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YOUR PRISON HEALTH RESOURCE SINCE 1995 FREE FOR PRISONERS, EX-PRISONERS & THEIR FAMILIES
On August 3rd, 2015 I was living in the
shelter for females in the city of Toronto,
THE COURAGE ISSUE - #87
make everybody happy: I can leave now,
meet Jay quickly, let him see me for a
Ontario. Fun fact: I’m originally from quick minute, I could grab the weed, set
Montreal, Quebec, born and raised. On up an appointment for after the club, if
August 3rd, 2015, I was working as a sex anything. So I told him that I could only
worker both online and on the street come for a few minutes to pick up the
corner. The weekend of August 3rd, 2015 weed. He agreed and told me to come
there was a big celebration in the city of pick him up. He was down the street
Toronto called Caribana, one of the from where I was, so I went to pick him
biggest Caribbean festivals. Another fun up. To make a long story shorter I’m
fact: I’m half Jamaican and half Nova going to be skipping over a few parts.
Scotian, and that night I keep referring to, We get to Jay’s apartment and we
August 3rd, 2015, was the closing cele- started making out and fooling around in
brations of Caribana, and was supposed the bedroom. I should mention that Jay
to be a night of celebration. was drunk when we met. Some time
It actually turned into the most horrific passes by and I’m like okay, I have to go.
and traumatic experience of my life. In Jay was already naked on the bed with
the evening hours of August 2nd, 2015, I me, but I didn’t take off my clothes cuz
was getting ready to go meet my friends that’s not what I was there for. I was
who flew in from New York for Caribana trying to get up off the bed to leave. Jay
at the club. As I was getting ready, my tackled me to the ground to keep me
friends and I were messaging each other there with him. I was able to get him off
over Facebook. My friend had informed me and get back to my feet and out the
me that he would be at the club around bedroom. Now here’s where the worst
1:30am and asked me if I could get some mistake I made comes in. Working as a
weed. I told my friend that I will see what sex worker you know (or learn to know)
I can do about the weed and that I would that no matter what room you go into
be at the club for 12:30am because in from the living room to bathroom, or
Toronto, the bars/clubs stop serving bedroom to kitchen, and you’re with a
alcohol at 2am, and I’m the type of girl client, you always carry your purse with
that likes to get turnt up when I go out. I you. See, what I did was leave my purse
was getting ready for the club when I in the living room when I first got there,
received a call from a client of mine, because I thought I could start to trust
whom I’ve had previous sexual encoun- Jay. We connected so well in our past
ters within which I provided a service, encounters and I wanted to show him
asking to see me. His name was Jay. I told that I trust him and that’s why I left my
Jay that I already had plans for this purse in the living room. Worst mistake
evening, but I could see him after I’m ever!! Why, you say, is that the worst
done with my friends at the club. Jay then mistake I made? Because when I got out
informed me that he had some weed and the bedroom, ran to the front door and
lines of coke and we can have fun. I put on my shoes, I didn’t have my purse
informed Jay that I needed some weed with me. If I did, I would have been out
for my friend who’s visiting and asked if I that front door. I had to turn back around
could get some off of him. Of course, I and go into the living room, passing by
was trying to see if I could get some free Jay as he stood there mumbling some-
weed, but I was more than willing to pay thing to himself. I got my purse and
for it, if need be. At this point, Jay then started going through it to start making
informed me that he wasn’t home, but to sure my money and everything was
"The print that I'm sending for your review and approval was drawn at a provincial women's call him when I was leaving to see where there, and checking my phone to see if I
institution with limited resources and a pencil that I had to try and sharpen by picking off the sides he was so that I could meet up with him had any missed calls or text messages. I
with my nails and I used the corner of the sole of my shoe as an eraser."- Susie Stevens to grab some weed. When I did call, as I noticed on my phone that it was 1:28am.
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C-PTSD: a New Way to - Proud of self reliance
- Prefers to be alone when stressed
sensations. Some of these can be
done anywhere, some require a little
DO NOT attempt to hold your breath
for longer than a 10 count until you
Now using your sense of touch, no-
tice the solidity of the earth beneath
Understand Trauma - Difficulties interpreting body lan-
guage of others
set up in advance to be ready when
you need them. Some can be done
are certain your panic or anxiety
attack has 100% passed and you are
your feet.
With openness and curiosity, notice
By Fiona Bennell - Feels need to please everyone alone or with a partner. You can also in a state of relaxation that would
An expansion of the understand- any sensations, thoughts or feelings
- Can’t say no try testing them for effectiveness allow you to approach a longer term that arise, without lingering on any-
ing and definition of PTSD (Post - Fear that others are talking about with your therapist as a way to check meditation exercise.
Traumatic Stress Disorder) has been thing in particular.
you to see they are working still, when A variation of this is used in ath- Body scan
gaining popularity in survivor com- - Fear that others don’t like you you need them. Introducing and test- letics to jump into states of arousal
munities and global health organi- This is a technique often used
- Feeling that others cannot be ing new grounding and containment to prepare for a sprint or burst of in yoga and meditation, used to
zations. PTSD may result following trusted tools is part of a trauma informed explosive activity. We can use this
exposure to an extremely threaten- release stress that is building up and
- Periods of inability to feel close to approach to therapy. technique to dislodge a friend, or in is stored in your body. Kymberlee
ing/horrific event or series of events. other people The Mammalian Dive Reflex & time with practice-ourselves, from a
It’s characterized by re-experiencing Roth also recommends it as a way to
- Feeling that people will take ad- Variations: mild disassociation. Do NOT use this assess where your anger is stored in
the trauma through vivid memories, vantage of you if you do not protect Splash Cold Water on Your face technique if you are experiencing an
flashbacks and/or nightmares; strong the body. The following explanation
yourself Holding an ice cube in your hand active panic attack or extreme anxi- is cited from her book, Surviving a
avoidance surrounding the events; - Preoccupation with acceptance or until it melts. ety. Read the whole exercise out loud
and ongoing feelings of heightened Borderline Parent:
approval Finding 5 colors, 4 sounds, 3 tactile to yourself or your friend 1st. Start Sit or lie down so you’re comfort-
threat through hypervigilance and/ - Anti-social or disconnected behavior sensations, 2 smells, and 1 taste. the 1st count at 3 breaths in, held for
or severe startling. These symptoms able. Pay attention to your feet and
- No or limited interest in peers Screaming into and hitting a pillow 2 counts, exhaled in 1 count, 3 Times. legs. Wiggle your toes, then rotate
persist for at least several weeks and - Withdraws under stress until exhausted. Go to 2 Breaths in, held for 1 count,
can cause significant impairment. your feet and relax them. Note any
- Selective mutism Breath Work: A favorite is square exhaled immediately. 1 Breath in, do tension in your calves. Let go of it if
Survivors and people working in the Cognitive breathing. 4 counts inhale, 4 counts not hold, exhale immediately.
mental health field have found that it’s there.
- Memory issues hold, 4 counts exhale, 4 counts hold. Breath to stimulate vagus nerve Focus on your lower torso. Do you
the definition and symptoms of PTSD - Difficulty making decisions Repeat. (There’s more breathwork Deep inhale - joyful smile - serene
can’t fully account for many experi- feel any tension or pain in your lower
- Poor concentration below in it’s own section. This is the eyes - long pleasurable exhale. All back? Relax and take a deep breath.
ences of people living with traumatic - Difficulty starting or completing easiest one to remember for emer- these little tweaks stimulate vagus
events. Complex PTSD (C-PTSD) Notice any tension in your hips,
tasks and projects gencies) nerve which runs through these pelvic area, or buttocks. Consciously
has arisen to fill these gaps. C-PTSD - Episodes of disassociation (severe Quick Mental & Emotional Dis- areas
may develop from exposure to an relax those areas.
daydreaming or 'zoning out') traction Exercises Containment Exercises Now focus on your diaphragm and
event or series of events which are - Sudden blankness of the mind Visualizing what my body would The Container Exercise - An Intro-
threatening/horrific and are most stomach. Take two or three slow,
- Forgetfulness/memory loss be made of if it were my emotions duction deep breaths. Feel yourself relaxing
commonly prolonged or repetitive, - Memory loss surrounding the at that moment. For example, is it It’s a visualization exercise. You
where escape is difficult or impos- and note any tension you still feel in
trauma sweet wispy pink cotton candy, bun- visualize a container in which you can this area.
sible. Some examples include: child - Periods of disconnection from dles of slick wriggling worms, or thick temporarily put your stressors, or
abuse/neglect, sexual/interpersonal Note your lungs and chest cavity. Is
reality tacky black tar? whatever emotion is being problem- there tension there? Take a couple of
abuse, severe bullying, extreme - Stutter or other speech impediment Gratitude Game: Take turns naming atic for you at the time. You can have
poverty, neighbourhood violence, deep breaths and envision the air fill-
Emotional things you are grateful for with a different visualizations, there will be ing these areas. Relax more deeply.
torture, incarceration, political up- - Reactive depression partner. This feels so stupid when usually a chance to open it at least
heaval, circumstances of inequality Key into your shoulders, neck, and
- Stresses out in normal situations starting so feel free to be snarky. “I’m partially to release some stress or throat. Swallow a couple of times
and discrimination etc. In addition - Sudden feelings of sadness, anger, grateful for the hair that I want to to let parts of you flow as needed,
to the symptoms of PTSD, C-PTSD and notice any tension or soreness in
or fear with or without provocation pull out of my head right now.” After but you also have the power to keep your throat and neck. Roll your head
symptoms may include: problems - Distressing feelings of loneliness a few rounds it can soften into genu- it tight and contain your emotions.
with emotional regulation; beliefs clockwise, then counter clockwise.
