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Short Story: Stateside
Short Story: Stateside
Stateside
By George Ashford, Vincent Baker, Shifra Dayak, and Bernadette Hargrove
Not a lot had changed in Neillsville since he had left a year ago. Sure, there were
a few more cars on the street, a few more payphones, and the ladies peering into shop windows
were wearing a new kind of hat, but the two-story homes, the town library, the barber shop, and
everything else looked like they always had. To Jack Crankovich, however, it was an alien
planet. The train ride had been miserable. Every few minutes he would doze off, and when we
woke his heart would start racing, and he would jerk his head up to look for the oncoming
railway guns. He never saw any, and he had to remind himself that he was home, the war was
over, and there were no railway guns in Wisconsin. When he got out of the second class car and
looked at the view from the depot platform on the town where he had spent almost all of his life,
all he could think about was how easy it would be to take it. All it would take would be one
heavy tank maybe a Mark V and less than 100 infantry to encircle the town at night. One
quick operation, and boom Stop. He was back home. He couldnt think like this anymore. He
had to be normal.
For a second, Jack didnt realize there was nobody there to meet him. But after
wandering around and looking aimlessly into the train tracks for several minutes, he discerned
that Marian and the kids were busy. Or maybe theyd forgotten. No, that couldnt be. They were
probably occupied and had lost track of time. He would go surprise them. He stumbled outside
the station and began the trek home, stopping to adjust his duffel bag every few paces. Outside
the old-fashioned post office, the same American flag that had hung on the pole for 10 years still
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waved proudly. The postmaster stood on the porch, dropping envelopes from one bag into
another. Jack gave him a wary look. He might pull out a rifle and fire any minute. No, no, no.
The war is over. Stop it. Jack took a shaky breath and raised his hand. Hello, he muttered. The
postmaster looked up, surprised. Crankovich, is it? Yes. Yous the one who went overseas
to fight? Yes. Oh! Nice to have you back! Im sure your family will be happy. Jack nodded
slowly and continued walking. Maybe it was just this one person, maybe everyone else would be
more interested.
He passed the city hall. It used to be a house, he recalled. At the beginning of the war,
Marian had written to him about how they had painted it white, patched up the shutters, and
hammered a Mayors Office sign onto the red-trimmed front door. There was nobody outside.
Jack stopped to wipe his brow and stomp the dust off his tan boots. As he began to trudge
forward again, he heard a shout behind him. Jack! Jack Crankovich! His heart stopped beating.
The last person who had yelled his name like that was the lieutenant, not but a month ago. It was
when he had volunteered to be on a squad going to inform the men in the forward position to
retreat. By the time he got there, they were already dead; the trenches filled with blood and
German soldiers. He was frozen and his eyes were fixed lamely on the weather vane above him.
Jack? repeated the voice, now a little concerned. He realized it was only the mayor, and his
How- how are you? he asked shakily. The mayor looked at him, confused.
No. Im perfectly fine. I- I should get home. To Marian. And Norman and Margaret.
Nice seeing you again. The mayor frowned and nodded slowly, but didnt reply. Instead, he
shuffled towards the door, watching Jack out of the corner of his eye.
After what seemed like an eternity, Jack entered his street. All the houses looked the
same. Flower boxes in the windows, a paved walkway, a white picket fence, a flag hanging
outside the door as if to remind the house owners to do their patriotic duty. House number 317?
Or was it 314? No, it has to be 317. Nervously, he walked up the red brick path and slowly
climbed the stairs. He reluctantly reached out his hand to knock, feeling strangely uncomfortable
with the situation. But before his hand struck the door, it swung open. Inside the house stood a
pale Marian. Jack, she whispered. She didnt seem excited, or even happy. In fact, the
expression on her face was almost scared. Jack cleared his throat and spoke in a gruff voice.
Hello, Marian.
I didnt see you at the train station, Jack uttered stupidly, trying to fill the silence that
hung in the air. I was busy. Im sorry, Marian said quietly. Awkwardly, Jack hoisted his bag
over the stoop and stepped into the front room. Sit down, you must be tired. Ill get you a
drink. Jack eased himself into the brown armchair, looking around the room. The floral curtains,
the dusty linoleum floor, the redwood radio in the corner. The poem written by his daughter, the
trophy from his sons school spelling bee last year, the picture of him and Marian in the church
on their wedding day. All still there. But somehow, it didnt seem right.
Marian returned. She looked worried. She handed Jack a glass of water and awkwardly
sat down on the sofa across from him. It seemed unusually quiet. Maybe it was just his
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imagination, just like the railway guns and the enemy rifles and everything else. Where are the
Oh! The kids! Yes, Margaret is out. She went to dinner with a friend. A friend? Jack
suspected this friend wasnt simply a friend. Why hadnt she written him about her
relationship? And didnt she want to see him now that he was home? Did she not trust him? No,
that couldnt be. She had always loved him. Nobody could have seen him differently just
because he went away to war And Norman? Jack inquired. His son had to be the same. He
Jacks excitement quickly turned to confusion. Why didnt he come meet me at the
door? He used to always meet me at the door when I came home from work.
