Funny Stories Contemporary Urban Fi

You might also like

Download as pdf or txt
Download as pdf or txt
You are on page 1of 138



&217(176


)RUHZRUG

3RUQDFUREDW

-DPHV

+RQH\

:RPDQL]HU

7KH6K\2QH

7KH6FDULHVWFOLHQW

2SHUDVLQJHU

7KH2OG0DQ

7KH3OD\HU

'R\RXNQRZEXVLQHVV"

+RZ%LOOORRNHGIRUDZLIH

7KH7HUURULVW

$XWRSLORW

7KH9HW

/LFNHUPDQ

*DU\DQGKDSSLQHVV

7KHYLVLWLQJGXPSOLQJ
7KHEHVWRQH

7KH:KLQHU

'LVFRXQWRQDWRPEVWRQH

'RJLVDPDQߞVIULHQG

&URFRGLOHWHDUV

6FURRJH

6WRQHU

7ZRIRURQH

%XVLQHVVPDQ

/LFNHUV

7KH%UDYH

<HWL

7KHZRQGHUHU

7KH$FWRU

&DOOߙFHQWHU

7DONHU9XOJDULV

0DVWXUEDWRUYXOJDULV

:KDWZRPHQZDQW"

7KH&KHDS)DLU\

1DWXUDOQHVV

'DGG\
7KH$HVWKHWHDQGWKH$VV

,QWKHDUPSLW

7KH9LOODLQ

7KHQHDWRQH

7KHYDPSLUH

7KHLQYHQWRU

7KHVRXQGRSHUDWRU

/RYHLVEOLQG

%DELHV

7KHLOOXVLRQLVW

&KLQHVHJXHVWV

$UDELFORYH

/LSVWLFN

/LWWOHZKRUH

3HDFRFNV

:DVWKHUHDQRUPDORQH"

6RPHZRUGVIURP(PLO\

$XWKRUߞVFRQFOXVLRQ

)RUHZRUG
7KHUHLVDVD\LQJWLPHGHILQHVPXVLF

:K\ GLG (PLO\ D SURVWLWXWH VKDUH D SDUW RI KHU UHDO OLIH ZLWK XV" ,W LV TXLWH
VLPSOH
3HUKDSV VKH KDV D VWURQJ VXSHULRULW\ FRPSOH[ DQG ZDV DIIURQWHG WKDW WKH
H[SHULHQFHV LQ KHU HYHQWIXO OLIH UHPDLQHG LQ KHU PHPRU\ RQO\ +HQFH OHW WKLV
ERRNEHDQHYHUODVWLQJUHFRUGRIWKRVHHSLVRGHV
6KHZDVWLUHGRIKDYLQJWRKLGHKHUZKROHOLIHIURPRWKHUV6KHFRXOGQRWWHOOKHU
PRPKRZVKHOLYHGDQGFRXOGQRWVKDUHKHUVHFUHWZLWKKHUVLVWHUV(YHQZLWKD
ODUJH QXPEHU RI UHODWLYHV DQG FDVXDO DFTXDLQWDQFHV QRERG\ NQHZ ZKDW VKH
DFWXDOO\GLG
(PLO\ߞV OLIH FRQVLVWHG HQWLUHO\ RI IDQWDVLHV DQG RI VWRULHV VKH FRQVWDQWO\
LQYHQWHGIRURWKHUVWRKHDU$QGLIVKHFRXOGQߞWRSHQXSWRDQ\RQHLQKHUOLIHWKLV
ZRXOGEHWKHSODFHIRUKHUWRGRVR,WߞVWLPHWRVWDUWVKDULQJZLWKVRPHRQH<RX
ZLOOOHDUQGHWDLOVQRWVKDUHGZLWKHYHQKHUFORVHVWIULHQGV

0\QDPHLV(PLO\,DPDSURVWLWXWHDQG,GRQRWUHJUHWLW

3RUQDFUREDW


,WKLQNSRUQVKRXOGEHEDQQHG,WEDGO\DIIHFWVLPPDWXUHPLQGV
2UOHWߞVVD\LWVKRXOGEHDOORZHGEXWRQO\DIWHUDPHGLFDOH[DPLQDWLRQE\WKH
SV\FKRWKHUDSLVW
$QG ZLWK D UHIHUHQFH 7KLV LV WR FHUWLI\ WKDW WKH SDWLHQW SHUFHLYHV UHDOLW\
DGHTXDWHO\DQGLVDOORZHGWRYLHZILOPVRI;;;IRUPDW
:HOO QR DFWXDOO\ WKH\ ZLOO KDYH ZDWFKHG WRR PXFK SRUQ DQG ZLOO ZDQW WR
HPERG\ LW DQG WKH\ FDQ EH WRR VWDUWOHG WR ILQG RXW WKDW WKLQJV DUHQߞW VR LQ UHDO
OLIH
,KDYHDFOLHQWXWWHUO\XQSOHDVDQWWDOOEDOGDQGWKLQHQRUPRXVH\HVSHHNLQJ
EHKLQGJODVVHV$QGVRPHKRZKLVKDQGVDUHVKDNLQJHLWKHUIURPLPSDWLHQFHRU
IURPVHHLQJDZRPDQDWVXFKDFORVHGLVWDQFHIRUWKHILUVWWLPHLQKLVOLIH:HOO
\HDKQRWHYHU\\HDUEHKROGVVXFKKDSSLQHVV
+HERRNVPHIRUDQKRXU
:HHQWHUWKHURRPKHXQGUHVVHVDQGVK\O\KLGHVKLVXQGHUZHDULQWKHSRFNHW
RIKLVMHDQVDQGOHLVXUHO\HVFDSHVLQWRWKHVKRZHU
:KLOHKHLVLQWKHUH,DPPHGLWDWLQJ%UDG3LWW%UDG3LWWߨ
+HFRPHVRXWQDNHGDIWHUWKHVKRZHUDQGWKURZVKLVERQHVRQWKHEHG,SXUU
VRPHWKLQJVWXSLGOLHGRZQFDUHVVKLVERG\KHWXUQVPHRQP\EDFNߨFRPHXS
IURPEHORZDQGVWDUWVHDWLQJPHRXW
,PHGLWDWH%UDG3LWWߞVHDUVDUHWXUQLQJUHGߨ
$PLQXWHRUWZRSDVVHGDQGKHZDVFOHDUO\LQDUDJHKHZDVVTXHDNLQJDQG
JXUJOLQJDQGVXGGHQO\,FRXOGIHHOP\ERG\FUDZOLQJ
'RZQDFURVVWKHEHGQDWXUDOO\DQGP\DVVZDVJRLQJXSXSXS$QGKHOLIWV
LWXSOLIWVDQGUDLVHVKLPVHOIDVZHOOߨ
0H
ߙ+RQH\ZKDWDUH\RXGRLQJ"
ߙ2Kߙ+HSDWWHUHGVXGGHQO\ߙ&DQ\RXVWDQGRQ\RXUKHDG"
ߙ,GRQߞWJHWLWߙUHDOL]LQJ,DVNߙ:K\"
ߙ:HOOLWZLOOEHOLNHDVL[W\ߙQLQHRQO\LQDYHUWLFDOSRVLWLRQ<RXZLOOEHKHUH
SRLQWV DW WKH EHG  RQ \RXU KDQGV DQG , ZLOO EH KROGLQJ \RX IURP DERYH DQG
ZHOOߨ,VDZKRZLWߞVGRQHDQGZDQWHGWRWU\LW
ߙ$QGZKHUHKDYH\RXVHHQLWVZHHWKHDUW"ߙ,VOLJKWO\DVWRXQG
ߙ:HOOߨLQDPRYLHZKHUHHOVHߨ
ߙ+RQH\ߙ,SXUUOD]LO\ߙLWZRQߞWEHYHU\FRPIRUWDEOH%HVLGHV,KDYHQߞWEHHQ
WUDLQHGLQDFLUFXVDQG,ߞPGHILQLWHO\QRWWKHEHVWDFUREDW
ߙ,ZLOOKROG\RXIURPDERYHߙKHUHDGLO\SLFNVXSߙOHWߞVWU\\HDK"
$QGKHSXOOVP\H\HVXSZLWKRXWHYHQZDLWLQJIRUP\UHVSRQVH
, ZLOO QRW GHVFULEH KRZ , WULHG WR WDNH DW OHDVW D OLWWOH PRUH FRPIRUWDEOH
SRVLWLRQZKLOHKHJURDQHGDQGVZHDWHGWKHUH
,W
V LQGHVFULEDEOH )DFH LQ WKH SLOORZ DVV RQ WRS ORQJLQJ LQ H\HV DQG
ZDQGHULQJWKRXJKWV,IKHGURSVPH,ߞOOWZLVWKLVQHFN0LQHILUVWWKHQKLVLI
,VXUYLYH
$QG ZKLOH ZLWK D UHG IDFH , ZDV WU\LQJ WR UHVLVW FUDVKLQJ DQG DOO WKH ZKLOH
SUD\LQJMXVWGRQߞWGURSPHKHEUHDNVIURPWKHSURFHVVDQGDVNVPHDWHUULILF
TXHVWLRQ
ߙ:K\GRQߞW\RXPRDQ"'RQߞW\RXOLNHLW"
ߙ+RQH\ߙ,JDVSߙ,DPQRWWKDWFRPIRUWDEOHPD\EH\RXߞOOORZHUPHGRZQ
MXVWOLNHLWZDVEHIRUH"
ߙ2KQR<RXDUHMXVWSRVLWLRQHGXQFRPIRUWDEO\0RYH\RXUKDQGVDOLWWOHOLNH
WKLV
$QG KH VR YHU\ QHDWO\ SODFHG KLV IRRW EHVLGH WKH KDQG RQ ZKLFK , ZDV
UHVLVWLQJDQGEDQJ+HSXVKHG
6KRXOG,VD\ZKDWKDSSHQHGQH[W"
7KHQ WKHUH ZDV D UDYHO 2I FRXUVH , ORVW P\ EDODQFH RI FRXUVH KH GLG QRW
KROGPHRIFRXUVH,EDQJHGP\WKLJKDJDLQVWWKHZDOODQGRIFRXUVHKHIHOORQ
WRSRIPH
,WKRXJKWWKDWZDVLWDOOGRQHZLWKH[SHULPHQWV%XWVHHLQJKLPFUDZODZD\
DQGJHWEDFNRQKLVIHHWDJDLQWLFNHGPHRII
ߙ/LVWHQߙ,VDLGߙ,DPQRWDQDFUREDWDQGEHVLGHV,DPKHDY\IRUVXFKVWUDQJH
HQGHDYRUVVROHWߞVGRVRPHWKLQJVWDQGDUGDOULJKW"<RXWULHGDQGWKDWߞVHQRXJK
ߙ2KFRPHRQߙ+HZKLQHGߙ(YHU\WKLQJZDVDOULJKW,VWKDWZK\\RXFDQߞWGR
OLNHWKH\GR"
ߙ:KRDUHWKH\"ߙ,DVNHGVNHSWLFDOO\
ߙ:HOOWKH\ߨWKRVHJLUOVߙKHVKUXJJHGKLVVKRXOGHUVLQGHFLVLYHO\ߙ7KRVHLQ
WKHPRYLHV
ߙ+RQH\ ߙ , WRRN D GHHS EUHDWK VR DV QRW WR FUDFN KLV IRUHKHDGߙKRQH\ OHWߞV
OHDYHWKHJLUOVDORQH/HWPHGRVRPHWKLQJIRU\RXDOULJKW"
,ZDQWHGWRTXLFNO\ILQLVKZLWKKLP
ߙ&DQ \RX OLIW DQG SXOO \RXU OHJV XS" ߙ +H DVNHG PH DIWHU ILYH PLQXWHV DV ,
ZDVMXVWJHWWLQJUHDG\WRJHWGRZQ
ߙ:K\"ߙ,DVNHGSUHGLFWLQJVRPHWKLQJ
ߙ:HOOORRNߙKHGHFODUHGWKHSODQߙ\RXZLOOOLHKHUHDQGLILWLVKDUGIRU\RX
OHDQDJDLQVWWKHZDOO\RXUDVVZLOOEHKHUHRQWRSDQG\RXZLOOZUDS\RXUOHJV
DURXQG \RXU VKRXOGHUV DQG , ZLOO WU\ LW DERYHߨRND\" +HUH D SLOORZ IRU \RXU
FRPIRUW
ߙ+DYH\RXGHFLGHGWREUHDNP\VSLQH"ߙ,TXLSSHG
ߙ1RZK\EUHDNߙKHZDVRIIHQGHGߙ,KDYHVHHQLWWKH\FDQGRLWORRNߨߙKH
WULHGWRUDLVHPHXSDQGEHQG
ߙ(DV\\\(DV\\\ߙ,VFUHDPHGDQGUHDOL]LQJWKDWZRXOGWU\WRJHWXQGHUP\
VNLQDWDQ\FRVW,GHFLGHGWROHWKLPILQLVKTXLFNO\DQGJR
,EHWWHUWU\P\VHOI
6R,OHDQHGP\DVVXSZDUGVDQ\WKLQJIRUP\FOLHQW$SSDUHQWO\DIDYRUDEOH
YLHZ RSHQHG EHIRUH KLP EHFDXVH KLV H\HV IODVKHG FDUQLYRURXVO\ EHKLQG KLV
JODVVHV
ߙ,ߞOOGR\RXQRZߙ+HVDLGORXGDQGUDWKHUFRQWHQW
+HWULHGWRHPEDUNRQWKHSURFHVVKHJRWXSWLSWRHGDURXQGFOXQJRQWRWKH
ZHOODLPHGPLVVHGDQGDLPHGDJDLQVWDJJHUHGVWXPEOHGDQGߨ
ߨVWHSSHGRQP\KDLU
ߙ+HHH\ߙ,VFUHDPHGߙ*HWRIIRIP\KDLU"
ߙ2KVRUU\ߙKHVDLG
+HUHDUUDQJHGKLVOHJ
ߙ+HUHߨKHUH,ߨ+HUH\HVWKLVZD\KHUHߨ
+HILQDOO\HQWHUHGDQGVWDUWHGGRLQJPH
$QG , FRXOG WHOO WKDW KH ZDV PRDQLQJ MXVW EHFDXVH WKH\ PRDQ LQ ILOPV KH
WKRXJKWWKDWZDVKRZLWVKRXOGEHGRQH
,ZDWFKHGIURPEHORZߙKHZDVREYLRXVO\YHU\XQFRPIRUWDEOH
,ZDVVLOHQWDQGWULHGWRNHHSP\VHOIVWHDG\LQWKHSRVLWLRQDVVRQWRSDQGOHJV
ZUDSSHGDURXQGP\VKRXOGHUV/HJVEHJDQUHGXFLQJDQG,ZDVIODWWHQLQJ
ߙ:K\DUH\RXVLOHQW"ߙ+HDVNHGXQH[SHFWHGO\ߙ$UH\RXIULJLG"
'DDDDDDPQQQQߨ
ߙ$DDKDDDDKRRRRRKߙ,PRDQHGORXGHU
ߙ<HV7KDWߞVLWߙKHVDLGVDWLVILHGߙ,ZLOOQRZQRZߨQRZߨ
%XWQRZQHYHUKDSSHQHG
ߙ0D\EH ZH VKRXOG WU\ VRPHWKLQJ QRUPDO" ߙ , FURDNHG DFFXUDWHO\ ߙ'R \RX
ZDQWWRWDNHPHIURPEHKLQG"
ߙ<HV\HVOHWߞVGRLWߙKHVXGGHQO\UHMRLFHGߙ%XWQRWIURPEHKLQGOLNHWKLVߨ
+HOD\RQKLVEDFN,VWUDLJKWHQHGXSZLWKGLIILFXOW\DQGKHSXOOHGPHWRKLP
DQGVDLG
ߙ6LWRQPHEURDGZLVH
,VDWEURDGZLVH,WZDVGHILQLWHO\EHWWHUWKDQVWDQGLQJRQP\KHDG
,PDGHHYHU\HIIRUW,NQHZߙLI,GLGQߞWGRLWQRZ,ZRXOGKDYHWRVRRQKDQJ
P\VHOIIURPWKHFKDQGHOLHU,GLGQߞWZDQWWKHFKDQGHOLHUDQG,GLGDOO,FRXOG
ߙ<RXVHHPVWUDQJHߙKHVDLGFDWFKLQJKLVEUHDWK
ߙ<HV"ߙ,ERLOHGߙ$QGZKDWVKRXOG,EHOLNH"
ߙ:HOO\RXDUHDELWߨFROG,WROG\RX\RXDUHIULJLG
ߙ:K\LVWKDW"ߙ0\EUDLQFRXOGQRWWDNHDQ\PRUHߨ
ߙ:HOOߨKHVDLGLQGHFLVLYHO\ߙ<RXGRQߞWPRDQߨWKDWߞVMXVWQRWQRUPDO
ߙ6ZHHWKHDUWߙ,VDLGVRIWO\ߙ<RXVHHKRQH\,GRQRWNQRZDQ\ZRPDQZKR
ZRXOGEHPRDQLQJZLWKGHOLJKWLQWKLVSRVLWLRQ
ߙ+RZLVWKDW"ߙ+HDVNHGDPD]HGߙ*LUOVKDYHSOHDVXUHWKH\GR$QGWKH\
FXP<RXDUHMXVWFROG
,WRRNDVPRNHDQGDVNHGRQHTXHVWLRQ
ߙ:KDWJLUOV"
ߙ:KDW GR \RX PHDQ ZKDW JLUOV" ߙ +H VDLG FRQILGHQWO\ ߙ 7KRVH LQ PRYLHV
7KH\JHWߨ
+LVIRUHKHDGZDVVRFORVHDQGWKHWHPSWDWLRQWRVODPߙVRKLJK
,UHVLVWHG


-DPHV

&RPHRQFRQIHVVZKROLYHVWKHUHZLWK\RX"
'HOLFDWH&KDUOHV"
%UXWDO%HQ
1LIW\/HRQDUG"
2UPD\EHVK\%REE\"

 

,KDGDOUHDG\XQGUHVVHGODLGFRQGRPVWKHOXEULFDQWDQGVDWGRZQWRZDLW
+HZDVSOXPSVKRUWߙOHJJHGVOLJKWO\IODEE\DQGFKHHUIXO+HKDGEHHQLQWKH
VKRZHU IRU WHQ PLQXWHV DOUHDG\ DQG KLV VQRUWLQJ ZDV VR ORXG WKDW LW FRXOG EH
KHDUGLQWKHURRP$QGZKHQ,ZDVDOPRVWWLUHGRIZDLWLQJKHILQDOO\FDPHLQ
FRPSOHWHO\QDNHGRIFRXUVH
8QGHUKLVFKXEE\WXPP\KDQJDVPDOODQGKDUPOHVVRXWJURZWK
7KH&KXEE\OLQJHUHGIRUDPRPHQWLQWKHFHQWHURIWKHURRP
6WRRG
7RRNDWKRXJKW
:LQNHG
+HJDYHPHDWHUULI\LQJO\SURXGORRNDVLIFKHFNWKLVRXWIODVKHGKLVH\HV
DQGߨ
+HEHQWKLVDUPVOLIWHGWKHPXSDQGSODFHGDOPRVWRQKLVQDSHIOLUWDWLRXVO\
FRFNHGKLVKHDGDQGPDGHWKUHHWRIRXUURXQGPRYHPHQWVZLWKKLVDVV
7\G\QWV7\G\QWV
,ZDVVLOHQWDQGLQVKRFN
7KH&KXEE\WRRNP\SX]]OHPHQWIRUDGPLUDWLRQDQGGHFLGHGWRHQKDQFHWKH
HIIHFW
+HFDPHXSWRPHSODFHGZHDU\DQGSHWW\WRROLQKLVKDQGZDYHGLQP\IDFH
DQGVDLGLQDOOVHULRXVQHVV
ߙ7KLVLV-DPHV
$QGWXUQLQJWKLVWLPHWRKLPKHVDLG
ߙ-DPHV"
(DV\HDV\(PLO\ߙVDLGP\LQQHUYRLFH
ߙ+HOOR-DPHV\ߙ,JUHHWHGZKLOHWU\LQJWRNHHSDVHULRXVIDFH
ߙ2K QRRR ߙ WKH &KXEE\ VDLG DQG FRUUHFWHG PH ߙKH LV QRW -DPHV\ KH LV
-DPHV
ߙ$OULJKWߙ,UDLVHGP\KDQGVLQVXUUHQGHU$QGWKHQ,DVNHG
ߙ:HOO-DPHVZRXOG\RXOLNHWRPHHW&HFLO"
$QGVKRZHG-DPHVP\WLW
-DPHV ZDV VLOHQW 1R JUHHWLQJ QR FRPSOLPHQW +H REYLRXVO\ KDG EDG
PDQQHUV
ߙ-DPHVDQG,ZDQWWRKDYHIXQߙVDLGWKH&KXEE\DQGJHQWO\SDWWHGLW
%XWDVLWVRRQWXUQHGRXW-DPHVGLGQߞWOLNHWKHlZHZDQW{
7KH IDFW LV WKDW KH WXUQHG RXW WR EH D FRPSOHWH QXGLVW GHVSLWH LWV LQLWLDO
FKHHUIXO MXPSLQJߙ DQ\ DWWHPSW WR GUHVV XS -DPHV LQ D IDQF\ FRQGRP HQGHG LQ
FRPSOHWHIDLOXUH+HZDVFDSULFLRXVVORXFK\DQGKDUGWRSOHDVH
ߙ0D\EHZHFRXOGGRZLWKRXWLW"ߙDVNHG&KXEE\ZLWKKRSHLQKLVH\HV
ߙ1Rߙ,VDLGVHULRXVO\ߙ0\3HJJ\GRHVQRWDFFHSWWKDW
&KXEE\ORRNHGDWPHVWUDQJHO\WRRNDWKRXJKWDQGDVNHG
ߙ:KDWGR\RXPHDQ":KDW3HJJ\"
ߙ:HOOߨߙ,VKUXJJHGP\VKRXOGHUVߙ7KHߨ3HJJ\
+HZDVEORFNHG
ߙ:HOOLI\RXZDQW,FRXOGGRDKDQGMREߙ,VKXWKLPGRZQIXUWKHU
12ߙKHVQLIIHGߙ,FDQGRDKDQGMREP\VHOI
ߙ:HOO-DPHVFRPHRQZKDWDUH\RXGRLQJߙ7KH&KXEE\ZKLQHGIRUDERXW
WHQPLQXWHVWHUULEO\WZLVWLQJKLVKHDGRQXQIRUWXQDWH-DPHV
-DPHVZHQWQXWVDQGDQQRXQFHGDER\FRWW
ߙ2KKK -DPHV \RX IDLOHG PH ߙ VDGO\ VDLG WKH &KXEE\ JHWWLQJ XS IURP WKH
EHGZKHQWKHWLPHZDVRYHUߙ$UHQߞW\RXDVKDPHG
-DPHVUHPDLQHGVLOHQW

 

,WߞVDQHWHUQDOPDQTXLUNߙWRJLYHWKHLUSHQLVHVQDPHV
,GRQRWNQRZZK\EXWWKLVLVVRPHWKLQJ,PHHWRIWHQ
, KDYH WDONHG WR 6XSHUPDQ KH ZDV UHDOO\ JRRG  UDLVHG 0D[ WR ILJKW DQG
H[SODLQHG WR DSDWKHWLF 7RP IRU TXLWH D ORQJ WLPH WKDW WKH UXOHV RI HWLTXHWWH
UHTXLUHJHWWLQJXSLQIURQWRIODGLHV
7RPKRZHYHUZDVQRWDJHQWOHPDQ
0HQWHUULEO\ORYHWKHLUER\VILJKWHUVDQGRQHߙH\HGVQDNHV
6RPHWLPHVWKLVORYHLVVRELJWKDW,DPVWDUWLQJWRWKLQNWKH\QHHGZRPHQMXVW
IRUWKHPHUHSOHDVXUHRIERDVWLQJDERXWWKHLUWUHDVXUH

+RQH\


ߙ6XJDUOHWߞVGRLWIDVW,KDYHOLWWOHWLPHߙ+HGHFODUHGIURPWKHGRRUZD\
+HKDQGHGPHWKHSUHSDUHGPRQH\
0RPHQWV DIWHU WDNLQJ RII KLV VKRHV WKH ILUVW WKLQJ KH GLG ZDV WR UXQ WR WKH
ZLQGRZ+HKLGEHKLQGWKHFXUWDLQDQGQHUYRXVO\ZDWFKHGWRVHHZKHWKHUWKHUH
ZDVDQ\RQHDURXQGWKHKRXVH
,WVHHPHGOLNHLWZDVQߞWWKHILUVWWLPHDQGZDVSXUHO\DUHIOH[
7KH QH[W PLQXWH , IRXQG RXW WKDW WKH PDQ ZDV PDUULHG DQG ZDV K\VWHULFDOO\
SLVVLQJ DW WKH WKRXJKW WKDW KLV ZLIH FRXOG EXUQ KLP :HOO \HDK KH KDG FRPH
VWUDLJKWWRPHULJKWDIWHUZRUN
$FWXDOO\OHWߞVDVVXPHWKDWDORWRIPDUULHGPHQDUHVFDUHG
%XWWKLVRQHLVVFDUHGIURPWKHKHDUWRQDJUDQGVFDOH
+HOORSDUDQRLD
/RRNVOLNHKLVZLIHDQGWKHH[SHULHQFHWDXJKWKLPZHOO
1RWVHHLQJDQ\RQHVXVSLFLRXVKHUHOD[HGDOLWWOHDQG,ZDVDEOHWRVKRYHKLP
LQWR WKH VKRZHU 0RPHQWV DIWHU WKH VKRZHU KH HPHUJHG LQWR WKH URRP DQG
DQ[LRXVO\JODQFHGDWKLVRZQSKRQH
$QG,UHDOL]HGWKDWKLVZLIHZDVTXLWHWKHFKDUDFWHU
:HVWDUWHGLQDVWDQGLQJSRVLWLRQDQGPDGH)UHQFKORYH:HOO,PHDQKHZDV
VWDQGLQJDQG,ZDVGRZQXQGHUPDNLQJORYHWRKLP
,WGLGQߞWODVWORQJDVKLVSKRQHVRRQUDQJ<HVKHKDGEHHQKROGLQJLWDOOWKH
WLPH
, VWRSSHG LQ IURQW RI KLP RQ P\ NQHHV ZLWK UHVHUYHV LQ P\ FKHHNV OLNH D
KDPVWHUDQGJDYHKLPDTXHVWLRQLQJORRNIURPERWWRPXS
+HQRGGHGWRPHDVLIEDE\JRRQ$QG,GLG6RZKDW"
ߙ+RQH\ ߙ KH FRPSHOOHG LQWR WKH KDQGVHW VWURNLQJ KLV KDUGZRUNLQJ KDPVWHU
ZLWKKLVIUHHKDQGߙ+RQH\\HV,
PRQP\ZD\QR,ZRQߞWEHODWH1RP\WRQH
LV QRUPDO 1R LWߞV QRUPDO LW RQO\ VHHPV WR \RX 1R , DP DORQH GRQߞW PDNH
WKLQJVXS<HV,
PWHOOLQJ\RXߙDQRUPDOWRQH<HDKNLVVHV%\H
7KHSURFHVVVPRRWKO\ HQWHUHGWKH KRUL]RQWDO SKDVH $W WKLV WLPHWKH SKRQHߙ
OHDVKZDVO\LQJEHVLGHXV
7KHQDJDLQWKHVHDFWLRQVGLGQߞWJDWKHUPRPHQWXPDV+RQH\VKRZHGXSDJDLQ
LQDPLQXWH
ߙ<HVKRQH\ߙKHJUDEEHGWKHSKRQHߙ1RLWRQO\VHHPHGWR\RX<RXNQRZ,
ORYHRQO\\RX1R,ZRQߞWEHORQJ,DPFRPLQJ,WߞVDQRUPDOWRQHߨ
,ZDVSHQVLYHO\UHOD[LQJXQGHUWKHUHVHQVLQJDOLJKWVWLUZLWKLQPH
+HZDVIDOOLQJ:HZHUHORVLQJKLP
ߙ'DPQZKDWDEDGWLPLQJߙ+HKLVVHGZKHQ+RQH\ILQLVKHGߙ&RQWUROVP\
HYHU\VWHSELWFK
ߙ<HVKRQH\"ߙ7KHSKRQHUDQJLQH[DFWO\PLQXWHVߙ1RKRQH\,DPRQP\
ZD\1RLWRQO\VHHPHGWR\RXHYHU\WKLQJߞVILQH<HV,ߞOOEHRQWLPH:DQWPH
WREX\DQ\WKLQJ"<HDKRNE\H,ߞOOEULQJLWIURPWKHVWRUH
ߙ/RRNFDQZHGRWKLVUHDOO\IDVWKXK"
:HOO,GRQߞWPLQGDTXLFNLHDWDOO
ߙ%DE\ߙ,PDGHDVHQVLEOHSURSRVDORQWKHIRXUWKULQJZKHQLWEHFDPHFOHDUWR
PHWKDWDTXLFNLHZDVLPSRVVLEOHEHFDXVH+RQH\VLPSO\ZRXOGQߞWOHWXVߙZK\
GRQߞW\RXWXUQRII\RXUSKRQH"
ߙ:KDW"ߙ+HVTXHDNHGDWRQHWKRXJKWRILWߙ$UH\RXLQ\RXUPLQG"6KHZLOO
SHUIRUPKDUDߙNLULRQPHZLWKRXWKHVLWDWLRQ$MHDORXVZLIHLVDFRPSOHWHPHVV
,ߞPIHGXS
ߙ:K\GRQߞW\RXGLYRUFH"ߙ,DVNHGDFFXUDWHO\
7KLVEURNHKLPLQWRSLHFHV
ߙ$QGZKDWWKHQ"7KHDSDUWPHQWLVKHUVWKHFDULVKHUVDQGZKDWZLOO,EHOHIW
ZLWK"$EDUHDVV"
,WVHHPVOLNHWKH\DUHZRUWK\RIHDFKRWKHU
)RU WKRVH H[DFW RQH DQG D KDOI PLQXWHV WKDW VKH ZDV QRW RQ WKH DLU KH
VXFFHHGHG WR ILQLVK ZLWK D VXSHUKXPDQ HIIRUW $QG KH GLG WKLV VR TXLFNO\ DQG
IHDUIXOO\ WKDW LW ZDV REYLRXV KH ZDV LPDJLQLQJ KLV ZLIH VLWWLQJ LQ DQ DPEXVK
HYHQXQGHUP\EHG
$QGWKHVHFRQGDFWRIWKH0HUODLVRQEDOOHWVWDUWHG
+H WKUDVKHGDURXQG P\DSDUWPHQWJUDEELQJKLV VKRHVZRUHWKHP RQ WKH JR
DQGYDJXHO\UHVHPEOHGDFDUWRRQFKDUDFWHUWKDWPRYHVOHDYLQJWUDFHVLQWKHDLU
)RU+RQH\ZDVLQVXFKK\VWHULDRQWKHSKRQHWKDWHYHQ,FRXOGKHDUKHU
+H UXVKHG RXW VZLIWO\ FDOPLQJ WKLV VFDQGDORXV ZRPDQ RQ WKH PRYH DQG
FRYHULQJ WKH SKRQH ZLWK RQH KDQG KH JDYH PH D IULJKWHQLQJ ORRNߙWR NHHS PH
VLOHQW
/RRNVOLNHWKH\DUHOLYLQJDIXQOLIH
,UHJUHWWHGQRWVWRFNLQJXSRQSRSFRUQ
%\WKHZD\SDUDQRLDLVDFRQWDJLRXVWKLQJIRU,ZDVVWLOOVOLJKWO\WHQVHGXULQJ
WKHQH[WKDOIDQKRXUDIWHUKLVGHSDUWXUH
:KDWLI+RQH\ZDVOXUNLQJEHKLQGWKHGRRU"


:RPDQL]HU


([SHFWDWLRQVVRPHWLPHVGRQߞWPDWFKWKHUHDOLW\LWKDSSHQV
2IFRXUVHLWKDSSHQV
:HOOIRUH[DPSOH\RXDUHORRNLQJDQGFDQFOHDUO\VHHVRPHWKLQJVWLFNLQJRXW
IURP KLV SDQWV DQG QHDU KLV NQHH DQG \RX DUH WKLQNLQJߙRKR $QG LWߞV QRW DQ\
RKRLWߞVDQXQGHUWKHEUHDWKIHPLQLQHRKKKRRRR
$QGKHXQGUHVVHVDQGWKHUHߨ
$QGWKHUHLVQRWWKHRKR\RXH[SHFWHGWKHUHLVDKHKH
$QGZKDWVHHPHGOLNHDQRKRZDVRQO\DSKRQHLQWKHSRFNHW
2U \RX VXGGHQO\ DJUHH WR DQDO DW QR DGGLWLRQDO FKDUJH EHFDXVH WKH EDVWDUG
EDUJDLQHG PHUFLOHVVO\ DQG VLQFH \RX KDYH EHHQ RXW RI EXVLQHVV IRU WKH IRXUWK
FRQVHFXWLYH GD\ \RX VD\ ߙ ZKDW WKHKHOO$QG ZKLOH KH LV RQ KLV ZD\ \RX DUH
GRLQJ\RXUPDNHXSDQGKRSLQJIRUDKHKH
+H DUULYHV DQG XQOXFNLO\ WKHUH LV QRW HYHQ D RKR WKHUHߞV D RKRߙKR 2U
HYHQRKRߙKRߙKRߙKR$QGKHVHHPHGWRWDNHKLVWLPHDVLIKHZDVWKLQNLQJRI
KLVKRPHODQGGXULQJWKHSURFHVVߨ
$QG\RXDUHWKHUHZLWK\RXUIDFHLQWKHSLOORZDQGWKLQNLQJWR\RXUVHOIZKDW
DQDVVKROHߨ
$Q\ZD\,JRWFDUULHGDZD\
,WߞVMXVWWKDW,ߞPWKLQNLQJKRZWRJHWWRWKHPDLQSRLQW
2ND\
$Q H[FHOOHQW H[KLELW DSSHDUHG RQFH , ZDV HYHQ VXUSULVHG ߙ GLG KH QRW JHW
HQRXJK IURP WKH FKLFNV" 0HQ OLNH KLP VKRXOG KDYH QR SUREOHP SLFNLQJ XS
FKLFNV+HZDVWDOOSURPLQHQWWKRXJKWߙSURYRNLQJDQGZLWKDJRUJHRXVPDQO\
IDFHWKHVWXEEOHWKRVHFKHHNERQHVWKDWQRVHWKRVHELJH\HV
:HOOZKDWHYHUPD\EHKHLVRQO\DIWHUYDULHW\
,WDNHWKHPRQH\DQGWHOOKLPWRWDNHRIIKLVFORWKHVDQGKRSLQWRWKHVKRZHU,
KDQGKLPDFOHDQWRZHODQGVOLSSHUVߨ
$QGVRKHXQGUHVVHV,QDYHU\FDOPPDQQHU
3DQWVRII
$QGXQGHUQHDWKWKRVHSDQWVRQKLVPXVFXODUVWURQJDVVKHZDVZHDULQJDSDLU
RIYHU\SUHWW\ODFHVKRUWLHVLQSLQN
:HOO\HDKIHPDOHSDQWLHV6RZKDW"
$QGQRQHHGWRODXJKߙZKDWQRQHRI\RXPHQHYHUZRUHSLQNIHPDOHSDQWLHV
HYHU"
7KRVHFDPHZLWKIOXII\PDOHOHJVDQGZKLWHVRFNV
$QG,ZDVWKLQNLQJߙZK\QRWVWRFNLQJV"$QGDEHOW"
$QG PRVW LPSRUWDQWO\ KH XQGUHVVHG LQ VXFK D EXVLQHVVߙOLNH PDQQHU DV LI
QRWKLQJVSHFLDOKDGKDSSHQHG:KDWߞVZURQJZLWKODFHRQDPXVFXODUDVV"7U\
XQGUHVVLQJDQ\ILUVWRQH\RXPHHWRQWKHVWUHHW\RXZLOOVHHSLQNODFHߙZKDW"
+LVEDOOVDUHFOHDUO\XQFRPIRUWDEOHWKHUH
7KHSDQWLHVDUHQRWILWIRUWKHEDOOV
$QGEHVLGHVKHXQGUHVVHGVRSHDFHIXOO\WKDW,KDGQRFKRLFHRIUHDFWLRQWRLW
,IKHLVQRWLQVKRFNZK\VKRXOG,EH"
,RQO\VDLG
ߙ0PPPEHDXWLIXOߨ
+HUHKHFRPSOHWHO\UHOD[HGDQGZHQWLQWRWKHVKRZHU
+HFDPHRXWVWLOOZHDULQJWKHP/RRNVOLNHKHZRUHWKHPRQSXUSRVH
,DVNKLPQHDWO\
ߙ$UH\RXJRLQJWRNHHSWKRVHRQ"
+LP
ߙ<HDKOHWߞVGRLWOLNHWKLV
6RKHIXFNHGPHZLWKWKRVHSDQWLHVRQKHMXVWPRYHGWKHODFHDZD\DELW$QG
PRVWLPSRUWDQWO\,FRXOGQRWXQGHUVWDQGZKDWLWZDV,KLQWHGRQDVWUDSߙRQDQG
KH UHIXVHG PD\EH GLGQߞW ZDQW WR VSHQG PRQH\  KH GLGQߞW OLNH EHLQJ FDOOHG
QDPHV DV ZHOO DQG QRWKLQJ VSHFLDO KDSSHQHGߙKH FDPH LQ SDQWLHV DQG KH OHIW LQ
SDQWLHV
:KDWHYHUWKDWߞVQRWZKDW,ߞPVD\LQJ
7KHPDLQSRLQWLVߨ
, KDG VRPH EOXH SDQWLHV GU\LQJ LQ WKH EDWKURRP DQG , KDG IRUJRWWHQ WR WDNH
WKHPRXW
,FRXOGQߞWILQGWKHEOXHRQHVDIWHUKHOHIWߨ

7KH6K\2QH


,KDYHDFOLHQWZKRYLVLWVPHIURPWLPHWRWLPH
7KHLPSUHVVLYHWKLQJLVWKDWZLWKKLPLWߞVDOZD\VOLNHWKHILUVWWLPH
0D\EHKHLVVK\WRFRPHKHUHDQGWKDWߞVZK\HDFKWLPHKHSUHWHQGVWRKDYH
EHHQKHUHIRUWKHILUVWWLPH
2EYLRXVO\KHLVTXLWHVHULRXVDERXWLWDQGWKLQNVWKDW,ZRQߞWUHFRJQL]HKLP
+HSUREDEO\WKLQNVWKDWKHZLOOFRPHGRKLVWKLQJDQGEDPEODFNRXWDQG,
ZRQߞWUHPHPEHUDQ\WKLQJ
8QWLOWKHQH[WWLPH&DQߞWWKLVKDSSHQ"
+HWKLQNVLWFDQ
%HVLGHV,FDQUHFRJQL]HKLVYRLFHRQWKHSKRQH+HKDVWKRVHVSHFLDOWXQHVLQ
KLVYRLFHWKDWDUHYHU\W\SLFDOWRKLP
$QGLWVWDUWV
ߙ+HOOR,IRXQG\RXRQWKLVZHEVLWHߨ
(YHU\WLPHKHHOLFLWVFDUHIXOO\KRZWRUHDFKPH DOWKRXJKLQP\RSLQLRQKH
FDQILQGPHZLWKKLVH\HVFORVHG DQGHYHU\WLPH,FDUHIXOO\UHWHOOKLPZKDWKH
KDVORQJNQRZQ
$QGHYHU\WLPHFRPLQJLQWRP\SODFHKHVD\V,WߞVFR]\KHUH:KHUHߞVWKH
EDWKURRP"
,VKRZKLP
(YHU\WLPHWU\LQJQRWWRORRNPHLQWKHH\HKHORRNVDURXQGDQGGLOLJHQWO\
SUHWHQGVWREHKHUHIRUWKHILUVWWLPH
$QG,VWURQJO\VXSSRUWWKLVLOOXVLRQRIKLV
6RWKHQZKDW"
$QGWKHQDORQJKDOWLQJVSHHFKIROORZVDERXWWKHIDFWWKDWKHQHYHUDFWXDOO\
YLVLWVSURVWLWXWHVEXWGHFLGHGWRWU\LWMXVWWKLVRQFHVR2IFRXUVHLW
VQRWYHU\
JRRGEXWSUREDEO\LWVKRXOGEHH[SHULHQFHGDWOHDVWRQFHLQDOLIHWLPHߨ
$WWKLVPRPHQWLWߞVYHU\LPSRUWDQWWRPDNHDSRNHUߙIDFH
7KLVRIFRXUVHLVQRWYHU\HDV\IRUPHDV,NQRZH[DFWO\ZKHUHWKHFRPPDV
DUHSODFHGLQWKLVVSHHFK
+HIXFNVPHVLOHQWO\IRFXVHGDQG,ZRXOGHYHQVD\QREO\
-XVW OLNH LQ WKH DQHFGRWH DERXW D \RXQJ ZLIH ZKR PDNHV DQ DQQRXQFHPHQW
VWDQGLQJRQWKHFKDLU0DULWDOGXW\:LOOEHSHUIRUPHGIRUWKHILUVWWLPH
+HRQO\ZKLPSHUV
)LQLVKLQJKHKXUULHGO\SXOOVXSKLVXQGHUZHDUDQGUXQVWRWKHEDWKURRP
&RPLQJRXWKHVWDUWVGUHVVLQJK\VWHULFDOO\ZKLOHDYRLGLQJP\JD]HDQGDVD
JRRGE\HVD\VVRPHWKLQJTXLWHWLPLGO\
<RXNQRZZKDW(PLO\\RXDUHJUHDWEXW,ZLOOSUREDEO\QHYHUFRPHEDFN
7KLV LV QRW JRRGߨ, KDG QHYHU HYHUߨOLNH WKLVWR JLUOVߨDQG EHVLGHV , GRQߞW
DSSURYH RI WKLV EXW ZDQWHG WR JLYH LW D WU\ RQFHߨDQG , \RX NQRZ SUREDEO\
ZRQߞWGRWKLVHYHUDJDLQ
ߙ<HVߙ\HVRIFRXUVHߙ,VD\ߙ,ߞPYHU\VRUU\JRRGE\H
$QGKHOHDYHVGXPEO\ORRNLQJDURXQGWKH\DUG
$QGLQDERXWWKUHHPRQWKV,KHDUWKHYRLFHZLWKVSHFLDOWRQHV
+L,IRXQG\RXRQWKLVZHEVLWHߨ

7KH6FDULHVWFOLHQW


$QGQRZ,ZLOOWHOO\RXDERXWWKHVFDULHVWFOLHQWV
$UH\RXWKLQNLQJRISHUYHUWVZLWKVWUDSߙRQ"
1R
:LOGVNLQKHDGV"
1R
$OFRKROLFV"
1R
7KHVWRQHG"
+HOOQR
7KHELJJHVWQLJKWPDUHRIDSURVWLWXWHLVDFOLHQWZKRVLQFHUHO\ZLVKHVIRUKHU
WRUHDFKDQRUJDVP$QGLWߞVQRWZLVKIXOWKLQNLQJKHGRHVHYHU\WKLQJWRPDNH
VXUHWKHSURVWLWXWHFXPV
6RPHRQHRQFHWROGWKHPWKDWSURVWLWXWHVGRQߞWFXPDQGWKHUHDOL]DWLRQRIWKDW
KDV WXUQHG WKHLU XQGHUVWDQGLQJ RI WKH ZRUOG DQG HVSHFLDOO\ VH[ XSVLGH GRZQ
$QG QRZ WKH\ DUH IXFNLQJ HYHU\ ZRPDQ WKH\ PHHW WR D IUHDNLQJ RUJDVP
EHFDXVH WKHLU VHOIߙHVWHHP SUREDEO\ FUDYHV IRU D SURVWLWXWH WR FXP RU HOVH WKH\
FDQߞWVOHHSSHDFHIXOO\
<HV
2QH VXFK FOLHQW MXVW OHIW P\ SODFH $QG , DP VLWWLQJ WKHUH FURVVߙH\HV OHJV
VSUHDGWU\LQJWRRYHUFRPHVWUHVV
1RWKLQJ DV WKH VD\LQJ JRHV JDYH D VLJQ RI WURXEOH $ YHU\ RUGLQDU\ PDQ
YLVLWHGߙRQHRIWKRVHWKDWGRQߞWPDNH\RXWXUQEDFNWZLFHDIWHUDVOLJKWJODQFH
RQWKHVWUHHWKHXQGUHVVHGWRRNDVKRZHUDQGFDPHWREHG
:H SXW WKH FRQGRP RQ DQG VWDUWHG IXFNLQJ +H IXFNHG PH IRU DERXW WHQ
PLQXWHVDQG,WKRXJKWWKDWߞVLWKHLVUHDG\WRFXP$QGVRKHVWRSVORRNVPHLQ
WKHH\HYHU\WKRURXJKO\DQGJDYHRXWDVDFUHGSKUDVH,ZDQW\RXWRFXPߨ
'DPQLWߞVVWDUWLQJ
,QWKUHHPLQXWHV,IDNHGDQRUJDVPIRUKLP
+H EHDPHG DQG SXUUHG VRPHWKLQJ OLNH WKDWߞV LW VR JRRG ߙ DQG ZHQW RQ
IXFNLQJPHVWRSSLQJHYHU\RWKHUPLQXWHWRUHIUDLQIURPFXPPLQJ 8JKKRZ,
KDWHWKDW
,Q DIWHU  PLQXWHV , UHDOL]HG LWߞV WLPH WR IDNH WKH VHFRQG RQH RU HOVH KH
ZRXOGQߞWFDOPGRZQDQGSXOOHGDQRUJDVPLFVSDVP
7KHJX\OLWXSEXWDSSDUHQWO\KDGQRLQWHQWLRQRIFXPPLQJ0RUHSUHFLVHO\
KHZDVGHILQLWHO\QRWJRLQJWRFXP+HVWRSSHGHYHU\PLQXWHDQG,FRXOGVHHD
VWURQJXUJHWRUHIUDLQIURPFXPPLQJ
7KDWߞVLWDWOHDVW,VKRXOGKDYHIXQ
,VWDUWHGWRWKLQNWKDW,KDGUXQRXWRIFXFXPEHUVDQGWRPDWRHVDQGWKHUHZDV
QRWKLQJOHIWWRPDNHDVDODGIRUGLQQHUDQG,VKRXOGJRWRWKHVWRUH
,IDNHGWKHWKLUGRQH
0\WKLUGRUJDVPXVXDOO\PDNHVDQ\RQHFXP
-XVWQRWWKLVWHUURULVW
+HIXFNHGPHLQHYHU\SRVLWLRQ
+H IXFNHG PH RQ DOO IRXUV VLGHZD\V DQG RQ WRS KH SXOOHG P\ EUHDVW
REYLRXVO\WKLVGHSLFWHGUHILQHGDIIHFWLRQ DQGDVNHGHYHU\KDOIPLQXWH'R\RX
OLNHWKLV"ߙ$QGVDLG&RPHRQJLUO\HV\HVFXP&RPHRQ
,SUHWHQGHGWREHKDYLQJDQLQFUHGLEOHWLPH
+DOIDQKRXUODWHU,KLQWHGWRKLPWKDW,KDGDOUHDG\FXPWKUHHWLPHVDQGWKDW
LIDOORIWKLVLVKDSSLQHVVIRUPHLWLVQRORQJHUQHFHVVDU\DQGLW
VDJRRGWLPHIRU
KLPWRFXPKLPVHOIDQGVPRNH
$QGKHWROGPH7KDWߞVVWLOOWKUHH2QHRI\RXUFROOHDJXHVFDPHWLPHVZLWK
PHUHFHQWO\,NQRZ\RXZDQWLWVRPXFKߨ
&ROOHDJXH<RXDUHDELWFKLI\RXDUHUHDGLQJWKLV
:K\ZK\GLG\RXQRWIDNHRQO\IRUKLP"
:K\VL["
+LVRXWORRNZDVWRUQWRVKUHGV+HZLOOQRZIXFNHYHU\RQHWRWKHLUGHDWK
7KHERWWRPOLQHLVKHGLGQߞWJHWRIIRIPHXQWLO,JDYHKLPVL[RUJDVPV
$IWHU WKH VHYHQWK RQH D ERQXV KH DOORZHG KLPVHOI WR FXP DQG NHSW DVNLQJ
6RGLG\RXOLNHLW"6HH\RXDUHSUREDEO\QRWIXFNHGWKLVJRRGDVRIWHQ,WKLQN
RIWKHZRPDQߞVQHHGVILUVW
:KDWDKXPDQLWDULDQGDPQLW
,FORVHGWKHGRRUDIWHUKLPZLWKDKXJHVHQVHRIUHOLHI6RPHZKHUHGHHSLQP\
PLQG,KDGDQLGHDWKDWDZRRGHQVWDNHSLHUFHGLQWRKLVEDFNZRXOGVHUYHKLPDV
DJUHDWJRRGE\H
+HOHIWVDWLVILHGOLNHDQHOHSKDQWDQGSURPLVHGWRFRPHDJDLQ
,NQRZIRUVXUHߙ,ZLOOQRWEHKRPHIRUKLP


2SHUDVLQJHU


,WVWDUWHGZLWKRXWDQ\SUHOXGH
ߙ'R\RXNQRZZKDWNLQGRIDSHUVRQKDVYLVLWHG\RX(PLO\"
$QGORRNHGDWPHSURXGO\GHPRQVWUDWLQJKLVIDFHDQGWKHQKLVSURILOH
,ZDWFKHGKLVIDFHGLGQRWORRNIDPLOLDUWRPH
)DLUO\FKXEE\IRUW\ߙILYHHHULHORRNLQJZLWKUHGKDLUSHUIHFWO\ZKLWHVNLQDQG
VLPLODUO\ZKLWHH\HEURZVDQGH\HODVKHVOLNHDQDOELQRDQGPRVWLPSRUWDQWO\ߙ
ZLWKDZDOOߙH\H,WKRXJKWWRP\VHOIWKDW$]D]HOORKDGQRWKLQJRQKLPDQGWKDWLI
QRW IRU WKH PRQH\ , ZRXOG KDYH GRQH QRWKLQJ EXW RXW ORXG RI FRXUVH , VDLG
VRPHWKLQJTXLWHGLIIHUHQW
,OHDQHGDJDLQVWWKHGRRUSRVWSRUWUD\HGDUHDOLQWHUHVWDQGDVNHGZLWKRXWDQ\
VLJQRIDEVXUGLW\
ߙ$QGZKDWNLQGRIDSHUVRQDUH\RX"
ߙ1RWRULRXVߙKHVDLGLQDVLJQLILFDQWZD\$QGRQFHDJDLQKHGHPRQVWUDWHG
KLVSURILOHWRPH
,VWRRGDQGVPLOHGLQVLOHQFHDQG,VKRXOGKDYHSUREDEO\VDLGVRPHWKLQJEXW
KRQHVWO\,FRXOGQRWILJXUHRXWZKDWWRVD\
+HZDVREYLRXVO\ZDLWLQJIRUP\UHDFWLRQ7KHVLOHQFHZDVTXLWHORQJ7REH
KRQHVW,VWUXJJOHGWRUHPHPEHUZKHUH,FRXOGKDYHVHHQKLPߙZKDWLIKHLVD
ZHOOߙNQRZQ03RUVD\DQDFWRU"%XWDODV+HZDVGHILQLWHO\DVWUDQJHUWRPH
ߙ1Rߙ,VDLGߙ,GRQߞWNQRZ\RX
+H ZDV XSVHW IRU D VHFRQG SUHWHQGHG WR EH RIIHQGHG EXW TXLFNO\ SXOOHG
KLPVHOIWRJHWKHU$SSDUHQWO\KLVRZQJUHDWQHVVGLGQRWDOORZKLPWRWDNHRIIHQVH
IURPDQRQHQWLW\OLNHPHIRUWRRORQJ
ߙ ,ߙKHVDLGDVLIWDONLQJWRDVLOO\VFKRROJLUOWKHQKHSDXVHGFOHDUO\OHWWLQJ
PHIHHOP\RZQLQVLJQLILFDQFHߙDQGVR,DPD*UHDW2SHUD6LQJHU
,FDQߞWWHOOWKHGHJUHHRIKLVQRWRULHW\DV,KDGQHYHUEHHQWRRSHUDEHIRUH$W
WKHWLPHWKH3KLOKDUPRQLFDQG%DOOHWZHUHHQRXJKIRUPH
,GRQRWXQGHUVWDQGRSHUDߙIRUPHWKLVLVXWWHUERUHGRP:KHWKHU,KDYHQR
KHDULQJRUEUDLQV,KDYHQRWILJXUHGRXW\HW
$QG DV , ZDV JHWWLQJ RXW D FOHDQ WRZHO DOO WKH ZKLOH UHIOHFWLQJ RQ P\
VLJQLILFDQFHKHEHJDQWRVLQJ
+LVKRZOPDGHP\MXPS,WZDVTXLWHXQH[SHFWHG
, IUR]H ZLWK WRZHOV LQ P\ KDQGV DQG LW RFFXUUHG WR PH VXGGHQO\ WKDW WKH
QHLJKERUVPXVWKDYHDOUHDG\FDOOHGWKHSROLFH
ߙ6KKKߙ,ZDYHGP\KDQGVDQGVKRYHGWKHRSHUDVLQJHULQWRWKHVKRZHU
+H ZDV WKHUH IRU D ORQJ WLPH DQG ZDVQߞW MXVW VKRZHULQJ KH ZDV VLQJLQJ
$SSDUHQWO\KHKDGGHFLGHGWRDWWDFKPHWRWKHRSHUDIURPLQVLGHWKHEDWKURRP
)LYHPLQXWHVODWHU,NQRFNHGRQWKHGRRU7KHUHLVHVSHFLDOO\JRRGDXGLELOLW\
LQP\EDWKURRPDQGJLYLQJWKHQHLJKERUVDQH[FHOOHQWVKRZDIWHUHOHYHQDWQLJKW
GLGQߞWVHHPWRPHOLNHDJRRGLGHD
+H FDPH RXW WHQ PLQXWHV ODWHU DQG ZDV FRPSOHWHO\ QDNHG +PPPߨRQ KLV
HUHFW SHQLV GDQJOHG WKH WRZHO ZKLFK KH FDUHIXOO\ NHSW LQ KLV KDQGV WR SUHYHQW
IURPVOLSSLQJ
0DQLDFVFKL]RSKUHQLF,VDGO\WKRXJKW
,NQHZZKDWZRXOGKDSSHQQH[W,KDYHH[SHULHQFH1RUPDOO\KHVKRXOGKDYH
WKURZQDZD\KLVWRZHODQGSURXGO\VKRZQPHKLVUDWKHUVKRUWGLJQLW\7KHIDFW
WKDWLWZRXOGQߞWEHORQJ,QHYHUIRUDPRPHQWGRXEWHG0HQZLWKVXFKSK\VLTXH
DOPRVWQHYHUKDYHJRRGRQHV
, JXHVVHG RQ DOO FRXQWV /LNH D FLUFXV PDJLFLDQ ZRXOG SXOO RI D PXOWLFRORU
VFDUI IURP WKH KDW ZLWK UDEELWV KH SXOOHG RII KLV WRZHO DQG UHYHDOHG LQGHHG
TXLWHDVPDOOGLJQLW\
:HOOWKHQ,OLVWHQHGWRDORQJDQGSODLQWLYHPRQRORJXHDERXWWKHSURXGEXW
ORQHO\VQDNHZKRFUDYHVDZRPDQ
VDIIHFWLRQDQG\HWLQWKHHQGRIWKHWLUDGH,
EDUHO\ UHVWUDLQHG VR DV QRW WR QHLJK RXW ORXG ZKHQ KH KLJKOLJKWLQJ HDFK ZRUG
WROG PH WKDW KLV VQDNH ZDV JRRG IRU HYHU\RQH EXW XQIRUWXQDWHO\ IDWH KDG
GHSULYHGKLPRILWVVL]H
1H[WLWZDVDUHDOKRUURU+HVWRPSHGRQPHIRUIRUW\PLQXWHV7HQPLQXWHV
DIWHU KH VWDUWHG , UHDOL]HG KH SXUSRVHO\ GRHV QRW FXP WKH EDVWDUG ,Q WKRVH
PRPHQWVZKHQWKHILQDOZDVFORVHKHVWRSSHGDQGVWDUWHGWRUHWHOOPHGLIIHUHQW
OLEUHWWRLQDGLGDFWLFWRQHZLWKRXWERWKHULQJWRJHWRIIRIPH
6ZHDWZDVGULSSLQJRIIRIKLP\HWKHUHPDLQHGXQGDXQWHG
$QG MXVW UHDOL]LQJ WKDW WKH KRXU FRPHV WR DQ HQG DQG , ZDV FORVH WR JRLQJ
FUD]\KHVWRSSHGWRWKLQNDERXWWKHHWHUQDOIRUVRPHUHDVRQMXPSHGRXWRIPH
UROOHG RQ KLV VLGH DEUXSWO\ SXOOHG D FRQGRP  DQG SRZHUIXOO\ VPHDUHG P\
EUHDVW
,ZHQWPDG+HZDVVLQJLQJ

