Nick Hornby, “Thunder Road”

Mr. Eble, CP1 British Literature

Taken from Songbook, Hornby’s 2003 book of 31 essays about different songs that affected
his life.

Read and annotated the following essay by Hornby; as you read, note the following about the essay:
 Hornby’s claim
 Hornby’s evidence
 Hornby’s tone and tonal changes throughout his essay—mark a star next to tone changes and write how the tone
shifts.

We’ll have a seminar next class over this essay, so please bring five questions about the text to provoke discussion.

I can remember listening to this song and loving it in 1975; I can remember listening to this song and loving it almost
as much quite recently, a few months ago. (and, yes, I was in a car, although I probably wasn’t driving, and I certainly
wasn’t driving down any turnpike or highway or freeway, and the wind wasn’t blowing through my hair, because I
possess neither a convertible nor hair. It’s not that version of Springsteen.) So I’ve loved this song for a quarter of a
century now, and I’ve heard it more than anything else, with the possible exception of…Who am I kidding? There are no
other contenders. See, what I was going to do there was soften the blow, slip in something black and/or cool (possibly
“Let’s Get It On,” which I think is the best pop record ever made, and which would easily make it into my top 20 most-
played-songs list, but not at number 2. Number 2—and I’m trying to be honest here—would probably be something like
“(White Man) in Hammersmith Palais” by The Clash, but it would be way, way behind. Let’s say I’ve played “Thunder
Road” fifteen hundred times (just over once a week for twenty-five years, which sounds about right, if one takes into
account the repeat plays in the first couple of years); “(White Man)…” would have clocked up something like five
hundred plays. In other words, there’s no real competition.
It’s weird to me how “Thunder Road” has survived when so many other, arguably better songs—“Maggie Mae,”
“Hey Jude,” “God Save the Queen,” “Stir it Up,” So Tired of Being Alone,” “You’re a Big Girl Now”—have become less
compelling as I’ve got older. It’s not as if I can’t see the flaws: “Thunder Road” is overwrought, both lyrically (as Prefab
Sprout pointed out, there’s more to life than cars and girls, and surely the word redemption is to be avoided like the plague
when you’re writing songs about redemption) and musically—after all, this four and three-quarter minutes provided Jim
Steinman and Meatloaf with a whole career. It’s also po-faced, in a way that Springsteen himself isn’t, and if the doomed
romanticism wasn’t corny in 1975, then it certainly is now.
But sometimes, very occasionally, songs and books and films and pictures express who you are, perfectly. And they
don’t do this in words or images, necessarily; the connection is a lot less direct and more complicated than that. When I
was first beginning to write seriously, I read Anne Tyler’s Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant, and suddenly knew what I
was, and what I wanted to be, for better or for worse. It’s a process something like falling in love. You don’t necessarily
choose the best person, or the wisest, or the most beautiful; there’s something else going on. There was a part of me that
would rather have fallen for Updike, or Kerouac, or DeLillo—for someone masculine, at least, maybe somebody a little
more opaque, and certainly someone who uses more swearwords—and, though I have admired those writers, at various
stages in my life, admiration is a very different thing from the kind of transference I’m talking about. I’m talking about
understanding—or at least feeling like I understand—every artistic decision, every impulse, the soul of both the work and
its creator. “This is me,” I wanted to say when I read Tyler’s rich, sad, lovely novel. “I’m not a character, I’m nothing
like the author, I haven’t had the experiences she writes about. But even so, this is what I feel like, inside. This is what I
would sound like, if ever I were to find a voice.” And I did find a voice, eventually, and it was mine, not hers; but
nevertheless, so powerful was the process of identification that I still don’t feel as though I’ve expressed myself as well,
as completely, as Tyler did on my behalf then.
So, even though I’m not American, no longer young, hate cars, and can recognize why so many people find
Springsteen bombastic and histrionic (but not why they find him macho or jingoistic or dumb—that kind of ignorant
judgment has plagued Springsteen for a huge part of his career, and is made by smart people who are actually a lot
dumber than he has ever been), “Thunder Road” somehow manages to speak for me. This is partly—and perhaps
shamingly—because a lot of Springsteen’s songs from this period are about becoming famous, or at least achieving some
kind of public validation through his art: What else are we supposed to think when the last line of the song is “I’m pulling
out of here to win,” other than that he has won, simply by virtue of playing the song, night after night after night, to an
ever-increasing crowd of people? (And what else are we supposed to think when in “Rosalita” he sings, with a touching,
funny, and innocent glee, “Cause the record company, Rosie, just gave me a big advance,” other than that the record
company has just given him a big advance?) It’s never objectionable or obnoxious, this dream of fame, because it derives
from a restless and uncontrollable artistic urge—he knows he has talent to burn, and the proper reward for this, he seems
to suggest, would be the financial wherewithal to fulfill it—rather than an interest in celebrity for its own sake. Hosting a
TV quiz show, or assassinating a president, wouldn’t scratch the itch at all.