Of course he is, hes only eight. Ill go see him, Jack said, starting up the stairs. He
ignored the look Marian was giving him. He reached his sons bedroom door- or was it that one
to the left? No, surely it was this one. He shook his head and knocked. Norman? You in there,
buddy? He heard small footsteps coming to the door, and a smile spread across his face when it
opened onto his beloved son. Sure, Norman was a little taller than he remembered, but he was
still Jacks handsome little boy. Hey buddy, you sure have grown a lot! he said.
Oh, hi Dad, Norman said, his big brown eyes staring up at the man who stood in
front of him. Jack reached down to ruffle Normans hair, but he shrank away, looking down at
the floor. Jacks overjoyed smile faded to a look of concern. I- I should go. Norman retreated
into his doorway. But its good to see you, Dad, he added before closing the door. Jack stared
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stupidly at the door trying to comprehend what had happened. Norman, his little Norman His
Jack stormed down the stairs and rushed out to the porch, sitting down heavily on the
swing. He put his head in his hands. What happened to everybody? How had everything changed
so much? Jack stayed outside and watched the last rays of sun disappear. He observed the house
windows as lights came on and little boys and girls wheeled their bikes inside. He looked at the
sky as stars began to peep out. He didnt feel like getting up. Marian didnt come after him, not
The clock struck twelve, midnight. Marian opened the door, walked outside, and took
Jack by the arm. You need to sleep, she said gently. She guided him upstairs, showing him to
their bedroom. He looked around, and for a split second, wondered what it would be like to sleep
on a mattress again. He picked up the night shirt and boxer shorts that Marian had put on the bed
for him and slid them onto his body. It felt strange to wear normal clothes after all those months
of putting on rough combat fatigues. He climbed into bed and shifted around, trying to find a
comfortable spot, but failing. Jack attempted to fall asleep but was unsuccessful. Every time he
heard a creak, his head would snap up and he would start to breathe heavily. Whats the
matter? Marian asked. Germans. A shelling. A bomb. He was screaming inside, but he just
shook his head and didnt say anything out loud. Marian turned to him, and placing her hand on
his chest and slowly moving down to the waistband of his boxers, lightly kissed him. He didnt
kiss back. She whispered to him, Its been a while, hasnt it? Dont you want to...? Jack sighed
Marian, stop. I just want to go to bed, Jack exclaimed sharply. Jack She was
throwing herself at him. Why? Why was she so eager? She hadnt wanted to talk to him all
evening, but now she was all over him. She claimed she had been faithful to him the entire time
he was away at war. She had been waiting for him for a long and lonely year. Jack waved off
her numerous requests and shook his head. He made it clear that he wasnt ready for intimacy in
any form. He turned away, and after covering his ear with his pillow, fell into a fitful sleep.
In the early morning, not more than two hours after his uncomfortable exchange with
Marian, Jack stumbled out of bed, gasping. He wasnt fully awake. Marian only mumbled and
turned over. Without consciousness, unaware of what he was doing, he crept out to the backyard.
Jack fell to the ground in the backyard and started pulling dirt from the earth with his hands. We
need to hide enemy attack shells I can hear gunshots Help! Help! No, I need to get
away Cant do this....cant do this cant do this.... he cried unintelligibly as he dug. Slowly
but surely, his digging formed a hole amidst the grass. After several more minutes of scrabbling
in the earth, he had a small trench. He fell onto the ground and collapsed into the pit, and, after
some minutes of tossing and gasping in his half-conscious state, slipped into a heavy slumber.
He woke up the next morning at sunrise and saw only dirt around him. He looked up and
realized he was under the cloudy sky. In confusion, he brushed dirt off his clothes and clambered
out of the hole. Concerned, he stumbled inside to find Marian waiting at the table with a cup of
coffee next to her. She had an upset, guilt-filled expression on her face. Jack, youre not okay.
Did you wander outside in the night? Jack looked at her, unsure of how to respond.
I dont know, he said, looking at the ground. I really dont remember how it
happened. I must have been sleep-walking. It was nothing. I promise. Why hadnt she come to
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get him the minute she found out? Why was she asking now? Didnt she care that he could have
Jack was jolted out of his bitter thoughts by the sound of footsteps. Marian had moved
across the room and was sitting on the couch, gazing out the window into the pink sky. He
crossed the carpet and sat down next to her, hoping she was just having a bad day. Her face
softened and he thought she was going to kiss him or maybe deliver an I love you or an
Ive missed you but she just gave him a small smile. He looked at her sad, tired eyes, seeing
nothing of the girl he fell in love with in high school. Even her personality had changed. Ever
since yesterday, she had just been cold and awkward, trying to take advantage of him for all the
wrong reasons. Jack, I have to tell you something she whispered, her soft voice almost
breaking. He sat still, not certain how to respond her brimming eyes. Im so sorry, Jack she
cried, breaking into tears. He leaned in to comfort her, but she put her hand out to stop him. After
Jack, I want to be honest with you I have to tell you this some time, so I might as well
I know, I've missed you too. I realize its strange having me around, but well get used
to it. We can be a family again. Jack said. He put out his hand to stroke her hair. She sharply
twisted away.