7KH2OG0DQ



,KDYHRQHSHUPDQHQWFOLHQWߙ*UDQGSD$UQROG+HLVRQHRIWKHIHZZKRYLVLW
PHEHLQJLQVXFKDUHVSHFWDEOHDJH8VXDOO\KHULQJVWKHGRRUEHOOLQWKUHHVKRUW
FDOOVDQGRQHORQJFDOO+HFDPHXSZLWKVXFKDFXQQLQJPHWKRGKLPVHOI$QGKH
LVLQFUHGLEO\SURXGRILW
$OVR *UDQGSD $UQROG QHYHU FRPHV HPSW\ KDQGHG 7KHUH LV DOZD\V D
FKRFRODWHDQGDFORYHLQKLVKDQGV
*UDQGSD$UQROGLVRYHUVHYHQW\\HDUVROG0RUHSUHFLVHO\,ZRXOGHYHQVD\
KH LV FORVH WR HLJKW\ $QG KH KDV EHHQ LPSRWHQW IRU TXLWH D ORQJ WLPH QRZ +H
PHWKRGLFDOO\RYHUDQGRYHUDJDLQWULHVWRVHWXSKLVWRRORQDFRPEDWIRRWLQJ
1HHGOHVVWRVD\LW
VXVHOHVV
$Q\ZD\KLVDUULYDOߨ
+H DOZD\V FRPHV LQ ZLWK D VO\ VPLOH 8QODFLQJ KLV OHDWKHU VKRHV KH ZHDUV
WKHPDQ\WLPHRIWKH\HDU KHUDLVHVKLVKHDGDWPHDQGSXOOVRXWDVPDOOSLHFH
RIFKRFRODWHRXWRIKLVSRFNHWZKLFKVRPHKRZDOZD\VWXUQVRXWWREHH[SLUHG
,WUHPDLQVDP\VWHU\ZKHUHKHILQGVWKRVH%XWVRPHWKLQJWHOOVPHWKDWKHKDVD
ER[IXOORIWKHVHJRRGLHVO\LQJVRPHZKHUHLQKLVKRPH
*UDQGSD$UQROGXQGUHVVHVDQGOLHVGRZQRQWKHEHG,ߞGOLNHWRQRWHWKDWLQKLV
HLJKWLHV KH ORRNHG OLNH D KXQGUHGߙ\HDUߙROG PDQ VKRUW GHFD\LQJ ZLWK WKLFN
ZKLWHKDLUDQGIDFHߙOLQNLQJZULQNOHV
+HOLHVRQWKHEHGOHJVZLGHDSDUWIRUVRPHUHDVRQDQGLQYLWLQJO\ORRNVDWPH
:KDWKHLQYLWHVPHWR,RIFRXUVHDOUHDG\NQRZ*UDQGSD$UQROGZDQWVPHWR
WDNHKLVVKULYHOHGSRGLQP\PRXWKDQGVXFNLWZKLOHJLYLQJKLPDODQJXLGORRN
(YHU\WLPH,WDNHLQP\PRXWK*UDQGSD$UQROGߞVGLFN,IHHODVLI,VWXIIHGP\
PRXWKZLWKGULHGDSULFRWVZLWKKRSHVWKDWLWZLOOWXUQLQWRDQDSULFRWE\WKHEHFN
RIWKHPDJLFVWLFN
,WGRHVQRW
7KHVHFRQGVWDJHRIRXUPHHWLQJLVXVXDOO\VL[W\ߙQLQHDSRVHWKDWKDVEHFRPH
VRSRSXODUGXULQJWKHUHFHQW\HDUV,FRQWLQXHWRVXFNGULHGDSULFRWVDQGLQWKH
PHDQWLPHKHZDWFKHVDYHU\LQWHUHVWLQJVLJKWSHULRGLFDOO\GHOYLQJLQWKHUHZLWK
KLVILQJHUV
$QGEHVLGHVKHKDVDFXWHKDELW ZKLFKKRZHYHUWHUULEO\LUULWDWHVPH $IWHU
*UDQGSD$UQROGRQFHDJDLQUHDOL]HVWKDWRXUORYHPDNLQJZRQߞWEHDVXFFHVVDQG
WRILOOXSWKHUHPDLQLQJWLPHZLWKVRPHWKLQJKHSXWVPHRQP\EDFNDQGSRNLQJ
DURXQG WKH GHSWKV RI WKH SODFH ZKHUH KH DODV ZRQߞW JHW LQWR DVNV JHQWO\
OLVSLQJ:KROLYHVWKHUH"
,WZRXOGEHIXQQ\LIDQHFKRDQVZHUHGKLPRQFHIURPWKHGHSWKV:KRHOVH"
<RXU\RXWK
*UDQGSD$UQROG KDQJV RXW DWP\ SODFH IRU D IHZ KRXUV DQGRQWKHVH GD\V ,
XVXDOO\VWRSUHFHLYLQJDQ\PRUHFOLHQWV7KLVJX\VXFNVDOOWKHHQHUJ\RXWRIPH
,WߞVOLNHEDQJLQJ\RXUKHDGDJDLQVWDFRQFUHWHZDOOߙ\RXFDQߞWEUHDNWKURXJKLW
DQGZLOOVWLOOHDUQDOXPS
, ZRQGHU VRPHWLPHV WKDW DW VXFK D UHVSHFWDEOH DJH LWߞV WLPH WR VWRS EHLQJ D
OXVWIXOPDOHDQGGRRWKHUWKLQJVߙZULWHPHPRLUVHGXFDWHJUDQGFKLOGUHQ%XWQR
+HVWLOOFRQWLQXHV7KHUHLVQRIRROOLNHDQROGIRRO

7KH3OD\HU

7KHUHLVWKLVFOLHQWߨ
+P1RQRWOLNHWKLVߨ
,KDYHPDQ\FOLHQWVEXWWKHUHLVRQHDELWGLIIHULQJIURPRWKHUV
$ SOD\HU LQ VKRUW $Q H[SHULHQFHG RQH ([FLWHPHQW UXVKLQJ IURP DOO WKH
FUDFNV
7KHJX\LVXQGHUILIW\$VROLGNLQGRISHUVRQ$FWXDOO\PDQ\VROLGPHQFRPH
DFURVVWRPH8QGLJQLILHGRQHVKDSSHQOHVVRIWHQ
6RߨZKDWZDV,VD\LQJ"
2K\HV6RVROLG,QDJUH\VXLWDQGFDUULHVDEULHIFDVH+HFDUULHVDOONLQGVRI
SDSHUV,PSRUWDQWRQHV+LVYLVLWVDUHXVXDOO\TXLWHORQJ+HERRNVPHIRUKDOID
GD\IRUVXUH$QGSD\VIRULWDFFRUGLQJO\
7KHUHߞV D ZRQGHUIXO SHQGDQW KDQJLQJ DURXQG KLV QHFN *ROGHQ DQG ZLWK
FRORUIXOSHEEOHVߙZLWKDEHDVWLH+XJH,KDYHQHYHUVHHQVXFKMHZHOU\RQPHQ
%HIRUHKLP
6R KH GHILQLWHO\ GLGQߞW FRPH KHUH WR SOD\ GRPLQRV $QG KH GLGQߞW EULQJ D
VOLQJVKRWZLWKKLP
+LVVHWLVYHU\FXWH6XLWFDVH,ZRXOGVD\0HGLFDO:KLWH
7KHJX\OLNHVWRSOD\GRFWRU$SSDUHQWO\KHGLGQߞWKDYHHQRXJKSOD\WLPHLQ
KLVFKLOGKRRG
+HFRPHVXQGUHVVHVDQGKRSVLQWKHVKRZHUߙDVWDQGDUGSURJUDP
$QG WKHQ LW EHJLQV 0\ IDYRULWH RI KLV DWWULEXWHV ߙ EDWKUREH DOZD\V QHZ
VWDUFKHG$QGPHGLFDOJORYHV
+HWDNHVRIIWKHWRZHODQGSXWVRQKLVUREHGLUHFWO\RQWKHQDNHGERG\7KHQ
WKHJORYHVDQGZHDUHUHDG\
+H DVNV PH WR UHPDLQ LQ P\ VNLUW KH GRHVQߞW QHHG PH QDNHG \RX VHH 1R
LQGHFHQF\:KHUHKDYH\RXVHHQDFOLHQWUHPRYHDOOKHUFORWKHVGXULQJDGRFWRUߞV
YLVLW"1R,QQRFDVH2QO\FRZDUGV
7KHQ KH SXVKHV PH RXW LQ WKH KDOO FORVHV WKH GRRU DQG DIWHU ߙ PLQXWHV ,
NQRFN
ߙ&RPHߙKHVD\VFRQGHVFHQGLQJO\
ߙ+HOORGRFWRUߙ,SODLQWLYHO\PRDQߙFDQ,FRPHLQ"
+HUDLVHVKLVJODVVHV ZKLFKLQFLGHQWDOO\DUHRQO\DWWULEXWHV DQGVPLOHVZLWK
DSUHGDWRU\VPLOHRIDWLJHU
)LUVW KH SUHWHQGV WR EH D PDPPRORJLVW 7KH GRFWRU DSSDUHQWO\ ORYHV WKH
V\VWHP RI WKUHHߙLQߙRQH 6KDPSRRߙFRQGLWLRQHUߙVKRZHU JHO 0DPPRORJLVWߙ
J\QHFRORJLVWߙSURFWRORJLVW
)LUVWWKLVFXWHH[HFXWRUEHJLQVWRNQHDGP\EUHDVWIHHOLQJDQGVTXHH]LQJLWLQ
DOO SRVVLEOH DQG LPSRVVLEOH ZD\V +H PDNHV LW VHHP OLNH KH VHHV WKHP IRU WKH
ILUVWWLPHDQGVRPHWLPHVLWHYHQIHHOVSOHDVDQW
7KHQKHJHWVERUHGZLWKWKHDSSHWL]HUDQGZHJHWWRVQDFNV
,VLWRQWKHLPSURYLVHGDUPFKDLUVK\O\UDLVHP\VNLUWDQGWKHFLUFXVEHJLQV
+HEHJLQVWRPXWWHUVRPHWKLQJXQLQWHOOLJLEOHXQGHUKLVEUHDWKWKHQLQWHUUXSWV
KLPVHOIZLWKDFRPSOHWHO\GLVWLQFWSKUDVH6RZKDWKDYHZHJRW"
,QWKHVHPRPHQWVLWEHFRPHVLQWHUHVWLQJHYHQIRUPHWRVHHZKDWFXULRXVWKLQJ
KHKDVIRXQG(YHU\WLPHLVOLNHWKHILUVWWLPH,VZHDU
+HJHQWO\UXEVP\FOLWZLWKKLVILQJHUV QRWTXLWHJ\QHFRORJLFDOWKLQJWRGR,
WKLQN WKHQVQHDNVGHHSHUDQGKHUHFRPHVWKHWLPHIRUWKHVXLWFDVH$PHGLFDO
GLODWRUFRPHVRXWRILW
+HSXWVLWLQVLGHPHDQGFRQWLQXLQJWRPXWWHUFXULRXVO\H[DPLQHVWKHKLGGHQ
WUHDVXUHVRIP\YDJLQD
'XULQJ WKHVHPRPHQWV, ZDQWWR IDOO DVOHHS DV WKH H[DPLQDWLRQ WDNHV TXLWH D
ORQJWLPHDVLIKHLVWU\LQJWRUHPHPEHUHYHU\SLHFHRIP\HQWUDLOVVRWKDQKH
FDQSRUWUD\LWRQDFDQYDVZLWKSKRWRJUDSKLFSUHFLVLRQ
+DYLQJ VHHQ HQRXJK KH JHWV XS DQG VWDUWV SDFLQJ EDFN DQG IRUWK KLV GLFN
VZHOOLQJIURPXQGHUWKHZKLWHVWDUFKHGPDWHULDOWU\LQJWREUHDNRXW
,Q WKH HQG WKDWߞV ZKDW KDSSHQV (MDFXODWLRQ VWDUWV ZLWKRXW KLP WRXFKLQJ
KLPVHOIZLWKKLVKDQGV
:HOODQGLQFRQFOXVLRQWKHPRVWH[FLWLQJPRPHQWIRUPHVWDUWV
7KH JX\ FKDQJHV WKH JORYHV SXWV PH RQ DOO IRXUV DQG VWDUWV GRLQJ YDULRXV
PDQLSXODWLRQVZLWKP\PRVWHURJHQRXV]RQHP\DVV
,QWKHILUVWPLQXWHVRIKLVPRYHPHQWV,XVXDOO\FXPDQG,GRQߞWJLYHDIXFNIRU
HYHU\WKLQJWKDWKDSSHQVQH[W
+HOHDYHVVDWLVILHGZLWKDELJVPLOHRQKLVIDFHMXVWOLNHDVWXGHQWZLWKJRRG
JUDGHV
2QO\DIWHUKLPWKHIORRUQHHGVFOHDQLQJDVKHVSLOOVHYHU\WKLQJWKDWLVSRVVLEOH
RULPSRVVLEOH
2K GLG , IRUJHW" +H FXPV LQ DOPRVW HYHU\ SKDVH RI RXU IXQ JDPH ZKHQ KH
ZDWFKHVVRPHWKLQJLQVLGHPHRUZKHQKHUXQVKLVILQJHUVDFURVVP\DVVߨ
6XFKDJRRGJX\6RXOIXO1RWDQJU\QRWDVDGLVW


'R\RXNQRZEXVLQHVV"


ߙ'R\RXNQRZKRZEXVLQHVVLVGRQH(PLO\"ߙ$OH[DVNHG
,WZDV$OH[ߞVILUVWWLPHDWP\SODFH+HVDWRQWKHFRXFKLQLQVDQHO\H[SHQVLYH
MHDQVDQGRQHVRFN
+HZDVGUXQN:HOOFOHDUߙKHDGHGRIFRXUVHEXWKHKDGKDGFRXSOHRIVKRWV
EHIRUHFRPLQJWRP\SODFH
$QGDIWHUZHILQLVKHGDQGKHUHOD[HG$OH[SXOOHGXSWKHMHDQVWKHQRQHVRFN
DQG WKHQ UHPHPEHUHG WKDW KH KDG SDLG IRU WKH QLJKW DQG VDW EDFN GRZQ RQ WKH
VRID
,QKLVKDQGVZDVDERWWOHRIEODFNUXPIURPP\SHUVRQDOVWRFNVDQGKHDVNHG
DJDLQ
ߙ6RGR\RXNQRZKRZEXVLQHVVLVGRQH"
,ZDVREVHUYLQJP\YHU\QHZFOLHQW
+HZDVQRWROGEXWLWZDVGLIILFXOWWRLGHQWLI\KLVWUXHDJH
3HUKDSV WKLUW\SHUKDSVIRUW\ +H KDG DQ LPSUHVVLYHPXVFOH PDVVZKLFKKDG
GHQVHO\RYHUJURZQLQWRIDWDORQJWLPHDJR,PHDQKHZDVQRWMXVWIDWQR+H
ZDV D IRUPHU DWKOHWH ZKR KDG JDLQHG D ORW RI ZHLJKW RQH RI WKRVH ZKR KDYH
VWURQJVWXUG\KDQGVDQGDKXJHVQXJEHOO\2QHFRXOGLPDJLQHWKDWLQ\HDUVJRQH
$OH[KDGKDGDSHUIHFWERG\DFFRUGLQJWRPDOHVWDQGDUGVDQGWKHUHPXVWKDYH
EHHQDSDFNRIZRPHQKDQJLQJDURXQGKLPEDFNWKHQ
ߙ1RSH,GRQߞWNQRZߙ,DQVZHUHGSKOHJPDWLFDOO\
ߙ%XVLQHVVLVGLIILFXOWWRGR&RPSHWLWLRQLVKXJHNLFNEDFNVEULEHVLWZRQߞW
ZRUNHDVLO\<RXQHHGWRKDYHJRRGEUDLQVDQGJRRGORRNV
$OH[WKRXJKWKHZDVJRRGORRNLQJ<HDKPD\EHKHRQFHZDV
ߙ,ZLOOQRZWHOO\RXߙKHWRRNDQRWKHUJXOSRIUXPIURPWKHERWWOHKHFOHDUO\
QHHGHG WR WDON ߙWHQ \HDUV DJR ZKHQ , ZDV TXLWH \RXQJ , XQGHUVWRRG WKDW
UXWKOHVV FRPSHWLWLRQ ZRXOG KDUP RXU VPDOO DGYHUWLVLQJ DJHQF\ $QG WKHQ ,
XQGHUVWRRG D YHU\ VLPSOH WKLQJ ZKR PDQDJHV EXGJHWV LQ WKH PDMRULW\ RI
FRPSDQLHV" 7KDWߞV ULJKW FKLFNV $QG WKHVH FKLFNV GHFLGH ZKHUH WR VSHQG WZR
WHQRUWKLUW\PLOOLRQV$QGEHLQJ\RXQJ,WKHQGHFLGHGWKDWWKHVHEXGJHWVVKRXOG
EHKHDGLQJLQWRP\SRFNHW<RXJHWLWULJKW"
,FRXOGQRWXQGHUVWDQG\HW
ߙ, WKRXJKW VR \RX GRQߞW FDWFK XS ߙ KH VPLOHG DQG ORRNHG DW PH RYHUO\
DWWHQWLYHO\ ߙVR DERXW FKLFNVߨ,WߞV DOO D PDWWHU RI WHFKQLFV <RX RIIHU \RXU
VHUYLFHVDUULYHIRUPHHWLQJVLQH[SHQVLYHVXLWVDQGLIWKHFKLFNLVQRWTXLWHROG
DQG QRW WRR XJO\ \RX IOLUW ZLWK KHU $QG FKLFNV DUH VWXSLG (PLO\ 7KH\ GRQߞW
FDUHZKDWSULFHV,RIIHURUWKH\VWDUWWRLJQRUHRXUUDWLQJ7KHFKLFNZDQWVWRVHH
PHRQHPRUHWLPHDQGVKHLVORRNLQJIRUDUHDVRQ$QGZKDWEHWWHUUHDVRQVFRXOG
WKHUHEHWKDQFRRSHUDWLRQ"$QG,VWDUWIXFNLQJWKHFKLFN6KHEHFRPHVVRIWDQG
SOLDEOH , SXW WKH SULFHV DW RKRߙKR LPSRVH QHZ VHUYLFHV ߙ VKH DJUHHV WR
HYHU\WKLQJ$QGDVPLWWHQFKLFNLVDVO\FKLFNߙVKHNQRZVKRZWRPDNHSUHVVXUH
RQWKHGLUHFWRURIWKH&RPSDQ\DQGKRZWRH[SODLQWKRVHSULFHV$QGWKDWߞVLW,
EX\P\VHOIDQHZFDUP\IHWLVKߙVSRUWV%0:DQGWKHFKLFNJRHVWRKHOO7KHQD
QHZ RUGHU QHZ FKLFN DQG HYHU\WKLQJ JRHV DURXQG WKH FLUFOH <RX XQGHUVWDQG
KRZWRGREXVLQHVV"
, GRQߞW NQRZ ZK\ KH WROG PH WKH ZKROH WKLQJ , DP IDU IURP EXVLQHVV DQG
PLOOLRQV EXW LWߞV REYLRXV WKDW LQ WKDW PRPHQW KH IHOW OLNH D VRXO UXOHU LGHDO
FLQHPDWLFYLOODLQDQGZDQWHGWR\HWDJDLQH[SHULHQFHWKLVIHHOLQJLQVLGHߙKLVRZQ
VLJQLILFDQFH
,IHOWXQFRPIRUWDEOH,VKLYHUHG7KHQ,JRWXSDQGRSHQHGWKHZLQGRZ+HKDG
VXFKDYLOHHQHUJ\WKDW,QHHGHGDLU
ߙ, HYHQ KDG WR PDUU\ RQH RI WKRVH ߙ KH FRQWLQXHG REYLRXVO\ QRWLFLQJ P\
VLWXDWLRQ DQG GHFLGLQJ WR LPSRVH ߙ7KH RUGHU ZDV KXJH , KDG QR LQWHQWLRQ RI
ORVLQJ LW DQG VR , KDG QR RWKHU FKRLFH 2I FRXUVH WKH ELWFK ZRXOGQߞW JLYH PH
GLYRUFHIRUDORQJWLPHߨ$QGRQFH,IRXQGDEHDXWLIXOFKLFNLWZDVFOHDUWKDW,
ZRXOGQߞWQHHG9LDJUDWRIXFNKHUJRRG$QGDVDOZD\V,EURXJKWKHUIORZHUV
WRRN KHUWRUHVWDXUDQWVVKH WULHGWRLQWURGXFHPH WR KHUSDUHQWV 7KH IXFN GR ,
QHHGKHUSDUHQWV"
+HVSDFHGRXWDQGVPRNHG
ߙ<RX JLUOV DUH VWXSLG \RX GRQߞW XQGHUVWDQG VLPSOH WKLQJV ߙ KH OHW RXW D
VPRNHߙ,ZHQWRQDYDFDWLRQZLWKKHUVSHQWDOOP\PRQH\RIFRXUVHߨLWZDV
DOO ZRUWK LW VR PXFK PRQH\ ZDV VSLQQLQJ WKHQߨ$QG WKHQ ZKHQ QRWKLQJ ZDV
OHIWWRPLONRXWRIKHU,ZHQWEDFN$QGWKHELWFKJRWSUHJQDQW*RWNQRFNHGXS
\RX LPDJLQH" 2Q SXUSRVH SUREDEO\ :HOO , OLQJHUHG D ELW VHUYHG KHU FDUURW
MXLFHERXJKWKHUDOONLQGVRIWKLQJVIRUSUHJQDQWZRPHQEXWFRXOGQRWGRLWDQ\
ORQJHU:K\ZRXOG,QHHGKHUZLWKDEHOO\":HOOWKHQ,GHFLGHGLWZDVWLPHWR
JHWRXW6KHFDOOHGPHZURWHORRNHGIRUPHߙWKHELWFKZRXOGQߞWOHWPHOLYHLQ
SHDFH$VDUHVXOW,KDGWROXFLGO\H[SODLQWRKHUWKDWORYHLVJRQHDQGVKHFDQ
NHHSWKHEDE\1RZ,VHQWKHUWLSVHYHU\PRQWK
7KDWߞVZKDWKHVDLGߙlWLSV{$QGODXJKHGDWKLVRZQZLW
7KHQKHUHDFKHGRXWWRPHWKUHZKLPVHOIRQWKHEHGDQGDVNHG
ߙ:K\DUH\RXORRNLQJDWPHOLNHWKDW"<RXDUHQRWRQHRIWKHPDUH\RX"<RX
WRR GRQߞW JLYH D IXFN DERXW KXPDQV GR \RX" $OO \RX QHHG LV PRQH\ PRQH\
PRQH\ߨ:KDWZLOO\RXVD\"ߙ+HVTXHH]HGP\EUHDVWLQDKXUWIXOZD\
,ZDQWHGWRVD\QRLWߞVQRWWKDWZD\EXWZDVLWUHDOO\ZRUWKLWWRVD\DQ\WKLQJ
WRKLP"
$QG,UHPDLQHGVLOHQW+HORRNHGPHLQWKHH\HVDQGQRGGHGVDWLVILHG
,FRXOGQߞWZDLWIRUWKHPRUQLQJWRFRPHDQGDVNHGKLPWROHDYHDURXQGQLQH
+HFDOOHGPHLQWZRZHHNV,WROGKLP,ZDVEXV\

+RZ%LOOORRNHGIRUDZLIH

%LOO\ZDVDVNLQQ\PDQZLWKKDELWVRIDPDWXUHFDW
+HLVDQROGFOLHQWDQGWKHUHDUHWZRUHDVRQVIRUWKLV
2QHLVWKDW,JLYHLWWRKLPTXLWHLQH[SHQVLYHO\ߙKHRQFHEDUJDLQHGDWWKHWLPH
RIP\ODFNRIPRQH\DQGLWKDVVLQFHEHFRPHDWUDGLWLRQDQGWKHVHFRQGߙKH
KDVFOHDUO\IRXQGIUHHHDUVRQP\IDFH
2UPD\EHKHMXVWOLNHVPH
%LOO\LVVOLJKWO\RYHUILIW\PHQRSDXVHDWLWVKLJKHVWOHYHO+HVHHVPHQWRR
$QGKHKDVDIL[HGLGHD+HVLQFHUHO\ZDQWVWRJHWPDUULHG
7RD\RXQJIHPDOHXQGHUWZHQW\ߙILYH
$QGIRUWKUHH\HDUVKHKDVEHHQDVNLQJPHWRILQGKLPDZLIH
2QFHKHHYHQVKRZHGPHDSDVVSRUWZLWKDVWDPSRIDGLYRUFHVRWKDW,KDG
VRPHWKLQJWRKDQGOHZKHQDGYHUWLVLQJWKHJLUOVRIVXFKDQHQYLDEOHJURRP
%LOO\ߞVVWRU\LVTXLWHVLPSOH
7KH JX\ JRW PDUULHG KDG WZR FKLOGUHQ &KLOGUHQ JUHZ XS KLV ZLIH ZDVQߞW
EHFRPLQJ DQ\ \RXQJHU DQG D GHPRQ VHWWOHG LQ WKH PDQ VXJJHVWLQJ WKDW OLIH LV
VKRUWZKDWWRGRZLWKLQVWLQFWV"
$QG%LOO\JRWDORYHUߙDODG\VOLJKWO\RYHUIRUW\
7KLV ODG\ ZRUNHG LQ WKH VDPH GHSDUWPHQW DQG DSSDUHQWO\ FUDYHG IHPDOH
KDSSLQHVVDQGDJUHHGWREHZLWK%LOO\DWOHDVW
+RZHYHU VKH GLG QRW ILQG KDSSLQHVV LQ KLV IDFH IRU VRRQ KHU QLHFH WKH
ORYHOLHVWQ\PSKZLWKDYRFDEXODU\RIWKLUW\ZRUGVDQGSOXPSOHJVFDPHIURPD
JRGIRUVDNHQYLOODJHLQWKHFLW\WREHDGPLWWHGWRFROOHJH
7KHQ\PSKZDVQRWDGPLWWHGWRWKHFROOHJHDQGRQWKLVRFFDVLRQKHUDXQWJRW
KHUVHWWOHGLQWKHVDPHIDFWRU\
$QG%LOO\VWDUWHGWRDFW
7KHVLHJHGLGQRWODVWORQJ,GRQߞWHYHQNQRZRIZKDWPLQGRULQVDQLW\RURI
SULGHWKDWDQDGXOWPDQORRNHGDQGDJLUOJDYHLQ
+HIXFNHGWKH\RXQJERG\IRUWKUHHFRPSOHWHWLPHV
'HVFULELQJWKRVHKDSS\PRPHQWV%LOO\PDGHZRQGHUIXOPRYHPHQWVLQWKHDLU
VKRZLQJKHUWLWVߙOLNHWKLVWKRVHOHJVߙOLNHWKLVDQGKHUDVVߙ\HDDK
7KHQWKH\RXQJZRPDQFDPHWRKHUVHQVHVDQGGHFLGHGWKDWVKHGLGQRWQHHG
%LOO\DQGUXVKHGRYHUWRD\RXQJHUPDQ
$QG%LOO\QDWXUDOO\ZHQWFUD]\:HOOKHRIFRXUVHGRHVQߞWIHHOLW%XW,FDQ
VHQVHLW
$QG %LOO\ EHJDQ WR VXIIHU +H KDG WDVWHG WKH GHOLJKWV RI UXUDO \RXQJ Q\PSK
DQGKHFRXOGQߞWOLYHOLNHKHGLGEHIRUH
7KHDIIDLUZLWKWKHODG\KDGUHVROYHGLWVHOIDQGWKHQKHUHDOL]HGWKDWKLVZLIH
LVQRWWRRVZHHW6R%LOO\ZDVOHIWZLWKRXWZRPHQ
%LOO\GHFLGHGWRJHWPDUULHGDJDLQߙWRD\RXQJZRPDQ
+HPDVWHUHGLQWHUQHWߙWKH\RXQJZRPHQVPLOHGRQSKRWRVLQYLWLQJO\H[SRVHG
WKHLU GHOLJKWV EXW PDUULDJH ZDV QRW VRPHWKLQJ WKH\ VRXJKW DIWHU :KDWߞV LQ D
PDUULDJH"$QGGDWHVWRR
%LOO\ORVWKHDUWDQGZHQWRQWKHWHUPVRIWKH\RXQJEXWQRWWKHIUHHIDLULHV
$QGWKHQKHIRXQGPH1RWWKDW,DP\RXQJKHMXVWJRWKRRNHG
,WߞV TXLWH HDV\ ZLWK %LOO\ 7KH PDLQ WKLQJ ZDV WR QRW GLVWXUE KLP ZKLOH KH
DGPLUHGPH
ߙ0LPLPL P\ WLWWLHV ߙ +H VPDFNHG JUDVSLQJ P\ EUHDVW ZLWK KLV SDZV
FDWFKLQJWKHVOLSSHU\QLSSOHZLWKKLVOLSV
ߙ2PߙQRPߙQRPߙQRPߙQRPP\EXQVߙKHKXPVNLVVLQJP\DVV
ߙ8KKKKߙVZLWFKLQJWRIDOVHWWRKHPRDQVUROOLQJKLVH\HV
ߙ$KKKKDDDDDDDߙ+HVKRXWVILULQJDQGUROOLQJDZD\WRWKHVLGH
7KHQKHFRPSODLQVWRPHDERXWOLIH
7KDWWKH\RXQJGRQߞWZDQWKLPDQGKHKDVQROXFNZLWKWKHPWKDWRQHZDV
ORRNLQJ DW KLP EXW KRZ FRXOG KH PDUU\ KHU ߙ VKH LV IRUW\ WKUHH :LWK
JUDQGFKLOGUHQ DQG WKHUH ZDV WKLV RWKHU RQH ߙ DZIXO DZIXO )RUW\ VHYHQ KH
FRXOGQߞWGRLW
ߙ(PLO\ߙKHWROGPHODWHUߙZHOOPD\EH\RXKDYHDIULHQGXQGHUWZHQW\ILYH
PD\EHVKHFDPHIURPVRPHZKHUHDQGKDVQRSODFHWROLYH,ZRXOGVKHOWHUKHU,
KDYHDQDSDUWPHQWDQG,ZRXOGIHHGKHUDQGZRXOGPDUU\KHU5HFRPPHQGPHWR
VRPHRQHRND\"2QO\VRPHRQHZLWKWLWVߙ$QG%LOO\SRVHVKLVSDZLQDKDQGIXO
DQGGHPRQVWUDWHVDWLW
,VROHPQO\VZHDUWKDWDVVRRQDVD\RXQJDQGFRQVRQDQWQ\PSKDSSHDUVLQP\
FLUFOHߙVKHZLOOLPPHGLDWHO\EHFRPHKLV
ߙ2K(PLO\ߙKHVD\VQH[WWLPHߙPD\EH\RXKDYHDJLUOWKDWZRUNVDVZHOO
EXWVKHLVIHGXSDQGZDQWVWRTXLW\RXNQRZ,KDYHDQDSDUWPHQW,ZLOOVKHOWHU
KHUߨDQGWHOOKHUWKDW,ZRQߞWUHPLQGKHURIKHUSDVW
,MXVWZDQWKHUWREH\RXQJDQGZLWKRXWVDJJ\WLWVOHWWKHPHYHQEHVPDOOEXW
WLJKWDQGWKDWKHUDVVEHߨOLNHߨߙDQGWKHUHDUHQRZWZRSDZVLQWKHDLU
2QFH%LOO\DVNHG
ߙ(PLO\\RXKDYHEHHQZRUNLQJIRUDORQJWLPHULJKW"
ߙ5LJKWߙ,QRGGHG
+HWRXFKHGP\WLWYDJXHO\DQGVDLG
ߙ+RQH\DUH\RXIHGXSZLWKZRUN"0D\EH\RXߞGOLNHWRTXLW"<RXNQRZ,
KDYHDQDSDUWPHQWDQG,ZRXOGPDUU\\RXߨ

7KH7HUURULVW

ߙ8XXKKRZ,ZLOOIXFN\RX+RZ,ZLOOIXFN\RX<RXZLOOEHFUDZOLQJߙKH
WKUHDWHQHGPHRQWKHSKRQH
ߙ&RPH KHUH EDE\ , ZDQW LW VR PXFK ߙ, FRRV VTXHH]LQJ WKH SKRQH LQ P\
VKRXOGHUDQGPL[LQJWKHERLOLQJPLONSRUULGJH
ߙ<RXߞOOOLNHLW,NQRZKRZWRIXFNߙ\RXZLOOEHUXQQLQJDIWHUPH
ߙ&RPHRQEDE\,DPZDLWLQJIRU\RX
$QG,SXWWKHSKRQHGRZQ
&OLHQWVOLNHKLPXVXDOO\QHYHUFRPH
'RRUEHOO , DP VXUSULVHG , JR RXW WR PHHW KLP DQG WKHUH KH LV ߙ SURXGO\
ORRNLQJGRZQRQPH
ߙ%DE\,
OOQRZVKRZ\RXKRZDZRPDQVKRXOGEHIXFNHG
+HJUDEVP\DVVZLWKGHOLJKWZLWKDOORIKLVILQJHUVDQG,MXPSLQVXUSULVH
ߙ<RXZDQWPH<RXZDQWPH,FDQVHHLWDKKP\VZHHWLH,ZLOOIXFN\RX
QRZLQVXFKDZD\WKDW\RXZLOOEHEHJJLQJIRUPHWRVWRS$UH\RXZHW"ߙ+H
SDVVLRQDWHO\ZKLVSHUVLQP\HDU
ߙ0PPPߙ,SXUUߙVXUHEDE\
+HKDQGVPHWKHPRQH\LQWKHKDOOZD\DQGEHIRUHKHFRXOGUHPRYHKLVFRDW
KHSOD\IXOO\SXVKHVPHRQWRWKHZDOO
ߙ&DQ\RXIHHOPH"&DQ\RXIHHOKRZELJLWLV"8KK,ZLOOQRZIXFN\RXOLNH
\RXKDYHQHYHUEHHQIXFNHGEHIRUH
6RPHWKLQJFOHDUO\PRYHVLQKLVSDQWV1RWOLNHLWߞVWRRELJ
ߙ%DE\ߙ,SOD\IXOO\PRDQߙJRWDNHDVKRZHU,ZLOOEHZDLWLQJIRU\RXRQWKH
EHG
ߙ$UH \RX UHDG\" ߙ +H \HOOHG FRPLQJ RXW RI WKH EDWKURRP ߙ<RX ZLOO QRZ
NQRZZKDWDJRRGIXFNLV
+HZDONHGLQWRWKHURRPQDNHGDQGZLWKKLVVZRUGUHDG\
ߙ0PPVRKDQGVRPHߨߙODQJXLGO\,VD\WDNLQJKLPLQP\KDQGDQGߨ
'DPQ,KDGMXVWFOHDQHGXSP\UXJ:KDWNLQGRISHRSOHDUHWKHVH
7KHKHURORYHULVVWDQGLQJWKHUHORRNLQJDWPHOLNHWKHFDWIURP6KUHNORRNVDW
PHDWWKHUXJDWPHDJDLQDQGVD\V
ߙ2Kߨ
2RRSV+HVSLOOHGLWDQGGLGQߞWPDNHLW
ߙ7KDWߞVRNEDE\ߙ,SXUUߙ,WKDSSHQV
'RQߞWODXJKGRQߞWODXJKߙ,ZLOOIXFN\RXIXFN\RX
ߙ<RXNQRZ,XPߨLWߨZHOOVRߨZHOOߨߙKHLVHPEDUUDVVHG
ߙ(YHU\WKLQJLVDOULJKWEDE\ߙ,FDOPKLPߙLWKDSSHQVWRHYHU\RQH:DQWVRPH
FRIIHH"
+H JUDEV WKH FRIIHH DV LI LWߞV D VWUDZ DQG VQLIIV LW ZLWK JULP FRQFHQWUDWLRQ
EXU\LQJKLPVHOILQWRWKHFXS
,Q DERXW WHQ PLQXWHV WKH KHUR REYLRXVO\ FRPHV DOLYH IRUJHWV DERXW WKH
ELWWHUQHVVRIWKHIDLOXUHDQGSOXQJHVDKHDG
ߙ6R EDE\ DUH \RX UHDG\" ߙ +H DVNV LQ WKH WRQH RI D VRSKLVWLFDWHG PDFKRߙ
PDQKDYLQJIXFNHGWZHQW\ZRPHQIRUWKHSDVWZHHN
ߙ&RPH KHUH , ZLOO QRZ VKRZ \RX ZKDW UHDO VH[ LVߙ, KHDUG LW VRPHZKHUH
DOUHDG\DQGKHSUREDEO\IRUJRWߙ<RXZLOOQRZEHJPHWRVWRSߙ+HDQQRXQFHV
GHFLVLYHO\DQGWDNHVKLVVZRUG
,PRZXQGHUWKHIDLWKIXOVTXLUHDQGJHWP\VHOIUHDG\WRKROGWKHZHDSRQ
ߙ1R EDE\ߙKH GLVPLVVHV PH ߙ/LH GRZQ DQG VKRZ PH KRZ \RX FDUHVV
\RXUVHOI
7KDWߞVHDV\,OLHGRZQDQGDFFRUGLQJWRWKHERXJKWWLFNHWVVKRZP\DXGLHQFH
ZKDWLWZDQWV
ߙ&RPHRQߙ+HMXPSVDPLQXWHODWHUFRQWLQXLQJWRGLVWRUWWKHVKXWWHU
ߙ,ZLOOIXFN\RXVRJRRGQRZߙ+HJURZOVDV,SXWRQWKHUXEEHUIULHQG
ߙ<HV\HVRQDOOIRXUV,ZLOOQRZVKRZ\RX$KKELWFKQRRQHKDVIXFNHG
\RX OLNH WKLV EHIRUH ߙ +H \HOOV WDNLQJ RQ WKH FLW\ߨWDNHV KDOI D VWHS LQWR WKH
JDWHߨDQGߨ
/DGLHVILUHZRUNVLQ\RXUKRQRU
7KHEXVLQHVVWDNHVRQHVHFRQG
(PLO\(PLO\NHHS\RXUVHOIWRJHWKHUVWRSODXJKLQJLQWKHSLOORZ
ߙ:HOOߨ,ZLOOOHDYHSUREDEO\ߨߙP\KHURORYHUVD\VLQDPLQXWHVWXEERUQO\
ORRNLQJDWWKHVSRLOHGFDUSHW
ߙ$OULJKWKRQH\FRPHEDFNDJDLQߙ,FRRVDQGWKLQNZKHWKHU,VKRXOGWHOOKLP
2KP\PDFKR\RXZHUHZRQGHUIXOQRRQHIXFNHGPHOLNHWKDWEHIRUHߨ
,DPVLOHQWRXWRIP\ORYHIRUKXPDQLW\

$XWRSLORW

7KHKROLGD\VGRZDVKSHRSOHRXW
$QGRIWHQLQWKHWUXHVWVHQVHRIWKHZRUG
(YHU\WKLQJVWDUWHGLQDQRUGLQDU\ZD\
,KDGMXVWUHWXUQHG,FHOHEUDWHG1HZ<HDUDWP\0RPߞV
+HFDOOHGLQVXFKDMR\RXVWRQHZLVKHGPHDKDSS\QHZ\HDUDQGKDSSLQHVVߙ
KHDOWKߙPRQH\
6RKHLQWURGXFHGKLPVHOIDV%HQMDPLQDQGIRUVRPHUHDVRQKHWROGPHWKDWKH
LVDQLQWHOOLJHQWPDQDQGOLNHVHYHU\WKLQJDWLWVKLJKHVWOHYHO
, YRLFHG WKH SULFHV IRU GLIIHUHQW FDWHJRULHV KH VDLG <HV QR TXHVWLRQ
EHDXWLIXOOHWߞVGRLW,ߞOOEHLQDQKRXU<RXGRQRWKDYHWRPHHWPH,NQRZWKH
DGGUHVV
$QGVWDWHVP\DGGUHVV
:HOOVRQRQHHGWRPHHWJUHDW
,LPPHGLDWHO\WRRNDVKRZHUZDVKHGP\KDLUWKUHZP\XQVRUWHGEDJLQWRWKH
FORVHWVDWDQGZDLWHG
7KHGRRUEHOOUDQJ
,SHDNHGKHORRNHGOLNHDQRUPDOPDQDQGZLWKURVHV,KDYHQRLGHDZK\
,RSHQHG
$QGKHVDLG2RRRKߙDQGKHIHOO
-XVWOLNHWKDWKHVWDJJHUHGRQPH
6RWKDWߞVZKDWWKH\PHDQZKHQWKH\VD\GHDGO\EHDXW\ߨ
+RQHVWO\,IUR]H6RPDQ\WKRXJKWVDWRQFHߙ,WKLQNWKDWߞVLWKHLVGHDG$QG
LQ P\ KHDG 6R $PEXODQFH$PEXODQFH$PEXODQFH RK *RG KRZ
DZIXO
$QGWKHQWKHERG\KROOHUHG
$QG,UHDOL]HG
:HOOQR,KDGKHDUGWKHWLSV\YRLFHDQGHYHQJXHVVHGWKDWKHZRXOGFRPHWR
PHGUXQN
%XW HYHQ RQ WKH SKRQH KH ZDV TXLWH VDQH $QG HYHQ WDONHG QRUPDOO\ $QG
KRZߨ KRZ FDQ RQH JHW GUXQN GXULQJ VRPH KRXUV WR WKH SRLQW RI FRPLQJ DQG
IDOOLQJߙWKLVLVDIXFNLQJP\VWHU\
$QGWKHUHKHLVWKLVORVHULQP\KDOOZD\KLVQRVHLQP\VKRHKHJUXQWVDQG
URVHVDUHVWLFNLQJRXWIURPXQGHUKLVERG\
,ߞPOXFN\KHFDPHZLWKRXWD&KULVWPDVWUHHߨ
,SXOOHGP\VHOIWRJHWKHUWXJJHGKLVOHJSXOOHGKLPDQGVKXWWKHGRRU
ߙ+HH\ߙ,VD\ߙ*HWXS1RQHHGWROLHKHUH
*UXQWVEXWDWOHDVWPRYHV
ߙ:HOOߙ,VD\ߙGHDUIULHQGFDQ\RXDWOHDVWVWDQG"
*UXQWHG WKRXJKW VRPHKRZ UROOHGߙRYHU FUDZOHG OHDQHG RQ WKH ZDOO DQG LV
ORRNLQJWKURXJKPH
,DPDVNLQJKLP
ߙ+RQH\GR\RXUHPHPEHUZKHUH\RXDUH"
$QGWKDWGDPQLVDXWRSLORW
,Q VKRUW WKLV ERG\ JHWV ZLWK RQH KDQG LQWR LWV SRFNHWV WDNHV RXW D SLOH RI
FUXPSOHGELOOVWKURZVDEXQFKRIWKHPRQWKHIORRUDQGWKHVHFRQGKDQGߙWKDW
,
PQRWNLGGLQJߙ([WHQGVWRXQEXWWRQKLVSDQWV
8QEXWWRQVDQGPRRV,ߨFDDDPHߨFRPRRQKHUH
7KHPDQFDQߞWHYHQWDONEXWZKHQLWFRPHVWRIXFNLQJߙQRSUREOHP
ߙ2KKKߙ,VD\ߙKRQH\OHWߞVGRLWQH[WWLPHDOULJKW"
0RQH\IRUPRQH\EXW,NQRZLI,VWDUWLWZLOOWDNHIRUHYHUWLOOKHFXPV 
+HLVVLWWLQJH\HVGRQߞWIRFXVDQGKHJUDEVP\OHJV
,DPDQLQWHOOLJHQWPDQ
,QWHOOLJHQWPHQWKH\DUHQRZOLNHWKLV\HV"
&OHDU,WKLQN,VKRXOGJHWKLPRXW
%XWKRZ",FDQߞWSXOOKLPRXWRIWKHDSDUWPHQWP\VHOI+HLVKHDY\
:HOOߨ, FDOOHG P\ WD[L GULYHU , WROG KLP WR FRPH DQG KHOS PH WUDQVSRUW WKH
ERG\PRQH\LVQRWDSUREOHP:KLOH,ZDVFDOOLQJKHWKHLQWHOOLJHQWRQHZDV
VQRULQJE\WKHZDOO
7KHGULYHUFDPHLQDERXWWZHQW\PLQXWHVZHJUDEEHGWKHIULHQGE\KLVDUPV
DQGGUDJJHGKLPRXWZLWKKLVIO\XQEXWWRQHG
:H SXVKHG KLP LQ WKH FDU KH PXPEOHG DQ DGGUHVV DQG , SDLG RII ZLWK WKH
PRQH\WKDWKHWKUHZDWPHRIFRXUVH


7KH9HW

3HRSOHFDQEHPDJLFDOO\VWUDQJH
6RPHWLPHV,WKLQNWKDW,KDYHVHHQLWDOO
7KHQVRPHRQHFRPHVVD\VVRPHWKLQJDQG,UHDOL]HQRQRWHYHU\WKLQJ
<RXDUHSUREDEO\WKLQNLQJWKDWPLOLWDU\MRNHVDUHFUHDWHGLQYDLQ"1RWLQYDLQ
, GR QRW NQRZ DERXW WKH UHVW RI WKH PLOLWDU\ PHQ EXW WKH RQH ZKR UHFHQWO\
FDPHWRPHߙKHLVDMRNH%HOLHYHPH+HUHDUHVRPHMRNHVDERXWKLP
,W EHJDQ ZLWK $OH[ FDOOLQJ PH ߙ P\ UDUH EXW D ORQJߙVWDQGLQJ FXVWRPHU +H
DVNHGZKHWKHUSULFHVKDGULVHQDQGVDLGWKDWKHZRXOGJLYHP\QXPEHUWRDQROG
IULHQG%XWMXVWVR,ZDVQRWVXUSULVHGKHZDUQHGPHWKDWWKHIULHQGZDVVWUDQJH
)RUKHKDGVHUYHGLQWKHDUP\IRUKDOIRIKLVOLIHDQGLWKDGOHIWDQLPSULQW%XW
WKH JX\ VHHPHG QRUPDO MXVW QRW D VPLOLQJ IDFH 7UHDW KLP ZHOO (PLO\ , DP
UHFRPPHQGLQJ\RXWRKLP
,QDERXWDQKRXUWKLV6ROGLHUFDOOHG
+HJUHHWHGWROGPHWKDW$OH[KDGUHFRPPHQGHGPHDQGDVNHGZKHQ,ZRXOG
EHUHDG\WRPHHWKLP
,ZDVUHDG\
+HFDPH
7DOOVWUDLJKW GRWKH\VZDOORZDVWUDLJKWHGJHRUZKDW" OHDQVWHUQ2YHUILIW\
,FRXOGQߞWPDWFKXSWRKLVHQHUJ\,MXVWFRXOGQߞW
+HSDLGWKHPRQH\WKDWKHKDGVHSDUDWHO\SUHSDUHGLQKLVSRFNHWDQGFDPHLQWR
WKHURRP
+HVDZWKHODSWRSDQGDVNHG
ߙ:KDWߞVWKDWIRU"
ߙ,QWHUQHWߙ,VDLG
ߙ,WߞVDOOVWXSLG:DVWHRIWLPHߙKHFRQFOXGHG
,GLGQߞWNQRZZKDWWRDQVZHU,ZRQGHUHGKRZ,ZDVZDVWLQJLW7KDQN*RG,
JRWORWVRIWLPH
(YHU\WKLQJZDVGLVWLQFW+HWRRNRIIKLVVKLUWIROGHGDQGSODFHG7RRNRIIKLV
WURXVHUV IROGHG DQG SODFHG 7RRN RII KLV XQGHUZHDU IROGHGߨZHOO \RX JHW LW
ULJKW"
,VZHDUKHZDVPRYLQJIURPWKHEDWKURRPWRWKHEHGDWDQDOPRVWPHDVXUHG
SDFH
ߙ/LHGRZQߙKHRUGHUHGPH
,ZDVHYHQVFDUHGDELW%XWWKHGULOOZDVQRWKDQGHGRYHUDQGWKDWZDVILQH
+HREYLRXVO\KDGQRQHHGRIVHQWLPHQWV
3HRSOHGRVPLOHVRPHWLPHV
7KH OLSV RI WKLV RQH GLG QRW PRYH DW OHDVW D PLOOLPHWHU 1RW RQFH GXULQJ WKH
ZKROHKRXU1RWDWDOO
+HZDVDXVWHUHGU\ILUPDQGFROOHFWHG,QHYHU\WKLQJ7RWDOO\LQHYHU\WKLQJ
$OO P\ DWWHPSWV WR VRPHKRZ PDNH MRNHV VWXPEOHG RQ KLV REVWLQDWHO\
FRPSUHVVHGOLSVDQGGU\SX]]OHGORRN
2EYLRXVO\WKH\KDQGRYHUWKHLUVHQVHRIKXPRUZKHQWKH\MRLQWKHDUP\
,WߞVQRWUHWXUQHGWRWKHPWLOOWKHHQG:KHQWKHVHUYLFHLVRYHUWKH\HQGXSQRW
QHHGLQJLW
%XWWREHKRQHVWLWZDVSUHWW\VLPSOH,ZRUNHGDVQHHGHG
+HJRWXSDQGVWDUWHGWRJDWKHU7KHVROGLHUKDGDOUHDG\SXOOHGKLVVKLUWZKHQ
WKHFDWZDONHGLQWKHURRP
ߙ<RXUV"ߙ7KHVROGLHUDVNHGPHDQGQRGGHGDWWKHFDW
ߙ<HVߙ,UHSOLHG
ߙ6LWߙ+HRUGHUHGWKHFDW
'DPQ ZKDWߞV ZURQJ" ߙ &OHDUO\ WKH FDW DQVZHUHG DQG ORRNHG DW PH
VXUSULVHG
,
P VRUU\ KH ZLOO OHDYH VRRQ ߙ , VKUXJJHG P\ VKRXOGHUV DQG DQVZHUHG WKH
FDWZLWKDORRN
&DWVLJKHG
(YHU\WKLQJLVMXVWEHJLQQLQJ
ߙ*RRG EHDVW ߙ VDLG WKH VROGLHU ߙ $QG ZKDW LW GRHVQߞW XQGHUVWDQG WKH
LQVWUXFWLRQV"
ߙ+RQH\LW
VDFDWQRWDGRJߙ,WDFWIXOO\KLQWHG
ߙ$Q\ZD\ߙKHVQDSSHGGU\O\ߙ7KHDQLPDOPXVWEHWDPHG
$QGEHDEOHWRZDONSDUDGHߙ,ILQLVKHGP\VHOI
ߙ:K\LVKHVRVNLQQ\"ߙ6XGGHQO\KHIURZQHGߙ'RQߞW\RXIHHGLW"
ߙ,GRߙ,VDLGVWROLGO\ߙ,WPDWHVZLWKVXUURXQGLQJFDWV
ߙ,WLVQRWFDVWUDWHG"ߙ7KHVROGLHUZDVVXUSULVHG
ߙ:HOO,GRQߞWKDYHWLPHߨ,ߞPDOOLQZRUNߙ,TXLSSHG
7KHVROGLHUWKRXJKWIRUDPRPHQWIORDWHGDQGVXGGHQO\VWDUWHGWRWDNHRIIKLV
VKLUW
ߙ,QHHGKRWZDWHUDSLHFHRIFORWKDQGWKUHDG7KHNQLIHVKRXOGEHERLOHG&DQ
\RXJLYHDVDXFHSDQ"ߙ+HDVNHGEULVNO\
ߙ,GRQߞWXQGHUVWDQGZK\"ߙ,ZDVWHUULEO\EOXQW
:KRZRXOGQߞWJREOXQW"
ߙ,ZLOOFDVWUDWHKLPߙKHVDLGLQDEXVLQHVVWRQHDVLIQRWKLQJKDGKDSSHQHG
ߙ<RXZLOOKROGKLPDQG,
OOGRLW
,FDQߞWVD\KRZP\H\HVFUDZOHGRQP\IRUHKHDGQRLWߞVQRWWKDWFRPSDULVRQ
,GLGQߞWKDYHDQ\IRUHKHDGOHIWMXVWH\HV
ߙ:KDWGR\RXPHDQFDVWUDWH"ߙ,VZDOORZHGߙ7KHFDW"+HUH"ߙ,GLGQRW
EHOLHYHP\HDUV
ߙ'RQߞW EH DIUDLG LWߞV HDV\ , VDZ KRZ LWߞV GRQHߙKH VDLG DV LI QRWKLQJ ZDV
KDSSHQLQJ
ߙ1RQHHGWRFDVWUDWHDQ\RQHߙ,\HOOHGߙ'RQߞWWRXFKP\FDW
,ZHQWFUD]\7KHFDWKLGXQGHUWKHEHG
<HV,KDGK\VWHULD,ZDVVFDUHG
+HOHIWDQG,JRWRXWWKHZKLVNH\
7KHFDWGLGQߞWFRPHRXWWLOOODWHDWQLJKW

