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"I'll tell you what happened," Walter Kaye would tell the grand jury.
He was talking about the events leading up to September 13, 1993,
when he was 70 years old, and recently retired, and rich, and living in
New York, and feeling somewhat adrift. "I was going through a very,
very difficult emotional period," he said. "I had suffered a heart
attack, and they sold the business, and I was pushed out right away.
A very emotional thing, you know. You start a business from scratch,
and I don't want to brag, but we did have a very nice business. And I
was in bad shape.
"She said to me, 'You know, I'd like to talk to you.' I said, 'If you're
looking for money, I've given it away for the whole year. I'm
involved with a lot of charities.' "She said, 'No, I want to talk to you
about becoming active in politics.' I said, 'I want to tell you, if there's
anything I'm not interested in it's politics. Just leave me alone.'
"I don't even really remember her name," he said, "Kathy something,
and she starts to give me the reasons why I should become active in
politics, or make a contribution, excuse me, to the Democratic
National Committee.
"So I go. And again, I'm telling you . . . I never saw this before. You
know, the dogs sniffing out the place, the Secret Service all over the
place . . . We went to a private suite at the Mayflower, and sure
enough, she came in, and I'm very, very excited, you know, and we
chatted for a minute, and I was really overwhelmed. I'm telling you
the truth. And then when I walked into the luncheon, what do you
think they do? They seat me at her table.
"On Saturday morning, I get a call from the White House . . . If you
recall, this is a time they signed the peace treaty between Arafat,
Rabin and the president . . . And they said, 'Mr. Kaye, we would like
you to attend' . . . and I just can't believe it. I'm telling you, I get
goosebumps as I tell you, although I've had such aggravation with
this.
"I go down, and you walk on the grounds of the White House. The
flags are flying. The Marine Corps band is playing. Helicopters all
over.
"I happen to be a very, very patriotic guy. I feel the greatest thing to
happen to me was I live in this country.
"Okay. Now you're familiar with the internship program at the White
House?"
"Not 100 percent, but I know they have a lot of these young interns
working there."
"Okay. And have you recommended people for jobs as interns in the
White House during the Clinton administration?"
"Yes."
But of course there is more to know, and it can be found in the 7,793
pages of documents and testimony released publicly by the Office of
the Independent Counsel, most of which turn out not to directly
involve sex. The sex, for some, may be all that the story between
Clinton and Lewinsky will forever be about, but what emerges in the
rest of the pages is a kind of textured version of how lives go, a
version that makes a story already familiar to us even more so,
sometimes achingly.
And, smaller still: in the knowledge that the walls of her bedroom
were decorated with tiny mirrors and paintings of roses.
But it also emerges in larger ways that have to do with the two
partitioned worlds of a presidency. There was Clinton's public world,
the one that involved politics and policy; and there was a
subterranean one that at first existed in private between Lewinsky
and Clinton, but that, on April 5, 1996, began edging toward the
surface, not only to subsume the public world, but to become it.
April 5 was the day Lewinsky was told to leave the White House.
By then, she had been there for nine months. Her mother was old
friends with Walter Kaye; that was the connection that got Monica
Lewinsky to the White House in July 1995. By mid-November she
had made the jump from intern to paid staffer, and by the end of the
year she had flirted with Clinton by showing him a bit of her
underwear, and had brought him the infamous pizza, and had begun
calling him "Handsome" rather than Mr. President, and had been
tagged by co-workers with a couple of nicknames of her own.
Jolley, too, was fired that day, and got the news first. It wasn't a
complete surprise, she would say later: A few days before her
termination, a Secret Service agent had told her to "watch my back,"
that the rumor was that Lewinsky and the president had been caught
in a compromising position. What Keating told Jolley on April 5,
however, was that her section was a mess; that letters were late; that
letters had been sent with the wrong salutation—everyone was being
addressed by their last name when policy was to address Republicans
by their last name and Democrats by their first name. Another job
had been arranged for her in another part of the government. She
should clear out by the end of the day.
When he was asked before the grand jury what her reaction was,
Keating answered: "Tears." And went on from there:
"She asked if she could stay, and I said no. And she asked if she
could stay as a volunteer, and I said no.
Soon after, Lewinsky wrote him a note. "It was a rambling note . . .
She offered to come back as a volunteer again . . .
