoyedeverysecondofit.
"Hi,mylittleangel,"hestartedandplacedakissonthelittlebump."YourMommyandIbecamegodparents
today.Itmademelongforyousofu...badlyitalmosthurts."
Ichuckledathisalmostslipbecausehewastryingsohardtofixuphislanguage,especiallywhenhetalked
directlytothebaby.
"Letmetellyousomething.It'sreallyhardtostaymadatyourMommy.Doyouknowwhy?Becauseshelooks
morelikeadrenchkittythanamad,hormonalwoman."Helaughed,probablyreferringtoourargumentwehad
earlier.
"Idonot!"Isaidandslappedhimplayfullyonhisshoulder.
"Youdo,baby,"hesaid,tryingtocontainhislaughterandwentbacktofacingmystomach."Pleasebeniceto
her,Ican'tdealwithmoremorningsickness.Goodnight."
Heplacedonefinalkissonmytummyandpulleddownmytshirtforme.
WhenEdwardturnedaroundtoturnoffhisbedsidelamp,Ifeltakindofflutterinmystomach.Itwaslike
butterflies,butonlymoreintensethantheonesIhadfeltwhenEdwardkissedme.
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"Edward!"Iexclaimed,placingbothmyhandsonmystomach.
"What'swrong?"heaskedworriedly,thelightcompletelyforgotten.
"Thebabymovedorsomething!"Istrokedmybelly,tryingtofeelitontheoutsideandnotjustontheinside.
"Itfeltlikewhenyoukissme,butonlymoreintense."
Heeagerlypressedbothhishandsandhiseartomynowbarestomach.Itwaslikehethoughtthathecould
actuallyhearanything.
"It'sgone,"Itoldhimafterawhileoffeelingnothing."Maybeshemissedyouwhenyoupulledaway."
Ipulledmyshirtbackdownandbroughtthethickcoverup.
"She?"Edwardasked,smirking,andturnedoffthelight.
"Ibelieveit'sagirl,"Iadmitted.
"Iwouldn'tmindthat,"hesaid,pullingmeclosertohischestsoIcouldrestmyheadonit."So,whatdoesit
feelslikewhenIkissyou?"
SmugEdwardisbacktoplay.
Iknewthatstatementwouldcomebackandbitemeintheass,butitwasthebestwaytoexplainthefeelingof
ourbabymoving.
"Itfeelslikethere'sbigbutterfliesinmystomach,"Itoldhimhonestly.
"Butterflies,huh?IgetthistinglyfeelingallovermybodywhenIkissyou."
Ilookedupathimwithabigsmileonmyfaceandpressedmylipsfirmlytohis.Hewasprobablysurprisedat
first,buthequicklyrecoveredandresponded.
"Iloveyou,"hemumbledagainstmylipswhenwestartedpullingaway.
"Iloveyou,too."
Ifinishedthekisswithapeckandthensnuggledmyfaceclosertohischest.
Mondaystartedoutrough.IoversleptandEdwarddidn'twakemewhichonlymademybitchmodecomeout
toplayagain.IhadtonsofworktolookoverandIwassotiredthatIalmostfellasleepbehindmydesk.Ialso
hadtoworryabouttheconversationIwasabouttohavewithAro.IneededtotellhimthatIwaspregnant,
therewasnowaytohideitfromhimforever.
MaybeWednesdayisbetterthanaMonday.
MyphonewasringingjustasIwasabouttofinishthesecondmanuscriptfortheday.Ilookedatthedisplay
andsawthewordMom.
Homeworkoftheweek.
"Hi,Mom,"Isaid.
"Oh,mybabygirl!I'msosorry!"shecriedout.
"Whatfor?Thefactthatyoubasicallytoldmetogetadivorce,orthatyou'vebeenharassingmyphoneforthe
lastcoupleofweeks?"
Icouldn'tstop.Ihadn'tplannedonlashingoutonher,justtodemandwhatshewantedandthenhangup.It
didn'tlooklikemyplanworkedoutverywell.
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"I'msorryabouteverything.Iknownowthatitwaswrongformetowritethatletter."
Iwaskindofstunnedaboutwhatshejusthadsaid.Itwasn'twhatIhadexpectedtohearatall.Maybesome
argumentsaboutmylife,butnotanapology.
"Whatmadeyouchangeyourmind?"Ifinallyasked.
"IthinkIknewitallalong,butitwasCharliewhosealedthedeal."
WhyhadmyDadspokentoher?Shit,hadhetoldheraboutthepregnancy?
"Whatdidhesay?"Iaskedinashakyvoice.
"HemademelookdifferentlyonyouandEdward'smarriageandhadmerealizethatyouaren'tatalllikeyour
fatherandme.I'msorryittooksolongformetorealizethat,honey."
Shesoundedsincere,butIcouldneverknowifshemeantwhatshesaidornot.IhadjustforgivenEdwardand
nowmyMotherwantedmetoforgiveher.Ireallydidn'tknowifIcoulddothat.Iwantedherinmylife,she
wasmyMotherafterall,butIstillfeltunsureaboutthewholething.
Shehadn'tmentionedanythingaboutthepregnancysoshedidmostlikelynotknowanything,andfornow,I
plannedtokeepitthatway.Iwasgoingtotellhersomeday,butthatdaywasnotnow.
"Bella?"MomaskedwhenIhadn'tsaidanythingforawhile.
"Yeah,I'mstillhere.Ijustdon'tknowwhattosay."
"Youdon'thavetosayanything,baby.Justpromisethatyou'llanswernexttimeIcall.I'vebeenworriedsick
thatsomethingbadhadhappenedtoyou."
"Ipromise."
Icoulddothat,itwassimple.JustlikeDr.Molinahadsaid,Icouldhangupifshebecameaproblem.
"Thankyou.Iloveyou,Bella,"shetried.
"Iloveyou,too,Mom.Ineedtogo,okay?"
"Okay.I'llcallyounextweek."
Afterthat,Ihungupandlookedaroundmyoffice.Icouldn'tbelievethatMomhadactuallyapologized.Even
thoughIhadn'tforgivenher,theapologystillmeantalottome.Nowshejustneededtoprovethatshetruly
meantit.
EPOV
Havingapregnantwifewasfuckingexhausting.Havingapregnantangrywifewasevenmoreexhausting.I
hadlethersleepwhileItookmyshowertodayandforthat,hellbrokeloose.Shedidn'tshowerinthemornings
anymoresoIdidn'tunderstandtheproblem,butapparentlythatmeantthatshedidn'thavetimetomakethe
breakfastshewanted.
TherewasaknockonmydoorbeforeTanyaopenedit."Edward,I'mgoingtolunchnowifthat'sokay."
"Sure,noproblem."Isighedanddraggedmyhandthroughmyhair.
"Troubled?"sheasked.
"Yeah."Ichuckledtiredly."Pregnancyhormones."
"Thinkabouttheoutcome,Edward.Thinkabouttheoutcome,"shesangandwalkedoutfrommyoffice.
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ThatwaswhatIwastryingtodo,butsometimesBellajustmadeitsohard.Ilovedher,Ireallydid,butshe
neededtotakesomewhatcontroloverthemoodswings.Theywerestartingtogivemewhiplash.
WhenIgothomelaterthatday,IfoundBellaasleepinfrontoftheTVasusual.Whatwasn'tusualwasthatshe
waswatchingTitanicandthatcouldonlymeanonethingshewasupset.IknewitwasbecauseofmeandI
feltlikeanasshole.
Ibasicallyhadtwooptions.OptiononewastokeepmyprideandmaybecontinuetopackeverythingwhileI
waitedforBellatowakeup,sowecouldeat.Optiontwowastogetovertoheronthecouchandbegfor
forgivenesswhileswallowingmypride.
IknewIhadn'tdoneanythingwrong,butaccordingtoBella,Ihad.So,itwasactuallyatoughdecisionto
make,butitshouldn'thave.Ishouldswallowmypridewithoutevenaslighthesitation.
IthoughtbacktoBella'sactionswhenwehadourlastargumentandwentforoptionnumbertwo.
Ikissedherpoutinglipsandwaiteduntilsherespondedtodeepenit.Shemoanedintomymouthwhenshefelt
mytonguetraceherlipsandopenedherprettylittlemouthforme.Imovedmyhandtoherhairinordertopull
herclosertome.
IletourtonguesdancetogetherforaminuteorsobeforeIpulledaway.Iplacedonefinalpeckonherswollen
lipsandsaid,"I'msorry."
Shejustnoddedandpulledmylipsbacktohers.Iwouldhavewantedtostay,butIknewwedidn'thavetime
forwhatitwouldleadtorightnow.
"Ifwewanttomovemostofourstuffthisweekend,weneedtopackmorethanourDVD's,"Isaid.
"Iknow."ShegiggledandIwashappythatshewasinagoodmoodagain."Itjustfeelssosadtoleavethis
place.Imean,Iloveournewhome,especiallynowthatEsmehasdonemiraclestoit,butthisplaceholdsso
manymemories,youknow?"
"Iknow,butwecanmakenewmemories."
ShenoddedandgotupfromthecouchandturnedofftheTV.EventhoughIhadactedfine,Iwasgoingto
misstheplace,too.ItwasjustlikeBellahadsaid,itheldmanyofmygreatestmemories.Allofthemincluded
Bella.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:We'reabouthalfwaythere,mydearreaders!I'vealreadycomeupwithafew
ideasforanewstory:)
So,lastquotewasfrom'Twilight'actually:
"It'sokay,Jasper.Youwon'thurther."
Newoneinthischapter.It'sfromahilarious,romanticmovie!Findit=preview.
ThankstoKirs10Skimmerforbabynames
Goodiescanbefoundathttp//marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
BoyorGirl?
(Baby:20weeks,1dayold)
BPOV
"Alice,no,"Isaidfirmly,holdingLilytomychestasprotection.
"ButBella,yourweddingisinthreemonths,youhavetotryonthedresssoonerorlater.Preferablysooner,"
sheargued.
"Exactly,thesocalledweddingisthreemonthsaway,andI'llbetwiceasbigbythen,sotherereallyisn'tany
pointintryingitnow,"Ireasoned.
IhadstoppedbytoseeRose,AliceandLilybeforeIwenttopickupEdwardforourdoctor'sappointment.Lily
wasalreadythreeweeksoldandhadiceblueeyesandbrownhair.ShewasthemostadorablebabyIhadever
seen,butitwasn'tanybigsurprisesinceshehadEmmettandRoseasherparents.
AlicehadbeentryingtogetmetotryoutthedressshehadmadeformetowearwhenEdwardandIrenewed
ourvows.
"Fine,"Alicesaid,pouting,withherarmscrossedoverherchest."Butpromisemethatyou'llcomebythestore
soonsoIcouldatleastseethatthelengthisokay."
"Okay."ItwasprobablythebestcompromiseIwouldgetwithAlice.
Rightthen,Rosecamebackfromthekitchenwithabottleinherhand.ItwaslikeLilycouldfeelherpresence
andstartedfussinginmyarms.
"CometoMommy,"RosecooedasIhandedherLily.
Ilookeddownattheclockonmywristandsawthatitwasalreadypasttwelve.
"Ishouldgetgoing,"Itoldthem.
"Promisetocallassoonasyouknow,"AlicesaidandRosenoddedherheadlikeshewassayingthesame.
"Iwill,"IsaidandbentdowntogiveLilyakissonherhead."Iloveyou."
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IleftRose,AliceandLilytogoandpickupEdward.Wehadactuallyplayedrock,paper,scissorstodecide
whichcarIwasgoingtotake.Ilostandoverthat,andEdwardwasalmostecstaticsincethatmeanthatIwould
drivetheVolvo.Hetriedtosaythathewantedmetodriveitbecauseitfeltsaferthanmycar,butIknewitwas
becausehedidn'twanttobeseeninmycar.
AfterIhadpickedupaverygiddyEdward,Idroveustoourdoctor'sappointment.
Todaywastheday,abigdayduringapregnancyifyouchosetohaveitthatway.Thedayyoucouldfindout
ifitwasaboyoragirlthatwasgrowinginsideofyou.
"IsabellaCullen,"thenursethatIrecognizedasJackiecalledout.
ShehadbeenmynurseeverytimewecameforacheckupandIwasgratefulfornothavingdifferentones.
Sheledusintoaexamroomandtooktheusualtestsurinesample,bloodpressureandcheckedmyweight.
Thensheleftusalonetowaitforthedoctortoarrive.
"Areyounervous?"Edwardaskedfromhisseatnexttome.
"Yeah."Ismiled."ButI'mexcited.Areyounervous?"
Henodded."ButI'msofuckingexcitedthatitdoesn'tmatter."Igavehimapointedlookforhislanguage.
"Sorry."
Atleasthehadbasicallystoppedsmoking.HewasdowntooneeveryotherdayandIhadnodoubtthathe
wouldhavestoppedcompletelybythetimethebabywasborn.
Rightthen,Dr.Housemansteppedinsideafterasoftknockonthedoor.Ineverreallyunderstoodwhyshe
knocked.Itwasn'tlikewehadsexorsomething,anditwasbasicallyherofficeanyway.
"Howareyoufeelingtoday,Bella?"Dr.Housemanaskedandsatdown.
"LikeIjustranamarathon,"Ianswered.
IheardEdwardchucklequietly,probablybecausehethoughtitwasbecauseIhadn'tworkedoutinawhile,but
inmydefense,itwashardtodoYogawhenyougottiredafteronlyfiveminutes.HejustsaidthatIusedthe
babyasanexcuse,butthatwasn'ttrue.
Dr.Housemanlaughedsoftlyandsaid,"That'sbecauseyourbabymightpressonyourlungsabit.It'sonly
normal."
IturnedtoEdwardandshothimalookthatsaid,"Itoldyouso."
"So,arewereadytofindoutifit'saboyoragirltoday?"thedoctoraskedandallIcoulddowasnodexcitedly
andsmile."Okay,butfirstweneedtomeasureyourstomachandthenI'mgoingtotakeabloodsample."
"Okay,"Isaidweakly.Ihatedthebloodsamples.Ihatedbloodingeneral,plainandsimple.
ShebroughtouttheequipmentandIfeltmystomachturnintoknots.IangledmyfacetowardEdwardwho
sensedmyneedforhimandbentforward.
"It'sokay,I'mhere,"hetriedtoreassureme.
InoddedandplacedmyheadonhisshouldersoIcouldburymyfaceinhisneckmycomfortzone.The
positionwasawkward,butitmademefeelsafeatleast.
"Okay,Bella.You'rejustgoingtofeelapinchandthenI'mdone,"Dr.Housemansaid.
IwhimperedasthepainhitandIfeltpathetic,butIcouldn'thelpit.Ihadbeenlikethatmywholelife.I
squeezedEdward'shandandhekissedthetopofmyhead.Then,itwasfinallyover.
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"Okay,Bella,nowI'mgoingtomeasureyourstomach.So,ifyoucouldpleaserollupyourshirtandlayback,"
Dr.HousemansaidandIdidwhatsheasked.
Shefinishedmeasuringmystomachandfeltaroundalittle.Iwassogladthatsheonlywantedtofeelthe
outsideandnottheinside,though.
"Iseethatyou'vebeengainingweightandthatthebabyisgrowingasitshould.That'sgreat!Youstillhaveto
gain,butyou'rewellonyourway."Shesmiledatus."Haveyoubeentakingyourvitamins?"
"Everymorning,"Ianswered.
"Good."ShewrotesomethingdownandthenturnedherfocusbacktomeandEdward."So,areyouready?"
"Yes,"Iansweredexcitedly,almostgiddy.
Shechuckledandwenttoseteverythingup.IlookedoveratEdwardandsawthathestaredatmybarestomach
likeakidonChristmasmorning.
"Iloveyou,"Itoldhimsincerely.
Helookedupatmethenandbentforwardtogivemeachastekissonmymouth.
"Iloveyou,too.So,youstillthinkit'sagirl?"
InoddedmyheadbecauseIknewdeepintomybonesthatwewerehavingagirl.Ihadn'tanyproofotherthan
myhunch.
"Okay,Bella.Thismightfeelalittlecold,"Dr.Housemansaidandsquirtedoutacoldgelonmystomach.
IheldEdward'shandtightinmineandheprobablyheldmineeventighteraswebothstaredatthescreenwhile
Dr.Housemansearchedforagoodangle.
"Ican'tseeanythirdleg,"Edwardsated,causingbothmeandthedoctortolaugh.
"That'sbecauseyou'rehavingagirl,"Dr.Housemansaid.
"We'rehavingagirl?"Edwardaskedthroughtears.
"Itsurelooksthatway."Thedoctorlaughed."Congratulations."
EdwardandIlookedateachother,nooneofusabletolookawayorspeak.Isawhappytearsrollingdownhis
cheeksandImovedmyhandtowipethemaway,buthecaughtmyhandandbroughtittohismouthtoplacea
kissonit.
"Ababygirl,"hestatedinawhisperandallIcoulddowasnod.
Iwantedagirl,soforme,itwasadreamcometrue.Ididn'tknowwhatEdwardhadwantedthemost,buthe
seemedsohappytohaveagirlwhoIwassurewasgoingtobeaDaddy'sgirl.Therewasnodoubtaboutthat.
"Doyouwantapicture?"Dr.Housemanasked,bringingbothEdwardandIbacktothepresent.
"Two,please,"Edwardsaid.
Whilethedoctortypedinafewthingsonthecomputer,Edwardbentdownandgavemeachastekiss.
"Thankyou,"hewhisperedwithsomuchemotionthatIalmostcried.
"No,thankyou,"Itoldhim."Iloveyousomuch."
"Iloveyou,too."Hegavemeonemorekissandthensatbackupwithmyhandstilltightlyinhis.
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"Yourbabyisisgrowinglikesheshouldandisnowtwentyweeksandonedayold,"Dr.Housemansaidas
shehandedonepicturetomeandonepicturetoEdward.
"Thankyou,"Isaidandlookedatthepicture.
Youcouldclearlyseethatitwasababynowwithahead,nose,lipsandhands.Youcouldalsoseethespine,or
whatIthoughtwasthespineatleast.
Weleftthedoctor'sofficeafterschedulinganewappointmentinfourweeks.EdwardtookmetoMcDonald's
tocelebratethenewsandwhileheordered,Idecidedtocallthegirls.
"It'sagirl!"Isquealedbeforetheyevengotthechancetosaysomething.
"OhmyGod,ohmyGod!It'sagirl!"AlicescreamedandIcouldactuallypictureherjumpingupanddown.
"Bella,ifIdidn'thaveLilyinmyarms,IwouldjumpofjoyjustlikeAlice."Roselaughed."I'mhappyforyou."
"SoamI.NowLilyandyourbabycanbebestfriends,"AlicesaidandIhadnodoubtinmymindthatitwas
probablytrue."Oh,andIgettwolittleprincessestodress."
IsawEdwardwalkingtowardmewithatrayinhishands,soIendedthecallwithapromisetocallagainsoon
todiscusstomorrow.
Tomorrowwasourofficialmovingday.Aftertomorrow,wewouldnolongerbeabletocalltheapartment
home.Iwasbothsadandexcitedaboutit.
EPOV
"Whatshouldwenameher?"Iasked,takingabiteofmyfood.
Itfeltsostrange,butsogoodatthesametime,toactuallyaddressthebabyasher.Itwouldfeelevenbetterif
weactuallyhadaname.Sure,Icouldstillcallhermylittleangel,becauseshewas,butIwantedarealname.
"Idon'tknow.Doyouhaveanysuggestions?"Bellaasked,poppingafryintohermouth.
"Notreally.Imean,there'stonsofnamestochoosefrom."
"Umm,maybeweshouldnameherKate,"shesaidthoughtfully.
Istaredatherlikeshehadthreeheads.Shedidnotjustsuggestthatname,shecouldn'thave.Butshelooked
seriousandstartedsaying'KateCullen'asiftoseeifthenamefitted.
"Bella,I'mnotnamingmydaughteraftermyexgirlfriend,"ItoldherascalmlyasIcould.
"Oh,shit!"shesaidloudly.Thenshestartedmumblingtoherself,butIheardher."HowcouldInotremember
thatname?HeprobablythinksI'manidiot."
"Baby,you'renotanidiot.It'sokay,justpickanothername,"Isaid.
"Um."Sheblushed,probablyembarrassedbythenamesuggestionandtherambling."Whatabout...
Madeleine?"
"It'spretty,"Isaidtruthfully,butitdidn'treallyclick.ThenIthoughtaboutaname,andinmyheaditwas
fuckingperfect."HowaboutEmily?"
Shesnappedherheaduptolookatme.Tearsstartedforminginhereyesasshestaredintomine.
Fuck,Ishouldn'thavesaidthat!
Ididn'twanthertocry.Ihonestlythoughtthatshewouldlovetonameourbabyafterherfriend.Itwas
somethingIwouldwantiftheroleshadbeenreversed.
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Istoodupandsatdownbesideher,takingherintomyarms.
"Pleasebaby,don'tcry,"Ipleaded.
"I'mnotcrying,"shesniffled.
"Yes,youare."IletoutalowchucklebecauseIknewIwasright,Ifeltthetearsthroughmytshirt.
"Thenit'shappycrying,"shesaidandlookedupatme."Itwouldmeantheworldtomeifwenamedour
daughterEmily,butIdon'twantyoutofeelforcedintodoingit."
"Bella,Iwouldn'tbeforced.IjusttoldyouthatIwouldwanttonameherEmily,didn'tI?"
"Yeah,youdid."Shenoddedherheadbeforeburringitinmychest."Thankyou."
Ididn'tsayanythingtothat,becausetherewasn'treallyanythingtosaythankmeforsoIjustletitbeand
rubbedherbackinsoothingcircles.
Afteraminuteorso,Iwalkedbacktomyseatandwentbacktoeatingmyfood.Belladidthesame,butwitha
farawaylookonherface.
"Whatmiddlenameshouldwegiveher?"sheasked.
"Youlooklikeyouhaveoneinmind,"Isaid,chuckling.
"EmilyGraceCullen."
AssoonasIheardit,Iknewitwastherightone.Itwasstrangehowyoucouldjustnowlikethat,butit
soundedsorightsomehow.
"EmilyGraceCullen,"Istated,smiling.
Webothhadbigsmilesonourfacesaswefinishedourlunch.Ihadtakentherestofthedayoff,sowhenwe
werefinished,Idroveustothenearestbabystore.Weweren'tgoingtobuysomethingbig,wejustwanted
somethingthatsaidthatwewerenolongerjusthavingababywewerehavingababygirl.
"So,howdidyourtherapysessiongotoday?"Iasked,takingherhandinmineandledherthroughtheaislesof
thestore.
"Itwasokay.Theusual,"sheansweredandshruggedhershoulders.
"Whatdidyoutalkabout?"
"Mymoodswings."ShechuckledandIraisedmybrowasawaytoaskhertoelaboratethat."Ijusthateit
whenItakeoutmyfrustrations,orwhatever,onyou.ItmakesmefeelbadtoknowthatIhurtyou.So,I
wantedawaytocontrolthemandgetridof'BellatheBitch.'"
"Didshehaveacure?"
"Notreally.ShejusttoldmetotakeadeepbreathandcounttotenbeforeIsaidanythingtoyou...ifIwas
annoyedormadatyou."
"Areyougoingtotry?"Iaskedcarefully,butstillwithalotofhope.
"Yeah.TheonlyproblemisthatItendtovoicemyfrustrationsbeforeIevenrealizethatI'mactinglikeabitch."
"Well,allIcanaskforisthatyoutry."Iwouldbemorethanhappyifitworked,buttryingwasalotbetterthan
nothing."HaveyoutalkedaboutEmilyyet?ImeanyourfriendEmily,notourbabyEmily..."Itrailedoff.
"Iknewwhoyoumeant."Shesmirked."Andno,wehaven't.Well,exceptthatsheknowsshewasmyfriend
andthatshepassedaway."
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"Nooffense,butwasn'tshethebiggestpartofyourreasontoseeatherapistinthefirstplace?"Iasked
carefully,notwantingtoupsether.
"Ihaveatheoryaboutthat,"sheansweredthoughtfully."IknowthatDr.MolinaknowsthatI'veseensomeone
inthepastandthatitdidn'tworkout,sheprobablyalsoknowsthereasontowhyIneededtoseesomeonethen.
ButIthinkshewantsmetowarmuptoherfirstbeforewetalkaboutit,sothatIfeelcomfortablewhenwe
actuallydo."
"Youmeanthatshewantsyoutotalkwhenyoufeelcomfortableenough?"Iasked.
"Prettymuch,yeah."
"It'sagoodtheory,baby."
IdidthinkitwasagoodtheorybecausethatwasbasicallywhatIhaddone.Ihadlethertakehertimeandthen
shehadopeneduptome.SoIhadnodoubtthatwhenBellatrustedDr.Molinaenough,shewouldtalk.
BellastoppedinfrontofthepacifiersandletoutagigglesoIhadtolookwhatshehadfoundsoamusing.
Thereitwas,themostperfectpacifiersmadebymankind.Itwasathreepackwiththreepinkpacifiers.Thefirst
onereadDaddy'sGirl,thesecondwasjustpinkwithasetofangelwingsonit,thethirdonemadethe
collectioncompleteDaddy'sAngel.
IlookeddownatBellawithmybestpuppyeyesandpout,silentlyaskinghertochosethemasourfirstthingfor
ourbaby.
"Youdon'thavetopoutlikethat,Edward,"shesaid,laughing,andgrabbedthepacifiers.
Wepaidforthepacifiersandthenleftthestore.Weweregoingtocomebackoncewewerereadytobuymore
stuff,butthatwasn'ttoday.
Theapartmentlookedsoemptywhenwegotback.Allthestuffwaspracticallygoneandwerenowinournew
house.Everythingexceptthebedandafewotherthingsthatweneededuntilthelastday,whichwastoday.
BellaandItookElsaoutforawalkaroundthepark,holdinghandsalltheway,andwhenwegotbacktothe
apartment,westartedpackingthestuffthatremained.Bellahadasadlookonherfacewhilepackingour
clothes,andIknewwhyshewasnottheonlyonewhowouldmisstheplace.
Wedecidedtogotobedearlythatnightsincewehadalottodointhemorning.WhileBellawasinthe
bathroomgettingready,IloggedontoFacebooktowritetheonethingthatIhadwantedtodoallday.
EdwardCullenishavingababygirl
IsmiledandmovedontocheckBella'saccount.Shehadn'texactlybeenactive,butIalwayscheckedtoseeif
shehadwrittensomething,justincase.Shehadn'twrittenanythingtonight,though.
IsighedandloggedoffbeforeIwenttojoinBellaingettingready.Iinterruptedherjustasshewasaboutto
pee,andshewasnothappyaboutthat.
"Edward!Someprivacy,please!"shescreamed.
"Don'tmindme,"Isaidcasuallyandproceededtoputtoothpasteonmytoothbrush.
"Can'tagirlevenbeallowedtopeealone?"shehuffed,butshemadenomovetostandupfromthetoilet.
"God,thisisembarrassing."
"Why?You'veseenmepeeacountlessoftimes,"Isaid."It'snothingtobeashamedof.Besides,ifyouwanted
privacy,youshouldlockthedoor."
"Well,you'reaguy.That'sdifferent."
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"Wasn'tthatalittlesexist?"Iraisedmyeyebrowswhilesmirkingather,butshejustrolledhereyesatme.
IturnedaroundtogiveheratleastalittleprivacyandthenIheardasshecontinuedtopeesosheobviously
didn'tmindthatmuch.
WhenIwasfinished,Bellawasalreadyinbed,waitingforme.Iwentovertoherandclimbedinbesideher.
WhenIwascloseenough,Ipulleduphertshirt,exposingherslightlyswollenstomach.Shehadsuchan
adorablebabybump.Itwasn'tlittleanymore,butitwasstillabump.
"Hi,mylittleEmily."Ismiled,gladthatIcouldcallherbyhernameforthefirsttime."Daddylovesyou."I
placedafewkissesonBella'stummyandthenIpulledhertshirtbackdown.Ididn'tneedtosaymoretonight,
thosethreewordsexpressedexactlyhowIwasfeeling.
"Comehere,"Bellasaid,cuppingmyface.
ImovedupsoIcouldfaceherandkissedheronthelips,butIdidn'twanttoleaveitatthatsoIkissedher
again,andagain.Neitheroneofusseemedtowanttoenditsowekissedforalmostanhour.Notwithtongue,
justwithourlipsandsomenibbling.ItjustfeltsogoodtohaveherpressedupagainstmewhileIkissedher
swollenlips.Eventually,IwastootiredandIfeltmylipsstartingtoslowdownlittlebylittle.
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No,itwasn'tpossible.Hecouldn'tjustfallasleep.Notwhenweweremakingoutlikehormonalteenagers.
Sure,therehadn'tbeenanytongue,butstill.Howcouldhehavefallenasleep?
"Edward,"Ihissedintothedarkroom,buthejustgruntedandturnedoveronhisback.
AmIsuchabadkisserthathefellasleep?AmIthatboring?
Sincehewasobviouslyasleep,Ihuffedandgotupfromthebed.Ineededtopeeanyway.
Ihadaproblem,though.Edwardhadleftmekindofhornyafterthemakeoutsessionandthatmadeithardto
pee.IhadnoideahowlongIsatthereandtriedtoactuallytellmybladdertogivemesomehelp,butI
somehowmadeitaftermylegshadgonenumb.
StupidEdwardforfallingasleeponme.
Ihadactuallyexpectedustosaygoodbyetoouroldbedinaproperway.Likemakinglove,orhavingsex.Just
somethingbesidessleep,butEdwardapparentlyhadotherplans.
Iletoutabigsighandwentbacktobed.EdwardwasstillinthesamepositionashewaswhenIlefthimsoI
curledupnexttohimandtriedtofallasleep.
Thatwaseasiersaidthandone,though.IwasstillhornyandIreallyneededsomekindofrelease.ThemoreI
thoughtaboutit,themoreIneededitandthatonlymadememorerestlessandunabletosleep.
IalmoststartedtocrywhenIrealizedthatmystomachwasinthewaywhenIwantedtolaydownonmy
tummy.Ithadbeenlikethatforweekssoitwasn'tlikeitwasanynews.
Frustrated,IturnedovertolaydownonmybackandwasdeterminedtogivemyselfanorgasmsoIcouldgoto
sleep.
Imovedbothmyhandsdowntomypanties,slippingtheminsideandletmyfingersexploremycooch.Instead
offeelingpleasureasitdidwithEdward'shands,itjustfeltawkwardand...strange.Iflickedmyclitlike
Edwardusedtodo,butnothing.Notevenatingle.
Igaveupwithafrustratedsighandremovedmyhandsfrommypanties.Iwasstillhornyandtherewasn't
muchIcoulddoandstaringattheceilingwasbecomingboringafterafewminutes.
Edwardwasstillsnoringlightlybesideme.Athoughtcameintomymindthen,Ijusthopeditwouldwork.
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"Edward?"Iaskedinmymostseductivevoice,buthestilldidn'treact.
IbitmylipinhesitationbeforeIgrabbedhishandandinspectedhisfingerswithmyown,stillhesitating
whetherornotIshoulddoit.
ThenIjustdidit,Ishovedhishanddownmypantiesandguideditwithmyownsincehewasstillasleep.Sure,
itfeltbetterthanmyfingers,butitwasreallyawkwardandjustfeltwrongsoIgavethatideaupaswell.
Why,ohwhy,didhehavetosleeplikethedeadtonight?Ofallnights,whytonight?
Ialmostscreamedoutindesperationwhenmyplansdidn'tworkandremovedEdward'shandfrommypanties
toplaceitonmystomachinstead.
Scootingupalittlesothatmyfacewasathis,Iwhisperedinhisear,"Edward,pleasehelpmeout."
Couldthismansleepanymoredeeply?
That'sit,I'vehadenough!
Igentlypulledthecoverdown,exposinghisupperbody,andtuggedonhisboxerstogetaccesstohisglorious
dick.WhileIdidso,Inevertookmyeyesoffhisface,buttherewasnothingbutapeacefulexpressiononit.
Hewasalreadysemihardsoallittookwasafewstrokeswithmyfingers,andhewasrockhard.Ismirkedat
thefacthoweasyhebecamehardaroundme.
Isatupandremovedmypantiesbeforestraddlinghim,bendingdownasfarasIcouldandnuzzledmyface
againsthisstubblecheek.Atthat,hemovedhishandtoitasittickled.IplacedakissonhisneckandthenI
grabbedaholdofhisdicktoguideittomyentrance.
Assoonashisheadwasinsideme,Isqueezedaroundhimbecauseofthesensation.Afterthat,Icouldn'ttakeit
anymoreandslammeddownontohim.Imoanedandthrewmyheadback.ItwaspossiblethatImighthave
scratchedhischestaswell.
"Jesusfuck!"Edwardscreamed,grabbingmyhips.
"Wow,you'refinallyawake."Ismirkedandstartedmovingupanddown.
"Bella...shit...yougottogivemesometime,baby,"hegrunted.
Iwasfinallyonmywaytogetareleaseandnowhewantedmetowait.
Great.
HemusthaveseenhowfrustratedIwasandsaid,"Ifyoudon't,I'llexplodeinthreeseconds."
Ifeltmymouthmakean'O'andpushedbackdowntogivehimsometime.Hetookafewdeepbreathsand
strokedmyhipswithhisbighands.
ThenIfelthimguidingmeupagainsoIhelpedhimbyliftingmyselfupandthenslidingbackdown.Imoaned
loudlyandsoonIwaspanting.Edwardnoticedandchangedpositionbyflippingusovercarefully,never
breakingusapart.
"Wrapyourarmsaroundme,baby,"hegruntedwhilethrustinginandoutofme.
Iwrappedthemaroundhiswaistandfelthimslipdeeperinsideme.Hethrustsohardthateachtime,Iscooted
upandclosertotheheadboardsoIhadtograbaholdofhisbicepstostayinplace.
"Uh...Edward,I'mclose...please,"Imoanedintohisear.
"Holdon,"heansweredandstartedmovingfaster.
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Idugmyfeetintohisperfectasscheeksandheldontightly,butIwassoclosetotheedgethatIreallyneeded
Edwardtocomesoon.So,IclenchedaroundhimastightasIcould,hopingitwouldhelp.
"Fuck,Bella,"hemoaned.
Afterfourmorethrusts,hefinallytwitchedandreleasedinsidemewhichmademeletgoaswell.Hestilled
insidemeoncehehademptiedhimself,buthecouldn'tcollapseontopofmebecauseofthebaby,sohe
collapsedbesidemeinstead.ThatonlymadehimslipoutofmeandIinstantlymissedhim,evenifhewasright
nexttome.
"Well,thatwasonehellofawakeupcall,"hepanted,laughing.
"Youwouldn'twakeup,"Iwhined."Ihadtodosomethingtogetareleaseandmyhandsdidn'twork."
"Youmeanthatyoutriedtopleasureyourselfrightnexttome?"heasked.
"Yeah.Youdidn'twakeupsosuityourself."Igiggled.
Hejustgruntedandtuggedhisboxersupagainbeforehepulledmeintohisarmsagain.
"Wait,Ineedmypanties,"Isaid,tryingtogetup.
"Fuckyourpanties,baby.Ilikeyoubetterwithoutthem,"hemumbledsleepily.
Igiggledandcuddledclosertohimwithoutanypanties,hopingIwouldn'tbeallstickyinthemorning.
Afterfinishingpackingthenextday,IwenttosearchforEdwardsincehewasn'twithme.
"Edward,areyoufinishedpacking?"Iasked,walkingintothebedroomwherehewas.
"No,Elsawon'tletmetakeherbed,"heanswered,gesturingtoElsawhowaslyingonit.
"Whatdoyoumeanshewon'tletyou?She'sadog,justliftherupandthentakethebed."
"That'seasiersaidthandone,"hestatedfrustrated."ShestartsgrowlingandshowingherteethassoonasI
comeclose."
IgiggledatthatbecauseitseemedlikeEdwardwasafraidofadogwhowasnotevenafoothigh.Imean,the
sightwasreallyfunny.HestoodafewfeetawaywhileElsawaslyingcomfortableonherbed,lookingvery
innocent.
IshookmyheadwhileIcontinuedtolaughsoftlyandwalkedovertoElsa.Withoutanyeffortorstruggle,I
pickedherupandtookthebedinthehandthatwasn'tholdingElsaandhandeditovertoEdward.
"Wow.Barelymadeitoutwithmylife.Imean,didyouseethoseteeth?"Iasked,smirkingandhejustglaredat
me.
"Smartass,"hesaidunderhisbreathandwalkedoutoftheroom.
Thehelperscameandtookthelastofourstuff,leavingtheapartmentcompletelyempty.Iwalkedaroundwith
Elsatosaygoodbyetoeachroomwithahintofsadness.SomanythingshadhappenedherethisiswhereI
fellinlovewithEdward,whereIlostmyvirginity,whereourbabywasmade,butmostofallthisiswhereI
learnedhowtoliveagain.
"Areyouready,baby?"Edwardasked,comingupbehindmeandplacedhisarmsaroundme.
"Yeah,let'sgoandmakenewmemories."Ismiled.
Webothtookonelonglookbeforeweclosedthedoorbehindusforthelasttime.
IwasgiddyasEdwarddroveustoournewhouse.Mycarwasalreadytheresincewewantedtogotogether
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today.Esmehaddrivendownthedaybeforetofinishthelasttoucheswiththehouseandshewasprobablystill
there,waitingforustoarrive.
Theonlyroomshehadn'tdoneanythingwithyetwasthenursery.Mostlybecausewedidn'tknowwhatsexit
was,butitwassomethingIwantedtobeapartofaswell.Thatwaswhywehadwaited.
Edwardpulledupinthedriveway.Itstillamazedmehowbeautifulthehousewasandhowperfectitwasfor
us.Nothinghadchangedontheoutsideitwasstillbrown,withstonesatthebaseandwhitecorners.The
garagestillhelduptothreecarswhichwasperfectsinceitwasn'tlonguntilanothercarwouldjoinus.
"Ready?"Edwardasked,smiling,aswehadsteppedoutofthecar.
"Absolutely,"Isaidandgrabbedhishand,lettinghimleadmeupthestairstothefrontdoor.
Weopenedthedoor,buttherewasnoEsmetheretogreetusandthatmademeconfused.
"Where'syourmom?"IaskedEdwardaswestartedwalkingtowardthekitchen.
"She'swithEmmett,sayingthatshewantedtogiveustimetoexplorethehousebyourselves,"heanswered.
Theonlydifferenceinthekitchenwasthediningtableandmatchingchairsthatwasplacedbythebigwindow
facingthebackyard.Andafewlampshangingdownoverthecounter.Everythinglookedsowarmand
beautifulthatIwantedtostaythereandcookallday.
IknewIhadotherthingstodo,though,butsomeotherdayIwould.Edwardhadalreadymovedontothe
livingroomwhichwasrightnexttothekitchen.Esmehadchosenaredcouch,buteventhoughitwasan
unusualcolorforacouch,itfittedsowellthere.TherewasalsoaTVrightoverthefireplaceonthestonewall.
Therewerethreearmchairsintheroomontotherightandtwototheleftofthecouch.
"Yousurewillhaveaplacetoputallyourbooks,"Edwardsaidandchuckled,gesturingtowardthefour
bookcasesalongthewall.
"Edward,that'snotforbooks.That'swhereyouputnicethingsthatyouwanttoshowoff,"Isaid.
"Whatever.Comeone,Iwanttoseethebasement!"
Ilaughedathiseagerness,butIfollowedhimdownstairs.ThebigassTVwasstillthere,alongwithtwobig
armchairsandafluffycouch.Onthewallwastwoframes,holdingpicturesofmeandEdward.Itlookedcozy.
"Thisismyfavoriteroom,"Edwardstatedandsatdowninoneofthearmchairs.
"Really?Mineisthebedroom,"Isaidandstartedwalkingaway,eagertoseeitagain.
"Well,that'shighonthelist.Okay,that'smyfavoriteroom,too,"Edwardsaid,followingme.
Heprobablythoughtitwasbecauseofthatthemostsexalwayshappenedthere,butitreallywasmyfavorite
room,notjustbecauseoftheactionitgottosee.
Iwalkedintoourroundbedroomandsawthenewdarkwoodenbedwithbluebedding,aTVoverthefireplace
andtwoarmchairswithflowerpatternonthem.Otherthanthat,thebluecolorwasstillthereanditwasstill
prettysmall.Ilookedupandnoticedachandelierhangingintheroof.
"Baby,ourstuffishere!Edwardyelledfromthestairs.
"Okay!"Iyelledbackandwentdownstairstojoinhim.
MostofouroldstuffwenttothetwoguestroomssinceEsmehadusednewstufftodecoratewith.Edward
helpedthemenandtoldthemwhereeverythingwent.ElsacamerunningfromsomewhereafterawhileandI
decidedtowalkheroutsidetothebackyardwhileEdwardfinishedwiththehelpingmen.
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Isatdowninoneofthechairsandwatchedassheranaround,barkingandjustlookingsodamnhappy.Itmade
mesmileandrealizehowmuchhappiershewouldbeherethanattheapartment.
"Allweneedtodonowistounpacktheboxes,"Edwardsaidashejoinedme.
Igroaned,realizinghowmuchworkthatwouldmean.Ihadthoughtitwasapainintheasstopacktheboxes,
nowIneededtounpackthemaswell.
Justthen,thedoorbellrangandIwonderedwhoitcouldbebeforeIrememberedthatourfriendswerecoming
over.
IttookmeawhiletocatchElsatobringherin.Ididn'twantheroutalonebecauseIdidn'tknowwhatshe
mightdothen.So,whenIfinallygotinside,Rose,Emmett,Lily,AliceandJasperwerealreadydonewiththe
tourofthehouse.Esmewassittingbythekitchencounter,waitingforeveryonetogatheraroundsowecould
eatthepizzatheyhadordered.
"Thankyouforallyourhelp.Iloveit,"Itoldherandgaveherahug.
"Itwasmypleasure.Thesamegoeswiththenurseryifyouwantmyhelpinthereaswell,"shesaid,smiling.
"AslongasIgettobeapartinit,Iwouldloveyourhelp."
"Oh,I'msohappy!"Shesquealed."So,areyougoingtotellmesoon?"
"Tellyouwhat?"
"IfI'mgoingtohaveagrandsonoragranddaughter,ofcourse."Shebeamed.
"IsCarlislehere?"
"No,butdon'tworry,I'lldeliverthenews."
ShewaspracticallyjumpinginherseatandyoucouldalmostthinkshewasAlicemotherbecausetheywereso
muchalike.
Ismiled,holdingupafingertoletherknowthatIwouldbebackinasecondandwenttograbthepictureIhad
inmybag.ThenIwalkedbacktoherandshowedherthepictureofEmily.
"That'syourgranddaughterEmily,"Isaidproudly.
Edward,you'regivingmeagranddaughter!"ShescreamedandIturnedaroundtoseeEdwardleaninginthe
doorwaywithasmuglook.
"Isuream,"hesaidandwalkedovertous.
"Shealreadylookslikeyou,"Esmestatedandstrokedthepicturewithherfinger.
"Iknow,right?HerpoutinglipsarejustlikeEdward's,soisherlittlenose,"Isaid.
"Youcan'tseethatalready,"Edwardsaid,shakinghisheadindisbelief.
"SureIcan,I'myourmother,"Esmesaid.
"AndI'myourwife."Ismirked.
Edwardgrabbedthepicturetoinspectitclosely,buthewasstillshakinghishead.
"Ifshelookslikeoneofus,itsureisyou,baby,"hesaid,placingthepictureonthefridgewiththeheartmagnet
thatEsmehadputthere.
"Isthereanyfoodinthishouse,orwhat?"Emmettboomed,walkingintothekitchenwitheveryoneelseintow.
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LittleLilywasplacedinababyharnessonhischestandappearedtobesleeping.Itwasamazingthatshewere
abletosleepwhenEmmettwassoloud.Iwalkedovertheretosayhellotoher.
"Hithere,Lily,"Icooedandstrokedherheadlightly,notwantingtowakeherup."Thereisplentyofpizzafor
everyone."Itoldhim.
"Sweet,"hesaidandwalkedovertoEsmewhohadstartedservingthepizzaontoplates.
"Hi,Bella.Howareyou?"Roseasked,huggingme.
"Tired,butgood,"Iansweredwithasmile.
"You'renottheonlyone,"shesaid,laughing,andfollowedEmmettandLily.
"Doyouhaveapictureofthebaby?"Aliceaskedexcitedlybeforeevensayinghi.
"Onthefridge,"Isaid,pointingtowardit.
Weallsatdownatthetableandstartedeating.ThepictureofEmilywaspassedaroundthetableforeveryone
tosee.TheywereallsohappyforusandIalmostfeltlikeIwasgoingtoexplodewithpride.
"Haveyoudecidedonanameyet?"Roseasked.
"EmilyGraceCullen,"EdwardsaidandInoticedthathewasprobablyevenmoreproudthanmeifthatwas
possible.
"Oh,pretty,"Alicesaid.
Istillhadn'ttalkedaboutEmilysotheyhadnoideawhowewerenamingherafter,andthatalmostkilledme.I
knewthatIneededtotalktothem,andsoon.PreferablybeforeEmilywasbornsothattheycouldknowthe
meaningbehindthename.
"HaveyoutoldCharlie?"Esmeasked.
"No,I'mtellinghimtomorrowduringourSundaychat,"Ianswered.
DadandIhadstartedtotalkeverySundaytocheckin.MyMomactuallycalledeitheronSundaysoron
Mondaysansofar,shehadn'tmissedasingleone.Iactuallywantedtotellhersobadlyaboutthepregnancy,
butIstillfeltunsure.
"Comeon,we'llhelpyoupackuptheclothesbeforewego,"Alicesaid,gesturingbetweenherselfandRose.
Iwasalittleskepticalatfirst,butdecidedtoletitgo.IknewwhyAlicehadchosentohelpwiththatpartshe
wantedanexcusetotakemeoutshoppingandhonestly,IneedednewclothessoonbecauseIhadn'tmany
clothesleftthatfitted.
"Fine,"Ihuffedandfollowedthemupstairstoournewbedroomandcloset.
Aliceimmediatelystartedsearchingthroughtheclothesthatwaslyingonthebed.IsatdownnexttoRosein
thearmchairandwatchedasAliceshookherheaddisapprovingly.
"Bella,youdon'thaveasingematernityoutfit!"Sheexclaimed,frustrated.
"Iknow,"Isaidsimply.
"Why?Youcan'tgoaroundwearingEdward'sclothesallthetime."
"Whynot?They'recomfy."Ipouted.
BothAliceandRoseshotmealookthatsaidthattheydidn'tapproveofmychoiceofclothes.
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"We'retakingyououtshopping,"Alicestatedfirmly."Andwhenwe'reatit,you'restoppingbymystoretotry
yourdress."
"When?"Iaskeddefeated.
ShelookedovertoRosewhoanswered,"Tuesday."
LaterthatnightwheneveryonehadgonehomeandEdwardandIwerelyinginbed,athoughtpoppedupin
mymind.EdwardwasnuzzlinghisnosealongmystomachandIhadmyfingersinhishair.Everythingfeltso
perfect,butIcouldn'tstopthinkingaboutit.
"Edward,whoshouldweasktobegodparents?"
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WhenIwokeupSundaymorning,Edwardwasstillasleepwithhisarmstightlyaroundmeandhishandson
mytummy.Iwastoogiddytostayinbed,though.Iwantedtoexplorethehouse,Iwantedtocookabig
breakfastandinhalethefreshairfromthebackyard.
AsgentlyasIcould,IloosenedEdward'sgriponmeandslippedoutandtiptoedtothebathroomtorelieve
myself.WhenIwasfinished,Iputonapairofshortsthatstillfittedandwentbacktothebedroom.
Edwardwaslyingonhisside,clutchingmypillowwithapoutonhislips.Hishairwasallmessyandthe
stubbleonhischinonlyaddedtohissexylook.Itmademewanttogetbacktobedandjoinhim,butIwanted
toexplorethehousesobadly.
Then,Igotanideaandgrabbedmyphonetosnapapictureofhim.ElsanoticedmethenandIsawthatshewas
uptosomething,soItriedtotellhertostaywhereshewasbyusingmyfingertopointather.Thecameramade
asound,butEdwardjuststirredabitbeforegoingbacktosleep.
IsmiledandgrabbedeverythingIneeded,includingmylaptop,andwentdownstairs.Thehousewassomuch
biggerthanIwasusedto.Charlie'shousewasmaybehalfthesizeandMom'soldhousewasprobablyeven
smallerthanthat.Itwasmyperfectdreamhouse,though.
Imadeapotofcoffeeoutofhabit.EventhoughIdidn'tdrinkitatthemoment,EdwarddidandIknewhe
wouldwantitwhenheeventuallygotupandIlovedthesmell.
Elsahadfollowedmedownstairsandwaslookingatmewiththelooksheusuallygavemewhenshewanted
food.TheonlyproblemwasthatIhadnoideawhereherfoodwasandshehadeateneverythingEdwardhad
givenherlastnight.
IttookmetenminutestofindtofindthefreakingbowwithElsa'sstuff.Thefunnythingwas,though,thatit
wasrightinfrontofmynosethewholetime.
Afterpouringmyselfaglassoforangejuice,Isatdownbythecounterandstartedmylaptop.Onceitwason,I
quicklyloggedontoFacebook.
AfterdownloadingthepictureofasleepingEdwardtothelaptop,Isaveditasawallpaperandthenproceeded
toFacebook.IsawEdward'sstatusfromafewdaysagoandsmiled.Iclickedonthecommentboxandwrote
mymessage.
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Iloveyou
Itwassimple,buttherewasn'tmuchelsetosay.TherehadbeenninepeoplelikingitalreadyandIbarelyknew
halfofthem.
Forthefirsttimeinamonth,Iwrotesomethinginmyownstatusbox.
Wokeupnexttomybabygirl'shandsomedaddythismorning
ThenIattachedthepicture.Itwasn'tlikealltheworldcouldseeit,justthepeopleIknew.OtherwiseIwouldn't
havepostedit,buthewassosexythatIcouldn'thelpmyselfandIwantedtobrag.
JustasIwasabouttostartbreakfast,myDadcalled.Ismiledandpickedup.
"Hi,Dad!"Igreetedhappily.
"Hi,Bells,"hesaidwithachuckle."Whathasgottenyousohappy?"
"IsSuethere?"Iasked.
IheardhimclearhisthroatandIcouldpracticallyseehowheshifteduncomfortably.ThenIrealizedwhathe
musthavebeenthinking.
"Dad."Ilaughed."Imeant,isSuetheresoIcantalktoheraswell?"
Iwasn'tnaveenoughtoactuallythinkthatmyDadandSuedidn'tspendthenightstogether.Theyhadreally
noreasonnottosincetheybothlivedalonewithoutkids.
"Whydoyouwanttotalktoherandnotme?"heasked.
"Iwanttotalktothebothofyou.Sogogetherandthenputonthespeaker."
IheardashehecalledoutforSueandthemsomegrumbling.Heprobablyhadahardtimefiguringouthowto
putmeonspeakerphone.
"Justpressthedamn'Speaker'button,Charlie."IheardSuesighandIcouldn'tcontainmygiggle.
"Okay,Bella.Now,tellmewhatyouwantedtosay."
"Well,onAugust22nd,you'regoingtobegrandparentstoEmilyGraceCullen,"Isaid,beamingwithpride,
butIwasstillnervousaboutSue'sreactiontothename.
"OhmyGod,"Suewhimpered,butIcouldn'ttellifitwasbecauseshewasupsetornot.
"Bella,areyoutellingusthatyou'rehavingagirl?"DadaskedandIcouldalmosthearthetears.
"Yes,Iam.Sue,areyouokay?Imean,Ididn'tmeantoupsetyouwiththename."
"I'mokay,Bella.Really.Itjusttookmebysurprise.Itwasagoodsurprise,though."
"Good."Ismiled.
Wetalkedforalittlewhilebeforetheyhadtohangup.IwasrelievedtohaveSue'sblessingtonamemybaby
afterherdaughter.Atfirst,Ihadbeenafraidthatitwouldbetoomuchforher,butshebrusheditoff,sayingthat
itwasmorethanokay.
Whenwehadhungup,Iwenttoexplorethekitchen.ItwassobigthatIwonderedifweevenhadstufftofillit
out.
Weonlyhadthebasicstufftoeatsofarsowewouldhavetogotothestorelatertoday.Icouldhavejustmade
sometoast,butIwascravingeggsandifIwascravingsomething,thatwaswhatIhadtoeat.Theonlyproblem
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IhadwasthatIhadnoideawhereEdwardhadputthekitchensupplies.
Aftertenminutesofsearching,Ihadlocatedtheplates,butthepanswherenowheretobeseen.
Howhardcanitbetofindthosefuckingpans?
Shit,IhadhungaroundEdwardtoomuch.Ineverswore,noteveninmythoughts,butIwassofrustrated
whenIcouldn'tfindanything.FirstElsa'sstuffandnowthepans,andthatmeantthatIcouldn'tdoeggswhich
inturnmeantnobreakfast.
ItriedtotakedeepbreathsandcounttotenbeforeIgotmyselfworkedup.EvenifEdwardwasn'taroundsoI
couldsnapathim,itstillwasn'tgoodforthebabyifIgottoofrustrated.
IpouredEdwardsomecoffeeinhismug,thatIactuallyhadlocatedamongtheplates,andmademyway
upstairs.
Iclimbeduptositinthemiddleofthebed,rightnexttoEdward.HishairlookedsoinvitingthatIcouldn'thelp
buttomovemyfingersthroughit.TheactioncausedEdwardtomoansoIknewhewasstartingtowakeup.
"It'stooearly,"hegrumbledsleepily.
"Icomebearinggifts,"Itoldhimwithasmile.
"Gifts?"heaskedexcitedly,openinghiseyestolookatme.
"Well,notgifts,butIdohaveonegift."Ismirkedandbroughtthecoffeemugsothathecouldsmellit.
"Mm,fuck,Iloveyou,baby,"hemumbledandleanedonhiselbowsothathecoulddrinkit.
"Thankyou,"Isaidsarcasticallywhilerollingmyeyesjokinglyathim.
Heplacedthecoffeemugonhisnightstandandthelookinhiseyestoldmethathewasuptosomething.
"Don'tyouloveme,too?"HepoutedandbeforeIknewit,hehadmepinneddownagainstthemattress.
"Hmm,"Ipursedmylips,pretendingtothinkaboutitwhichonlymadehimimpatient.
HecrushedhislipshardtominebeforeIgotthechancetoanswer.Imoanedandopenedmymouthtohim.
EventhoughIlovedmydaughterwitheverythinginme,IwantedtofeelEdwardsobadly,Iwantedhimto
crushmewithhisbody,Iwantedtofeeleveryinchofhimagainstme,butthatwasn'tpossiblesincethatmeant
thathewouldcrushthebaby.
RightbeforeIwasabouttocryoutinfrustration,mystomachgrumbled,remindingmewhyIwentuptothe
bedroominthefirstplace.
"It'stimetofeedthebaby,"Edwardmumbledagainstmylipswithachuckle.
"Itwastimehalfanhourago,butIcouldn'tfindthedamnpans,"Isaidandwiggledfreefromhim."AndI
wanteggs."
"Thepansareintheboxthat'smarkedKitchen,"Edwardsaid.
"Noshit,Sherlock!Tellmewherethisboxisthen?"Iasked,smirking.
"Inthekitchen?"
Ijustshookmyhead,rolledmyeyesandheadedbackdownstairstowaitforhim.Wefoundtheboxbythe
livingroom'sstuff,andIdidn'tunderstandhowaboxmarkedwith'Kitchen'couldendupinthelivingroom.
OnMonday,itwastimeforworkonceagain.Iwantedmoretimeinthehouse,withEdward,butIknewIhad
togotoworksoonerorlateranyway.
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Whenthedaywasfinallyover,Itooktheelevatordowntotheparkinglot.WhenIwalkedthroughtheelevator
doors,IalmostranintoAro.Hesmiledandsaid'Goodbye'beforeheadingtowardwhereverhewasgoing.I
hadtoldhimaboutthepregnancyafewweeksago.
InervouslyknockedonAro'sdoorandwhenIheardthefaint'Comein,'Idriedmysweatypalmsonmyslacks
andopenedthedoor.
Arowassittingbehindhisdesk,lookingthroughsomepaperssoIcarefullymademywayovertositdownin
frontofhim.
"Bella,whatcanIdoforyou?"heaskedinhisusualcheeryvoice.
"Um...well,IhavesomethingIneedtotellyou,"Iadmittednervously.
"Okay,so,tellme,"hesaid,foldinghishandsinfrontofhimandturnedhisfullattentiontome.
Isquirmedalittleinmyseat,stillnervousaboutwhetherornotIwouldlosemyjoborifhewouldjustget
angry.IwasjusthiredforChrist'ssake!
"You'renotquitting,areyou?"AroaskedworriedlywhenIhadn'tanswered.
"Um,no.Notreally.Yousee,EdwardandIare...havingababy,"Istammered.
"Ababy?"Hesmiled.
"Yeah.ItsdueAugust22ndso...um,Iwouldneedtotakematernityleaveforawhileafterthat."
"Wow,Ican'tbelieveEdwardhaven'ttoldme.Ibethe'sreallyexcitedaboutthis!"Hedidn'tseemmadsoIlet
outarelivedsigh.
"Um,yes,heis.Thereisn'treallymanywhoknowsyetso..."Ilied.
ThewholecityofForksprobablyknewbynow,butIdidn'twanttohurthisfeelings.
ArohadbeenexcitedandtoldmetotakeasmuchtimeasIneededwhenthebabywasborn,sayingthatIcould
workwithsomelightstuffathomeuntilIwasreadytogobacktowork.IguessIwasluckytohavesuchan
opportunitysinceIhadreadsomewherethatmothersusuallytooksixweeksleave,andIhadpracticallyas
manyweeksasIneeded.
TuesdaywasadayIbothdreadedandlookedforwardtoatthesametime.ThatwasthedayRoseandAlice
weretakingmeoutshopping.Ialwayshatedshopping,butIlookedforwardtobuyingclothesthatwould
actuallyfit.Myoldclotheswaseithertoosmallorverysnugonme.TherewereafewitemsIcouldstillwear,
butIpreferredEdward'sclothes.
"Okay,Isaywestartwithunderwear!"Alicesaidasweenteredthemall.
Ididn'tsayanythingsinceIdidn'twantto,butIknewIneedednewonesbecauseIonlyhadtwobrasthatfitted
andsoonthepantieswouldnolongerfiteither.
So,IwordlesslyfollowedRoseandAliceintotheVictoriaSecretshop.Theyheadedstraightforthematernity
wardandstartedsearchingthroughtheitems.Ibitmylipinhesitation,notreallycomfortableshoppingfor
underwearwithanyonebutmyself.IlookeddownatLilywhowassleepinginherstrollerandsomehow,
somethinginmeclickedandIknewIneededtomakeaneffort.So,IjoinedRoseandAliceinthesearchfor
newunderwear.
"Okay,trytheseon,"Alicesaidandhandedmewhatlookedlikefivepantysets.
"Andthese,"Rosesaid,givingmeafewmore."Anddon'tworryifyou'renotcomfortableinshowingus,then
don't."
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"Okay,"Isaid,feelingalittlebitrelievedaboutthat.
ItookwhattheyhadgivenmeandtheadditionaltwosetsthatIhadfoundonmyown,andwenttothe
changingroom.
ThefirstsetItriedonwasablacklaceoneandtomysurprise,itwasbothcomfyandmademefeelquitesexy.
Myboobslookedalotmorefullerandtheroundnessofmystomachdidn'tmakemefeelfat,itmademefeel
proud.
Next,Itriedonayellowset.Alotliketheblackone,butithadpurplesmallribbonsasdetails.Ifpossible,it
mademefeelmoresexythantheblackone,soIdecidedtobuythemboth.
Therestwasjustplainugly,eventhoughtheywereallcutewhileIheldthem,butwhenItriedthemon,they
werethetotalopposite.Itwasstrangehowitcouldbethatway.
"Bella?Areyoualmostdone?"Aliceasked.
"Yeah,almost.Why?"
"Ihavetwobikinishereforyoutotryon.Ifyoudon'tmind,"shesaid.
"Alice,youknowIdon'tswim."
"Iknow,butyoucouldstillgotothebeach.Itwouldbeawfulwarmifyoudidn'thaveanybikini,"shetried.
"Fine,butI'llonlybuyone,"IsaiddefeatedbecauseIknewshewasright.
KnowingEdward,hewouldprobablywanttospendafewdaysatthebeachthissummer.Orifwewenttohis
parentshewouldwanttohangbythepool.Andsometimestheweatherwasprettyhot.
Shesneakedinagreenandaredonethroughthecurtain.Idecidedtotrytheredonefirst,andIfellinlove.
AlicehadonceagainfoundtheperfectsetandIdecidedtoneveragaindoubtherwhenitcametoshopping.
"Rose?"Iasked."Willmyboobsgetanybigger?"
Thebikinifittedprettyperfectlyrightnowsoifmyboobswouldgetevenbigger,thebikiniwouldprobablynot
fitwhensummercamearound.
"Notmuch,no.MinegrewmostinthebeginningandIdidn'thavetobuyabiggersizeafterthat,"she
answeredwithoutanyquestion,probablyalreadyknowingwhyIasked.
Iendedupbuyingthreepantysets,twobras,onesportsbraandabikini.AliceandRoseboughtapantyset
eachaswellbeforewemovedontotheclothingstores.
"Oh,shoot!Weforgottobuyyouapajamas!"Alicesaidaswewalkedintoastore.
"That'sokay.Ialreadyhaveone."Ishruggedmyshoulders.
TherewasnowayIwouldbegivingEdward'stshirtsup.Noway.
"Really?Whatdoesitlooklike?"sheaskedexcitedlywhileRoselaughedather.
"It'sablacktshirtandontheback,itsays'Cullen.'"
"You'rewearingEdward'sclothestobedaswell?"Shesaiditlikeitwastheendoftheworld.
"Yeah,andthereisnothingyoucandoaboutit,"Isaidfirmlyandwalkedovertothematernityward.
Sheleftitatthat,butnotwithoutgivingmehersignaturepout.Ihadlearnedtoturnherdownevenwiththat
pout.Edward'spoutwasworseandhecouldmakemedoalmostanythingbyjustgivingmehispuppyeyes
andpout.
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"HaveyoudecidedwhattodoforEdward'sbirthdayyet?"Roseaskedwhenwesatdownforlunch.
"No,butIdon'tthinkhewantslikeabigbirthdayparty.Maybesomethingwithjusthisfriends."
"Well,maybewecouldhavesomethingquietatyourhouseorsomething."Sheshrugged."IknowEmmettis
dyingtospendtimeinthatbasementofyours,andI'mguessinghe'sgoingtobuyaWiigameorsomething."
"Yeah,maybewecould,"Iansweredthoughtfully,takingafryfrommyplate.
"Whataboutthecar?"
IblushedatthatquestionbecauseIhadaplanonhowtogiveittohim.Ijustwasn'tsureifIwasgoingtofulfill
itornot.
"What'sgotherallblushing?"Aliceasked,comingbackfromwarmingLily'sbottle.Shewassoeagertofeed
heritwasfunnytowatch."Isthisokay?"sheasked,handingthebottletoRosesoshecouldcheckit.
"Yeah,it'sokay."ShepickedLilyupfromherstrollerandgavehertoAlice."IwasjustaskingBellahowshe
wasplanningongivingEdwardthecar."
"Whydoyoublush?Isitsomethingkinky?"Aliceasked,wigglingherperfecteyebrows.
"Hey!Don'ttalklikethatinfrontofmygoddaughter,please!"
"So,what'stheplanthen?"
"Um,IwasthinkingthatmaybeIcouldwritehimafewnoteswithdirectionsthatwouldeventuallyleadtome.
ThenhavehimthinkI'mthebirthdaypresentbeforegivinghimthekeys."
"Oh,I'mlovingit.Maybeyoushouldhandhimthekeyswithfurtherinstructions.Youknow,hidingthecarso
itwouldbelikeatreasurehunt,"Rosesaidexcitedly.
WecontinuedtotalkaboutideasandeventuallydecidedonRoseideaandthatwewouldhaveaquietbirthday
partyatourhouse.EsmeandCarlislehadinvitedustoForksthatweekendandIwassureofthatEdward
wouldwanttodrivehisnewcarupthereandthatmademegiddy.
AlicefinallymanagedtogetmetoherstoresothatIcouldtryonthedress.Iendedupcryinginthechanging
room.ThatgirlwassimplyageniuswhenitcametoclothesandIfeltsofreakingbeautifulinthatdressthatit
broughtmetotears.
TheydecidedtoendourshoppingtripthenandforthatIwasgrateful,IwantedtogobacktoEdwardwhowas
probablybackfromworkbythen.AtleastImanagedtogetafewnewclothesandunderwear.
IfoundEdwardinthekitchen,makingusdinner.Hehadn'theardmecomeinsoIwalkeduptohimand
wrappedmyarmsaroundhiswaist,buryingmyfacebetweenhisshoulderblades.
"Mm,I'vemissedyou,"hemumbled,turningaround.
"I'vemissedyou,too,"Isaid,hugginghimtight.
"Hey,lookatme,"hedemandedsoftlyandIreluctantlydid.IknewwhathewouldseewhenIdidso."Have
youbeencrying?"
"Yeah,butitwasnothing,"Isaid,brushingitoff.
"Pleasetellme."
"Itwashappycrying.Itriedonmyweddingdress."
"Ican'twaituntilthedayIgettoseeyouinit,"hesaid,crushinghislipstomine.
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OnThursdaylaterthatweek,IwentovertoseeRose.Ihadbeendoingsomework,butIcouldn'tforthelifeof
meconcentrateonanything.IknewRosewouldbehome,soIhaddecidedtoheadovertoher.
RoseopenedthedoorwithLilyinherarms.Icouldn'tbelievehowfastshewasgrowing.Itfeltlikeonlyaday
agothatshealmostfittedinEmmett'spalmwell,almost.
"How'smylittleLily?"IcooedonceIhadremovedmyshoesandjacket.
"Whiny,"Rosemumbledtiredlyandwalkedtothekitchen.
IfollowedherandsatdownasIwatchedherprepareabottleforLily.Shehadstoppedbreastfeedingsinceit
hurttoomuch.IwasgoingtotrybecauseIfeltbreastfeedingmorenatural.NotthatIhadanythingagainst
formula,Ijustwantedthatspecialbondtheysaidyouwouldgetwithyourbabyduringbreastfeeding.
"Rose,areyouokay?"Iaskedcarefully,noticingthedarkcirclesunderhereyes.
"No.I'msotiredthatIdon'tthinkIcanholdonformuchlonger,andit'sworsesinceEmmettisatworkthis
weekandIhavetotakecareofLilyalone."
ShesoundedonthevergetotearsandawhimperescapedherasLilystartedcrying.Icouldn'ttakeitanymore.
"Rose,gogetsomesleepandI'lllookafterLilyforawhile."Itwasn'taquestion,butshedidn'tneedany
persuasion.
"Thankyou,"shesaid,carefullyhandingLilyovertome.
"We'llberightheredownstairsifyouneedus,andifIneedyourhelp,I'llwakeyou,okay?"
ShegaveLilyakissandthenshepracticallyranupstairstogetsomesleep.EventhoughIfeltsorryforher,I
lookedforwardtospendingtimewithLily.
ShewasfussinginmyarmssoshewasprobablyhungrywhichwouldexplainwhyRosehadpreparedabottle
forher.Igrabbeditfromthecounter,figuringitwasready.
Ireallyneedtolearnhowtodothosethings.
Itwasabitawkwardtofeedherwhilehavinginmyarmsbecauseofmybelly,evenifitwasn'tthatbig,and
havingherinmylapwasevenmoreawkward.So,IputherinherbeanbagthatIfoundonthecouchandsat
downbesideher.
Ididn'treallyknowwhattodosinceIhadneverfedherbefore,butIhadseenRosedoitafewtimes.So,Idid
whatIhadseenherdoandplacedthetipatLily'ssmalllipsandimmediately,shestoppedfussingandstarted
sucking.
IbreathedasighofreliefastheroomgotquietapartfromthesuckingnoiseLilymade.Isearchedtheroomfor
somethingtodo,butIcouldn'tfindanythingexcepttheTV.
IalmostlaughedasIflippedthroughthechannelsandfoundthat'Titanic'wason.IdecidedtowatchitsinceI
hadnothingbettertodoandIreallydidlovethatmovie.
WhenLilyhadfinishedherbottle,Itriedtoburpher.Itwasn'ttheeasiestthingintheworld,butIthinkI
manageditprettywellsinceshedidletoutaprettybigburp.
SheletoutayawnafterthatsoIfiguredshewouldbesleeping.Ihadnoideawheretoputher.ShouldIputher
backinthebeanbagorshouldIholdher?
IsearchedtheroomandfoundthebabyswingEdwardandIhadgiventhemandfounditperfect.So,Igotup
withLilyinmyarmsandwalkedovertoitandtuckedLilyin.Iturneditonanditstartedtogentlyswingback
andforth.
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IsatbackdownonthecouchwhereIhadagoodviewoverLily.Theclickingnoisefromtheswingcombined
withthemovie,eventuallyhypnotizedmeintosleep.
IwokebackupwhenLilystartedfussing.Itcouldn'thavebeenmorethananhourorsosinceIhadfallen
asleepsoshecouldn'thavebeenhungryagain.
Istoodup,mybodysorefromtheawkwardpositiononthecouch,andwalkedovertoLily.WhenIwasafew
feetaway,IthoughtIknewwhyshewascryingandthecloserIgot,mysuspicionsonlygotstrongershe
neededtochangeherdiaper.
Great,Ihadn'tthoughtaboutthat.
"Oh,comehere,littleLily.LetmeseeifIcanhelpyou,"Isaidandpickedherup.
Ihadneverinmylifechangedadiaper,letaloneapoopdiaper.IguessitwasafirstforeverythingandifI
couldn'tdoit,Rosewasstillhomesoitwasn'tlikeIwasalone.
IwalkedusupstairsandintoLily'snurserytochangeher.WhatIwasn'tpreparedforwasthestench.
"JesusChrist!"IexclaimedasIopenedupherdiaper."Whathavetheybeenfeedingyou?"
"Formula."Rosesmirkedfromthedoorway.
"Good,you'reup.Canyoupleaseshowmehowtodothis?"IgesturedtowardLilyandherdiaper.
"Sure,"sheansweredandwalkedovertous.
Isteppedasidetogivehersomeroom.ShewaslikeaproassheremovedthediaperandwipedLilyclean
beforeapplyingalotionandanewdiaper.ImadesuretoremembereverythingincaseIneededitforfuture
babysitting.
Istayedforawhilelonger,helpingRosepreparefordinner.IwasluckyIwasn'tasinglemom,becauseIhad
noideahowtheycouldgothroughallthisalone.ItmademerealizehowstrongmyMomhadtobewhenshe
raisedmeonherownforseveralyears.
"Bella,canIaskyouafavor?"RoseaskedshylyasIwasabouttostepthroughthedoor.
"Sure,whatisit?"
"Iknowit'salottoaskfor,butdoyouthinkyoucouldbabysitforandhourortwothisweekend,maybe
Sunday?It'sjustthatIwanttospendtimewithEmmettforawhile,justthetwoofiswithoutanydiapers,
formulaandvomit,"sherambled.
"Rose,"Itriedtogetherattention."Iwouldbehappytodoit.Besides,EdwardandIcouldneedthepractice."
Thenextday,IwasanervouswreckoutsideDr.Molina'soffice.IhadsomethingimportanttodotodayandI
wasn'tsureifIactuallyhadthecouragetodoit.
Ilookedaroundtheothervisitors.Somelookedboredandsomelookedanxious.Iwonderedhowlongtheyhad
beenseeingatherapistandifitworkedforthem.Ihadnoideaifithadhelpedme,butIdidfeellikeIcould
handlethingsbetterthanIhadbefore,somaybeIhaddonesomeprogress.
"Ifyoudon'tmind,Iwouldlikeyourhelptoday,"IsaidshylyasIsatdowninDr.Molina'soffice.Iknewit
wasastupidthingtoasksinceIwashereforherhelpevertime,butwehadneverworkedthiswaybefore.
"What'sonyourmind,Bella?"sheasked.
"It'saboutEmily."Dr.Molinalookedupatmefromhernotes."NotjustaboutmyfriendEmily,butalsoabout
mybabyEmily."
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"Yourbaby?"SheaskedsurprisedandIrememberedthatshedidn'tknowyet.
"Yeah,we'rehavingababygirl,andwe'renamingherEmily...aftermyfriendEmily."
"Whopassedaway,"shesaidanditwasmoreastatementthanaquestionsoIjustnoddedmyhead."Okay,so
tellme,whydoyouneedmyhelp?"
"NamingherEmilyissomethinghugetome,buttomyfriends...it'sjustaname."ItwashardertodothisthanI
actuallythoughtitwouldbe,butDr.Molinaletmetakemytimewithoutanyinterruptions."Ihaven'ttoldthem
andalltheyknowisthatIhaveafriendthathaspassedaway.Theydon'tknowhow,orwhen.Notevenher
name."
Ifeltlikethebiggestshiteverfornottellingthem.Theyshouldnow,theydeservedtoknow.
"They'reevenfriendswithhersister,Leah,withoutknowingtheconnectionbetweenLeahandme.Andit's
almostkillingme,butatthesametime,Ijustcan'ttellthem,"Ifinished,unabletosayanythingelseatthetime.
"Whycan'tyoutellthem,Bella?"Dr.Molinaaskedsoftly.
"Ijustdon'tthinkIcangothroughthatagain.ItwassohardtotellEdward,andmyfriends...well,they're
more...Idon'tknowhowtoputit,buttheyalwayswantmore."
"They'remoregreedyforinformationthanEdwardis?"
"Yes,Iguessyoucouldputitthatway."Inodded.
"Hm,"shesaid,writingthingsdown."EventhoughIwouldseriouslyrecommendyoutoactuallysitdownand
talktoyourfriends,Imighthaveanotheroptionyoucouldgofor."
"Whatisit?"
"Youcouldwritethemaletter.Thatway,youtellthemwhatyouwanttotellandnotwhattheyaskyouabout.
Sure,theyprobablywillaskyouthingsafterthey'vereadit,butyoucouldexplainintheletterhowyoufeel
abouttheirquestionsandthatyouwillanswerthemonceyou'reready."
Inoddedmyheadabsentmindedly.Itwouldbeeasierthantoactuallytalkaboutit,butitwouldstillbehardand
nottomention,itwouldbethecoward'swayout.
"Dowhatyoufeelcomfortablewith,Bella.Istillrecommendtalking.Whoknows,theymightactuallygiveyou
supportandsensethatyoudon'twanttheirquestions.Peoplecansurpriseyouwhenyouleastexpectit."
Don'tIknowit.
EPOV
"You'renotsurroundedbyyourusualcloudofsmoke,"Emmettstatedonourwaytothepastabarinthe
buildingnexttoouroffice.Bellahaddeclinedlunchtodaysinceshehadhertherapysessionlaterthanusual,so
EmmettandIhadmadesomeplansinstead.
"Iknow,Iquit.Apparentlythey'rebadforyou."Ishruggedmyshoulders.
"Youthink?"heaskedsarcastically,raisinghiseyebrowsatme.
"Shutit,"Imumbledandwalkedinside.
Westoodinlineandthenwhenitwasourturn,weorderedourfoodandthenwenttositdownatatable.
"So,howislifeasafathertreatingyou?"Iasked,sittingdownoppositehim.
"Ilovethatgirltodeath,man,butIwouldkillforagoodnightssleep,"Emmettgroaned.
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Ijustchuckledanddugintomyfood.Ihopedmylittlegirlwouldsleepthroughthenight,butIknewthatwas
justdreamingbecauseIhadneverheardofababywhodidthatduringthefirstweeks.Butmaybemybabywas
amiracle?
"Well,atleastmeandBellawillbebabysittingonSundaysoyoucanhavesomepeaceforafewhours."
"Thankfuckforthat.IwantmyRosie,butIwantmybabygirlatthesametime,youknow?"hesaidwithhis
mouthfulloffood.
"Idon'tknow,butifyouaskmeinafewmonths,Imight,"Ianswered.
"So,howislifewithapregnantwifetreatingyou,Eddie?"Hesmirked,mimickingmywordsfrombefore.
"Oh,it'sheavenly,"Isaidsarcastically."IguessIwilljusthavetothinkoftheoutcome.Imean,Iwillhavea
daughterandforthat,Icanputupwiththebitchiness."
"Don'tIknowit,"hemumbledinresponse."Um,Ihavesomethingtoaskyou."
"What?"
ItwasunusualtoseeEmmettuncomfortableandthatwashowheacted,soIwasreallycurioustowhathehad
tosay.
"Well,IneedRose,soIwaswondering,um,ifyoucouldbabysitforawholenightinafewweeks?"
"Needasin'Ineedtohavesex,'orasin'Ineedadatewithmywife?'"Iasked,eventhoughIknewitwasthe
first,butIwantedtomakehimsquirmalittle.
"Afterweeksofnotgettingany,I'msureyouwouldfeelthesameway,"hemuttered.
"Ihavegoneweekswithout'gettingany.'AndareyousureRosewantsit?Imean,fuck,shejustpushedababy
out."
"ThedoctorsaiditwouldbeokayaftersixtoeightweekssoI'mgoingtotry.So,canyoubabysitawholenight
forme?"heaskedagain.
"Sure,Icantakecareofyourdaughterwhileyou'regettingsome."Ismirkedandhethrewhisnapkinatme,
clearlyirritated,butIthoughtitasalittlepaybackforallhisnicknamesonme.
BothBellaandIweregiddyandexcitedasEmmettcametodropLilyoffatourplaceonSunday.Itwasthe
firsttimeeverthatwewouldbabysittogether.Itwasthefirsttimeevertobabysitatallforme.IknewBellahad
lookedafterLilyafewhoursbefore,butRosehadbeeninthehousethen.Wewouldbealonethistime.
WetookhertothelivingroomandIpickedherupfromhercarseat.Shewasn'tsleepingsoIsatdownwithher
onthefloor.
Itriedtoteachherhowtowalk,butthatprovedtobeimpossible.BellajustgiggledandsaidthatIwouldhave
towaitafewmonthsbeforesheevenstartedtocrawl.
RosecalledBella,makingLilycrybecauseoftheringtone,soIpickedherupandtriedtocomforther.Justas
shehadcalmeddownabit,Emmettcalled,makinghercryagain.
Thatcontinuedforafewtimes.Afterawhile,Iturnedthesignaloffsoitwouldjustvibrate.ThenLilystarted
fussingwithoutanythingstartingit,soIlookedatBellatoseeifsheknewwhatwaswrong.
"Maybeyoushouldchangeher?"
"Changeher?"Iasked,notreallyunderstandingwhatshemeant.
"Herdiaper.Maybeshejustpooped."
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Ilookedaroundtheroom,tryingtofindagoodplacetodothat.Bellanoticedandgotuptosearchthroughthe
bagEmmetthaddroppedoff.Shegrabbedadiaperandafewotherthings,ablanketamongstthem,andwentto
sitdownbesidemeagain.
SheplacedtheblanketonthefloorandIputLilycarefullydownonit.
Changingababy'sdiaperwashardandsmelledprettybad,butIfeltproudthatImanagedtodoitwithonly
Bella'sinstructionandnotactualhelp.
LilywasstillfussingwhenIwasdonesoItriedtocomfortherinmyarms,butitwasn'tworking.Bellahad
gonetothrowtheuseddiaperawayandshehadn'tcomebackyetsoIhadnoonetoaskwhatcouldbewrong.
"Doyouwanttofeedher?"Bellaasked,handingmethebottlewithsomethingwhiteinit.
"Um,I...don'tknowhow,"Istammerednervously,afraidthatIwoulddosomethingwrong.
"Justholdherlikeyoudonow,andthengentlyeasethebottleintohermouth.You'llknowwhenshe'sfinished
becauseeitherthebottleisempty,orshestopssucking,"sheexplained,sittingdownbesideme.
InoddedandlookeddownatLilywhowaslookingbackatmewithhericyblueeyes.Herwholefacejust
screamedRosewhileherhairwasallEmmett's.
IshookmyheadandgentlyglidedthetipofthebottlealongLily'slip.Shegreedilyopenedhermouthand
startedsucking.Itwasfascinatingtowatch.
"Willyoubebreastfeeding?"IaskedBella,takingmyeyesoffLilyforamomenttolookatmybeautifulwife.
"Iwantto,yes,"sheansweredwhilenoddingherheadandbroughtherhandtostrokeLily'shair.
"Willyoubelettingmewatch?"
ThequestionslippedthroughmymouthbeforeIgotthechancetothinkitover.Itwasanhonestquestionsince
Ireallywantedtoknow,butshemightbeoffended.
"What?"Shelaughed.
"AmIallowedtowatchyouasyoubreastfeedEmily?"Iaskedagain.
"Edward,it'sanotherfivemonthsuntilshe'sborn,"shereasoned,butshestillavoidedmyquestion.
"Well,Iwanttoknow."
"Iguess.Imean,you'vealreadyseenmyboobssoIdon'tseeanyreasonnotallowingyou."Sheshruggedher
shoulders."Areyougoingtotellmewhyyouaskedthat?"
"It'sjustsofascinatingwatchingLilyeat,"Isaid,lookingdownatthebeautyinmyarms."Soitwillprobably
beevenmorefascinatingwatchingmydaughtereat."
"Okay,"wasallsheanswered.
WebothlookeddownatLily,watchinghereat.Ihadneverexpectedhertofinishupthewholebottle,though.
Forsomeonesosmall,shesureknewhowtoeat.
"Fuck,she'sjustlikeherfather,"Imumbled.
"Edward!"Bellascolded."Youhavenotjustone,buttwobabiesthatcanhearyou.Sodon'tmakemewash
thatprettymouthofyourswithsoapbeforeputtingyouinatimeout."
Wow,couldshebeanymoresexy?
Iclearedmythroat,holdingLilyprotectivelyagainstme."Sorry."
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"I'llletitslidethistime,butdon'tcountonitthenexttime,"shesaidsternly.
Igulpedandnodded,lettingherknowthatIunderstoodeverywordshesaid.Shecouldbefeistyifshereally
wantedto,therewasnodrenchcatlookoverhernow,thiswasallaveryannoyedBella.
"Youneedtoburpher,"shesaidwithalittlemorecalm,takingtheemptybottlefrommyhand."Sitherdown
onyoulapandsupportherheadwithonehandwhileyoupatherbackwiththeother."
IcarefullysatLilyonmylaplikeBellahadinstructedmetodoandgentlypattedLily'sback.
"Alittleharder,"Bellamumbled."Nothingwillcomeoutifyoujustcaressherback,youneedtopat."
Iwasscaredthatmybighandswouldcausemoreharmthanwell,butIdidwhatshetoldmeandnotlongafter
that,Lilyletoutamassiveburpthatleftmestunned.Notonlyaburp,butalsomyhandgotdrenchedinbaby
puke.
"F...antastic,"Imuttered,almostslippingwiththe'Fword'andearningmyselfatimeout,whateverthatmeant,
butIdoubtedthatIwouldactuallyenjoyit.
Bellagiggledandgotuptograbatowel.Shedriedmyhandandthrewthetowelonthecoffeetablebefore
takingLilyfrommyarmssoIcouldgetcleanedup.
IheardBella'sphoneringforthehundredthtimethatnightandsinceitwasrightbesideme,Ilookeddownat
thedisplaytoseewhoitwas.
Rose
Ichuckled,figuringitwouldn'ttakelongbeforeEmmettcalledmyphone.
"Doyouwantmetotakeit?"IaskedBellasinceshewasoccupiedwithLily.
"Sure,"sheanswered.
"Hey,Rose,"Isaidintothephoneandwalkedouttothekitchentogetcleanedup.
"Edward?Um,hi.IwasjustcheckingintoseehowLilyisdoing."
"Iknow,andshe'sstilldoinggreat.Ijustfedher,"Itoldherproudly."Bella'swithhernow."
"Oh,okay.Well,I'mgladshe'sokay"
Shewasinterruptedbymyphone.ThesignalindicatedthatitwasEmmett,justasIhadexpected.Ismirked,
suddenlycomingupwithaplan.
Igrabbedmyphoneandpressedthe'Talkbutton'andplacedthephonebytheearthatwasn'toccupiedwith
Bella'sphone.
"Hello,Emmett,"Isaidinaverysmugvoice.
"Emmett?WhywouldEmmettbewithyourightnow?"Roseasked,confused.
"Oh,he'snot.I'mjusttalkingtohimonthephone,"Iexplained.
"Whatthehellisgoingon?"Emmettasked.
"Oh,I'mjusttalkingtoyourwife."Ilaughed.
Ithinktheyfigureditoutthenastheybothmumbleda'Goodbye'beforehangingup.Ilaughedandwentto
washmyhandsbeforejoiningBellainthelivingroomagain.
"Doyouthinkwe'llbelikethatonceEmily'sborn?"Iasked,floppingdownonthecouchbesideherandLily.
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"Idon'tknow.Maybe."Shegiggled.
IhadafeelingthatIwouldbejustlikethat.Justthethoughtofbeingseparatedwithmydaughtermadefeelings
stirwithinme,andshewasn'tevenbornyet.
EmmettandRosecametopickLilyuphalfanhourlater.Theybothlookedembarrassedatbeingcaught,butI
justsnickered,pretendingthatithadn'thappened.ItwashardtosaygoodbyetoLily,butIhopedwewouldbe
abletobabysitmoretimesinthefuture.Ireallylovedthatgirl.
Tuesdayafternoon,IheardatimidknockonmydoorandwhenItoldthepersontocomein,Bellasteppedin
andfuckmebackwards.
Thereshewas,lookingmoreconfidentthaneverinahighwaistpencilskirtthatshowedoffherstomachinthe
mostbeautifulway,awhiteblouse,blackpantyhoseandapairofblackflats.ThatwasnotthethingsthatI
noticedthemost,though.No,itwasthefuckingglassesshewore.
Iclearedmythroatandadjustedmyself."Hi,baby.Whatareyoudoinghere?"
Shesmirkedandwalkedovertome,spinningmychairsothatIwasfacingher.Herhandswereplacedon
eithersideofmeandherfacewasjustandinchfrommine.
"Alittlebirdytoldmethatyouhadafantasy,involvingthisoffice.So,I'mheretoseducemyverysexy
husband,"shewhisperedseductivelyinmyear."Anditseemstobeworking."Shesmirkedandlookeddown
atmycrotch.
Fuckingslacks.
Sheleftme,stunnedintosilence,inmychairandwalkedtoshuttheblinds.Goodthingshehadthoughtabout
thembecauseIsureashellhadn't,andIdidn'twantotherstoseemehavingsexwithmywife.
Sheturnedbacktomeandsmiledshyly.Ihadnoideawhyshestartedgettingallshy,butthat,mixedwiththis
newsideofher,wasamajorturnon.
Whoisthiswomanandwhathasshedonetomywife?
"Aren'tyougoingtosaysomething?"Bellasmirked,makingherwayovertome.Ijustgulped,unableto
actuallyformanywords.
Shegiggledandwasnowstandinginfrontofme.Iwantedtotouchhersobadly,butIcouldn'tmakemy
musclesmovemyarms.
"Youknow,"shestartedandbegantounbuttonherblouse."Ican'tfuckmyselffrombehindwhileI'mbent
overyourdesk.Thatjustwon'twork,soIneedyourhelp."
Icouldseeinhereyesthatshewasenjoyingit.Therewasn'tmanytimesthatIwasleftspeechless,butthiswas
oneofthosetimes.Andherstrippingdidn'tmakethingsbetter.
"Um..."wasallIcouldcomeupwith.
Thatcausedhertogiggle.Sheneverremovedherblousecompletely,butsheuntuckeditfromherskirtand
revealedablacklacebrathatalmostmademecuminmypants.
Somehow,Isnappedoutofitandmovedmyhandstoherthighs,inchingthemupherskirt.Theskirtfollowed
myhands.WhenIreachedthehemofherpantyhose,Ihookedmyfingersinthemandstartedtuggingthem
down.
Ilookedintohereyeswhiledoingsoandtheywerehoodedwithlust.
"Fuck,you'resosexyrightnow,baby,"Itoldher,finallyabletoformthewords.
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Alongwiththepantyhosecamethepanties,thatwasmatchingherfuckingsexybra.Ididn'tbothertoremove
thepantyhoseallthewaybecausewehadn'tthatmuchtimeleftuntilTanyacamebackfromherlunchandshe
wouldbeabletohearalmosteverysoundcomingfrommyoffice.
Ituggedthecupsofherbradown,revealingherveryerectnipples.Igavethembothakiss,knowingthatthey
werestillalittlesore.
"Bendover,baby."Ismirked.
IhadwantedtosaythatlineformonthsandnowIwasfinallyabletodoit,sotherewasnowayformeto
containmysmugness.
ShepaddedovertomydeskandIwasafraidthatshewouldfallsoIgrabbedherhipstosteadyher.Theskirt
hadfallenbackdownsoonceshewasbentovermydeskwithonlyherchestrestingontheactualdesk,I
inchedtheskirtbackupagain,gatheringitbyherhipsrightbelowherstomach.
HerasswasonfulldisplayinfrontofmeandIpulledthelevelonmychairsoitwouldgoalittlelowermy
facelineduprightalongherbeautifulass.Ipalmeditinbothmyhandsandstartedtostorkit,amazedhowsoft
itwas.IheardamoanescapingBella'slipsthatwentstraighttomydick.
Icouldn'thelpmyselfbuttobringmyfaceforwardsoIcouldplaceakissoneachcheek.Iwantedsobadlyto
tasteher,butIknewshewasuncomfortableinthisposition.Shealwaysusedtosaythatshedidn'twanttohave
sexlikethissinceshe'didn'twanttobefuckedlikeadog.'ThatwaswhyIwasdeterminedtomakethis
situationthebestIcould.
"You'rereadyforme,aren'tyou,baby?"Iasked,gentlybitingdownonherleftcheek.
"Yes,"shemoanedandhissedasIranmyfingersalongherpussy,noticinghowwetshewas.
IslidonefingerinsideherasIunbuckledmybeltwithmyotherhand.Istaredthrustingthefingerinandout,
addinganotherfingertomakeherreadyforme.
OnceIwasfreefrommyslacksandboxers,Istoodupandlinedmycockupwithherentrance.
"Ready?"Iasked,butbeforeshehadthechancetoanswer,Ithrustintoherinoneswiftmove.
Fuck,she'stight!
"OhGod!"Bellacriedoutinpleasure.
"Baby,Imaybegood,butI'mnotGod,"Isaidbreathlesslyandstartedmovinginandout.
"Mm,"shemoaned."You'remyGreekGod."
GreekGod?
IgrabbedaholdofherhipstosteadybothmyselfandBella,sinceshekeptinchingforwardwitheachthrust.
IstartedmovingfasterandfasterasIfeltthetighteninginmystomach.Iwasn'tgoingtolastlong,nutIneeded
togiveBellaherreleasebeforeIhadmine.
"Bella,pleasecumforme,"Ibegged.
"Almost...there,"shegrunted.
Imovedonehandfromherhiptoherclitandstartedrubbingitfuriously,tryingtosendherovertheedge.
"Holyshit,Edward!"shescreamedoutasIfeltherinnerwallsclampdownonme.
Thatwasallittookformetoletgoandreleaseinsideofher.IthrustafewmoretimesuntilIwascertainthatI
hademptiedmyselfcompletelybeforepullingoutofher.
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IthankedGodforhavingaboxofKleenexonmydeskandgrabbedafewofthem.IgentlycleanedBellaup.
Shehissedasthenapkinmadecontactwithherpussy.Iknewithadtobesensitive,butIdoubtedthatshe
wantedtogetallstickysoIcontinued.ThenIdidthesametomebeforetuckingmyselfbackintomyboxers
andslacks.
ImovedontopullingBella'spantiesandpantyhosebackupandtheninchedherskirtbackdown.Westill
hadn'tsaidawordtoeachother.
Ipulledherdownontomylapandlookedherintheeyes.IknewIhadnothingtoworryaboutwhenIsawthat
shehadverymuchenjoyedthesex.
Ichuckledandkissedeachofherexposednipplesbeforetuckingthembackinherbraandthenstarted
buttoningherblouse.
"Iloveyousofuckingmuch,"ItoldherandgrabbedherbythenecksoIcouldkissher.
Iletmytonguedragalongherlips,askingforpermissiontoenter.Shegreedilyacceptedandoncemytongue
foundhers,Iletoutadeepmoan.
"Iloveyou,too,"shemumbledoncewehadpulledback.
ShestayedwithmeuntilIfinishedfortheday.Shesatinthechairoppositemeandkeptglancingoveratme
andthenherwholefacewouldbreakupinabigsmile.Iknewthatlookshewasproudoverwhatshehadjust
done,assheshouldbe.
ItwasWednesdaywhenIgotacallatwork.AcallthatIhadbeenwaitingforpatientlyforfuckingforever.I
rushedhometogeteverythingsetupandpacedaroundthehouse,waitingforBellatogethomefromher
meetingwiththegirls.Itfeltlikeshetookforevertogethome,sowhenIheardherkeysinthedoor,Irushed
overthere.
"Comeon,Ihaveasurpriseforyou,"Isaidexcitedlyjustasshewasinsidethedoor.
"Asurprise?"
"Yeah,sohurryupsoIcanshowyou,"Isaidimpatientlyasshetookhertimetoremoveherjacketandshoes.
Igrabbedherhandassoonasshewasdoneandpracticallydraggedhertothestairsthatleadtothebasement.
Shejustshookherheadwhilelaughingatme,butIknewshewouldlovethesurprise.ProbablymorethanI
did.
"Closeyoureyes,baby,"Itoldher.
"Edward,IcanbarelywalkonaflatsurfacewithoutfallingwhenI'mnotpregnant,"shewhined,butshe
soundedexcited.
"Fine,butdon'tpeekaroundthecorneroncewe'vewalkeddownstairs,okay?"
Shegiggledandnoddedherhead.Whenwereachedtheendofthestairs,Iwalkedbehindherandgentlyput
myhandsoverhereyeswhileshegrabbedmyarmssothatIcouldleadher.
IgentlynudgedherforwardandwhenIfoundagoodspot,Iremovedmyhandsandleaneddowntowhisperin
herear.
"Openyoureyes,Bella."
Iheardhergaspandwhimper."OhmyGod!"
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EndNotes:
A/N:Whatdoyouthinkitis?
Thegodparentswillberevealedinthenextchapter!So,youcanstilltellmewhoI
shouldpick!
Don'tforgetFacebook!(Linkonprofile!)
