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Wartime Manuscript
Wartime Manuscript
Wartime Manuscript
April Pejic
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It starts early in the morning, just as you wake up. Butterflies on fire trying to beat their way out
of your chest. Today is game day. You get up, today’s routine no more different than every
other day, at least in the beginning. Wash your face, stare harder at yourself than most
mornings. You will be at war in hours, fans screaming for or against you, sometimes it’s hard to
Most people just name them “game day” but yours is different. Quod me nutrit me destruit.
Definitely longer than the others but it means everything to you. It is your signature on the deal
with the devil, the phrase that sprints through your mind as you suffer through stadium runs,
You throw two cold PowerAde’s from your fridge into your bag, along with your good luck
Join the rest of your teammates at the usual spot. 100 deep but it is so quiet. Check in with
A typical game day routine: A team walk around the quad, the small army silently ingesting the
day before the battle begins. The weather is great; a breeze us cool in the all black jump-suit.
Break into your position groups after the walk, filing like soldiers over to coach as he iterates
the game plan. You walk through the motions, refreshing everything that has been hammered
into your head throughout the week - Pierce the armor of your opponent and destroy them.
Pregame meal: any small talk among the team disappears as the time approaches. Sitting with
position mates, your offensive line brothers. You have grown to know exact movements from
them, synchronized diving but with the intent to kill. You drink water and watery PowerAde,
down two salt pills to insure no cramping. The meal always the same, baked chicken with no
You finish quickly, get a head start on the hour nap before time to go to the facility. You barely
sleep, bumping songs of murder and agony for a lullaby. Visualize the task. How you will
dominate your opponent? Be more of a man than him. Take his spirit and crush it. Remove his
will.
Feel your teammates moving but you already felt it in your stomach. It’s almost here. Rise.
Watch the highlight video. Remind yourself this is a new week. The enemy would love to make
a highlight of you. Coach calls captains and flag holders. He gives final warnings. Expect trash
talking. Expect cheap shots. Fight for 60 minutes. No mistakes. Make them earn everything. He
dismisses you. 100 fired up soldiers leaving their base. Start your car. Turn the speakers on
Leave the parking lot, follow the caravan to the field. Park. Step out of the car and breath in.
Enter the building, Dap to the people in the halls. Enter the locker room and head to yours.
Uniform hung in the locker, gloves and braces, your weapons. Perfect.
Undress, placing clothes neatly in the corner. Reapply deodorant. First layer of pads on,
skintight under armor with the sleeves cut off, half because you want your arms free, half to
show them off. Padded leg pant next, girdles as they are called, protection for the thighs and
hips.
Walk to the training room. Find a spot in line. Follow routine. The strangest combination of
music blares around you. Linkin Park, Boosie, Sam Hunt. Ankles wrapped tight. Fist bump the
trainer.
Reenter the locker room. Fist bump and nod as you head back to your locker. Second layer of
pads on, knee braces and pants on strung up tights. Back to the training room, wrist taped
tightly but smooth. Back to the locker room. Grab the sharpie from your bag. Left wrist first,
hand in fist.
Relentless
F.O.E.
Gloves, so tight that you can feel the blood move through your fingers. Armor on. Time to fight.
Follow your teammates to the warmup area. Coaches blare music and slap hands as you
stretch. The sky dims. Sun in the perfect position for a Louisiana Saturday night.
Finish stretching. Body yearning for the feeling of the contact and the sound of cracking bones
and pads. They call you crazy, possessed, for loving, such a cruel sport but you do. Enjoy
physically taking another man and crushing him. You were born for this, larger than all. There is
Coach leads you onto the battlefield. A hand keeping you at bay as you enter. The opposition
across the field increases the rage. To stand in your house with pride. To believe in victory.
Take the field, one final stretch. You come together. Brothers. Echo them.
“I kill
I tell them
Wartime
Wartime
Wartime
Play 1. The first punch is paramount. Set the tone. Get down, muscles screaming blood. Time
to disgrace him. Right hand touches turf. Electricity in your veins. Left hand beside your face.
Ready to strike. Call your block, relaying to your brothers what you will do. Stare at him. The
way a wolf stares at sheep. Make him tap. Make him quit. Run and Hide. Humiliate him. The
cadence is called. Silence. The ball moved. Explode. Hands punch into his chest. A breath
escapes from his throat. It excites you. His feet flail and you run through him and lift him. His
neck slams into the turf, his body unable to stop him. Land on top of him, elbow to his ribs. He
now knows how tonight will be. A whistle. Stop. Push off his chest to get up. Tonight will be a
good night.
..
Play 46. He is quick. Agile. And smart. He has studied you. He is your polar. Hand back in the
ground. Sweat and blood mix on your forearm. Breathe. Heart is knocking against the walls of
your chest to escape. He has been felt out. Film can only show so much. Now is time to excel.
The chess match has begun. Stalemates will not cut it. Make a move. 3rd and 9. His speed could
be too much. Have to grab him. He can’t escape the grasp. Silence. Ball twitched. Move.
Extending arms to him, have to reach him. He slaps them away. Shit. You leaned too much. He
is side by side with you. Shit. He is going to get to the quarterback. Can’t let that happen. Better
a flag than a sack. Extend your left foot and feel it make contact with the right leg. Scrape his
shin, and take his leg from under him. Not this play, he won’t make this one. The ball sails over
you, deep downfield into the arms of a wide open teammate. Breathe. You gambled, and
Halftime
Back to the locker room, tired and out of breath but satisfied. Up 2 TD’s. Trainers wade through
players, handing fruit, Gatorade, and Rice Krispy Treats to all. Clear the mind. Eyes closed,
ignoring everything around you and focusing. New plan. He is quick, but weak. How to beat his
speed? Wipe the sweat off while you question. Memory’s come forward, previous plans
remembered. Bingo. Make him run you over. His power verses yours.
...
Play 60. There is a lull in the game. Two teams who were firing shots all first half have stopped.
The game has slowed. The speed no longer surprises you. You anticipate it, reacting once
certain. He is so vulnerable to the run, his strengths useless to him in those moments. Hand
down, calls made to teammates without thought. Ready. Wait. An audible. A change, what is it?
The new play is relayed down to you. Perfect. A downhill run in your area. Coach is throwing a
bone. Time to show the dominance. Cadence. Silence. Attack. Right hand under his breastplate,
left gripping his wrist. Push. Drive. He leans into you, giving all his weight up. Too little. Push his
wrist to the sky and flip his breastplate up. The running back brushes against your hip, then past
Play 85. He is tired. The speed you once feared is conquered. His hands on his hips, head
dipped. Bad body language. End it. Don’t play with your food. Finish him. The game is over, but
this is a message. Not in your house. Don’t come back. Hand down. His excitement is gone. He
slowly descends. Inhale. Silence. He moves quicker than you, exploding before you. Hands onto
your shoulders. A mistake for him. Push back into him. He loses his balance, slips. Pounce on
him. Time to kill. His spirit leaves him as you land on top of him. Game Over.
The aches are horrible. The pain in your feet like stepping on coal. A cramp through your legs as
sleep escapes you. Elbows burning, the exposed skin touching fabric. So much pain. So tired.
But happy.