"The one thing, the only, the one thing I remember about the note is a
line that she had wrote, that 'this job was my everything.' "
The note changed nothing; a new job had already been arranged for
her at the Pentagon. "I promise you if I win in November, I'll bring
you back like that," Clinton reportedly said to her, snapping his
fingers, when she visited him two days later at the White House, but
little good that did. Off she went to the Pentagon, where, soon after
arriving, she was walking along a corridor, trying to get accustomed
to such a vast and unfamiliar place, wondering how she would ever
get back to the White House, heartbroken, when she passed by a
cubicle and noticed some oversize photographs of the president.
That the woman whose cubicle it was had the pictures not because
she liked Clinton but because she needed them for a presentation she
was putting together as part of her job. That the history of the woman
included, in her prior job, a performance memo by her superior that
said she: "doesn't like her office space," "doesn't like her duties,"
"won't perform her assignments," "isn't nice to co-workers," "lends a
disruptive manner to the office" and "doesn't want to be here."
That before coming to the Pentagon, the woman had worked in the
White House, where, one day, in 1993, another White House worker,
Kathleen Willey, told her that the president had just made a pass at
her.
That early in the Clinton administration, the woman had been told
that some people close to Clinton found her "threatening," which led
to any number of anxious moments for her, such as the day she went
to McDonald's, and the president asked her to pick up something for
him, and she had someone else deliver the food to him so as not to
offend anyone. Which, in a way, was just as well because the
president wanted a grilled chicken sandwich, she would later tell the
grand jury, and McDonald's wasn't making grilled chicken
sandwiches at that point, "and I didn't know that . . . and when it
came time to order his, I said, 'And please make sure that this is
grilled' . . . and he said, 'We don't do that here,' and I said, 'Oh, please
do that here, please' . . . I just couldn't face going back and saying,
'Sorry,' so I begged him again, and here's a big line in back of me,
and the guy just looked at me and goes, 'Lady, I don't care if this is
for the president of the United States, we don't grill chicken
sandwiches.' And I said, 'I understand.'
Lewinsky didn't know that either, not then. She just knew that she
had found someone with pictures of the president by her desk, a
kindred spirit.
One more thing Lewinsky didn't know about Linda Tripp at that
point: that the dominant force in Tripp's life—more than love, more
than loyalty, more than honesty—was fear. She knew Tripp not as
fearful but as a motherly, sympathetic soul, and she began telling her
everything.
"Maybe if I come bug you later you'll make me feel better about
looking so GROSS today. The highlight of my appearance today
being the volcano zit I have on my cheek," she wrote March 5.
She talked about the sex, too. A few others in Lewinsky's orbit knew
bits and pieces, but Tripp was the one she talked to just about every
day, about every incident, including July 4, the day that she showed
up at the White House in a black sun dress she'd gotten in Rome. The
visit began horribly, she would tell Tripp, and also the grand jury.
Clinton was angry with her over a letter she had written him the day
before that began, "Dear Sir," but then she cried, and then he hugged
her, and then he told her how beautiful she was, and "he was the
most affectionate with me he'd ever been . . . He was running his
hands through my hair and touching my face, and my bra strap kept
falling down my shoulder, so he kept pushing my bra strap up," and
then he said he wished he had more time to spend with her, and she
said maybe he would in three years when he got out office, "and he
said, 'Well, I don't know, I might be alone in three years,' " and
somewhere in there they came closer than they ever had to having
sexual intercourse. "And I left that day sort of emotionally stunned,
because I felt—I was shocked.
One other thing happened that day as well. Just before leaving, she
mentioned to the president that a friend of hers at the Pentagon had
been approached by a reporter asking about an encounter between
Clinton and someone named Kathleen Willey. She didn't go into
details. She didn't mention Linda Tripp's name. She didn't say that
the reporter, Michael Isikoff of Newsweek magazine, had shown up
unannounced at Tripp's desk several months before and said, "We
need to go somewhere private," so Tripp took him into an alley and
smoked a cigarette while he said that he was working on a story
about possible sexual harassment involving Willey and the president
and that Tripp had been identified as a "contemporary corroborative
witness." Lewinsky didn't use the term sexual harassment at all. She
just mentioned this to Clinton and then she left, and she was gone for
10 days on an overseas trip for work, and then on July 14, at 7:30
p.m., she was at home, in bed, jet-lagged, sleeping among her tiny
mirrors and paintings of roses, when the phone rang and it was
Clinton's personal secretary, Betty Currie, asking her to come over to
the White House.