/LFNHUPDQ

/LFNHUVDUHVSHFLDOSHRSOHDQGE\WKHZD\WKHUHLVWRRPDQ\RIWKHP7KH\
DOOKDYHVRPHWKLQJLQFRPPRQ/LFNHUVDUHLQVSLUHG:HOOKRZFDQ\RXQRWEH
LQVSLUHGLQOLIHLI\RXDUHDJRXUPDQGE\QDWXUH"
7KH\ DUH GHVVHUW ORYHUV RIWHQ D OLWWOH FRQIXVHG DW ILUVW EXW LQ WKHLU H\HV RQH
FDQDOZD\VUHDGDQLPSDWLHQFHWRJHWWRߨ
/LFNHUVDUHKDUPOHVV$OOWKH\QHHGLVDJRRGYLHZEHIRUHWKHLUH\HVWRPDNH
WKHPIRUJHWHYHU\WKLQJ
7KH\GRQߞWHYHQQHHGZRPHQ
$VKRUWEDOGOLWWOHPDQDERXWIRUW\ߙILYHVPLOLQJVK\SDLGRIIORRNHGDURXQG
DQGGLYHGLQ*RXUPHWߙIRUVRPHUHDVRQ,VXGGHQO\LQWXLWLYHO\GHILQHG
ߙ&RIIHH"ߙ,DVNHGNLQGO\
ߙ$KDߙKHUHSOLHGXQFRPIRUWDEO\VLWWLQJLQP\DUPFKDLU
,QDERXWILYHPLQXWHVZHZHUHFKDWWLQJFXWHO\DQGOLWWOHE\OLWWOHKLVVWLIIQHVV
ZDVJRQH
ߙ2KߙKHVWDUWHGIXVVLO\LQILYHPLQXWHVߙ,ZDQWWRVD\ߨLWߨ,ORYHLWZKHQ
ZHOORUDOߨXP'R\RXKDYHFRQGRPVIRUWKDW",FRXOGGRZLWKRXWWKHPZLWKP\
ZLIHEXWKHUHߨ\RXJHWLWߨ
ߙ+RQH\RUDOLVRUDORIFRXUVHߙ,GLGQRWJHWKLVSRLQWLQVWDQWO\ߙDQG,KDYHDOO
NLQGV RI FRQGRPV (YHQ IUXLW\ :HOO IRU PH WKH\ DUH IUXLW\ EXW IRU \RX LW
ZRXOGQߞWPDWWHU
ߙ1R\RXGRQRWXQGHUVWDQGLWLVQRWIRU\RXߙKHVDLGWHUULEO\HPEDUUDVVHG
ߙZHOO , PHDQW WKDW , ZRXOG OLFN \RX DQG QRW YLFH YHUVD , ZDQW WR JLYH \RX
SOHDVXUH,QHHGDVSHFLDOFRQGRPIRUWKLVPDWWHU
ߙ,QZKDWVHQVH"ߙ,VWDUHG
ߙ:HOO,ORYHWRGRLWZLWKP\WRQJXHEXWZHOO\RXNQRZYHU\ZHOO,FDQߞW
GRLWMXVWOLNHWKDW,GRQRWNQRZ\RXDQGZHOO,QHHGWKLVVSHFLDOFRQGRP
IRUDOORIWKLV:HOOVR,FRXOGJLYH\RXSOHDVXUHߙKHZDVORVWDQGPXPEOHG
ߙ2KVSHFLDDDO$QGZKDWZLOO\RXZHDULWRQ"ߙ,GHFLGHGWRJHWWRWKHSRLQW
IURPDIDU
ߙ:HOORQWKHWRQJXHZKDWHOVHߨߙKHFRQFOXGHGXQFHUWDLQO\
ߙ$KDUGWRQJXH"ߙ,FODULILHGZLWKLQQRFHQWH\HV
ߙ +RZ VR" ߙ GLVDSSRLQWHG KH DVNHG ILYH PLQXWHV ODWHU ZKHQ , KDG DOPRVW
UHSRUWHGWRKLPWKHDEVXUGLW\RIVXFKDVWUDQJHGHYLFHߙ,
YHKHDUGWKDWWKHUHDUH
VXFK FRQGRPV DQG , WKRXJKW JLUOV VKRXOG GHILQLWHO\KDYHLW ,WߞVMXVW WKDWWKLVLV
P\ILUVWWLPH,ZDVQߞWDZDUHߨ
ߙ %DE\ ߙ , SDWLHQWO\ FODULILHG ߙ KDYH \RX VHHQ WKHP \RXUVHOI DW OHDVW RQFH"
0D\EH\RXKHOGLWLQ\RXUKDQGV"
ߙ:HOOQRߙKHUHOXFWDQWO\DJUHHGDQGFRQWLQXHGSHUSOH[HGO\ߙDQGKRZZLOO,
GRLWWKHQ",FDQߞWGRLWOLNHWKDWZHOOXKWKDWDEVROXWHO\ZLWKRXWLW,ZDQW
WR
ߙ:HOO,
PVRUU\ߙ,LQWHUUXSWHGKLPߙ,GRQߞWKDYHLW,FDQJLYHDQRUGLQDU\
RQH LI \RX ZDQW 2QO\ , IHDU \RX ZLOO EH XQFRPIRUWDEOH WR FODPS ZLWK \RXU
WHHWKVRZHZLOOKDYHWRGRVRPHWKLQJHOVH
$QG,VPLOHGDVVHGXFWLYHO\DV,FRXOG
$SSDUHQWO\KHLPDJLQHGWKHSURFHVVDQGVRPHKRZLQVWDQWO\ZLOWHG
,QDERXWWHQPLQXWHVDIWHUWKHVKRZHUKHVDWRQWKHEHG,ZDVZDLWLQJIRUKLP
KDOI UHFOLQHG RQ WKH EHG OHDQLQJ RQ P\ HOERZ RQH OHJ EHQW DW WKH NQHH DQG
GHPRQVWUDWLQJP\QHZWUDQVSDUHQWXQGHUZHDU
ߙ:HOOOHWPHDWOHDVWORRNDW\RXߨߙKHQHDWO\WRRNRIIP\SDQWLHVSXOOHGWKH
SLOORZ SODFHG LW XQGHU P\ EXWW VSUHDG P\ OHJV SODFHG KLPVHOI EHWZHHQ WKHP
DQGZDWFKHGP\GHSWKV
ߙ0PPߙKHGUDZOHGZLWKDVWURQJUHJUHWORRNLQJDWLWDVLILWZHUHDFDQG\
ZKLFKLVQRWDOORZHGEXWLVVRRRGHVLUHG
ߙ $UH \RX KHDOWK\" ߙ +H VXGGHQO\ DVNHG 'HVLUHV ZHUH FOHDUO\ VWUXJJOLQJ LQ
KLP
ߙ1RWKLQJKXUWVߙ,TXLSSHG
ߙ,
PQRWWDONLQJDERXWWKDWߙKHWXUQHGVHULRXVߙHYHU\WKLQJLVDOULJKWLQWKHUH"
ߙ1RUPDOߙ,QRGGHG
ߙ'R\RXKDYHDUHIHUHQFH"ߙ+HFODULILHG
ߙ+RQH\ߙ,UHVLVWHGZLWKDVOLJKWVDUFDVPߙ,
PVRUU\KRQH\,YLVLWWKHGRFWRU
IRUP\RZQJRRGDQGVRPHKRZQHYHUWDNHUHIHUHQFHVߨ
ߙ:HOOKRZFRPH"ߙ6DGO\KHGUDZOHGߙ<RXQHHGWRFRQVLGHUVXFKWKLQJV,
ZRXOGKDYHQRZPDGHVXUHWKDWHYHU\WKLQJLVDOULJKWDQGZRXOGGR\RXJRRGߨ
ߙ /LVWHQ GHDU ߙ OHW 0( JLYH \RX SOHDVXUH RND\" 1R UHIHUHQFHV DUH QHHGHG
DQGWKHUHDUHFRQGRPVRIDOONLQGV
$QG,VWDUWHGWRFUDZORXWIURPXQGHUKLP
ߙ:DLWߙKHVWRSSHGPHJUDEELQJP\OHJDVLIKROGLQJRQWRWKHODVWFKDQFHWR
OLFNߙPD\EHZHFRXOGFRPHXSZLWKVRPHWKLQJ":HOO\RXDUHH[SHULHQFHG\RX
PXVWNQRZRIVRPHPHWKRGVVRLWFRXOGEHVDIHߨ
$SSDUHQWO\ KH KDG DQ XQKXPDQ GHVLUH WR OLFN %XW WKH UHDOL]DWLRQ RI PH QRW
EHORQJLQJWRRQO\KLPNHSWKLPIURPWDNLQJVXFKDUHFNOHVVVWHS
ߙ:HOO LI LW LV VR LPSRUWDQW WR EH VDIH ߙ VRPHKRZ , VXGGHQO\ EOXUWHG RXW
K\VWHULFDOO\ EHFDXVH KH JRW PH HYHQWXDOO\ ߙPD\EH , VKRXOG JLYH \RX D SODVWLF
ZUDS"
,ZDVMRNLQJ,VZHDU,ZDVMRNLQJ
/RRNVOLNHLWZDVRQO\PHMRNLQJLQWKLVKRXVH
ߙ'R\RXKDYHDQ\"ߙ+HZDVVXGGHQO\RQILUHZLWKWKLVLGHD
,GRߙ,VHULRXVO\FRQILUPHGWU\LQJWRNHHSDVHULRXVIDFH
ߙ:LOO\RXJLYHPHVRPH"ߙ+HORRNHGDWPHZLWKKRSH
ߙ:DLW,ZLOOJRORRNLQWKHNLWFKHQߙ,DQVZHUHGFRPSOHWHO\VPRRWKO\
,Q WKH NLWFKHQ , VTXDVKHG LQWR WKH WUDVK DQG LQ WKH VHDUFK IRU D FOLQJ ILOP
UDWWOHG GRRUV RI FDELQHWV LQ KRSHV WKDW KH GLG QRW KHDU P\ EDUHO\ VXSSUHVVHG
ODXJKWHU
$SSDUHQWO\ , KDG EHHQJRQH IRU WRRORQJ EHFDXVH KH VXGGHQO\FDOOHG RXWWR
PH
ߙ'LG\RXILQGLW"
ߙ+HUHEDE\ߙ,JDWKHUHGP\ZLOOLQDUPVߙ,KDYHDSODVWLFEDJ:LOOLWGR"
,ZDVDIUDLGWRRIIHUIRLO
$QGWKDWZDVQRWWKHPDWWHU,MXVWVXGGHQO\UHDOL]HGWKDWLI,RIIHUHGLWWRKLP
RXW ORXG WKH K\VWHULD WKDW ZRXOG KDYH KDSSHQHG WR PH ZRXOG EH XQOLNHO\ WR
PXIIOHZLWKFDELQHWGRRUV
%XWZKHQDTXHVWLRQIOHZIURPWKHURRPLQDGRXEWIXOWRQH
ߙ,VWKHEDJELJ"
,KDGWHDUVUXQQLQJGRZQWKHIDFH
,UHWXUQHGWRWKHURRPLQDIWHUWZRPLQXWHVZLWKWKHVWURQJO\IOXVKHGIDFH
,QP\KDQGV,ZDVKROGLQJDUROORIFOLQJILOP
+LVIDFHEHDPHGLQGHOLJKW
ߙ:HOOOLHGRZQDV\RXZHUHߙKHSXOOHGWKHUROOIURPP\KDQGVDQGZKLOH,
WRRNWKHSRVHKHVHWWOHGVRPHZKHUHLQEHWZHHQP\OHJV
ߙ3XW WKH SLOORZ XQGHU \RXU EXWW ߙ KH GHOLFDWHO\ RUGHUHG WU\LQJ WR ILQG WKH
HGJHRIWKHFOLQJILOP
,OD\DQGVSUHDGRXWP\OHJVWU\LQJWRZDWFK
7KHILOPFDWHJRULFDOO\UHIXVHGWRXQUROO,WJRWVWXFNDQGWDQJOHG7KHOLFNHUߙ
LQYHQWRUVZHDWHGDQGIRFXVHG
ߙ/HWPHKHOSߙ,WHQVHGDQGUHDFKHGWRKLP
,WRRNWKHUROOFDUHIXOO\WHDVHGWKHHGJHZLWKP\QDLODQGFDUHIXOO\UHZLQGWKH
IOLS
+HZDWFKHGWKHFHOORSKDQHLQOXVW
ߙ5UUUUߙKHVXGGHQO\UHDFKHGIRUWKHUROOLQP\KDQGVDQGWRUHWKHILOPZLWK
KLV WHHWK ZLWK D GLVWLQFW VRXQG ORRNLQJ DW PH ZLWK H\HV RI D VQDNHߙVHGXFHU
2EYLRXVO\WKLVUUUUZDVWRV\PEROL]HJXVWVWKDWVZHSWKLPLQSDVVLRQ
ߙ 2RRRK ߙ , JDVSHG LQ GHOLJKW WU\LQJ QRW WR ORRN DW WKH WUDQVSDUHQW IODS
DGKHULQJWRLWVWHHWKDQGGDQJOLQJIURPKLVOLSVߙ2RRRK
,W ZDVEH\RQG P\VWUHQJWK DQG ,VDWEDFN FDUHIXOO\ PDVNLQJ K\VWHULDXQGHU
JURDQVRIVXGGHQVXUJLQJSDVVLRQ
, ZLOO QRW WHOO KRZ KH WDSHG WKH ILOP ZLWK VKDNLQJ KDQGV LQ DQWLFLSDWLRQ ,
DVVXUH \RX LW ZDV PHQWDOO\ GLIILFXOW IRU PH 1HYHU KDYH , HYHU EHHQ VXFK DQ
DFWUHVV
+H FORVHG PH XS LQ LW HQWLUHO\ IURP WKH ORZHU DEGRPHQ DQG DOPRVW WR WKH
WDLOERQH+HFDUHIXOO\VWUHWFKHGLWRQWKHLQQHUSDUWVRIWKHWKLJKVDQGVPRRWKHG
DOOWKHEXPSVZLWKLQZLWKKLVKDQGV
$WWKHWKRXJKWRI,DPOLNHDVDQGZLFK,EDUHO\UHVWUDLQHGP\ODXJK
+H ZDV TXLYHULQJ ZLWK LPSDWLHQFH JHQWO\ OLFNHG WKH FHOORSKDQH RQH RU WZR
WLPHVDJDLQDQGDJDLQRGGO\JUXQWHGDQGZHQWLQWRDUDJH
2KKRZ,GLOLJHQWO\JURDQHG
+HZDVKROGLQJWKHILOPE\P\KLSVDQGFRQVWDQWO\SXOOHGXSWKHRSHQHGJHV
WRP\VWRPDFKDQGOLFNHGOLFNHGOLFNHGPHOLNHDOROOLSRSLQDZUDSSHU
6HYHQ PLQXWHV ODWHU , UHOHDVHG DQG HDUQHVWO\ SRUWUD\HG KLP D SHDN RI
FRQYXOVLYHSDVVLRQ+HZDWFKHGP\ERG\DGPLULQJO\DQG,NQHZKHZDVSOHDVHG
ZLWKKLPVHOI
,WZDVWLPHIRUPHWRWDNHWKHUHLQLQP\RZQKDQGV
,SXOOHGDZD\IURPWKHZUDSWKUHZWKHSLOORZRQWKHIORRUEXVLO\WRRNRIIWKH
DGKHULQJ ZHW ILOP IURP PH SXW WKH PDQ RQ KLV EDFN DQG GLG ZKDW , KDG EHHQ
GRLQJIRUDORQJWLPH
+HZDVTXLHWDQGFRQWHQW8SRQGHSDUWXUHKHORRNHGDWPHWHQGHUO\VWURNHG
P\ EUHDVW LQ WKH KDOOZD\ QHDUO\ WXUQHG DURXQG DW WKH GRRU DQG SURXGO\ DQG
LQGXOJHQWO\VDLG
ߙ6HHLIWKHUHߞVDZLVKߨ
,QDERXWILYHPLQXWHV,FDOOHGP\IULHQG,WKLQN,PDGHKHUQLJKWWKHQ

*DU\DQGKDSSLQHVV

*DU\ZDVDELWVLOO\FUHDWXUHEXWVRPHKRZFKLOGLVKO\KDUPOHVV
1R VWULFWO\ VSHDNLQJ KH ZDV SUREDEO\ QRW VWXSLG RWKHUZLVH KH ZRXOG QRW
KDYHKDGDQDSDUWPHQWLQWKHFHQWHUTXLWHDQH[SHQVLYHFDUDQGVKRHVDWDSULFH
FRPSDUDEOHZLWKWKHEXGJHWRIDVPDOO$IULFDQFRXQWU\
+RZHYHU IRU PH LW VWLOO UHPDLQHG D P\VWHU\ ZKDW KH ZDV HQJDJHG LQ OLIH
6OLJKWO\GHWDFKHGYLHZDQGZDQGHULQJKDOIߙVPLOHJDYHWKLVPRGHVWO\RYHUZHLJKW
PDQWKHORRNRIDW\SLFDOQHUG$QGQHUGVFDQGRDQ\WKLQJ
+HDSSHDUHGDWP\SODFHRQFHLQHYHU\WZRPRQWKVDOZD\VIRUWKHQLJKWDQG
DOZD\VZLWKSDFNDJHVVWXIIHGZLWKVRPHWKLQJWDVW\DQGWHUULEO\H[SHQVLYH$QG
KHEHJDQDFHOHEUDWLRQRIOLIH
3XUULQJ , FXW DQG DUUDQJHG WKH VQDFNV SRXUHG H[SHQVLYH ERR]H DQG ZH VDW
GRZQWRKDYHDWDONDERXWDQ\WKLQJ
,KRQHVWO\WUHDWHG*DU\ZHOO+HGLGQRWERWKHUPHDQGVRPHKRZ,ZDVDOZD\V
JODGWRVHHKLP
$QG LW
V QRW HYHQ DERXW WKH PRQH\ ZKLFK KH JHQHURXVO\ OHIW ZLWK WLSV WKDW ,
GLGQߞWGHVHUYHDQGQRWLQWKHUHIULJHUDWRUZKLFKZDVIXOORIIRRGIRUWKUHHPRUH
GD\VDIWHUKLVGHSDUWXUHLWZDVMXVWYHU\HDV\ZLWK*DU\
+RZHYHUWREHIDLUIRUVRPHUHDVRQ,DOZD\VKDGDIHHOLQJWKDWKHWUHDWHGPH
PRUHOLNHDVH[OHVVFUHDWXUHRUDJLUOIULHQG(YHQP\GHOLJKWVGLGQRWVHHPPXFK
RIDOXUHWRKLPDQGVH[ZDVDOZD\VVRTXLFNDQGVRERULQJWKDWWKHUHLVQRWKLQJ
WR WHOO ,W ZDV DOZD\V D RQHߙWLPH WKLQJ KH SHUIRUPHG KLV GXW\ ZLWK VOLJKW
ERUHGRP WKHQ KH UHOD[HG DQG SOHDVDQWO\ GUDQN LQ P\ FR]\ FRPSDQ\ 7KLV
KDSSHQHGDOOWKHWLPH
+HDOZD\VGUDQNWRWKHVWDWHRIDEVROXWHSURVWUDWLRQDQGWKHQVWDQGLQJXSLQ
WKHPRUQLQJFOXWFKHGKLVKHDGDVNHGIRUZDWHUFRIIHHOHPRQDQGDWD[L+LVFDU
ZDVSDUNHGXQGHUP\ZLQGRZXQWLOWKHHYHQLQJ
,UHPHPEHUZKHQKHOHIWLQWKHPRUQLQJDIWHURXUWKLUGPHHWLQJ,ZDVOHIWLQ
WKHVWURQJHVWZRQGHULQJZK\GRHVKHFRPHWRPHLI,REYLRXVO\GRQߞWWXUQKLP
RQWKDWPXFK"
7KHQ,JRWXVHGWRLW(YHU\RQHFDQEHVWUDQJH
$QG , ZDV QRW HYHQ VXUSULVHG IRU VRPH UHDVRQ WKDW DIWHU FRPLQJ LQ ZLWK
SDFNDJHVRIIRRGDQGERR]HKHPDQDJHGWRJHWGUXQNVRTXLFNO\WKDW,GLGQRW
HYHQKDYHWLPHWRUHDOL]HZKDWZDVJRLQJRQDQGWKHQKHOLWHUDOO\IHOORQP\EHG
DQGVDLG-XVWGRQߞWWRXFKPHRN"DQGLQWKHPRUQLQJKHOHIWOHDYLQJPHWLSV
ZLWKRXWHYHQDVNLQJIRUDEORZMRE
2QH WKLQJ , NQRZ IRU VXUH *DU\ ZDV LQ VWURQJ GLVDJUHHPHQW ZLWK KLV ZLIH
6RPHKRZ LQ D FRPSOHWHO\ GUXQNHQ VWDWH KH FRQIHVVHG WR PH WKDW VKH GLG QRW
WXUQKLPRQDQGVKHKDGQHYHUWXUQHGKLPRQIRUWKDWPDWWHU$QGKHPDUULHG
KHU MXVW EHFDXVH VKH ZDV NQRFNHG XS DIWHU WKHLU VHFRQG PHHWLQJ DQG KH DV DQ
KRQHVW PDQ  EHVLGHV LW ZDV WLPH WR JHW PDUULHG 3DUHQWV KDG ORQJ ZDQWHG
JUDQGFKLOGUHQ
7KH RQO\ SHUVRQ WKDW *DU\ VHHPHG WR JHQXLQHO\ ORYH ZDV KLV WHQߙ\HDUߙROG
GDXJKWHUIURPWKDWPDUULDJH+HVSRNHDERXWKHUIRUKRXUV
2QH GD\ ZKHQ ZH KDG FRPSOHWHO\ OHW ORRVH , WRRN KHDUW DQG DVNHG ZK\ KH
DOZD\V YLVLWHG PH IRU WKH QLJKW LI KH GLG QRW QHHG PXFK IURP PH 7KDW ZD\ ,
OHDUQHGWKDWKHZDVQHYHUUHDOO\LQWHUHVWHGLQVH[DQGLWZDVMXVWQLFHWRGULQNDQG
WDONZLWKPH
:KDWHYHUߙ,GHFLGHGDQGFORVHGWKLVWRSLF
7KHODVWWLPHKHZDVDWP\SODFHZDVDOLWWOHRYHUD\HDUDJR+HFRPSODLQHG
WKDWOLIHKDGEHFRPHXQEHDUDEOHWKDWKLVZLIHGURYHKLPWRKDOIߙGHDWKZLWKKHU
FRQVWDQW GHVLUH IRU VH[ DQG KH ZDV DEVROXWHO\ UHDG\ WR JHW D GLYRUFH EXW KLV
GDXJKWHU
$QGWKHQKHZDVJRQHIRUTXLWHDZKLOH
$QGDSSHDUHGUHFHQWO\
ߙ+DYHQߞW\RXJRWWHQPDUULHG"ߙ$IDPLOLDUYRLFHDVNHGFKHHUIXOO\RQWKHSKRQH
DQG,ZDVGHOLJKWHG
ߙ*DU\,KDYHQߞWVHHQ\RXVLQFHIRUHYHU
ߙ<RX ZLOO VRRQߙKH VDLG FKHHUIXOO\ߙ\RX ZLOO ILQG VRPH IUHH WLPH IRU PH
ULJKW"
ߙ2IFRXUVHߙ,ODXJKHGߙ,ߞOOFKDVHDZD\WKHHQWLUHFURZGIRU\RX
ߙ([FHOOHQWߙWKHYRLFHVXGGHQO\JRWVHULRXVߙRQO\(PLO\,ZRQߞWEHDORQHRN"
,ZLOOEHZLWKP\IULHQG,ߞOOH[SODLQWR\RXHYHU\WKLQJZKHQZHJHWWKHUH'RQߞW
EHVFDUHGHYHU\WKLQJZLOOEHILQHߨ
0H"$IUDLGRIWZR"
$QGWKH\FDPHLQWKHHYHQLQJ
ߙ<RX DUH VWLOO WKH VDPH EHDXW\ߙJUDFHIXOO\ FRPSOLPHQWHG *DU\ DV VRRQ DV ,
FORVHGWKHGRRU
$QGVK\O\DGGHG
ߙ(PLO\WKLVLV1LFRODV
1LFRODVZDVVKRUWVWURQJߙORRNLQJPLGGOHߙDJHGPDQVOLJKWO\EDOGZLWKOLJKW
JUD\KDLULQDWUHQG\7ߙVKLUWDQGVW\OLVKMHDQV+HZDVTXLWHDELWHPEDUUDVVHG
VPLOHGDWPHDQGVWUDQJHO\,ZRXOGHYHQVD\ߙORYLQJO\ORRNHGDW*DU\
,FKXFNOHGLQZDUGO\ZLWKVXUSULVHDQGGHFLGHGWKDWLWKDGRQO\VHHPHGWRPH
DQGOHGWKHPLQWRWKHURRP
7KHQ,ODLGWKHVQDFNVJRWWKHJODVVHVRXWFKLUSHGDQGUDGLDWHGKRVSLWDOLW\
,ZDVVXUSULVHGDWWKHPHWDPRUSKRVLVWKDWKDGRFFXUUHGZLWK*DU\WKLV\HDU
+HKDGVRPHKRZFRPSOHWHO\FKDQJHG
7KH ZHLUG ORRN DQG ZDQGHULQJ VPLOH KDG JRQH KH ORVW ZHLJKW ZDV FOHDUO\
FRQILGHQW GLIIHUHQWO\ WULPPHG HYHQ GUHVVHG XS GLIIHUHQWO\ VWLOO H[SHQVLYH EXW
PRUHVW\OLVKDQGLI\RXFDQDSSO\WKLVZRUGWRDPDQWKHQ,ZLOOVD\WKDW*DU\
KDGEORVVRPHG
ߙ(PLO\ ߙ *DU\ VDLG ZKHQ ZH KDG MXVW GUDQN RXU ILUVW JODVVHV DQG , KDG
PDQDJHGWRQRWLFHWKHVOLJKWPRYHPHQWRI1LFRODVߞVSDOPWKDWUHVWHGRQKLVNQHH
ߙZHGLGQߞWFRPHKHUHIRUQRUHDVRQ:HOOLWZLOOSUREDEO\VHHPVWUDQJHWR\RX
EXW
$JDLQ KH SRXUHG GULQNV IRU DOO RI XV ZH FOLQNHG JODVVHV DQG KH GUDLQHG LW
REYLRXVO\IRUEUDYHU\
ߙ :HOO ,
OO WHOO \RX $QG SHUKDSV \RX KDYH VHHQ PRUH , GLG QRW
LPPHGLDWHO\ZDUQ\RXE\SKRQHLWLVQRWDSKRQHFRQYHUVDWLRQ
$QGWKHQ,FRXOGRQO\JLYHVLOO\VPLOHVJHWVXUSULVHGDQGVPLOHDJDLQ
*DU\ZDVIUDQNO\PLVHUDEOHDOOHOHYHQ\HDUVRIPDUULDJH7KHIDFWWKDWWKH\GLG
QRW JHW DORQJ EHFDPH FOHDU LQ WKH HDUO\ PRQWKV +LV ZLIH ZDV D KRPH PLQLߙ
W\SKRRQVKHTXLFNO\HVWDEOLVKHGRUGHUVLQWKHLUKRXVH*DU\TXLHWO\PDGHPRQH\
IRUWKHIDPLO\DQGZDVFRPSOHWHO\VXUHWKDWWKHUHLVQRKDSSLQHVVLQOLIH
+H FRXOGRI FRXUVH KDYH SLFNHG XSDSHDFHIXO DQG DSSHDVDEOH PLVWUHVV DQG
VDWLVI\ZLWKKHULIQRWKLVERG\WKHQDWOHDVWKLVVRXOEXWKHKDGORQJQRWLFHG
KHGLGQߞWPXFKOLNHZRPHQIRUVRPHUHDVRQ1RWWKDWKHGLGQߞWOLNHWKHPDWDOOߙ
KHZDVVLPSO\LQGLIIHUHQWWRZDUGVWKHP(YHQLQVH[XDOVHQVH+HNQHZWKDWKH
KDGWRDVDPDQEXWGLGVRZLWKRXWDVRXODQGPRUHIRUDWLFNLQIURQWRIKLPVHOI
+HVWLOOKDGRQHFRQVWDQWORYHU7LUHGRIWKHYLROHQWQDWXUHRIKLVZLIHKHOHIW
IRUWKHTXLHWGLYRUFHHDIWHUILYH\HDUVRIWKHLUPDUULDJHEXWTXLFNO\UHDOL]HGWKDW
LWߞVQRWZKHUHKHEHORQJHGDQGKHKDGEHWWHUOLYHZLWKKLVWHPSHUDPHQWDOZLIH
EXWZLWKRZQFKLOGUDWKHUWKDQWREULQJXSVRPHRQHHOVHߞVFKLOGWRJHWKHUZLWKD
VWUDQJHZRPDQ
7KHUH ZHUH RFFDVLRQDO SURVWLWXWHV DV LI KH ZDV PLVVLQJ VRPHWKLQJ DQG ZKDW
WKDWVRPHWKLQJZDVKHFRXOGQRWXQGHUVWDQG+RZHYHUWKH\ZHUHQRWPXFKRI
KDSSLQHVV IRU KLP $QG WKHQ KH EHFDPH DWWDFKHG WR PH EHFDXVH RK *RG  KH
IHOWDIDPLOLDUVSLULWLQPH
7KHODVWWLPHKHYLVLWHGPHWKHVLWXDWLRQLQKLVSHUVRQDOOLIHKDGJRWZRUVH+H
HYHQJUHZWLUHGRIILJKWLQJZLWKKLVZLIHEXWKHZDVPLVVLQJVRPHNLQGRIDMROW
WRILOHIRUDGLYRUFH,WߞVKDUGWRFKDQJHOLIHMXVWOLNHWKDW
$QGRQHYHU\ZRQGHUIXOHYHQLQJDERXWWZRZHHNVDIWHURXUODVWPHHWLQJKH
ZHQWWRWKHQLJKWFOXEOLWHUDOO\RXWRIJULHIߙZKHWKHUWRUHOHDVHVRPHGHVSDLURUWR
VLPSO\XQZLQG
$QGULJKWWKHUHLQWKHFOXEKHPHWORQHO\DQGERUHG1LFRODVE\WKHEDU:HOO
DQGWKHUHZRUGDIWHUZRUGVKRWDIWHUVKRWWD[LQH[WFOXEWKHQDJDLQDJDLQDQG
HYHQLQFRPSUHKHQVLEO\IRU*DU\KLPVHOIߙWKH\ZHUHDW1LFRODVߞVSODFH
$OFRKRO UHPRYHV WKH EUDNHV DQG WKH VWDUV DOLJQHG VR VWUDQJHO\ WKDW LQ WKH
PRUQLQJWKH\ZRNHXSWRJHWKHU
7KHQH[WGD\*DU\PRYHGWR1LFRODVߞVSODFH
0RUHRYHUKHVRDEUXSWO\IOHZRIIRIWKHVHEUDNHVWKDWKHGLGQRWHYHQERWKHU
WRKLGHIURPKLVZLIHZKHUHKHZDVPRYLQJ2IFRXUVHWKHUHZDVDZLOGVFDQGDO
DQGWKHQDTXLFNGLYRUFH
1LFRODV ZDV QRW D EHJLQQHU LQ WKLV EXVLQHVV EXW DJDLQ IRXQG KLV KDSSLQHVV
ZLWK*DU\
7KH\OLYHWRJHWKHU
$QG *DU\ FRQIHVVHG WKDW KH ZDV ZLOGO\ KDSS\ DQG ZRXOGQߞW KDYH ZDVWHG VR
PDQ\\HDUVRQKLVERULQJOLIHLIKHKDGUHDOL]HGHDUOLHUZKDWKHUHDOO\QHHGHG
+HKDGWKRXJKWRILWHDUOLHURIFRXUVHEXWHDFKWLPHGURYHDZD\WKHVHWKRXJKWV
RXWRIIULJKWDQGLIQRWIRUWKHFOXEWKHDOFRKRODQGJHQWOHSHUVLVWHQW1LFRODVߨ
%XWZK\GLGWKH\FRPHWRPH":HOOWKDWߞVVLPSOH7RGLYHUVLI\VRWRVSHDN
*DU\ZDQWHGVRPHRQHWRZDWFKDQG1LFRODVZDQWHGZRPHQIURPWLPHWRWLPH
7KHQZHGUDQNWDONHGDQGP\ER\VORRNHGDWHDFKRWKHUFRPSOHWHO\ORYLQJO\
$QG KDOI DQ KRXU ODWHU , ZDV ORXQJLQJ LQ D FKDLU ZLWK D JODVV DQG ZDWFKLQJ
WKHLUPDWLQJ
$QG,PXVWVD\WKDWVOXJJLVKDQGRQHߙWLPHORYHUZKRFDPHRYHUWRPHD\HDU
DJRZDVFRPSOHWHO\XQUHFRJQL]DEOHLQ*DU\ߙIRUKHIXFNHG1LFRODVZLWKVXFK
DQ H[FHOOHQW KDUGߙRQ DQG SDVVLRQ LQ KLV H\HV WKDW , VZHDU WR *RG , ZDV HYHQ
VXUSULVHG
2KDQGWKHQWKHUHZDVDVOLJKWVDQGZLFKILOOHGZLWKDWRWDOO\KDSS\1LFRODV
DQGLQWKHPRUQLQJ,WKRXJKWWKDW,KDGQHYHUVHHQ*DUU\ZLWKVRPXFKVWUHQJWK
DQGWHPSHUDPHQW
,Q WKH PRUQLQJ ZH WROG RXU JRRGE\HV ODXJKLQJO\ DFFRPSDQLHG ZLWK GLUW\
MRNHV1LFRODVNLVVHGP\KDQGDQGKDSSLO\WKH\OHIW
ߨ$QG,ZDVOHIWZLWKDVWRFNHGXSUHIULJHUDWRU$VDOZD\V



7KHYLVLWLQJGXPSOLQJ

6LWWLQJLQWKHNLWFKHQLQWKHPRUQLQJGULQNLQJFRIIHHQRWWRXFKLQJDQ\RQH,
DPHDWLQJXSRDWPHDOFRRNLHV
'RRUEHOO,DPWKLQNLQJߙZKRLVKHUHLQVXFKDQHDUO\KRXU"
,JRDV,DPXQZDVKHGXQNHPSW6OHHS\ߙKHDGHG,GLGQRWHYHQORRNWKURXJK
WKHSHHSKROH
,RSHQWKHGRRUDQGWKHUHLVWKLVEDE\PHWHUVWDOOZLWKURXQGKHDGSRLQWHG
HDUVURV\FKHHNVELJVPLOHDQGDKXJHEDJ
ߙ$UH\RX(PLO\"ߙKHDVNV
ߙ<HVߙ,DQVZHUKHOSOHVVO\
ߙ2KWKDQN*RG,IRXQG\RXߙ6D\VWKHODGDQGSXVKLQJPHLQFRPHVLQWR
WKHDSDUWPHQW
:LWK QRW HYHQ D GURS RI VK\QHVV DQG QRW ERWKHULQJ WR WDNH RII KLV VKRHV KH
JRHVVWUDLJKWO\LQWRWKHNLWFKHQ,VWDQGDWWKHGRRUZD\ZLWKDQRSHQPRXWK
ߙ:K\DUH\RXVWDQGLQJE\WKHGRRUZLGHRSHQ"ߙ+HDVNHG
,DXWRPDWLFDOO\FORVHWKHGRRUJRLQWRWKHNLWFKHQOHDQRQWKHGRRUDQGORRNDW
KLPLQDZH
ߙ$KKRZKDSS\,DPWRILQG\RXߙ+HVLQJVWRPHߙ,UDQJWKHGRRUEHOOVRI
WKHDSDUWPHQWVDOUHDG\,UXVKHGWR\RXULJKWIURPWKHDLUSRUW
$QGFRQILGHQWO\VDWE\WKHWDEOH
ߙ$QGZKRDUH\RX"ߙ,FODULI\
ߙ:KDWGR\RXPHDQZKR"ߙ$VNHGWKHODGLQVXUSULVHߙ'LGQߞW.HYLQZDUQ
\RX"+HWROGPHKHZRXOGPDNHDUUDQJHPHQWVZLWK\RX2KKHSUREDEO\QHYHU
IRXQGKLVSKRQH,DP0LNH.HYLQWROGPHWKDW,FRXOGVWD\DW\RXUSODFH<RX
ZRXOGVKHOWHUPHDQGNHHSPHZDUP%XWKHGLGQߞWUHPHPEHUWKHDSDUWPHQW
QXPEHUFOHDUO\VR,KDGWRGLVWXUEWKHQHLJKERUVDELWߨ
$QGKHLVVLWWLQJVPLOLQJ
,IOLSSHGRXWDELW
:DUPLQJ\HVEXWJLYLQJDVKHOWHU"7KLVLVQRWDKRVWHOGDPQLW
:KLOH , ZDV WKLQNLQJ KRZ WR JHW KLP RXW WKLV 0LNH\ RSHQHG WKH EDJ DQG
VWDUWHGJHWWLQJRXWIRRG
ߙ:HOOSXWWKHNHWWOHRQKRVWHVV
+HUH,UHEHOOHG
ߙ:DLWZLWKWKHNHWWOHZK\KDYH\RXFRPHKHUH"
ߙ:HOO ZKDW GR \RX PHDQߨ.HYLQ VDLG WKDW \RX SURYLGH VHUYLFHV WKRVHߨ
ZHOOߨDQG,FRXOGVWD\WKHQLJKW,DPQRWKHUHIRUHYHURQO\WKUHHGD\V
ߙ:KDWPRWKHUIXFNLQJ.HYLQ"ߙ,DOPRVW\HOO
ߙ.HYLQ7KHUHGKHDGWKLQVPDOO
1RZ , FRXOG SXW WRJHWKHU WKH SLHFHV IURP WKH SX]]OH , UHPHPEHUHG WKDW
UHGKHDG FORZQ +H FRPHV WR P\ SODFH VRPHWLPHV D UDUH SUDQNVWHU 9HU\ IXQ
JX\EXWDOZD\VPRFNVHYHU\RQHLWKDSSHQVZHVWDUWWDONLQJZLWKKLPDIWHUVH[
DQGKHVSLOOVLWDOODERXWRQHRUDQRWKHU$QGODXJKVOLNHDIRRO
:HOOLQVKRUWLWODWHUEHFDPHFOHDUWKDWWKLVGXPSOLQJKDGFRPHWRYLVLWRXU
FLW\VRKHFDOOHG.HYLQDQGKHWROGKLPWKHUHZDVQRQHHGRIDKRWHOWKHUHLV
WKLV(PLO\JRWRKHUSODFHVKHZLOOVKHOWHU\RXDQGJLYH\RXWKHUHVW
:KDWDMRNHU
$QGWKLVGXPSOLQJWRRNWKHMRNHZRUGIRUZRUGDQGFDPHWROLYHZLWKPH
:HOOKRQHVWO\LI,KDG.HYLQߞVDGGUHVV,ZRXOGKDYHNLOOHGKLPIRUVXFKMRNHV
$QGPRVWLPSRUWDQWO\KHZDVVRWHUULEO\XSVHWWKDWKHKDGEHHQSOD\HGWKDW,
FRXOGQߞWQRWWRWUHDWKLPWRDFXSRIWHD:HOOZHDWHGUXQNDQGVDWLQVLOHQFH
$QGKHUHKHWROGPHVXGGHQO\WKDWPD\EHߨZHFRXOGߨGRߨWKDW"
:HOOWKDWZHFRXOGGR
,WROGKLPWKHSULFHVDQGKHZDVRIFRXUVHLQVKRFN.HYLQWKHEDVWDUGKDGRI
FRXUVHWROGKLPWKDWLWZRXOGKDYHEHHQLQH[SHQVLYH
ߙ<RXU.HYLQTXLWHSOD\HG\RX
$QGKHVD\V
ߙ+RZZRXOG,NQRZKRZPXFKDOORIWKLVFRVW",QHYHUZHQWDQ\ZKHUH,MXVW
VHSDUDWHG ZLWK P\ ZLIH DQG H[FHSW IRU KHU DQG WKHUH KDV EHHQ QR RQH +H\
PD\EHZHFRXOGDJUHHIRUDOLWWOHOHVV"7KDWLVWRRPXFKIRUPH,VWLOOQHHGWR
ILQGVRPHKRWHODQGORRNDURXQGDELW,FDQߞWJRWR.HYLQߞVSODFHWKHUHLVDZLIH
DQGPRWKHUߙLQߙODZZKDWZLOO,EHGRLQJWKHUH
,Q VKRUW ZH EDUJDLQHG D ELW , ORZHUHG WKH SULFH D OLWWOH +H ZDV DOUHDG\ LQ
WKHUHVRZKDWWKHKHOO
+LV GLFN ZDV VR ELJ :HOO \HDK 0LNH ZDV ELJ DQG KLV GLFN ZDV QRW VPDOOߙ
EDUHO\JRWLWLQ:KDWDJRRGLHWKLVJX\FDUULHVLQKLVSDQWVRK\HV
$QGIRUVH[ZHOOMXVWDGXPSOLQJKXJHSDZVPRGHVWDQGKXPEOHDQGDOOVR
VRIW
,KDGQߞWPHWJX\VOLNHKLPIRUDORQJWLPH+HGLGQߞWHYHQDVNIRUDEORZMRE
DQGFDPHIDVW
+H VWRRG XS ZHQW LQWR WKH VKRZHU WKHQ FDPH RXW LQWR WKH NLWFKHQ ORRNHG
DURXQGDQGVDLG
ߙ,WߞVDSSDUHQWWKDW\RXGRQߞWKDYHDPDQOLYLQJLQWKHKRXVH(PLO\
ߙ:HOO\HDKߙ,ODXJKߙ,GRQߞWHYHQKDYHPHQFRPLQJWRP\SODFH
ߙ7KHVKHOILQWKHEDWKURRPLVEDUHO\KROGLQJWKHWDEOHLVUHHOLQJߨOHWPHVHH
ZKDW
VLQWKHUH"
$QGKHFUDZOHGXQGHUWKHWDEOH
ߙ'R\RXKDYHDVFUHZGULYHU"
,VWDQGORRNLQJDWWKHKDSSHQLQJ
ߙ1Rߙ,VD\ߙ:K\ZRXOG,KDYHRQHKHUH"
+H DVNHG IRU D NQLIH , KDQGHG LW WR KLP 7KHQ KH WXUQHG WKH WDEOH XSVLGH
GRZQJRWPHRXWRIWKHNLWFKHQ:KDWFRXOG,VD\ߙLIKHZDQWVWRIL[LWOHWKLP
GRVR
,QWKHHQGKHVWD\HGDWP\SODFHIRUKDOIDGD\
+HIL[HGWKHWDEOHDGMXVWHGWKHVKHOIFKHFNHGFDELQHWKLQJHVߙLQVKRUWIL[HG
HYHU\WKLQJ KH FRXOG ILQG (YHQ SODFHG EDFN WKH RXWOHW WKDW KDG FRPH RXW RI LWV
SODFHVDWWKHUHDQGFOHDQHGVRPHWKLQJIRUTXLWHDORQJWLPH
'DPQZKDWDJROGHQPDQ
:HOODQG,GLGQߞWUHPDLQLQGHEWFDOOHGP\IULHQGVDQGZHTXLFNO\IRXQGKLP
DYHU\FKHDSDSDUWPHQWIRUUHQW
$OWKRXJKZLWKVXFKDGLJQLW\DQGJROGHQKDQGVLWZRXOGKDYHEHHQSRVVLEOH
WRSODFHKLPLQRQHRIWKHJLUOVߞSODFHV
+HZRXOGKDYHOHIWZLWKJUHDWVXFFHVV

7KHEHVWRQH

ߙ(PLO\,KDYHDUULYHGKRZGR,JRQH[W"ߙ$SOHDVDQWYRLFHDVNHGPHRQWKH
SKRQH
7KLVFOLHQWZDVDQHZFRPHU
ߙ2QHVHFRQGKRQH\ߙ,VDLGDVSOD\IXOO\DV,FRXOGߙ,ZLOOQRZPHHW\RX
7ZRPLQXWHVODWHU,ZDVPDNLQJH\HVWRDPDQLQKLVIRUWLHVZKRKHVLWDQWO\
VKLIWHG IURP RQH IRRW WR DQRWKHU VWDQGLQJ DW P\ GRRUZD\ %\ WKH ZD\ KH ZDV
TXLWHKDQGVRPHDQG,KDGDOUHDG\FRQFOXGHGIRUP\VHOIWKDWWKHQH[WKRXUWKDW
KH KDG ERRNHG PH IRU SURPLVHG WR EH LI QRW WRR SOHDVDQW WKHQ DW OHDVW QRW
DQQR\LQJ
&OLHQWߞVQDPHZDV6WHYH
8SRQDUULYDOKHLPPHGLDWHO\WRRNRIIKLVVKLUWDQGRGGO\VZHSWKLVVKRXOGHUV
GHPRQVWUDWLQJ PH KLV ERG\ KH DVNHG PH WR PDNH KLP FRIIHH DQG PHDQZKLOH
VKRZHUHGPHZLWKVRPHJUDFHIXOFRPSOLPHQWV,WZDVVRPHWKLQJDERXWP\H\HV
P\EUHDVWVOHJVDQGWKDWKHKDGSUDFWLFDOO\IDOOHQLQORYHZLWKPHDWILUVWVLJKW
, VPLOHG VHGXFWLYHO\ DQG GHFLGHG WKDW , ZRXOG WU\ WR SHUIRUP DQ HVSHFLDOO\
JUHDWEORZMREIRUKLP
7KHQ,VHQWKLPLQWRWKHVKRZHUDQGZKLOHKHZDVWKHUHTXLFNO\FKDQJHGP\
SDQWLHV WR VRPHWKLQJ D OLWWOH PRUH WUDQVSDUHQW ߙ GHVLJQHG IRU PRVW SOHDVDQW
JXHVWV
+HFDPHRXWRIWKHVKRZHUZUDSSHGLQDWRZHODURXQGKLVZDLVWOD\GRZQRQ
WKHEHGDQGSXWWLQJKLVKDQGVEHKLQGKLVKHDGKHVDLG
ߙ&RPHRQFRPHKHUHߙDQGIRUVRPHUHDVRQKHDGGHGߙEDE\
$QG,ZHQW/LNHDODQJXLGFDW,OD\EHVLGHKLPOLFNHGP\OLSV DQHIIHFWLYH
JHVWXUH ZLWKP\ILQJHUWLSVSLFNHGXSDNQRWRQWKHWRZHODQGߨ
ߙ,WߞVEHDXWLIXOULJKW"ߙ6XGGHQO\6WHYHDVNHGPH
%HIRUH PH KH RSHQHG D YLHZ RI D PDOH SHQLV RI TXLWH RUGLQDU\ VL]H DQG
RUGLQDU\ IRUP ,Q JHQHUDO WKHUH ZDV QRWKLQJ UHDOO\ RXWVWDQGLQJ $QG QRWKLQJ
VSHFLDOWRR
ߙ,QGHHGKRQH\ߙ,SXUUHGSXOOLQJDFRQGRPRQLWߙLWߞVJRUJHRXV
$QG,JRWUHDG\WREHJLQZLWKDOOP\VRXODQDFWLYLW\VRRUGLQDU\IRUPH
$FWXDOO\,ZDVDOUHDG\MXVWWZRFHQWLPHWHUVDZD\IURPWKH
6XGGHQO\KHILUPO\GLVPLVVHGP\KHDG
ߙ1R\RXWHOOPHLWߞVFRROULJKW"
ߙ&RROߙ,VPLOHGWU\LQJWRVRXQGDVFRQILGHQWDQGFUHGLEOHDVSRVVLEOH$QG,
UHDFKHGWRLWZLWKP\OLSV
ߙ1RZDLWߙKHVDLGLQDQRIIHQGHGWRQH
, UDLVHG P\ KHDG ORRNHG DW KLP DQG QRWLFHG WKDW KH KDG EHHQ RIIHQGHG DQG
SRXWHGMXVWOLNHDJLUO
, DGPLW DW WKDW PRPHQW IRU VRPH UHDVRQ , ZDV FRQIXVHG )RUWXQDWHO\ KH
KHOSHGPH
ߙ7HOOPHKRZEHDXWLIXOLVLW"
2IFRXUVHHQOLJKWHQLQJLVP\WKLQJ,QHDWO\KHOGKLVGLJQLW\ZLWKP\ILQJHUV
SUHWHQGHGWREHZDWFKLQJHQWKXVLDVWLFDOO\DQGVDLG
ߙ:HOOLWߞVVRELJߨ
ߙ0RUHߙ'HPDQGLQJO\WROGPHWKHYRLFH
ߙ$QGEHDXWLIXOߙ6RPHKRZ,UHSHDWHGKLVRZQZRUGV
ߙ0RUHߙ+HUHSHDWHGVWDUWOHG
,KRQHVWO\GLGQߞWNQRZZKDWWRVD\DUHJXODUERG\SDUWVWDQGDUGVL]HEXWKH
QHHGHGPHWHOOKLPVRPHWKLQJ
ߙ,WߞVVRKDUG
:HOO\HDKWKDWZDVWUXH
$WWKLVSRLQW6WHYHVRDEUXSWO\MXPSHGXSDQGVDWRQWKHEHGWKDW,ZDVHYHQ
DOLWWOHVFDUHG
ߙ2KFRPHRQߙ+HVDLGLQDWRQHRIDQDXJKW\FKLOGߙ<RXDUHQRWWHOOLQJLW
ULJKW
$QGULJKWWKHUHZLWKRXWZDLWLQJIRUP\DQVZHUKHFRQWLQXHG
ߙ2QFH,YLVLWHG\RXUFROOHDJXHDQGLWߞVDSLW\VKHPRYHGDZD\VKHFRXOGGRLW
ߙ$QGKRZ"ߙ,DVNHG
ߙ:HOO VKH FDUHVVHG KLP DQG VDLG WKDW KH LV WKH EHVW RXW RI DOO WKDW VKH KDG
VHHQߨ
,WZDVQߞWGLIILFXOWIRUPHWRVD\LWDQGPD\EH,ZRXOGKDYHHYHQSUDLVHGKLP
WZLFHDVPXFKKDGKHQRWMXPSHGRXWRIEHGVRDEUXSWO\
$ QRZ ZDVQߞW WKH ULJKW PRPHQW ,W ZRXOG KDYH ORRNHG OLNH D YHU\ URXJK
SUDLVH
2EYLRXVO\KHGLGQߞWWKLQNVR
ߙ:HOOWHOOPHWKDWLWߞVWKHEHVWߙ+HDVNHGLPPHGLDWHO\
ߙ7KH EHVW RQHߙ, VXGGHQO\ SLFNHG XS ,W ZDV XQH[SHFWHG WR PH ߙ,WߞV
ZRQGHUIXOUHDOO\,UDUHO\VHHVXFKEHDXWLIXORQHV
ߙ5HDOO\"ߙ7KHUHZDVKRSHLQKLVWRQH
ߙ<HVߙLQVSLULQJO\,OLHGߙ<RXGRXQGHUVWDQGWKDW,KDYHVHHQPDQ\EXW\RXUV
LVMXVWSHUIHFW%LJVPRRWKߨ
)RUDEHWWHUHIIHFW,OLJKWO\FDUHVVHGKLVGLJQLW\ZLWKP\ILQJHUV
+HEHDPHGDQGOHDQHGEDFNRQWKHSLOORZ
, GHFLGHG WR QRW ORVH DQ\ WLPH DQG DOPRVW EHJDQ WKH SURFHVV ZKHQߨ, ZDV
DJDLQLQWHUUXSWHG
ߙ:DLW D VHFRQGߙKH VDLG ߙ\RX DUH VD\LQJ WKDW \RX UDUHO\ VHHLW PHDQV WKDW
\RXVWLOOVHHVLPLODURQHV"
'DPQߨߙ,WKRXJKWWRP\VHOI
2XWORXG,VDLG
ߙ:HOOYHU\UDUHO\
,VHQVHGWKDWKHZDVREYLRXVO\XQVDWLVILHGDQGTXLFNO\FRUUHFWHG
ߙ%XW\RXUVLVWKHPRVWEHDXWLIXORIWKHPDOO
+HGHOYHGLQWRWKRXJKWV7KHQKHVDLGZKDW,H[SHFWHGWROLVWHQWKHOHDVW
ߙ,WKLQNLWߞVDELWFURRNHGߨ
,VHQVHGGRXEWLQKLVYRLFH
ߙ1RRIFRXUVHQRWߙ,WULHGWRFRQYLQFHKLPWKHRSSRVLWHLPPHGLDWHO\
0\LQWXLWLRQKLQWHGWKDWLWVKRXOGEHGRQHTXLFNO\RWKHUZLVHP\EUDLQVLPSO\
ZRXOGQRWVXVWDLQWKHKHDWHU
ߙ:HOOORRNߙKHLQWHUUXSWHGPHDJDLQWRRNKLVSHQLVLQKLVKDQGVDQGVWDUWHG
WRZDWFKIURPGLIIHUHQWDQJOHV
,VXUUHSWLWLRXVO\ORRNHGDWP\ZDWFK,ZRXOGKDYHWREHDUWKLVIRUDORQJWLPH
$ERXWKDOIDQKRXU
,NQHZWKH\ZRXOGWXUQLQWRHWHUQLW\
ߙ5HDOO\ORRNIRU\RXUVHOIߙKHGLUHFWHGP\DWWHQWLRQWRKLPVHOIߙORRNIURP
KHUH\RXFDQVHHWKDWLWߞVWZLVWHGWRWKHOHIWDELW
, DP QRW FRPSOHWHO\ EOLQG EXW , FRXOGQߞW VHH DQ\WKLQJ RI ZKLFK , OHW KLP
NQRZ
ߙ:K\DUH\RXO\LQJ"ߙ5HSURDFKIXOO\KHVDLGDQGORRNHGDWPH
,ZDQWHGKLPWROHDYHLPPHGLDWHO\7KDWKHZRXOGJHWXSULJKWQRZGUHVVHG
DQG OHIW %HFDXVH WKLV ZDV WDNLQJ TXLWH D ORQJ WLPH DQG P\ QHUYHV ZHUH QRW
PDGHRILURQ$ORXG,VDLGVRPHWKLQJTXLWHGLIIHUHQWRIFRXUVH
-XPSLQJ DKHDG , ZLOO VD\ WKDW WKH UHPDLQLQJ KDOI DQ KRXU SDVVHG E\ DV
IROORZV WKH ILUVW WZHQW\ PLQXWHV , ZDV FRPLQJ XS ZLWK LQFUHGLEOH UHDVRQV ,
XUJHG KLP WKDW KH QRW RQO\ GLG QRW KDYH D FURRNHG SHQLV EXW WKH EHVW RI WKRVH
WKDW,KDGHYHUVHHQWKUHHPLQXWHVZHKDGVOXJJLVKVH[ZKLFKKHGLGQRWHYHQ
ILQLVK OLWHUDOO\ UHPRYLQJ PH IURP KLPVHOI DQG VDLG <RX NQRZ LWߞV QRW WKH
PDWWHU DQG WKH UHPDLQLQJ VHYHQ ߙ KH GUHVVHG DQG ZDUPO\ WKDQNHG PH IRU D
JUHDWHYHQLQJVSHQWDQGSURPLVHGWRFRPHDJDLQ
6RPHWLPHV,WKLQNWKDWLQVWHDGRIWKHEHGLQP\DSDUWPHQWWKHUHVKRXOGEHD
FRXFKRIDSV\FKRDQDO\VW7KDWZRXOGEHLGHDO