And, of course—don’t let anyone tell you otherwise—if you have dreams of becoming a writer, then there are murky,
mucky visions of fame attached to these dreams, too; “Thunder Road” was my answer to every rejection letter I received,
and every doubt expressed by friends or relatives. They lived in towns for losers, I told myself, and I, like Bruce, was
pulling out of there to win (These towns, incidentally, were Cambridge—full of loser doctors and lawyers and
academics—and London—full of loser successes of every description—but never mind. This was the material I had to
work with, and work with it I did.)
It helped a great deal that, as time went by, and there was no sign of me pulling out of anywhere to do anything very
much, and certainly not with the speed implied in the song, “Thunder Road” made reference to age, thus accommodating
this lack of forward momentum. “So you’re scared and you’re thinking that maybe we ain’t that young anymore,” Bruce
sang, and that line worked for me even when I had begun to doubt whether there was any magic in the night: I continued
thinking I wasn’t that young anymore for a long, long time—decades, in fact—and even today I choose to interpret it as a
wistful observation of middle age, rather than the sharp fear that comes on in late youth.
It also helped that, sometime in the early to mid-eighties, I came across another version of the song, a bootleg studio
recording of Springsteen alone with an acoustic guitar (it’s on War and Roses, the Born to Run outtakes bootleg); he
reimagines “Thunder Road” as a haunting, exhausted hymn to the past, to lost love and missed opportunities and self-
delusion and back luck and failure, and that worked pretty well for me, too. In fact, when I try to hear that last line of the
song in my head, it’s the acoustic version that comes first. It’s slow, and mournful, and utterly convincing: an artist who
can persuade you of the truth of what he is singing with either version is an artist who is capable of an awful lot.
There are other bootleg versions that I play and love. One of the great things about the song as it appears on Born to
Run is that those first few bars, on wheezy harmonica and achingly pretty piano, actually sound like they refer to
something that has already happened before the beginning of the record, something momentous and sad but not
destructive of all hope; as “Thunder Road” is the first track on side one of Born to Run, the album begins, in effect, with
its own closing credits. In performance at the end of the seventies, during the Darkness on the Edge of Town tour,
Springsteen maximized this effect by seguing into “Thunder Road” out of one of his bleakest, most desperate songs,
“Racing in the Street,” and the harmonica that marks the transformation of one song into the other feels like a sudden and
glorious hint of spring after a long, withering winter. On the bootlegs of those seventies shows, “Thunder Road” can
finally provide the salvation that its position on Born to Run denied it.
Maybe the reason “Thunder Road” has sustained for me is that, despite its energy and volume and fast cars and hair, it
somehow manages to sound elegiac, and the older I get the more I can hear that. When it comes down to it, I suppose that
I, too, believe that life is momentous and sad but not destructive of all hope, and maybe that makes me a self-dramatizing
depressive, or maybe it makes me a happy idiot, but either way “Thunder Road” knows how I feel and who I am, and that,
in the end, is one of the consolations of art.
Postscript
A few years ago, I started to sell a lot of books, at first only in the U.K., and then later in other countries, too, and
to my intense bewilderment found that I had someone become part of the literary and cultural mainstream. It wasn’t
something I had expected, or was prepared for. Although I could see no reason why anyone would feel excluded from my
work—it wasn’t like it was difficult, or experimental—my books still seemed to me to be quirky and small-scale. But
suddenly all sorts of people, people I didn’t know or like or respect, had opinions about me and my work, which overnight
seemed to go from being fresh and original to clichéd and ubiquitous, without a word of it having changed. And I was
shown this horrible reflection of myself and what I did, a funfair hall-of-mirrors reflection, all squidged up and
distorted—me, but not me. It wasn’t like I was given a particularly hard time, and certainly other people, some of whom I
know, have experienced much worse. But even so, it becomes in those circumstances very hard to hang on to the idea of
what you want to do.
And yet Springsteen somehow managed to find a way through. His name is still taken in vain frequently (a year or
so ago I read a newspaper piece attacked Tony Blair for his love of Bruce, an indication, apparently, of the prime
minister’s incorrigible philistinism), and for some, the hall-of-mirrors reflection is the only Springsteen they can see. He
went from being rock ‘n’ roll’s future to a lumpy, flag-waving, stadium-rocking meathead in the space of a few months,
again with nothing having changed, beyond the level of his popularity. Anyway, his strength of purpose, and the way he
has survived the assault on his sense of self, seem to me exemplary; sometimes it’s hard to remember that a lot of people
liking what you do doesn’t necessarily mean that what you do is of no value whatsoever. Indeed, sometimes it might even
suggest the opposite.
 Resources
Nick Hornby biography and writing history from the British Broadcasting Company
The Observer’s John Peel reviews Songbook (2003)
The Telegraph’s Neil McCormick on Hornby and Springsteen (2003)
Hornby writes for The Guardian about his meeting with Bruce Springsteen (2005)
Thunder Road Lyrics (album version, taken from this website). You can also listen to the song on YouTube