Asforthenextupdate.Iknowalotofyouwillbedisappointedwiththis,butitwilltake
anotherweekuntilthenextchapterwillbeposted.So,thatmeansI'mskippingthe
Wednesdayupdatethisweek.
Why?BecauseI'vebeenwritingeverywakenhourforthelastcoupleofweeks,ifnot
months,tokeepupwiththescheduleandI'vecometoapointwhereIneedabreather.
ButIwillbebackonSunday!Countonit!Andmaybe,justmaybe,I'llhaveasurprise
foryou.
Pleasetellmewhatyouthoughtofthischapter!Everywordyouwritemeans
somethingtome.Everyword.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:So,finallytimeforanupdate!:)
Quoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'10thingsIhateaboutyou'onceagain:
"You'renotsurroundedbyyourusualcloudofsmoke.
"Iknow,Iquit.Apparentlythey'rebadforyou.
"Youthink?"
Thisisanewchapterwithanewquote.Ifyouwantapreview,makesuretofindand
thentellme!
ThankyoutoKris10Skimmerforherawesomeideas,andNia77forgivingmeinfo
aboutbreastfeeding!
Goodiescanbefoundoverathttp://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
Surprise
PreviouslyonMarriedtotheEnemy
IgentlynudgedherforwardandwhenIfoundagoodspot,Iremovedmyhandsandleaneddowntowhisper
inherear.
"Openyoureyes,Bella."
Iheardhergaspandwhimper."OhmyGod!"
EPOV
"OhmyGod."Shebreathedagain."Isthatreallyreal?Like,it'snotapropofanything?"
"No."Ichuckled."Yousaidyouwantedone,andwhatmyBellawants,myBellagets."
"Wow,youboughtthis?"Bellaasked,gesturingtowardtheblackpianoandInodded."How?When?"
"Iordereditwhenwedecidedtomovehere.Itarrivedtoday."
Isteppedforwardandgrazedmyfingersovertheshinysurface,amazedhowcalmIgotbythatsimpleaction.I
heardBellagasploudlywhichcausedmetoturnmyattentionbacktoher.Shewasmovingherhands
franticallyoverherstomachandthatmademereallyworried.
"Baby,what'swrong?"Iasked,unabletohidemyworry.
Isawatearfallfromhereyes.HerhandsneverstoppedsoIplacedbothmineoverhersinordertocalmher
downsoshecouldexplainwhatwaswrong.
"Thebaby,"shechoked."Emily."
"What'swrongwithEmily,Bella?"Iaskedinamoresternvoice,almostannoyedthatshecouldn'tanswermy
question.
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"Shekickedme,"shewhispered,lookingintomyeyes.
Ibreathedasighofrelief,gladitwasn'tanythingserious,butthenthestupidestsmilespreadacrossmyface.
"Shekickedyou?"
"Yes,righthere,"shesaid,movingmyhandtotheleftsideofhertummyandplacedherhandovermine.
"Ican'tfeelanything,"Isaidalittledisappointed.
ItwasmomentslikethisthatIwasjealousofBella.Shegottocarryourbaby,feedherandfeelhermovements
whileIwasjustabystander.
"Maybeshewantstohearyouplay,"Bellasuggested,strokingmycheekasiftryingtocomfortme.Itwas
amazinghowthatwomancouldsensemymood.
"It'sworthatry."Ismiledandgotupandwentovertothepianoagain.
Isatdownonthebenchandpattedthesmallspotbesideme,silentlyaskingBellatojoinme.Shesmiledwidely
andwalkedovertome.Ihopedshewouldenjoythis.Ihadstartedwritingherapiece,butitwasn'tfinishedyet
soIhadtowaitawhilelongerbeforeIcouldplayitforher.
Iplacedbothmyhandsonthekeys,gettingusedtothefamiliarfeelingIhadn'tfeltforawhile.ThenIstarted
playing.Shewouldrecognizethepiece,Iwassureofit.ThegaspIheardtensecondsintothepieceletme
knowthatshefoundout.Icontinuedtoplay,though,hopingthatshelikedit.
ThelastnotehungintheroomonceIstoppedplaying.NeitherBellanorIspokeforalittlewhile.
"Edward,"shealmostwhimperedandgrabbedmyhandtoonceagainplaceitonhertummy.
ThatwasthefirsttimeIfeltmymydaughter.
Shekickedmeagainstmypalmonetime,butthatwasallittookformetobefilledwithsomuchloveformy
unbornbabythatIthoughtIwasgoingtoburst.
IgentlypulledBella'sshirtuptoexposeherstomach.Idippedmyheaddownandstartedplacingkissesallover
it,causingBellatogigglesoftly.Herhandwasinmyhair,massagingmyscalpwhileherotherhandwasplaced
onhertummy.
"Hi,it'sDaddy,"IsaidtoBella'sstomach."Ican'twaittoseeyou,andtoteachyouhowtoplaythepiano.
Therearesomanythingsandsomanypeoplewho'swaitingforyoutocomeout.Especiallymeanyyour
Mommy.God,Ihopeyoulookjustlikeher.She'ssobeautiful."
"Iwanthertohaveyoureyes,"Bellamurmured."Andyourhair,yourlipsandyournose."
Isatbackupagainandcuppedhersmallfaceinmyhands,pressingmylipstohers.
"No,"Imumbledagainsthermouth."Iwanthertobecuteandbeautiful,justlikeyou."
Bellabrokeawayfromthekiss,anglingherfacedowntohertummyagain.Iplacedmyhandoverhersagain,
butshequicklychanged,lettingmebeunderneath.ThenIfeltitagainmydaughterwasonceagainkicking.
"IthinkshemissesherDaddy,"Bellasaid,smiling.
Ibentdownagainandsaid,"I'mrighthere,baby.Doyouwantmetoplayforyouagain?"
"Howdidyouknowthatpiece?"Bellaasked.
"MymotherisabigfanofJamesHorner'smusicandconsideringhecomposedalotofpiecesto'Titanic,'I
knowthem."
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"Canyouplaythatoneagain?Itwassobeautiful."
"SureIcan."Ismirked,placingonlastkissonhertummybeforecoveringitwithhershirtagainandsatback
up.
IplayedfivemorepiecesforBellaandEmily.WhenIhadfinished,Bellahadtearsinhereyes,butshe
reassuredmeandsaidthatitwashappytears.Shewantedmetoplaymore,butIwasrustyandmyfingers
couldonlytakethatmuch,soweendeditwithapromisefrommetoplayagainthenextday.
BPOV
ItwasSunday.Ihadsomethingimportanttodotoday,butIcouldn'tfindanythingtowear.NotthatIneededto
wearsomethingfancyoranything,butIneededclothesandnothinginmyclosetfeltgoodenough.
Rightnow,IhadonapairofveryoldjeansthatI'vehadsinceIwasfifteen,butIhadneverhadtheheartto
throwthemoutoncetheybecametoobigonme.
"Baby..."Edwardsaid,stoppingbeforehegotanyfurtherandjustlookedatme.
"What?DoIhavesomethingonme,orwhat?"Iasked,alittleinsecureunderhisgaze.
"Um,no."Hegulped,shakinghisheadtocollecthimself."It'sjust...thosejeans."
"Whataboutthem?"
"That'stheonesyouworeinhighschool,right?Almosteveryday."
Howcouldhepossiblyknowthat?
"How...Imean,thatwasalongtimeago."
"Theywillforeverbeinmymind,baby.Thewaythehugyourass,"hesaid,steppingforwardtocupmyassin
hishands.
Ihadjustsavedthejeansbecausetheyweremyfavoriteonesever.Iusuallyhatedtowearjeans,butnotthese
ones.Theyhadbeentoobigformeduringthelastcoupleofyears,untilnow.
Igiggledandgentlypushedhimaway.
"Iloveyou,"Itoldhim,anglingmyfaceuptohim.
"Iloveyou,too,"hesaid,bendingdowntogivemeachastekiss.
"I'mgoingtocallmymom."Iwalkedovertomynightstandandgrabbedmyphone."Iwasthinkingabout
tellingheraboutthebabytoday."
"Areyousure?"
"Yeah,shedeservestoknow."
"Okay,justletmeknowifyouneedme.I'llbedownstairs."
"WillyouplaysomethingformewhenI'mdone?"Ibegged,tryingtogivehimmybestpout.
Hechuckled."YouknowIcan'tsaynotoyou."
Hepressedhislipsagainstmypoutinglipsbeforehelefttheroom.ThenIrealizedthathewasabouttosay
somethingbeforehehadseenme,buthehadn'treallysaidanything.Thatwouldhavetowaituntillater,
though,becauseIreallyneededtomakethephonecallbeforeIchickenedout.So,Itookmyphone,sitting
downinoneofthearmchairsanddialedMom'snumber.
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Inervouslypickedonathreadfrommywornoutjeans.Ihadmadeupmymindthistime,therewasnogoing
back.Momwasgoingtofindouteverything.
"Bella?"Momaskedinasurprisedtone.
Iblamedmyselfforthat.IunderstoodwhyshewassurprisedIhadn'tcalledherinages,itwasalwaysshe
whocalledme,nottheotherwayaround.
"Yeah,hi,Mom."Myvoicewasshaky,butIdidn'tgiveup."IhavesomethingIneedtotellyou."
"Oh,whatacoincidencebecauseIhavesomethingtotellyoutoo!"Shesoundedexcited,butIneededtotell
herfirstorotherwiseIwouldjustchickenout."Butgoaheadandtellmefirst.You'vegotmecurious."
"Okay,um.EdwardandIarepregnant,"Iblurtedout,relievedthatIfinallyhadsaidit.NowIdidn'thavetogo
aroundfeelingguiltyallthetime.
Reneewasquiet,buteventuallyIheardawhimperthatsoundedlikesherefrainedherselffromcrying.
"Mom?Whyareyoucrying?DoIneedtohangup?"IaskedbecauseIwouldnotputupwithhershitifshe
wasgoingtobedifficult.
"No,baby.I'msorry.I'mreallyhappythatI'mgoingtobeagrandma,butmynewsaren'tsohappyanymore,"
shewailed.
"Whynot?"
"BecausetheymeanthatIwon'tbeabletoseemygrandbabyveryoften,andnotyoueither."
"Mom,whatareyoutalkingabout?Whywouldn'tyouseemybaby?"
"BecausePhilandIaremoving,"shewhispered.
"What?"Iasked,takenabackbywhatshejustsaid."Why?Where?"
"ThereisthisprograminAustraliawheretheyteachyoungkidstoplaybaseball.Philgotacceptedtobeoneof
thecoaches."
"Australia?Butthat'sso...faraway."
"Iknow,baby.WhydoyouthinkIstartedcryingwhenyougavemethenewsaboutthebaby?"Shechuckled
throughhertears."We'llbethereforatleastayear."
"Butyou'regoingtomiss..."Icouldn'tfinishbecausemyvoicecrackedandtearsstartedpoolinginmyeyes.
EventhoughMomandIstillhadabitstrainedrelationship,Istilllovedher,andIhadalmostforgivenherfor
everything.Andnowshe'stellingmethatshewasmovingandthatmeantthatshewasgoingtomissmybaby
beingborn.HowthehellwasIsupposedtohandlethepainandtearswithoutherinthedeliveryroom?She
wasmymom.
"Iknow,honey,Iknow."Webothstayedquietforawhileuntilshespokeagain."So,whenisthebabydue?"
"August22nd,"Isaid,tryingtokeepmyemotionsincheck.
"Oh.Thatmeansyou'realreadyfourmonthsalong,"shesaidandIcouldhearthehurtinhervoice.
"Yeah.I'mtwentytwoweeksandthreedaysalong.Iwasgoingtotellyou.It'sjust...afterthatletter,Ididn't
knowhowyouwouldreact."
"Iunderstand,baby.I'msorryIputyouthroughthat,"shesniffled."So,doyouknowifit'saboyoragirlyet?"
"It'sagirl,"Imumbled."We'renamingherEmilyGraceCullen."
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"That'sabeautifulname,Bella.I'msureEmilywouldhavebeenproudofyou."
"Thankyou."
Itmeantalotcomingfromher,becauseIhadbeensosureofthatshewouldjustreactthesamewayasshehad
atThanksgiving.Instead,shedidthetotalopposite.
Sure,shewasn'tgoingtobethereforthedelivery,butIknewshewouldtryherbesttobeapartofthebaby's
lifesomehow.Icouldhearitinhervoice.
"Um,maybePhilandIcouldrearrangetheflight.SoinsteadofflyingviaL.A,wecouldflytoSeattle,"shesaid
carefully.
Thatmeantseeingher.WasIreadyforthat?WhatifshewouldbejustlikeshewereduringThanksgiving?
Youcouldeasilyputupafrontoverthephone.
Although,notseeingherwouldmeanthatIwouldn'tgettoseeherforalongtime,andtobehonest,Imissed
mymom.NottheladywhoshowedupforThanksgiving,justmymom.
"It'sokayifyoudon't..."MomstartedwhenIhadn'tansweredher,butIcutheroff.
"No,no.Iwouldlovethat.Youcouldmaybestayatournewhouseduringthenight,"Isuggested.
ReneeletoutasquealsoIfiguredshelikedmyidea.
EPOV
Ididn'tlikeitatall.IhadnolongeranyproblemswithBellatalkingtoRenee,butthefactthatshewasgoingto
tellheraboutthebabyhadmeworried.IfshemadeBellaupsetagain,itcouldharmthebabymybaby.
Iangrilypressedtheblackandwhitekeysinfrontofme,lettingoutsomeofthefrustration.Ididn'twantto
pressureBellaintochoosingbetweenmeandhermom,butIstilldidn'ttrustRenee.Notafterwhatshedidto
myBellaatThanksgiving.
Ididn'tknowhowlongIhadbeensittingthere,takingoutmyfrustrationsonmypreciouspiano,buteventually
Bellacamedownandsatbesideme.
"What'swrong,Edward?"sheaskedwhenIhadstoppedplaying,bringingherhandtomyhair.
Iinstantlycalmeddown,butIwasstillalittlebitfrustratedwithRenee.Bellaseemedfineandcalmsothe
conversationmusthavegoneprettywell.
"Nothing,"Imumbled.
"It'snotnothing.Icantellbythewayyouplaythatthereissomethingbotheringyou."
SometimesIfounditgreatthatshecouldreadmyemotionssowell,butmomentslikethese,Ifoundit
annoying.Ididn'twanttoupsetherbytellingwhatwasonmymindandwiththepregnancy,therewasnoway
ofknowinghowshewouldreact.
"I'mfine,Ipromise."Itriedtosmileather.
"Don'tlietome,Edward.Pleasetellme."
"Fine.Idon'tlikeyourmomknowingaboutEmily,"Iadmitted.
"Oh,"shesaid,takingherhandbackandlookeddownatherlap."Whydidn'tyoutellmebeforeIcalled?"
"Becauseshe'syourmom,andIgetthatshehastherighttoknow,butIstilldon'ttrustherafterwhatshedidto
youonThanksgiving."
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Bellanoddedherheadandwhispered,"She'schanged."
"Onthephonemaybe,butyouhaven'tactuallyseenher,"Ireasoned.
"No,Ihaven't."ShesoundedsodefeatedandsmallthatIalmostfeltguilty,butsheneededtohearit."She's
moving."
Shewipedherface,soIassumedshewascrying.Itookherintomyarms.
"Hey,Ididn'tmeantomakeyoucry,"Isoothed.
"She'smovingawayfromme,"shesniffled.
"Where?"Iasked,rockingusslightlysothatshewouldcalmdown.
"Australia."
Okay,Ihadn'texpectedthatone.Thatwasprettyhuge,anditmeantthatReneewouldbemovingtoanother
continent.EventhoughBellaseemedupsetbythat,Istillfeltalittlerelieved.
"When?"Iasked.
"Twomonths,andshe'scomingtosaygoodbyewhetheryoulikeitornot,"shesaid,pushingawayfromme
andgotupfromthebench.
Istoppedherbygrabbingherhand."Pleasedon'twalkawayfromme.I'mjust...worriedaboutyouandEmily.
YougirlsaremylifeandIcan'tloseyou."
Shesteppedforwardandfistedhersmallhandsinmyhair,forcingmetoolookather.
"EdwardCullen,you'renotgoingtoloseus.She'smymotherandshedeservesachance.Itrusther,butI
promiseyouthatifthingsgetoutofhand,I'llletyousaveme,okay?"
"Okay."Inoddedmyheadandshecrushedherlipstomine.
IfshewasgoingtogiveReneeachance,Iwouldtoo,butthatdidn'tmeanthatIlikedtheideaofhercoming
here.
"Willyouplayformenow?"Bellaaskedsoftlywhenshepulledaway.
Icouldn'tbelievehowobsessedwithmyplayingshehadbecome.IloveditbecausethatmeantthatIcouldgive
heryetanotherpieceofme.
"Ofcourse,"Isaid,smilingandshesatdownbesidemeagain.
Twoweekslater(Baby:24weeksand1dayold)
Iwokeuptoahuffingandgruntingsound.Ittooksometimeformyeyestogetusedtothebrightlightinthe
room,butoncetheydid,IsawBella.OrratherabigtowelcoveringBella'sbodywhileshedidsomething
underneathit.
"Baby,whatthefuckareyoudoing?"Iaskedinasleepyvoice.
"Gettingdressed,"sheanswered,stillhidingunderthebigtowel.
"Whyareyoudancingaroundinthattentbusiness?"
Isatupandtriedtorubthesleepfrommyeyes.Bellahadstoppedmoving,butshewasstillhidingfromme.I
hadahunchonwherethiswasgoing,butIwashopingitwastheotherdirection.
"BecauseIdon'twantyoutoseeanyofmywobblybits."
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Ohjoy,itwasoneofthosedays.
Iscooteddowntothefootofthebedandsatontheedge.
"Baby,comehere,"Iorderedher.
Sheshylypeakedupbehindthetowel.Seeingherhair,Irealizedthatshehadalreadytakenhershowerwhich
meantthatshehadn'tbeenabletosleepverywellthisnighteither.
Whenshejuststoodthere,staringatme,Igesturedwithmyhandforhertostandbetweenmylegs.Sheletout
abigsigh,wrappedthetowelaroundherbodyandreluctantlywalkedovertome.
Ipriedherarmsawayfromherchestandplacedthemfirmlyalongherbodyandputmyhandsonherhips.
Slowly,Itriedremovedthetowel.
"Edward,"Bellaprotested.
"No,"Isaidfirmlyandcontinuedremovingthetowelfromherbody.
ThetowelfelltothefloorandrevealedBella'sgloriousbody.Shehadonlymanagedtoputonpanties,therest
wasstillexposed.Herbellywasstickingoutinthemostadorableandsexywaypossible.Thebellybuttonhad
startedtopopout,makingitevenmoreadorable.Thefactthatshewascarryingmybabymadeherevenmore
sexy.
"YouaresexyandIcan'tseeanywobblingbitsonyou.AllIcanseeisthisbeautifulbody,carryingmychild,"
Isaidwithavoicefullofconvictionsinceitwasthetruth.
Ikissedhertummyanduptohertits.Myhandsstrokedalloverherbodyandwhenmymouthcouldn'tgetany
higher,Igentlynudgedherforward,silentlyaskinghertositonmylap.
Shedid,huggingmeastightaspossible.Ifeltherstomachagainstmineandmassagedhersides.Ipushedher
damphairtothesideandkissedmywayuptoherneckandear.
"You'resofuckingbeautifulandsexy,Bella.Neverthinkotherwise,"Iwhispered.
ShesniffledandandIrealizedshewascrying.Ihatedit.
"Hey,whyareyoucrying?"Iasked,pullingbackalittlesoIcouldlookintohereyes.
"You'rejustso...soperfect,andIfeellikeIdon'tdeserveyou,"shesaid,sobbinglightly.
"I'mnotperfect,"Isaid,cuppingherfaceanddriedawayhertearswithmythumbs."I'monlytellingyouthe
truth.Iwishyoucouldseeyourselfthroughmyeyes,thenyouwouldseewhatabeautifulcreatureyouare."
"I'msorry,"shewhispered.
"Youhavenothingtobesorryfor."
Shedidn'tsayanythingback,instead,shenuzzledherfaceinthecrookofmyneckandstayedsilentforafew
minutes.
"Couldyoujustholdme?"sheaskedafterawhile.
"IthoughtthatwaswhatIwasdoing."
"Thispositionisbecomingquiteuncomfortable."
Shewasright,soItriedtoscootusbackuponthebed.BellagotthehintandgotoffmylapandwaiteduntilI
hadlaiddownonmysideuntilshejoinedme,facingme.Hertummywasonceagainpressedagainstmine,but
thistimeIfeltalittlekick.Itwasn'tthefirsttimethatIfeltheragainstmyownstomach,butitwasalwaysa
veryspecialfeeling.
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"She'sawakeagain,"Bellamumbled,caressingherstomach.
Emilyhadbeenkickingalotlately,especiallywhenitwastimeforsleep.ItmadeBellacrankysinceitwas
hardertosleepthen,andasleepyBellameantacrankyBella.IfIcouldhave,Iwouldtradeourplacesandtake
thesufferingawayfromherbecauseitpainedmetoseeherlikethat.
IalsofeltguiltysinceIenjoyedeverytimemylittlegirlkicked.Sure,Belladidattimes,too,butnotasmuchas
Idid.
WehadfoundoutthatmymusicoftencalmedEmilydown,soIhadspentnumerousofhoursplayingforher.It
mademekindofsmugtobehonest.
IheldBellaforafewmoreminutesuntilIfeltanotherkick.Then,IkissedmywaydownBella'sneckand
collarbones,andthendowntohertitsbeforereachingmydestinationhertummy.
"Goodmorning,mylittleangel,"IcooedandplacedasloppykissonBella'sstomach."Pleasebegoodtoyour
mommyforme."
"She'sonlygoodwhenyou'rearound,"Bellawhisperedandcaressedmyhair.
"That'sbecauseshe'sDaddy'slittlegirl."IsmirkedandmademywaybackuptoBella.
"Alltheway."
Weeventuallygotupfrombed.EventhoughBelladidn'thideagainwhileshegotdressed,Icouldtellthatshe
feltalittleuncomfortablechanginginmypresence.Itmademequitesadthatshefeltthatway,butItriedto
makeherfeelbeautifuleveryday.IguessIhadtodoitmoreoften.
WehadanappointmenttodaysoIhadtakenthedayoffsinceweweregoingtothebabystorerightaftertobuy
somestuffforEmily.Besides,BellaseemedtolikeitmorewhenIstayedhomewithherafteranappointment
soIwouldhavetakenthedayoffanyway.
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"So,haveyoubeenthinkingaboutthedelivery,Bella?"Dr.Housemanasked.
"Um,IactuallytrynottobecauseI'msoscaredabouttheactuallaboranddelivery,"Isaidhesitantly.
"Haveyoubeentoanychildbirthclasses?"
"No."BothEdwardandIshookourheads.
"Okay.Iwouldrecommendyoutodoso.IhavesomebrochuresforyouthatIcangiveyoubeforeyouleave
today.Becauselet'sfaceit,thebabywillcomeoutnomatterhowscaredyouare,soyouneedtobeprepared."
Thedoctortriedtosmilereassuringly,buttheonlythingthathelpedmerelaxabitwasEdward'shand,rubbing
circlesonmyback.
"Haveyoudecidedifyouwanttobreastfeedornot?"Dr.Housemancontinued.
"Yeah,Iwantto,butI'vehearditcanbequitepainful."
IrealizedhowmuchpainIwouldhavetogothroughtohavethisbaby.Dideverymomhaveto,orwasitjust
me?Ormaybeitwasjustmewhowasafraidofit.Ihadneverhadahighpainthreshold.
"It'sallinthepreparation,"Dr.Housemansaid.
BeforeIcouldask,Edwardsteppedin,"Whatdoesthatmean?"
"Well,youneedtomakeBella'sbreastsandnipplesusedtothesuctionandthebaby'smouth."
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"How?"EdwardaskedeagerlybeforeDr.Housemancouldevencontinue.Italmostmademelaugh.
"Ihavesomebrochuresforyouonthataswell,butyoucouldstartintheshowerforinstance.Justscrubyour
nippleshardwithaspongeofsomethinglikethat.Afteryourshower,orbath,youcantakesomebabyoilon
andtrytopullyournipplesafewtimes.It'sgoingtohurtinthebeginning,I'mnotgoingtolie,butitwillhelp.
Also,youcanaskEdwardhere,orbuyasuctionmachineatthepharmacy,tohelpyououtbecausehe,orthe
machine,canhelpwiththerealsuction."
Thatlastsentencewasprobablynotwiseofhertotell.NowIhadahornyhusbandwithagoodexcusetosuck
onmybreasts.
Dr.Housemancontinuedwiththeexamination,sayingthateverythinglookedgoodandthatEmilyappearedto
beahealthygirl.
MymorningsicknesshadfinallysubsidedabitandIhadbeenabletoeatmorewhichresultedinmegaining
someweight.
Whenwelefttheoffice,thedoctorremindedusthatthenextcheckupwasthelastonebeforewewouldstart
comingtwiceamonthinsteadofonceamonth.Itmademealittlenervoushowcloseweweregettingtomy
duedate.Ireallyneededtopreparemyself.
JustasEdwardpromised,wewenttothebabystorerightafterwe'vehadourlunch.Iwasreallyexcited,but
reallycluelessonwhatexactlytobuy.
"Whatarewegoingtobuy?"IaskedEdward,takinghishandandwalkedintothebigstore.
"Ihavenoidea.Maybe,um,babystuff?"
"Ofcoursewe'regoingtobuybabystuff,butwhatbabystuff?"
"Well,she'sgoingtoneedacrib,right?"
"We'renotbuyinganythingforthenurserytodaysinceEsmewillhelpwiththat."
"Okay,um..."hetrailedof,dragginghisfreehandthroughhishair.
IrealizedthathewasjustascluelessasIwasanditwaskindofamusing,butthereisafirsttimeforeverything,
right?So,ifwehadmorekidsinthefuture,wewouldknowwhattobuy.
Asmallblondegirlmadeherwaytowardus."Hi,wouldyoulikesomehelp?"
Shelookedaroundmyageandhadareallyprettyface.Hernametagread'Claire.'
IhuggedEdward'sarmpossessively,butIknewhewouldn'tlookthatwayatherandwereallyneededhelpso
Inoddedmyhead.
"Great,"shesaid,smiling."Isthereanythingspecialyou'relookingfortoday?"
"No,wejustneedsomebabystuff,"Edwardanswered."Butnothingforthenursery,though."
"Firsttimeparents,huh?"Claireaskedknowingly.
"Yeah,"Iadmittedshyly.
"Doyouhaveanythingforthebabyalready?"
"Threepacifiers,"Edwardanswered.
"Okay,well,wecouldstartwithastrollermaybe,sincewe'realreadyinthatdepartment.Ifyouwantone?"
"Sure,"Ianswered,lookingupatEdwardwhonoddedhishead.
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Therewerealotofstrollerstochoosefrom,butEdwardandIagreedonthatwewantedonewithfourwheels
andonethatwasmadefornewborns.
"Iwouldrecommendyoutogetonewithanadjustablehandlesinceyou'resodifferentinheight,"Clairesaid.
"Thatleavesthisone,andthethreeonesoverthere."Shepointedatfourdifferentstrollers.
OneofthemlookedantiqueandIdecidedagainstthatone.Anotherlookedlikearobotandwastoomodernfor
mytaste.Iwantedoneinbetweenthosenottooold,butnottoomodern.
"Iwantthepinkone,"IstatedwhenIsawabrightpinkstroller
"Baby,no,"Edwardgroaned.
Clairegiggled."So,you'rehavingagirl?"
"Yes,"Edwardsaid,beaming.
"Okay."Shelaughedsoftly."Well,thatoneisalsoavailableinwhite,black,greenandblackwithpinkdetails."
"Ifyoudon'twantthepinkone,can'twepleasehavetheblackonewithalittlepinkonit?"Ipleadedwith
Edward,givinghimmybestpout.
HesigheddefeatedandturnedtowardClaire."It'snotmuchpinkonit,right?"
"Itdependsonwhatyouthinkismuch,butno,Iwouldn'tsayit'smuch.Ihaveabrochureforyoutolookinif
youwant,"sheansweredandwenttogetone.
"Fine,"Edwardansweredoncehehadlookedinit."We'lltakethatone."
Iletoutasquealandsmiledathim."Thankyou."
"It'sareallygoodchoicesinceonceyourdaughterhasoutgrowthit,youcouldjustchangethispart"Claire
gesturedtowardthepartwherethebabywassupposedtobein"intoonethat'smadeforalittleolderbabies."
ThatsoundedalmosttoogoodtobetrueandIjusthadtolookatthepricetag.IdiditdiscreetlywhenClaire
wasn'tlookingandgaspedonceIsawit.Itwasathreedigitnumber.
"Edward,wecan'taffordthatone,"Iwhispered.
"Yes,wecan.Don'tthinkaboutthepricewhenitcomestoourdaughter."
"Butit'ssomuchmoney."
"Withmoneycomesquality,Bella.IwantthebestforEmily."
Itwasmyturntogiveup.IknewEdwardhadmoneyinhistrustfond,buthehadneveruseditasfarasIknew.
Hewasright,though,Emilydeservedthebest.
"Okay,soweactuallyhaveoneinthestoresoyou'llbeabletotakethestrollerhometoday,"Claireinformed
us."Doyouwanttolookatcarseatsnext?"
"Sure,"Edwardagreedandwefollowedhertothenextdepartment.
"Wehaveamatchingonetothestrollerhere,"shesaid,pickinguponeofthecarseats.
"Um,IthinkIwantonewithahoodifthat'savailable.Istillwantthematchingoneifthat'spossible,"Isaid.
Rosehadonewithahoodonanditwasbetterifyouwantedtoshieldthebabyfromsunlightorsomethinglike
that.
"Sure,butthenyou'llhavetoaddafewdollarstothepriceandyouwon'tbeabletopickituptoday.Justso
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youknow."
IlookedupatEdward,wonderingwhathewasthinkingaboutit.
"We'lltakeitanyway."
"Okay.Isthereanythingelseyouwantwhenitcomestotravelingandsuchthingswhilewe'reinthis
department?"
"Iactuallywantoneofthosethingswhereyoucancarrythebabylikethis,"Edwardsaid,showingwhathe
meantbyholdinghishandsinfrontofhimlikehewastheonewhowaspregnant.
"Oh,youmeanlikeaBabybjrnbabycarrier?"Claireasked.
"Idon'tknow,maybe."
ItwaswhatEdwardmeantandIfounditadorablethathewantedtocarryhisdaughterthatway.Hesaidthathe
hadbeenwantingtodosoeversincehehadseenEmmettdoingthatwithLily.
Wechoseawhiteone.AtfirstIhadspottedapinkone,butEdwardhadsaidafirmnotothatone.Itwasa
goodthingthathedid,though,becauseIcouldneverwearanythingredifIwantedtocarryEmilyinthatone.
Weleftthestorewithtonsofnewbabystuff.Therewaseverythingfromafewcuteoutfits,andbottles,tothe
stroller.Itwaspricey,butEdwardjusthandedthecashierhiscreditcardlikeitwasnothing.WethankedClaire
forallherhelp,shehadbeenanamazinghelpandIdoubtedthatwewouldhavemanagedtogeteverythingwe
neededwithoutherhelp.
"Isthereanywhereelseweneedtogobeforewe'reheadinghome?"Edwardaskedoncewewereinthecar
again.
"Thepharmacy,"Ianswered.
"Whatdoyouneedfromthere?"heasked,confused.
"ThatsuckingmachineDr.Housemanwastalkingabout,"Ijoked,butIkeptastraightface.
"Whywouldyouneedthat?"
"Shesaiditwouldhelpgettingmybreastusedtobreastfeeding."
"ButshesaidIcouldhelpwiththataswell."HelookedsodisappointedthatIcouldn'thelpbuttolaughathim.
"I'mjoking,Edward,"Iadmittedthroughmylaughter."Youshouldhaveseenyourface!"
"Yourtittiesaren'tsomethingyoujokeabout.They'reprecious,"hewhined.
"I'msorry,"Isaid,bitingmytonguetokeepfromlaughingathimagain.
"Youbetterbe,"hemuttered.
Whenwegothome,weunloadedeverythingfromthecarandputitinoneoftheguestroomssinceEsmewould
bedownsoonandhelpmewiththenursery,andthenwewouldjusthavetomovethestufftotheguestroom
anyway.
Itallfeltsorealnowthatwehadbeenbuyingthingsforourbaby.Notthatmytummyfeltunreal,butthethings
madeitfeelevenmorerealthanbefore.
Imadethemacaronisandmeatballsfordinneragain,tryingtomakeupformyjokeearlier.Hehadhonestly
thoughtIwasseriousandIfeltalittlebadforthat.
Afterdinner,wejustcuddledonthecouchinthebasement,watchingamovieonthebigTV.Accordingtome,
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itwaswaytoobig,butEdwardreallylikeditsoIkeptmymouthshut.
Whenitwastimeforbed,IdecidedtoreadalittleonmyKindlesinceEmilyhaddecidedtokickallshecould
rightthen.ItwaspossiblyjustbecauseEdwardwasn'tintheroomyet,butIhopedshewouldcalmdown
eventuallysoIcouldgetafewhoursofsleep.
"So,doyouwantmetohelpyounow?"EdwardaskedsoexcitedlythatIknewwhathewantedtohelpme
with.
"Withwhat?"Iteased,placingmyKindleonthenightstandandtookoffmyglasses.Ihadtouseglassesnow
sincemyeyeshadbecometoodryforcontacts.Edwarddidn'tmindthatatall,though.
"Baby,"hewhined."Withyourtittiesofcourse."
Ilaughedthenandbroughthisheaduptokisshim.Hetookthatasaninvitationandpulledoffmytshirtand
helpedmeinchdownsoIwaslyingonmyback.Itdidn'ttakelongforhismouthtofindmynipples.
Theyquicklybecamehardunderhistouch,whichhenoticedandpulledbackslightlytoadmirehishandy
work.
"Fuck,I'vemissedmygirls."
Igiggled,butthatquicklyturnedintoamoanoncehislipswhereonmeagain,suckingandflickingmynipples.
Afterawhile,hemovedhismouthtokissthewholebreastinsteadofjustthenipple.ItwasprobablysoI
wouldn'tgettoosoretoosoon.Itwastoolate,though,asIletoutahisswhenhewentbacktothenipples.It
reallydidhurt,butitwaspainmixedwithpleasure.
"Mm,Edward,ithurts,"Isaidwhenitbecametoomuch.
"Baby,thebrochuretoldustocontinueevenifithurts,"hesaid,lookingupfrommybreasts.
"Okay,"Isaid,knowingthathewasright.Ididthisformydaughter.
Hewentbacktomybreasts,buthewasalittlemoregentlewiththemthistime.Ifelttearsinmyeyesonceit
simplybecametoomuch.IfIcouldn'tevenhandletwentyminuteswithEdward,howthehellwasIsupposed
tohandlegettingupseveraltimesatnighttofeedmylittlegirl?
"Okay,Idon'tcareifwe'resupposedtocontinue,Ican'thandleanymore,"ItoldEdward.
"It'sokay,baby.We'lltryagainsomeothertime.Thingslikethistakestime,"hereassured,kissingawaythe
tearsandfinishedbyplacingasoftkissonmylips."Doyouwantyourshirtbackon?"
"Yeah..."Iwhispered.
Beforehepullediton,hescooteddowntohavehistalkwithhisdaughterlikehealwaysdidbeforegoingto
sleep.
"Hi,babygirl,"hecooed."Weboughtsomanynewthingsforyoutoday.Yourmommywanteditalltobein
pink,butIhadtostophersomewheresoyouwouldn'tenduplikeParisHilton.Shemanagedtogetmetoagree
tosomepinkstuff,though.Youknow,ifyouhaveherpout,Icanguaranteeyouthatthereisn'tanythingyou
couldn'thave.Itwilltakeyoualongway."
Hemanagedtogetmetolaugh.Evenifshegothispoutandpuppyeyes,shewouldgetfar,ifnotlonger.There
simplywasnowaytosaynotohimifheshowedyouthat.
"Goodnight,baby,andpleasedon'tkickyoumommy.Ithinksheneedstosleep,"Edwardfinishedandplaced
akissonmystomach.
Hehelpedmewiththetshirtbeforelyingdown,spooningme.
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"Iloveyou,"hewhisperedandnuzzledintomyhair.
"Iloveyou,too,"Ianswered.
Hissoothingmovementsonmystomachlulledmetosleepandforonce,Emilywasn'tkicking.
IwalkeddownFirstBeach,justlikeIhadalmosteveryday.Therewasasuckingnoise,soIlookeddownatmy
beautifulbabygirlasshesuckedonmyleftbreast.IthurttoomuchsoIreleasedmyboobfromhermouthand
tuckedmyselfin,placingmybabyonmyshouldersoIcouldburpher.
IdidthatwhileIwalkedclosertotheendofthebeachwereIsawawomanstanding.Shehaddark,curlyhair
thatwasblowinginthewind.
MycuriositygotthebestofmeandIwalkedovertoher.IgottearsinmyeyesasIrealizedwhoshewas
Emily.
"Emily?"Ichokedthroughmysob.
"Yes,sillyBella."Shegiggled."Letmeseeyourgirl."
Shedidn'twaitformetoanswerbeforemygirlwastakenfrommyarms.Ididn'tmind,though,thiswasEmily.
Itrustedherandshewantedtoseemybronzehairedbabygirl.
BeforeIcouldrealizewhatwashappening,Emilystartedwalkingawayfromme,towardthewater.Istarted
followingher.
"Emily,whereareyougoing?"
"I'mjustgoingtogiveherabath."Shesmirkedevillyandstartedwalkingfaster.
"What?No,youcan'tdothathere,"Isaidinapanickedvoice.
Itwastoolate.Shehadalreadytakenmybabyoutinthewaterafewfeetandshehadn'tstoppedwalkingyet.
TheygotfurtherandfurtherwhileIstoodjustatthewater'sedge,notdaringtotakeanotherstep.
"Emily,pleasecomeback!"Iyelled,butshewouldn'tlistentome.
Shefinallystoppedandturnedaround,facingme.Shebouncedmybabyinherarmsandcooedsomethingto
her,butIwastoofarawaytoactuallyhearwhatshewassaying.
"Emily!"Isobbed."Iwantmybabyback."
"You'rejusthavetocomeandgetherthen,Bella.Besides,webothknowthatIwouldfeedherbetterthan
you."
"YouknowI'mscaredofthewater.Pleasejustcomebackwithher."
"It'syourchoice,Bella.Eithershestaysherewithme,oryou'llcomeandgether."
"Emily,please!"Isobbedhard.
TheystartedfadingawayandIhadtosquintmyeyestobeabletoseethem.
"Emily!"Iscreamed.
Ijoltedawake,sweatingandsobbing.MybreathingwashardandlaboredasItriedtocalmdownfromthe
dreamthathadhauntedmesincethebeginningofmypregnancy.
"It'sokay,Bella,"EdwardsoothedandthatwaswhenIrealizedIwascryinginhisarmswhileherockedus
backandforth."I'vegotyou."
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"Shetookmybaby,"Bellasobbed.
Itbrokemyhearttoseeherthisupset,especiallywhenIhadnoideawhatthedreamhadbeenabout.Ifeltso
helplesswhenallIcoulddowastotrycomforther.
"Emily'shere.She'sfine.Noonehastakenher,baby,"Itried.
"No,shetookher!"shewailed.
"Look,"Isaid,guidedherhandtoherswollenstomach."Emily'ssafe."
"Butshetookher...shewentintothewater...shetookherfromme."
"Who?"
"Emily...shetookmyEmily,"shesobbed.
Shewasconfusingme,butIletitpasssincesheobviouslywasn'tinanystateoftalkingrightnow.Ijustheld
heruntilshecriedherselfintoexhaustionandfellbacktosleep.
Ittookmealittlewhilelongertojoinhersinceshehadreallyscaredme.Shehadn'treactedthiswaytoany
dreambeforeandithadmeworried.Whatwassobadthatshereactedlikethat?Otherthansomebodytaking
ourbaby.
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A/N:Helloagain.I'mbaackwithyetanotherchapter!
Thequoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'BridgetJone'sDiare:TheEdgeofReason':
"BecauseIdon'twantyoutoseemywobblybits."
YoujustgottoloveBridget*sigh*
Newchapterequalsnewquoteandanewpreviewifyoufindit!
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"Doyouwantmetocomewithyou?"EdwardaskedwhenhedroppedmeoffatDr.Molina'soffice.
HehadpushedmeintoscheduleanemergencyappointmentwithhersincethedreamIhadfournightsago.
"No,"Imumbled.
Dr.MolinaandIhaddiscussedifIwantedEdwardtocomewithmeononesession,andeventhoughwehad
agreedonthatitmightbeagoodthingtodoonce,shestillthoughtthatIneededtodotherecoveryonmyown.
Icouldn'trelyonEdwardforeverything.
"Areyousure?"
"Yes,youshouldgobacktowork."
Edwardhadbeensoprotectiveofmeduringthelastcoupleofdays.Hehadevenlefthisworkforalittlewile
today,justsothathecoulddrivemetoandfromDr.Molina'soffice.Itwasbothsweetandannoying.
"Okay,"Edwardsaidreluctantly."I'llpickyouupinanhour,okay?"
"Sure."Inoddedmyheadandthengavehimapeckonhislips.
"Onemore."Hepouted,causingmetoletoutagiggle.
IgavehimonelastkissbeforeIclimbedoutofthecar.Iwasalittlebitnervousaboutthesession.Emilymeant
theworldtomeandifDr.Molinatoldmemydreamwasabadomen,IhadnoideawhatIwoulddo.
Isatdowninthewaitingroomandputmyhandsonmystomach.Emilyhadbeenkickingalotlately,butI
didn'twanttocomplainsincethatmeantshewasalive.Itwasalmostlikeshewaskickingforherdaddy,
becauseitmostlyhappenedwheneverEdwardandIwereapart.Shewouldsometimeskickasiftosayhelloto
Edward,andthatmadehimsohappy.Iwasjealousofthebondbetweenmydaughterandherfather,andshe
wasn'tevenbornyet.
"Mrs.Cullen,Dr.Molinacanseeyouknow,"thereceptionisttoldmewithafriendlysmile.
"Thanks,"Isaidandstood.
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IknockedsoftlyonthedoorbeforeIsteppedinside.Dr.MolinawassittinginherusualspotinthearmchairsoI
satdownonthecouchoppositeher.Ihadneverrealizedhowuncomfortablethecouchwasuntilnowmy
backwaskillingme.
"DoyoumindifIborrowacushion?"Iasked,gesturingtothethreecushionsintheotherendofthecouch.
"Goahead,"shesaidwithasmile.Itookoneandplaceditbehindmybackanditimmediatelyfeltalotbetter.
"So,Bella.Howcomeyouneededtoseeme?"
"I'msorry.Iknowthatwedecidedtowaittwoweeksbetweenthesessions,butsomethinghappened,"Itold
her.
IfeltprettypatheticthatIcouldn'tevenhandletwoweekswithoutmytherapist'shelp.Instead,Ihadtocallher
threedaysbeforeournextappointment.
"Bella,don'tapologize.Tellmewhyyou'rehereinstead,"Dr.Molinasaidsoftly."Whathappened?"
"I'vebeenhavingnightmaresthesepastcoupleofmonths,andFridaynight...Iwokeupinhysterics,scaring
Edwardsobadlythatheconvincedmetocallyou."
"Didtheystartinthebeginningofthepregnancy?"sheaskedandInoddedmyhead."That'snormal,Bella."
"Iknow.I'vereadaboutthem,butmineissovivid.It'slikeI'mthere,andit'salwaysthesame.Well,almostthe
same."
"Whatdoyoumeanbyalmost?"
Itoldheraboutthedream,andthatlately,Ihadbeenbreastfeedingaswellandthathadneverbeeninitbefore.
NotevenEdwardknewaboutthewholedream,Ihadjusttoldhimafewpartsofit.
"I'mjustafraidthatit'sabadomenorsomething,"Ifinished.
Dr.Molinanoddedherheadthoughtfullywhiletakingafewnotes."Haveyoubeendiscussingbreastfeeding
lately?"
"Um,yeah.Mydoctorbroughtitupandgotusafewbrochuresaboutit."
"Ithinkyourmindisprocessingthatinit'sownway."
"Bydreamingaboutit?"
"Yes.Idon'treallythinkbreastfeedingisthebigpicturewithyourdream.It'sjusttherebecauseyou'rescared
youcan'tdoit.It'stheotherthingsthathavemyattention,"shesaid.
"Otherthings?"
"Doyouwanttohearmytheory?"sheaskedandInoddedmyheadagain."IthinkEmilyistryingtotellyou
something.Letmeaskyouwhatifyouandyourdaughterspentthedayonthebeach,Emilyisinthewater
playingwithaball,whatwouldyoudoiftherewasanaccident?"
"Whatdoyoumeanbyaccident?"Iaskedwarily.
"Whatifshegottoodeepandwereunabletoswim.Wouldyoubeabletoovercomeyourfearofthewaterto
saveyourdaughter,orwouldyouruntothenextpersonyouseeanditmightbetoolate?"
Oh.
RealizationhitmethatImightnotbeabletosavemydaughterbecauseofmystupidfear.Iwouldneverbeable
totakehertothebeachorthepoolbymyself.Iwouldalwaysneedsomeonewithmeincasesomethingwould
happen.
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Emilykickedmeprettyhardthen,andIhadnoideaifitwasbecauseshewasangrywithme,orifshewas
tryingtoreassureme.
Iplacedahandonmybelly,tryingtocalmEmilydown,butitneverworked.TheonlythingthatIknewfor
sureworked,wasinhisofficerightnow.
"Idon'tknow,"Ifinallywhispered.
"Isitwateringeneralthatyou'reafraidof,orisitjustthesea?"
"No,it'spracticallyeverything.Ijustgotovermyfearofbathinginthetub,andIwasabletobeinapool,but
onlywhenEdwardheldme."
"Didhehelpyouwiththetubaswell?"
"No,thatoneIdidallbymyself,"Isaidproudly.
"Good...good.Emilyisn'tdueuntilAugustright?"Dr.MolinaaskedandInodded."Maybeyou,with
Edward'shelp,couldworkonyourfearduringthesummer.Thatwayyouhaveafewmonthstoeaseyouinto
theideaofbeinginthewaterwithoutfeelingscared."
WecontinuedtotalkabouthowIhadbeenabletogetovermyfearinthetub.Shethoughtitwasagoodidea
totryitinalakeorsomethinglikethat,andifthatdidn'twork,wewouldfiguresomethingouttogether.
"Beforeyouleave,Bella,Iwouldliketoknowsomething,"shestarted,lookingatme.Igesturedforherto
continue."Haveyoutoldyourfriendsyet?"
"No,"Imumbled."I'vewrittenonesentencewhichisthreewords."
"Youknow,thingswillprobablybeeasieroncetheyknow.Youjusthavetogetpastthebarrierthat'skeeping
youfromtellingthem."
"Iknow.It'sjustso...hard.Idon'twanttheirpity,butIknowthat'swhatsgoingtohappen."
"Youcan'tknowthat,Bella.That'sthething.Youneedtotakechances,oryou'llgetnowhere."
Iknewshewasright,butIjustneededtotakethatfinalstepandwritethatletter.
BeforeIleftDr.Molina'soffice,wedecidedonanewdayformetovisitheragain.WemovedthisFriday's
meetinguntilthenextFridayinstead.ThatmeantthatIhadoneandahalfweektowritethatletter,becauseI
haddecidedthatIwouldhavedonethatthenexttimeIcame.
Edwardcameandpickedmeupbeforedrivingmehome.Atfirst,heinsistedinstayinghomewithme,butI
toldhimtogetbacktowork.Hehadbeenhomewithmesomuchlatelywithallthedoctor'sappointmentsand
Ididn'twanthimtolosethecompanybystayinghometoomuch.
Imanagedtogetsomeworkdone.ItallfeltoverwhelmingandIcouldn'tconcentratebecauseofEmilykicking
meeveryfivesecond.IhadtotalktoRoseaboutitsinceIwonderedifitwasnormalforababytokickthis
much.Iwouldbeseverelybruisedontheinsideifshewasgoingtocontinuekickinglikethisforanotherfour
months.
EdwardcamehomejustafterIhadputthedinnerintheovenandhadbegunwatchingsomeTV.
"Hey,baby,"hesaid,floppingdownbesidemeonthecouch.Heimmediatelysensedmymood."Areyou
okay?"
"No,"Imuttered."Yourdaughterhasbeenkickingthelifeoutofmeallday."
Heplacedoneofhisbighandsonmybellyandrubbedsoothingcircles.Itfeltgood,butshestillcouldn'thold
backakick.
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"Hey,mylittleangel,"Edwardcooed,bendingdown."Daddy'shomeandIwantyoutobegoodtoyour
mommy."ThenhestartedhummingasongIhadneverheardbefore.
Itmademecry,becausewhenhehadbeenhummingforaminuteorso,Emilystoppedkicking.Iwasjealous,
angryandrelievedatthesametime.
Edwardlookedupatmeandsawthetearsstreamingdownmyface,andtheyinstantlyturnedintosobs.
"Bella,what'swrong?"heaskedworriedly,cuppingmyface.
"I'msuchabadmother,"Iwailed.
"What?"Hechuckled."Bella,you'renotabadmom.Emilycouldn'thaveaskedforabetterone."
"Yes,Iam,"Isaid,frustratedthathecouldn'tunderstand.
"Whywouldyousaythat?"heasked,tryingtokissawaymytears,butitdidn'tworksincenewonescameas
soonastheoldonesweregone.
"Because...becauseallyouhavetodois...saysomethingandshecalmsdown.Me...shejustkicksalldaylong
likeshe'smadatme,"Isniffled.
"She'snotmadatyou,baby,"hesoothed.
"Howdoyouknowthat?"
"BecauseIknowmybaby,andthere'snowayshe'smadatyou."
"Ijustfeelsostupid,"Iadmitted.
"Why?"heasked,wipingawaymytears.
"BecauseI'mjealousofyouandEmily.Iwantabondlikethat,too,"Imumbled,embarrassed.
"Doyouwanttoknowasecret?"heasked,staringintomyeyes.Inoddedmyhead."I'mjealousofyou,too."
What?
Ididn'tunderstand.Whywouldhebejealousofme?Iwastheonewho'sbodychangeddrastically,andIwas
alsotheonewhohadtoputupwithasoreback,swollenfeetandallkindofthings.Itjustdidn'tmakeany
sense.
"Why?"Iasked,confused.
"Becauseyou'retheonewhogetstofeelhereverymove.Yougettofeedher,andkeepherwhileshegrows.
Withoutyou,shewouldn'tevenbeher,shewouldn'tsurvive.You'rehereverything."
"Ittakestwotomakeababy,Edward,soshewouldn'tbehereifitweren'tforyoueither,"Isaidwithasmall
smile.Hehadmanagedtogetmeoutofmysourmoodonceagain.
"Butstill,you'renottheonlyonewho'sjealous."Hekissedmesoftlyonthelips."Iwouldtradeplaceswith
youanytime."
"Iloveyou.Ihopeyouknowthat,"Itoldhimsincerely.
"Iknow,andIloveyou,too,"hesaid,lyinghisheaddowninmylapandstretchinghiswholebodyoverthe
couch."Wouldyoumindscratchingmyhead?"
Ilaughedanddidwhatheasked.Ididdefinitelynotmindhavingmyfingersinhishair.Westayedlikethat
watchingrandomTVandenjoyingeachotherscompanyuntilthetimerwentoffontheoven,lettingusknow
thatthedinnerwasready.
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Afterdinner,EdwardhelpedmecleanupbeforewesatdowninfrontoftheTVagain.Hewassosweetand
rubbedmyfeetforme,anditfeltlikeapieceofheaven.ItfeltsonicethatIfellasleepwhilehediditandwoke
upagainwhenhenudgedme.
"Heythere,sleepyhead,"heteased.
Irubbedthesleepfrommyeyes,butIwasstillastiredasIwaswhenIfellasleep.
"What?I'mtired,"Isaidsleepily.
"Youweretalkinginyoursleepagain,"hesaidsmugly.
Thelookonhisfacesaiditall.Ihadsaidhisname.Eventhoughwekneweachotherprettywellandthatmy
attractionforhimwasn'tasecret,Istillfeltembarrassed.
"WhatdidIsay?"Iasked,feelingtheblushheatmycheeks.
"Oh,Edward,"hemoanedmockingly,leaningintome.
Ilaydownonmybackashepressedfurtherintome,orasfarasmybellyallowed.
Iwrappedmylegsaroundhim,forcinghishipsdownandIfeltthatmymoaningdidhaveaneffectonhimat
least.
"MaybeIjustmisstherealthing,"Isaidinaseductivevoice.
"I'mtotallywithyouonthatone,"hesaid,pressinghislipsforcefullytomine.
Iopenedmymouthtohim,lettinghimexploreeveryinchofminebeforeIjoinedhistongueinaslowdance.I
fumbledwithhistshirt,tryingtogetitoff.Hefinallygotthehintandbrokeawayfromthekisstositupsohe
wouldbeabletotakeitoffforme.
Whenhewasdone,hetuggedonmyshirtsoIsatupslightly,allowinghimtoremoveit.Heeasilyunclasped
mybraintheprocess.
"Fuck,Ineedyou,baby,"hegroaned.
"Ineedyou,too,"Imoaned,tryingtoopenhisjeans.
Thebuttondidn'twanttocomeundone,soIpushedhimaway,causinghimtositbackonthecouchwitha
shockedexpressiononhisface.
"What?Theydidn'twanttocomeoff,"Imumbledandstartedtuggingonthejeansagain.
"Andyoucouldn'tjustaskmenicelytoremovethemforyou?"Hesmirked.
"No,"Isaidwithablush.
"Fuck,Iloveitwhenyoublush,"hesaid,tracingmycheekwithhislongfingers.
Withsomefumbling,Ifinallymangedtogethisjeansoff,andhisboxerssoonfollowed.Istoodupinfrontof
himandheimmediatelypushedmysweatsdownalongwithmypanties.Thatleftbothofuscompletelynaked,
andinsteadoffeelinginsecureaboutmybody,Ifeltsexyandwanted.
Istraddledhislapandpositionedmyselfrightoverhisdick.IlookedhimdeeplyintohiseyesasIslowlyslid
down,feelingeveryinchofhimashefilledmetothehilt.Webothneededafewsecondstoadjust,soIstilled
oncehewascompletelyinsideme.
ItfeltlikeagessinceIhadfelthimlikethis,eventhoughitwasjustafewdaysago.
Hepalmedmyassandstartedmovingmeupanddownslowly.Icouldn'ttaketheslowtortureanymoreand
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startedmovingfaster.
"Shit!"Edwardexclaimed.
Hecuppedmyleftboobinhishandandmovedhismouthtosuckonmynipple.Itwasn'tpainful,anditwasn't
uncomfortable.No,itwasheavenly.
"OhGod,"Imoanedandfistedmyhandsinhishairtopushhisheadclosertome.
IfeltmyselfgettingimpossiblywetterasIslidupanddownhisshaft.MytoescurledwhenIfeltthefamiliar
tighteningfeelinginmystomach.IknewIwasclose,butIdidn'twanttofallovertheedgewithoutEdward.
"I'mclose,"Imoaned,hopinghewastoo.
"Letgoforme,baby,"hesaid,movinghismouthuptomylipsinstead.
HecuppedmyfaceinhisbighandsasImovedabovehim,andtiltedmyheadsohecouldgetabetteraccessto
mymouth.
IstartedmovingasfastasIcouldandourmoaningandgruntingbecamemorefrantic.ThenIfeltmyself
explodearoundhim.
"Oh...Edward!"IscreamedwhenthemostpowerfulorgasmI'vehadinalongtimewashedoverme.
"Jesus,Bella,"hemoaned,grabbingmyhipsbeforehespilledinsideme.
Ihuggedhimascloseaspossiblewhilewecalmeddownfromourorgasms.Wewerebreathinghardanditwas
theonlysoundthatIheardinthequietroom.
ThenIfeltakickandIwasn'tsurprised.
"Ifeltthat,"Edwardmumbledintomyneck.
"SodidI.Doyouthinkshe'sangrywithus?"Iaskedworriedly.
"Forwhat?Lovingeachother?No,shejustwantsherdaddy."
"Shealwayswantsherdaddy,butshehastosharehimwithme,andrightnow,it'smytimetohavehim,"Isaid
andfistedmyhandsinhishairsoIcouldgivehimaproperkiss.
Weeventuallydecidedthatitwastimeforbed.Iwhimperedatthelostwhenhepulledoutofme.IfIhaditmy
way,Iwouldforeverbeconnectedtohimthatway.
"Canyouwalk?"heaskedwithasmuglook.
"Yes."Ismirked,pullingonmypantiesandEdward'stshirtbeforeIstartedwalkingupstairs.
"Ihateitwhenyoucoveryourselfup,"Edwardwhined,followingme.
"Really?"
"Yes.Sleepnakedwithmetonight,"hebegged,embracingmefrombehindoncewehadreachedourbedroom.
"Icanmakeyouacompromise."Ismiled."I'llsleepwithouttheshirt,butthepantiesstayson."
"Why?Thepantiesarejustasmuchinthewayastheshirt."
"Youdon'twanttoknow,"Isaid,blushing.
IhadenoughdiscussingAuntFlowwithhimafewmonthsago,soIwouldn'tgointoexplainingaboutthe
vaginaldischargesIhadbeenhavinglately.SomethingswasbetteroffwithoutEdwardknowingthem.That
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wasoneofthosethings.
"Fine,buttheshirtstaysoff,"hesaidfirmly,grabbingthehemoftheshirtandpulleditoff."Muchbetter."
WewenttosleepafterEdwardhadtalkedtoakickingEmily.Ialwaysenjoyedlisteningtohisoneway
conversationswithourdaughter.HewassoadorableandIhadnodoubtsthathewouldbethegreatestdadin
theworld.
Thenextday,Imetthegirlsupforcoffee.Thistime,Leahtaggedalong.IhadinvitedhersinceIfeltlikeI
neverspentanytimewithher,andthatmademefeelguilty.Ireallylikedherandshefittedsowellwithmy
friends.Besides,itfeltgoodnottobetheonlypregnantwoman.Shewasalreadysixandahalfmonthsalong
withherandJake'sbabyboy.Theykeptthenameasecretfornow,soIhadnoideawhattheywerenaming
him.
"Okay,sowhenarewehavingthebabyshower?"Aliceasked.
IlookedatLeah,notreallyknowingwhoshewasasking.Leahwasfurtheralongthanme,sosheprobably
meanther.
"Oh,I'mnothavingababyshower,"shesaid,holdingupherhandsasiftoprotectherself.
"What?Butbabyshowersaresomuchfun!"Aliceexclaimedlikeitwastheendoftheworld."Thinkofallthe
presentsandgames."
"Well,it'sano,andit'sfinal,"Leahsaiddeterminedly.
ItwasamiraclethatshemanagedtosaynotoAlicewhenshewasn'tevenusedtoherpoutandpuppyeyes.
"Oh,okay,"shesaiddefeated."AtleastIhaveBella'stoplan."
"Yeah,there'snowayyou'regettingoutofthison,Bella,"Rosesaidwithachuckle.
"Iknow,but,Alice,I'mkeepingtheguestlisttoamaximumoffifteenpeople,"Isaidfirmly."Andthat'swith
theguysincluded.Edwardwantstojoin."
"Butwhathappenedto'girlsonly?'"
"It'smybabyshower,somyrules.Youcanplaneverythingelse,butthosearemyconditions."
"Okay,butrememberwhatyousaidIgettoplaneverythingelse,"shesaidwithasmirkandIcouldn'thelp
buttolaughather.Iknewshewouldusethatadvantagetothelimit.
"Oh,Bella!There'sonethingIwantedtotalktoyouabout,"Rosesaid,effectivelychangingthesubject.
"Okay,what?"Iasked.
"Bellyphotos,"shesaidandIlookedatherinconfusion."Youknow,photosofyourpregnantstomach...
pregnantphotos,"shesaid,frustratedwhenshecouldn'tgettherightwordsout.
"Iknowwhatyoumean."Ilaughed."Whataboutthem?"
"DoyouandEdwardplanontakingany?"sheaskedandIshruggedmyshoulder.Wehadneverdiscussed
that."Well,ifyoudo,canIbethephotographer?"
"Ofcourse.You'llalwaysbemynumberonephotographer."Ismiled."I'lltalktoEdwardaboutit."
Ihadn'treallythoughtabouttakingphotos,butwhenRosehadmentionedit,Ireallywantedtodothat.Ifelt
anotherkickthen,ahardoneandbymygrimace,Rosenoticed.
"She'sarealfirecracker,huh?"
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"Shesureis,"Imumbledandstrokedmystomach."Edwardlovesit,butsometimesitjustgetstoomuch,you
know?"
"Iknow.Themengetstojuststandbyandwatchastheirchildisbeingbroughttothisworld,whilewewomen
needstodoalltheworkandtakeallthehits."
"It'ssounfair."
Itfeltlikewewereapairofwhiningwomen,butitfeltgoodtoletitout.Evenbetterwastohavesomeonewho
hadbeenexperiencingthesamething.
"Ofcourseit'sunfair.We'rewomen,"Rosestated.
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"Doyouthinkshe'llfreakout?"Emmettaskedalmostexcitedly.
"Isurehopenot,"Imumbled,wonderingifsheactuallywould."I'mkeepingitanyway."
"Dude,that'sprettypermanent,soIdoubtthatyouhaveanyotherchoiceifyoudon'twanttobescarredforthe
restofyourlife."Jasperchuckled.
"Maybeweshouldallgetone,"Emmettsuggested.
"Fuckno.You'renotstealingmyidea,"Itoldhim.
"MaybeIshouldgetoneonmydick,"hecontinuedlikehehadn'theardme.
BothJasperandIcringed.Icouldn'tevenimaginehowpainfulitwouldbetogetatattoothere.
"Areyouready?"Chris,thetattooartistaskedmeandInoddedmyhead."Okay,youcanlaydownhere."
Iwentovertothebenchandlaydownafterremovingmytshirt.IwassurethatIcouldhandlethepain,butI
wasnervousaboutBella'sreaction.Whatifshereallydidn'tlikeit?
Chrisappliedthestencilrightovermyheartandletmelookatitbeforehewenttowork.EmmettandJasper
stoodovermeandwatchedasChrisworked.Theylookedreallyfascinatedbyit.Itdidn'thurtnearlyasmuch
asIhadexpectedittodo,andforthatIwasgrateful.
"Okay,alldone,"Chrissaidandputawayhisgear."YoucantakealookinthemirrorbeforeIcoverit,ifyou
want."
"Thanks,"Isaidandgotup.
Thetattoowasabsolutelyperfect.Isabellawaswritteninabeautifulscript,rightovermyheart.
Chrisputonabigbandaidoverthetattooandgavemesomeinstructionsonhowtotakecareofit.Ipaidforit
andthenJasper,EmmettandIwenttoabarforabeer.
Isleptinashirtthatnight.Bellagavemeaweirdlook,butsheneversaidanything.Itwasn'tlikeIdidn'twant
hertoseeit,Ijustwantedittohealfirst.Besides,shewouldprobablybeinshockonceshesawit,soIhadto
timeitright.
BellafoundoutaboutitonFridaynightwhenwewerefoolingaround.Justlikealways,shetriedtotakeoffmy
shirtandwithoutthinkingaboutit,Iremoveditforher.Shegaspedwhenshesawit.
"Wha...Edward,myname...is...God,myname,"shestutteredandgracedherfingersovertheareawithout
touchingtheactualtattoo.
"Myheartwillalwaysbelongtoyou,Bella,"Itoldhersincerely.
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Ilookedherintheeyesandsawastearswelledup.
"It'sso...beautiful."
"Youreallylikeit?You'renotmadatme,areyou?"Iasked.
"No,Iloveit.WhywouldIbemadatyou?Youjustwrotemyfreakingnameoveryourheart,"shesaidand
pressedherlipstomine.
"Idid."Ichuckledagainstherlips.
"Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too."
Wehadmadelovetwotimesafterthat,soIthinkitwassafetosaythatshelikedthetattooafterall.
Today,weweregoingtobabysitLilyoverthenight.Iwasnervousashell,Imean,itwasforafullnightand
whatifsomethinghappenedandIwouldn'tknowwhattodo?
EmmettandRosecamebyafterdinnertodropoffLily.Shewas,fortunately,sleepingpeacefullyinhercar
seat.Shelookedsofragileandinnocent.
"Okay,givemeyourphone,Emmett,"Isaid,reachingoutmyhand.
"What?Fuckno,"heansweredandwasrewardedwithaslapinthebackofhisheadfromRoseandevilstares
fromBella.
Language,dude.
"Yes.Lasttimewebabysat,youcalledeveryfiveminute,makingLilyallfussy.Now,handmeyourphone."
"That'snotfair.Whydon'tyoutakeRosie'sphone?I'mLily'sdad,Ishouldbeallowedtocallafewtimes."
"Itwasyourideatogiveherawayfromthenight,nowfacetheconsequences,"Rosesaid.
"Babe,I'msureyouwon'tcomplainoncethenightisover."Emmettsmirked,wagglinghiseyebrows.
"Thenhandhimyourphone,"shesaid,gesturingtowardme.
Ismirkedashereluctantlygavemehisphone.
"Wipethatgrinoffyourface.Therewillbepayback,Eddie."
"Idon'tdoubtit,"Isaid,stillwithagrinonmyface."ButI'llhavesomethingplannedbythen."
Theysaidatearfulgoodbyetotheirsleepingdaughterandmorethanoncetoldushowtousethetravelbed,her
bottlesandthecarseat.Itwasfunnytowatch,butIhadthefeelingthatIwouldbethesame,ifnotworse,when
mydaughterwasborn.IfIwouldevenletanyonebabysit,thatis.
"It'ssosad,"Bellasniffled,puttingherarmsaroundmywaistwhenEmmettandRosehadleft.
"What'ssad,baby?"
"HowtheysaidgoodbyetoLily.Itwasliketheywouldneverseeheragain."
"Theywill.It'stheirfirstnightawayfromher,sothey'rejustworried.Besides,theyaskedustotakecareof
Lily,nottheotherwayaround."
"Butit'sstillsosad,"shemumbled.
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WeletLilysleepandcarriedherupstairstoourbedroomsothatwecouldputupherbed.Itwasatightfitin
oursmallbedroom,buteventuallyImadeit.Bellahadwantedtohelp,butItoldhernosinceitwasmore
frustratingtobetwothandoingitalone.Instead,shetriedtokeepElsafromlickingLily'sface.Elsawasso
excitedthatyoucouldalmostbelieveshehadgottenanewtoy.
WhenIunbuckledLily'sseatbeltsothatIcouldputherinthebedinstead,shewokeup,fullycrying.
"WhatdidIdo?"Iaskedmyself,fistingmyhairlikethatwouldmakeeverythinggoaway.
"What?"Bellaasked,steppingoutfromthebathroom.
"ShestartedcryingwhenIpickedherup."
"Whydidyoupickherup?"
"Ithoughtitwouldbemorecomfortableforhertosleepinthebedinsteadofthecarseat."
"Maybeweshouldjustlethersleepwherevershefallsasleepfromnowon,"Bellasaidthoughtfully."It'sokay,
justpickherup.I'msureshejustwantstobeheld."
"Okay,"IsaidandpickedupacryingLilyintomyarms.
Ikeptbouncingherlightlyinmyarms,butshedidn'tstopcrying.Ieventriedhumming,andeventhoughit
calmedherdownsomewhat,shewasstillcrying.
"Let'sgodownstairsandI'llprepareabottleforher.Maybeshe'shungry,"Bellasaid,strokingLily'shead.
IhadnoideawhatIwoulddowithoutBella.Icouldn'tunderstandhowshecouldthinkofherselfasabad
mother.SheknewalmostexactlywhattodowithLily,whileIstillhadalottolearn.
WhenBellahadpreparedthebottleforLily,herphonewentoff.Itdidn'ttakemuchtoguesswhoitwas,and
judgingbytheeyerollBelladid,sheknewwhoitwasaswell.
"Hello,"sheanswered."She'sfine...Edward'sfeedingher...Yes,she'sbeensleepinguntilrecently...Ipromise
she'sfineandifanythingcomesup,I'llcall...Yes,Ipromise...Okay,bye."
"Rose?"Iaskedwhenshehadhungup.
"Yes,andsoitbegins,"Bellaansweredwithalaugh.
IlookeddownatLilyinmyarms,eatingherformulaliketherewasnothingwrongintheworld.
"You'remommyanddaddyworriestoomuch,"Itoldherandkissedherforehead.
WehadonlyhadLilyfortwohourswhenIstartedgettingbored.Eventhoughshecried,wantingtobeheld,or
atealot,Ihadstillexpectedsomuchmorework.
"Doyouwanttotakeawalkorsomething?I'msickofjustsittinghere,waitingforhertoeatorpoop,"I
mutteredtoBellawhilewesatonthecouch,watchingrandomTV.
Bellachuckledandgavemeakissonmycheek."Sure.I'lljustgoandgetElsawhileyouprepareLily."
"Or,wecouldjustdoittheotherwayaround,"IsaidsinceIwasmorecomfortableinputtingonElsa'sleach
thanpreparingafragilebaby.
Ittookusalmosttwentyminutestogeteverythingreadybeforewewereabletogetoutside.IpushedLilyinher
strollerwhileBellawalkedbesideme,holdingElsa'sleach.ThiswashowIpicturedmyfutureBellaandme,
walkingwithourdogandourbabythroughthepark.Maybesomedaywewouldhaveanotherbabyjoiningus.
Itwaspictureperfect.
"MyfeethurtsandIneedtopee,"Bellawhined,interruptingmythoughts.
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Wehadonlybeenoutsideforbarelyfortyminutes,andshewasalreadytired.
"Youalwaysneedtopee,"Istated,lookingdownather.
"Well,that'syourfault,"shemuttered.
"Howisthatmyfault?"Iasked,cockingmyeyebrows.
"Youputababyinsidemewho'sputtingpressureonmybladder."Shesmirked.
"Goandtakealeakinthewoods.I'llkeepaneyeoutforyou,"Itoldher.
"Takealeak?Inthewoods?Seriously,Edward?"sheasked."Iwantmyownbathroomandmyowntoilet,
thankyouverymuch."
"You'retoopicky,"Iteased.
Westartedwalkingbackhomeafterthat,andassoonaswewereinsidethefrontdoor,Bellarushedtothe
bathroomonthefirstfloor.Itmademechuckle.
Lilywassleepingpeacefullyonceagain,onlythistime,Iletherstayinthestrollerinsteadofpickingherup.I
hadlearnedfrommymistakethelasttime.Ididhowevertrytotakesomeofherclothesoffsoshewouldn'tget
toohot.
Ilefthertherebythedoorandwalkedintothelivingroom.Wewouldbeabletohearherfromthere,soIdidn't
seeanyproblemswithit.Isatdownonthecouchandputonthesport'schannelonTV.
Bellafoundmealittlelater,butinsteadofsittingdownbesideme,shestraddledmylapandstartedkissingme.
MyhandsearchedfortheremotecontrolandwhenIfoundit,IturnedtheTVoffandliftedBellaupsoIcould
layherdownonherbackinstead.
Igaveherapassionatekissonherlips,devouringhersweettaste.Icouldn'tgetenoughofherandIwantedall
ofher.
"Edward,"shemoanedintomymouthwhenIgracedthesideofhertit."Please."
"Pleasewhat,baby?"Iteased.
"Touchme."
Ididn'tneedanythingelse,andpushedmyhandunderneathhershirttocupherlovelytitinmypalm.Itriedto
begentlesinceIknewthatshewassore,butIwaseagertotouchthem.Shedidn'tcomplain,though,soI
continued.
Shetuggedonmyshirt,soIletgoofhertoremoveit.Justasmyhandsmadetheirwaybacktowonderland,
Lilystartedcrying.
"Fuck,"Icursed."Andsothecockblockingbegins."
"OhGod,"Bellamoanedinahorrifiedvoice."Wewerejustabouttohavesexwhilethere'sababyinour
house."
"Bella,therewillbeababyinourhouseforaverylongtimeinafewshortmonths.Areyousayingthatwe'll
neverhavesex?"
"No,that'snotwhatI'msaying.Ijust...itfeelsbadsomehow."
"Well,getusedtoitbecauseIwon'tgowithoutsexforeighteenyears,that'sforsure."
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"You'resuchaguy,"shesaidwithagiggle."IshouldgocheckonLily."
"Admitit,youwouldn'tbeabletodothateither,"Iarguedwithapout.
"Wanttobet?"shechallenged.
"Hellno,"Imumbled.
IrubbedmyfacewithmypalmsbeforeIpulledonmyshirtandfollowedBella.WhenIfoundher,shewas
changingLily'sdiaperinthebathroombesidethesink.Istoodinthedoorway,watchingherwithLily.
"Aren'tyouAuntBella'ssweetangel,"shecooedandnuzzledhernoseagainstLily's."Yes,youare."
ItcausedLilytomakeagurglingnoiseandmysmilealmostmademyfacehurt.Theyweresocutetogether.
Isteppedforwardthen,sittingdownonthetoiletlidandwatchedasBellaputonanewdiaper.
"Baby,don'teversaythatyou'llbeahorriblemom,"Itoldher,andshelookedatmewithasurprised
expression."You'regoingtobeagreatmom,ifnotthegreatest."
"Youreallythinkso?"sheaskedwithtearyeyes.
"Iknowso,"Isaidfirmlyandstooduptogiveherakiss.
"Thankyou,"shewhisperedandturnedherfocusbacktoLily.
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IwascompletelyexhaustedonceIlaymyheaddownonthepillow.IhadnoideahowIwouldbeableto
manageEmilyifshewasanythinglikeLily.Sure,Iwasn'talone,butEdwardwouldgobacktoworkandI
wouldbehome,takingcareofourdaughteruntilhecameback.
"Fuck,I'mtired,"Edwardmumbledandlaydownbesideme.
Iwastootiredtocareabouthislanguage.Instead,IjustscootedovertohimandsnuggledasclosetohimasI
possiblycould.
"Yourmomiscomingdownnextweekend,andthemmymomandPhilwillvisittheweekendafterthat,"Isaid
withayawn.
"So,whatyou'resayingisthatIwon'tgetapeacefulweekendinthreeweeks?"hegrunted.
"That'sright."Isighed."Andthenthere'sthebabyshower,yourbirthday,ourweddingandthen...Emily."
"Wehaveabusytimeaheadofus,"hestated.
WefellasleepshortlyafterEdwardhadhistalkwithourdaughter.Assoonasheembracedme,Iwasoutina
matterofseconds.
IwokeuptoLily'scryingforthesecondtimethatnight.Foronce,IwasfinallyabletosleepdespiteEmily's
movements,andthenwehadanotherbabywakingmeupinstead.
"Edward,"Iwhined,myvoicethickwithsleep."It'syourturn."
"Mm,"hemoaned,snugglingclosertomeandnuzzledhisnoseinthecrookofmyneck.
"SeriouslyEdward,I'mtiredandIwentthelasttime,"Igroaned.
"Fine,"hehuffed,givingmeasoftkissbeforehegotoutfrombed.
IimmediatelyknewwhenhepickedupLilybecausethecryingturnedintowhimpersinstead.Whenheleftthe
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room,alongwithLilyandthenoise,itdidn'ttakelongformetofallbacktosleep.
Ididn'twakeupagainuntilLilycriedagain.Edwarddidn'tevenstirandsinceIfeltEmilykick,IknewIwould
neverbeabletogobacktosleepsoIgotupandpickedacryingLilyupfromherbed.
"It'sokay,baby,"Icooedandbouncedherlightly.
Itiredlywalkedusdownthestairsandtothekitchenwhereherbottleswere.ItfeltlikeIhadbeenpreparing
hundredsofbottlesduringthelasttwelvehours,soIknewtheroutineperfectly.
WhenLily'sbottlewasready,Iwalkedovertothecouchandsatdown.ItwasalittleawkwardtoholdLilyin
myarmssincemybellytooksomuchspace,butImanagedit.
"You'resobeautiful,"ImurmuredtoLily,lookingintoherblueeyeswhilesheate.
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Iwokeupinacoldandemptybed.Bellawasnowheretobeseen,andwhenIlookedintoLily'sbed,itwas
empty.IwonderedwhenshewokeupbecauseIhadn'theardit,oratleastIcouldn'trememberhearinghercry.
IwenttothebathroomtodomymorningroutinebeforeIwenttolookforBellaandLily.ElsametmewhenI
camedownfromthestairsandstartedbarkingatme.
"Justaminute,Elsa.Ineedtofindyourmommyfirst,"Itoldher,figuringshewantedhermorningwalk.
Iwentintothekitchen,butBellawasn'tthere.Instead,IfoundhersleepingonthecouchwithLilyinherarms.
LilyhadhersmallheadinthecrookofBella'sneckandBella'slonghairwasalmostlikeablanketoverLily's
face.TheybothlookedsoadorableandIcouldn'thelpbuttosmileatthem.
IsatdownbesideBellaandputmyarmaroundthem.
"It'stimetowakeup,baby,"IsaidandkissedBellaonhertemple.
"No,"shegroanedandleanedintome.
"Yes,itis.EmmettandRosewillprobablybeheresoon."
"What?"sheasked,suddenlyfullyawake."Whattimeisit?"
"Almostninethirtyinthemorning,"IansweredjustasLilystartedwhimpering.
"Wow.Isleptforthatlong?"Bellaasked,rubbingsoothingcirclesonLily'sback.
"Idon'tknowwhenyougotup,butIguessyoudid."Ikissedheragain."Doyouwantmetofixabottlebefore
ItakeElsaout?"
"No,Icandoit,butmaybeyoucouldfixLily'sbedwhenyougetback?"
"Sure.Iloveyou,"IsaidandgotupfromthecouchtotakeElsaoutside.
ItookElsaoutforhershortmorningwalkandthenfoldedLily'sbedbacktogether.Itwasasmartbed,butI
hadnomemorythatmeandBellaboughtoneforEmily.
JustasIhadgatherallofLily'sthingsbythedoor,thedoorbellrang.
"Baby,they'rehere!"Icalled.
"I'mcoming!"sheyelledback.
IopenedthedoorandrevealedaveryhappylookingEmmettandRose.Iguessedtheirdatehadgoneas
planned.
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"Where'smybaby?"Emmettsaidandpushedpastme.
"Wesoldhertothehighestbidder,"Ijoked,butBellachosethatmomenttoappearwithLily,crushingmy
joke.
"There'smybaby.HowhasUncleEddiebeentreatingyou,huh?"EmmettcooedashetookLilyfromBella's
arms.
"Seriously?You'vebeencallingmeUncleEddie?"Iasked.
"Getusedtoitbecauseshe'sgoingtogrowup,knowingyoubythatname,"Rosewarnedwithasmilebefore
takingLilyfromEmmett'sarms.
"Hellno,mynameisEdward,"Iargued.
"ToLily,you'reUncleEddie,"Emmettsaidsmugly.
"Fine,UncleEmmy."
"Seriously,whatareyou?Fiveyearsold?"Bellaaskedwithalaugh.
"Hestartedit,"Imumbledandhuggedher.
ThehousefeltsobigandquietwhenEmmettandRosehadtakenLilywiththem.Evenifwe'veonlyhadher
forafewhours,Ihadgrownusedtoherandthesoundsshemade.
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"So,thereasonwewantedtoseeyoutodayisbecause...wehavesomethingtoannounce,"Istarted.
ItwasWednesdayandEdwardandIhadinvitedoursmallgrouptohaveatalk.Itwassomethingwehadbeen
discussingforawhilenow,soitwouldfeelgoodtofinallyannouncethedecision.
"What?Whatisit?"Aliceasked,barelyabletocontainherself.
Jasperputanarmaroundherandshelookedathimapologeticallyandcalmeddowninherseat.Jaspernodded
formetocontinue.
"WewantedtoaskyouifyouwantedtobeEmily'sgodparents...allofyou,"Isaid,lookingaroundoursmall
group."WewouldbehonoredifJasperandAlicewouldbethefirstgodparents,andifbysomechanceyou
wouldn'tbeabletotakecareofourbaby,RoseandEmmettcouldtakeover."
"Sowhatyou'resayingisthatyouwantJasperandAlicetobethealphagodparents,andmeandRosetobethe
betagodparents?"Emmettsaid.
"Prettymuch,yeah,"Isaidnervously.Noonehadactuallysaidyesyet,anditwasmakingmeanxious.
"Wow,that'sprettyfuckingsmart,"hesaid,earningaglarefromRose."Whydidn'twethinkofthat,babe?"
"Becausewe'resomuchsmarterthanyou,"Edwardsaidsmugly,leaningbackandplacinghisarmaroundmy
shoulder.
Ipunchedhimplayfully."So,doyouaccept?"
"Ofcourse!"Aliceshriekedandstooduptogiveusahug."Wewouldbehonored."
"Sowouldwe,"Rosesaidwithasmile.
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A/N:So,thegodparentshavebeenannounced.Thereweresomanywishesfromyou
readers,butItriedtodomybest.TherewerepracticallyatiebetweenRoseand
Emmett,andAliceandJasper.
Anyway...Don'tforgetFacebook.I'llpostteasersandothernewsthereduringthe
week!
Also,ifyouwantsomethingtokillyoutimewithuntilnextSunday,youcouldalways
checkoutmynewstoryifyouhaven'talreadydonethat:)
Chapter2willbepostedonWednesday!
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A/N:I'mbackwithyetanotherchapter!
Thequoteinthelastchapterwasfrom'Titanic':
"It'ssounfair.
Ofcourseit'sunfair.We'rewomen."
Newchapterequalsnewquote!
ThankstoKris10Skimmerforhelpingmeout!
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Ilookedoverthetable,adjustingthecandlessotheywereintheexactrightposition.Ididn'twantanythingto
beoutofplacetonight.
Thetimerontheovenwentoff,lettingmeknowthatthepotatoesweredone.Itookthemoutandplacedthem
ontwoplatesbesidethestakes.Itlookedtastefultome,soIsmiledtomyselfandwenttoputthemonthetable.
EverythinginthekitchenlookedfinesoIwenttolookmyselfinthemirrorforthelasttime.Ihadonagolden
blazer,awhitetanktopandapairoftightjeans.Iusuallydidn'tdressthisfancywhileIwasjustathome,butI
wantedtonighttobesomewhatspecial.
Myphonevibratedinmypocket,indicatingthatIhadatext.Ismiled,hopingitwouldbeEdward.Itwas.
Goingoutwiththeboys.Don'twaitup.xE
Oh.
Ihadn'texpectedthatone,butofcoursehehadalifeoutsidemeandEmily.Ihadjustassumedthathewould
behomejustlikeanyotherFriday.IcouldhaveaskedhimifhewasandIwouldn'tbestandingtherelikea
fool,alldressedupwithafancymealonthetable.
Iwasn'tmad,butIwasdisappointedsinceIhadbeenlookingforwardtothisdate,orwhateveryouwantedto
callit,forafewdays.ItwassupposedtobeasurprisesothatwasthemainreasontowhyIhadn'ttoldEdward.
Hehadbeensokindandpatientwithmeeversincewemet,andIwantedtoshowhimhowmuchIappreciate
him.
IneveransweredEdward'stext.Instead,Iputthedinnerintoplasticboxesandplacedtheminthefridge.We
couldeatthatsomeotherday.IfelttearsrollingdownmycheeksasIdidthedishes,butIdidn'tunderstand
whysinceIwasn'tmadoranything.
Emilyprobablywantsherdaddyandshowsthatbycryingthroughmyeyes.
Yes,thatwasprobablyit,IdecidedandletthetearsflowwhileIfinishedinthekitchen.
WhenIwasalldone,IdecidedtogotobedsinceitwaslateandEdwardhadtoldmenottowaitupanyway.
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Besides,whatwastheretowaitfor?Agoodnightkissandhistalkwithhisdaughter.EventhoughIwanted
that,itcouldwait.
Istood,cladonlyinpanties,infrontofthefulllengthmirrorinourclosetandstaredatmyself.Ifyoulookedat
mefromstraightforward,youcouldn'tseemuchexceptforapoutingbellybutton.IfIturnedtotheside,
though,youcoulddefinitelyseethatIwaspregnant.EventhoughIhadn'tgainedthatmuchweight,youcould
stillseeititlookedlikeIhadswollenavolleyball.
Myfeetandfingerswereswollen,andsowasmyfaceifyoulookedreallyclose.Thebreastwereatotal
differentstory.Theylookedalienandtheywerealotbiggerthantheyhadbeensixmonthsago.
Sighing,IgrabbedEdward'soldtshirtandputitonbeforeIwenttobed.MyfeetwerelikeusualfreezingsoI
hadtoputonapairofsocksaswell.
Verysexyindeed.
Sineitwastoouncomfortablelyingonmyback,andlyingonmystomachwasinfactimpossible,Ihadtosettle
forlyingonmyside.IhatedthatIcouldn'tchoosefreelyinwhichpositionIcouldsleep.
EmilykickedlikecrazyonceIhadfinallymanagedtofindacomfortablepositiontosleepin.Itriedtocomfort
herbystrokingmybelly,butitdidn'tseemtoworkverywell.
"Pleasestop,"Isobbed,notabletotakeitanymore."Daddyisn'tcominghomesoonerjustbecauseyou're
kickingthelifeoutofme."
Ipulledthecoveruptomynoseandcriedsilentlyintothefabric.IcriedbecauseIwasexhausted,tiredandsick
ofbeingpregnantandwantedthebabytomagicallypopoutalready.ButIcriedmostlybecauseImissed
Edwardandwantedhimbesideme.TonightwasthefirstnightsincehewasinLondonthatItriedtogoto
sleepwithouthim.
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Isilentlyopenedthedoorandsneakedinside.Itwasaftertwelveo'clockinthenightsoIdoubtedthatBella
wouldstillbeawakeandIdidn'twanttowakeherupbyslammingthefrontdoor.
ThebedroomwasblackwhenIreacheditandItriedmybesttofindthewaytothebathroomwithoutturning
thelightson.BellaneverstirredorsaidanythingsoIfiguredshewasasleepafterall.
AfterIhadhurriedlydonemynightlyroutine,Ileftthebathroomandwenttothebed.WhenIfinallywas
underneaththecovers,andwasabouttoreachoutforBella,allmyhandwasmetwithwasairandacold
mattress.
Whatthefuck?
IsatuponmyelbowsandtryingtogetmyeyesusedtothedarknesssoIcouldseeher.Eventually,Isawher
forminthebed,lyingasfarawayfrommeaspossible.Thatwasstrangesincesheusuallysleptinthemiddleof
thebed,afraidoffallingdownontothefloor,andofwhatcouldbelurkingunderthebed.ThatwaswhyI
didn'tunderstandwhyshewaslyingsoclosetotheedgetonight.
Iscootedclosertoherandsawthatshewasalmostcoveredcompletelybythecover.Allthatwasstickingout
washernoseandhair.
WhenImovedmyhandtoherstomachtosaygoodnighttomybabygirl,IwasmetbyBella'shands.Thatwas
whenInoticedthatshewascurledupintoaballoratleastshetriedtosinceshehadabellyintheway
clutchingherstomach.
SinceIdidn'twanttowakeherupbymovingherhands,Isettledwithawhisperintothedark.
"Goodnight,mypreciousgirls."
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IplacedakissonBella'stempleandsettledinbehindher,lettingoneofmyownhandsjoinhersoverour
daughter.
IwokeupslightlywhenIfeltBellashiftinmyarms.Ipeekedmyeyesopen,buttheyweretootiredtoopenall
theway.
"Edward,youneedtoletmegobeforeIwetthebed,"Bellawhisperedandtuggedonmyarm.
Ireluctantlyeasedmygriponherandfeltasthecoldairhitmybody.Ipulledthethickcoverupandwaitedfor
Bellatoreturn.ShetooktoolongandIeventuallygrewtootiredtowaitanylonger.
Iwokeagain,butnottothesightIwantedtowakeupto.Bellawasnowherenearandthebedwascoldsoshe
hadn'tbeenhereforawhile.
Itiredlygotupfrombedanddidmymorningroutinebeforesearchingformywife.Shewasn'tinthekitchen,
norinthebasement.Isearchedthewholebottomfloorandcameupwithnothingbutaneagerdogrunningat
myfeet.ThatalsomeantthatBellawasn'toutwithElsa,sowherecouldshebe?
"Baby?"Icalledout,butdidn'tgetanyresponse.
Iwasstartingtogetfrustrated.Ifshehadgoneout,shecouldatleasthaveleftanote,sayingwhereshewas,
andifshewasinsidethehouse,shecouldanswermesoIdidn'thavetoworrythatshehadpassedoutor
anything.
"Elsa,chillforasec,wouldyou?"Itoldthedog,annoyedbyherrunningaround."I'lltakeyououtina
minute."
Iwalkedupstairs.ItwastheonlyplaceIhadn'tlookedforBellasoshehadbettergottobethere.Shewasn'tin
ourbedroom,ofthatIwassuresincethatwastheplaceIhadstartedlooking.
Eventually,Ididfindher.AtthelastplaceIlooked,ofcourseoneoftheguestroomsthatheldallthebaby
stuff.Bellahadn'tnoticedmesoIstoodinthedoorwayandwatchedasshelookedoverallthethings,allthe
whileholdingahandonhertummy.
Shewaslookinggorgeousinherjeansandcardigan.Shealwayslookedgorgeous,butseeingherinjeanshad
becomeararitylately.
"Baby,whatareyoudoing?"Iaskedandsteppedinside,wrappingmyarmsaroundherandfeltasEmily
kickedme.Thosemomentswerealwaysprecioustome.
"Iwasjustlookingoverallthestuff,youknow,preparingorwhatever."sheshruggedhershouldersand
wriggledfreefrommyembrace.
"Doyouwanttoknowsomethingfunny?"Bellaaskedwithahumorlesschuckle.
"What?"Isighed,disappointedthatsheapparentlydidn'twanttobeinmyarmsthismorning.
"Ihadsexfor,what?Twomonths?BeforeIfellpregnant.Itmakesmequestionthepill,"shehuffed.
"So?"
Wewerehavingadaughter,soIreallydidn'tseewhyshewassobitteraboutit.Allyouhadtothinkaboutwas
theoutcomeEmily,whoalreadymeanttheworldtome,justlikehermother.
"So?Ihaven'tbeenenjoyingjustsexenough,andsoonyouwon'tevenwanttohavesexwithmeanditwill
takemonthsbeforeIgettohaveitagain,"shesaidastearsstartedrollingdownhercheeks.
"Whatareyoutalkingabout,baby?Whywouldn'tIwanttohavesexwithyou?"IaskedasIforcedhertolook
atme.
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"BecauseI'mgoingtolookedlikeahippo,Ialreadydo,andwhowantstohavesexwiththat?"shewailed.
"Justleavemealoneforawhile."
Shegrabbedmyhandsthatwascuppingherfaceandwalkedoutoftheroom.Ijuststoodthere,stunnedinto
silence.
Whatthefuckjusthappened?
Wehadbeenhavingthisconversationoverandoveragain,butshehadneverwalkedoutonitbefore.
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"Bella,baby,pleaseopenthedoor,"EdwardpleadedfromoutsidethebathroomdoorwhereIhadlocked
myselfin.
WhywasIactingsoimmature?Ihadnoidea.IjusthadoneofthosedayswhenIfeltliketheugliestgirlalive,
andIdidn'twantEdwardtotouchme.Hewouldjustfeelallmywobblybitsandthenrunoutthroughthefront
doortofindaskinniergirl.
"No,yourparentswillbehereanysecondsoIneedtogetready,"Ifinallyanswered,anditwastrue,they
wouldturnupanyminutenow.
"You'realreadyready,Bella.Now,openthedamndoor,"Edwardsaidmorefirmlyandpoundedonthelocked
door.
"No,Idon'twantyoutotouchme,andyousayingthatIdon'tlookugly,isn'tgoingtohelpthistime,"Isaid,
buttheendofthesentencewascutshortduetotheloudwhimperthatescapedmewhenEmilykickedme
harderthanshehadeverdonebefore.
"Thatwasmybabygirlkickingyou,wasn'tit?"Edwardaskedknowingly."Shewaskickingforme.Shewants
hermommytoopenthedoorsoshecanbewithherdaddy."
Hewasplayingunfairanddirty.Hehadneverdonethatbefore,notatthatlevelatleast.Hewasprobably
planningonmakingmeopenthedoorfromguilt,butitwasn'tgoingtohappen.
"Idon'tcarehowmuchyoukick,you'rehavingadaddybreakrightnow,"Iwhispered,lookingdownatmy
stomachasEmilykickedagain."No."
"Baby,please,"Edwardtriedagain.
Istartedcryingthen.BigtearsrolleddownmycheeksasIstaredatmyreflectioninthebathroommirror.Ifelt
guilty,justlikeEdwardprobablyhadplannedsoIwouldopenthedoor.Justlikelastnight,Ifeltexhaustedof
thepregnancyandIwouldcutmyrighthandoffifthatmeantthatEmilywouldpopout,withoutanypainatall,
atthisexactmoment.
Iheardasmallbarkfromoutsidethedoor,indicatingthatElsawasthere.
"See?Evenourdogwantsyoutocomeout,"Edwardsaidwithadefeatedvoice.
"Don'tbringElsaintothis,Edward.Shejustwantsherwalkorsomefood.Please,justleavemealonefora
minuteandI'llcomeoutwhenI'mready,"Itoldhim.
Iheardhimhuff,butIalsoheardashesteppedawayfromthedoor.Icouldn'tlovehimmorethanIdidatthat
momenthegavemesomemuchneededspacewhenheclearlydidn'twantto.
Ihuncheddown,cryingintomyhands,bythetubandrestedmybackagainstit.Ifeltsohopeless,andmy
wholebeingfeltoutofcontrol.Icouldnolongercontrolanythingaboutmybodyoremotions,anditwas
exhausting.WhenIfirstgotpregnant,IhadthoughtIwouldjustgainsomeweightandgetabiggerstomach,
butno,therewassomuchmorethanthat.Moviesdidn'tevencomeclosetodescribingit.
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"Bella,sweetie?"IheardEsmeasksoftlywhileknockinglightlyonthedoor.
Shit,howlonghadIbeeninhere?
"Yeah?"Icroakedout.
"Areyouokayinthere?"sheasked,soundingjustlikeamotherandIstartedcryingagain.
"No,"Iwhimpered,feelingembarrassedaboutmyoutburst.
"Wouldyoumindopeningthedoorforme,honey?It'sjustmeouthere.Edward'stakingElsaoutforher
walk."