- Feeling that there is no future, you ine gratitude work. Even if it doesn’t, Great when your panicky thoughts Shrug your shoulders and notice any
about oneself as diminished/defeat- have no future, your life/future will maybe you’ll get a good laugh out of keep you up at night.
ed/worthless and feelings of shame/ tension. Relax.
be prematurely cut off it with your partner. Awareness Exercises Starting at the top of your head,
guilt/failure around the trauma; and - Argumentativeness/aggression/ Gratitude variation: you have to These exercises can be used as
difficulty sustaining relationships or notice any tension or pain. Scan
irritability name something you’re grateful for “First-Aid,” if you have a little longer down to your forehead and relax it.
feeling close to others. This diagnosis - Feelings of Guilt or Shame starting with one letter of the alpha- than 5 minutes to dedicate to them.
would also line up with the growing Note any tension behind your eyes,
- Feeling that you deserve to be bet. How many things are you thank- As part of a regular or even daily your ears, in your cheeks, in your
evidence that trauma experiences, punished ful for that start with the letter “w”? practice, they can serve to ground
especially those that happen during jaw. Relax your mouth, lips, tongue,
- Lack of emotions - feeling neutral/ Are you really grateful for whales? you in the present and strengthen and chin.
development or over long periods numb *Freewriting anything (or the noth- your rate of success at attempts to
of time, can impact body and brain Go back and scan your body for any
Physical ing) that is in my head. Write write “talk yourself down” from anxiety remaining tension. Breathe deeply
development. - Sudden or frequent nausea/dizzi- write until the anger melts into what related symptoms. Some of us see
While C-PTSD has recently been and relax.
ness/faintness emotion is really underneath. them as a type of “small talk” exercise (Extra step:) Note in your journal
added to the ICD 11 (the World - Pain in the chest/heart A Quick Coherence Technique that allows you to open a dialogue
Health Organization’s international where you were holding tension.
- Poor appetite - Create a coherent state by using with yourself that can lead to greater (Roth 2009, Surviving a Borderline
health classification manual), it is not - Rapid breathing the power of your heart to balance gains in over-all self awareness and
included in the DSM 5 (the American Parent).
- Rapid heart rate thoughts and emotions. the ability to control hypersensitivity Safe place exercise.
mental health diagnostic classifica- - Inability to catch breath Step 1: Focus your attention in and reactionary behaviors. At times
tion manual). Canada uses the DSM 5 It’s a visualization exercise. It’s
- Muscle jerks, especially in limbs the area of the heart. Imagine your these practices will feel absurd and part of foundational work for EMDR,
for its mental health service provi- - Fatigue breath is flowing in and out of your you will get frustrated with yourself
sion, so C-PTSD’s exclusion holds but once you create your imagery,
- Headaches heart or chest area, breathing a little and the exercise. Give yourself the you can recall it on your own (for
consequences for the recognition - Weakness slower and deeper than usual. First grace to fail at completing the activ-
and treatment of C-PTSD by mental instance, if you are having trouble
- Hyper/hypo-sensitivity: extremely few times you can place your hand ity, make sure you have some water sleeping). You mentally visualize
health workers and health insurance sensitive to touch or insensitive to on your heart. to drink nearby, and feel free to put
providers. Many people who iden- the image of your personal “safe
pain Step 2: As you maintain your heart it down and keep trying some other place”, which can be a really existing
tify as having C-PTSD have serious - Self-abandonment/self-harm focus and breathing, activate a pos- time.
difficulties with accessing health space or an imaginary one, gradually
- Difficulty identifying or understand- itive feeling, think of a time you felt Seven Step De-Stress Exercise adding details and other sensorial
services that holistically address their ing feelings good and re-experience it. Easiest 1.Pause. 2. Feel it. 3. Notice any
symptoms and needs. There are a elements, and then scan your body
- Does not believe self body language is to remember a special place, feel sensations in the body. 4. Be Self for the positive sensations this visual-
few different reasons behind why a means anything love or appreciation for a loved one aware. 5. Notice Breath. 6. Pause
diagnosis might not make it into the ization evokes. Like all meditations, it
- Difficulty taking care of physical or or pet. Again. 7. Engage. starts and ends with deep breathing.
DSM. They may not believe there emotional needs Instant calming effect ! Mindful Walking
is enough evidence to support the Radical Acts of Self Care
- Self harm/self punishing eg cutting Quick Breathwork Exercises and It’s a technique used to foster a Quick & Revolutionary
diagnosis, they may not consider a - Seeks high risk activities Variations sense of presence in the self, focus,
creation of new terms will benefit - Gift yourself a glass of water and a
- Cavalier attitude toward death When you’re super panicked, you and reduce stress levels. It’s helpful 5 minute break, from whatever it was
the field, or the political landscape of - Failures of self-protection can count up (Square Breathing). So not just for PTSD and C-PTSD but for
the time may have impacted the de- you were doing.
- Hypervigilance/hyperarousal you do 1x1x1x1 (Breath in for Once a number of other conditions. You - Make a date to do something for
cision. There are two major political - Difficulty relaxing - always being Second, Held for One Second, Re- can do it for 5 minutes daily to see
spaces that may have influenced the yourself you have always wanted to
alert leased in One Second, One Time.) Or, positive effects. It’s especially good do.
decision. Many of the possible causes - Periods of restlessness - just until it feels ok, progress to: 2x2x2x2 for those of us on the dissociative
of C-PTSD are systemic in nature - Write a compassionately hopeful
wanting to move around or frequent (2 seconds in x Held for 2 seconds x spectrum, because some people letter to your future self
and may be connected to unequal fidgeting released for two Seconds x Applied 2 with traumatic backgrounds benefit
government policies and practices. - Write a compassionate letter to
- Difficulty falling asleep or staying times), and up in sequence until you a lot more from mindful action than your younger self
A recognition of C-PTSD could open asleep get to 4s or 5s. meditation per se -- meditation can
governments up to civil liability for - Pick a thing you have always wanted
- Jumpiness/Exaggerated startle Many Different cultures and easily trigger dangerous states for us. to learn how to do. Make a date for
the health consequences of these reflex religions have breath work exercis- The following instructions come from
symptoms of social inequality. A shift later to plan how you are going to
- Nervousness when left alone es rooted to specific meditations Stop Think Breathe: make it happen. Keep the date.
in the definition will likely bring in a Other or patterns to worship. A common As you walk, notice how your body
flood of new applicants for mental Pre-Meditated Acts of Self Care - Gifts
- Loss of interest one uses the square technique feels. to Future You
health services and benefits under - Loss of ambition described above but force-starts Pay attention to how your legs, feet
the C-PTSD label because of how - Create A Grounding & Self Care Box:
- Anhedonia the count at 4x4x4x4. This requires and arms feel with each step you the idea is to include items that tap
broad the possible circumstances - Low self-esteem/confidence you to consciously manage attaining take.
are. This is especially relevant to the into each of the senses as a way of
- An overwhelming sense of injustice the four count, a good idea if you Feel the contact of your foot as it pulling yourself back into the present
American context, where the DSM is and a strong desire to do something are experiencing run-away panic or touches the ground, and the move-
written, due to their privatized heath moment, so:
about it” anxiety. From there the count jumps ment of your body as you move into - Touch, taste (usually something
care. Here are some grounding and to 6x6x6x6. Focus on maintaining your next step.
Here is a list of symptoms as com- with a strong flavor or really spicy),
containment exercises you can use the count and pacing your breath to If you become lost in thought as sight, sound, smell
piled by r/CPTSD: if you are feeling ‘out of your body’ maintain the count. Jump to 8x8x8x8. you continue to walk, use the next Sources:
“Interpersonal/Social from r/CPTSD: Variations of this include trading step as an opportunity to start over. Is It Better to Create This New Psychiatric Di-
- Difficulty describing feelings “Quick Physical Grounding Exer- the 6 count step for 7 counts, or Now using your sense of sight, look agnosis or Not? Jordan Bray. 2015. Medium.
