A Fools Regret

by Gabriel Gaspan

How convenient thus thee, looking attentively in an hourglass

Emotions indeed rise, feelings.. Cant subside
Though looking back, I never thought it awry
For it was something Ive done, yes, I was blind

I was a fool, no better than those who cast you aside

Shining and shimmering life, a man can only dream at night
Seeking to find something more than what is observed
Despair, sadness, pain, paranoia... All less than I deserve

As I weep of my folly, the struggle, oh, the madness

Each day clings, like roses with thorns in my chest
Seeping my strength, every ounce, and every breath
I need now mlady, but no, its for the best

Every time I wake, I wish I would be gone

I constantly refresh my mind, heart made of stones
A life that was tarnished by a mistake of the past
And how I wish I could take it all back

I was a fool, yes, I was a fool, I was a fool

I will change, for the better and soon
All I humbly and subtly request
To have another chance, to prove my lifelong quest

This is the last, the biggest of the vast

I have no right, no honor, and no pride
But I bow my head down, offering all that I have
Please, mlady I ask, youre all that I thrive

Nothing I become, without you by my side

An empty shell, a carcass, a vessel for the vile
Please come back, for Ill go the extra mile
For it will all be worth it, just to see you smile

I may not be perfect, but I promise you now

To love you everlasting, with no joyous regard
With Him as our guide, I know well prevail
For the futures not the same without you, my babe

Regretting all the pain I have caused you mlady

Forgiveness, I ask, with my knees laid across
I was a fool for my blindness in giving my life more hue
But recall always mlady, I am a fool for you.