7KH:KLQHU

$QRUPDOJX\YLVLWHG$FWXDOO\KHRQO\VHHPHGQRUPDO
8QGHUWKLUW\DQGORRNHGJRRG
'LGQߞWULGHPHIRUWRRORQJGLGQߞWFXPLQVHFRQGV
'LGQߞWPRDQWRRORXGO\DQGZDVQߞWVLOHQWOLNHDSDUWLVDQ
)ROGHGSDQWVQHDWO\ZHQWLQWRWKHVKRZHULPPHGLDWHO\FDPHRXWZUDSSHGLQD
WRZHO
+HZDVHYHQKDQGVRPH(YHU\ZKHUH
%RRNHGPHIRUWZRKRXUV7KHWZRWLPHVKHVXFFHHGHG$ERXWIRUW\PLQXWHV
$QGWKHQߨ
,UHDOL]HGKHFDPHKHUHWRZKLQH
7KHVDODU\ZDVELJEXWZDVQߞWHQRXJK
+LV 0RP LQWHUIHUHG ZLWK KLV SHUVRQDO OLIH EULQJLQJ D JLUO KRPH ZDV
LPSRVVLEOH
+H FDQߞW UHQW D VHSDUDWH DSDUWPHQW ߙ KRZ FRXOG KH OLYH RQ WKH UHPDLQLQJ
PRQH\"
)RUWKHVHFRQG\HDUKLVIRUPHUORYHWXUQHGXSKHUQRVHIURPKLVFORYHV
7KHFXUUHQWORYHUZDQWVWRJHWPDUULHGEXWKHGRHVQߞWORYHKHU
+LVEHVWIULHQGLVQRWHYHQDIULHQGWRKLP
$QGWKHZHDWKHULVKRUULEOH
+H FDQߞW FKRRVH VKRHV IRU KLPVHOI KH GRHVQߞW OLNH DQ\WKLQJ RU KLV VL]H LV
PLVVLQJLQWKHVWRUH
7KHGD\VXFNHGDQGWKHZKROHZHHNDVZHOO
7KHVDOHVZRPHQDUHUXGHLQWKHVWRUHKHPLVVHGWKHODVWEXV\HVWHUGD\ߨ
+HWDONHGWDONHGWKHQEOHZXSZHQWLQWRWKHNLWFKHQ$VLIKHZDVLQKLVRZQ
KRPH
, WKRXJKW KH KDG JRQH WR GULQN ZDWHU , ZDV O\LQJ GRZQ DQG KHDUG WKH
UHIULJHUDWRU RSHQ , DP WKLQNLQJ PD\EH KH LV ORRNLQJ IRU FROG ZDWHU KH GLGQߞW
DVNGLGQߞWXWWHUDZRUG ,\HOOWRKLP
ߙ7KHUHLVFRNHLQWKHUH
+HUHSOLHV
ߙ<HV\HVKHUH
+H ZDV PLVVLQJ IRU WRR ORQJ , ZDV WKLQNLQJ WR JHW XS DQG JR VHH ZKDW KDG
KDSSHQHG+HFDPHEDFN:LWKDVDQGZLFK
2QO\ RQH 1R LWߞV RND\ LI KH RSHQHG P\ UHIULJHUDWRU ZLWKRXW DVNLQJ EXW
PDNLQJDVDQGZLFKIRUKLPVHOIRQO\ߨWKDWߞVWRRPXFK
+HVLWVDQGHDWVP\VDQGZLFKDQGEXߙEXߙEXDQGEXߙEXߙEXߨ
7KHFDUURGHE\KLPDQGVSODVKHGZDWHURQKLPRXWRIDSXGGOH
7KH*RYHUQPHQWLVFRUUXSW
*OREDOZDUPLQJ
,FDQIHHOP\KHDGEXUQLQJIURPKLVFUDS,VD\:DLWߨ
,ZHQWLQWRWKHNLWFKHQWRPDNHP\VHOIDVDQGZLFK6LWWLQJLQIURQWRIKLP,
DPFKHZLQJLQGHHSWKRXJKWV
$SLPSOHDSSHDUHGULJKWRQKLVIRUHKHDGDQGKXUW
0RPEDNHGDFDNHZLWKFUDQEHUULHVDQGKHORYHGLWZLWKUDVSEHUULHV
)DYRULWH SDQWV KDG ULSSHG EHWZHHQ WKH OHJV ߙ DQG ZKHUH ZRXOG KH QRZ ILQG
VLPLODURQHV"
$QGEXߙEXߙEXDQGEXߙEXߙEXߨ
+HOHIWDQGOHIWDOOWKLVMXQNWRPH
$QG,ZHQWDURXQGZLWKDKDUGHQHGKHDGDQGWKRXJKWGDDDPQߨGDDDDPQQQ
%XW PRVW LPSRUWDQWO\ , XQGHUVWRRG ZK\ WKH H[ߙJLUOIULHQG GLGQߞW QHHG WKH
FORYHV
%HFDXVH FORYHV DQG D ERUHG GXPP\ PDGH XS D JUHDW VHW %HWWHU ZLWKRXW
FORYHVWKDQZLWKDJX\OLNHKLP
<RXWKLQNKHOHIWDQGWKDWZDVLW")XFNWKDW
+HFDOOHGLQPLQXWHVDQGVWDUWHGWRZKLQHWKDWKHKDGPLVVHGWKHVXEZD\
DQGKHGLGQߞWKDYHPRQH\OHIWIRUWKHWD[LVSHQWDOOKLVPRQH\RQPHߨ
+HKLQWHGYHU\OLJKWO\WKDWKHVKHOWHUHGPHWLOOPRUQLQJRWKHUZLVHWKHSRRU
RQHZRXOGEHVLWWLQJDOOQLJKWRQWKHVWUHHWDQGIUHH]HKLVDVV6LWDQGIUHH]HߨVLW
DQGIUHH]Hߨ
$DDD.LOO\RXUVHOIRQWKHZDOO
,GLGQRWSLW\
,JRWXSDQGEDNHGDFDNHZLWKFUDQEHUULHV
<HV,EDNHGLWODWHDWQLJKW
, KDG ERXJKW WKH FUDQEHUU\ WKUHH PRQWKV DJR DQG WKH\ ZHUH VLWWLQJ LQ WKH
IUHH]HUXSWRQRZ
,ORYHLWZLWKFUDQEHUULHV

'LVFRXQWRQDWRPEVWRQH

,WZDVQRWIXQQ\ZKHQVRPHGXGHYLVLWHGPHRQHGD\
+H FDPH LQ WRRN RII KLV FORWKHV DGPLUHG KLPVHOI LQ WKH PLUURU VOHHNHG KLV
KDLU EDFN DQG JRW WKH PRQH\RXWRI KLV SRFNHW LQ VPDOO YDOXHV :KLOH ,VWRRG
DQGFRXQWHGWKHPRQH\KHKDQGHGPHRYHUKLVYLVLWFDUG
*ORVV\EODFNZLWKUHGߙJROGFXUOV
7KHVHUYLFHVZHUHGHILQLWHO\QRWRIWKHJODPRXUFDWHJRU\
5LWXDODJHQF\
*HQHUDO'LUHFWRU
6FDU\QRQHHGWRVD\DQ\WKLQJ
,WRRNDEUHDWKSRNHGP\VHOIFDXWLRXVO\ߙ,VHHPHGWREHDOLYH
:KLOH,ZDVWKLQNLQJKHSXWRQWKHVOLSSHUVZHQWLQWRWKHURRPDQGߨKHZDV
DSSDUHQWO\WHQVHDWZRUN2QHZRXOGQߞWRIIHUVXFKDWKLQJDWDQRUPDOPLQGVHW
,QVKRUWKHRIIHUHGDEDUWHU
/LNH,RIIHUKLPDGLVFRXQWRUUHWXUQWKHUHPDLQLQJKDOIRU,OHWKLPVWD\
IRUWKHVHFRQGKRXUIRUIUHHDQGWKHQKHZLOORIIHUPHDGLVFRXQWLIQHHGHG
, ORRNHG DW KLP VNHSWLFDOO\ VORZO\ FDPH WR P\ VHQVHV DQG WROGKLPWKDW LI ,
QHHGHGDQ\WKLQJWKHQ,ZRXOGQߞWEHDEOHWRWXUQWRKLPDQ\ZD\
+HIUR]HLPPHGLDWHO\VKRRNKLVKHDGDVLI,KDGQRWXQGHUVWRRGKLPFRUUHFWO\
+HZLVKHGPHZHOODQGORQJOLIHEXWPD\EHRQHRIP\UHODWLYHVRUIULHQGV
ZRXOGQHHGLW"
+RZFRRO,WKLQNߙVXFNWKH&(2RIWKHULWXDODJHQF\EXU\\RXUIULHQGRQVDOH
ߙ1RߙQRߙ,VD\ߙ,GRQߞWQHHGGLVFRXQWV,PLJKWQRWKDYHWKHFKDQFHWRXVHLW
ODWHUߨ/HWߞVGRZLWKRXWGLVFRXQWV
$QGZHDJUHHG
:HOOVH[ZDVVH[,ߞPJODGKHGLGQߞWIRUFHPHWROLHGRZQPRWLRQOHVVOLNHD
FRUSVH
:HILQLVKHGKHFROODSVHGQRWDEO\ORRNHGߙWKHUHZDVVWLOOWLPHOHIW
ߙ/HWPHGRVRPHFRQVXOWDWLRQIRU\RXߙKHVD\Vߙ,KDYHDQHUYHZUDFNLQJMRE
,ZRQߞWEHDEOHWRILQLVKVRTXLFNO\WKHVHFRQGWLPHDQ\ZD\ 'DPQ,WKLQNQR
QHHGWR
2ND\,DPWKLQNLQJDQHJDWLYHH[SHULHQFHLVVWLOODQH[SHULHQFH
/HWKLPFRQVXOWDQG,ZLOOWKLQNDERXWP\MRE
$QGKRZKHVWDUWHGKRZKHVWDUWHG
+HMXPSHGXSJRWWKHFDWDORJRSHQHGRQWKHEHGDQGVWDUWHGWRVKRZPHWKH
FRIILQVDQGWKHWULPSDQHOGLVSOD\
7REHKRQHVW,WKRXJKWKHZRXOGXQGHUVWDQGHYHU\WKLQJIURPRQHORRNDWP\
IDFH
+HGLGQRW
, LQWHUUXSWHG ߙPD\EH ZH FRXOG GLVFXVV VRPHWKLQJ HOVH RU FRXOG OLH GRZQ LQ
VLOHQFHKXK"
+HNLQGRIFDPHDOLYHVWDUWHGWRDSRORJL]HWKDWEXVLQHVVLVLQKLVKHDGDQGWKDW
,LQWHUUXSWHGKLPLIQHHGHG
+HVDWLQVLOHQFHDQGFDUHVVHGP\NQHH
$QG RI FRXUVH ZKHQ HOVH ZRXOG , KDYH D ERXTXHW RI IORZHUV VLWWLQJ RQ WKH
WDEOHLIQRWQRZ
+HMXPSHGZLWKDQLGHD
ߙ2K(PLO\ߙKHVDLGߙ\RXFDQQRWLPDJLQHZKDWZUHDWKVZHKDYH0DGHRI
IUHVK IORZHUV 0\ IORULVW LV VXFK D FDQG\ 6KH KDG DQ LQWHUQVKLS LQ WKH
1HWKHUODQGVDQG\RXNQRZWKH\JURZEHDXWLIXOIORZHUVLQ+ROODQG$Q\ZD\LI
\RXQHHGZHZLOOPDNHRQHLQWKHEHVWSRVVLEOHZD\
,ZDVTXLHWO\JRLQJFUD]\
ߙ:KDWZLOO\RXPDNH"
+HDQVZHUHGZLWKRXWDVLJQRIHPEDUUDVVPHQW
ߙ$ZUHDWK
,UHDFKHGIRUDFLJDUHWWHWRRNDVPRNHOLVWHGWKHFDWDORJXHMDEEHGZLWKP\
ILQJHUVDQGDVNHG
ߙ'R\RXKDYHWKLVRQH"
+HVDLGLQVXUSULVH
ߙ:HFDQPDNHRQHLIQHHGHG:K\"
ߙ:HOOߙ,VDLGߙPD\EH\RXߞOOPDNHRQHDQGKDQJLQWKHKRPH",WߞVEHDXWLIXOD
ZUHDWKZLWKIUHVKIORZHUV
<HWDJDLQKHZDVVXUSULVHG
ߙ%XWDOORIP\IDPLO\PHPEHUVDUHDOLYH
ߙ6WLOODOLYHߙOLQJHULQJ,OHWRXWDVPRNHߙ:KDWLIWKH\DUHDERXWWRGLH"
ߙ2K VWRS LW :KDW GR \RX PHDQ" 1R RQH LV JRLQJ WR GLH ߙ +H VDLG
FRQILGHQWO\
ߙ:HOO\RXFDQߞWEHVXUH\RXQHYHUNQRZZKDWKDSSHQV:KLFKFRIILQZRXOG
\RXFKRRVH"ߙ,VDLGSKLORVRSKLFDOO\GHHSO\WKLQNLQJ
$QG,DPUHDFKLQJIRUWKHFDWDORJXH
$SSDUHQWO\ WKLV ZDV JHWWLQJ WKURXJK WR KLP +H MXPSHG XS SXOOHG RQ KLV
SDQWVDQGVZHSWRXWDWWKHVSHHGRIOLJKW2QO\KHFDOOHGPHDQLGLRW
:KRߞVWKHIRROKHUH"
$Q\ZD\ WKDW ZDV LW +H GLGQߞW DSSHDU DJDLQ GLGQߞW SRS FDWDORJV DQG GLGQߞW
DVNIRUGLVFRXQWV,KDGIRUJRWWHQDERXWKLPIRUDORQJWLPH
6RZK\GLG,UHPHPEHU"
$W WKH EXV VWRS WRGD\ , DP VWDQGLQJ ZLWK D ERXTXHW E\ WKH ZD\ DQG , DP
ORRNLQJDQGWKHUHKHLV+HLVVWDQGLQJZLWKVRPHGXGHDQG,FDQVHHKLPWDONLQJ
WDONLQJߨ
$QG VR KH LV VSLQQLQJ WKH EXWWRQ RQ KLV FRDW UHSHDWHGO\ DQG KLV H\HV DUH
FRQILGHQWO\ SHHNLQJ DQG WKLV SRRU GXGH LV QHDWO\ WDNLQJ KDOI D VWHS EDFN EDFN
DQGWKHRWKHURQHLVSUHVVLQJSUHVVLQJߨ
/RRNVOLNHKHLVRIIHULQJKLPDFRXSRQRQGLVFRXQW
RIIRIJUDYHVߨ




'RJLVDPDQߞVIULHQG

, DP VLWWLQJ DQG UHDGLQJ SRUQ VWRULHV RQ WKH ,QWHUQHW :HOO FOHDUO\ WKHUH DUH
GLIIHUHQW FDWHJRULHV 2QH LV ZULWLQJ DERXW JURXSߙVH[ DQRWKHU RQH ZULWHV DERXW
DQDOߙRUDOVLQGHWDLOVDQGVRRQ
,ORRNRYHUDQGVHHDFDWHJRU\ߙl]RRSKLOHV{
:7) , WKLQN WR P\VHOIߨZKDW HQWHUWDLQHUV , IOHZ DZD\ WR ZDUPHU FOLPHV
DQGZKHQ,JRWEDFNߙ,GRQߞWNQRZ<RXUURRI
:HOOWKHIXQQ\SDUWDVLGH,RQFHKDGWKHFKDQFHWRREVHUYHVXFKDWKLQJLQP\
OLIH
$Q\ZD\ RQFH D JX\ FDPH WR PH 7KLQ EXW ZLWK D EHOO\ WRUQ SDQWV VSDUVH
KDLUQRWLFHDEO\EDOGDQGLQJHQHUDODQRUGLQDU\PLGGOHߙDJHGORVHU
+HVLWVGRZQLQWKHFKDLUYHU\FRQILGHQWO\+HWKURZVPHDEXQGOHRIPRQH\
RQ WKH WDEOH 7KH SDFN LV D ELW ZRUQ RXW DQG LWߞV REYLRXV WKDW KH GLGQߞW JHW WKH
PRQH\LQDSDFNEXWFROOHFWHGDQGVDYHGLW0D\EHKHVDYHGRQKLVSDQWV
:HOO ,ߞP WKLQNLQJ QRZ WKH ZKLPV ZLOO EHJLQ WKLV LV WKH QH[W W\SLFDO
6OXPGRJPLOOLRQDLUH
/LFNKHUHJHQWOHUVXFNKHUHORQJHUDQGGXULQJWKHRUJDVPVPDFNGLUHFWO\RQ
WKHFHQWHURIWKHIRUHKHDG%HFDXVHWKDWߞVWKHRQO\ZD\KHFDQFXP %\WKHZD\
, KDG RQH OLNH WKDW +H IRU H[DPSOH QHHGHG D VPDFN IRU IXOO UHOHDVH DQG QRW
RWKHUZLVH
6RWKHJX\LQWURGXFHGKLPVHOIߙ)HOL[$QGVR)HOL[WROGPHLQDWKLQIDOVHWWR
DERXWKLVQRQVWDQGDUGUHTXHVW
, VDW FRPIRUWDEO\ SXW P\ KDQGV RQ P\ NQHHV OLNH D JRRG JLUO LQ ILUVW JUDGH
DQG GHOYHG $QG )HOL[ MXPSHG UDQ VRPHZKHUH LQWR WKH KDOOZD\ RSHQHG WKH
GRRUߨ
$QG)HOL[EULQJVLQDVPDOOGRJJLH$QGGR\RXNQRZZKDWKHWHOOVPH"+H
WHOOVPHWKLVLV)HOL[MXQLRU
,FKRNHG
ߙ$QGVR"ߙ,DVNFRPSOHWHO\LQVKRFN
ߙ6R WKHUHߞV WKLV WKLQJߙLQWHUSUHWV )HOL[ VHQLRU ߙLQ FRQQHFWLRQ ZLWK JLYHQ
FLUFXPVWDQFHVߨ0\GRJLVROGHQRXJKDQGKHKDVQߞWKDGDELWFKHYHU:HOOKH
GRHVQߞWJHWWXUQHGRQE\ELWFKHVRIKLVEUHHG,WGRHVQߞW:KHQZHZDONRQWKH
VWUHHWKHUHDFWVPDLQO\WRZDUGVVPDOOPRQJUHOVWKRVHFKNKXFKLNKLߨNKDRߨ
ߙ&KLKXDKXDߙ,VSHFLI\DVLIXQGHUK\SQRVLV
ߙ([DFWO\ߙ+HDQVZHUVߙ$QG\RXQJZRPHQ
ߙ$QG"ߙ,ߞPJUDGXDOO\PRYLQJRXWRIWKHFKDLU
ߙ:KDW DQG" ߙ2XWUDJHV KH VWDUWV WR PRYH OLNH D VHFRQG JUDGHU ZKR GLG QRW
OHDUQWKHOHVVRQEXWLVFRQILGHQWLQKLVNQRZOHGJHRIQDWXUDOKLVWRU\ߙ,FDQߞWOHW
P\KDQGVRPHRQHIXFNVRPHPRQJUHOV
$W WKLV SRLQW , ILQDOO\ PRYHG RXW RI WKH FKDLU DQG WKH GRJ EDUNHG LQ
VDWLVIDFWLRQ
ߙ$QGZKDWGR\RXZDQWIURPPH"ߙ,DVN
ߙ:KDWGR\RXPHDQZKDW"ߙ$VNHGWKHPDQDVLI,DPIURPDGLIIHUHQWSODQHW
DQGGRQߞWXQGHUVWDQGVLPSOHWKLQJVߙ,DPVD\LQJKHJHWVWXUQHGRQDWWKHVLJKW
RI ZRPHQ <RX ZLOO IXFN KLP ZHOO DQG WKDWߞV LW ,WߞV SRVVLEOH , KDYH UHDG WKDW
\RXDUHDQDWRPLFDOO\FRPSDWLEOHZLWKKLP
, DP DQDWRPLFDOO\ FRPSDWLEOH ZLWK D GRJ 'DPQ DW OHDVW QRW KRUVHV :KDW"
1RWDEDGLGHD
1R,JHWLWFRFNURDFKHVDUHGDQFLQJDQGPDNLQJILUHZRUNVLQKLVKHDG
$QG,JHWLWLWߞVVSULQJ,JHWLW
%XW,VKRXWHG,VKRXWHGVRORXG
7KHPDQZDVVHQWWRKHOOIDUDQGORQJ

&URFRGLOHWHDUV

7KHUHߞVDP\WKWKDWFURFRGLOHVWHDUXSDIWHUHDWLQJWKHLUYLFWLP
&KRRVLQJ WR EHOLHYH WKHVH NLQGV RI QDWXUH MRNHV LV D VHFRQGDU\ TXHVWLRQ EXW
:LNLSHGLDLQVLVWVWKDWWKLVLVDIDFW
6RFOLHQWVVRPHWLPHVKDSSHQWREHFU\LQJFURFRGLOHV
$QGLPPHGLDWHO\WKHUHߞVDZLVKWRPDNHDEDJRUVKRHVRXWRIWKHP
$ FOLHQW FRPHV E\ ߙ WKLQ WDOO EURDGߙVKRXOGHUHG 1RWKLQJ VSHFWDFXODU 2QO\
WRRPLVHUDEOHߙORRNLQJ$OHUWH\HVV\PSDWKHWLFDOZD\VWULHVWRVWURNHWKHDUP
+HGRHVQߞWVWDUWLPPHGLDWHO\+HQHHGVWREHZRQRYHUDQGLQTXLUHGDERXWOLIH
+HORRNVVDGDQGXQIRUWXQDWHSHQHWUDWHVLQWRWKHVRXODQGQRGVKLVKHDG
0RQH\PDWWHUVDUHGRQHLQWKHKDOOZD\KHERRNVDVWDQGDUGSDFNDJH2UDODQG
FODVVLFVWREHQRWHG
1H[W KH SXWV WKH FORWKHV RQ WKH FKDLU VKRZHUV SXWV RQ VOLSSHUV ZUDSV D
WRZHO
$QGKHLVVLWWLQJQDNHGRQP\EHGDQGLVLQQRKXUU\WREHJLQ
ߙ:HOOWHOOPHߙ+HVD\V$QGORRNVVDG
ߙ:KDWDERXWKRQH\"ߙ,DVN
:KDWFDQDQDNHGPDQDVNWRWHOOKLPDERXWVLWWLQJRQP\EHG"/HWPHJXHVV
:KLVSHU DERXW JURXS VH[" 6WRULHV DERXW KRZ , FDUHVV P\VHOI" :KDW SRVLWLRQ ,
OLNHEHVW"
,GRQߞWFDUH,ߞOOWDONDERXWDQ\WKLQJ
ߙ+RZ\RXUHDFKHGVXFKDOLIHߨߙKHFODULILHV
$QGZDWFKHVLQWHQWO\
'DDDPQ+RZ,KDWHWKDW6WXSLGTXHVWLRQDVNHGE\VWXSLGSHRSOH
,ZDONHGZDONHGDQGUHDFKHG
,VPLOH
ߙ+RQH\LWLVQߞWLQWHUHVWLQJDWDOO<RXEHWWHUWHOOPHKRZ\RXOLNHLWDOULJKW"
$QGQHDWO\,KROGKLVGLFN
+HWDNHVDZD\P\KDQG
ߙ1RZDLW1RWVRIDVW7HOOPHGR\RXOLNH\RXUMRE"
$QGLPPHGLDWHO\QRWZDLWLQJIRUP\UHVSRQVH
-XVW GRQߞW WHOO PH WKDW \RX OLNH LW ,WߞV WHUULEOH ULJKW" -XVW OLNH WKDW ZLWK
DQ\RQHߨWHUULEOHULJKW"
$QGZDWFKHVWHUULEO\VDGO\
,UHERRW:KDWNLQGRIDQDQVZHUZDVWKLVQDNHGPDQZDLWLQJIRUWKHRQHZKR
JDYHPHPRQH\ILIWHHQPLQXWHVDJRDQGVWRPSHGLQWRWKHVKRZHU"
,I,WHOOKLPLWߞVWHUULEOHZLOOKHJHWXSDQGOHDYHWKURZLQJPHPRQH\"
ߙ:RUNLVOLNHZRUNߙ,VD\ߙLWFDQEHZRUVH:HEHWWHUGRVRPHWKLQJ
+H LPPHGLDWHO\ UHDOL]HG WKDW , ZDVQߞW JRLQJ WR FRPSODLQ DQG VWDUWHG D
PRQRORJXH
ߙ2KSRRUJLUO,XQGHUVWDQG\RXFDQߞWWHOOPHWKHWUXWK%XW\RXPXVWNQRZ
KRZVRUU\,DPIRUDOORI\RXߨ:KHQ,ORRNDWLWDOOߙ\RXQJJLUOVKRZVRUU\,DP
IRUDOORI\RXWKDW\RXUOLIHGHYHORSHGWKLVZD\,XQGHUVWDQGHYHU\WKLQJWKDWLQ
IDFWLWߞVYHU\KDUG%XWLWߞVRNHYHU\WKLQJZLOOEHILQHߨ
$WWKDWPRPHQW,ߞPLQVKRFNWRVHHKLPFDUHVVP\KDQG
ߙ&RPHKHUHP\JLUOߙKHSXOOVPHWRZDUGVKLPDQGIRUVRPHUHDVRQVWDUWVWR
FDUHVV P\ KHDG ߙ, ZLOO EH YHU\ JHQWOH ZLWK \RX QRW OLNH HYHU\RQH HOVHߨSRRU
JLUO
,ZDVWRXFKHG
+HJRWDKDUGRQ
$KKZHKDYHVHHQ\RXDOOSHUYHUWV
$QG,SXOORQDFRQGRPVLQNP\KHDGLQWRWKHSLOORZ
ߙ0\SRRUJLUOP\SRRUJLUOߨߙKHZKLVSHUVFDUHVVLQJP\KHDGDQGߨ
ߙ2XFKߙ,MXPSULJKWWKHQ&OHDUO\KHGLGQߞWDLPLQWKHULJKWGLUHFWLRQ7REH
VSHFLILFKHGLGDLPULJKWEXWQRWWKHSODFHKHSDLGIRU
ߙ2KߙRK,ߞPVRUU\ߙKHVDLGDSRORJHWLFDOO\ߙLWZDVDQDFFLGHQW
$QGJLYHVPHVXFKDGHYRWHGORRN
ߙ%HFDUHIXOGHDU,WFDQKDSSHQWRDQ\RQH
ߙ$ZZZߙ,MXPSWKHVHFRQGWLPH7KLVWLPHKHZHQWWKURXJKWKHZURQJKROH
ߙ2KߙRK6RUU\GLG,DPZURQJDJDLQ"ߙ+HZDVXWWHUO\FRQIXVHG
ߙ1Rߙ,IURZQHGߙOHWPHEHDWWKHERWWRP,WZLOOEHHDVLHUIRU\RXWRJRGRZQ
ߙ8PPߨߙKH VD\V LQVXOWHGߙ, GRQߞW ZDQW \RX WR EH DW WKH ERWWRP , ZLOO EH
FDUHIXO,ߞPVRUU\
ߙ$OULJKW
,WDNHWKHGRJJLHSRVLWLRQDJDLQ
+HSODFHVLWZKHUHQHHGHGWZRWRWKUHHIULFWLRQVDQGߨ
ߙ0RWKHUIXFNHUߙ,VKRXW
7KH WKLUG WLPH , XQGHUVWDQG WKDW DFWXDOO\ KH DLPV YHU\ ZHOO $QG ZKHUH KH
ZDQWV
,WXUQDURXQGVLWGRZQ
ߙ+RQH\ LI \RX ZDQW WR IXFN ZKHUH \RX DLP IRU \RX QHHG WR SD\ JHW D
OXEULFDQWDQGGRLW
ߙ2K VRUU\ߙVRUU\ߙKH FKDWWHUVߙ,W ZDV UHDOO\ E\ DFFLGHQW 6RUU\ \RX DUH VR
VZHHWWKDWLWߞVKDUGWRFRQWUROP\VHOI
ߙ2ND\ߙ,VD\ߙOHWPHFRQWUROHYHU\WKLQJWKHQ
$QG , OLH GRZQ RQ P\ EDFN +H LV VOLJKWO\ LQVXOWHG EXW GRHV QRW REMHFW +H
WKUXVWVIURPDERYHDQGWKHSURFHVVJRHVRQ
ߙ5HOD[ߙKHZKLVSHUVߙ\RXDUHVRWHQVH5HOD[WUXVWPHHYHU\WKLQJZLOOEH
DOULJKWP\SRRUOLWWOHJLUOߨ
+LVKDQGVVOLGHDQGVOLGHDQGVOLGHߨZKHUHDUHWKH\VOLGLQJWR"
,FDWFKKLVILQJHURQDLU5LJKWE\WKHXQSDLGVHUYLFHV
%DVWDUG
ߙ2KFRPHRQߙ+HVXGGHQO\VDLGWRPHLQDQJHUߙ-XVWRQFH
ߙ1Rߙ,DQVZHUHTXDOO\DQJULO\ߙZHGLGQߞWDJUHHRQDQDO
ߙ:K\DUH\RXEHKDYLQJOLNHDYLUJLQ"ߙ+HH[SORGHVߙ'RHVLWUHDOO\PDWWHUWR
\RX"
ߙ<HVLWGRHVߙ,DQVZHUHGFDOPO\ߙSD\DQG\RXZLOOKDYHLW
ߙ2NQRLVQRߙKHVD\VLQDVWUDQJHO\FDOPWRQHߙWKHQOHWߞVJRIRUDEORZMRE
ߙ2ND\KRQH\ߙ,JULQFKDQJLQJWKHFRQGRP,VLWEDFNEHQGRYHUߨ
$QG,UHDOL]HGWKDWWHDULQJZDVKLVWKLQJ)LUVWP\DVVWKHQP\KDLU
+HFOHDUO\QHHGHGP\VFDOSHQWLUHO\
ߙ%DE\ߙ,QRWHߙFRXOGQߞW\RXEHDELWFDUHIXO"5HOD[,ߞOOGRLWDOO
ߙ<HV\HVJRRGRKKKVRRJRRGߙKHUHOD[HGߙFRPHRQP\JLUOFRPHRQߨ
$QGߙKRS
(\HVEXOJLQJ,\HOO
1R,FDQWDNHLWGHHS%XWQRWVRVXGGHQO\,ZDVQߞWUHDG\$QG,FDUHIRUP\
KDLU
+HORRVHQVKLVJULSDQG,ERXQFHRIIVFDOGHG
ߙߨߙ,JLYHLQJHQWO\KRDUVHDQGJUDEVRPHDLU
ߙ,WKXUWV"ߙ+HDVNVJXLOW\ߙ6RUU\,GLGQߞWPHDQWR
$QGVRILYHWLPHV
ߙ2Kߙ(YHU\WLPHKHVD\VV\PSDWKHWLFDOO\
%LWFKߙ,WKLQNWRP\VHOI
+H WDNHV KLV WLPH WR GUHVV ZKHH]HV KDV EHHQ VLWWLQJ RQ WKH EHG IRU WKH ODVW
ILYHPLQXWHVORRNLQJVDGDQGKDOIߙDVNVKDOIߙFRQILUPV
ߙ:HOO,ZLOOFRPHDJDLQ"
$QGFRQWLQXHV
ߙ<RXNQRZ,DOZD\VXQGHUVWDQGJLUOV,IHHOVRVRUU\IRU\RXߨ


6FURRJH

7REHKRQHVW,ZDVDJLIWWRKLP
+HZRXOGKDYHQHYHUDJUHHGRQVXFKDQH[SHQVHLQKLVOLIH
:HOO,ZDVQߞWH[DFWO\DJLIWߨLWZDVDEHW
2QHRIP\IDQVFDOOHGPHDYHU\JRRGDQGSOHDVDQWPDQ,WKRXJKWKHFDOOHG
IRUKLPVHOIEXWQR
+HWROGPHKHKDGPDGHDEHWZLWKIULHQGRQDJLUO:KDWWKHSRLQWRIWKHEHW
ZDVQRWLPSRUWDQWߙMXVWDQDJUHHPHQWWKHRQHZKRORVWWKHEHWZRXOGSD\IRU
WKHRWKHUߞVYLVLWWRDJLUO6RP\IDQKDGORVW
&RXOG\RXYLVLWKLPIRUWKHQLJKW(PLO\",I\RXDUHIUHHߙWKH\ZLOOFRPHDIWHU
\RXDURXQGHLJKW,ZLOOEHWKHUHXQWLOOQLJKWDQGZLOOSD\IRULW
(PLO\LVDOZD\VJODGIRUZRUN,JRWXSGUHVVHGXSDQGORRNHGGDPQZHOO
+DOISDVWHLJKWWKHGRRUUDQJߙ&RPHRXWODG\ZHDUHZDLWLQJIRU\RX
$FDUKDGSDUNHGDWP\GRRU,JRWLQ7ZRPHQZHUHLQWKHFDU
,GLGQRWH[SHFWDGLUW\WULFN P\IDQZRXOGQߞWGRLWWRPH DQGWKHUHIRUH,ZDV
QRWVWUDLQHG7KHUHZDVQRWULFNDFWXDOO\
7KH\RXQJHU PDQ WKH RQHLQWKH GULYHUߞV VHDWߙZDVWKH GULYHU SHUVRQDO DV,
OHDUQHGODWHU $QGWRKLVULJKWVDWDFODVVLFDOFKXEE\PDQ
7KH&KXEE\WXUQHGDURXQGFRQWHQWO\FKXFNOHGDQGWROGPH
ߙ5LFKDUG
$QGWXUQHGWRWKHGULYHU
ߙ:HOOZKDWDUHZHZDLWLQJIRU"/HWߞVJRDQGVWRSE\WKHVWRUH
:H GURYH QRW WRR ORQJ WDONHG DERXW QRWKLQJ WKH &KXEE\ VHHPHG SOHDVHG
(LWKHUZLWKP\RUKLVSUHWW\VWUDQJHZLW
$QGZHVWRSSHGE\WKHVWRUH
ߙ'R\RXGULQNDQ\WKLQJJRUJHRXV":KDWVKDOOZHWDNH"ߙ+HDVNHGPH
$QGVRPHZKDWVWUDQJHO\DVLIIHDULQJWKDW,ZRXOGJRZLWKKLPKHVDLG
ߙ<RXVLWKHUH,ߞOOJRDORQH
ߙ%DE\WDNHDFKDPSDJQHߙ,VDLGSOD\IXOO\ߙRUZKLVNH\$OULJKW"
$QGKHOHIW7KHGULYHUDQG,VDWLQVLOHQFH)LYHPLQXWHVOLWHUDOO\SDVVHGE\
7KH &KXEE\ FDPH RXW ZLWK D VPDOO SDFNDJH VWLFNLQJ WKH PRQH\ LQ KLV ZDOOHW
RSHQHGWKHGRRUOHDQHGLQDQGߨ
7KHFRLQVVFDWWHUHGDOORYHUSODFHLQWKHFDU
ߙ7XUQRQWKHOLJKWߙ5LFKDUGRUGHUHGFDPHRXWDQGVWDUWHGWRORRNDURXQGRQ
WKHIORRU
+HIRXQGWZRLPPHGLDWHO\7KHWKLUGRQHDSSDUHQWO\OHIWIRUWKHFRXQWU\RI
ORVWWKLQJV
ߙ&RPHKHUHPDNHVRPHOLJKWZLWKWKHOLJKWHUߙKHFDOOHGWKHSRRUGULYHUDJDLQ
DQGKHZHQWDURXQGWKHFDUKRSHOHVVO\
5LFKDUG ORRNHG DURXQG WKH GULYHU PDGH WKH OLJKW WKH FRLQ FRXOG EH IRXQG
QRZKHUH
,VDWLQWKHEDFNDQGVLOHQWO\ZHQWFUD]\6XFKDIXVVIRUWKHFRLQV
ߙ:KDWߞVJRLQJRQߙWKH&KXEE\PXWWHUHGߙZKHUHGLGWKH\JR"&DQ\RXPRYH
P\VHDW"0D\EHLWߞVVRPHZKHUHRYHUWKHUH
,W QHHGHG WR EH VHHQ 5LFKDUG NQHHOHG GRZQ FURXFKHG DQG FUDZOHG DQG
IXPEOHGRQWKHIORRUZLWKKLVSDOP7KHYROXPHRIKLVDVVVWXFNRXWRIWKHGRRU
WR WKH RXWHU VLGH 7KH GULYHU PDGH D IDFH DV LI KH ZDVQߞW ZLWK XV DQG MXGJLQJ
IURPKLVIDFHSUD\HGWRQRWEHIRUFHGWRSXOOXSWKHSDVVHQJHUVHDWߨ
7KH FRLQ GLGQߞW KDYH D FKDQFH LW ZDV FDXJKW ZLSHG DQG VHQW EDFN WR WKH
ZDOOHW7KHGULYHUDGMXVWHGWKHVHDWDQGWKH&KXEE\KDGDOPRVWJRWLQZKHQߨ
ߙ2K,IRUJRWFLJDUHWWHVZLOOEHULJKWEDFNߨ
$QGZHQWRXWRIWKHFDU
ߙ'LG\RXVHHLW"ߙ$VNHGWKHGULYHUZKHQ5LFKDUGFORVHGWKHGRRU
ߙ+H GLGQߞW ERRN \RX DW KLV RZQ H[SHQVH GLG KH" +H ZRXOG KDYH GHILQLWHO\
JRQHFUD]\ߨ
ߙ6FURRJH"ߙ,ZRQGHUHGLQRQHZRUG
ߙ:RUVH :K\ GR \RX WKLQN KH GLGQߞW WDNH \RX WR WKH VWRUH ZLWK KLP" +H LV
DIUDLGWKDW*RGIRUELGKHZRXOGVSHQGWRRPXFKߙ*ULPO\TXLSSHGWKHGULYHU
ߙ,KDYHQRHQHUJ\OHIW
$QGFRPLQJOLYHKHFRQWLQXHG
ߙ7KDWߞVRND\WKLVLVWKHODVWZHHN,ߞOOEHZRUNLQJIRUKLP,ߞYHDOUHDG\IRXQGD
SODFHWRJRߨ
7KH&KXEE\JRWLQDQGZHURGHRQ
7KHKRXVHZDVKXJHDQGEHDXWLIXOEXWNLQGRIWRRHPSW\)URPWKHRXWVLGHLW
ZDVFOHDUPRVWRIWKHZLQGRZVGLGQߞWHYHQKDYHFXUWDLQV
$FWXDOO\RQO\WKHODUJHOLYLQJߙURRPߙVWXGLRRQWKHJURXQGIORRUZDVRFFXSLHG
7KHUH ZDV VWXII VFDWWHUHG DURXQG HYHU\ZKHUH 7KHUH ZDV D ERWWOH RI H[SHQVLYH
ZKLVNH\RQWKHWDEOHDQGDJODVV
ߙ:HOO JR WDNH D VKRZHU IRU QRZ ߙ 5LFKDUG WROG PH DQG VWDUWHG TXLFNO\
SODFLQJWKHERWWOHLQWRWKHEDU$QG,UHDOL]HGZHZLOOGHILQLWHO\QRWEHKDYLQJ
WKHH[SHQVLYHVWXIIWRGD\
+RZFORVHLWZDVWRUHDOLW\,XQGHUVWRRGRQO\DIWHUFRPLQJRXWRIWKHVKRZHU
7KHUHZDVQRZKLVNH\RQWKHWDEOHDQ\PRUHDQGLQLWVSODFHDORQHVWRRGDERWWOH
RIFKHDSOLTXRU7KHODQGVFDSHZDVDFFRPSDQLHGZLWKWZLFHDVFKHDSZKLWHQHG
FKRFRODWHEURNHQLQWRSLHFHV
$SSDUHQWO\ , FRXOG QRW DOZD\V KLGH P\ HPRWLRQV DQG WKH ORRN RQ P\ IDFH
FOHDUO\RR]HGRIVXUSULVH+XJHKRXVHH[SHQVLYHIXUQLWXUHDQGDSHUVRQDOGULYHU
GLGQRWTXLWHWDOO\ZLWKWKDW
ߙ2K \RX GRQߞW NQRZߙFDWFKLQJ P\ H\H 5LFKDUG JRW ZRUULHG DQG VWDUWHG WR
FDUU\QRQVHQVHߙ,ILUVWWKRXJKWRIWDNLQJVRPHWKLQJGLIIHUHQWEXWWKHVHFWLRQZLWK
PRUHH[SHQVLYHGULQNVZDVFORVHGVR,GHFLGHGWRQRWZDLWIRUWKHVHOOHUߨ,ZDV
VRDQ[LRXVWRJHWWR\RXߨ
$QGKHUHDFKHGWRPHZLWKKLVSDZV
$QHDUO\VWDUWPHDQWDQHDUO\HQG
$FWXDOO\KHZDVQߞWVWUDLQHG+HVOLJKWO\PRYHGVTXHDNHGFDOPHGGRZQDQG
UROOHGRYHU
ߙ6KRXOG,SRXU\RXVRPH"ߙVXGGHQO\DVNHG5LFKDUG
, ZDVQߞW RIIHUHG DQ\WKLQJ EXW FKHDS FKDPSDJQH EXW VRPHKRZ , QHHGHG WR
GULQN
$QGKHSRXUHGWKHERR]HLQWRRXUJODVVHV,WRRNDVLSKHWRRNDVLSZLQFHG
VODSSHGP\DVVDQGVDLG
ߙ:HOOOHWߞVJHW\RXLQWKHVKRZHUODGLHVILUVW
ߙ$KDߙ,PXUPXUHGDQGPDUFKHG
7KLVWLPH,WRRNTXLWHDVKRUWVKRZHU/HVVWKDWKHFRXQWHGRQ%HFDXVHZKHQ
, XQH[SHFWHGO\ DSSHDUHG DW WKH GRRUV RI WKH URRP , FDPH DFURVV D YLHZ RI
5LFKDUG TXLFNO\ KLGLQJ WKH ERWWOH RI ZKLVNH\ LQWR WKH EDU ZLWK RQH KDQG DQG
ZLWKWKHRWKHUKHVKRYHGWKHJODVVLQWKHUH-XGJLQJIURPKLVEXOJLQJH\HVDQG
MHUNLQJWKURDWKHKDGMXVWPDQDJHGWRZHWKLVWKURDW:LWKRXWPHRIFRXUVH
,SUHWHQGHGWRQRWKDYHQRWLFHGLW)RUVRPHUHDVRQ,WXUQHGFKHHUIXO
2QWKLVWKHIXQPRYHGLQWRWKHVHFRQGURXQG
ߙ6KRXOG,VWD\RUJR"ߙ,QHDWO\DVNHGDIWHUWKHVHFRQGWLPHZKHQLWZDVFOHDU
WKDW5LFKDUGQHHGHGWRVOHHSߙ,FDQFDOODWD[L
ߙ1RQRߙRIIHQGHGKHVDLGߙ\RXZHUHERRNHGWLOOPRUQLQJVRVWD\1RQHHG
IRUWD[L7KHGULYHUZLOOWDNH\RXEDFNLQWKHPRUQLQJLWߞVKLVMRE
$SSDUHQWO\WKHLGHDWKDW,ZRXOGDVNIRUFDEPRQH\JDYHKLPPHQWDODJRQ\
$OWKRXJK,ZRXOGQRWGRVR
7KHQZHOD\GRZQKHSXWP\KDQGRQKLVWKLQJDQGPRPHQWDULO\IHOODVOHHS

 
7KHGULYHUSLFNHGPHXSDIWHUWHQ
5LFKDUGZDVVOXJJLVKLQGLIIHUHQWDQGYLVLEO\SOHDVHGZLWKWKHEORZMREWKDWKH
KDGGHPDQGHGLQWKHPRUQLQJ:HOOZKDWߙDOOLQFOXVLYHDQGSDLGIRU
:HNLQGO\VDLGJRRGE\H ZLWKREYLRXVPXWXDOUHOLHI DQG,JRWLQWRWKHFDU
ߙ'LGKHWRUWXUH\RX"ߙ7KHGULYHUDVNHGZKHQZHGURYHDZD\
ߙ2KQRߙ,DOPRVWVWDUWHGEXWFRXOGQߞWUHVLVWߙOLVWHQZKDWDIXFNLQJVFURRJH
'RHVKHHYHQSD\\RXZHOO"
$QG,WROGKLPDERXWWKHOLTXRUDQGWKHZKLVNH\
/DXJKLQJWKHGULYHUKDQGHGPHDOLJKWHUDQGVDLG
ߙ%HOLHYH PH HYHU\ WLPH , VQDWFK P\ VDODU\ IURP KLP IRU WZR ZHHNV KH
FRQVWDQWO\PRDQVWKDWKHKDVJRWQRPRQH\+HGRHVJURFHU\VKRSSLQJKLPVHOIߙ
KHLVDIUDLGWRORVHDFRLQߨ$QGKHLVVXFKDVPXJ+HDOZD\VJHWVWKHEHVWIRU
KLPVHOIEXWIRURWKHUVߨORRNDWWKDWKRXVHDQGZKDW":KRߞVDOOWKDWIRU"
%XWWKDWߞVQRWKLQJ+HRQFHGHFLGHGWRJHWPDUULHGORRNHGIRUJLUOVRQ7LQGHU
DQG WKHUH DUH D ORW RI JLUOVߨ, UHPHPEHU KH RQFH FDOOHG RQH RXW RQ D GDWH
SHUIXPHGJRWGUHVVHGZHZHUHRQRXUZD\DQG,ߞPWHOOLQJKLP
ߙ0D\EH\RXߞOOJHWKHUIORZHUV",WߞVDGDWHDIWHUDOO
$QG KHUHߞV ZKDW KH VDLG <RX WKLQN VR" 7KLV ZRQߞW GR" 6WRS E\ WKH IORZHU
VKRS,ߞOOEX\VRPHWKLQJߨ
,ZDV EORZQDZD\:H VWRSSHG E\ WKH IORZHUVKRS KH ZHQWDQG,ߞPVLWWLQJ
ZDLWLQJ
$QG ,ߞP WKLQNLQJ QRZ ZLOO EH WKH HYHQW RI WKH FHQWXU\ߙ WKH VFURRJH ZLOO
VSOXUJHRQURVHV
+H ZDV WKHUH IRU TXLWH D ORQJ WLPH DQG , WKRXJKW KH KDG D FROODSVH DW WKH
WKRXJKWRISD\LQJPRQH\ߨ
+HFRPHVRXWZLWKDFORYHLQKLVKDQG2QH,QDFHOORSKDQH

6WRQHU

+HFDPHWRRNRIIKLVVKRHVSDLGWKHPRQH\DQGODXJKHG
+HZDVREYLRXVO\KLJK
ߙ2RRRKߙ,VD\ߙKRQH\\RXVHHPKDSS\
ߙ:HOO\HDKߙKHVD\Vߙ,RR]HRIKDSSLQHVVߨ
$QGJLYHVPHDELJVPLOH
+H ZHQW LQWR WKH EDWKURRP +H WRRN D ORQJ VKRZHU KH ZDV SUREDEO\ VWRQHG
IURPWKHZDUPZDWHU$QG,DPVLWWLQJDQGWKLQNLQJZKDWWRGRZLWKKLP
7KHDQVZHUFDPHE\LWVHOI
+HFDPHRXWWRRNRIIWKHWRZHOVWRRGWKHUHDQGFKDWWHG$QG,ߞPVPLOLQJDW
KLP
+H DVNHG PH LI , KDG VRPHWKLQJ WR HDW 7KH VWDQGDUG WKLQJ ߙ FDPH KHUH WR
PXQFK
2I FRXUVH , JRW KLP HYHU\WKLQJ IURP WKH IULGJH :KDW HOVH FRXOG , GR ZLWK
KLP"
+HVDWLQWKHNLWFKHQHDWV
ߙ&DQZHZDWFKDPRYLH"ߙ+HDVNV
$QG ,ߞP WHOOLQJ KLP ZKDW PRYLH \RXU WLPH LV WLFNLQJ \RX SDLG WKH PRQH\
DOUHDG\DQG,NLQGRIQHYHUUHWXUQWKHP
)XFNWKHPRQH\OHWߞVZDWFKDPRYLHߙ+HWHOOVPH
,SOD\HG$OLFHLQZRQGHUODQG)LUVWWKLQJWKDWFDPHWRP\PLQG+HVDWDQG
HYRNHG
7KHQKHJRWDUROOHGSDSHURXWRIKLVSRFNHW
ߙ:DQWVRPH"
:KDWWKHKHOOߨVXUH,KDGQߞWKDGIXQLQDORQJWLPH
:HOOZHJRWKLJK,IRUJRWDERXWWKHWLPH+HHYHQZHQWWRWKHVWRUHERXJKW
VRPXFKIRRGWKDWLWODVWHGIRUWKHQH[WWZRZHHNV
$QGWKLVDIWHURXUQRQߙVWRSVPRNLQJVHVVLRQ
:HWDONHGDERXWOLIH$QGZKHQ\RXDUHKLJKLWIHHOVFRROWRWDONDERXWOLIH,
UHDOL]HGKHKDGDORWRIPRQH\2QO\,GLGQߞWTXLWHFDWFKZKHUHKHJRWLWDOOIURP
+HFDPHKHUHWRUHOD[+HGLGQߞWFDUHDERXWVH[+HQHHGHGFRPSDQ\
+HVWD\HGIRUDQRWKHUILYHKRXUV:HGLGQߞWHYHQKXJ1RWKLQJKDSSHQHG
6HULRXVO\VXFKDIXQJX\
$Q\ZD\JRRGGD\VKDSSHQ,ߞPVRKXPDQO\JUDWHIXOWRKLP
,KDGDJUHDWUHVW
2QO\,ORVWP\DSSHWLWHIRUTXLWHVRPHWLPHߨ

7ZRIRURQH

-DQHOLYHVQRWIDUDZD\IURPPHDQGLVERUHGWRGHDWKLQDVPDOOEXWGHFHQW
DSDUWPHQW
-DQH DQG WKH DSDUWPHQW ZHUH VXSSRUWHG E\ D PDUULHG DQG ULFK )DW &DW ZKR
-DQHFDOOV6ZHHWLH
7KH )DW &DW OLWHUDOO\ LQKHULWHG -DQH $V DW WKH EHJLQQLQJ KLV IULHQG XVHG WKH
DSDUWPHQWWRJHWKHUZLWK-DQHWKHQWKLVIULHQGKDGVRPHSUREOHPVZLWKEXVLQHVV
DQGGHVSLWHWKHVHSUREOHPVKHVWLOOIRXQGDSODFHIRU-DQHUHFRPPHQGLQJKHUWR
6ZHHWLH
7RJHWKHUZLWKWKHDSDUWPHQW
7KH 6ZHHWLH VXIIHUV IURP VKRUWQHVV RI EUHDWK DQG VRPHWLPHV LPSRWHQFH LV
UDUHO\YLVLWHGE\KHUXVXDOO\IRUDVKRUWWLPHDQGPDLQO\WRKDYHDFKDW+HQHHGV
-DQH LQ WKH UROH RI D PLVWUHVV DV D PHUH VWDWXV EHFDXVH KH VHHPV WR JHQXLQHO\
EHOLHYHWKDWPHQRIKLVFLUFOHVLPSO\QHHGWRNHHSPLVWUHVVHV
7KH 6ZHHWLH KDV D WHUULEOH IODZ +H LV QRW YHU\ PXFK JHQHURXV :HOO KH
VXSSRUWV-DQHLQWKHPDWWHURIWKHDSDUWPHQWDQGWKHIODWEXWVKHFOHDUO\LVQRW
SURYLGHGHQRXJKIRUFORWKHV$QGVKHKDVDSDVVLRQIRUGUHVVHV
7KDWߞVZK\-DQHFKHDWVRQ6ZHHWLHDVPXFKDVVKHFDQLQKLVDEVHQFH
1RVKHGRHVQߞWZRUNDV,GREXWVKHQHYHUPLQGVWRHDUQVRPHPRQH\
6ZHHWLH KDV RQH XQGHQLDEOHSULYLOHJH+H KDVDEVROXWHO\QR LOOXVLRQVDQGDV
-DQHWKLQNVKHKDVQRSUREOHPJXHVVLQJZKHUHVKHJHWVQHZFORWKHVIRUZKLFK
KLVPRQH\ZRXOGQHYHUEHHQRXJKIRU
6RPHKRZLWVHHPVWRPHWKDWKHHYHQSHUFHLYHVWKLVFLUFXPVWDQFHZLWKVRPH
UHOLHI
$Q\ZD\,JRWFDUULHGDZD\
,DOZD\VFDOO-DQHLIVRPHRQHHYHUZDQWVDOHVELDQDFW2UJURXSVH[ZKLFK
KDSSHQVTXLWHRIWHQ
6KHLVJRRGORRNLQJZHOOWDNHQFDUHRIDQGYHU\SOHDVDQW