- Restricted range of affect cises adding count steps in the category of around and try to notice every detail. com
- Trust Issues https://medium.com/mentality-transformed/
These are designed to help re-es- multiples of two, to either side of the Using your sense of smell, notice is-it-better-to-create-this-new-psychiatric-di-
- Hates crowds tablish that feeling of being back in exercise to step up from more erratic any aromas or scents. agnosis-or-not-6deabf90cbd3
- Proud of ability to not show emo- your body, in the present by con- and panicked breathing and transi- Are you able to notice any tastes as ICD-11. WHO. 2019
tion necting your brain back to physical tion into longer breath meditations. you walk? Can you taste the air? reddit.com/r/CPTSD
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Jail horrors are only justified responder asked the jail staff what to care for people instead of teaching minor improvements. However, Bill nent letters on the bodies of people
because they’re hidden had happened, he says he received them a lesson. This is where jail C-83 also would allow our peniten- convicted of crimes in courtrooms
several contradictory stories. Howev- comes from, and reformers shame tiaries to keep people in conditions across England – the birthplace of
By Desmond Cole - er, a fellow prisoner in the cell across all of us with the idea we can design of extreme isolation for at least 22 Canada’s common law system of
National Observer, Feb 1, 2019 from Faqiri that night has come a humane form of incarceration for hours a day for undefined, perhaps justice. ‘T’ for theft, ‘F’ for felon, and
I’ve often thought of the superjail forward with his eyewitness account. thousands of civilians. We can either indefinite periods. ‘M’ for murder. Though this violent
in Lindsay, Ont. as one of the most “They viciously beat him to death,” get rid of jail and replace it with a But Bill C-83 has not yet been branding no longer occurs, we still
miserable places in Canada. The the witness told CBC investigative more humane system, or we can passed. The government can amend mark people through the imposition
hell space that is the Central East reporters. expect the suffering jail produces to it, or better yet, introduce a new bill of a criminal record that is often just
Correctional Centre, a medium and Of course the guards told stories continue. that truly eliminates solitary confine- as damning.
maximum security provincial jail, is that didn’t add up. Of course the It’s important to remember that jail ment. In doing so, the government A criminal record is almost as visi-
by many accounts a place of degra- Ministry of Community Safety and is not prison, the institution reserved ble a brand as the hot iron markings.
could still seek to include any ex- An increasing number of organiza-
dation and cruelty, of humiliation Correctional services, which has vid- for people convicted of the most ceptions it thought necessary. If the
and torture and death. Since jail is serious criminal offences. In Canada, tions, employers, volunteer manag-
eo of the entire incident, has never government had evidence to support ers, landlords, educational institu-
designed to be miserable, we might released it to the public or Faqiri’s people go to jail either because specific, rare, and very brief situa-
say the Lindsay superjail is one of the they’ve been convicted of a crime tions and government departments
family, who have been campaigning tions of isolation, this is something insist on criminal background checks
most effective jails in the country. It tirelessly for answers and account- that carries a sentence of two years reasonable people could discuss.
churns out punishment and suffering or less, or because they are awaiting as part of their hiring and manage-
ability. Of course the Kawartha Lakes Instead, unfathomably, Parliament ment practices. This means even
efficiently, and keeps most of its pub- police service that investigated Faqi- trial or immigration proceedings, is doubling down on Bill C-83 and
and have thus not been convicted those with minor records cannot fully
licly-funded crimes against humanity ri’s death didn’t lay a single charge. fussing over what kind of indepen- participate in society after they’ve
out of sight. What good is a jail that can’t keep its of anything. Places like the Lindsay dent review process is needed to completed their sentence.
In the rare moments we are forced violence under wraps? How do you superjail often house people accused keep someone in the newly named Canada’s pardon system, as it
to see the horrors of our jails, punish presumed criminals when or convicted of relatively minor structured intervention units. To be existed prior to 2012, provided some
we find it harder to pretend their your crimes are seen to be worse crimes, people who are meant to be sure, the concern about indepen- relief from the stigma associated
purpose is safety or self-reflection than theirs? released relatively soon into the pub- dent review is important, and is no with the criminal mark. People could
or rehabilitation. Soleiman Faqiri Of course Faqiri, a Muslim im- lic. Still, we are desperate to punish doubt the government’s response to apply to have their record sealed and
died while imprisoned inside the migrant from Afghanistan with a these prisoners, so desperate that court decisions that struck down the set aside in order to find employ-
Lindsay superjail over two years ago mental health diagnosis, was placed we ignore the long-term harm we are administrative segregation regime in ment, return to school, volunteer in
after being attacked and beaten by in solitary confinement and denied causing them and ourselves. two recent constitutional challenges their communities or secure housing.
numerous guards. To date, no one multiple visits from his family in the The high walls, barbed wire, and by the Canadian Civil Liberties Asso- This was not only a benefit to the
has been charged in Faqiri’s death. 11 days he was detained. We should paramilitary feel of the Lindsay ciation and the B.C. Civil Liberties As- individual with a criminal record,
However, the recent reopening of a expect such outcomes for vulnerable superjail are as much for the public sociation, respectively. The courts in it was good for our communities
criminal investigation by the Ontario people in any Canadian jail, but here as for the prisoners. Just as prisoners Ontario and B.C. took issue with the too. The research is clear: Pro-social
Provincial Police, and a lawsuit by Lindsay distinguishes itself: the jail must be kept in, we must be kept lack of an independent review pro- community engagement results in
his family, have turned the public is notorious for holding and abusing out. The seclusion of jail means jail cess when determining if someone decreased recidivism and increased
spotlight back on. immigration detainees, many of officials can do anything to the pris- should stay in solitary. However, this public safety.
We are so desperate to punish whom have never been charged with oners—it’s the perfect site of pure was not the only constitutional issue But unfortunately, instead of mov-
those in jail that we ignore the long- a crime. Its immigration detainees deterrence, the ideal stage for abuse, before the courts. CCLA and BCCLA ing forward on even more progres-
term harm we are causing them and have engaged in multiple hunger torture, and ultimately death. Few of also challenged the long, indefinite sive pardon laws, the Harper govern-
ourselves. #Faqiri #onpoli strikes in recent years to demand us really want to see or know what durations, segregation of people ment chose to use the file to further
During the two years since Faqiri’s more humane conditions. The Lind- goes on inside a jail, which is why it with mental illness, youth and those its law and order agenda. Changes
death, public officials inside and say jail has been cited for its rampant can never be a safe, just, rehabilita- who simply asked to be safe, and the made by the Conservatives elimi-
outside the jail have, unsurprisingly, use of solitary confinement, partic- tive, or restorative place. discriminatory use of segregation nated pardons in favour of “record
said next to nothing. While jail staff, suspensions” and made necessary
police, and government officials reg-
ularly against prisoners living with Rebranding solitary confine- against Indigenous people. Many of
relief harder to come by – especially
ularly say they cannot discuss Faqiri’s
mental health issues (such practice ment doesn’t change what it is these issues were accepted by the
for those who are already poor and
in Lindsay and elsewhere has led to B.C. court. Most are back before the
specific case, they face an existential a $600 million class action lawsuit By Noa Mendelsohn Aviv, Globe courts on appeal. marginalized.
problem with every new revelation against the Ontario government). and Mail, Jan 21, 2019 In striking down the administrative The current 10-step record sus-
about the Lindsay superjail. While In some cases, men in detention in Noa Mendelsohn Aviv is director of segregation regimes, the Ontario and pension application is needlessly
most of the public supports jail, al- Lindsay cannot escape punishment the equality program at the Canadian B.C. rulings spend pages detailing the complex and burdensome. It is a
most none of us want to know what even when inhumane jail conditions Civil Liberties Association. many harms, sometimes irreversible procedural quagmire that is almost
actually happens there. Since jail finally force them into the health There was a time when an uncon- and permanent. These include hal- unnavigable for lawyers, let alone
thrives on exactly the kind of violence the general public. The wait times
care system. Abdurahman Ibrahim stitutional government policy was lucinations, depression, anxiety, loss
we claim to abhor, its day-to-day real- to apply are unnecessarily long: 10
Hassan was detained at the Lindsay not something lamented then simply of control, paranoia, self-mutilation years for indictable offences and five
ities aren’t fit for public consumption. jail in 2012 and served four months rebranded. Once a court found it and suicidal thoughts. These harms
It’s easier to justify the violence that years for the most minor of offences.
for assault charges. At the end of his unconstitutional, the practice just ... were researched and established by And then there is the cost of well
is jail when we don’t actually have to sentence, officials cited their wish ended, especially when politicians doctors and psychologists over many
deal with it. over $600 to even apply for a record
to deport Hassan, and simply kept had campaigned against it. Not so years. suspension. Bottom line: this two-
From a deterrence perspective, jail him in the jail, where he languished solitary confinement – an old practice Justice Pentelechuk’s recent Alberta tiered system means if you are poor,
is supposed to be a disgusting and for the next three years. Hassan was that today’s Parliament loves to decision attributes these harms to you are branded for life.