Withsomeeffort,ImanagedtogetupfromthefloortounlockthedoorforEsme.Shewasstandingtherewith
sympatheticeyesbeforesheembracedme,makingmecryharder.
"I'msorry,"Isobbed.
"Shh,it'sokay,Bella.Comeon,let'stalk,"shesaid,leadingmetothebedwhereshesatdown,takingmedown
withhersoIwassittingbesideher."Tellmewhat'swrong."
"Ifeelugly,Emilykicksthelivingdaylightoutofme,I'mhungryallthetime,mybackissore,Icryoverthe
tiniestthingsandontopofthat,Ineedtopeeeveryfiveminutes.DoIneedtogoon?"Irambledthroughmy
tears."Iwantthebabytocomealready.Idon'twanttobepregnantanymore.IwantEdwardtoseemeassexy
insteadofabigelephantwithabigstomach."
"I'vebeenthere,"Esmesaidwithanod."Letmetellyou,themomentthebabyisout,andImeanthevery
second,andthedoctorsplacethebabyonyourchest,it'sthebestfeelingintheworld.I'venotexperienced
anythinglikethat,ever,andit'sworthallthedownsidesofthepregnancy.Eversingleone,Ipromise."
"Really?Becauserightnow,IwouldgiveanythingfortradingplaceswithEdward,"Imumbledanddriedmy
tearsawaywithmypalm.
"Ipromise,I'llevenbetallmysavingsonthat,"sheansweredwithasmile.
"Willyoubethere?"Isniffled.
"Bewhere?"
"Forthedelivery."
"Ifyouwantmeto.Icouldcomehereandlivewithyouintheveryendofthepregnancy.ThatwayIwouldn't
missit."Icouldtellthatshewaspracticallyjumpingoutofjoy.
Inoddedmyheadandhuggedherhard."Thankyou."
"IwoulddoanythingforyouandEdward,andmygranddaughter.Speakingofwhich,wehavesomeshopping
todotoday!"
YoucouldreallytellthatEdwardwashersontheybothcouldeasilyturnmeintoagoodmoodagain,
quickly,andIfoundmyselflaughingather.
"Yeah,butIneedtoapologizetoEdwardfirst,"Imumbled.
"You'reright.Helookedcompletelyheartbrokenbefore.Whatexactlydidyoudo?"sheaskedgently,standing
up.
"Ijustfeltso...Idon'tknow.Uglyandfat,andhejustkepttouchingme.Ididn'tfeelcomfortableandIdidn't
wanttohearhimsayhowsexyandbeautifulIwas,becauseIdidn'tfeellikethatsoitwouldbealllies.So,I
lockedmyselfintothebathroom,andtherestyouknow."
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Esmecuppedmycheeksandstartedintomyeyes."Menhaveatendencytothinkthatheirgirlfriends,orwives,
looksverybeautifulwhilecarryingtheirchild.So,Idon'tthinkitwouldbealllies."
"Really?Why?"
"I'mnotamansoI'msorrytotellyouthatIcan'tanswerthatone,"sheansweredwithachuckle."Comeon,
theboysarewaitingdownstairs."
"Okay,I'mjustgoingtocleanupabitfirst.I'llbedowninasec,"Itoldherandwentbacktothebathroom.
Myeyeswereredandswollenfromcrying,soIsplashedsomewaterinmyface,hopingitwouldfadeawaya
bit.IdraggedthebrushthroughmyhairafewtimesbeforeIfinallywentdownstairs.
Edwardwasstandingbythedoor,lookingsullenwithhisarmscrossedoverhischest.Ifeltsorryforhim,for
puttingupwithmeandmycrazyhormones,soIwalkedovertohimandwrappedmyarmsaroundhim.Iheld
himastightasIcoulddespitemystomachandhisarmsbeingintheway.
"I'msorry,"Imumbledintohischest.
Heletoutabigsighbeforehereleasedhisarmsandwrappedthemaroundme.
"Don'teverdothatshitagain.Youcan'trunoutonmelikethat,"hesaidsternly.
"IpromiseIwon'tdoitagain,"Isaiddesperately.
"Andyouneedtotalktomeifsomethingisbotheringyou,okay?"
"Okay."Inoddedmyheadandhegavemylipsalightpeck.
"So,howdidmymomdo?"
"She'sanangelsentfromheaven."Ismiledupathim.
"Thatshesureis.Comeon,they'rewaitingforusinthecar."
Igotmycoatandshoesonbeforewesteppedoutside.Ilookedforwardtofinallygettingthenurserydone.
AliceandRose,andprobablyJasper,EmmettandLily,wouldcomeoverintheafternoontohelpout.
"Hello,Bella,"CarlislesaidwithasmileasIclimbedintotheVolvo."Toughday?"
"Hi."Ismiledshylyandsmiledathim."I'msorryaboutthat..."
"Nononeedtoapologize,"heassuredme.
Edwarddroveustothesamestorewherewehadboughtalloftheotherbabystuff.Esmechattedexcitedly
abouteverythingshewantedtodointhenursery.Thecolorshadalreadybeenpicked,allwehadtodowas
paintit.Aftersomecoaxingonmypart,sheadmittedthattheroomwasgoingtobepink,greenandwhite.
Edwardgroanedwhenshementionedpink,butshefirmlystatedthatwewerehavingagirl,andthatpinkwas
allowedthen.Istiffedmylaughterthen,becauseshehadnoideahowmuchpinkstuffwealreadyhad.
EsmeandIwanderedaroundbyourselvesforalittlewhile.EdwardandCarlisleweregoingtopickupthecar
seat.WhenEsmeandIreachedclothes,whichwasnotinourplans,therewasatshirtthatcaughtmyeye,or
twoactually.
"Youshouldbuythem,"Esmesaidexcitedly."Youknow,forhisbirthday."
"Yeah.I'llhavetocomeback,though.Idon'twanthimtoseeit,andhehasawayofseeingeverything."
"Don'tIknowit."Esmechuckled."Icouldnevergetawaywithanythingwhenhelivedathome.Iswear,he
hadeyeseverywhere."
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Welaughedandmovedontothecribsandchangingtables.ThatwaswhereEdwardandCarlislemetupwith
us.Theybothhadaproudlookontheirfaces.
"Hey,"Isaid,wrappingmyarmsaroundhiswaist.
"Hi,baby,"hesaidbackandbentdowntokissme.
"Didyougettheseat?"
"Yup,"hesaid,poppingthe'p.'"It'salreadyinstalledandreadytobeused."
"What?"Iasked,surprised.
"DadandIinstalledit,whichwasn'teasybyanymeans."
"Butthebabyisn'tdueuntilanotherthreeorfourmonths,"Isaid,bitingmytonguetokeepfromlaughingathis
eagerness.
"Iknow,butyoualwaysneedtobeprepared."Hesmiled.
HewassoadorablethatIcouldn'tdoanythingbutsmile.Weallcontinuedtolookoverthecribsanddecided
onabeautiful,butyetsimple,oneinwhiteandmatchingchangingtableanddressers.
EsmeconvincedmethatIneededarockingchairsincetherockingcouldcalmthebabydown.Well,webought
arockingarmchair,butstill,itwouldrockjustasgoodasaregularrockingchair.
Myfeetwerekillingmewhenwefinallyweredoneinthestore.Luckily,wehadCarlisleandEdwardwho
couldpackeverythingintothecar,andtheydiditinnotimeatall.WhenIclimbedin,Inoticedthecarseatin
themiddleofthebackseat.ItmademesmileandIcouldn'twaituntilitfinallybecameoccupied.
WehadlunchatMcDonald's,butitwasn'tmyideaitwasEdward's.Iguesshewantedtokeepmesatisfied
todayconsideringhowthemorningwentearlier.Ididn'tcomplainatall.
Itightenedmygripontheburger,causingittogetcompletelydestroyed,asIfeltanotherstrongkick.
Edwardnoticedandleanedintomeandwhispered,"Areyouokay?"
Inoddedmyheadandgavehimatightsmile."She'sjustkicking...hard."
Isawasmiletuginthecornerofhismouth.Iknewhowmuchheenjoyedfeelinghisdaughterkick,butatthe
sametimehefeltsorryforme.Edwardcircledoneofhisarmsaroundmywaistandputahandonmystomach,
rubbingsoothingcirclesonmystomach.ThatonlymadeEmilykickharderagainsthishand.
"OhmyGod,"IgaspedandputawaytheburgersothatIcouldplacebothmyhandsonmystomach."Stop
encouragingher."
"You'vegotyourselfarealfirecrackerthere,aren'tyou?"Carlislesaidwithaknowingsmile.
"Ifyouonlyknew,"Imumbled.
"Yeah,justlikehermommy,"Edwardreplied,withanamusedtone,butalsowithahintofbitterness.Iknew
whathemeantbythat.
"Wasthatjustanicerwayofcallingmeabitch?"Iasked,raisingmyeyebrows.Ididn'tmeanforthewordsto
comeout,butsomehowtheydid.
"No?"heansweredlikehewasaskingme.
Itwastrue,though.Iwasarealbitch,especiallythismorning.Icouldn'tbelievehowhecouldstandit.
"I'msorry,"Isaid,lookingathim."Iloveyou."
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Ipuckeredmylips,silentlyaskingforakisswhichIgot.
"Mm,anotherone,"Isaidwithagiggle.
Hegavemeasloppykissbeforehepulledbackwithasmirk."Iloveyou,too,baby.Andyou'renotabitch.
Justalittlefirecrackersometimes,justlikeourdaughter."
"Aww,thetwoofyouarejustsocute,"Esmegushed."CanIfeelher?"
"Sure."IchuckledandscootedclosertoEdwardsothatEsmecouldsitdownbesideme.
IplacedherhandwhereIlastfeltthekick,andlikethekickerEmilywas,shekickedagainsthergrandmother's
hand.
Esmeletoutagasp."Wow,youweren'tkiddingwenyousaidshekickedhard."
"Yeah,I'msurprisedshehaven'tbrokenmyribsyet."
"Aww.Carlisle,you'reluckyI'mtoooldforgettingpregnant,otherwisewewouldhaveoneontheway,"she
said,makingmegapeather.
Carlislechuckledandshookhishead."Idon'tdoubtit."
Edwarddroveusbackhomeshortlyafterthat.Everyonewasalreadywaitingforusoutsidethehouse,alleager
tostart.Okay,maybenotall,butAliceandRosesurelookedeagerwhileEmmett,JasperandLilylooked...
normal.
"Finally!"Aliceyelled."I'vewaitedforforevertodothis."
"Well,nowwe'rehere,solet'sgetstarted."Ismiledandwalkedovertothem.
Afterafewhugs,weallwentinsideandtookourjacketsoff.LilywasintheBabybjrnonEmmett'schest.She
hadherfistinhermouthandlookedaroundwithbigwideeyes.Rosetookoffherlittlehatandrevealedher
darkbrownhairthathadgrownalotlately.Shetrulywasgoingtobeabeautywhenshegrewup.
"Nobadlanguage,andifsheneedschanging,you'lldoit.Imeanit,don'tcomeupstairsjusttoaskmetodoit,"
RosetoldEmmett."Youhavetheformulaandbottlesinthediaperbag."
ShekissedLilybeforeshewalkedupstairsfollowedbyAliceandEsme.Iwasn'treadytogoupjustyet.
"Oh,pleaseletmeholdher,"IpleadedwithEmmett.
"You'renottakingher,areyou?"heaskedwarily.
"IthoughtwehaddecidedthatIwasn'tgoingtokidnapLily.Edward'sgivingmemyownbaby,"Itoldhim
withapout.
"Fine,"hehuffedandundidthecarriersothatIcouldholdher.
ShehadgrownsomuchsincelasttimeIsawher,andthatwasonlyafewdaysago.Shehadalsogottenalot
heaviersinceshewasborn,butIguessthatwasagoodthing.Shecouldn'tbeanewbornfortherestofherlife
afterall.
"How'smyfavoritegoddaughter?"Icooed.
"She'syouronlygoddaughter,"Emmettstated,lookinglovinglyatLily.
"So?She'sstillmyfavorite."IsmirkedandkissedLilyonherforehead.
IeventuallyhandedherbacktoEmmettsincethegirlsweregettingimpatienttostartpainting.IgaveEdwarda
kissbeforeIwalkedupstairs.Theboyshadgottenthefunassignmenttoputthefurnituretogether.
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"So,howdidthedatego?"Aliceasked,wagglinghereyebrows.
"Thereweren'tanydate,"Imumbledandcontinuedpaintingthewall.
"What?Whatdoyoumeanthatthereweren'tanydate?"Roseasked.
"Hedidn'tcomehomeuntillate,"Iansweredsimply,shruggingmyshoulders.
"Areyoutellingusthatmysonstoodyouuplastnight?"Esmeaskedwithanononsensetone.
"No,becauseitwasasurprise.Ididthedinner,IgotdressedjustlikeAlicetoldme,andthenwheneverything
wasready,hetextedme,lettingmeknowthathewouldn'tbehomeuntillate,"Isaid,allinonebreath.
"Howdidyoufeelaboutthat?Imean,weren'tyoumad?"Aliceasked.
"No,Iwasn't,butIdidcry,"Iadmitted,feelingmycheeksheatupfrommyblush.
"It'snothingtobeembarrassedabout.Aslongasyoumeanit,thatyouaren'tmadathim,andthenrealizethat
youareindeedmad."
"I'mbeinghonest.Ididn'tgetmadathim."
Theynodded,buttheydidn'tpressformoreinformation.Iwashonestwiththem,Istillwasn'tmadatEdward
forgoingoutwithhisfriendslastnight.Sure,Iwasdisappointed,butthatwasacompletedifferentthing.
"Oh,Bella!BeforeIforget,thecar'scomplete,"Rosesaidwithabigsmile.
"What?"Isquealed.
"Youheardme.Allwehavetodonow,istowaitforhisbirthday."
IsquealedjustlikeAliceusedtodoandwentovertohugher.Icouldn'tbelievethatitwasactuallyfinished.I
hadbeenwaitingsolongforthat.
"Whatcar?"AliceandEsmeasked,laughingwhentheysaidtheexactsamething.
"Edward'sbirthdaypresent."Ismiled.
"Oh,thatcar,"Alicesaid,rollinghereyesfornotremembering.
"You'regivingEdwardacar?"Esmeasked,completelystunned.
"Yes,myoldbaby.Rosehelpedmefixitup."
Shewasstillstunnedandstoodthere,gapingatme,closinghermouthandthenopenitagain,onlytocloseit
again.Rose,AliceandIjustlaughedatherandwentbacktopainting.Iwasgiddyinsideandwasimmediately
inabettermood.
EPOV
"Fuck,"Icursedwhenthestickdidn'twanttodoastheinstructionstoldme.
Dadchuckled,EmmettsnickeredandJasperjuststoodthere,tryingnottolaugh.
"Youknow,youcouldactuallyhelpoutalittle,"Isaidfrustrated.
"Butwe'vealreadydoneourpartofthejob,"Dadsaid,gesturingtotheperfectdresserandchangingtable.
"Besides,IhaveLily.Ican'thelp,"Emmettsaidsmugly.
"Asshole,"Imutteredundermybreath.
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"Comeon,itcan'tbethatbad.I'llhelp,"Jaspersaid,savingmefrommakingacompletefooloutofmyself.
"Thanks,"Isaid.
"Noworries."
Justaswehadfinishedputtingthecribup,thebottomfelltothefloorwithathump.Couldmydaygetany
better,orwhat?First,Ihadtodealwithaverymoodyandinsecurewife,thenthecarseatwhichactually
turnedoutfineintheendandnowthecrib.
"Okay,let'sjustgoovertheinstructiononemoretimeandlet'sseewhatwemissed,"Dadsaidcalmly.
Wehaddonestepbystep,justliketheinstructionsaid.Icouldn'tfindanythingthatwehadmissed,but
apparentlyJasperdid.
"Um,maybeweshouldhaveusedthesescrews,"hesaid,holdingupfourbigscrewsinhisrighthand.
Fuck,nowIjustfeelstupid.
Dadchuckledandthrewmealookthatsaid,"Ican'tbelievehowyoucouldmissthose."
Well,everythinginlifecan'tbeeasy,andaftertodayIknewforsurethatputtingacribtogetherwasnoteasy.
Bellacamedownafewminutesafterthecribwasdone,butshewasaloneandshehadapoutonherface,
lettingmeknowthatshehadn'tgottenherwaywithsomething.
"What'swrong,baby?"Iasked,wavinghertowhereIwassittinginoneofthearmchairs.
"Theydidn'tletmefinishpainting,"shewhined,standinginfrontofmeandtwinnedherfingersintomyhair.
"Why'sthat?"Iasked,grabbingherhips.
Shepursedherlipsandblushed."Becauseitwasjustthehighpartsleft."
"Well,thenit'sgoodthattheydidn'tletyoufinish,"Isaid,becausethatmeantgettinguponachairor
somethingwhichwasn'tverygoodforBellatodorightnow.Shewasclumsyjustwalkingontheground,I
didn'tevendarepicturingheronachairwhileshewasalmostsixmonthspregnant.
"Fine,Igiveup.Doyouwantsomethingtoeat?"
"Sure,"Isaidandslappedherassplayfullywhenshewalkedaway.
"Hey!Don'tforgetme!"Emmettyelledafterher.
"HowcouldIforgetyou?"Bellasmirked.
Bellamadeallofusdinner,andwesatdownatthetable.Itfeltlikewewerethisbigfamilyandwewere
havingfuntogetherafterawholedayofwork.ImanagedtospendalittlemoretimewithLilyuntilRoseand
Emmettdecideditwastimetogohome.Theypromisedtocomebacktoseetheendresultthenextday.
JasperhadtostruggleabittogetAlicetogohome.Shewantedtostayallnightandhelpout,finishingthe
nursery.Hedidmanagedtogetherhomeeventually,though.Ihavenoideahow,andIhadafeelingthatI
didn'twanttoknoweither.
MomandDadsleptintheguestroomthatwasn'tfullofbabystuff.ItfeltreallynicetohavethemvisitingandI
hopedeverythingwouldgojustassmoothonceReneeandPhilarrived.
"Goodmorning,baby,"MomsaidwhenIenteredthekitcheninthemorning.
Iwasalittlesurprisedtoseeherthere.Imean,shewasaguest,shouldn'tIbetheonewhomadeherbreakfast
insteadoftheotherwayaround?
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"Morning,Mom,"Imumbledtiredlyandsteppedovertogiveherakiss.InoddedatmyDadwhoweresitting
atthetable,waitinglikeadutifulhusband.
"Where'sBella?"Momasked,puttingthefoodontoplates.
"Shehadaroughnightsoshe'sstillsleeping,"Ianswered.
"Poorthing,"Mommutteredandshookherhead."Iknowwhatshe'sgoingthrough.Youalwaysusedtokick
me,andhard.Youalmostbrokearibonce."
"Well,let'shopeEmilywon't,"Dadsaid,endingtheconversationsmoothly.
Ilookedoverandthankedhimwithmyeyes.Itwasn'tsomethingIwantedtohearabout.Imean,mybaby
physicallyhurtingmywife,wasnotsomethingIwantedtoeventhinkabout.
"Keepoutofthenursery,orthewholetopfloor,untilIsayit'sokaytogoin,doyouhear?"Momsaidsternly.
Iguessitwastimefordecoratingthen.Inoddedmyhead,lettingherknowthatIunderstood.Iwouldjusthave
todosomethingelsewithBellatoday,althoughshewouldprobablywanttogoupstairsandhaveapeekmore
thanonce.
IfinishedbreakfastandtoldMomtosavesomeforBella.Shewouldmostlikelywantitwhenshewokeup.
IwalkedupstairsandfoundBellasleepingpeacefully,tangledupinthecoverswithherfaceburiedinmy
pillow.Shewastooadorableforherowngood.
IdecidedtogetreadybeforeIwokeherup.Iknewshewouldbealittlecranky,butMomprobablywantedto
startdecoratingandBellacouldalwayssleepdownstairsonthecouchanyway.
WhenIwasdone,Igentlyslippedinbesideher,hugginghertomychest.Shenuzzledherfaceintomeand
startedtostir.
"Mm,Imissedyou,"shesaidwithayawn.
ThankGod,it'sagoodday.
"Imissedyou,too,baby,"Isaid,kissingheronherforehead."Momwantstostartdoingthenursery,though,
soyouneedtogetup."
Shepoutedandlookedupatme."I'mnotallowedtohelp?"
"Nope.Igotstrictorderstokeepoutofthetopflooruntilshetoldusitwasokaytocomeup."
"Fine."Shesighed."LetmejustgetdressedandI'llbereadytogodownstairs."
Iwaitedforherinthebed,andwhenshewasready,webothwalkeddownstairs.IassuredMomthatwe
wouldn'ttryanythingsneakybeforeshedraggedDadupstairs.Ihadafeelingthathewasonlytheretomove
thefurnitures.
IsatwithBellawhilesheate,whichshewasnothappyaboutsinceshealwayshatedtohaveanaudiencewhen
sheate.Ididn'tgiveashit,though.
Wespentmostofthedaysdowninthebasement.Elsawasreallyexcitedabouteverythingmymomdid
upstairssoshespentthedaywithherinstead.BellaandItookherforawalk,though.Itwasourroutine.
Lateron,Iplayedthepianoforher.Istillwasn'tfinishedwithherlullaby,sothatonehadtowait.Wealso
watchedsomemovies,justcuddlingtogetheronthecouch.
Bellamadedinnerforallofus,andmyparentsbarelymadeabreakforit.Momwassoexcitedaboutthe
nurserythatshedidn'twanttowasteanytimeoneating.Dadhadanotheropinion,though,buthedidwhat
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Momtoldhimtodo.
"It'stime,"MomfinallyannouncedwhenIwasonthevergeofgettingbored.
Itwasn'tlikeIdidn'tenjoymytimewithBella,itwasjustwhensomeonetoldyounottodosomething,you
wantedtodoitreallybadlywell,thatwashowitwasforbothBellaandI.
"Finally,"ImutteredandhelpedBellagetupfromthecouch.
Wefollowedherupthestairsandtothenursery,althoughthedoorwasclosedsowedidn'tactuallysee
anything.
"Okay,thisisit.Areyouready?"Momasked.
"Esme,dear.Ithinkthey'vebeenreadyallday,"Dadsaidwithachuckle.
"Damnrightwehave,"Iagreed.
"Okay,thenopenthedoor."
Bellacarefullytwistedthenodandpushedthedooropen,tooslowlyformyliking,andrevealedourbabygirl's
nursery.
Wow.
Therightwalloftheroomwaspaintedinpinkandhadafewflowersinadarkershade.Therestoftheroom
waspaintedinagreencolor.Itlookedreallynice.Atfirst,Ihadbeenafraidtofindthewholeroomindifferent
shadesofpink.
Thecribwasstandingbythepinkwall,andrightnexttoit,wasthechangingtable.Therockingarmchairwas
placedinthecorneroftheoppositewallandtherewasabigplantstandingbehindit.Therewasalsoapink
carpetonthefloor,butthatdidn'tbothermeeither.LikeIsaiditlookedreallynice.
"Youcanputyourbellyshotsintheseframes,"Momsaid,gesturingtowardthethethreeframesoverthecrib.
"AndmaybeapictureofEmily,andthenoneofyoutwolateron."
"Wow,it'ssobeautiful,"Bellasaidastonished.
"Youdidagreatjob,Mom."Ismiledandbentdowntogiveherakissonhercheek.
"Idid,didn'tI?"Shesmirked.
"Ican'twaittofillallthesedrawersandshelves,"Bellasaid,walkingaroundtheroom."Oruntilthecribholds
oursleepingdaughter."
"NeithercanI,"Isaid,walkingupbehindherandwrappedmyarmsaroundher,restingmychinonher
shoulder.
WecontinuedtoadmiretheroomuntilDaddiscretelytoldMomthattheyneededtogetbacktoForkssincehe
hadanearlymorningthenextday.
Itwasactuallyhardtosaygoodbyetothem.DuringthetwodaystheyhadspentwithmeandBella,Ihad
grownusedtohavingthemthere.
"Thankyousomuchforeverything,"Bellasaid,givingMomatighthug.
"Anytime,dear.Callmeifyouneedtotalk,oranythingelse,okay?"
"Iwill."BellanoddedandsteppedawaytogiveDadahugaswell.
"Thankyouforcoming,"ItoldMomandgaveherakissonhercheekandahug.
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"Takecareofmygranddaughter."
MomhadtearsinhereyesasDaddraggedherouttotheirMercedes.InoticedthatBellaalsohadtearsinher
eyes,soIbroughtmyarmaroundherandhuggedhertomyside.
"Comeon,let'sgoadmirethenurseryforalittlewhilelonger,"Isaidwithasmilewhichshereturnedwitha
biggerone.
BPOV
Ilookeddownatthetwoenvelopesinmyhands.ThiswasittherewouldbenoturningbackonceIposted
them.RoseandAlicewouldknowallaboutEmilyoncetheyreadthem.Hopefully,theywouldn'ttreatmeor
mydaughteranydifferently.
AllIwantedwasforthemtounderstandthemeaningbehindmydaughter'sname.Thatwasall.Besides,we
hadbeenfriendsforsolongthattheydeservedtoknow.Itwasn'tliketheywouldleaveafterhearingthetruth.
Ithadtakenmealongtimetowritetheletters.IhadonlystartedtotrulywriteafterEdward'sparentshadleft
whichwasalmostaweekago.Edwardhadsupportedmeandhadevenreadthemtoseeiftherewasanything
missing.
Takingonelastbigbreathandlettingitout,Ipushedthelettersintothemailbox.
Done.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:So,it'sSundayandtimeforyetanotherchapter!Iwanttothankallofyouout
therewhohelpedmegetonthetop10listofmostreviewdstories!Evenifitonlywas
foraday..Ihonestlycriedwhenmystoryhitthat.Imean,it'sBIG.Atleastitistome.
Asforthequoteinthelastchapteritwasfrom'Twilight,'or'NewMoon'ifyouprefer
itthatway.Iknow,itwashardtofindit,butitwassomethinglastminute.
"It'stime."
Ihaveanewquotetoday.
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EPOV
Istoodinthekitchen,preparingdinnerforBellaandI.ShehadbeensoexhaustedlatelythatIoffered,even
thoughIwasexhaustedfromawholedayatwork.So,IlethergoupstairsandtakeanapwhileIdidthe
dinner.
ThenIheardthedoorbell,wonderingwhoitcouldbeconsideringitwasFridayafternoon.
Whenopeningthedoor,IrevealedAliceandRose,standingthereonmyporch.
"DoyouknowifBella'swritingabook?"Roseasked.
"No,"Iansweredunsure.Bellahadn'tmentionedanythinglikethat.
"Thenwhat'sthis?Ifit'snotadraft,"shesaid,givingmeanenvelope.
Iopeneditandtookthepaperout,readingthefirstsentence.
Onceuponatime,therewasagirlnamedEmily.
"Oh,that'sthestoryaboutherfriend,"Iansweredandsawastheirmouthsopenedinshock.
Bellahadsuchahardtimewritingthatletterthatwebotheventuallyhadagreedonthatsheshouldwriteitasa
story.Thatwasallittookafterthatdecisionhadbeenmade,Bellahadwrittenallofitdowninamatteroftwo
hours.Shehadbeensoproudoverherselfafterthat.
"OhmyGod,"Alicewhimpered,coveringhermouthandgottearsinhereyes.
"Whereisshe?"Roseasked,takinghershoesoff.
"She'supstairs,sleeping,butplease...justdon'tpushherintoansweringquestionsshe'snotreadytoanswer.I'll
betheonewhohastodealwiththeemotionsafterwardanditbreaksmyhearttoseeherthatsad.So,please,
justdon't,"Ipleadeddesperately.
"Oh,really?Ifyou'retheonewhoalwayshastodealwiththeemotionsafterward,thenwhowasitthatdidthat
onFridaynightlastweek?"sheasked,crossingherarmsoverherchest.
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"Whatareyoutalkingabout?"Iaskedconfused.
"Rose,justleaveit..."Alicestartedpleadingly.
"HebasicallycalledusbadfriendsforpushingBella,butletmetellyou,we'renot."
"Iknowyou'renotbadfriends,Iwasjustaskingyounottopushherlimits,"Isaid,stillconfused."Now,tell
mewhathappenedFridaynight."
"IthinkyoushouldaskBella,butIjusthavetotellyousomethingbeforeyoudoifyou'recheatingonher,I'll
cutyourballsoff,"shethreatenedandwalkedupstairs,leavingmeevenmoreconfusedthanbefore.
Whatthehellisshetalkingabout?
"She'sjuststillveryhormonal...andprotective,"Alicesaidwithsympathyinhereyes."It'sjustthatweknow
youweren'toutwithJasperandEmmettthatFriday,so..."shetrailedoff.
"So,youthinkIwascheating?"Ifinishedforher,stillinaconfuseddaze.
Wasthisreallyhappening?
"Iknowyouwouldn'tcheatonBella.It'sjust,Idon'tknow,suspiciousmaybe."Sheshruggedhershoulders.
"TherewasacoupleofguysfromworkthataskedmeifIwantedtogooutwiththem.Ithoughtaboutitand
realizedIneverseemanypeopleoutsideworkapartfromyouguys,andIjust...Iwentwiththem.Iwould
nevercheatonBella.She'smylife.IloveherandIwouldn'triskthatforanythingintheworld,"Itoldher
honestly.
Icouldn'tbelievethattheyactuallyhadconsidermecheating.Okay,maybenotAlice,butRose.
"Iknow,andRosedoestoo.Shejustjumpedtoconclusionsbeforesheeventalkedtoyou.Besides,shehave
thetendencytooverreactwhenitcomestopeopleshelovesmorethananything.Bellahappenstobeoneof
them."
"It'sokay.I'lltalktoBellaaboutitlater,"Isaid."Youhaven'ttoldheranyofyour'theories,'haveyou?"
"No."Sheshookherhead."Ishouldgoandjointhem."Shegavemeaquickhugbeforeshewentupthestairs
aswell.
BPOV
Ifeltwarm,anditfeltlikeheaven.Although,thisheavendidn'tsmelllikeEdwardwhichwasunusualsincethat
washowitnormallysmelled.Ifeltsomeonecaressingmyhairandsomeonerubbingmyback.
Thecuriositygotthebestoutofme,soIopenedmyeyesandcamefacetofacewithRose.
Whatwasshedoinginmybed?
"Hi,"Isaidinaverysleepyvoice.
"Goodmorning,sunshine,"shesaidwithasmile.
Then,Ifeltsomeonebehindme,anditwasn'treallyhardtoguesswhoitwassincethepersonwastoosmallto
beEdward.
"Hitoyou,too,Alice,"Isaidwithoutturningsincethatwassomethingthattookalittlebitofeffort.
"Hi,"sheansweredsadlyandthatwaswhenIfiguredoutwhytheyhadcame,andwhattheyweredoinginmy
bedtheyhadreadmyletter.
Iclosedmyeyesagainandbroughtmyhandtomystomach,waitingforthequestionsIwassurewouldcome.
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"I'msosorry,Bella,"Alicewhisperedandputhersmallarmaroundmeandgavemeaonearmhug.
"Metoo.IwishIcouldhavemether.Sheseemedlikesuchawonderfulgirl,"Rosesaidthroughhertears.
Iopenedmyeyesinshock.ThiswasnotthereactionIhadpreparedmyselffor.WhatIhadpreparedforwas
millionsofquestions.
"I'msureshewouldhavelovedtomeetyouaswell,"Isniffled,unabletoholdbackthetearsanylonger.
"Oh,Bella,"Rosesaid,huggingmetoher."It'sokay.We'rehereforyou."
Thethreeofuslaythere,huggingeachotherwhilewecried.IwassandwichedbetweenRoseandAlice.Ifelt
theirtears,butIdidn'tcaresinceRoseprobablyfeltminesoakingherbeautifulpurpleshirt.
"Ionlyhaveonequestionforyou,"Rosesaidoncewehadcalmeddownabit.Inoddedforhertocontinue.
"Whydidn'tyoutellussooner?"
"Idon'tknow,"Imumbled."IguessIwasafraidofyourreactions,andhowyouweregoingtolookatme.I
don'twantyoursympathy,orforyoutotreatmedifferentlyjustbecauseofthat."
"Wewouldn'tdothat.Ireallywishyouwouldhavetoldus.Itwouldbeeasiertounderstandyousincethatis
suchabigpartofyou."
ShewasrightandIalmostfeltbadfornottellingthemsooner,butthethingwas,Ihadfinallytoldthem.Better
latethannever.
"I'mgladyoufinallytoldus,"AlicemurmuredlikeshehadheardwhatIwasthinking.
"Metoo,"Isaid.
"So,thatistheEmilyyou'renamingyourbabyafter?"Alicewhispered.
Ifeltbadforhavingmybackturnedtoher,soIfinallymadetheefforttoturnontomyback.Sure,Iwouldonly
lastlikethatforafewminutesbeforeIwouldhavetroublebreathing,butitwasbetterthannothing.
"Yeah.ItwasactuallyEdward'sidea.Imean,Ihadthoughtaboutit,butIwasn'tsureifhewantedit.So,when
hesuggestedit,IgotsohappyIcried,freakinghimout,"Isaidwithalowchuckle,placingbothhandsover
Emily.Itfeltgoodtolaughafterallthecrying.
"WhataboutGrace?"Aliceasked,placingherhandlightlyonmytummy.
"Thatwasjustsomethingthatcameup,butitfeltrightsowewentwithit."Ishruggedmeshoulders.
"Well,IthinkEmilyGraceCullenisareallybeautifulname,"Rosestated.
"OhmyGod.Isshekicking?"Aliceaskedastonished,placingherhandmorefirmlyonmystomach.
"Yeah.That'sherEdwardkick,"Imumbled,feelingthehardkicksthatIhadgottenusedtobynow.
"Edwardkick?"Roseasked,placingherhandrightbesideAlice's.
"Yeah,whenshekicksthathard,shewantsherdaddy,"Itoldthemandrightontime,shekickedagain,making
bothgirlsgiggle.
Welaythereandfeltafewmorekicksbeforeweheardthreesoftknocksonthedoor.IknewitwasEdward
sincenooneelsewasinthehouse.UnlessAliceandRosehadbroughttheirhusbands,butIdoubtedit.
"Hey,areyouladiesokayinhere?"Edwardasked,peekinghisheadinsidethebedroom.
"Yeah,butIhaveafeelingthatyourdaughterwillbejustasstubbornasyourwife,"Aliceanswered.
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"Ihavenodoubt."Edwardsmirked."Dinner'sreadyifyouwantsome."
"Ishouldgohome.Lilyprobablywantsabreakfromplayingvideogames,"Rosesaidwithasighandgotup
fromthebed.
"Sheplaysvideogames?"Iasked.
"Emmettisdeterminedtoteachher,sayingthatheshouldstartearly,"shesaid,rollinghereyes.
"Ishouldprobablygetgoing,too,"Alicesaidandgotupaswell,leavingmealoneonthebed.
"Okay,well,I'llseeyousoonandthankyouforcomingover.Really,"Itoldthemboth.
"Noproblems."
Whentheyleft,EdwardandIwerealoneinthebedroom.IrealizedthatIwasstilllyingonthebed,soI
waggledmyfingers,beggingEdwardtohelpmeup.Icouldstillgetupwithoutanyhelp,butittooksome
effort,sobeggingforhelpsavedmealotofenergy.
Edwardgotthehintandhelpedmeuponmyfeet.
"Thankyou,"Itoldhim.Hesmileddownatmebeforehegavemeachastekiss."Mm,Iwantonemore."
Hechuckledandgavemeanotherone,andthenonemorebeforepullingback.
"So,what'sfordinner?"Iasked,rubbingmystomachsinceIwasstarving.
"Pasta,"heansweredwithasmirkandwalkedtothedoor.
"Whyaren'tIsurprised?"IrolledmyeyessincethatwasbasicallytheonlythingEdwardactuallycookedfor
dinner.
"Ipromiseit'lltastegood.Ievenmadesomemeatballstogowithit."
"Didyoureallymakethem,ordidyoujustheatupthefrozenones?"
"Shutthatprettymouthofyours,"heshotbackandkissedmebeforewesatdownatthetable.
Weateinsilentforawhile.Thefoodtastedreallygood,eventhoughitwasjustsomepasta,sauceand
meatballs.Simple,buttasty.
"Baby?"Edwardaskedwhenhestartedeatinghissecondportion.
"Yeah?"
"WhathappenedFridaynight?"heaskedgently.
Howdidheknowaboutthat?
Ifeltmyselfstiffeninmychairandstaredathim.Iprobablylookedlikeakidwhojustgotcaughtwithhishand
inthecookiejar,butlet'sfaceit,Iwasguiltyofholdingsomethingasecret.
"Idon'tknowwhatyou'retalkingabout,"Isaid,clearingmythroatnervously.
"Bullshit,Bella."Hesighed,andwhenIdidn'tsayanythingelse,hecontinued."Rememberwhatweagreedon
whenmyparentswerehere?Totalkaboutthingsandbeinghonestwitheachother.Thisisyou,notkeeping
thatpromise."
Hewasrightandwebothknewit.Iwasjustembarrassedaboutit,andIdidn'twanthimtofeelguilty.Iknew
himwellenoughtobetallofmysavingsonthathewouldblamehimself.IalsoknewthatIneededtotellhim
becausehewasn'tgoingtoletitgo.
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"Fine,"Isaidwithabigsigh,pushingmyemptyplateawayfromme."Ipreparedasurprisedateforyouwith
dinnerandeverything.OnceIgotyourtext,Iwasalldressedup,thedinnerwasreadyandthecandleswerein
place."
"What?"heasked,surprised."Whydidn'tyoujusttellmeandIwouldhavecomehome?"
"Didn'tyouhearme?Itwassupposedtobeasurprise,andwhereIcomefrom,asurprisemeansthatyoudon't
knowanythingaboutit,"Ianswered.
"Thenwhydidn'tyoutellmethemorningafter?WhydidIhavetolearnaboutitfromAliceandRoseinstead
ofyou?"
Soitwastheywhohadtoldhim.Well,thatexplainedhowheknewaboutit.
"Well,forone,Iwastooembarrassed.Secondly,becauseofyou.Icanseetheguiltclearlyinyoureyes.Idon't
wantyoutoblameyourselfforgoingoutwithyourfriends."
"Icouldhavegoneoutwiththemsomeotherday,"hemumbled,stilllookingguilty.
Isigheddeeplyandgotupfrommyseattowalkovertohim.HeseemedtoknowwhereIwasgoingwiththis
andpushedhimselfawayfromthetablesothatIcouldsitdowninhislap.
Itookhisfaceinmyhands,feelingthescruffagainstmypalm,andforcedhimtolookatme.
"I'mnotmadatyou,sojuststop,"Itoldhimfirmly.
"Stopwhat?"
"Blamingyourself.WecanalwayshavethatdatesomeotherdayandIpromiseI'lltellyoubefore,okay?"
"That'snotthesame.Istillstoodyouup."
"Withoutevenknowingit,butifitmakesyoufeelanybetter,thenIforgiveyou,"Isaid,placingakissonhis
softlips.
Hedidn'twantittostopthere,though,andpulledmyfacecloserandtracedmylipswithhistongue,begging
forentrance.ItwassomethingIgreedilygavehimandmoanedintohismouthwhenIfelthistonguemassaging
myown.
"Iloveyou,andI'mnotcheatingonyou,"hemumbledagainstmylips.
Thatleftmeconfused.Whywouldhesaysomethinglikethat?Ihadneveraccusedhimofcheating,hadI?
"Whatareyoutalkingabout?"Iasked,confused,lookingintohiseyeswithmyfingersstilltwinnedinhis
beautifulhair.
"I'mnotcheating,Ipromise.Iwasoutwithacoupleofguysfromwork,"heexplained,butIstilldidn't
understandwhyhewastellingmethat.
"Okay?Whyareyoutellingmethis?"
"BecauseRosebasicallyblamedmeofcheatingsincesheknewIwasn'toutwithEmmettandJasper."
"Roseaccusedyouofcheatingonme?"
"Yeah,butAlicebelievedmeandsaidRosejustoverreactedalittle."
"Well,Ibelieveyou,too,"Isaidcompletelyhonestandkissedhimagain.
"Thankyou,"hemumbledintothekissbeforedeepeningit.
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ThefoodandthedishesgotcompletelyforgottenasEdwardledmeupstairs.Hewantedtocarrymeatfirst,but
Itoldhimafirmno,sayingthathecouldhurthisbackifheeventried.
Havingsexwasbecomingmoredifficult,butwestillmanagedtomakelovetwotimesthatnight.Edwardmade
mefeelsobeautifulwithhishandsandmouth.Ineverfeltmorealiveandsexythanwhenwehadsex.
Thenextmorning,Iwasupearly,tryingtopreparetheguestroomformymomandPhil.Ialsocleanedthe
house,hopingitlookedgoodfortheirarrival.Elsadidn'tmakethingsbetterwhenIcleanedawayhertoysand
sheonlybroughtthembackoutagain,wantingtoplay.
ThehousewasalmostspotlessbythetimeEdwardgotup.Hegavemeaweirdlook.Iknewhedidn'tlikeit
whenIgotupsoearly,butbeingpregnantmadeithardtosleep.Icouldatleastdosomethingusefullike
cleaningthehouse.
"Baby,pleasestopfidgeting,"EdwardgroanedaswewaitedforMomandPhiltoarriveattheairport."You're
goingtomakemenervous,too."
"You'renotnervous?"
"Noyet,no,"hesaidwithabigsigh."Buifyoukeepdoingthat,Iwillsoon."
"Sorry,it'sjust...doIlookokay?Imean,Idon'tlooktoopregnant,doI?"Iaskednervously.
"No,Bella.Youlookperfect."
Ihadspentalotoftimeintheclosetthismorningandhadfinallydecidedonaplainwhitetshirt,apairofblack
jeansandaleatherjacket.Plusawhitescarfwithredskulls.Itlookedokay,butIwasafraidIlookedmorelike
abadgirlthanamothertobe.
"They'rehere,baby,"EdwardsaidandstoodupbeforeIcouldrushtothebathroomandchangemy
appearance.
IfollowedhimandsawmymotheralmostrunningtowardmewithPhilrightbehindher.Shelookedthesame
aslasttimeIsawher,butsheseemedhappierandmorealive.
"Oh,Bella,baby!"Momexclaimedandpulledmeintoatighthug.
Shepepperedmycheekswithkisses.ThiswasthewomanIhadcalledMom,thiswasthewomanIleftso
manyyearsagotomoveinwithmyDad.ThiswasMom,notthecrazyladythatshowedupforThanksgiving.
"Hi,Mom,"Iwhispered.
"Lookatyou,"shesaid,pullingawayandadmiredmybody.AtleastIthinkthatwaswhatshewasdoing.
"Youlooksobeautiful.Beingpregnantreallysuitsyou."
"That'swhatIkeeptellingher,"Edwardsaid,wrappinghisarmaroundmyshoulders.
"Youshouldlistentothatmanofyours,"Momsaid,tappingherfingeragainstmynose.
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Reneekeptgushingaboutthecarseatonourwaybacktothehouse.Ornottheactualcarseatsincewehad
removedit,butthingthatkeptthecarseatinplacewasstillthere.Allyouhadtodowasclickthecarseatinto
it.
IcouldtellthatBellawashappyandansweredallthequestionsaboutEmilywithpride.Allthenervousness
fromearlierwascompletelygoneandthatmademehappyaswell.
"Andwho'sthislittlecutie?"ReneeaskedwhenElsacametogreetusbythedoor.
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"That'sElsa,"Bellaanswered,smilingwidely."Edwardgotherformybirthday."
Oncewegotridofourjacketsandshoes,BellaimmediatelygaveReneeandPhilatour.Sheendeditinthe
nurserysincethatwasthebestplaceinthewholehouse.Atleastaccordingtome,andIguessedBellafeltthe
sameway.
"Wow,thisisutterlyperfect,"Reneesaidinave.
"Yeah,there'snodoubtyourhavingagirl,"Philsaidwithachuckle.
WhileBellawentdownstairstogetthedinnerready,IshowedReneeandPhiltheguestroom.
"Edward,canItalktoyouforaminute?"ReneeaskedasPhilwenttothebathroomtocleanupaftertheflight.
"Sure,"Ianswered.
"Ijustwanttosaythankyoufortakingcareofmybabygirl.IknowIactedlikeacompletebitchlasttime,and
Iwaswonderingifwecouldstartover?"sheasked."I'mreallynotthatwomananymore."
CouldIreallygivethiswomanasecondchance?TheimageofabrokenBellaatThanksgivingflashedthrough
mymind,butalsoapictureofhowIimaginedBellawouldlookifIdidn'tgiveitachance.
"Okay,I'mwillingtogiveyouasecondchance,butsohelpmeGodifyoufuckitupagain,"Ianswered.
"Iwon't,andthankyou.Itmeansalottome,andIwanttobethereforBellaandyourbabyevenifI'llliveina
differentcountry."
ShegavemeatighthugbeforethethreeofuswentdownstairstoBellawhohadmadethedinner.Or,shemade
itthismorningbeforeweleftsoallshehaddonewasreheatedit.
"Itsmellsgreat,baby,"Itoldher,kissinghercheekandsatdownatthetable.
"Let'sjusthopeittastegreattoo,"shesaidwithashysmileandsatdownnexttome.
Shewasalwayssomodestabouthercooking.Ihadnevereatenanythingofhercookingthattastedbad.
Conversationflowedeasily.Reneecouldn'tstoptalkingaboutAustraliaandPhil'supcomingjobasabaseball
coach.Icouldtellthatshewasreallyexcitedaboutthewholething,butshekeptlookingsadlyatBella.Maybe
itwasbecauseitmeantthatshewouldbeseparatedfromher,oritcouldmeansomethingentirelydifferent.I
justhopeditwasbecauseshewasgoingtomissher.
"Haveyoubeenonanybirthclassesyet?"Reneeasked.
"Yeah,we'vebeentoone,butIdidn'tlikeitsoIdon'twanttogoback,"Bellamumbled.
Correction:shedidn'tlikethewaytheothermomslookedatmeandthenglaredather.
Shewasbeingsilly.Noneoftheothermotherstobestaredatme,nordidtheyglareather.Shewasjustbeing
paranoid,butifitmadeheruncomfortabletogototheclasses,thenIwouldn'tforceher.
"IonlywenttothreebeforeIgaveupsoyou'renotaloneinthatdepartment,baby.Besides,youshoulddofine
withouttheclasses.NowadaysthereisalwaysDVD'sandstufflikethat."
Yeah,BellajustneededtogetoverherfearofgivingbirthandactuallylookattheDVD'swehadbought.
Rightnow,alltheydidwastocollectdustonashelfinthelivingroom.Imean,shewastwentysevenweeks
alongsosheonlyhadaboutthirteenmoreweekstoprepare.
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IlookedovertoEdwardwhowasloadingthedishwasher.Itwasamazinghowhothelookedashismuscles
flexedunderneathhiswhitetshirtwitheverymovehemade.Ihadtobitemyliptokeepthemoanfrom
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escaping.Thatwouldbeembarrassing.
Myeyeswanderedsouthtothatfineassofhis.Theblackjeanshewaswearinghunggloriouslylowonhis
hips,revealingalittleofhisdarkgrayboxerbriefs.Ilickedmylips,wantingtobitedownonit,butIdoubtmy
momandPhilwouldwanttoseemedoingthat.
"Bella?"Momasked.
"Hm?"Isnappedbacktorealityandfacedher.
"Whatwereyouthinking?"Shesmirked.
Iwascaught.
"Um,nothingreally,"Isaidinnocentlywithashrug.TherewasnowayinhellthatIwouldtellheraboutthat.
"Right,"shesaidsarcasticallywithawink.
Ifeltmycheeksturnredfrombeingcaught,butIdidn'tcare.MymindwasfilledwithEdward,andEdward
alone.Iwantedhim,andIwantedhimnow.IknewIhadtowaituntiltonight,though.
Icouldn'tgetridoftheneedandallIcouldthinkaboutwashowhornyIwas,andthatwasn'tsomethingI
wantedtothinkaboutwhiletalkingtomymotherorPhil.ThatwaswhyIprobablyhadablushonmycheeks
fortherestofthenight.
MomaskedmeifIcouldmeetherinherroomforafewminutes.IshotEdwardaquestioninglook,askingifhe
wasokaybyhimself.Whenhenodded,IfollowedMomupthestairsandintotheguestroom.
ShestartedbygivingmeagiftandwhenIopenedit,Ifoundmyoldbabyblanket.Itwaswhiteinthe
backgroundandtheupperhalfwascoveredwithredheartswhiletheotherwascoveredinblue.Inthemiddle
weretworabbits,eachwithabucketofcoloroneredandoneblue.
"Youusedtocarrythataroundeverywhere.IjustthoughtmaybeEmilywouldlikeit,too,"Momexplained."I
founditwhenwepackedeverythinginthehouse."
"It'sperfect.Thankyou,Mom,"Isniffledandhuggedher.
"You'rewelcome,baby."
ShecontinuedbysayinghowsorryshewasaboutThanksgiving.Itwasn'tanythingIhadn'theardbefore.She
alwaystoldmethatwhenwespokeonthephone.Thenshestartedsayingthatitwasbecauseshesawsomuch
ofherandDad'smarriageinmeandEdward.Shedidn'twantmetobeasheartbrokenastheyhadbeenwhen
theyrealizeditwouldn'tworkout.Itmadesense,butatthesametimeitdidn't.
Sheshouldhaveletmemakemyownmistakes,andmyandEdward'smarriagewasafarcryfromherand
Dad's.
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WhenIwalkedintothebathroomtogetreadyforthenight,Bellawasjustfinishedbrushingherteeth.Shestill
woremytshirtstobed,andherfavoritewasstilltheoneshewaswaringtonighttheoneshetookinVegas.I
diddefinitelynotmindherwearingmyclothes.
Shehoppeduponthecounter,nexttothesinkandwatchedasIbrushedmyteeth.Ifoundthatalittlestrange.
"What?"IaskedwhenIwasdone.
"Comehere,"shesaid,motioningmewithherfinger.
ShespreadherlegssothatIcouldstandbetweenthem,andassoonasIwaswithinreach,shestartedattacking
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myneckwithkissesandnibbling.Itfeltgreat,Icouldn'tdenythatasmyhandsfoundherthighs.
ThatwaswhyIcouldn'tbelievethatIwasabouttosaynotoher.IknewwherethiswouldleadandIwasn't
abouttohavesexwithherwhenherMomwasjustafewdoorsaway.
"Baby,no,"Igroanedasshestartedkissingherwayuptomymouth.
"Please,Iwantyou,"Bellasaidandkissedmyneck."I'vebeenhornysinceIwatchedyouloadthe
dishwasher."
Thedishwasher?
"Baby,yourmomandPhilarejustdownthehall,"Iargued,butamoanescapedmeatthesametime.
"So?IhadsexwithyouinForks,evenifyourwholefamilywasdownstairs,"shesaidwithapoutandpulled
backtolookatme.
"That'snotthesamething,"Itoldher,strokingherthighs.
"Yes,itis,"shewhinedandstartedkissingandsuckingonmyneckagain,makingmeforgetwhatweargued
aboutinthefirstplace."Wecanevengodowntothebasementandputonamovieandturnthesoundonreally
loud."
Ichuckledather.Shewasdesperate,andhonestly,sowasI.Itwasgettinghardtoresisther,soIhelpedher
slidedownthecounterandgrabbedherhand,leadingherdownthestairsallthewaydowntothebasement.
"Ifeellikeasneakingteenager,"Bellasaidwithagiggle."OrhowIwouldimagineasneakingteenagerwould
feel."
Istillcouldn'tbelievehowinexperiencedBellahadbeenwhenwemet.Shehadneversneakedaroundasa
teenager,butatleastshegottodothatnow.
"Let'sjusthopeyourmomdoesn'twalkinonus,"Isaidandstartedkissingherassoonaswegotdowntothe
basement.
"Yeah,thatwouldbeembarrassing,"shesaidwithablushlikewehadalreadybeencaught.Shewastoo
adorable.
"Ifyoucouldstayquiet,thereisnowayforhertoeverfindingout."Ismirked.
"Shutit,you'reloudtoo,"shesaid,pressingherlipsfirmlytomineandgrabbedmebymyhair.
ShepulledmedownwithheronthecouchandImadesuretolandonmyelbows,notwantingtohurtour
baby.
Iyankedhertshirtoffandtookoneofherpinknipplesintomymouth.Shealwaystastedsodivine.andI
couldn'tgetenoughofher.
"Edward,please,"Bellamoaned,twinningherhandsintomyhair,forcingmeclosertoher.
"Notyet,baby.Letmedothis,"Ianswered,knowingthatshewantedtogetstraighttothedeed.Tonight,I
wantedtotasteherandshewasgoingtoletme.
IpaidthesameamountoflovetohernextnipplebeforeImoveddowntoherpoutingstomach.Itwassosoft
andIcouldspendalotoftimekissingit,butshewasstartingtogetimpatientforareliefsoImovedsouth.
Ihookedmyfingersinherpantiesandslowlymovedthemdownherlegs.TheyweresoakingwetsoIcould
onlyimaginehowwetheractualpussywasformeallforme.
IremovedmytshirtandboxerswhileIwasatitbeforeIlaydownwithmyfacerightinfrontofpromisedland.
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Mynosefilledwiththescentofherarousalanditsmelledheavenly.
WhenIpartedherlowerlipswithmyfingers,sheletoutaloudmoanthatwentstraighttomycock.Itookone
longlickalongherfoldsandtastedthemuskyandsaltyliquid,earninganevenbiggermoanfromBella.
"Mm,please...justplease,"shemoaned,grippingmyhairtightly.
Idecidedtogiveinjustatinylittlebitandpushedonefingerslowlyintohertightpussy.Isuckedonherclit,
bitingdownlightlyfromtimetotimeandrolleditwithmytongue.ThenIstartedtofeelherwallsclampdown
onmyfingerandIknewthatshewasclosesoIaddedasecondfingerandpumpedherpussy,curlingmy
fingerssoIcouldbrushagainsthergspot.
"You'resowetforme,baby,"Isaid,suckingharderonherclit.
"Allday...onlyforyou,"shepanted.
Icontinuedsuckingandpumpingmyfingersinandoutofher.
"Ohmy...Edward!"Itcameoutasastrangledmoanasshecamehardonmyfingers.
IfeltherjuicesflowingoutandIlickedsomeofthemupbeforepullingmyfingeroutandsatuponmyknees,
liningmycockupwithherentrance.Beforeshecouldevenrealizewhatwashappening,Iplungedintoherand
shecamealloveragain,squeezingmycocktightwhichalmostmademecumrightthenandthere.
"Holy...fuck!"shescreamedandhercursingonlyturnedmeonevenmore.
"Jesus,Bella,"Isaid,tryingtocontrolmyselffromcumming.
WhenIfinallyhadgainedsomewhatcontrol,Istartedmovingslowlyinandoutofher.Webothwantedmore,
though,soIstartedmovingfaster,grippingherhipsforleveragewhileshegrippedthearmrestaboveherhead.
Hertitswerebouncingintimewithmythrustsandthesightmademeimpossiblyharder.
Bellawrappedherlegsaroundmywaist,makingmegoevendeeper.WebothmoanedatthesensationandI
feltmyorgasmbuildingupfastsoIreacheddownbetweenusandstartedrubbingBella'sclit.
"Baby,Ineedyoutocome,"Ipanted.
"Soon...I'msoclose,"shegroaned."Kissme."
Istoppedrubbingherclitandplacedbothmyhandsoneachsideofherhead.ThenIbentdownandplaceda
sloppykissonhermouthandstartedthrustingintoheratafuriouspace.Shegrabbedontomybicepstokeepin
place.
"Mm,Edward,"shemumbledagainstmylipsandIknewshewasgettingcloser.
"That'sit,baby.Letgoforme."
Andshedid,shecamehardandIcameevenharder,spillingeverythingIhadintoher.Webothscreamedeach
other'snameprettyloud,butIdoubtedanyoneheardus.
"WeforgottoturntheTVon,"Bellasaidwithagiggleafterawhileofheavybreathing.
"Yeah."Ichuckleandplacedakissonthetopofhernose."Idon'tthinktheyheardus,though."
WewereonthebottomfloorandReneeandPhilwereonthetopfloor.Theyhadtohavereallygoodhearingif
theywouldbeabletohear.
IeventuallypulledoutofBella,andlikeshealwaysdid,shewhimperedatthelost.Shewasn'ttheonlyone,
though.
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Ilaydownnexttoheronthecouchandshesnuggledclosertome,herbellyrestingagainstmyside.Itfelt
weirdwhenEmilykickedrightafterwehadsexandIsureashellhopedshehadnoideawhatwehadjust
done.Thatwouldjustbecreepy.
"Whatdoyouwantforyourbirthday?"Bellaasked,draggingherfingersthroughmyhair.
Ihadalmostforgottenaboutmybirthday.Ihadneverreallybeenlookingforwardtoitbeforesinceallit
consistedofwasdinnerwithmyparents.Now,IhadBellatocelebrateitwithsothisyearitwouldbe
completelydifferent.
"IalreadyhaveeverythingIcouldaskfor,"Imumbled,tracingherspinewithmyfingers.
"Thereisn'tanythingelse?"shepressed.
"No.Ialreadyhaveyou,andababyontheway.WhatelsecouldIaskfor?"
"Idon'tknow,butIwanttogiveyousomethinganyway."
"Bella,yougivemeeverythingbyjustbreathing."
"Wow,thatwaskindofcheesy,"shesaidwithagiggle.
"Iknow."Ichuckled."Butit'sthetruth."
Welaythereonthecouchforafewmoreminutes.IcantellbyBella'sbreathingandhowherfingersslowed
downinmyhair,thatshewasabouttofallasleep.Iknewthatifwedidn'tgetuptothebed,shewouldbe
feelingsomemassivebackpaininthemorning,andIdidn'twanttoseeherinpain.
"Baby,weneedtogoupstairs,"Itoldher.
"Mm,Idon'twantto,"shemoanedtiredlyandsnuggledclosertomyside.
"Wehaveto,oryou'llbeblamingmetomorrowwhenyourbackhurttoomuch,"Iargued.
"DoyoureallythinkIwoulddothat?"sheasked,proppingherselfuponherelbow.
"Iknowyouwould,solet'sgo,"Isaid,startingtogetup.
"Ineedtocleanup,"shemumbledwhileabeautifulblushspreadacrossherface.
Shealwaysgotshyaftersexifsheneededtocleanup.Shewasn'tlikethatwhenwejustfellasleeptogether
afterward,butmomentslikethis,shebecameshy.Why?Ihadnoidea,thatwasjusthowshewasanditonly
mademelovehermore.
"Here,youcanusethis,"Isaid,handinghermywhitetshirt.
"Thanks,"shewhispered.
Whenshewasdonecleaningherselfup,IwasalreadydressedinmyboxersandIdidn'tcareaboutputting
somethingelseon.Wewereonlygoingtobedanyway.Ididn'tlikethefactthatBellastartedputtingherpanties
on.Iwantedhernaked.
"Baby,there'snoneedtogetdressed,"Iwhined.
"Yes,thereis.Mom,orPhil,couldwalkoutoftheirroomanytime,andIdon'twantthemtoseemenaked."
"Fine,butassoonaswegetinsidethebedroom,theclothescomesoff.Iwantyounakedinmybedtonight."I
smirked.
"Thenyouneedtobenaked,too,"shesaidwithasmirkofherown.
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"Ihavenoproblemswiththat."Ismiled.
WewentupstairsandtiptoedoncewegottothetopfloorasifReneeandPhilwouldwakeupfromour
footsteps.Ridiculous,butIreallydidn'twanttogetcaughtrightafterhavingsexwithBella.Webothprobably
hadthatglowinourfacesthatwouldgiveusawaythesecondtheysawus.
OncewefinallyslidunderneaththecoversnakedIhadonemorethingtodobeforegoingtosleep,andthat
wastosaygoodnighttomydaughter.
"Hi,babygirl,"IstartedandfeltBella'sfingersinmyhair.SheusuallydidthatwhenItalkedtoEmily."Now
it'sonlyeightyninemoredaysbeforeIgettoseeyourbeautifulface."
"Eightynine?"Bellaasked.
"Yeah,Icountedlastnight,"Isaidwithasmileandwentbacktohertummy."Iloveyouandpleasedomea
favortonightpleasedon'tkickyourmommytoohard.I'llberightherebesideyouallnight."
IplacedonefinalkissrightontopofBella'spoutingbellybuttonbeforeIlaydownbesideher,takingherinto
myarms.
"Iloveyou,Edward."Shesighedandnuzzledhernoseintomychest.
"Iloveyou,too,baby."
BellamadebreakfastforallofusasItookElsaoutforawalk.BythetimeIgotback,ReneeandPhilwereup
anddressedsoweallsettleddownatthetable.
"IsthisyourGrandma'spancakes?"Reneeasked.
"Yes."Bellasmiledanddugin.
Ilovedherformakingmyfavoritebreakfast.Sheusuallymadethepancakesontheweekendssinceittooktoo
longforhertowanttodoitonaweekday.
"Youranniversaryiscomingupsoon,right?"Reneeasked,takingazipfromhercoffee.BothBellaandI
nodded."Areyouplanningondoingsomethingspecial?"
"We'reredoingourvows."
"Really?Thatsoundslikeagreatidea!"
"Yeah.Although,Idon'treallyknowmuchsinceAliceisplanningthewholething.Iknowhowthedress
looks,thedateandthatit'sgoingtotakeplaceintheCullen'sbackyard,"Bellasaid.
TheycontinuedtalkingabouttheweddingwhilePhilandIonlylistened.Ididn'tknowmuchaboutthe
weddingeither.ItrustedAlice,though,soIwassureeverythingwouldturnoutfine.AslongasIhadBellaall
overagainbytheendoftheday.
"Iloveyou,baby,"ReneesaidwithtearfuleyesaswedroppedherandPhiloffattheairport.
NomatterhowmuchIdislikedherforherbehavioronThanksgiving,shehadbeenreallyhelpfulthisweekend.
Honestly,Ididseesomechangesinher,butthatdidn'tmeanthatItrustedher.Shecouldgobacktobeingthe
bitchthathurtBellaanytime.
"Iloveyou,too,Mom,"BellasaidandgaveReneeonelasthug.
"Thankyouforcoming,"Isaidandgaveherahugaswell.
"Takecareofmybabygirlforme,willyou?"
"Iwill."
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IshookPhil'shandandwatchedashehuggedBellabeforeheandReneewalkedtothesecuritygate.Bella
huggedmywaisttightandIcouldfeelherwettearsthroughmyshirt.IhatedseeinghercrysoIdidmybestto
comforther.
Laterthatnight,awhileafterIhadfallenasleep,IfeltBellaleavemyembrace.Ihatedthatshitanditmademe
feelcoldandlonely.
"Hey,whereareyougoing?"Imurmuredinavoicethickofsleep,tryingtoreachoutforher.
"Ican'tsleep.Emilyiskickingrealhardtonight,"shegroanedandIcouldpicturehowshegrabbedher
stomach.
Thensomethingpoppedupinmyoverlytiredmind.SomethingworthtryingandsomethingIhadbeen
workingonthisweek.
"Comebacktobed,"Isaidandheardhersigh.Iknewshewasabouttoprotest."IhavesomethingIwantto
try."
"Fine,butitbetterbegood,"BellamumbledandIfeltthebedshiftasshecamebacktobed.
Iwasluckytohaveastereoinhere,otherwise,myplanwouldn'twork.
IgotupfrombedandfumbledaroundinthedarkforawhilebeforeIfoundwhatIhadbeenlookingfor.When
Igottothestereo,IputtheCDinandturnedthevolumeuptomediumnottooloud,butnottooloweither.
Then,theroomwasfilledwiththesoundofapiano.
"Edward?"IheardBellasniffle.
"What'swrong,baby?"Iaskedworriedlyandhurriedbacktothebed.
"Nothing.Didyoureallymakethis?"
"Yeah,IthoughtitwouldhelpyoucalmEmilydownwhenI'mnotaround."
"Thankyou."
Shewasstillcrying,butitwasprobablyfromhappinessormaybeevenrelief.Thesoundofthepianomadeit
hardformetogobacktosleep,butitwasallworthitwhenIfeltBella'sbreathingevenoutafterfivetracks.
EndNotes:
A/N:Aww,isn'tEdwardthesweetest?
Nextupdate:SundayOctober17th.Thenit'stimeforEdward'sbirthday!
Finally!
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Idon'tthinkI'veeverenjoyedwritingsomethingasmuchasIenjoyed
writingthischapter,soIhopeyoulikeitaswell!
Ithinkthemajorityofyoufoundthequoteinthelastchapter.Itwasfrom'New
Moon':
"Bella,yougivemeeverythingbyjustbreathing."
Goodiestothischaptercanbefoundat:marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
Bestbirthdayever
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Todaywasmyfuckingbirthdayandmywifewasn'teveninbedwhenIwokeup.Ihadatleastexpectedtoget
arealfuckinggoodmorningonadaylikethis,butno,shewasnothere.InsteadIwokeuptoacoldandempty
bed.
AsIsatup,Inoticedanenvelopeononmynightstand.Itwaspinksotherewasnodoubtwhoitwasfrom.
WhenIopeneditandtookoutwhatwasinside,IsawthatitwasapictureofBella'sfeetandcalves.Iwould
knowherfeetanywhere.Itwasaveryeroticpictureeventhoughitwasjustherfeet.Although,everything
aboutBellawaserotic.
Iflippeditoverandsawsomethingwritteninaneathandwriting.
Lookinyourfavoritedrawerinthecloset.
Ihadcompletelygottenoverthefactthatshedidn'tgivemeapropergoodmorningwhenIreadhernote.Ihad
afeelingthatIwouldlikethisgame.
FindingmyfavoritedrawerwouldbeeasyitwasBella'sunderweardrawer.So,Iexcitedlygotoutofbedand
walkedovertothecloset.WhenIopenedherdrawer,shedidn'tdisappoint.Therewereanotherphotointhere,
thistimeitwasaphotoofherthighsandyoucouldseethehintofapairofblacklacypantiesshewore.This
wassomuchbetterthanherfeet,soIdecidedtosavethatoneaswell.
Onceagain,Iflippedthephotoover,eagertoseewhatshewantedmetodonext.
Ahintofwhatmightbecoming...You'renotthereyet,though,sofornow:gotoEmily'sroom.
IhonestlyfeltalittledisappointedthatIdidn'tgettohaveBellarightthissecond,butatthesametimeIwas
curiousaboutwhatshehadinstoreformeontheway.
Withoutevenbotheringwithputtingonclothes,IwalkedtoEmily'sroomonlycladinmyboxers.Itwasn'tlike
therewasanyoneelseinthehouse.UnlessBellahadplannedasurprisepartyandshehadfiftypeoplewaiting
downstairs,butIdoubtedthat.Itwasn'tsomethingBellawoulddo.
IalmostrandownthehalltoEmily'sroom,butoncethere,Ihadnoideawheretolookformynewphotoand
instruction.Imean,theroomwasnotsmallandthereweremanyplacestohideanote.Couldn'tshejusthave
saidwhereinEmily'sroomIshouldgo?
IfeltlikeanidiotforcomplainingaboutitbeingtoodifficultwhenIsawasmallpackageinthecrib.Ithadn't
seenitbefore,soIfigureditwasfromBella.
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Foronce,itwasn'tpink.EverythingelseinBella'sworldseemedtobepink,butnotthispackageitwaslight
greenandIcouldn'thelpbutwonderifshehaddonethatjustforme.
Thistime,therewasapictureofhernakedbelly.IsmilewidelyonceIsawthattherewassomethingwritten
acrossit.
Happybirthday,Daddy!
IchuckledlightlyasItracedmyfingersoverthepicture.EventhoughBellacomplainedalotaboutbeingbig,I
certainlydidn'tseeherthatway.Ihadactuallythoughtshewouldbebiggerthanshewas.Imean,shewas
sevenmonthspregnantbynowandshestillonlyhadabump.Okay,maybeaprettybigbump,butstillabump.
Iquicklygrabbedthepackageandunwrappedit.Whatwasinsidemademysmileevenbiggerandalaugh
escapedmymouth.Bellawastoofunnyandadorable.Itwasamatchingtshirtset.Onebigwithtshirtwith
blackarmsandoneonesiethatlookedthesame,onlyitwaspinkinsteadofblack.Thatwasn'tthefunnything,
though.
Onthebigtshirt,whichIguessedwasforme,itreadTeamDaddyinbig,bold,blackletters.Onthelittleonsie
itreadI'monDADDY'Steam.Itwasfitting,nodoubt.Icouldn'twaituntilEmilyandIgottowearthese
together.
God,I'mgonnabeadaddyintwofuckingmonths.
Itwasstillsosurreal,andIhadahardtimegettingitinsidemyhead.Ihad,unlikeBella,actuallyreadaboutthe
birthandallthatalready,soatleastIwasprepared.Ijustneededtogetmymindsettoo.
IrealizedIstillhadn'treadmynextinstruction,soIeagerlyflippedthephotoover.
Emilywantedtocontribute.Ihopeyoulikeit.Ifyoudo,godownstairstothekitchen.
OfcourseIlikedthegift.Ifuckinglovedit,soIquicklymadeitdownstairsafterleavingtheshirtsneatlyfolded
inthecrib.
There,onthekitchentablewasmyfavoritebreakfastBella'sspecialpancakesandacupofcoffee.Although,
therewerestillnoBella.AllIhadwerethephotos.
Isatdownandnoticedshehadplacedwhippedcreamandraspberryjamattheside.Ipouredadecentamount
ofbothonthepancakesbeforeItooktheenvelopeplacedinfrontofme.
Itwasmyfavoritepicturesofar.Bella'stits,notnaked,though,wereinthecenterofthephoto.Shehadona
beautifullacybrathatIguessedmatchedthepanties.Thatwasnotmyfavoritepartstrangelyenough.Itwasher
hands.Theyformedaheartrightoverherrealone.
Iwilldefinitelysavethisone.
Iwouldprobablyframeitandputitonmynightstandorsomething.Iwouldhaveputitinmyoffice,but
someonemightseeitandIdidn'twanttosharemygirl'stitswiththemaidoracoworker.
Iflippedthephotooveraftertakingamouthfulofpancakes.Theytastedheavenly,justlikeIhadimagined.
Iloveyouwithallmyheart.Comefindmewhenyou'vefinishedyourbreakfast.
xxxxBella
TherewasnowayinhellthatIwouldwaituntilIhadfinishedallfivepancakes.Iwantedher,andIwantedher
now.Thepancakescouldwait,Bellacouldn't.Theonlyquestionwaswhereshewashiding.Ihadn'tseenher
upstairsandIhadn'theardapeepfromthefloorIwasonatthemoment.NotevenElsahadmadean
appearanceandthatwasunusualsinceshealwaysgreetedmeinthemornings.
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Iwentovertothewindowtoseeifhercarwasstillathome.Notthatshewouldbeabletodriveit,butyou
neverknew,mygirlwasclever.Istillrememberthedaysherealizedthatshecouldn'tdriveanymore,though.
IclimbedintotheVolvoandwaitedforBellatodriveawaylikeIalwaysdideverymorningbeforework.This
Mondaymorningwerenoexception.IalwaysfeltlessworriedifIfollowedherinsteadoftheotherway
around.ThiswayIcouldkeepaneyeonherallthewaytodowntown.
Sheneverdroveoff,though,andthathadmeworried.Ithadbeenatleastfiveminutessincewestepped
outside,sowhatthehellwastakinghersolong?
Sighing,Igotoutandwalkedovertohercar.Shewassittingwithherheadagainstthewheelandfromthe
looksofit,shewascrying.Ihatedseeinghercry,butithadbecomeanormalitythesedays.Itstillpainedme,
though.
Igentlyopenedthecardoorandasked,"Baby,whyareyoucrying?"
"Because,"shesobbed."BecauseI'mtoofattodrive!"
Whatthehell?
ThatwaswhenInoticedthatshehadpushedherseatbacksofarthatherfeetdidn'treachthepedals.Her
stomachwasascloseaspossibletothewheelsotherewasnowayforhertogetclosertothepedals.
That'swhatshegetswhenshebuyssuchasmallcar.
"Baby,you'renotfat.You'repregnant,"Isaidfirmlyandslightlyannoyed.
"Yes,Iam.Whydoyouneverlistentome?"shewailedandIinstantlyfeltguiltyforbeingannoyedwithher,
eventhoughIshouldbemoreannoyedbywhatshejustsaid.
"Comeon,I'llgiveyouaride,"Isaidwithabigsigh.
"ButIwanttodrivemycar,"sheargued.
"Well,youjusthavetowaitafewmonths,that'sall,"Isaid,unbucklingherseatbeltandhelpedheroutofthe
car.
"Istillwanttodrive,"shemumbledwithasniffle.
"Iknow,baby,"Isaid,wipinghertearsaway.
"It'sallyourfault,youknow.Ifitweren'tforyouandyoursupersperm,Iwouldbeabletodrivetoworklikea
normalperson.Plus,Iwouldn'tbestandinghere,embarrassingmyselfinfrontofourneighbors."
Isnappedoutofthememorywithachuckle.Ihadnoideahowitwaspossibleforapersontobesoadorable,
yetsoinfuriatingathesametime.Ihadgottenusedtobeingblamedforthechangesherbodywasgoing
through,butIhadalsogottenusedtothewayshelovedmeforgivingherababyandthewayshelovedmefor
lovingher.
TherewasonlyonemoreplaceinourhousethatBellacouldbe,andthatwasthebasement.Ifshewasn'tthere,
thenshewasatsomeoneelse'splace,butIsureashellhopedshewashomebecauseIwantedher.Ineededher.
AsIwalkeddownthestairstothebasement,Iheardsofttunesfrommypiano.ItwasTwinkleTwinkleLittle
Star,thepieceIhadtaughtBellatoplayoverthepastweeks.Okay,Ihadtriedtoteachher,butshegaveuptoo
easily.
WhatIsawasIcamedownstairs,mademybreathhitchinmythroat.There,onthepianobenchwithherback
turnedtome,wasaverynakedBellasittingwhileplayingonmypiano.Iwatchedherinaweassheplayedon.
"Happybirthday,Edward,"shesaid,turningaroundwhenshewasfinished.
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Shewasreallyglowingtodayandshelookedsohappywithashysmileplasteredonherface.Icouldtellthat
shewasembarrassed,butifIhadn'tknownhersowell,Iwouldhavebeenfooled.
Istoodthere,gapinglikeafuckingfishwiththephotosinmyhand.Ihadabsolutelynoideawhattosay.Thank
youdidn'tevencoverit.Eventhoughshehadn'tdonemuch,shewasofferingherselfasagiftonmyfucking
birthdayandshehadmadeitintoafungame.
"Don'tyouwanttoseeyournextcard?"Bellachallenged,wavinganewphotoinherhand.
Isnappedoutofmydazeandsmiledatherbeforesteppingovertoher.ThephotowashalfforgottenasI
trappedherfaceinmyhandsandforcefullykissedhersoftlips.Shesighedandkissedmebackforafew
secondsbeforepullingaway.
"Photofirst,melater,"shepanted.
IsmirkedandnoddedbeforeIgrabbedtheenvelopefromherhand.InsidewasaphotoofBella'sface.Even
thoughitwasblackandwhite,Icouldtellthatshewasblushing.Shelookedshy,butmostofall,shelooked
likemyBella.
It'sallyours,Mr.Cullen.IloveyouandHAPPYBIRTHDAY!
xxMrs.Cullen
"Well,itlookslikeIhavesomethingofminetotakecareof,"Iwhisperedhuskilyinherearandsheshiveredat
mywords.Orbecauseshewascold,butIwantedtobelievethatitwasbecauseofme.
"Itsurelooksthatway,"shewhisperedback."Youcanhavemeanywayyouwant."
"Really?"Iasked,placingmyhandsoneithersideofherandbentdowntokissherneck."ThenIwouldliketo
fuckyoufrombehind,seeingthatgorgeousassofyoursasIthrustmycockinandoutofyou."
SheshiveredagainandthistimeIwasalmostsurethatitwasbecauseofmywordsbecauseitsureashell
wasn'tcolddownhere.IlovedthatIhadthateffectonher,soIdecidedtocontinueandnibbledonherskin
alongherneck,secretlyhopingthatitwouldleaveamark.Itwasmybirthdayafterall,andshesaidIcould
havemywaywithher,andIwantedtomarkher.
"ThenIwanttohaveyouontop,ridingmycocklikeitwouldbethelasttimeyoueversawit,"Icontinued,
trailingmyhanddownhersideandbetweenherthighs,feelinghowfuckingwetshewas.
Thisisturningmywifeon!
"Fuckme,"BellawhimperedasIstrokedherpussy.
"Nuhhu,baby,yousaidIcouldhavemywaywithyou,sothat'swhatI'mgoingtodo.Youjusthavetobe
patientwithme."
Shedidn'tsayanything,butshedidgetwetterundermytouchandmoanedasIteasedherentrancewithmy
finger.Shegrabbedaholdofmybicepsandleanedbackasifshewantedtogivememoreaccesstoherbody.
Ibentdowntokissheronthelips,butIjustghostedmytongueoverherpoutinglips,tastinghersweetflavor
onthetipofmytongue.ShepartedherlipsformeandjustasIsuckedherbottomlipintomymouth,Ipusheda
fingerdeepinsideherpussy,feelingthetightnessandhowwetshewasforme.
Iquicklyaddedanotherfingerandshegaspedintomymouth,butsheneverbrokeourkiss.
"You'resowetforme,baby,"Imumbled.
"Always...foryou,"shemoanedasIstartedrubbingherclitwithmythumbwhilestillpumpingherpussywith
myfingers.
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Ikissedmywaydownhernecktoherbeautifulandperfecttits.Iflickedhernipplewithmytongue,earninga
loudmoanfromher.Isuckedandoccasionallyswirledmytonguearoundhersensitiveskinandthenpaidthe
sameamountofattentiontoherothertit.Ididn'twantittobeunfair.
"Edward,please,"Bellabegged.
"Beggingisn'tgoingtotakeyouanywhere,baby,"ItoldhereventhoughIlovedhearingherbegforme.
"Ugh,"shemoanedinfrustration.
IchuckledandkissedmywaydownasIhuncheddowninfrontofher,rightinthesameheightasherglorious
pussy.Ilickedmylipsandspreadherlegs,openingherupforme.Ididn'twasteanytimeandbentforwardto
giveherlowerlipsasoftkiss,tastinghermuskywetness.IcontinuedtomovemyfingersinandoutofherasI
usedmyotherfingerstospreadherlipsforme.
Ifelthersmallhandsinmyhair,tuggingalmostpainfullyasItookherclitintomymouthandsuckedonit.
WhenIbrushedmyfingersagainsthergspot,Iknewshewouldn'tlastlong.SheneverdidwhenIwentdown
onherthisway.
"Edward,"shemoanedandtuggedonmyhair.
"Iknow,baby.Justfeelitandletgo,"Imumbled,curlingmyfingersinsideher.
"Holyshit!"shescreamedasIfeltmyfingersgetdrenchedinherjuicesandherwallsclampdownonmythem.
Igreedilylappeditallupandcontinuedpumpingherwithmyfingersuntilshehadcomedownfromherhigh.
Whenshehadcalmeddown,Ipulledmyfingersoutandlickedthemcleanbeforekissingatrailupherbody,
endingwithhermouth.
EventhoughIhadjustgonedownonher,shekissedmebackhungrilyandthatonlyturnedmeonevenmore.
"HowIloveyou,EdwardCullen."Shesighedhappily.
"NotasmuchasIloveyou,"Iansweredandsteppedoutofmyboxers,readyfortherealthing."Iwantyouon
all."
Isawashereyeswerefilledwithlustonceagainandshewasn'tslowondoingasIsaid.Shegotdownonall
fours,pokingherbeautifulassupintheair.Igrewharderatthesightandquicklygotonmykneesbehindher.
Irubbedmycockalongherfoldswithoutenteringher,coatingmydickwithherjuices.Shewasalreadyready
forme,soIdecidednottowasteanymoretimeandpainfullyslowenteredher.Webothletoutamoanatthe
sensation.Shewassofuckingtightthisway,ortighterthanusualanyway.
Igrabbedherhipsforleverageandstartedmovingfasterinandoutofher.Bellabentdownandrestedonher
elbows,makingmegodeeperandmakinghereventighter.Iwasn'tgoingtolastlonglikethis.
"Mm,Edward,"shemoaned."Shit...myknees."
IwasrelievedthatsheneededtochangepositionsinceIdidn'twanttocumjustyet,andthatwasexactlywhatI
woulddoifwecontinuedlikethis.So,Ipulledoutofherandlaydownonmyback,mycockstandingatfull
attentionandglisteningwithherjuices.
"Comehere,baby,"Itoldher.
Shestooduponshakylegsandstraddledme.Iheldoutmyhandtohelphergetdownonherknees.She
hoveredjustabovemydickwhowasbegginghertojustmovedownafewinches.Hedidn'thavetobeglong
assheguidedherselfdownonme,moaningasshedidso.
Igrabbedherassandhelpedhermoveupanddownatasteadypacethatwebothliked.Icouldtellwhenshe
startedgettingclosebecausethatwaswhenshestartedmovingfasteraboveme.Iremovedmyhandsfromher
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assandmovedthemtoherbouncingtitsinstead.Istartedkneadingthemasshemovedonherownaccord.
Ifeltherwallsclampdowntightlyonmeasherorgasmhit.Ittookeverythinginmenottocumrightthenand
there.Iwantedtofeelthisalittlelonger,evenifitwasforjustafewseconds.
"Edward!"shemoanedloudlyasshecontinuedtomoveupanddownwhileridingherorgasmout.
Mytoescurled,andImovedmyhandtoherhips,myfingersdugdeeperasIfinallyfoundmyrelease.Ieven
sawfuckingstarsflashingthroughmyeyelids.Ithadbeenalongtimesinceithadbeenthatstrong.
"Fuck,Bella,"Igrunted.
"Happybirthday,Edward."Shesighed,exhausted,andlaydownbesideme,causingmetoslipoutofher
warmth.
IlaytherewithBellatuckedtomyside,unabletospeakormove.Webothbreathedhardandafterawhile,
Bellastartedtracinglacypatternsonmystomach.ItfeltsogoodthatIalmostfellasleep.Ididn't,though,butI
wishedwewereinbedandthatthedaywouldbeoversothatIcouldsnuggleclosetoherandjustletsleeptake
me.
"Wow,thatwasonehellofabirthdaypresent,"IsaidwithachuckleonceIhadrecovered.
"Yourbirthdayisn'tover,"Bellasaidandsmiledupatme.
Herwordsmademerealizeitwasanythingbutclosetobeingover.TheonlyreasonIwasathomeinthefirst
placewasbecauseMomhadinsistedthatwecametoForksovertheweekend,soIhadtakenthedayoff.She
keptsayingthatitwasn'teverydayherbabyboyturnedtwentyfive.Well,shesaidthesamethingwhenI
turnedtwentyfour,andtwentythreeandsoon.
"Don'tremindme,"Igroaned."Iwishitcouldjustbeyouandmeallday."
"I'msurewecansneakoff,butweshouldgetdressedbecauseIhaveonemorethingforyou."
"What?Ithoughtyouweremybirthdaypresent,"Isaidconfused.
"No,thiswasjustmywayofsayinghappybirthdaytomyverysexyhusband."Shesmiled.
"Whatisit?"Iasked,excitementrushingthroughmyveins.
"ItwouldruinthefunifItoldyou,"shesaid,rollinghereyes."Nowhelpmeupsowecangetdressed,
birthdayboy."
Ipushedmyselfupfromthefloorwithsomeeffort.MylegswerestillshakyfromtheorgasmIjusthad,butI
couldatleaststandonmyown.
Bellareachedherhandsupandwiggledherfingers.ShelookedsodamnadorablewhenshedidthatshitandI
couldn'thelpbuttolaughatherandhelpherup.Shewasn'tbigbyanymeans,andyet,shehadtroublegetting
uponherown.
BPOV
Edwardwantedtotakeashowertogetherthismorning,andsinceitwashisbirthday,whowasItoargue?
Besides,Ididn'tminditatall.Especiallynotwhenhewashedmybodyandthenlettingmehelpwashinghis
ownbody.IlovedhowhisbodyfeltundermytouchandImighthavedraggedthewholewashingpartouta
littleformyownentertainment.
Itwasaniceandsunnydayouttoday,soIdecidedonapairofjeansshortsandablacktunic.Itwasactually
clothesIhadwornbeforeIgotpregnantanditstillfitted.Although,Ihadabandthatheldmystomachupa
littlewhichmadeitpossibleformetoweartheshorts.
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"Notthatyoulooksexyashellinthosetinyshorts,butIwishyouwouldn'thideyourstomachlikethat,"
Edwardsaidwhenhesawme.
"It'sprettyimpossibletohidemybelly,Edward,"Isaid,rollingmyeyesandtightenedthefabricovermy
stomach,showinghimthatIdidn'thideit.
"Ihappentoloveyourbabytummy,"hesaidandledmetostandbetweenhislegsashesatdowninoneofthe
armchairs.
"I'mgladyoudo,"Iwhisperedandstrokedhishair.
Hepushedmytunicup,exposingmystomachandIlethim.Ialwaysenjoyedhisfatherdaughtertalk,but
sometimes,though,IleftlikeIwasimposing.
"You'vemadeDaddyaveryhappyman,"hesaidandplacedatenderkissonmybelly.Thenhestoodupand
tookmyfaceinhishands."Andsohaveyou."
HeplacedthesoftestkissIhadeverfeltanditwassolovingthatitalmostmademecry.
"You'vemademehappy,too,"Iwhisperedandfistedmyhandsinhiswhitetshirt.
Wedidn'thavetimeforanotherroundoflovemakingsinceweneededtogetonourway.Plus,Iwasso
excitedaboutgivinghimhisotherpresentthatIcouldbarelycontainmyself.
WhenIgottothekitchentograbafewthingsforElsa,whowasbabysatbyAliceandJasperthisweekend,I
sawtheleftoversfromthepancakes.IguessEdwardwasn'tabletocontainhimselfenoughtoeatup.
IwasonmywayofthrowingthemoutwhenEdwardstoppedme.
"Hey!Don'tdothat.It'smine,"hesaid,grabbingtheplatefrommyhands,leavingmeprettystunned.
"Edward,they'regoingtogetbadduringtheweekend.Icanalwaysmakeyounewoneswhenwegetback,"I
reasoned.
"I'lleatthemonourwaytoForks.You'renotthrowingthemout,"hesaidwithanangrypout.
"Fine,"Ihuffed,throwingmyhandsupintheairindefeat.
IgrabbedthethingsforElsaandslippedonmyblackflipflops.Alicecouldfreakifshewanted,butbeing
pregnantwasagoodexcusefornotwearinghighheels.
Edwardcarriedthepancakesinonehandandourovernightbaginhisotherhand,soIlookedthedoorbehind
usandopenedthecardoorforhimsincehewasunabletodoso.Istartedgettingnervous,butIhopedhedidn't
catchmyshakinghandsbecauseIdidn'twanthimtoknoweventhetiniestbitaboutwhatwascomingtohim.
"Feedme,"Edwardcommandedashestarteddriving.
"I'lldothatlater.We'rejustgoingtoRoseandEmmettfirst,"Itoldhimandheshotmeaquestioninglylook,
butIkeptmymouthshutandpretendedIdidn'tseeit.
HedidasIsaidanddrovetoRoseandEmmett.Isawthecarstandingonthecurb,butwhenIlookedoverat
Edward,hedidn'tseemtohavenoticedit.Although,allyoucouldseewerethebackofthecarwhichdidn't
giveawaymuch.
"Dotheyhaveavisitororsomething?"Edwardasked.
"Nope,nootherthanAliceandJasper.Theyalljustwantedtowishyouahappybirthdaybeforeweleftfor
Forks,"Iexplainedinashakyvoice.
"Oh,okay,"hesaidwithashrugandparkednexttoAliceandJasper'scar.
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WesteppedoutsideandEdwardwasimmediatelycrushedbyAlice'ssmallarms.
"Happybirthday,Edward!"sheexclaimed.
IsawJaspercomingupbehindAlicewithanamusedexpressiononhisface.
"Happybirthday,man,"hesaidandgaveEdwardoneofthosemanlyhugs.
"So,haveyoubeenenjoyingyourbirthdaysofar?"AliceaskedknowinglyandIshotheraglare,silently
askinghertodropit.
"Thebestfuckingbirthdayever!"Edwardanswered,makingmycheeksturnredfromembarrassment.Ialways
hateddiscussingsexwithanyotherthanEdward,andeventhenIwasalittleembarrassed.
"I'llbet,"Alicesaid,smiling.
"Happybirthday,littleEddie,"EmmettsaidwhilewalkingdownthefrontstepswithLilyinhisarms.
"I'manythingbutlittle,"Edwardansweredwithascowlonhisface.
"Isthattrue,Bella?"Emmettasked,turningtomewithasmirk.
What'supwithallthesesexquestions?
"Um,yes,"Ianswered,onceagainredasatomato.
"See?Now,letmeholdmylittlegoddaughter,"Edwardsaid,reachingoutforlittleLily.
"SayhappybirthdaytouncleEddie,baby,"EmmettsaidinaserioustoneandhandedhimLily.
Lilyjusttookthehandsheonlyasecondagohadstuffedinhermouth,andplaceditonEdward'scheek.It
mademegiggleandrubmybellylongingly.
"Well,thankyou,"Edwardsaidsarcastically,buthappily.
"Herearethekeys,"Rosewhisperedinmyear,placingtheobjectinmyhandandscaringthelivingshitoutof
me.
"Ah,Rose!"Iscreamed."Don'tdothat!"
"Sorry,"shesaidwithasmileandIknewshewasn'tsorry."Happybirthday,Edward."
"Thanks,"hereplied,placingasloppykissonLily'scheekbeforehandingherbacktoEmmett.
"Happybirthdayagain,Edward,"Isaid,handinghimthesetofkeys.
"What'sthis?"heaskedconfusedandlookeddownatthekeysinhishand.
"Yourbirthdaypresent,"Itoldhimandturnedhimaroundsothathewasfacingthecar.
"Baby,isthat...no,that'snot...baby,that'sacar,anditlookslike...fuck,itlookslike..."hestammeredwith
wideeyesandashockedexpression.
"Itlookslikewhat?"Iteased,wrappingmyarmsaroundhiswaist.
"Bella,itlookslikeyourfuckingcar,"hesaid,gesturingwithhishandtowardthecar.
"So?"
"Well...no,it'snotyourcar,"hestatedfirmly,buthedidn'tseemtobelievewhathesaid.
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"WhatifItoldyouthatitwasmycar,butI'mgivingittoyou?"
"You'rejustshittin'me,right?"heaskedstubbornly,andhereIthoughtIwasthestubbornone.
"Ineverfullyunderstoodthatexpression,butno,I'mnot'shitting'you,"Ianswered.
"You'renot?"
"Damnit,Edward!Thecarisyours!"Iyelledwithalaugh,stompingmyfootlikeachild.
BeforeIknewit,Edwardhadmecrushedinatighthug,andIhuggedhimrightback.
"So,you'renotshittingme?"heaskedexcitedlyinmyear.
"No,I'mnotshittingyou.Thecarisyours."
"God,Ifuckingloveyou."Hesighedandpepperedmyfaceinkisses.
"Good."Igiggled."Gocheckthecarout."
Iplayfullypushedhimawayandswattedhisass,urginghimon.Heseemedtogetthehintandcarefullymade
hiswayovertothecar.Hewassoadorable,butIcouldn'tsaythatoutloudandruinhishappymood.Seeing
hisreactionhadmadeaheavyweightliftoffmyshoulderandIdidn'tregretforasecondtogivethecaraway.
"Helovesit,"Rosewhisperedandwrappedandarmaroundmyshoulder.
"Hetotallylovesit,"Alicesaidandwrappedherarmsaroundmyothershoulder.
"Yeah,andhelovedtheotherpresenttoo,sothankyouguys...foreverything."
RoseweretheonewhohadhelpedmewiththephotosandAlicehadhelpedwiththeoutfitandeverything
else.
"Noproblem.Now,gobewithyourman!"Rosesaidandpushedmeforwardtothecar.
IwalkedovertothecarandEdward,whowerenowsittinginthedriver'sseat,lookingaroundwithbigeyes.
"Itakeityoulikeit,"Isaidteasingly.
"Ifuckingloveit!Butareyousureyou..."hestarted,butIcuthimoffbeforehehadthechancetocontinue.
"Yes,I'msure.Thisismywayofsayingthankyou."
"Forwhat?"
"Forbeinghereforme.ForbeingsostubbornaboutstayingmarriedtomewhenItoldyouno,overandover.
Forjustputtingupwithmycrapeveryday.Idon'tknowwhereIwouldhavebeenwithoutyou.Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,baby,"hesaid,takingmyhandandplayedwithmyengagementring."Ijustdon'tknowhow
tothankyouforthis."
"Justbeyouandyou'vethankedmemorethanenough,"Isaid,bendingdownandplacedachastekissonhis
lips.
"Okay,enoughkissing,"Emmettsaid,breakingourlittlebubble."Isureashellhopeyoulikethecarbecause
myRosiehasspentmoretimeinthegaragethaninthebedroom."
"That'sfarfromthetruth,Emmett,"Roseargued.
"Maybe,buttheyhaveallhelpedmewiththis,"Isaid,gesturingtoourfriends.
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"Yes,meandJazzyhelpedwiththeinterior,"Alicesaidproudly.
"AndRoseandEmmetthelpedwithfixingtherestup,"Ifinished.
"Idon'tknowhowtothankyou,guys,"Edwardsaid.
"Justgiveusaridefromtimetotime,"Jaspersaidcalmly.
"Icandothat."Edwardsmiled.
WereallyneededtogosowecouldreachForksinadecenthour.Edwardeagerlyaskedifhecoulddrivethe
ImpalaasifIwouldmindthat.LikeIsaid,hewastooadorable.Ihadactuallyalreadyarrangedsothatthe
VolvowouldbedrivenbackbyoneofourfriendssinceIhadsensedthatEdwardwouldwanttodrivethe
Impala.
"I'mjustgoingtousethebathroomrealquickandthenwecango,okay?"Itoldhim.
"Sure,I'llberightherewaiting."
Iquicklymadeittothebathroomandrelievedmybladder.Ihatedthispartaboutbeingpregnanttheconstant
needtousethebathroom.
WhenIgotbackoutside,wethankedeveryonefortheirhelpandthenaveryexcitedEdwardstarteddrivingus
toForks.
"Mm,Iwantmypancakes,"Edwardsaid,lickinghislips.