This meeting with Clinton was entirely different. "Very distant," she
would describe it, "and very cold." They met in the office of Nancy
Hernreich, another of Clinton's assistants. They had been in there
once before, for sex. This time, she sat on a sofa and Clinton sat on a
chair, and he asked her if the woman at the Pentagon whom she had
mentioned was named Linda Tripp, "and I hesitated and then
answered yes." So they talked about Linda Tripp. About her loyalty.
About the photographs of Clinton that Tripp had in her office space.
She stayed at the White House until nearly midnight, and later, when
she told Tripp about the meeting, that's when their friendship began
to veer into new territory, defined less by intimate confidences and
more by the force that had shaped so much of Tripp's life all along.
As Tripp would tell the grand jury, Lewinsky's mere mention of her
on July 4 "was completely frightening to me."
Which helps to explain why, at Tripp's home, there was a steno pad
no one knew about, filled with notations about her friend's
relationship with a man to whom she was once afraid to deliver a
piece of chicken.
"Hello?"
The first tape. The first word. Linda Tripp, answering her phone.
Tripp had purchased the tape recorder earlier that day. She went into
her local Radio Shack knowing little about what she wanted except
that it needed to be voice-activated. This was the instruction of
Lucianne Goldberg, a literary agent Tripp had met the year before
when she was thinking of writing a book. The book was going to be a
comparative look at the Clinton and Bush administrations through
the eyes of someone who had served in both and found the Clinton
version flawed. Send an outline, Goldberg had said, and Tripp did,
and Goldberg liked it enough to put Tripp in touch with an
established ghostwriter, who did her own outline, which Tripp felt
was way, way over the top.
That was the end of the book—and might have been the end of their
relationship, except that when the article about Kathleen Willey was
published in Newsweek, there was Linda Tripp saying she had
indeed seen Willey after the alleged encounter in the Oval Office,
and there was Clinton's personal lawyer Robert Bennett saying that
Tripp "is not to be believed," and Tripp's fears, already at the "scared
to death" level, zoomed even higher. How frightened was she now?
Frightened enough to phone Lucianne Goldberg and talk about her
fears for her reputation and personal safety. And Goldberg, as Tripp
had hoped when placing the call, was full of advice:
"I just said I didn't think I could do that, that it was not something I
wanted to do. It was—you know, it never occurred to me to tape
Monica's phone calls. And as hard as it may be to believe, I liked and
cared about Monica."
But she found herself in Radio Shack anyway, asking for something
voice-activated, choosing the middle-priced of three models, getting
extra tapes, getting batteries, and taking all of it home to her study,
where she perched the recorder on the arm of a sofa and waited for
Lewinsky to call.
"It's like I can't even help being depressed today," Lewinsky said,
unaware that her call had activated the recorder. "It's like I think I'm
just—I just lost it. I really do. I'm not kidding you."
"No, I don't mean lose it like I'm going crazy; I mean like I am crazy
or I am clinically, literally, depressed."
"Okay."
"Well . . ."
"Not sex."
"Oh, I don't know. I think if you go to, if you get to orgasm, that's
having sex."
"Yes it is."
"I mean, nice people are on drugs. You know how he sometimes
zones out," Tripp said.
"It crossed my mind," Tripp said. ". . . All right, go to bed . . ."
"Okay."
"All right?"
"Bye."
"Okay. Bye."
Another call:
"Lucy?"
"Yeah."
"Really?"
"What?"
"Yep."
"Yep."
This was in the morning, just after Tripp had been on the phone with
Lewinsky, who was terribly upset with fresh realizations that Clinton
was never going to bring her back to a White House job, and that his
secretary, Betty Currie, had been less than truthful with her in her
attempts to get through to Clinton, and that she despised her job, and
that she needed to get out of Washington, and that the whole
miserable thing was falling apart. "I am going to call Betty, and I am
going to tell her to go [expletive] herself," she'd said. "And you know
what? I don't care. I don't care anymore. Because you know what? . .
. This thing is over. It's over. It was over a long time ago." That's
what she'd said, and Tripp, listening, tape rolling, sighed, and now
Tripp was saying to Goldberg, "I worry about her. She cries all the
time. So, she left work this morning and went home, and she's
thinking of calling Betty and tell them all to [deleted] off. And just
leaving."
"I know," Tripp said. "I know. So anyway, what I have on tape is
very little. I mean, I'll get more."
"Yeah."
"Because this isn't over, in terms of what she'll want to rehash over
and over again."
"Right."
"But there are dates. She says some dates on there, and, you know,
when he called her from the road, and—"
"Well, that's enough," Goldberg said. "You know all you need is a
snippet to—"
"I'll just bring them," Tripp said. "All right. So are we good for
tonight?"
