Fieldwork of a Dutiful Daughter
LILA ABU-LUGHOD
1 n the summer of 1985 I returned to the Bedouin community in the
Egyptian Western Desert in which I had spent nearly two years doing
fieldwork, Five years had passed since I had left to go home (to the U.S.)
to write my dissertation. | was excited about visiting the people with
whom I had not only lived for the period of fieldwork, but in a strange
way even more intensely in the following years as I thought and wrote
about them. I wanted to know what had happened to them but I also
wanted to make them real again. My memories had become increasingly
limited to those incidents I had incorporated into my writings and those
aspects of their lives I had analyzed. In the process of abstracting from my
field notes and putting together a picture of their lives through reflection
on my experiences with them, I feared I had made of them something
mythical."
Seeing them again was exhilarating but also jarring. I had forgotten
much that I had come to take for granted when I lived among them,
especially concerning the nature of my relationship with them. Although
a great deal happened during my short visit, to highlight the issues about
field research that I want to explore in this chapter I will recount two
aspects of the experience that I found emotionally difficult.
I was welcomed back with tremendous warmth tempered with formal-
ity that included the special treatment accorded all guests. This treat-
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ment was reminiscent of what I had often observed when family
members, like sisters and daughters who had married out of the commu-
nity, returned home for visits. I thought that some of the formality might
have been in recognition of my achievements: I had received my degree
and obtained a job as a professor. I had brought a nicely bound copy of
my dissertation as a gift, figuring that even if people could not read it,
they would know I had written a book that was a tribute to them. But
people expressed little interest in the dissertation, felt deeply sorry for me
when I described the life I was leading, and were concerned with only
one thing: Was I married and had I had any children? I had fully antici-
pated being asked about these matters, but was surprised by the way that
hardly a moment after greeting me, women would begin questioning me.
Even the men asked each other under their breath. This reaction con-
firmed what I already suspected and had, during my fieldwork, encour-
aged and at times resented, namely, that they saw me primarily as a
female. It was hard not to feel inadequate as women excitedly told me of
the young women in the camp who, in my absence, had married and had
‘one or two children, and generously shared with me various magical cures
for barrenness.
The visit was personally trying in another way. I sensed a greater
emphasis on piety and Muslim identity, which may have been an artifact
of the timing of my visit; it was right before the Great Feast (‘id), always a
period of heightened religious activity and sentiment. It might also have
applied only to the families to whom I was the closest, families from
which several members had in recent years gone on the pilgrimage to
Mecca. Or perhaps I had just forgotten what it was like to live in the
Middle East. In any case, unlike in the past, I felt that the fact that I
never prayed was conspicuous. Even more problematic were my host’s
disquisitions on the subject of religion. On several occasions he lectured
me on the glories of the Quran, the importance of living where one was
surrounded by Muslims, and the dangers of living with the infidels (if you
live with them you become like them). He assured me of God’s grace
toward those who return to the faith. Asking me questions about my life
in the US. inevitably led to suggestions that I should move to Egypt.
These were not unfamiliar themes. He had often spoken to me of such
matters in the past, but this time his tone was more urgent, and my
discomfort and sense of hypocrisy more acute. The problem was that I
had presented myself and was perceived as the daughter of an Arab and a
Muslim. Yet, I was also the daughter of an American, had been born and
raised in the U.S., was in numerous ways culturally more American than
Arab, and I was not religious.
Both factors, that I was a woman and that I was of Arab descent, had
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ships I could establish in the field. Furthermore, these two aspects of my
identity combined to place me in the position of what I will call a dutiful
daughter. And being a dutiful daughter doing fieldwork led to a privileged
view of one crucial issue in Arab society, the meaning of modesty for
women. Thus, with the contributors to this volume I share the experi-
ence of being a woman studying in a sex-segregated society. Unlike most
of them, I was in the peculiar situation of being neither completely a
cultural insider, nor a total outsider. As an Arab-American, I was in an
ambiguous position that, as I will show, had both advantages and awk-
ward disadvantages.
Initial Contact
The terms of my relationship with the families with whom I had
lived had been set during my fieldwork in 1978-1980, so I will describe
that experience before exploring the consequences of these terms. I had
arrived in Cairo at the beginning of October 1978 and had ensconced
myself in an unpretentious pension frequented by gerierations of Arabists,
Egyptologists, and scholars of modest means. In the many years since I
had last stayed there as a young girl traveling with my family, nothing
much had changed. This meant, of course, that the lumpy beds, the
plumbing, and the gentle hotel personnel bore the inevitable marks of
old age. Outside, however, the city seemed to be in the throes of change.
The progressive dilapidation of old buildings had in some cases led to
their collapse, and in other parts of the city, construction of massive new
luxury hotels was under way.
| familiarized myself with the city, more crowded and noisy than ever,
and awaited my father’s arrival. Here the reader might pause. I suspect
few, if any, fathers of anthropologists accompany them to the field to
make their initial contacts. But my father had insisted that he had some
business in Egypt and might just as well plan his trip to coincide with
mine. I had accepted his offer only reluctantly, glad to have the company,
but also a bit embarrassed by the idea. I did, after all, like to consider
myself an adult.
Only after living with the Bedouins for a long time did I begin to
comprehend some of what had underlain my father’s quiet but firm insis-
tence. As an Arab, although by no means a Bedouin, he knew his own
culture and society well enough to know that a young unmarried woman
traveling alone on uncertain business was an anomaly. She would be
suspect and would have a hard time persuading people of her respectabil-