Ilaughedathimandhandedhimtheplate,butheshookhisheadandpointedtohismouth.
"Youstillwantmetofeedyou?"Henodded."Ithoughtyouwerejoking."
"Nope,socomeon,baby,I'mhungry!"
Ichuckledandrolledonepancakebeforebringingittohismouth.Theywerejustplainpancakessincehe
hadn'tbroughtthejamwithhim,buthehappilyatethemallanyway.
BythetimeIwasdonefeedinghim,myfingersweregreasyandstickyfromthepancakesandIrealizedwe
didn'tbringanynapkinseither.Edwardmusthavenoticedandtookmydirtyhandandlickedeachfingerclean,
causingmetogiggle,butatleastmyproblemwassolved.
EPOV
ThecarpurredbeautifullyunderneathmeandIstillcouldn'tbelievethatBellahadgivenmeherfuckingcarfor
mybirthday.Acar.TheoneIhadbeenjealousofsincehighschool,andnowitwasmine.Well,Iwouldliketo
believethatitwasours,butBellakeptoninsistingthatitwasmine.
"Edward,youneedtopulloveragain,"Bellagroaned,snappingmeoutofmythoughts.
"Again?"Iaskedindisbelief."Westoppedfortyminutesago!"
"Well,I'msorryforbeinganinconvenience,butyourdaughterispressingmybladder,soyes,youneedtopull
overagain."
"Fine,"Imumbled,endingtheargumentbeforeitevenstarted.Itwouldonlyendupwithherblamingmefor
beingpregnantandIpreferredherhappy,sothatwaswhyIdidn'tpushherlimitandpulledover.
BellahurriedlypushedthedooropenandrushedintotheforesttowhereIcouldnolongerseeher.Shestill
hadn'tgottenoverusingpublicrestroomsunlessitwasinanrestaurant,butapparentlytheforestworkedout
fine.
"Thankyou,"Bellasaidonceshegotbacktothecar."AndI'msorryforsnappingatyou.Ijustreallyneededto
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pee."
"It'sokay,"Itoldherhonestlyandstarteddrivingagain.
Afterthreemorestopsandafewhours,wewerefinallydrivingpastthe'WelcometoForks'sign.IfeltBella's
stareonmeasIdrove.IknewshefoundmesexywhenIdrove,butthisstarefeltdifferentsoIturnedmyhead
tolookatherandshelookedalmostsad.
"What'swrong,baby?"Iasked,takingherhandinmyfreeone.
"Nothing,"shemumbledquietly,butIgaveheralookthatcalledheroutonherbullshit."Seeingyouinmyold
carmakesmewishwegottogetherbackinhighschoolinsteadofyearslater."
Ifeltapangofguiltasshesaidthat.Itwasmostlymyfaultthatwehadn't.EvenifBellamighthadturnedme
down,Icouldhavetriedagainandagainuntilsheagreedtodateme.
"Stop,"shesaidsoftly."I'mhappywiththelifewehave,sostopblamingyourselfbecauseweprobably
wouldn'thavegottentogetherbackthen.Andwewouldn'tbemarriedorhavingababyontheway.So,just
stop.Ididn'tmeantobringyourmooddown."
Shemadeagoodpoint,soIdidcalmdownjustalittle,butIstillfeltguiltyabouteverythingasIdroveupmy
parents'driveway.Charliewasworkingnight,muchtoBella'sdisappointment,buthewouldstillcometothe
picnicmymomhadplannedfortomorrow.
Iparkedthecarandreluctantlygotout.Iwantedtospendthewholedayinit,withBella.Maybechristeningit,
butIknewbetterandIknewBellawouldn'twanttodothatinfrontofmyparents'house.
Handinhand,BellaandImadeourwayupthestairs.Ididn'tevenbotherwaitingformymomordadtoopen
andsteppedrightin.Theyknewwewerecoming,andtheyhadprobablybothseenandheardus.
"Oh,mybaby!"Momexclaimedonceshesawusandhuggedme.Ihuggedherbackwithouttakingmyhand
fromBella's."Happybirthday!"
"Happybirthday,son,"Dadsaidwithachuckleandgavemeahugaswell.
"Wow,youlookstunning,Bella,"MomsaidandgaveBellaahugtoo.
"Thankyou,"mygirlwhisperedshylyback.
Momhadmadeuslasagna,whichusedtobemyfavoriteuntilIhadtastedBella's.Ididn'tsaythat,though.
InsteadIhappilyateeverythingonmyplatetwotimesoveruntilIwascompletelyfull.Everyoneseemedtolike
thefood,includingBella,andwechattedaboutnothingandeverything.
Ihadtoldmyparentsstrictlynottobuymeanythingformybirthday,butitturnedoutthatthey,too,hadapart
inthecar.Plus,theygavemeandBellaaromanticgetawayoncethebabywasborn.Meaning,theywould
happilybabysitwhileIhadmyfunwithBella.Ihadafeelingthattheywouldwanttobabysitalotmorethan
justonce,though.
Bellafellasleepwhileweallwatchedsomestupidshoweveryoneexceptmeseemedtolike,butwhatwouldn't
Idoformyfamily?Itwasn'tunusualforhertofallasleeplikethat.Shehadbeendoingthatalotlately,butshe
hadmademepromisenottocarryhertothebedroom,threateningtocutmyballsoffifIdid.
ThatwaswhyIhadtowakeheruponceitwastimetogotobed.Itwashardasusual,butIgothertowakeup
enoughtowalkupthestairsandbrushherteeth.Ihelpedhergettingdressedinhertshirtandjustafew
secondsafterthat,shewassoundasleepinmychildhoodbedasightIwouldnevergetusedto.
Ihurriedtogetreadytooandslippedunderneaththecoverstojoinher.Notbeforespeakingtoourdaughter,
though.ItalkedmostlyabouthowIcouldhardlywaitforher,butalsoabouthergrandparentswhofeltthesame
way.
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Istoodjustatthewater'sedge,feelingthecoldwaterhitmytoeswhenawavecrashedin.Then,Ifeltita
kick.Okay,itwasn'tunusual,butsomethingaboutitwasdifferent.ItwaslikeEmilytriedtocheermeon.
Iplacedmyhandrightoverthespotshejustkickedandtookonesmallstepforward,andthenIfeltanother
one.
"Edward!"Iyelledexcitedly."Shekicked!"
"So?"Hechuckled,steppingoutofthewaterandembracedme.
"Mm,you'recold,"Imumbledandwrappedmyarmsaroundhim."Emilykickedme,justlikeshewastryingto
cheermeon."
"Maybeshethoughtyouneededapush,"hesaidwithasmileandbentdowntokissme.
Emilychoosethatmomenttokickagain,andbythesmallchucklethatcamefromEdward,hefeltittooand
thatmademegiggle.Iwasjustfeelingsodamnhappyatthatmoment.Mylifewasprettymuchperfect,andthe
onlythingthatwasmissing,wasforEmilytomakeherappearance.Evenifthatscaredmehalftodeath.
WewereonFirstBeachinLaPush,havingthatpicnicEsmehadplannedfor.Ihadactuallymanagedtostep
insidethewater,evenifitonlyweremyfeetandIwasproudofthat.Edwardevenmanagedtotalkmeinto
wearingtheredbikiniIboughtallthosemonthsago.Ihadoneofhistshirtonme,butIstillworethebikiniso
itstillcounted.
"Yourdadishere,"Edwardwhisperedinmyear,snappingmeoutofmythoughts.
Iturnedaroundandsawmydadwalkingdowntothebeachinhisuniform,whichmeantthathewouldn'tbe
stayingforlong,butatleastheshowedup.IfeltasmilespreadacrossmyfaceasIgrabbedEdward'shandand
draggedhimalongwithmetogreetmydad.
"Dad!"Isaidhappilyandthrewmyarmsaroundhim.
"Bells."Hesighedandhuggedmeback."I'vemissedyou."
"I'vemissedyou,too,"Isaid,holdingbackmyhappytears.
"Hello,Edward."
"Charlie.Iwould'vehuggedyou,too,butI'mallwet,"Edwardsaid,butIhadafeelingthathewasonly
kidding.
"Sureyouwould,"Dadgruntedwithasmile."Youlookfantastic,Bells."
"Youdon'tlooksobadyourself.Comeon,Esmehasthefoodready,"Isaid,tuggingonhishand.
"Youmakeitsoundlikeit'smeyou'vebeenwaitingfor,"hemumbled.
"Well...wehave.Where'sSue,bytheway?"
"She'sbeenstayingwithLeahthisweek,helpingheroutandallthat."
Leahhadbeenreadytopopanysecondthesepastcoupleofweeks,butherduedatehadonlybeenafewdays
ago.Therehadn'tbeenanybabyyet,though,butitwasonlyamatteroftime.
"Charlie,I'msogladyoucouldmakeit,"Esmesaidwithasmileaswereachedtheblanket.
"Me,too.I'mjustsorryIcan'tstayforlong,"Dadsaidapologetically.
"Well,themostimportantthingisthatyoushowed."
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WealldugintothedeliciousfoodEsmehadbrought.IhadneverbeenafanoffoodbeforeIgotpregnant,but
now,Icouldeatalmostanythingandthatfascinatedmeandapartofmewisheditwouldstickaroundafterthe
pregnancyaswell.
"So,areyougoingtomakeagrandpasoon,orwhat?"Dadasked,takingabiteofhissandwich.
"She'sdueAugust22nd,dad,soit'sstilltwomonthsandonedayleft,"Isaidandlaughedathiseagerness.
"Thatlong,huh?"
"Yupp,thatlong."Isighed,bothhappyanddisappointedatthatfact.
Wecontinuedtoeatandtalk.Dadtoldusabouthisworkandhowmuchhehadtodonowthatoneofthe
officershadmoved.Ifeltsorryforhim,buthejustsaidthattheywouldhireanewoneoncetheyfound
someoneappropriate.
Dadhadtoleavemuchtoosoonformyliking,butIunderstoodthathehadajobtodo,evenontheweekends.
"Besuretostopbybeforeyouleavetomorrow,okay?"hesaidandgavemeahug.
"Okay,wewill."
"Good.Iloveyou,baby."
"Iloveyou,too,Dad,"Isaidandwatchedashewalkeduptotheparkinglot.
Isatbackdownontheblanketandremovedthetshirt,feelingwarmallofthesudden.Edwardhummed
approvinglyandgavemeakiss.Ifwehadn'tbeenonthebeachandhisparentsweren'trightbesideus,Imight
havejumpedhimrightthenandthere.
EsmeandCarlisledecidedtogodowntothewater,andIcouldseeinEdward'seyesthathewantedtotakea
swimaswell.So,Imanagedtotalkhimintojoiningthemevenifheprotestedbysayingthathedidn'twantto
leavemealone.
IwatchedEsmerunawayfromCarlisleashechasedherwiththedisgustingseaweed.Edwardjustchuckled,
tryingtocatchhismom.Thewholescenewerefunnytowatch.
Isawagirlstandingafewfeetawayfromme,smilingshylyatme.Shehaddarkhairandapinklittlebikinion
andcouldn'tbemorethanfourorfiveyearsold.Shelookedadorableasshewatchedmefromunderneathher
lashes.
"Hi,"Isaid,smilingeventhoughIwasprobablyevenmoreshythanshewas.
"Hi,"shesaidbackandthatappearedtobeallthatsheneededandsatdownnexttome."Doyouhaveababy
inthere?"
"Yes,Ido,"Isaid,chucklinglightlyatherstraightforwardness."It'salittlegirl."
"Iwasinmymommy'sbellytoo,"shestatedwithacutesmile.
"Yes,youwere,"Isaidwithasmileonmyown.
"Doesn'tshehaveadaddy?"
Ihadn'texpectedhertoasksomethinglikethat.Shewasachild,forcryingoutloud,butapparentlyavery
smartone.
"Sureshedoes.He'srightoverthere,"Itoldher,pointingatEdwardwhowasstillinthewater.
"Oh...he'spretty,"shestated."Butyou'reprettier."
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Iwasunabletoholdbackmylaughter.
"Don'tlethimhearyousaythat,"Isaid,tappinghernoseasIthoughtaboutthetimeIhadtoldEdwardhewas
cuteandhowhehadblownupaboutit.
IfeltEmilypokemeandchuckledasIheardthelittlegirl'sgasp,figuringthatshehadseenthekick.
"Whatwasthat?"sheaskedwithwideeyes.
"Shewaskickingme.Here,feel,"Isaid,grabbingherhandgentlyandplaceditonthespotwhereEmilyhad
kickedafewsecondsago.
"Wow."Shebreathedonceshefeltanewkick."Doesithurt?"
"No,notthis,"Isaid,notwantingtotellherthatitdidhurtdependingonwhereIgotkicked.
"Emma,thereyouare!"adark,tallmanwithababyinhisarmssaid."Whyareyoubotheringthisnicelady?"
Lady?I'moldenoughtobealady?
"Iwasn'tbotheringher,daddy,right?"sheasked,lookingatme.
"No,youweren't,"Ismiledandstartedputtingonmytshirtagain.
"I'msorry,"themansaid."ShejustranoffandIcouldn'tfindher."
"Well,she'sbeenherewithme,talking,"IassuredhimwithasmilejustasEdwardmadehiswaytomyside,
lookingallwetandsexy.
"EdwardCullen?"themanaskedsurprised.
"Theoneandonly,Tyler,"Edwardsaidandgavemeachastekiss."Hi,baby."
TylerCrowley.
"Hi,"IwhisperedshylyandsawEmmasittingwithwideeyes,staringatEdward."Oh.Edward,thisisEmma.
Emma,thisisEdward.Mybaby'sdaddy."
"You'repretty,"shesaidshylyandInudgedherplayfullyforherslip."Oh,sorry."
Edwardchuckled."Thankyou,Emma.You'reprettytoo."
"I'mreallysorryifshe'sbeenbotheringyou..."Tylertrailedoff.
"Bella,"Ifinishedforhim."BellaCullen.Andshehasn'tbeenanyproblem.We'vejustbeentalking."
"Youdon'thappentobeIsabellaSwan,doyou?IsawyouwiththeChiefearlier."
"Well,Iusedtobe,butI'mBellaCullennowadays,"Ianswereduncomfortably.
"WhowouldhavethoughEdwardCullenandBellaSwanwouldenduptogether?"hesaidwithachuckleand
shookhishead."Anyway,Emma,baby,weshouldgetgoing.Mommywillbehomesoon."
"Okay,"Emmasaidreluctantly."Bye."
"Bye,Emma,"Isaid,smiling."Itwasniceseeingyou."
Edwardhadgrabbedhistowelandstarteddryinghimself,butItookitfromhimandsnuggledintohisside.
"Iwonderwhenpeopleinthissmalltownwillbackoff,"Imumbled.
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"Justimagineourhighschoolreunion,"Edwardsaid,placingakissonmyforeheadandtookthetowelback.
"We'renotgoing,"Isaidfirmly.
"Yes,weare.Ihaveabeautifulwifetoshowoff."Hesmirked.
"We'renotgoing,"Iwhisperedquietlymoretomyself.
Laterthatnightwhenwehadgonetobed,Ifeltsomethinginmystomach,anditwasn'takick.Itwasmuch
moreintense,andawholelotdifferent.Itdidn'thurt,buthell,itwasworryinglynotknowingwhatitwas.
IhurriedlywriggledmyselffreefromEdward'sstrongembraceandpulledthecoverawaysothatIcouldsee.It
wasdark,butIcouldstillseealittleandIcoulddefinitelyfeel.Mywholestomachwasmoving.
"Edward,"Isaidurgently,feelingpanickedandhadnoideawhatwashappeningtomeorthebaby.
Edwardjustgruntedandnuzzledhisfacefurtherintohispillow.Whydidhealwayshavetosleeplikethe
dead?Ineededhimtotellmethateverythingwasalright,andthatthemovementsweren'tfatalforthebaby.I
neededreassurance.
"Edward,"Isobbed,shakinghim."Edward,please!"
IwasjustabouttokickhimonhislegswhenIsawhiseyelidsflutteropenandwhenheheardmecrying,they
werewideopenandhesatup.
"Baby,what'swrong?"heasked,turningonthelightonhisside.
"Mystomach.Something'swrong,"Isobbed."Weneedtogettothehospital...thebaby."
Rightthen,mystomachmovedagainandthistime,bothEdwardandIclearlysawit.Iwasn'timaginingthings.
So,Istartedgettingupfromthebed,holdingmyhandsprotectivelyaroundmystomach,butEdwardstopped
me.
"Bella,stayrightthere,anddon'tyoudaremove,"hesaidfirmly,holdingmedowntothebed.
Whydoesn'thewantustogotothehospital?
"No,weneedtogotothehospital,"Isobbedagain,stillfeelingpanicinmychest.
"I'mgoingtogetmydad,sostaywhereyouareanddon'tmove,"hesaidagainandthenhewasgone.
Ilookedaroundtheroomwhileclutchingmytummy,debatingonwhetherornottogetupfromthebedandget
readytoleave.EdwardwouldbepissedifImovedaninch,butIfearedforthelifeofmyunbornchild,andI
feltlikeIneededtodosomethingotherthanholdingmystomachinplace.
Whatifmystomachisfallingoff?
Thatthoughtonlymademecryharderandclutchmystomachtighter.WhatifIhaddonesomethingtocause
this?Whatifallthesexdidsomethingtothebaby?
"Bella,baby,it'sokay.Shh,I'vegotyou,"Edwardsaid,steppingontothebedagainandcradledmeinhis
arms."Dadishere.Wouldyoupleaselethimtakealookatyou?"
Isniffledandnoddedmyhead,tryingtoturnaroundsoIcouldfaceCarlisle.EdwardhelpedmeandthenIsaw
Carlisle'sworriedandsympatheticface.HelookedtiredandIfeltstupidforwakinghimupwhenwecould
havejustgonetothehospital.
Ilaydownonmyback,butIknewIwouldn'tlastlikethatforverylong.Edwardseemedtothinkthesame
thingandplacedafewpillowsbehindmybacksoIcouldsitupalittle.
"Hi,Bella."Carlislesmiled,sittingdownontheedgeofthebed."Doyoumindtellingmewhat'sgottenyouso
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upset?"
"Mystomach,"Iwhimpered."It'smoving."
"IsEmilykicking?"
"No.It'ssomuchmorethanapoke.Mywholetummyismovingaroundonit'sownaccord,"Itoldhimwitha
sniffleandEdwardkissedmytemple.
"Ifit'salrightwithyou,Iwouldliketoexamineyourstomach."
NoonebesideEdward,mydoctorandthatlittlegirlearliertodayhadtouchedmybarestomachbefore,butit
wassomethingIcoulddealwithformydaughter'ssafety.Besides,Carlislewerehereasadoctorrightnow.
"Okay."InoddedmyheadandrolledmyshirtupenoughtoexposemystomachbeforetakingEdward'shand
inmine,squeezingittightly.
Carlisle'shandsfeltcoldagainstmywarmstomachashepokedaround,butItriedtoignoreitandfocusedon
EdwardandEmilyinstead.
"Areyouexperiencinganypain?"Carlisleasked.
"Um,no,"Ianswered."Itjustfeelsstrange."
"Okay.Well,Iwouldsaythatwhatyou'reexperiencingisBraxtonhicks,"Carlislesaidandpushedmyshirt
backdown.
"What'sthat?"Iaskedconfused.Ihadheardofthem,butIneverunderstoodwhattheyactuallywere.
"Youdon'tknow?"Carlisleaskedsurprised.
Ishookmyhead,butEdwardanswered,"Iknow,butshedoesn'tsincesherefusestoreadthatsectioninthe
books."
IknewIwasbeingchildishfornotreadingaboutlaborandtheactualbirth,butIwasstillscaredtodeathabout
it.ApartofmestillbelievedthatEmilywouldjustpopoutwithoutmemakinganyeffort.
"Bella,"Carlislesaidwithabigsigh."Youshouldreallyprepareyourself.It'sgreatthatEdwarddoes,but
honestly,you'retheonewho'llbedoingmostofthework."
"Iknow,"Iwhisperedinasmallvoice."I'mjustscared."
"YouhaveanamazingsupportsystemandEdwardbyyoursidethewholeway."
"He'sright.I'mnotgoingtoleaveyourside,baby,"Edwardsaidreassuringly.
"Iwouldseriouslyrecommendyoutoreadthosebooks,Bella,"Carlislesaidandgotup."Itwouldhelpyou
feellessworriedifyou'remoreprepared."
"Iwill,"Ipromised,andthistimeItrulymeantit."Butcouldyoujustpleasetellmewhatthosehicksare?I
don'tthinkIwouldbeabletogobacktosleepotherwise."
"Ofcourse,"heansweredwithachuckle."Youruterusispreparingforthebirth.That'sprettymuchit.You
couldsaythatit'slikeaformofcontractions,justnotasrealandpainfulastherealones."
"Okay,thankyou,"Imumbled.
"Noproblem.Makesuretogetsomesleep,Bella.Youbothneedit,"hesaidandthenhewasgone.
"I'msosorry,"IsobbedintoEdward'schest."I'msuchabadmother."
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"No,you'renot,baby.Comeon,let'sliedownforawhile,"hesaid,helpingmelaydownagain.
"Yes,Iam.Ishould'vereadthosebabybooksandIwould'veknownaboutthesestrangehicks."
"It'snottoolateforthat,Bella.Youstillhavetwomonthstodoso,"hesaid,leaningbacktoturnthelightsoff
beforebringingmeclosetohischestandrubbedsoothingcirclesonmyback.
HecontinuedhisactionsuntilIcalmeddownandeventuallydriftedbacktosleep.Ifeltafewmoreofthose
hicks,butIwasn'tscaredanymore.Iwouldstartedreadingthedreadingsectioninthebabybooksassoonas
wegotbacktoSeattle.
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A/N:Nextupisthebabyshower!
IwanttoapologizefornotansweringallthereviewsIgotlasttime.I'vebeen
thinkingaboutgoingbacktoschoolsothere'salotgoingonrightnow,andI
figureditwouldbebestfocusingonwritingthenewchapter.Ihopetheoneswho
gotthequoterightgottheirpreview.Ifinditdifficultwhenyoucan'tseewho
you'vesenttoandwhoyouhaven'tsentitto.
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A/N:Newweek,newchapter!
QuotefromthelastchapterwasfromSweetHomeAlabama:
"You'rejustshittin'me,right?
Ineverfullyunderstoodthatexpression,butno,I'mnotshittingyou."
Goodiescanbefoundat:marriedtotheenemy.blogg.seI'mworkingonimprovingthis
website(likeIdidonWLAHC)sodon'tfreakoutifitlooksstrange.Everythingshould
stillwork!
Scaredofsomethingbeautiful
(Baby:34weeks,3daysold)
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"DidyouknowthatIwillbegivingbirthtwice?"Bellaaskedwithhernosedeepdowninthebabybookwhile
rubbingherbelly.
Ihadbeenratherpissedwhenshefinallystartedreadingthesectionshehadbeensoscaredof.Imean,Ihad
beentellinghertodoitforweeks,monthseven,andallittookformydadwasonefuckingsentence.
ThathadbeenalmostthreeweeksagoandBellawaswellonherwayoffinishreadingthebook.Mypissed
moodhadturnedintoreliefbecauseatleastshewaspreparedforthebirth.
"Youare?"Iasked,puttingonmytshirt.
Wewerehavingourbabyshowertoday.AliceandRosewasdownstairs,fixingeverythingforthepartywhile
BellaandIgotready.Well,BellareadwhileIgotreadysinceAlicehadalreadydoneherthingwithBella's
look.So,shewasnowsittinginherunderwear,waitingforme.
"Yes.Firstthebaby,andthentheplacenta.God,that'sgoingtohurt,"shemumbled."Likeyourdickdidn'thurt
thefirsttime,nowIhavetopushoutahumanbeing."
"Averysmallhumanbeing,"Istated,givingherachastekiss.
"Ihaveafeelingshewon'tfeelverysmall,"shesaid,shakingherhead.
"I'llbethereeverystepoftheway,"Iassuredherandplacedmyhandonherswollenstomach.
Shenolongerhadjustabump.Youcoulddefinitelytellthatshewaspregnant.Withmybaby.Shestillhadher
baddayswhennothingseemedokay,butmostly,shehadstartedtoacceptthefactthatshewaspregnantandall
thechangesthatcamealongwithit.
"Couldyouhelpmeputonmydress?"sheaskedwithasighandputthebookaway.
"Sure,"Iansweredandstoodupbeforehelpingherupfromthearmchair.
"It'stheblackandwhitedressinthecloset.It'shardtomiss."
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Igrabthedressshewastalkingaboutandheadbacktothebedroom.AsIsawBellawaitingforme,Icouldn't
believehowIendedupbeingsofuckinglucky.IwasmarriedtothegirlIhadfalleninlovewithinhighschool,
andweweregettingourvowsrenewedinaweek.Ontopofthat,shewascarryingmychildandshewas
fuckinggorgeouswhiledoingthat.
"What?"sheasked,noticingmystaring.
Isnappedoutofitandwalkedovertoherwiththedressinmyhand.
"Nothing.You'rejustsofuckingbeautiful,"ImurmuredasIkissedherchastely.
"Language,"shescoldedmewithaneyeroll.
"Sorry."Ismirked."Armsup."
BeforeIputthedresson,IbentdownandplacedakissonBella'sbarestomach."Iloveyou,Princess."
"Shelovesyou,too,"Bellasaidwithagiggle.
Ihelpedheronwiththedressandthenitwastimetomakeitdownstairs.Bellaabsolutelytookmybreathaway
today.Thedresswasgorgeousandshowedherbackandalsohelpedshowingofherbellyinagoodway.She
lookedalittleuncomfortableinthedress,butshedidn'tcomplain.
"Wow,lookatyou,"Alicesaidwhenwewentoutsidetothebackyard."You'redefinitelygoingtobeamodel
formynewline."
AlicehadtoldBellaafewweeksagothatshewasstartingamaternitylineforherclothingline.Shehadbeen
soinspiredbyBella'sweddingdress,andIhonestlyfuckinglovedtheidea.ThatmeantthatBellawouldbe
showingofherstomachmore.
Itwasgoingtobeasmallbabyshower.JakeandLeahwouldstopbyforawhilewiththeirbabyboyJared
whowasonlytwoweeksold.Bellahadcriedwhenwegotthecall,butsheinsistedthatitwashappytears.
SamandJanewouldalsomakeanappearanceandMomandDad.BellahadbeenkindenoughtoaskTanya
whogreedilyaccepted.Bella'sfriendfromwork,Angela,wouldalsostopby.Atleasttherewasguysallowed.
Iwantedtoexperiencethiscelebratingmybabyandallthat.
"Hey,baby,"MomgushedandcrushedherlipstickcoveredlipstomycheekbeforeIevenrealizedshewas
here.
"Hi,Mom,"Iansweredandtriedtowipethelipstickoffmycheek.
"Where'sthatbeautifulwifeofyours?"
"IthinkshewentoffwithAlicesomewhere,"Isaid,sittingdowninoneofthechairs.
Sheleftwithoutevensayingsomething.MymomandBellahadgrownreallycloselatelyandIhadafeeling
thatEmilywasabigpartofthatsinceBellafoundcomfortinMomandherknowledge.Plus,theywerea
perfectmatchandforthatIcouldn'tbehappier.
"Youshouldwipethatlipstickoffbeforeyourwifeseesyou,"Dadsaidwithachuckleandsatdownbeside
me.
"Maybeyoushouldtellyourwifetostopkissingmewhenshewearslipstick,"Imuttered.
"She'sjusthappytoseeyou."
"EmmettMcCarty,don'tyoudarebarbequewithLilyonyourchest!"Roseyelledfromacrossthelawn,
interruptingus.
"What?Sheneedtolearnhowtomakeaperfectburger.Whynotstartnow?"heasked.
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Ichuckledandstooduptosavemycutelittlegoddaughterfrombeingbarbequedherself.Emmettshotmea
glare,butthenlookedathiswifeandgaveup,allowingmetotakeLilyfromhim.
"Hey,cutie,"Isaid,placingaverysloppykissonhersoftcheekandshegurgledinresponse.
ShegotbiggereachtimeIsawher,andIneverwentaweekwithoutseeingher.Shestillhadherdad'sdark
curlsandhermom'sicyblueeyes.Ihadnodoubtinmymindthatthislittlegirlcouldbreakeveryman'sheart
whenshegrewup.
IwalkedaroundthepartywithLilyinmyarms.Noteveryonewashereyetsotheywasjusttalkingandwaiting
forthebabyshowertostart.
AliceandRosehadplacedpinkballoonsallovermybackyardandLilyseemedtolikethemsoIgrabbedone
andhelditforher.Ilaughedasshetriedtosuckitinhermouth.
Yeah,goodluckwiththat,kid.
Shestartedgettinggrumpywhenshedidn'tsucceedandIdidn'treallyknowwhattodo,butIdidn'twantto
giveherawayjustyetsoItriedwalkingwhileIbouncedherinmyarms.Shewasjustsolightandsmall.
IwalkedherinsidetoseeifIcouldfindsomethingtoentertainherandsawsomethinglyingonthekitchen
counterBella'siPod.IknewshehadputinmysongsanditalwayscalmedEmilydown,somaybeLily
wouldlikeit,too.
IgrabbeditandsilentlythankedBellaforreplacingherheadphonestothoseyoujusthangonyourearssothey
wouldstayinplace.IcheckedthevolumebeforehangingtheheadphonesonLily'stinyearsandpressedplay.
SheseemedmoreinterestedinthepinkiPodthaninthemusic,butIknewBellawouldkillmeifIletLilyruin
itsoIputitinmypocketandlefttheheadphoneson.AtleastshestoppedfussingasIrubbedherbackandsat
downoutsideagain.
"Hi,Edward,"IheardTanyasayasshesatdownbesideme.
Ibroughtmyfingertomymouthtotellhertokeepitdownandmotionedtowardthebabyinmyarms.
"Oh,shelookssleepy,"shesaidwithagiggle.
ThensomethinghitmewhatifEmilyandLilyonlycalmeddownbecausemymusicwasboring?Icould
borethemtosleepbyplayingthepiano.IlookeddownatLilyandshedidn'tseemedbored,justtiredsoI
decidedthatwasn'tthecase.Theysimplylikedmymusic,justlikeBelladid.
"Yeah,"IwhisperedwhilerubbingLily'stinybackwithmybighand.
"I'mjustgonnafindBella,"shesaidwithasmile."You'regoingtobeagreatdad,Edward."
"Thankyou."Ibeamed.Itmeantalottohearsomethinglikethat.
IsattherebymyselfwithLilylyingonmychestasIwatchedallthepeoplearrive.TheyalllookedhappyandI
feltmyselfbecomeevenmorehappierasIwatchedBella.Sheseemedtostrugglewithstanding,butshelooked
likesheenjoyedtalkingtoeveryone.
Shemusthavefeltmystareandlookedupwithasmilebeforesheexcusedherselfandwaddledovertoward
me.
"Hi,baby,"Iwhisperedandpuckeredmylips,hopingforakisswhichIgot."Howareyoufeeling?"
"Myfeetarealreadysore."Shesmiled,though."EdwardCullen,isLilyusingmyiPod?"
"Yes,"Iansweredsheepishly."Atleastit'sworking."
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"Iloveyou."Shesighedandlayherheadonmyshoulders,strokingLily'sdarkhair.Therewassomethingin
hereyes,butIdidn'thavetimetoaskherwhatshewasthinkingbeforeRoseinterruptedus.
"Whatdidyoudotomybaby?"Roseasked."Didyoukillher?"
"What?No!I'mjustapuregenius,that'sall."Ismirked,takingtheheadphonesoffsothatIcouldcarefullygive
LilybacktoRosesinceIneededtogreetourguests.
"Sheneversleepswellwhenthere'salotgoingonaroundher,soyeah,Iwouldhavetoagreewithyouonthat
one,butonlythistime."
"Fine,fine.Onceisenough,"IheldupmyhandsinsurrenderandBellagiggledatus.
"Youknow,"Bellastarted,movingtositonmylapasRosewalkedawaywithLily."Ican'twaittoseeyou
withEmily."
"Meneither,"Isaid,placingmyhandonherstomachandleanedintokissher.
"Comeon,wecan'thideonourownbabyshower,"shesaid,gettingupandreachedoutherhandformeto
take.
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Aftergreetingeveryone,itwasfinallytimetoeat.IhadbeeneyingthoseburgerssinceEmmettputthemonthe
grill.Whatsurprisedmewashowwelleveryonegotalong.Imean,wehadbeenmixingwork,oldfriendsand
newfriendsandparents.Ifeltlikeatleastsomeoneshouldhavebeenuncomfortable,butnosuchthingseemed
tohappen.
"Youseemtobereadytopop,"AngelasaidwithalaughasEdwardwenttogetmysecondburger.
"Yeah,Ionlyhavefiveweeksleft."Ismiledandrubbedmystomachabsentmindedly.
"Believeme,they'retough,butthey'llflyby,"Leahpipedin.
"It'salreadytough.Ican'tevenputonmyshoesbymyselfanymore,"Itoldthem.
Thatwasactuallyoneofthehardestpartsrightnownotbeingabletoseeyourfeet.Icoulddealwiththebig
tummy,butsinceIwasclumsy,notseeingyourfeetcouldbeterrifying.
Edwardcamebackwithmyfoodandtheconversationscontinuedtoflow.Iwasstartingtofeelapressureon
mybladder,butIdidn'thavetheenergytogetup.Itwaseitherthat,orwetyourselfinfrontoffamilyand
friends,though.
"Edward,"Iwhisperedloudenoughforonlyhimtohear."Couldyoupleasehelpmeup?"
Thechairsweretoolowformetogetuponmyown,andeventhoughitwasembarrassingtoalwaysaskfor
help,IknewIhadn'tanychoiceinthematter.
"Sure,baby,andthere'snoneedtogetembarrassed,"hesaid,strokingmyheatedcheek."Ilovehelpingyou
out,okay?"
"Okay,"Iwhisperedandhidmyfaceinthecrookofhisneckbeforeplacingakissthere."Youneedtohelp
me,likenow,becauseotherwiseIwon'tmakeit."IlaughedsoftlyalongwithEdward.
Everthegentleman,hehelpedmeupandIhurriedmybesttothebathroom.Itwashardtositdown,though,
sinceIdidn'twanttoruinthedress,butitwaslongandIcouldn'tgetitoffmyself.Imanaged,though.
AsIwasabouttowalkbackoutside,IsawSamandJane,makingoutinthedoorwayandblockingtheway.
Theydidn'tnoticemesoIhadtoclearmythroat.
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"Oh,sorry,Bells,"SamsaidapologeticallywhileJaneblushedfromgettingcaught.
"Don'tworryaboutit.IhaveaveryhothusbandsoIknowthefeeling.Ijustwanttogooutside,"Isaid,
gesturingtowardthedoor."Thenyou'refreetocontinue."
"Sorry,"SamsaidagainandmovedsoIcouldgetout.
"Sorryfordisturbingyou,"ItoldthemandwentbacktoEdwardandtherest.
JakehadJaredinhisarms.Helookedsotinyinhisdaddy'sbigarmsthatIwantedtolaughatthesight.Jared
lookedalotlikehisdad,buthehadthebeautyofhismomandaunt.AllIcouldseewereEmily'sbigdoeeyes
inhislittleface.WhenIfirsthadseenit,Ihadtearsinmyeyes,butnow,itonlymademesmile.
AliceandRosehadusallplaygameaftergame.Theyevenhadalltheguestsguessingonthebaby'sweight
andIfeltalittlepanickedaseveryonetooktheirguessesbecausewhattheyguessed,wasn'tverylight.Imean,
whycan'tababyonlyweigharoundapoundortwo.Thatwouldmakeitawholeloteasiertopushitout.Iwas
suretherewouldbealothappiervaginasoutthereifthatwasthecase.
"I'msotired,"IwhinedinawhispertoEdward.
"Justafewmorehoursandyou'llgettosleep,"hesaidreassuringly.
"Afewhourstoapregnantwomanisalot,"Imumbled.
Myfeetwereachingsofreakingbadlyandeventhoughmydresswasgorgeous,itwasn'tverycomfortable.
"Doyouwantmetorubyourback?"Edwardoffered.
"Iwouldlovethat."Ismiled.
IstoodupwithalittlehelpfromEdwardandthensatdowninhislapsothathecouldrubmysoreback.He
hadverytalentedhandsthatcouldbeusedtomorethanplayingthepiano.Rubbingmybackforinstance.
"Ithinkyoushouldquityourjob,"Edwardwhispered.
Whatdidhejustsay?
"Edward,"Iwhisperedinawarningtone,notwantingourgueststohearus.
"No...Ididn'tmeanitlikethat.Shit,"hestammered.
"That'snotsomethingyoubringupduringyourbabyshower,"Ihissed."We'lltalkaboutitlater."
"Okay.JustknowthatIdidn'tmeantwhatitsoundedlike,"hesaid,placingakissonmybareshoulder.
"Iknow,"Isaid,anglingmyheadsothatIcouldgivehimakissonhischeek.
Iknewhewastellingthetruthsincehesoundedsodesperate,buttheonlyreasonwhyIhaddroppeditso
quickly,wasbecauseapartofmeagreedwithhim.Avery,verysmallpart,though.
WeatethepinkcakewhichtasteddivinesoIhadtwomoresmallpieces.EventhoughIalwaysmademyown
cakes,Ihadn'tasinglecomplainabouttheonesyouboughtfromthestore,especiallynotthisone.
JakeandLeahhadtoleavefirstsincetheyneededtogetlittleJaredbackhome.Theyleftthegiftwiththerest
beforetheyleft.Wewouldseethemnextweekforthewedding,though.
Nextweek.God,howfasttimeflyby.
Whenitwastimeforpresents,Edward'seyeslituplikeChristmas.Inaway,itwasjustlikeChristmassincewe
wouldgettoopenupthegifts.UnlikeRoseandEmmett,wegotmostlypacifierswithdifferentprintsinsteadof
socks.
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"Whatthefuck?Doyouthinkourbabygirlwillbewhinyorwhat?"Edwardjokedasheopenedupthethird
setofpacifiersandeveryonelaughed.
"Okay,thisoneisfrom...EsmeandCarlisle,"IsaidconfusedasIhandedittoEdward."Ithoughtweagreed
onthatthenurserywasyourbabygift?"
"Itstillis,"Esmeassured."It'sjustalittleaddition."
Edwardopeneditandrevealedacutebabymobilwithapinkballooninthemiddleandpinkteddybears
hangingdownaroundit.
"Thankyou,"Itoldhersincerely,andgaveEdwardthenextgift."ThisoneisfromEmmett,RoseandLily."
Edwardeagerlyunwrappedthepresentandpulledoutabigframeandalotofphotos.
"It'sthebellyphotoswetooklastweek.ThebigoneistheframeupinthenurseryandIthoughtyoucoulddo
whatyouwantwiththerestofthem,"Roseexplained.
Thephotoshadturnedoutgreat.ThephotoshehadpickedoutfortheframewastheonewhereEdwardhad
hishandsovermystomach,formingaheartwithhisfingers.Myarmswerecoveringmyboobs,buttheybarely
madeitintothephoto.Therestwerevariousphotosoflovinglooksandembraces.Ilovedeverysingleoneof
them.
"Thanks,guys.They'rebeautiful.IfIcouldgetup,Iwouldhugyou."
"It'sokay.Ienjoyeddoingit."Shesmiled.
"Okay,nowit'sourturn,"AlicesaidafterawhileandItookthelastgiftandgaveittoEdwardwithasmile.I
hadafeelingthatitmightbesomethinglikeclothessinceitwassoft.
"It'sbeddingforthecrib,"Edwardannounced,holdingitupforeveryonetosee.
Itwouldmatchthenurseryperfectly.Itwasindifferentcolors,butgreen,brownandpinkwerethemaincolors.
TherewereflowersandstripesgoingalongthebeddingandIwasinlovewithit.
Afterthat,wecontinuedtojusthangout.AngelaandTanyaleftshortlyafterandtheywerefollowedbySam
andJane.Theywouldallcometoourwedding,includingTanyaandherboyfriendGarrett.IlikedTanyasoI
waslookingforwardtomeetingherman.
EsmeandCarlislestayedforawhiletohelpuscleanup.Eventhoughwehadtoldthemthatwecouldhandleit
ourselves,theyinsisted.
"Bella,"Esmestartedasshehelpedmewiththedishes."Areyouokay?"
"Yeah,justthesameold,"Isaid,dismissingitwithawaveofmyhand.Shesawmethrough,though,andgave
mealookthattoldmetospeak."Okay,fine.Allthistalkaboutpregnancyandbirthisreallyscaringme.I've
beenreadingaboutitinthebooks,justlikeIpromised,buthearingitfromsomeonewhowaspregnantonlya
fewweeksago,makeittotallydifferent."
"Listen,Bella.It'sokaytobescared.I'mnottellingyouthatyoushouldn't,butyou'rescaredofsomething
beautiful.Givingbirthisnotsomethinguglyandhorrible.Thinkofitassomethingpowerfulinstead."
Inoddedmyhead,hopingIcoulddothat.IhadmomentswhenIfeltsopowerfulitblewmeawayandIalways
hadthefeelingofpride.
"Speakingofbirth.Iknowyouaskedmetostaywithyou,doyoustillwantthat?"sheaskedcarefully.
"Yeah!Imean,ifyoudon't..."Itrailedoff,hopingshewasn'tbackingout.Ineededherwithme.
"Idowantto,butsometimespeoplechangetheirminds.So,whendoyouwantmetocome?"
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"Idon'tknow,"Ianswered,handingheraplatetoputinthedishwasher."Maybeaweek,ortwo,beforemy
duedate.Idon'twanttorobyouofyourtimewithCarlisle."
"Don'tworryaboutthat,dear.He'sspendingsomuchtimeatthehospitalanyway.I'llbeheretwoweeksbefore
she'sdueandmaybehecanjoinmethelastcoupleofdays,whoknows."
"Thankyou,Esme.Imeanit.Idon'tknowwhatIwoulddowithoutyou,CarlisleorEdward."
"Itshouldbemethankingyou,"shesaid,pullingmeinforahug."You'regivingmeagranddaughterandyou
makemysonsohappy."
"Hemakesmehappy,too,"Isniffled.
SheandCarlisleleftshortlyafterthatsincetheyhadalongdrivebacktoForks.Weofferedthemtospendthe
night,butCarlislehadaearlyshiftatthehospitalinthemorning.
"Edward,"Istarted,watchingasheplacedournewbabythingsinthenurseryfrommyspotinthearmchair."I
lovemyjob."
"Iknowyoudo..."
Iputmyhanduptostophim.Iwantedtofinishbeforeheexplained.
"Ilovemyjob,andthereisnowayI'mquitting,okay?"
"Igotit.Ijustthinkthatmaybeyoushouldcutdownonthehoursuntilthebabyisbornandyougoon
maternityleave."
"AndwhatamIsupposedtodoallday?Ican'tjustsitaroundthehousewaitingforyoutogetbackfrom
work."
"Um."Hedraggedhisfingersthroughhisunrulyhair,makingitevenmoremessier."Youcanbakemea
cake?"
"Seriously?"Ilaughed,gettingupfromthechairwithsomeeffortandwalkedovertohim."Let'smakeadeal.
I'llcutdownontheofficehours,butI'llstillworkathomeuntilIfeellikeIcan'tdothateither,okay?"
"Okay,I'lltakeit.Justpromisetostopworkingifitgetstoomuch."
"Okay,"Isaid,puckeringmylips,silentlyaskingforakiss.
WorkthatMondayonlymademerealizethatIneededtocutdownonmyhoursattheoffice.Iwasfeeling
exhaustedafterrunningfromofficetoofficeandmeetingaftermeeting.Sure,Mondayswerethemosthectic
daysoIdecidedtoworkfromhomeonMondaysandonlycomeinonWednesdaysinstead.Atleastuntiltwo
weeksbeforemyduedate.ThatwaswhenIwasgoingonmaternityleave.
"Thankyouforlettingmeknow,Bella,"ArosaidasItoldhimaboutmyplans."Yourjobwillbeherewaiting
foryou,butyoumustunderstandthatIneedtobringsomeoneintofillyourplacewhileyou'regone."
Well,I'mnotstupid.
"Iunderstand,Aro,"Isaidwithasmile."AndEdwardandIhavetalkedabouthowlongI'mgoingtobehome.
Althoughwedidn'treallycometoanunderstanding,it'sleaningtowardsixmonthsorso."
"Aslongasyou'llvisitusregularlywithlittleEmily,Ihavenoproblemwiththat."
Ididn'tknowwhetherornottobeoffendedthathedidn'tseemtomindmebeinggonethatlong,orifIshould
internallyjumpupanddowninjoy.
"Thankyou,andIpromiseI'llvisit.Idon'tthinkIwouldbeabletostayawayforlonganyway."Thatwastrue,
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Ireallydidlovemyjob.
Ithankedhimagainandlefthisoffice.Arowaswhatmostpeoplewouldcalladreamboss,butmaybehewas
thatwaybecauseIwasmarriedtohisgodson.Although,AngelaseemedtoagreewithmewhenItoldherwhat
hadhappened.
Laterthatweek,EdwardandIsatonthecouch,watchingapregnancyshowonMTV.Sure,itwasabout
teenagegirls,buttheywerestillpregnantanditwasfuntowatchandIfoundmyselfrecognizingmyselfin
them.
"Baby,"Edwardwhispered,trailinghisnosealongmyneckbeforeplacingasoftkissrightbelowmyear.
"Mm,"Iansweredabsentmindedly,notturningmyfocusawayfromtheTV.
"Canwegoouttothecar?"heasked.
Thatgotmyattention."Why?"
"Iwanttohavesexandwestillhaven'tchristenedmynewcar."
Icouldn'thelpthegigglethatescapedme.Hewantedtohavesex,inatightcarwithmeandmybigbelly.
"Edward,isthatevenpossible?"Iasked,placingmyhandsonmyverybigstomachtoshowhimwhatImeant.
"We'llmakeitwork."HelookedpleadinglyintomyeyesandbeforeIknewit,hewasalsogivingmehispout
thatheknewIcouldn'tresist.
JustasIwasabouttobenddownandkisshim,myphonestartedringing.Hearingthetone,IknewitwasRose.
Thatgirlsureknewhowgettheperfecttiming.
"Hello?"ImurmuredwhileEdwardcontinuedkissingmyneck.
"Bella,please,Ineedafavor,"shepleaded.
"What'sup?"
"IneedyouandEdwardtowatchLilyforme.It'sjustforafewhours.Please?"
"Why?"
"Ireallyneedtogotothestore,butshe'salwaysfussyandcryingwhenwegogroceryshopping,andEmmett
isatthegym."
"Um,"Isaid,lookingdownataveryhornyEdward.Itwasn'tlikeIdidn'twanttobabysit,butIwanted
Edwardaswell,andcarsexandababyjustdon'tmix.
"Please,Bella.Thathusbandofyoursreallyisapuregeniuswithher."
"LikeIcansaynotoLily.Justbringheroverandwe'llwatchherforawhile."Ilaughedandwatchedas
Edward'sfacefell,butquicklyrecoveredsincehelovedthatlittlegirltodeath.
"Thankyou.Ioweyouguysbigtime!"shesaid,hangingup.
"So,wejustgotcockblockedbyourpreciousgoddaughter?"Edwardmumbled.
"Yeah."Isighedanddraggedmyfingersthroughhismessyhair."Ipromisewe'llhavesexinthecarsome
otherday.Wehavetherestofourlivestodoit."
"You'reright."Hesmiledandkissedbothmeandmystomachbeforehegotup.
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"Whyareyoucrying,baby?"Isighed,hunchingdowninfrontofher.
ItwasfinallyFridayandweweregoingtodriveuptoForks,weweresupposedtobeontheroadalready,but
thatwasn'tthecase.
Shewassittingonthetoiletlidinherunderwearwithtearstreakedcheeks.Itpainedmetoseehercry,butshe
stilllookedbeautifulandIhadnoideahowshepulledthatoff.
"BecauseI'mgoingtolooklikeahairycatonourweddingday,"shecried.
"Bella,ourweddingdaywasthreehundredsixtyfourdaysago,andIassureyouthatyouweren'thairy."
"Imeantourweddingdaytomorrow,"shesniffled."Youwon'tevenwanttohavesexwithme."
"Baby,therearen'tanysecondofthedaythatIdon'twanttohavesexwithyou,soIhighlydoubtthat'sgoing
tobethecasetomorrow."
"ButIfeeldisgusting."
"Thenwhydon'tyoujustshave?"Iaskedconfused.
"BecauseIcan't.Ihaveabigfreakingbellyintheway!"
"Okay,okay,"Iputmyhandsupinsurrender,notwantingtofightwithher."Thenletmeshaveyouinstead."
"Youwoulddothat?"sheaskedwithwideeyesandwipedhertearsaway.
"Yes,"IansweredwithenthusiasmsinceIstartedtoliketheideamoreandmore.
"Um,okaythen.Ifyoureallywantto,butyouneedtoshaveme...downthere,"shesaid,pointingtowardher
pussylikeIwouldmindshavingthat.
"Bella."Ichuckled."I'mmorethanokaywithit.Justtellmehow,andI'lldoit."
"Okay.Let'sstartwith...um,wecantakethelegsforlastifyoudon'tmind."
"It'sokay.Justshowmewhereyouhaveyourrazorandallthat."
Withredcheeksshetoldmethatshedidn'tusearazorinfearofgettingcut,sosheshowedmeherladyshaver
thatlookedalotlikemyshaver.Shecontinuedtoshowmehowtouseitandtoldmetoshaveitalloff.
Ireallywantedtotakeherrightthenandtherewhenshespreadherlegs.Icouldn'tforthelifeofmeunderstand
whyshehadcomparedherselftoahairycatbecauseshewasjustsimplyperfect,butIdidwhatshewantedand
startedshaving.Ifigureditwouldbeliketrimmingmystubble,butitwasfarmoretemptingtobesocloseto
PromisedLand.
"Nofunnybusiness,Edward,"shesaidwithagiggleasI'accidentally'brushedagainstherclitafewtimes.
"Hey,I'mcompletelyinnocent,"Idefendedmyself.
"Sureyouare."Shesmirked.
Iwashappytoseehersmileagainevenifsheonlycriedoversomethingaslittleasshaving.Iwouldmorethan
happilyshaveheragainevenifIwasn'tallowedanyfunnybusiness.
Ifinishedshavingherandthenitwastimeforherlegs.ItwassomehowliketorturetodoallthiswhenI
couldn'tdowhatIwantedtoher,butitwassweettorture.
ItwashardertoshaveherlegssinceshewasscaredthatIwouldcuther.Ifshewassofuckingscared,why
didn'tshetellmetousetheladyshaveronherlegsaswellinsteadoftherazor?
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"Becausetheladyshaveralwaysmisseshairsotherereallyisn'tanypointinshavingifit'salltherewhenyou're
done,isit?"sheexplained.
"You'reright."Isighedandputallmyconcentrationtonotslipandcuther.
Sheshouldhavetrustedmemore,though.Imean,IhadbeenshavingsinceIwasateenagerupuntilImarried
Bellasinceshepreferredmystubble.
"Thankyou,Edward,"shesaidsweetlywhenIwasdoneandgavemeasloppykissonmylips.
"You'rewelcome,andI'dbehappytodoitagain,butthenI'llwantpayment."Ismirked.
"Payment?"
"Yeah.EachhairIremovewillcostyouanorgasmandI'lldecidehowyouwillhaveit."
IwasproudofwhatIjustcameupwith.Ireallyfuckinglovedit.
"Edward,"shesaidworriedly."Iwouldlovetopayyourightnow,butyourmomisexpectingusinthreehours
andwehaven'tevengottenready."
"Iknow,butluckyforyou,Icanholdthepaymentuntilyou'reabletopayit
"Thankyou,"shewhisperedandkissedmeagain."Youknow,thatwillbealotoforgasms."
"I'mcountingonit,"Isaidwithachuckle.
ThedrivetoForkswasalongone.ThemoreBella'sbellygrew,themoreoftensheneededtousethebathroom
whichmeantthatweneededtopullovermorethanonce.
Shewasalsonervous,butlikeIhadtoldherbefore,this'wedding'wouldn'tchangemorethanourringsand
vows.Thatwasit.WewouldstillbeEdwardandBellaattheendoftheday.
Everyoneelsewouldarrivetomorrowmorning,butAliceandJasperhadgonetoForksafewhoursbeforeus
sothatAlicecouldhelpmymomwiththedecoratinganddetails.BellaandIhadgottenstrictordersnottopeek
ordisturb.Allwehadtodowasthefittingandnothingelse.Neitherofusminded,though.
"Bella,"Isaid,shakinghergentlysoshewouldwakeup.
ShehadfallenasleepanhouragoandIhadn'tthehearttowakeherupwhenshelookedthatpeaceful.Then
therewasthemoaning,butItorturedmyselfandjustlistenedtoher.
"Why'dyouletmefallasleep?"shemumbledsleepily.
"BecauseI'manawesomehusband.Whatdidyoudreamabout?"
"Lollipopsandcandycanes."
Issheserious?
Shelaughedatmyexpressionandgotoutofthecar.Ijustshookmyheadanddecidedthatshewasfucking
withmeandgotoutaswell.
"Thereyouare!"MomexclaimedandpulledBellainforahugwhenwesteppedinsidethefrontdoor.
"Sorry,wejustgotalittledelayedthismorning,"IsaidwithasmirkasBellablushed.
"I'msureyouwere,"Momsaidknowinglyandpattedmycheek.
IfIonlygotthatlucky.
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"You'relate!"Alicesaid,walkingdownthestairs."ButIforgiveyousinceyoutwoaresoadorable."She
huggedbothBellaandIbeforeshetookastepback."Okay,sowehaveafewrules."
"Weknow.We'renotallowednearthegazeboandwe'renotallowedtopeekatanything,"Bellasaidwitha
sigh.Wehadbeenthroughthisafewtimes.
"Goodgirl.Wehaveonemore,though.You'renotallowedtohavesexuntiltheweddingnight."
"Whatkindoffuckedupruleisthat?"Iaskedinaloudvoice.
"Language,"Momscolded."It'satraditionalrule,sosuckitup."
"Okay,"BellaagreedandIlookedatherinconfusionuntilshegrabbedmyheadandwhisperedinmyear,
"Justimagineallthehotsexwecanhavetomorrow."
Thenshefuckingblushed.GodhowIlovedthatwoman.
"Fine,"Ihuffed."Ifthat'swhatBellawants,thenI'mokaywithit,too."
Bellasqueezedmyhandincomfort,butsheshouldhavecomfortedmydickinsteadsincehewastheonewho
wasgoingtogetsadlateron.NotthatIwasn'tsad,itwasjustthathewasgoingtogetevensadderandwho
couldblamehim?
JasperandDadwereoutfishing,probablytryingtogetawayfromallthecrazinesstheweddingbroughtwithit.
So,BellaandIwereonourown.Momtoldustherewasdinnerinthefridgesoweheateditupandsatdownin
frontoftheTV.
"Iwantfruit."Bellasighed,rubbingherswollenstomachwhenshewasdoneeating."Withwhippedcream.
Nottheoneyoubuyinacan,buttheoneyouwhipyourself."
"MaybeMomhassomeathome,"IsaidandstoodupsoIcouldlook,happythatshewantedfruitsinceshe
veryrarelyateany.
"Helpmeup,"shesaid,wigglingherfingersatme.
"Icanlook,"Iassuredher.
"Yeah,butyoudon'tknowwhatkindoffruitIwant,"shesaid,takingmyhandsinhersmallerones,soIhelped
herup.
"Youcouldhavejusttoldme,youknow."
"Iknow,butwhatfunwoulditbeinthat."Shesmirked."Besides,Idon'tevenknowwhatIwant."
"Thenhowcanyouknowthatyouevenwantfruit."
"Ijustdo."SheshruggedhershouldersandIdecidedtoleavethatmysteryalone.
Momonlyhadbananasathomeandnowhippedcreamwhichmeantthatwewouldhavetogotothestore.I
actuallyfearedgoingtheresinceweusuallyranintosomeoneandBellaalwaysseemedtogetstressedoutwhen
wedid.
Shewantedfruit,though,andwhatmybeautifulwifeandbabywanted,theyshallget.So,IhelpedBellawith
hershoesandthenwewereonourway.SinceourparentswereinonAlicetopsecretmeeting,wedidn'ttell
anyonethatweleft.Ifounditfunnythatthetwomainpeopleinaweddingceremonyweren'tallowedtobein
ontheplans.
"Miss.Bella!"Iheardasweetvoiceexclaimexcitedlywhenwestoodbythefruit.
"Emma?"Bellaaskedsurprised,buthappily.
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"Yourememberme?"thelittlegirlaskedwithbigeyes.
"OfcourseIdo."Bellachuckled.
EmmagiggledandthenhereyeszonedinonBella'sstomach.Iguessevenafouryearoldcouldtellthatithad
gottenbiggersinceshehadlastseenBellaalmostamonthago.
"CanIsayhitothebaby?"sheaskedeagerlyandBellanodded."Hi,baby,"shesaid,pattingBella'sstomach
whiletalkingtoit.
ItwassoadorabletowatchandIcouldeasilypictureEmilytalkingtoBella'sstomach,swollenwithoursecond
child.Iknewitwasfarawayinthefuturesofar,butmaybeinacoupleofyearsIwouldbeluckyenoughtobe
adaddyagain.
"Emma,thereyouare!Don'tkeeprunningawaylikethat!"thevoiceIfearedhearingsaidJessica.
"Sorry,mommy.IjustwantedtosayhitoBellaandherbaby,"Emmarepliedshyly.
Mommy?No.Fucking.Way.
BellaandIlookedateachotherinshock.Thatwasnotsomethingneitherofushadexpected,butthenagain,
thiswasasmalltown.Peoplewereboundtowinduptogether.Ijusthadn'texpectedittobeJessicaandTyler.
Although,IhadafeelingthatmineandBella'smarriageweremoreshockingthanJessicaandTyler's.
Bellahidbehindme,butitwastoolate.Jessicahadalreadyseenherandherstomach.
"So,itlookslikeI'mnottheonlyonewhospreadsherlegsandwindupwithalocalguy,"shesneered.
"Emma,baby,gotodaddy.He'swaitingforyou."
"But..."Emmastartedprotesting.
"No,buts,"JessicasaidandIwasrelievedthatshesentthelittlegirlawaybecauseIdidn'twanthertohear
whatIwasabouttosaytohermommy.
"Fine.ByeBellaandprettyboy,"shesaidwithablushandwalkedaway,andforamomentIsmiled,butit
quicklywentawayandIturnedtofaceJessica.
"Don'ttalktomywifelikethat,"Isaidwithvenominmyvoice.
"Oh,butit'sokaythatshesaidthattome?"
"Justkeepyourmouthshut.I..."IwascutoffbyBellawhoplacedhersmallhandonmyarmtoholdmeback.
"Edward,Igotthis,"shewhisperedandsteppedforwardfrombehindmyback."Listen,andlistencarefully.I
mighthavespreadmylegstomyhusband,butIwasn'talittleslutbeforethat,andbecauseIdidthat,we're
goingtohaveababy.Somindyourownfuckingbusinessandgotothatpreciouslittledaughterofyours.Isure
ashellhopeshedoesn'tturnoutlikealittlebitch."
Jessicastoodthere,speechlessatfirst,butshequicklycomposedherface.
"Howthehellcanyoustandher,Edward?Don'tyoumisstheolddays?"sheasked,wagglinghereyebrows.
"Iloveher,"Itoldhersimply."AndifIwereyou,Iwouldlistentoeverywordshejustsaidandgobackto
yourhusbandandflirtwithhiminstead."
BellagrabbedmyhandanddraggedmeawayfromJessicaandthefruit.Itwasafuckingturnontoseeherthis
aggressive,butjustbecauseIwasoutofluck,Icouldn'thavehertonight.
FuckingAliceandherstupidrules.
Although,Bellawasinonthem,too,soitwasn'tlikeshewouldletmehavemywickedwaywithheranyway.
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"Baby,areyousureyou'rereadywiththefruit?Weonlygotapplesandoranges,"Itoldhergently,notwanting
topissheroff.
"No,Iwantapeartoo,andsomegrapes,"shesaid,bitingherlip."CouldyoujustgetoneandI'llgogetthe
rest?"
"Okay,"Iagreedandkissedhertemplebeforegoingbacktothefruit
Whenwemetupagain,shehadalotmorethanjustwhippedcreaminherhands.Therewasalsoherusual
cannedmushrooms,chocolateandsomewhitestuffthatIcouldn'tforthelifeofmefigureoutwhatitwas.
"Whatthefuckisthat?"Iasked.
"Ricepudding,"sheansweredandthelookshegavemetoldmethattheconversationwasover.Iwasjust
goingtolethereatwhatshewantedandshutup.
Whenwegotbacktomyparents'house,wegotjumpedonbyAlicewhodemandedtoknowwherewehad
been.Ijusttoldherthatshehadtosuitherselfwhenweweren'tevenallowedtoher'meeting.'Shejusthuffed
andlookedatwhatwehadinourhandswithaquestioninglook,butthenshemusthaverealizeditwasBella's
andletitgo.
IhelpedBellapreparewhateverthefuckshewasdoingbycrushingthechocolateandwhippingthecreamfor
her.Whenshehadputeverythingtogetherfruit,ricepudding,whippedcream,chocolateandalotofpowder
sugarshewantedmetotryit.
"Comeon,youbigbaby,openyourmouthforme,"shesaid,bringingaspoontomymouth.
"It'sokay,baby.Yougoaheadandeat,"Iassuredherandturnedaroundtodothedishes.
"Suityourselfthen."Shesighedandsatdownononeofthechairs.
Ididthedisheswhilelisteningtohermoans.Imentallytoldmydicktobackdownsincehewasn'tgetting
anythingotherthanmyhandtonight,sadlyenough.
Whenwewalkedhandinhandupthestairsaftershehadfinishedherdeliciousfood,wewerestoppedbyboth
AliceandMom.
"Edward,Isetuptheguestroomforyou,"Momsaid.
"What?Hellno!"Iprotested.TherewasnowayIwouldbesleepingwithoutmywife.IfeltBellasqueezemy
handsoIknewshefeltthesameway.
"Edward,language,"Momscolded."Andyouknowtherules.You'resupposedtosleepapartthenightbefore
thewedding."
"Well,we'realreadymarriedsoitdoesn'tcount."Istoodmyground.
"Wealreadyagreedonthenosexrule.Thismightbealittletoomuch,don'tyouthink?"Bellatriedtoreason.
"It'sforonenight.You'llmanage.Now,Edward,theguestroomisallyours."
ThensomethingsuddenlyoccurredtomeandIsmiledather,knowingawaytoworkaroundthis.
"It'sokay,baby,"IwhisperedinBella'searandkissedhercheek."ThereisafewDebussyCD'syoucanlisten
to,andI'llseeyoutomorrow."
Shelookedupatmewithahurtexpression,butreluctantlynoddedherhead.Iwinkedather,sothatonlyshe
couldsee,andthenwalkedtothelonelyguestroom.
Igrabbedalongshowerandthenwhenthewatergotcold,Istayedforalittlelonger,tryingtogetthesexual
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frustrationoutofmysystem.
ThenIjustpacedbackandforthinthesmallroom,waitingforeveryonetogettosleep.DadandJasperwere
probablybackbynow,soIpeekedmyheadoutsidethedoorandlistenedcarefullyforanysound,butIcouldn't
hearanything.
Iquietlyclosedthedoorandwenttothecloset.Momprobablyknewaboutthis,butshehadnevermentioned
anythingaboutitbefore.IhadaccidentallyfounditwhenImovedoutandcleanedoutmycloset.
Momhadputalotoffuckingshitinthiscloset,though,soitwashardtogettothefarwall.Iwalkedpastall
kindsofstuffmyolddrawings,oldclothesandevenoldbabystuffandtoys.
Well,she'llgettousethetoysagainatleast.
Finally,Ifoundit.Thisclosethadprobablybeenabigonetogetherwithmyclosetandsomehow,therehad
beenadoorputbetweenthemwhichledstraighttomyclosetandmyroom,whichalsoledtomybeautiful
wife.
ItwaseasiertogetthroughmyclosetandIquietlyopenedthedoorsoIwouldn'tscareBella.Shewould
probablythinkIwasthemonsterinthecloset.
IheardthesoftpianonotesflowthroughtheroomandsawBellalayingonhersideinmybedwithapillow
underherstomach.Ididn'tknowifshewassleepingornot,buthereyeswereclosedandherbreathingwas
even.
IgentlyslippedunderneaththecoverssoIwasfacingherandtookherintomyarms.Thefeelingofherwarm
bodyfeltgoodagainstme.Anudgefromherstomachmademesmile.
"Edward?"Bellaaskedsleepily."Whatareyoudoinghere?"
"Shh,justletmestay,"Ibegged.
"Okay,"shewhisperedandsnuggledclosertome.
"Goodnight,girls,"IwhisperedandkissedthetopofBella'shead."Iloveyou."
"Weloveyou,too."
Thiswasworththetroublewewouldbeintotomorrow.Iftheycaughtus.IfIwaslucky,Iwouldwakeupin
thecrackofdawnandwouldbeabletoslipbacktotheguestroombeforeAlicecametogetBella.
Withthat,IclosedmyeyesandnuzzledinBella'shairandmynosefilledwiththescentofstrawberries.
EndNotes:
A/N:Aweddingnext!Andmaybesomethingalittlebigger?hmm...
I'vegottenalotofquestionsonhowmanychaptersthereareleft,andhonestly,Ihave
noanswertothat.Iwritewhatcomestomeandtrytoangleittofityourwishes,but
thereisaminimumof15chaptersleft.Probablymore.WeneedalittleDadwardas
well,soit'snotoveryet!
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:FinallySundayandtimeforanupdate!Iswear,Ihadnoideathatitwas
Halloweentodayuntiloneofyoutoldme,butIhopesomeofyouhavethetimetoread
it!
QuoteinthelastchapterwasfromSupernatural:
"Why'dyouletmefallasleep?"
"BecauseI'manawesomebrother.Whatdidyoudreamabout?"
"Lollipopsandcandycanes."
Goodiescanbefoundatthebrandnewwebsite:http://marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
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IsatwithmybackagainstthepillowsandwatchedEdwardsleep.WhenIfirstwokeupthismorning,Ithought
Ihadjustdreamedabouthimcomingtome,butthenIhadfelthiswarmbreathticklemyneckandabigsmile
foundit'swaytomyface.
Rightnow,hehadhisfacesnuggledupagainstmystomachwhilehisarmwasdrapedacrossmythighs.I
smiledanddraggedmyfingersthroughhismessyhair.
IknewwewouldbehearingitfromAlicewhenshefoundhimwithme,butIdidn'thaveitinmetowakehim
up.Helookedsopeacefulwhileheslept.
ThedoorwasgentlypushedopenandIfroze,dreadingitwouldbeAlicewhocametotakemyhusbandaway
frommealready.Iwasn'treadyforthatyetIwantedafewmoreminuteswithhim.
Itwasn'tAlice.Instead,Esmepokedherheadinsideandsmiledwarmlyatme.
"Goodmorning,"shewhisperedandsneakedinside,closingthedoorgentlybehindher.
"Goodmorning,"Iwhisperedbackwithacuriousvoice,wonderingwhatshewasdoinghereandwhyshe
didn'targueaboutEdwardbeinginherewithme.
"Can'tsleep,huh?"sheaskedknowingly.
"Emilyusuallykicksupastormwhenit'stimeforbed,inthemiddleofthenightandearlyinthemornings,so
no."Isighed,rubbingmystomach."Plus,it'sgettinghardertomovearound...umm,you'renotmad?"
"No,dear,"shesaidwithasmile."WhydoyouthinkIputhiminthatguestroominsteadoftheone
downstairs?Iknewheknewabouttheclosetandthattherewouldbenowaythathewouldsleepwithoutyou."
"Oh,"Isaidsurprised.
"That'swhyIcameupherebeforeAlicefoundyoutwotogether.Shetakesthetraditionssoseriously."
"She'salwaysbeenlikethat,"Imumbled.
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"Ifigured.Comeon,honey,it'stimetogetyousomebreakfastandthengetyouready."
"Um,okay,"Iansweredhesitantly,notwantingtoleaveEdwardsosoonevenifweweregoingtoseeeach
otherinafewshorthours.
ItriedmybesttoscootbackdownsoIwasfacetofacewithEdward.Idraggedmyfingersonelasttime
throughhishairandhesqueezedmetighterinhissleep.
"Iloveyou,"IwhisperedandpressedmylipslightlytohisbeforeIturnedaroundwithalotofeffort."Um,
couldyoupleasehelpmeup?"
"Ofcourse,Bella,"Esmesaidandwalkedovertome,grabbingmyhandsandhelpedmeupinasitting
position.
"DoIneedtogetdressed?"
"No,notunlessyouwantto."
"Idon't,soI'mreadytogo."
Shehelpedmeupandwewentdowntothekitchen.Carlisleweresittingthere,readingthenewspaper,when
westeppedinside.
"Goodmorning,ladies,"hesaidwithasmile,lookingupfromthepaper.
Iswear,ifIwasn'talreadymarriedtohisson,Dr.Cullenwouldbeonthetopofmylistofhottestmeninthe
world.
"Morning,"Esmesaid,steppingforwardandkissedhimonhislips.
ItseemedsointimatethatIhadtolookaway.IgrabbedsometoastwhenEsmestoppedme.
"Bella,I'llmakeyouarealbreakfast.You'llneedit,"shesaid.
"Um,okay."IblushedandsatdownnexttoCarlisle.Heofferedmethesecondpartofthenewspaper."Thank
you."
"Noproblem.Howareyoutoday?"heaskedandIknewwhathemeant.
"She'sbeenkickinglikekaratekidallmorning,butotherthanthat,we'rebothfine."
"Goodtohear,"hesaid,gettingupandgavemeakissonthecheekbeforehewalkedovertohelpEsme.
EsmemademescrambledeggsthatImorethangladlyate.Shewasarealgoddessatmakingfood,italways
tasteddelicious.
"EDWARD!"weheardAlicescreamfromupstairs.
She'sfoundhim.
Icouldn'tcareless.IhadEdwardthewholenightandIdidn'tgiveashitaboutthetraditionssincewewere
alreadymarried.Sure,Iwantedittobesomewhattraditionalsincewedidn'thaveanyofitinVegas,andthat
waswhyIhadagreedonthe'nosex'rule,butnotsleepingtogetherwassteppingovertheline.
"Comeon,dear,"Esmesaidwithasmallchuckle."WeshouldgetgoingbeforeEdwardseesyou.Wedon't
wanttopushAlice'slimits."
"Okay,"Iagreed."WhenwillRose,EmmettandLilyarrive?Andmydad?He'scomingtoday,right?Iwant
himtowalkmedowntheaisle."
"Bella,calmdown.Yourdadwillbehereinafewhoursandtheotherswillbeherebeforeyouknowit.Now,
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comeon,"shesaid,leadingmetothemasterbedroom.
Esmeletmetakeashower,whichweregettingharderandhardertodosoIkeptitshort,unsureifmylegs
wouldmakeitthroughalongone.
WhenIgotout,RoseandAlicehadarrived,butLilywasn'twiththem.Ihadkindofhopedtogetadistraction
whilethegirlsworkedonme.AliceneversaidanythingabouthowIhadspentthenight,soshehadprobably
takenitoutonmypoorman.
"Where'sLily?"Iaskedafterhuggingthem.
"She'swiththeboys,"Roseanswered."Now,sitdownandI'llfixyourhair."
"Shouldn'tIgetdressedfirst?"Iasked,lookingdownatthetowelIwaswearing,butallthreeshooktheir
heads."Okay,well,ifyouwouldn'tmind,Iwouldliketokeepmyhairdown."
"Luckyforyou,thatwastheplan."Shesmiledandgottowork.
EsmeworkedonmynailswhileAlicedidmymakeup.IfeltlikeIwasinamovie,gettingacompletemake
over.
Ifeltmynervesgettingthebestofme,andIcouldn'twaittoseeEdwardagain.Hehadthecalmingeffecton
me,andIcoulduseitrightnow.EspeciallysinceEmilywaskickingupastorminmystomachanditwas
gettingprettyuncomfortable.
"Areyouokay?"Aliceaskedinaconcernedvoice.
"Yeah,"Iwhimpered,feelingthestrongkicktomyribs."Um,couldyougoandgetsomethingforme?"
"Sure,justnameit!"shesaidandshelookedlikeshewasabouttopanic.
"Alice,I'mokay.JusttakeadeepbreathandwalkupthestairstoEdward'sroom.InthereisaCDwith
Debussy.That'stheoneIwant."
"Okay,I'llberightback,"sheassuredmeandranoff.
"So,shestillcalmsdownfrompianomusic?"Roseasked,continuingworkingonmyhair."MaybeIshouldtry
thatwithLilyconsideringwhatmiraclesitworkedonherlasttime."
"Itworkssometimes.Imean,it'snotlikewhenEdwardplaystherealpiano,ortalktoher,butitcalmsher
downsomewhat,"Iexplained.
AlicequicklycamebackwiththeCDIhadaskedforandputitintheplayer.Eventhoughithelped,itwasn't
enough.Emilystillkickedme,butItriedtoblockitoutandfocusonthatinlessthananhour,Iwouldbe
seeingEdwardagain.
"Somethingblue,"Esmesaid,holdingupapairoflightblue,lacypantiesthatmademeblush.
ItwastimetogetdressedandAlicehadhungupthedressinthebathroomalready.Allthatwasmissingwas
theunderwear,andIwasapparentlygoingtowearamatchingblueset.Itwaspretty,Icouldadmitthat.The
brawasstraplessandIwonderedhowthatwouldworkoutsincemyboobswerelikewatermelonsthesedays.
IallowedthegirlstohelpmewiththedresssincetherewasnowaythatIwouldbeabletodothatonmyown.
AlicemadeafewadjustmentsonthesizesinceIwasalittlesmallerthanshehadimagined.Thatmademefeel
alittlebettertobehonest.
"Wow,"Icried,lookingatmyselfinthemirroroncetheyweredone.
Icouldn'tbelievewhatIsaw.Itlookedlikeme,butamuchmorebeautifulversion.Thedresslookedlikeitwas
madeinheaven.Ithadmultiplelayersandthetoponewasalittleseethrough.Myshoulderswerebearandthe
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'arms'ofthedresswentalongtheareathatwentovermyboobssotheystartedjustabovemyelbowandended
beforemyshoulders.ItwassimplyabeautifulweddingdressandIwasatlossforwords.
Myhairflowedbeautifullydownmyshouldersincurls.Afewstrandsoneachsidehadbeenbraidandputup,
meetingeachotherintheback.
"Hush,don'tcry,Bella.You'llruinthemakeup,"shesaid,butIcouldseetearsinhereyes,too,justlikeI
couldinRoseandEsme'saswell.
"Okay,ladies,"Esmesaid,wipingthecornerofhereye."It'stimeforsomethingold."
Shegavemeasimple,butbeautiful,bracelet.ItfittedwellandIwasgratefulwhenitwasn'tsomethingflashy
sincethatwasn'tmystyle.IblushedwhenAliceslidthegarterupmyleg,butIimaginedthatIwouldblush
evenmorewhenitwastimeforEdwardtoremoveit.
EPOV
"Baby,areyousureyou'renotgoingtoshave?"MomaskedconcernedasIstoodatthegazebo,waitingfor
everyonetoarrivesothatBellacouldwalkdowntheaisle.
"I'mnotgoingtoshave.Besides,Itrimmeditthismorning."
"Butitlooksallscruffy."
"Well,that'showmywifelikesit,andmetoo,bytheway."
"Okay,ifyousayso."Shesighed.
"Isayso.Youshouldgositdownwithdad,"Itoldherandgaveherakissonhercheek,hopingtomakeupfor
thelackofshavingbysuckinguptoher.
"Okay.Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too."
Afewminuteslater,IheardthemusicandwatchedasRoseandAlicemadetheirwayout.Theylookedgood
intheirpinkdresses.IhadnodoubtinmymindthatBellahadsomethingtodowiththecolorsonthosedresses,
butthatonlymademesmile.
AsBellawalkeddowntheaisle,pinkrosesinherhand,andwithCharliebyherside,Istartedtotrulybelievein
angels.Becausethegirlthatwalkedovertomewasarealangel.Thewayshewasglowingandthewayshe
smiledshylyatmemademylipsturnintothebiggestsmilesIhadeversmiled.
CharliekissedBellaonthecheekandthenherhandwasinmine.InoddedmythankstoCharlieandhegave
measmileback.Icouldtellthathelookedproudanditmademerealizethatredoingourweddingwasagood
plan.
"Whenyoufirstjoinedhandsandheartsoneyearsago,youdidnotknowwherelifewouldtakeyou.You
promisedtolove,honorandcherishoneanotherthroughallthings.Lifehassurelybroughtyoubothwonderful
blessingsanddifficulttribulations.Therefore,youhavefulfilledyourpromise.AndGodissmiling!So,asyou
comeheretodaytoreaffirmyourweddingvowsandasyoureflectbackovertheyearashusbandandwife,do
younowreaffirmthevowsyoutookayearsago?"Mr.Webber,thepastor,said."Edward?"
"Bella,thebestthingIeverdidwastomarryyou.Ididn'talwaysdeserveyou,butIalwayslovedyou.Myvow
toyou,beforeGod,istodobetter,bebetter.IwanttobethebesthusbandIcanbeforyou,forme,forus,for
ourunborndaughter,andforallourfuturechildren.Iwilldomybest.Thisismypromisetoyoufortherestof
mylife."
Isawtearspoolinhereyes,butshesmiledandthatwasagoodsign.Ismiledbackather.
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"Isabella?"
Sheshookherheadgentlyasiftocomposeherselfbeforeshelookedmeintheeyesandstartedtalking.
"EmilyBronteoncewrote,"he'smoremyselfthanIam.Whateveroursoulsaremadeof,hisandmineare
thesame"ThisishowIfeel.Iamblessedtobeyourwife.Itisanhonortocallyoumyhusband.Today
beforeourfriendsandfamily,Iproudlyrenewmymarriagevowtoyou.Myloveforyouhasdeepenedbeyond
anythingIcouldhaveimagined.Mayitcontinuetoshineasabeaconlightinthisworldandthenext."
Ismiledatherwithhappytearsinmyeyes,matchingherown.IfyouwouldhaveaskedmeayearagoifI
wouldbestandingherewithher,Iwouldn'thavebelievedyou.Wehadbothcomesuchalongwayfromwhere
wewerebackthen.Bellacouldhavechosentheeasierwayoutandgottenanannulment,oradivorceonthis
exactday,butshedidn't.Myfightforherhadpaidoff.
"Doyou,Edward,continuetotakeIsabellaasyourlovingwife?Willyoucontinuetoloveher,honorher,
comfortandtreasureher,forsakingallothersforaslongasyoubothshalllive?"
"Ido,"Ianswered."Bella,Igiveyouthisringasatokenofourabidingloveandrecommitmenttoone
another."
ItooktheringfromEmmettandslowlyslidtheringontoBella'sfinger.Itfittedperfectly.Itwasabeautiful
silverCladdaghringwithadiamondheartsimple,butperfect.
"Doyou,Isabella,continuetotakeEdwardasyourlovinghusband?Willyoucontinuetolovehim,honorhim,
comfortandtreasurehim,forsakingallothersforaslongasyoubothshalllive?"
"Ido,"shesaidstrongly,thetearsnowflowingdownhercheeks."Fromthisdayforward,Irecommitmyselfto
you,andthisringisasymbolofmylove."
Rosehandedhertheringthatwasmeantforme.ItlookedlikeBella's,onlymoremanly.AsBellaslidthering
ontomyfinger,Ifeltanumberofemotionsfloodthroughmehappiness,reliefandmostofall,Ifeltsafe.
"Iannounceyouashusbandandwife,again.Youmaykissthebride."
Finally.
Igrabbedherbeautifulfaceinmybighandsandcrushedmylipstohers.Webothlaughedagainsteachother's
lipsandbeforewetookittoofar,wewereinterruptedbyaloudwhistlecomingfromEmmett.
"Sorry,"Iwhisperedwithachuckle.
"Mm,it'sokay,"shesaiddreamily,bitingherlipwhilehercheeksflushedred.
Themomentwesteppeddownthesmallstepofthegazebo,weweresurroundedbyfriendsandfamily.Inever
letgoofBella'shand,though,andIwasn'tgoingtolethergofortheentireday.Okay,maybesothatshecould
dancewithherfather,butnotmorethanthat.
"Oh,baby,I'msoproudofyou,"MomcriedandhuggedbothBellaandIatthesametime.
"Thankyou,Mom,"Isaidwithachuckle.
Itwaslikewewerepassedaroundthecrowd,receivingonehugaftertheother.Bellawasholdingmyhandjust
astightasIheldherswhichmademefeelsecure.
"That'sGarrett?"BellaaskedwithwideeyesandInoddedmyheadwithachuckle."Buthe'sabikerguy!"
"Iknow.IhadaboutthesamereactionasyoudidwhenIfirstsawhim,"Isaidwithalaugh."He'sgreat,
though,soyoudon'tneedtobeafraid."
Garretthaddyedbeachblondhair,paleskinandweredressedinblackjeans,whitetshirtandaleatherjacket.
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Although,theweatherwaswarmsohewasn'tactuallywearingthejacket,buthecarriedit.
"I'mnotafraid,"shemumbled."Ihadjustimaginedabankerorsomething."
"You'renottheonlyone,baby."Ikissedhertemple."Comeon,let'sgosayhi,shallwe?"
BPOV
"Hi,Bella,"Tanyasaid,givingmeahug."ThisismymanGarrett."
"Nicetomeetyou,"Isaidpolitely.
Hewasreallygoodlooking,butasIsaidbefore,IhadpicturedTanyawithabankerorsomething.Theylooked
reallygoodtogether,though.
"You,too."Hesmiled.
EsmeandAlicehadputupapartytentwherethepartywouldbeheld.Ihadaskedforasmallparty,butIcould
onlyhopethattheyhadtakenmywishesintoconsideration.Theceremonyhadbeenperfectinmyeyes,even
thoughallIcouldfocusonwasEdward.ItwasamiraclethatIhadmanagedtogetmyvowsoutofmymouth.
Everyonecheeredforusasweenteredthattent.Ineverlikedattentionandbeinginthecenterofacrowd,not
evenonmyweddingday,thatwaswhyIhidmyfaceinEdward'schestasheledustoourseats.
Duringthemeal,whichtastedreallygood,Edwardkeptmecloseandwefedeachotherfromtimetotime.He
hadhisarmwrappedaroundmywaistandhishandrestedonmystomach,rubbingsoothingcircles.Emilymust
havesensedmynervestodayandwaskickingextrahard,butIwastoohappytocare.
"Ladiesandgentlemen,mayIhaveyourattentionplease,"Rosesaid,clinkingherglasstogeteveryone's
attention.Shewasmymaidofhonor,ifyouwantedtocallherthat,andshewasprobablyabouttogiveher
speech.Ijusthopeditwasn'tanythingembarrassing."IpromisedthebridethatIwouldkeepitshort,sothis
won'ttakelong.IjustwanttothankheavensforhelpingmeandAlicepersuadeBellaintocomingtoVegas
withus.Becauseifshehadn't,sheandEdwardwouldn'tbesittingheretoday.Youguysarethelivingproofof
thatloveactuallydoconcureverything.Cheers!"
Everyoneraisedtheirglasses,joiningRoseinthetoast.Iwasgratefulthatshedidn'tgooverboardwiththe
speech.Icouldonlyhopeherhusbanddidthesamewithhisspeech.
"Ihadthestrangestdream.Idreamtthatsomepsychopathwastryingtobreakthetwoofyouup.Luckily,I
wokeupandIseethattheworldisjustasitshouldbe.Formybestfriendhaswonthebestwoman.Mayyou
alwaysbetogether,oryouhavetotellmewhothepsychopathis,andI'lltakecarofit,"Emmettsaidandraised
hisglass.
"I'mnevergoingtoletsomeonestealyouawayfromme,"Edwardmurmuredandkissedmycheek.
"I'llneverallowit,"Isaidback.
Awhilelater,itwastimetodance.ItwasactuallythemomentIhadbeendreadingthewholedaysinceIhad
noideahowtodance,letalonesomethingfancy.
"MayIhavethisdance?"Edwardasked,smirkingdownatme,butIknewIcouldn'tavoiddancingonmyown
wedding,orwhateverthiswas.
"I'dloveto."Ismiledandtookhishand.
Edwardledmeoutonthedancefloor.Itwasthedancewhenthebrideandthegroomdancetheirfirsttimeas
husbandandwife,sowewereallaloneonthedanceflooranditmademekindofnervous.WhatifIwouldfall
ortrip?
MyworrieslefttheroomassoonasEdwardtookmeintohisarmsandstartedswayingusfromsidetoside.It
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wasn'tacomplicateddancesoitwasn'tanythingIcouldn'thandle.Wedidn'tsaymuchaswedancedandsoon
thefloorwasfilledwiththeotherguests.
"I'vealwayswantedaCladdaghring,"Itoldhim,smilingatmynewring.
"Soyoulikeitthen?"
"Iloveit.It'sabsolutelyperfect."
"Iloveyou."Hesighedandcradledmyfaceinhispalmsbeforebringinghislipstomine.Igrabbedaholdof
hisbicepssoIwouldn'tfallbackward.Neitherofusdeepenedthekiss,butIcouldtellthatEdwardgotalittle
annoyedwhenwewereinterruptedbyathroatclearingbehindus.
"MayItakeover?"Dadaskedalittleembarrassed.
"Sure,"Edwardanswered,givingmeonelastpeck."IloveyouandI'llberightherewaitingforyou."
"Okay.Iloveyou,too."
DancingwithmydadwerealittlemoreawkwardthandancingwithEdward,butthelookonhisfacemademe
enjoythedanceanyway.
"Thankyou,"Dadsaid.
"Whatfor?"Iaskedconfused.
"Forthis.Forallowingmetobeapartofyourweddingday,althoughit'sjustarecreationofit,butIloved
walkingyoudowntheaisle.ItwassomethingIhaddreamedabout,eventhoughIhopednomanwouldever
stealyouawayfromme."
Bythetimehehadfinishedhisspeech,Ihadtearsinmyeyes.Mydadhadneverbeenfamousforexpressing
hisemotions,sothiswasabigdealtohearhimsay.
"Iwouldhaveendeduplikealadywithninecats,"Isaidwithachucklethroughmytears.
"Yeah,that'swhyIcan'tbringmyselftobeupsetthatEdwardstoleyourheart."
"Thankyou,Dad,"Isaid,hugginghimcloser.
Whenthesongfinished,IfoundmyselfinCarlislearms.Eventhoughmyfeetweretired,Iwantedtodance
withhimaswell.
"Justlookathowhappymysonis,"Carlislesaidwithabigsmile,noddingtowardEdward.
HewasholdingLilyinhisarmsliketheyweredancing.HereallydidlookhappyandIhadprobablynever
seenhimhappier,exceptforthedaywhenwefoundoutthatIwaspregnantandthedaywhenthedoctortold
usitwasagirl.
"That'sallyou,"Carlislefinished.
"It'snotjustme.It'severyonearoundustoday.Ourfamilyandfriends,theyallmakehimhappy."
"Butnotasmuchasyoudo."Hesmiled.
Whydidalwaysthehearttoheartconversationscomeoutwhenyoudanced?Itwasmakingmeanemotional
mess.
Whenthisdancewasoveraswell,IfinallyendedupbackinEdward'sarms.ThatwaswhereItrulybelonged.
"AsmuchasIwouldlovetodancewithyouagain,myfeetreallyneedstorest.Andsodoesmyback,"Isaid
apologetically.
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"It'sokay,baby.Wecanjustsitdownforawhile.Besides,Iplanondoingtonsofdancingtonight...
horizontal."Hesmirked.
"Edward,"Ihissedandplayfullyslappedhisarm."Peoplecanhearyou."
"Sowhat?Theyknowwehavesex.Emilyistheproofofthat.Plus,it'sourweddingnight,sowouldn'titbe
strangeifwedidn'thavesextonight?"
"Well,technicallywedidn'thavesexonouractualweddingnight."Iflashedhimasmirkofmyown.
"Touch."
Igiggledaswesatdowninourseatsagain.Therewasallkindsofpeoplecominguptousandtalk.Tanyaand
herboyfriend,thenSamandJane.IgottoholdlittleJaredwhileJakeandLeahwalkedover.Hewassosmall
comparedtoLilyandIhadalwaysthoughtofLilyasthetiniestlittlebabyIhadeverseen.
Thentherewascake.IbeggedEdwardnottothrowitallinmyface,buthediditanywayandIhadafeeling
thatIwouldbesmellingcakeforamonthafterthat.Ididhavemysweetrevenge,though,sowecouldboth
smellcaketogether.
"Bella,it'stimetothrowthebouquet,"EsmewhisperedtomeandEdwardaswehadfinishedeating.
"Okay,"Iansweredasshehelpedmeup.
Alicegatheredalltheunmarriedwomentostandbehindme.Ihadneverbeenagoodthrowersomyguesswas
thatsomeoneinthefrontwouldgetit.Notthatthereweremanywomenwhowasn'tmarried.AsIhadthrown
it,IheardasquealandasIturnedaround,InoticedthatthebouquethadlandedinJane'shands.IsawSam
chuckleathisgirlfriend.
"Bella,comeandsitdown,"Rosesaid,pattingonthechairthathadbeenputinthemiddleofthedancefloor.I
knewwhatwascomingitwastimeforEdwardtoremovemygarter.
Iblushedandsatdown.Edwardwashunchinginfrontofmewithsmilingeyesandasmirkonhislips.He
wouldbeenjoyingthis,maybealittletoomuch.Asheslidhishandsupmyfoot,everyonestartedcheeringhim
on.Thenallofthesuddenhisheadwasunderneathmydress.Igaspedinsurpriseandmycheeksturned
impossiblyredder.
Heplacedasloppykissrightnexttothegarterbeforeheslowlysliditdownwithhisteeth.Hishairwasamess
whenhefinallycamebackoutandhewaggledhiseyesbrowsrightbeforeheshotthegarterrightintoGarrett.
EveryonecheeredasEdwardstoodbackupandbentdowntokissme.Wehadtoomanypeoplewatchingus
soIdidn'tallowhimtodeepenthekiss.
"Iwantaproperkisslateron,baby,"hewhisperedinmyearandthenhelpedmeup.
Wesatbackdowninourseatsagainaswewatchedalltheguestsaroundus,talkingwitheachother.Iwatched
asSueandmydaddanced.TheylookedsoinloveandIwonderediftheywouldevergetmarried.Ihopedso
becausetheybelongedtogether,justlikeEdwardandme.
Iwasstartingtogettiredandexhausted.Whoknewweddingsdrainedyourenergylikethis?Therewereso
manypeoplewhowantedtocongratulateusandthankusfortheinvitation.EventhoughIknewwhoeveryone
was,people'sfacesstartedtoblendintoeachother.
"Areyouokay,baby?"Edwardasked,wrappinghisarmaroundme.
"Yeah,I'mjusttired."Isighed,restingmyheadonhisshoulders.
"It'sjustalittlewhilelongerbeforewecanheadout.Thenit'sjustyouandme."
"Ican'twait,"Isaidwithasmileashebentdownandkissedme.Icaughtaflashaswekissedandwhenwe
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brokeapart,RoseandAlicewerestandingthere,lookingallinnocent.
"Sorry,can'tletamomentlikethatpassbywithoutdocumentingit,"Roseexplained,holdinguphercamera.
"Youguysarejusttoocuteforyourowngood,"Alicecooed."ButIneedtoborrowBellaforafewminutes."
"ButIwanttostayhere."IpoutedasEdward'sholdofmetightened.
"Doyouwanttostayinthatdressallnight,ordoyouwantsomethingmorecomfortable?"
"Well,IthinkIcanhelpherremoveitjustfine,"Edwardsaidsmugly,earningyetanotherslaponhisarmfrom
me."Sorry."
"Idon'tmindgettingoutofthisdress,"Isaidtothegirls."Edward,pleasehelpmeup."
HehelpedmeupandIfollowedthegirlstotheroomwhereIhadgottenreadythatmorning.Theyputmeina
lessfancydressthatwenttomyknees.Itwasstillwhite,though,anditremindedmealotofmyweddingdress.
"So,howdoesitfeeltohavehadarealwedding?"Roseasked.
"Great,butIdon'tfeelanydifferent."
"Butwedo,"Esmesaidsoftly."Itmeanttheworldtometoactuallyseemysongettingthegirlofhisdreams."
Ihadn'trealizedbeforehowmuchourVegasweddinghadeffectedourparentsandthepeoplearoundus.I
couldonlyimaginehowIwouldfeelifEmilydidthatinthefuture.Iwouldprobablybedevastated,butthat
waswhatIhaddonetomyparents,andthatwaswhatEdwardhaddonetohis.
"I'msorry,"Ifinallywhispered.
"Don'tbe,honey."You'vegivenmesomuchinreturntomakeupforit,okay?"
"Okay."Inoddedmyhead,butIstillfeltguilty.
ItwasfinallytimetosaygoodbyetoeveryoneandheadintoPortAngeleswhereEdwardandIwouldspend
thenight.Atfirst,wehadwantedtoheadbackhometoSeattle,butthenwerealizedthatnoneofuswantedto
spendfourhoursinacarwhenwecouldjustrentahotelroomandheadbackinthemorninginstead.
Wehuggedalmosteveryonegoodbyeandthankedeveryoneforcoming.TheonlypersonIhadactuallymissed
today,apartfromEmily,wasmymom.Iwishedshecouldhavebeenheretoday,butIhadpromisedtogiveher
acallinthemorningtogooverallthedetails.Besides,EsmehadactedlikeamothertometodaysoImade
suretothankheralittleextrabygivingheratighthug.
"Iwantyounakedinthatbednow,"Edwardgrowledagainstmylipsassoonaswewereinsidethedoor.
IgiggledandgrabbedaholdofhiscollarasIledhimbackwardtowardthebigfluffybed.
"Well,youshoulddosomethingaboutthatthen,Mr.Cullen,"Isaid,smirkingupathim.
"Ishould,huh,Mrs.Cullen?"
IslowlynoddedmyheadwhileIbitmylip,knowingtheeffectthathadonhim.Heattackedmylipswithhis
owninahungrykissashemovedhishandstomybackandslowlyslidthezipperdown.
HetookastepbacktoadmiremybodyasIstoodthereinnothingbutthepantysetEsmehadgivenmetoday.
"Fuck,Ilovethatcoloronyou,"hemumbledandIblushed."Laydown,baby."