scary place. We pay a ridiculous sum accepted to Canada as a refugee hate, hates to love, but just keeps on the extreme isolation faced by peo- The simple truth is that Canada’s
in taxes to keep people in jail as far from Somalia in 1993, and his family doing. ple in solitary. She wrote: record suspension system is punitive
away from us as possible—$78,4755 says he never obtained citizenship Reading the latest court decision “Arguably, it is the lack of meaning- and it must be fixed.
per inmate in Ontario in 2015/16, because of his mental health issues. on solitary confinement (R v. Prystay, ful human contact that is the most Those aren’t our words. They were
according to this report. This money In June of 2015 Hassan, who had from Alberta), one doesn’t know pernicious consequence of place- spoken by Minister of Public Safety
is not for the welfare of prisoners; it been diagnosed with bipolar disorder whether to sigh with relief that an- ment in segregation. Human beings Ralph Goodale in January 2016 when
is for a system of punishment meant and diabetes, became so ill that he other court got it so right, or cry over are not meant to be isolated, partic- he vowed to overhaul Canada’s pu-
to discipline prisoners and instill fear, was transferred from the Lindsay jail what took place. How could it be that ularly not for extended periods. The nitive pardon system. Well, it’s been
and everyone knows it. The less we to a local hospital. After hospital staff a person in our country was held for longer a person is isolated, the more more than three years and Goodale’s
have to see or think about this terror complained about his behaviour, two 400 days in the deplorable conditions challenging it is to relate to others in own record has been one of shame-
system, the more easily Canadians police officers restrained Hussan, and extreme isolation that make up an acceptable way.” ful inaction. He has done nothing to
can manage the costs, in taxes and in with one repeatedly pinning down solitary confinement? In her view: “Informed Canadians overhaul the Criminal Records Act,
human suffering. When the violence his head with a towel. Hassan died Justice Dawn Pentelechuk held also realize that indefinite placement even after aspects of it were found
of jail is accidentally laid bare, as it in his hospital room, and provincial that placing an inmate in solitary in segregation thwarts an inmate’s unconstitutional by courts in Ontario
was with Faqiri, jail loses its legiti- investigators cleared the police of confinement for 400 days – where he chance of successfully re-integrating and British Columbia.
macy. any wrongdoing a year later. suffered physical and psychological into society.” Advocates and people with criminal
Although he was charged with a vi- The only surprise in stories like harms – was cruel and unusual pun- After all, as the Ontario court records have grown frustrated by the
olent crime, Faqiri should never have those of Hassan and Faqiri is that we ishment in violation of Section 12 of found, inmates leave solitary confine- lack of initiative, but recently we were
been sent to the Lindsay superjail in occasionally find out about them; the Charter of Rights and Freedoms. ment deeply traumatized and socially provided with a glimmer of hope by
December, 2016. He had been living fatality is usually a prerequisite for She wrote: disabled. Since most return to soci- Sen. Kim Pate, who introduced Bill
with schizophrenia for several years, media attention. Indeed, the fact "Societal views on what is accept- ety, how can a practice that disables S-258, An Act to amend the Criminal
and required a level of care and sup- that Ontario refuses to officially able treatment or punishment evolve them in this manner be justified on Records Act.
port that our jails are specifically de- document the number of people who over time. Forced sterilization, resi- the basis of safety? Bill S-258 builds on decades of
signed to deny prisoners. As revealed die in its jails tells us the violence dential schools, lobotomies to treat Courts in Alberta, Ontario and B.C. research and public consultation to
in a CBC investigation into Faqiri’s is intentional. The real shock is not mental disorders, corporal punish- have all found Charter breaches do the work Goodale refuses to do.
death, fellow prisoners and even what we do to prisoners, but that we ment in schools and the death penal- in relation to segregation, and all The legislation would allow criminal
many jail staff believed he was too occasionally have to admit what we ty are all examples of treatment once expressed grave concern over the records to expire after a set time
ill for his surroundings. But a doctor do. Jail is an inherently abusive place; considered acceptable. Segregation harms associated with keeping period without a complicated appli-
refused to transfer Faqiri to a health it contrasts complete accountability ravages the body and the mind. people in extreme isolation. Even cation process and with no fee.
care facility, and guards ultimately for prisoners with an absence of ac- There is growing discomfort over its our federal government appears to If passed, this bill would also auto-
placed him in solitary confinement as countability for staff; it is particularly continued use as a quick solution to concede these harms and recognize matically grant pardons to people
his condition deteriorated. complex problems.” convicted of acts that are no longer
dangerous for people who already the need to eliminate this practice. illegal. For example, the convic-
Eyewitness says he was beaten to experience systemic discrimination in And yet our federal government Why else change the name of the
death tions for historic offences based on
society. This knowledge is supposed intends to maintain the practice of unit? Why else would the govern- discriminatory laws or records for
On Dec. 15, 2016 a paramedic was to live in the back of our collective solitary confinement – now rebrand- ment announce that its new bill will
called to the jail, where he found non-violent cannabis offences would
psyches, and to particularly remind ed as “administrative segregation.” “eliminate the use of administrative not be a lasting mark of shame and
Faqiri dead. The 30-year-old man those of us society fears most that if While the recently introduced Bill segregation”? All we need now is for
had over 50 trauma impact wounds oppression.
we step out of line, this awful place is C-83 declares that it would “eliminate the government to keep this promise Like all legislation in its early stages,
all over his body, including his neck. reserved for us. the use of administrative segrega- in a meaningful way. Sen. Pate’s bill can be improved upon
Guards, who later reported that Calls for reform are ultimately futile tion,” the actual provisions of the bill
Faqiri was “exhibiting assaultive and Since jail is supposed to be nasty, would do no such thing. It is true that Spratt and McAleese: Canada’s through parliamentary committee
resistive behaviour,” had used hand- calls for reform, while life-saving Bill C-83 would change the name of record suspension system is study, but it represents a monumen-
cuffs and leg irons to restrain him, and necessary in this moment, are the “segregation unit” to the “struc- punitive and must be fixed tal step forward for fairness, public
safety and evidence-based justice
and had placed a spit hood over his ultimately futile. Our white suprem- tured intervention unit.” It would add By Michael Spratt & Samantha policy.
head. The paramedic also reported acist, ableist, and patriarchal culture a few daily hours out of cell for some McAleese, Updated March 4, 2019 While the previous federal govern-
seeing three unknown pills on the fears incarceration that is too kind inmates. And it would offer most It’s been more than 200 years since ment offloaded the costs of pardons
floor of Faqiri’s cell. When this first and accommodating, that attempts inmates a shower and a few other a hot iron was used to mark perma- completely onto people with criminal
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records, in reality we all pay the
price for this broken system. It is in non-citizens on one, or a combina- had to say. cities have made progress in this Considering the above, in support
the public interest to have a robust tion, of the following three grounds: Souheil Benslimane spent time area by decreasing reliance on emer- of Canada’s Black communities and
system of pardons, not only because They are a danger to the public; behind bars from 2013 to 2018 for gency shelters through a Housing the pressing need to eliminate the
of piles of research that demonstrate they are unlikely to appear for their gun-related crimes. Benslimane said First approach, other cities are still devastating impacts of gun violence,
sealing criminal records supports deportation or other immigration contacting his family during that time struggling to find shelter space for my proposal is that Canada adopt
reintegration but also because we all matters (what officials call “flight was costly, and worrying about that individuals and families experiencing an Intergovernmental Gun Violence
benefit from a system that allows for risk”); or their identity is in doubt. affected his mental health. poverty and displacement. Prevention Strategy. This Strategy
restoration. After a person is detained, they have “I think [Bell] might care about men- Promising news came in 2018 when would seek to address the causes
The Liberal government seems a quasi-judicial hearing at the Immi- tal health of some people, but they the federal government announced a and consequences of this violence
content with the status quo, but just gration and Refugee Board, where don’t care about the mental health of new National Housing Strategy: a 10- by centering the impact gun violence
as we look back on the hot iron with the CBSA makes its arguments and a people that are incarcerated, people year, $40-billion plan that promotes has in communities, instead of over-
disgust and revulsion, it should re- government-appointed adjudicator that are isolated, people who are a human rights-based approach to emphasizing a focus on the individu-
member that future generations will decides whether detention should
view its inaction in the same way. often, you know, put away, far from ‘address the needs of people across als responsible for the violence.