 
$Q ROG PDQ FDOOHG PH RQH GD\ %\ WKH ZD\ KH FDOOHG PH GXULQJ DQ HQWLUH
ZHHNDQGWKHQH[WGD\KHJRWLQWHUHVWHGDVNHGIRUDJLUOIULHQGSURPLVHGWKDWKH
ZLOOVRRQFRPHDQGOHIWPHWKLQNLQJWKDWWKLVLVDQRWKHUlFKDWWHU{
$QGFDQ\RXEHOLHYHLWKHGLGFRPH
$QG DVNHG IRUVH[ ZLWK D JLUOIULHQG 3D\PHQWIRU WZR SOXV OHVELDQ DFW:HOO
ZHGRQߞWMXVWSXWRQDVKRZIRUQRWKLQJ
+HVOLJKWO\EDUJDLQHG'LVFRXQWVIRUZKROHVDOHVHUYLFHV
-DQHDUULYHGWHQPLQXWHVDIWHUKLP7KH8QFOHFKHHUHGXSTXLWHLPPHGLDWHO\
+HVHHPHGWROLNHXV
7KH8QFOHREVHUYHGXVZLWKRLO\H\HVJHQHURXVO\VSLWRXWGLUW\MRNHVLQTXLUHG
IRUDORQJWLPHZKHWKHUZHUHDOO\OLNHGHDFKRWKHUDVNHGXVWRNLVVHDFKRWKHU
ZHHQWKXVLDVWLFDOO\OLHGDQGMXVWDVHQWKXVLDVWLFDOO\NLVVHG+HWROGXVWREHUHDG\
DVVRRQDVKHJHWVRXWRIWKHVKRZHUPHDQLQJKHZDQWHGXVWREHXQGUHVVHGDQG
WRRNWKHSRVLWLRQV
ߙ6RJLUOVOHWߞVVWDUWߙ+HVDLGFRPLQJRXWRIWKHVKRZHUZLWKDELJKDUGߙRQ
YLVLEOHXQGHUQHDWKWKHWRZHOߙ6KRZPHKRZ\RXPDNHORYHWRHDFKRWKHU'RD

$QGKHVDWGRZQLQP\FKDLU
:HPDGHDVKRZߨ
-DQHߞVORQJKDLULVDEHDXWLIXOWKLQJ
+HHQWKXVLDVWLFDOO\PDVWXUEDWHG-DQHDVHQWKXVLDVWLFDOO\OLFNHGP\WKLJKQHDU
WKDWSODFHZKLFKLQKLVYLHZVKHPXVWKDYHOLFNHG
, ZDV XQGHUQHDWK DQG VRPHZKHUH IDU IURP KLV H\HV DQG , KDG QRWKLQJ WR
ZRUU\ DERXW %XW -DQH QHHGHG WR ZRUU\ ߙ VKH LV VFDUHG RI EHLQJ WLFNOHG
HVSHFLDOO\DWWKHLQQHUSDUWRIKHUWKLJK
ߙ*LUOV\RXVHHPWREHVZLQGOLQJߨߙWKRXJKWIXOO\VDLGWKH8QFOHLQDIWHUDIHZ
PLQXWHVGHVSLWHRXUDUWLVWLFDOO\PXWXDOPRDQLQJ
ߙ/HWߞV GR WKLV \RXߞOO EH O\LQJ GRZQ KH SRLQWHG WR -DQH  KHUH OHJV RQ WKH
IORRUDQG\RXZLOOEHULJKWKHUH,ZDQWWRVHHLWDOO
:KDWDGLUHFWRU
7KHQ , IDNHG DV ZDV QHHGHG WKH 8QFOH IXULRXVO\ IRXJKW IRU DQ RUJDVP DQG
PRDQHGLQGXHWZLWK-DQHDQGGLUHFWHGWKHSURFHVV
ߙ+RQH\PD\EH\RXߞGOLNHWRMRLQ"ߙ-DQHSOD\IXOO\WKUHZWKHEDLW
$QGVRKHMRLQHG
+HFRQWLQXHGWRGLUHFWWKHSURFHVV-DQHSRVLWLRQHGKHUVHOIRYHUKLP,WRRND
SODFHRQWRSDVZHOOEXWKLJKHURQKLVIDFH GDPQZK\GRQߞWWKH\VKDYH"
+H FDPH YHU\ IDVW VRPHKRZ LQVWDQWO\ EOHZ DZD\ ORVW LQWHUHVW WR XV DQG
VWDUWHGWRJDWKHUKLVWKLQJ$OWKRXJKKHFRXOGKDYHVWD\HGZLWKXVIRUDVHFRQG
UXQ7LPHDOORZHG
$QGWKHQߨ
$QGWKHQZHKDGDVPDOOVFDQGDO7KH8QFOHZDQWHGDSDUWRIKLVPRQH\EDFN
7KHORJLFZDVVLPSOH
:HOO KH ZDV UHDG\ WR SD\ IRU WKH OHVELDQ DFW EXW RQO\ -DQH ZRUNHG VR
FRQVHFXWLYHO\,QHHGHGWRUHWXUQWKHPRQH\IRUP\SDUW
$QGZKDWZDV,GRLQJMXVWJHWWLQJSOHDVXUHHYHQKHGLGVRPHRIWKHZRUN
ߙ$KDLQ\RXUGUHDPVߙ:HWROGKLPDOPRVWLQXQLVRQDQGH[SODLQHGWRKLP
IRUDORQJWLPHWKDWKHZDVZURQJ
)LIWHHQPLQXWHVODWHUKHILQDOO\UHDOL]HGWKDWLWZRXOGQߞWZRUNRXWDQGWROGXV
WKDWKHZRXOGQߞWYLVLWXVHYHUDJDLQDQGWKDWZHZHUHELWFKHV
:KDWFDQ,VD\"

%XVLQHVVPDQ


7KHDSDUWPHQWZDVPLVHUDEOH7KHZDOOSDSHUFOHDUO\KDGQRWEHHQFKDQJHGLQ
WKLUW\\HDUVWKHSDLQWHGIORRUERDUGVZHUHFUHDN\WKHIXUQLWXUHZDVEURNHQGRZQ
DQG WKH FDUSHW ZDV EHGUDJJOHG ,QLWLDOO\ , KDG GRXEWHG WKDW WKH PDQ ZKR KDG
LQWURGXFHGKLPVHOIDV(GZDUGKDGWKHPHDQVWREX\SOHDVXUHIURPPH+RZHYHU
KHSDLG6DPP\FDEGULYHUDQGERG\JXDUG,IHOWDVVXUHG
6DPOHIWDQGZHHQWHUHGWKHURRP
,I,KDGQRWVHHQWKHDSDUWPHQWQXPEHURQWKHGRRU,PLJKWKDYHPLVWDNHQWKH
URRP IRU D ZDUHKRXVH 7KHUH ZHUH EDJV SODFHG DORQJ WKH ZDOOV RI WKH KLGHRXV
OLWWOHURRP7KH\WRRNVRPXFKVSDFHWKDWOHIWOLWWOHVSDFHIRUOLYLQJ
7KHRQO\IXUQLWXUHLQWKHURRPZDVDQROGVLGHERDUGDQGDWZRߙVHDWHUVRIDVR
ULFNHW\WKDWLWORRNHGXQVDIHIRUVHDWLQJ
$ODSWRSDQGDZRUQVXLWSHUKDSVWKHRQO\YDOXDEOHLWHPVLQWKHDSDUWPHQWߙ
KXQJRQWKHGRRURIWKHVLGHERDUG
ߙ+DYHDVHDWߙVDLG(GZDUGZLWKDELJVPLOHJHVWXULQJWRWKHVRID
ߙ&XWHߙ,KDGQRWKLQJPRUHWRVD\
ߙ'R QRW SD\ DWWHQWLRQ ߙ KH VDLG LQ D IXVV DQG VXGGHQO\ VDLG ZLWK SULGH
SRLQWLQJWRWKHEDJVߙWKDWߞVP\PHUFKDQGLVH
ߙ$KKߙ,UHDFKHGRXWDQGEHJDQWRSXOORIIP\MDFNHW,GHFLGHGWRQRWWDNHD
VKRZHUDV,IHDUHGWKHVWDWHRIWKHEDWKURRP
6H[ ZLWK KLP ZDV TXLWH VWDQGDUG MXVW OLNH DQ\ RQH RI P\ RWKHU VH[
H[SHULHQFHV +H VORZO\ FDUHVVHG P\ EUHDVW VODSSHG P\ DVV ZKLFK REYLRXVO\
VKRXOG KDYH WXUQHG PH RQ WKHQ KH IXVVLO\ JRW RQ WRS VTXHDNHG UHOD[HG DQG
UROOHGRYHU
,FRXOGVHQVHWKDWKHGLGQߞWQHHGPRUH
:HOD\VLGHE\VLGHDQG,VOXJJLVKO\QRWHGWKDW,KDGWRHLWKHUOHDYHQRZRUOLH
ZLWKKLPIRUWKHUHVWRIWKHKRXU
ߙ,ZDQQDJHWPDUULHGߙ+HDQQRXQFHGLQDVOLJKWO\K\VWHULFDOWRQH
ߙ7KHQ GRߙ, DQVZHUHG FDOPO\ DQG UHDFKHG IRU D FLJDUHWWH DQG DQ DVKWUD\
VLPXOWDQHRXVO\FRQVLGHULQJKLPDVVRPHRQHߞVKXVEDQG
+HORRNHGDWPHUHSURDFKIXOO\DVLI,ZDVQRWLQP\RZQVHQVHV
ߙ:KDWGR\RXPHDQ":KRLVVKHDQGZKRDP,"
+H ZDV ULJKW -XGJLQJ IURP WKH VWDWH RI WKH DSDUWPHQW D ZHGGLQJ VHHPHG
WHUULEO\IDUDZD\
ߙ:KDW"6KHGRHVQߞWZDQWWRJHWPDUULHG"
ߙ1RߙKHVDLGVDGO\ߙEXWVKHZLOOFKDQJHKHUPLQG
+HFRQWLQXHGZLWKDGUHDP\ORRNLQKLVH\HV
ߙ'R\RXNQRZZKDWVKHORRNVOLNH"%HDXWLIXO6KHLVDSURIHVVRUDQGWHDFKHV
*HUPDQߨ
ߙ<RX VSHDN *HUPDQ WRR" ߙ , DVNHG SROLWHO\ MXVW WR ILOO LQ WKH JDSV RI WKH
FRQYHUVDWLRQ
1R RI FRXUVH QRW ߙ KH DGPLWWHG ߙ, GRQߞW HYHQ NQRZ P\ ODQJXDJH
SHUIHFWO\ߨ6KHHYHQOLYHVLQDELJDSDUWPHQWFDQ\RXLPDJLQH"
+H WRRN D GUDJ RI KLV FLJDUHWWH DQG PXVHG ߙ,WߞV RND\ , ZLOO EH SURPRWHG ,
KDYHDWDOHQW\RXNQRZ
ߙ:KDWGR\RXGR"ߙ,DVNHGZLWKLQWHUHVW,FRXOGQߞWTXLWHOLQNKLVKRPHZLWK
KLVWDOHQWV
ߙ%XVLQHVVߙ+HGHFODUHGSURXGO\SRLQWLQJWRWKHEDJV
ߙ:KDWߞVLQWKHP"
ߙ%DJVߙ+HMXPSHGRIIWKHEHGDQGSXOOHGLWHPVRXWRIWKHEDJVߙ/RRN
,W ZDVVRPHNLQG RIWUDVK 3LQN l'ROFH *DEDQDV{ ZLWK WKUHDGV VWLFNLQJRXW
IURP WKH OLQHV VPHOOLQJ OLNH PXVW\ OHDWKHUHWWH UHG DQG \HOORZ l&KDQHO{ EDJV
ZLWK WDFN\ JROGHQ FKDLQV DQG DEVROXWHO\ LQVDQH l/RXLV9XLWWLRQV{ ZLWK VPDOO
JODVVOLNHILJXUHVZKLFK(GZDUGSURXGO\FDOOHGl:DURYNVLUKLQHVWRQHV{
ߙ/LVWHQߙ+HVSRNHZLWKWKHWRQHRIDSHUVRQZKRREYLRXVO\MXVWKDGDQLGHD
ߙ<RXSUREDEO\KDYHVRPDQ\JLUOIULHQGVFDQ\RXKHOSPHVHOOWKHVH"ߙ<RXߞOOJHW
DFRPPLVVLRQIURPPHILYHGROODUVHDFKߨ
ߙ, DPDIUDLG,ߞOOVHOO WKHP DOO RIIߙ, FKXFNOHGVDUFDVWLFDOO\ , ZRXOGFHDVH DOO
UHODWLRQVKLSVZLWKVRPHRQHWKHPRPHQW,VDZWKHPFDUU\LQJDEDJOLNHWKDW
+HGLGQߞWQRWLFHWKHVDUFDVPDQGIRUWKHQH[WWZHQW\PLQXWHV,JRWWRNQRZ
WKHPDUYHORXVVWRU\RI(GZDUGDQGKLVELJEXVLQHVVZRUOG
7REHYHU\EULHIVKRUWO\DIWHUPRYLQJIURPDQRWKHUFLW\KHPHWVRPH&KLQHVH
PHQ ZKR VROG KLP D FROOHFWLRQ RI WKHVH EDJV IRU FKHDS ILIWHHQ GROODUV DSLHFH
(GZDUGKDGXVHGWKHPRQH\VHQWE\KLVPRWKHU
7KHSODQZDVVLPSOH(GZDUGZRXOGWDNHLQWKHEDJVDWZKROHVDOHSULFHVDQG
VHOOWKHPLQWRWKHVPDOOPDUNHWV
+RZHYHUWKHUHZDVRQHMXLF\GHWDLOODFNLQJWKHJRRGVZHUHQRWDXWKHQWLFDWHG
DQG WKH &KLQHVH PDQ KDG YDQLVKHG DQG DV LW ODWHU WXUQHG RXW LW ZDV SURYLQJ
LPSRVVLEOHWRVHOOWKHVHEHDXWLHVZLWKRXWDXWKHQWLFDWLRQGRFXPHQWV 7KHTXHVWLRQ
VWLOO UHPDLQHG ߙ :KR ZRXOG SXUFKDVH WKHVH EDJV DQ\ZD\ ZLWK RU ZLWKRXW
DXWKHQWLFDWLRQ" 
(GZDUG KDG WKHQ GHFLGHG WR VHOO WKHVH RII WKURXJK )DFHERRN +H KHDUG
VRPHZKHUH WKDW LW FRXOG EH GRQH +H FUHDWHG D JURXS VSDPPHG HYHU\RQH KH
NQHZZLWKWKHOLQNVEXWVXUSULVLQJO\LWKDGQRWZRUNHGRXW)DVKLRQLVWDVGLGQRW
ZDQWDQ\OHDWKHUHWWH&KDQHOVQRU' *VZLWKWDFN\OLQHV
'XULQJ WKH FRXUVH RI WKUHH PRQWKV (GZDUG VROG D JUDQG WRWDO RI HLJKW EDJV
7KHPRQH\VHQWE\KLVPRPZDVTXLFNO\GUDLQHG$IWHUVL[PRQWKV(GZDUGZDV
LQGHEW
ߙ6R ZLOO \RX KHOS PH VHOO WKHVH" ,ߞOO VKDUH WKH LQFRPH ߙ (GZDUG VDLG
FRQILGHQWO\ DV LI ZH ZHUH WDONLQJ DERXW SURILWV LQ WKH PDUJLQV RI FUXGH RLO
PLOOLRQV
ߙ6RUU\,FDQߞWߙ,VKUXJJHGߙ,KDYHQRWDOHQWߨ
(GZDUG VHHPHG VXGGHQO\ ZLOWHG ,W VHHPHG WKDW WKH EULJKW IXWXUH KH KDG
HQYLVLRQHGZLWKKLVORYHUZDVEHFRPLQJPRUHDQGPRUHLQDFFHVVLEOH
,QWKDWPRPHQW,IHOWVRUU\IRUKLP+HZDVDIRROEXWVWLOODQKRQHVWIRRO
ߙ/RRNߙ, FDUHVVHG KLV VKRXOGHU LQ D IULHQGO\ PDQQHU ߙZKDW LI \RX WULHG
PRGHOLQJ <RX KDYH WKH ORRNV IRU LW DQG \RX ZLOO KDYH JLUOV IDOOLQJ RYHU
WKHPVHOYHVIRU\RX
,WZDVWUXHWKDW(GZDUGKDGDQLFHORRN+HKDGDYHU\WKLQERG\*UHHQH\HV
WKDWHYHU\JLUOGUHDPVRIDQGLGHDOOLSV6XFKDEHDXWLIXOPDQ,WZDVDSLW\WKDW
KHZDVGHSULYHGRIEUDLQVGHVSLWHVXFKDQH[FHOOHQWDSSHDUDQFH
ߙ1Rߨ,KDYHDOUHDG\PDGHXSP\PLQGDERXWGRLQJWKLVEXVLQHVV,ZLOOWHOO
\RXDVHFUHW,DOVRKDYHDQHZEXVLQHVV,HYHQWRRNVRPHPRQH\RXWRQFUHGLWߙ
+HVDLGFRQVSLUDWRULDOO\
,VXGGHQO\UHDOL]HGKRZKHREWDLQHGWKHPRQH\IRUP\VHUYLFHVEXWDORXG,
VDLGVRPHWKLQJHOVH
ߙ:KDWEXVLQHVV"ߙ,DVNHG
+LVH\HVEULJKWHQHGXS
ߙ6DOHRIGHVLJQHUWULQNHWV
$WWKLVPRPHQW,FKRNHGRQP\FLJDUHWWHVPRNHDQGFRXJKHG
+HZDLWHGXQWLOP\FRXJKLQJVWRSSHGDQGFRQWLQXHG
ߙ:HOO\HDKWULQNHWV:LWKHQJUDYLQJV
ߙ$QGZKRDUHJRLQJWREH\RXUEX\HUV"ߙ,FKXFNOHGVNHSWLFDOO\ߙ$QGZKHUH
ZLOO\RXJHWWKHP"$QGZKRZLOOHQJUDYHWKHP"ߙ$PDVVRIORJLFDOTXHVWLRQV
DURVHLQP\KHDG
ߙ, DOUHDG\ KDYH WKHP ߙ +H VDLG LQ WKDW FRQILGHQW WRQH , DOUHDG\ NQHZ DV ,
UHFDOOHGWKHFUXGHRLOPLOOLRQ
ߙ,ZLOOEX\WKHPDQGRIIHUWKHPWRRQOLQHGHDOHUVDQG,ߞOODOVREHVHOOLQJWKHP
WKURXJK)DFHERRNP\VHOIߨ
ߙ:KDWߞVHQJUDYHGRQWKHP"ߙ,DVNHGZLWKQRKLQWRIPRFNHU\LQP\YRLFH
ߙ&DUORJRV/RRN
+LVH\HVWRRNRQDEULJKWHUVKLQH
+HWRRNWKHODSWRSJRWRQWKH,QWHUQHWDQGWDSSHGKLVILQJHURQWKHVFUHHQ
ߙ/LNHWKHVHߨ
ߙ%XGG\GR\RXZDQWDSLHFHRIDGYLFH"ߙ,VDLGVHULRXVO\
ߙ'RQߞWJRLQWRWKLVEUHDNLWRII<RXFKRVHDYHU\EDGEXVLQHVV
ߙ:K\"
ߙ%HFDXVH \RXU EXVLQHVV ZRQߞW EH D VXFFHVV %HFDXVH QR RQH IXFNLQJ QHHGV
DQ\WULQNHWV
ߙ(QRXJKEHLQJFOHYHUߙ+HVXGGHQO\JRWDQJU\ߙRWKHUVVHOOWKHVH&DQߞW\RX
VD\DQ\WKLQJQRUPDO"
ߙ+HUHߞVZKDWߞVQRUPDOQRRQHQHHGVWULQNHWV(VSHFLDOO\WKHVHWULQNHWVZLWK
HQJUDYLQJVRIFDUORJRV,IVRPHRQHKDVD%0:WKHQKHGHILQLWHO\KDVD%0:
WULQNHW,IQRWWKHQKHGHILQLWHO\GRHVQߞWQHHGWKHWULQNHW
ߙ<HVWKH\GRߙ+H\HOOHG
,WRRNWKDWDVP\FXHWROHDYH,VWRRGXSDQGEHJDQWRJHWGUHVVHG
ߙ/LVWHQGHDU\RXKDYHQREXVLQHVVWDOHQWQRXQGHUVWDQGLQJDQGQRSODQ<RX
DUHMXVWEX\LQJWUDVKDQGWU\LQJWRVHOOLWRIIVRPHZKHUHHOVH6R,ߞPVRUU\EXW
\RXZRQߞWEHDEOHWRGRLW'RQߞWJRLQWRWKLVEXVLQHVVDQ\IXUWKHURUHOVH\RXߞOO
JHWLQWRPRUHGHEWDQGQRJRRGZLOOFRPHRXWRILWDOO
+HGLGQRWWDNHP\DGYLFHZHOO
ߙ3HRSOHZLOOILQGZKHUHWRVHOOWKHPDQGKRZSURILWDEO\WRGLVSRVHWKHPߙ+H
\HOOHGߙ1RW\RX%HFDXVH\RXDUHDZKRUH
ߙ2ND\,KDYHWRJRߙ,VDLGFDOPO\
ߙ<HV*HWRXWߙKHKLVVHG
+HFRQWLQXHGLQDKLJKߙSLWFKHGYRLFHVHHPLQJO\VSHDNLQJWRKLPVHOIߙ,ZLOO
EHULFK$QGVKHZLOOORYHPH$QG,ZLOOJHWPDUULHG<RXDUHVWXSLG

/LFNHUV

$QRWKHUOLFNHUFDPHE\
7KH\FDQEHYHU\IXQ
7KH\ZLOOVXFNNLVVUXPEOHߙDQGQRZD\FDQ\RXSXOOWKHPE\WKHHDUV
)XFNLQJLVDVHFRQGDU\LVVXHWRWKHPLWߞVPRUHLPSRUWDQWWRWDVWH
,ZRQGHUZK\WKH\DUHQߞWVFDUHG
$OOLQDOOP\SURIHVVLRQFDQEHYHU\XQVDIH%XWWKH\VWLOOOLFN
(YHU\RWKHURQHZLOOGHILQLWHO\OLFN
(YHU\WKLUGRQHZLOOGHILQLWHO\EHLPSRVVLEOHWRSXOODZD\
*RXUPDQGV,FDOOWKHP
0DQ\PHQOLNHWROLFN$QGWKH\GRQߞWMXVWOLFNWKH\PDNHORYH
7KH\EXU\WKHPVHOYHVVRGHHSEHWZHHQP\OHJVWKDWWKHRQO\WKLQJ,FDQVHH
DUHWKHLUH\HEURZV7KH\ZRUNVRVHOIOHVVO\WRRDVLIWKH\DUHGLJJLQJDWUHQFK
7KHPRVWLPSRUWDQWWKLQJE\WKHZD\LVIRUWKHPWRQRWUDLVHWKHLUKHDGVDQG
WU\WRORRN\RXLQWKHH\H ZKLFKWKH\RIWHQGR 
7KHQWKH\KDYHDORRNRIDVROGLHULQWKHWUHQFKHVDQG,HQGXSILQGLQJP\VHOI
WU\LQJQRWWRODXJK
,QVWHDGRIODXJKWHU,IDNHSDVVLRQZKHH]HV6RPHWLPHVKHWXUQVLQWRRUJDVP
0RVWRIWKHPGRQߞWHYHQNQRZKRZWROLFNZHOO7KH\RQO\WKLQNWKH\NQRZ
6RPHWLPHVRQHRIWKRVHVRߙFDOOHGVSHFLDOLVWVZLOOVWDUWOLFNLQJPHDQG,KDYH
WRVWRSP\VHOIIURPKRZOLQJLQSURWHVW7KH\DUHVXSSRVHGWREHYHU\QHDWDQG
JHQWOHWKHUHDQGQRWMXVWJHWLQSRVLWLRQDQGVWDUWDEVRUELQJ,WDOPRVWPDNHVPH
ZDQWWRZLVKWKHPl%RQDSSHWLW{DQGRIIHUWKHPVRPHFXWOHU\DQGQDSNLQV
%XWWKHQWKHUHDUHDOVRWKHH[FHSWLRQV
7KLV RQH OLFNHG PH JRRG , HYHQ IRXQG P\VHOI OLNLQJ LW , IHOW OLNH DQ LFHߙ
FUHDP
+HNLVVHGUXPEOHGPRDQHGFDUHVVHGP\OHJVDQGHYHQDVNHGLILWIHOWJRRG
ߙDOODURXQGDYHU\VHQVXDOJX\
,QWKHHQGRIFRXUVHKHZDVRQDKLJKDQGZDVUHDG\LQDPLQXWH
+HGLGQߞWJRIRUDVHFRQGURXQG
7KDQN*RG
,WODVWHGIRUW\PLQXWHV
+HWROGPH,ZDVWDVW\

7KH%UDYH

2KKRZWKH\IXFNHGPHWKRVHEUDYHPHQ
2QHFDPHHDUO\LQWKHPRUQLQJ
+HXQGUHVVHGZDVKHGDQGOD\GRZQ
+HWKHQRIIHUHGPHWRGRLWZLWKRXWDFRQGRP
ߙ6RUU\,GRQߞWIXFNZLWKRXWDFRQGRPߙ,UHSOLHG
+HVWDUWHGWRZKLQH
ߙ&RPHRQ,DPFOHDQQRGLVHDVHߨ
+HHYHQJDYHPHSXSS\ߙGRJH\HV
,ZDVDGDPDQWDERXWLW
ߙ,GRQߞWFDUHZKHWKHU\RXDUHFOHDQRUQRW:HZRQߞWGRDQ\WKLQJZLWKRXWD
FRQGRP
+HFRQWLQXHGWRZKLQH
ߙ%XWZK\"$UH\RXVFDUHG",DPYHU\FOHDQ
+RZWKDWZRUGJHWVRQP\QHUYHVߙlFOHDQ{
ߙ/LVWHQLVWKHZRUGlFOHDQ{ZULWWHQRQ\RXUIRUHKHDG"1R"7KDWߞVWKDWWKHQ
+HFRQWLQXHVWRGRQRWKLQJEXWZKLQH
ߙ&RPHRQ,DPFOHDQ,KDYHDZLIH,DPFOHDQGRQߞW\RXEHOLHYHPH"
,IHOWVRUU\IRUWKHZLIH
,JRWIHGXSDQGWROGKLP,EHOLHYHKLP
ߙ<RXGRQߞWKDYHDQ\WKLQJEXWPD\EH,GR<RXGLGQߞWWKLQNRIWKDWGLG\RX"
+HWKRXJKWIRUDPRPHQWEHIRUHDQVZHULQJ
ߙ<RXDUHO\LQJ\RXDUHFOHDQLWߞVREYLRXV
:KDWGRHVKHPHDQKRZWKHIXFNFRXOGLWEHREYLRXV"+RZ",DPVRIHGXS
+RZ FDQ SHRSOH EH VR VWXSLG +H IRUJRW ZKHUH KH LV" 'RHV KH WKLQN KH LV
LPPRUWDO"
+HWKRXJKWIRUDQRWKHUPRPHQWDQGFDPHXSZLWKDUHDVRQWKDWKHSUREDEO\
EHOLHYHGZRXOGFRQYLQFHPH
ߙ,GRQߞWDFKLHYHJRRGKDUGߙRQLQDFRQGRP,RQFHZHQWWRDJLUOVKHDOZD\V
OHWPHJRZLWKRXWDFRQGRP
+HLVVXFKDQLGLRW+HREYLRXVO\GLGQRWXQGHUVWDQGWKDWWKHJLUOZKRDJUHHG
WR JR ZLWKRXW D FRQGRP ZLWK KLP FRXOG KDYH HDVLO\ JRQH EHDU ZLWK VRPHRQH
HOVH DV ZHOO $QG KH KDG SUREDEO\ JRQH RQ WR KLV ZLIH ZLWK D ERXTXHW ZLWK
VH[XDOO\ WUDQVPLWWHG GLVHDVHV DQG ZKR NQRZV ZKDW HOVH ,Q DQ\ FDVH JRRG IRU
KLPDQGPD\EHKHߞOOILQGDFXUHIRUDOOKLVGLVHDVHV
,VWDUWHGWRJHWDQJU\
ߙ(LWKHUZHGRZLWKDFRQGRPRUOHWߞVVD\RXUJRRGE\HV
+HGLGQRWORRNSOHDVHGEXWDJUHHGDQ\ZD\:HSXOOHGLWRQ
+HSXWLWLQPHZKLOH,ZDVRQP\EDFN,ZDVQRWDIRRO(YHQZLWKP\OHJV
ZLGHDSDUW,ORRNHGEDFNWRVHHZKDWKHZDVGRLQJ
7KHEDVWDUGZDVSXOOLQJRIIWKHFRQGRP
+HDSSDUHQWO\WKRXJKWKHFRXOGGRLWZLWKRXWPHQRWLFLQJDWKLQJ
,TXLFNO\JRWXSDQGWROGKLP
ߙ7KDWߞVLWJRWRKHOOWR\RXUJLUORUER\ZKRHYHU\RXZDQW,GRQߞWQHHGWKLV
FLUFXV
+HVWRRGXSDQGVPLOHGOLNHWKHIRROKHZDV,KDQGHGKLPKLVEHORQJLQJVDQG
VDZKLPRII
+HPDGHPHPRUDOO\H[KDXVWHG6XFKHQFRXQWHUVKDSSHQHGRQDVXUSULVLQJO\
UHJXODU EDVLV 2QH RXW RI WHQ ZLOO DVN IRU VH[ ZLWKRXW D FRQGRP 7KH\ DOO
SUREDEO\WKLQNWKH\DUHLPPRUWDO,EHJDQWRVKDNHLQDQJHUDV,UHFDOOHGKLVl,
DPFOHDDDQ{ZKLQLQJ
,KDGGRQHP\PDNHXSWKLVPRUQLQJLQYDLQ

<HWL

'R\RXNQRZZKDWD\HWLLV"$\HWLLVDVQRZPDQ
+DYH\RXHYHUVHHQWKLVZRQGHUIXOFUHDWXUHDOLYHDQGLQWKHIOHVK",KDYH
3HRSOH VD\ WKHVH VQRZPHQ FDQ EH VHHQ KLJK XS LQ WKH PRXQWDLQV DQG LQ
IRUHVWHGUHJLRQV:HOO,KDGWKHFKDQFHWRVHHRQHLQWKHFLW\
,WZDVDQXQXVXDOFDVHDV,UDUHO\YLVLWHGFXVWRPHUV+HKDGFDOOHGDQGDVNHG
PHRXWDQGVR,ZHQW
,VWHSSHGRXWRIWKHFDUDQGORRNHGXSDWWKHKRXVH,WZDVDQROGDQGEHDXWLIXO
VWXFFRKRPH,UDLVHGP\KHDGDQGVWDUWHGFRXQWLQJWKHIORRUV
,VWRRGDWWKHGRRUDQGKHVLWDWHGOLNHDVFKRROJLUO,KDGQߞWPDGHVXFKDYLVLW
IRU D ORQJ WLPH , ZDV VOLJKWO\ DIUDLG DV , XVXDOO\ HQWHUHG WKHVH KRXVHV
DFFRPSDQLHG E\ P\ UHJXODU WD[L GULYHU +RZHYHU VLQFH KH ZDV XQIRUWXQDWHO\
XQDYDLODEOH,KDGWRJRZLWKVRPHRQHHOVH
7KH FOLHQW ZDV D PDWXUH PDQ REYLRXVO\ RYHU ILIW\ +H ZDV GHILQLWHO\ VKRUWHU
WKDQPH(YHQWKRXJK,ZDVZHDULQJSXPSVKHEDUHO\UHDFKHGP\VKRXOGHU
:HOO\RXNQRZKRZWKHUHDUHKDLU\PHQ"7KHRQHVZLWKWKHLUKDQGVOHJVDQG
DVVFRYHUHGLQKDLU"
$QG WKHQ WKHUH DUH WKH RQHV ZKR DUH RYHUO\ KDLU\ 1RW RQO\ KDLUߙFRYHUHG
KDQGV OHJV DQG DVV HYHQ WKH WUDLO RQ WKHLU EHOOLHV KDUPRQLRXVO\ WUDFNV XS WR D
GHQVHIRUHVWRQWKHFKHVWDQGFRQWLQXHVDVVWXEEOHRQWKHLUIDFHV
7KHQWKHUHߞVWKHPDLQHOHPHQWߙWKHLUEDFNV,QVXFKFDVHVWKH&UHDWRUGRHV
QRW VK\ DZD\ IURP WKH EDFN &RYHUHG ZLWK KDLU OLNH D PRVV PRRUODQG ZLWK QR
FOHDULQJ LQ VLJKW ,W KDSSHQV :KHWKHU LW LV KRUPRQHV RU MXVW 0RWKHU 1DWXUHߞV
SURWHFWLRQIURPWKHFROG
6WLOOWKHUHߞVQRWKLQJWREHDIUDLGRI6RPHODGLHVOLNHEUXWDODQGKDLU\PHQ
%XWOHWߞVJHWEDFNWRRXUFOLHQW
+HLQWURGXFHGKLPVHOI/HWߞVFDOOKLP$UWKXU,FDQQRWUHYHDOKLVUHDOQDPHIRU
REYLRXVUHDVRQVEXWLWVRXQGHGOLNHVRPHWKLQJOLNHWKDW
2XU KDQGVRPH LQ DGGLWLRQ WR HYHU\WKLQJ HOVH ZDV ORQJߙKDLUHG DQG ߙ SD\
DWWHQWLRQߙJUD\ߙKDLUHG6QRZPDQ
7KRVH PHQ IURP WKH l+RFKODQG{ DGYHUWLVHPHQWV KDG QRWKLQJ RQ KLP $V ,
ODWHUGLVFRYHUHGKLVHQWLUHERG\H[FHSWIRUKLVIRUHKHDGSDOPVDQGKHHOVZDV
FRYHUHGLQZKLWHIXU,IRQO\,FRXOGPDNHFRDWRXWRIWKDW:K\WRUWXUHVRPDQ\
SRRUPLQNV"
$UWKXU LPSRUWDQWO\ VPRNHG D SLSH ZLWK VRPH VZHHW WREDFFR DQG VKRZHG PH
DURXQGWKHKRXVH2KKHZDVDPDQZKRNQHZH[DFWO\ZKDWKHZDQWHG$WHDFK
VWHSRIWKHWRXUKHPDGHQRWHRIWKHSDUWRIWKHKRXVHZKHUHKLVWXPP\VKRXOG
EHFDUHVVHGDQGRYHUWKHUHZKHUHKHQHHGHGDOLJKWEORZMREEXWRQWKHVWRROLQ
WKHEHGURRPKHZDQWHGPHWROHDQRQP\EDFN
$QH[FHOOHQWWRXUDZDLWHGPH
7KHPDUDWKRQFRXOGKDYHEHHQDVXFFHVVLIQRWIRURQHlEXW{:LWKDJHWKH
)HQJߙVKXL RI WKH ERG\ EHFRPHV JUHDWO\ GLVWXUEHG DQG KLV GLFN UHIXVHG WR JHW
KDUGDQGVRRXUPDUDWKRQWXUQHGLQWRDVWUXJJOHIRUVXUYLYDOIRURXUIXUU\IULHQG
%XWRIFRXUVH,
PH[DJJHUDWLQJWKHIULHQGZDVQRWKDLU\DWDOO+HZDVVLPSO\
O\LQJ LQ WKH PLGGOH RI D VQRZߙFRYHUHG IRUHVW DQG REYLRXVO\ ZDQWHG WR VOHHS
0RUHWKDQWKDW,WKLQNKHZDVMXVWG\LQJDQGGUHDPWRIEHLQJOHIWDORQH
$KWKRVHROGPHQ
7KH\NQRZLWWKH\DUHDZDUHWKDWLWLVWLPHWRUHVWDQG\HWWKH\NHHSIRUFLQJ
LW , VRPHKRZ UHPHPEHUHG *UDQGSD $UQROG ZLWK KLV GULHG DSULFRW :LWK WKH
VQRZPDQ ZH ZHQW WKURXJK WKH WKRUQV WR WKH VWDUV :H PDQDJHG LW EXW LW ZDV
GLIILFXOW
$V ZH VDLG RXU JRRGE\HV KH DVNHG KRZ ROG , WKRXJKW KH ZDV , DQVZHUHG
KRQHVWO\WKDW,GLGQRWNQRZWKLQNLQJDORXGWKDWKHZDVWRRIDUIURPKLVILIWLHV
SUREDEO\VL[W\ILYH\HDUVROG"
ߙ, WXUQHG  WKH RWKHU GD\ P\ VZHHW ODG\ ߙ $UWKXU VDLG WKH SULGH VKLQLQJ
WKURXJKKLVYRLFH
*UDQGSD$UQROG&RPHDJDLQZHZLOOILJKWIRU\RXUGULHGIUXLW
1RWKLQJLVORVW\HWDVLWWXUQVRXW

7KHZRQGHUHU

+HVHHPHGVK\ZKHQKHDUULYHG6RVK\WKDW,HYHQWKRXJKWWKDWWKLVPLJKWEH
KLV ILUVW WLPH 0HQ ZHUH XVXDOO\ UHOD[HG DURXQG PH QRW VK\ $OWKRXJK KH GLG
QRWORRNOLNHDYLUJLQLWLVXQOLNHO\WKDWDPDQLQKLVIRUWLHVZRXOGEHXQߙIXFNHG
,VHQWKLPLQWRWKHVKRZHU+HFDPHRXWLQDWRZHO
, JRW RQ DOO IRXUV DQG VWDUWHG WR SHUIRUP D VWDQGDUG EORZMRE RQ KLP EXW KH
GLVPLVVHGPH
+HWROGPHKHGRHVQߞWQHHGVH[KHKDVVH[DWKRPH
'DPQ,WKRXJKWWRP\VHOIKHZLOOSUREDEO\DVNIRUVRPHWKLQJVSHFLDO,GRQߞW
OLNHlVSHFLDOV{QRRQHNQRZVZKDWWRH[SHFWZKHQLWFRPHVWRVSHFLDOV
,QVWHDG KH VDLG &DQ ZH QRW KDYH VH[" , ZLOO MXVW ZDWFK KRZ \RX WRXFK
\RXUVHOI
(DV\
,OD\GRZQVSUHDGP\OHJVOLNHLQSRUQDQGVWDUWHGWRILQJHUP\VHOIKHUHDQG
WKHUH :LWK P\ RWKHU KDQG , VTXHH]HG P\ WLW , KDG LW GRZQ SDW ߙ , NQHZ WKH
PRYHVWRGRDQGKRZWRPDNHWKHYR\HXUOLNHLW
:KHQ\RXDUHGRLQJLWIRU\RXURZQSOHDVXUHLWߞVQRWDVSHFWDFXODUVLJKWDQG
\RXGRQߞWQHHGLWWREH:KDWߞVWKHUHWRZDWFK"/HJVVWUHWFKHGRXWO\LQJGRZQ
TXLHWO\QRPRDQLQJQR\HOOLQJIRFXVHGYHU\OLJKWO\PRYLQJ\RXUILQJHULQRQH
SODFHߙWZRPLQXWHVDQG\RXFXP
%XWPHQGRQߞWZDQWWKDW
7KH\ ZDWFK SRUQ DQG WKH\ DUH XVHG WR WKDW YHUVLRQ ߙ ZKHUH \RX QHHG WR UXE
\RXUFOLWRULVWLOO\RXJHWFDOOXVHVVWLFN\RXUPLGGOHILQJHURUWZR ZKRHYHQGRHV
WKDW" LQ\RXUYDJLQDDQGPRDQORXGO\
,UHPHPEHUDORQJWLPHDJR,JRWFDUULHGDZD\ZLWKRQHRIP\FOLHQWV,ZDV
GUXQNDQGLQWKHSURFHVV,PRDQHG2RRR<DDDOLNHD*HUPDQ
, WKRXJKW KH ZRXOG UHDOL]H WKDW , ZDV MRNLQJ 1R KH GLGQߞW JHW LW DW DOO +H
WKRXJKWLWZDVKRZLWVKRXOGDOZD\VEHGRQH
/HWߞVJHWEDFNWRWKLVRQH
,VDWWKHUHVSUHDGRXWP\OHJVPRDQHG$DDߙRRRUXEEHGRXWFDOOXVHVDQG
PDGHDQRUJDVPLFIDFH
+HVDWLQIURQWRIPHZDWFKHGPDVWXUEDWHGDQGFDPH
7KDWZDVLW
+HJRWGUHVVHG,JRWGUHVVHG+HDVNHGPHIRUFRIIHHDQG,PDGHKLPVRPH
:KLOHKHGUDQNZHWDONHGDOLWWOH,WWXUQHGRXWKHGLGQߞWIXFNPHDVKHGLGQߞW
ZDQWWRFKHDWRQKLVZLIH(YHU\WKLQJZDVJUHDWZLWKKLVZLIHߙWKH\IXFNVKH
VXFNVHYHU\WKLQJߞVQRUPDO%XWVKHUHIXVHVWRPDVWXUEDWHLQIURQWRIKLPߙVKHLV
VK\+HKDGVHHQVRPHWKLQJOLNHWKLVRQO\LQSRUQDQGKHZDQWHGWRVHHLWLQUHDO
OLIH
6R,VKRZHGKLPDQGOHWKLPWKLQNWKDWWKLVLVKRZZRPHQPDVWXUEDWH
2QO\ , FRXOGQߞW XQGHUVWDQG ZK\ KH WRRN D VKRZHU VLQFH KH ZDVQߞW JRLQJ WR
IXFNPHDQ\ZD\
+HZDVKHUHIRUOHVVWKDQDQKRXU

7KH$FWRU


+HLVDQDFWRU
+HVRPHWLPHVSOD\VVHFRQGDU\UROHVLQ7KLUG:RUOGWHOHYLVLRQVKRZV
+LVWKHDWHUKDGORQJIDLOHGDQG\HWKHVWD\HG
+HLVGUDPDWLFLQHYHU\JHVWXUHEXW,FDQVHHWKDWKHLVREVHUYLQJWKHUHDFWLRQ
RIWKHDXGLHQFHZLWKRQHH\H
7KHDXGLHQFHRQP\EHKDOIDSSODXGVDQGKRSHVIRUWKLVSHUIRUPDQFHWRHQG
,WߞVDOZD\VWKHVDPHSHUIRUPDQFH
+HXQGUHVVHVJRHVLQWRWKHURRPDQGLPPHGLDWHO\IDOOVRQWKHEHG
+HVD\V
ߙ2KFRPHWRPHP\GHDU
7KHlGHDU{DVLQPHDQVZHUVWKDWKHVKRXOGWDNHDVKRZHU
ߙ2KKRZ\RXWRUWXUHPHߙ+HH[FODLPVWUDJLFDOO\%XWVWLOOKHUXVKHVLQWRWKH
EDWKURRP +H FRPHV RXW SXOOLQJ RQ KLV IDW ZKLFK LQ KLV GHHS FRQYLFWLRQ DUH
ZHOOߙSXPSHGPXVFOHV
+HORRNVDWPHLQYLWLQJO\ZLWKSULGH
,WKLQN'RQߞWQHLJK
+HWKURZVKLPVHOIRQWKHEHGDQGVD\V
ߙ/RRN+HLVKDQGVRPHULJKW"
)URPVWXQWHGEXVKHVSHHSVDWKLQDQGVPDOOEXWLQVXUJHQWRQHߙH\HGVQDNH
$V D FKLOG , ZDV WROG WKDW O\LQJ ZDV QRW JRRG :HOO FKLOGKRRG KDV VLQFH
HQGHG
,UROOP\H\HVDQGVD\
ߙ0PP-XVWKDQGVRPH
ߙ2RRRߙ+HWKULYHVRQWKLVVWDJHߙ2RRRFRPHWRPH
$QGWKHVHFRQGDFWVWDUWV
6RPHKRZKHORYHVWREHRQKLVVLGH
+H OLHV GRZQ WZLWFKLQJ ZLWK QR UK\WKP DQG KDPPHUV PH DOO WKH ZKLOH
ZKLVSHULQJLQP\HDU
ߙ:KDW EDEH" +XK" +XK" :KDW" 1R RQH IXFNHG \RX OLNH WKLV EHIRUH ULJKW"
7HOOPHKRQHVWO\1RRQH$DDK<HDK<RXZLOOUHPHPEHUPH<HHV
$IWHUVH[KHOLNHVWRWDONDERXWWKHHWHUQDO
,GRQߞWXQGHUVWDQGZK\KHGRHVQߞWOHDYHLPPHGLDWHO\
+HWUXO\EHOLHYHVWKDWZKHQZHGRQRIXFNZHQHHGWRWDON
$QGDVIXFNLQJWDNHVRQO\ILIWHHQPLQXWHVWKHUHPDLQLQJIRUW\ߙILYHPDNHP\
EUDLQVXIIHU
+HMXPSVRQWRWKHFKDLUWDNHVKLVKHDGLQKLVKDQGVFORVHVKLVH\HVUXEVKLV
WHPSOHVDQGWHOOVPHZKDWDQDUWLVWLFSHUVRQKHLVDQG\HWKHLVQRWXQGHUVWRRG
E\WKRVHJUD\JUD\JUD\SHRSOHߨ
+RZWLUHGRKKRZWLUHGKHLVRIWKLVSRLQWOHVVOLIH
$QGKHFRPHVWRPHEHFDXVHKHLVIHGXS+LVZLIHLVVRFRPSHOOLQJWKDWLW
PDNHVKLPVLFNKLVPLVWUHVVLVVRGHSUDYHGWKDWLWPDNHVKLPWLUHGKHZDQWVD
QRUPDOIXFNLQJRQWKHVLGHIURPDZRPDQZKRZLOOWUHDWKLPDVDPHUHPDQDQG
QRWVHHKLPOLNHD*RG
,GRQߞWGDUHWRUHPLQGKLPRIKLVGLVFUHSDQFLHVߙKHLVQRWXQGHUVWRRGEXW\HW
KHLVD*RG
$WWKHHQGRIWKLVGUDPDWLFPRQRORJXHKHWHOOVPH
ߙ$KZKDWGR\RXNQRZ:KDDW"
,VLWWKHUHVLOHQWLQWKHDXGLHQFH
+HUDSHVP\EUDLQ
, KLQWHG KLP RQFH WKDW VH[ LV P\ MRE DQG WKDW KH VKRXOG OHDYH P\ EUDLQV
DORQH
%XWKHLVVRSDVVLRQDWHDERXWKLPVHOIWKDWKHGRHVQRWQRWLFH
7KLVLVKLVIRXUWKYLVLWWRPH
$IWHUWKHWKLUGYLVLW,KDGUHQDPHGKLPLQP\FRQWDFWVWRl0RURQ{



&DOOߙFHQWHU

$VLWKDSSHQV,JHWFDOOVIURPYHU\VWUDQJHPHQ
, VRPHWLPHV IHHO OLNH D FDOOߙFHQWHU RSHUDWRU ZKR SURYLGHV HPHUJHQF\ VH[XDO
DVVLVWDQFHDQGPLVFHOODQHRXVKHOSWRVXUURXQGLQJPDVWXUEDWRUVDQGRWKHUWDONHUV
/HWߞVFODVVLI\WKHPLQWRWKHIROORZLQJJURXSV
7DONHU9XOJDULV
0DVWXUEDWRU9XOJDULV
7DONHU9XOJDULV

ߙ+HOOR , IRXQG \RX RQ  $UH WKRVH \RXU SKRWRV WKHUH" <RX DUH (PLO\
ULJKW"5LJKW"<RXDUHEHDXWLIXO
$QGWKHQKHKDQJVXS
,WVWLOOLVDTXHVWLRQZK\KHFDOOHG
+HSUREDEO\KDGQRRQHWRVKDUHKLVLPSUHVVLRQVZLWK
%XWWKDQNVIRUWKHFRPSOLPHQWV

 

ߙ+L,IRXQG\RXUSURILOH7KRVHDUH\RXUSKRWRVULJKW"0PPPVRJRUJHRXV
$QG \RXU WLWV DUH WKH\ ERXQF\" $QG ZKDWߞV \RXU VL]H" 2K VR JRRG , ZDQWHG
RQHOLNH\RX2ND\,ߞOOFRPHE\RQHGD\
%\WKHZD\WKHUHDUHORWVRIZRQGHUHUV
7KH\FDOOFODULI\DVNDERXWGHWDLOVߨDQGWKDWߞVLW
7KH\ZDQWWRIXFNEXWWKH\KDYHQRPRQH\
6RWKH\MXVWFDOOWRWDON


 

ߙ+LLV\RXUQDPH(PLO\"(PLO\,ߞYHJRWDTXHVWLRQGR\RXVKDYH\RXUOHJV"
$KDߨDKDߨDQG\RXUSXVV\"+RZORQJDJRZDVLW":KDWGRHVLWORRNOLNHQRZ"
,VWKHUHDQ\WKLQJOHIW"
7KHXSVHWUHDFWLRQ
ߙ1RRR" &DQ \RX WHOO PH ZKR KDV DQ\ KDLU OHIW" , QHHG KHU WR EH XQVKDYHG
1R":KDWGRQߞW\RXKDYHDQ\JLUOIULHQGV"<RXPXVWNQRZVRPHRQH2UPD\EH
DQ\IDPLOLDUJLUOV",ߞOOSD\JRRGPRQH\
WKHLQGLJQDQWUHDFWLRQ
ߙ1R":KDWIDVKLRQLVWKDW"(YHU\RQHߞVEDUH
*RWLWWKHJX\ZDQWVDEHDU
8QIRUWXQDWHO\ZHGRQߞWKDYHDQ\OHIWLQRXU]RR

 

ߙ+L:KDWߞVLQWKHVWDQGDUGSDFNDJH"$KDDKDߨDQGZKDWDERXWDQDO":K\LV
LWVHSDUDWH":KDWLI,ZDQWLWDOOWRJHWKHU":K\GR,QHHGWRSD\DQDGGLWLRQDO
IHHIRUWKDW":KDWߞVWKHGLIIHUHQFHWR\RX":KDW\RXWKLQN\RXDUHWKDWWLJKWWR
DVNIRUDGGLWLRQDOSD\"
,VD\JRRGE\H,WHOOKLP,ߞPEXV\<RXFDQߞWH[SHFWDQ\WKLQJJRRGIURPWKH
RQHVZKREDUJDLQRQWKHSKRQHDQGSUHVVXUH\RX

 

ߙ+H\ EDE\ :KDWߞV XS" +RZ PXFK ZLOO EH RUDO VHSDUDWHO\" :K\ VR
H[SHQVLYH",FDOOHGRQHODG\VKHDOVRRIIHUVVHSDUDWHRUDODQGIRUPXFKOHVV
,WHOOKLPWKDW\HVWKHFKHDSHURSWLRQLVDEDUJDLQDQGKHVKRXOGJRWRKHU
ߙ1RRR,ZDQW\RX,OLNH\RX

 

ߙ+L"'R\RXKDYHDIULHQG",ZDQWOHVELDQV
ߙ7KHUHLVDlIULHQG{LI\RXQHHG,ߞOOFDOOKHUDQGVKHZLOOEHVRRQKHUH
ߙ:KDWߞVVKHOLNH"*RRGORRNLQJ":KDWDERXWKHUEUHDVWV"'R\RXORYHHDFK
RWKHU"
:HOO\HDKGDPQZHGRORYHHDFKRWKHUWKHZHGGLQJLVWRPRUURZ
+RQH\ZHORYHHDFKRWKHUVRPXFK&RPHE\DQGZHߞOOORYH\RXWRR
ߙ:LOO\RXEHNLVVLQJ",VHYHU\WKLQJJRLQJWREHUHDO"2ND\,ߞOOFRPH
$QGWKHQKHKDQJVXSZLWKRXWDVNLQJIRUWKHDGGUHVV
+RQH\:KDWKDSSHQHGWR\RX:HFDQߞWVOHHSDWQLJKWZHߞUHZDLWLQJIRU\RX
&RPHKHUH:HZLOOVRRQKDYHRXUILUVWQLJKW


0DVWXUEDWRUYXOJDULV

ߙ+L'HVFULEH\RXUVHOI1R,FDQVHHWKHSKRWRV,ZDQWGHWDLOV&DQ\RXWDNH
DSLFWXUHRI\RXUVHOIZLWKVSUHDGRXWOHJVDQGVHQGLWRQP\SKRQH"-XVWPHLW
ZRQߞWJRDQ\ZKHUHIURPKHUH
:K\FDQߞW\RX",VKRXOGEHDEOHWRVHHZKDW,ߞPERRNLQJ1R"<RXZLOOORVH
DOORI\RXUJRRGFOLHQWVWKDWZD\
+HKDQJVXS
,ZRQߞWORVHWKHJRRGRQHVWKHPDVWXUEDWRUVGHILQLWHO\

 

2QHFDOOVHVSHFLDOO\RIWHQ,KDYHJRWWHQXVHGWRKLP
,QLFNQDPHGKLPlWKH1DUFLVVLVW{
ߙ+L,VWKLV(PLO\"(PLO\KDYH\RXHYHUEHHQIXFNHGZLWKDKXJHGLFN"+DYH
\RX VHHQ ELJ GLFNV IRU UHDO" , ZLOO FRPH KHUH DQG ZLOO VKRZ \RX ZKDW D ELJ
GLFNߨRRRRߨDDDߨRXXXXߨ
7KHHQWLUHFRQYHUVDWLRQODVWHGKDOIDPLQXWH+HKDQJVXSDWWKHODVWOLQJHULQJ
lRXXX{
,GRQߞWHYHQPDQDJHWRDQVZHU
%XW,JHWLWKHPDVWXUEDWHVWRKLPVHOIDQG,ߞPKHUHMXVWIRUGHFRUDWLRQ



 

,QSODFHRIJUHHWLQJV
ߙ,ZDQWWRJHWLQWR\RXUSXVV\<RXUSXVV\LVVZHHWDKKRZ,ZRXOGOLFNLW
,JHWLW+HLVMDFNLQJRIIVKDPHOHVVO\,WHOOKLPWKDWP\FDWGRHVQߞWOLNHWREH
OLFNHGDQGKDQJXS

 