"I'm going to call him this afternoon," Goldberg said. "I mentioned,
you know, like 6, 6:30 to him . . ."
The "him" was Isikoff of Newsweek. Tripp and Goldberg talked for a
while more, and when Tripp left for work she took two of the tapes
she'd recorded with her, and then, that evening, at 6, or 6:30, she
offered to play them during a meeting in Washington that had been
set up to discuss Lewinsky, a meeting Lewinsky knew nothing about.
"All right," Tripp was asked during her grand jury testimony. "You
said before that you met on October 6th with Lucy Goldberg and
Mike Isikoff . . . Why don't you tell the grand jury a little about that
meeting. First, let me ask you, whose idea was it to have this
meeting?"
"It came up again in context. I had told Lucy I had been talking on
background with Mike Isikoff for some time, that he was aware but
didn't know the name of the individual involved with the president,
and that it was my hope that he would do investigative reporting to
ensure that he had independent corroboration of this fact so that I
could be not named in his reporting."
Mission accomplished.
"Hi."
"What?"
"No."
There was Tripp, of course, and Goldberg. And Isikoff, who, when
he would call Tripp, began using the code name "Harvey." But there
were also friends whom Lewinsky would e-mail with details of her
feelings, such as, "I want to hug him so bad right now I could cry."
And Secret Service agents who bet each other that within 10 minutes
of Lewinsky's arrival at the White House, their radios would carry an
update that the president was on his way to the Oval Office.
All told, there were, by Lewinsky's count, a dozen people who knew
of the relationship before the day came when everyone did, and their
link was a young woman who seemed to define her very life by any
moment of contact, any message, any call. For the inaugural ball, she
put on her Snow White dress and stood in place for four hours so
Clinton would see her when he walked by. "And the sad thing for
Monica was that she did that and he saw her and really ignored her,"
Tripp told the grand jury. She would stay home, night after night, in
case he would call, and if he invited her to visit, Tripp said, "she
would count on that, completely hang on it, wait for it, make her hair
appointment, shuffle whatever happened to be in her schedule, it
didn't matter what was in the way, and make herself available." She
would go whenever, on any notice, on weekends, at night, on
summer days so hot that, as Secret Service agents would later
recount, by the time she was admitted into the White House her
wonderful hair was a mass of frizz and her wonderful dress was
covered front and back with sweat. A little extra perfume, though,
and in she went. Anything for a visit. Anything for any kind of
contact, the effect of which, both profound and immediate, becomes
clearest of all from a series of phone calls that Tripp recorded on
October 23:
MS. LEWINSKY: (Crying.) It's just too—it's too much for one
person. (Crying.)
MS. TRIPP: Oh, Monica. You don't have to tell me. I can always tell
by your voice.
He'd called. He'd called, Lewinsky said, and "he was, like, 'Hey,
what's up?' " and they talked for a while about Lewinsky's idea to
move to New York, and "I told the story of Richardson" to him, and
"he said he wanted—he didn't want John to know he was talking to
Vernon," and "he wants the U.N. to be my insurance policy," and on
and on the conversation went until she hung up and called Tripp.
Who listened and knew immediately that the Richardson reference
was to Bill Richardson, then U.N. ambassador, who was considering
Lewinsky for a job after she was brought to his attention by one of
Clinton's assistants.
And John was John Podesta, then White House deputy chief of staff,
who was the one who brought Lewinsky to Richardson's attention.
Twice, in fact: first when they ran into each other one day in the
White House and he said there was a friend of Betty Currie's who
was looking for a job in New York; and again when they were both
on Air Force One, flying along with the president, the first lady and
various Cabinet officers on a trip to Latin America, and he asked if
Richardson had gotten her résumé.
And Vernon was Vernon Jordan, the president's closest friend, the
consummate Washington insider, a multimillionaire, a board member
of 11 major companies, who was about to help Lewinsky in her job
search as well.
Two worlds, then. Every day, they were getting closer. But on
October 23, they weren't there yet:
MS. LEWINSKY: You'll get mad at me. You know what I said at the
end?
MS. LEWINSKY: No. I was even worse than that . . . You'll die.
You will die. You're gonna smack me.
MS LEWINSKY: I did. We're getting off, and I'm like, all right, "I
love you, butthead." I called him butthead.
"The President arrived at the Oval Office at 8:05 a.m. and had an
8:15 a.m. Foreign Policy Meeting this morning in the Cabinet
Room," reads the official White House diary of Clinton's day.
