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aera VOICES
ieee eter
eeereeneters Women and the Holocaust
redo nd he oa Life 1969
lt ‘he taal Philp of Waianae (28) 1969
Prone of se Pap Ral 1971
Te Poffo Rowe) 197
ea Soff rn Osos) 197 EDITED AND WITHE INTRODUCTIONS By
ean Rigas Eins ih re Sot) 972 5
“pct Dome Carol Rittner sx» John K. Roth
Gok nk meri are (in Fredrick Sort) 1977
“A Cousin ie 1979
‘The Ameen Dreem th Robert H. Fos) 1981
"he Dee of Ga (ed. With Fredvick Sontag) 1985
egy and Anerian Espa ed with Rober. Whiterore) 1986
“Appr we Audis with Rican L Rubenstcn) 1987
“Pi Qnovions of Pilogly (vih Fredrick Sontag) 1988
‘Aneion Good (eth Rober H. Fossum) 1988.
{The Pl Lain Aer Lert They (it Rad
“uterstcin) 1988
Hae: Relgios and Pll! Ipton (o wth Michal
‘Bezenbsum) 1989
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‘raonr ppeation at the Arte mpc cnated of S446 men ed
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po anys a2 deterrent hey sa And so, msn good fends ere
“eapgedaway by darboy iy ins for ane mentors. Ora:
he edt dag them a)—our commandant did, someone of whom ie
‘nts that he a geneman Evens, ithe boy beable ove ih
Tims once neon fim eats whac u's ba eh ss of? And how
sila he eke ee on Boar the tesin ress him? That bo going >
Isa very har me The episode might ave ban ower peshap
‘hoe hada bec so mich tevin scat aves our heehee
onsmanane ms have bee fete by tht eo. “Deere, soe yng,
tonight!” Ihewda gest sa as ie oked up ate sar
eoplsil harbor ich cis hopes hate tranapot won’ rgethough,
Many fa were able fom ere oh eh Barto es ON
probly Emden. So hy shouldbe posible fr sera neo Be i
foo, afr th ain eo be oped from ling? Ir neer been Koon 9
happen vet Bs people keep png wil wich ech ne espe and wih
ewe tigging hope
The evening tefl, [had walked though the camp. People were groupe
together berwen hebartaks under ry coud sk “Look at sus baw
people behave af a sas, sanding out on set corners esc
{thers happens” mi empanion ssid tame ha wha ke eo
Inporsible ro underand" I burs ou. "Th di, bs the date”
‘Whence misortune rer, people hae marl nie ond» hl
ing hand snd vo sve Wht ean be saved. Tonight Taal be helping des
tae spd eo calm mothes and vat all an hope todo woud almest
fuse nal for dat For we ll Koow that eae king up our sk ad
foes brdis and sites hung, bet, cold expose, and deste
in and eee des hem and escort them the areca cas—and they
an wale ecm themon steers. What going, wae mtr a
‘hse in what oro ta mesons hae we some enmeshed? The nese
"nnosmplybedha wearcalleovands, Were nec tht ba, West Bete
amen domes queen
Tnshcaferroon id sroundof hc hospital burs one mor tine, going
from bedtobed Which bas would beep the nextday? The anapot atremover published unl he very nt momen, bu some of kno el in
slcance that oar ares willbe down. A your ital me She ang
[okupeightinherbo, ee ie open. Thi grlhaethinwritands poy ee
‘ace. Shes papal zed, ad as jt besten walk again, ben
‘onurstone sep aatime, “Have you heard? Thaseto go" Welokateach
btherforalong moment Tesasfher fechas disappear seisalleyes Then
Shessinaleeh grav fit vie, "Sochapiy, mie Thacveyhingouave
[etme in ie gos for nothing" And, fo ha i od” Sen the
‘anata igi of erepeetiongivswavandshevobs "Ohne wort
fof teal basing eo leave Holand And, "Oh, why warn Ualowe odie
befre.-" Later during the igh, ia ber agai forthe seme
“There was ede woman in the wathous bask of dipping lth
tr am, She grsbbed hold of me he looked deranged. Aaa of woe
poured over me: "That isn ihr, how can tat be igh? Te gb go apd