ߙ+HOOR EHDXWLIXO $UH \RX DORQH QRZ" 'HVFULEH \RXUVHOI :KDW DUH \RX
ZHDULQJQRZ"'R\RXKDYHSDQWLHVRQ"
,FDQKHDUVQLIILQJREYLRXVO\WKHUHLVDSURFHVVJRLQJRQ
,FKXFNOH$QGWHOOKLPWRFRPHZLWKPRQH\DQGORRNIRUKLPVHOI
ߙ<HV\HVߙ+HVQLIIV,ߞOOVRRQEHWKHUH$QGGR\RXߨ
, KDQJ XS +H GRHVQߞW DVN IRU WKH DGGUHVV :K\ ZRXOG KH LI KH FDQ GR LW
KLPVHOI
,QDERXWWHQVHFRQGVWKHSKRQHULQJVDJDLQ
ߙ2K VRPHWKLQJ ZHQW ZURQJ <RX KDYH ELJ WLWV &DQ \RX UHDFK \RXU QLSSOH
ZLWK\RXUWRQJXH"
,KDQJXS
$FDOOLPPHGLDWHO\DIWHUZDUGV,JUDEWKHSKRQHZLWKRXWORRNLQJDQGH[SORGH
ߙ*RWRKHOO
3DXVHVLOHQFH
$FRPSOHWHO\GLIIHUHQFHYRLFHVSHDNVFDXWLRXVO\
ߙ2RRKߨZKHUHGLG,FDOO"
,ODXJKDQGH[SODLQWKDWKHFDOOHGWKHULJKWQXPEHU$QGWKLVRQHFRPHVIRUD
YLVLW$QGKHODXJKVZKHQZHPHHW
,EHDUZLWKHYHU\RQHZKRFDOOVWKHDVVKROHVDQGWKHVZHHWKHDUWV
:KDWHOVHFDQ,GR"


:KDWZRPHQZDQW"

, KDYH D YHU\ QLFH SHUPDQHQW FOLHQW ߙ 5R\ +H LV D VHULRXV EXVLQHVVPDQ
VPDUWSOHDVDQWDQGDYHU\JRRGORRNLQJPDQ7DOOVOLJKWO\SOXPSEDOGDQGZLWK
DJURRPHGDQGVOLJKWO\JUD\EHDUG
+HGRHVQRWYLVLWRIWHQRQO\GXULQJERXWVRIVHULRXVGULQNLQJZKLFKKDSSHQD
FRXSOHRIWLPHVD\HDUHLWKHUZKHQKLVEHORYHGZRPDQOHDYHVKLPIRUDQRWKHURU
ZKHQDQLPSRUWDQWFRQWUDFWGRHVQߞWZRUNRXW
ߙ(PLO\,QHHG\RXWRGD\ߙ5R\VDLGRQWKHSKRQHDQG,JHWUHDG\
5R\SD\VZHOOYHU\ZHOO
0RUH RIWHQ WKDQ QRW KH SLFNV PH XS DQG WDNHV PH WR KLV SODFH 2QFH LQ D
ZKLOHKHVWD\VDWP\SODFH
,WߞVQRWDSUREOHPIRUKLPWRSD\PHWZLFHDVPXFKDVKHZRXOGLIZHVWD\HG
DWP\SODFHDQGLWߞVQRWDSUREOHPIRUKLPWREX\PHVRPHWKLQJJROGLIRQRXU
ZD\WRKLVSODFHZHFRPHDFURVVDMHZHOU\VWRUH+HSUREDEO\ZDQWVWRPDNHPH
IHHOJRRG
,ORYHKLPYHU\KRQHVWO\DQGKXPDQO\$QGLWߞVQRWMXVWEHFDXVHRIWKHJROG
5R\LVMXVWYHU\VPDUW+HNQRZVIRXUODQJXDJHVDQGDOOPDQQHUVRIHWLTXHWWH
$QG\HW5R\LVYHU\VDG+HLVHVSHFLDOO\VRWRPHDV,RQO\VHHKLPGXULQJ
GLIILFXOWWLPHVRIKLVOLIH
5R\FRPHVWRPHLQKLVELJFDUDQGVD\V
ߙ/HWߞVJR,ߞOOVKRZ\RXP\QHZKRXVH
ߙ:RZ\RXߞYHJRWDQHZKRXVH"ߙ,DVNZLWKDPD]HPHQW
ߙ<HDK5R\VD\VZLWKRXWDGURSRISULGHRUKDSSLQHVV
ߙ,ERXJKWLWUHFHQWO\
2QWKHZD\5R\VWRSVDQGWDNHVPHWRWKHVWRUH
:H JHW D GXFN ZLWK DSSOHV KRUULEO\ H[SHQVLYH FKRFRODWHV VDOPRQ DQG RWKHU
VWXIIWKDW5R\JUDEVIURPWKHVKHOYHV
5R\GRHVQߞWJHWDQ\ERR]H+HDOZD\VKDVVRPH
:HUDFHWKURXJKWKHQLJKWOHDYLQJWKHFLW\
5R\LVVLOHQWEXWWKHQZLWKDVOLFNPDJLFLDQߞVPRWLRQKHSXOOVRXWDERWWOHRI
+HQQHVV\;2DQGWDNHVWZRODUJHPRXWKIXOV
,NQRZWKDWLWߞVEDGWRGULQNZKLOHGULYLQJDQGGRQߞWDSSURYHRILWP\VHOI%XW
5R\GULQNV
,VLSIURPWKHERWWOHDVZHOODQGKROGLWLQP\KDQGVIRUDORQJWLPHUHDG\WR
JLYHLWWR5R\DVVRRQDVKHDVNVIRULW


 

:HQHYHUIXFN
5R\OLNHVWRVSHDN
2YHUDQGRYHUDJDLQKHWHOOVPHDERXWWKHZRPDQKHOLYHVZLWK$QGRYHUDQG
RYHUDJDLQKHWHOOVPHKRZPXFKKHORYHVKHUDQGHDFKWLPHKLVVWRULHVHQGLQ
WKHVDPHZD\WKDWVKHOHIWDJDLQ
6KHOHIWEHFDXVHKHZDVWRREXV\IRUKHU
6KHOHIWEHFDXVHKHKDGSURPLVHGWRJRRQDYDFDWLRQZLWKKHUEXWKHKDGD
FRQWUDFW$QGVRVKHZHQWDORQHWRWKH'RPLQLFDQ5HSXEOLF
6KHOHIWEHFDXVHKHUDUHO\KDVVH[ZLWKKHUߙKHߞVHLWKHUWRREXV\RUWKLQNLQJ
RIEXVLQHVVDQGGRHVQߞWJHWDKDUGߙRQ
$QG VR VKH EHFRPHV K\VWHULFDO \HOOLQJ WKDW VKH IHHOV XQZDQWHG WKDW KH KDV
VRPHRQHHOVHWKDWKHGRHVQߞWQHHGKHUDQGVRYHU\RIWHQVKHJDWKHUVKHUWKLQJV
DQGOHDYHV
(YHU\WLPH,KHDUWKHVWRU\,NQRZKRZLWHQGVVKHFRPHVEDFNRIFRXUVH
%XWKHVWLOOVXIIHUVHYHU\WLPH
ߙ(PLO\ߙKHDVNVߙ(PLO\ZKDWGRJLUOVQHHG"7KH\VD\PRQH\EXWHYHU\RQH
NQRZVWKDW$QGDOOWKRVHPRQH\WKLVFDUWKLVKRXVHVXPPHUKRXVHLQ)UDQFH
DOOWKRVHEHDXWLHVߙWKH\GRQߞWJHWKHUHWKHPVHOYHVߨ
ߙ (PLO\ \RX NQRZ ZKHQ , ILUVW VWDUWHG , KDG QRWKLQJ QRWKLQJ , KDG QR
IXFNLQJ WKLQJ GR \RX XQGHUVWDQG" $QG P\ ZLIH OHIW PH ZLWK RXU FKLOG P\
GDXJKWHU IRU D ULFK PDQ 7KDW RQH KDG KLV RZQ DSDUWPHQW DQG 0HUFHGHV <RX
NQRZKHZDVFRQVLGHUHGULFKߨ6KHOHIWPHEHFDXVHRIWKDW\RXNQRZ"
+HUH5R\WDNHVDSDXVHWRWKLQNDQGFRQWLQXHV
ߙ$QGGR\RXNQRZWKDWVKHODWHUOHIWKLPߙKHFKXFNOHVߙWRDQRWKHUPDQZLWK
DELJJHUDSDUWPHQWDQGDQHZHUFDU
ߙ$QG,ZRUNHGP\ZD\XS,SURPLVHGP\VHOIWKDW,FRXOG,ZRXOG(PLO\,
KDYH HYHU\WKLQJ , KDYH D EXVLQHVV 0RQH\ 7KHVH KRXVHV DSDUWPHQWV
HYHU\WKLQJ%XWZLWKWKLVߙKHJHVWXUHVGRZQZDUGVߙ,KDYHSUREOHP\RXNQRZ"
+HWDONVDERXWLWLQDFRPSOHWHO\QRQFKDODQWWRQHZLWKRXWVK\LQJDZD\DVLI
KH LV WHOOLQJ PH KH GLGQߞW KDYH EUHDNIDVW , NHHS TXLHW DQG GRQߞW NQRZ ZKDW WR
VD\
, RQFH DGYLVHG KLP WR YLVLW D GRFWRU ,W ZDV RQH RI WKH PRVW XQFRPIRUWDEOH
WKLQJV,FRXOGKDYHHYHUWROGKLP+HKDGORRNHGDWPHLQGXOJHQWO\DQGVDLGKH
KDGDOUHDG\EHHQWRPRUHWKDQRQHDQGWKHGRFWRUVKDGWROGKLPWKDWHYHU\WKLQJ
ZDVILQHKHMXVWQHHGHGWRWDNHFDUHRIKLPVHOIDQGUHVWPRUHEXWFRXOGKHUHDOO\
DIIRUGWRUHOD[DQGQRWWKLQNRIDQ\WKLQJ"<RXFDQQRWUHOD[DQGQRWH[SHFWWRJHW
WDNHQGRZQE\EXVLQHVVULYDOVߙWKHWLPHVDUHOLNHWKDW
5R\WDONVWDONVWDONV
+HNQRZVWKDW,ߞPOLVWHQLQJWRKLPZLWKLQWHUHVW
)URPWLPHWRWLPHKHFXWVDSLHFHRIGXFNDQGDVNVPHZK\,GRQߞWHDW
,GRQߞWOLNHGXFN
,OLNH5R\,ORYHVPDUWPHQ
'HVSLWHKLVDJHKHLVYHU\KDQGVRPHFKDUPLQJDQGJHQHURXV
:KHQKHJHWVGUXQNKHGRHVQߞWIDOODVOHHSEXWWULHVWRKDYHVRPHNLQGRIVH[
ZLWKPH3HUKDSVLWLVDQDFWRIGLVWUHVV
,KDYHWRSXWDOORIP\HIIRUWVWRPDNHLWJRKDUG
5R\FXPVIDVW$IWHUWKDWKHDOZD\VVXJJHVWVIRUPHWRVWD\
,XVXDOO\FDOODFDELQVWHDG6RPHKRZ,VHQVHWKDWKHQHHGVWREHDORQH
5R\ FRPHV RXWVLGH ZLWK PH DQG FRQWLQXHV WR WDON +H WDONV IRU D YHU\ ORQJ
WLPH
7KHGULYHUVWDUWVWRJHWDQJU\
5R\RSHQVWKHFDEGRRUDQGJLYHVPRQH\WRWKHGULYHUHQRXJKVRWKDWKHFDQ
VWDQGWKHUHIRUDIHZPRUHKRXUV7KHGULYHUVKXWVXS
$QGVR5R\WDONVWDONVWDONV
$QGWKHQKHKXJVPHDQGKHOSVPHJHWLQWRWKHFDU
$QG,OHDYH
$QG5R\VWD\V
$ORQHLQKLVELJKRXVH
+HWKHQGULQNVIRUDIHZPRUHGD\V,NQRZWKDW
6RPHWLPHVKHFDOOVZDVWHG%XWWKLVWLPHKHGLGQߞWFDOOPHDJDLQ
$QGDIWHUDIHZGD\VKHVHQGVPHDERXTXHWRIIORZHUV
:LWKDQRWHWKDWUHDGVl7KDQN\RXIRUHYHU\WKLQJ{
(YHU\WLPH
7KLVPHDQVWKDWKLVZRPDQKDGUHWXUQHGDJDLQ


7KH&KHDS)DLU\



)RROLVKJLUOVZLWKFOXPV\KDQGVDQGWKLFNDQNOHVZKRKDGEHDXWLIXOOLYHVDQG
IHOOLQWRRXUEXVLQHVVEHJLQWREHKDYHLIQRWOLNHSULQFHVVHVWKHQGHILQLWHO\OLNH
ODGLHVRIGHPLPRQGH
7KH\ WU\ WR FKRRVH EHDXWLIXO QDPHV IRU WKHPVHOYHV ZLWK KRSHV WKDW LW ZLOO
PDNH WKHP ORRN EHWWHU 7KHVH IUHVKO\ PLQWHG (VPHUDOGDV LQ FKHDS ODFHV ZLWK
UHJURZQURRWVDQGZLOGPDNHXSDQGOHJVVSUHDGLQWKHLUZHEVLWHVVKRZLQJUHG
NQHHV FHOOXOLWH DVVHV DQG VDJJ\ WLWV 7KH\ OD\ XQQDWXUDOO\ RQ WKHLU KDQGV ZLWK
HOERZV XS VXFN WKHLU ILQJHUV DQG ORRN DSSHDOLQJO\ DV LI WR VD\ +RQH\ ,ߞP
\RXUV
7KH\DUHLQGHPDQGDVWKH\DUHQRWWRRH[SHQVLYH
0HQJRDIWHUFKHDSRQHV7KH\KDYHWRLIWKH\GRQߞWKDYHHQRXJKPRQH\EXW
VWLOOQHHGWRVOLSRQHLQ
$FOLHQWZDVFRPSODLQLQJDERXWP\FROOHDJXHVWRGD\+HZDVIHGXS
,WߞVDOZD\VIXQWRKHDUDERXWFROOHDJXHVLWߞVLQWHUHVWLQJWRPH
+HZDVVLWWLQJRQHGD\MHUNLQJRIIRQWKRVHVLWHVDQGKHKDGFKRVHQD\RXQJ
FKHDSJLUO3D\GD\ZDVVWLOOIDUDZD\PRQH\ZDVWLJKWEXWKHQHHGHGDGYHQWXUHV
OLNHFUD]\
7KHUHZDVDKHOORIDFROOHFWLRQRIJLUOVRQHPRUHEHDXWLIXOWKDQRWKHUV
+HNQHZWKDWJRRGRQHVZHUHQߞWFKHDSEXWKHVWLOOERXJKWLQWRLW$FWXDOO\KH
ERXJKWLW+HIRXQGD6X]DQQH
$UXGHIHPDOHYRLFHFDOOHGKLPWRVD\WKDWVKHZRXOGEHZDLWLQJ
,QVWHDGVRPHWKLQJWKLQVKDJJ\DQGQRWHYHQUHPRWHO\FORVHWRWKHSKRWRPHW
KLPDWKRPH
+H GLG QRW HYHQ KDYH WLPH WR EH SURSHUO\ DPD]HG ZKHQ 7KLQ DQG 6KDJJ\
LQWURGXFHGKHUVHOIDV0LOHQDDQGFRTXHWWLVKO\VDLGWKDW6X]DQQHZDVZDLWLQJIRU
KLPDWKRPH0LOHQDHYHQDGGHGWKDWVKHZDVDIULHQGDQGLIKHHYHUZDQWHGWR
IXFNERWKRIWKHPWKHQKHQHHGHGWRDGGDOLWWOHPRUH GLVFRXQWIRUZKROHVDOH 
+HZLVHO\UHIXVHGIURPJURXSVH[0LOHQDZDVWHUULEO\VFDU\DQGWKLQ
7KH\ZHQWXSVWDLUV
ߙ$QQD 'LG \RX EULQJ KLP" ߙ 7KDW UHFRJQL]DEOH UXGH IHPDOH YRLFH \HOOHG
IURPWKHEDWKURRP
$WWKDWPRPHQWKHIHOWOLNHDVKHHS
$QQDߙ0LOHQDVKRXWHGLQUHVSRQVH
ߙ'RQߞWVKRXW,EURXJKWKLP
ߙ&RPHLQ,ߞOOFRPHRXWQRZߙ7KHFKHDSIDLU\\HOOHG
+HWRRNRIIKLVVKRHVDQGZHQWLQ
$QQDߙ0LOHQD VWRPSHG LQWR WKH URRP DIWHU KLP DQG GHPDQGHG PRQH\ LQ
DGYDQFH +H ZDV VR FRQIXVHG ZLWK WKH VLWXDWLRQ WKDW KH SDLG ZLWKRXW VHHLQJ DW
ZKDWKHZRXOGEHIXFNLQJ
$V VKH OHIW $QQDߙ0LOHQD JUDEEHG KLV EDOOV RYHU WKH SDQWV DQG ODQJXRURXVO\
ZKLVSHUHGLQKHUWREDFFREUHDWK
ߙ+RQH\ߨPD\EH\RXߞGVWLOOOLNHWZR"
+HGLGQߞWZDQWWZR+HZRXOGHQGXUHRQH
$QQDߙ0LOHQDVWRPSHGRXWWKHGRRU6X]DQQHIORDWHGLQWRWKHURRP
6KHKDGDZRUQߙRXWEUDDQGDWRZHODURXQGKHUKLSV
7KHOLYHYHUVLRQGLIIHUHGIURPWKHSKRWRMXVWDVDILUVWJUDGHUߞVGUDZLQJZRXOG
GLIIHUIURP5DSKDHOߞVPDVWHUSLHFHV0HDQLQJWRRGLIIHUHQW
+H KDG VHHQ SKRWRV RI D FXWH JLUO ZLWK QHDW WLWV SRUFHODLQ VNLQ DQG VH[\
WRXVOHG EORQG VWUDQGV WKDW FRYHUHG KHU IDFH ZLWK D QRWH VWDWLQJ l P\
SKRWRV{
+HQRZVWRRGLQIURQWRIVRPHWKLQJFRPSOHWHO\GLIIHUHQWDQGXQH[SHFWHGDQG
VXGGHQO\UHDOL]HGWKDWKHZDVLQDPHVV\VLWXDWLRQ
7KHWLWVVDJJHG,WZDVFOHDUWKDWHYHQLIWKH\KDGEHHQHODVWLFDWVRPHSRLQWLW
ZDVDYHU\ORQJWLPHDJRWKHSRUFHODLQVNLQZDVPDUUHGE\VWUHWFKPDUNVEHORZ
KHU WLWV 7KH ZDLVWOLQH ZDV QRZKHUH WR EH VHHQ DQG ORRNLQJ DW WKH H[KDXVWHG
WXPP\ KH VLOHQWO\ FRQFOXGHG WKDW WKH ZRPDQ KDG JLYHQ ELUWK DQG PRUH WKDQ
RQFH
7KH K\GURJHQ SHUR[LGH RQ WKH KHDG WXUQHG RXW WR EH UHDOO\ XQNHPSW ߙ LW
ORRNHGDVLIVKHKDGQRWZDVKHGKHUKDLULQDJHV
+HZDVWDNHQDEDFNDQGZDVDERXWWROHDYHZKHQWKHIDLU\GURSSHGKHUWRZHO
DQGWKHKXQJHULPPHGLDWHO\FDXVHGKLPDUDJLQJKDUGRQ
:KDWHYHUKHGHFLGHG&KHDSEXWVKHߞOODWOHDVWVXFN
7KHIDLU\REYLRXVO\GLGQߞWXQGHUVWDQGZKDWWKHZRUGlVXFN{PHDQWDQGKRZLW
QRUPDOO\ZRUNHG6KHXQGHUVWRRGVXFNLQJDVELWLQJDQGVDOLYD$WVRPHSRLQWKH
IHOWVFDUHGߙKHUWHHWKZHUHVLJQLILFDQWO\LQYROYHGLQWKHSURFHVV
+HGLGQRWHQGXUHWKHVXFNLQJWRUWXUHIRUORQJDVDWKRXJKWTXLFNO\XQYHLOHGLQ
KLVKHDGLIVKHGRHVQߞWVWRSߙ,ߞOOEULQJKRPHRQO\DSLHFH
,Q ILYH PLQXWHV KH FRXOGQߞW UHVLVW DQG EHQW WKH IDLU\ GRZQ ߙ VHHLQJ KHU IDFH
WKUHDWHQHGKLPZLWKSV\FKRORJLFDOLPSRWHQF\
ߙ$XߙVDLGWKHIDLU\ZKHQKHVOLSSHGLQ
ߙ2RRKߙVKHFRQWLQXHGDIWHUDIHZWKUXVWV
,WGLGQߞWUHVHPEOHDQ\WKLQJOLNHSDVVLRQPRDQV
ߙ:KDWߞVZURQJ"ߙ+HVWRSSHG
ߙ1RWKLQJߙVKHVDLGDQJULO\ߙ,KDYHLQIODPPDWLRQ,VDWRQVRPHWKLQJFROGߨ
+HSXOOHGRXW+LVIULHQGIDLQWHGEXWWKHQSOHDGHGWKHRZQHUWRWDNHKLPLQWR
UHDQLPDWLRQ
ߙ/LVWHQ PD\EH , VKRXOG ULS RXW \RXU DVV" ߙ +H DVNHG WKH VKDEE\ JLUO LQ
VDUFDVP
ߙ1R,GRQߞWWDNHLQWKHDVVߙ6KHVDLGLPPHGLDWHO\WXUQHGDURXQGDQGVDWRQ
KHUDVV
+H WKRXJKW JORRPLO\ WR KLPVHOI ߙ VKH ZDV SUREDEO\ DIUDLG WR EH WDNHQ
IRUFHIXOO\DQGKHKDGQRGHVLUHWRWDNHKHUIRUFHIXOO\
7KHJLUOVQLIIHGDQGVDLGKHVLWDWLQJO\
ߙ0LOHQDWDNHVLQWKHDVVEXW\RXߞOOQHHGWRSD\KHUߨ
/RRNLQJDWKLVIDFHDQGQRWVHHLQJDQ\SRVLWLYHVLJQVVKHFODULILHG
ߙ'R\RXZDQWPHWRFDOOKHU"
ߙ%LWFKHVߨߙKHVDLGDVKHJRWXSߙJRWRKHOOELWFKHVZLWK\RXUVHUYLFH
+HSXOOHGRQKLVSDQWV
6X]DQQHVDWRQWKHEHGORRNHGDWKLPVXOOHQO\DQGKDGWKHDXGDFLW\WRVD\
ߙ,GRQߞWJLYHPRQH\EDFN
ߙ/HDYHLWWR\RXUVHOIJHWDERREMREGDPQߙ+HUHSOLHGDQGVZHSWRXWWKH
GRRU

 

+HOHWRIIVRPHVWHDP,ODXJKHGV\PSDWKL]HGDQGVHUYHGKLP
$VJRRGDVKHGHVHUYHGDQGQRWLQDQ\DGGLWLRQDOPDQQHU

1DWXUDOQHVV


$FDOO
ߙ+L,IRXQG\RXRQDZHEVLWH
ߙ+HOOR
ߙ<RXZRUNULJKW"
ߙ<RXFRXOGVD\VR
ߙ:KDWGR\RXGR"
ߙ8PZKDWHYHU\RXDVNIRUKRQH\
3DXVH/RQJSDXVH+HJHWVLW
ߙ'R\RXGREORZMRE"
ߙ<HVRIFRXUVH
ߙ$QGIRUKRZORQJFDQ,ERRN\RX"
ߙ$VORQJDV\RXZDQW
ߙ7HOOPHWKHUHߞVDSULFHKHUHߙLVWKLVIRURQHKRXU"
ߙ)RUDQKRXU
,ߞPSDWLHQWO\ZDLWLQJIRUZKDWߞVWRFRPH,WWDNHVKLPDYHU\ORQJWLPHYHU\
ORQJ
ߙ$DDDߨ+PPߨDQGIRUH[DPSOHߨWHOOPHZKDWLILWߞVQRWIRUDQKRXU"
ߙ,WFRXOGEHQRWDQKRXULWFRXOGEHWZRWKUHHIRUDQLJKWDV\RXZLVK
ߙ1RQRߨWKDWߞVQRWZKDW,ߞPWDONLQJDERXWߨZKDWLILWߞVOHVVWKDQDQKRXU"
,JHWEORFNHG,UHERRW
ߙ:HOODQKRXULVWKHPLQLPXP
ߙ2K\RXNQRZ,GRQߞWKDYHDORWRIPRQH\ߨEXW,ZRQߞWWDNHDORWRI\RXU
WLPH &RXOG \RX ORZHU LW GRZQ D OLWWOH ELW DQG ,ߞOO FRPH /HWߞV GR LW WKDW ZD\
DOULJKW"
ߙ, GRQߞW ORZHU P\ SULFHV ,I \RX GRQߞW KDYH HQRXJK WKHUH DUH JLUOV DW ORZHU
SULFHV<RXFRXOGILQGWZLFHDVFKHDS
ߙ2K,OLNHG\RXDORWߨ,ߞOOEHTXLFNKRQHVWO\
-XVWOLNHDVFKRROER\
ߙ&DQ,ERRN\RXIRUKDOIDQKRXU",MXVWQHHGDEORZMREߨ,ZRQߞWHYHQVOHHS
ZLWK\RXMXVWDEORZMRE$TXLFNRQH
$OULJKW DOULJKW KHOO ZLWK KLP , DP IUHH QRW GRLQJ DQ\WKLQJ OHW KLP FRPH
-XVWDEORZMRE$QGLQKDOIDQKRXUIRU*RGߞVVDNH,ߞOOJHWKLPRXW(YHQLIKH
GRHVQߞWFXP7KLVLVQRWDJLYHDZD\
,SXVKIXUWKHU
ߙ+RZPXFKGR\RXKDYH"
$QGKHVD\V
ߙ2K \RX NQRZ WKHUHߞV WKLVߨXPZLWK PRQH\ߨWKH PRQH\ , GRQߞW KDYH
PXFKRILW%XW,KDYHPHDW)UHVKYHDO,JRWLWIURPWKHYLOODJH,WߞVDERXWVHYHQ
SRXQGVߨLWߞVH[SHQVLYHߨ,MXVWQHHGDEORZMREIRUKDOIDQKRXUߨ
'XULQJWKHILUVWIHZVHFRQGV,ZDVJHWWLQJLW$QGZKHQKHILQLVKHG,VDWDQG
QHLJKHG,QWRWKHSKRQH,ODXJKHGVRKDUG+HRIFRXUVHKXQJXS
1RLWKDSSHQVWKDWWKH\MXVWZDQWPHEXWPRQH\LVDQLVVXHDQGLWKDSSHQV
WKDWWKH\EDUJDLQߨ
%XWWKLVߙDEORZMREIRUVHYHQSRXQGVRIYHDOlIUHVKIURPWKHYLOODJH{LWZDV
MXVWWKHHQG
,ZRQGHUZKLFKRIWKHJLUOVPDGHDIRUWXQHZLWKWKHPHDWFKRSV



'DGG\


2QHJX\FDOOHGPHZLWKϞFOHDUDFFHQWEXW,FRXOGQߞWFDWFKZKHUHWKHDFFHQW
FDPHIURP
+HWROGPHKHJRWP\QXPEHUIURP11E\WKHZD\LVDSHUPDQHQWFOLHQW
9HU\GHFHQWJX\DOLWWOHRYHUIRUW\$OZD\VJHQWOHFRPHVZLWKIORZHUVDQGSD\V
ZHOO+HWROGPHKHGRHVQߞWJHWWXUQHGRQE\KLVZLIH
6RWKLVJX\WROGPHWKDWKHߞGSD\DORWRIPRQH\EXWLWZDVDVHULRXVPDWWHU
+HGHPDQGHGWKRXVDQGVRIUHIHUHQFHV$QGQRWMXVWUHIHUHQFHVQRKHZDQWHGWR
WDNHPHWRDGRFWRUKLVGRFWRU
$QGLI,ZDVFOHDQKHVDLGKHZRXOGJLYHPHDWDVN
+RQHVWO\,ZRXOGKDYHWROGKLPWRJRWRKHOOEXWKHZDVRIIHULQJPHVRPXFK
PRQH\WKDWLWZDVLPSRVVLEOHWRUHIXVHVR,DJUHHG
+HFDOOHGDWWKHDJUHHGWLPHDQGSLFNHGPHXS,JRWLQWRWKH0D\EDFKLI\RX
DUHLQWHUHVWHG+HDVNHGWRVHHP\EUHDVWVDQGWROGPHWKDWLWZDVLPSRUWDQWWKDW
WKHEUHDVWVZHUHEHDXWLIXO+HQHHGHGDVSHFLILFIRUPRIQLSSOHV$QG,KDGWKHP
P\ QLSSOHV GLGQߞW OHW PH GRZQ 7KH\ DUH QRW RYHUO\ ODUJH DQG KDYH D ZHOOߙ
GHILQHGVKDSH
+HORRNHGEXWGLGQRWWRXFKDQGZHURGHRII
, ZRUULHG WKDW KH PLJKW WDNH PH WR WKH IRUHVW ,QVWHDG KH EURXJKW PH WR WKH
KRVSLWDODJRRGRQH
+HWROGPHWRVSUHDGP\OHJVDQGWRNHHSTXLHWDQGQRWEUHDWKHDZRUGDERXW
P\LGHQWLW\,FRXOGQߞWFDUHOHVV
$IWHU WKH KRVSLWDO KH EURXJKW PH KRPH DQG WROG PH KH ZRXOG FDOO WKH GD\
DIWHUWRPRUURZRQFHKHUHFHLYHGWKHUHVXOWV+HPDGHLWFOHDUWKDW,ZDVQRWWR
IXFNDQ\RQHRUKHZRXOGEXU\PH7KDWZDVKLVH[DFWZRUGlEXU\{2K*RG
ZKDW GLG , JHW LQWR" ,W ZDV WRR ODWH WR EDFN DZD\ IURP WKH GHDO $QG KH ZDV
SD\LQJDORWRIPRQH\+HJDYHPHKDOIWKHDPRXQWLQDGYDQFH
+HFDOOHGWKHQH[WGD\WRVD\KHZDVDUULYLQJLQKDOIDQKRXU,WULHGWRREMHFW
VD\LQJWKDW,ZDVQߞWUHDG\EXWKHFRXQWHUHGWKDWKHLVQߞWFRPLQJWRIXFNMXVWWR
WDON+HDUULYHGDQGSODFHGWKHVHFRQGKDOIRIWKHSURPLVHGPRQH\RQP\WDEOH
+HWKHQDVNHGZKHQP\SHULRGZDVDQGWROGPHWREHVKDYHGDQGVKRZHUHGWKH
QH[WGD\+HZDVJRLQJWREULQJKLVVRQ
+LVVRQ7KHER\ZDVHLJKWHHQDQGKHZDVDYLUJLQ+HZDVJRLQJWRFROOHJH
QH[W\HDUDQGKHQHHGHGH[SHULHQFH$QG,VKRXOGQR,PXVWPDNHKLPOLNHPH
DQGWHDFKKLPWRIXFNULJKW,DPQRZDWHDFKHU
$WWKHDSSRLQWHGWLPHKHEURXJKWKLVVRQDQGLQIRUPHGWKDWKHߞGSLFNKLPXS
WKHQH[WPRUQLQJ+HOHIWTXLFNO\OHDYLQJPHZLWKWKHER\7KHER\DGMXVWHGKLV
JODVVHV DQG ORRNHG DW PH ZLWK KLV ELJ H\HV , REVHUYHG KLP 7DQ VPRRWK VNLQ
EHDXWLIXOIDFLDOIHDWXUHVDQGWKRVHFOHDUO\GHILQHGOLSV
ߙ:HOOߙ,WHOOKLPߙZKDWGR\RXZDQW":KHUHVKRXOGZHVWDUW"
+HWDNHVRIIKLVJODVVHV7KURZLQJWKHPRQWKHFKDLUKHVD\V
ߙ7LWVߙKHVDLGߙVKRZPH
, OLIW XS P\ EORXVH , ORRN IRU KLV UHDFWLRQ +H ZDONV XS WR PH DQG UXQV KLV
KDQGDFURVVP\QLSSOHV
ߙ7XUQDURXQGߙKHVDLGߙZLWK\RXUEDFNWRPH
,WXUQDURXQG
+HOLIWVXSP\VNLUWUXQVKLVKDQGRYHUWKHHODVWLFRIP\VWRFNLQJVDQGZLWK
WKH ZRUGV 0PP  VWRFNLQJV WHDUV P\ SDQWLHV RII ZLWK RQH PRWLRQ +H
ZDWFKHVXQGHUQHDWKIRUDYHU\ORQJWLPH
ߙ6SUHDGRXW\RXUOHJVߙKHVD\VߙZLGHU
,IHHODVLI,ߞPDWDPHGLFDOH[DPLQDWLRQ,VSUHDGWKHPRXW
$QGWKHER\JHWVEHQHDWKPHDQGVWDUWVFDUHVVLQJPHZLWKKLVWRQJXH2ߙODߙOD
,HYHQJRWWXUQHGRQ,ZDVZHW,FRXOGIHHOLW+HJOLGHGKLVILQJHULQDQGQHDWO\
FDUHVVHGPH
ߙ:RZZKDWDNLGߙ,JDVSRXW
ߙ2KGRQߞWOLVWHQWRKLPߙKHODXJKHG
ߙ/HWPHPD\EHSXWLWLQ\RXUDVV"
ߙ:KDWVRDEUXSWO\"ߙ,DVNHGDPD]HG
ߙ<HDKMXVWVXFNPHDOLWWOH,ORYHDVRIWWRQJXHߨ
+HUH,RSHQHGP\PRXWKRXWRIVXUSULVHXQGHUVWDQGLQJWKDW,KDGEHHQUXGHO\
IXIRROHG$QGLQWRWKDWRSHQPRXWKKHVOLSSHGLQKLVWUHDVXUH:KLFKE\WKH
ZD\WXUQHGRXWTXLWHDOULJKWDERYHDYHUDJH
7KHER\GLGQߞWWDNHWRRORQJ+HWRRNWKHOXEULFDQWQHDWO\SUHSSHGLWDQGGLG
KLVGLUW\MRE2YHUDQGRYHUDJDLQ
:H OD\ RQ WKH EHG DIWHUZDUGV VPRNLQJ VRPH ZHHG KH KDG EURXJKW DQG
GULQNLQJZKLVNH\ULJKWRXWRIWKHERWWOHDQGKHWROGPHDERXWKLVGHFHQWDQGULFK
IDPLO\KRZNHHSLQJXSZDVDQHFHVVLW\
6RPH\RXQJSK\VLFVWHDFKHUKDGWDNHQKLVYLUJLQLW\D\HDUDJRDQGWKH\KDG
IXFNHGLQKHUFORVHWIRUDQHQWLUH\HDU%XWVKHKDGQߞWWDNHQLWLQWKHDVVߨ

7KH$HVWKHWHDQGWKH$VV

,ZDVRQFHVLWWLQJZLWKP\IULHQGDQGZHVWDUWHGWRFKDWDERXWH[FHVVZHLJKW
$VDOZD\VWKHWRSLFVZHUHFORWKHVPHQDQGH[FHVVZHLJKW
6KHFRPSODLQHGWKDWVKHKDGJDLQHGZHLJKW
:HOOLWZDVWUXH1RWWRRPXFKEXWLWZDVQRWLFHDEOH+HUGUHVVZDVVOLJKWO\
WLJKW RQ KHU EXW LI VKH ZRUH D GUHVV RI WKH FRUUHFW VL]H VKH ZRXOG ORRN YHU\
DSSHWL]LQJ
$OOWKLVEURXJKWWRPLQGDSUHYLRXVHQFRXQWHU
,DPQRWWKLQDWDOO,KDYHSOHQW\WRRIIHUWLWVDVVOHJVDOOWKDWLVQHHGHG
7REHKRQHVWDIHZ\HDUVDJR,ZDVVOLJKWO\ߨXPPߨELJJHUWKDQ,DPQRZ,
DP WDONLQJ DERXW P\ VL]H , ZRXOGQߞW VD\ WKDW LW KDG VSRLOHG P\ DSSHDUDQFH DV
WKHZHLJKWZHQWWRP\DVVDQGQRWWRP\WXPP\DVLWXVXDOO\KDSSHQV0\WLWV
ZHUHVREHDXWLIXOߙWKH\DUHEHDXWLIXOQRZWRR
)URPP\SKRWRVRQWKHZHEVLWHLWZDVFOHDUWKDWHYHQLI,ZDVQߞWTXLWHIDWWKH
ZLQGVWLOOZRXOGQRWEHDEOHWREORZPHDZD\2ND\,ZDVDOVRPLVVLQJVHYHUDO
SRXQGVWKDQNVWRD3KRWRVKRSMREE\DNLQGPDQ,ZDVVXFKDQDWWUDFWLYHFXWLH
0HQ DUH OLNH WKDW 7KH\ ZRXOGQߞW HYHQ QRWLFH XQWLO \RX VKRYHG WKRVH H[WUD
SRXQGV XQGHU WKHLU QRVH 7KH\ XVXDOO\ VHH WKH LPDJH DV D ZKROH GHVSLWH ZKDW
WKH\PD\VD\
$QG,DOZD\VKDGDQLPDJH
6R,GHFLGHGWKDWWKHVHSKRWRVZRXOGGRWKHMRESHUIHFWO\DQGWKH\DOZD\VGLG
ߙXQWLOWKHGD\WKLVPDQDSSHDUHGDWWKHGRRUVRIP\DSDUWPHQW
+HWXUQHGRXWWREHLQSRVVHVVLRQRIDEXLOWߙLQZHLJKWVFDQQHULQKLVH\HVDQG
EUDLQ +H ZDONHG LQ H[DPLQLQJ PH DQG IURZQHG VOLJKWO\ FRQWHPSWXRXVO\ DQG
VDLG
ߙ2KDQG\RXORRNELJJHUWKDQ\RXUSKRWR
,KDGQRZD\RIFRYHULQJXSWKH3KRWRVKRSDQGLQIDFW,ZDVDFWXDOO\DOLWWOH
ELJJHUWKDQLQWKHSKRWRV
+H JDYH D OHQJWK\ PRQRORJXH DERXW KRZ \RX MXVW ZDQW D QRUPDO RQH EXW
DURXQG\RXWKHUHDUHRQO\SLJOHWV,OLVWHQHGLQVLOHQFHDQGLQDQJHUDQGWKRXJKW
KHZRXOGSUREDEO\OHDYHDIWHUKHZDVGRQHWDONLQJ
+HGLGQߞWOHDYH
+H FRXQWHG RXW WKH PRQH\ DQG ZLWK WKH ZRUGV :KDWHYHU ,ߞP KHUH QRZ
VOLSSHGWKHPLQWRP\KDQGV
:KDWKDSSHQHGQH[WZDVDWUDJLFRPHG\$V,XQGUHVVHGKHRSHQHGKLVPRXWK
DQGQHYHUVKXWXS
7KHDVVZDVELJWKHUHZDVIDWRQWKHVLGHVߨLWQHYHUHQGHG
7KHUHߞVDMRNHDERXWKHIXFNHGDQGFULHG6RWKLVRQHIXFNHGDQGZKLQHG
,KDGWZRRSWLRQV
7HOOKLPWRJRWRKHOO
'LVFRQQHFWIURPWKHVLWXDWLRQDQGWKLQNRISOHDVDQWWKLQJV
,UHDOO\QHHGHGWKHPRQH\VR,FKRVHWKHVHFRQGRSWLRQ
:KHQ KH ILQLVKHG DQG OHIW , ZDV KRQHVWO\ KDSS\ DQG ZHQW WR VFUXE RII P\
VHOIߙHVWHHPIURPWKHSOLQWK
:KHQKHDSSHDUHGDJDLQLQWZRZHHNV,ZDVLQVKRFN
+HEHJDQVDUFDVWLFDOO\
ߙ,FDQVHH\RXDUHWKHVDPHEXQ
+HTXLFNO\UHDOL]HGIURPP\IDFLDOH[SUHVVLRQWKDW,ZDVUHDG\WRWHOOKLPWR
JRWRKHOOVRKHTXLFNO\FRXQWHGRXWWKHPRQH\DQGVKRYHGWKHPDWPH
'LG,PHQWLRQWKDW,UHDOO\QHHGHGWKHPRQH\"
7KHWUDJLFRPHG\FRQWLQXHG
+HIXFNHGPHDQGZKLQHGWKDWWKHDVVZDVELJDQGHWF
7KLVWLPH,GLGQߞWKDYHWRVFUXEP\VHOIߙHVWHHP
7KHDVVPD\EHELJEXWLWGLGQߞWVWRSKLPIURPUHWXUQLQJ
:KHQKHFDOOHGVRRQDIWHUZDUGV,ZDVQRORQJHUVXUSULVHG
,KDGPDQDJHGWROHDUQKLVPRQRORJXH,GLGQߞWFDUHDQ\PRUH
+HUHWXUQHGIRUDIRXUWKWLPHDVZHOO
%XWWKHQDOORIDVXGGHQKHGLGQߞWFRPHEDFN$QGWREHKRQHVW,PLVVHGKLP
$ERXWKDOID\HDUZHQWE\
'XULQJWKLVWLPH,JRWP\VHOIWRJHWKHUDQGORVWDERXWWHQSRXQGV
:KHQWKHQDPH$VVDSSHDUHGRQP\SKRQH,HYHQKDGWRWKLQNIRUDZKLOH
WRUHPHPEHUZKRLWZDV
:HߞOOVHHZKDW\RXߞOOKDYHWRVD\WKLVWLPHߙ,WKRXJKWGHYLOLVKO\DV,RSHQHG
WKHGRRU
+HFDPHLQORRNHGDWPHIRUDORQJWLPHWKHQIURZQHGDQGDVNHG
ߙ<RXORVWZHLJKW"
ߙ<HVDV\RXFDQVHHߙ,DQVZHUHGWULXPSKDQWO\
ߙ1RZKDWߞVWKLVߙ+HVDLGLQVXUSULVH
ߙ:K\GLG,FRPH KHUH"7KHUHDUH QR QRUPDOJLUOVOHIW&RXOGQߞW \RX VD\ RQ
WKHSKRQHWKDW\RXKDGORVWZHLJKW",ZRXOGQߞWORVHWLPH
+H FRQWLQXHG LQ WKLV WRQH IRU WHQ PLQXWHV +H VFROGHG PH OLNH D OLWWOH JLUO ,
FRXOGQߞWSLFNXSP\MDZIURPWKHIORRUDQGGLGQߞWNQRZZKHWKHUWRODXJKRUFU\
,PDJLQH P\ VKRFN ZKHQ KH VWRSSHG WXUQHG DURXQG DQG OHIW , VWRRG LQ WKH
KDOOZD\IRUDORQJWLPHDQGWULHGWRXQGHUVWDQGZKDWKDGMXVWKDSSHQHG
6LQFHWKHQKHQHYHUUHWXUQHG
%XWWKHVWRU\GRHVQߞWHQGWKHUH
$FRXSOHRIZHHNVODWHU,ZDVVLWWLQJZLWKDIULHQGZKROHWߞVEHGLUHFWߙZDV
YHU\ODUJHWZLFHDVELJDVPH:HSHDFHIXOO\FKDWWHGDERXWOLIH:HWDONHGDERXW
KHU ILJXUH DQG , WROG KHU WKDW \RX FRXOGQߞW XQGHUVWDQG WKH ZD\ PHQ WKRXJKW
DERXWWKHVHPDWWHUVDV,KDGRQHWKDWRQHFOLHQW
ߙ:DLWߙVKHVDLGߙ+HVRXQGVMXVWOLNHߨ
$QGVKHGHVFULEHGKLPWRPH
,ODXJKHGDQGVDLG
ߙ:KDWKHZDV\RXUFOLHQWWRR"
ߙ:DV"+HLVP\SHUPDQHQWFOLHQW7ZLFHDPRQWK$QGHYHU\WLPHULJKWIURP
WKHGRRUZD\ZKDWDELJDVVDQGHYHU\ZKHUHIDWW\ߨ


,QWKHDUPSLW

:KHUHGRPHQXVXDOO\WU\WRIXFN"
7KHSODFHZHDOOFDPHRXWIURP"
<HV
,QWKHDVV"
$KD
,QWKHPRXWK"
$KD
:KHUHHOVH"
%HWZHHQWKHWLWV
1RWDSUREOHPIRUPHKRQH\0\JLUOVDOORZIRUDWLWW\IXFN
,I,DVN\RXDJDLQߙZKHUHHOVH"ߙDSDUWRI\RXZLOOIDOOLQWRGHHSWKRXJKWVDQG
DQRWKHUZLOOJRLQWRWKHGHHSPHQWDOSHDN
+HUHߞVDKLQWWKHUHLVRQHPRUHSODFH
,WߞVFDOOHGWKHDUPSLW
$PDQFRPHVWRPH
+HDOZD\VIXFNVPHLQWKHDUPSLW
7KLVLVKRZDUPSLWIXFNLQJJRHVWKHJX\OLFNVWKLVFRYHWHGSDUWRIPHZKLOH
PRDQLQJDQGWKHQ,WLJKWO\SUHVVP\KDQGVDQGLWEHJLQV+HVWDUWVWRQHDWO\VOLS
LQWRP\DUPSLWZLWKWZRILQJHUV7KHQWKUHH,FDQJXHVVZKDWߞVRQKLVPLQG
+HFORVHVKLVH\HVDQGWKURZVKLVKHDGEDFNREYLRXVO\UHOLVKLQJWKHSURFHVV
,WߞVDOZD\VDP\VWHU\WRPHZK\KHZRXOGSUHIHUP\DUPSLWVRYHUP\RWKHU
FR]\SODFHV
%XWWKDWߞVZKDWKHZDQWV
6WLOO ZLWK KLV ILQJHUV LQ P\ DUPSLWV KH WDNHV KLV WLPH WR SRVLWLRQ DQG
DFFRPPRGDWHKLPVHOI7KLVLVTXLWHQDWXUDOFRQVLGHULQJWKHIDFWWKDWKLVGLFNLV
VKRUWDQGKHKDVQHYHUFRPSOHWHO\HQWHUHGWKHDUPSLW
7KHDUHDEHWZHHQWKHWLWVLVKLQGHULQJKLP
)LQDOO\KHLVLQSRVLWLRQ
:LWKRQHKDQGKHKROGVP\VKRXOGHUDQGZLWKWKHRWKHURQHRIP\WLWV
, IXFN EDFN ZLWK P\ DUPSLW KH WKUXVWV WHUULEO\ JUXQWV VOLJKWO\ DQG ILQDOO\
FXPVZLWKDORZPRDQ
ߙ:HOOEDE\,VKRXOGJR+HWHOOVPHDVKHNLVVHVP\FKHHNDQGOHDYHV
+HZLOOEHEDFN
:KDWZRXOGKHGRZLWKRXWP\DUPSLWV"