"At 9:45 a.m. the President signed the Labor/Health/HHS bill in the
Oval Office.
That, for the archives, is what the president did, but there was also
this: a quick visit with Lewinsky between 6:34 and 7, between
FastTrack and Zedillo, in the private study off the Oval Office,
perhaps the most private area in the White House, a place where the
likes of Zedillo and Hussein and Noor have never been and where
Lewinsky had waited for Clinton for 30 minutes. Alone.
She looked at his photos. "The norm," she reported to Tripp, just
after the visit, phoning with details. "Pictures of him . . . pictures of
Chelsea."
She looked at his books, too, and was pleased to see that among the
300 or so volumes about Jefferson and Lincoln and FDR and JFK
were two she had given him: Vox, a novel about phone sex, and Oy
Vey! The Things They Say! A Book of Jewish Wit.
"Jesus. Alarms probably went off," Tripp said. "You are a nut."
"I didn't see anything wrong with the first one," Tripp told her when
she was done playing it.
"Hi, Handsome," the second version also began and went on in much
the same way, although the differences included Lewinsky tossing in
a few asides. "So, okay," she said at one point in this version, "I had
to stop again, because I have to go pee pee . . ." There was also a
different ending: "So you will see me later, right? Right, Handsome?
Be a good boy . . ."
"This one's better," Tripp said of the second one, and that settled
that—except, like so many of their conversations, one decision was
merely the starting point for a million more. Because that's what their
conversations were, more than anything else, endless chitchats about
details, minutiae, the mundane.
"Now listen, don't lose the friggin' tape on the way to work or
something."
"I won't."
"Just make sure that you, if you put it in your purse, you put it way at
the bottom of your purse so it doesn't fall out or anything."
"Yeah."
"Mm-hmm."
"I will. That's what I'm going to do. That's a good idea."
"Okay," Tripp said. "So one other thing I want to say to you that you
can do what you want with—but I want you to think about this, and
really think about it, instead of always just dissing what I have to
say—"
"Well—"
It was a conversation that had begun the night before, just briefly,
right after Tripp found herself wondering whether Clinton ever
thought about how close in age Lewinsky was to Chelsea, and then
asked Lewinsky if she had been on the treadmill that evening, and
then asked if she was eating right, and then asked what she was going
to wear for Thanksgiving, to which Lewinsky said, "The navy dress I
wore to the radio address that still has the [semen] on it." "Well, how,
you're, what, you're gonna get it cleaned?" Tripp had stammered to
that, and Lewinsky said, "Yeah," and Tripp said, "Oh, God," and then
she mentioned another outfit Lewinsky could wear, and Lewinsky
said, "I don't want to wear that," and Tripp said, "It would look really
pretty, Monica," and Lewinsky said, "I need to wear something dark
because it's much more slenderizing," and Tripp let the matter drop.
"Huh?"
"I will never forget this. And he's like a PhD and blah, blah, blah.
And he said that on a rape victim now—they couldn't do this, you
know, even five years ago—on a rape victim now, if she has
preserved a pinprick size of crusted semen, 10 years from that time,
if she takes a wet Q-tip and blobs it on there and has a pinprick size
on a Q-tip, they can match the DNA with absolutely—with
certainty."
"So why can't I scratch that crap off and put it in a plastic bag?"
Lewinsky said.
"You can't scratch it off. You would have to use a Q-tip . . ."
"All right."
"Believe me, I know how you feel now," Tripp said. "I just don't
want to take away your options down the road, should you need them
. . . I just, I don't trust the people around him, and I just want you to
have that for you. Put it in a baggie, put it in a Ziploc bag, and you
pack it in with your treasures, for what I care. I mean, whatever. Put
it in one of your little antiques."
"I don't know, Monica. It's just this nagging, awful feeling I have in
the back of my head," Tripp said, and then she added, "I don't trust
anybody."
So there is that, too, in hindsight, things said by Tripp that she must
have been aware of, cheap ironies, or warnings perhaps, or
foreshadowings, or bitter asides that only she could understand. Like
earlier in the conversation, when they were discussing which tape to
send Clinton, and she said to Lewinsky, "I love the idea of the tape."
And then said, "You know me with tapes. I'm thinking, the voice is
always more believable." And now here she was, tape rolling,
rolling, rolling, talking about mistrust.
"I know. I know," Lewinsky said, and then she and Tripp did what
they always did in conversations, skimmed ahead to the next topic,
sex leading seamlessly to treadmills, treadmills leading to eating
habits, eating habits leading to dresses and pinpricks and swabs.