"Butyouhavetoomuchclotheson."Ipoutedandlaydownonthebedasheinstructed.
"Patience,Bella,"hescoldedplayfully.
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Isatuponmyelbowsandwatchedasheslowlyuntiedhistieandthrewitacrosstheroom.Thebuttonsofthe
whiteshirtcameundoneonebyoneandIhadtosqueezemtthighstogetherinordertogetsomefrictiondown
there,becausethismanwasdrivingmecrazy.
Hepoppedthebuttonofthepantsopeneffortlesslyandtheypooleddownathislegs.Hewasnowstandingin
frontofmeinhisboxersandheplayfullytuggedonthem,buttomydisappointment,hedidn'tpullthemoff.
"Ithinkit'stimetoevenoutthescore,"heexplainedandwalkeduptome,bringinghishandstomybackand
skillfullyunclaspedmybra,makingmyboobstofallout.
Hetookoneofthemintohismouthandstartedsucking.Ithrewmyheadbackandmoanedatthesensation,but
justasitwasstartingtogetreallygood,hestoppedandmoveddowntoremovemypanties.Hisboxerswere
offthesecondrightafterthat.
"You'resowet,baby,"mewhisperedandhuncheddowninfrontofme,spreadingmylegswideopenforhim.
"Ialwaysamforyou,Edward,"Imoanedashetookonelonglickupmyslit.
Hegentlypushedonefingerinsidemeashecontinuedtolickme.Thethingsmyhusbandcoulddowithhis
tongueandfingerswouldprobablymakeeverywomanouttherejealous.
Itonlytookhimlessthenaminutetosendmeovertheedge,buthekeptgoing.Iwantedtofeelallofhim
insideme,butthefeelingofhistongueandfingersmademeshutupaboutthat.Wehadallthetimeinthe
world.
"Youtastesogood,baby,"Edwardmumbled,sendingvibrationstomycore.
"Mm,"wasallImanagedtogetout.
Headdedanotherfingerandsuckedharderonmyclit.IknewIdidn'thavelongbeforeanotherorgasmwas
goingtohitme,andIwasright.AssoonashebrushedhisfingersagainstmygspotIcameonceagain.
"Edward!"Iyelled,feelinglikeIfloatedonapink,fluffycloud.
Helickedmecleanandkissedhiswayupmystomachandstoppedtosuckonmynipples.Eventhoughhehad
beendoingthatalotlately,togetthemusedtobreastfeeding,theywerestillsensitive.
"Myturn,"Isaid,pushinghimontohisback.
Helookedupatmewithasurprisedexpression,butthatquicklyturnedintoalookofpurelustasIkissedmy
waydownhistonedabstohisbigdick,whichwasrockhardatthatpoint.Ilikedthesmallamountofprecum
andhehissedatthecontact.
"Fuck,baby,"hemoanedasItookhimintomymouth.
Hegentlytwinnedhisfingersinmyhair,helpingmesetthepaceasIbobbedmyheadupanddown.Igrazed
myteethalonghisshaftasImademywayupandthensuckedhardonthehead,knowingthathelikeditthat
way.
"Bella,baby,youneedtostop,"hemoaned,tryingtopullmeoffbytuggingonmyhair."Iwantto...fuck...I
wanttocomeinsideyou."
"Technically,you'reinsidemymouth,"Iteased,takinghimintomymouthoncemore.
"Fuck,Imeanyourpussy."
"What'sthemagicword?"Iasked,lookingupathimthroughmylashes.
BeforeIhadthechancetoregisterwhatwashappening,hehadflippedusoversothathewaslayingontopof
meinsteadoftheotherwayaround.
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"Please,"hesaidsmuglyandpositionedhimselfatmyentrance.
Heslowlypushedin,butpulledbackout,onlytodoitagainandagain.Iwasstartingtogetcrazywithlust
fromallhisteasingandItriedtoshiftmyhipssothathewouldslidallthewayin,buthisstronghandsonmy
hipsstoppedanymovements.
"Edward,please,"Iwhined."Please,Ineedyou."
"Fine,butonlybecauseyouaskedsonicely,"hesaid,enteringmeinoneswiftmovement.
ItwasenoughtosendmeovertheedgeandstartsappearedinfrontofmyeyesasIshoutedhisname.Iheard
himcurseandIguessedhehadproblemswithcontrollinghisownrelease.
"Wrapyourlegsaroundme,baby,"hesaid,bendingdowntogivemeadeepkissandmovedhishandsto
eithersideofmyhead.
Ididn'thesitatetowrapmylegsaroundhiswaistashelickedmylips.Iopenedupmymouthforhimandfelt
histongueagainstmyown.
Hestartedmovingfasterinsidemeandgrabbedoneofmyhipsforleverage.Theonlysoundsintheroomwere
ourhardbreathingandtheslappingsoundwhenourbodiesmet.
Itwasgettinghardtobreathe,butIdidn'twanttogiveupthefeelingofEdwardmovinginsideofme.Itwas
intenseandIdidn'tthinkIhadeverfeltsomethinglikeit.Ifeltallofhimtherewasn'tadetailofhimthatI
wasmissing.Atleastitdidn'tfeellikeIdid.
"IthinkIneedtoswitchposition,"Isaid,breathinghardbecauseofEmilysqueezingmylungs.
"Okay,justlayonyourside.Iwanttotrysomething,"hesaid,helpingmetorollovertomyleftside.
Heenteredmeoncemoreandhefeltsomuchbiggerthisway.
"Holyshit...oh...Edward,"Imoanedashestartedmovinginsidemeagain.
"That'sit,baby.You'resofuckingtight,"hegruntedinresponse.
Edwardgrabbedmyrightlegandslightlylifteditup,allowinghimtomovedeeperinsideofme.Iwasstarting
togetcloserandclosertotheedgeonemoretime,butIwasdeterminednottogotherealonethistime.
"Edward,I'mclose,"Ipanted.
"Me,too.Justwaitforme,baby."
IfelthimtwitchinsidemeandIknewhewasclose,soItriedtosqueezehimwithmyinternalmuscles,buthe
wassobigsoIcouldonlyhopethatitworked.
"Fuck!"hecursed.
Itworked.
Whenhepinchedmyclit,Iwasdoneforandeverythinginmejustletgo.IprobablyscreamedEdward'sname
loudenoughthewakeuptheneighbors,butIcouldn'tcareless.Itdidn'ttakelongbeforeEdwardgruntedmy
nameandIfelthimspillinsideme.Hecontinuedtothrustinandoutafewmoretimesbeforehecollapsednext
tome.Iimmediatelymissedhim,evenifhewaslayingrightnexttome.
"Iloveyou,"hepantedandplacedasoftkissonmysweatyforehead.
"Iloveyou,too,"Isaidback,butIwantedmorethanasimplekisssoIwentstraightforhislips.
Welaythere,staringintoeachother'seyesaswetriedtocalmdownfromourhighs.Icouldn'tstoplookingat
thenewadditiontomyfinger.Itreallywaseverythingagirllikemecouldaskforinaring.
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"Ihaditengraved,"Edwardmurmured,noticingmystaring.
"Itdoes?"Iaskedexcitedlyandhenoddedhishead.
IreluctantlytookitoffeventhoughIhadswornnottoeverdoso,butIwantedtoseewhatwaswritteninside.
ItwasEdward'snameandthedatewhenwehadgottenmarriedthefirsttime.
"Minehasthesame,onlyit'syournameinstead,"Edwardwhisperedandstrokedmyhair.
"It'sbeautiful,"Isaid,slippingtheringbackonandgavehimanotherkiss.
Welayinsilenceforawhile.EmilywaskickinglikecrazysoItriedtoswitchpositionagainsoIwaslaying
halfonmysideandhalfonmybackwithpillowsbehindme,keepingmetofallback.
"DoyouwanttoknowthefirstthingI'mgoingtodowhenI'mrecoveredenough?"Iaskedwhile
absentmindedlydrawingpattersonmyverybigstomach.
"Mm,makelovetome?"heguessedhopefully.
"Well,yeah,thattoo,"Istammered."IwasjustthinkingaboutsomethingthatIcoulddoalittlesoonerthan
that."
"You'resodamnadorable."Hechuckled,bringinghisfingerstomyburningcheek."Ihavenoidea,soyou
havetotellme."
"I'mgoingtosleeponmystomach,"Isaid,lookingupathimwithashysmile.
"Okay,well,Ihadn'texpectedthat."Helaughedbeforehegavemeakiss.
Wemadeloveonemoretimebeforebothofusweretooexhaustedforanotherround.Edwardsaidhisgood
nighttoEmilyandthenwewerebothoutlikethelight,wrappedupineachother.Iwaseventootiredtocare
aboutEmily'skicksandtheyhadbeencomingalotallday.
Iloveyou,babygirl.
EPOV
ItwasaweeklaterandItriedtogetsomesleep.Itprovedtobeprettyimpossible,though,becauseBella
couldn'tstopmoving.Ifelteverylittlemoveshemadeanditwasdrivingmeinsane.AllIwantedwastogeta
goodnightssleep,butthenIfeltguiltyaboutitbecauseBellanevergotagoodnightssleep.
"Baby,can'tyoupleasejustlaystill?"Igroaned,feelingextratired.
"Sorry,"shewhispered.
Itdidn'tlastlong,though,andjustasIwasaboutfallbacktosleep,shestartedtofuckingmoveagain.
"Baby,please..."Istarted,butwascutofbyapainwhimperthatfreakedmeout."Bella,what'swrong?"
Shedidn'tanswerme,andthatonlymademefeelevenmorepanicked.
Whatthehellishappening?
IturnedthelightonandfoundBellacurledupwithherarmsclutchinghertummy.
"Baby,please.Tellmewhat'swrong!"
"Ithurts,"shewhimpered.
Fuck,whatamIsupposedtodo?Emilywasn'tsupposedtobebornyet!
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EndNotes:
A/N:Ah,sorry?
IhadtostoptherebecauseotherwisethechapterwouldhavebeentwiceaslongandI
didn'thavethetimetowriteit!
IhopeyouhaveagreatHalloweenandI'llseeyounextweek,sametime!
Nextupdate:SundayWednesday7th
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:So,it'sfinallyhere!Iknoweveryonehasbeenwaitinganxiouslyforthisone.
Especiallytheoneswhogotthepreview!
ThequoteinthelastchapterwasfromMyBestFriend'sWedding:
"Ihadthestrangestdream.Idreamtthatsomepsychopathwastryingtobreakthe
twoofyouup.Luckily,IwokeupandIseethattheworldisjustasitshouldbe.For
mybestfriendhaswonthebestwoman."
Asusual,newchapterandnewquote!
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youthatit'safiction.Everythingmightnotadduptoreallife.Ihadagreatdeal
ofhelpfromadearreaderofmine,nia77,whoexplainedalottome.
Disclaimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplotandEmilyGrace
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EPOV
"Please!Idon'twantyoutogo,"Bellasobbedintomyneck.
Shehadbecomeratherclingysinceourpregnancyscarealmosttwoweeksago.Itturnedoutthatshehadbeen
havingcontractions,butnottherealones.So,theyhadorderedhertotakeiteasywhichalsomeantthatshehad
goneonhermaternityleaveoneweekearlier.
"Baby,Ineedtogotowork,"Itoldher,rubbingherback.
MomhadarrivedafewdaysagoandwascurrentlytakingElsaoutforawalk,butIcouldreallyhaveneeded
herrightnow.
EachmorningthepastweekhadbeenthesameIgotupandtookmyshowerwhileBellasleptandthenshe
wokeupwhenIgotdressed.ThatwaswhensheusuallystartedcryingandjustbecauseIhatedtoseehercry,I
wentintobedandtriedtocomforther.Ihadgiveninonedayjustbecausethepleadingandthecryingalways
gottome.Today,though,Ireallydidneedtogotowork.
"Please,"shesobbedagain,grippingmyshirtinherfists.
"I'llcomehomeearlier,Ipromise,baby,"Itoldher,kissingthetopofherhead.
Momchosethatminutetoshowup,savingmyassfortoday.Shehadprovedtobeagodsendtheselastcouple
ofdays.
"Whatifthebabydecidestocomeafteryou'veleft?"Bellasniffled.
"I'llbeaphonecallaway,Bella.Youknowthat."Isighed.
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"I'msorry.Ijustdon'twantyoutogo,"shemumbled.
"AndIdon'twanttoleave,butIhaveto,"Isaid,tryingtogethertoreleasemyshirt."I'llbehomeasquickas
possible,okay?Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,"shewhisperedandIkissedheronelasttimebeforegettingoutofthebed.
IkissedmymomgoodbyeandlistenedasshetoldBellahowtheyweregoingtofixthelastdetailsforthebaby
today.IjusthopedshewouldbeabletogetBellainabettermood.
Workwasapainintheass.Wewereinmeetingaftermeeting,leavingmenotimeatalltocallandcheckupon
Bella.IknewIwouldhaverushedoutsideifshecalled,butshedidn'twhichgotmebothworriedandrelieved.
ItprobablymeantthatmymomkeptherbusyfoldingEmily'sclothes.
IfinallygotafewminutestomyselfanddecidedtograbacoffeeandcallBella.
"Hi,"sheansweredwhenshepickedup.Shesoundedtiredandoutofbreath."I'msorryaboutthismorning."
"It'sokay,baby.Iunderstandwhereyou'recomingfrom,butIwon'tleaveyoutogivebirthonyourown,"I
toldher,takingasipfrommyhotcoffee.
"Iknow,"shewhispered."I'mjustsoscaredandIwantyouherewhenmycontractionsstartbecauseIknowI
won'tbeabletogothroughitalone."
"Ican'tpromiseyouanything,butI'mgoingtodomybesttobethere,okay?"
"Okay.Ishouldletyougetbacktowork.YourmomandIareputtingtogetherthestrollerandafewother
things,sosheprobablyneedsmyhelp."
"Okay,"Isaid,realizingthatIshouldgetbacktowork."I'llbehomeintwohoursorso."
"Iloveyou.Oh!CanyoupleasepickupdinnerfromMcDonald'sonyourwayhome?"
"Sure,baby,"Ichuckled."Iloveyou,too."
Sureenough,whenIgothomethatnight,therewasastrollerinthehallwayandvariousbabystuffalloverthe
kitchenandlivingroom.Theyhadtrulyworkedhardtoday.IjusthopedEmilywouldbeheresoonsoallthe
stuffcouldbecomeuseful.
BellawasnolongersadwhenIsawher.Shewasabsolutelyglowingandextremelyhappytoseemeandthe
bagofMcDonald'sfoodIhadinmyhand.IhadboughtfoodformeandMomtoosinceIdidn'tknowwhether
ornotsomeonehadmadedinner.
Thatnight,BellaandImadeloveagain.Itfeltlikeagessincewediditlasttime,eventhoughitwastheother
day.ItwasawkwardtosaytheleastsinceBella'sstomachwasinthewayallthetimeandshedidn'tfeel
comfortablebeingontopanymore.
Afterward,welaidandstaredatBella'sbaretummysinceourdaughterwaskickingupafight.Itwasfunnyto
lookatsincesmallbumpsappearedfromherfeetorhands.Ikissedeveryoneofthem.
"IwishedIcoulddothat,"Bellasaidwithasighandsmile.
"IwishIcouldfeelherinsideme,"Isaidback.
"Iguesswe'reeventhen,huh?"Shegiggled."Ohmygod!She'skickingmybladder."
Ilaughed,butsatupsoIcouldhelpherupinasittingposition.Itlookedfunnywhenshewasinarushtothe
bathroom,butwasn'tabletomove.Itwasmeanofmetothinkso,butshejustlookedsodamncute.Toobad
shehadputonapairofpantiesandmytshirtrightafterthesex.Iwould'velovedtoseeherrunningaround
completelynaked.
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"ItfeelslikeI'mleaking,"shemumbledandturnedaroundtofaceme."OhmyGod!I'mpeeingmypants!"
ThenshewasgonelikethewindandIheardthebathroomdoorslam.IgotconcernedbecauseBellahadnever
wetherselfbefore,andIdidn'tknowifitwascommonwithpregnantwomen.So,Igotupfrombed,pulledon
atshirtandmyboxers,andwentafterher.
"Bella,baby,areyouokay?"Iaskedthroughthedoor,knockingonitlightly.
"Um,no,"shemumbledwhichonlyfueledmyconcern.
Itriedopeningthedoor,andluckilyforme,itwasn'tlocked.Bellawasstandinginthemiddleofthefloor,
lookingpanicked.
"What'swrong?"Iasked,steppingforwardtoher.
"IjustwetmyselfandI'mtoofattocleanitup,"shesaid,hercheeksturningredfromhumiliationandIsaw
tearsmaketheirwaydownhercheeks.
IlookeddowntoherfeetandwhatIsaw,wasmostdefinitelynotpee.
"Bella,"Istarted,walkinguptoher."That'snotpee."
"What?"sheasked,lookingpanickedwhenrealizationhither."Ithastobe.It'snottime."
"Idon'tthinkyou'llgettodecidewhenit'stimeornot.Ourdaughterwantsoutwhetheryoulikeitornot,"I
saidinasofttone.
Icouldtellthatshewasonthevergeoflosingit,soIhelpedhersitdownonthetoiletlid.Thatwayshe
wouldn'tfallandhurtherselforEmily.ThenitallhitmeatonceIwasgoingtobeafatherinamatterof
hours.Justlikethat,Iwouldnolongerconsidermyselfasjustahusband.Iwasgoingtobeahusbandanda
dad.
"Mom!"Icalled,hopingshecouldhearmebecauseIdidn'twanttoleaveBellaalonerightnow.
"What?"sheasked,lookingflushedfromrunningdownthehallfromtheguestroom.Thenshenoticedthe
floor."Oh,dear.It'stime?"
"It'stime,"IconfirmedwiththebiggestsmileIcouldmuster.
"No,it'snot.It'stooearly,"Bellacried."Ityouandyoursupersperm'sfault!"
Sure,Ihadreadthathavingsexcouldmakeyougointolabor,butEmilymighthavechosentobereadyevenif
wehadn'thadsex.Ididn'tsaythat,though,becauseitwouldprobablyonlyfueltoherpanic.
"It'sjustafewdays,honey,soitdoesn'tmatter,"Momreassuredus."I'llstayandcleanthisup,callCarlisle,
Charlieandyourfriends,andtakeElsatoyourneighbors.I'llbeatthehospitalassoonaspossible."
"Butyoupromisedto...ow!"Bellaexclaimed,clutchingherstomach.
"Thecontractionshavestartedsoyoubettergo,andIpromisetobethereassoonaspossible."
WefinallygotBellatoagreetoleavewithoutmymom.Luckilyforus,theyhadalreadypackedthehospital
bagsowedidn'tneedtoworryaboutanythingbuttogettothehospital.
BellahadthreecontractionsonthewaytothehospitalandIcouldtellthatshewasalreadyinagreatdealof
pain.Thatmademefeelbadandpushingthegaspedaldownalittlemore.
MomhadapparentlycalledaheadsothehospitalknewwewerecomingandhadawheelchairreadyforBella
whenwearrived.
EverythinghappenedreallyfasttheyputusinaroomwhereBellahadtochangeintoagown,thenDr.
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Housemanexaminedher,whichBellahated.Soherewewere,waitingforBellatobecomefullydilatedandfor
mymomtoarrive.
"Couldyougrabmysocksfromthebag?"Bellaasked."Myfeetarecold."
"Sure,"Isaid,givingherapeckonthelipsbeforewalkingovertowherethebagwas.
Shehadpackedapairofgrayknittedsockstowearsoshe,orMom,probablyknewthatshewouldgetcoldat
somepoint.Idid,too,though,sinceitreadinthebabybookthatpregnantladiesoftengotcoldfeetduringthe
pregnancy.
Iputthemonandpulledtheblanketup,hopingitwouldhelphergetwarmagain.Isatbyhersideand
hummed,helpedhergotothebathroom,rubbingherrockhardstomachinsoothinggestures.IdideverythingI
couldpossiblythinkof.
"Ithurts,"Bellawhimperedfromthebed.
"Iknow,baby,"Isoothed,caressingherhair.
Honestly,Ididn'tknow.TherewasnowayformetoknowhowmuchithurtsinceIwouldneverexperience
childbirththewayshewas.Ijustwantedtodoorsaysomethingtomakeherfeelbetter,butthereweren't
anythingthatwouldmakethepaingoaway.EspeciallywhenBellahaddeclinedtheoffertogettheEpidural
becauseshethoughttheneedleweretoobig.Shechosethepaininfrontoftheneedle.Why?Ihadnofucking
idea.
"IcameassoonasIcould,"Momsaidfromthedoorway,lookingflushed.
"It'sokay.She'sbarelyfourcentimetersdilatedsofar,"Iexplained.
"Howareyoufeeling,honey?"MomaskedBella,walkinguptousandstartedstrokingBella'sback.
"LikeI'mgoingtodie,"Bellamumbled.
"Iknowhowitfeels,butdon'tworry.Inafewhours,you'llgetrewardedwiththemostpreciousthingyou
couldeverget."
"It'skindofhardtothinklikethatrightnow,"Bellagroanedasanothercontractionhit.
Igrabbedherhandandtriedtohelpherthroughit.ShesqueezedithardsoIfiguredshedidn'tmind.
MomsettledinanotherchairontheothersideofBellaandkeptrubbingherback.WedidthatforawhileandI
almostthoughtshewasasleepuntilshecriedoutinpainonceagain.
"I'mneverevergoingtoletyouandyoursuperspermnearme,"shegrumbled.
"Doyouwanttobet?"Iasked.
"Edward,"Momsaidinawarninglytone,lettingmeknowthatIshouldgothereandshewasprobablyright.
"Sorry,"Imumbled."I'mnevergoingtostickanythingintoyouagain."
"Really?Youwannapokemamabearrightnow,doesthatseemslikeagoodidea?"Bellaaskedannoyed.
Theybothshotmeafuckingsternlook,butIdidn'tunderstandwhatIdidwrong.IsaidIwassorryandshe
saidshedidn'twanttogetnearme,eventhoughIknewshewouldn'tbeabletokeepthatup.
Dr.Housemanchosethatperfectmomenttocomein,interruptingtheconversation.ShetoldBellatoputher
legsup,soIhelpedher.Bellawhimperedasthedoctordidwhatevershedid,soIheldherhandtighterand
kissedhercheek.
"You'redoinggreat,baby,"Iassuredher.
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"You'refivecentimetersdilatednow.Maybeyoucouldtakeawalkorsomethingtogeteverythinggoing?It
mighthelp."
"Okay,"Bellaansweredwarilyandnoddedherhead.
Thedoctorleftusaloneonceagain.EventhoughBelladidn'tseemtowanttomove,bothMomandIcoaxed
herintothewalk.WegotherupandMomwheeledtheIVwhileIheldBella'shand.
Wehadgottenafewfeetfromherroomwhenanothercontractionhit.BellaalmostbentoverandIwasafraid
shewouldfallaltogether,soIhuggedhertomychestandrubbedmyhandsoverherbackwhileshecriedinto
mychest.
"Makeitstop,Edward,"shesobbed.
"I'msosorry,baby,"Itoldher,notabletopromisehersomethinglikethat.
Whenshewasreadytostartwalkingagain,webeganourwalk.Itwaslikewalkingatasnail'space,butatleast
Bellawasmovingaround.Eachtimeacontractionhit,shewouldbegmetostopit,butallthebeggingdid,was
tomakemyheartbreakalittlemoreeachtime.Ihatedseeingherinthismuchpain.IjusthadtodowhatMom
alwayssaidwhenthepainhitthinkabouttherewardattheendoftheday.
Whenwegotbacktotheroom,BellalaybackdownonthebedagainwhileMomandItookourseats.Wehad
beenwalkingforalmostthirtyminutesbythenandthecontractionsshowedtheiruglyfacemoreoftenthan
before.
"CouldyoupleaseseeifI'mfullydilated?"Bellaaskedmeafteralmostanhour.
"Idon'tknowwhattolookfor,baby,"Ianswered.
"Please,Edward,"shecried.
IlookedovertomymomandsawthatshelookedjustastornasIdid.Ihadnoideawhattodo.IfIdidcheck
her,maybeitwouldonlycauseherpainandifIdidn't,shewouldgetpissedatme.
"Ithinkit'stimeformetoleaveanyway,soI'llgoandgetDr.Houseman,okay?"Momsaid.
Wehaddecidedthatshewouldn'tbeherebeforetheactualbirth,butthatshewouldwaitoutsidewhileEmily
wasdelivered.Shesaidsomethingaboutitbeinganintimatemomentandthatweshouldshareitwithouther.
Bellahadbeenworriedaboutitatfirst,butlaterunderstoodthatmaybeshedidn'twanthermotherinlawin
hereduringthebirth.
"Okay,"Iwhispered.
Shekissedusbothonthecheekandwishedusgoodluckbeforesheleft.Shehadactuallybeenagreathelpso
far,butnowIwasonmyown.
"Doyoumindrubbingmyback?"Bellaasked.
"Notatall,baby,"Iansweredandwalkedovertothesidemymomhadoccupiedjustminutesago.
ThatwaswhatIwasdoingwhenDr.Housemanwalkedin.Ijusthopedshewouldhavegoodnewsbecause
thewaitingwasdrivingmeinsane.WehadbeenhereforalmostsixhoursalreadyandallthetimeIhadbeen
forcedtoseemywifeinpain.
"Howareyoufeeling,Bella?"thedoctorasked.
"Pain,"wasallsheanswered.
"Okay,letmecheckyouandseeifEmilyisreadytocomeoutornot."
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IonceagainhelpedBellaturnoveronherbackandputherlegsinthestirrups.Shescrunchedherfaceupat
onepointandsqueezedmyhandasDr.Housemaninsertedherfingers.
"Iwouldsayyou'reready,Bella,"thedoctorannounced.
Theneverythinghappenedinarush.TheroomgotfilledwithtwoothernursesinblueclothesandDr.
Housemanchangedintothesameclothesasthenurses.ThebedBellawaslayingingotsplitinhalfandthe
doctorsatbackdownonherchairbetweenBella'slegs.
"Okay,Bella.It'stimetopush.Whenyoufeelacontraction,pushwithallyougotuntilItellyoutostop,"Dr.
Housemaninstructed.
Finally.
"Butit'stooearly,"Bellasaidworriedly.
"We'vebeenoverthissoyouknowit'snottooearly,"thedoctorsaidcalmlysoIhadafeelingthatshewas
usedtoworryingmothers."Now,push."
Andpushshedid.IsworeIcouldhearmyknucklesbeingcrushedasBellasqueezedmyhand,butsomehow,I
didn'tgiveashit.Afterthethirdpush,thedoctortoldusthattheheadwasalmostoutandIgotcurious.Bella
stoppedmebeforeIgotthechancetolook,though.
"No,Idon'twantyoutoseemyvaginalikethat,"shewhimpered.
Irespectedherwishesandstayedbyherhead,holdingherhandandcaressedherhairinsoothinggestures.
WhenitwastimeforEmily'sshoulders,itbecametoomuchforBella.
"Ithurtssomuch,"shesobbed.
"Baby,comeon.Youneedtohangonforme,"Ipleaded,nuzzlingmyfaceinherhair.
"Ican't,"shepanted."I'mtootired...ithurts.Ican't,Edward...I'msorry."
"Youcandoit.I'mhereandourdaughterneedsyou,soplease!"
Shedidn'tsayanythingback,butIknewshewasstillherebecauseshewascryinghard,anditbrokemyheart.
EspeciallysinceIcouldn'tdoafucktohelpher.
"Edward,"shewhispered."Promisemesomething."
"What,baby?"
"Bethereforourdaughter."
"Iam,butsoareyoubecausethereisnowayinhellthatI'mgoingtoletyougo,"Isaidfirmly.
"Ican't.Youhavetodoit,"shepantedandgroaned.
"Comeon,Bella.Onemorepushandyou'llgettoseeyourbaby,"Dr.Housemanencouraged.
"Youcandoit,baby,"Itoldher,kissinghertempleasshenoddedherhead.
Shegotreadytopushasthenextcontractionhitherandonceitdid,shesqueezedmyhandsohardIthoughtit
wasgoingtofalloff.Itwasworthit,though.IwouldrisklosingmyhandanydayifIcouldhaveahealthy
babygirl.
Bellaletoutonefinalscreambeforefallingbackagainstthebed,andthen,themostbeautifulwailsoundedin
theroom.
Mybabygirl.
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Myemotionshitmehard.Itwaslikeeverythingcamecrumblingdownonme.IwassofuckinghappyIcould
burst.TearsstartedpoolingdownmycheeksasIlistenedtomybaby'scries.
"Wedidit,baby.Youfuckingdidit,"Icried,nuzzlingmyfaceinBella'shair."Iloveyousomuch,andI'mso
proudofyou."
Ikeptplacingkissesalloverherfaceasshesobbedalongwithme.Icouldn'tfuckingbelievethatwefinally
hadourdaughter.
"Youdidit,Bella.Youhaveababygirl,"Dr.HousemanannouncedandlaidherdownontopofBella'schest.
Emilywassotinyandlookedallscrunchedup,butshewasperfect."Doyouwanttocutthecord,Daddy?"
Cutthecord...myperfectbaby...Bella...Daddy.Wow,justwow.
"Itwon'thurther?"Iasked,wipingawaymytears,andthedoctorsmiledandshookherhead."ThenI'dlove
to."
Shegavemesomekindofscissorandthentoldmewheretocut,andIdidit.Icutthecordbetweenmotherand
daughter,butneitherofthemseemedtomind.BellawasstrokingherfingersalongEmily'schubbyandred
cheek,smilingexhaustively.
"She'ssoperfect,"Bellawhisperedthroughhertears.
Emily'shairwasdarksoIknewshewouldmostlikelyhaveBella'shaircolor,andifwegotreallylucky,she
wouldalsogetBella'seyes.EmilykeptcryingagainstBella'schestandIwasjustabouttotryandsoothher
whenanursecameandapologeticallyexplainedthattheyneededtocleanherup.
Iwastorn.IwantedtostaywithBellaasshegotcleanedupandeverything,butatthesametime,Iwanted
nothingmorethantoseemybabygirl.
"Go,"Bellawhisperedhoarsely."Ourdaughterneedsherdaddy."
"Butyou..."
"I'llbefine,"sheassuredmewithasmallsmile.
IkissedherquicklybeforeIwalkedovertowherethenurseswerecheckinguponmydaughter.Nowthatthe
nurseshadcleanedherup,youcouldseethatshereallydidhavedarkbrownhairandshewastheprettiestthing
Ihadeverseen.
"Sixpoundsandsevenounces,"anurseannouncedandIhadnoideaifthatwasgoodorbad,allIwantedwas
toholdmylittlegirlinmyarms.
Afterwhatfeltlikeforever,butinreallife,itwasprobablyonlyminutes,theyfinallyputonapinklittlecapon
herheadandwrappedherupinablanket.Thenanurseheldherouttomewithasmileonherface.
"Here'syourhealthybabygirl,"shesaidandcarefullyhandedherovertomywaitingarms.
Myvisionwasblurryfromallthetears,butthemomenttheylayherinmyarms,Iwaswhole.Itwaslike
somethinghadbeenmissingalltheseyears,andEmilycompletedme.Shehadstoppedcryingandhereyes
wereclosed,itwasalmostlikeshewassleeping.Ihadreadthatyouwouldn'tbeabletoseeherrealeyecolorin
awhile,butIstillhopedshewouldopenhereyesandrevealapairofchocolatecoloredorbsjustlikeher
mommy.
IturnedaroundandsawBellawatchinguswithtearsstreamingdownherface,butshesmiledthemost
beautifulsmileever.ThenurseswerejustabouttoputonapairofpantiessoIfiguredshewasdonegetting
cleanedupandwalkedovertoher.
"Doyouwanttoholdher?"Iasked,sniffling,andshenoddedherheadandwipedawayherowntears.I
carefullylayEmilyinBella'swaitingarms."Sayhellotoourdaughter,baby."
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"Hi,"Bellacooedandkissedthebaby'sforehead."Iloveyou."
"Daddylovesyou,too,"IsaidandcaressedEmily'ssmallandchubbycheekwithmyfinger.ThenIturnedto
Bella."God,howIloveyou."
Ikissedhersoftlyonherlipsandshekissedmebackbeforeshepulledawayandsaid,"Iloveyou,too.So
much."
"Ican'tbelievewemadeher,"Isaid,lookingdownatourdaughterjustassheopenedhereyes.JustlikeIhad
imagined,theywereblue,buttheywereadarkbluesomyhopeswerefueledthattheywouldeventuallyturned
brown.
"Meneither,andthatshe'sfinallyhere,"Bellamumbled.
Dr.Housemancameuptousandsaid,"Amazing,huh?"BellaandIbothnoddedourheadsandsmiled."So,
Bella.Youstillwanttobreastfeed?"sheaskedandBellanoddedherheadagain."Okay.Someoneisgoingto
cometoyouinafewhoursandgoovereverythingregardingbreastfeeding,okay?"
"Okay,"Bellasaid.
"Well,okaythen.You'regoingtobeinhereforanotherthreeandahalfhoursforrecovery.I'llcomeandcheck
onyouinawhile."
Weboththankedherbeforeshewalkedout.ThenurseshookedBellaupondifferentmachinesaswecounted
ourdaughter'sfingersandtoesshewassimplyperfect.Bellabecametootiredafterawhile,soIgladlytook
Emilyandheldherinmyownarms.IsatdownbesideBellainherbedandwecontinuedtowatchandcoo
overEmily.Iaskedhercountlessoftimeshowshewasdoing,andshecontinuedtosayshewasfinesinceshe
hadbeengivenpainmedication,andthatshewasonlytired,butextremelyhappy.
Therewasaknockonthedoorandmyparentscameintoourroom,followedbyCharlie,Sueandourfriends.
"OhmyGod,"Momcriedandwentovertometolookathergranddaughter."She'ssobeautiful!"
Shemadeamovetograbherfrommyarms,soIgentlyhandedheroverandwenttojoinBellabythebed.
"Youdidgreat,son,"DadsaidandsmiledatEmily.
"Howareyoufeeling?"RoseaskedBella,bouncingLilyinherarms.
"Surprisinglygood,"Bellaansweredwithatiredsmile."Proud."
"Youshouldbeproud,"Alicesaid."Shereallyisgorgeous."
"Thankyou."
EveryonetooktheirturnstohaveEmilyintheirarms.IgotalittleworriedwhenitwasEmmett'sturnsincehe
wassobig,butthenrelaxedwhenIthoughtabouthisowndaughter.AlicekeptstealingglanceswithJasper
throughouttheentiretimeandIhadnodoubtinmymindaboutwhattheymeantshewantedababyofher
own.
ItendedwithCharlie.HeandSuestoodandcooedoverEmilywhenIsawtearscomingdownhischeeks.
"She'sperfect,Bells,"hesniffled."Edward,she'strulyamazing."
"Hey,don'tcry,Dad.You'regoingtomakemecry,too,"Bellasaid,herchinquivering.
"Sorry,Ican'thelpit."
"He'sbeenlikethisallday,"Suesaidwithasmileandafewtearsofherown.
IsawBella'seyelidsstarttodropafterawhileandIknewitwastimeforourfriendsandfamilytoleave.I
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promisedthattheycouldvisitassoonaswegotbackhomeagain.MomandDadweregoingtohelpus
tomorrow.CharlieandSuewouldalsobehereevenifCharliekeptinsistingthathedidn'twanttobeinthe
way,Icouldtellthathewantedtospendtimewithbothhisdaughterandgranddaughter.Bellamusthaveseen
it,too,andinsistedthatshewantedhimhere.
Awhilelateraftereveryonehadleft,amiddleagedwomanwithdarkbrownhairandglassescameintoour
room.
"Hi,I'mheretohelpyouwiththebreastfeeding,"sheexplained."MynameisElizabeth."
BellablushedasElizabethhelpedherwiththegowntorevealabreast.Ifounditstrangethatshewasstill
embarrassedbyshowingherbodywhenshejustanhouragohadhermostprivatepartsondisplay.Iknewmy
wifewasshy,somaybeitwasn'tsostrangeafterall.
IonceagainplacedEmilyinBella'sarmsothatshecouldfeed.Ittooksomeeffort,butmybabyeventuallygot
thehintandstartedsuckingonBella'sbreast.
"Doesithurt?"Iasked,thinkingaboutallthosetimesIhadtostopsuckingonhernipplesbecauseithurttoo
muchforher.
"Notreally,"Bellaanswered."Itjustfeelskindofweird.It'shardtoexplain."
"Atleastitdoesn'thurt,yet,"Isaid,strokingmybaby'shead.
Elizabethshowedushowtoburpherandtoldusafewusefulthingsbeforesheleftus.JustlikewithLily,Iwas
afraidtohitherbacktoohard,butElizabethassuredmethatitwasacommonthingtofeelandthatIshouldn't
worry.
Eventually,theyfinallywheeledBellaintoaprivateroom.Icouldtellthatshewasexhaustedandwantedto
sleep,butnowweweregoingtoshowoffourdaughtersowebothknewthatshehadtostayawakeforalittle
whilelonger.
HerprivateroomwasalotbrighterandhadaTV,butotherthanthat,itwasjustasboringastheotherone.
Bellawasalreadyoutwhentheylefttheroom,soIusedthattimetoenjoymydaughtersomemore.Shewas
sleeping,justlikehermother,butIcouldn'tstopstaringather.Irememberedthepacifierwehadbroughttothe
hospitalandwentovertothebagtoretrieveit.
Daddy'sLittleAngel.
Shetrulywas,soitwasafittingpacifier.Itlookedsobigtohersmallface,butsheseemedtoenjoyhavingitin
hermouth.MaybeitwaslikesuckingBella'sbreast,onlythatherbreasttastedbetterthanthepacifier.
AknockonthedoorsnappedmeoutofmylittlemomentandalsowokeBella.Itwasanursewhosmiledatus
andthenatthebaby.
"Hi,I'mAmber.Iwouldlikeyoutodosomethingforme,Bella,"shesaidandBellalookedalmostnervoussoI
wentovertoherafterputtingEmilyinthebassinet.
"What?"Bellaasked,takingmyhand.
"Standupandthenusethebathroom.It'ssothatyourdoctorknowsifyouneedtoputinatubetohelpyouor
not."ShelookedapologeticsosheprobablyknewthatBelladidn'twanttodoit.
"DoIhaveto?"
"Yeah,I'msorry.Justpresstheredbuttonwhenyou'redoneandI'llcomeheretoseehowitwent,okay?"
Bellanoddedreluctantly."Goodluckandtakeyourtime.There'snoneedtorushit."
AmberleftusaloneafterthatandBellasigheddeeply,rubbingherpalmsoverhertiredface.
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"Doyouwantmetocomewithyou?"Iaskedgently.
"No,Icandoit,"shesaid.
"Areyousure?"
"Yeah,youcanlookafterEmilyandI'lltellyouifIneedyouornot."
Eventhoughsheprotested,Ihelpedheroutofthebed.Ittooksometime,buteventuallyshereachedthe
bathroom.IinsistedthatsheleftitalittleopenedsoIcouldhearherifsheneededme.
Iheardhercryingandmutteringtoherself,butsinceshenevercalledforme,Ididn'tgotoher.Ittookalmostan
hourbeforeshecamebackouttotheroomandwhenIsawherface,Iknewithadn'tbeeneasy.
"Didithurt?"Iasked.
"Alittle,butIguessthepainmedsarestillworking.Itwasjusthardtogetittostart,"sheexplainedwitha
blush.
"Icouldhavehelpedyoukeepdistracted.Maybeitwouldhavemadeiteasier,"Imumbled.
"Ididn'twantyoutosittherewithourdaughterwatchingmepee,Edward."Shesighedandlooked
apologetically."Howisshe?"
ShecameuptomeandwatchedEmilyinherbassinet.Rightnow,shewasstaringatuswithwideeyes,butI
wasafraidthatshewouldstartfussingorsomethingifIpickedherup.
"Perfect,"ItoldBellaandkissedhercheek.
"That'sbecauseyou'reherfather,"Bellateased,huggingmywaist.
"No,shelooksjustlikehermother,"Isaidhonestly."Thankyou."
"Forwhat?"
"Forgivingmeadaughter.Forbeingmywife.Everything."
"Icouldn'thavedoneitwithoutyou,"shesaid,puckeringherlipssoIbentdownandgaveherapeck.
Bellastoodwithmeforalittlewhilebeforeitbecametoomuchforhersoshehadtoliebackdown.Icouldn't
holdbackanylongerandpickedupmylittlebabyinmyarmsandbouncedhergentlywhilewalkingaround
theroom.
ThenursecamebackonceBellahadpressedthebuttonandshetoldherindetailhowitwent.Sheblushed
whileshedidit,anditmademewishthatEmilywouldhaveherbeautifulblushaswell.
IstartedhummingtobothherandBellaafterthenurseleftandbeforeIknewit,bothmygirlswereasleep.
EmilyGraceCullen.
Themostpreciouslittlegirlthathadeverbeenbornandshewasallmine.Okay,IsharedherwithBella,but
still.
Icouldn'tbelievethatshewasfinallyhere.Wehadbeenwaitingforninelongmonthsforthis,butitstillfelt
surreal.Herchubbycheeks,hertinylittlewarmbodyandhercutelittlenosethatlookedjustlikehermommy's
itwasallreal.
IheldherclosetomychestasIsatintheuncomfortablearmchairbesideasleepingBella.Iwantedtoshare
thismomentwithher,butIknewshewasexhaustedfromthelongdayandgivingbirth.Besides,wehadour
wholelivestoenjoyourbeautifulandperfectdaughtertogether.
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Anursequietlyopenedthedoorandpeekedherheadinsidebeforesteppingovertous.
"Hi,"shewhispered."Ineedtotakeyourdaughtertothenurseryforthenight."
"Oh,"Isaidwithdisappointment.IhadjustgottenherandIdidn'twanttomissaminuteofherlife."Why?"
"Hospital'spolicy.I'msorry,butwe'lltakehertoyouwhensheneedstobefed."
"Okay,"Isaidreluctantlyandstoodup.
Ikissedmybabygirlonelasttimebeforecarefullyhandingherovertothenurse.SheputEmilyinthebassinet
andleftwithanotherpromisetobringherbacktousassoonassheneededus.Thenursehadbeenquietand
nice,butshedidmakeonemistakeclosethedooralittletoohard,causingBellatowakeup.
"Where'smybaby?"sheaskedtiredlyandlookedaroundtheroom.
"Theyjusttookhertothenursery,"Ianswered,sittingbackdowninthechairwhenIsawthelookofworryon
herface."They'llbringherbackassoonassheneedstoeatandbrightandearlyinthemorning."
"Oh,okay,"shesaid,noddingherheaddisappointingly."Atleastitwasn'tadreamthen."
"No,it'sdefinitelynotadream."Ismiled."Howareyoufeeling?"
"Sore,tired,happy,proudeverything.Couldyoupleaselaywithme?Ineedtofeelyourarmsaroundme,"
shewhisperedshyly.
"Yousure?"Iaskedandshenoddedherhead.
ThatwasallIneededbeforeIstoodup.Truthbetold,Iwantedherinmyarmsjustasmuch.Itfeltlikeages
sinceIhadherinmyarmseventhoughitwasonlyafewhours.Thiswasthemotherofmychildandshehad
therighttobeproud.Hell,IwassoproudIthoughtmychestwasgoingtofuckingexplode.
IwasbeingcarefulnottomakeanysuddenorbigmovementsasIsqueezedinbehindBella.Shetriedtomove,
butwincedasshedidso.ItoldherIwasokayandwrappedmyarmsaroundher,justthewayshewantedme
to.
"Whatdoesshelooklike?"Bellawhisperedafterawhile,playingwiththehospitalbandaroundmywrist.
"Thesameaswhenyoulastsawheranhourago.Maybealittlepaler.Shestilllooksjustlikehermother."
"Ithinkshelookedlikeyou.Hadhereyesturnedgreenyet?"
"Baby,"Ichuckled."Theydon'tchangethatquickandyouknowit.Besides,they'regoingtogetbrown.Ican
feelit."
"Iknow.Iwasjusthoping."ShesighedandIknewshewasstilltired."Andshe'sgoingtogetgreeneyes,
you'llsee."
Wecouldhavegoneonandonaboutthesubject,butIdecidedtoendtheconversationasBellayawned.I
huggedhertightertomychestanditwasn'tlongbeforeherbreathingevenedout.
"Iloveyou,"Iwhisperedandplacedakissonthetopofherheadbeforejoiningherinsleep.
EndNotes:
A/N:Didyouhaveanyfavoriteparts?
WhatcolordoyouwantEmily'seyestohave?
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:It'sFather'sDaytoday(atleasthereinSweden)andIthoughtwecouldcelebrate
withsomeDadward:)
QuoteinthelastchapterwasfromTheKillers.Ifyouhaven'tseenthatmovie,Ihighly
recommendyoutodoso.
"Really?Youwannapokemommabearrightnow?Doesthatsoundlikeagood
ideatoyou?"
ComingHome
BPOV
Todaywastheday.ThedaywhenEdwardandIweregoinghomewithourdaughtertostartournewlifefor
real.Atthehospital,youhadallthenursescomingandgoing,helpingyououtwithdifferentthings.Athome,
allyouhadwaseachother.Sure,EsmewouldstaywithusduringthefirstweekandCarlislewouldbestaying
forafewdays,butstill,ourliveswouldneverbethesameagain.
Thismorning,anursehadhelpedmeandEdwardtochangeEmily'sdiaper.ShewassotinyIwasafraidthat
shewouldbreak,butshewasatrooper.Although,thecryingwhilewechangedherbrokemyheart.
Ourparentswerealreadyatourhouse.TheyhadstoppedbylastnighttoseeEmily.Dadwantedtospendas
muchtimeaspossiblewithhisgranddaughtersincehewouldbegoinghometonight.Thatthoughtmademea
littlesad,buthewouldstillonlybefourhoursaway.
ThingswithMomwerealotdifferentthanwithDad.EdwardhadtakenapictureofmeandEmilythatIsentto
herandthenwetalkedforawhile.Icouldtellthatshewantedtomeetmybaby.
EdwardwasrightnowloadingallthegiftsandstuffinthecarwhileIgatheredupthelastofourthingsandgot
Emilyready.
Ilookeddownatmybeautifuldaughterinthecarseat.ShewaswearingtheonesiethatEdwardgottenfor
birthdayandblackpants,andhadthepacifierEdwardinsistedoninhermouth.WhatcouldIsay?Shewasa
daddy'sgirlrightfromwhenshewastinyasapea.
IplacedthemyoldblanketthatMomhadgivenmeoverEmily'stinybodysinceIdidn'twanthertogetcold.
"Iloveyou,"Isaid,kissingthetopofherhead."Areyoureadytogohome?"
"I'mreadytogohomefromthisfuckingplace,"Edwardmumbled."Everythingissetsowecanleavenowif
youwant."
Hehadbecomesickofthishospitalandwasprettywhineyaboutit.Iwonderedhowhewouldbeifhewasthe
onewhohadjustpushedoutahumanbeingthroughhisvaginaandthengetfivestitchesafterthat.
"Oh,don'tyoulookprettyfordaddy?"hecooedoncehesawEmily."Yes,youdo."
Whowouldn'tsmileatthat?
"Alright,let'sgohome,"Isaidwithachuckle.
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"Gladly."EdwardsighedhappilyandgrabbedEmilywhileItookthesmallduffelbagbeforesittingdownin
thewheelchair.
Thenurse,Amber,hadpracticallyforcedmeintoridinginthatthing.Itwassoembarrassing,butIknewI
neededit.Takingthelongwalkdownstairstotheparkinglotwouldnotbeaprettyonewithoutit,soIhad
relentedafterhearingherout.
"So,areyouguysexcitedtogohome?"Amberasked.
"Hellyes,"Edwardsaidexcitedly,makingAmberandmelaugh.
EventhoughIwasn'tafanofhimcursing,Ididn'twanttocallhimoutinfrontofAmber.Besides,hewashot
whenhecursed,soIwouldbeokaywithitwhenhewasn'tinfrontofEmily.
"Okay,goodluck,youtwo.We'llprobablyseemoreofeachotherinthefuture,"Ambersaidwhenwereached
thecar.
"Thankyousomuchforeverything,"ItoldhersincerelyasEdwardstrappedEmilyinthebackseatofthe
Volvo.
"Noworries.Ilovedeverymomentofit."
EdwardhelpedmestandupfromthewheelchairandheldmyhandasIclimbedupinthebackseatnextto
Emily.Sinceitwasherfirstcarride,IfeltsaferwithsittingnexttoherinsteadofsittinginfrontwithEdward.
Thecarwasfilledwithpinkballoonsandflowers.Eventhoughtheonlypersonstovisitwereourfriends,there
wasstillalotofstuff.
EmilywasstartingtofussabitwhenEdwardstartedthecar,soIplacedmyhandonherstomachandtriedto
calmherdownbeforeshestartedtocry.Ididn'twantthattohappen.
Edwardwasdrivingachinglyslow.IgotthathewantedtodriveslowersincewehadEmilyinthecar,but
drivingtenmilesperhourseemedalittlebittooslowifyouaskedme.
WhenItoldhimthatitwasokayforhimtospeedupalittle,allheansweredwas,"No,theseguyscanhonkall
theywant,Iain'tgoingfasterthantwelve.Itmighttakeusaroundthreehourstogethome,though."
Ilaughedathissillinessandturnedtomydaughter,saying,"Yourdaddyisalittleoverprotective.Youmight
wanttogetusedtoit."
"OfcourseIam,"Edwardscoffed."Ihavemytwomostpreciousgirlsinthebackseatofmycar.I'mnotgoing
toriskthat."
"Okay,"Isaidsmiling.
Emilyeventuallyfellasleep,holdingmyfingerinhertinyhand.AllIwantedtodowastoholdherinmyarms,
butthiswasagoodalternative.Shewassoprettyithurt,andontopofthat,shewasmine.Whowouldhave
thoughtthatIofallpeoplewouldbesittinghereinthissituation?Isureashelldidn't.
IalmostfellasleepalongwithEmily,butjustasIwasabouttodozeoff,Edwardfinallypulledintoour
driveway.EsmeandCarlislecarwasalreadytherealongwithSue'scarwhichmeantthatEmily'sgrandparents
wereallhere,exceptmymom.
EdwardgotoutjustasEsmewalkeddownthefrontstair.Icouldseethatshewaseager,butEdwardstopped
herfromopeningthecardoor.ItlookedlikehewastellingherthatEmilywasasleepandEsmeseemedtoget
theidea.
Everthegentleman,EdwardopenedthedoorformeandheldmyhandasIcarefullygotout.
"Doyouthinkyou'reabletowalkupthesteps?"heasked.
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"Yeah,Ithinkso."Inoddedmyhead.
"Okay,"hesaidandbentinsidethecartounfastenEmily'scarseat.Shewasstillasleepandthatmademehope
shehadinheritedherfather'sabilitytobeaheavysleeper.
"Welcomehome,Bella,"Esmesaidandcarefullyhuggedme.
"Thankyou."
"Don'tworryaboutallthestuff.MeandCarlislecantakecareofthatwhileyougoinside."
"You'resure,Mom?"Edwardasked,grabbingthediaperbag.
"Ofcourse."
Withthat,meandEdwardslowlystartedtowalkupthestepstothefrontdoor.Iwasn'tinmuchpainsinceI
hadbeengivenpainmeds,butIcouldfeelthestitchesdownthereanditwasstretchingprettyuncomfortableas
Iwalked.Edwardwaspatient,though,anddidn'tpushmetowalkfaster.
"Where'smygranddaughter?"IheardDadaskedeagerlyasEdwardsteppedinside.
"She'ssleeping,Dad,"Itoldhim.
"Oh,"hesaiddisappointed.
"Letthegirlgethersleep,Charlie,"Suesaidwithachuckle."She'sreadyforyouassoonasshewakesup."
"Iguessyou'reright,"mydadsaidwithanod."So,Bells,howareyoufeeling?"
"I'mokay."
"YouknowI'msodamnproudofyou,right?"heaskedseriouslyandwalkedovertome,givingmeahug.
"Thankyou,"Iwhispered,wrappingmyarmsaroundhimandinhaledhisscent.
HereleasedmeandIsoonfoundmyselfwrappedinSue'sarmsaswell.
"Youdidgreat,honey,"shesaid.
"Thankyou,"Isaidonceagainandhuggedherback.
Esmesteppedinsidewithballoonsinbothhandsaswellassomeflowers.ShecalledforCarlislewhostood
hunchedoverEmilywithasmileonhisface.Heseemedreluctanttoleavehersidetohelphiswifeatfirst,but
finallyrelentedandwalkedoutsidetoretrievesomeofthegifts.
EdwardcarriedEmilyintothekitchenandputheronthecounter,soIfollowedhim.
"Nowwhat?"Iasked,lookingdownatoursleepingdaughterandwrappedoneofmyarmsaroundEdward's
waist.
"IIhavenoidea,"Edwardansweredwithasigh,dragginghisfingersthroughhishair.
Atfirst,itmademesmileathowcluelesswewere,butthatquicklyturnedintotears.WhatkindofmotherwasI
whodidn'tevenknowhowtotakecareofherdaughter?WhatifIwasn'tenough?Whatifshewouldgrowup
hatingme?
OhmyGod.
"Bella,what'swrong?"Edwardaskedworriedly,cradlingmyfaceinhisbighands.
"WhawhatifI'mnotgoodenough?"Isobbed.
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"Shh,you'remorethanenough,Bella.Wejustgothere.It'sokaytofeelclueless.That'swhywehavehelp,
okay?You,we,arenotaloneinthis,"hesoothed.
"Hey,what'swrong?"EsmeaskedasshewalkedintothekitchenjustasEmilywokeupcrying.
"It'sjustoverwhelming,Iguess,"Edwardexplained.
"Oh,honey.It'snormaltofeellikethat,butdon'tworry,itwilldisappearintime,"Esmesaidinasoftvoice.
"Doyouwantmetolookafterherwhileyouguysfreshenupabit?"
"Ishouldprobablyfeedherfirst,"Isniffled,tryingtowipemytearsawaybeforeunfastenmycryingbaby'sseat
belt.
HerpacifierwaslonggonefromhermouthandassoonasIheldhertomychest,shestartednuzzlingagainstit.
Ihadlearnedfromoneofthenursesthatitwasawayforhertolookforfoodandformetoknowifshewas
hungry.Apparently,shewashungrynow.
"I'llcomewithyou,"Edwardsaid.HealwaysfounditfascinatingtowatchmefeedEmily.Atfirst,Ihadfelta
littleuncomfortableunderhisstare,butIwasalreadyusedtoit."I'llbringherdownstairsafterward,Mom."
"Okay,sweetie.Letmeknowifyouneedanyhelp."
"Wewill,"hepromisedandkissedhercheek.
IhandedhimEmilysinceIdidn'tfeelanywherenearcomfortabletocarryherupstairsyet.Notwhenitwasso
hardtowalkupthefewfrontstepsearlier.
"Shh,it'sokay,baby,"EdwardcooedashestartedwalkingandpattedEmily'ssmallbackgently."Mommy's
goingtofeedyouinasecond."
IalwayssmiledasIwatchedhiminteractwithEmily,eventhoughshewascryingherlungsoutatthispoint.It
wassomuchmoreintensetowatchhimwithhisowndaughterthanwithLily.
TheclimbupthestairstookafewminutesandforawhileIwonderedwhywewentupstairsinthefirstplace,
butthenrememberedthattheshowerwereupheresowewouldhavegoneupstairsanyway.
EdwardledusintothenurseryandIsatdowninthebigarmchair.HecarefullyplacedEmilyinmyarmsafterI
hadgottenmyboobsout.IalwaysfeltsoexposedwhilefeedingherandIcouldn'tforthelifeofmeunderstand
howwomencoulddothisinpublic.
Emilygreedilylatchedontomyrightnippleandimmediatelystartedtosuckasherlifedependedonit.
"Iwonderwhatittasteslike,"Edwardsaidthoughtfully.
Thatmademewonderifthatwashimsilentlyaskingmeifhecouldtryitanditkindofcaughtmebysurprise.
"Yeah,"Iansweredwarily,buthedidn'tsayanythingelseandthatmademerelieved.
WecontinuedtowatchEmilyeatandeventuallyIhadtomovehertomyotherboob.Imadesurethather
mouthcoveredeverythinglikeElizabethatthehospitalhadtaughtus.Itsurelookedmuchforthatlittlemouth,
butshedidit.
Emilysloweddownforasecondanditalmostlookedlikeshehadfallenasleep.Inudgedhergentlytoseeif
shewantedtocontinueorifshewasready.Shewokeupfromthemovementandstartedsuckingagainandthe
roomwasfilledwithhersucklingandEdwardchuckling.
"Icanburpherandthenbringherdownstairsifyouwant?"EdwardsaidgentlywhenEmilywassatisfied.
"Sure,"Isaidwithanod.
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Evenifitwasjustforanhourorso,Istillhadahardtimelettingmybabygo.Ithadbeenthesameatthe
hospitalwhentheytookherawayforthenight.Ihadbeensousedtofeelingherinsideme,andnow,Ijustfelt
emptyandthatfeelinggotmoreintensewhenevershewasawayfromme.
Atthesametime,Ineededtogetalongandniceshower.Ihadtakenoneyesterday,butitdidn'tleavemefully
satisfiedandthismorning,IhadputitoffsinceIwaseagertogohome.
So,IhandedEmilyovertohimandhegrabbedaclothandplaceditonhisshoulderbeforepattingEmilyon
herback.
"I'llberightback,"hesaidandgavemeachastekiss.
"Okay,"Iwhisperedashelefttheroom.
Afteraminuteorso,Ifinallygotbacktorealityandtuckedmyboobsinbeforecarefullystandingup.Islowly
walkedtoourbedroomandthebathroom,carefulnottotaketoolongstrides,afraidthatitwouldtearupthe
stitches.
Igrabbedapairofyogapants,atshirtandoneofEdward'shoodiesbeforesteppinginsidethebathroom.I
startedthewaterwhileIgotundressed.IwasstillbleedingandithadbeensolongsinceIlasthadmyperiod
thatitmademefeeldirtysomehow.
AsIwaitedforthewatertoheatup,Ilookedmyselfinthemirrorforthefirsttimeindays.
Istilllookedpregnant.Maybenotninemonthspregnant,butstill.Mybellywasstillroundandmyboobswere
hugeandsowasmyass.
"Youlookbeautiful,Bella,"Edwardsaidfromthedoorway,causingmetojumpinsurprise.Ihadn'theardhim
comein.
"I"Istartedhesitantly,unsurewhatIwasgoingtosayinthefirstplace.
"Youjusthadababy.Thingswon'tgobacktonormalthedayafter,butyou'restillthemostbeautifulwomanin
myworld,"hesaid,steppingforwardandembracedme."Andthosetitslooksabsolutelyperfectrightnow."
Thatmademegigglelightly."Thankyou,butwhatifthey'llbecomeallbaggyandshitafterI'mdone
breastfeeding?"
"Thenwe'llmakeanewbaby,"Edwardjoked,oratleastIthoughthedid.
"You'rejoking,right?"Iasked,lookingupathim.
Iprobablywouldwantanotherbabysomeday,butafterjusthavingone,anewonewasdefinitelynotonmy
mindatthispoint.IalsoknewthatIwouldn'tbereadysosoon.
"Maybe,"hesaidcrypticallyandhisfacewasimpossibleformetoreadsoIhadnoidea."Besides,Ihighly
doubtthatyourtitswillbecomebaggy.You'reyoungandfirmsotheyshouldgobacktonormal."
"I'myoungandfirm?"Iteased.
"Yes."Hechuckledandsteppedawayfrommetoremovehistshirt.
"You'reshoweringwithme?"
"Yeah.Well,ifyoudon'tmindthatis?"
"No,Idon'tmind,"Isaidsmiling.
"Good,becauseIhadn'ttakenanoforananswer."Hesmirkedandcontinuedtoremovehisclothes.
Eventhoughsexwasthefurthestonmymindrightnow,IstilllongedforEdward.Ifeltsomespecialneed
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whenhestoodinfrontofmeinallhisnakedglory.
"Hey,myfaceisuphere,youknow,"Edwardsaidinanamusedvoice,snappinghisfingersinfrontofme.
Itwasn'tuntilthenthatIrealizedIhadbeenoglinghimandmycheeksburnedfromembarrassmentaftergetting
caught.
"Sorry,"Imumbledandturnedaround,steppinginsidetheshower.
"Noneedtoapologize,baby.It'skindofflattering,"EdwardsaidandIcouldhearthesmirkinhisvoice.
"Whatever,"Imutteredandteasinglyrolledmyeyesathim.
Edwardinsistedonhelpingmegettingcleaned.Iwashesitantatfirst,notwantinghimtotouchmeinthatway
yetsinceIwasallloseandmystomachwasbaggy,butheshotmealookthatshutmeup.
Hewasgentleashecleanedme.Hehadalwayspreferredtousehishandsinsteadofasponge,andtobe
honest,Ilovedthat.Hishandsweren'tasroughasaspongeandtheyfeltgoodashedraggedthemacrossmy
body.
"Howareyoufeelingdownthere?"heaskedinacurioustone,probablyrefraininghimselffromsayinga
dirtyword.
Iblushedatthequestion.Wehadn'treallydiscussedthat,apartfromthestitches.Heknewaboutthose.
"Um,uncomfortable,butI'mnotinpain,"IexplainedandhelookedconfusedsoIexplainedfurther,"Icanfeel
thestitchesstretchsometimesandmyvaginafeelsswollen.It'shardtoexplain."
"Oh,okay.Well,that'sgoodconsideringyoujustpushedababythroughthere,"hesaid.
Igiggled."Yeah,Ihadimaginedittobemuchworse,butIguessthepainmedshelpsalot."
Wecontinuedtocleaneachother.Asusual,Edwardhadtobenddownformetobeabletowashhishair.He
didn'tseemtomind,though,andneitherdidI.Ilovedhishairandrunningmyfingersthroughit.
IfeltfresherthanIhadindaysafterthatshower,andthatmademefeelalotbetter.
Aswewalkedbackdownthesteps,Icouldhearmorevoicesintheroomourfriendshadarrivedwhich
meantthehousewasfilledwithpeoplegushingaboutmydaughter.Iwasexhausted,butdecidedtoputona
goodface.IrememberedhowitwaswhenLilywasbornIneverwantedtoleaveher.
"Hi,Bells,"Emmettsaidashesawme.HehadEmilyinhisbigarms.Shelookedsodamntiny.
Emmettmusthavespentsometimewithmydadbecausehewastheonlyone,besidesJakeandSamwho
calledmethat.Itwasn'tanicknameIenjoyed,butIdidn'texactlyhateiteither.
"Hi."Ismiled.
"We'resorrytojustshowuplikethis,butwecouldn'tstayaway,"Rosesaidapologeticallyandstepped
forwardtogivemeahug.
"It'sokay.IknowhowitwaswithLily,"Isaid.
"She'ssotiny,"AlicesaidinaweasshewatchedEmmettandEmily.
"Trustme,she'llgetbiggerbeforeyouknowit,"RosesaidknowinglyandbothSueandEsmenoddedin
agreement.
EmmetthandedEmilyovertoJasper'swaitingarms.Iwasn'tafoolandcouldseethelonginginhiseyesashe
heldher.Itmademesmileoverthefactthatmaybetheywouldhaveababyoftheirownsoon.IfIknewAlice
right,allthesebabieswouldmakeherwantoneofherown.
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"CanIgetyouanything?"Iasked,feelinglikeIneededtooffermyguestssomething.
"No,justsitdownandrelax,sweetie,"Esmesaid.
IdidasshetoldandsatdownonEdward'slapsincetherewasn'tmuchroomformetositonthecouch.
Edwardseemedhappy,though,andabsentmindedlystrokedmythighsaswewatchedourdaughterbeing
handedoverfromonepairofarmstoanotheraseveryonekeptgushingabouther.Tomyuttersurprise,she
cooperatedandonlyfussedafewtimes,butnevercried.ItmademerelaxandleanbackagainstEdward'schest.
"Iloveyou,"Iwhisperedtohim,playingwithhisfingers.
"Iloveyou,too,"hesaidback,kissingthesideofmyneck.
Iwatchedasmyfather'seyesgleamedwithexcitementwhenheheldEmilyinhisarms.Thepacifierwasstillin
hermouthandIcouldtellbyitsmovementsthatshewassuckingonitintenselyasshestaredupather
grandfather.
"Aww,you'resuchacutie,aren'tyou?"hecooed."Ihaveafeelingyou'regoingtolookjustasyourmother."
"That'swhatIkeeptellingher,"Edwardsaidfrombehindme.
"Shewillnot,"Iargued,smirkingatEdward."She'lllookjustlikeherdaddy."
"Withthishair?"Dadasked,gesturingtowardEmily'sbrownhairandInodded.Haircolorcouldchange,just
ashereyecolorwouldeventually."No,that'sallyou,Bells."
"ButIwanthertolooklikeEdward,"IwhinedsoftlyandEdwardandtherestchuckled.
"I'mseeingEdwardinheraswell,honey,"Esmesaid."Thoselipsandnose,theylookjustlikehisdidwhenhe
wasababy."
"See?She'sgoingtolooklikeEdward,"Istated.
"Withyoureyesandhair,"Edwardwhispered.
"She'sgoingtohavegreeneyes.Ijustknowitanddon'tyoudareargueaboutit."
Everyonekeptguessingwhoshewouldgrowuptolooklike.Iwasstillafirmbelieverthatshewouldlooklike
Edward.
IheldLilyforafewminutesasRoseandEmmettwerebusywithEmily.ShewassobigcomparedtoEmily
andIhadthoughtshewasthetiniestthingintheworldbefore.HowwrongIhadbeen.Although,shewassix
monthsoldalreadysothatmightexplainalot.
"Weshouldprobablygetgoing,Bells,"Dadsaidandstoodup.
AwaveofdisappointmenthitmeasIrealizeditwouldbeawhilebeforeIsawhimagain.
"Okay,"IsaidandstoodupaswelltofollowhimandSuetothedoor.
IhandedLilytoEdwardandfollowedthem.
"Hey,don'tlooksosad,"hesaidgentlyaswereachedthehallway."Forksisonlyfourhouraway."
"Iknow.I'mjustgoingtomissyou,Dad,"Isniffled.
"YouknowI'llmissyou,too.You,EdwardandEmilyarealwayswelcomeandI'llmakesuretotakea
weekendofftocomeseeyou,okay?"
"Okay,"Iwhisperedaswehuggedeachother.
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"Thankyousomuchforsharingthiswithus,Bella,"Suesaid.
"Thankyouforbeinghere."
EdwardcameandsaidgoodbyeandbeforeIknewit,DadandSueweregone.Ihadnevermissedmydadas
muchasIdidatthatmoment.
"You'llseehimagainsoon,baby,"Edwardsoothed,huggingmebeforewewalkedbacktoourfriends.
"Iknow,"Imumbled.
AfterIsatdown,IwatchedasAliceheldmylittlegirl.Whatsurprisedmethemostwasthefactthatshelooked
sad.Whywasshesad?Wastheresomethingwrongwithmybaby?Themerethoughtbroughttearsinmyeyes.
"Areyouokay,baby?"Edwardwhisperedinmyear,placingakissonmytemple.
Itookadeepbreath,tryingtoholdthedamntearsback."Yeah,um,Ishouldgofeedher."
Ihatedthesehormones.IhadfiguredthattheywoulddisappearassoonasEmilywasout,butno,theywere
stillhereandtheydrovemeinsane.ImighthaveimaginedAlice'ssadlookanditwasallthehormoneswork,
butinmyeyes,shedidlooksad.
"Areyousure?"EdwardaskedandIknewhedidn'tbuymyact.
"Later,okay?"Ipleadedandhenoddedreluctantly.
"Doyouwantmetocomewithyou?"
"Youshouldstaywithourfriends.I'llberightback,Ipromise,"Isaid,standingup.
IwalkedovertoAliceandsmiledapologeticallyasItoldheritwastimetofeedEmily.Alicesighedandkissed
thetopofEmily'sheadbeforehandingherovertomywaitingarms.AssoonasIfeltEmily'stinybody,I
almostlostitsoIhurriedoutoftheroomandupthestairsbeforesomeonesaw.Ididn'tcareaboutthe
uncomfortablefeelingbetweenmylegsthistime,Ijustwantedtoescape.
Isatdowninthebigarmchairinthenursery.AssoonasEmilyhadlatchedontomybreastandthesuckling
noisesfilledtheroom,Ifeltcalm.IwasnolongerintearsoverAlice'sexpression.Mybabywasperfect.There
wasnothingwrongwithherwhatsoever.TherewasjustsomethingwrongwithAlice,andIneededtofindout
whatitwas.
"Iloveyousomuch,"Iwhispered,strokingmybaby'schubbycheekasshefed.
IfinishedfeedingherandtuckedmyselfinwhenIwasdonebeforeplacingheronmyshouldertoburpher.
WhenIheardtheburp,Ismiled.Itwasawonderhowsuchatinybodycanmusterupsuchanoise.I
contemplatedwhetherornottoputherinthebed.Shehadyettosleepinit,butIwassureofthatmyfriends
wantedsomemoretimewithher,soIwalkedbackdownstairswithher.
"There'smybaby!"EdwardexclaimedashesawmeandreachedouthisarmsforEmily.
Igiggledandhandedherovertohim."Shejustatesoshe'llprobablybeoutlikethelightsoon."
ThatwasoneofthethingsIhadlearnedoverthelasttwodaysassoonasshewasburped,hereyelidsstarted
todropbeforeshefinallyfellasleep.HerlyingonEdward'schestwouldprobablybespeedingthingsup.
"Where'sherpacifier?"EdwardaskedafterhehadplacedEmilyinamorecomfortableposition.
"Oh,here,"Isaid,grabbingthepacifierfromthepocketofmyhoodiewhereIhadputitwhenIfedherearlier.
"Ijustdon'tgetwhyyoukeepinsistingthatsheuseit."
IsatdownbesidehimandwatchedasheputthepacifierinhismouthtocleanitbeforegivingittoEmily.That
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wassomethingEsmehadtaughtussinceiteasilygotbacteriaandshitonit.
"Shelikesit,"hesaidsimply.
"Ifyousayso,"IsmiledandstrokedEmily'sheadbeforekissingEdwardonhischeek.
"It'sgettingprettylateandweneedtogetLilyhome,"Rosesaidapologetically,seemingreluctant.Ihadtotally
forgottenaboutthemandthatmademefeelguiltyforignoringthem.
Ifeltbadforfeelingrelivedthatitwasfinallytimeforourfriendstoleave.Ijustfeltsoexhaustedand
overwhelmedrightnow,andhavingguestsoverwhowantedtoseeEmilyonlymadeitworse.Nomatterhow
muchIlovedthem,Iwishedthattheywouldgiveusafewdaystoadjustbeforecomingoveragain.
"It'sokay,"Ifinallysaidwithasmileandstooduptofollowthemout.
"Yeah,weshouldprobablyheadhomeaswell,"Alicesaid,notlookingsadanymore,butnottrulyhappy
either.
"Well,thankyouforstoppingby,"Isaid.
"Thankyouforhavingus.Iloveyou,"Rosesaid,givingmeakissonthecheek."Andthatdaughterofyoursis
pureperfection."
"Justlikemysweetlittlegoddaughter,"Isaid,strokingLily'sdarkbrownhair.
Afterafewhoursofputtingawayallthegifts,feeding,changingdiaperafterdiaperandthenfeedingagain,
Edwardhadtoruntothestoretogetsomemorediapers.Wehadn'tboughtthatmany,onlyenoughtolastfora
dayortwo,sowewerealreadyrunningout.ItwasthefirsttimesinceIhadgivenbirththatIwouldbewithout
himandthatterrifiedme.
"Baby,it'llbeokay,"heassuredme."I'llbebackinthirtyminutestops,Ipromise."
"Okay,"Isniffled."I'msorry."
"Forwhat?"heaskedconfused.
"Foractinglikeabigbaby."
"Iwouldbetawholelotofmoneythatit'smostlythehormones,butIforgiveyou,"hesaidwithachuckle.
Iwasfairlysurethatitwasn'tthehormones.IjustwantedhimnearmeandImissedhimeverytimehewalked
outfromtheroom.Iwaspathetic.
WhenEdwardleftafterafewkissesandgoodbyes,EsmecameoverwithEmilyinherarms,sayingthatwe
shouldgiveherabath.IwantedtowaitforEdwardsinceIdefinitelydidn'twanttodothatonmyownandfor
himtomissoutonit.SheassuredmethatshewouldbetheretohelpandthatEdwardhadalreadydoneitatthe
hospital.IfeltstupidforforgettingthatsinceIrememberhowproudandhappyhehadbeenwhenhecame
backtomeafterdoingthat.
Wehadboughtasmallpinkplasticbathtubthatwasmadeforbabies.Itprovedtocomeinhandy.NotthatI
hadn'texpecteditnottowhenIboughtit,butstill.
"Okay,youneedtoundressher,"Esmeinstructed."I'llfixthewaterwhileyoudothat."
Sheturnedaroundtothebathtub,leavingmewithEmilywhowashappilysuckingonherpacifier.Ismiledat
herandcarefullystartedremovinghertinylittleclothes.IwasstillafraidthatIwouldbreaksomething,butall
shedidwasfussalittlesoIfiguredIhadn'tharmedher.
Idisposedherdiaper,noticingthatshehaddonenumbertwo,soIcleanedherupbeforeliftingherup.
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"Okay,nowforthebathing,"EsmesaidwithasmilewhenshesawthatEmilywasundressedandready."Just
carefullyplaceherinthewaterandsupportherneckbeforelyingherdowncompletely."
IwasgratefulforEsmeatthismomentbecausetherewasnowayIwouldhavebeenabletodothisonmyown.
AssoonasEmily'slittlefeethitthewater,shestartedwailing,andIwassureofthatIhaddonesomething
wrong,butEsmetoldmetoplaceherinthewatersoIdid.
"OhmyGod,shehatesme,"Isaid,utterlyhorrifiedasEmily'sheartbreakingcriesfilledthebathroom.
"No,shedoesn't,honey.Shejustdoesn'tliketobath.That'sall.Edwardwasthesame,"Esmeassuredme.
"You'resure?"Iaskedhesitantly.
"Completely.Now,let'sfinishherupandputherinapajamas."
"IwishEdwardwashereforthis,"Imumbled.
"Hewillbeherethenexttime."
WefinallyfinishedbathingherandIdressedherinacutelittlepajamas.Bythen,EdwardwasbackandEsme
decidedtoretirefortheday.BothsheandCarlislesaidgoodnightbeforeleavingusalone.
Ifedandburpedheraftergettingreadyforthenight.EdwardwastakingashowerandgotreadywhileI
cuddledwithheronourbed.IswearIcouldseeasmallgreenspotinherrighteye.IleanedinclosertoseeifI
couldgetabetterview.
IsmiledatwhatIsawandgaveEmilyabigsloppykissonherchubbycheek."Mommylovesyouandyou're
goingtobesuchacutielikeyourdaddy."
"Edward,comelook!"Iyelledandhealmostranoutfromthebathroom.
"What'swrong?"heaskedpanicking.
"Nothing'swrong,"Isaidwithachuckle."Justlookathereyes.They'returninggreen."
HelaughedandwalkedclosertothebedwhereEmilywaslying,buthereyeswerehalfclosednow.
"Comeon,openyoureyesfordaddy,"Edwardcoaxedandrubbedherstomach.
Ittookawhile,buteventuallyshedidopenthemandEdwardlaughedharderthanhehadearlier.
"Baby,they'restillthesame.YouandIbothknowthatitwon'tchangeforawhile."
"No,IknowwhatIsaw,"Iwhined."Therewasagreenspotinherrighteye,nexttothepupil.Ipromise."
"Well,thenitmusthaveleftthenbecauseitsureashellisn'ttherenow,"Edwardsaid,chucklingandwentback
tothebathroom.
"Don'tlistentohim,baby.Youhadsomegreeninyoureyes,"IassuredEmily.
IkeptcuddlingwithEmilyuntilEdwardemergedfromthebathroomandtookherintohisarms.Wehad
broughthercribinheretomakethingseasier.Onceshewasusedtousandherenvironmentandsleptthough
mostofthenight,wewouldmoveitbacktothenursery.
IwatchedfromthebedasEdwardbouncedEmilytosleep.Asusual,itdidn'ttakeverylongsinceshehadjust
eaten.Helaidherdowninherbedandwalkedovertome,slippingunderneaththethickcovers.
"Areyougoingtotellmewhatwaswrongearlier?"hewhispered,tuckingsstrandofhairbehindmyear.
Iclosedmyeyesandtookadeepbreathbeforeanswering,"ItwasjustAliceshelookedsosadwhileshe
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heldEmilyinherarms."
"Shedid?"heaskedsurprisedandInoddedinconfirmation."Doyouknowwhy?"
"No,"Iwhispered."Butitmademesadtothinkthatshewasn'thappyaboutEmily.Youseriouslydidn't
notice?"
"No.IguessIwastooworriedaboutlettingmyeyesoffourdaughter.Seeingherbeinghandedoverfromone
pairofarmstoanotherreallyfreaksmeout."
"Me,too."Ismiledslightly."Butweshouldgetusedtoit."
"Iknow,butthatdoesn'tmeanIhavetolikeit."
Inoddedmyheadandsighed."Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,"hesaidbackandkissedmesoftlybeforepullingback."And,baby?"
"Hm?"
"Don'tworryaboutAlice.I'msureshe'lltellyouwhat'sonhermindwhenshe'sready."
"I'lltry,"Ipromisedandclosedmyeyes,tiredafterthelongday.
Edwardhuggedmetightertohischestandpressedakissonmyforehead.Itdidn'ttakelongbeforesleep
overtookme.
Thatdidn'tlastlong,though.Emily'scrieswokemeuponlytwohourslater.Edwardgroanedandsnuggled
furtherintome,makingitharderformetogetup.Ihadlearnedoverthedaythatthiscrywasherhungryone,
soIreallyneededtogetup.
"Edward,letgo,"Iwhispered,nudginghimslightly.
HestirredandrolledoveronhisothersidesoIcouldgetup.
Eventhoughtheroomwasprettydark,IcouldseethatEmily'sfacewasredfromcryingandherpacifierwas
throwntotheside.So,Iquicklygotaholdofherandwalkedbacktothebed.
Assoonasmybreastwasexposed,shelatchedonandIleanedbackagainstmypillows,enjoyingthequiet.
Edwardrolledback,facingusandscootedcloserbeforeembracingbothmeandEmily.
"Youshouldstartpumping,"hemumbledsleepily.
WehadalreadyhadafewargumentsaboutthatandIhadstartedgivingin.Itwasn'tlikeIdidn'tknowitwasa
greatideasinceEdwardcouldfeedheraswellifIdid.ItwasjustthatitwouldtakeawaytheonethingonlyI
coulddo.Itwaslikeaspecialbondbetweenmeandmydaughter.Atthesametime,Ifeltselfishforeven
thinkinglikethat.
"Iknow,"Iwhispered,movingEmilytomyotherbreast."Butwedon'thaveapumpyet."
"Wecanbuyone,"hesaideagerly.
"Yeah."
"I'mnottryingtobemean,baby,"hesaidwithasigh."It'sjustthatIknowyouwon'talwayshavetheenergy
togetupduringthenight,ortheday.Ijustwanttohelp."
ThiswaswhyIlovedhim.Hewassosweet,andIknewhewantedtohelp,butitwasstillhardtogivein.
"Iknowyoudo,Edward.We'llgoandbuyonetomorrow,okay?"Iwhisperedsoftly.
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"Okay."Henoddedhisheadandplacedakissonmyshoulder."Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,"ItoldhimjustasEmilyhadfinishedeating.
Itwasstilluncomfortable,butIknewthatallthosemonthsofEdwardgettingmynipplesusedtoithadhelped.
Ididn'tevenwanttoimaginehowmuchitwouldhurtifhehadn'tdonethat.
"Here,Icanburpher,"heoffered,reachingouthisarmsforEmily.
Igavehertohimandstuffedmyboobsbackintothesportsbrabeforescootingdowntoalyingpositionagain.
IwasexhaustedasIwatchedEdwardburpEmily.Icouldhavegonebacktosleepassoonasmyheadhitthe
pillow,butIwantedtofallasleepwithEdward'sarmsaroundmeandmydaughtersoundasleep.
AsoftburpsoundedintheroomandEdwardsaying,"Goodgirl."
Heputherbackdowninherbedandwalkedovertome.Iinstantlyturnedoverandburiedmyfaceinhischest,
inhalinghismanlyscent.Hewrappedhisarmsaroundmeandkissedthetopofmyhead.Iwasoutlikethelight
afterthat.
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A/N:So,anyguessesonwhatcouldbewrongwithAlice?
Iknowthatmystoryhasbeenflufflylately,butitwon'tbethatforever.It'snotgoingto
getsuperangstyeither,butnotalwayshappygoluckyeither.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Iwanttoapologizeinadvancebecausethischapterisabout23pagesshorter
thannormal...
Anyway,quoteinthelastchapterwasfromthemovieKnockedUp:
"No,theseguyscanhonkalltheywant,Iain'tgoingfasterthantwelve.Itmight
takeusaroundthreehourstogethome,though."
Newquoteinthisone.It'sstartingtogetharderandhardertofindnewones,soI
appreciateanysuggestions:)
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IthadalreadybeenaweeksinceEmilywasborn.Thatweekhadfuckinggonebyintheblinkofaneye.My
daughterwasofficiallyoneweekoldanditfeltlikeshewouldbesixteenanddatinganymoment.Iwouldn't
allowthat,though.IwouldhavetohaveatalkwithBellawhenIgothome.Ourdaughterwouldn'tbedating
untilshewasforty,orlater.
"Thankyoufordoingthis,"ItoldRose."Iwould'veaskedMom,butthatwouldmeanleavingBellaallalone
withthebaby."
Rosehadagreedtogobreastpumpshoppingwithmetoday.Itwasafuckingjungle,soIhadtocallherand
pickherup.
"It'sokay,Edward.Ireallydon'tmind,"sheassuredmeasshepushedLilyinthestrollerdowntheaisle.
Somethingaboutlastnightthathadworriedmepoppedupinmymind."Hey,doyoumindifIaskyou
something?"
"Sure,goahead,"sheanswered.
"Doyouknowwhat'swrongwithAlice?ShemadeBellaallfuckingsadlastnight."
"No,butIdon'tthinkit'ssohardtoguess,though,"shesaidandIlookedatherinconfusion."MeandEmmett
hadLilysixmonthsago,youandBellajustgotEmily.ThenwehaveJakeandLeah,evenifmeandAlice
don'tknowthemverywell.Wouldn'tyoufeeljustalittleleftoutifyouwereinhersituation?"
Wow,I'veneverlookedatitthatway.
"Idon'tknow,"Iansweredtruthfully.Imean,IwasoverthemoontohaveEmily,butIalwaysknewBellaand
Iwouldhaveababysoonerorlater.
"Yeah,well,Ican'tknowforsure,butIthinkthat'swhatkeepingherdown.Don'tworry,though,she'slikethat
withLilytooandI'msureshe'llsnapoutofitsoon."
"IhopesobecauseitreallygottoBellaandIhateseeingherlikethat,"Imumbled.
"Iknowyoudo,butweneedtogiveAlicesometime,okay?"shesaidjustasweapparentlyreachedwhatwe
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werelookingfor."Here."ShegavemetheboxandsinceItrustedher,wewalkedtothecheckout.
IdroppedheroffatherhousebeforeIdrovebackhome.Ihadonlybeengoneforanhour,butImissedmy
girlslikecrazy.ItmademewonderhowthehellIcouldgobacktowork.
WhenIwalkedthroughthedoor,IsawMombouncingEmilyinherarms.MeandBellawasn'ttheonlyone
wholovedourbabytodeath.EmilyhadmyMomtwirledaroundhertinylittlefingeralready.Ihadafeeling
thatmybabywouldbecompletelyspoiledgrowingup,butIwouldcontributetothateveryfuckingdayaslong
asIlive.
Elsacamerunningstraightforme,andIhadtolaughather.ItwasalmostlikeshewasjealousofEmilyfor
gettingsomuchattentionthatshealwaysseemedtocompetetogettousbeforeEmilydid.
Ibentdowntogreethersoshewouldn'tfeelneglectedbecauseshewasn't.Shejusthadtosharetheattention
fromnowon.Thatdidn'tmeanwedidn'tloveher.Otherthanthat,shehadtakenEmilyprettywell,butElsa
hadalwaysbeenacalmdogexceptforwhenshe'sreallyexcitedoreager.
"Look,"Momgushedwhenshesawme."Daddy'shome."
Ismiledabigfuckingsmileandwalkedovertothem.Ikissedmybabygirl'sheadandshesquirmedundermy
touch,butcalmeddownagaininmymom'sarms.
"Where'sBella?"IaskedsineIhadn'tseenher.
"She'supstairstakinganap.ShejustfedEmilyifyouwantsomesleepaswell.It'smylastdaytospendwith
mybeautifulgranddaughter."
"Mom,it'snotlikeyou'renotgoingtoseeheragain,"Iteased,butIwaskindofsadtoseeherleaving
tomorrow.
"Iknow,butI'mgoingtomisshersomuch,"shemumbled.
"I'mgoingtomissyou,too,"Isaid,feigninghurt.
"YouknowwhatImean,Edward,"shesaid,rollinghereyesatme."YoualsoknowthatI'mgoingtomissall
threeofyou."
"Iknow."IsmiledandkissedhercheekandEmily'sheadonceagain."I'mgoingtojoinmywife,youknow
wheretofindusifyouneedanything."
ShenoddedandwentbacktogushingoverEmily.Ichuckledandwalkedupthestairstoourbedroom.As
muchasIwantedtospendtimewithmydaughternowthatshewasfinallyhere,Iwasexhaustedfromthelong
nightsandIwantedtohavesomealonetimewithBella.Evenifwewerebothasleep.
IwalkedintoEmily'snurseryandplacedthebreastpumponthedresserIdidn'tknowwhereBellawantedit.
ThenIfinallywenttoourbedroomandfoundBellacurledupinthebedwiththecomfortercoveringherwhole
body.
Ismiledandshruggedoutofmyclothes,leavingmyboxersonandslippedunderneaththecoversbehindBella.
Itookherintomyarms,carefulnottoputtoomuchpressureonherstomachsinceshewasstillinslight
discomfortinthatarea.
"Edward?"Bellaaskedtiredly,rubbinghereyes.
"Mhm,gobacktosleep,baby,"Imumbled,nuzzlingmyfaceinherhair.
"Okay,"shewhisperedandwentbacktosleepjustlikethat.Shereallymusthavebeentired.
Ilayawakeforafewminutes,justwatchingher.EventhoughIhadlovedhersomuchbefore,havingmybaby
onlymademyloveforhergrow.TherewerenowordstoexplainwhatIfeltallIcouldsaywasthatitwas
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overwhelming.
WhenIwokeupagain,Bellawasgone,muchtomydisappointment.Thebedwascoldandlonely,soIgotup
andwenttothebathroomtofreshenupabitbeforeIwalkeddownstairs.
Bellawassittinginthelivingroom,talkingtomymomwhilecuddlingwithEmily.Mybabylookedso
comfortablebehindBella'scurtainofhairthatitmademesmile.
"Oh,hi,honey,"Momsaidwhenshespottedme.
"Hi,"IwhisperedandthenturnedtoBella,bendingdownandkissedher.
Whenthesurprisehadwornoff,shestartedkissingmebackandjustasIwasabouttodeepenthekiss,athroat
clearedbehindus.
"Littleeyes,"Momwarned.
"What?"Iaskedinnocently,sittingdownbesideBellaandwrappedmyarmaroundhershoulder."She'sasleep.
Besides,sheshouldknowthathermommyanddaddyloveeachother."
"Asimple'Iloveyou'orasoftkissshouldprobablydothat.Imaginemeandyourfathermakingoutinfrontof
you."
"Ugh,that'sjust"IgroanedandBellagiggledbesideme.Iturnedtowardherandgaveherlipsasoftkissand
said,"Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,Edward,"shewhispered.
Momchuckledandrolledhereyesandstoodup,sayingshewouldmakeusdinner.Shewasspoilinguswithall
hercookingandcleaning,butIreallyappreciateditatthistime.
Laterthatnight,afterwatchingBellafeedEmily,weplacedheronourbedandjustadmiredher.Istillhada
hardtimerealizingthatshewasminetokeep.Itwaslikewehadborrowedherandsomeonewouldandtake
herback,butthatwouldn'thappenbecauseshewasours.
Bellastillinsistedthatshewasstartingtogetgreeneyes,buttome,theywerestillblue.Theywouldn'tbefor
long,though,becausetheyweregoingtoturnbrown.Iwasjustsosureofit.
"Weneedtotalkaboutdating,"Isaidfirmly,lookingdownatEmily.
"What?"Bellaaskedconfused.
"Dating.Idon'twanthertodateever,"Iexplained.
"Edward,"sheargued.
"No.Idon'twantboysrunningaroundherelikecrazy.Nodating.Period."
"Edward,listen.Sheneedstodateorshe'llendupalone.Imean,ifshedoesn'twanttodate,thenfine,but
otherwise"
"Shewon'tendupalone.She'llhaveus,"Icutoff.
"Ithinkweshouldhavethisconversationinadecadeorso,"shesaid,gigglingwhichmademeannoyedthat
shedidn'ttakethisseriously."Youjustmakesuretoenjoytheseyearsofbeingthecenterofheruniverse."
"I'llalwaysbethecenterofheruniverse,"Imumbled.
"Edward,listen.Iknowit'sgoingtobehard,butyoudorealizeyoudidexactlythesamethingtomydad.You
practicallystolemefromhimandwhatwouldhavehappenedifyoudidn't,huh?Lookatwhatwemade."She
gesturedtowardEmily."I'mnotsayingthatIwanttobeagrandmotherwithinthenextthreedecades,but
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somedayIdo."
Shedidhaveapoint,butIwasstillnotgoingtoletmydaughterdateuntilshewasatleastforty.IfBellawanted
grandbabies,Emilycouldalwaysadopt.
"You'resocute."Bellalaughed,kissingmycheekbeforestandingupfromthebed.
"I'vetoldyounottocallmecute."
"Butyouare,"shearguedandIshotheraglare."Fine,you'resexywhenyouactthisway."
"That'sbetter."Ismiledandsherolledhereyesatmebeforesteppinginsidethebathroomtogetready.
SinceEmilywasalreadyfed,allthatwaslefttodowastochangeherdiaper.AsmuchasIlovedmydaughter,
Ihatedtochangeherdiaper.Especiallyifshehaddonenumbertwo.Thatstuffwasfuckingdisgusting,notto
mentionthesmell.
"Maybeweshouldwaitformommy,"Isaid.
"Edward,Iheardthatandit'syourturntochangeheranyway!"Bellacalledfromthebathroom.
IsweartoGod,thatgirlhadeyesandearslikethatfuckingtoyinToyStory.
Igrumbledundermybreathandgentlypickedupmybabyfromthebed.Itookhertothenurseryandchanged
herfuckingdiaperasquicklyaspossible.Ihadnoprobleminchangingit,apartfromthesmell,butIdidhavea
problemwiththecryingandgettingherdressedagain.MomhadtriedtoexplaintobothBellaandIthatitwas
normalforbabiestocrywhilebeingchangedandbathed.Thatdidn'tmeanIlikedit,though.
"Shh,it'sokay,baby.It'sover,"Isaid,grabbingheroffthechangingtablewhenIwasdone."Daddy'sgot
you."
Itookthepacifier,whichhadlefthermouthasshehadstartedcrying,andplaceditinhermouth,gently
holdingittoplacewhileIbouncedherinmyarms.Whenshehadcalmeddownenough,Iwalkedbacktoour
bedroom.
"You'llneverdate,youhearme?Idon'tcarewhatyoumommysays,mywordisfinal,"Isaid,tryingtobe
firm,butitwasjustsodamnhard.Isighedandplacedakissonthetipofhernosebeforeplacingherinthecrib.
"Goodnight,princess."
Islippedunderneaththecomforter,andwatchedasBellasaidgoodnighttoourbabybeforeturningoffthelight
andjoiningme.Shedidn'thesitatebeforeshewrappedherarmaroundmeandtangledherlegswithmine.Just
asIdidn'thesitatetotakeherintomyarms.Ilovedbeingthisclosetoher.
Elsajumpeduponthebedandlaydownatourfeet.Itkindofsurprisedmesinceshehadn'tdonethatsince
Emilywasborn,butIwashappythatshewasfinallycomingaround.
"Edward?"shewhisperedintothedarkness.
"Yes,baby?"
"Um,Ihavealastappointmentwithmytherapistintwoweeks,"shewhisperednervously.
"Okay?"
"AndIwaskindofwonderingum,ifyouwantedtocomewithme."
Ihadhonestlybeenwaitingforhertoaskmeeversinceshestartedgoingtotherapy.Iknewwhatshesaidin
thatofficewasprivateandIrespectedthat,butIstillwantedtobeapartofit.ThatwaswhyIdidn'thesitate
withmyanswer.
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"Ofcourse,Bella."
"Thankyou,"shewhispered,placingasoftkissonmychest,rightonthetattoo.
Isqueezedhertighterandnuzzledmyfaceinhersofthair.EventhoughIhadsleptforawhileduringtheday,I
didn'thaveanyproblemsatallwithfallingasleepwithmymostpreciousgirlsintheroom.
Momhadtoleaveearlythatmorningandthatturnedouttobeafuckingtearygoodbye.BothMomandBella
cried.Sure,Iwasbothsadandscaredtoseemymotherleave,butIknewthatshewouldonlybefourhours
awayandthatBellaandIneededtostandonourownfeetsomeday.
IhadtocomfortherforalmostanhourafterMomhadleft.IwasluckythatEmilywasstillasleepbecauseIhad
nofuckingideahowIwasgoingtocomfortbothmygirlsatthesametime.Ithinkshewasmostlyscared,but
wehadeachothersoIknewwewouldmakeit.
"Edward?"Bellaasked,placingEmilyinherswingafterfeedingandburpingher.
"Yes,baby?"Ianswered,lookingupfromthenewspaper.
"Couldyouplaysomethingforustoday?Imissit,"shesaidgently,sittingdownbesideme.
"Youwantmetoplaythepiano?"
"Yeah.Imean,ifyoudon'twantto,it'sfine.Ijustmissit."
"Idon'tmind,baby,"Isaidwithachuckle."Thequestionjusttookmeoffguard,that'sall."
"Soyou'lldoit?"sheaskedexcitedly.
"Yeah."
"Likenow?"
Ichuckledagainathereagernessandtoldherokay.Iwoulddoanythingformygirls,andiftheywanted
somethingassimpleashearingmeplay,thenIwoulddothat.ShetoldmetograbEmilyandherswingand
thenwewentdownstairstothebasement.