Michael Spratt is an advocate for progressive continue. Some detainees have law- sight. the whole spectrum of Canadian Addressing the impact of gun vio-
criminal justice reform and a partner at the yers, but many represent themselves I think that they have to address it, society’. lence requires comprehensive and
Ottawa criminal law firm Abergel Goldstein at the hearings, which occur after the
& Partners. and if they do then I’ll say that they Some “unique challenges” en- coordinated interventions from all
Samantha McAleese is a social justice first 48 hours, seven days and then care about mental health for every- countered by people with criminal three levels of government. This is
advocate, PhD Candidate in sociology at Car- every 30 days thereafter.
leton, and a member of the Criminalization one. For now, they’re selective about records, such as “legal discrimina- because in most major Canadian
and Punishment Education Project. What is not discussed at the hearing their care.” tion by landlords”, which effectively cities Canadians rely on municipal-
Hundreds of nonviolent is in what kind of facility the detainee Farhat Rehman is the mother of an eliminates them from many safe and ly-directed police services that are
immigration detainees sent will be held. That decision is made inmate and a member of Mothers desirable rental housing options. empowered by provincial legislation
to max-security jails as part solely by the CBSA and is not subject Offering Mutual Support (MOMS), In Ottawa, this discrimination is and dependent on various Canadian
of ‘abhorrent’ government to any external oversight. This aspect a group that helps mothers whose manifested through the Crime border protection services to keep
program of the system was criticized by Justice loved ones are behind bars. Her Free Multi-Housing program that is illegal guns out of Canada. Moreover,
O’Marra, who said the current system son was deemed unfit to stand trial facilitated through the Ottawa Police access and availability to health and
By Brendan Kennedy Jan. 24, 2019 “contains no mechanism to ensure owing to mental illness for four years Service and encourages landlords to community services for communi-
Canada’s immigration authorities proportionality between the flight before he was found guilty of sec- conduct criminal background checks ties impacted by gun violence is a
locked up nearly 1,500 nonviolent risk which he has been found to ond-degree murder in the stabbing as part of their rental application multi-level government affair. Our
immigration detainees in maxi- be and the actual conditions of his death of a friend and mentor. process. Apart from this program, health and social services are public
mum-security jails last year, the Star detention.” “It does take a toll, because if I don’t people with criminal records are health institutions that are heavily
has found. To determine where a detainee keep in touch with him then he has a often excluded from rental hous- reliant on federal transfer payments
While they may have criminal re- will be placed, a CBSA officer fills tendency to fear the worst has come ing options due to a lack of prior — and are simultaneously implicated
cords, the detainees were not consid- out a form known as a National Risk to me because he does suffer from landlord references or because they in mending the physical and social
ered dangerous by the Immigration Assessment for Detention, which was this sort of hallucinatory idea that I’m simply cannot afford market rent fissures that are a cause and conse-
and Refugee Board. Almost all were revised last year. The Star revealed not well.... So that reassurance and prices. These obstacles, amongst quence of eruptions of gun violence
detained solely on the grounds that problems with the risk assessment that communication with him is so others, often push people back into in communities across Canada.
they were unlikely to appear for their forms in 2017, including officers essential. homelessness and leave them (once While the government of Canada has
immigration hearing. leaving key areas blank and, in one There are some voices that have again) at the mercy of bad public pol- endeavoured to initiate an intergov-
A Star analysis of government sta- instance, an officer admitting on the been left out of the conversation, icy that criminalizes poverty – such as ernmental approach to gun violence
tistics from April 1, 2017 to March 31, form that they had not been trained and there is a huge segment of soci- Ontario’s Safe Streets Act. already, this effort fails to adequately
2018, found that 80 per cent of immi- to fill it out. The new form has been ety that is very vulnerable and very The ongoing exclusion and discrimi- address the root causes of this vio-
gration detainees held in provincial in place since last February. dependent on the service that [Bell] nation faced by people with crimi- lence. The current approach is overly
jails — rather than less restrictive One of the most confusing provides.” nal records in the community calls reliant on policing and prisons as the
immigration holding centres — were explanations the government has Sarah Speight is a volunteer with for additional advocacy, targeting solution. For instance, in November
not detained on the grounds that given for why it has relied so heavily the Jail Accountability and Informa- individual and structural changes. As 2018, the federal government an-
they were dangers to the public. Data on provincial jails for immigration tion Line, a hotline for inmates at the Canada and other countries (such nounced an $85 million commitment
from the months since then shows detention is that its own immigration Ottawa-Carleton Dentention Centre as England, Scotland, and Wales) to law enforcement to address gun
the rate is unchanged. All provincial holding centres were not equipped (OCDC). She said she gets calls every continue to work towards ending and gang violence, while committing
jails are maximum security. to handle the kinds of detainees its day from prisoners who’ve been un- homelessness through the adoption $7 million to Toronto for a com-
“It’s abhorrent for the government policies said they should. Toronto’s able to pass on essential information of rights-based housing policies, the munity healing program to prevent
to be placing people in maximum-se- Immigration Holding Centre needed to their families. criminal justice voluntary sector must and assess this issue. This lopsided
curity jails that it acknowledges are to be renovated so they could ac- “To tell them that they’re in jail, remain active and vocal to ensure funding ignores decades of literature
not a danger,” said Subodh Bhara- commodate such detainees. The new that they have a court date, that they that people with criminal records are that shows that creating inclusive
ti, an immigration lawyer at the facilities, which will replace existing need bail. They can’t contact their not left behind. community economic development
Community and Legal Aid Services ones, will allow the CBSA to make families to let them know that they’re and social well-being in communities
Program at Osgoode Hall Law School. them the “default detention location not missing. And so we see every Divest from Police to Re-Invest is the best public safety measure we
Bharati said that by the government’s for most detainees,” Bardsley said. day the challenges experienced by in Communities have against gun crime and associat-
own description, immigration deten- The government says provincial jails prisoners. Feb. 19, 2019 by Anthony Morgan ed violence in communities. As such,
tion is explicitly administrative and will still be used for the “highest risk” It’s an immediate thing that we For Black History Month, the Institute the new strategy I propose here,
not punitive. “But incarceration in a detainees and in parts of the country know is causing serious harm to launched a policy series highlighting would be focused on creating robust
maximum-security jail is punitive by where there is no immigration hold- prisoners’ mental health, to their bold policy solutions in order to tack- education, jobs and training oppor-
its very nature.” ing centre. well-being, and it’s harming their le anti-Black racism, focusing on the tunities, and by doing so, prioritize
While the Liberals have reduced families as well. Could you imagine cutting at the roots of this problem.
the use of jails — roughly one-third Protesters call on Bell to fix need for intergovernmental action.
sitting outside, wondering [where Recognizing that guns are tools of
of all immigration detainees were phone system for inmates Each submission proposes a plan
your] kid is because you don’t know for governments to work together to the trades in profit-driven worlds of
sent to provincial jails under Stephen Robyn Miller · CBC News · Posted: they’re in jail?” tackle a problem; while serving as a crime, this Strategy would focus on
Harper’s Conservative government, Jan 30, 2019 3:32 PM ET | Last Updat- In a statement, Bell Canada said guide for advocates working towards aggressively supporting and facili-
compared to 20 per cent last year — ed: January 30 that “rates for operator-assisted [what should be] our collective effort tating full and effective participation
the latest statistics show that more Critics are calling on Bell Canada to collect calls from Ontario correctional to eradicate anti-Black racism. of Black and other at-risk racialized
than three years after Goodale’s Lib- fix its phones inside Ontario’s jails, facilities are the same as Bell’s public Gun violence continues to be a young people in the formal econo-
erals took power, Canada continues a system they say is contributing rates.” chronic social cancer festering in the my, including, in the areas of tech,
to routinely use them for nonviolent to feelings of isolation and despair margins of municipal metropoles construction and the trades. The aim
detainees. among inmates. Homelessness and the criminal of the proposed Strategy would be to
justice non-profit/voluntary across Canada. Impoverished and
The use of jails and the “co-min- Protesters stood outside Place Bell under-resourced Indigenous, Black create more viable economic options
gling” of immigration detainees in downtown Ottawa on Wednesday, sector to compete with illegitimate trades
and racially disadvantaged communi-
with criminal detainees has been coinciding with Bell Let’s Talk Day, By Samantha McAleese ties bear the brunt of the burden of in drug, sex and merchandise that
repeatedly cited by human rights the company’s annual campaign to There is an ongoing cycle between our country’s gun violence problems. drive much of gun violence in com-
groups, detainee advocates and the raise awareness of mental health incarceration and homelessness So, when the CBC reports that, munities. In sum, this new Strategy
United Nations as a major problem struggles. experienced around the world. In “Shootings have been on the rise for would focus on creating conditions
with Canada’s immigration detention About 50 people braved the cold to Australia, for example, almost 25% the past few years,” we cannot view of economic safety and well-being in
system. demand the telecommunications gi- of prisoners in New South Wales these facts with a colourblind public impoverished communities through
Immigration detention in Cana- ant lower the cost of outgoing phone experience housing instability prior and collective conscience. intergovernmental policy, planning
da occurs in two types of facilities: calls for inmates in the province’s to incarceration and “thousands of When examining gun violence, it’s and service delivery.