In this case, it was a jacket that Tripp thought Lewinsky should wear.
"Oh, God. That's the only thing," Tripp said. "It might be a little big .
. ."
And on they went, only one of them aware of the importance of the
conversation they'd just had.
Which one day led Goldberg to call David Pyke, one of the Paula
Jones lawyers, to tell him about Tripp.
Which led Pyke, in turn, to call Tripp, who volunteered to him that if
she were subpoenaed, she'd be willing to testify under oath.
She said, "I feel strongly that the behavior has to stop, or should at
least be exposed."
She said, "It is very sad, and the girl will deny it to her dying breath."
She said, "In any event, just so you're aware, if I am asked the right
questions, I will not lie."
From there, she and Pyke compared calendars to settle on a day for
her to testify—"I'm totally free, I know, the 19th," she said. "I may
take the 18th because I think it works better with the schedule," he
said. And then, after that conversation, came December 5, when
Pyke's law firm sent a fax of potential witnesses to Clinton's lawyer
in the Jones case, and on the list was the name Monica Lewinsky.
The visit, this time, wasn't for sex with the president; that was long
over by now. Instead it was for a White House holiday party, a
chance for her to spend a leisurely evening in a place she had been
essentially sneaking into and out of since her dismissal. Or, put
another way, a chance to mingle among the people who had called
her a stalker, and a clutch, and whose last view of her came the day
she walked out of her boss's office unable to stop crying. She wasn't
exactly invited. Rather she was going as someone's guest, and though
her name was on the official acceptance list, not everyone knew she
was coming.
One who did know was Jamie Schwartz, who was working in the
White House social office at the time and was stationed at the East
Gate along with Secret Service officers to make sure the 400 or so
people on the list got in.
"Did you see her name on the list?" Schwartz told the grand jury that
one of the Secret Service agents asked her as Lewinsky approached
the gate.
"I assume you're talking about Monica," she answered. "I just walked
in. I mean, you literally walked up behind me as I came in. I've not
seen her."
Then came another agent, this one a member of the Presidential
Protective Division.
"I just got here," Schwartz said. "I saw her at the gate. I haven't seen
her since I got in."
"Well, we'd better find her before Mrs. Clinton sees her," she said the
agent told her, and then, she said, "he sort of zoomed off. You know,
he wasn't running by any means, they don't run, but, I mean, he went
off determined to do something."
"I don't know if you know this or not or ever realized it, but, you
know, I got over [Bleiler] with the Creep."
"I mean I went straight from—you don't know because the time right
before this had happened, right before this started with the Creep, I
had gone to Portland in the end of October."
"Oh?"
"Okay? And I had not seen Andy since July, and I had gone there
pretty much to see my friends and to see him."
"Mm-hmm."
"And we—he was like—I got there and had dinner at their house,
and then he and I, like, went to get gas or something together, and he
was, like, 'Well, I don't know if I want to get together tomorrow.'
And I, like, 'What are you [expletive] talking about?' So it was this
whole crazy thing, and then we did end up getting together, but it
wasn't that great. And then, I was there for like a week, and so then I
went to see him again and we were supposed to fool around, and he
like pulled all this [expletive] on me, he didn't want to do this
anymore, he couldn't do it . . . and I was like hysterically crying."
"Mm-hmm."
"So I was—hated his guts, you know? . . . And like a week and a half
later was when this whole thing started."
"A week and half later is when what started?"
"No," Lewinsky said, and now, here she was, two years later, at the
White House, the stuff over, moving steadily in a receiving line
toward the president and the first lady.
Unlike at the inaugural ball, he didn't ignore her. In fact she was sure
he noticed her even before she got to him, she would later tell
investigators from the Office of the Independent Counsel, because
she saw him look her way and begin fixing his hair.
Turned to Hillary.
"First of all, let me say that the president of the United States,
William Clinton, has been my friend for a very long time."
"We are personal friends," he would tell the grand jury. "We are
fellow lawyers. We are fellow Southerners. We care about race. We
care deeply about the South where we are both from. And I think we
have a historic mutuality of interest in public policy issues, politics.
We play golf."
"I went with him to President Nixon's funeral. I came home with him
once on Air Force One from New York. I accompanied him to
Barbara Jordan's funeral in Texas on Air Force One. I flew back with
him from Martha's Vineyard this August."