Ihadn'tplayedinalongtime,soIwaskindofrustyinthebeginning,butthemoreBellaaskedmetoplaythe
moreIgotintoit.Wesatatthepianoforwhatfeltlikehours.BellaevenfedandburpedEmilyatonetimeand
whatsurprisedmewasthatEmilydidn'tseemtomindtheloudnoise.Assoonasshewasoldenoughtosit,I
wouldteachmyprincesshowtoplay.
"MyfingerswillfalloffifIplayonemorepiece,baby,"ItoldBellawhensheonceagaininsistedonanew
piece.
"Oh,"shesaidwithapout,clearlydisappointed."It'sjustsobeautiful.IwishIcouldhearyouplayallthe
time."
"Youcan.That'swhyIloadedallthesongsintoyouriPod."
"That'snotthesame,Edward."Shesighed,placingherheadonmyshoulder.
"Iknow,baby."
WemovedovertothecouchandputamovieintotheDVDplayer,butwedidn'thaveitasloudasweusedto
sinceEmilywassleepingandIhadnodesiretowakeheruprightnow.Iwantedsometimewithmywife
withouthavingtosharehertitswithmydaughter.
ThatwaswhyIgrabbedBellaandplacedheronmylapsothatshewasstraddlingme.Shekepttryingtoget
away,butIwasn'thavinganyofthatshit.
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"I'mtooheavy,Edward,"Iwhinedwhenhewouldn'tletgoofme.
"Bullshit,baby.You'reperfect,"hesaid,dragginghishandsupanddownmysides.
"Whatareyoudoing?"Iwhisperedwhenhishandsstoppedattheswellofmybreasts.
"I'mgoingtotastethemiraclemilk,"heansweredinadeterminedvoice.
Panicshotthroughmeathiswords.IknewhewantedtotasteitsinceIhadseenthelookswhenIfedEmily,
butIjustkindofhopedhewouldletitbe.Itwasn'tlikeIwantedtodenyhim,butthepossibilityofhavinghim
drinkingmymilkjustfeltoddsomehow.Whatifittasteddisgustingandheneverwantedtotouchmeagain?
"Sobeautiful,"hemurmured.
"RealthingbeatstheInternet,don'tthey?"IteasedsinceIknewhewasn'tlookingatpornanymore.Oratleast
Ihopedhedidn't.
"Internetsucks."
Withoutmeevenrealizingit,Edwardgrabbedthehemofmytshirtandremovedit,leavingmeinnothingbuta
braandentirelyexposedtohim.Itriedtocovermyselfbycrossingmyarmsovermychest,buthestoppedme.
"Ican'tbelievemybabygetsmoreboobactionthanIdothesedays,"hemumbled.
"Youjusthavetolearnhowtoshare,EdwardCullen,"IteasedsinceIknewhowmuchhehadlikedmyboobs
before.
"Iknow,buttheonlytimeIgettoseemygirls,mybaby'smouthisattachedtothem."
"That'snottrue,"Itried.
"Oh,yeah?Well,tellmewhenIlastsawthemwithoutatinylittlemouth?"
"Um,"Isaid,thinkingaboutit."Threedaysaftershewasborn."
"Exactly,thatwaswaytoofuckinglongago."
"Itwasaweekago,Edward."
"LikeIsaid,toofuckinglongago,baby,"hesaid,removingmybrainoneswiftmove.
Heleanedforwardandcapturedmyleftnippleinhismouthbeforestartingtosuckonit.Atfirst,Ifelt
uncomfortablewithhimdoingit,butthenitstartedtofeelnicerwithhimdoingitthanEmilydoingit.Itwas
justlikebeforeshewasborn,apartfromthistime,therewasmilkcomingout.
Imoanedatthesensationwhenheflickedmynipplewithhistonguewhichgothimevenmoreeager.
"Whatdoesittastelike?"Iaskedwhenhemovedtoswitchboobtotherightone.
"Sweet,"heanswered,cuppingmyrightbreastandsqueezedmetighterbymywaistwithhisfreearm.
Hecontinuedhissuckingforaminuteorsobeforefinishingwithasoftkissrightontopofthenipple.Hewas
socute,butIknewbetterthantotellhimthat.
"Soitwasn'tdisgusting?"Iaskedwhenheappearedtobefinished.
"No.Nopartofyouisdisgusting,baby,"hesaidseriously,lookingmestraightintheeyes.
Ileanedforwardandhuggedhisneckbeforekissinghissoftlips.HelickedmybottomoneandIopenedupmy
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mouthforhim,eagertofeelhistongueagainstmyown.Hehuggedmeclosersothatmybreastswerepressing
firmlyagainsthischest.Hishandswerestrokingmybarebackasourtonguestangledtogether.
Asoftwhimpersoundedintheroomanditwasn'tfromme,anditwasn'tfromEdwardourbabywasawake.
Thewhimpersoonturnedintoacry.
"See?Nowshe'shungryandherdaddyjustateallherfood,"Iteased,panting,whenEdwardbrokethekiss
withagroan.
"No,it'sstillplentyoffoodleftinthesebeauties,"hesaid,cuppingmyboobsinhishands.
Ismackedhimplayfullyonhisarm,notsureifitwasacomplimentoraninsult.IknewIhadgainedweightand
thatmyboobswerethesizeoftwowatermelons,soIdidn'tneedhimtellingmethat.
"Ow,comeon,baby,youknowIloveyourtitties,"hesaid,feigninghurt.
"Yeah,well,yourdaughterdoestoo."
Edwardwasreluctanttoletmego,buteventuallydidsothatIcouldtakecareofEmily.Iwonderedifitwould
turnintoahabitofhistosuckonmyboobs.
Godthatsoundedweird.
IneverthoughtIwouldhavethatthought.Ever.IhadhonestlyneverthoughtIwouldbemarried,haveababy
andactuallylovesomeone.Yet,hereIwas,havingallthoseamazingthings.Sure,ourlivesweren'tadanceon
roses,butitwaswortheverdamnthornoutthere.
Thedayspassed.Onedayalmostidenticaltotheothergetupbrightandearly,feedEmily,shower,eat,sleep,
feedEmily,somealonetimewithEdward,sleep,feedEmilyandsoon.
"Doyouthinkshe'llgetcold?"Iaskedworriedly.
Todaywasourfirstdoctor'sappointmentandalsothefirsttimeweevertookEmilyoutside,exceptforwhen
wegothomefromthehospital.Shewasonlytwoweeksold,butIknewshehadtofacetheoutsideworldat
somepoint.Besides,IwouldprobablygocrazyifIwasgoingtospendalldaysinsideonceEdwardwentback
towork.Iwassonotlookingforwardtothatday,butIstillhadaweekwithhimathome.
"No,itwillprobablybetheotherwayaround,"Edwardanswered.
"Youthinkshe'llgettoowarm?"
"Idon'tknow,butifshedoes,we'llremoveherjacket,okay?Weneedtogetgoingsowedon'tgetlate,"he
said,pickingupEmilyandputherinthecarseat.
"Yeah,you'reright,"Imumbled.
Iwasjusttoonervousaboutbringingheroutside.Whatifshewouldfreezeorgetarunnynose?
"Iknowthefeeling,baby,butthisissomethingweneedtodo."
InoddedandlookedaroundtoseeiftherewasanythingwehadforgottenbeforefollowingEdwardoutside.He
buckledherseatintothebackseatandIsatdownnexttohersincethiswasonlyhersecondcarrideever.I
wantedtokeepaneyeonhertomakesureshewassafeandcomfortable.
"Doyouthinkshe'llgetcarsick?"Edwardaskedandthistime,itwasmytimetorollmyeyes.
"I'llletyouknowifherfaceturnsgreen,"Ijoked,buthisquestionhadgottenmethinking.Therewouldbeno
wayforhertoletusknow.
"Ha,ha,funny,"hesaidsarcasticallyanddroveoff.
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Hedidn'tdriveasslowlyaslasttime,buthedidn'tdriveasfastashenormallydid,andforthatIwasthankful.
Eventhoughhislanguagehadn'timprovedmuch,atleasthisdrivinghad.
Whenwearrived,EdwardtookEmilyfromthebackseatandwewalkedhandinhandtothedoctor'soffice.I
waskindofnervousaboutitsinceIhadnoideaifEmilywashealthyornot.Shelookedhealthytome,butI
wasn'tadoctor.
EdwardtookaseatwithEmilywhileIsignedusinatthereceptiondesk.Sofar,Emilyhadbeengood,buther
outburstscouldstartanytime.Ijusthopednowwouldn'tbethattime.
Itdidn'ttakelongbeforeanursecalledmynameandledusintoanexamroom.Isatdownontheexamtable
whilethenursepreparedtoweighandmeasureEmily.
Ourdaughterdidn'tliketobeweighedonebitandstartedcryingassoonassheleftEdward'sarms.Icouldtell
thatEdwardwantedtotakeherbackandhonestly,Iwasfeelingthesame.Ihatedhearingmybabycry.
ThenursedeclaredEmilytobehealthyandhandedherbacktoEdward.Hercriescalmeddowntosoft
whimpersafterhehadbouncedherlightlyinhisarmsforalittlewhile.
"Ah,wehaveadaddy'sgirl,"thenursegushedwithasmile.
"Youhavenoidea,"Isaid,chuckling.
Dr.Housemancameinshortlyafterthatandmypanicstartedtosetin.Iknewwhatshewasgoingtodotoday
andIfoundmyselfjusasnervousasIhadbeenatourfirstexamninemonthsago.Itwasstupidreallybecause
shehadalreadyseenmedownthereandevenhelpedmedeliverEmily,butIwasstillnervous.
"Wow,hellothere,littlecutie,"shegushedwhenshesawEmily.
Ismiled,feelingsodamnproudthatIhadnowordsforit.
Aftersomemoregushingandcooing,shesatdownandturnedtome.Shestartedaskingquestionsabout
everything,sayingthatshewasonlyaskingthemsothatshecoulddetermineifIwasdepressedornot.Icould
tellherbeforesheevenbeganthatIwasn't,butIunderstoodthatshewasonlydoingherjob.
Thedoctortoldmetogetchangedandthentoliebackdownonthetablewithmyfeetupinthestirrups.I
lookedovertoEdwardandheimmediatelyunderstoodwhatIwantedandwalkedovertome.HeheldEmily
withonearmandtookmyhandwithhisfreeone.
Justlikethattimeninemonthsago,itwasuncomfortable.EspeciallywhenDr.Housemanstartedprobingon
mystomach.Ihadbeenhavingcrampseveryday,butEsmehadexplainedthatitwasjustbecausemyuterus
wasgoingbacktoitsregularsize,justlikeDr.Housemansaidtoday.
"Okay,Bella.Youseemtohealupprettynicely,"Dr.Housemanannouncedwhenshefinallywasreadywith
theexam.
"Whataboutsex?"EdwardaskedbluntlyandIlookedathiminsurprisesinceIhadn'tseenthatcoming.
"What?"
"It'sfine,"thedoctorsaid,laughing."It'sacommonquestion,andwe'llhavetoseeatthenextappointment,but
Iwouldrecommendyounottohaveintercourseinanotherfourweeksorso.I'mnotgoingtopunishyouifyou
are,butifBellafeelspainordiscomfort,Iwouldn'tcontinue,okay?"
EdwardandIbothnoddedourheadshenoddedmoreeagerlythanmeandthatmademegigglesoftlyathim.
Itwasn'tlikeIdidn'twanthimanymore,becauseIdid.Ialwaysfeltthatspecialneed,butIknewIwasn'tready
yet.
Beforeweleftthedoctor'soffice,wesetupanewappointmentinfourweeks.Emilywasstartingtogetfussy
onthewayhomeandIknewshewashungrysinceshehadn'teateninawhile,butIwantedtodoitathome
andnotinthecar.
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"I'mjustgoingtofeedherandthentakeashower,okay?"ItoldEdwardoncewewerebackhome.
"Sure,baby,"heansweredtiredlyandkissedEmilyonthetopofherheadbeforegivingmeasoftkiss.
Hehandedherovertomeandthenwalkedtothelivingroom,soIremovedmyshoesandwalkedupthestairs
withEmily.
Assoonasmyboobwasexposed,shelatchedonandstartedsuckinggreedily.Theonlysoundintheroomwas
thesucklingnoisecomingfromEmily.Iclosedmyeyesandwaitedforhertofinish.
Justlikesheusuallydid,shefellasleepandIgiggledsoftlyatherbecauseIhadnoideahowyoucouldjustfall
asleepinthemiddleofeating.Inudgedherandstrokedherchubbycheek,wakingherupandshestarted
suckingagainbeforeImovedhertotheotherboob.
"Youfinished?"Iaskedwhenshestoppedsuckingonceagain."Okaythen.Let'sgetyouburpedandchanged
soyoucansleep,huh."
IdidmybesttotuckmyboobsbackintothebraandmovethetshirtbackinitsplacebeforeIplacedEmilyand
aclothonmyshoulder.IpattedherbackasIstoodupandwalkedtothechangingtable.
Sheletoutaloudburpandthankfullydidn'tthrowuponme.Sure,Iwasgoingtotakeashowerafterthis,but
beingpukedonisn'texactlythehighofmylife.
Iquicklychangedherandwenttoourbedroomtoplaceherinthecrib.Iplacedtheblanketbyherheadandthe
pacifierintohermouth.ShefussedalittleassoonasIwasabouttoleavesoIstayedandhummedalittletoher,
hopingitwouldhelphersome.ItalwaysworkedwhenEdwarddidit.
Onceshefinallywasasleep,Itookmyverywantedshower.Ihadbeenfeelingdirtyeversinceweleftthe
doctor'soffice.
MybabywassleepingsoundlywhenIgotbacktothebedroom.Herpacifiermovedasshesuckedonit,andas
IwatchedherIwonderedifherjawsevergottired.Imean,whenyouchewedorsuckedonsomethingfortoo
long,yourjawalwayshurt.
IshookmyheadattherandomthoughtandgrabbedthebabymonitorbeforeleavingtheroomasquietlyasI
could,tryingnottowakeherup.
WhenIcamebackdownstairs,Edwardwassittingonthecouch,watchingTV.Itookamomenttotakehimin
evenifhelookedtiredfromallthesleeplessnights,hestilllookedgorgeouswithhisstubble,messyhairand
poutinglips.
"Hi,baby,"hewhisperedwhenhesawme,turningtheTVoff."Isshesleeping?"
"Mhm,"Isaid,noddingmyheadandwalkedovertohim,placingthebabymonitoronthecoffeetable.
Istraddledhislapandheimmediatelygrabbedmyhipsandkissedthesideofmyneck.Hekissedhiswayupto
myear,whispering,"Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too."Isighedwithamoan.
Hedraggedhisnoseacrossmyjawbeforefinallycapturingmylipswithhis.Itstartedoutasaslowand
innocentkiss,butIwantedmoresoIbroughtmyhandstohishairandpressedhisfaceclosertomine.
ImoanedintohismouthwhenIfelthistongueslideacrossmylips,andIopenedupmymouthforhim.Asour
tonguesmovedtogether,hestartedpressingmedownontohisveryprominenthardon.
"Fuck,Iwantyousobad,baby,"hemoanedwhenIpulledawayforsomeair.
"Iknow,"Imoaned,lickingmyswollenlips.
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Ileanedforwardandkissedhimquicklyonhislipsbeforekissingmywaydownhisnecktohiscollarbones.
Evenifhecouldn'thavemethatway,therewerestillotherwaysformetopleasehim.
Isliddownbetweenhiskneesandbitmylipbeforeunbucklinghisbelt,unsureifhereallywantedthis,butifI
knewhimright,hedidwantit.IheardhimgaspwhenherealizedwhatIwasabouttodo,buthedidn't
complainasIunbuttonedhisjeansandreleasedhisdickfromhisboxers.
Itwashard,reallyhard,andEdwardhissedasIslowlymovedmyhandupanddownhisshaft.Ileaned
forwardandpressedakissonthetip,tastingthesaltyliquidthathadmadeitswayout.
"Fuck,Bella,baby.It'sbeentoolongI'mnotgoingtolast,"hemoaned.
Ilookedupathimfromundermylashes,knowingwhatitdidtohimandsmirkedbeforetakinghimintomy
mouth.
"Shit,"hehissed,grabbingaholdofmyhair.
ItookasmuchofhimasIpossiblycouldintomymouthandsuckedhard.EventhoughIdidn'tgivehimhead
thatoften,IknewwhatsethimoffsoItwirledmytonguearoundtheheadandheardhimmoanoutloudly,his
griponmyhairtightening.
Ibobbedmyheadupanddown,lettinghimsetthepaceheliked.Iloveditwhenhewasincontrol,likehewas
now.ItwassomethingaboutbossyEdwardthatturnedmeon.
"Fuck,"hegroaned."I'msoclose,Bella."
Ijusthummedaroundhim,causinghimtocurseagain.Istartedtomassagehisballsandsuckharder.Ifelthim
twitchsoIknewhewasclose.
"I'mgonnacum,"hewarnedjustasIfeltthehotliquidspurtintomymouth."Fuckinghell!"
Iwasn'tabigfanofswallowing,butforhimIwoulddoanything,includingswallowingsinceIknewthat
turnedhimon,evenifhehadneveradmittedit.
Iswallowedeverythinghegavemeandsuckedhimuntilhestartedgettingsoftinmymouth.Ilikedhimclean
beforetuckinghimbackinsidehispants.
"Mm,Ineededthat,"Edwardmumbledwithhiseyesclose,breathingheavily.
Igiggledandheopenedhiseyes,reachingouthisarmsformetotake.HehelpedmeupsothatIwasstraddling
hislap,andbeforeIknewit,hislipscapturedmineforcefully.Hishandstrappedmyfacetohis,notthatI
mindedthat,though.
"Fuck,Iloveyou,"hemumbledagainstmylips,pressinghisfirmertomine.
ImoanedashistonguemadeitswayintomymouthandIlethimtakecontrolofthekiss,enjoyingevery
secondofit.
"YoulovemebecauseoftheblowjobIjustgaveyou,oryoulovemejustbecause?"Ipantedwhenhepulled
away.Ifelthisintoxicatingbreathonmyfaceashechuckled.
"Iloveyou,butIalsofuckinglovedthatblowjob."
"Good,"Isaidjustasweheardsoftcryingonthebabymonitor.
Edwardgroaned,huggingmetighter.
"Dutycalls."
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EndNotes:
A/N:Ah,atleastyougotalittlesmut!
Ithinktherewasalittlemisunderstandinglasttime.Itoldyouitwasgoingtogetless
fluffy,butIdidn'tmeanrightaway.Itwillhappengradually.Justsoyouknow.
Nextupdate:SundayNovember28th
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:QuotefromthelastchapterwasborrowedfromtheserieOneTreeHill:
"RealthingbeatstheInternet,don'tthey?
Internetsucks."
Discalimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplot!
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BPOV
Itwasmybirthdaytoday.Iwasturningtwentyfivetoday.Twentyfive.Now,Iwashalfwaytofifty.
"Lookathowprettymommyis,"Edwardcooedfrombehindme.Ihadn'tevenrealizedhewasintheroomsoI
jumpedinsurprise.
IfinallyturnedaroundandsawhimstandinginthedoorwaywithEmilyinhisarms.Shewasalldolledupthis
afternoonsinceweweregoingout,andevenifIwastheonewhohaddressedher,shedidn'tneedtobedolled
uptolookprettybecauseshewaswithoutadoubttheprettiestlittlegirlIhadeverseen.
Shewasalreadythreeweeksoldandgrewwaytoofastformyliking.
"Canyoutakeherforafewminutes?Ineedtotakemyshower,"Edwardsaid,snappingmeoutofmy
thoughts.
"Sure,letmejustfinishputtingmymascaraon,"Iansweredandturnedbacktothebathroommirror,tryingto
speedmyactionsupsoIcouldholdmybabygirl.
OnceIwasdone,Itookonelastglanceinthemirrorandalmostgiggledatmyself.Ilookedsostrange,havinga
pairofsweatsandoneofEdward'stshirtsonandmymakeupandhairallperfect.Ididn'twanttoriskgetting
anypukeallovermydress,though.
"Here,"Isaid,reachingoutmyarmsforEmily."I'mready."
"I'llbequick,"hepromisedandgavemeapeckbeforestartingtheshower.
"It'sokay.Wedon'tneedtorush,"Iassuredhim,sittingdownonthetoiletlidwithmydaughterinmyarms.I
didn'twanttoleavehimjustyetsoIwouldstayuntilhetoldmeotherwise.
"Wekindofdo,baby,becausewe'rerunninglate,"hesaidandbegantostripoutofhisclothes.
"Edward,pleasetellmeyoudidn'tinvitetwentypeopletothisdinner,"Ipleaded,startingtogetworried.
Honestly,IjustwantedtocelebratemybirthdaywithhimandEmilyalone,butthatwaskindofselfishandwe
spenteverydaytogetheranyway.
Butstill
"Ididn't,"Edwardsaid,steppinginsidetheshower."It'sjustgoingtobeus,ourfriendsandourparents,okay?"
"Okay,"Isaidquietly,lookingdownatEmilywhowasstartingtofussalittle."I'mjustgoingtofeedherand
getdressed,okay?"
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"Sure,baby,butit'syourturntochangeherdiaper."
Irolledmyeyesathimevenifhecouldn'tseeit.Hewaskeepingtrackonwhoseturnitwastochangeapoop
diapersincehehatedthatstuff.
"Okay,"Isaidwithagiggle,standingupandwalkedtothenursery.
IhadwaiteduntilthelastminutetofeedEmilytodaysinceIreallydidn'twanttodoitinpublicunlessitwas
absolutelynecessary.So,thatwaswhyshehungrilylatchedontomyboobonceitwasfree.Ichuckledather
eagernessandleanedbackagainstthefluffyarmchair.Istrokedherbackabsentmindedlyassheate,listeningto
thesucklingnoisesthatfilledtheroom.
Myeyeslandedonthebreastpumpthatwasstillinitsboxonthedresser.Honestly,thatthingterrifiedmeand
thatwasprobablytheonlyreasontowhyitwasstillunused.Justthethoughtofhavingamachinefeedingon
meinsteadofmybabyjustfeltoddsomehow.
IknewIhadtodoit,though.Edwardwouldbegoingbacktoworkthedayaftertomorrowandafterhavingto
takecareofEmilyallaloneallday,IknewIwouldn'thavetheenergytogetupeachtimeshecriedduringthe
night.Sure,Edwardwouldbetiredafterawholedayatwork,butatleastwecouldtaketurnsifIstartedusing
thepump.
IsighedandmovedEmilytomyotherboob.Ialwaysfounditfascinatingtowatchassheatehertinylittle
mouthclosingaroundmyentirenippleareaandhertinylittlehandrestingontherestoftheboob.Sometimes,
whenEdwardwouldwatch,shecouldgetdistractedbyhimsincehecouldneverkeephishandstohimself,but
otherthanthat,shehadnoproblemswithfeeding.
"Doyouwantmetoburpher?"Edwardaskedfromthedoorway,hishairstillwetfromtheshower.Hehada
pairofslacksandawhiteshirton,lookingreallysexy.
"Sure,butshe'snotfinishedyet,"Itoldhim."Besides,whathappenedtothewhole'it'syourturntochangeher
diaper?'"
"Youcanstillchangeit.I'mjustburpingherandImightevencutinsomesnugglingwhileI'matit."He
smirkedandIchuckledathim,shakingmyhead.
OnceIwasdone,Ihandedherovertohimandwalkedintoourbedroom.Elsawaslyingonthebed,curledup
toalittleball.Ifeltalmostlikeshewassadsomehowandsheshouldn'tbesadsinceitwaspracticallyher
birthdaytodayaswell.Well,notreally,butitwasexactlyoneyearagothatEdwardgavehertome.
"Happybirthday,"Itoldherandlaydownnexttoher.Sheneededsomeattentiontoday,soIdidn'tcareifwe
gottwominuteslatetonight.
OnceIstartedstrokinghersmallback,sheopenedherbigbrowneyesandlookedupatmebeforestandingup.
Iwonderedifshewasmadatmeorsomethinganddidn'twantmycompany,butthenshestartedlickingmy
face.
"Iloveyou,too,"Isaid,giggling.
Afteralittlemorecuddling,Igotupfromthebedandwalkedovertothecloset.ShefollowedmeandIhadto
smileather.Itwasalmostlikehavingtwobabiesthesedays,bothneedingmyattention.Ijustneededtofinda
goodwaytobalanceit.
IdecidedonadressthatIhadboughtwhenIfirsthadstartedtoshowmypregnancysincethatfit.Istillhada
smallbump,butitwasactuallygettingsmaller.Someofmyoldclothesfit,butthosewhofittedbestwasmy
firstmaternityclothesunlessIworeEdward'sclothes.
Iputonapairofblackballetflatsandgrabbedacoatfromthecloset.Itwouldhavetodo.Besides,itwasmy
birthdaysoIhopedAlicewouldn'tstartonmychoiceofclothes.IthoughtIlookedgood,thoughclassybut
nottoodressy.
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"Okay,we'reallsetforsomediaperchange,"Edwardannounced,steppinginsideourbedroom.
"Here,cometomommy,"Icooedatmybabyandreachedoutmyhandsforher.
Iquicklychangedher,havingtoholdmybreathsinceshehaddonenumbertwo.Icouldn'tbelievehowatiny
littlepersoncouldhavesuchdisgustingsmellingpoop.
EdwardinsistedthatIsatupfrontwithhimincartoning,sayingthatweneededtogetusedtoitanyway.Sure,
Icouldsitinthebackwithmydaughteruntilshewastenyearsold,butIrealizedthelongerIsatbackthere,the
longeritwouldtakemetogobacktosittinginthepassengerseat.
Ileanedbackatotalofseventimesduringthedrivetotherestauranttocheckonher.SheslepteverytimeIsaw
herandshewasstillsleepingasEdwardpulledupintheparkinglottoLaBellaItaliaoneofourfavorite
restaurants.IstillhadMcDonald'sasafavorite,though.
EmilywokeupasIgentlytookheroutofherseat,butthatwasinevitablesoIdidn'tdwellonit,hopingthatshe
wouldgobacktosleeponceshewasputinthestroller.Iknewthatwasn'tgoingtohappen,though,sinceI
kneweveryoneofourfriendsandfamilywantedtomeetandholdher.
"It'stoofuckingcomplicated,"Edwardmuttered,tryingtogetthestrollertogether."Ihavenoideawhywe
boughtthisshitinthefirstplace."
"Language,Edward,"Iscolded,holdingEmilytighterinmyarmsandhopingthatshedidn'thear."Anditwas
youwhoinsistedongettingitsinceitwasquality."
"Butyouweretheonethatwantedthepinkone.Icouldhavegonewithsomethinglesscomplicatedandeven
morequality,"hepanted,finallymanagingtogetittogether.
"Practicemakesperfect.Nowyou'vedoneitonceandIpromisethatit'llgoeasierthenexttime,"Isaidwitha
smile,ignoringhispreviouscomment.
HegotthestrollerreadybeforereachingouthisarmsforEmily."Here,givememybaby."
"Iloveyou,"IwhisperedtoEmilyandgaveherasloppykissonherheadbeforereluctantlyhandingherover
toEdward.Ididn'twanttolethergo,butIknewIcouldn'tcarryherallnight.
"Cometodaddy,"Edwardcooedandhe,too,placedakissonherchubbycheekbeforecarefullyplacingherin
thestroller.
ItwasonlythesecondtimeweuseditsoIwasalittleworriedthatshewouldn'tlikeit.Lilyhatedhers
nowadaysandifEmilyturnedouttobethesametonight,thisnightwouldbeaverylongone.
"Ready?"Edwardaskedoncewehadgotteneverythingoutofthecar.
"Yes,"Isaidsimplybecausetherewasn'tmuchelsetosayatthatpoint.
"It'syourbirthdayandwe'regoingtocelebratebeingyouandbeingalive,"hesaid,smiling.
"Ilikethesoundofthat,"Isaidwithmyownsmile.
IhookedmyarmintohisashepushedEmily'sstrollertowardthefrontdoorsoftherestaurant.Aswegot
inside,IwasimmediatelyhitbyadelicioussmellandIrealizedhowhungryIwas.Lately,ithadbeeneat
wheneveryouhavetimeandthatwasn'tveryoftenbecauseifEmilywasasleep,sowasIandifEmilywas
awake,Iwasfeedingher.
"WehaveareservationunderCullen,"Edwardtoldthehost.
"Ofcourse,sir.Everyoneisalreadyhere,"hesaidwithasmileandstartedtoleadustotherightcornerofthe
restaurant.
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Hewasinhislatefortiesandforthat,IwasgratefulbecauseIcouldn'thandlebeingjealousofsomeprettygirl
tonightandIdidn'thavetheenergyfordealingwithajealousEdwardeither.
"HAPPYBIRTHDAY!"everyonescreamedfromthetableoncetheysawus.
"Thankyou,"Isaidshyly,feelingtheblushcreepuptomycheeks.Iwasfeelinguncomfortableattheattention
andtriedtohideawaydiscreetlybehindEdward.Ihadneverinmylifelikedbeingthecenterofattentionina
largegroupandIstilldidn'tlikeit.
Edwardchuckledatmybehavior,knowingexactlywhatIwasupto.
"God,IhopeEmilybecomesjustasadorableasyou,"Edwardmurmuredlowenoughforonlymetohearand
bentdowntogivemeaquickkiss.
"Ihopeshebecomesjustlikeyou,"Imumbled.
"Okay,sinceyou'reallhere,"thehoststartedcheerfully."Hereisyourmenuandyourwaitershouldcomeout
soon."
"Okay,"Isaidwithasmile.
"So"JakestartedfromacrossthetableandIlookedathiminconfusionsinceIhadnoideawhathewasup
to."Comeon,letusseeher!"
Ismiledevenwiderandsaid,"She'sperfect."
"Wedon'tdoubtyou,honey,butpleasewereallywanttoseeher,"Dadsaideagerly.
"Okay,"Isaidwithachuckled.IremovedEmily'slittlehatandjacketbeforepickingherup,showingherto
everyonearoundthetable."Guys,meetEmilyGraceCullenagainforsomeofyou."
EdwardkissedEmily'sheadbeforesittingdowninhischair.IcarefullyhandedEmilytoCarlislewhowas
sittingrightnexttome.
"Heythere,littlegirl,"hecooedandkissedhercheek.
Ididn'tblamehimortherestofourfriendsastheyheldherthattheywantedtokissher,butthemotherinme
worriedthatshewouldgetsickfromallthebacteria.Itwasasillyworrymaybe,butIcouldn'thelpmyself.
"OhmyGod,she'ssopretty!"JanesaidasSamheldEmilyinhisbigarms."Andsotiny."
"Tiny?Ithinkshe'sstartingtogetsobig,"Isaid.
"Waitanotherfewweeks"Leahtrailedoff.
BothsheandRosehadbeenleavingtheirbabieswithababysittertonight.Ihadnoideahowtheymanagedto
dothatsinceIcouldn'tevenimaginebeingawayfromEmilyforevenanhour.
"Icouldn'tagreemore,"Rosesaid.
Ourwaiterarrivedandtookourorders.IorderedthesameasIalwaysdidwheneverwecameheremushroom
ravioliandaCoke.EdwardorderedanItalianpizza,sayingthattheytastedmuchbetterthantheAmerican
ones.
Emilycontinuedbeinggushedoverandpassedaroundfromonepairofarmstoanother.Ididn'tlikeit,butI
triedtokeepagoodfacesinceIknewitmeantalotforthemtoseeandholdher.Itwasthehardestwhenit
cametoAlice.Ireallydidloveher,butthesadnessthatwasradiatingfromherwaskillingme.Iwantedtohelp
her,butIwasn'tgoingtopushheruntilshewasreadytotelluswhatwaswrong.Shecouldatleasthavehelda
straightfacewhileholdingEmily,though.
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Luckily,itdidn'tlastlongandEmilywaspassedovertoSueandmydad.Thatbroughtagenuinesmiletomy
face.
Thefoodarrivedandittasteddelicious,justlikeIhadimagined.Itwasfunnytowatchmydadtryingtoeat
whileheheldEmilyinhisarmssincehedidn'twanttolethergo.
"DidIdosomethingwrong?"DadaskedworriedlywhenEmilystartedtofussalittle.
"No,Dad,"Isaidwithachuckle."She'sjusttired,that'sall.Ishouldprobablytrytogethertogotosleep."
Shewouldnevergotosleepwithallthesepeopleconstantlywantingtoholdher,soitwouldprobablybebest
ifIwouldgooutside.Beingcoopedupinthehouseonourownforthreeweekshadmademekindofshy
amongstpeople,soIgladlytookanychanceofgettingawayforafewminutes.
"Youwantmetocomewithyou?"Edwardwhisperedinmyear,knowingEmilyjustaswellasIdid.
"Youcanstay,"Itoldhim,wantingaminuteformyself.
Istoodupandwalkedovertomydad,reachingoutforEmily.HereluctantlygavehertomeafterIpromised
thathecouldholdheragainlatertonight.Ifoundhimprettydamnadorablewithhisgranddaughtereventhough
ithadbeentwentyfiveyearssincehelastheldanewbornbaby.
IexcusedmyselfonceIhadtuckedEmilyintothestrollerandgaveEdwardakissbeforesteppingoutside.
Thefreshairfeltgoodafterthestuffyrestaurantair.Emilycontinuedtofuss,soIpacedbackandforthonthe
parkinglotandslightlyrockingthestroller,hopingthemovementwouldcalmherdown.
Iwasrightfifteenminutesofwalkingbackandforth,Emilywassleepingpeacefullyanditfeltgoodtohave
managedtogethertosleepwithoutEdward'shelp.Itmademefeelmorelikeamomsomehow.
WhenIgotbackinside,IgentlyremovedEmily'shatagainandthesmallblanketsothatshewouldn'tgettoo
warm.
"How'ditgo?"EdwardaskedasIsatbackdownatthetable.
"Perfect,"Iansweredwithasmile.
"So,howdoesitfeeltofinallybeamom?"Alicewhispered.
Itwasalmostthefirstthingshehadsaidtometoday,apartfromthebighappybirthdayandafewwordsabout
howcuteEmilywas.
"Yeah,doyougettosleep?"Leahwhispered.
"Youdon'tneedtowhisper,guys,"Isaidwithalaugh.
"Wedon't?"Leahaskedsurprised."WhataboutwakingEmily?"
"Shecansleepthroughmostloudnoises.It'sjusthardtogethertoactuallysleepwiththeloudnoisesaround,"
Edwardanswered."Musicisfine,morethanfineactually,buteverythingelseseemstojustannoyhereven
more."
Wecontinuedtochatandatesomedessertandtheneveryonedecidedthatitwastimeforpresents.Iknewfor
surethateveryonearoundthetable,exceptformaybeJane,knewhowIfeltaboutreceivingpresents.Yet,they
seemedtoinsisteveryyear.
Rosehandedmeanenvelope,sayingthatitwasfromallthegirlsaroundthetable.
"Spa?"IaskedsurprisedwhenIopenedit.
"Yes,"Roseansweredwithanexcitedsmile."Justusgirlsyou,me,Alice,Leah,Jane,SueandEsme."
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"Wow,Idon'tknowwhattosay.Thankyousomuch."
IhadbeenfeelinglessfreshlatelysoIhopedthespadaywouldbeabletomakemefeelbetter.Itwas
somethingtolookforwardtoandsomethingIreallyneeded.
"Thatwilldojustfine,honey.We'realllookingforwardtoit,"Esmesaid,smiling.
"Ido,too."Ismiledabigsmile.EvenAlicesmiledandthatmademefeelbetteraboutthewholething.
IalsogotapinkphotoalbumtoputallthepicturesofEmilyin.Itwasniceandusefulsincemycamerawas
alreadyfullofpicturesandshewasonlythreeweeksoldsofar.
Afterawhile,IwasstartingtogetreallytiredandIwantedtogethomebeforeEmilywokeupdecidingitwas
timefordinneragain.AsImentionedit,Roseseemedtoberelievedandlaterexplainedthatshewantedtoget
hometoLily.
Weallsplitthecheckandhuggedeachothergoodbyebeforegoingseparateways.AsEdwardbuckledEmily
intohercarseat,IsawAliceandJaspertwocarsdown.
"I'mjustgoingtosaygoodbye,"ItoldEdward,pointingatAlice.
"Sure,baby,"hesaid,understandingwhatIneededtodo.
"Hey,Alice!"Icalledafterherandsheturnedaroundinsurprise."Waitupasec."
"What'swrong?"sheaskedasIhuggedher.
"Youknowyoucantalktome,right?"Iwhisperedinherear,huggingheralittletighter.
Shehadbeenthereformeforbetterandforworse.So,Iwasgoingtobethereforher,nomatterwhatwas
goingonwithher.
Shestiffenedatfirst,probablynotknowingthatIknewsomethingwasup,butthenshesighedandsaid,"I
know."
"Good.Youcantalkanytimeandanywhere.I'llbetherewhenyou'reready,okay?"
"Thankyou,Bella,"shesaidwithasmallsmile,pullingback."Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,"ItoldherasshewalkedbacktoJasper.
Aswegothome,IfedEmilyandEdwardburpedherandputhertobedwhileIgotchanged.Itwasnicewhen
hehelpedoutsomuchandIworriedabouttheupcomingweekwhenhewouldbegoingbacktowork.
IknewIwouldbeabletodoitalone,butthethoughtwasscarysinceIhadgrownsodependentonhimlately.
"Issheasleep?"IwhisperedasIsteppedoutsidethebathroomandfoundEdwardsittingthearmchair.
Henoddedhisheadandreachedouthishandformetotake.Withouthesitation,Itookitandhegrabbedthe
monitorbeforeleadingmedownstairs.
"Whereareyoutakingme?"Iaskedasheledmedownanothersetsofstairstothebasement.
Hestoppedinfrontofthepianowithoutansweringmyquestion.
"Happybirthday,baby,"Edwardwhisperedinmyear,embracingmefrombehindandrestedhischinonmy
shoulder.
Ilookedaroundconfusedandonlysawthepianonothingnew.
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"Edward,Idon'tmeantosoundrudeandyouknowIlovethepiano,butIthinkyou'vealreadygottenmethe
pianobeforeunlessit'sanewone."
Hechuckled."Bella,it'swhatmyfingersandmindcandowiththatpianothatisyourbirthdaypresent."
"Oh,"IsaidbeforeIunderstoodwhathemeant."Really?"
"Yeah,really.Comeon,"hesaid,leadingmeovertothebenchandsatdown.
Isatdownnexttohimandwaitedforhimtostartplaying.Whenhedid,thesoftnotesfilledthequietroomand
Iwasbroughttotears.Thepassion,theloveandmostofall,thehistorythatyoucouldfeelwhenheplayedwas
sointense.
"Wow,"Isniffledwhenthelastnotelingeredintheair.
"Youlikedit?"heteased,pushingastrandofmyhairbehindmyear.
"No,"Iwhispered."Ilovedit."
"Good,becauseIwroteitforyou."
"Youwroteit?"
"Yes,justforyou.It'scalledBella'sLullaby."
IthoughtIcouldn'tlovethismanmorethanIalreadydidandthenhewritesalullabyforme.Onlyme.
"Iloveyou.Somuch,"Icried,throwingmyarmsaroundhisneck,hugginghimtome.
"Iloveyou,too,baby."Hechuckledandhuggedmeback.
"Thenwouldyouplayitformeagain?"Iaskedsweetly,wipingmytearsaway.
"Iwoulddoanythingforyou,"hemurmured,cradlingmyfaceandplacedasweetkissonmylipsbefore
pullingbackandstartedplayingagain.
Imanagedtotalkhimintoplayingittwomoretimesafterthat,notabletogetenough.Eventuallyhesaidno
andpromisedtofixitsoIhaditonmyiPod.Iwantedtheoriginal,though,buthetoldmethathewouldplayit
formewheneverhehadthetimeanyway.
"Iwasthinkingaboutmaybestartworkingalittleslowerthanwe'dplanned,"Edwardmumbledafterplaying
thatlasttime.
"Whatdoyoumean?"Iaskedconfused.
"ImeanthatIcouldgobacktoworkforafewhoursadaythisweekandthenslowlyincreasethehours.
Maybethatwouldmakethingseasierforthebothofus,youknow."
"Youreallythinkthatwouldbeokay?"Iasked,tryingnottogetmyhopesup.Ireallywantedittowork,butI
didn'twanthimtolosethecompanyheandEmmetthadworkedhardfor.
"Yeah.It'sbasicallywhatEmmettdidthefirsttwomonthsexcepthetookfulldaysoffandthenworkedsome
overtimewhenhewasabletosohecouldcatchup."
"Ilikeyourideabetter,"Iwhispered,leaningintohim.
"Thenlet'sgiveitatry,shallwe?"
"Yeah,let'sdothat."Ismiled.
"Comeon,weshouldprobablytrygetsomefuckingsleepwhilewecan,"hesaidandgotup.
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"Yeah,"Isaidreluctantly,knowinghewasright,butIwantedtohearhimplaymylullabyagainandagain.
Heinsistedoncarryingmeupthestairssinceitwasmybirthdayandall.Itdidn'tmatterhowmanytimesItried
totellhimthatIwastooheavyandthathecouldhurthimself,becauseherefusedtolistenonthatear.
So,Igaveinandlethimcarrymeupstairstothebed.SinceIwasalreadychangedandreadyforbed,Islipped
underneaththecomforterwhileEdwardwalkedtothebathroomtogetready.Emilywasstillsoundasleep.She
wassleepingalittlelongerduringthenightnow,butshestillwokeupeverythreetofourhoursorso.
EdwardcamebacktothebedandIrolledoversothatIwasfacinghim.
"Iloveyou,"Iwhispered,draggingmyfingersthroughhissofthair.
"Iloveyou,too."
HeleanedforwardtokissmeinwhatIthoughtwasjustgoingtobeaquickone,butthenIfelthistonguetrace
mybottomlip.IeagerlyopenedmymouthforhimandmoanedwhenIfelthistongueagainstmyown.
HeshiftedusoversothathewasontopofmeandImovedmyhandstohistonedbackandtriedtopushhim
down.Iwrappedmylegsaroundhimandfelthiserectionpressagainstme.
"Fuck,Iwantyousomuch,baby,"Edwardpantedinmyearwhenhepulledbackfromthekiss.
"Iknow.Me,too,"Isaidback."Butwecan'tdothatyet."
Ireally,really,didwanthim,butIdidn'twanttoriskanythingbyhavingsextooearly.Sure,Ihadreadonline
thatwomenhadsextwoweeksaftergivingbirth,butIwantedtobeonthesafesideandwaituntilafterour
nextdoctor'sappointment.
"Iknow."Edwardsighed,rollingoffofme."Butthatdoesn'tmeanIwantyouanyless."
"Icanstilltakecareofyou,"IsaidshylyandittookaminuteforhimtorealizewhatImeantbythat.
"No,youdon'thavetodothattonight,baby,"hesaid."I'llbeokay."
"You'resure?"Iasked,becauseitcouldn'tbecomfortablesleepingwithanerectionallnightandIreallydidn't
mind.
"I'msure."Hesighedandangledhisheadbeforepressingakissonmyswollenlips.
Imovedandrestedmychinonhischest,saying,"I'msorry."
"Forwhat,baby?"heasked,strokingmyback."Forgivingmeaperfectdaughter?BecauseI'msureashellnot
sorryaboutthat."
"No,I'mnotsorryaboutthat,"Imumbled."I'mjustsorryaboutnotlettingyouhavesexwithmeyet."
"Christ,Bella.Don'tfuckingapologizeforthat.IcanwaitandI'mnotwillingtoriskyourwellbeing,okay?"
"Okay."Inoddedmyheadandburiedmyfaceinhischest,inhalinghisscent.
Iwasgladthathewasn'tpressuringmeintohavingsexbecausehonestly,IhadnoideawhenIwouldbeready
tohavesexagain.Sure,IfelttheneedforEdwardinthatway,butthatwasn'ttheonlythingthatneededtofeel
right.
Iletoutayawn,feelingextremelyexhaustedaftertoday.
"Areyoutired,baby?"Edwardwhispered,stillstrokingmyback.
"Mhm,"Imumbled.
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Hechuckledandstretchedtoturnoffthelightbeforehuggingmetighttohim.
"Goodnightthen,"hesaidsoftly."Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,"Iwhisperedintothedarkness,hopingtogetafewhoursofsleepbeforeEmilywokeup
again.
OnMondaymorning,itwastimefortheonethingIhadbeendreadingeversincewebroughtEmilyhomeit
wastimeforEdwardtogobacktowork.
EmilywassittinginherbouncingseatinthelivingroomasEdwardgotreadytoleave.Ihadbeengiving
myselfapeptalkallmorning,sayingtomyselfthatIcoulddothis.IknewhowtotakecareofEmily.Theonly
differencewouldbedoingitcompletelyaloneforafewhours.Almostlikebabysitting,andthenEdwardwould
beback.
ThatpeptalkwentoutthewindowassoonasEdwardstartedputtinghisshoeson.
"Please,Idon'twantyoutogo,"Isniffled,tryingtohidemycryingsinceIdidn'twanttoupsetEmily.
"Baby,youknowIhaveto,"Edwardsaidinapleadingvoice.
"Iknow,butcan'tyoustayhomeforjustanotherweekortwo?"
"No,butthatdoesn'tmeanIdon'twantto.Becausebelieveme,Bella,Iwanttostayhomewithmygirlsinstead
ofgoingtowork."
Ibitmylip,noddingmyheadandwhisperedinashakyvoice,"I'msorry."
"It'sokay,"hesaid,walkingovertomeandembracedmetightly."Youhavenothingtoworryabout,okay?
You'reagreatmomandyoucandothis.I'llbejustaphonecallawayandbothRoseandAliceaswell."
"Iknow,"Imurmuredagainsthischest.
"You'retooprettytocry,"hewhisperedashepulledbackandwipedmytearsaway.
Itriedtosmileupathimthroughmytearsandhepressedhislipsagainstmineonemoretimebeforesaying,
"Youcandothis."
Inoddedmyhead,deepdowninsideknowingthatIcould,butthatdidn'tmeanthatIwantedtodothisalone.
EdwardwalkedovertoEmilyandkissedhercheekasshestartedupathimwithwideeyes.
"Goodbye,baby.Daddywillbehomesoon,"hesaidbeforestandingupandwalkedovertomeforaquick
peck."Ishouldbehomebynoon."
"Okay,"Iwhisperedandwatchedashewalkedthroughthefrontdoor.
Isighed,tryingtobrushmytearsawaybeforewalkingovertoEmily.Ipickedherupandkissedhermessy
hair.
"It'sjustyouandmommynow,baby,"ItoldherandturnedtoElsa,"Comeon."
IwalkedupthestairswithEmilyinmyarmsandElsafollowinguscloselybehind.Iwalkedtothenurseryand
grabbedthebreastpumpandthebottlesbeforegoingintoourbedroom.IhadplannedtokeepbusysothatI
wouldn'tthinkaboutEdwardtoomuchandtheonlythingIcouldthinkofdoingwastotrybreastpumping.
Nowwasasgoodasever.
IlaidEmilydownonherstomachontopofbedandElsaimmediatelycurledupbesideher.Isatdownbythe
pillowsandleanedbackagainstthem.
"Youwantyourdaddytofeedyouaswell?"Iaskedskeptically,butIgotnoanswer.NotthatIhadactually
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expectedone.Shejustcontinuedtosuckonherpacifierandstareatmewithherblueeyes.
Iopenedtheboxandreadtheinstructions,doingwhatitsaid.Whenthemachinestartedsucking,itfeltodd.I
didn'tlikeit,butIdidn'thateiteither.Besides,itwassomethingthatIneededtodoanyway,whetherIlikedit
ornot.
WhenIwasdone,EmilyhadfallenasleepalongwithElsa.TheylookedsocutetogethersoIsmiledandpulled
myphoneoutandsnappedapictureofthem.IpiledawallofpillowsaroundEmilysothatshewouldn'tfall
out,whichwasquiteimpossibleanywaysinceshewaslyinginthemiddleofthebigbed,butbettersafethan
sorry.Igrabbedherbabyblanketandplaceditoverhersoshewouldn'tgetcoldandtookElsaintomyarms,
afraidthatshewouldwakeEmilyupeventually.
WithElsa,milkandababymonitorinmyhands,Iwalkeddownstairstoputthemilkinthefridge.
IdecidedtocleanthehousesinceIhadsomefreetimeleftandIwasn'ttired.Emilyhadagoodnightyesterday
andonlywokeuptwicesoIhadgottensomesleep.Besides,Ididn'tevenknowifIwouldbeabletosleep
withoutEdward.
EventhoughIkeptbusybydusting,IstillfeltlostsomehowandIfoundmyselfintearseveryonceina
while.
Imanagedtogetthroughtheday,though,andbythetimeIheardEdward'scarpullupthedriveway,Iput
EmilydowninherseatagainsoIwouldn'thurtherorsomething.
Assoonasthefrontdooropened,IthrewmyselfatEdward,wrappingmylegsaroundhiswaistandmyarms
aroundhisneck.Hestumbledbackwardsabit,takenaback,butquicklyrecoveredhimselfandlaughed.
"Welcomehome,"Iwhisperedinhisear.
"It'sgoodtobehome,"hesaid,kissingmytemple."Howwasyourday?"
"Good.I'vecleanedthehouse,"Iannouncedproudlyeventhoughithadtakenalldayandtwobreakssince
Emilywantedsomeattention.
"Lookatmylittlehousewife,"hejoked,ticklingmysides.
"Yeah,I'mevengoingtomakeyoudinnertoday."Ismirkedandlaughedbeforecradlinghisfaceandpressed
mylipsagainsthis."Ourdaughteriswaitingforherdaddy."
"Thenyouneedtoletmego."Hechuckled.
Itfeltgoodtohavehimbackhomeagain,eventhoughthedayhadpassedfairlywell.Sofar,Emilyjust
basicallysleptandatesoshewasprettyeasytodealwith.Shecriedsometimesanditbrokeme,butassoonas
youhadfiguredoutwhatwaswrong,shecalmeddownandeverythingwasokayagain.
Justaspromised,ImadeusdinnerwhilehelookedafterEmily.ItwashardtostayinthekitchenwhenIheard
noisesfromthelivingroomsinceallIwantedwastospendtimewithmyfamily,buttherewastimeforthat
latersoIsuckeditupandfinishedthedinner.
"Couldyoupleasegrabthejuice?"Iaskedhimwhenhecameintothekitchensincethedinnerwasready.
"Sure,"heansweredandcarefullyplacedasleepingEmilyinherseatthatIhadplacedonthekitchentable.
"Whatthefuckisthis?"
HeheldoutoneofthebottleswithmilkandIhadnoideahowhecouldnotknowwhatitwas.
"Milk,"Ianswered.
"Youpumpedyourtits?"heasked.
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"Um,yeah.Ididitthismorningafteryouleft,"Isaid,sittingdowninthechair.
"Fuckingperfect,"hemumbledexcitedly."So,canIfeedhertonight?"
"Ifyoustillwantto,thenyes."Ismiledashecametojoinmeatthetable.
Therewasnodoubtthathewantedit,especiallysincehehadbeentalkingaboutitforweeksnow.Thatwas
whyIfoundhiminthearmchairinthenurserywithEmilyinhisarmslaterthatnight.Atfirst,shewasalittle
fussyabouttakingthebottle,butafteraverypatientEdwardkepttrying,shestartedeating.
Itookapictureofthetwoofthem.Ijustsimplycouldn'thelpmyselfandthatwaswhenIrealizedwewould
needmorethanonephotoalbumforallEmily'spictures.
EPOV
BellaandIweregoingtotherapytoday.ItwasadayIhadbeendreading,butalsoadayIhadbeenlooking
forwardto.Iwascuriousabouthowhertherapistwasandhowsheworked.SheandBellahaddonean
amazingjobsofarsoshealreadyhadmyrespect.
Ithoughttheofficewasgoingtogivemechillsorsomething.Itwasn'tlikeIhadimaginedittobe.Itwaswarm
andwelcoming,almostlikethemovies,butstillnotatalllikeit.
"Please,haveaseat,"Dr.Molinasaid,gesturingtowardthecouch.
IplacedEmilyinhercarseatbyourfeetandsatdownnexttoBella.Shegrabbedmyhandandplaceditinher
lap.Icouldtellthatshewasnervous,andhonestly,sowasI.
"So,Edward,"Dr.Molinastarted."Whydon'tyoutellmealittleaboutyourselfandyourhistorywithBella."
Fuck,that'sthehardestthingshecouldaskfrommetoday,butalsotheinevitablething.
EndNotes:
A/N:Sorrytoleaveitthere.Ihadintendedthischaptertobelonger,butnotthat
longer.Atleastnowyouknowwhatthenextchapterwillbringatherapysession!
**PLEASEREAD**
I'vefinallydoneastoryline(betterlatethannever,right?)sonowIcanfinallytellyou
howmanychaptersthereareleft.I'vegottenthisquestionoverandoveragainwithout
beingabletogiveyouastraightanswer.Well,Icannowannouncethatthereisatotal
of8chaptersleft.3ofthoseareintheoriginalstoryand5chapterswillbelikea
sequel(ora5chapterlongEpilogueifyouratherputitthatway).I'mgoingtotrymy
damnhardesttogetitdonebytheendofthisyear,butIcan'tmakeanypromises.
So,thereyouhaveit.Ihopeyou'resatisfiedwiththeanswer.Itsureashellwillbehard
toletthisstorygo...
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A/N:Firstoff,I'msorryabouttheshortupdate.It'sabout6pagesshorterthannormal,
butasmuchasIhatetoacceptit,thestoryisslowlycomingtoanend.Thereisone
morechapterleft,thenit'sthefirstepiloguebeforewemoveontothe"sequel."
Anyway,thequoteIusedinthelastchapterwasfromTheHoliday:
"It'sChristmasandwe'regoingtocelebratebeingyoungandbeingalive."
Therapy
EPOV
WhatthefuckwasIsupposedtosaytothat?
"Um,mynameisEdwardCullenandI'mBella'shusband,"Ifinallyansweredsincethatwastheeasiestpart.
Thedoctorsmiledandwrotesomethingonherpaperbeforenoddingformetocontinue."And,uh,Ikindof
bulliedherinhighschool."
"Youkindofbulliedher,ordidyouactuallybullyher?There'sadifference,"shesaidsoftly,notinaaccusing
toneasyouwouldhaveexpected.
"Ibulliedher,"Iadmittedinshameandlookeddownatmysleepingdaughter.
Bellasqueezedmyhand,lettingmeknowthatshewasstillthereformeandthatwasafuckingmiracle.Itwas
inthatmomentthatItrulyrealizedhowstrongshewasbecauseIsureashellwouldn'thavestayedwithmeifI
wereinhershoes.Imean,Iruinedherteenageyearsforfuck'ssake.
Itoldthedoctoraboutsomeofmyhistory,bothwithBellaandwhatIdidaftergraduatingfromhighschooland
college.Itwasliketellingherthestoryofmylifeupuntilthispoint.
"TellmeaboutonetimeduringhighschoolthatyouthinkyouhurtBellathemost,"Dr.Molinademanded
gently,lookingupfromhernotes.
"Uh,"Istarted,thinkingreallyhardabouttheanswertothat."ThetimewhereIbasicallypushedheroutofthe
library,andshedidn'tcomebackforafullweek."
Flashback
"Dude,Ihatethisfuckingstudying,"Jamesgroanedasweenteredthelibrary.
"Well,Iratherstudythanfail,"Isaidwithashrugandlookedaroundforanemptytabletositat.WhenI
couldn'tfindany,Icursedundermybreath."Fuck,nofreetable."
"There'sonewecantake,"Jamessaid,pointingatatableinthefarback.
IlookedtoseewherehewaspointingbecauseIsureashellhadn'tseenany.Myeyeslandedonbeautiful
Bella.Yeah,thatwaswhatIwascallinghernowadaysbecauseshewasfuckingbeautifulinherownway.
"It'sfuckingtakenandevenso,there'sonlythreeseatsavailableandtheotherguysarejoiningusinafew
minutes,"Itoldhim.
"So?Shecanfuckingmove."
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Fuck,whywashedoingthingssohardforme?Couldn'twejustsitatatablewhereanybodyelsethanBella
sat?Couldn'twepushanothergirlawayfromthisfuckinglibrary?Someonewhodidn'tloveitasmuchasshe
did.
"Whatever,"Igrumbled,shakingmyheadandfollowedhim.
Isatdownintheseatrightnexttoher,feelinghergoddamnsmellthesmellofstrawberriesandsomething
else,butIpretendedlikeitdidn'tbotherme.IneededtokeepmyacttogetherorIwouldbeindeepshit.
"Dude,IfuckingheardwhatyoudidtoJessicatheotherday,"Jamessaidwithalaugh.
IsawBellastiffenevenmorenexttome.ShehadbeenstifflikeafuckingcanesinceIsatdown,butIdidn't
blameher.
"WhatdidIdothistime?"Iaskedwithabigsigh,openingmyEnglishbook.
"Givingherthreeorgasmsinonefuck,"hesaid,smirking.
"So?"Iaskednonchalantly,notreallycaring.AllIcaredaboutwastostudyforthebigtestlaterthat
afternoon.
"So?Thewholeschoolknowsaboutitnow.Doyoufuckingknowhowharditwillbetogetlaidunlessyoucan
makethechickcumatleastthreetimes?"
"That'snotmyproblem,nowisit?"Iaskedbacksmugly.
Theotherguysstartedtopilein,forcingmetomoveclosertoBellasothattheycouldfitinsomechairsaround
thesmalltable.Bellamovedfurtherandfurtheraway,butshewasstillsittingatthetablereadingwhatlooked
likeWutheringHeights.
Asthelastguyarrivedandwemovedclosertogetheronceagain,Bellabitherlipandgotuptowalkaway.I
lookedafterherassherushedoutofthelibrary.Ifeltapangofguiltatthesight,butIhadnoonebutmyselfto
blameforthat.
"Ithoughtshewouldneverleave,"Jamessaidloudenoughforeveryoneinthelibrarytohead,includingBella
whohadyettowalkthroughthedoors.
"Shewasherefirst,youknow,"Imumbled,unabletokeepmymouthshut.
"So?What'sgottenupyourass,Cullen?"
"Nothing.Iwasjusttellingthefacts."
Endflashback
"Okay,"thedoctorsaid,writingsomeshitdownbeforeturningtowardBella."And,Bella,whattimedid
Edwardactuallyhurtyouthemost?"
What?Wasn'tshegoingtojudgeme?TellmewhatasickfuckerIwas?'Okay,'wasthatallshehadtosay?
Bellalookeddownatherlapandplayedwithmyfingers,seeminglostinthoughtbeforesheansweredina
whisper,"Theweekswhenheignoredmecompletely."
"Wouldyoumindexplainingwhyyouchosethatone?"
"Idon'tknowreally,"Bellaansweredwithashrug."IguessIjustfeltevenworsewhenhecouldn'tevenfind
thetimetosaysomethingtome.Lessworthysomehow.Imean,hehadbasicallysaidsomethingtomeevery
dayinschool,thenallofthesudden,hedidn't."
"Ithought.Ithoughtthatwouldbeanicething,"Isaidconfused.
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"IthinkBellahadsomehowgottenusedtoyourwords,Edward.Itwasfamiliar,"Dr.Molinasaidsoftly.
"Yeah,that'sthewordsIwaslookingfor.WhenyoustoppedIguessyoucouldsaythatitwaslikebreaking
up.EvenifIhavenoideahowitfeelslike,"shesaid,mumblingthelastpart.
"Ididn'tknow"Iwhispered."IthoughtIwasdoingyouafavor."
"Iunderstandthat.IjustguessI'mbeingweirdbecauseI'msureeveryonewouldhavefeltrelievedinthat
situation."
"Everymindworksitsownway,Bella.You'renotweirdatall,"Dr.Molinasaidreassuringly.
"Yeah,you'renotweird,baby."Shesighed,bitingherlipbeforenoddingherhead.
"Okay,let'sgobacktotheincidentyoutoldmeabout,Edward.Whatmadeyoupickthatone?Imean,there
mustbeafewofthemtochoosefrom,"Dr.Molinasaid.
Shewasright.Therewerewaytoomanyincidentstochoosefromandthatfactmademesicktomystomach.
TheonlytwothingsthatseemedtomakemefeeljustthetiniestlittlebetterwasBella'shandinmyownandmy
daughterwhostillwasasleepinherseat.
"BecauseIknewhowmuchshelikedsittinginthatlibrary,"Ifinallyansweredwithaheavysigh."Everyfree
time,sheusedtositthere,readingallthosebooks.Thatday,Ipushedheroutfromhercomfortzone.Thefact
thatIsawhercryinglaterthatdayandthatshedidn'tcomebackforawholeweekafterthatjustmadeit
worse."
ThedoctoronceagainwrotesomenoteswithoutbeforeturningtoBella,"Bella?"
ItwaslikeBellaknewexactlywhatDr.Molinawantedandbegantalking.
"Um,EdwardalreadyknowswhyIcriedthatday,"shebeganandthenturnedtome."Itwasn'tbecauseof
whatyoudid,sostopbeatingyourselfupoverthat.ThereasonIstayedhomewasbecauseIsimplycouldn't
dealafterhearingaboutEmily'sdeath."
"So,Edward.Howdoesitfeeltonotbethereasonshestayedhome?Howdoesitfeeltofinallyknowthe
answertothatafteralltheseyears?"thedoctorcontinued.
HowdidIfeelexactly?
"IguessIfeelrelived,butsadatthesametime,"Iansweredhonestly,playingwiththeringsonBella'sfinger.
"Whyareyousad?"BellaaskedbeforeDr.Molinahadthechance.
"BecauseIfuckinghateseeingyoucryandallthat,"Imumbled.
"I'mokay.I'malrightnow,"shesaidreassuringly."We'reokay."
Inoddedmyhead,bringingourjoinedhandsuptomymouthtokisshers.Iwasunabletospeakatthat
moment,butIknewthatwewereokay.Wehadsurvivedsomethingmostpeoplewouldn't.
"I'vegottosaythatneverinmyentirecareerhaveIstumbledacrossacouplelikeyou.Ihaven'tevenheardof
anythinglikeyou,"Dr.Molinasaidastonished.
"Isthatabadthing?"Bellaaskeduncertainly.
"No,notatall."Thedoctorletoutachucklebeforeshecontinued,"Infact,you'resuchagreatexamplethat
lovecanovercomeeverything.Imean,Edwardhere,youbulliedBellaforsomanyyears,leavingherwith
barelynoselfesteematall.Atthesametime,youaretheonetohelpherbuilditbackup.Itgivesmehopethat
everythingmightnotbeashopelessasisseemssometimes."
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"Well,that'sgood,"Iagreed,nothavingtoseenitfromthatpointofviewbefore.
"Yes,andthenyouhaveyourpreciouslittlegirl,createdfromsuchararelove.Ihavenodoubtinmymindthat
shewillgrowupinalovinghomewithbothherparents."
Ilikedthisdoctor.Astoughasshehadappearedtobeatfirst,shewasreallygood.
"Thankyou.Idon'thaveanydoubtsaboutthateither,"Bellasaid,smilingandsqueezedmyhand.
"Meneither,"Imumbledandsmileddownatmydaughterwhochosethatmomenttowakeupwithawhimper.
Ididn'twanthertostartcryingsoIbentforwardandrockedherseat,cooing,"Shh,daddy'shere,baby."
"Weshouldprobablyleave,"Bellasaidapologetically."Ourtime'supanyway."
"Okay,Bella.Don'thesitatetocallifyoueverneedto,okay?"Dr.Molinasaidaswestoodup.
"Ipromise,"sheanswered.
"Thankyouforhavingmetoday,"Itoldthedoctor,extendingmyhandforhertoshake.
"No,thankyouforcoming,"shesaid,takingmyhandandshookit.
IdroveBellaandEmilyhomeagainbeforegoingbacktowork.Ididn'twanttogoback,butIfuckinghadto
sinceIhadabigmeetingthisafternoon.
"Ilikedher,"Isaidaswesatinthecaronourwayhome.
"Yeah,me,too.I'mgoingtomissher,"Bellasaidwithasigh.
"Youknowthatyoucanseeheragain,right?Thisdoesn'thavetobethelast,"Itoldher,hopingsherealized
that.
"Iknow,butI'mstillgoingtomissheruntilthedayImightneedherhelpagain,"shemumbled,lookingoutthe
window.
"Areyoureallynotbadaboutthattime?"Iaskedandshelookedatmewithaconfusedexpression."You
know,inthelibrary."
"No,"shewhispered,shakingherhead."Youweren'ttheonlyonewhodidthingslikethat."
"Thatonlymakesthingsworse,baby,"Isaid,onceagainstartingtofeelguiltyashell.
"No.Theworstpartaboutitallwasthefeelingofbeinginvisible,butatthesametimealwaysbeinginthe
spotlight."
Wasn'tthatalittlecryptic?HowthehellwasIsupposedtoknowwhatshemeant?
"Pleaseexplain,"Idemandedsoftly,keepingmyeyesontheroad.
"Iwasinvisible.Justlikethattimeinthelibrary.ButIwasn'tinvisibleenoughforyouandeveryoneelseto
leavemealone."
"IIdon'tknowwhattosay,"Itoldherhonestlybecausewhatthefuckwereyousupposedtosayto
somethinglikethat.
Sorry?No,that'snotenough.
"Idon'twantyoutosayanything,"shewhisperedandwentbacktolookingoutthewindow,butshetookmy
freehandandhelditinhers.
IhelpedhercarryingEmilyinsidewhowasnowfullyawakeandscreamingforfood.ItkilledmethatIneeded
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togowhenmybabywascrying.Iwantedtostayhomeandcomforther.
"Iloveyou,"IsaidtobothmygirlsasIwasabouttoleaveagain.
"Weloveyou,too.Don'tweEm?"Bellacooed,tryingtosooththebaby.
Itwasnowonderthathernamemeantbeauty.Assherockedourdaughterinherarms,shehadneverbeen
morebeautiful.Exceptformaybeourlatestweddingday,andthewayshelookedwhenshewasunderneath
me,screamingoutinpleasureaswemakelove.
"Daddywillbehomesoon,"IpromisedandkissedEmily'swetcheek.
Ittookallmywillpowerformetoactuallygetinthecaranddrivebacktotheoffice.
BPOV
Laterthatnight,EdwardandIwerewatchingTVinpeace.Emilyhadbeencryingforwhatfeltlikehoursonce
wefinallygotbackfromtherapy.Itdidn'thelpthatEdwardhadgonebacktoworkeither.Atfirst,Ithoughtshe
wascryingbecauseshewashungry,butshejustcontinuedtocryafterbeingfed.Then,Ithoughtitwas
becauseshemissedEdward,buthecouldn'tcalmherdowncompletelyeither.Eventhoughhemanagedtoget
hercriesdowntosoftwhimpers,shestilldidn'tcalmdownenoughtojustsleep.
Nothinghadhelped,soaftercallingEsme,Ijustheldherandwalkedaroundthehouse.Shehadsaidthat
babiescouldcryandEdwardhadbeenthesame.So,shetoldmetojustholdherandnotfreakoutbecause
therewasnothingIcoulddo.
Iwantedtotakehertothedoctor,butshetoldmenottodosounlessshecontinuedformuchlonger.Ithad
takenalotofefforttojustcalmdownandtrynottobebotheredbymydaughter'sdesperatecries.
EdwardhadsatdownbythepianoandplayedasIwalkedbackandforthwithEmily.Ididn'tknowifitwas
becauseofthemusic,orbecauseshejustcriedherselftoexhaustion,buteventually,afterhoursofcrying,she
finallyfellasleep.
So,wehadbeenhavingalmosttwohoursofpeaceinfrontoftheTV.Ialmostfellasleepcountlessoftimes,
justasEdward.Wewerebothexhausted,butforsomereasonwefoughtagainstitandstayedawake.
"Weneedanewcarseat,"Isaid,sippingmytea.
SinceIwasbreastfeedingandbasicallycouldn'thavecoffeeanymore,Ihadmovedontotea.Itwasn'tasgood
ortastefulascoffee,butitwasagoodsubstitute.
"Why?What'swrongwiththeoldone?"
"Nothing."Ishruggedmyshoulders."It'sjustthatit'sinstalledinyourcar.IwantoneinmineaswellsothatI
cangetaround."
"Butwe'vebeenmanagingitjustfinesofar."
Whycouldn'thejustsaythatitwasokayandthatwecouldgobuyoneassoonaspossible?Whywasthis
argumentevennecessary?
"Fourweeks,Edward.It'sjustbeenfourweeksofmanaging,"Isaidcalmly."Idon'twanttocallyouforaride
ifIjustneedsomemilkwhileyou'reatwork."
"Idon'tmind."Heshruggedhisshoulders."Besides,theVolvoisalotsafertodriveEmilyinthanthattiny
littlecarofyours."
"Edward,youhavetounderstand,Ican'tsitaroundthehouselikeaperfectlittlehousewifeeveryday.Ineedto
goouteveryonceinawhile,"Itriedtoreason.
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"It'snotsafe,Bella,"heargued.
"Iboughtmycarforareasontodriveit.Notforittostandinthegaragelikesomeornament."
"TakemyVolvothen,"hesaidsimply.
"Didn'tyoujusthearme?"
Iwassosickofthissimple,butyetsodamnstubbornargument.Edwardhadbeensounderstandingandcaring
eversincethedaywemetinVegas,sohisbehaviorrightnowsurprisedme.
"Didn'tyouhearme?"heaskedback,usingmyexactwords."Itoldyouitwasn'tsafe."
"MycarisjustassafeasyourpreciousVolvo!"
IhadstartedraisingmyvoiceandtriedmyhardesttocooloffbecauseIhadgrownupinahousewithalotof
arguing,andIrefusedtoletmydaughtergothroughthesameshit.
EdwardwasjustabouttosaysomethingandIknewbythelookonhisfacethatitwasn'tgoingtobesomething
Iwantedtohear.ThatwaswhyIputmyhanduptostophim.
"Idon'twanttohearit,"Isaid,tryingnottoraisemyvoiceagain."Ifyourefusetotakemetothestoreandbuy
one,I'llcallRoseinthemorningandI'llusemyowndamnmoney."
Istoodupandwasabouttoleavewhenhegroaned,"Bella."
Iturnedaroundandsawthathehadanannoyedlookonhisface,probablytheexactsameasIhadonmyface.
"You'reoverreacting,"hefinallysaid.
Thosewordsdidn'tmakethissituationanybetter.Thisargument,orwhateveryouwantedtocallis,wasalmost
worsethanthebigfightwe'dhadaboutThanksgivinglastyear.Becausethistime,itwasn'taboutus,itwas
aboutordaughter.
"No,"Itoldhim."Thisisnotmebeingahormonaloverreactingbitch.Thisisaboutyoubeingan
overprotectiveasshole."
Withthosewords,Ilefttheroomtowalkupstairs.JustasIputmyfootonthethirdstep,Emily'scrieswas
heardoverthemonitor.
Thankyou,baby.
IknewEdwardwouldn'tbothermewhileIfedher,notafterthatargument.Ineededafewminutesawayfrom
him,tryingtocalmdownsoIwouldn'tsaymorehurtfulthingsthanIalreadyhad.EventhoughIknewI
shouldn'thavecalledhimanoverprotectiveasshole,itwasstilltrue.
"I'mhere,baby,"IsaidsoftlyasIenteredourbedroom,turningoffthemonitor.
IpickedherupandsatdowninthearmchairbesidehercribandplacedheronmylapsothatIcouldfeedher.
Sheeagerlylatchedontomyboobassoonasitwasoutofifsrestraints.EdwardleftusalonesoIleanedback
andenjoyedhearingthesucklingnoisesfromEmily.ShehadmademecalmdownandIwasnolongermad,
butIwasstillannoyed.
WhenIwasdone,Iburpedherandchangedherdiaper.Iconsideredtakingashower,butIdidn'twanttoleave
Emily.So,Ilaidusbothdownonthebedheronherstomach,andmecurleduponmysidewatchingher.
ShewasabletoholdherheadupforafewsecondsnowadaysandIcouldn'tbemoreproud.Ihadnoidea
whenbabiesstartedsittingup,talkingorwalkingontheirown,butIwassuremybabydevelopedlikeyou
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"Iloveyou,"Iwhisperedandkissedherdarkbrownhair.
Awhilelater,Edwardcameintotheroom,butIpretendedtobeasleep.Ididn'twanttoargueanymore.Ifelt
himtakeEmilywithabigsighandthentheywerebothgone.
ItookthatmomenttograbthatshowerIhadthoughtaboutearlier.WhileIwaitedforthewatertowarmup,I
glancedatmyselfinthemirror,lookingupanddownmybody.Iwasstillalittlechubbyfromthepregnancy,
butIhadbeenluckysoitwasbasicallyonlymystomachwhohadtakenalltheextraweight.
Icanwalkthataway.
NowthatwehadintroducedEmilytotheoutsideworld,Icouldtakewalkswithhersinceitwassoboring
sittingallaloneinthebighouseallday.Itwoulddousbothsomegoodwithfreshair.
Iwassoexhaustedfromthedaythetherapy,thecryingandthearguing,soonceIwasdonewiththeshower,
Ididn'thesitatebeforegoingtobed.
Sometimelater,Ifeltthebedshiftbehindme,butIdidn'tcare.Iwasn'tgoingtopushhimoutandforcehimto
sleeponthecouch.Hewasanassholetonight,buthewasstillmybaby'sdaddyandmyhusband.Thatwas
alsowhyIdidn'tbotherwhenIfelthisarmsaroundmeandhisbodypressedagainstmyback.Becauseno
matterwhat,Ifeltsafeinhisembrace.Nofightwouldchangethat.
MybodywaswarmandrelaxedwhenIwokeupthenextday.IfeltEdward'sfamiliarbodypressedupagainst
myback.SinceIhadn'tbeenwokenanytimethatnight,IfiguredhemusthavegoneupwithEmily.Thatmade
mefeelguiltyaboutcallinghimanoverprotectiveasshole.
"I'msorry,"Edwardwhisperedintomyhair,probablyrealizingIwasawake.
"Forwhat?"Iaskedwithoutopeningmyeyes.
"Forbeinganasshole."
"I'msorryforcallingyouasshole,"Imumbledback.
Iturnedaroundandwrappedmyarmsaroundhim,nuzzlingmyfaceclosertohisbarechest.Iwasgladthings
hadn'tblownupthewaytheyhadthattimewhenwearguedaboutThanksgiving.Thistime,Iwasproudthat
wecouldsimplyjustforgiveandmoveonwithoutwalkingawaylikewehadthattime.
Edwardchuckledlightlybeforesaying,"Ideservedit."
"No.Imean,youareoverprotective,butyou'renotanasshole."
"IknowIam.IjustIwanthertobesafe,andthethoughtofyourtinycardoesn'texactlyscreamsafe."
"Iknowit'shard,Edward,butthisissomethingyouneedtoletgobecauseshecan'talwaysrideinyour
Volvo."
HesighedandrubbedmybackasIsnuggledclosertohiswarmbody.Iknewthiswaswhereyounormally
wouldputinthatwonderfulmakeupsex,buttherewasababyintheroomonlyafewfeetawayandmylady
partsstillweren'trecoveredenoughforsex.
Soon.
AsifEmilyhadreadmymind,shewokeupwithsoftwhimpers.BothEdwardandIsighed.Ilovedmy
daughtermorethanIeverthoughtwaspossible,butsometimesIjustwantedtolaywithEdwardjusttheway
wedidrightnow.
"I'llgether,"Edwardsaid,pressingachastekisstomylipsbeforepullingawayandgettingup.
"Goodmorning,mylittleprincess,"hecooedashepickedEmilyupfromthecrib.Heplacedheragainsthis
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chestandturnedtome,asking,"Doyouwantmetorundownstairsandfixherabottle,ordoyouwanttofeed
her?"
"Myboobsarereadytoexplode,soIshouldfeedherthistime,"Isaid,sittingupandreachingmyarmsoutfor
her.AssoonasIhadherinmyarms,Isaid,"Thankyouforhelpingherlastnight."
"IlovetofeedhersoIreallydidn'tmind,"heansweredandgotbacktohissideofthebedandwatchedasI
helpedEmilylatchontomyboob."Besides,youdidn'tevenwakeup."
"Iknow,"Isaid,blushinginshamewhenIrealizedIhadn'twokenuptomydaughter'scrying.
"It'snothingtobeembarrassedabout,"hemurmuredandstrokedmycheekwithhisfinger.
"Iknow,butwhatkindofmotheramIwhenIdon'tevenwakeup?"
"Anexhaustedone,"hesaid,kissingmytemplebeforeleaningbackagainsthispillow.
Iwasexhausted,butthatwasabadexcusetowhyIhadn'twokenup.IlookeddownatEmilyandchangedher
positiontotheotherboob.Shewashungryandmynipplesweresoreonceshewasfinallydoneeating.
IgavehertoEdwardsothathecouldburpherwhileIwenttothebathroomtobrushmyteethandusethe
toilet.WhenIgotback,Edwardhadhiskneespushedupandwasleaningbackagainsthispillow.Emilywas
sittinginhislap,restingagainsthisthighs.
"Wecangobuyonetodayifyoustillwantto,"hesaid,lookingdownatEmilyandIknewhewastalking
aboutthecarseat.
"Thankyou."Isighedhappilyandlaybackdownonthebed,cuddlingupagainstEdward.
WegotreadyandpiledupintheVolvotogotothestorewherewehadboughtthelastcarseat.Edwardhad
insistedonbringingtheBabybjrnsothathecouldcarryEmilyinit.Wehadnevergotthechancetouseit
beforetoday,so,whenwestoodattheparkinglotandtriedtoputiton,thingsdidn'texactlygosmoothly.
"Whydotheyalwayshavetomakeshitsofuckingcomplicated?"EdwardgroanedasItriedtoputitonhim.
Alwayswhenhegotfrustrated,orwasextremelyhorny,hegotapottymouth.Ididn'twanttosoundlikehis
mother,soIhadstoppedscoldinghimaboutit.IjusthopedandprayedEmily'sfirstwordwouldn'tbe'fuck.'
"Becauseitshouldbesafe,"Iansweredandfinallygoteverythinginorder.
"Well,it'snotsosafewhenyoudropthebabyjustbecauseitwastoofuckingcomplicatedtoputiton,"he
grumbled,runninghisfingersthroughhishair.
"Ithinkit'sdonecorrectlynow,"IsaidandclimbedintotheVolvotograbEmily.
"Youthink?Baby,I'mnotputtingmydaughterinthisthingunlessyou'reabsolutelysure."
"Okay,I'msure,andifyoudoubtme,thenholdyourhandunderher."
IpickedEmilyupfromherseat.Shewasawakeandwaslookingaroundcuriouslywithbigwideeyes.
"Don'tlistentoaworddaddysaystoday,okay?Hehasadirtymouth,"Itoldher,tryingtosoundstern,butit
was,asusual,impossible.
IhelpedhimstrapEmilyintheBabybjrnandthenwewalkedhandinhandintothestore.Unlikethelasttime
wewerehere,weweren'tcompletelyclueless.Weknewwhatwewantedandwheretofindit.
"CanIhelpyou?"apetitebrunetteaskedusaswestoodbythecarseats.
Asalways,myfirstinstinctwastograbEdward'shandharder,kindofmarkingmyterritory.IknewIdidn't
havetoworry,though,becauseItrustedEdwardwhenhetoldmethatheonlyhadeyesfortwogirlsmeand
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Emily.
Oldhabitsdiehard.
"Yeah,we'relookingforanewcarseatforthislittlegirl,"EdwardfinallyansweredgesturingtowardEmily.
"Nothingtoofancylooking,butgreatquality."
"Okay,she'saboutonemonthold,right?"thegirlaskedandwenodded."Thenwehaveafewoverhere."
Sheledusovertotheseatsshehadbeentalkingaboutandwediscussedtheprosandconsabouteachseat.She
waspatientwithusasweaskedquestionafterquestion.Finally,wesettledforaplainblackone.
Edwardinsistedthathecouldinstalltheseatintomycarallbyhimself.Hehaddoneitoncebeforesohesaid
overandoveragainhoweasyitwouldbeforhimtodoitonemoretime.Only,hecameinonehourlater
cursinglikeasailorandonceagaincomplainingabouthowcomplicatedeverythingwas.
Itriedmyhardesttohidemylaughter,butIcouldn'thelpitsoIlaughedintoEmily'ssmallbody,hopingIcould
hideitatleastenoughforhimnottohear.
OnMondaymorning,EmilyandIgotupwithEdwardsothatwecouldeatbreakfasttogetherandthensaya
propergoodbye.
IwaschangingEmilyandwasjustabouttoputonsomewarmerclothessothatIcouldtakeheroutforawalk
whenmyphonerang.Luckily,Ihaditinthepocketofmyhoodie.
"Hi,Bella,"AlicesaidshylyandthatalonetookmebysurprisebecauseneverbeforehadAliceactedshy
aroundme,oranyoneelseforthatmatter.
"Hi,Alice,"Isaidback,happytofinallyhearfromher.
"Um,Iwaswonderingifyoumaybewantedtograbacoffeeorsomething."
"Sure,"IagreedbecauseIknewthatvoice.
Shewasreadytotalk.
EndNotes:
A/N:So,Aliceisfinallyreadytotalk!
AsforEdward'slittleflashback.Ican'trememberhowmanytimesI'vebeenthrough
that.Thefeelingofbeinginvisibleaspeoplejusttakeoveryourseatwithouteven
acknowledgeyou.It'soneoftheworstfeelingsintheworldanditwashardtodescribe
itfromtheotherside'spointofviewsinceI'vealwaysbeeninBella'sshoes.
AsIsaidintheA/Ninthebeginningofthechapter,thereistwomorechaptersbefore
the"sequel".Theywillbepostedthisyearandthenwe'restartingthe"sequel"inthe
firstweekof2011.
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:IthoughtforawhilethatIhadlostmyreviewers,butthelastchapterprovedthat
Istillhaditinmetogetyoutoreview.Thatfeelsnice:)
Anyway,thequoteinthelastchapterwasfromTheBeatuyandTheBeast:
"It'snowonderthathernamemeantbeauty."
Ihaveanewquotethisweek!Ijustchangedawordinit.Ahint:It'sfromaverygood
TVshowthistime.
Disclaimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplot!Also,thisisfiction.I
don'thaveababysopleasedon'tgethungupondetailsifyoufindthemwrong.
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AssoonasIhungupthephone,IquicklyfinishedputtingEmily'sclothesonbeforeIputherinthenewcar
seat.ThiswouldbethefirsttimethatIwouldusemycarinmonths,andalsoEmily'sfirstcardriveinadifferent
car.
Ittookalittlemoreeffortthanusualtogetherbuckledupinthebackseatsincemycardidn'thaveanydoorsto
thebackseat,buteventuallyIdidit.AsIsatinthedriver'sseat,Icouldn'thelpthegoofysmileonmyface.Ihad
beensoupsetwhenIcouldnolongerdrivemybeauty,butnow,Ifinallycould.
AsIstartedtopulloutofthedriveway,Emilystartedwhimpering.Thatwasnotagoodsign,butshecouldn't
behungrysinceshejustateandshecouldn'thavedonenumbertwosinceIjustchangedher.So,ithadtobe
thatshewaseitherscared,ortired.
"Shh,it'salright.Mommy'shere,baby,"Isaidsoftly,hopingthatshewouldfallasleep.
IhadplanstodropheroffwithEdwardforanhourortwo.Hehadn'tmentionedanymeetingsandIreally
didn'tthinktakingherwithmetoseeAlicewouldbesuchagreatidea.ItwasjustafeelingIhad.IfEdward
didn'thavetime,Ihadnootheroption,though,becausemyguesswasthatRosewascomingtoososhe
couldn'tbabysiteither.
"Hi,Bella,"TanyasaidcheerfullyasIsteppedoutoftheelevatoronhisfloor."Oh,myGod.Emily'swith
you?"
"Yeah,"Isaidwithasmile."She'sheretoseeherdaddy.Ishein?"
"Yes,he'sinhisofficewithEmmett."
"IsitalrightifIgoin,oraretheyinthemiddleofsomethingimportant?"Iaskedhesitantly.
"Oh,no.Itshouldbealright."Shesmiled.
"Thanks,"Isaidandwalkedovertohisofficedoor,knockingsoftly.
Iheardafaint"Comein,"soIcarefullyopenedthedoorandsteppedinside.BothEdwardandEmmettlooked
upwithsurprisedfacesastheysawme.
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"Hi,baby,what'swrong?"Edwardaskedworriedly.
"Nothing'swrong,"Iassuredhim.
"There'smysweetcake,"EmmettbellowedashelookedatEmilywhojuststaredbackathimwithbigeyes.
"Careful,"EdwardsaidasEmmettwentovertoEmilytounbuckleher.
"Ah,daddyEddie'sbeingtooprotective,"EmmettcooedtoEmily.
EdwardgrowledsoIwalkedovertohimandstoodbetweenhislegs,placingmyhandsoneithersideofhis
face.
"Relax,"Isaidsoftly,kissinghimonhissoftlips.
Hesighed,wrappinghisarmsaroundmywaistandburiedhisfaceinmystomach.
"Ifnothing'swrong,thenwhyareyouhere?"heasked."NotthatI'mnothappytoseeyou."
"Alicecalled.ShewantstotalksoIjustcameheretoaskifyoucouldwatchEmilyforanhourortwo.Ifyou're
notbusythatis."
"No,itshouldbefine.It'saratherslowdayasfarasmeetingsgoes.Ifanythingcomesup,Emmettcantakeit,"
hesaid,lookingovertohiscousinwhowalkedaroundtheofficewithEmilyinhisbigarms,explainingtoher
aboutallthepaintingsintheroom.
"Idon'twantittoslowdownyourwork,"Isaidhesitantly.
"It'snotaproblem,baby.I'mmorethanhappytospendafewextrahourswithmydaughter."
ItwasheartbreakingtoleavewithoutEmily.ItwouldbethefirsttimeIspentmorethanonehourawayfrom
her.IknewIneededtogo,though,andthatitwouldn'tbethefirsttimeinlifethatIwouldspendtimeaway
fromher.IleftwithapromisetocomebackassoonaspossibleandasloppykissonEdward'spart.
WhenIgottoStarbucks,RoseandAlicewerewaitingoutside,talkingtoeachother.Neitherofthemlooked
differentsotheywereprobablynottalkingaboutwhateverAliceproblemwas.
"Hi,sorryI'mlate.IneededtodropEmilyoffwithEdward,"IsaidapologeticallyasIgavethembothahug.
"No,problems.Let'sordersomethingtodrink,"Rosesaid.
Weallorderedourdrinks.BeingatStarbucksalwaysmademewantcoffee,butsinceIwasstillbreastfeeding,I
wouldhavetokeeptoteainstead.Wedecidedtositinacornerwhichwasalittlesecludedandwesippedour
drinks,waitingforAlicetotalk.
"Um,IknowI'vebeenactingalittlestrangelately"shebeganhesitantly."It'sjustthatJasperandIhave
beenhavingsometroubleconceiving."
"Oh,honey,I'msosorry,"Isaid,rememberinghowitfeltwhenmyfirstpregnancytesthadbeennegative.
"Youknowthingslikethatcantaketime,Alice,"Rosesaidsoftly."Imean,EmmettandIhadbeentryingfora
fewmonthsuntilweweresuccessful."
Okay,Ihadn'tknownthat.IhadalwaysfiguredthatLilywasasurprisefromtheirhoneymoon.Kindofalittle
honeymoonbaby.Iguessmyfriendsdidn'tshareeverythingafterall,andhereIthoughtIkneweverydetail
abouttheirmoreprivatelifesincetheyalwayssharedit.
"Igotridofmybirthcontrolthedayafterourwedding,"Alicewhisperedquietly."Iwantedtheclichmarried
straightaftercollegeandahoneymoonbaby.Allthatstuff.IguessI'vegoteverythingbutthebaby."
Thatwastwoyearsoftryinganddisappointment
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"Haveyoueverthoughtaboutadoption?Imean,therearesomanykidsouttherewhowouldbeluckytohave
you,"Itriedcarefully,notwantingtoupsether.
"That'smostlythemainreasonastowhyIwantedtotalktoyou.Imean,it'sembarrassingtoadmitthatIcan't
functionlikeanormalwoman,"Alicesaid,moretearstravelingdownhercheeks.
"Oh,sweetie,"Rosesaidandbroughtherinforanotherhug.
"Soum,yeah,abouttheadoption.JasperandIhavefilledoutallthepapersandareonlywaitingtoget
approved.I'vereadallthisstuffaboutChinesegirlsandhowthey'resometimesnotwantedbytheirparents,and
ifit'spossible,Iwanttosaveatleastoneofthem."
Thattookmebysurprise.NotthefactthattheywereadoptingbecauseIwassurethattheywouldbegreat
parents,butIwasupsetaboutthefactthatshehadn'tsaidasinglewordaboutit.IknewitwasherandJasper's
decisionandthatIwasbeingahypocritesinceIhadbeenkeepingthingsfromthemalongtime.Still,ithurt
thatshehadn'tevenmentionedadopting.
"I'mgladyoutoldus,"Isaidandwrappedmyarmsaroundhertinyframe.
"It'shard,though.AsmuchasIwanttoadopt,apartofmestillhopeforalittlebabyonmyown,"shesaid
withasadsmile.
"Whosaysyouneedtostoptrying?Ifithappens,ithappens.Thenyou'llhavetwowonderfulbabies."
"Wouldn'tthatbetoomuchtodealwith?"
"It'sworthit,"RosesaidandInoddedinagreement.
IfIgotpregnantagaininthenextfewmonths,Iwouldn'tdoubtaboutkeepingitbecauseasmuchworkEmily
was,itwasworthitintheendoftheday.
"IjustwanttoapologizeforhowI'veacted.IthasjustbeensohardwhenJasperandI'vetriedforsolongand
theneveryonearoundussucceededwithsomuchlesstrying."
"It'sokay.Themainpartisthatyoufinallytoldusandnotkeepingitinsideanymore.Iknowhowrelivedyou
mustfeel,"Isaidwithasmile,knowinghowitfeltwhenIhadfinallytoldthemeverythingaboutEmily.
"Yeah,totally."
Alicecontinuedtotalkabouttheadoptionthatshehopedon,butshesaiditcouldtakeweeks,ifnotmonths
beforetheywerefinallyapproved.Thentheprocessoffindingababycouldtakeevenlonger.Itsoundedlikea
lotofwork,butlikeRosehadsaidearlier,itwasworthit.Beingpregnantwasalotofworktoo.
Shepromisedtostaymoreopenabouteverythingnowthatitwasalloutofthebag.Ihopedthatmeantthatshe
wasn'tgoingtoactsadaroundmybabyanymorebecausethathurt,nomatterwhatherproblemwouldhave
been,ithurt.
Afteranhourandahalf,IknewIneededtogetbacktoEdwardandpickEmilyup.Shewasprobablyhungry
andEdwardmostlikelyneededtogetsomeworkdone.So,Ileftthecoffeeshopwithapromisetomeetthem
upforourregularWednesdaycoffee,butalsotobringEmilywithme.
WhenIgottoEdward'soffice,TanyawassittingatherdeskwithEmilyinherarms.Itmademefeelboth
betrayedandangryeventhoughIknewTanyawouldneverharmherandIactuallylikedherasaperson.It
wasjustthattherehadbeenareasonformetoleaveEmilywithEdwardandthatwasbecauseIdidn'twanta
strangertoEmilywatchher.Yet,hereshewasinthearmsofastranger.
"Where'sEdward?"Iaskedwithoutevensayinghello.
Heshouldhavecalledmeifhewastoobusytowatchher,sowhyhadn'thecalled?IknewIhadnomissed
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callsbecauseIhadkeptmyphoneclosetomeincasehewouldhavecalled.
"Oh,hi,Bella!"Shesmiledatme,bouncingEmilyinherarms."Hejustwenttothebathroomaminuteago."
Herwordscausedmetobreatheasighofrelief.Hehadn'tjustleftherwithTanyatoworklikeIhadassumed.
God,nowIjustfeelstupid.
"She'ssuchacutie.I'mgoinghometotrytotalkGarrettintohavingababy,"shesaidwithasoftlaugh.
"Yeah,she'samazing,"ItoldherproudlyandwasjustabouttowalkovertohersothatIcouldtakeEmily
whenwewereinterrupted.
"Hi,baby,"Edwardsaid,steppingoutfromhisoffice."Ididn'tthinkyouwouldbebacksosoon."
HewalkedovertomeandgavemeapeckonmylipsbeforesteppingovertoTanyaandgrabbedEmilyfrom
herarms.
"ItoldyouIwouldbebackinanhourortwo,"Itoldhim,lookingatEmilywhowasn'tsleepingforonce.
"It'sbeenthatlongalready?Itfeelslikeyoujustbroughtherhere,"hesaidwithapout.
"Yes,it'sbeenalmosttwohours."Ilaughed."SoIshouldgetEmilyhomeandfeedher."
"ButIdon'twantyoutogo,"hesaidwithanotherpoutwhichonlymadehimlookcute.Ididn'tsaythat,
though,knowinghowmuchhehatedbeingcalledcute.
"Youneedtowork,Edward.Besides,she'llbetherewhenyougethomeinafewhours.SowillI,Ipromise."
IttooksomecoaxingandafewmorepromisesbeforeEdwardfinallyletusleavehisoffice.Itfeltgoodtobe
reunitedwithmydaughtereventhoughIhadonlybeengonefortwohours.Thatfeelingdidn'tlastlong,
though.Ihadfedher,changedherandputherdownforhernaplikeIusuallydid.Thenhellbrokelooseand
thecryingstarted,andIwasunabletodoathingaboutit.
Itriedwitheverythingwalkingaroundwithher,playingTwinkleTwinkleonthepianoandIeventriedto
watchourweddingDVDsothatshecouldhearEdward'svoicesincehewasn'tpickinguphisphone.Nothing
worked.
BythetimeEdwardfinallywalkedthroughthefrontdoor,IfeltlikeIwasgoingtoexplode.
"Here,takeher.Idon'tknowwhattodo,"IsaidandhandedEmilytoaverysurprisedEdward.
TearswerestreamingdownbothmineandEmily'scheeksatthispoint.Ifeltliketheworstmotherintheworld
anditdidn'thelpwhenshecalmeddownassoonasEdwardstartedbouncingherinhisarms.
"See?Shehatesme,"Icriedandquicklyturnedaroundtowalkupthestairs.
