The document discusses several philosophical ideas about the nature of existence, time, change, and identity. It argues that things are constantly changing and we can only know ourselves through the stories we tell based on snapshots of experience. Life is both terrifying and wonderful, and ultimately meaningless. Music should reflect these ideas by being random, purposeless cycles that are experienced rather than having resolution. The goal is to experience oneself as an entity that endures through time.
The document discusses several philosophical ideas about the nature of existence, time, change, and identity. It argues that things are constantly changing and we can only know ourselves through the stories we tell based on snapshots of experience. Life is both terrifying and wonderful, and ultimately meaningless. Music should reflect these ideas by being random, purposeless cycles that are experienced rather than having resolution. The goal is to experience oneself as an entity that endures through time.
The document discusses several philosophical ideas about the nature of existence, time, change, and identity. It argues that things are constantly changing and we can only know ourselves through the stories we tell based on snapshots of experience. Life is both terrifying and wonderful, and ultimately meaningless. Music should reflect these ideas by being random, purposeless cycles that are experienced rather than having resolution. The goal is to experience oneself as an entity that endures through time.
1. The Master should not offer a straightforward answer to
the learner because the answer must ultimately issue forth from the learners inner flow of life itself, or what would be for James the immediate stream of pure experience.
2. If we say that everything in the universe comes and goes,
seemingly unchanging mountains no doubt become and perish, though their change is slow on the human timescale.
3. In Dogens view, objects are events, with their own course
of history, as active and transient as human experience.. Lifeless, barren mountains are ongoing life processes in Dogens view.
4. Individuality outruns all classification, yet we
insist on classifying every one we meet under some general head. (James)
5. Things are always changing, from one moment
to the next. But what point or purpose is there in the fact it just happens anyway, unchanging? None. It just is. The action of time is just ceaseless constant meaningless change. You can't escape from this. All you can do is wait for it to end. And in the waiting you experience it over and over again. But you can never grasp it for there is nothing to grasp. As with a real stream, the stream of experience just evades all attempts to capture it. A timeline, then, is not a real timeline. Its a fiction made from any number of contingent snapshots forced to tell a story, whatever the story is that you want to tell, a succession of forced connections between arbitrary points.
6. So we do not know who we are. We only know
the stories we have told about ourselves made up of endless snapshots of experience.
7. There is always some lack, something missing.
We are always incomplete, imperfect. And even if you now reply "but I have everything" I grin and reply. But you don't have it forever. And so you are missing eternity.
8. Life is terrifying and yet wondrous in the same
moment. And that is absurd. I make an absurd music that is "out of harmony" and "devoid of purpose". It is literally a waiting and a passing of time. But ultimately it is useless and partakes in the meaningless of existence. It comes from nowhere and goes back to it. It is often random and insensible or deliberately unheimlich. It is an experience of the aesthetics of life.
9. The longer songs are endless cycles, all
slightly different and yet all the same. The same pattern over and over again. This is life. The point is to endure, to make it to the end. Not because there is an end. There isn't. For the next cycle then begins The point is to experience yourself as a being-through-time. Compare Cage's 4:33. At the end nothing is resolved. Everything is just the same as at the start. But you have experienced. And in that you have experienced change and taken part in the flux and the becoming.
10. Is there a Dr Existenz kind of song? Yes there
is because we all fall into habits. THis is why you should not try to copy others. It is inauthentic. To truly fulfil your musical purpose is to fully presence yourself and add what is uniquely you to the world of sound.
11. The music I make is not the music I want to
make. Its the music I can't help making. The music I want to make is always out of my grasp. And that is a reflection of life. For the life you live is never the life you want to live. Its always the life you can't help living. The life you want is always out of your grasp.
12. The only meaningful choice in life is whether
to keep breathing or to stop - and to completely own the choice.
13. The random, the chaos, the instinctual. A
distrust of the deliberate, the reasoned, the "purposeful". The tomorrow that will never arrive and, consequently, the finding meaning in the circumstances of here and now. And yet the attempt to presence meaning is ultimately not enough. All you are given are marks that, in themselves, mean nothing. This one reason there are so few tunes. You are challenged to find "your tune" within it or accept that there is nothing there.
14. In the end, no matter how many works
populate my Bandcamp, no matter how good or bad they are subjectively judged to be, they are shouts from the void into the void. They accomplished nothing.
15. We wait. We are bored. No, dont protest, we are bored
to death, theres no denying it. Good. A diversion comes along and what do we do? We let it go to waste. Come, lets get to work! In an instant all will vanish and well be alone once more, in the midst of nothingness. Vladimir, Waiting for Godot.
16. the sin of having been born
17. musical fantasies, good and meaningful or bleak and
hellish, are two common types of musical work I create.
18. a system of differences without positive terms. self-