7KH9LOODLQ

,GLGQߞWOLNHKLPWKHPLQXWH,VDZKLP
0LGGOH DJHG DPD]LQJ ERG\ YHU\ KDQGVRPH EORQGH EURZQ H\HV WKLQ OLSV
DQG ZHOOߙGHILQHG IDFH IHDWXUHV DQG \HW LW KDSSHQV \RX ORRN DW WKH SHUVRQ DQG
FDWFK \RXUVHOI RQ WKH IDFW WKDW LWߞV LPSRVVLEOH WR JHW ULG RI WKH VWUDQJH DOPRVW
YLVFHUDOGLVDIIHFWLRQ
$W WKDW SRLQW KH KDGQߞW GRQH DQ\WKLQJ WR PDNH PH UHMHFW KLP DV D FOLHQW ,
EODPHGP\QHUYHVIRUWKLVIHHOLQJ
+LVJD]HVOLGRYHUPHLQVDWLVIDFWLRQ+HJDYHPHDVPLOHRIDQH[SHULHQFHG
VHGXFHUDQGJDYHDWRWDOO\LQGLIIHUHQWORRNDWWKHWD[LGULYHUVWDQGLQJEHKLQGPH
,WVHHPHGOLNHKHZDVXVHGWRWKHVHNLQGVRIWKLQJV
ߙ%RG\JXDUG"ߙ+HDVNHGPHVPLOLQJ$UH\RXDIUDLG"
ߙ7KDWߞVOLIHߙ,FKXFNOHGߙ%DE\SD\WKHER\KHߞOOOHDYHDQG,ߞOOVWD\
,FRQIHVVYHU\RIWHQEXWQRWDOZD\V,DVN6DPWRFRPHXSZLWKPHZKHQ,JR
WRWKHFOLHQWߞVSODFH6DPP\WD[LGULYHULVDELJPDQDWUDLQHGSHUVRQDQGIRUD
VPDOODSSUHFLDWLRQKHZLOODFWDVDQHVFRUWRIDFDOOJLUO,W
VVDIHU
+H ZLOO EULQJ PH WKH PRQH\ ODWHU RU LQ WKH PRUQLQJ LI ,ߞP ERRNHG IRU WKH
QLJKW
&OLHQWVDUHVRPHWLPHVVFDUHGRIVXFKDQDWWDFKPHQWEXW,GRQߞWOLNHYLVLWVDQG
OLIHPDNHVXVDOOWDNHULVNV
7KLVRQHSDLGLPPHGLDWHO\ZLWKRXWDGGLWLRQDOTXHVWLRQV6DPWRRNWKHPRQH\
DQG XQGHU WKH LQGLIIHUHQW JD]H RI WKH ODQGORUG KH WRRN D ORRN LQWR WKH URRP
EDWKURRPNLWFKHQDQGOHIW
ߙ:HOOFRPHLQ(PLO\\ߙ%URZQ(\HVWROGPHVOLJKWO\VWUHWFKLQJWKHVRXQGV
LQP\QDPH+HLQWURGXFHGKLPVHOI
ߙ1LFN'RQߞWWDNHRII\RXUVKRHV,OLNHOHJVRQSXPSV
+HZDONHGPHLQWRWKHURRP
:HKDGWZRKRXUV,VDWRQWKHEHG
ߙ<RX NQRZ H[DFWO\ ZKHUH WR VLW ߙ KH FKXFNOHG DQG IRU VRPH UHDVRQ , IHOW
XQFRPIRUWDEOH
ߙ'R\RXGULQN"
:LWKRXW ZDLWLQJ IRU WKH DQVZHU KH RSHQHG D FKDPSDJQH ERWWOH IURP WKH EDU
DQGSRXUHGWKHJODVVHV
ߙ7R\RXZRQGHUIXOߨJLUOVߨߙ+HJDYHPHDQH[DPLQLQJORRNDQGZHFOLQNHG
RXUJODVVHV
ߙ'R\RXOLNHWKLVSODFH"ߙ+HDVNHGDEUXSWO\ORRNLQJDURXQGWKHURRP
ߙ,WߞVLQWHUHVWLQJߙ,SDOWHUHG
7KH URRP ZDV GDUN EOXH JUD\ DQG EODFN ZDOOSDSHUV ZLWK YHUWLFDO VWULSHV 
KLJKߙWHFK ZDOO ZLWK SODVPD RQ RQH VLGH D EHG ZLWK ZURXJKWߙLURQ KHDGERDUG
DQGRQWKHRWKHUVLGHWKHUHZHUHDWDEOHDQGDFRXSOHRIDUPFKDLUVDQGSRXIV
7KHUHZDVDFRPSOHWHDEVHQFHRIFXUWDLQVRQKXJHIXOOߙOHQJWKZLQGRZV
,WZDVDYHU\PDQO\URRP
7KHURRPZDVVRPHKRZTXLWHFROGDQGDEDQGRQHG
ߙ,OLNHLWߙKHVDLGDEUXSWO\LQDQLQGLIIHUHQWWRQHDQGSRXUHGDJDLQ
ߙ,GLGLWWKHZD\,ZDQWHGWRGR +HSODFHGDQHPSKDVLVRQWKH,
+HWKRXJKWIRUDVHFRQGVOLGKLVJD]HRYHUP\OHJVDQGVDLGLQDFRPSOHWHO\
IODWWRQH
ߙ7DNHRII\RXUSDQWLHV
, VWRRG XS VOLG P\ KDQGV RQ WKH VLGH RI P\ KLSV OLIWLQJ P\ VNLUW VPRRWKO\
SLFNHGXSWKHWKLQWKRQJZLWKP\ILQJHUVDQGSXOOHGP\SDQWLHVGRZQ
ߙ:DLWߙKHVDLGVKDUSO\ߙVORZO\'RLWVORZ
,REH\HGDQGIHOWDVKLYHUGRZQP\VSLQH
ߙ/RRNPHLQWKHH\HߙKHFRQWLQXHGDVIODWO\FROGO\VWDULQJDWPH
+HZDVVLWWLQJLQWKHDUPFKDLULQIURQWRIPHZLWKDJODVVLQKLVKDQG,ZDV
ORRNLQJLQKLVH\HVDQGYHU\VORZO\SXOOHGRIIP\EODFNWKRQJ
ߙ6LWGRZQߙKHVPLOHGDQGSRXUHGIUHVKJODVVHVRIFKDPSDJQH
ߙ%HDXWLIXOߙKHVDLGDVKHGUDQN
ߙ, GR QRW HYHQ NQRZ ZK\ , FDOOHG \RX ߙ KH VDLG VXGGHQO\ PRUH WR KLPVHOI
WKDQWRPHߙ,KDYHQRSUREOHPZLWKILQGLQJZRPHQ
7KLV ZDV WKH PRPHQW , JRW VFDUHG , FDQߞW H[SODLQ WKDW IHHOLQJ , EDUHO\
PDQDJHGWRVTXHH]HRXWDVPLOH,VWD\HGVLOHQWDQGGLGQߞWNQRZZKDWWRVD\
+HEHJDQ
ߙ<RXNQRZ,GRQߞWEULQJRUGLQDU\ZRPHQKHUHߙKHGUDQNDQGFRQWLQXHGߙ
EXW\RX\RXFDQEHHDVLO\OHGLQWRDOOVRUWVRIUXEELVK
, VXGGHQO\ UHDOL]HG WKDW KH ZDVQߞW WDONLQJ DERXW WKH RQHV OLNH PH EXW RI DOO
ZRPHQLQJHQHUDO
ߙ<RX DUH D ZRPDQ WRR DQG \RX KRSH WKDW VRPH FOLHQW ZLOO GR D PDUULDJH
SURSRVDOWR\RXULJKW(HPLO\\"ߙ+HDVNHGVXGGHQO\VWUHWFKLQJRXWP\QDPH
DJDLQ
+HFKXFNOHG
ߙ:K\DUH\RXVLOHQW"7DONWRPH
ߙ,GRQߞWKRSHVRߙ,VDLG
0\DQVZHUVHHPHGWREHWKHRQHKHZDVZDLWLQJIRU
ߙ5LJKWߙKHDSSURYHGFROGO\ߙDQGWKH\QRUPDORQHVWKH\KRSHWKDW,ZLOOEH
ZLWKWKHP)RUHYHU,GLRWV
ߙ:KR DUH WKH\" ߙ , GLGQߞW ZDQW WR DQVZHU KLP EXW QHHGHG WR FRQWLQXH WKH
FRQYHUVDWLRQ
+HGLGQRWVHHPWRQRWLFHWKHTXHVWLRQ
ߙ<RXNQRZ(PLO\KRZHDV\LWLVWRPDNHDZRPDQIDOOLQORYH"9HU\HDV\
<RX FDQ EH WDNHQ DQ\ZKHUH DQG LQ DQ\ ZD\ <RX ZRPHQ WKLQN WKDW \RX DUH
ELWFKHVEXW\RXFDQEHWDNHQ:K\GRQߞW\RXGULQN"
, VXGGHQO\ KDG WKH IHHOLQJ WKDW KH KDG IRUJRWWHQ DERXW PH PRPHQWDULO\ DQG
QRZKHUHPHPEHUHGPH
ߙ,GR
ߙ7DNHRII\RXUEORXVHDQGEUD6ORZO\
, WKRXJKW LW ZDV WRR ODWH WR OHDYH , FRXOGQߞW MXVW JHW XS DQG FDOO 6DP VR KH
ZRXOG EULQJ WKH PRQH\ EDFN DQG ZDLW IRU KLP LQ WKH DSDUWPHQW , ZDV VXUH KH
ZRXOGQߞWOHWPHGRWKDW
,WRRNWKHPRII
ߙ,WߞVJRRGߙKHVDLGLQGXOJHQWO\ߙGR\RXNQRZKRZPDQ\WLPHVWKH\FDOOPH
DIWHUZDUGV"$QG,MXVWGRQߞWSLFNXSWKHSKRQH$QGZKHQ,ߞPIHGXS,EORFN
KHU7KDWߞVLWVKHZLOOQHYHUILQGPH<RXLGLRWVWKLQNWKDW,QHHG\RX$QG,MXVW
IXFN\RX'R\RXNQRZKRZJRUJHRXVWKHODVWRQHZDV"6KHIHOOLQORYHRQWKH
VHFRQG GDWH , LPPHGLDWHO\ NQRZ ZKHQ WKH\ KDYH IDOOHQ LQ ORYH $QG , IXFNHG
KHUDWWKHILIWKGDWHRQO\,GHOD\HGDQGZDWFKHG'R\RXNQRZKRZLQWHUHVWLQJLW
LV WR ZDWFKDV DZRPDQ WXUQV LQWRDUDJ" 6KH ORRNVDW PHZLWKHQDPRUHG H\HV
DQGWKLQNV,ߞPZLWKKHUIRUJRRGߨ,ZDVYHU\JHQWOHZLWKKHUFDQ\RXLPDJLQH"
ߙ+HJULQQHG
+HVWDUWHGVSHDNLQJLQDVWUDQJHPRFNLQJWRQH
ߙ)ORZHUVKRWHOURRPYHU\URPDQWLF,NLVVHGKHULQWKHPRUQLQJGURSSHGKHU
RII DQG WKDW ZDV LWߨDQG 1LFN ZDV JRQH +H VSRNH DERXW KLPVHOI LQ WKH WKLUG
SHUVRQ
3OHDVHOHWWKLVHQGVRRQߙ,SUD\HGQRWFOHDUWRZKRP
ߙ7DNHRII\RXUVNLUWDVZHOO/HDYHWKHVKRHVRQߙKHVDLGDEUXSWO\
+HFRQWLQXHGLQKLVPRQRORJXHDJDLQIRUJHWWLQJDERXWP\H[LVWHQFH
ߙ$QGEHIRUHKHUHWKHUHZDVDߨPRGHO7KRVHRQHVWKLQNWKH\FDQJHWDQ\RQH
ZLWKDEHDXWLIXOIDFH7KDWRQH,IXFNHGWZLFH2QFHZDVQߞWHQRXJKIRUKHU6KH
FDOOHGWRR$OORIWKHPFDOOPHODWHUߨ,IXFNWKHPLQEDWFKHV$OORIWKHPIDOOIRU
URPDQFHDOORIWKHP$QGWKH\DOOFDOOODWHUߨWKH\QHHG1LFN,GRQߞWQHߙHߙHG
\RXߙ+HUDSSHGGDUNO\
ߙ&RPHKHUH
+HSRLQWHGWRWKHIORRU
, ZDV VFDUHG , VDW LQ IURQW RI WKH FKDLU DQG VWDUWHG ZLWK D KDQG MRE , WKHQ
UHDFKHGIRUP\EDJDQGWRRNRXWDFRQGRP
ߙ:KDWIRU"ߙ+HEHJDQLUULWDEO\WKHQVXGGHQO\KHVDLGߙ:KDWHYHULW
V\RXU
EXVLQHVV
+HVDLGLWVRLQGLIIHUHQWO\DVLIKHDEVROXWHO\GLGQߞWFDUH
7KH EORZMRE ZDVQߞW ORQJ $W VRPH SRLQW , UDLVHG P\ KHDG DQG VDZ KLP
FDOPO\VWXG\LQJPHEHIRUHKHJUDEEHGP\KDLUDQGVDLG
ߙ/HWߞVJRWRWKHEHG
, ZDV WRR VFDUHG WR VD\ DQ\WKLQJ +H OHDQHG RQWR PH PDGH D FRXSOH RI
PRWLRQV JUDEEHG P\ ZULVWV DQG IL[HG WKHP DERYH P\ KHDG +LV JULS ZDV VR
VWURQJWKDW,VDZVSRWVLQP\YLVLRQ
,WZDVDQHPRWLRQDOKHOO
+HUDQKLVILQJHUVRYHUP\FKHHNDQGVDLGVXGGHQO\
ߙ7HOOPH1LFNSOHDVHGRQߞWKLWPH/RRNPHLQWKHH\HV7HOOPH1LFN
GRQߞWKLWPH6D\LW
,ZDVSDUDO\]HG,ORRNHGDWKLPDQGUHDOL]HGWKDW,FRXOGQߞWGRDQ\WKLQJZLWK
P\IDFH,UHDOL]HGWKDWLWߞVXVHOHVVWRLPLWDWHSDVVLRQ
1RRQHQHHGVWKDWSDVVLRQKHUH
ߙ:HOO"ߙ+HWKUXVWHGVORZHUWKDQLWZDVQRUPDOO\GRQHߙ:HOO"6D\LW
7KDWߞVLWߙ,WKRXJKWUHVLJQHGO\IRUVRPHKDOIDVHFRQG
ߙ1LFNSOHDVHߙ,FURDNHGDVWUDQJHZKLVSHU
ߙ/RXGHUߙKHRUGHUHGQRWOHDYLQJP\KDQGV
ߙ1LFNSOHDVHGRQߞWKLWPH
ߙ,QWKHH\HV/RRNPHLQWKHH\HV0RUH6D\LWDJDLQELWFK
$WVRPHSRLQW,ILJXUHG,ZDVQߞWJRLQJWRFRPHRXWDOLYHIURPDOORIWKLV$QG
WKHVWUDQJHVWWKLQJZDVWKDW,UHDOL]HG,FRXOGQߞWUXQDQ\ZKHUH
)HDUPDQLIHVWVLQGLIIHUHQWZD\V,KDGRYHUFRPHPDQ\NLQGVRIIHDU7KHUHLV
DIHDUWKDWIRUFHV\RXWRGHIHQG\RXUVHOI7KHUHLVDIHDUWKDWPDNHV\RXZDQWWR
SHUVXDGH7KHUHLVDIHDUWKDWPDNHV\RXGRVRPHWKLQJDWOHDVW
7KLV ZDV TXLWH D GLIIHUHQW IHDU 6WUDQJH OLPS IHDU DQG IRU VRPH UHDVRQ ,
FRXOGQߞWHYHQWKLQN
,VXGGHQO\XQGHUVWRRGZK\VRPHWLPHVYLFWLPVGRQRWUHVLVW
ߙ1LFNSOHDVH3OHDVHGRQߞWKLWPHߨߙLWZDVDQRWKHUYRLFHDQGDQRWKHUPH
ߙ2ND\ 0RP ߙ ORRNLQJ DW PH LQ WKH H\HV KH VPLOHG DW PH DQG ORZHUHG KLV
KDQGߙRND\ 0RP , ZRQߞW EHDW \RX , ZRRRQߞW %HDW <RX 'R \RX OLNH WKLV
0RP"
,ORRNHGDWKLPDQGGLGQߞWVD\DQ\WKLQJ
ߙ0RPGR\RXOLNHLW"ߙ+HDVNHGDODUPLQJO\
ߙ<HV1LFNߙ,ZKLVSHUHG
, KDG WR DFFHSW WKLV JDPH WKDW ZDVQߞW D JDPH DW DOO +H KHOG P\ ZULVWV DQG
ORRNHGLQWRP\H\HV
ߙ1RZ,ߞPVWURQJHU0RPߨ,DPVWURQJHU
,WODVWHGYHU\ORQJ2UVRLWVHHPHGWRPH
,FDQߞWUHPHPEHUKRZKHILQLVKHG
ߙ<RX DUH D JRRG SHUVRQ ߙ KH VDLG DIWHU D IHZ VHFRQGV DQG VZXQJ KLV KDQG
WRZDUGVP\IDFH ,FORVHGP\H\HVRQUHIOH[DQGIHOWWKHEHDWLQJDLU DQGSDWWHG
PHRQWKHFKHHN
,RSHQHGP\H\HV
ߙ<RXDUHDJRRGSHUVRQߙ+HUHSHDWHG
+HUROOHGRIIPHDQGVDLGLQDQHTXDOO\IODWWRQH
ߙ*HWRXWRIKHUH
+HGLGQߞWKDYHWRDVNPHWZLFH
,JRWXSDVTXLFNO\DV,FRXOGPDQDJHSXOOHGRQP\EORXVHDQGVNLUWTXLFNO\
VKRYHGP\XQGHUZHDULQWRWKHEDJDQGUXVKHGIRUWKHGRRU
+HOD\RQWKHEHGIDFHGRZQ
ߙ&ORVHWKHGRRUߙ+H\HOOHGLQDPXIIOHGYRLFH+HGLGQߞWJHWXS
0\OHJVZHUHVKDNLQJDV,ZHQWRXW


7KHQHDWRQH

1R,ߞPQRWWDONLQJDERXWGHYLDWLRQV
:KDWߞV WKHUH WR VD\" <HV WKH\ OLNH VSRRQLQJ DQG FRZJLUO DQG WKH\ OLNH D
ILQJHULQKDUGߙWRߙUHDFKSODFHVLWߞVQRELJGHDO
7KRVHDUHWKHVPDOOWKLQJV,VZHDU
7KHUH DUH QRUPDO LQVWDQFHV DQG WKHQ WKHUH DUH WKH LQVWDQFHV WKDW ZRXOG IXFN
RWKHUVߞEUDLQV
7KLVFOLHQWVSHQWDORQJWLPHRQWKHSKRQHYHULI\LQJZKHWKHU,KDYHKRWZDWHU
DQGKRZFOHDQP\WRZHOVZHUH
,ZDVGRLQJP\H\HPDNHXSDWWKHVDPHWLPHDQGOD]LO\UHSOLHGWKDWHYHU\WKLQJ
LVILQHZLWKWKHZDWHUDQGWRZHOVDUHQRWDSUREOHP,FRXOGHYHQJLYHKLPDQHZ
RQH
2IFRXUVH,GRQߞWKDYHDQ\QHZWRZHOV,I,GLGKDYHDQ\,ZRXOGKDYHXVHGLW
P\VHOI QHZRQHVDUHVRQLFHWRWKHWRXFK 
$QG,GLGQߞWHYHQWKLQNWKDWKHZRXOGFRPH
+HGLG
+HHQWHUHGP\KDOOZD\DQGVWDUWHGWRWDNHRIIKLVVKRHV$VKHVWRRGDQGWULHG
WR WDNH RII KLV VKRH ZLWK WKH KHOS RI KLV WRHV KH ORVW KLV EDODQFH :KDW GRHV D
SHUVRQ GR ZKHQ WKH\ DUH ORVLQJ WKHLU EDODQFH" 7KH\ JUDE WKH QHDUHVW ZDOO +H
PDGHDPRYHWRJUDEWKHZDOOEXWRQO\WRXFKHGLWZLWKKLVILQJHUVPRPHQWDULO\
,QRWLFHWKLVDQGUHDOL]HWKDWVRPHWKLQJLVZURQJ:K\ZRXOGKHUXEKLVRZQ
ILQJHUVLQSDQLFIRUKDOIDPLQXWHRQKLVRZQSDQWVLIKHKDGQRWHYHQWRXFKHG
WKHZDOO"
<HWWKHUHKHZDVVWDQGLQJDQGUXEELQJKLVILQJHUV3DQLFLQKLVH\HV
2I FRXUVH KH GLGQߞW ZHDU WKH VOLSSHUV DOWKRXJK WKH VOLSSHUV IRU FOLHQWV DUH
SUDFWLFDOO\VWHULOHDWP\SODFH7KH\DUHPDGHRIUXEEHUOLNHWKHRQHVLQVDXQDV,
HYHQZDVKWKHPHDFKWLPHWRSUHYHQWWKHVOLJKWHVWVPHOO
ߙ:LOO\RXWDNHDVKRZHU"ߙ+HDVNHGDVVRRQDVZHHQWHUHGWKHURRP
ߙ+RQH\ߙ,VDLGߙ,MXVWFDPHRXWRIWKHVKRZHUILYHPLQXWHVDJR
,W ZDV WKH SXUH WUXWK , VKRZHU EHIRUH HDFK FOLHQW DQG DIWHUZDUGV , GRXEOH
VKRZHU
+HORRNHGDWPHLQGLVEHOLHI
ߙ/RRNߙ,H[KDOHGߙLWߞVQRWGLIILFXOWIRUPHEXW,MXVWFDPHRXWRIWKHUH+HUH
ORRN WKH HQGV RI P\ KDLU DUH VWLOO VOLJKWO\ GDPS , GLGQߞW PDQDJH WR GU\ WKHP
FRPSOHWHO\
$SSDUHQWO\ P\ KRQHVW H\HV VHHPHG WR FRQYLQFH KLP HYHQ LI P\ KDLU ZDV
FRPSOHWHO\GU\
ߙ*RWDNHRQH\RXUVHOIߙ,VDLGDQGJDYHKLPDFOHDQWRZHO
ߙ+RZGR\RXFOHDQWKHP"'R\RXERLOWKHP"ߙ+HDVNHGVXGGHQO\
,JDVSHGLQVKRFNDQGJDYHKLPDTXHVWLRQLQJORRN
ߙ1RUHDOO\ZKDWGR\RXGRZLWKWKHP"$UHWKH\UHDOO\FOHDQ"
ߙ+RQH\ߙ,VSRNHVRIWO\ߙ,KDYHDZDVKLQJPDFKLQHWKHUHJRORRN,ZDVK
WKHPDIWHUHDFKFOLHQW,ߞOOZDVKLWDIWHU\RXOHDYH
ߙ'R\RXLURQ"ߙKHVQRUWHG
ߙ2IFRXUVHߙ,FKHHUIXOO\UHSRUWHGߙ/RRNWKHUHߞVDQLURQ
1RZD\,ߞPLURQLQJWRZHOV
/XFNLO\WKLVFDOPHGKLPGRZQDQGKHZHQWWRWDNHDVKRZHU6WLOOKDOIZD\WR
WKHEDWKURRPKHWXUQHGDURXQGDQGDVNHGPHWRJRZLWKKLP
ߙ%DEHZHEHWWHUGRLWRQWKHEHG
ߙ1RWKDWߞVQRWZKDW,PHDQߙKHVQRUWHGߙ5LQVHWKHEDWKIRUPH
,FRQFOXGHWKDWKHZDVDSV\FKREXWKXPEO\ZHQWDIWHUKLP,QWKHEDWKURRP,
KDGWRWDNHWKHVSRQJHDQGZLSHFOHDQWKHEDWKWXEDQGIDXFHWV
2QO\DIWHUWKDWGLGKHJHWLQWRWKHWXERQKLVIHHWDQGULQVHGLQWKHVKRZHU
,ZDLWHGIRUKLPLQWKHURRP
ߙ<RXQHHGWRFKDQJHWKHEHGGLQJߙKHVDLGXSRQHQWHULQJWKHURRP
ߙ,WߞVFOHDQ,MXVWODLGLWRXW
1RUHDOO\0\VHUYLFHLQFOXGHVFOHDQEHGGLQJ,WQHHGVWREHIUHVKIRUHDFK
FOLHQW
ߙ3OHDVHFKDQJHLWLQIURQWRIPHߙKHVDLGILUPO\
,IXPHGVLOHQWO\EXWFKDQJHGWKHFOHDQEHGGLQJWRDQRWKHUFOHDQRQH
2QO\DIWHUWKDWKHOD\GRZQ,WZRXOGEHVWXSLGWRWKLQNWKDWKHZRXOGQߞWSXW
RQDVKRZLQEHG$QGKHGLG
)LUVWRIDOOKHRSHQHGDQGSXOOHGRQWKHFRQGRPE\KLPVHOI
6HFRQGO\DQGWKLVZDVFOHDUߙKHWULHGWRNHHSRXUWRXFKLQJWRDPLQLPXP
7KLUGO\,KDGQHYHUEHHQIXFNHGZLWKVXFKDGLVJXVWHGZULQNO\IDFH
+HFDPHIDVW
$SSDUHQWO\ WKH IHDU IRU KLV RZQ KHDOWK PDGH KLP ZDQW WR UXQ DV IDVW DV
SRVVLEOH+HHYHQKDGKDOOXFLQDWLRQVRIVFDU\JHUPV
+RZ KH HYHQ KDG FRXUDJH WR YLVLW D SURVWLWXWH ZLWK VXFK IHDUV UHPDLQV D
P\VWHU\WRPH
+HUH
V WKH VXUSULVH ߙ DV VRRQ DV KH ILQLVKHG KH UHOD[HG VOLJKWO\ +H HYHQ
DOORZHGKLPVHOIWROLHGRZQRQWKHSLOORZEXWQRWIRUORQJ+LVQDWXUHVRRQWRRN
LWVWROODVKHMXPSHGXSDQGTXLFNO\EHJDQWRJDWKHUKLVFORWKHV
ߙ'XXXVWߨߙKHVDLGSXOOLQJRQKLVSDQWV
ߙ:KDW"ߙ,GLGQߞWXQGHUVWDQGDQGSXWRQP\EDWKUREH
ߙ,DPVD\LQJ\RXDUHDVOREߙ+HVDLGKDXJKWLO\ߙ7KHUHLVGXVWRYHUWKHUH
'RQߞW\RXHYHUFOHDQXS"7KHUHORRNLQWKHFRUQHUߙKHSRNHGDILQJHU
2QWKHIUHVKO\ZDVKHGIORRUVLQDFRUQHUXQGHUQHDWKWKHSOLQWKߨZDVDWLQ\
OXPSRIGXVW
,QILYHPLQXWHVKHZDVDOPRVWGUHVVHGDQGVWRPSHGWRWKHKDOOZD\+HZRXOG
KDYHOHIWLIQRWIRUWKHFDW,WPHRZHGDQGDSSURDFKHGKLPEHIRUHOLJKWO\UXEEHG
LWVHOIRQKLVOHJ7KHFOLHQWWRRNDVWHSEDFNDQGORRNHGDWPHLQVKRFN
ߙ<RXKDYHDQLPDDDOVLQ\RXUKRPH"ߙ+HDOPRVW\HOOHG
<HVWKDWߞVZKDWKHVDLGDQGKRZKHVDLGLW$QLPDDDOV"
ߙ<HDKDFDWߙ,UHSOLHG
ߙ:K\GLGQߞW\RXWHOOPHHDUOLHU"ߙKHDVNHGLQVXUSULVH
ߙ$ERXWZKDW"ߙ,VDLGSHUSOH[HG
ߙ7KDW \RX NHHS DQLPDOV KHUH 7KH\ PD\ KDYH IOHDV ZRUPV DQG DOO VRUWV RI
SDUDVLWHV
ߙ1RKHGRHVQߞWKDYHDQ\IOHDVRUZRUPVߙ,UHWRUWHGߙLWߞVDQRUPDOKHDOWK\
FDW
ߙ<RXVKRXOGKDYHZDUQHGPHHDUOLHUߙ+HEDUNHGHLWKHUDWPHRUDWWKHFDW,
ZDVQRWHQWLUHO\VXUH
ߙ7KHVHNLQGVRISODFHVVKRXOGKDYHQRDQLPDOV
ߙ/LVWHQ\RXUWLPHߞVXSߙ,EOHZXS
ߙ, ZRXOGQߞW KDYH FRPH KHUH KDG , NQRZQߨߙKH PXPEOHG SXWWLQJ RQ KLV
VKRHV
,RSHQHGWKHGRRUIRUKLP
2EYLRXVO\KHZDVVFDUHGWRKROGWKHKDQGOHKLPVHOI



7KHYDPSLUH

,KDYHWKLVRQHFOLHQWߙ7HG
+H LV D YHU\ SOHDVDQW PDQ $Q RIILFH HPSOR\HH $V IDU DV , XQGHUVWRRG KH
KROGVDORZOHDGHUVKLSSRVLWLRQ+HDGRIGHSDUWPHQWRUVRPHWKLQJOLNHWKDW
+H GUHVVHV YHU\ ZHOO ([SHQVLYH VKRHV /HDWKHU SRUWIROLR DQG SHUIHFWO\
PDWFKHGWLH
%\ WKH ZD\ WKH WLH LV WLHG VR SHUIHFWO\ E\ KLV ZLIH EHFDXVH KH FDQߞW GR LW
KLPVHOI
:KHQHYHUKHOHDYHVZHDUHDOZD\VWRUPHQWHGZLWKLWDV,ߞPQRWVSHFLDOL]HG
LQWLHVDQGKHDOZD\VXQWLHVLWFRPSOHWHO\RXWRIKDELW
,GRQߞWUHDOO\KDYHDWKLQJIRUWLHVVKLUWVWURXVHUV
,ߞPDOVRQRWRQIULHQGO\WHUPVZLWKP\LURQ,SUHIHUWREX\FUHDVHߙUHVLVWDQW
FORWKHV $OWKRXJK ZKR NQRZV LI , KDG D KXVEDQG PD\EH , ZRXOG KDYH WLHG
QDXWLFDOߙVWDQGDUGNQRWVRXWRIWKHVHWLHV
<HDK VR 7HG , ZRXOGQߞW VD\ KH LV HVSHFLDOO\ KDQGVRPH QR 7HG LV DQ
RUGLQDU\PDQZLWKULJKWIDFLDOIHDWXUHVDQGWKLQOLSV,I,ZDVDPRWKHUORRNLQJ
WRPDUU\RIIKHUGDXJKWHU,ZRXOGVD\WKDW7HGZDVDQLGHDOPDQ&OHYHUZHOO
EURXJKWXSGHFHQW$JHPLQRQHZRUG
,WLVXQOLNHO\WKDWKHLVDEOHWRPDNHDGLIIHUHQWLPSUHVVLRQRQRWKHUV
1RWRQPH
3HRSOH FRPH WR PH ZLWK FRFNURDFKHV LQ WKHLU KHDGV DQG WKH\ EULQJ WRS
VHFUHWV$QGHYHQ,ZLWKVXFKH[SHULHQFHFDQߞWDOZD\VWHOOZKDWEDJJDJHHDFK
SHUVRQFRPHVZLWK
2YHU WKH \HDUV , KDYH QRWLFHG RQH WKLQJ 7KH PRUH GHFHQW D PDQ ORRNV WKH
PRUHGHUDQJHGRIDPDQLDFKHLVRQWKHLQVLGH
6LQFH WKH PRPHQW , UHDOL]HG WKLV , EHJDQ WR OLNH DVVKROHV 7KH\ DUH PXFK
PRUH QRUPDO WKDW WKH LQWHOOLJHQW SHRSOH ZLWK ULJKW PDQQHUV EHFDXVH WKH\ DUH
SUHGLFWDEOHDQG\RXNQRZZKDWWRH[SHFW
7HGYLVLWVPHRQFHDPRQWK(YHU\PRQWKGXULQJWKHFRXUVHRIVL[PRQWKV
7HG FRPHV IURP ZRUN ZHDULQJ D VXLW 7HG FRPHV LQ VSRUWVZHDU DIWHU KLV
HYHQLQJIRRWEDOO7HGFDQFRPHLQWHQQLVFORWKHVDIWHUDZHHNHQGVSHQWZLWKNLGV
EXWKHZLOODOZD\VEHDWP\SODFHRQDIL[HGGD\
$QGZK\"
%HFDXVH7HGOLNHVWRJHWGLUW\LQEORRG
1RKHGRHVQߞWEHDWPHDQGGRHVQߞWFXWPHZLWKDNQLIH
7HGFRPHVWRPHVSHFLDOO\RQWKHVHFRQGGD\RIP\SHULRG,WLVWKHGD\ZKHQ
WKHEORRGIORZLVDWLWVKHLJKW+HOLNHVWKHVPHOOWKHVH[ߨ
+HLVDOVRDORYHURIOLFNLQJDQGKHSUDFWLFDOO\VXFNVRIIDOORIWKDWEORRGWLOO
WKHODVWGURS
+H FXPV YLFLRXVO\ HDFK WLPH DQG , JHW WR REVHUYH KLV EORRG\ IDFH ZLWK LWV
VDWLVILHGVPLOHRIDYLOODJHFDWZKRMXVWJRWWKHFUHDP
7KHDQVZHUWRWKLVP\VWHU\LVRXWUDJHRXVO\VLPSOH
+LVZLIHZRQߞWOHWKLPGRLWRQKHUSHULRG6KHVD\VLWߞVYHU\KDUPIXOIRUWKH
PDQDQGWKHZRPDQ6KHVKLHVDZD\IURPEORRGDQGVD\VWKDWWKHYLHZLVEDG
WKHVPHOOLVEDGDQGVKHLVXQFRPIRUWDEOH
:RPHQ UHPHPEHU 0HQ FRPH WR XV QRW RXW RI VH[ KXQJHU 7KH\ FDQ
PDVWXUEDWHRQWKHLURZQLWߞVQRWDSUREOHP7KHUHDVRQWKH\YLVLWXVLVEHFDXVH
WKH\ KDYH XQVDWLVILHG IDQWDVLHV 6R LI \RXU KXVEDQG DVNV IRU VRPHWKLQJ HLWKHU
JLYH LW WR KLP RU GRQߞW FU\ LQWR \RXU SLOORZ ZDLOLQJ 7KDW EDVWDUG ERRNHG D
ZKRUHZKDWߞVKHPLVVLQJDWKRPH"
+HPLJKWEHORQJLQJIRUVXFKVWUDQJHWKLQJV


7KHLQYHQWRU

,WKRXJKWWRVKDUHVRPHWKLQJUHIUHVKLQJ
:KHQ , ILUVW VWDUWHG ZRUN DQG KDG QR VSHFLDO H[SHULHQFH , KDG D VWDQGDUG
SURJUDPWKHFODVVLFDQGDEORZMRE7KDWZDVLWGHVSLWHEHLQJFRQVWDQWO\DVNHG
IRUDQDO7KH\DVNIRULWQRZWRR
%HIRUHWKH\OLYHGWKHLUOLYHVDQGGLGQߞWWKLQNWKDWWKH\FRXOGVWLFNLWLQWKHUH
WRR
1RZHYHU\RWKHURQHDVNVIRULW7KH\JLYHDQGWDNHZLWKSOHDVXUHZK\QRW"
:KDWHYHU,JRWFDUULHGDZD\
2I FRXUVH , XQGHUVWRRG WKDW LI WKHUH ZDV D GHPDQG WKHUH QHHGHG WR EH DQ
RIIHU)RUWKLVUHDVRQVRPHGLGQߞWHYHQJHWWRP\SODFH:HOO\HDKWKHUHDORWRI
JLUOVDURXQGUHDG\WRJLYH)RUDGGLWLRQDOSD\PHQWRIFRXUVH
$QGKHUH,DPZLWKP\FODVVLFV
6R KHUH LW KDSSHQHG D FOLHQW NQRFNHGRQ WKH GRRUKH ZDVD SHUPDQHQWRQH
$OPRVWOLNHDQRIILFHURPDQFH1RWDEDGPDQQRWJUHHG\PHGLXPVL]H
+HNQHZ,GLGQߞWRIIHUDQDOEXWKDGQRTXDOPVDERXWFRQYLQFLQJPHWRGRLW
$SSDUHQWO\KHYHU\EDGO\ZDQWHGWREHP\ILUVWRQH
, WKLQN WKDW ZDV WKH PDLQ UHDVRQ RI KLV YLVLWV HYHU\ WLPH /HWߞV WU\ ,ߞOO EH
VRIWDQGDOOWKDW
+HDOZD\VRIIHUHGDQDGGLWLRQDOIHHRIFRXUVH,ODXJKHGLWRIIHYHU\WLPH
+HFDPHDWQLJKWZLWKEXFNHWVRIERR]HDQGVQDFNVRIDOONLQGV$QGDJDLQ
KHWULHGKLVOXFN(PLO\OHWߞVWU\\RXߞOOOLNHLWߨ
,WRRNFRXUDJH
/HWߞVGRLW,VDLG
,ߞOO VNLS WKH GHWDLOV RI KRZ , JRW UHDG\ , ZHQW WR WKH EDWKURRP IRXQG D
V\ULQJH\RXJHWWKHLGHD
,WRRNVRPHWLPHLQWKHEDWKURRPRXWRIIHDU+HZDVDOPRVW\HOOLQJ(PLO\
JHWRXW
,ILQDOO\FDPHRXW+HFDPHXSVWDUWHGKXJJLQJDQGUHOD[LQJPH
,WROGKLP:DLWOHWߞVGULQNPRUH
,GUDQNPRUH
$QGPRUH
,QVKRUWGXULQJWHQPLQXWHV,PDQDJHGWRJHWZDVWHGWRWKHERQHV
:KDW"<RXGRQߞWORVH\RXUYLUJLQLW\HYHU\GD\LQVXFKXQLQWHQGHGSODFHV
:KHQKHUHDOL]HG,ZDVQߞWORRNLQJKHGUDJJHGPHWRWKHEDOFRQ\,WZDVFROG
RXWVLGHDQG,ZDVVWDQGLQJWKHUHOLNHDIRROLQVWRFNLQJVDQGDFOHDQDVV
$Q\ZD\KHGLGQߞWWRXFKP\XQFRQVFLRXVFDUFDVV+HRQO\ODLGPHWRVOHHS
,QWKHPRUQLQJZHODXJKHGLWRII+HVDLGLWZDVRND\WKHQH[WWLPHLWZRXOG
GHILQLWHO\KDSSHQ
+HFDOOHGDIWHUWKUHHGD\V,KDGPRUDOO\WXQHGLQ+HFDPHZLWKMXVWDERWWOH
RIZLQHWKLVWLPHߙKHNQRZ,VKRXOGQߞWKDYHPRUH
:HGUDQNDOLWWOHDQGKHWROGPHWROLHGRZQ
+HZDVWDONLQJWRPHDQGGRLQJVRPHWKLQJZLWKKLVILQJHUVWKHUH,DPO\LQJ
WKHUHOLVWHQLQJWRKLP,WVHHPHGOLNH,KDGUHOD[HG
+HSXOOHGXSWKHFRQGRPSRXUHGKDOIDERWWOHRIOXEULFDQWߨ
$QGDOORIDVXGGHQKHLVRQWKHEHGVKRFNRQKLVIDFHKLVDUPVH[WHQGHGDV
LIWRVD\KHHH\ߨZKHUHDUH\RXJRLQJ"DQG,DPMXPSLQJDURXQGWKHURRP
KROGLQJP\NQHHVKROGLQJP\DVVDQGZDLOLQJ2K*RGRK*RGDDDDKߨRK
*RGߨ
,GRQߞWHYHQNQRZKRZ,IOHZRXWIURPXQGHUKLP
+HKDGMXVWVWDUWHGDQG,IOHZRXW(YHQWKRXJKKHZDVVRIWLWVWLOOKXUWWKDW
WKHILUVWWLPH
+HVDLGWRPHSHQVLYHO\<HDK(PLO\7KHDUPRULVVWURQJ
:HZRUNHGRQLWXQWLOOPRUQLQJ,FRXOGQߞWJHWWKURXJKLWIRUWKHOLIHRIPH
+HVWLFNVLWLQDQG,VFUHDP%XWWKHQVRPHKRZOLWWOHE\OLWWOHVWHSE\VWHSDQG
KHZHQWWKURXJK
)RUDQHQWLUHZHHN,SRRSHGDQGFULHG
7KHQZHWULHGLWZLWKKLPDJDLQDQGDJDLQ
7KHQLWZDVQߞWMXVWKLP
1RZ,OLNHLWDQG,KDYHDWDVWHIRULW
8QIRUWXQDWHO\WKDWFOLHQWKDVVLQFHPHWDJLUODQGVWRSSHGYLVLWLQJPH:KDWD
SLW\KHZDVDJRRGPDQ
$QGQRWJUHHG\

7KHVRXQGRSHUDWRU

$VWKHKHURRIRQHPRYLHRQFHVDLG6RPHWLPHVSHRSOHGRQߞWNQRZZKDWWR
ZLVKIRU
,WZDVHDV\IRUKLPKHZDVDPDJLFLDQDQGNQHZH[DFWO\ZKDWKHQHHGHG,
DPIDUIURPEHLQJDPDJLFLDQDQG,ߞPGHILQLWHO\QRWDSV\FKLF
7KH JHQWOHPDQ ZDV VKRUW QHDW WKLQ DQG GHFHQW ORRNLQJ LI , PD\ VD\ VR
:KHQ,PHWKLPDWWKHGRRUKHNLVVHGP\KDQGDQGWROGPH,VPHOOHGJUHDWDQG
ZHZHQWXSVWDLUV
+HQHDWO\SXWKLVVKRHVLQDFRUQHUDQGDVNHGZKHUHKHFRXOGKDQJKLVFRDW
SDLGDQGVOLJKWO\VK\LQJDZD\LQVWDQWO\ZHQWLQWRWKHEDWKURRP
,VDWRQWKHEHGLQRQHRIP\VHGXFWLYHSRVHVDQGZDLWHGIRUKLP
+HFDPHEDFNTXLFNO\FRPSOHWHO\QXGHDQGKROGLQJKLVIROGHGFORWKHVLQKLV
KDQGV +H VHHPHG VOLJKWO\ HPEDUUDVVHG DQG VR , DOPRVW LPPHGLDWHO\ WULHG WR
VWDUW,DVNHGKLPWROLHGRZQDQGUHOD[,ZRXOGGRWKHUHVW
,Q WKH HQVXLQJ ILYH PLQXWHV KH ZDV UHDG\ WR JR RXW RQ WKH EDWWOHILHOG DQG
FRQTXHUP\IRUWUHVV
,DUFKHGP\EDFNOLNHDFDWFUDYLQJIRUDWWHQWLRQDQGEXULHGP\IDFHLQWKH
SLOORZ
ߙ/LVWHQZK\DUH\RXPRDQLQJ"ߙ+HDVNHGXQH[SHFWHGO\DIWHUILYHPLQXWHV
ߙ:KDW"ߙ,WXUQHGWRKLPDWRQFHRXWRIVXUSULVHIRUJHWWLQJDERXWP\VWURQJO\
SRUWUD\HGHFVWDV\IRUKLPGXULQJWKHODVWWHQVHFRQGV
ߙ,DPVD\LQJZKDWߞVWKHSRLQWRIPRDQLQJ"
ߙ:KDWGR\RXPHDQ"ߙ,DVNHGDJDLQ
+HZDVVWLOOLQVLGHPHDWWKLVPRPHQW
ߙ2KZKDWߞVWKHSRLQWRISUHWHQGLQJ,NQRZWKDW\RXGRQߞWJHWSOHDVXUHRXWRI
DOOWKLV
ߙ:HGRߙ,WULHGWRHVFDSHWKHXQSOHDVDQWFRQYHUVDWLRQHYHQWKRXJK,NQHZ
H[DFWO\ZKDWKHPHDQWߙ'R\RXWKLQN,ߞPQRWDZRPDQ"
ߙ7KDWߞVQRWZKDW,PHDQߙKHVDLGLQDVHULRXVWRQHJUDEELQJP\KLSVWLJKWO\
ߙ\RXWKLQN,GRQߞWXQGHUVWDQGWKDW\RXDUHMXVWSOD\LQJ"%HFDXVH\RXDUHJHWWLQJ
SDLGIRULW
ߙ+RQH\ߙ,SXUUHGߙJHWWLQJSDLGLVRQHWKLQJEXW,GRUHDOO\IHHOJRRGZLWK
\RXߨ
ߙ/HWߞVGRLWWKLVZD\ߙKHFRQWLQXHGQRWKDYLQJKHDUGPHߙ,XQGHUVWDQGWKDW
\RX GRQߞW OLNH WKLVߨ<RX OLH GRZQ DQG ,ߞOO GR HYHU\WKLQJ P\VHOI , GRQߞW QHHG
WKLVVKRZߨ
,ZDVRIIHQGHGDQGEXULHGP\IDFHLQWKHSLOORZ
,QWKHQH[WIHZPLQXWHVHYHU\WKLQJZDVTXLWHVLOHQWQRWFRQVLGHULQJWKHPXVLF
IURPWKHODSWRSDQGKLVIRFXVHGVQLII
$QGLQWKHPRPHQW,WKRXJKWKHZDVFORVHWRFXPPLQJKHVWRSSHGDQGWDSSHG
PHRQWKHVKRXOGHU
,WXUQHGDURXQGWU\LQJWRSRUWUD\DWOHDVWVRPHNLQGRISOHDVXUH
ߙ:K\ DUH \RX VLOHQW DOO WKH WLPH" ߙ +H DVNHG ߙ$UH \RX QRW JHWWLQJ DQ\
SOHDVXUHIURPPH"
ߙ1RLWߞVSOHDVDQWIRUPHߙRIFRXUVH,ZDVVWLOOO\LQJߙEXW\RXWROGPHWREH
TXLHWVR,DP
ߙ1RRZDLWߙKHVQLIIHGRIIHQGHGDQGSXOOHGEDFNVOLJKWO\ߙ,GLGQߞWPHDQWR
EHFRPSOHWHO\TXLHW6KRZPHKRZSOHDVDQWLWLVIRU\RXRU,FDQߞWߨ
ߙ2ND\ KRQH\ EHVLGHV LW UHDOO\ LV SOHDVDQW IRU PH ߙ , TXLFNO\ FODULILHG DQG
EXULHGP\IDFHLQWKHSLOORZRQFHDJDLQ
+HFRQWLQXHGDQG,ZDVHLWKHUVTXHDNLQJRUJUXQWLQJ$OOLQDOO,ZDVWU\LQJWR
PDNHVRXQGVVLPLODUWRSOHDVXUHLIQRWSDVVLRQ
$IWHUWZRPLQXWHVKHVWRSSHG
ߙ:KDWDUH\RXGRLQJULJKWQRZ"ߙ+HDVNHG
,Q P\ PLQG , VHQW KLP WR KHOO D WKRXVDQG WLPHV EHIRUH WXUQLQJ P\ KHDG WR
KLP
ߙ+RQH\ ߙ , VDLG JHQWO\ P\ IDFH H[SUHVVHG XWPRVW FRXUWHV\ ߙ+RQH\ \RX
GRQߞWZDQWPHWREHFRPSOHWHO\VLOHQWGR\RX"
+H SXOOHG DZD\ IURP PH WKHQ VDW EHVLGH PH RQ WKH EHG , ZDV LQ WKH VDPH
SRVLWLRQDQGZDLWHGIRUKLVDQVZHU
ߙ:HHHOOOߙKHVWUHWFKHGWKHVRXQGVDQGVOLJKWO\JRWPDGߙDOORI\RXDUHO\LQJ
WRPH<RXZDQWWRILQLVKTXLFNO\VREDG
ߙ+RQH\ ߙ , WRXFKHG KLV VKRXOGHU WU\LQJ WR GLVWUDFW KLP ߙPD\EH ZH FRXOG
FKDQJHWKHSRVLWLRQ"
,GLGQߞWZDQWWRHQWHULQWRORQJSV\FKRORJLFDOWDONV
ߙ$OULJKWߙKHVXGGHQO\ZRNHXSߙOLHGRZQRQ\RXUEDFN
,GLGDQGKHSRVLWLRQHGKLPVHOIRQWRS
ߙ2QO\ GRQߞW SXW D VKRZ IRU PH DOULJKW" -XVW OLH GRZQ , JHW LW DOOߨ, NQRZ
ZKDW\RXDUHUHDOO\WKLQNLQJ
,OD\GRZQZLWKP\H\HVFORVHGDQGWULHGWRZRUNKDUGHUZLWKP\KLSV
ߙ/RRNDUH\RXDOLYHDWDOO"ߙ+HVDLGH[DFWO\DIWHURQHPLQXWH
ߙ,DPߙ,JRWPDGߙ:KDW"
ߙ:K\DUH\RXVRGHDGVLOHQW"
ߙ/LVWHQߙ,VDLGߙWU\WRGHFLGHIRU\RXUVHOIZKHWKHU\RXZDQWPHWREHTXLHW
RUQRW",DPNLQGRIORVWKHUH
ߙ:HOOQRGRQߞWEHFRPSOHWHO\VLOHQW,FDQߞWJRRQOLNHWKDWEXWFDQ\RXMXVW
PRDQLQVXFKDZD\WKDW,ZRXOGQߞWWKLQNLWߞVIRUWKHPRQH\
)XFNLQJPLOOLRQDLUHLWߞVQRWHYHQDORWRIPRQH\ߨ
ߙ2ND\KRQH\,ߞOOWU\ߙ$QG,VDWRQWRSRIKLP
,WZDVOLNHDRQHߙPDQVKRZIRUWKHQH[WWHQPLQXWHV,FDUHIXOO\FDOLEUDWHGWKH
SDXVHVVTXHDNHGRQWKHWKLUGH[KDODWLRQDQGKHZDVREYLRXVO\FDUULHGDZD\QRW
ZLWKKLVRZQIHHOLQJVEXWWKHFRXQWLQJRIP\VTXHDNVDQGWKHPRPHQWKHIHOW,
ZDVJRLQJWRRIDVWKHPDGHDQXQVDWLVILHGIDFHߨ
, GRQߞW NQRZ KRZ EXW ZH PDQDJHG WR GR LW +H OD\ GRZQ EHVLGH PH TXLWH
VDWLVILHGDQGZKHQ,ZDVWDNLQJRIIWKHFRQGRPKHVXGGHQO\VDLG
ߙ<RXNQRZ,WKLQN\RXGLGUHDOO\HQMR\\RXUVHOI5LJKW"

/RYHLVEOLQG

7KHUHߞVDTXLWHLQWHUHVWLQJFRQWLQJHQWDQG,ZRXOGQߞWVD\,FRPHDFURVVWKHP
RIWHQ EXW LW KDSSHQV VRPHWLPHV 7KH\ FDOO FRPH RU LQYLWH 0RUH RIWHQ WKH\
LQYLWH
7KHVHDUHWKHFRXSOHVZKRDUHLQORYHEXWQHHGWRVSLFHXSWKHLUUHODWLRQVKLSV
$QGQRWMXVWDOLWWOHSLQFKRIVSLFHDZKROHSRXQGRILW
$V,IRXQGRXWZLWKWLPHLQRIFDVHVWKHPHQDUHWKHRQHVWRLQLWLDWHDQG
WKHZRPHQRIWHQWROHUDWHLW7KH\JHWMHDORXVDQJU\EXWWKH\WROHUDWHLW
7KHUHDUHVRPHFRXSOHVLQWKHPLQRULW\ZKHUHERWKRIWKHSDUWQHUVDUHLQIXOO
DJUHHPHQW DQG FRPH WR HQMR\ WKHPVHOYHV DQG DUH UHDG\ WR WU\ DQ\WKLQJ
+RZHYHUDPDMRULW\RIWKHVHFRXSOHVDUHWKHRQHVZKHUHWKHPDQKDVFRQYLQFHG
WKHZRPDQWRWU\LWEXWVKHGRHVQߞWHQMR\KHUVHOIDVVKHDWWHQWLYHO\REVHUYHVPH
HYHU\VHFRQGDVLI,VZDOORZHGDQH[WUDLQFKRIKHUEHORYHGKXVEDQGߞVGLFN
,IHDUWKHODWWHUWKHPRVW<RXQHYHUNQRZZKDWߞVLQKHUKHDG
7KHUHZHUHVRPHZKRFRXOGQRWVWDQGWKHVWUHVVIXOYLHZDQGWULHGWRJUDEP\
WKURDWEXWZHUHIRUWXQDWHO\TXLFNO\VWRSSHGE\WKHLUEHORYHGKXVEDQGVDQGLQWKH
ZRUVWFDVHߙJRWEHDWHQ:HOO\HV,VDZLW
&RXSOHVDUHGLIIHUHQW
7KH ZRPHQ LQ WKHVH FRXSOHV FDQ DOVR YHULI\ IRU DERXW KXQGUHG WLPHV WKDW ,
GLGQߞWNLVVWKHOLSVRIWKHLUPDQQRPDWWHUKDSSHQV
%XWZKHUHKDYH\RXVHHQGHDUJXHVWVWKDWDSURVWLWXWHWRRNLQKHUPRXWKWKH
VOREEHULQJWRQJXHRIDFOLHQW"$UH\RXFUD]\RUZKDW",
PDSURSHUJLUO
$QGLQPRVWFDVHVWKHVHIDPLO\SHRSOHFRPHWRPHGUXQN,WVHHPVWKDWZKHQ
WKH\DUHVREHUWKHLUFRQVFLHQFHGRHVQRWDOORZWKHPWRSXWWKHLUSDUWQHUXQGHUD
VWUDQJHU
7KH\ RIWHQ WU\ WR JHW PH GUXQN DV ZHOO ,W VHHPV OLNH WKH\ FDUH DERXW P\
FRQVFLHQFHDVZHOO
$VIRUPH,GRQߞWFDUH$Q\ZKLPIRU\RXUPRQH\
'R\RXWKLQN,RIWHQKDYHWKUHHVRPHV"
&HUWDLQO\QRW7KUHHVRPHVKDSSHQRIFRXUVHEXWWKH\DUHVXFKUDULWLHV
,WVHHPVWRPHHYHU\WLPHZKHQWKHVHFRXSOHDSSURDFKPHWKH\ZDQWWRKDYH
VH[WKHPVHOYHVDQGKDYHPHZDWFKLQJRQWKHVLGH
,WߞVDSOHDVXUHWRZDWFKEDGO\KLGGHQIHPDOHMHDORXV\6RPHWLPHV,HYHQSLW\
WKHVHZRPHQ
,VLWUHDOO\WKDWVFDU\WRORVHDPDQ"6RWHUULI\LQJWKDW\RXDUHUHDG\WRWROHUDWH
DQ\WKLQJ"7RUPHQW\RXUVHOIEXWWROHUDWH"
,KDYHDFRXSOHZKRKDYHEHHQYLVLWLQJPHIRUWKUHH\HDUV7KH\YLVLWRQFHLQ
VL[PRQWKVZKHQWKH\GRQߞWKDYHHQRXJKQRYHOW\
7KH\FRPHJHWWKHPVHOYHVFRPIRUWDEOHODXJKRXWORXG WKHIHPDOHODXJKVLQ
DK\VWHULFDOWRQH DQGZHGULQNZKLVNH\
:HVLWWDONWKH\DVNPHWRGLPWKHOLJKWVDQGZHJHWXQGUHVVHGOLWWOHE\OLWWOH
6KHMXVWSXOOVRIIKHUVKLUWDQGUHPDLQVLQKHUSDQWV6KHLVQRWZHDULQJDEUD
0D\EHVKHGRHVZHDURQHEXWWRPHVKHFRPHVZLWKRXWWKHP,WߞVDVWDQGDUG
7KHPDQMXVWQRGVWRPHWRWDNHPLQHDZD\DVZHOO,WDNHLWRII6HUJHVLWVRQ
WKHEHGDQGGUDZVXVWRKLPVHOI+HVWDUWVWRFDUHVVRXUEUHDVWVZLWKERWKKDQGV
DQG HYHQ RFFDVLRQDOO\ ELWHVWKHQ KH XQ]LSV WKH SDQWV RI KLV EHORYHG ZLIH DQG
QHDWO\JHQWO\SXOOVWKHPRII,FDQVHHKHORYHVKHU
,DPZHDULQJDVNLUWDQGVWRFNLQJVDVXVXDO,WߞVPRUHFRPIRUWDEOHDQGPHQ
OLNHLW+HWDNHVLWRII
+H TXLFNO\ WXUQV PH DURXQG SXWV PH RQ WKH EHG RQ P\ NQHHV DQG OLIWV P\
VNLUW
,FDQIHHOWKHZLIHVWDUWLQJWRJHWPHQWDORQWKHPRYHPHQWVRIWKHKXVEDQGEXW
GRHVQRWKLQJ6KHLVVLOHQWEXW,FDQIHHOWKHHQHUJ\
,IQRWIRUKHUIHDURIORVLQJKHUPDQVKHZRXOGKDYHJRWWHQXSDQGOHIW
6HUJH SUREDEO\ IHHOV LW WRR WKDWߞV ZK\ KH TXLFNO\ SODFHV KHU LQ WKH VDPH
SRVLWLRQDVPH
$QGKHUHZHDUHVKHFRPSOHWHO\QDNHGPHZLWKP\VNLUWXSDQGSDQWLHVRII
OLNHWZRVPLOHVRQWKHVXQ
+HGRHVQߞWSDXVHIRUORQJDQGJHWVKLVWZRKDQGVDQGVKRYHVKLVILQJHUVLQWR
XV
+LVILQJHUVDUHEHDXWLIXOߙORQJVPRRWKDQGZLWKZHOOJURRPHGQDLOV
6KHVWDUWVWRPRDQDSSDUHQWO\VKHOLNHVWREHILQJHUHG+HIXFNVXVOLNHWKLVD
OLWWOHDQGPRYHVWRP\DVV
2QO\PLQHߙKLVZLIHGRHVQߞWWDNHLQWKHDVV
+HIXFNVPHZLWKKLVILQJHUVDQGJHWVRII+HUH,VWDUWWRPRDQ
7KHZLIHLVMHDORXVDJDLQ6KHVWRSVWRPRDQWXUQVDURXQGDQGWDNHVWKHGLFN
RIKHUKXVEDQGDQGVWDUWVWRVXFNIUDQWLFDOO\,WKLQNWRP\VHOIWKDWLWߞVWLPHIRU
P\EUHDN$IWHUWKLVPRYH,ߞPXVXDOO\IRUJRWWHQIRUVRPHWLPH
$FWXDOO\ , NQRZ WKDW WKH KXVEDQG UHPHPEHUV PH 0\ DVV JLYHV KLP QR UHVW
EXWKLVZRPDQZDVQHUYRXVVR,ߞPSDLGOHVVDQGOHVVDWWHQWLRQ
7KHUHVWRIWKHQLJKW,ZDWFKWKHVHWZRIXFN6RYLFLRXVO\VRYLROHQWO\,DP
VXUHWKH\GRLWPRUHPRGHVWO\DQGJHQWO\DWKRPH
$OOLQDOOWKH\DUHVDWLVILHG
$QGPH"1RWKLQJ,DPVLWWLQJDQGGRLQJQRWKLQJ
7KLVFRXSOHZDVDWP\SODFHQRWDYHU\ORQJWLPHDJR,OLNHWKHPDIWHUDOO
7KH\ ORYH HDFK RWKHU ,I QRW IRU KLV GHVLUHV LQYROYH D WKLUG SDUW\ HYHU\WKLQJ
ZRXOGSUREDEO\EHILQHZLWKWKHP
$IHZGD\VDIWHUWKHLUYLVLWKHGURSVE\P\SODFHWRKDYHVRPHWHD0\DVV
ZRQߞWOHDYHKLPDORQH
+HSD\VIXFNVDQGOHDYHVVDWLVILHG
+HWROGPHWKH\ߞGFRPHDJDLQ$VDOZD\V

%DELHV

$QRUPDOJX\FDPHE\KHZDVELJ 1RWIDWMXVWELJ
:HVDWGUDQNWDONHGKHWRRNDVKRZHUDQGZHJRWWRWKHERGLHV
$QGKHUH,DPRQKLPGHSLFWLQJDZLOGSDVVLRQKHDOVRVTXLUPVVRPHWKLQJDW
WKHERWWRPDQGDV,ULGH,ZRQGHUߙLI,IDNHRUJDVPVLQYDLQ"
0D\EHKHKDGORVWWKHERQHUIRUTXLWHVRPHWLPHQRZ"
6XFKDPLVIRUWXQH,FDQߞWIHHOLWDWDOO
,WZRXOGEHYHU\IXQQ\
,KDYHVHHQVPDOOGLFNV
0DQ\VPDOORQHV
$QGKRZWKH\EUDJDERXWLW
*RDVNDQ\JX\ߙKHZLOODQVZHUWKDWKLVGLFNLVSHUIHFW
+H ZLOO ORRN DW \RX ZLWK VXFK KRQHVW H\HV $QG ZLWKRXW EOLQNLQJ KH
FRQILGHQWO\EHOLHYHVLQKLPVHOI+HKDVPHDVXUHGKLPVHOIIURPWKHEHJLQQLQJߨ
RIWKHQDYHO
7KHUHDUHQRWPDQ\UHDOO\ELJGLFNV
7KHVPDOOHVWGLFNWKDW,ߞYHHYHUVHHQߙLWPD\EHKDUGWREHOLHYHDQGLI,KDG
QRWVHHQLWP\VHOI,ZRXOGKDYHWKRXJKWLWGRHVQߞWH[LVWߙZDVWKHVL]HRIDPDWFK
VWLFN
,W GLGQߞW EHORQJ WR D FOLHQW 7ZR \HDUV DJR , PHW D ER\ , FDQߞW UHPHPEHU
ZKHUHEXWKHZDVGHILQLWHO\QRWWKHFOLHQW+HDVNHGPHRXWRQDGDWHDQGZH
ZHQWRXWWRIRUFRIIHH
+HGURSSHGPHRIIDWP\SODFHDQGZHZHUHVLWWLQJLQWKHFDUWDONLQJ
,GRQߞWDVNKLPWRFRPHXS:K\"
%HFDXVH,NQRZP\VHOIDQ\FRQYHUVDWLRQZLOOVRRQHURUODWHUOHDGWRVH[
+HPDGHDPRYH,ZDVGUXQNDQGKHVWDUWHGWRSHUVXDGHPH
+HVLWVWKHUHXQ]LSSLQJKLVSDQWVDQGVD\V+HUHORRNDWWKLVVROGLHU
, KDG D UHDFWLRQ DOPRVW OLNH LQ WKH PRYLH ,QWHUVWDWH  ߙ ZKHQ WKH JLUO
XQ]LSSHG KLV SDQWV DQG UHDOL]HG WKHUH ZDV QR GLFN 7KH JLUO LQ WKH PRYLH KDG
\HOOHGEXWDOO,FRXOGGRZDVWRJLYHDORZVTXHDN
,FRQWLQXHWRVLWDQGORRNDWLW
,WZDVGDUNLQWKHFDUSOXVKHZDVXQJURRPHGDQGLWVHHPHGWRPHWKDWWKHUH
ZDVQRWKLQJ
$QGWKHQ,VDZLWZKHQKHILVKHGLWRXWRIWKHIRUHVW
,W ZDV D VKRFN RI FRXUVH ,W ZDV VR VPDOO QRW ORQJHU WKDQ D PDWFKVWLFN $
PLFURSHQLV&RPSOHWHO\LQYLVLEOHLQWKRVHKDLUV
,ZDVLQFRPSOHWHVKRFN
7KHPRVWLQWHUHVWLQJSDUWZDVWKDWLWZDVRIWKHVDPHZLGWKDVDQRUPDORQH
:HOOQRWKLQJKDSSHQHGDWOHDVW
,GLGQߞWZDQWWRSXWWKLVFDQG\LQP\PRXWK:KDWLILWJRWORVW"
,SXOOHGXSKLV]LSSHUQHDWO\DQGRIIKHZHQW
+HFDOOHGPHWZRPRUHWLPHV
$VNHGPHRXWDJDLQ+HZDVSUREDEO\QRWVK\