federal immigration holding centres, jails, and allow inmates to dial out to people [are] released from prison important to remember that inter-ci- A national anti-gun violence strategy,
of which there are three across the cell phones. Right now, inmates can into homelessness in the community vilian and state-civilian gun violence focused on community development
country, and provincial jails. Immi- only make collect calls to landlines, each year.” We see similar occur- are not morally or structurally and safety would also likely lead
gration detainees are not criminally preventing many from connecting rences in the United States and in equivalent. The state has a monopoly to community well-being improve-
charged, but when they are sent to with loved ones. England, where the ‘revolving door’ on the legitimate use of lethal force. ments: access to social well-being
a provincial jail they are treated the That issue came under the spotlight between incarceration and home- So, when police shoot or kill a civilian, services, such as counselling and
same as any other prisoner. last year during an inquest into the lessness is propelled by a lack of due to the profound power imbal- other mental health services, would
Immigration holding centres are death of Cleve Geddes, a mentally ill community-based supports for men- ance between police and civilians, gradually increase.
medium-security facilities exclusively inmate whose family said was unable tal health and addiction, a scarcity of police-involved gun violence always Finally, this proposed approach to
for immigration detainees. Detainees to reach them because they only had affordable housing, and poverty. triggers a deep tear in the social con- gun violence offers immense oppor-
are not locked in their rooms, are cell phones. Geddes died after trying In Canada, approximately 35,000 tract that governs our communities. tunities for innovations in socio-eco-
able to move much more freely with- to hang himself while in a segregated people are homeless on any given Both inter-civilian and police-involved nomic policy and programming
in the facility and have easier access cell. night, and at least 235,000 Canadians gun violence have different but still development across Canada. These
to phones and visitors. None of the The inquest jury also called for experience housing insecurity over disastrous impacts on communities, innovations would not only improve
immigration holding centres are at or an end to the landline-only phone the course of a year. Ending this especially on Black, Indigenous and the lives of members of Canada’s
near capacity. restriction. homelessness crisis is a priority for racially disadvantaged communities Black communities, but the lives of all
The Canada Border Services Agency Here’s what some of the protesters cities across the country. While some most commonly affected. Canadians.
has the power to indefinitely detain
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GirlTalk
Hey y’all this is your girl Moka, and welcome nity got together to protest Q: Do you feel that the and was around in 1981 when the bathhouse
to the first edition of my column, Girl Talk. What for their rights and those institution offers proper raids took place and the protest which lead to
you can expect from me in this and future who were affected by the protection for LGBTQ+ the pride parade.
columns to come is to touch on topics that raid. This march of cour- members? Q: Please tell me what you can remember of
are very alive and real in today’s world. I will age, determination, and fearlessness By Moka Dawkins A: NO what happened back in 1981 when the gay
be talking on subjects such as human rights formed what we know today as the Q: What do you feel the institution can bathhouse got raided?
issues, policies and politics, lifestyle, persever- pride parade. That protest lead to the Dec. 2, do to better the protection for community A: I remember seeing the busted down doors.
ance and much more. 1986 ruling that it would be against the law members? Q: Were you apart of that raid?
In this cell count issue #87, I am honored not to hire or rent to persons who identify A: Make things more known like advertising A: No thank god
by being the “cover girl”, along with my story as LGBTQ+. Before that ruling came about in that there are LGBTQ+ members in jail. Q: Were any of your friends arrested in that
of what I had experienced in my life and how Ontario even the government could refuse a Q: What about an LGBTQ+ range? raid?
my fight lead me here in my cell writing this LGBTQ+ person certain services. A: I don’t think that would be appropriate. A: No
column for PASAN and you. This column is You know sometimes I wonder if that raid had Q: Why? Q: How did you hear about what happened?
meant to bring awareness and reality to real never happened, would that 1986 ruling have A: A lot of sexual acts may happen. A: I went to the bathhouse Club Toronto a few
issues happening inside and outside of prison ever happened? Even though it was a very neg- Q: What about federal prisons? days later and found out from an employee
walls, as well as a sense of accomplishment for ative traumatic event that happened to those A: People are more in and out in provincial there. He told me that they put everyone in
all those fighting for change and the right to be men, what they endured during those times rather than federal. handcuffs naked and even one officer took a
heard. made a positive change and a brighter future Q: Why support the stigma against your own piss in the frozen pool that was outside. They
I welcome all feedback and suggestions about for the community. I consider those men to community? had people in handcuffs naked in the cold, this
and for topics that I write about. My contact be unknown heroes. They were literally on the A: Because I don’t think it’s a good idea. I think happened in the month of February.
information will be provided at the end of each front line of the battle and because of them our the risk for HIV is higher in prison. Q: That summer of 1981 when the community
column, so please don’t be afraid to reach out war for rights was won. They’re our unknown Q: The people who got arrested in the 70s and took to the streets to protest, were you apart
and let me know what you think. village soldiers. 80s and fought for the liberations we have of it?
Now with that being said let’s move on to the Because of them the next war against gay today, what would you say to them who experi- A: Yes, even the police were there but to only
subject of interest: LGBTQ+ Rights. marriage was won, that was another 20 year enced jail in those days?
keep peace.
Are you a LGBTQ+ person or do you know battle. In 2003 the first gay marriage hap- A: If they said it was appropriate I would think
Q: Have you ever been gay bashed during
someone who is? Did you know in Canada it pened, it was accepted provincially but it didn’t they’re crazy, if the law changes again and they
was once illegal to identify as LGBTQ+ and if become fully accepted throughout Canada jail you, you would be put on a list in orienta- those times?
caught you would be thrown in jail and left federally until 2005. tion and once on that list you’re on that list and A: I’ve experienced discrimination in passing,
with a criminal record? This prevented a lot of Looking back at the history of the community that scares me about the government. like people making remarks to me.
people from getting work. I am apart of, I do nothing but feel proud and Q: Why is your fear more in jail than outside? Q: What about your family did they accept you?
If the community you lived in found out, they wonder what can I do in and with my lifetime A: Because violence is more frequent in jail A: Yes
would shun you and throw you out of their to make a difference in a positive recognition than outside. Q: When did you come out to yourself?
places of business. Imagine going to your local for my current and future brothers and sisters. Q: Do you live in fear when you’re openly out A: I came out to myself in 1976 and to everyone
corner store to buy a loaf of bread and the Then it dawned on me, an LGBTQ+ unit here on road walking around? else in 1980 when I moved to Toronto.
owner of that store refusing to sell it to you just at the Toronto South Detention Center. This A: No Q: Do you think it would be beneficial to have a
because you got arrested under suspicion of unit can start to send a message of awareness Q: Have you ever been gay bashed outside? LGBTQ+ range in jail?
being a LGBTQ+ person. Imagine it being like as well as acceptance towards the community A: Yes, and those type of people are in jail. They A: Of course I’m 100% behind that.
that everywhere you went in your community. inside prison walls. might not be able to shoot me but they can still Q: My last question for you is what do you think
That you were left with no choice but to move So I put together a proposal and submitted it beat me up or stab me. about the police being part of the pride parade
somewhere far just so you could buy food to to the Superintendent, which I am still await- Q: So that’s what makes it scary for you to be after everything?
eat. And still had to live in fear and hoped that ing a reply on. I then went and spoke to some open about your identity in jail? A: I don’t think it would be beneficial to have
a potential employer didn’t run your name for individuals who identify as LGBTQ+ and asked A: Yes them there.
a police background check. them a series of questions, and I have to say I Q: Going back to what you said about being This was a great learning opportunity for my-
This was the lives of many of my brothers and was surprised by some of their answers. scared that the government could change the self to sit down with these two brave men and
sisters, and the daily discrimination and ridicule I would just like to say at this point to ensure law and criminalize people for being openly learn insight on this subject to help me prepare
that they had to endure. This is how the right the privacy of the two individuals I interviewed, LGBTQ+ persons again. Please tell me why do for whatever objections may arise in my fight
for self expression was born. It wasn’t until I will be using alias names. And I would also like you think Canada would reverse a law back to for this LGBTQ+ range.
