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Autoethnography Selfie
Autoethnography Selfie
Autoethnography Selfie
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12 September 2017
with the same questions such as the infamous, Why do you look more this way than that
way? For the purpose of my story and the way I encountered the events being a member of
more than one racial/ethnic group signified that I was biracial. The importance of my
experience lies within what I learned about myself and others due to being ridiculed for a
language society expected me to speak fluently and for being judged just because I looked
different from both sides of my family. I want to share this so that my readers learn as I did
that everyone faces differences and we should not reprimand someone for being different.
It is only appropriate the Oxford University Press would attach a sentence in its
thesaurus of the word that reads, -he suggests that modern racial differences have a long
evolutionary history (Synonyms of Racial, Oxford University Press). In 2015, seven percent of
all U.S. adults reported having at least two races in their background. While the percentage of
biracial youth continues to increase, twenty-four percent of biracial individuals admitted feeling
Half white, half colored ... Hes half white. Theyre real sad They dont
belong anywhere. Colored folks wont have em because theyre half white; white folks
wont have em cause theyre colors, so theyre in-betweens, dont belong anywhere.
(Lee, 163)
During high school, I read these words and they made me reminisce about my identity crisis.
Those who were of full Spanish descendent mocked my differences in a language I wasnt fluent
in and those who were full Caucasian ridiculed me by chanting that I didnt deserve to be in the
country I was born in. My friend proposed, Gabby, if you conform to only one of your races,
youll make more friends. Losing a part of myself felt like my only option.
It wasnt until the 1997 film of Selena aired on public television that I felt represented.
Once her music career took off, her father addresses: We have to be twice as perfect as
anyone else. We have to prove to the Mexicans how Mexican we are and we have to prove to
This quote was the framework of how struggling as a biracial individual felt like. Both parents of
mine sound and act differently according to the lifestyle they grew up with. As a kid, I
discovered that expressing myself stirred up confusion among both my friends and family.
On two specific occasions, it was inevitable to me that I was labeled as one race or the
other. However, the possibility that I could simultaneously be of both races was disregarded.
The first consisted of my family on my fathers side. I noticed as a string of murmurs fell from
my cousins lips. I carefully followed along with the conversation in the other language, but I
Its very disappointing that you are part Mexican and cant speak the language. Are you
Latina even though White individuals used discriminative terms against me such as calling me
an illegal. I felt alienated from a part of my family. I lived the culture of my father yet I felt
The second incident included being regarded as just Spanish and not the White aspect
of my identity. A distressed old lady trudged into my job, apprising to me her hatred towards
As a little brown girl such as yourself, you must agree that all White people are disgusting and
only desire helping themselves! She spoke, causing red to flash on my cheeks. I was taken back
that she assumed I would agree with her generalizations because I was half Mexican.
For both of these embarrassing situations, I chose to address my thoughts for the first
time to the appropriate parties involved. I told my cousin that no matter how my other side of
my family shaped me I will always be Mexican too. I built up the courage to speak to her once I
realized I could show her famous examples of individuals who proudly represented their
Spanish culture without speaking much of the language. As for the outspoken lady I
encountered at work, I informed her that we cant generalize a race because the president
been tough for you considering who you are. Thanks for your pride in who you are. I was
overwhelmed with the events that just occurred as she grabbed her food and left after speaking
My final incident I would like to share doesnt include myself being mistreated directly. I
remember trying to befriend a sweet girl from one of my classes. Many people I knew also
knew this girl and warned me. They told me that I was risking my identity as a Mexican woman
because of this girls race and political views. This girl was extremely sweet towards me and I
realized I was in control of who I associated with. It turns out the girl was fully aware I was
Mexican and never isolated herself from me. This experience shows me that other people who
arent two or more races can go through similar feels of inadequacy based on their race.
At times, my racial identity constantly made me feel like I was playing a game I could
never win at. Today, I am proud of how different I am from family and peers. I once asked my
older brother what our lives would be like if my white mother had not married my Mexican
father. He said, Honestly so much would be different. You wouldnt be different as you are
now. You would still be different because everyone is different. Everyone, whether you are
more than two races or not, embodies difference. That is what makes us all beautifuleven if
Multiracial in America. Pew Research Centers Social & Demographic Trends Project, 10
June 2015, www.pewsocialtrends.org/2015/06/11/multiracial-in-america/ . Accessed 12 Sept.
2017