No! Thats not it! Jack, I- we- I have to- You know the handyman I called to fix the
house last April? He nodded. It was in one of the first letters he sent her. Shed written that the
faucet in the bathtub had broken, and that she got the local repairman to fix it one afternoon. In
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her curlicue handwriting, which Jack had read from his hard bunk in the barracks, she had
Marian continued talking, so quietly that he almost couldnt hear her. Well, I noticed a
chip in the front fence a couple weeks later, and I called him back to our house. He was here
until late evening painting the fence, and when he finished I invited him in for a drink, and we
started talking and and and we kissed she finished quickly. She looked down in shame.
Jack pounded one fist against the other. How could she? Hed only been away for a year!
Was she that tired of him? He felt like he needed to break the silence.
No, she whispered, twisting her hands, the tears coming in earnest now. She looked up.
Jack got up, not wanting to believe what he had just heard.
How could you? he roared, inching closer to her. Marian backed away with tears
rolling down her face and started rambling as she fidgeted with her dress.
Look, Jack, I know this isnt the best time for this, and I know I should have waited until
a better opportunity came up, but I just needed to get it off my chest. I-we should do something,
and its no use to just wait. Its better if we just end everything now, instead of facing each other
with guilt every day! I wouldnt have kept it from you for this long, but I was in denial. Im
sorry. Please...
Jack howled in Marians face. Something inside him snapped. He felt out of place in the
town. He knew he wasnt normal anymore. The least people could do was treat him like a human
being! But the postmaster had forgotten who he was, the mayor looked at him like an alien, his
children ignored him, and his wife had betrayed him. He simply wanted to be a normal member
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of society. But instead, he had to walk with a stoop, forever bearing the stamp of war. He used to
be well-known in Neillsville, but now he was a nobody whom everybody stared at with a
strange, pitiful look. Jack advanced towards his wife, words spilling out of his mouth. What the
hell? I married you because I loved you! I went away to war and fought for a year just so you
and all these other people could be safe! What on earth came over you? You let the children treat
me like dirt, and then you were unfaithful to me! What the actual hell? He paced angrily around
the room, continuing to scream until spit foamed at the corners of his mouth. Panting, he stopped
Jack stalked out of the front room and walked to the icebox. He pulled out a bottle of
whiskey that had been sitting there since who even knew? He slammed the door and ran to the
front entrance, seething. Marian emerged and frantically walked after him, trying to stop his exit.
Jack, please! Its not what it sounds like. We can just talk about this, and then Ill leave if you
want me to Jack swiveled around, his face red with anger and sweat.
Stop following me! he bellowed. Marian looked at him desperately, searching for
forgiveness in his face, but there was nothing there but the tough unforgiving features he had
Please, Jack just listen Jack couldnt take it anymore. He raised his hand and
struck her cheek, hard. Marian put her hand to her face and staggered backwards, shocked,
before falling to the floor with a thud. With a final roar, Jack stormed out, slamming the door
behind him.
He paraded down the street in anger. He tucked the alcohol in his back pocket and started
to run. He didnt think, he just went and went and went. His feet took him to the one place he
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knew he could be alone the clearing in the woods where the lake was. He needed to get away,
away from his foreign goddamned hometown full of strangers he had known his whole life. He
ran into the trees, finally bursting through the brush onto a muddy bank near clear blue water.
Huddled in a ball, he rocked back and forth. Every now and then, he took a gulp of his whiskey.
What did he do to deserve this? How could she have cheated? Even he didnt cheat when he was
away. The other men would take any leave they could get to go into some town and find a
brothel, but he didnt. This was all his fault. He had married an idiot. It was his mistake, he
should have known she would take advantage of the whole town. It was the final sign that he no
longer belonged in Wisconsin. He wasnt considered normal anymore. Things couldnt be like
they were before the war. He would have to reinvent himself in order to fit in. He had to get
away.
Half-hearted tears rolled down Jacks face. He didnt know what to think. What had the
war done to everyone? Every so often, he would try to calm himself, but then he would realize he
was better off wallowing than putting on a false happy-face. He would feel sorrowful, but those
emotions always turned to anger. Jack stayed at the lake for the entire day, digging his fingers
into the dirt and breathing shakily as he looked into the water. Soon, he heard crickets chirping
around him. It was like hiding out in a trench to escape the German attacks, but this time, the
only danger was the townspeople who had alienated him. He looked up at the purple and orange
sky, and watched the last sliver of sun slip down behind the trees, plunging the world into a hazy
dusk. Jack staggered around the lake and threw the now-empty whiskey bottle at a tree. As it
shattered and fell to the ground, he started crying bitterly. His life was over. He could never
come back to Neillsville. He couldnt face those people again. They were finished with him.
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They did not want him anymore. And so, he decided that he did not want them anymore.
Suddenly, thunder rumbled in the distance, and Jack cowered, sobbing and waiting for the
artillery to end it once and for all. He put his hands over his head, holding his body together as