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Findings
Time constraint was a limitation of this study. I believe that more meetings with students
over an extended period, and more time for my own personal reflection would have benefitted all
involved. A larger participant pool could have better served this research. Patricia was a
balancing point between Madrona and Romans education and English experiences, but it is
disappointing that she was unable to complete phase two prompts. More participants would have
provided more detail and potential for insight than notes, but I believe sacrificing recording to
Reading personal journals would have provided me with more writing to assess, but
Presentation Feedback
I was pleased with the positive feedback I received from panelists after my presentation.
The feedback session helped me to clarify and structure my thoughts. Based on the consistency
of highly skilled/ strong competence ratings, I believe I was ultimately able to effectively
the panelists approached me and congratulated me on the value of my research. Another told me
seems to be reflected in the responses, tremendously satisfying me. The only section of the
rubric in which I did not receive consistently high scores, was the limitations & next steps,
which due to time, I slightly neglected. Ive more fully incorporated these into the writing of this
General Findings
There was a consistent theme of family throughout this study. This theme made my
interactions with Patricia and Madrona more personalized because many of their stories reflected
grandmother who passed a few years ago. Relating parallels to our intimate relationships seemed
to bring us closer together and solidify her learning context and writing in her personal value
system, family and legacy. This stresses the value of close teacher-student relationships.
At the conclusion of this research I more fully realized the power of the discussion
portion, not only in creating a safe environment for students and providing them with personal
connection to a native speaker, but also as an opportunity to gain insight into their values,
priorities, and motivations. This was key to focusing assignments on student interest, and
personal experiences, but witnessing this during research was enlightening. I was interested to
discover that Roman innately desired this balance in his writing, while Patricia did not yet seem
Initially, I was opposed to incorporating any grammar or error correction into this
research, but became less rigid on this point as the work progressed. Madrona needed some
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academic training and Roman directly requested it. I remembered feeling frustrated in Peru
trying to learn a language without access to instruction or grammar support. I was embarrassed
by my lack of knowledge and proficiency, just as Roman admitted being embarrassed to ask
Teaching Practice
writer identity were an inspiration to this research. Recalling my own learning experiences gave
me insight into student struggles and helped me to balance my own teacher-student identities. I
was learning alongside my students, rather than teaching them. This flexibility opened great
potential for personal and professional growth. I will always remember to be a teacher and a
student.
Writing this paper was difficult! However, I gained much insight through my struggles
to express my experiences and findings in writing. This paper is about accessing inner self
through writing. In writing it, I became more in tune with my teacher self, merging her more
deeply with my inner self. I gained insight into myself, and my students by maintaining notes
and journaling. I was more conscious of my actions and intentions. Because of this, I plan to
continue this type of journaling throughout my teaching career. Teacher autobiography can
which supported my innate personal and teaching philosophies. Reading these texts was like
talking to a wise friend about something personal and important. Researching for this paper
provided me with lists for future reading, and introduced me to some of the minds Im attracted
to, providing me support in my future teaching practice. It also helped me to realize that reading
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the perspectives of these thinkers provides me with a more holistic understanding of my own
ideas and beliefs. Researching grounds my thinking and informs my action. I will rely on the
practice.
Finally, the intimate relationships I developed with participants were supportive of their
learning and mine, reinforcing my faith in the value of strong interdependent community. While
I will not be able to meet as intimately as frequently with future students once I have an entire
classroom of students, I will strive to build close and intimate relationships and to positively
affect all of my students. I will incorporate personal writing and encourage student expression
into all my future classrooms. My journey through this research has reaffirmed the value of
writing for self, and raises questions on how to incorporate it meaningfully in a classroom where
academic writing is stressed. In the future, I would love to incorporate a version of this sort of
Final Reflection
The most challenging aspect of this research was the writing process. The heart of this
project is the idea that expressive narrative writing can help the writer to access her inner self,
exploring and sharing it with the world. In exploring expressive narrative writing with my
students, I have also attempted to integrate my inner self into the creation of this academic
writing. The introduction of the timid inner self to the critical analogical world of academic
writing has been a trying experience for me. Incorporating narrative into this research paper was
an attempt to negotiate my understanding of self through this process and define myself
reflection of my own sense of estrangement and lack of writing balance. As discussed, academic
writing is designed as something separate from self, objectively formulaic. This writing research
has been an attempt to personalize my exterior self, conditioned through years of academic
I feel the effects of conditioning in one form, neglecting another, perhaps more than
most. Because of my strong connection to and experience in writing for self, I am sensitive to
the effects of imbalanced conditioning toward writing for another has upon this transformative
expression. I am an avid personal writer. Over a decade of writing between undergraduate and
graduate studies, has been primarily expressive narrative. My recent studies have reminded me
of the estrangement I felt when first graduating with my BA in English 13 years ago. It took
years of slow and uncertain journaling, writing workshops, and much self-exploration to
decondition myself of academic writing, coaxing my inner self back to the pages before me.
The Action Research context seems to have been the ideal arena for my first attempt at
reconciling personal and academic writing because it is a philosophical stance towards the
world, an attitude of enquiry that enables people to question and improve taken-for-granted ways
of thinking and acting (McNiff and Whitehead, p. 7). Similar to the hyphenation of two
language identities I sought to assist in merging within my students, the action and writing of this
research was an attempt at my own hyphenated writer identity. And as an extension, it was a
hyphenation of my own inner and outer selves. Through this study, and the research and writing
it required, I believe that there is less distance between these two selves within me. I feel greater
balance of my multiple identities; learner, teacher, student, native speaker, non-native speaker,