7KHLOOXVLRQLVW

$ WKLUW\ߙVRPHWKLQJ JX\ FDPH E\ UHFHQWO\ +H ZDV DQ LQWHUHVWLQJ W\SH WDOO
OHDQDQGYHU\SOHDVDQW+HFRPHVLQDQGLWVRPHKRZIHHOVYHU\HDV\ZLWKRXWWKH
VOLJKWHVWWHQVLRQ/LNHROGIULHQGV,WKDSSHQV
:HVDWGUDQNDOLWWOHELWWDONHGDQGLWFDPHGRZQWRIXFNLQJ
+HZDVHDV\LQWKHEHGWRR,ZDVQߞWWHQVHLQWKHVOLJKWHVWPDQQHU
%XWWKDWߞVQRWUHOHYDQW
$Q\ZD\ZHDUHLQDPLVVLRQDU\SRVHߙKHLVRQWRSRIPH,ߞPIHHOLQJJRRG
DQGHQMR\LQJP\VHOI7KDWVRPHWLPHVKDSSHQVWRR
$QGKHORRNVDWPHDQGVD\V
ߙ7DONWRPH
$WILUVW,GLGQߞWHYHQUHDOL]HZKDWKHZDQWHG$QG,VWDUWWHOOLQJKLPZKDWDOO
ZRPHQXVXDOO\VD\LQVXFKPRPHQWVߙ,WHOOKLPVZHHWQRWKLQJV
$QGKHVWRSVPHDQGLQZKLVSHU
ߙ1RWOLNHWKDWߨ
$QG ZKDW ZRXOG \RX FRPH XS ZLWK" ,I QRW JHQWOH WKHQ WKH RSSRVLWH DV LI
<HV)XFNPHDQGDOOWKDW
$QGDJDLQKHVD\V
ߙ1RWOLNHWKDWߨ
$QG KHUH , JRW FRQIXVHG +H GRHVQߞW QHHG JHQWOH RU URXJK :KDW GRHV KH
QHHG"
+HORRNVDWPHDQG,UHDOL]HKHZDQWVWRWHOOPHVRPHWKLQJEXWKHHLWKHUFDQߞW
SXWLWLQWRULJKWZRUGVRUKHLVVHOIߙFRQVFLRXV
$QG,WHOOKLP
ߙ+RZ"7HOOPHKRZGR\RXZDQWLW"
+HVKLHGDZD\VRPHPRUHDQGVDLG7HOOPHߨDVWRU\
,NQHZZKDWKHZDQWHG,KDGDVLPLODUFOLHQWDORQJWLPHDJRZKROLNHGWREH
WROGVWRULHVGXULQJWKHSURFHVV
,Q WKLV LQVWDQFH LWߞV LPSRUWDQW WR EH WKH LQLWLDWRU *LYH LW D ZKLUO $QG WKHQ
KHߞOOWDNHWKHOHDGDQGZLOOFRPHXSZLWKVRPHWKLQJWRWHOO
, VWDUWHG WKH VWRU\ DQG WKHQ KH FDPH XS ZLWK WKH SORW DVNLQJ TXHVWLRQV DQG
DGGLQJVRPHPRUHGHWDLOV
, FDQߞW WHOO HYHU\WKLQJ KHUH VLQFH LWߞV QRW WKH ULJKW PRPHQW RU SODFH EXW LW
EDVLFDOO\ WXUQHG LQWR D SRUQ VWRU\ ,W ZDV TXLWH D URXJK VWRU\ DERXW PH EHLQJ
IXFNHGDQGKHZDVHLWKHUWKHYR\HXURUWKHSDUWLFLSDQW
/LNHWKLV
ߙ<RXJHWIXFNHGE\WKUHHULJKW"
ߙ<HV7KUHHJX\VIXFNPHDWWKHVDPHWLPHߨ
ߙ$QG ,ߞP VLWWLQJ DQG ZDWFKLQJ WKHQ UHDFK XS WR \RX SXW \RX RQ DOO IRXUV
DQGߨ
+HRIFRXUVHJRWYHU\WXUQHGRQDQGFDPHKDUG,WRRJRWYHU\WXUQHGRQ
ZKLOHWHOOLQJWKHVWRU\
+HZDVDJRRGER\LQWHUHVWLQJDQGFKLOOHGߙRXW'HVSLWHWKDWTXLUNRIKLV
+HQHHGVDOLWWOHELWRISRUQVWRU\WRRUJDVPVRZKDW"

&KLQHVHJXHVWV

:KDWDYLVLW,KDGUHFHQWO\
$JLUOJDYHPHDFDOODQGDVNHGPHLQDVHULRXVߙEXVLQHVVWRQHZKHWKHU,ZRUN
ZLWK IRUHLJQHUV , DQVZHU KHU LQ DQ HTXDOO\ VHULRXV WRQH WKDW , DEVROXWHO\ GR
NQRZ VHYHUDO SKUDVHV DQG LI WKH SRLQW RI WKHLU YLVLW LV VH[ EXW QRW GLVFXVVLRQV
DERXW*RHWKHWKHUHZLOOEHQRODQJXDJHEDUULHU
7KHJLUO DVNHG PH D IHZ PRUHLPSRUWDQW TXHVWLRQV DERXW+,9 FRQGRPV DQG
DOONLQGVRIVNLQUDVKHV
ߙ<RXDUHDJUHDWILWIRUXVߙVKHVDLGLQDEXVLQHVVWRQH
,KDGDVWURQJIHHOLQJWKDW,ZDVEHLQJKLUHGE\DSUHVWLJLRXVIRUHLJQFRPSDQ\
DQGWKDW,QHHGHGWRVKRZXSWKHQH[WGD\LQDGHVLJQHUVXLWH[DFWO\DWWHQ
$VLWWXUQHGRXWODWHU,ZDVQߞWWRRIDUIURPWKHUHDOLW\
,ZDVVXSSRVHGWRVKRZXSWRGD\QRWWRPRUURZ$QGDWHLJKWLQWKHHYHQLQJ
QRWWHQ DWWKHGRRUVRIRQHRIWKHPRVWSUHVWLJLRXVKRXVHV
7KHGUHVVFRGHZDVDEXVLQHVVVXLW0D\EHWKHIRUHLJQHUVKDGDQXQVXFFHVVIXO
QHJRWLDWLRQZLWKVRPHEXVLQHVVZRPDQDQGWKH\KDGGHFLGHGWRWDNHUHYHQJH
,WULHGWRDUJXHWKDW,ZRXOGQߞWPDNHDJRRGRIILFHHPSOR\HHEXWZKDWHYHU
,QDIHZKRXUV,ZDVDWP\IULHQGߞVSODFHDVNLQJKHUIRUDQRIILFHVXLW
ߙ1RWHQRXJKWLWVߙVKHREVHUYHGP\QHZORRNWKRXJKWIXOO\
,ORRNHGOLNHDQH[DFWFRS\RIDSRUQVWDU7KHODVWWKLQJ,QHHGHGZHUHJODVVHV
DGLFNLQP\PRXWKDQGDVHGXFWLYHORRNWRWKHFDPHUDPDQ
ߙ0D\EH,VKRXOGSRSXSRQHPRUHEXWWRQ"
ߙ([DFWO\ߙ0\IULHQGODXJKHGߙ<RXDUHQRWJRLQJIRUDQLQWHUYLHZ
,SXWRQP\SXPSVNLVVHGP\IULHQGRQWKHFKHHNDQGOHIW
,ZDVPHWE\DJLUODWWKHGRRUZD\VKHZDVWKHWUDQVODWRU
6KHWROGPHWRQRWSXWWRRPXFKHIIRUWLQ7KH\ZHUHVHULRXVSHRSOHDQGWKH\
MXVW QHHGHG WR GLIIXVH VRPH WHQVLRQ EHIRUH JHWWLQJ LQWR EDWWOH DJDLQ WR PDNH
VRPHPRQH\
6KHSDLGPHLQDGYDQFHZLVKHGPHOXFNDQGRSHQHGWKHGRRU
,HQWHUDQGWKHUHWKH\DUH
7KUHH &KLQHVH VLWWLQJ RQ WKH UXJ LQ WKH PLGGOH RI WKH OLYLQJ URRP HDWLQJ
VRPHWKLQJFUXQFK\
2QHRIWKHPMXPSVXSDQGFRPHVWRPH+HWDNHVP\KDQGEDJDQGQRGV,ߞP
VXUHLI,ZHUHLQDFRDWKHZRXOGKDYHNLQGO\WDNHQLWRIIDQGVWRRGWKHUHDWWKH
HQWUDQFH
$QGKHLVVRRRRVPDOO
$OORIWKHPDUHVPLOLQJ
, KDYH WKH LPSUHVVLRQ WKH\ KDG EHHQ ZDLWLQJ IRU PH IRU D ZKLOH 7KH\ DUH
KDSS\QRZVPLOLQJDQGWDONLQJLQWKHLURZQODQJXDJH
,WHOOWKHPER\VWLPHߞVUXQQLQJ
,VWDUWWRXQGUHVV
2QFHWKH\VDZP\QDNHGEUHDVWVDOORIWKHPWRRNRIIWKHLUXQGHUZHDULQRQH
VWURNH
:RZZKDWDQH[SHULHQFH
:KDWFDQ,VD\LWZDVDZDVWHWREULQJFRQGRPVRIFODVVLFVL]HZLWKPH
7KDW QLJKW , UHDOL]HG WKDW FODVVLF ZDV IRU JLDQWV $QG WKHUH ZHUH QR JLDQWV
WKHUH
2QH RI WKHP WKH EUDYHVW RQH FDPH FORVHU SXW KLV KDQG RQ P\ WLW LQ D
EXVLQHVVߙOLNH PDQQHU WRXFKHG LW DQG FKHHUIXOO\ \HOOHG VRPHWKLQJ LQ KLV
ODQJXDJH
7KHQWKHRWKHUWZRDSSURDFKHGDQGVWDUWHGWRWRXFKPH
,HYHQWHDUHGXSDWWKHDPRXQWRIKDSSLQHVVP\WLWVZHUHFDXVLQJ
,VWDUWHGWRIHHOVRPHWKLQJZDUPSRXULQJRQPH6RPHRQHKDGFRPH
$QG,ZDVULJKWRQHRIWKHPKDGMXVWFDPH:HGLGQߞWHYHQKDYHFKDQFHWR
SXOOXSDFRQGRPRQKLP
+HVWRRGWKHUHLQDEOLVVIXOVPLOHQRWOHWWLQJJRRIP\WLWDQGGULSSLQJDOORQ
WKHIORRU
0LQXVRQH,WKRXJKW7KDWߞVJRRGWKHRWKHUWZRZLOOEHHYHQTXLFNHU
7KHVHFRQGRQHFDPHZKHQ,SXWKLVJRRGLHVLQP\PRXWK
,KDGWRPDNHWKHWKLUGRQHODVWLWZDVDPDWWHURIKRQRU
7KLVRQHZDVUHVLOLHQW+HUHVLVWHGIRUKDOIDPLQXWHWKHQVTXHDNHGDQGZHQW
OLPS
,IHOORQWRWKHUXJDQGOD\WKHUHWKLQNLQJDERXWOLIHWKH&KLQHVHDQGWKDWWKH
DSDUWPHQWZDVDZIXOO\EHDXWLIXO
7KH\ VWRRG FKHHUIXOO\ ZKLVSHULQJ WR HDFK RWKHU , FRXOGQߞW ILJXUH RXW ZKDW
WKH\ZHUHZKLVSHULQJDERXW
$OOWKUHHRIWKHPFDPHXSWRPH,WULHGWRILJXUHRXWZKDWWKH\ZDQWHG'R
WKH\ZDQWWRJRIRUWKHVHFRQGURXQG"
$KQR7KH\FDPHWRVKDNHP\KDQG7KH\VDLGVRPHWKLQJWRPHDQGSDWWHG
P\VKRXOGHU
$QGWKDWZDVLW
)LIWHHQPLQXWHV
:HVDLGJRRGE\HOLNHUHODWLYHV
2QO\,FRXOGQߞWXQGHUVWDQGZK\WKH\KDGERRNHGMXVWPH
7KHPRQH\FRXOGEHHQRXJKIRUWKUHHDQ\ZD\

$UDELFORYH

+HZDVDQ$UDE,ZDVQߞWFRPSOHWHO\VXUHRIKLVQDWLRQDOLW\
+HFDPHSDLGZLWKRXWEDUJDLQLQJJHQHURXVO\VKRZHUHGPHLQFRPSOLPHQWV
ORRNHGDWPHLQGHVLUHDQGVOLJKWO\VTXHH]HGP\EUHDVWV
,WVWDUWHGTXLWHXQRULJLQDOO\:HXQGUHVVHGWRRNDVKRZHUDQGJRWLQWREHG
,VDWEHVLGHKLPDQGFDUHVVHGKLVIXU\GDUNFKHVW
ߙ<RXEHP\JLUO",EHORYHUߙKHVDLGVXGGHQO\
-XVWOLNHWKDW:LWKDQDFFHQW
ߙ:HߞOOVHHKRQH\ߙ,ODXJKHGDQGZHQWGRZQRQKLP
ߙ:KDDW":K\"ߙ+HVWRSSHGP\KDQGZLWKWKHUXEEHUIULHQGߙ,EHOLY\RXDQG
\RXPXVWEHOLYPH
ߙ2KFRPHRQKRQH\ߙ,JLJJOHGLQIRUPDOO\ߙFDQDQ\RQHEHFRPSOHWHO\WUXVWHG
LQWKLVZRUOG"
$QG,HORTXHQWO\SXWWKHFDSRQ
ߙ<RXFDQEHOLYPHߙKHDQQRXQFHGߙ,DPVHULRXVSHUVRQ\RXJHWZKDW\RX
ZDQW6SHDNGRWKLVߙ,GR\RXFDQEHOLYPHߨ
ߙ<RX E\XWLIXO \RX JRRGߙKH PXPEOHG ZKLOH , ZDV ZRUNLQJ GRZQ WKHUH ߙ
FRPHKHUH
7KHQKHPRDQHGJULOOHGPHFDUHVVHGP\EUHDVWVDQGZHQWRQ,OLNH\RXEH
P\JLUO
,ODXJKHG,ZDVVOLJKWO\WLFNOLVK
+HKDGWKLUW\PLQXWHVOHIW
%HIRUHKHOHIWKHKXJJHGPHIRUDORQJWLPHDQGVDLGPRUHWRKLPVHOI
ߙ<RXQRZP\JLUO,ORYH\RXZDLWPHGRQߞWEHZLWKDQ\RQHߨ
,PDGHH\HVDQGVPLOHG
ߙ+RQH\FRPHDJDLQ

2QHPRUHVDWLVILHGFXVWRPHU
+RWEORRGZKLVSHUVWKDWWRJHWSOHDVXUH\RXPXVWSOD\HLWKHUORYHRUKDUHP
,FORVHGWKHGRRUZLWKUHOLHIDIWHUKHOHIWDQGZHQWWRDLURXWWKHURRP
:K\GRWKH\ZHDUVRPXFKSHUIXPH"

 

+HDSSHDUHGZKHQPRUHWKDQRQHPRQWKKDGSDVVHG+HFDOOHGDQGVDLG
ߙ+HOOR(PLO\WKLVLV 'R\RXZDLWIRUPH"
ߙ&RPHKRQH\ߙ,VPLOHGLQWKHSKRQH
,WߞVJRRGWRKDYHSHUPDQHQWFOLHQWV
+HJLYHVPHDELJVPLOHDQGSUHVVHVPHWRWKHZDOO
ߙ'R\RXZDLWIRUPH"
ߙ<HV\HV,GLGߙ,FUDZOHGIURPXQGHUWKHEODFNKDQGVDQGDVNHG
ߙ+RQH\IRUKRZORQJZLOO\RXEHKHUH"
ߙ$VORQJDV\RXZLVK\RXP\JLUO\RXEHJRRG,ORYH\RXFRPHWRPHߙKH
PXPEOHVWU\LQJWRFDWFKDQGKXJPH
,GRGJH
ߙ+RQH\ߙ7KLV LV D YHU\ YHU\ XQLYHUVDO WHUP , FDQߞW UHPHPEHU ZKDW WR FDOO
KLP
ߙ/RYH LV JUHDW EXW ,ߞP QRW IUHH RI FKDUJH +RZ ORQJ ZLOO \RX EH KHUH" $Q
KRXUWZR")RUWKHQLJKW"
ߙ<HVWKHQLJKWߙKHVPLOHVFRQWHQWO\ߙ:KDW\RXVD\ߙKHVWDUWVWRZDYHKLV
KDQGVLUULWDEO\ߙLWZLOOEHODWHU,ORYH\RX
ߙ$OULJKWߨILUVWSD\PHDQGWKHQ\RXߞOOKDYHHYHU\WKLQJDQG\RXߞOOORYHPHDV
PXFKDV\RXZDQW%XWQRQHHGWRORYHPHZLWKRXWSD\LQJ
,DPJUDGXDOO\EHFRPLQJDQQR\HG
ߙ:KDW\RXVD\<RXP\JLUOZKDWPRQH\:HJRUHVWDXUDQWVWRUHV,EX\\RX
ERRWV WRPRUURZ" <RX KDYH HYHU\WKLQJ EHDXWLIXO \RX EH PLQH HYHU\WKLQJ ZLOO
EHEHDXWLIXOߙKHVD\VQRWOLVWHQLQJWRPH
2EYLRXVO\WKLVPDQVHULRXVO\WKLQNVWKDWIURPKLV,ORYH\RX,PXVWEHYHU\
KDSS\WHDUXSIDOOGRZQDQGVXFNIRUIUHH
2K\HV,QRZKDYHDER\IULHQG
,MXPSWRWKHGRRURSHQLWDQGVD\
ߙ2ND\JHWRXW
ߙ:KDW\RXGRLQJߙ+HLVWU\LQJWRFORVHWKHGRRU
ߙ*HWRXWULJKWQRZߙ,JHWPDGDQGJHWKLPRXW
ߙ:KRUHߙ+HFXUVHVEDFNLQJGRZQߙ,GRQߞWQHHG\RX:KRUH
ߙ*HWRXWRIKHUHߨIRXQGKLPVHOIDJLUO
+HWKLQNVKHIRXQGVRPHRQHWRWDNHDGYDQWDJHRI6XUH

/LSVWLFN


7KHFOLHQWPDGHDQDSSRLQWPHQWIRUMXVWVH[ZLWKEURNHQ(QJOLVK1RWKLQJ
IDQF\RUVSLF\
,ZDVKHGVFUXEEHGP\ZD[HGERG\SDUWVVWUDLJKWHQHGP\KDLUZLWKDQLURQ,
HYHQWLHGDULEERQRQP\FDWIRUVRPHUHDVRQ,FRXOGIHHOWKHSDUW\
,ZDLWDQGZDLWDQGWKHUHߞVQRVLJQRIKLP+DOIDQKRXUSDVVHG
$FDOO
+HLVORVW
ߙ+H\EXGG\JLYHWKHSKRQHWRWKHGULYHU,ߞOOH[SODLQߙ,VDLG
ߙ,DPZDONLQJߙ,KHDUGWKHDQVZHU
ߙ:KHUHDUH\RX"ߙ,ߞPDVNLQJKRSHOHVVO\
ߙ2QWKHVWUHHWߙKHVD\VDQGRXUFRQYHUVDWLRQJHWVLQWHUUXSWHG
2ND\,ߞPJODGKHߞVQRWLQWKHIRUHVW
3KRQHDJDLQ
ߙ:KLFKVWUHHWKRQH\"ߙ,DVN
ߙ,GRQߞWNQRZߙKHDQVZHUVLQDKRUULEOHDFFHQWߙWKHUHLVDPDOOKHUH
ߙ([FHOOHQWߙ,VD\ߙ:KLFKRQH"
ߙ,GRQߞWXQGHUVWDQGߙ+HVD\V
ߙ2NDD\ߙ,VWDUWWRERLODV,KDYHSODQVIRUWKHHYHQLQJDQGWKLVRQHZLOOJHWWR
P\SODFHULJKWWKHQߙKRQH\JHWDFDU$QGWHOOWKHPWKHDGGUHVV
ߙ([SHQVLYHߙKHVD\VFDOPO\
ߙ+RQH\ߙ, VD\ RQ WKH SKRQH ߙ, ZRQߞW EH ZDLWLQJ IRU \RX YHU\ ORQJ , KDYH
SODQVGR\RXXQGHUVWDQG"6RHLWKHUJHWKHUHTXLFNRUZDONDURXQGVRPHPRUH
WKHUH DUH ORWV RI VLJKWV WR VHH -XVW ZLWKRXW PH ߙ , ZDVQߞW VXUH ZKHWKHU KH
XQGHUVWRRG HYHU\WKLQJ WKDW , WROG KLP EXW WKH WRQH RI P\ YRLFH KH GHILQLWHO\
FDXJKW
ߙ5HSHDWWKHDGGUHVVߙKHVDLG
,WROGKLP
ߙ,ߞOOEHWKHUHVRRQߙKHVDLGDQGKDQJXS
,QRQO\PLQXWHV,KHDUGWKHGRRUEHOO
,ZHQWGRZQDQGEURXJKWKLPXS
7KHUHߞVDWXUEDQRQKLVKHDGDQGVRPHWKLQJVWLFNLQJRXWRILW'LGKHUROOLWXS
ZURQJ"
ߙ+RQH\ZKDWߞVWKDWVWLFNLQJRXWRI\RXUWXUEDQ"ߙ,DVNHGRXWRIFXULRVLW\
,W WXUQV RXW WKDW ,QGLDQV UROO XS WKHLU WXUEDQV HYHQO\ ZKHQ WKH\ DUH PDUULHG
DQG WKDW WKH WKLQJ WKDW VWXFN RXW LV OLNH D VSHFLDO VLJQ IRU IHPDOHV OLNH D
SHDFRFNߞVWDLODVLIWRVD\'LJLQ,ߞPVLQJOH
,WߞVFRROWRSXWVLJQVRQSHRSOHVRWKDWLWߞVLPPHGLDWHO\REYLRXVZKHWKHUWKH
PDQLVPDUULHGRUVLQJOH
+HZDVNLQGRIGRZQ
,RIIHUHGKLPWHDKHGLGQߞWUHIXVH
,VXJJHVWHGWRWDNHDVKRZHUߙKHWRRNDWRZHODQGZHQW
,DVNHGKLPWRUHOD[ߙKHGLG
,WROGKLPWRWDNHRIIKLVXQGHUZHDUߙKHGLG
+HVDWRQWKHEHGORRNHGDWPHZLWKELJH\HVDQGNLQGRIWHQVH
ߙ5HOD[KRQH\ߙ,VD\DQGFRPHXSFORVHU
7KHPRQH\LVUHFHLYHGWLPHLVWLFNLQJLWߞVWLPHWRPRYH
$QG \HW WKLV SRRU RQH LV VR WHQVH DQG KDV VWDUWHG WR FUDZO WR WKH VLGH RI WKH
EHG
,VKHDIUDLG",KDGDQLGHD
,UHDFKHGWRKLPDJDLQKHSXOOHGDZD\PRUH
+HDVNHGߙ'R\RXKDYHDOLSVWLFN"
ߙ<HVߙ,ZDVWDNHQDEDFNߙZK\"
ߙ*LYHPHKXK"ߙ+HDVNHGSODLQWLYHO\
:HOODFOLHQWߞVZRUGLVWREHIROORZHG
,JRWXSDQGEURXJKWKLPDEHLJHOLSVWLFN
ߙ:KDWߞVWKLV"ߙ+HDVNHG
ߙ/LSVWLFNߙ,UHSOLHG
ߙ'R\RXKDYHDUHGRQH"
ߙ<HVߙ,ZDVFRQIXVHGDQGJRWXSDJDLQ
ߙ*LYHߙVDLGWKH,QGLDQDQGUHDFKHGKLVSDZVWRPH
,JDYHKLPWKHOLSVWLFNPHQWDOO\VD\LQJJRRGE\HWRLWDQGFRQYLQFLQJP\VHOI
WKDW LWߞV WKH FRVW RI WKH SURIHVVLRQ DQG WKDW , ZDV IHG XS ZLWK WKDW OLSVWLFN DQG
QHHGHGDQHZRQHDQ\ZD\ZK\ZRXOG,QHHGWZRUHGOLSVWLFNV"
,GLGQߞWILQLVKP\WKRXJKWVDVKHJRWXSUROOHGRXWWKHOLSVWLFNDQGMDEEHGLW
RQWRP\IRUHKHDGLQRQHVZLIWPRWLRQ5LJKWEHWZHHQP\H\HV
ߙ+H\ ZKDW DUH \RX GRLQJ" :KDWߞV WKDW IRU" ߙ , WXUQHG EDFN WR WKH PLUURU
ORRNHGDWWKHUHGSRLQWRQP\IRUHKHDGDQGFDXJKWP\VHOIUHDOL]LQJWKDW,ߞPGDUN
KDLUHGDQGORRNYHU\PXFKOLNHDQ,QGLDQJLUO
+HOHDQHGLQWRPHDQG,UHDOL]HGWKDWKHZDVLQIXOOFRPEDWUHDGLQHVV
0\,QGLDQJXHVWVNLOOIXOO\NQRFNHGPHGRZQRQWKHEHGDQGVWDULQJDWWKHUHG
GRWZKLFKKHKDGPDUNHGRQP\IRUHKHDGSXOOHGXSWKHFRQGRP
(YHU\WKLQJHOVHZDVTXLWHTXLFNDQGERULQJ+HZDVLQPHIRUDERXWDPLQXWH
7KHHQWLUHWLPHKHGLGQRWWDNHKLVH\HVRIIPH7KHUHGGRWPXVWKDYHEHHQDQ
DSKURGLVLDFIRUKLPLIQRWDOLJKWKRXVH7KHQKHTXLHWO\ILQLVKHGDQGFROODSVHG
RQWKHEHG

/LWWOHZKRUH


(YHQJLUOVRIP\SURIHVVLRQVRPHWLPHVQHHGDPDQ(YHQ,GR
1RQRWWKRVHWKDWFRPHIRUDQKRXUDQGOHDYHPRQH\WKDWߞVGLIIHUHQW7KDWߞV
ZRUN
6RPHWLPHV ZH QHHG PHQ IRU WKH VRXO +H ZRXOG VHGXFH ILUVW WKHQ IOXLGV
SKHURPRQHV GHVLUH DQG WKHQ KH ZRXOG KROG XV WLJKWO\ DQG VD\ ,ߞP WKH RQHߙ
DQGPDNHXVIHHOJRRG
,ZDVHVSHFLDOO\OXFN\WKDWZHHN
+HSLFNHGPHXSIURPWKHJ\P<RXNQRZKRZDUH\RXZKDWߞV\RXUQDPHD
IHZVZHHWZRUGVZRXOG\RXOLNHFRIIHHPD\EHWRPRUURZDQGDOOWKDWߨ
:HPHW
+HZDVEUXWDO7KHQLJKWJRWLQWHUHVWLQJULJKWDWWKHEHJLQQLQJZKHQWKLVWDOO
VWURQJ DQG KDQGVRPH PDQ VLWWLQJ EHVLGH PH SXW KLV KDQG RQ P\ NQHH DQG
ORRNHGPHLQWKHH\HVLQVXFKDZD\WKDW,PHOWHGDQGVZHDWHG
$Q DOSKDߙPDOH P\ NQHH FRQFOXGHG IRUPH DQG LW ZDV FOHDU ,ߞOOJLYH LW WR
KLP1RGRXEWV
$KJLUOV\RXQHHGHGWRKHDUWKDWGHHSKRDUVHYRLFHZLWKKLQWVRIUHDOURXJK
VH[
,GRQߞWNQRZZK\ZKHWKHULWߞVNDUPDRUIOXLGVEXWPHQGRQߞWVK\DZD\IURP
PH+HWRRZDVOLEHUDWHGDQGLQWKHQH[WKRXUKLVVWURQJDQGSRZHUIXOKDQGV
WRR WUDQVSDUHQW KLQWV DQG GDUN GHHS H\HV PDGH PH UHDOL]H ߙ WKH PDQ ZDV FRRO
DQGKHNQHZKRZ
:H WDONHG DERXW VH[ DQG LW ZDV FOHDU ߙ WKLV RQH LV GRPLQDQW +H ZRXOG
VTXHH]HIRUFHDQGPDNHPHVXEPLWWRKLP+HGLGQߞWKLGHLW
,KDGPLVVHGVWURQJPHQVRPXFK
,GRQߞWNQRZZKDWUHPDLQVRIP\EUDLQVVWRSSHGPHIURPVXEPLWWLQJWRKLP
LPPHGLDWHO\WKDWQLJKW
3UREDEO\WKHJDPHZDVWRRIXQDQG,ZDQWHGLWWRFRQWLQXH
,IOHZWRWKHVHFRQGGDWH$QKRXUODWHUZKHQKHWROGPHLQKLVGHHSYRLFH
/HWߞVJRELWFK,ߞOOIXFN\RX,ZDVLQVXFKDODQJXLGVWDWHWKDWDOPRVWIRUJRWP\
FRDW
2KLWZDVSDVVLRQ
:HNLVVHGLQWKHFDERQWKHZD\WRKLVSODFH+HZDVVRZRQGHUIXOO\URXJK
:HZHUHDWKLVSODFHLQKDOIDQKRXU
7KHUHZDVDQHURWLFGLPOLJKWLQKLVURRPP\KHURVDWLQIURQWRIPHLQMHDQV
DQGDVKLUW
, OD\ GRZQ RQ WKH EHG LQ IURQW RI WKH FRIIHH WDEOH GDQJOLQJ P\ IRRW RQ WKH
IORRUDQGGUDQNZLQH,ZDVDOPRVWQDNHGDQGFRPSOLDQW,FRXOGDOPRVWIHHOKLP
URXJKO\ JUDEELQJ PH ZLWK WKRVH VWURQJ KDQGV NQRFNLQJ PH GRZQ DQG GRLQJ
ZKDWHYHUKHZDQWHGߨ,ZDVVRZHW
+H VDW LQ IURQW RI PH ORRNHG DW PH LQ D YHU\ VHULRXV PDQQHU DQG DW WKDW
PRPHQW ZKHQ LW EHFDPH FOHDU , ZDV GULSSLQJ ZHW KH JUDEEHG WKH JODVV
QHUYRXVO\WRRNDVLSDQGߨ
ߨIHOOWRKLVNQHHV<HVKHZDVRQWKHIORRUFUDZOHGDQGJUDEEHGP\ELJWRH
ZLWKKLVOLSV
,VFUHDPHGDQGIOLSSHG
+HOHWJRRIP\WRHORRNHGDWPHVKHHSLVKO\DQGZKLVSHUHGORXGO\
ߙ'R\RXZDQWPHWREH\RXUZKRUH"
ߙ$DDDߨZKDW" ߙ , DVNHG DQG WKRXJKW WKDW P\ MDZ VKRXOG EH FDXJKW
VRPHZKHUHDURXQGWKHIORRU
ߙ'RZKDW\RXZLVKWRGRWRPHP\ODG\,ZLOOGRZKDW\RXRUGHU,DP\RXU
OLWWOHZKRUHߨ
ߙ8PPPPߨGRQߞW\RXZDQWWRIXFNPH"ߙ/LNHDIRRO,VWLOOKDGKRSHVWKDW
WKH EUXWDO DOSKDߙPDOH ZKR VDW QH[W WR PH DERXW WZR KRXUV DJR ZRXOG DZDNH
LQVLGHKLP
+HZDVRQKLVNQHHVDQGNHSWTXLHW
ߙ8PPPD\EH\RXߞOOJHWXS"ߙ,ZDVJHWWLQJVOLJKWO\WHQVH
+HVKRRNKLVKHDGDQGGLPO\DVNHG
ߙ<RXGRQߞWOLNHPH"
,KDGJRWWHQP\VHOILQWRWURXEOHWKLVWLPH,ORYHVWURQJGRPLQDQWURXJKPHQ
,ORYHWREHURXJKO\ߨ
%XWKHZDVRQKLVNQHHV0\LQQHUYRLFHKDGZKLVSHUHGWRPH7KLV(PLO\
LVDPDFKRߨ0\LQQHUYRLFHWKHEDVWDUGZDVQRZKLGLQJLWVHOILQWKHFRUQHU
,ߞPVRUU\,PHVVHGXSߨ
7KHVLWXDWLRQZDVFRPLFDO,VDWLQP\SDQWLHVDQGLQVKRFNDQGP\NQHHOLQJ
PDFKRGLGQRWERWKHUWRJHWXS
ߙ:HOO,GREXWߨ,NLQGRIKRSHGIRUVRPHWKLQJHOVH
ߙ<RXFDQߞWEHDODG\"ߙKHDVNHGKRSHOHVVO\
ߙ1R,FDQEHDOOߙ,H[FODLPHGߙEXW\RXVKRXOGKDYHZDUQHGPHHDUOLHUWKDWߨ
ߙ,ߞP VRUU\ ߙ KH ZKLVSHUHG DQG UHDFKHG WR NLVV P\ IRRW ߙH[FXVH \RXU OLWWOH
ZKRUHߨ
+HXQGLGKLVEHOWDQGVWDUWHGWRSXOORXWKLVMHDQV+HZDVZLWKRXWXQGHUZHDU
ߙ:LOO\RXSXQLVKPH"ߙKHDVNHGZLWKKRSHLQKLVYRLFH
ߙ:LWKWKHEHOW"ߙ,DVNHGFKHHULQJ
ߙ:LWKWKHEHOWLI\RXZDQWߙKHZKLVSHUHGߙRULI\RXZDQWߨ
+H UXVKHG LQWR DQRWKHU URRP DQG FDPH EDFN ZLWK KDQGFXIIV D UDWKHU ODUJH
GLOGRDQGDWXEHRIFKHDSKDQGFUHDP
ߙ<RXVKRXOGKDYHJRWWHQDOXEULFDQWߙ,VQRUWHGVNHSWLFDOO\
ߙ6RUU\ߙKHPXPEOHGߙ,ZLOOJHWRQHQH[WWLPH
+HWRRNRIIKLVMHDQVJRWRQDOOIRXUVDQGEXULHGKLPVHOILQWRWKHIORRUߨ
$QGLQWKHQH[WKRXU,JRWWRZRUNDQGFXUVHGP\VWXSLGOXFNWRPDQDJHWR
PHHW LQ D ELJ FLW\ ߙ D ZKRUH FUDZOLQJ RQ KLV NQHHV ORRNLQJ DW WKH IORRU DQG
VTXHDOLQJLQGHOLJKWZLWKODUJHREMHFWVLQDPELJXRXVSODFHV
ߙ/LVWHQ ߙ , VDLG ZDVKLQJ P\ KDQGVߙZKDW ZDV WKDW FLUFXV IRU LQ WKH FDI©"
&RXOGQߞW\RXVD\LPPHGLDWHO\WKDW\RXZHUHOLNHWKDW"
,FDPHRXWRIWKHEDWKURRPDQGVWDUWHGWRJHWGUHVVHG
ߙ1RR ߙ KH PXWWHUHG VWLOO O\LQJ GRZQ RQ WKH IORRU FRYHUHG LQ WKDW ZKLWH
FUHDPߙ,GROLNHLWURXJKLWߞVWUXHߨ
ߙ$KDߙ,TXLSSHGߙ\RXMXVWQHHGHGWRFODULI\ZKRZRXOGEHLQWKHURXJK
UROH0DFKRGDPQLW
,FDOOHGDFDEKRPH
.DUPD\HDK"

3HDFRFNV

, KDYH UDUHO\ PHW ZRPHQ RI DJH QRW ORRNLQJ OLNH PXFK EXW FRQVLGHULQJ
WKHPVHOYHVVH[TXHHQV
%XW , PHHW VXFK PHQ UHJXODUO\ 2OG SHDFRFNV ZLWK IHDWKHUV IODXQWHG E\ OLIH
ZKRKRQHVWO\FRQVLGHUWKHPVHOYHVWKHWRSRIGHVLUHVRIDQ\\RXQJIHPDOH
7KHIDXFHWLQP\EDWKURRPZDVEURNHQ,KDGWRFDOODSOXPEHUXUJHQWO\
,QDIHZKRXUVDPDQDUULYHGZLWKDEDFNSDFN+HZDVDW\SLFDOZULQNO\PDQ
ILIW\ߙVRPHWKLQJ VKRUW EDOG ZLWK D SDXQFK KDQJLQJ RYHU KLV EHOW DQG KDLU\
DUPSLWV$OOLQDOOWREHSDVVLRQDWHIRUVRPHRQHOLNHKLP\RXZRXOGKDYHKDGWR
OLYHRQDGHVHUWLVODQGIRUWHQ\HDUVZLWKRXWDQ\PHQ
+HGXJDURXQGP\IDXFHWSRNHGDURXQGDQGORRNHGDWPHVHYHUHO\
$QG WKHQ KLV SKRQH UDQJ 7KH VSHDNHU KDG TXLWH D KLJKߙSLWFKHG YRLFH DQG ,
KHDUG ELWV DQG SLHFHV RI WKH FRQYHUVDWLRQ $ IHPDOH YRLFH ZDV WHOOLQJ KLP
VRPHWKLQJ IRU TXLWH D ORQJ WLPH DQG HQGHG WKH FRQYHUVDWLRQ ZLWK 7KDWߞV LW
JRRGE\HGDGG\ߙEHIRUHKDQJLQJXS
ߙ,VWKDW\RXUGDXJKWHU"ߙ,DVNHG
7KH JX\ KRYHUHG IRU D PRPHQW , FRXOG VHH WKH VWUXJJOH LQ KLV IDFLDO
H[SUHVVLRQVEHWZHHQZDQWLQJWRWHOOWKHWUXWKDQGZDQWLQJWREUDJ
7KHODWWHUZRQ+HJDYHDYHU\XQH[SHFWHGDQVZHU
ߙ1R QRW P\ GDXJKWHU , FKRRVH D ZLIH IRU P\VHOI RQ D FRPSHWLWLYH EDVLV
WKDWߞVZK\WKH\ULQJXSDQGWU\WRPDNHDQLPSUHVVLRQ7KH\DUHDOO\RXQJߙ+H
VDLGWKLVDOOZLWKDORRNRISULGH
,I WKLV ZDV DQ DGYHUWLVHPHQW , ZDV SUREDEO\ WR UHVSRQG ZLWK D VFUHDP
:RRRZZKDWDPDQDQGEDQJKLPULJKWWKHUH
,FRXOGQߞWZLSHWKHVDUFDVPRIIRIP\IDFH
+RZHYHUKHORRNHGWRRSURXGRIKLPVHOIWRQRWLFHP\H[SUHVVLRQ
,ZDVVWLOOFXULRXVVR,DVNHG
ߙ<RXQJ"+RZROGDUH\RXU\RXQJJLUOV"
ߙ)URPHLJKWHHQWRWZHQW\ILYHߙ+HDQVZHUHGSURXGO\
,FRXOGQߞWGRDQ\WKLQJZLWKP\IDFH:KRDUH\RXNLGGLQJROGPDQ"7DNHD
ORRNDW\RXUVHOI*LUOV)URPWR+RZWKHKHOOGLG\RXJHW\RXQJJLUOVZLWK
VXFKDVKDEE\XQSUHVHQWDEOHORRN"
, DP WKLUW\ DQG , ZRXOGQߞW GUHDP LQ P\ ZRUVW QLJKWPDUHV WKDW , ZRXOG
YROXQWDULO\JRIRUVRPHRQHOLNHKLP
$QGWKHIXQQ\WKLQJLVWKDWKHLVQRWWKHRQO\RQHOLNHWKDW
,RIWHQPHHWVXFKDUURJDQWSHDFRFNV7KH\DUHDOOVLPLODUELJSDXQFKZULQNO\
IDFHDQGIDWDUPV
7KH\ VHH WKHPVHOYHV DV PDFKR PHQ ERDVWLQJ DURXQG PH ZLWK WKHLU VQRWW\
IHOORZVDQGDVNLQJZLWKVXFKSULGH+RZGR\RXOLNHWKLV"
,DOZD\VUHVSRQG0PPKRZKDQGVRPH:KDWHOVHFDQ,VD\"
,WKLQNGHHSLQWKHLUVRXOVWKH\KDYHDQLGHDWKDW,PLJKWEHIHHOLQJVRJRRG
ZLWKWKHPWKDW,ZLOOUHWXUQWKHPRQH\LQWKHHQG
,WHOOWKHP+RQH\\RXZHUHZRQGHUIXO
<HW,DPVRIHGXSZLWKWKHPPRUDOO\7KH\ERWKHUPHZLWKWKHLUULGLFXORXV
EUDJJLQJ RI KRZ KH IXFNHG WKUHH \RXQJ IHPDOHV WKH\ ERWKHU PH ZLWK WKHLU
VWRULHVDERXWP\WKLFDO\RXQJORYHUVZKRORYHWKHPGHHSO\ߨ
7KHVH DUURJDQW SHDFRFNV KDYH QR LGHD KRZ SLWLIXO DQG IXQQ\ WKH\ VHHP DV
WKH\SXWRQWKHLUVKRZVDQGVKDEE\WDOHV
:KHQHYHU,WDONWRWKHP,DPUHPLQGHGRIDMRNH
$QROGPDQERDVWVLQWKHFRPSDQ\RIIULHQGV
ߙ,ߞP ROG EXW PDUULHG D \RXQJ ZRPDQ DQG VDWLVI\ KHU VR WKDW VKH LV DOZD\V
SOHDVHG
$\RXQJPDQWHOOVKLP
ߙ<RXNQRZ,DPZDONLQJLQWKHIRUHVWDQGORRNWRVHHDEHDUDERXWWRDWWDFN
PH$QG,KDYHDVWLFNZLWKPH6R,UDLVHGP\VWLFNSRLQWHGDWWKHEHDUDQGVDLG
%RRPDQGWKHEHDUGURSSHGGRZQGHDG
7KHROGPDQVDLGVPXJO\
ߙ$QGWKDWP\GHDUSURYHVWKDWDVWLFNFDQVRPHWLPHVVKRRW
7KH\RXQJPDQUHSOLHG
ߙ1RWKHUHZDVDERG\JXDUGEHKLQGPHZLWKDQDFWXDOJXQ
:DVWKHUHDQRUPDORQH"

,DPVRPHWLPHVDVNHGZKHWKHU,HYHUKDYHQRUPDOFOLHQWV
<HVWKH\H[LVWDQGWKHUHDUHSOHQW\RIWKHP
%XWWKHUHߞVQRWKLQJWRZULWHDERXWWKHP
7KHUHLVRQHZKRPDGHDQLPSUHVVLRQ
+HYLVLWHGPHDOPRVWHYHU\GD\
+HDOZD\VSDLGIRUWKHQLJKW+HFDPHDWQLJKWDQGVWD\HGWLOOGDZQ
6RPHWLPHVKHGLGQߞWFRPHKHZDVSUREDEO\VOHHSLQJRUDJJUHVVLYHO\PDNLQJ
PRUHPRQH\WRVHHPH
,GRQߞWNQRZZKDWKHGRHVH[DFWO\,GRQߞWNQRZZKRKHOLYHVZLWK%XWIRU
WKUHHZHHNV,VDZKLPFRQVWDQWO\
+HNHSWDWRRWKEUXVKDWP\EDWKURRPDQGOHIWDVSDUHVXLWLQP\FORVHW
2QFHLQDFOHDQLQJIUHQ]\,LURQHGKLVVKLUWVLQWKHPRUQLQJ
,FRXOGQRWKDYHFKDUJHGKLPDQ\PRQH\EXW,ZDVVFDUHG,ZDVVFDUHGWKDW
KH ZRXOG VWD\ IRUHYHU DQG WKHQ KH ZRXOG OHDYH $QG ZKLOH KH SDLG KH ZDV D
FOLHQW RWKHUZLVH LW ZDV MXVW QHUYHߙUDFNLQJ WR WKLQN DERXW $QG WKHUH ZDV QR
UHDVRQWRGRVR
(YHU\WKLQJZDVTXLWHXQRULJLQDO
+HFDOOHGDQG,DQVZHUHG
+HKDGDSOHDVDQWFDOPYRLFH
+HDVNHGZKHWKHU,GLGDQDORUDGHHSEORZMRE
(YHU\WKLQJZDVVWDQGDUGUHDOO\
+HFDPHWKDWVDPHQLJKWIRUWZRKRXUV
+HZDVYHU\FRXUWHRXVDQGKDQGVRPH<RXNQRZDVWURQJUHGߙEORRGHGPDOH
JORU\
'DUNH\HEURZVDWZRߙGD\VWXEEOHELJVWUDLJKWQRVH
+HZRXOGQߞWEHSKRWRJUDSKHGLQVZHHWPDJD]LQHVKHZDVWRRUXJJHGIRULW
1RWWRRWDOOILYHIRRWVHYHQ%HDXWLIXOKDQGVWDQVNLQVOLJKWO\VORXFK\
+HDVNHGIRUWHD:HWDON
+HGLGQߞWLQTXLUHOLNHWKHRWKHUVDERXWZKR,ZDVZK\DQGKRZ,JRWLQWRD
OLIHOLNHWKLV
:HMXVWWDONHGDERXWPRYLHVERRNV
,WWXUQHGRXWKHZDWFKHGDQGUHDGH[DFWO\WKHVDPHWKLQJVDV,GLG
,GRQߞWNQRZPD\EHKHOLHG
+HFDPHEDFNDIWHUWZRGD\V7KLVWLPHKHERRNHGPHIRUWKHQLJKW
+HEURXJKW&KLQHVHOHDIWHDDQGWROGPHKHGLGQߞWOLNHWHDEDJV
7KHWKLUGWLPHKHVWRSSHGE\IRUDPRPHQWVDLGKHZDVWRRWLUHGDQGDVNHG
IRUDEORZMRE+HIHOODVOHHSYHU\TXLFNO\,GLGQߞWNLFNKLPRXWIRUVRPHUHDVRQ
$QGZHZRNHXSOLNHWKDW
$IWHUWKDWKHZDVJRQHIRUDZHHN,ZDVVWDUWLQJWRWKLQNWKDWߞVLW$FOLHQWLVD
FOLHQW %XW KH DSSHDUHG DJDLQ WKLV WLPH ZLWK IORZHUV DQG FDQG\ %HOJLDQ
VHDVKHOOVPDGHRIZKLWHDQGGDUNFKRFRODWH,OLNHWKRVH
+HDVNHGWRWDNHDEDWKZLWKPH,QHYHUWRRNDEDWKZLWKDQ\RIP\FOLHQWV,
ZRXOGKDYHUHMHFWHGDQ\RWKHUFOLHQW%XW,GLGQߞWUHMHFWKLP
+HODXJKHGDQGDWWDFNHGPHZLWKEXEEOHV,IHOWJRRGZLWKKLP
,W ZDV OLNH LQ D EHDXWLIXO PRYLH +H FDUULHG PH RXW RI WKH EDWKURRP LQ KLV
DUPV+HSXWPHRQWKHEHGFDUHVVHGP\ERG\NLVVHGLW+HWRRNRXWDFRQGRP
IURPXQGHUWKHSLOORZߙKHKDGUHPHPEHUHG
+HFDPHDJDLQWKHQH[WGD\DQGLQYLWHGPHWRDUHVWDXUDQW,ZHQW
$QGVRKHVWDUWHGWRFRPHHYHU\GD\2QHPRUQLQJKHNLVVHGP\OLSV
, ZDV VR VFDUHG RI LW 7KHVH NLVVHV VFDUHG PH 6H[ LV VH[ , FRXOG KDYH WDONV
ZLWKDQ\RQH%XWWKLV
+HGLGQߞWWUHDWPHOLNHDZKRUH+HWULHGWRURPDQWLFL]HRXUVH[+HSUREDEO\
GLGQߞWZDQWWRWKLQNKHZDVSD\LQJIRUWKHVH[7KHVHDUHWKHURPDQWLFV,WߞVQRW
XQFRPPRQ
,KDGHYHQJRWWHQXVHGWRKLP2QHQLJKWKHFDPHYHU\ODWHDURXQGWKUHHLQ
WKHPRUQLQJZLWKQRZDUQLQJDQGFRPSOHWHO\ZDVWHG
+HVDLGKHKDGEHHQRIIHUHGDYHU\JRRGMRELQ/RQGRQ
+HDVNHGPHWRJRZLWKKLP
+HZDVOHDYLQJLQWKHPRUQLQJ
+HNLVVHGP\IRUHKHDGDQGWROGPHKHZRXOGFRPHODWHULQWKHHYHQLQJDQG
ZHZRXOGGHFLGHHYHU\WKLQJ
7KDWZDVWZR\HDUVDJRLQDXWXPQ
,QHYHUVDZKLPDJDLQ

6RPHZRUGVIURP(PLO\

7KHSRLQWRIP\QDUUDWLYHLVQRWWRWHOODERXWP\XQKDSS\OLIHRUKRZ,JRWWRD
OLIHOLNHWKLV
<RXFDQVD\ZKDWHYHU\RXZDQWWKDWLWߞVKHUFKRLFHRUVKHLVWREODPH,W
SUREDEO\LVߨEXWGRQߞWVD\LWߞVHDV\
,WߞVQRWHDV\DWDOO
7KH\ߞOO DWWDFN PH QRZ , NQRZ 7KH\ߞOO DVN ZKDW LV VWRSSLQJ \RX IURP
TXLWWLQJDQGOLYLQJDQRUPDOOLIH"
$QG,ߞOODQVZHU,GRQߞWNQRZ$FWXDOO\QR,GRNQRZ,WߞVSUREDEO\WKHVDPH
UHDVRQ WKDW NHHSV PDQ\ SHRSOH VWXFN LQ RIILFHV GRLQJ MREV WKDW WKH\ KDWH DQG
QHYHUILQGLQJVRPHWKLQJWUXHWRWKHLUVRXOV7KHVDPHUHDVRQWKDWSUHYHQWVPDQ\
IURP OLYLQJ ZLWK SHRSOH WKH\ GRQߞW ORYH 7KH VDPH UHDVRQ WKDW SUHYHQWV PDQ\
IURPVWDUWLQJDEXVLQHVVDQGGRLQJZKDWWKH\ORYH0RVWRIXVOLYHDGHSUHVVHG
OLIHDQGJRZLWKWKHIORZ
,WKLQNDERXWLWRIWHQ,GRQߞWNQRZZKDWLWߞVOLNHWROLYHDQRUPDOOLIH:KDW
ZLOO , GR" :KDW FDQ , GR" *HW XS IRU ZRUN DQG GR ZKDW" ,I , FKDQJH P\
SURIHVVLRQZKHUHߞVWKHJXDUDQWHHWKDW,ߞOOVXGGHQO\EHFRPHKDSS\"

7RR EDG WKDW LQ OLIH WKH SORW RI WKH PRYLH 3UHWW\ :RPDQ KDV D RQH LQ D
PLOOLRQFKDQFHRIDFWXDOO\KDSSHQLQJ$QG,GRXEWWKDWLWZLOOKDSSHQLQPLQHߨ


$XWKRUߞVFRQFOXVLRQ


'HDU UHDGHU , VLQFHUHO\ KRSH WKDW \RX HQMR\HG UHDGLQJ WKLV ERRN DV IRU PH
WKDWLVWKHPDLQDQGRQO\JRDO3HUKDSVLWFKHHUHG\RXXSRUPD\EHLWJDYH\RX
VRPHIRRGIRUWKRXJKW
7KLV LV WKH ILUVW ERRN WKDW ,ߞP SXEOLVKLQJ RQ $PD]RQ DQG LI \RX OLNHG LW ,
ZRXOGUHDOO\DSSUHFLDWH\RXURSLQLRQ
7KDQN\RXIRU\RXUWLPHDQGDWWHQWLRQ




7DEOHRI&RQWHQWV
)RUHZRUG
3RUQDFUREDW
-DPHV
+RQH\
:RPDQL]HU
7KH6K\2QH
7KH6FDULHVWFOLHQW
2SHUDVLQJHU
7KH2OG0DQ
7KH3OD\HU
'R\RXNQRZEXVLQHVV"
+RZ%LOOORRNHGIRUDZLIH
7KH7HUURULVW
$XWRSLORW
7KH9HW
/LFNHUPDQ
*DU\DQGKDSSLQHVV
7KHYLVLWLQJGXPSOLQJ
7KHEHVWRQH
7KH:KLQHU
'LVFRXQWRQDWRPEVWRQH
'RJLVDPDQߞVIULHQG
&URFRGLOHWHDUV
6FURRJH
6WRQHU
7ZRIRURQH
%XVLQHVVPDQ
/LFNHUV
7KH%UDYH
<HWL
7KHZRQGHUHU
7KH$FWRU
&DOOߙFHQWHU
7DONHU9XOJDULV
0DVWXUEDWRUYXOJDULV
:KDWZRPHQZDQW"
7KH&KHDS)DLU\
1DWXUDOQHVV
'DGG\
7KH$HVWKHWHDQGWKH$VV
,QWKHDUPSLW
7KH9LOODLQ
7KHQHDWRQH
7KHYDPSLUH
7KHLQYHQWRU
7KHVRXQGRSHUDWRU
/RYHLVEOLQG
%DELHV
7KHLOOXVLRQLVW
&KLQHVHJXHVWV
$UDELFORYH
/LSVWLFN
/LWWOHZKRUH
3HDFRFNV
:DVWKHUHDQRUPDORQH"
6RPHZRUGVIURP(PLO\
$XWKRUߞVFRQFOXVLRQ

You might also like