Irushedupstairstoourbedroomandclimbedinsidethebed.Elsajumpedupandnuzzledhernoseagainstmy
face,probablysensingthatIwassad.Ipulledthecomforteroverourheadsandhuggedhertinybodytomelike
alittleteddybear.
Ifeltthebeddipdownbehindme,butIdidn'tremovethecomforterfrommyface.IknewIwasactingchildish,
butithurtlikehellwhenEmilypreferredherfatherafterIhadhelplesslytriedtocomforthersinceIgotback
fromStarbucks.
"Shedoesn'thateyou,Bella,"Edwardsaidsoftly,tuggingonthecomforter.
"Thenwhyhasshebeencryingallafternoonandthenstopsassoonasshe'sinyourarms?"Iasked,finally
pullingthecomforterdownenoughtoseehimsittingbesidemewithEmilyonhischest.
"Maybeshejustmissedherdaddy,"hetried,onlymakingmefeelworse.
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"Yeah,it'smeshedoesn'tlike.Notyou."
"Hey,don'tbelikethat.Youknowshedoesn'thateyou,"hereasoned.
"Thenwhatisit?AmIabadmother?"
"No,"hesaidalmostforcefully."Listen,andlistengood,Bella.Yourdaughterdoesn'thateyouandyou'renot
abadmother.Abadmotherwouldn'tspendalldayslongtakingcareofthebabyandshesureashellwouldn't
havetriedherhardesttogetthebabytocalmdownforhours."
Okay,nowIjustfeltguiltyforlashingoutonhimforbarelyanyreason.
Inoddedmyhead,knowingthathewasright.Itstillhurt,though,butIhadtothinkaboutallthosemoments
thatweregreat.Likefeedingher.Thatwasmyspecialbondtoher,somethingEdwardwouldneverhavethe
wayIdidsincehecouldonlyfeedherwiththebottle.
Emilywasmostlikelyexhaustedfromhercryingfitandfellasleepwithnoproblemsthatnight.Hopefully,she
wouldsleepforatleastfourhoursbeforeshewokeupagain.Shehadbeengettingintoaniceroutine
nowadays,butyouneverknewifshedecidedtobreakit.
"WouldyoustilllovemeifIwasn'tthemotherofyourchild?"Iasked,lookingupattheceilingwhenEdward
andIhadturnedinforthenight.
"Whatthehellareyoutalkingabout?"heaskedback."OfcourseIwould!"
"Sorry,"Iwhispered,takenabackbyhisforcefultone.
"No,I'msorry,Bella."Hesighed."Idon'tloveyoujustbecauseyougavemeaperfectdaughter.Although,I
doloveyouevenmorethanbeforejustbecauseofthat.Butthatdoesn'tmeanIdidn'tloveyoubefore."
"Okay."Inoddedmyheadandturnedtofacehim."Thankyou."
Threeweekslater
"Baby,youneedtodothissoonerorlater,"Edwardgroaned.
"Yeah,Iknow,butmaybeIshouldfeedherfirst.Youknowhowfussyshecanbewiththebottle,"Isaid
worriedly.
"Iknow,butIalsoknowthatyoufedherhalfanhouragoandthatshe'sasleep,"hesaidpatientlyandthen
sighedwhenhesawthatIwasclosetotears."Bella,it'sbeenseven,seven,weekssincewegotsomealone
time.Weneedthis."
InoddedbecauseIknewhewasright.Ijusthadahardtimetrustingmybabywithsomeoneelse.Itdidn't
matterthatitwasCarlisleandEsme.Itwasstillhard.
"Okay,um,allherdiapersareinthenursery.Therearebottlesinthefridgeandbesurenottoheatittoomuch
becausethenshe'llgetaburn.Oh,andbesuretotuckherinwiththebabyblanket,somehowthathelpsher
sleep.Andthenherpacifier"IrambledbeforeEdwardputhishandovermymouth.
"Baby,stop.Theynowallthisbecauseyou'vealreadytoldthemtwiceandwrittenanotethat'shangingonthe
fridge."
"Sorry,"Imumbledagainsthishandandheremovedit.
Itwasatearygoodbye,butsomehow,wemanageditandEdwarddroveustothehotel.Itfeltstrangetoliveat
ahotelwhenourhousewasjustfortyminutesaway,butIknewwhatthisnightwouldentailandIdidn'twanta
babytointerruptuseveryfiveminutes.
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Itwasbarelytwoo'clockintheafternoonwhenwehadeverythingsettledinourroom.Ihadnoideawhat
Edwardhadplannedforthisdayandthatkindofexcitedme.Wewererarelyoutondates,nowevenmore
rarelysincewehadEmilysoitfeltnicetobeoutevenifImissedherlikecrazy.
Edwardtookmetotheaquarium.IhadtoldhimsomanymonthsagothatIhadbeenafraidofgoingincaseI
wouldfallin,butnowthatIwasfairlycomfortablearoundwater,Iwantedtogo.Icouldn'tbelievehowhe
couldremembersomethingIhadjustmentionedinbypassing.
"Wowit'ssoamazing,butscaryatthesametime,"Isaid,amazedwhileIlookedupattheceilingandallthe
fishesaboveus,andgrabbedEdward'shandharder.
Hejustchuckledandledusforward,makingsurethatwedidn'tbumpintoanyonesinceIwastoobusy
watchingallthebigfishesswimmingaboveourheads.
"WeshouldtakeEmilyheresomedaywhenshe'solder.Ibetshe'dloveit,"Edwardsaidthoughtfully.
"Yeah,I'msureshewould,"Isaid,feelingalittlesadaboutbeingawayfromherandIfelttheurgetocallEsme
andseehowshewasdoing.Itwouldhavetowaituntildinner,though,sinceEdwardandIhadagreednotto
actlikeRoseandEmmett,andcalleveryfiveminutes.
"Comeon,thepenguinsarewaiting,"Edwardsaid,tuggingonmyhand.
"There'spenguinstoo?"
"Yeah,socomeon."
WespenthoursattheaquariumandIneverstoppedtobeamazed.Allthesefishesfascinatedmeandbecause
ofmyfear,Ihadneverbeenabletoseethemlikethisbefore.
WhenEdwardfinallymanagedtodragmeawayfromthefishes,hetookmetothehotelrestaurant.Ifeltalittle
underdressedinmyjeansandtunic,butEdwardkeptinsistingthatIlookedfine.
"Howwasit?"heasked,takingabiteofhisownfood.
"Delicious,"Isaidwithasmileandreachedouttheforkforhimtotaste."Tryit."
Ihadorderedsimplespaghettiwithsomedelicioussauceanditreallywasgreat.Afterbeingpregnant,you
couldsaythatIhadwidenedmytastebudsandnowadays,IcouldeatmorethanMcDonald'sfood.Edward
hadpromisedthatwewouldstopbyonourwayhometomorrow,though.
"I'mjustgoingtousetheladiesroom,"Isaid,excusingmyselfbeforestandingupwhenwewerefinished.
"Okay.I'lljustpayandI'llseeyoubytheexit,okay?"
"Sure.I'llberightback."
ImadesureIwasoutofsightbeforeIpulledmyphoneout.IjustneededthisonecallandIwouldbealright.
AtleastthatwaswhatIkepttellingmyself.IknewIwouldwanttomakemorecallsbeforewegothome
tomorrow,butknowingwhatwasgoingtohappenwhenwegotbacktotheroom,itjustfeltwrongtocallthen.
ItwasEsmewhopickedup,luckilyformebecausesheunderstoodwhatIwasfeeling.NotthatCarlisledidn't,
butIguessitwaseasierforamothertounderstandanothermother'sfeeling.SheletmeknowhowEmilyhad
beenandIwasrelievedwhenshetoldmetherehadn'tbeenanymajorincidents,likeoneofhercryingfits.I
wouldhavegonehomeintheblinkofaneyeifthathadbeenthecase,andEdwardwouldhavetoo.Our
daughterwouldalwayscomebeforeourownneeds.
IneededtoendthecallafterIhadsaidafewwordstomybabybecauseEdwardwaswaiting.ItoldEsmenot
tobesurprisedifoneofuscalledatleastonemoretimeduringthenight.
Whenwegotbacktoourroom,Iquicklytookashowertogetridofthemakeupandhairspray.Edwardjoined
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me,buttherewasn'tanyfunnybusinessyet.WhenIwasdone,Iputonarobe,brushedmyhairandwentout
inthechillyaironthebalconytowatchtheview.ItwasamazingandyoucouldseetheSpaceNeedlefrom
there.Sometimes,Imissedlivinginthecity,butIwashappytohavegottenawayfromthesmogandtraffic.
Ifeltapairofarmsaroundmywaist,embracingme.IsmiledandmovedmyhandstocoverEdward'sand
enjoyedthefeelingofhimpressedupagainstme.
"Mm,thatfeelsnice,"Imoanedsoftlyashekissedmyneckandangledmyheadsothathecouldhavebetter
access.
"Andyoutastegood,"hemumbled,nibblingsoftlyatmyskin.
Ifeltoneofhishandsmoveupandslidinsidemyrobe,coveringoneofmyboobs.Iknewwherehewasgoing
withthis.
"Notouthere,Edward.Idon'twantpeoplewatching,"Iwhisperedsinceanyonecouldpracticallyjustlookup
andseeus.
"Oh,yeah,you'reright,"hesaidashejustrealizedwewerestilloutsideonthebalcony.
Hepickedmeupandthrewmeoverhisshoulder,causingmetosquealloudlybeforelaughingathim.
He'seager.
Hethrewmedownonthebed,causingmetobouncealittle.HiseyesweredarkwithlustandIrealizedmy
robehadslippedoffmyshoulder,revealingalmostmywholeleftboobtohim.Hegrowledandcametolieon
topofme,pressinghislipsfirmlytominebeforelettingthemtraveldownmyjawandneck.
Ibarelyfeltasheuntiedmyrobeuntilhetriedtogetitoffofme.Idecidedtohelphimandsatupsothathe
couldremoveit.
"Sofuckingbeautiful,"hemurmured,causingmetoblushforsomereason.
Hepushedmebackdownandtookmyrightnippleintohismouthandstartedsucking.Itwinnedmyfingersin
hismessyhairandmoanedatthesensation.
"Youtastesofuckingsweet,baby,"hemumbledagainstmyboob.
Ineverreallyunderstoodwhyhekeptinsistingontastingmymilk.Itdidn'texactlybothermebecausehemade
itfeelnice,butlikeIsaid,Ijustneverunderstoodwhyhewasdoingit.
Hecontinuedtosuckonmynipples,takingturnssotheotherboobwouldn'tfeelleftout.Hiswords,notmine.
Thenhecontinuedtokisshiswaydownacrossmybellyandmylegs.WhenhegottoPromisedLand,Istarted
gettingalittleworried.Especiallywhenhestartedteasingmyentrancewiththetipofhisfinger.
"I'mnotloose,amI?"Iaskeduncertainlyandslightlyembarrassed.
"Whatdoyoumean?"
"Youknow.Downthere.AmIloose?Imean,ababywaspushedoutalmosttwomonthsago.Itmusthaveleft
somedamages?"
"No,baby.You'reperfectandtight.Sothere'snoneedtoworry,"hesaidwithareassuringsmile."Wait,you
meanyouhaven'ttouchedyourselfsincegivingbirth?"
Ishookmyheadandsaid,"No,theonlytouchinghascomefromyouandthatwasbeforeIgavebirth."
"Wow,"hemumbledandwentbacktokissingtheinsideofmythighs.ItfeltsogoodthatIcouldn'tstopthe
moanscomingoutofmymouth.
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"Mm,Edward,"ImoanedloudlyasIfinallyfelthistonguetraceupanddownmyslit.
"You'resowetforme,baby,"hesaidapprovinglyandstartedsuckingonmyclit.
IthadbeentoolongandIknewIwasn'tgoingtolastverylongandIthinkheknewthattoo.
"Alwaysforyou,Edward,"Itoldhim.
Hecarefullyslidoneofhislongfingersinsideofmeandcurledit,hittingthatwonderfulspotthatalwaysmade
mecomeundone.
"Edward,please,"IbeggedwithoutreallyknowingwhatitwasexactlythatIbeggedfor.
"Hmm,what,baby?"hemurmured,sendingvibrationsthroughmysensibleflesh.
"More.Please,"Ibeggedagain.
Hechuckledandaddedanotherfinger,stretchingmefurther.IknewnowthatIwasn'tloosedownthere
becauseIwassureitwouldn'tstretchlikethisifIwasandthatmademerelieved.Ihadn'tbeendisfigured.
"Close"IwhisperedasIfeltthefamiliartinglinginmybody.
"Iknow.Justletgo,"hesaid,onceagainsuckingonmyclitwhilehepumpedhisfingersinandoutofme.
"Holyshit!"IscreamedoutasIclenchedaroundhisfingers.
Hecontinuedtolickmeandthenmovedontokisseveryinchofmythighs,stomachandboobsbeforefinally
settlingonmylips.IcouldstilltastemyselfonhislipsandthatwassomethingIhadgottenusedtosincewe
startedhavingsex,butIwouldneverunderstandhowhecouldwanttotastemedownthere.
WhenIhadcalmeddownenough,IturnedoverandpushedEdwarddownonhisbackandkissedhim
feverishly,wantingtofeeleveryinchofhismouth.
Ikissedmywaydownhisbody,hishardchestandabs,feelinghismusclestwitchundermytouch.Ikisseda
trailfromonehiptotheotherbeforesittinguptoremovehisboxers.Hehelpedmebyliftinghisassfromthe
bed.Assoonastheboxerswereoff,hisgloriousdicksprangfreeandIsmiledatthesight.Ihadbeenlooking
forwardtothisjustasmuchashehad.
Ibentdownandgavetheheadasoftkiss,lickingtheprecumthathadescaped.IheardhimhissandIsmiled
evenwidertomyself.
"Baby,pleaseIneedyousofuckingmuch,"hepleadedandIlovedhearinghimlikethisbecauseitwasallme.
Honestly,Ihadwantedtomakehimfeelasgoodashehadmademefeeljustminutesago.But,lookingupat
hisface,Iknewhewouldn'tbeabletolastifIwentanyfurther.Plus,Iwantedhimnow.
"Thentakeme,"Ichallenged.
"JesusChrist,"hemoaned.
Ilaydownonmybackandreachedmyhandoutforthedrawerinthenightstand.
"Here,"Isaid,handinghimaboxofcondoms.
Ithadbeenembarrassingtobuythem,especiallysinceIhadnoideawhatsizeorbrandtoget.Irefusedtorisk
anotherpregnancy,though.Notthissoon.
"What'sthis?"Edwardaskedconfused.
"Um,condoms,"Isaid,statingtheobvious.
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"Iknowthat,butwhydoweneedthem?"
"BecauseIjuststartedonthepillandI'mnotsureifit'seffectiveyet.So,weneedtouseacondombecauseI
don'twanttogetpregnantbyyoursuperspermagain."
"Justtogetthisstraight.Youdon'teverwanttogetpregnantagain,oryoudon'twanttogetpregnanttonight?"
heasked,sittingbackup.
Ireallydidn'twanttohavethisconversationrightnow.AllIwantedwastoenjoythisnightofbeingalone
withouthavingtoargueorhavingbabycriesinterruptingus.
"Edward."Isighed."Evenyouhavetoadmitthatitwouldbetoosoontohaveanotherchildrightnow.Imean,
Emilyisjustsevenweeksold.That'snoteventwomonths."
"Iknow,butyoudidn'tanswermyquestion."
"Idon'twantababyrightnow,"Iansweredtruthfully."But,maybesomedayinafewyears."
"Okay,"hemumbledandleanedforwardtogivemeakiss."Icanpullout,though."
"I'mnottrustingyoursuperspermthistime,"Isaidwithateasingsmile.
Hepoutedandsatupsothathecouldrollthecondomon.Ifoughttheurgetolaughathimbecausehelooked
justlikeakidwhohadn'tgottenhisway.Iknewitwouldonlypisshimoff,though,andIwasn'tgoingtoforce
himintousingitforever.
"Fuck,Ihaven'tusedacondominoverayear,"hemutteredashepullediton.
"Ipromiseitwon'tbeforever,Edward."
"I'llholdyoutothat."
"I'mcountingonit."
Helaydownontopofme,betweenmylegsandItriedtopushhimascloseaspossible,wantingtofeelhis
weightonme.Heproppedhimselfuponhiselbows,though,sothathewouldn'tcrushme.
Helinedhimselfupwithmyentranceandbentdowntokissmeasheslowlypushedforward.ItfeltlikeIwasa
virginalloveragain.Okay,maybeitdidn'thurtthatmuch,butitwasclose.Therewasaburningsensation
flowinginmynetherregionsandIcouldn'thelpbutwinceandhiss.ThatmadememadbecauseIwantedthis
somuch.Ithadbeenwaytoolongforbothofuswithoutthisspecialcontact.
"Areyouokay,baby?"heaskedworriedly,stoppinghisactions.
"Yeahit'sjustthatyou'rebiggerthanIrememberandit'sbeenawhile,"Istammered,feelingmycheeks
turnred.
"I'msorry,"hesaid,kissingbothmycheekssoftlywithoutmovinginsideme.
"No,don'tbesorry.Justgivemesometimetoadjust."
"Okay,"hesaid,kissingbothmyeyelids."Takeyourtime.We'reinnorushwhatsoever."
Icouldtellthathewashavingahardtimekeepingstill,butthatonlymademelovehimmorebecausenomatter
whathisneedwas,healwaysputmefirst.
Thepainwasn'tthatbadanymoresoItoldhimtopushforward,andhehappilydid.Hestoppedwhenhewas
fullyburiedinsidemeandletoutagruntbeforerestinghishead,facedown,nexttomine.Itfeltgoodtobethis
stretchedagain,feelingthisspecialconnectionwasoverwhelmingandIfoughttheurgetocry.
"Youcanmovenowifyouwant,"Iwhisperedsoftly,strokinghishairwhenIfeltthepainsubside.
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"Fuck.Ijustneedaminute,baby,orI'mgoingtocumrightnow."
Afteralittlewhile,heslowlystartedpullingoutbeforepushingbackinagain.Hewasmovingatanagonizing
slowpaceandIwantedmore,Iwantedtofeelmore.
"Faster,Edward,"Imoaned.
Idugtheheelofmyfeetintohisdeliciousbuttockstotrytogethimtomovedeeper.Itearnedacursefromhim
ashespedupalittle.Theonlysoundsintheroomwereourmoansandgruntsfollowedbyskinmeetingskin.I
hadmissedthosesounds.
"You'resofuckingtight,"hepanted.
"It'syouwho'sbig,"Isaid,smilingbecauseIknewhowmuchhelikeditwhenIcomplimentedonhissize.
Afterawhile,hespedupagainandbentdowntokissmyboobs.ItsentsignalsdowntomyladypartsandI
wasreadytoburst.
"I'msofuckingclose,Bella,"hegruntedinmyearandIfeltashisthrustsgotshallower.
"Mm,me,too,"Imoaned,feelingthetighteninginmystomach.Ijustneededthatfinalpush."Please,touch
me."
HeknewexactlywhatImeantandIdidn'tneedtoasktwicebeforehishandsmoveddowntowherewewere
joinedandstartedrubbingmyclit.ItonlytookafewsecondsbeforeIexplodedaroundhimanditwasthemost
intenseorgasmIhadeverfeltinmylife.
"Edward!"Iscreamedandheprobablygottinnitusafterthatsincehehadhisheadrightnexttomine.
"Fuck,"hecursed.
IfeltmybodygoslackandevenifIwantedtohelphimovertheedge,Icouldn'tgetmybodytomove.He
continuedhisthrustsforalittlewhileandIwassurethatifhekeptthingsup,Iwouldhaveatleastonemore
orgasmbeforethiswasover.
"Ican'tholditanylonger,"hemoaned.
"Thenletgoforme,Edward,"Iwhisperedinhisear,grabbinghishairthewayhelikedit.
Whenhefinallyletgo,hecollapsedontopofmeandIlovedeverysecondofit.First,Iwastheonewhohad
donethattohimandthatmademeproud.Second,herarelyputallhisweightonme,especiallysinceIgot
pregnantandIhadalwayslovedhavinghimovermelikeablanket.Itmademefeelsafesomehow,even
thoughitwashardertobreathe.
"God,Iloveyousomuch,Bella,"hewhisperedintomyear,stillnotmovingexceptforhishardbreathing.I
neverwantedtolethimgo.
"Iloveyou,too,"Iwhisperedback,caressinghisbackwithmyhands.
EPOV
IcouldtellthatBellahadfallenasleepundermeandasmuchasIwantedtostaylikethis,IknewIneededto
pulloutofhersoonerorlater.
ShewhimperedasIpulledout,butshedidn'tappeartohavewokenup.Instead,shejustturnedoveronherside
andnuzzledherfaceintothepillow.Ikissedhertempleandgotuptogetridofthefuckingcondom.Ihatedit,
butatthesametime,IunderstoodBella'sreasoning.AsmuchasIwantedanotherkid,Emilywasahandful
fornowatleast.
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WhenIhadcleanedmyselfup,Ipulledoutmyphoneanddialedmymom'snumber.Iwantedtotalktomy
babygirl.IhadseenBellasneakoffattherestaurant,butIwasquietproudofmyselftohavelastedthislong
withoutcallingher.Iknewitwouldonlymakeitharder.
"Edward?Iseverythingalright?"Momasked,notevenbotheringwithsayinghello.
"No,Mom.Everything'sfine.Ijustwantedtotalktomybaby."
"Oh,ofcourse,"shesaidwithalaughasifsheknewexactlywhatIwanted."She'sasleep,though,asyou
shouldbe."
"Oh,okay,"Isaidwithdisappointment,butthenIrealizedshewasrightitwaslateandEmilyshouldbe
asleep."Canyouatleastsneakinandtakeapictureofherandsendittome?Iwanttoseemyprincess."
"Okay,honey.I'lldothat."
Wetalkedsomemore.ShekeptaskingquestionsaboutwhatBellaandIhadbeendoingwhileIaskedher
questionsaboutEmily.Eventuallythough,Igottooimpatientandwehungupsothatshecouldsendapicture
tome.
Thepicturemademesmileandmybodytoacheoflonging.Iwantedtoholdmylittleangelinmyarms,feeling
herwarmbodyandhersoftbreathing.InthepictureMomhadtaken,shewassleepingonherbackwithher
handsrestingoneithersideofherface,almostlikeshewasreachingaboveherheadforsomething.Herold
pacifier,theoneIlovedthemost,hadbeenreplacedwithanotherpinkonewithacrownonit.Bellahadsaid
thatitneededtobereplacedeveryonceinawhile.Ihadboughtanewone,though,exactlyliketheoldone.
God,Imissher.
AtleastIhaveoneofmygirlswithme.IturnedaroundandsmiledatmybeautifulBella,lyingonthebed,still
sleepingpeacefully.Thisdaycouldn'thavegonemoreperfect,especiallyafterwegottothehotelroom.Ithad
beensolongsinceIhadbeenabletoloveherinthatspecialwayandithadbeenintense.
ImadesuretosavethepictureonmyphonebeforeIplaceditonthenightstandandslippedinbehindBella.
WewerebothnakedstillandIknewwhatthatmeantshewouldwakeupduringthenightbeingcold.Ireally
didn'twanthertoputonclothessinceIenjoyedhernakedevenmore.So,Igrabbedtheextrablanketfromthe
footofthebedanddrapeditacrossthecomforter,hopingitwouldhelpalittleatleast.
"Edward,"shesighedgroggilyandIlookeddowntoseeifshewasawake.Ismiledatherbecauseshewas,in
fact,stillasleepshewastalkinginhersleepanditwasmynamethatshesaid.Thatmademefeellikeasmug
bastard.
"I'mhere,baby,"Isaidwithasighandhuggedherpetitebodyclosertomine."Iloveyou."
EndNotes:
A/N:Alemonatlast.They'realwayssohardformetowriteandittakesdaysforme
tofinishone.Ishouldtakeaclassorsomething...
Anyway,nextupisactuallythefirstEpilogue.Andalsothelastchapteroftheyear.
Thenwebeginwiththesequelthefirstweekof2011.
NOTE:ImeannooffencetoChinesegirls.WhatAlicesaid,isactuallysomething
we'vediscussedinschool.
Oh,andIwanttothankallofyouwhowishedmeagooddayatwork!Itwentfine
eventhoughIhavetogetupat4o'clockinthemorning!)
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:QuoteinthelastchapterwasfromGrey'sAnatomy:
"WouldyoustilllovemeifIwasn'tasurgeon?"
Thereisnoquoteinthischapter!Iknowhowbadthatsounds,butyeah,thereisn't
one...
Anyway,thisisthelastchapteroftheoriginalstory.Thenextchapter(whichwillbe
postedonSundayJanuary2nd2011)willbethefirstchapterofthesequel.Wewillbe
fastforwardingaround2yearsthen.Thesequelwillincludethehighschoolreunion
amongotherstuff!
Epilogue
MARCH
Fivemonthslater
BPOV
"There'smybaby!"EdwardexclaimedwhenhesawEmilycrawlovertohimandpickedherup.Heplaceda
sloppyandloudkissonhercheek."Where'syourmommy,huh?"
"Dada,"Emilyletout.
Iwouldforeverrememberthedayshesaidit.Althoughitwasn'ta'real'word,itmadeEdwardcryevenifshe
probablynotmeantdaddyjustyet.Shesaiditquietoftenthesedaysalongwithjustsimplewordas'baba,'
'yaya'and'mama.'
"Hi,Edward."Ismiled,lettinghimknowthatIwasonlystandingafewfeetaway,watchingthem.
"Hi,baby.Hastherebeenanychange?"Iknewwhathemeantandshookmyheadwithasmirk.Hepouted
andturnedtoEmilyagain."Em,lookatdaddyplease."
"Edward,youknowhereyeswillhavetheexactsamecolorasshedidwhenyouleftthismorning,"Isaid
patiently.Hehadbeendoingthiseverydayforthepasttwomonthswhenhegotbackfromwork."They'restill
green."
"Theycanstillchange,"hesaidwithspoutbeforeturningbacktoEmily."Now,please,mylittleprincess.
Wouldyoushowmeyourbeautifuleyesforme?"
Hegentlyplacedhisfingerunderherchintogethertolookathim.Shewastoobusytryingtograbforhistie,
though.Igiggledatthem,butEdwardeventuallysucceeded.
"They'regreen,"hestatedwithasigh.
"Aw,comeone,Edward.It'snottheendoftheworld,youknow.Ifinditquietnicethatshehassomeofher
daddyinher,"IsaidwithasmileandwalkedovertothemtograbEmilyfromhisarmssothathecouldfinish
takinghisjacketandshoesoff."Anddinner'sready."
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IputEmilyinherhighchairandsatdownnexttoher.Wehadstartedtogetherusedtorealfood,ifthatwas
whatyouwantedtocallitsinceIjustmasheditintosomegooeystuff.Today,itwasbanana.
"Here,baby,"Isaidsoftly,reachingoutasmallspoonofbananaforhertoeat.
Luckyforme,shegotitallinhermouthbeforeEdwardsatdown,becausewhenhedid,allherfocuswason
himandtheotherwayaround.
"Aren'tdaddy'slittleprincessabiggirl,huh?"hecooedashesatdown.Thenheturnedtome,asking,"How
wasyourday?"
"Good.Long,butgood.She'sbeenarealangeltoday,"Isaid,smilingasItriedtogethertotakeanotherspoon
ofbananaintohermouth.Itwasn'teasy,butImanaged.
"She'salwaysanangel,"hestatedanddugintohisfood."Didyougetanyworkdone?"
Ihadstartedworkingfourmonthsago,butIwasn'tbackonfulltimeyetandIdoubtedthatIwouldbeaslong
asEmilywasn'tgoingtoschool.Sofornow,IdidallworkfromhomeandthensentittoAro.Ihadone
meetingamonththatIwasrequiredtogoto,butitwasokaysinceitwasonlyforafewhoursandRoseor
Alicecouldbabysit.
"Notreally,I'vejustreadtwentypagesorsomethingfromthemanuscriptI'mworkingon.Igotintocleaning
thehouseinstead,"Iansweredwithashrug.
"Wow,you'relikethissuperwife,"heanswered,playingwithEmilyandstealingherconcentrationawayfrom
thefood.
Itwassweettoseethemtogetherandthesightusuallymademesmile,butheknewbetterthantoplaywithher
whileshe'seating.Iunderstoodwhyhedidit,thoughhehadbeenawayfromheralldayandmissedhislittle
girl.ThatwaswhyIwaspatientwithbothofthemasIatesomeofmyownfood.
"Comeon,onespoonfordaddy,"Icoaxedafterawhile,reachingthespoonoutonceagain.
"Iguessourdaughterisn'tveryfondwithbananas,"Edwardsaid,tappingEmily'snosewithhisfinger."Yeah,
theboobiestastemuchbetter,doesn'tit?"
"Edward."Isighed,almostinfrustrationbecausehewasgettingonmynervesatthispoint."Shelikesthe
banana,butshedoesn'teatbecauseyoukeepdistractingher."
"What?Imissedmyprincess,"hewhined.
"AndIunderstandthat,butmaybeyoucouldplaywithherafterdinner,"ItriedcarefullysoIwouldn'thurthis
feelings,becauseIreallydidknowwhatitwasliketobeawayfromEmily.
"ThenIwouldmissoutonfortyfiveminutes,though."
"Whydon'tyoutrytofeedherthen,"Ioffered,surprisedthatIhadn'tthoughtaboutitearlier."Icandothe
dishesinsteadofsittingherwatchingyoudistracther."
HeeagerlyagreedtodoitsoIgavehimthehardtasktogethertoeatandstooduptodothedishes.AsIstood
withmybacktothem,Ilistenedwithasmiletohislameattemptstogethertoopenhermouth.Itwasrather
entertainingwhenhethoughtthatbribingherwith'tittiestime'wouldhelp.
Laterthatnight,whenIfinallybreastfedEmilyEdward'swords,notminehesatbesideusandwatchedlike
healwaysdid.Ittooklongertofeedhernowadays,butitwasamomentIenjoyedsoitdidn'tbothermemuch.
Exceptformysorenipples,butitwasallworthit.
WhenIhadburpedherandwebothhadsaidgoodnighttoher,Edwardrequestedsometimewithhisgirls.It
mademerollmyeyesathim,buthewastoocuteformetodenyhim.
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"Yourtittieswillbegettingsmallersoon,"hemuttered.
"So?ThatwillbeprettyinevitablewhenIstopbreastfeeding,"Imumbled,tryingtotuckmyladiesawayfrom
hismouth.
Istillbreastfedheratleastonceaday,though,butjustlikeEdwardsaid,myboobswouldbegettingsmaller.
"Don'tbelikethat,baby.Iwasjuststatingfacts,"hearguedandpushedmyhandsaway."Maybeweshouldtry
foranotherbabynow,andsmallertitswouldn'tbeaproblem."
Seriously?Thisconversationagain?
"Youknow"Istarted,buthecutmeoffbeforeIhadthechancetofinish.
"Rosecomplainedaboutherbreastsgettingsmaller,andlookatwhatEmmettdidtopreventthat.Heputababy
inher."
Rosewasactuallypregnantagain.Sheasonlysevenweeksalong,though,butsheandEmmettalwaysusedto
saythattheydidn'twanttheirfirstbabiestobefurtherapartthantwoyears.Sincetheytolduslastweek,
Edwardhadbeenbringingupanotherbabyatleastonceaday,ifnotmore.HeknewwhatIfeltabouthaving
anotherbabysosoon.
"Iknowforafactthattheydidn'tgetpregnantjustbecauseshehasstoppedbreastfeedingLily,"Ianswered
calmly."Whycan'tyoujustbehappywithEmily?Itfeelslikeyou'reonlyusingmeasababymachine."
TearshadstartedmakingitswaydownmycheeksnowbecausethatwaswhatIfeltlikeused.Allhetalked
aboutwasanotherbaby.IknewheadoredEmilyaboveallelse,butstill.
"What?"heasked,lookingupfrommyboobswithaconfusedexpression.
"Ababymachine.Youknow,it'slikeyou'rethinking'Oh,now'sthatbabyout.Thankyouverymuchandnow
letmeplantanewseedinsideyou.'"
"Youactuallyfeellikethat?"heasked,scootingupabitsothathisfacewasatthesameheightwasmine.
"Baby,Ithat'snotwhatImean."
"Iknow,butthat'swhatitfeelslike.EspeciallywhenyoukeepaskingforanewbabyafterI'vetoldyouthatit's
toosoon."
"IloveyouandEmilymorethanIcouldeverimagine,"hewhisperedashekissedmytearsaway."HavingEm
mademerealizehowwonderfulitistohaveababy,andIjust"hetrailedoff,notknowingwhattosay.
"Youwanttofeelthatalloveragain,"IfinishedforhimbecausethatwashowIfelt,too,butfornow,Iwasin
norushtogetthere.
"Yeah,"hemumbled,nuzzlinghisfaceinthecrookofmyneck."AndI'msorryifIupsetyou,butcanyou
promisemeonething?"
"Sure,"Isaid,nothesitatingasecondbecausetherewasn'tanythingintheworldthatIwouldn'tpromisehim.
"Tellmewhenyou'rereadyandI'llburnthosedamnpillsforyoumyself."
Itdidn'ttakeageniustoknowthathemeantmybirthcontrol.HehatedthemandIhadcaughthimglaringat
themalmosteverymorningwhenItookthem.
"Okay,"Iwhispered,hopingthatthismeantthathewouldbackoffabouthavinganotherbabyuntilItoldhimI
wasready.
ThenextdaywasspentlikeanyotherweekdayItookcareandplayedwithEmily,managedtogetsome
workdoneasshenappedandgotdinnerreadyintimeforwhenEdwardgothome.Iactuallyfeltlikethesuper
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wifehetoldmeIwaslastnight.
TodaywasalsoaspecialdayitwasLily'sfirstbirthdayandEdwardhadgottenhometwohoursearliersothat
wecouldseehertonightinsteadoftomorrow.Alwaysbeingignoredonmyactualbirthdayfrommyownmom,
mademewanttopayspecialattentiontothebirthdaysinmyownfamily.
"Baby,hurry!Iwanttoseethebirthdaygirlbeforeshegoestobed!"EdwardcalledjustasIwasfinishing
gettingmyjeanson.
"I'mcoming!"Iyelledback.
"Savethedirtytalkingforthebed,Bella,andgetyourassdownhere."
Irolledmyeyesathimandquicklyputmyshirton.IwasjustasexcitedaboutseeingLilyashewas.Itwasn't
everydaythatyourgoddaughterturnedone.Itwasabigdeal.
"Ha,ha,you'resofunny,"IsaidsarcasticallyasIwalkeddownthestairstomeethimbythedoor.
Emilymadeagurglingsoundandwavedhertinylittlearmsallovertheplace.
"SomeonethinksIam."Hesmirkedandplacedthesloppiestkissknowntomankindonhercheek.
"No,she'sjusthappytoseeme,"Isaidandwalkedovertohim,takingEmilyfromhisarmsintomyown.
"Aren'tyou,baby?"
"That'sbecauseyoucarrythefood,"hejokedandstartedpreparingthestroller.
"True,butshelovesmeanyway,"Isaid,nuzzlingmyfaceinherhairandinhaledhersweetscent.
"Trustme,she'snottheonlyone,"hesaidandbentdowntogivemeakissbeforehetookEmilybacksothat
hecouldputherdowninthestroller.
ThewalktoEmmettandRose'shousewasn'tlong.Infact,itwasawalkItookoftenwheneverRosehadaday
off.Itwassometimeslonelytojustsitaroundthehousewithnoonetoreallytalkto,sowehaddefinitely
grownclosersinceIgotEmily.Notthatweweren'tclosebefore.
AliceandJasperhadfinallygottentheiradoptionpapersapprovedtwoweeksagoandwerenoweagerly
waitingforababy.Thatday,whenthepapershadbeenapproved,hadbeenthoroughlycelebratedsoIcould
onlyimaginewhatkindofpartyitwouldbewhentheyfinallygetthebaby.
"Aw,look.UncleEddieishere!"EmmettsaidwithalaughashegreetedusbythedoorwithLilyinhisarms.
"Look,UncleEmmyisopeningthedoor,"Edwardsaidback,slightlygrumpysincehehatedbeingcalled
Eddie.
"Sonotcool,man,"Emmettsaidandletusin.
"Youstartedit."
Theywerealwayslikethisanditwaskindofamusingattimesbecausetheywereactinglikekids.
"Here,letmeholdthebirthdaygirl,"IsaidafterIhadremovedmyjacketandreachedoutmyhandsforLily.
Sheleanedovertome,butEmmettrefusedtolethergo,saying,"ThenIwantmysweetcake."
"Emily.HernameisEmily,notsweetcake,"Isaid."Andshe'swithEdwardsoaskhim.Nowpleaseletme
holdher."
EdwardhadtakenEmilywithhimtothelivingroom,andIreallywantedtoholdthecutieinEmmett'sarms.
Shehadgrownupsomuch.Shestillhadhericyblueeyesanddarkbrownhair.ItwasalmostlikeEmily'shair
exceptitwasmorebrownwhileEmily'shadhintsofredinit.
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EmmettreluctantlyhandedLilytomeandIeagerlytookherinmyarms.Shewasgettingprettyheavy,butI
stillmanagedtoholdher.
"Elle,"shesaid,causingmetolaugh.
"That'sright,baby.It'sAuntieBella,"Emmettsaidproudly.
"God,youmakemesoundsoold,"Isaid,rollingmyeyes."IsAliceandJasperherealready?"
"Nah,theycouldn'tmakeittonightsothey'llbeheretomorrowinstead."
"So,it'sjustme,EdwardandEmthen?"
"Yeah,sinceyoucouldn'twaitfortheactualbirthdayparty,"hejoked.
"Hey,Iwantedtosayhappybirthdaytoday."
"Thenhowcomeyouhaven'tsaiditalready?"Hesmirked.
Shit,he'sright.HowintheworldcouldIforgetsomethinglikethat?
"Oh,happybirthday,Lily!"Ialmostsquealedandkissedhercheekloudly.
Shegiggledandplacedherownversionofakissonmycheek.ShewasadorableandIcouldn'thelpbutto
laugh.
IwenttothekitchentoseeifIcouldfindRose.LilythrewherarmsaroundmyneckasIwalkedsoIhugged
hertighter.IlovedherandIwashappythatshewascomfortablearoundmebecauseIwasgoingtobehere
untiltheend.
"Hey,"IsaidasIfinallyfoundRosejustwhereIthoughtshewouldbeinthekitchen.
"Heythere,"shesaidwithasmile."Wow,she'sgettingtired."
IlookeddownatLilyandsawthatshehadplacedherthumbinhermouthandhereyelidsweregettingheavy.
Itwasaftersixo'clock,though,soitwasprobablybedtimeforhersoon.
"Yeah,wejustwantedtodropbyandsayhappybirthday,"Iexplainedeventhoughshealreadyknewwhywe
wereheresinceIhadtoldherearlierintheweek."Howareyoubytheway?"
"Tiredandthefreakingmorningsicknessiskillingme,"shegroaned."Iswear,iftheoutcomeisn'tthebest
thingintheworld,therewouldbenowaythatIwouldgothroughallthisagain."
"I'mwithyouonthat!"Isaidwithachuckle.
"SoareyouandEdwardgoingtohavemorebabies?"sheaskedcarefully.
WhenEdwardfinallystops,someoneelsebegins.Itwasmostlymyfault,though.Ihadn'ttoldherabout
Edwardconstanttalkaboutanewbaby.
"Someday,"Iansweredsimplyandsheletitgo.
"IsEdwardandEmwithyou?"
"Yeah,Ithinkthey'reinthelivingroomwithEmmett."
Forthenexthourorso,weplayedwithEmandLilywhilewetalkedsome.ItwassadthatAliceandJasper
wasn'tthere,butIknewtheyprobablyhadgoodreasons.LilyeventuallyfellasleepsoEdwardandIdecided
thatitwastimeforustoleavesinceEmilyneededtogotobedaswell.
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EPOV
"Ican'tbelieveshe'ssevenmonthsoldalready.Soon,itwillbeuscelebratingourdaughter'sfirstbirthday,"I
mumbled,combingmyfingersthroughEmily'sthin,shortbrownhair.Shelookedsoangelicwhilesleeping
peacefullyonmychest.
Weweresittinginthelivingroom,watchingsomerandomTVwhileBellahadfedEmily.Ithadn'ttakenlong
beforeshewasasleep,though.
"Iknow,"Bellaagreedwithasigh."AndIcan'tbelievethatwe'vebeenmarriedforalmosttwoyears.Time
movestoofast"
Shewasrightthedaysjustflewby.Soonwewouldbesittingatahomeforelderlycoupleswithgreyhair
andwrinkledfaces,sharingstorieswithourgrandchildren.Wewouldbereallyold,though,sinceEmily
wouldn'tdateuntilshe'satleastforty.
"Whatareyouthinkingabout?"Bellaaskedwithagiggleandsnappedherfingersinfrontofmyface.
"Elderlyhomes,"Imumbled.
"We'renotthatoldyet,Edward."Sherolledhereyes.
"Isthatgreyhair?"Ijoked,takingastrandofherbeautifulbrownhairbetweenmyfingers.
"Stop,"shewhined."I'mnotold!"
"Iknow,Iknow,"Isaidwithalaugh,butthenIwassuddenlyworriedthatEmwouldwakeupandcalmed
down.IthadbeenhardtogethertosleepinthefirstplaceandasmuchasIlovedher,Ihadnodesiretodoitall
againtonight.
Afterawhile,wegotupfromthecouchandIcarefullycarriedEmupstairstoherroom.Imissedhavingherin
ourroom,butasBellahadsaid,ashardasitwas,sheneededtogetusedtoitsomeday.
ItuckedherinwithherbabyblanketwhichIhadbeencarryingonmyshoulderandturnedonthemobileover
herhead,whispering,"Iloveyou,princess."
Icarefullywalkedoutoftheroomandwentintomyowntogetreadyforthenight.Bellawasstandingbythe
sink,washingherfaceasIstartedbrushingmyteeth.
"Iwonderwhatherfirstwordwillbe,"Isaidthoughtfullyasweclimbedintothebed.
"Foryoursake,Ihopeit'snotthefwordbecauseIwillcutyourtongueoutifitwas."
"I'moffended,baby,"Isaid,feigninghurt."Besides,youlovemytonguetoomuchtoactuallydothat."
Ismirkedatthat,becauseIknewIhadher.Shelovedwhatmytonguecoulddoevenifsherefusedtoadmitit.
"It'soneofthosethingsIcouldlivewithout,"sheanswerednonchalantly."That'swhyIchoseyourtongue,
becausetherearecertainbodypartsofyoursthatIcan'tlivewithout."
"Youcouldn'thavejustchosenmylittletoeorsomething."Ididn'tunderstandherlogicexactly,evenifshe
wasonlyjoking.ShehadtheworstpokerfaceIhadeverseen,butIplayedalong."Imean,Iwouldn'tbeable
totalkwithoutmytongue."
"Yeah,butthatwouldmeannomorebadwordsaroundEm."
"ButIwouldn'tbeabletosayIloveyou,"Imurmuredinherear.
Sheshudderedandwhispered,"Oh,howsillyofme.Iguessweshouldkeepyouintact.Now,tellme."
God,she'ssofuckingeasy.
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Ismiled,happytohavewonwithoutlosinganyimportantbodyparts.
"Iloveyou,"Itoldher,knowingthatwaswhatshewantedtohear.
"Hmm,Iloveyou,too."
Yes,shedid,andIwouldalwaysbelieveinmiraclesaslongasshelovedme.Becausethatwaswhatitwasa
miraclethatshelovedme.
ThenextdaywhenIwokeup,EmilywaslyingbetweenmeandBella,lookingdownatthetoyshehadinher
tinylittlehands.Bellawassleeping,oratleastlyingwithhereyesclosed.
"Hey,"IwhisperedtoEmilysoftlywithasmilewhilestrokingherwarmcheek."Lookatme,baby."
Shereactedtomyvoicelikeshealmostalwaysdidandlookedupatme.Iwasmetbythatbrightgreencolor
thatrepresentedmydaughter'sbigeyes.AsmuchasIhadwantedthemtobedeepbrownlikeBella's,Iwas
damnproudthatshehadthesamecolorasme.
EndNotes:
A/N:Trustme,Iknowhowshortthisis,buttherereallywasn'tmuchmoretosayifI'm
beinghonest.
Iwillnotmarkthisstorycompleteuntilthesequelchaptersareup,butifyou'renot
interestedinthose,thenIguessit'stimetosaygoodbyetothesetwolovebirds.
Nextupdate:SundayJanuary2nd2011
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:HAPPYNEWYEAR!IhopeeveryonehadaterrificNewYear'sEve.Idid!
Thereisnoquoteinthischaptereitherandtherewon'tbeanyinanyofthesequel
chapters.I'msorryaboutthis,butmybrainisdrainedandIcan'tfindanysuitable
ones.
GOODIEScanbefoundattheblog:marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
Discalimer:Idonotownthecharacters,butIdoowntheplot!
Sequel:Firstdayinschool
BPOV
Iheardthepitterpatteroftinylittlefeetastheymovedacrossthehardwarefloorinthehallway.Ismiled,
pretendingtobeasleepasIfeltthebedshiftslightlyrightnexttomyfaceandaclearlyimpatientlittleladysigh.
"Mommy?"Emwhispered.
"Hmm?"Iasked,slowlyopeningmyeyesandwasmetbythepiercinggreeneyesyoucouldonlyfindonmy
daughterandmyhusband.Inthiscase,itwasmybeautifuldaughter.
ShewasstandingthereinhercutelittleDisneyPrincesspajamasandherbabyblanketinonehandandher
pacifierintheother.Wehadtriedtogetherusedtonotusingthepacifier,butwestillallowedhertouseit
duringthenight.Itwouldn'ttakelongbeforeshehadtosopcompletely,though,becauseIdidn'twantherteeth
togetallweird.
Herdarkcurlswereallmessyfromsleepingandhercheekswererosy.Tosumitupshewasjustasbeautiful
asherfather.
"Beauty,"shewhispered.
"Okay,wejustneedtobeveryquietbecausedaddy'ssleeping,"Iwhisperedandhelpedheruponthebedso
thatshecouldliedownnexttomeandEdward.
AlmosteverymorningwasthesameEmilywouldcomeintoourbedroomearlyinthemorningtowatchher
favoritemovieTheBeautyandTheBeastwhileEdwardandIslept.Eventhoughyoucouldneverfullygo
backtosleepbecauseshealwaysaskedsomethingorgiggledatsomethingfunny,itstillfeltnicetohaveherin
ourbed.
Ihelpedherputonthemovieandturnedtovolumedowntolow,hopingthatEdwarddidn'twakeup.He
neededhissleepsincehehadbeenworkinghardlately,sowakingupearlierthanhehadtoonaMonday
morningwasprobablynotsomethinghewanted.Especiallywhenhehadtakenmostofthedayoff.
Isighedandnuzzledmyfaceintomybaby'ssmallbody,inhalinghersweetscent.Sheplayedwithmylong
hairandwatchedhermovie.
Thealarmwentoffabouthalfanhourlater,causingEdwardtocurse.Itdidn'tmatterhowmanymorningsour
daughterhadspentinthisbed,healwayscursedatthealarm.Always.
"Fuckingshit,"hemumbledandslammeditoff.
HerolledoverandthrewhisarmaroundEmilyandalsomanagedtoembracesomeofmeaswell.
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"Hmm,Iseethatwehavecompany,"Edwardmurmuredinthatsexyandsleepyvoice,nuzzlinghisfaceinto
Em'sside.
"Morning,Daddy,"Emwhisperedandwentbacktowatchinghermovie.
"Don'tIgetagoodmorningkiss?"heaskedandpouted,ticklingherside.
Shesquealedandgiggled,andthatwokemeupperfectlywell,whichwasgoodbecausetherewasnotimeto
belazyinbedtoday.Itwasmybaby'sfirstdayinschool.
"Sorry,"EmsaidandplacedaverysloppyandnoisykissonEdward'scheekandheplacedoneonhersinturn.
"Mommytoo."
"Youbetyourcutelittlenosethatmommy'sgettingonetoo,"hesaid.
Somehow,herolledoversothathewaslyingontopofme.BeforeIknewit,hislipswereonmine,butsince
therewerelittleeyeswatchingus,neitherofustriedanythingelse.
EmilysquealedandIfeltasshejumpeduponEdward'sback.
"Oh,mommy'sbeingsquashed,"IhuffedjokinglybecauseIhonestlycouldn'tfeelmuchsinceEdwardheldhis
weightontheelbows.
"Okay,comeon,mylittleSpidermonkey.It'stimeforbreakfast,"Edwardsaid,catchingEmbeforehegotout
ofthebed.
SincetodaywasaspecialdayforEmily,Iletherchoosethebreakfast.Itwasn'tasurprisewhenshechosemy
specialtySemolinapudding.ItwassomethingbothsheandEdwardlovedsoIdidn'tminddoingitevery
chanceIgot.
"Doyoureallythinkthisisnecessary?"Edwardasked,takingabiteofhistoastwhilehelookedatEmwho
washappilytryingtocatchsomepuddingonherspoon.
Iknewwhathemeanthewasaskingifwereallyneededtosendhertoschooltoday.Itwassomethinghe
dreadedconsideringhowwehadbeeninschool.Iwassureofthathewouldn'tletEmilygetbullied,orbully
someoneelse,butwewerebothstillhesitant.
IlookedoveratEmilyandbitmylipasiftotrytostopmyselffromgivinginbeforeIanswered,"YeahI
thinkso."
WebothsatstaringatEmilywhilesheate,orrather,triedtoeat.Ihadtohelpherfromtimetotime,butthat
wasn'teasysinceshewasstubbornandwantedtodoeverythingherself.
Edward'sphonerangonthecounterwhenwehadjustfinishedeatingthebreakfast.Hestoodupandwentto
grabitbeforehesatbackdownagain.
"It'smymom,"hegroanedbeforeheanswereditandsaid,"Hi,MomWell,whyareyoucallingmeifyou
wanttotalktoher?"
Ikickedhimunderthetableinordertogethimtobehave.IknewEsmewantedtotalktoEmilythismorningto
wishherluckandEdwardknewEmilydidn'thaveaphone.Shewasonlytwoyearsoldforcryingoutloud!
"Nana!"Emsquealedintothephone.
Thatgirllovedhergrandparents.Allofthem,includingmymomwhoshehadonlymettwotimesinherlife.
WetalkedtoheronceaweekthroughSkype.ShestilllivedinAustralia,unabletoleavethebeautifulcountry.
Herwords,notmine.
IlistenedtotheveryshortconversationEmhadwithEsme.Afterawhile,shehandedthephonebackto
Edwardandputherhandsupintheair,meaningthatshewantedtogetoutofherhighchair.
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"I'llgetherdressedwhileyoutalktoEsmeandcleanuphere,"Isaid,standingupandgavehimnootheroption
beforeIgrabbedEmandwalkedupstairs.
Ihadlaidoutanoutfitlastnight.ThankstoAlice,shehadgrownfondofHelloKitty.Ifitwasn'ttheDisney
Princesses,itwasHelloKitty.So,today'soutfitconsistedofasweetpinklittlehoodiewithaHelloKittyface
andagreymatchingtshirtunderneath.Atleastthejeanswereneutral.Ihadtoadmit,Ipreferredtheprincesses,
butnotmatterwhatmylittlegirlwore,shewasadorable.
"Baby,Aliceisonthephone,"Edwardsaid,knockingonthedoorframe."ShewantstotalktoEm."
Iknewshewouldcall.TherewasnowayintheworldthatAlicewouldmisssomethingasbigasEm'sfirstday
inschool.OrpreKifyouwouldrathercallitthat.Ilikedthewordschool.
EdwardhandedEmthephoneandIlistenedasshetalkedtoAlicewhileIputonhersocks.
AliceandJasperhadgottenhomefromChinajustafewweeksago,bringingtheirlittlegirlhome.Shewas
fourteenmonthsoldandhadalreadystolenallourhearts.TheyhadnamedherJamiesincetheyhadnoideaif
theywerehavingaboyorgirl,buttheystillwantedtopickoutanamebeforehand.Ilovedthenamesinceit
wassooriginalanditsuitedherperfectly.
Alicewasn'tgettingmuchoutoftheconversationsinceEmmostlyjustsaid'yes'and'no,'butitwasstillcuteto
listento.
IputamatchingpinkhairclipinherhairtopullitoutofherfaceonceshehadsaidgoodbyetoAlice.Herhair
wasnaturalcurlyanditwastooprettytobemessedwith.Atleastbyme.
"Lookatyou.You'resopretty!"Iexclaimedwhenshewasalldone.
"Likeyou."
"Thankyou,baby,"Isaid,huggingherbeforeIplacedakissonthetopofherhead."Okay,comeon.Daddy's
waiting."
Istoodupandgrabbedherhand,butshestoodstill.WhenIturnedaroundtoseewhattheproblemwas,she
juststoodthereandlookedaroundtheroom.
"Whatisit,Emily?"
"Iwantmy"shesaid,pointingtohermouth.
Iknewwhatshemeantherpacifier.Shehadalwayshadaproblempronouncingthewordandinsteadof
trying,sheusedtheeasywayout,whichwaspointing.
"No,baby.Thathastostayathometoday,butIpromisethatyoucanhaveitonceyougotobed,okay?"
"Please,"shesaidwithapoutandlookedatmewiththoseeyesthatalmostmademegivein.
"No.Ipromisethatit'sgoingtobeokayanyway,"Isaid,strokingherhair.
Shenoddedherheadandforasecond,Ithoughtshewouldletitgo,butnosuchluck.
"Daddy?"sheasked.
"No,daddywon'tletyouhaveiteither.Now,comeon."
Shegrabbedmyhandandweslowlymadeourwaydownstairs.Emwasveryindependentfromtimetotime
andasmuchasIlovedthat,seeingherwalkthestairsalwaysfreakedmeout.ThatwaswhyIkeptatighthold
ofherhandandmadesuretostayonestepaheadofher.Justincase.
"Lookatmylittleprincess!"Edwardexclaimed,pickingEmilyupandmakinghersquealindelight.
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"MommysaysI'mpretty,"Emsaid,lookingdownatheroutfit.
"Well,shecouldn'thavebeenmoreright,"Edwardsaid,kissingherbeforeheputherdownsothatshecould
getherjacketandshoeson."Areyoureadyforschool,baby?"
"No."
"No?"
"No."
"Didyouhearthat,Bella?"Edwardaskedinatonethatrevealedhispanic.
"Iheard,"Isaid,hunchingdowninfrontofher."It'sgoingtobegreat,baby.You'llhaveLilyandJaredthere."
LilyhadbeengoingtopreKforhalfayearalreadyandJared,JakeandLeah'sson,wouldbestartingtodayas
well,soatleastmybabywouldn'tbeallalone.
"Promise?"Empouted.
"Yes,Ipromise."
IhelpedEmdownthefrontstepswhileEdwardwentaheadtostartthecarsoitwouldn'tbesocold.Itwas
Januaryandwhiletheweatherwasn'tthatcold,itstillwasn'twarm.Besides,whodidn'tpreferawarmcar
insteadofacoldone?
"Iwantum,wantprincesscar,"sheprotestedwithapoutandlookedneartotears.Thetearsweremostlyan
act,though.SheknewEdwardwouldgiveheranythingassoonasthetearsmadeitsappearance,butluckily,
Edwardhadstartedtoseethroughitmostofthetime.
Ihatedtobetheonewhoalwaystoldherno,soIturnedtowardEdwardandhejustlookedtorn.Hehatedto
drivemycar,eventojustbeinit,andyetherehewas,actuallyconsideringgettinginsideitjustbecausehis
daughterwantedit.
"I'msorry,princess.Nottoday,"hefinallysaidandIwasactuallyproudofhimforsayingthewordnotothe
preciousgirlnexttome."Youandmommycantakeittomorrow."
"Promise?"
"Ipromise."
Allthesepromises.AllittookforEmtoagreetosomethingwasapromise.Shealwaysasked"Promise?"and
shehadnoproblemkeepingupwithwhatwehadpromisedeither.So,tomorrowshewouldrememberhow
EdwardhadpromisedthatshecouldrideinmycarinsteadoftheVolvo.
EmilyhappilysangalongtotheDisneysongsfromthebackseatasEdwarddroveustothenearbyschool.I
knewallthesongsbyheartandIwassosickoflisteningtothembynow,butIsuckeditupformydaughter.
ShelovedthemandIlovedher.Ilikedthemovies,Ireallydid,butIhadgrowntiredofthesongs.
EmrefusedtowalkonherownoncewehadarrivedsoEdwardcarriedherwhileIcarriedherbackpack.She
hadshylynuzzledherfaceintoEdward'sneckandclungtohimlikeherlifedependedonit.IwasjealousandI
couldn'tbelievehowIcouldbejealousofmydaughter,butIwas.
"Idon'tthinkshewantstogo,"Edwardsaid,slowinghispacedownandlookeddownatEmily."Aren'tIright,
baby?"
"Yes."
"Edward,youcan'tkeepherlockedupfortherestofherlife.Sheneedstodothis.Itkillsmetolethergoas
well,butlikeIsaid,sheneedsit,"Itoldhim.
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"Thinkaboutalltheboysinthere.Oh,andthegerms.Thinkaboutallthediseasesshecouldget,"hesaidwith
apout,holdingEmtightlytohischest.
HehadbeenlikethisallmorningandeventhoughIagreedwithhim,Ihadtosticktomyargumentsshe
neededthis.Sheneededaneducation.
"Edward,pleasedon'tmakethisharderthanitalreadyis,"Ipleaded.
"I'msorry,it'sjustsofreakinghard."
"Iknow.Iknow."Isighed,leaningintohimandstrokedhisback.
Therewassomeonebytheentrancetomeetus.SheintroducedherselfasKateandIimmediatelylikedher.She
wasinherforties,blondecurlyhairthatwenttotheshoulders,myheightandjustlookedniceingeneral.She
triedtosayhellotoEmily,butshekepthidingherfacesoKategaveupsayingthatitwasnormalonafirstday.
Shedidn'tseembotheredbyherbehavior.
Edwardhadtoputherdownsothatshecouldremoveherjacketandhangitupinthecorridor.Shekepthiding
behindEdward'slegs,butImanagedtogethertocomeoutsothatIcouldremovethejacket.
Shehadalwaysbeenshyandoftenblushed,muchtoEdward'sdelight,butithadneverbeenlikethis.Ididn't
blameher,though,becauseIwaspracticallythesamewhenImovedfromPhoenixtoForks.Thenagainwhen
Istartedcollege.Ididn'thadmydadtohindbehind,though.
"Daddy,"Emwhispered,reachingherarmsupandwiggledherlittlefingers,lettinghimknowwhatshe
wanted.
Hepickedherbackupandshesettledbackwithherfaceinhisneckandputherthumbinhermouth.I
immediatelyfeltbadfornotlettingherhaveherpacifierbecauseitwasobviousthatshewantedsomething
familiarandsafe.
"Areyouokay,baby?"Iasked,strokingherhair.Sheslowlynoddedherhead."You'resuchabravegirlandI
loveyou."
Katecontinuedbygivingusatouroftheclassroom.Thereweren'tmanykidshereyet,buttheywerestartingto
arrive.IsawLilyinthecorner,sowhenKatewasdonewiththetour,IledEdwardovertohersothatEm
couldhavesomeonetobewithonceweleft.
"Hi,Lily,"IsaidwhenIreachedher.
Shewasstillabeautywithherpiercingblueeyesanddark,almostblack,hair.Ifitwasn'tfortheeyesandlips,
youcouldalmostbelievethatshewasallEmmett'sbecausetheyweresomuchalike.
"AuntBella,"shesaid,smilinghugely.
"Whatareyoudoing,honey?"Iasked.
"Coloring,"sheanswered.
"CanEmilybewithyou?"
Shenoddedeagerlyandwentbacktothecoloring.IwavedEdwardoverwhowaslookingaroundthe
classroomwhileexplainingthingstoEmily.Atleastshehadherfaceoutofhisnecknow.
"Hi,baby.DoyouwanttocolorwithLily?"IaskedherwhenEdwardhadputherdown.Shewasstillholding
ontohisjeanswithhertinylittlehandthatwasn'tinhermouth.
Shetookherthumboutofhermouthandanswered,"Yes."
"Okay,comehere,"Isaid,gesturingtothechairthatwasnexttoLily's.
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Shesatdownandeasilygotintocoloring.Itwasamazinghowshecouldchangefrombeingtheshyestlittlegirl
ontheplanettojustbeing.MaybeitwasbecauseshealreadyknewLily,butitwasstillamazingtowatch.
EdwardandIsatwithherforafewminutes,butthenIsawRoseanddecidedtogooverandtalktoher.
"Hardtime,huh?"Roseasked,puttingherarmovermyshoulder.
"Yeah."Isighedheavily,lookingovertoEmilyandLily."Butatleastshe'snotallalone."
Edwardcameoverwithablondelittlecutieinhisarms.RachelhadbeenbornrightbeforeChristmasoneyear
agoandlookedjustlikeRose.Thepregnancyhadbeencomplicatedsoshewasourlittlemiracle.
"Ileaveonebabyandgettotakeanotherbabyhome,"Edwardsaid,bouncingRachelandgaveherakiss.
"Inyourdreams,Edward.She'scominghomewithme,"Rosesaid,smilingatthetwoofthem.
ItwastimetosaygoodbyeandIhadtoburymyfaceinEdward'schestforawhilebecauseIwasstartingto
loseit.Allmorning,allweekeven,Ihadbeenthestrongone,butnow,Ididn'tknowwhattodowithmyself.
It'sjustforafewhoursit'sjustforafewhoursit'sjustforafewhoursandyouhaveEdwardtoyourselfall
thattime.
"It'sokay,baby,"Edwardsoothed,rubbingmyarmsanditwasalmostlaughablethathewastheonetosooth
mewhenhehadbeentheonewhoneededsoothingbefore.
TogetherwewalkedovertoEmilywhowasstillsittingwithLily,coloringintheirbooks.
"Hi,princess,"Edwardsaid,hunchingdownbesideher."Willyoubeokayhereforawhile?"
"You'regoing?"sheasked,lookingatmewithsadeyes.
"Yes,"Isaid,almostlettingasobout.Thatwouldn'thelpthesituationatall."Butwe'llbebackbeforeyou
knowit,okay?"
"Daddy?"shesaid,turningaroundtofacehiminstead.
"You'regoingtobeokay,angel.Ipromise."
"Okay,"shewhispered.
Wegaveherdozensofkissesandhugsbeforewefinallymanagedtoleavetheschool.Ikepttellingmyselfthat
itwasonlyforafewhoursandthatshewouldbeokay.Shewasn'talone,theteacherseemedniceandtheboys
weretooyoungtotryanything.
"Weneedtobuyorangejuice,"Isaidinthecaronourwayhome.
"Can'titwaituntiltomorrowwhenwegoshoppingforfood?"Edwardasked.
"No,Iwantitnow,"Imumbled,butthenfeltbadforsoundingsorudeandneedy,soIadded,"Please?"
"Fine."Hesighedanddrovetotheneareststore.
Weleftwithquietsomemorethanorangejuice.Chocolateforinstance.Ithadjustbeenlyingthereonitsshelf
bythecheckout,tauntingme.Ihatedanychocolatewithnutsinit,yetIboughtitbecauseIcouldn'tthinkof
anythingbutthatchocolate.
Strange.
"Soawholehousealltoourselves.Nobabytointerruptandnowork,"Isaid,tryingtosoundseductive,butI
hadnoideaifitwasworkingornot.
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Weweresittingonthecouchinthelivingroom,enjoyingthequiethouse.AshardasithadbeentoleaveEmily
inschool,itfeltnicetogetsomealonetime.
"Hmm,whatareyousuggesting,baby?"
"Oh,Idon'tknow.Ineedtodothelaundrycleanthehousefoldthecleanclothes,"Ijokedandstraddled
hislap.
"Isthatso,"hesaid,movinghishandsupanddownmythighs."Well,IcanthinkofafewotherthingsIwould
ratherdo."
"Andwhatwouldthatbe?"Iwhisperedintohisear.
"Makinglovetomybeautifulwifeforinstance."
"Thenwhatareyouwaitingfor?"Iasked,notlettinghimanswerbeforeIcrushedmylipstohis.
Thingsgotheatedquickly.Clotheskeptflyingacrosstheroomuntilwewerebothnaked.Icouldn'tgetenough
ofhimandonlyletmylipsleavehisbodytogettheoffendingbitsoffabricoff.
HestartedtomassagemythighsandIknewwhathewasabouttodoandasmuchasIlovedhimpleasuring
me,Iwastoofreakinghornytodoanythinglikethat.
"Please,Edward.I'mtoohornyforthat.Justletmehaveyou,"Ipleaded.
"Don'tletmestopyou,"hewhispered,kissingalongmycollarbones.
Isatuponmykneesandlinedmyselfupagainsthimbeforeslowly,butsurly,slidingdownontopofhim.Ifelt
myselfstretchtoeveryinchofhimanditwasthemostincrediblefeelingintheworld.
"Holyshit,baby,"hegroaned,holdingmyhipstightlyasiftostopmefrommoving.Iteasedhimbyrollingmy
hipssinceIknewitmadehimcrazy."Pleasejustfuckingplease,Bella.Idon'twanttocumalready."
"Sorry,"Isaid,butIdidn'treallymeanit.
Oncehehadloosenedhisgriponmyhips,Islowlystartedtomoveupanddown.Thetightnessinmystomach
gottoomuchtohandleafterawhilesoIstartedmovingfaster,holdinghisshouldersforleverage.
"Ifuckingloveitwhenyou'reontop,baby,"hesaid,buryinghisfacebetweenmybreasts.
"Me,too."
IdidbecausethatwasthemomentIalwaysfeltasthemostpowerfulwomanintheworld.Ifyoudidn'tcount
thedayIgavebirthtoourdaughter.ItwassomethingaboutthecontrolIhadwhenImovedontopofhim,up
anddown,practicallycontrollinghispleasure.
Hegrabbedmyassandhelpedmemovefaster.ThefeelinginmylowerstomachgrewmoreintenseandI
wantedmore,soImovedmyhanddowntowherewerejoinedandstartedrubbingmyclit.
"I'mclose,"Imumbled,brushingmylipsagainsthis."Please,Edward.I'msoclose."
"Justaminute,baby,"hegroaned.
Icouldn'tholditanylongerandfeltmyselfexplodearoundhim,screaminghisnameinpleasure.
"Holyfuckingshit,"hecursed,helpingmetomovesinceIwasbasicallylimp.Ifelthimcuminsidemeaftera
whileandIstrokedthehairinthenapeofhisneck,feelinghishotbreathinmyearandhishandsroammy
back.
Helaidusbothdownonthenarrowcouch.Ifelthisspermonmythigh,butIdidn'tcare.Atleastnotaslongas
itdidn'tenduponthecouch.Eventhoughthesexalwayswasamazing,itwasthismomentIenjoyedthemost.
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Justlyingtherewithhiminpurebliss,holdingeachothertight.
"Maybeum,maybeit'stimetoburnthosethingsupnow,"Imumbled,playingwithhisfingersonhischest.
HelookedupatmeandnarrowedhiseyesatmeasifhewastryingtofigureoutwhatImeant.Youcould
clearlyseetherealizationhithim.
"AreyoutalkingaboutwhatIthingyou'retalkingabout?"heaskedexcitedly.
"Idon'tknowwhatyouthink,butIwastalkingabouttherottenbananasinthefridge,"Ijoked,buthavingthe
worstpokerfaceonearth,hesawrightthroughme.
"You'resuchabadliar,baby,"hegrowledplayfullyandmovedtokissmeforcefullyonmylips."It'sabout
fuckingtime."
IgiggledagainsthislipsandopenedmymouthforhimasIfelthistonguetracemybottomlip.Ourtongues
movedinsyncandIcouldn'tthinkofanythingelseinthemoment.Eventually,Ihadtopullaway,butEdward
continuedtokissmyneckandthenmadehiswaybacktomymouthforanotherpeck.
"I'msorryIkeptyouwaiting,"Iwhispered,strokinghishairashelookeddownatmewithnothingbutlove.
Iknewhowhardithadbeenforhimtonotpressuremelately.Everyonearounduswasstartingtoexpandtheir
family,ortheyalreadyhad.Hehadactuallykepthispromisemostofthetime,onlylettingthewordsabouta
newbabyslipoutonceortwice.
"Itwasworthwaitingfor."
HepulledusbothoffthecouchandIeventuallyfoundmypantiesandshruggedthemon.Edwardwasalmost
tooeagertoputonhisclothes,butafteralotofcursing,hehadputonhisboxersandjeans.Ineverminded
EdwardbarechestedsoIjustsmiledtomyselfandfollowedhimouttothekitchenarea.
Heknewexactlyinwhichcabinetmypillswereandtookthemallout.
"Wedon'thaveanyfire,"Edwardmutteredalmostbitterly.
Ilookedaroundforsomethingwecoulduse,justtosatisfyEdward.Ididn'treallycareifweburnedthemorjust
threwtheminthegarbage,butEdwardseemedtowantsomethingmoredrasticthanthetrashcan.
"Youcouldalwaysflushthemdownthetoilet,"Isuggested.
"Yeah,"hesaidthoughtfully."Likeinthemovieswhentheyflushdowndrugs,poisonousthings."
Igiggledandfollowedhimtothedownstairsbathroom.Hepoppedeachpillintothetoiletandthrewthe
packagesinthetrashcanbesideit.Hehadtoflushthreetimesbeforeallthepillsweredownthepipes.
Itwasalmostlikeafuneral.Notasadone,butwejuststoodthere,staringatthelostpillsinsilence.BeforeI
knewit,hegrabbedmyhandandstartedwalking.
"Comeon,let'snotwasteanytime,"hesaidimpatientlyandstarteddraggingmeupstairs.
"Edward,"Isaid,stoppinghimbythrowingmyarmsaroundhisneck."Wedon'thavetime.Emilyneedstobe
pickedupandwehavetoleaveinabouttenminutesandIneedtogetcleanedup.Besides,it'snotgoingto
happeninonetry."
"Iwasn'tcountingonitandIsureashellwillenjoyeverysinglemomentoftrying,"hemurmuredandbent
downtokissme.
"Edward,"Iwarnedagainsthislipsbecause,judgingbyhishandsslowlymakingitswaytomyass,Iknew
wherehewasgoingwiththis."Time."
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"Icanbequick."
EventhoughIwantedhimalot,Iwasn'tgoingtobeoneofthoseparentswhoshoweduplatetopickuptheir
kid.
"Wecan't,"Isaidandreluctantlypulledback.
"Fine,butassoonashereyesareclosedtonight,I'mgoingtohaveyou."
"I'llholdyoutothat."
EndNotes:
A/N:Iknow,Iknow.It'sshort,butnoneoftheselastchapterswillbeverylong.Except
maybetheHighSchoolreunionwhichwillbethechapterafterthenextone!Iknow
everyoneiswaitingeagerlyforthatone,andsodoI.
TherecipeforSemolinePuddinglaBella/Emilystylecanbefoundamongtherest
oftherecipesontheblog!
Anyway,we'renearingtheend,butit'snottheendformeasanauthor.Istillhave
WhenLoveandHateCollide,andIwillbestartinganewstorycalledShadowsfrom
thePast(moreinfowillcomeontheFacebookpage!)oncethisbabyiscompletely
done.
Thankyouforreadingthisweek'supdateandIhopetoseeyounextweekaswell!
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:Idon'treallyhavemuchtosaythistime.JustthatIloveallofyouandthe
amazingsupportyougiveme.Ican'tthankyouenoughforthat!
Oh,andtheremusthavebeensomemisunderstandingregardingthesequel.Thisisthe
sequel.Iwon'tdoawholenewstoryaboutit.Itwasjustalittlesomethingtogiveyoua
lookintetheirlivesdowntheroad!
Withthatbeingsaid,HAPPYREADING!:)
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"Baby,please.Wedon'thavetime."EdwardsighedasIkissedmywaydownhisabs.
Ouch,thathurt.
"Wehaveplentyoftime,"Iargued.
Itwassixthirtyinthemorningandforonce,Emhadn'tshowedupyetandIhadlockedthedoorsothatwe
wouldgetawarning.Ireallyneededmyhusbandrightnow.
"No,wedon't.Ineedtogettoworkandthere'sababytofeed,"hesaidandevenifhedidn'tsoundannoyedor
angry,itstillhurtbecauseitfeltlikehewasrejectingme.
"Fine,"Ihuffedandslidoffofhim.
AsIdidso,IfeltmystomachturnandIquicklygotoffthebedandranstraighttothebathroom,barelymaking
ittothetoiletbeforeIthrewup.IfeltEdward'shandsrubmybackandpullbackmyhair.Ididn'twanthimto
seemylikethis.
"Pleasegoaway,"Igroanedintotheporcelainbowl.
"No,"heansweredandIdidn'thavetheenergytoargueashurledonceagain,emptyingmystomach
completely.
WhenIwasabsolutelysurethatIwasdone,IstooduponshakilylegswithEdward'shelp.Iwalkedovertothe
sinktodrinksomewaterandbrushmyteeth.
"God,Ihatethrowingup,"Imuttered.
"You'resick.DoyouwantmetocallAliceandhavehertotakeEmilyfortheday?"Edwardasked,leaning
againstthecounter.
ItwasEmily'sdayofftoday.ShewasonlygoneforpreKtwodaysaweekandtodaywasnotoneofthem.
"No.I'mjusthungry,"Ianswered.
"Hungry?"
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"Yeah.Youknowhowyoucangetsohungrythatallyoucanfeelissickinsteadofactualhunger?"
"Soyou'resayingthatyougotsohungrythatyouthrewup?"Edwardaskedskeptically.
"Yes,IpromisethatIfeelfinenow,"Itoldhim,beingcompletelyhonestaboutit.
"Huh,"wasallheanswered.
HeletitgoeventuallyandwenttowakeEmupafterhehadgottenready.IwasabsolutelysureofthatIwas
fine.Iknewitwasabadideatogettobedfeelinghungry,butwhenyou'vejustclosedyoureyesatnightand
thenyoufeelyourstomachrumble,youjustdon'thavetheenergytogetup.Atleastnotme,soIignoreditand
Ihadtopayforthatmistakethismorning.
WhenIhadn'tthrownupasecondtimebeforeEdwardleftforwork,hewasmoreconvincedthatmaybeithad
beenjustthehungerandnothingelse.
"Iloveyou,"hesaid,givingmeakiss.
"Mm,anotherone."Ismiledandpuckeredmylips,earninganothersoftkiss."Thankyou,andIloveyou,too."
"Daddy,"Emsaidfrombesideme,reachingherarmsupintheair.
Edwardeasilypickedherupandshoweredherfacewithkisses."Ilove,you,princess.Beagoodgirlfor
mommytoday,okay?"
"Okay."Shegiggled,squirminginhisarm.
"Okay,I'vegottogo,"Edwardsaid,givingusbothafinalkissbeforehehandedEmovertomeandstepped
outside.
IgotEmandIreadysothatwecouldgototheparkaftereverythingwasreadyfortheday..AliceandRose
wouldbetherewiththeirbabies.Ithadbecomealittletraditionthatwewouldallmeetupbeforelunchonthe
dayswhenLilyandEmdidn'thaveschool.ItwasnicegettingoutofthehouseeventhoughIlovedspending
timewithmydaughter.Wehadalmostallafternoontohangoutbyourselves.
TheweatherwasalittlechillystillsoIhelpedEmputonherwintercoatsothatshewouldn'tbecold.With
somecoaxing,Ialsomanagedtoputonherhataswell.
AliceandRosewerealreadytherewithLily,RachelandlittleJamie.AlicehadJamieinherlapasEmandI
approached.Shehadstraightblackhair,browndoeeyesevendarkerthanmineandpoutyfulllips.She
lookedreallycomfortableinAlice'slapandIwassohappyforthemthattheyallhadgottenalongsogood
together,evenifJamiewasonlyfifteenmonthsold.
"CanyousayhitoJamie?"IaskedEmasIsatdownnexttoAliceandRoseonthebench.
"Hi,Jamie,"shewhisperedshewasshy,butIdidn'tunderstandwhybecausesheknewwhoJamiewasand
hadmetherseveraltimes.
"Thatwasniceofyou,"Iencouragedher.
"Playnow?"sheasked,stillactingshy.
"Yes,youcangoplaynow,"IsaidwithasoftlaughandadjustedhercoatbeforesheranofftowhereLilywas
sittinginthesand.
ThethreeofusRose,AliceandIjustsatthereinsilence,watchingEmandLilyinteractforawhileuntil
Rachel'swhimpersbrokeusoutofourthoughts.
Wetalkedaboutourfamilies,babiesandwork.TherewassomegossipinvolvedandAliceevenadmittedthat
Jasperandshewasstilltryingforanotherbaby.ShehadbecomemoreopenaboutitsinceJamiecameintoour
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lives.IfeltlikeahypocritefornottellingthemthatEdwardandIweretrying,becauseIhadbeenhurtbyAlice
fornottellingme.Iwouldjustwaitafewmoreweeksuntilthebirthcontrolwerecompletelygonefrommy
system.
"So,how'slifetreatingyou,Bella?"Roseasked.
"It'sgood.ItfeelslikeI'mfinallygettingbacktonormal,youknow,afterhavingEmandallthat,"Ianswered,
watchingasEmilyplayedinthesandwithLily.
"Oh,Iunderstand,"sheansweredknowingly."ButIwouldn'ttradeLilyforanythingintheworld."
"Absolutelynot.Iwoulddoeverythingalloveragain.Iwouldevengothroughhighschoolagain,andthat's
sayingsomething."
"Iknowhighschoolisatouchysubject,butdoyouandEdwardevertalkaboutthattime?Imean,it'sabigpart
ofyourrelationship,right?"Aliceaskedcarefully.
"Yeah,wetalkaboutitfromtimetotime."Isighed."Notmuchsincewewenttotherapy,butwestilltalkabout
it."
EmcamerunningtowardusthenandIfeltmyheartratepickupatthesightbecauseIwassoafraidthatshe
hadinheritedmyclumsynatureandthatshewouldfallstraightonhernose.Tomyrelief,though,shegottome
withoutascratchandstoodinfrontofme.
"Mommy,I'mhungry,"Emsaid,restingherheadinmylap.
"Okay,baby.I'llmakeussomelunchwhenwegethome,"Ianswered,strokinghercoldcheek.
"Now?"sheasked,lookingupatmewithherbeautifulgreeneyes.
Ilookeddownatmywatchandsawthatitwasalreadyaquartertonoon.ThenIlookedovertoAliceandRose
apologeticallyandsaid,"Weshouldgetgoing."
"Noworries.Ihavetobabiesthatneedtobefedaswell,"Rosesaid,lookingoveratfirstLilyinthesandand
thenatRachelinthestroller.
SinceEmwassostubbornondoingthingsherself,westartedwalkinghomehandinhand.Itwasjustoneblock
downthestreet,butitwouldtaketime.Finally,halfwaythere,Emilystoppedandreachedupherarms.
"Mommy,up,please,"shesaid.
Ipickedherupandplacedherinmyarms,feelinghowheavyshewasstartingtoget.Ihatedit.Iwantedtobe
abletoholdmybabylikethisforever.Iwasprobablygoingtocrythedayshenolongerneededme.
IfeltapairofwarmlipsagainstmycheekandasIlookedup,IwasmetbyEmily'spiercinggreeneyes.
"Whatwasthatfor,huh?"Iaskedwithasmile.
"Mommy'ssad,"shestatedwithapout.
Amazing.
"Thankyou,baby,"Isaid,givingherakissinreturn.
Whenwegothome,ImadeEmilysomelunch.Iwasn'tfeelinghungry,soIjustkepthercompanyandwatched
assheate.Ihadtohelphertogetthenoodlesontoherforkfromtimetotime,butshedidmostofitonherown.
Afterlunchitwastimeforhernap.Iputherdowninhercribandsatdownintherockingchair.Sheknewthat
therewasnotimeforastorywhenshewasjustnapping,butshealwayswantedsomeoneontheroomuntilshe
fellasleep.So,Isatthere,rockingthechairandwaitedforhertofallasleep.
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"Mommy?"sheasked.
"I'mstillhere,baby,"Itoldher.
Iknewwebabiedhertoomuch,butshewasmybabyafterall.Shewouldeventuallyoutgrowthisbehavior
andIreallydidn'tmindjustsittingthere.Itwaskindofrelaxing.
Whenshefinallywasasleep,IquietlytiptoedoutofherroomandgrabbedthemonitorbeforeIwent
downstairstogetsomeworkdone.IknewIneededtoenjoythequiettimeaslongasitlastedbecauseEdward
andIhadagreedtostopwithhernappingbeforethesummer.
IgrabbedthemailonthecounterthatIhadpickedupwhenwegothomeearlierbeforeIsatdownatmydesk.
Itwasmostlybillsandjunkmail,buttwoenvelopesstoodouttheywerepink.Onewasaddressedformeand
oneforEdward.Inthebackofmymind,IknewwhatitwasbeforeIevenopenedmine.
WewelcomeyoutotheForksHighSchoolReunion
Ididn'tneedtoreadmorebeforeIthrewtheletterandtheenvelopeinthetrash.ThethingIhadfearedforten
yearshadfinallyarrived.
TheletterslookedexactlythesameexceptforthenamessoIknewthatEdwardhadgottenaninvitationas
well.MyfingersitchedtojustthrowbothenvelopesinthetrashandnottellEdwardanything,buthewould
alwaysfindoutsomeotherway.So,Ijustignoredthemandpretendedthattheydidn'texist.
Itwasn'teasytogettoworkwiththebrightpinkenvelopestaringbackatmefromthepileofmail.Iwouldjust
havetoseethingsfromapositiveprospectiveIhadmarriedthemostpopularguyinourclass,Ihada
beautifulandhealthydaughterwithhimandmostofall,IhadloveIhadwhatmostpeoplethoughtofasa
fairytale,somethingthatdoesn'thappeninreallife.
Ifounditeasiertogetsomeworkdoneafterlookingatthingsthatway.Istilldreadedthereunion,though,butI
knewEdwardwouldbethereaswellandthatthoughtcomfortedme.
"Mommy?"EmwhimperedthroughthemonitorjustasIwaslookingforsomeorangejuice,butofcoursewe
didn'thaveany.
Isighedandclosedthedoortotherefrigeratorbeforegrabbingthemonitorandwentupstairs.Ireally,really
wantedthatorangejuice,butmybabyalwayscamefirstsoIwouldhavetogotothestoretonightinstead.
"I'mhere,baby,"IsaidasIwalkedintoherroom.
"I'mawake,"shesaid,groggily.
"Icanseethat."Ismiledandwalkedovertothewindowtopulluptheblinds.
EmreachedupherhandsandIpickedherupfromhercrib.Weneededtoreplaceitwitharealbedsoon,but
forsomereason,wehadn'tdoneityet.Wealsoneededtogetstartedwithherpottytrainingbecausetherehad
beensomechangesinheractionswhenevershedidnumbertwoshewouldgohidebehindsomethingand
thencomeforwardwhenshewasdone.Sometimesshetolduswhatshehaddone,butthatwasn'talways.
WhenIwasdonechangingherdiaper,Iputherdownonherowntwofeetandshewalkedovertohercriband
reachedherhandbetweenthebarstograbherbabyblanket.Whensheputherpacifierinhermouth,Iwas
abouttoargueaboutthatbothofthosethingsshouldstayinbed,butIjustcouldn't.Somethingaboutthat
littlegirlandherbigeyesstoppedme.Iwassickofbeingtheevillittlewitchshecalledamother,soIjust
pickedherupwhenshereachedupherarmsandstartedwalkingdownthestairs.
"So,whatdoyouwanttodonow,baby?"Iasked,puttingherbackdownwhenwereachedthelivingroom.
Shetookherpacifieroutbeforesheanswered.
"Movie?"sheaskedexcitedly.
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"Okay,butonlyone,becausemommyneedstomakedinner,"Ianswered."Whichonedoyouwanttowatch?"
"Um,Iwanttowatchum,IwanttoLittleMermaid!"shesaidwhenshefinallyfiguredoutwhatshe
wantedtowatch.
"Okay,canyoubeagoodgirlandfindthemoviewhileIgogetsomethingtodrink?"
Wekeptallhermoviesonthelowestshelfbythefloorsothatshecouldfinditherself,butsometimes,she
chosetheeasywayoutwhichwasforeithermeorEdwardtogetit.
"Yes,"sheansweredproudly."Um,milk,please."
Ibitmylipinordertostopmyselffromsmiling,butIwasn'tverysuccessful.Itwasamazinghowwellthatlittle
girlknewwhatyouweregoingtoask.Ihadn'tevenaskedherifshewantedanythingshealreadyknew.
Ilookedinthefridgeforsomejuice,butallIcouldfindwasapplejuice.Ifeltabileriseinmythroatatthe
thoughtofdrinkingit.Whydidweevenhaveapplejuice?
IsighedanddecidedonabottleofsparklingwaterandgrabbedEm'scupbeforefillingitwithmilk.
"Mommy,canwewatchthis?"sheasked,steppinginsidethekitchenholdingherpacifierinonehandandDirty
Dancingintheother.
Ilostitforasecondandfelttearsinmyeyes.IhadtoturnaroundsothatEmilywouldnotice.Imagesofme
andEmilywatchingitfloodedmymind,butaftertendeepbreathsIgotitundercontrolandturnedbacktomy
girl.
"Wecanwatchitsomeotherday,okay?Todaywe'llwatchTheLittleMermaid,"Itoldher.
"Promise?"
"Yes,Ipromise."
Ileftoutthepartjusthowmuchlateritwouldbe,yearseven,becauseIdidn'tthinkitwasappropriateforlittle
eyesanditwouldmostlikelybehardashelltowatchitagain.
Ifellasleepsometimeafterabouthalfanhourintothemovie,butIjustcouldn'thelpit.IwasexhaustedandI
wasjustgoingtorestmyeyesforalittlewhile.ThatlittlewhileturnedouttobethewholemovieandIwoke
upagainbysomeoneliftingmyeyelidsyes,liftingmyeyelids.
"Wakeup,"Emilysandfollowedbyagiggle,butIjustgroaned,feelingtheneedformoresleep."Mommy?"
IfEmilykeptdoingthat,itmusthavemeantthatthemoviewasfinishedandIneededtomakedinnersoI
finallyopenedmyeyes.
"I'mawake,"Imumbled,rubbingmyfacefromsleep.
WhileImadedinner,Emilysatinherhighchairandcolored.Iwasstilltiredashell,butImanagedtoget
throughthecookingwithoutburninganythingormyself.
ThedifficultpartwastogetEmilytoeat.Sometimessheatejustfineandeverythingwentsmooth,butmoments
likethis,itdidn'tgososmooth.Shehadstartedtorefuse,shakingherheadandlookedatanythingbutmeand
thefood.Whenshewaslikethis,notevenEdwardcouldhelpout.
"Please,baby.Youneedtoeat,"Ipleaded,butEmilyjustkeptshakingherheadbackandforth.Itwasstarting
toannoythecrapoutofme.
Justthen,Iheardthefrontdooropenanditdidn'ttakelongbeforeEdwardcameintothekitchenlookingtired
afterthelongdayatwork.Hewasstillsmiling,though.
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Emilyreachedupherarmsathimandhedidn'thesitatebeforehehelpedheroutofherchair.Ihadjustbeen
sittinghereforhalfanhour,tryingtogethertoeatsomething,andhejustpickedherupwithoutevenasking.I
felttheangerboilinme,butItriedmyhardesttojustletitgo.
Icalmlystoodupfrommyseatandwalkedoutoftheroomuptoourbathroom.IfIjustcountedtotenandthen
tookashower,maybeIwouldbecalmenoughtofacemyfamilyagain.Only,mystomachdidn'texactlyagree
withme.
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"Mommy'smad,"Emwhispered.
Shealwayswhisperedwhenshewasshyorwhenshewasguiltyofsomething,butrightnow,Ithinkshe
whisperedbecauseshewasafraidthatshehadbeentheonetoupsetBella.
"No,baby,"Iassuredher."Mommy'sjustalittlesad."
Ihadnobetterword,butsadsoundedbetterthanmad.Nottome,buttoEm.
"Kiss?"sheasked,stillwhispering.
"Tellyouwhat,whydon'tyouwatchamovieandI'llgoseeifIcanmakeMommyfeelbetter?"
"Nokiss?"
"Youcankissherlater,okay?"
"Okay."
IputherinourbedsinceIknewBellawasinthebathroomjudgingbythesounds.Iturnedthevolumeonthe
TVupsothatEmwouldn'thearthethrowingup,andpossiblearguingonceIgotinside.Icouldhavejustput
herinthelivingroom,butIwasn'tcomfortableinhavingherdownstairswhilebothBellaandIwereupstairs.
"Stillhungry?"IaskedBellawhowassittinginfrontofthetoiletwhileIclosedthedoorbehindme.Luckily,
shehadn'tlockeditbefore.
"Goaway."
Justlikethismorning,Irefusedtogoawaybecauseobviouslyshewassickorsomethingelsewasup.So,there
wasnowayinhellthatIwouldleaveherside.Ijusthopedwhateveritwas,ithadn'taffectedEmily.
"Baby,couldyouum,couldyoubepregnant?"Iasked,tryingmydamnhardestnottogetmyhopesup.
"Edward,"shegroaned,holdingherhandonherstomach,butnothingcameupsoshecontinued,"Istopped
takingthepillsthreeweeksago.Idoubttheyhavelosttheireffectthatearly.Besides,it'snotlikewe'vehad
muchsexlately."
Iknewshehadbeensouraboutthelackofsexlately,soherbittertonedidn'tsurpriseme.Itwasn'teasytoget
thetimewhenyouhadadaughterwhowantedtospendeveryminuteofthedaywithyou.Inthemornings,I
hadworktodoandsodidBellaevenifsheworkedmostdaysfromhome.
"Thenwhyareyouthrowingup?Nottomention,whyyou'resodamnhormonal?"
"I'mnothormonal,"sheargued,stillsittingonthefloornexttothetoilet.
"You'renot?Thenwhydidyoustormoutofthekitchenlookingneartotearsandangryashell?"
"Fine,"shesaidwithadefeatedsigh."First,youdenymesexthismorning,andthenIthrowupbecauseI'mtoo
hungry.Thenwe'reoutoforangejuiceonceagain,butIdon'thavetimetogotothestorebecauseEmneeded
herdinner,whichshedidn'teatbytheway.Nottomentionthedamnhighschoolreunioninvitationswegotin
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themailtoday.WhyIstormedoutofthekitchenwassothatIwouldn'tlashoutonyouforjusttakingEmout
ofherchairwhenIhadspenthalfanhourtryingtofeedher."
Wow
"Highschoolreunion?Already?"Iasked,lackinganythingbettertosay.
"It'sinthreemonths,"Bellamumbled,wipingtearsfromhereyesbeforeshestooduptobrushherteeth.
"Hey,"Isaid,embracingherinordertocomforther."I'msorryyouhadsuchashittyday."
Shefistedthebackofmytshirtinherhandsandburiedherfaceinmychest,snifflinglightly.
"It'snotyourfault,"shemumbled."Okay,maybehalfofitis,butI'mjustoverreacting."
Iheldherforawhile,lettinghergetthetearsoutbeforeIreleasedhersothatshecouldbrushherteeth.
"Youhaveadaughterouttherewhowantstokissyoutomakeyouhappyagain,andthenI'mtakinghertothe
storetogetapregnancytestwhileyourest,"Isaidcalmly,butfirmlybecausesomethingwasupandIhada
feelingthatitwasn'tastomachbugorhunger.
"Yeah,becausethelastoneItookturnedouttobereallyeffective,"shemutteredsarcastically.
"Well,I'llbuyfiveofthemthen.Allofthemcan'tshowthewrongresult."
"Whatifallofthemturnouttobenegative?"
"Thenwehavetokeeptrying,"Isaidsimply.
Bellafreshenedupabit,sayingthatshewouldtakeashoweronceEmandIhadgonetothestore.Icouldtell
fromthetoneinhervoicethatshewastryingreallyhardtostayneutral,nottogetherhopesup.JustlikeIwas.
"Mommy'ssad?"Emaskedfromourbedaswesteppedintothebedroom.
"No,baby.Mommy'snotsadanymore,butIwantmykissanyway,"Bellasaid,lyingdownnexttoherand
pointedtohercheekwhereEmplacedoneofherfamouskisses.
"Daddymakeitbetter?"
"Yes,daddymademefeelbetter."Bellasmiled.
"Comeon,princess.We'regoingtothestore,"Isaid,grabbingherfromthebedandplacedherinmyarms.It
wouldkillmethedaywhenIcouldnolongercarryher.
"Mommytoo?"
"No,justyouandme,baby.Mommy'sgoingtotakeanap,"IsaidandturnedtoBella,saying,"We'llberight
back."
"Don'tforgetmyorangejuice!"shecalledafterusandIchuckled.
Aftersomestrugglingwithclothesandcarseats,wefinallygottothestore.Ididn'thavethestrollerwithme
andsinceEmchosethatmomenttorefusetowalkonherown,Ihadtocarryher.Ididn'tmindit,though.I
loveditwhenmylittlegirlneededme.
"Medcine?"EmaskedwhenIstoodinfrontoftheoceanofpregnancytests,unabletosayitcorrectly."Sick?"
"No,nooneissick,Em,"Iassuredher,takingasampleofeachbrandandputitinthebasket.
IpickedupBella'sdamnorangejuiceaswell.Mywifecouldreallydrinkthatstuff.Wehadboughtanewbox
twodaysagoanditwasalreadyfinished.
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"Daddy,please?"Emsaidaswestoodinline.
"What,baby?"Iasked,lookingaroundtoseewhatshewaspointingatchocolate."Wehavechocolateat
home,Em."
"Promise?"
"Yes,Ipromise,princess."Ichuckled.
WhenIhadpaidforourstuff,Idroveusbackhomeagain.Bellahadjuststeppedoutoftheshowerandwas
gettingdressed.IputEmbackinthebedsothatshecouldfinishhermovie.Elsahoppedupandjoinedher.
TheyalwaysgotalonggreateventhoughEmcouldbealittlebossyfromtimetotime.Then,IdraggedBella
insidethebathroomandclosedthedoor.
"Six?Edward,wasn'tthatalittleoverdoingit?"sheaskedamusedwhenIhandedherthebagofpregnancy
tests.
"So?Iwanttobesure."
"HowamIsupposedtopeeonallofthem?"
IheldupthebigboxoforangejuiceandsmirkedbecauseIhadthoughtofthatinthestore.Sherolledhereyes
atmeandtooktheboxfrommyhand,takingabigsipstraightoutofthebox.