May 14, 1969 that it became legal to identify to thank them for being honest and taking the its old way when Canada is known and also I also want to take a moment to acknowledge
as an LGBTQ+ person, but even with legisla- time to sit and speak with me, your participa- promotes to be a country of freedom and
all those men who got arrested and for all the
tion passed the LGBTQ+ community still faced tion is greatly appreciated. diversity?
horrific discrimination. The first person I spoke with, we’ll call him A: Who knows. community members who got together during
In 1981 the police decided to conduct a raid “Arrows”, is in his mid-20s and I have to say his You know the funny thing about doing that those times and stood up for themselves to
on gay bathhouses (in Toronto), arresting a point of view on things definitely shocked me. interview with Arrows is that I’ve known Arrows make this country a more united place to live.
ton of gay men and throwing them in jail. The As he and I are close in age, myself being a few for years on road and he is one of the biggest Your courageous bravery will never be forgot-
police raid subjected these men to violent years older, we see certain things in completely Queens I know out there. So to hear those ten. Thank you PASAN for allowing me to share
assaults and getting raped behind prison walls. different lights. Here are the questions I asked responses really caught me off guard coming this with everyone and thank you for taking the
Once released it was difficult for these men to Arrows and the responses he gave me. from him, but whatever. I appreciate his input time to read Girl Talk.
find a place to live and work because landlords Q: Why do you try to suppress your identity to and I’m going to leave that conversation with a If you have any suggestions, opinions, or
and employers still had the right to refuse to other individuals? #SheWeird #KnowYourself. ideas you would like to share please write to
rent or hire an LGBTQ+ person. A: Cause I’m scared of getting beat up and The next individual I spoke with I will refer to me, addressed to Girl Talk at 526 Richmond St
In the summer of 1981 the LGBTQ+ commu- made fun of. him as “Silver Coin”. Silver Coin is in his late 50s E, Toronto, Ontario, M5A 1R3.
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The Girl with The Tattered Crimson Dress A Case for Cultural Consideration I remember on occasions when I would go to
the store with a relative, an employee would
By Horaine Bennett drop whatever they were doing to ask us if
Contents they “could help us with something” (this was
- Preface on the rare occasion when they would not just
- My History outright shadow us). This would seem altruistic
- Culture Shock if not for the fact that some of these stores
- Culture Clash had dozens if not hundreds of shoppers, they
were in the middle of something, and customer
- Conclusion service was not in their job description. This
- Postlude however was not even the tip of the iceberg.
PREFACE From berating reprimands when gentle remind-
Some years ago a professor at Cambridge ers were warranted, to stiff penalties in place of
University* deduced that all human beings are peremptory cautioning, one could argue that I
much more closely related than once thought. was not often given the benefit-of-the-doubt or
The prevailing theory was that we are 99.9% much discretion. That would be well within the
the same in terms of biological make-up. He authorities’ right if not for the fact that these
deduced that in fact, we are less than point-one events would be coupled with clear abuses
percent biologically different. His position is of power. From attempting to plant drugs on
that it is that slight variation in genetics that dif- me, numerous vicious beatings that started at
ferentiates us and imparts our parents’ physical 8 years old, to laying serious criminal charges
attributes (i.e. eye colour, skin tone). that I had no knowledge about or participa-
However, even this slight deviation is not tion in. Yet, whenever I would broach these
uniform as is evident in the case of an albino. factual events and my thoughts and feelings
One can have dark-skinned parents and still about them, I would instantly be shut down or
produce a pale skin child with blue eyes and worse. I would be called everything from a liar,
Photo by Hernan Sanchez from Unsplash straight blonde hair. In an ideal world we would anti-authority, delusional, to racist. That last
all be treated with the same degree of respect, one was always quizzical because oppression
By Zakaria Amara There is something incredibly beautiful about dignity, and humanity, but this utopia only is colour-blind and can be carried out by some-
We could escape from prison, but we can a human being who strives to be as positive existed conceptually in the form of Christian one, or entity of the same ethnicity.
never escape from ourselves. We can try to dis- and good as they can be despite the harshness virtue. My reality is much different, and though CULTURE CLASH
tract ourselves from ourselves by flooding our of their lives. Though their backs are on the we are similar, we are not the same. This is CONCLUSION
lives with every luxury our hearts desire. We verge of collapse from all the burdens they how and when I was forced to realize that. POSTLUDE
could try to fulfill every fantasy our minds can must carry, they somehow find the strength to MY HISTORY I am not of European descent. The ICPM pro-
imagine. We could do all of this and may even hold on to their values and dignity. Such people On September 24, 1987 in (redacted), Horaine gram is based on a pool of middle-class, white,
feel “happy” for a while, but soon, that hollow never blame their Creator for their misfor- Bennett was born in Kingston, Jamaica. As the relatively young, Eurocentric test subjects. Very
feeling, that sharp painful angst, returns. tunes, but surprisingly, thank him. They never last born (the “wash belly”), it was a difficult little to no thought was given to cultural differ-
Almost everything we do in life, we do in backstab those around them, but instead heal birth that almost cost my mother her life. The ences, distinctions, practices, and traditions. At
order to feel “happy”, yet most of us, includ- them and uplift them. A person who chooses to decision was made that I would stay in the no point have I, or am I, trying to suggest that
ing myself, have never taken a moment to behave in this manner in such circumstances hospital with her during her extended period of because I grew up in a different environment
ponder over what this seemingly simple word displays the epitome of human beauty. treatment and recovery. Admirably, even in her than most Caucasians, that my crimes should
actually means (please forgive me if I sound Omar bin Al Khattab once said: “We found the moment of debilitating weakness, she mus- be critiqued or viewed differently than anyone
like a douche bag in the first half of this essay; best moments of our lives were those lived in tered the strength to nurture me. Undoubtedly, else who committed similar crimes. What I
it was one of the side effects of researching patience”. Sigmund Freud echoed his sentiment this event cultivated a deep-rooted bond that am suggesting though is, that the underly-
what armchair intellectuals had to say on the 1300 years later when he wrote, “One day in would be the only thing that tethered me to ing factors when considered in terms of the
subject). retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you humanity. cumulative impact in distorting my thinking
My search for the meaning of “happiness” as the most beautiful.” During the first four years of my life that and rationality, cannot be divorced from all the
began in a mundane fashion in the prison So, people living in hardship could achieve I lived in Jamaica, I experienced sights and other factors that were, and still are, opined as
library. I picked up books like ‘Stumbling Upon beauty, but I still wondered whether Ben-Sha- sounds that result in some soldiers suffering crucial components.
Happiness’, ‘Happier’, ‘The Happiness Project’, har was right about happiness being beyond from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). My reality was, and will continue to be differ-
and ‘The Happiness Equation’. Those were just their reach. This question nagged at me for Despite the constant scenes of horror, the fact ent than each and every Caucasian. Even if all
the titles available. Apparently, many other some time until I remembered the words of that I was raised in a God-fearing household in things were created equal and we lived identi-
books have been written on the subject, such ex-Soviet prison camp survivor Alexander Solz- a community (and country) steeped in culture, cal lives, the x-factor is that I am consciously or
as: ‘The Art of Happiness’, ‘The Conquest of henitsyn, who wrote: I was whole. subconsciously counted as a beast of burden
Happiness’, ‘The Psychology of Happiness’, ‘The “If a miracle happens (in prison) and I get a I was often considered and referred to as due to my darker pigmentation. I could live
How of Happiness’, and on, and on, and on... quiet Sunday off, and in the course of the day “bright,” “a boy with promise,” and there was with that though. What is much more difficult
In one of the books, I found a reference to my soul thaws out and is at ease, there may not a basis for it. A glaring example was my ability to live with, is the fact that it is not just a view,
a psychological study that cited 15 different have been any change for the better in my ob- to find a local shop-some distance away-and but a belief. Racism, racial prejudice or bias,
academic definitions of happiness! People have jective situation, but the prison yoke lies more purchase a specific item for whomever at the however one wants to categorize it, cannot be
been so fascinated by this topic that scholars as lightly on me. And then suppose I have a really age of 3+. I would find out later on in life after very impactful unless it is coupled with the abil-
ancient as Aristotle have written about it. satisfying conversation or read an honest page some testing at a lab, this was possible “due ity to exercise exclusive power and authority.
Not being one to be satisfied by mere read- – there I am, on the crest of a wave! I’ve had to photographic memory.” However, almost In order for one’s power to reign supreme, that
ing, I hosted a mini conference in the prison no real life for many years, but I forget it! I’m as a prelude, the tears streaming down my individual or entity must deprive and suppress
yard with three learned cons. As I walked weightless, I’m suspended in space, I am disem- cheeks captured in my Passport photo, would contrasting people, groups, or entities.
away dissatisfied with their answers, a short bodied, I lie there on top of my bunk, I look at summarize my experience when I immigrated
Indonesian man with balding gray hair, thick
glasses, and a big, semi-permanent smile
the ceiling just above me, it’s bare, the plaster’s
peeling, but I shudder with the sheer bliss of
to Canada with my family
CULTURE SHOCK
Correcting Yourself
greeted me and shook my hand. I immediately being! I fall asleep on the wings of happiness! Almost immediately upon arrival, I was By Michael G. Brown
asked him about his opinion on happiness, and No president or prime minister can go to sleep terrified when I saw “aliens.” I remember being I want to focus on you and your time right
he answered me with an even wider grin, that as content with the Sunday behind him.” glued to just behind my mother’s right leg seek- now. Forget everyone else, their time and
‘happiness is happiness!’ And that’s when it hit me, and I begin to write: ing shelter and protection. I vividly remember everything outside of you. Forget about “why”
Technically, he was right. Or, rather, he was the feelings of powerlessness and terror as I you are here, whether justifiable or not. Forget
not wrong. No one can deny that a soccer ball The Girl With the Tattered Crimson Dress saw these aliens streaming by me with their about your rights, the subculture and who is in
is a soccer ball… But that’s not a real answer, is Everyone wants to be happy pale skins, light coloured eyes, pointed noses, here with you. You are here and that is a fact.