"I saw him most days at Martha's Vineyard. We played golf almost
every day. And if I didn't play golf, I would see him at some party.
Mrs. Jordan and I gave a party for them at the Vineyard this summer.
Great party, as a matter of fact."
They also talk on the phone frequently, no matter where Jordan
might be, as on the day that Clinton tracked down Jordan at a private
golf club in Northern Virginia.
"I first met him when he was doing a takeover of Revlon, actually,
and he was pointed out to me by Michel Bergerac at a U.S. Open
tennis tournament, who was then the chairman of Revlon, and he
said, 'That little fellow over there is trying to take my company.' And
it turns out that that happened."
"I did not call Bankers Trust. I did not call Dow Jones. I did not call
Xerox. I did not call Union Carbide. I did not call Sara Lee. I did not
call J.C. Penney. All of those companies I sit as director . . . As a
matter of fact, she had some notion about PR companies that she was
interested in, but I was not interested in that list. I was only interested
in places that I would refer her to, as opposed to places that she
thought she wanted to work. As I remember, the places that she
thought she wanted to work I either didn't know people or I did not
have a relationship, and I said, in effect, 'I will decide who I'm going
to call, you can't decide that. I will decide that.' "
And then came December 19. If December 5 was when this all began
moving into the public domain, December 19 is when it became
irrevocable.
"She called me up," Jordan would say of that day, "very upset, crying
on the telephone, saying that she had been served with a subpoena in
the Paula Jones case. And I was somewhat taken aback by that. She
was very upset. And I said to her, 'Why don't you come to my
office?' And she came to my office."
She was disheveled. She kept crying. She had the subpoena. She
showed it to him. He saw that it mentioned gifts, and he saw what it
all could mean.
And her answer was that they were friends, she and the president, but
that it was frustrating sometimes because she would hear from him
so rarely.
"And I said to her, I said, 'He is the leader of the free world. He has
Iraq. He has IMF. He has Southeast Asia. He has the Middle East.
He's a very busy guy.' "
And at some point she said something that took him aback even
more.
They talked that day for perhaps 45 minutes. She stopped crying. He
said he would help her find a lawyer, and then he sent her on her
way, and on the way out she asked him if he would hug the president
for her.
"I don't hug men," he said, and then she left with her subpoena, and
then he and his wife went out to dinner, and then, on the way home,
he stopped by the White House to see the man he calls "my friend the
president of the United States," who had left a reception and was
upstairs in the residence, alone.
"I told him that Monica Lewinsky had been subpoenaed, came to me
with a subpoena. I told him that I was concerned by her fascination,
her being taken with him. I told him how emotional she was about
having gotten the subpoena. I told him what she said to me about
whether or not he was going to leave the first lady at the end of the
term. And at the end of that, I asked him if he had had sexual
relations with Monica Lewinsky."
No, said the president, and then Jordan left, knowing that they would
see each other again in a matter of days.
"The president every year since he has been president has come to
our home for Christmas Eve dinner," he would tell the grand jurors.
And Monica Lewinsky's friend Linda Tripp was busy, too, trying to
reach behind a massive piece of furniture that was pushed up against
a wall of her living room.
That's where the tape recorder now was. For two months it had rested
on the arm of the sofa in the family room, but in early December,
Tripp told the grand jury, she learned that taping someone without
consent was illegal in Maryland and "I threw it over an eight-foot
secretary I have." Consequently, she had missed taping a call three
days before, the day of the subpoena, in which Lewinsky, in a
singsong voice, kept saying mysterious things like "I got a special
delivery today," and "I received roses," and "I got roses like your
roses," until Tripp, who'd also been subpoenaed, as per her invitation
to David Pyke, at last figured out what Lewinsky meant.
But now Lewinsky was on the phone again, talking about the
subpoenas and the possibility of lying under oath—"completely
berserk," is how Tripp would describe her to the grand jury—and in
the midst of the conversation, "I excused myself, said I had to use the
bathroom and made the decision to go physically move two parts of
this very heavy secretary, get the tape recorder back out and hook it
up.
"I think down deep, you don't like having to lie," Tripp said.
"Of course not," Lewinsky said. "I don't think anybody likes to. I
don't think anybody likes to, but it's like—"
"But the scary thing to me—" Tripp said, cutting her off.
"You know what, Monica?" Tripp said. "I would do almost anything
for my kids, but I don't think I would lie on the stand for them."
"Well, in the Catholic religion, there are white lies and there are
black lies," Tripp said. "Those are white lies."