"Mm,"shemoaned."Abouttime."
Ilaughedatherandwatchedasshelinedallthetestsuponthecounter,drinkingorangejuicewhileunpacking
themandreadtheinstruction.Ihadnoideathattherewereinstructions.Ialwaysthoughtthatallyoudidwas
peeonitandthenwait.
"Someprivacymaybe?"sheasked,lookingatme.
"Iwanttobehere,"Iarguedandsatdownontheedgeofthebathtub.
"Towatchmepee?"
"No,silly.Towatchyoutakethetests,"Isaid.
"Whatever,"shesaidwithaneyeroll."ButcouldyouatleastturnaroundwhileIdoit?"
"ThenIdon'tgettowatch."Ipouted.
"Fine."
SheclosedhereyesandactedlikeIwasn'tintheroomwhileshedidherthing.Thewaitonthosefuckers
almostkilledme.BellaandIsattogether,leaningonthebathtub,waitingnervously.Shewouldn'tstopplaying
withmyfingersandmykneewouldn'tstopshaking.
"Doyouthinkit'stime?"Iasked.
"No,it'sonlybeenaminuteandahalf,"sheansweredquietly.
IturnedtowardherandcuppedherdelicatefaceinmyhandsbeforeIgaveherakiss.
"Nomatterwhatthosetestsshows,IstillloveyouandwehaveEmily.WecantryforanotherbabybecauseI
don'tmindthat,okay?"
"Iknow,"sheansweredwithtearsinhereyes.
"Hey,don'tcry."
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"I'msorry.Youjustmeansomuchtome,"shesaid,kissingmebeforeshepulledawayandsaidthethingIhad
beenwaitingfor,"It'stime."
Westoodupandwalkedovertothecounter.BellahadlaidthemallupsidedownandIwassuchanervous
wreckthatIjuststoodbehindherandburiedmyfaceinherhair,lettingherannouncetheresult.
"They'reallpositive,"Bellastatedafterawhile,releasingagushofair.
"Allofthem?"Iaskedexcitedly.
"Yeah,allsixofthem."Shenodded,doublecheckingeachofthem.
IhadtocheckthemallmyselfandwhenIsawthatshehadbeenright,Ialmostpassedoutfromexcitement.I
grabbedherandspunheraroundlikecrazy.Thatis,untilsheneededtothrowupagain.MaybeIhadspunher
alittletoomuch.
Iheldherhairandrubbedherbackassheemptiedherstomachonorangejuice.Whenshestooduptobrush
herteeth,Ipulleduphertanktoptorevealherstomach.Youcouldn'tseeanything,though.
"Edward,Ican'tbemorethantwoorthreeweeksalong.Youwon'tseeanythingforawhile,"Bellasaid,
laughing.Hereyeswerebeamingandglowingfromhappiness.
"Still,"Isaid,hunchingdowninfrontofher,kissingherflatstomach."Hi,baby.I'myourfather."
IfeltBella'shandsinmyhairasIcontinuedtokissherstomach.Icouldn'twaittoseeherroundwithmybaby
again.Speakingofbabies
"Mommy?"Emcalled.
"Yes,baby?"Bellacalledback,smilingdownatme.
"Watchum,Cinderellawithme?"sheasked.
"Inaminute,Em,"Bellasaid.
"Iwonderhowshe'sgoingtotakethenews,"Iwhispered,stillhuncheddowninfrontofBella.
"Ithinkweshouldwaituntilwe'vegottenitconfirmedbythedoctor,andthenmaybewecanaskRoseand
Emmetthowtheydid,"sheansweredalittleuncertainly.
"Yeah,Ijusthopeshewon'tthinkwe'rereplacingher,"Isaid,givingonefinalkissonherstomachbefore
pullingthetanktopbackdownandstandingup.
"Doyoureallythinkthatshewouldthinkthat?"
"Ihavenoidea.I'mtheonlychildsoIdon'tknowwhatit'slike"
"Meneither."
"I'msureshe'llbejustasbossyassheiswithElsa,"Imused.
IhuggedBella,pouringalltheloveIhadintothathugandsheclungtomeasifherlifedependedonit.We
couldn'tstaylikethatforlongbecausewehadanotherbabywaitingoutsideforustowatchCinderellawith
her.
"Ican'tbelievewe'rehavinganotherbaby,"Bellacried,butshesmiledsoIknewitwashappytears.
"NeithercanI.Thankyou,baby,"Itoldher,kissinghersoftly.
"No,thankyou,"shewhispered.
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EndNotes:
A/N:Nextupisthereuinion*squeee!*Ihavebeenwantingtowritethatchapterfora
longtimeandnowit'sfinallyhere!So,ifyouhavesomethingyouabsolutelywantto
happenatthereuinion,pleasetellme!
Thereisatotalof3chaptersleft,justsoyouknow.Ashardasitwillbetoletthisstory
go,Ifeellikeit'stime...
Justalittleremindertothosewhodoesn'tknowthisyet:Istartedpostingmynewstory
alittleearlierthanplanned,sothereisalreadyonechapterup(+prologue)!
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A/N:So,thereunionisfinallyhere.IjustwanttostartwithsayingthatI'msorryifthis
doesn'treachyourexpectations.IalsohavenoexperiencewithaHSreunionsoIdon't
knowifit'sgoodenough,butthat'swhywecallitfiction,right?)
Goodiescanbefoundhere:marriedtotheenemy.blogg.se
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EPOV
"Canyoupleasebringmesomethingwhileyou'reatit?"Bellaaskedfromwhereshewassittingbesidemeon
thecouch,Emilycurleduptoherside.
"Whatdoyouwant?"
"Um,asandwichwithhmm,Nutellaandcheese,"shesaidwhenshefinallydecided.
"Sotwosandwichesthen?OnewithcheeseandonewithNutella?"Iaskedbecauseshecouldn'tmeanwhatI
thoughtIheardhersay.
"No,one."
Istifledashudderatthemerethoughtofeatingit,butthatwashowitwaslikethesedayswheneverBellahad
oneofherweirdcravings.
"Don'tlooklikethat,"shescoldedme."YoursonwantsasandwichwithNutellaandcheese,soI'mgivingitto
him."
Yeah,thatwasrightwewerehavingason.Ason.WehadfoundoutyesterdayattheultrasoundandIhad
criedfromhappinessandthenmadelovetoBellafortwohoursafterEmwasasleepthatnight.Ilovedmybaby
girlmorethananything,butthethoughtofhavingasonseriouslymademesofuckinghappy.
Bellawasfourmonthspregnantyeah,fourmonths,notthreeaswehadexpectedandshestillwasn't
showingmuch.Ourdoctorhadtoldusthatyouwouldstartseeingthebumpearlierinthesecondpregnancy,
butIguessmywifewasjusttiny.
Bellahadthrownafitwhensheheardthatshewassixweekspregnantinsteadofthree,cursingmysupersperm
forafullhour,onlystoppingtoshoveaBigMacinherprettymouth.Thenshestartedtocalmdownand
actuallythankingmeforanewbaby,evenifithadbeenafewweeksearlierthanplanned.
"Fine,butyou'respoilinghim,"Ifinallysaid,givingheraquickkiss.ThenIturnedtoEmwhowasengrossed
inthemoviewewerewatching."Doyouwantanything,baby?"
Shelookedupatmewithhergreeneyeswithatornexpression.Thenshesaid,"SameasMommy."
Howthehellcouldatwoandahalfyearoldsoundandlooksoadult?Shewasmybaby,forcryingoutloud!
Thefunnythingwas,though,thatsheprobablyhadnoideawhatBellajustordered.
IgotupfromthecouchandwenttothekitchenafterIhadbeeninthebathroomsincethatwaswhereI
originallyintendedtogowhenBellaaskforhersandwich.WewereatCharlie'sfortheweekend.Thedreaded
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highschoolreunionwastomorrowandmyparentsweren'thome.Neitherofusmindedstayinghere,though.
Charliewasprettylaidbackandlovedhisgranddaughtermorethananythingsohewasprettystokedabout
havingushere.Itdidn'tchangethefactthathewasstilltheChiefofPolice,though,sohehadbeencalledinan
hourago.
"Sorry,Bella.Yourdaddoesn'tseemtohaveanyNutella!"IcalledwhenIhadsearchedthroughthecabinets
ofthesmallkitchen.
"Yes,hedoes.Healwayshasitaround.Checkinthecabinetnexttothefridgeonthetopshelf!"shecalled
back.
ShewasrightbehindthebigjarofpeanutbutterwasanequallyasbigjarofNutella.Ishookmyheadand
grabbedtwosandwichesbeforeIspreadthebrowngooonthem.
WhenIcameback,IhandedBellahergrosssandwichandEmgothers,butwithoutanycheeseonit.Ofcourse
shenoticedrightaway.
"Cheese?"
"No,baby.That'sjustMommy'sstrangesandwich,"Itriedtotellher.
"Here,Em.Youcantrymineandifyoulikeit,Daddywillgetyousomecheesetoputon,okay?"Bellasaid,
reachinghersandwichoutforEmilytotry.IcringedbecauseIdidn'twantmybabytoeatthat,butIguessI
didn'thavemuchchoice.
Emdidn'tseemafraidasshetookalargeoraslargeashermouthallowedbite.Shechewedthreetimes
beforehercutelittleBellanosescrunchedupindisgust.
Itoldyouso.
BellalaughedandwasquickwithputtingherhandinfrontofEmily'smouthsothatshecouldspititout.
"DoyoustillwantDaddytobringyousomecheese?"
"No,"Emansweredquicklyandshookherhead.Webothlaughedather.
Bellamadeamovetogetupandquicklybrushedawaymyhelpinghand.Shealwayswantedtodothings
herselfevenifitwouldbesomucheasierifshewouldjustletmehelpher.Likegettingupfromthecouchor
bedforinstance.Mostofthetime,shedidletmehelpheroutofbed,butitwasveryrarelythatIgottohelpher
fromthecouch.
"Icantakethat,"Isaid,gesturingtothegooshehadinherhand.
"No,Ineedsomeorangejuiceanyway."Shesmiledandwalked,orratherwaddled,overtothekitchen.
WecontinuedtowatchCinderellawithEmilyandafterawhile,Charliecamebackhome,lookingexhausted
eventhoughitwasbarelysevenintheevening.
"Where'smylittleEmmy?"Charliesaidfromthedoor.
Emsquealedandstooduponthecouch,wavingherhands,"Hi,grandpa."
"Comehere,"Charliesaid,smiling,afterhehadhungoffhisgun.
Emquicklygotoffthecouchandsprintedforhim.Itdidn'tmatterhowmanytimeswetoldherthatshewasn't
allowedtoruninthehouse,shestilldidit.Tonight,though,IunderstoodwhysoIdidn'ttellher.Shedidn'tget
toseeCharlieveryoftensinceheworkedalot,buthesometimestookthetimetocomedowntoSeattlejustas
wesometimewentuphere.HeandSuewerestillacouple,buttheydidn'tlivetogether.
Don'taskmewhy,though.
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CharliesatdowninhisreclinerwithEminhislap,joiningusinfrontofCinderella.Emstartedtellinghimall
thethingshehadmissedandhekepthisinterestupeventhoughhehadseenthemoviecountlessoftimeswhile
babysitting.
"Okay,saygoodnighttograndpa,"Bellatoldherwhenthemoviewasfinishedanditwastimeforhertogoto
bed.
EmkissedCharlie'sstubblecheekandgavehimahug,saying,"Nighty,night."
"Goodnight,Emily,"Charliesaid,placingakissonhercheekaswellbeforehereleasedher.Iwatchedasmy
wifeandlittlegirlmadetheirwayupstairs,wonderingifIshouldgowiththem.Bellawouldhavetoldmeto
comeifsheneededthehelp.IfeltkindofrudetojustleaveCharliealoneevenifitwashishouse.
"CanIsaynightytobaby?"EmaskedBella.
Shehadbeensurprisinglyniceaboutthewholepregnancy.Shehadseemedalittleoffinthebeginningwhen
wetoldherbecauseshecouldn'tseeanything,butwithtime,shecamearound.Theonlythinglefttoworry
aboutwaswhenthebabywasactuallyborn.JustbecauseshewasokaywiththebabyinsideBella'sstomach,
didn'tmeanshewouldbeokaywithhimoutside.
"Edward,"Charliestartedwhentheywereoutofhearing."Ineedyoutodosomethingforme."
"Sure,"Isaid,thinkingthattherewasn'tmuchIwouldn'tdo.
"Ineedyoutotakereallygoodcareofmybabygirltomorrow,"hesaidinaseriousandpleadingtone."Iknow
howsensitiveandemotionalapregnantwomancanbe.Ialsoknowthatshehadatoughtimeduringhigh
school,sothisreunionisabigdealforher.So,please,justbethereforher."
Wow.
"Iwouldn'tdareleavingherside,"Itoldhimhonestly.
"Thankyou."
"Inreturn,maybeyoucouldlookaftermybabygirl.She'srarelyawayfromus,especiallynotBella,andevenif
sheknowsyou,it'salwaysalittlehard"
"Iwouldn'tdareleavingherside,"hetoldmewithasmile,mimickingmywords.
BPOV
"Ilooklikeafatcow,"Imumbled.
IwassittingontheparkinglottoForksHighSchool.AplaceIhadn'tsteppedafootonfortenyearsandhereI
was,goingtomyhighschoolreunionlookingfatwhilemyhusbandlookedevenmoregorgeousthanhedid
backthen.
Life'ssounfair.
"Baby,callyourselfafatcowonemoretimeandwe'llhavesomeseriousissues,"Edwardthreatened.
"Sorry,"Imumbled.
"No,Bella,"hegroaned."Listen,youarebeautiful,andyou'refuckinggorgeouswiththatcutebumpand
you'reglowing."
"Doyouwannahavesex?"Iblurtedoutbecausehe,talkinglikethis,alwaysturnedmeon.Todaywasno
exception.
"Now?"heaskedsurprised,lookingbacktothebackseat,seemingtoestimateifheshouldagreeornot.
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"Yeah,"Isaidlikeitwasobvious.
"Okay,justletmeparksomewhereinthecorner,"hesaideagerlyandstartedtheVolvoagain,drivingustoa
moresecludedareaoftheparkinglot.
Webothclimbedovertothebackseatsincewedidn'twanttobeseenandthatwouldhavebeeninevitableifwe
hadchosentogooutsideandthenclimbintothebackseat.Plus,Ididn'tfitinthefrontseatandthewindows
weren'ttaintedhereeither,justinthebackseat.
"Ihatejeans,"IgroanedasItriedtogetthemoff.Theywerehardertogetoffsincetheywentallthewayupto
themiddleofmyswollenstomach.
"Justleanback,"EdwardorderedandIleanedbackagainstthecardoorashehelpedme.
Eventually,hemanagedtogetthemoffandIeasilyslidmypantiesdownandthrewtheminEm'scarseatnext
tousalongwithmyjeans.Edwarddidn'tbotherremovinghisjeansallthewaydown,justenoughforhis
preciousgoodstocomeout.
Guyshaveitsoeasy.
Istraddledhimandlinedmyselfupagainsthim,eagertohavethereleasemybodywasscreamingfor.
"Fuck,"hecursedasIwastednotimetakinghiminsideme.
IlethimgetafewsecondstocontrolhimselfbeforeIstartedmovingontopofhim.Hepushedmycardigan
downenoughtoexposemyboobs.Hehadalwaysbeenfascinatedaboutthem,evennowwhenIdidn'thave
milkinthemanymore.
Iwillsoon
Isqueezedmyinnermuscles,somethingIhadbeengoodatsincegivingbirthsinceIhaddonethatexercise
withtheballs.Helovediteventhoughhealwayscomplainedaboutitmakinghimcumtoofast.
"You'regoingtomakemecumifyoukeepthatup,"hewarned.
"That'stheplan,"Iansweredwithasmirkanddiditagainjusttoprovemypoint.
HebitdownonmynippleandIjustcouldn'tcontrolmyselfanylonger.Itwassoeasytogetoffthesedays,
especiallywithaskilledhusband.
"Edward,"Igroanedashethrustintome,feelingmyselfexplodearoundhim.
"Jesus,baby,"hepanted.
Heburiedhisfaceinmyboobswhichhadgrownquiteabitlately,andthenhesqueezedmeastightaswas
allowedconsideringtherewasababybetweenus.IfeltsopowerfulinthatexactmomentasIfelthimexplode
insideofme.
Quickandfuckingfantastic.
"Iloveyousofuckingmuch,"hesaid,hisfacestillinmyboobs.
"Iloveyou,too,"Iwhisperedandranmyfingersinhishair,helpinghimcalmdown.
Ourheavybreathinghadcreatedafogonthewindows,butIdidn'tcare.Westoodsofarawayfromtherestof
thecarsthatnobodywouldhavenoticedanyway.
"DoyoustillwishwehadtakentheImplala?"Ipanted,restingmyforeheadagainsthis.
"Well,Iactuallythinkit'smoresexfriendlythantheVolvo,"heanswered,gesturingtothesmallspaceand
Em'scarseat.
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"Itdoesn'thavetaintedwindowssothere'snowayinhellthatIwouldhavehadsexwithyouinitonthis
parkinglot."
"Whynot?Itwouldsureshoweveryonethatyou'rewithme,"hesaidsmugly.
"I'llmakesuretheyallknowthatwithoutthesex,"Imumbled.
"Hey,it'llbeokay,"heassuredme,cuppingmyfaceandleanedinforakiss."Ifit'snot,thenwe'llscrewthe
partytonight."
"Promise?"
"Ipromise,butweshouldreallygetgoing,"hesaidapologetically.
"Sure,Ijustneedanapkinorsomethingfirst,"Imumbled,lookingaround.
"Why?"
"Afteralmostfouryears,youhavenoclue?"Iasked,raisingmyeyebrowsandlookeddowntowherewewere
joined.
"Oh,yeah,you'reright."Hechuckled.
Iquicklycleanedmyselfupandadjustedmyblueandwhitestripedcardigan.Edwardhadtohelpmewiththe
lightbluejeanssinceitwastoohardformetoputthemoninsuchasmallplacewithsuchabigstomach.Even
thoughEdwardkepttellingmethatIwasn'tbig,Istillfeltlikeit.
Weslowlywalkedhandinhandtothefootballfieldwhereeverythingwassupposedtostart.Thedayhadbeen
dividedintwothefirstpartwasrightnowwhereyouwouldgettoknoweachotheralloveragaininarelaxed
environment.Thesecondpartwastonightanditwasmorelikeprom.Ididn'texactlylookforwardtoanyof
them,butIdiditforEdward'ssake.Hewantedthis.
Ididn'trecognizethewomanormanwhosatatthetableandhandedoutnametags.Maybetheyhadgoneall
fancywiththisreunionandhiredapartyplannerorsomethingbecausetheselookedtoooldtobeinourclass.
"Hiandwelcome!Here,takeanametagandthengotothebleacherswhereyou'llallmeet,"thewomansaid
withanoverlyeagersmileandhandedusbothanametag.
Itwasoneofthosenametagswhereitsaid'Hello!Mynameis'andyouhadtowriteyournameinit.Ileftout
mylastnameandjustputBellaintheblankspace.Itwasn'tlikeanyonewouldremembermeanywaysowhat
wasthepoint?
"It'sgoingtobeokay.Justbreatheandrelax,"Edwardsaidcalmlyaswecontinuedourwalktothebleachers
beforehekissedmytemple.
"Yeah,"Imumbledandplacedahandonmystomachasiftoprotectmybabyfromallofthis.
Ididn'trecognizemanyfacesandwecouldn'tbemorethantwentypeopleorsomething.Mostofthepeople
whowerecomingtonightmaybeskippedthisfirstpart.IknewIhadifitweren'tforEdward.Thiswas
daylight.Atleasttonightitwouldbedarker.
"Okay,people!"Jessicayelled,herdingustogether."Wearegoingtostartthedaywithplayingbaseballand
thenwe'regettinganexclusivetouraroundtheschool."
Exclusive?
Edwarddidn'tliketheideaofmeplayingbaseball,andneitherdidI,soIsatdownonthebleachersand
watchedtheothersplay.IfeltJessicastareatmefromtimetotimebutIignoredit.Shecouldstareallshe
wanted,IwasstillherewithEdwardandshewasn't.
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Jealousbitch.
IfeltmyphonevibrateabouthalfanhourintothegameandwhenIpulleditout,Isawthatitwasmydad.
"Hello?"
"Bells,I'msorry.IneedtogotoworkandIdon'tthinkit'sagoodideatobringEm,"Dadsaidapologetically.
"No,it'sfine.I'mjustsittingatthebleachersanywayandIdon'tmindhavingmybabyherewithme,"Iassured
him,almostrelivedtohavethatcomfort.
"Why?Ithoughtitwasahighschoolreunion."
"Itis,butI'mpregnantandhaveaveryprotectivehusbandwhodoesn'twantmetoplaybaseball.Besides,I
don'twantanythingtodowithsportssoreally,Idon'tmind."
"Okay,weshouldbethereinaboutfiveminutes.Doyoumindmeetingusup?I'mkindofinahurry."You
couldtellhowreluctanthewasandIunderstood.Theonedayforweeksthathegottospendwithhisonly
granddaughterandhehadtowork.
"Sure,Dad.I'llbethere."
WehungupandIlookedoveratEdwardwhoseemedtobeprettyintothegame,soIstoodupandstarted
walkingtotheparkinglot.Ikeptmyeyesonhimtoseeifhelookedover,andwhenhedid,Imadean'M'in
theairtolethimknowwhereIwasgoingsothathewouldn'tworry.Heunderstood,noddinghisheadand
wentbacktoplayingthegame.
Dad'scruiserwasalreadyparkedonceIfinallygottotheparkinglot.Ididn'tdaretowalkveryfastthesedays
sinceIwasknownasthetown'sbiggestklutz.
"Where'sDaddy?"Emaskedquietlyaswewalkedhandinhanddownthefield.
"He'splayingbaseball,"Iexplainedandpointedtotheplayersoutonthefield.ThegamehadpickedupandI
couldn'tbelievehowanyonecouldtakeitthisserious.
"Oh.Promise?"
"Yes,Ipromise.Let'sgoandsitdownandmaybeyoucanseehim,okay?"
Wewalkedovertothebleachersandsatdown.EmcrawledupinmylapandIdidn'tmind.SheknewIcould
nolongercarryher,evenifIwantedto,mystomachandbackdidn'tcooperate.Butsheknewshecouldalways
sitinmylap.Besides,shehadstartedtogrowandgottenheavier.Thatfacthadmademecryseveraltimesand
whenEdwardasked,Iblameditonthehormones,butinrealityIwantedmybabytostaythiswayandnever
leave.
"Daddy!"Emsquealedandpointedtothefield,bringingmebackfrommysadthoughts.
"Yeah,see?Itoldyouhewasthere,"Isaidteasinglyandpokedherlightlyintheribs.Shewasjustlikeme
extremelyticklishinthatarea.
Rightthen,Ifeltakickfrommylittleboy.Wehadn'tnamedhimyet,butIhadfallenforthenamesMasenand
Nick.EdwardandIhadn'ttalkedmuchaboutit,soIhadn'ttoldhimyet.
"Thebaby'skicking,Em,"Itoldher."Doyouwanttofeel?"
"CanI?"sheaskedbothshylyandexcitedly.
"Yes,silly,"IsaidwithalaughandplacedhersmallhandontheareawhereIhadfeltthekick.
IttookalittlewhilebeforemyboydecidedtokickagainandEmlookedupatmewithwideeyesandan'O'
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shapedmouth.Itwasonlythesecondtimeshehadfeltit.Sheputherheadagainstmystomachtoseeifshe
couldhearanything,butIdoubtedthatshewould.
"Hurt?"sheasked.
"No,baby.Itdoesn'thurt,"Iassuredher.
Itwasthetruth.Itdidn'thurtatthispoint,butthemorehegrew,Iwassureofthateverykickwouldn'tjustfeel
likeanudge.Ididn'tneedtotellherthat,though,becauseshewassoprotectivejustlikeherfather.
Speakingoffather,thegamewasfinishedandEdwardwalkedovertous,pickingEmupandcausingherto
squealinbothsurpriseandjoy.
"What'smylittleangeldoinghere,huh?"heaskedteasingly.
"Dadhadtowork,"Iexplained.
Asmorepeoplestartedgatheringaroundus,themoreshyEmgrewandburiedherfaceinthecrookof
Edward'sneck.
"So,Edward,who'sthis?"Jessicaasked,pokingEminthestomachasifshetriedtotickleher.
Getyourhandsoffmydaughter!
"It'smylittleprincess,"heanswered,kissingEm'shairandangledherawayfromJessica'spryinghands.He
musthavefeltthesamewasasIdid.
"Oh,youhaveadaughter?"sheaskedinfakesurprise.
Youknowthat,bitch!
Iwasabouttotellhertobackoff,butEdwardstartedtalkingbeforeIhadthechance.
"Yes,andyouknewthatbecauseyoumetusinthestorewhileBellawaspregnant,"hesaidcalmly."I'msorry,
Jessica,butweneedtofollowtherestofthegroupsinceI'vekindoflostmywayaroundhere."
TheschoollookedexactlythesameandeventhoughEdwardclaimedtonotknowhiswayaroundhere
anymore,Iknewexactlywheretogo.Iknewwhereeveryclassroomwas,everybathroomeverything.I
didn'tunderstandwhytheyhadn'tevenrepaintedthewallsaftertenyears.Theywerestillinthesameugly
fadedyellowcolor.
"SuejusttextedandtoldusthatshecouldpickupEmifwewanted,"ItoldEdwardafterIhadgottenher
message,eventhoughIdidn'twanttoletmydaughtergoatthemoment.Shewastheonewhokeptmesane.
"Why?"Hepouted."ThisshitisalmostoverandthenmaybewecoulddrivetoPortAngelestograbsome
food,orsomething."
IwasgladthathefeltthesamewayIdidandsinceDadwasobviouslystillworking,Ididn'tmind.Besides,
SuestillworkedaswellandEmwouldmostlikelyjustgetintheway.
Justaspromised,EdwarddroveustoPortAngelesandmybelovedMcDonald'safterthefirstpartofthe
reunionwasdone.Weweresupposedtobebacklatertonightateightforthefinalpart.
Istoodinfrontofthemirrorgettingreadyandapplyinglipgloss,whileEmsatonthetoiletseatwatchingme.
AlicehadgivenmeinstructionsonhowtodomymakeupandRosehadtoldmehowtofixmyhair.They
knewhowimportantthisnightwassowithgratefultearsinmyeyes,Ihadlistenedcarefully.
Alicehadevenloanedmeoneofhernewdresses.Ihadinsistedonbuyingitsinceitwouldn'tbeabletosell
afterbeingworn,butshehadtoldmeafirmnoandkickedmeoutofthestorewiththedressinmyhand.
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"Mommypretty."Emgiggledfromwhereshesat.
"Youthinkmommy'spretty?"Iaskedsmiling.
"Yes."
"Well,thankyou,baby,"ItoldherandeventhoughIwantedtokissherforbeingsosweet,hercheekwould
befullofgooeylipgloss.
"Iwantpretty,too."
"Butyou'realreadypretty."
"Please?"ShewasgivingmethepoutandlookingatmewiththosepleadinggreeneyesIcouldneversayno
to.Itdidn'tmatterifitwashersorifitwasEdward's.Itwasimpossible.
"Okay,dolikethis,"Itoldherandpuckeredmylipsintoakissyface.
ShedidthemostadorableversionofitandIappliedaminimumamountoflipglossonherlips.Whenshewas
done,shestruggleddownthetoiletseatandranoff.Ifollowedherandtoldhertoslowdown,butshewas
alreadyatherdestinationmyroomandEdwardsittingonmybedwhileputtingonsomesocks.
"Daddy,look!I'mprettylikeMommy,"shesaidandjumpeduponthebed.
Oncehesawwhatshewastalkingabouthelookedoveratmewithanexpressionthattoldmethathedidn'tlike
itonebit.
"Isn'talittletooearlyforthisshit?"heasked.
"Uhoh,daddysaidbadword,"Emwhispered.
"Yes,hedid,baby.He'llbeintimeoutlater,okay?Andit'sjustforfun,Edward.Iwouldn'tlethertoactually
gooutsidelikethat."
Iwasn'ttheonlyonewhowasafraidofheragingandEdwardmightevendreaditmorethanIdid.Especially
whenitcametoclothesanddating.Notthatshewasdating,butshehadoftenmentionedJared,LeanandJake's
son,andthatsetEdwardoff.
"Well,youshouldn'tencourageher,"hemumbledandkissedEmily'shairbeforehesatherbackdown."Go
andseeifgrandpaneedssomehelp."
"Andbecarefulinthestairs,baby,"Itoldherasshewalkedoutoftheroom.
Shehadstartedtowalkinthestairsalone,andDad'sstairswasn'tverybig,butIwasstillalittleworried.
Iquicklyadjustedmyvneckedgreydressthatwenttomidthigh.Ifithadn'tbeenforthecompletelyblack
stockingsIwaswearingandtheblacktanktopthatcoveredmostofmycleavage,Iwasn'tsureIwouldhave
wornittonight.Itwasquietdaring.Atleastforme.
"Youlookbeautiful,"Edwardsaid,comingupfrombehindmeandwrappedhisarmsaroundmywaist,his
handsrestingonmybelly.
"Thankyou,andsodoyou,"Itoldhimhonestly.
Hewaswearingslacksandawhiteshirt.Simple,butyetsexyashell.Iknewwedidn'thavetimeforanysex
andbothmydadanddaughterwereinthesamesmallhouse,soIquicklygotridofalltheinappropriate
thoughts.
"Okay,Dad.We'regoing,"ItoldDadoncewegotdownstairs."IsSuecomingoverlater?"
"Yeah,shesaidshemightstopbytosayhellotoEmmy.Theyhaveoneofthosemeetingstonight,though,so
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shecan'tstay,"heanswered,holdingEminhislapasshecoloredinherbook.
"Oh,okay.Anyway,Edwardhashisphoneontheentirenightifanythingcomesup,okay?"
Ididn'thaveroomformyownsincethedressdidn'thaveanypocketsandIdidn'tfeellikebringingabagwith
me.Besides,Edward'spocketswoulddojustfine.
ItoldEmthatIlovedherandthatwewouldbebacksoon.ShewasalittlereluctanttoletgoofEdwardashe
huggedheronelasttime,butwefinallymanagedtogettotheVolvoanddrovebacktotheschool.
Itwasthesamecouplethathadgreetedusearliertodaythatsatbythetableandwelcomedusonceagain.
Theseatingwereinalphabeticalorderaccordingtoyourlastnameyouhadinhighschool.Thatmeantthat
EdwardandIwouldbesittingasfarawayfromeachotheraspossible.
"Nofuckingway,"EdwardmutteredandstormedoffwiththeplacementcardthatbelongedtoaMollyBarnes
tomysupposedtable.
Ijuststoodthereinbothsurpriseandreliefasheretrievedmycardandputitbytheseatnexttohis.Thetable
hadfiveseatsandweweresupposedtobejoinedbyJamesCavanaughwithhiswifeVictoriaandTyler
Crowley.IguessheandJessicaweren'ttheonewhoplannedtheseatingsincehernamewasn'twithhis.
"Well,well.EdwardCullen,"IheardsomeonesayandasIturnedaroundtofacehim,Isawthatitwasnone
otherthanJames.
"James,"Edwardgreetedwithacurtnod."ThisismywifeBella."
"Ah,IknewIrecognizedyoulasttimeIsawyou,"hesaid,lookingmeover.
"Hello,James,"Isaid,tryingtoactniceandcivileventhoughIjustwantedtosmackhim.
"Andthisismywife,"hesaid,gesturingtoagorgeousredheadedwomanathisside."Victoria."
"Hello.It'snicetoseeyouagain,"shesaidpolitelyandreachedoutherhand.
Itookitandweshookhands.JustassheandEdwarddid.Somethingtoldmethatshewasn'tlikeJamesatall
becauseherpolitenessseemedgenuine.
Weallsatdowninourseatsandanawkwardsilencefelloverus.Thatwas,untilTylerarrived.Herecognized
mesincethatdaywemetatthebeachdowninLaPushsomanyyearsago.
"Wow,again,huh?"heaskedwithasmileashelookeddownatmystomach.
IhadbeenpregnantwhenIsawhimthatsummerandnowIwaspregnantagain.Itwaskindofironic,buthe
didn'tseemjudgingoraccusing.Justsurprised.
"Yeah,"Isaidwithalightlaugh."You?"
"No,twokidsisenoughforme,"heanswered.
Ifithadn'tbeenforTyler,ourtablewouldhavebeensilent.Iwassureofit.Henevershutup,unlesshewas
stuffingfoodintohismouth.Hetalkedabouteverythingtherewastotalkabout,bringingtherestofusintothe
conversationfromtimetotime.
"Ineedtousethebathroom,"IwhisperedtoEdwardafterawhileandstoodup.
"Okay,doyouwantmetocomewithyou?"
"No,IthinkI'llmanage."IsmiledandgavehimaquickkissbeforeIleft.
AsIsatinoneofthedisgustingstalls,relivingmyachingbladder,Iheardsomepeoplecomein.Ihadbeenall
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aloneinthebathroombeforethat,soIchildishlypulledmyfeetupandrestedthemagainstthedoor,hopingthe
personswouldn'tnoticeme.
"IsabellaSwanhasdesignerclotheson.Imean,comeon.Noonecanaffordadresslikethatandputfoodon
thetable,"thepersonsaidwithvenominhervoice.
WhoissheandwhathadIeverdonetoher?
"Whatissheevendoinghere?Itisn'tlikesomeonewantedtoseeheragain."
"She'sherewithherhusband,"thevoicethatIrecognizedasJessicasaid.
Itwastimeformetointerruptbeforetheseladiescouldtaketheirimaginationandturnitintosomethingugly.
Okay,let'sgivetheseladiesafieldday.
Istoodupfromthetoilet,flushingitandpushedthedooropen,comingfacetofacewithJessicaandtwoblonde
womenthatIdidn'trecognize.Theyalllookedfake,though,somaybeitwasbecauseofallthesurgerythatI
couldn'tseewhoitwas.
"Doyouladieshavesomethingyouwanttoaskme?"Iasked,washingmyhands.
"Um,whoareyou?"thetallestblondeaskedinabitchytone.
Shedidn'tevenknowwhoIwasandyethereshestoodandtalkedtrashbehindmyback.Ididn'tknow
whethertolaughorcry.
"I'mIsabellaSwan,"Iansweredsincethatwasthenameshewouldmostlikelyrecognizemeas."AndIdon't
seehowitisyourbusinessastohowIcanaffordareallyexpensivedressorwhyI'mhere.Butjusttogetyou
toshutup,Ihavemoneyandthedesignerjusthappenstobeoneofmybestfriends,andyes,Iamherewithmy
husband."IturnedtoJessicaandsaid,"Andhe'sherewithmesobackthefuckoff!"
Withthat,Iturnedmyheelandstormedoutofthebathroom.
God,thesehormonesaremakingmecrazy,butdamnthatfeltgood!
Ismiledtomyself,almostimaginingwhattheirfaceslookedlikeatthatmomentasIwalkedbacktoourtable
andEdward.
"Whatareyousmilingat,baby?"heaskedinanamusedtoneasIsatdown.
"Nothing."Ismirked.
Helookedbacktothebathroomdoorjustasthegossipingladieswalkedout.
"Nothing,huh?"heaskedknowingly.
"Nothing."Ikissedhim.
"I'mproudofyou,"hewhisperedinmyear.
"Thankyou,"Isaid,givinghimonemorekissbeforeIwentbacktothefood.
IwasgladthatEdwardhadtakenustoMcDonald'searlierbecauseneitherInormysonlikedtheItalianbuffet
thattheyservedheretonight.
"Wehavesomeawardstohandouttonight,"Jessicasaidfromthestage,soundingawfullycheerybeforeher
fakesmilefadedassheannounced,"Thefirstonegoestothecoupleweneverthoughtwe'dseeIsabella
SwanandEdwardCullen."
ApictureofmeandEdwardonoursecondweddingdaywasdisplayedonabigscreenbehindher.Itwas
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takenatthereceptionandEdwardandIweresittingatourtable,facesclosetogetherandalmostkissing.Itwas
asweetpictureandIwonderedhowthehelltheycouldhavegottentheirhandsonit.
"How?"IaskedEdward.
"Iwouldguessmymother,"hemuttered,rubbinghisfacewithhispalm."Comeon,webettergetupthere."
Hestoodupandreachedouthishelpinghand.Whenwewalkedtheshortdistancetothestage,Icouldfeelall
thestaresboringintomybodyandface.IguessnotmanyofthepeoplehereevenknewIwashereandthatI
hadlandedthemostpopularguyinourclass.Edwardmusthavesensedmydiscomfortandwrappedhisarm
aroundmyshouldersprotectively.
"Actually,hernameisIsabellaCullenthesedays,"Edwardstartedaswehadacceptedtheawardwhichwas
onlylikeaframeddiploma."Andshe'smybeautifulwifeandthemotherofmychildren.Ijustwanttotellyou,
sincethereseemstobeafewconfusedlooksonyourfacestonight,thatIlovehermorethananything.Iknow
I'vealreadydonethis,baby,butitseemslikeIneedtodoitagain."
Hebentdownandgavemeakissonthelipsbeforehegotdownonhisknees,takingbothmyhandsinhis.
Thenhesaid,"I'msofuckingsorryforhowItreatedyouinhighschool.Ipromisetomakeituptoyouforthe
restofmylife."
SinceIwasashyperson,Ifeltmycheeksturnredfromhispublicannouncement,butitmeanttheworldtome
andIfelttearsinmyeyes.
"It'sokay,Iforgiveyou,"Isaidloudenoughforeveryonetohearthroughthemicrophone.
Hestoodbackupandkissedmesoundlyonmylips,holdingmyfaceinhishands.ItwasalmostasifIforgot
thatwewerebeingwatchedbyfiftyorsopeople.Almost.
"IguessafterhisspeechthatIshouldsaysomethingaswell,"Istartedwhenhepulledaway."Um,Idon't
intendtocomeoffasbitchybecauseunlikesomeladiesheretonight,myfathertaughtmehowtobehave.But,I
won'tthankyouforthis'award'becauseit'sactuallyaprettylamethingtohandoutarewardfor.Iguesswe
deserveit,though,becausejustlikeyou,IneverinmylifethoughtthatIwouldmarrytheEdwardCullen,butI
didandIlovehimtodeath."
AfterIfinished,Edwardgrabbedmyhandandhelpedmedowntheshortstepsandbacktoourtable.
"I'msofuckingproudofyou,baby,"hewhisperedinmyear.
Ithadbeenasmall,andmaybeevenchildishthingtosayonastagetoyourformerclassmates,butIfelt
strongerthanIhadwhenwewalkedintothisgymearlier.EspeciallywhenIsawallthestunnedfaces
everywhereIlooked.ThatjustmademesmirkandwrapmyarmsaroundEdwardprotectively.
"Wow,Ididn'tevenknowyouhaditinyou,"Jamessaidaswegotbacktothetable.
"Ithinkitwasverystrongofhertodosomethinglikethat,"Victoriasaid.
EventhoughIdidn'tlikeJamesonebit,Ihonestlydidlikehiswife.SheseemedniceenoughandIwondered
howsheendedupwithsomeonelikeJames.Iwasn'tgoingtojudgethem,though,becauseitwasn'tmy
business.
"Thankyou,"IsaidtoVictoria,ignoringJames'comment.
Jameskeptstaringatme,butwasbrokenoffbyJessicawhohadfinallyrecoveredenoughtocontinuewithher
awards.Itwasmostlyjustaslameastheawardwehadwonthecouplewealwaysthoughtwouldmarry,the
mostwantedman,themostwantedwomanandsoon.EdwardwonthemostwantedmanandIwasn't
surprised.Itoldhimcongratulationsandhejustmadeasourfaceandwentuptothestageonceagain.
"You'reafeistylittleone,aren'tyou?"JamesaskedasEdwardacceptedhisaward.
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"Idon'tseehowthat'sanyofyourbusiness,"Isnapped,noticingthatneitherVictorianorTylerheardus.
"It'stoobadthathegottoyoufirst.IfIhadknownwhatabeautyyouwouldbecome,Imighthaveputupwith
youbackthen."
Doesn'thehaveabeautifulwifesittingrightnexttohim?
"Trustme,Iwouldn'thaveputupwithyou,"ItoldhimjustasEdwardgotback.
JamesactedlikenothinghadhappenedandturnedhisfocusbacktoanobliviousVictoria.Iactuallyfeltsorry
forher.
Edward'sphonerangalittlewhilelaterandbeforeheanswered,IsawmyDad'snameonthedisplay.
"Hello?"Edwardanswered."Hi,Princess!Mommy'srighthereYes,IpromiseDoyouwanttotalkto
her?"
IsmiledattheconversationbecauseitprovedthatshewantedmejustasmuchasEdward,sometimeseven
more.Itmademefeellikeamom.
Edwardhandedmethephonewithapainedandknowingexpression.Atleastthatgavemesomeheadsupon
whatwasgoingon.
"Hi,baby,"Isaidintothephone.
"Mommy?"Emaskedinashakyvoice,thereasonforEdward'spainedlook.
"I'mhere,Em,"Iassuredher.
"Whendoyoucomehome?"shecried.
"Idon'tknow,baby,"Ianswered,feelingthetearsstinginmyeyes.
Damnhormones,butmybabywascryingforChirst'ssake!
"Now?Please,Mommy?"Shewasfullysobbingnowanditbrokemyheart.
"Okay,"Isniffled."Justputgrandpaonthephoneforasec,okay?Iloveyou."
Iheardsomemoresnifflesandsomerustlingbeforemydadspoke,"Bells?"
"Yeah,dad,it'sme."Isighed,tryingtokeepthetearsawaywhileEdwardwasrubbingmybackreassuringly.
"I'msorry.Idon'tknowwhattodo.ShekeepsaskingforyouandhercryingBells,it'skillingme."
"Iknow,dad.Um,justtellherthatwe'llbehomesoonandmaybeputonTheBeautyandtheBeast.Lether
haveherpacifierandblanketwithherwhileyousitwithherinyourlap.Ifwe'relucky,she'llcalmdown."
"Okay,butBells,Idon'thavethatmovie,"hesaiddesperately.
"Iknow,butit'sinherbag.It'sthepinkoneinmyroom."
"Okay.I'llseewhatIcando."
"Thankyou.Justtellherthatweloveherandthatwe'llbehomeverysoon,please?"
"Surething."
WehungupandIgavethephonebacktoEdwardbeforeIburiedmyfaceinthecrookofhisneck,kissinghis
warmskinandtriedtocalmdown.
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"Areyouokay?"heaskedquietly,stillrubbingmyback.
"Ihatehearinghercry,"Isniffled.
"Iknow,baby.Me,too."
"Shewantedustocomehome,"Imumbled."ItoldCharliehowhecouldtryandcomforther,butIpromised
Emthatwewouldbehomesoon."
"Wecanleaverightnowifyouwant."
"You'reokaywiththat?"Iasked,lookingupathim.
"Baby,Iwouldmuchratherbewithmycryingdaughterthanonthisstupidreunion.Iwouldchooseherany
day."
Wedidn'tevenbothersayinggoodbyetoourformerclassmateswejuststoodupandleft.Whenwewalked
backoutside,IturnedaroundsothatIwasfacingthefrontofouroldhighschool.Ivowedtomyselftonever
gobackinthereandthistimewouldreallybethelastone.
Edwarddroveusbacktomydad'splace.ThehousewasdarkapartfromtheflickeringoftheTV.
EmwassittinginherpajamasonDad'slap,herblanketsnuggledclosetoherandthepacifierinhermouth.Her
eyeswerehalfclosedandshekeptrubbingthemwhilesheglancedattheTV.Icouldtellthatshehadthat
hiccupthatshealwayshadaftercrying,butsheappearedtobemuchmorecalmthanwhenIhadtalkedtoher.
"Mommy?"shewhisperedwhenIsatdownbesidethemonthecouch.
"Hi,baby."Ismiled,strokinghercheek.
ShegotupfromDad'slapandwentovertome,nuzzlingherfaceinmyhairandwrappedhertinyarmsaround
me.IlookedapologeticallyatDad,buthejustsmiledknowinglyandstoodupbeforehekissedmyforehead.
"I'mgladyou'rehome,"hesaid.
"Thankyoufortonight,"Itoldhimsincerely.
"Noproblems.I'lljustseeyouguystomorrow,okay?"
"Yeah.Goodnight,Dad.Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too,Bells,"hesaid,givingEmasmallpatonherbackbeforehewalkedupthestairs.
"Daddy?"Emaskedquietly.
"He'sgettingyousomewarmmilkinthekitchen,"Itoldher,strokinghersmallback.
Itwasactuallyatrickwehadlearnedfrommymomawhileback.WheneverEmhadtroublesleeping,wejust
heatedupsomemilkinherbottleandthenaddedsomecardamom.Itneverletusdown,sothatwaswhy
Edwardwasinthekitchenrightnow.
"Comehere,angel,"Edwardwhisperedashewalkedovertous.
Emleanedbackfrommeandstoodup,reachingherarmsupsothatEdwardcouldpickherup.IturnedtheTV
offandfollowedthemupstairs.EdwardputEmilydownonthebedandwenttothebathroomtogetready
whileIremovedmyclothesandshruggedintohisoldtshirt,theoneIhadgottenfromhimallthewaybackin
Vegas.Ilovedit.Emsatinsilence,justwatchingmewhileshesippedonhermilk.Shemusthavebeen
exhaustedbecauseshewasneverupthislate.
WhenEdwardwasdoneinthebathroom,Iwentinthereandfinishedupforthenight.AsIgotbacktomy
room,EmwaslyingonEdward'schest,sleepingwiththebottlestillinhermouth.Edwardwassleepingas
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well,keepingaprotectivearmaroundher.
Emilyhadoutgrownthetravelbedandsincemyroomwastoosmall,weletherstayinthebedwithusforthis
weekend.So,IjustsmiledandturnedoutthelightsbeforeIjoinedthem.Iremovedthebottlefromherhands
andputitonthenightstand.
Iwassogladthatthisdaywasover,sothatIcouldgobacktolivingmylifewithmyfamilywithouthavingto
dreadahighschoolreunion.
Istrokedmyswollenstomach,feelingmybabykick,butthistime,itjustmademesmile.Hewasn'tasactiveas
Emhadbeen,butIhadafeelingthathewouldbebeforethiswasover.
EndNotes:
A/N:IhaveafeelingthatthisA/Nisgoingtobeprettylong,butpleasehearmeout!
Firstoff,someoneofmybeautifulreadershavenominatedmeinTheTwinklingsWalk
ofFameinthecategories:"HopelesslyDevoted"forthemostreliableauthor,
"MarriedtotheEnemy"alsogotnominatedforthe"HotLips"categoryforthefirst
kissinchapter10.I'mupagainstsomeofthegreateststoriesandauthorsoutthere,but
whoevernominatedmeThankyousofuckingmuch!Itmeanssomuchtometo
evengetnominated.Noonehaseverdonethatformebefore(thatIknowoff)andI
mightevencryfromgratitudeandhappiness.
Hereisthelinkifyouwanttovoteonme,orsomeoneelse:
twinklingswfa.blogspot.com/p/voting.html
Oh,andIalsohaveajobinterviewasaTAtomorrow.Itwouldbesoperfectformeto
getthisjobbecauseit'sonlyfourmonthsandI'llmostlikelyleaveSwedenfortheStates
inAugust!So,please,please,holdyouthumbsforme!I'msofreakingnervous!^^
Okay,thatwasit,Iguess.Nexttimeisthelast"real"chapterandafterthat,it'sthe
"Epilogue"*sniffs*
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A/N:Ihopeyou'regoingtoenjoythischapter.Ijustwanttomentionthateventhough
IknowprettymuchabouttheU.S,IhavenoideaifyoucelebrateFather'sDaythelast
SundayinNovember,butwedoinSweden.So,ifit'snotcorrect,thenpleasekeepin
mindthatthisisfictional!
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BPOV
Isquirmedinmyseat,fanningmyselfwiththeprogramsheetinmyhand.ItwasfreakinghotinhereandI
mightpossiblyfaintanyminute.MybackwaskillingmeandtheplasticchairIwassittingin,didn'tmakeme
feelanybetter.
"Hey,areyouokay?"Jasperaskedalittleworriedlyfromnexttome.
"Yeah,thispregnancyismakingmepeachy,"Iansweredsarcastically."Andmybackisjustabouttokillme."
"DoyouwantmetogetEdwardsohecantakeyouhome?"
"What?Andmissmygirl'sfirstschoolplay?"Iasked,raisingmyeyebrows."No,way.I'mstaying."
ItwasaFridaynightintheendofNovemberandalsoanightwhenEmilyhadherfirstschoolplay.Wewere
allsittingRose,Emmett,Jasper,Alice,Jamie,EsmeandCarlisleinacrowdedroomwaitingforittostart
whileEdwardwasrightoutsidetakingacallfromwork.Hehadbeenworkingalotlatelysothathecouldstay
homewhenMasenfinallyarrived.Yes,wehaddecidedtonameourboyMasensinceEdwarddidn'treally
haveanyothernamehelikedandhedidn'tseemtomind.Ihopedhewouldhavesaidsomethingifthatwasthe
case,andhehadn't.
"Baby,areyouokay?"Edwardasked,alittlemoreworriedlythanJasperhad,whenhesatdownnexttome.
"No,"Igroaned,leaningintohimandrestedmyheadonhisshoulder.
Heputhisarmaroundmeandmovedhishandupanddownmyarmreassuringly.
"What'swrong?"
Iwasn'tgoingtowhineaboutallmyproblemsrightnow,soIjustsaid,"Ijustwishthiswholepregnancycould
beoversoon."
"It'ssupposedtobeoverTuesday,"hemurmured,kissingmytemple.
ThatwasoneofthereasonstowhyhehadbeenhesitanttoevenbringmeheretonightsinceIwasdueinfour
days,butapartfromthebackpain,IfeltfinesoIdidn'tseeanyreasonastowhynottocome.
"Okay,ladiesandgentlemen.Iwouldliketowelcomeyoutothisveryfineevening,"Em'steacherstarted.She
soundedsoformal,butthatwashowshewasalwayslike."Wehaveabunchofadorablekidsbehindthe
curtainwhoarejustwaitingtocomeoutandshowyouwhatwe'vebeendoing.So,let'swelcomethem,shall
we?"
Allthekidscameoutandtheparentsapplauded.Iwassoproudofmybabygirlasshewalkedoutinhercute
littleprincessoutfit.TheyweresupposedtodressupforwhattheywantedtobewhentheygrewupandI
wasn'tsurprisedwhenshesaidprincess.
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IgrabbedEdward'shandandsqueezeditasthekidstooktheirturntostepforwardandtellusabouttheir
costume.
Finally,itwastimeforourlittlegirl.OurwholegroupcheeredlikecrazyandIcouldn'tcontainmysmileasshe
stoodinfrontofthemicrophone.
"MynameisEmilyGraceCullenandIum,IwantIwantmymommy,"shestammeredandwhimperedas
shesaidthelastwords.
"Edward,helpmeup,"Isaidtomyhusband,watchingasoneofEm'steachersteppedforwardandsmiled
apologeticallyattheaudiencewhileleadingEmofftothecornerofthestage.
"Butshe'ssupposedtotellusaboutthewholeprincessthing,"heargued."Andshe'sfine.You'vesaidso
yourselfthatwecan'tgotohereverytimeshedoesthis."
Hewasright,butthiswasdifferent.Justbecausehedidn'thaveaproblembeingonastageinfrontofacrowd,
didn'tmeanhisdaughtercoulddothesame.IguessshehadbecomemorelikemeinthatareaandIwasn'tjust
goingtonotgotoher.
"Edward,"IsaidascalmlyasIpossiblycould."Takemetomybabygirl,rightnow."
"Okay,okay.Calmdown,"hesaid,standingupandreachedouthishandformetotake.
Ifeltguilty.Hehadn'tdoneanythingwrong,justfollowedmywisheswhenitcametohowwewereraising
Em.AndhereIwas,goingagainstit.
"Sorry,"Imumbled,takinghishand.
"It'sokay,andbelieveme,Iwanttogotoherjustasmuchasyoudo."
Heledmetothesideofthestage,mutteringapologizestothepeoplewedisturbedonourway.Ihadn'tfelt
morehugethanIdidatthatmoment,butthen,IwasninemonthspregnantandIwaswalkingthroughthe
tiniestaislebetweenchairsandpeople.
Emilywasstandingwiththeteacherontheside.EdwardandIdidn'thaveawaytogetuptheresowewould
justhavetosettleonstandingwherewewere.
"Hi,baby,"Isaid,reachingoutmyarmsforherandsheimmediatelycameandcrushedmeinahug."What's
wrong?"
"It'sscary,"shemumbledintomyhair.
"MommyandIwererighttherewatchingyou,princess.Grandmaandgrandpatoo.Everyoneisheretoseeyou
tonight,"Edwardsaid,strokingherhair.
"Promise?"sheasked,peekingoutfromherhiding.
"Yes,look,"hesaid,pointingtowherewehadbeensittingonthesecondrow."Canyouwave?"
Shewavedtimidlytoourgroupoffriendsandfamilyandtheywavedbackencouragingly.
"Willyoubeabravegirlandtryonemoretime?DaddyandI'llbesittingrighttheresoyoucanseeus,okay?"I
asked.
"Promise?"
"Yes,wepromise.Don'twe,Edward?"
"Ofcourse,princess!"Hekissedherlittlecheek.
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"Okay,"shemumbledandgotbackonherfeetandwalkedovertothewaitingteacher.
Edwardledmebackpastsomeannoyingparentsbacktoourseat.
"Wassheokay?"Esmeaskedaswegotback.
"Yeah,justalittlenerves,"Edwardanswered.
Wefinallygottoseeourgirltelltheaudienceabouthowshewantedtobeaprincesswhenshegrewup.She
alsowantedtomarryaprince,someonelikeJared,JakeandLeah'sson.Edwardtensedwhenshesaidhis
name.Shehadactuallybeentalkingabouthimforawhilenowandeverytime,Edwardwouldscowlathis
littlegirlandthenlaterontellmehowtherewasnowayinhellshewasevergoingtomarryhim.Iwouldjust
sitthereandlethimgetitallout,listeningtohislittlerant.Shewasjustthreeyearsoldsoitwasn'tlikethey
wouldmarrytomorrow.
Whenthelittleshowwasover,wetreatedhertoMcDonald'sforbeingsuchagoodgirl.Werarelyatethere
thesedays,unlessIhadacraving,butondayslikethis,Emreallydeservedit.
"Areyousureyou'reokay?"Edwardwhispered,strokingmyfacewithhisfingertipsaswelayinbed.
"Yeah,I'mjusttired."
"Youshouldsleep.I'msorrytokeepyouup."
"No,don'tbe.Ican'tsleepanywaysoitdoesn'tmatter."
Ithadbecomereallyhardtosleeplatelywiththebigstomachandallthemoving.DuringthenightsIhadfixed
upthenursery,washedclothesandfoldedthembeforeputtingthembackinthedrawer.Wehadn'tbought
muchstuffsincemostofEm'sthingsworkedandshehadgottenarealbedinsteadofthecrib.
"Doyouwantmetoputonsomemusic?"Edwardasked.
"Sure.I'mnotsureit'llhelphimcalmdown,butmaybeit'llworkonme."Ismiled.
Ourboydidn'tseemtohavethesamebondtomusicasEmilyhad.Itfeltmorelikehewouldgrowuplike
America'snextstarfootballplayerinstead.
Edwardgotupandputthemusicontolowandinsteadofgoingbacktohisside,hescootedinbehindme.At
first,Iwonderedwhathewasdoing,butthenIfelthisfingersmassagingmybarebackundermytshirt.Itfelt
sogoodonmyachingbackIcouldn'tcontainthemoans.
"Thankyou,"Iwhispered,wipingtearsfrommyeyesbecausehewassodamnsweettome."Iloveyouso
much."
"Hey,don'tcry,"hesaid,kissingmyneck."It'stheleastIcandoafterunleashingmysuperspermonyou."
Ichuckledbecausehehadsomehowturnedthesituationfrombeingoverwhelmingtofunny.Ihadblamedhim
andhisspermwhenwegotthepregnancyconfirmed,butIstilllovedhim.
"AndIloveyou,too,"hesaid,continuingwithhisamazingmassage.
Somehow,ImusthavefallenasleepbecausethenextthingIknew,IwokeuptofeelingwetandEdwardwas
backonhissideofthebed,holdingmetohisbody.
Iturnedthelightonmynightstandontoseewhatthewetfeelingwas.TherewasabigwetspotrightwhereI
hadbeenlying.
"Edward,wakeup,"Isaid,shakinghim.EvenifIhadbeenthroughthisoncebeforeafewyearsago,Istillfelt
myselfgointopanic."Edward,please!"
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"What?"hegroaned,rollingoverandcontinuedtosleep.
"EitherIjustwetthebed,ormywaterbroke,"Iwhispered,lookingdownatthewetmess.
"Holyfuck!"heexclaimedandwasoutofthebedfasterthanIcouldblink.
Heranaroundtheroomwhilegettingdressedandsearchedforthehospitalbag.HeknewwhereIhadputit
inthecribsoIwouldrememberitbutyet,heseemedtohaveforgotten.Thepainwasn'tthatbadatthe
moment,soIsighedandgotupfromthebed.Itwassixinthemorningandthiswouldn'tbeoveranytimesoon.
"Edward,calmdown,"IsaidasIchangedoutofmywetclothes."Thebagisinthecrib,butcouldyouplease
gowakeyourparentsandEm?Iwanttosaygoodbye."
"Um,okay."
Ican'tbelieveI'mdoingthisagain.
WhenIhadgottendownstairs,EsmestoodinthehallwaywithhappytearsinhereyesasCarlislehuggedher.
EmilywasinEdward'sarms,lookinghalfasleep,butcuriousatthesametime.
"YouhavetostaywithGrandpaandGrandmaforalittlewhile,okay,baby?"Edwardasked,lookingdownat
Eminhisarmswhenwewerereadytoleave.
"Why?"sheaskedquietly.
"BecauseMommyandIaregoingtogetyourlittlebrother,"heexplained.
Iwhimperedaspainshotthroughme,butitwouldjustgetworsesoIbettergetusedtoit.Itstillwasn'tpleasant,
though.IgrippedEdward'ssleeveasiftoholdmyselfupwhichcausedhimtonoticemydiscomfort.
"Okay,wereallyneedtogonow,"hesaid,lookingatCarlislewhosteppedforwardtoreachforEmily."Ilove
you,princess."
"AndMommylovesyou,too,"Itoldher,kissinghercheekbeforeCarlisletookher.IturnedtoEsmeandsaid,
"Thankyou."
Thenwewerefinallyoutthedoorandonourwaytothehospital.EdwardkeptaskingmeifIwasfineandby
thetimeIgotthere,itwasstartingtogetonmynervesbecausehowthehelldidhethinkIwasfeelingwhen
therewasababytryingtogetoutofmyvagina?
Whenwearrivedtothehospital,Iwaswheeledintoaroomandgotchangedintooneofthoseawfulhospital
gowns.Igottokeepmysockson,though,andthatwasneededbecausemyfeetwerealwaysfreezingthese
days.
"Ithurtssobad,"IgroanedintoEdward'sneckasanotherwaveofpainshotthroughme.
Ihadbeeninlaboralldayandthepainonlygotworse.Edwardhadbeensittingwithmethewholetime,taking
meoutforwalks,helpingmetothebathroomandsoon.Hehadofferedtotakemeoutthehallwayagain,totry
speedthingsup,butIdidn'thaveanypowerinmeleftandIwasexhausted.
"Howareyoufeeling,Bella?"Dr.Housemanaskedasshewalkedthroughmydoorafewminuteslater.
"Pain,"Imoaned,takingdeepbreathsandclingingontoEdwardasherubbedmystomach.
"Let'sseehowfaryou'vegonesincelasttimeIchecked,"shesaidwithsympathyinhervoice.Itmademe
wonderifshehadreallygonethroughthisherselfoneuponatime.
Edwardhelpedmeoverontomybackandputmyfeetup.Itwasn'teasy,butwemanaged.Isqueezedmyeyes
shutandEdward'shandwasmostlikelyblueasthedoctorcheckedtoseehowdilatedIwas.Ihateditevery
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"Okay,Bella.You'refivecentimetersdilatedrightnowwhichmeansyoucanhavetheepiduralnowifyou
want,"thedoctorannouncedasshethrewherglovesaway.
"Yes,please,"Ibegged.
Anythingtogetthepaindownafewnotches.Itdidn'tmatterhowbigtheneedlewasandIcouldn'tbelieveI
haddonethisbeforewithoutanypainmeds.
Ittookforeverbeforetheyfinallycamewiththeepidural.Ourfriendsweresittingoutside,orsoweweretold,
butIdidn'twanttheminhere.Imighthavebeenaselfishbitch,butIwasamessindeeppainandIdidn'thave
thestrengthtodealwithanyonerightnow.AllIwantedwasmyEdwardandformybabyboytojustgetout
soon.
Edwardheldmeagainsthischestastheypushedthebigfatneedleintomyback.ThatshithurtsoIhopedit
wasworthit.
"Howcanyoubesocalmrightnow?"Edwardasked,strokingmyhairawhilelater.
"BecauseIcanbasicallynotfeelanythingfrommywaistanddownandI'msofreakingexhausted."Isighed,
almostfallingasleepsincehisfingersfeltsogoodinmyhair.
"Doyouwishyou'dgottentheepiduralwithEmtoo?"
"No."Ishookmyhead."BecausenowIknowwhatitfeelsliketogivebirthwithoutdrugs.That'sagood
experiencetohaveIthink."
"God,Iloveyou,"hemurmured,bendingforwardtokissme.
"Youshouldgoandupdateourfriends.I'llbeasleepanysecondanyway,"Iwhispered,myeyelidsclosingon
theirownaccord.
"Areyousure?"
"Mhm,andseeiftheyknowhowEmis.Iwanttoknowthatshe'sokay."
EvenifIhadtalkedtoherwhenshehadgottenhomefromschool,Istillworriedthatshewashavingoneof
thosemissingfitsshegotwhenEdwardandIweregonetoolong.Liketheoneshehadduringourhighschool
reunion.
Ifellintoaniceslumberafterthat,wakinguponlywhenthedoctorcametocheckonme.Itwasaslow
process,butitfeltreallynicetogetagoodsleepafterbeingawayfortwelvehours.Edwardkeptupdatingour
friendseverynowandthen.Ithadtobeboringforthemoutthere,buthetoldmetheywerefine.Eventhough
EsmeandCarlislewantedtobeherewhenMasenwasborn,theyacceptedthedutiesofbabysittersmorethan
gladly,sayingthattheywantedustocallassoonashewasoutsotheycouldcome.
IwassorelievedandsofreakingscaredwhenDr.Housemanfinallyutteredthewords,"It'stime."
IthoughtIwasgoingtocry.Ididn'tknowwhatwasworsetheslowprocessandlonghoursofpainduring
labor,ortheactualbirth.IjustknewthatIwouldlovethemomentitwasallover.
"Okay,whenthenextcontractionhit,Iwantyoutopushwithallyougot.Canyoudothatforme,Bella?"I
noddedmyhead.
AndpushIdid.IprobablybrokeEdward'shandintheprocess,butIdidn'tcare.Ifmyvaginahadtogo
throughthis,hishandcouldgothroughthat.
"Edward,wouldyouliketoseethis?"Dr.Housemanaskedfrombetweenmylegsaftermythirdpush.
IwasinpainandIwantedtogetthisoverwith.Ididn'twantmyhusbandtoseemyvaginalikethisbecausehe
wouldprobablynotwanttohavesexeveragain.ButthenIthoughtbacktolasttimewhenIhadstoppedhim
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fromseeingthebirthofEmilythatclose,andIjustcouldn'tdoitagain.
"CanI?"heaskedexcitedly,lookingfrommetothedoctor.Webothnoddedourheads.Ijusthopedthiswould
beoversoonbecauseIwasn'tsureIcouldhandleitanymore.
Hehesitantlyletgoofmyhandandwalkedovertothedoctor.Iwatchedhiseyesgrewwideassaucersjustas
mybodygotreadytopushagain.
"Okay,Bella.Justafewmorepushesandtheheadwillbeout,"Dr.Housemanencouraged.
InoddedmyheadandgaveeverythingIhadintothatpush.IwishedIhadsomethingtoholdontoexceptfor
thehospitalbed,butIwantedtobestrongsoIpusheduntilIcouldn'tdoitnomoreandhadtotakeabreak.
ThinkaboutMasenthinkabouttheoutcome,Ichantedtomyselfoverandoverasthepaingrewworse.
"Thehead"Edwardwhispered.
IheardathumpandwhenIlookedaroundtheroom,Edwardwasn'tthereanymore.Icouldn'tdothiswithout
himandIfeltmyselfstartingtohyperventilate.
"Mr.Cullenseemstohavegoneout."
"No!Pleaseno.Edward,comeon,Ineedyou!"Icried.
ThepainwasstartingtogetunbearableandIneededmyEdward.
"Bella,"Dr.Housemansaid,lookingupatme,butmyvisionwasblurryfromthetears."Youpanickingisn't
helping,okay?Youneedtocalmdown.Now,couldsomeonetryandgetMr.Cullentowakeup,please?"
IhadnochoicebuttopushasanothercontractionhitandwhenIhadtotakeabreakonceagain,Edwardwas
back,buthedidn'tlooklikehimself.Hewaspalerandlookedsick.
"Maybeitwouldbebestifyoustayedwithyourwife,huh?"Thedoctorsmiled.
"Um,yeah,"Edwardansweredwithanod.
"Okay,Bella.Twomorepushesandyoucangreetyouson,okay?"
InoddedmyheadandgrabbedaholdofEdward'shand.Hehadtositdown,butitworkedbestforbothofus
becauseIgothiswholefacewithmeandnotjusthishand.
Twopusheslaterandtheroomwasfilledwithacryingbaby.IwasfulloutsobbingasIhearditfromboth
exhaustionandrelief.IhaddoneitonceagainandIhadsurvived.
"HappyFather'sDay,Daddy,"Dr.Housemanannounced,placingthetinylittlebundleonmychest."Doyou
wanttocutthecord?"
"Yeah,"Edwardansweredwithasniffle.
Hecried.Icried.Wewerebothacompletemess.Ahappymess,though.Oursonwasfinallyhereafterall
thosemonthsofwaiting,oryearsifyouwantedtolookatitfromEdward'spointofview.Hehadfinally
becomeafatheragain,onFather'sDaynonetheless.
Thenursesgrabbedmysonwaytoosoonformylikingandaftersomehesitationandapromisetobeback
soon,Edwardleftwiththem.
"Okay,Bella.I'mgoingtousemyhandandputthetiniestlittlepressureonyourstomach,butIneedyouto
gatherallyoustrengthandhelpmebypushing,okay?"Dr.Housemansaid.
Itwastimefortheplacenta.WhenIfirsthadgottenpregnantwithEm,noonehadinformedmeaboutthe
"afterbirth"untilIhadreadaboutitinthebooks.So,atleastthistimeitwasn'tasurprise.Iknewwhatto
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expect.Itwasn'tashardasithadbeentopushoutthebaby,though,andforthatIwasgrateful.
Ibarelynoticed,orfelt,whentheystitchedmeup.Itwasmoreofatuggingfeeling,butallIcouldfocusonwas
thebeautifulsightinthecorneroftheroomEdwardhelpingthedoctorstocleanupMasen.Thelovinglook
inhiseyes,thetearsofjoyandtheeagerness.
Justastheyhelpedmeintothosegodawfullookingpanties,Edwardwasonhiswaybackwiththelittle
bundleinhisarms.Nomatterhowbadthepantieslooked,though,theiceandcoldnessfeltgoodagainstmy
vagina.Besides,whowasgoingtoseethem?
"Doyouwanttosayhitoyourmommy?"Edwardcooed.
"Please,"Icried,holdingoutmyarmsformybabyboy.
ThemomentheputMaseninmyarms,Ifeltcomplete.Notthatwehadbeenmissingsomethingbefore,butit
wasjustafeelingofcompleteness.Ihadnoideawhereitcamefrom.
Edwardreluctantlylefttotellthenewstoourfriendsandtocallourparents.Ididn'tcareaboutallthefussing
aroundme,allIcoulddowasstareatmylittleboy.Icountedhisfingersandtoestoseeiftheywereallthere
andluckily,theywere.IevencheckedhishairanditwasbasicallythesameasEm'sdarkbrown,butwith
justalittlehintofredinit.Ilovedit.
"Where'smylittleboy?"Rosecooedasshesteppedinsidetheroomwiththerestofourgroupfollowingbehind
her.
Ishotheranexhausted,butgenuinesmile,andlookeddownatMasen.
"He'sperfect,"Isaidastheyallcametostandaroundmybed.
"CanIholdhim?"Emaskedeagerly.
"Sure."Ilaughed,carefullyreachingMasentohim.Ifhehadn'tbeensousedtolittlebabies,Iwouldhavebeen
scared,butIwasn't.Iknewmyboywassafewithhim,soIleanedbackagainstthebedandtriedtorelax.
"Wow,suchacutie!"Aliceexclaimed,balancingJamieonherhipasshetriedtogetagoodlookatMasen.
"Yeah,youdidgood,guys,"EmmettagreedjustasEdwardcamebackandhandedMasenforwardtoJasper.
Iwatchedasmyfamilyandfriendspassedalongthenewestmemberofourgroup.Edwardhadmanagedto
squeezeinbesidemeandkeptplayingwithalockofmyhairthathadfallenoutofitsplace.
"Iloveyou,"hewhispered,
"Iloveyou,too,"Isaidback,puckeringmylipsandhekissedthem.
EmilykepthidingbehindCarlislelegs.Ididn'tknowwhy,butIdidn'tpressit.Wecoulddealwithitwhen
everyonehadleft.Ithurtalittle,though,becauseIhadbeensosurethatshewouldjumpstraightatusassoon
asshesawus.IguessIhadbeenwrong.Thiswastheshyversionofmydaughterinstead.
"Maybeweshouldgoandgiveyousometimealone,"Esmesaidreluctantlyafterhalfanhour,butIshothera
lookthatsaidthankyoubecauseitwaslikesheknewhowIwasfeeling.
"Iguessyou'reright,"Rosesaid,lookinglonginglyatMasen.Iwasalmostcertainthatitwouldn'tbelong
beforetheyannouncedbeingpregnantagain.
"JustgiveusacallwhenyouwantustopickupEmily,"Carlislesaid,givingherakissbeforeheandEsme
left.
"Wouldyouguyscallifanythinghappens?"Aliceasked."Imean,someonewillprobablystopbytomorrow,
butstill"
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"Ipromise,"Isaid,smiling.
Whenallourfriendshadleft,EdwardsteppedovertoEmilywhowasstillstandingbyherselfwithherhands
behindherback,lookingsadlyatus.
"What'sthematter,princess?"Edwardasked,kissinghercheekashepickedherupandwalkedovertomy
bed."Don'tyouwanttosayhitoyourlittlebrother?"
"No,please,no!"shecried,hangingontoEdwardasifshewasabouttogetfedtothesharksashetriedto
lowerherontothebed.
What'shappening?
Ifelttearswellupinmyeyes.Firstshedoesn'tevenwanttogetnearme,butnow,shewasfightingtokeepthe
distance.Whywouldshedothat?WhathadIdone?Iwipedthetearsthathadescapedfrommycheekswith
myfreehandandlookedupatEdward'sconfusedface.
"What'swrong,Emily?"heasked.
"Please,Idon'twanttostaywithgrandpa,"shecried,butshestilldidn'tmakeanysense.Sheusedtolove
Jasper,andAlicetooforthatmatter."Iwantyou."
"Wewantyou,too,baby,"Edwardsaidsoothingly,tryingtogethertocalmdown.
"Please,"shesobbed.
Theneverythingclickedandeverythingcamecrushingdownmybabythoughtwewerereplacingher.
"Edward,"Isniffled."CanyoupleaseputEmdownandtakeMasenforawhile?"
"What?"heaskedwithapainedlook,notwantingtoletEmilygoandIunderstood.
"Justputheronthebed,Iwanttoholdher,"Isaid,feelingtearsrollingdownmycheeks.
Henodded,hopefullyunderstandingwhereIwasgoingwiththis,beforehepriedacryingEmfromhisneck
andatherdownonmybed.ThenhecarefullyleanedforwardandtookMasenfrommyarms.Ifeltempty,butI
reachedoutmyarmsformybabygirl.
"Comehere,baby,"Isaid,butshejustsatthere,stillcryingandlookedatmewithherbiggreeneyes."Mommy
wantsyou,Em.Please?"
Shehesitantlycrawledoverandsatdownnexttome,lookingdownatmebeforeherfingersbrushedawaymy
tearsandIdidthesametoher.
"Mommy'ssad?"sheasked,sniffling.
"Yes,"IadmittedbecausehowwasIgoingtodenyitwhentheevidencewasrollingdownmycheeks."Can
yougiveMommyakissandmakeitbetter?"
IknewIwasplayingitdirty,butitwassomethingthatneededtobedoneandIcouldn'tthinkofsomethingelse
todo.
ShebentforwardandkissedmeonmycheekandIdidthesametohersinceIwasn'ttheonlyonewhowas
sad.
"DaddyandIloveyousomuch.Wewouldnevergiveyouaway,okay?Wewanttokeepyouforever,"Itold
her,strokinghersoftcurls.
"Promise?"
"Yes,Ipromise.Bigtime.Now,sinceyou'reabiggirl,DaddyandIwantyourhelptolookafterMasen.He
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needshisbigsisterandhelovesyouverymuchtoo."
"Me?"sheaskedwithwideeyes,thetearslongforgotten.
"Yes,you,silly."Ilaughed,happytohaveturnedherfromsadtowhateveritwas."Doyouwanttosayhello?"
"Umokay,"sheanswered,stillalittlehesitantandcurledupagainstmeasifshewantedprotection.
InoddedatEdwardandheslowlysteppedforwardwithMaseninhisarms.Hesatdownontheedgeofthebed
andangledthebabysothatEmandIcouldsee.Hewassoperfectitbroughttearsinmyeyes.
"Meetyoulittlebrother,Em,"Edwardsaid."HisnameisMasen."
"MynameisEmily,"shewhisperedandlookedathimwithwideeyes.
"Yes,itis,"Isaid,smiling.
"He'ssolittle,"shestated,lookingupatmeandthenbacktothebaby.
"Youwerethatlittletoowhenyouwereborn,"Edwardsaid.
"Really?"
"Mhm,"Iagreed.
Shelookedathimforjustafewmoreminutesbeforeshedecidedtogoallshyagainandhidherfaceinmy
hair.IcarefullyturnedtomysideandaskedEdwardtobringtheheadofthebeddownalittlebeforehesat
downinthearmchairnexttothebed.
Ijustheldher,watchingherfallasleep.Ilovedmybaby,no,babies,morethananythingandIdidn'twanther
tofeellikewehadreplacedher.Shewouldalwaysbemylittlegirl.NomatterwhatandIwouldneverreplace
her.Never.IjusthopedshewouldacceptMasenanddon'tbesoshyaroundhiminthefuture.Hopefully,all
sheneededwasalittletimetotakeitallin.
Rightthenshemoved,accidentlytouchingmystomachandIwincedfromtheslightpain.EvenifIwasonpain
medsrightnow,theslightblowstillhurt.
"Doyouwantmetotakeher?"Edwardaskedworriedly,lookingupfromthelittlebundleinhisarms.
"No,it'sokay,"Iansweredwithatiredsigh,huggingEmalittleclosertome,carefulnottopressagainstmy
lowerbody.
HersweetscentfloodedmymindasInuzzledmyfaceinherhair.EventhoughIwasbothexhaustedandtired
fromthelongday,Icouldn'tstoplookingatmybabies.EdwardheldMaseninhisarmsuntiltheybothwere
asleep.
"HappyFather'sDay,"Iwhispered,smilingatthetwoboysinmylifewhowouldalwayshaveaspecialplace
inmyheart,justasthelittlegirlinmyarms.
EndNotes:
A/N:Yes,Masenisfinallyhere!:)
Ihavenoideawhat'sbeenwrongwiththesite,butIhaven'tbeenabletoaccessituntil
areadergavemeanewlink.Sorryaboutthat..
Imakenopromises,solet'ssetthegoalofthepostingonSundayJanuary30th,but
thereisabigchanceit'llbesooner.Howdoesthatworkforyou?
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Author'sNotes:
A/N:See?It'searlierthanSunday?Imightnothavegottenthe4,000reviews,butdo
youseehowcloseitis?I'msorryIdidn'trespondtoallthereviews.Ithoughtitwould
bebesttojustconcentrateonthewriting.BUTIdidreadeverysingleone!:)
ThismightnotbeamindblowingEpiloguebecauseIfeltlikethelastchapterwasthe
end,butIjustwantedtogiveyouanideaofhowtheirliveslookedlikeafewyears
downtheroad.Tenyearstobeexact...
Disclaimer:Istilldon'townthecharacters,butthisplothasbeenmineandwill
continuetobesoevenifthisistheend.
Sequel:Epilogue
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"So,Jared.Whatareyourintentionswithmydaughter?"Edwardaskedinhismostseriousvoice.
Itwashardnottogiggle,butatthesametimeIwasonthesamepageashewas.Iknewtheboysittingopposite
ofusbyourkitchentable,andIalsoknewhisparentshadraisedhimwell.Hewasfourteenyearsoldandhe
wasjustashandsomeashisdadandprettylikehismomdarkbrowneyes,almostblackhairandhisskinwas
afaintcolorofrusset.MydaughterwasaveryluckygirlevenifIdidn'tlikethefactthatshewasgoingonher
firstdateattheageofthirteen.
"Nothing,sir,"JaredanswerednervouslyevenifheknewEdwardlikeanuncle.Maybeitwasbecauseofthe
situationwewerein.
"Nothing?Thenwhyisthisdatenecessary?"Edwardasked,pronouncingtheworddatelikeitwasadisease.
"Imeanuh,Idon'thaveanyum,badintentions,sir,"Jaredstammered.Ialmostfeltsorryforthekid.He
keptglancingatthestairs,hopingEmwouldappearandsavehim.ShewasupinherroomwithAlicetoget
ready.
"IsureashellhopenotbecauseIknowwhereyouliveandIknowyourparents,"Edwardsaidinawarning
tone.
"Yes,sir."
ItwasthefactthathekeptcallingEdwardsirthatwasfunnyandIhadtobitemylipinordernottolaugh.
Rightthen,Alicecamedownstairstoletusknowtheywereready.Shewasalsotheonewhowoulddrivethem
becauseEmhadtoldusoverandoveragainhowembarrassingitwouldbetohaveyourparentsasachaperone.
Afteraweek,Edwardfinallygaveup.Ihadgiveninafterthreedays.
AllofuswenttothehallwaywereEmwasemergingfromthestairs.Shehadtrulygrownuptobeabeautiful
girl.Herhairremindedmealotofminedarkbrown,butwithhintsofredinitonceshewasinthesunlight.
ThecontrastbetweenherdarkhairandpaleskinmadeherlooklikeSnowwhite.Andnottotalkaboutthe
eyes.ShewastheonlyoneofourkidswhohadEdward'spiercinggreeneye.
"Wow,youlookgreat,"Jaredsaid,keepinghiseyesonEm.
Shedid.Alicehadreallyworkedhermagicthistimeandunlikeme,EmactuallylovedbeingAlice'sBarbie.
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EdwardclearedhisthroatandIrubbedhisback,tryingtocomforthim.Thiswasthedayhehadbeendreading
eversincewefoundoutIwaspregnant.Hehadbeenthereformeduringourhighschoolreunionandnowit
wastimeformetobethereforhim.
"We'rejustgoingtopickupJasperandthenwe'llgodowntown,okay?"Alicesaidandeventhoughher
questionhadbeenforthetwoteenagers,shewaslookingatEdwardandme.
"Curfewisatnine,"Edwardsaidwithoutanswering.
"Iknow,"Emsaid,standinguponhertoesandkissedEdward'scheek."Iloveyou,daddy."
"Iloveyou,too,princess,"hemumbledandgaveherahug.
Weallsaidourgoodbyesandwatchedastheywalkedoutthedoor.AllthewhileEdwardheldmyhandtightly
inhis.
"Ithinkyoushouldbegladthatshe'sdatingsomeoneshehasknownallherlife,"Isaidaswestoodbythe
door.
"Yeah,well.Iftheyhadn'tknowneachother,shewouldhavewaited."Hepouted,walkingbackintothe
kitchen.
"Butthenwewouldn'thaveknowntheguy.Ithinkwe'reveryluckythatshechosesomeonethatclose."
"Ijustthinkshecouldhavewaited,Bella.Youdidandyou'vegotagreatlife,"hesaidandthenafteraslight
pause,headded,"Don'tyou?"
"Yes,Ilovemylife,Edward.ButIwaslonelybeforeImetyou.IhadnooneandIwasevenscaredtobe
aroundaguy.That'snotalifeIwantformydaughter.I'msorry,butIjustfeellikeIwanthertohavewhatI
have,butwithoutthepartbeforeyou."
"Itjustfeelslikeyesterdaywhensheranaroundindiapers,herpacifierandthatoldblanket,"hemuttered,
dragginghisfingersthroughhishair.
"Iknow,butreally,shejustchangedthediapertohersweatsandtheblankettoabook."Ilaughed.
Thatwasmygirl.Shemightbeadaddy'sgirl,butshewassomuchlikemewhenIwasthatage.Everytime
shegot,shehadhernoseinabookandassoonasshegothome,shepulledonhersweats.
Masenwasalotdifferent.Hewasmoreoutgoingandsocial.FromwhatIheard,hewasjustlikeEdwardwas
inhighschoolpopularandaladiesman.Sure,hewasonlytenyearsold,butIstillhadafeelingthathewas
goingtogrowupjustlikehisfather.ExceptforhisbadbehaviorinschoolbecausebothEdwardandImade
suretokeepallourkidsfromthatpath.
"Mom?"IheardMasencallashewalkedthroughthefrontdoor.
EmhadbeengoneforfifteenminutesandEdwardwasalreadyglancingeveryfiveminutesontheclockwhile
watchingfootballontheTV.
Masenwasbackfromhisfootballpractice.SomethingEdwardencouragedmorethanmebecauseIalways
hatedseeingmybabyboybeingbeatenonfield.Nomatterifitwasapartofthegameornot.
"Inhere!"Icalledbackfromthekitchen,takinghisheateddinneroutoftheoven.
"Howwaspractice?"Iasked,puttingtheplateinfrontofhim.
"Itwascool."Heshruggedhisshouldersandstartedeatingthefood.
Itwasn'toftenyoucouldgetmuchinformationoutofhim,butIknewhimwellenoughthatIsometimesdidn't
needhimtotellmeeverything.Instead,Ijustcontinuedtocleanupinthekitchen,watchingmyboyeat.Inever
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grewtiredofwatchinghim.
Hehadunrulyhairinastrangereddishbrowncolor,bigbrowneyesandatallfigure.Evenforhisage,he
alreadywentuptomyshoulderandinnotime,hewouldbetwoheadstallerthanme.Iwasgladhehadn't
inheritedmyheight.Thatwouldhavebeenembarrassingforhim.
"Hey,kiddo.Howwasfootball?"Edwardasked,rufflingMasen'shair.
"Itwasokay,"heansweredjustasvaguelyashehadtomewhenIasked.
"Justokay?"Edwardasked,tryingtogetabetteranswer.
"Yeah.Thecoachmostlytalked.Itwaskindofboring."
Yeah,mysonwasmoreofapracticalguyinsteadofsomeonewholikedtheory.Hemighthavemylooks,but
hewasdefinitelyjustlikehisfather.
"Thatsucks,"Edwardagreed.
Laterthatevening,EdwardandIlayinbed.Iwasworkingonanewmanuscriptandhewasborrowingmy
Kindle.HeuseditmorethanIdidthesedays.Mostlytoreadnewspapersfromallovertheworld,butalsoto
readbooks.IlikedthathereadmoresinceitwassomethingIloved.
"Daddy?"asoftvoicecalledfromthehallway.
"Whatisit,baby?"Edwardasked,walkingtothedoor.
"I'mscared."
Itwasourlittlemiracle,Sophia.AfterhavingMasen,IswornIwouldnevergivebirthagain,butthenthat
longingsetinafterafewyears.Alongingtohaveanotherbaby.Wetriedandtriedandtried.Nothing
happenedforoverfouryearsexceptheartacheeverytimethetestcameoutnegative.Ifounditkindofironic
thatwhenwefinallydoplanforababy,likereallyplannedit,Icouldn'tgetpregnant.
Then,twoyearsafterwestoppedtrying,onmythirtythirdbirthday,wefoundoutthatIhadfinallybecome
pregnant.Ihadneverbeensohappyinmyentirelife.Ihadneverplannedonhavingkidsafterturningthirty,
butlikeIsaid,shewasourlittlemiracle.
"Whatareyouscaredof,huh?"Edward'svoicepulledmebackfrommymemories.
EdwardhadtakenSophiatoourbedandtheywerelyingbesideme,snuggling,herdarkbrownhairwasall
overthepillow.Shehadbeentheonetolookalmostexactlylikemedarkbrownhairandchocolatecolored
eyes.Itwasacontrastagainstherpaleskin,butshewasbeautiful.
"Monsters,"Sophiawhispered.
"Whatkindofmonsters?"Edwardasked.
"Bedmonsters."
"Doyouwantmommytocheckunderyourbed?"
What?Noway!
Igasped,lookingupfromthemanuscriptinmyhands.Justlikemylittlegirlnexttome,Iwasscaredofthe
samemonstersandmyhusbandknewthis.
"Edward,"Iwarned.
"Oh,whoamIkidding?"Helaughed."Mommycan'tdothatbecauseshe'sscaredtoo."
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"Sheis?"myfouryearolddaughteraskedwithwideeyes.
"Shesureis.Youknowwhat?Sheevenhasdaddytocheckunderourbedeverynight."
Okay,thatwasn'tentirelytrue,buthedidmakemefeelawholelotsaferatnightwhenheheldme.Plus,ifhe
wasn'twithme,whichrarelyhappened,IusuallyforcedElsatosleepnexttomewiththedoorslightlyajar.She
usuallysleptwithEmily,butshedidn'tseemtomindthefewtimeswhenIkidnappedher.
"That'sfunny."Sophiagiggled,nolongerappearingtobescared.
SophiaeventuallycalmeddownandjustlayinsilencesnuggledupagainstEdward'sside.Hecontinuedtoread
asheslowlymovedhishandupanddownSophia'sback,tryingtogethertogotosleep.
"Daddy?"sheaskedafterawhileofsilence.
"Yes,baby?"
"Where'sMase?"
"He'ssleeping.Justlikemylittleprincessshoulddo,"hesaid,ticklingherwhichwasn'tgoingtomakehercalm
downenoughtosleepanybetter.
"Sorry."Shegiggled.
Itwasnearingnineo'clockwhichmeantEmilyshouldbehomeanyminute.Edwardnoticedthataswellashe
lookedovertotheclock.Whichhehadbeendoingsincesixo'clocktonight.
"Okay,I'mgoingtoputhertobedandthenI'llgodownstairsandwait,"hesaid,puttingawaymyKindle.
"Edward.Pleasedon'thover,"Itoldhimpleadingly.
"I'mnotgoingtohover.Ijustwanttomakesureshegothomesafely."
NomatterwhatIwouldsay,Iwouldn'tbeabletokeephimfromgoingdownstairs.So,Ijustnoddedmyhead,
hopinghewoulddoashepromisedandnothover.
"Okay,givemommyakiss,"ItoldSophiaasEdwardhelpedheroutofthebed.Hereyelidshadbeguntodrop
soitwasonlyamatterofminutesbeforesheactuallyfellasleep.
"Night,Mommy,"shemumbledtiredly,kissingmycheek.
"Goodnight,baby.Iloveyou."
"Loveyou,"sheansweredbackandletEdwardcarryheroutofourbedroom.
Isighedhappilyandwentbacktowork.IheardasEdwardwalkeddownthestairsandIhopedJaredbehaved
likeatruegentlemanorhewouldnotbeaveryhappyboy.
IwassodeepintomyworkthatIbarelyregisteredthesoftknockonthedoorawhilelater.Ilookedupandsaw
mydaughterstandinginthedoorway.
"Hi,I'mhome."Emilysmiledshyly.
"Howwasit?"Iaskedexcitedly,pattingthespotnexttome.
JustlikeEdward,Ididn'tlikehowfastshegrewuporthatshegotinvolvedwithJaredsosoon,butjustlikeI
hadtoldhim,Ididn'twanthertolackinganyexperiencesofhighschool.
Shesatdownnexttomeandsnuggledupclosetomybodybeforerestingherheadonmyshoulder.Thiswas
somethingIlovedshewasneverafraidoftellingmethingsorformetohugher.Ihadneverbeenlikethat
whenIwasyounger.
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"Itwasgreat,mom,"shemumbled."Kindofperfectactually."
"Sohewasbehavingthen?"Iasked,strokingherhair.Thatwasthemostimportantquestion.
"Yeah.Ihaveneverseenhimactsopolite.EspeciallywhenAliceandJasperwaswithus."Shegiggled.
"Ithinkyourfatherhassomethingtodowiththat."Ismiled."So,whatdidyoudo?"
"HetookmetothisnicerestaurantinSeattleLaBellaItalia.AliceandJasperevenletussitintheopposite
cornersohewasactingmorelikehimself.Thenwewenttothemovies...Ihadareallygoodtime."
"I'mgladyoudid,baby."Ikissedthetopofherhead."Didhekissyougoodnight?"
"No.Hedidn'teventry,butthatwasprobablyagoodthingbecausedaddywaswatchingthewholething."
IfeltmyselfrelaxaboutthatfactbecauseevenifIwassomewhatokaywiththewholedatingthing,Iwasn'tso
sureaboutkissing.Iknewitwouldhappensomeday,butatleastitdidn'thappentonight.
"Iknowhedid.Icouldn'tgethimtostayuphere."Ilaughedlightly."Butyouknowit'sbecausehelovesyou,
right?"
"Iknow,"Emmumbled."Ijustwishhecouldtrustmealittlemore."
"Hetrustsyou,baby.Hejustdoesn'ttrusttheboysaroundyou."
"IwishhewouldbecauseIlikeJaredandIdon'twantdadtopushhimaway."
"Hewon't,"Ipromised.
"IthinkI'mjustgoingtogotobed.I'mkindoftired,"shesaidafterafewminutesofsilence.Shekissedmy
cheekandstoodupfromthebed."Iloveyou."
"Iloveyou,too."Ismiled.
Iheardhersay"Iloveyou"toEdwardastheyrunintoeachotheroutsideourroom.Iknewtodaywashardon
him,buthecouldn'tdenythelovehehadforhisdaughterandIwasrelievedwhenheactedlikehenormally
didtowardsherashesaidgoodnight.
"IfthatfuckertakeshertoVegas,IsweartoGod,"hemuttered,climbingintobedaftergettingreadyforthe
night.
"Edward!"Igasped."Don'tcallhimthat!He'sanicekidandyouknowit."
"Hewasanicekiduntilhestarteddatingmydaughter."
"Wouldyouratherhaveherendupwithsomeonelikeum,let'sseeJames?Becauseifyoudon'tsupport
herinthis,shemightturntosomeonelikethatjusttopissyouoff.Besides,they'refourteen"
"She'sthirteen,"heinterrupted.
"Fine,they'rethirteenandfourteenyearsold.They'reteenagersandtheyhavetheirwholelifeaheadofthem.
WhosaysJaredistheguysshe'llendupwith?Maybeafterafewmoredates,she'llgettiredandgoesbackto
herbooks,"Itriedtoreason,forbothoursakes.
"I'mlockingSophiaupuntilshe'satleasttwentyfive.Startingtomorrow,"hemuttered."Shewillnotstart
datingattheageofthirteen."
"Ithinkyou'reoverreactingjustalittle,"Isaid,scootingtowardshimandrestedmychinonhischestbeforeI
whispered,"DoyoueverregretmarryinginVegas?"
"Hellno.ThatwasthebestthingI'veeverdone!"heexclaimed."Ijustdon'twantmykidstocomehomeand
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saythatthey'reknockedupandgotmarriedinVegas."
"That'sbasicallywhatwedid."Ismiled."Thinkofmypoorfather."
"Well,Icanunderstandhimnow,"hemurmured,strokingmyhair."ButIstilldon'tregretit."
"NeitherdoI,"Isaid,scootinguphighersothatIcouldkisshim.
Ididn'tcareifEmwenttoVegas.Sure,Iwouldbealittledisappointedtonotseeingherwalkdowntheaisle,
butallIwantedwasforhertobehappy.Justlookatme,IfoundlovewhereIneverthoughtwaspossible.
Attheendoftheday,IhadmarriedmyenemyandIhadneveronceregrettedit.Ifoneofmydaughters,ormy
son,wouldfindthatkindofloveandhappinessinVegas,thenIwasgoingtosupportit.
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EndNotes:
A/N:MyheartispoundingsohardrightnowbecauseI'mjustabouttoclickon
"Complete."Butanyway,IwouldappreciateifyoucouldreadyhisA/N.After50
chapters,Ithinkyouowemethatmuch!)
So...thisstorystartedasa"birthdayresolution"onmy20thbirthday.Imadealiston
thingsIwantedtodobeforeIturned30.Writingastorywasoneofthethingsandhere
Iam,4monthstomy21stbirthday,withacompletedstory.Amazing,huh?
I'velostreaders,beta'sandprereadersalongtheway,butI'vegainedsomanynew
experiences.MyEnglishhasimprovedSOMUCHandI'vemadesomegreatfriends.
So,Iwanttosaythankyoutotheoneswhostayedwithmetotheend,andalsoathank
youtothosewhojuststartedreading.Everyoneholdsaspecialplaceinmyheart.I
couldn'thavedonethiswithoutyoursupport.
Iknowsomeofyoumighthavequestionsregardingthisstory.Therewon'tbeany
morechaptersapartfromanouttakeortwo...orthree.We'llsee.I'mgoingtotransfer
themtotheoriginalstorysoyou'llgetanalertoncethey'vebeenposted.Theplannow
istogetitbeta'dsinceonly15chaptersareedited.AndthenI'mgoingtoconvertittoa
PDFfileforthosewhoareinterested.I'mnotgoingtopullitbecauseIdoubtitwill
evergetpublished.
Eventhougthisistheendforthisstory,it'snottheendforme.I'vejustgottenstarted
andIhavemanymorestoriesinlinethatarejustwaitingtobewritten.So,I'llbe
seeingyouagain.
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