‘ones be able to gem wing dy by tmocrot. And my hi ak,
he feverish, cane you things 0 tat don't have to go? At Ton have
‘ough things forthe el he rormpr the sent ato sales
bigger sne, enough vo dive You mad. An vow nee alone
‘ake blake long, wee pong to Hex to death, vou dun think of ha,
id you? Ther cosa af mine here, he ams bee Ue sae te |
dpe docs ogo, he’s goede igh pape. Could you bp ret gt
some woo? Fuse dont veto 25, 0 you dik he eve the eidren
Wid her mothers, farsi, You cme back agai tonight youl ep me
then, nyo, bat do vo thn, would mei’ paps 2”
Fi wer toy that Fay nhl che gh, we wold aly being
‘ou Leauge mal saying ie tod in he nigh, sou eo msl angie
ery, "Sonar what hliske”Youral-snel who ging
inne this eme Alnor everyones up, the sick each oer nee dre,
‘Thee are some who have no codes atl, wane hggage has Been ost oF
‘hsarved yt Lats fom the “Well” walk abou dling ow clothes
‘wich may for noi does mates longs ya eovered youre th
omeching, Sone ol women lok ido sghe. Sal bie of mare
‘cing prepared make ong wth bab, hose pil eeane puncte
l'the ance acety inthe Barack A somng mn ssf me ast
spolgetialy; "Mi baby doesn wales amon ithe cane hat
[ppening” She picks up the dls lovey baby aboot months oi,
from sakes nb ad sls aie “Ifyou dow behave youre Nn
‘went you alongwith her” She tlle out sme cds “When hone
‘eninge cae fo fc ther i Amsterdam cece cit eb
“Then dhe aches, Tyo don’ behave youses, you won be aloe
to go in that gen car, hu green gereman wont take you” Ad tat
Feped-the ern ed down She winks a oe rch i, dak
lise woman witha vel olvestinne fae. She fs dred in fg ay
‘rouse ans green woolen sen." my beaming,” she se "bu et
Hao a
prey af" The lie woman with the Wet washing i nm the pon oF
Frere “Can you ik my child fr ne? Goon plese won Yu de my
he got igh eer, tow ant posi ae fim tong?” She plo ae
bundle of mer with blond ciel and s bring bg! le fis. The
‘hid rsrsbout in isroagh wooden cox Theme wane the mother pa
fom an ses wollen seater, rest pl eorer herds She rfc.
oe going to ke aoythng dong, wha se would be. me” And
‘he sobs They take the sick cde say and you nice gotham bck
“Then woman comes upto het ast Woeking-ls woman wisn
soub nosed face, des the desperate other down With i om ee ge oF
fone ofthe ion bunks and aks to her alos crooning. "These now, Youre
fae an orca Jos arene you? So youl je ae fo gO, on ot?”
"ew beds slong Izod ach igh ofthe ah gr esd se
of colleague. She ageing beside ee to a dng woman who ae
‘allowed some poison snd who happens to be her mother
God Aimigh what are You doing tous?" The words us exape me
‘ver there is tha afectionste de woman from Rota, Shen
iat mons. Two mares rt gree dese. She ast sas hes, be
Ssvolen ot leaning agase her chi’ cor Deops of swe ean dove
eric, Sherrer into the dane, adiance nto which anno Ello ee,
nists i tones. worn-out woe, “Two month ago I soln 25
‘rch husband ro Potnd. And een I ware awe boc abe
ave sch fia pregranccs And now Uo hater go Bera
someone wid to run a tonight" Tac walla of dhe Babs rom fuer
su Eng every nok and cranay ofthe bara, oo bathed in ghost Bah
eis dost oo mach to Gea. Anam cose othe: sod
‘On the eter onthe way to the ai, br abo pais bein, nd we ae
slowed 1 cry te woman fo the hosp nsead ofthe Hele eine
‘which ths igh seams rae act of Rama
Tas the bed a he pralyzd gi. The others have helped co des he.
nee sch great gees sch ie face. "Teak eal”
Shippers eo me A ew ope soa and ny ld hanced Reson
{roan 1 tld you about her befor: Sh tans there rapa in a web oF
Soro. The puralaed gi isa Rend of hes. Late she sid ut me, °Sbe