it? Disqualification was the Indonesian man’s But no one knows what it means and thin lips. Eventually after powering our way Right now, I want to talk about you and what
fate, and the search continued. I asked one hundred wise men through the throngs of aliens and getting into you are doing while you are here. Anyone can
In ‘Happier’, Tal Ben-Shahar’s equation for One thousand answers I received my sister’s vehicle, I asked my “mummie,” “why watch TV and work out but what else? You are
happiness is: “Meaningful life + present plea- With absolute disappointment we come yaw (why did we come here)?” and here for correcting, and with or without pro-
sure = happiness.” He writes: “We need the Empty handed I returned “who ah dee alien dem (who are these aliens)?” grams, correcting yourself is your choice alone.
experience of meaning and the experience of On a path through a dark forest “Dem ah white people,” she responded curtly. Programs will most likely not make you better
positive emotions; we need the present and fu- A little girl passed me by I also remember trying to avoid the snow as but you can.
ture benefit. My theory of happiness draws on With hair as dark as charcoal it was falling because I thought it would harm First and foremost, your attitude will dictate
the works of Freud as well as Frankel. Freud’s And a tattered crimson dress me. When I couldn’t, I just froze and cried. how your stay will be, how you will perceive
pleasure principle says that we are fundamen- Wearing dirt upon her cheeks It is well-documented how my scholastic the actions and words of others and ultimately,
tally driven by the instinctual need for pleasure. Walking softly upon bare feet endeavour unfolded (albeit an extremely sub- how you will react. Will you become (or remain)
Frankel argues that we are motivated by a will Her face was full of innocence jective chronicling), however, like everything left a repeat offender? This is the question that
to meaning rather than by a will to pleasure - And her smile was a source of light open to interpretation, context matters. I did you truly need to ask yourself. Unfortunately
he says that, “Striving for meaning in one’s life As she vanished in the distance adjust to this new country, way of life, and “so- or perhaps fortunately, you have the time to
is the primary motivational force in man.” In I heard the echo of her song: cietal norms” poorly, in large part because not consider this. If a situation is not acceptable to
the context of finding happiness, there is some Most people wish to be happy everyone does everything identically. It is also you, you must either remove yourself from it
truth in both Freud’s and Frankel‘s theories. We Yet in darkness they choose to hide fair to say that not everyone experiences the or change your mindset towards it. Here there
need to gratify both the will for pleasure and Happiness is a blessing same thing in the same way, hence different is not much wiggle room for movement so I
the will for meaning if we are to lead a fulfilling, That rises like the Sun responses/reactions. From the tender age of suggest a change of mindset.
happy life.” If the skies are clear and blue four, even growing up in the “hood,” I knew and I have discovered peace. Whether you are
I was temporarily convinced by Ben-Shahar And the night has come and gone felt that I was different, and also viewed and spiritual or not, I have learned that forgiveness
until he mentioned that people in difficult And you happen to be out there somewhere treated that way. Transplant anything with life, is the start towards peace. Each and everyday,
circumstances, due to the absence of pleasure, With a heart that’s open wide be it a flower, insect, animal, or human from a I forgive those who have wronged me, who
could NOT be happy (hold this thought in your Then you shall have your share of it dissimilar environment to another, and chanc- have hurt me, and all those who have betrayed
right pocket for a moment because I will return And you’ll feel it deep inside es are their characteristics and/or physiology me. I do not forgive them for their benefit, but
to it). When I read this I thought to myself: “If Happiness is like a little girl would change. rather for mine. Holding others responsible for
such people could not be happy then what In a tattered crimson dress As I progressed through adolescence, I would their wrongs is keeping track of debts owed
could they be?" You won’t realize she passed you by notice subtle (and not-so-subtle) episodes of to you which creates resentment and residual
Beautiful. If you’re head-deep in a mess conscious or subconscious bias. For instance, Cont'd on page 12
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Artists
Page 13 clockwise
ChinkoPettzz, Nolan Turcotte, Nolan Turcotte
Page 14 clockwise
Nolan Turcotte, James Martineau, George Fobert
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Sonny Cook
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5511 Cornwallis St, Halifax, NS, B3K and AREA 160 Traders Blvd, Unit 1, Mississauga, Box 7123, Saskatoon, SK, S7K 4I1 306-
1B3 902-423-9991 Accept collect calls L4Z 3K7 373-7766 Prisoner-Specific
SHARP ADVICE NEEDLE EXCHANGE 201-269 Main St W, North Bay, P1B 1-866-896-8700, 905-361-0523 (Collect) OUT SASKATOON
Accept collect calls PETERBOROUGH AIDS RESOURCE PRISONERS UNITED ORGANIZATION
2T8 705-497-3560 (Collect) 320 21 St W, Saskatoon, SK S7M 4E6 Created by and for prisoners in the Ca-
150 Bentnick St, Sydney, NS, B1P AIDS COMMITTEE of OTTAWA NETWORK (PARN) 1-800-358-1833
6H1 902-539-5556 (Collect) Accept collect calls nadian federal system. We encourage
700-251 Bank St, Ottawa, K2P 1X3 613- PRINCE ALBERT METIS WOMEN’S you to share your stories to shed light
SIDA/AIDS MONCTON 238-5014 (Collect) or Toll Free (ON & 302-159 King St, Peterborough, K9J ASSOC.
Accept collect calls as long as they’re 2R81-800-361-2895, 705-932-9110 (Col- on the current practices and problems
QC only) 1-800-461-2182 No collect calls within the correctional system. PO Box
HIV related AIDS COMMITTEE of THUNDER BAY lect) 54 10th St E, Prince Albert, SK, S6V
80 Weldon St, Moncton, NB, E1C STREET HEALTH CENTRE 30009, Greenbank North PO, Ottawa,
574 Memorial Ave, Thunder Bay, 0Y5 306-763-5356 ON, K2H 1A3
5V8 506-859-9616 P7B 3Z2 1-800-488-5840, 807-345- Accept collect calls RED RIBBON PLACE
EAST COAST PRISON JUSTICE SOCIETY Hepatitis C Treatment Program 235 BLACK INMATES & FRIENDS ASSEM-
1516 (Collect) (ALL NATIONS HOPE AIDS NETWORK) BLY
6061 University Ave, PO Box 15000 POSITIVE LIVING NIAGARA Wellington St, Kingston, K7K 0B5 613- 2735 5th Ave, Regina, SK, S4T
Halifax, NS, B3H 4R2 549-1440 (Collect) 2518 Eglinton Avenue W, Toronto, ON,
Accept collect calls from registered 0L2 1-877-210-7622 M6M 1T1 ph (416) 652-3131
clients THE AIDS NETWORK (TAN) STREET CONNECTIONS
QUEBEC Don’t accept collect calls OUT OF BOUNDS MAGAZINE
(Recommend that you get a case man- No collect calls 6000 William Head Rd, Victoria, BC
CACTUS ager to get registered with them) 101-140 King St E, Hamilton, L8N 705 Broadway Ave, Winnipeg, MB,
1B2 905-528-0854 toll free 1-866-563- V9C 0B5
Accept collect calls 111 Church St, St Catharines, L2R R3G 0X2 204-940-2504 WOMEN: 50 JOURNAL OF PRISONERS ON PRIS-
1300 rue Sanguinet, Montreal, H2X 3C9 905-984-8684 or toll free 1-800- 0563 Argyle, Winnipeg, MB, R3B 0H6 204-
THE WORKS ONS
3E7 514-847-0067 773-9843 943-6379 c/o Justin Piché, PhD, Dept of Criminol-
CENTRE for AIDS SERVICES MONTRE- ANISHNAWBE HEALTH AIDS PRO- Accept collect calls
277 Victoria St, Toronto, 416-392-0520 WEST COAST ogy University of Ottawa, Ottawa, ON,
AL (Women) GRAM K1N 6N5
Accept collect calls No collect calls (Collect)
TORONTO PWA FOUNDATION AIDS VANCOUVER ISLAND PRISON FREE PRESS
1750 Rue Saint-Andre, 3rd Flr, Montre- 255 Queen St E, Toronto, M5A 1S4 416- Accepts collect calls. 713 Johnson St, PO Box 39, Stn P
al, H2L 3T81-877-847-3636, 514-495-0990 360-0486 Accept collect calls from clients
3rd Flr, Victoria, V8W 1M8 250-384- Toronto, ON, M5S 2S6