"I have lied my entire life," Lewinsky said, and on they went, just
like in every other of their conversations, except while once the
conversations were about intimacies, now they were less about the
meanings of love than of truth.
"I feel like I'm sticking a knife in your back, and I know that at the
end of this, if I have to go forward, you will never speak to me again,
and I will lose a dear friend, someone whose friendship I value very
much," Tripp said.
They talked about how in the world Paula Jones's lawyers had known
to name her as a witness, and he said, "Maybe it was the woman
from the summer with Kathleen Willey," and she thought: Linda.
They talked about the subpoena, and the gifts she would have to
produce, which included two T-shirts, a dress, a baseball cap and a
mug he had given her in September after he had flown back from
Martha's Vineyard with Vernon Jordan on Air Force One. Which was
incredibly meaningful, she told Linda Tripp, because it was the most
money anyone other than a family member had spent on her since
she was 14 years old and a boy named Danny gave her a dozen roses
and took her to the movie "La Bamba."
They kissed once, in a doorway, and in the midst of it, when she
opened her eyes, she saw that his eyes were open, too, and he was
looking out a window.
"Well, I was just looking to make sure no one was out there," he said.
"Linda, for voice identification, would you please state your name?"
"Linda Tripp."
"I am."
"Do you plan, then, to meet on today's date, January 13, 1998, with
Monica Lewinsky?"
"I do."
"Yes."
Which was where Tripp was now, one day after she called Lucianne
Goldberg in hysterics and said, "I don't know where to turn, I don't
know what to do," and Goldberg put her in touch with someone at
the Office of the Independent Counsel, and a carload of lawyers
came careening to her house, and they talked for hours, and now she
was wearing a body wire, about to have a conversation with
Lewinsky that, the following day, writing in her journal, she would
describe like this:
That's what she would write the next day, but that day, as it was
unfolding, just before the meeting, what she wrote in her journal was,
"feeling low—guilt—fear—overriding emotion fear, however," and
what she said into the microphone to all the people listening on the
other end was, "Hope I don't let you down," and now, into the Ritz
came Lewinsky.
For instance, Tripp, who'd always been willing to use nicknames but
had been told by the OIC that it was investigating "possible
obstruction of justice by Vernon Jordan and/or others," now was
saying things like, "But Vernon Jordan is behind you," and, "Maybe
I'm placing too much emphasis on Vernon's involvement in this, but I
see that as a huge, huge umbrella of safety," and, "But did he address
the perjury issue at all?"
And Lewinsky, in replying, "No, I don't think he's behind me," didn't
bother to add that just before coming to the Ritz she had stopped by
Jordan's office to thank him for a job offer she'd gotten that very
morning and to give him a tie.
And Tripp, in saying, "I don't have anybody protecting me," didn't
mention the immunity agreement she had worked out with the OIC
before putting on the body wire.
And Lewinsky, while Tripp was gone, started poking through a bag
Tripp had left behind because, as she would tell the grand jury, "I
was very nervous. I was wary of her. I actually thought she might
have a tape recorder with her . . ."
One day a man with money was invited to the White House, and
because of that a young woman got a job, and because of that she got
to meet the president, and because of that she lost her job, and
because of that she got a new job where, one day, mistaking some
large photographs for a sign of loyalty, she became friendly with a
woman who not only became her confidante but, amazingly,
happened to have been the confidante of another woman, several
years before, who also had gotten to meet the president. And now,
because of that, Bill Clinton's private world was about to become his
primary one.
On May 21, Walter Kaye would get his turn, telling the grand jurors
about what they were doing, "I think it's America at its best. No other
country like this where a group of ordinary citizens, you know,
enforce the law, really. That's the way—I'm not a lawyer or anything,
but I just think it's—I get goosebumps as I tell it to you. I can't say
enough great things about this country."
And where would the nation be as the year neared its end? A world
away from the moment 11 months ago when Linda Tripp, her
microphone back in place, emerged from the restroom and resumed
sitting across from Lewinsky.
"Stop whispering," she said at another, and then she and Lewinsky
left, and Lewinsky offered to drive her back to the Pentagon, and
Tripp said okay, and the FBI followed, and the OIC followed, and
the country was in its last days of ignorance as two unknown women,
one in love, the other in a body wire, had a final conversation in the
car:
"Go up here?"
"Left?"
"Go into the parking lot and bring me back around where I can get up
the stairs."
"What stairs? This is the south parking—"
"Oh, okay."
"Oh."
"I'd drive you to the moon, my dear," said the one who was in love.