The screen door slams, Mary's dress waves

Like a vision she dances across the porch as the radio plays
Roy Orbison singing for the lonely
Hey that's me and I want you only
Don't turn me home again
I just can't face myself alone again
Don't run back inside, darling you know just what I'm here for
So you're scared and you're thinking that maybe we ain't that young anymore
Show a little faith, there's magic in the night
You ain't a beauty, but hey you're alright
Oh and that's alright with me

You can hide 'neath your covers and study your pain
Make crosses from your lovers, throw roses in the rain
Waste your summer praying in vain for a saviour to rise from these streets
Well now I'm no hero, that's understood
All the redemption I can offer, girl, is beneath this dirty hood
With a chance to make it good somehow
Hey what else can we do now
Except roll down the window and let the wind blow back your hair
Well the night's bustin' open, these two lanes will take us anywhere
We got one last chance to make it real
To trade in these wings on some wheels
Climb in back, heaven's waiting down on the tracks

Oh oh come take my hand

Riding out tonight to case the promised land
Oh oh oh oh Thunder Road, oh Thunder Road, oh Thunder Road
Lying out there like a killer in the sun
Hey I know it's late, we can make it if we run
Oh oh oh oh Thunder Road, sit tight, take hold, Thunder Road

Well I got this guitar and I learned how to make it talk

And my car's out back if you're ready to take that long walk
From your front porch to my front seat
The door's open but the ride it ain't free
And I know you're lonely for words that I ain't spoken
Tonight we'll be free, all the promises will be broken
There were ghosts in the eyes of all the boys you sent away
They haunt this dusty beach road in the skeleton frames of burned-out Chevrolets
They scream your name at night in the street
Your graduation gown lies in rags at their feet
And in the lonely cool before dawn
You hear their engines roaring on
But when you get to the porch they're gone on the wind, so Mary climb in
It's a town full of losers, I'm pulling out of here to win