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English 11 Scrapbook W
English 11 Scrapbook W
This summer I want to keep a journal of my adventures and to see how my life
changes over the next few months. This is something I’ve been wanting to do ever
since I got to New York and I feel today is the day to start. I threw my first party of
the summer and so many people showed up, but yet I am still sad. The one person I
wanted to see so badly was nowhere to be seen. I am trying to find one person, and
I hope to see this person at one of these parties. I will continue to throw parties until
the day she comes to one of the parties. Daisy, my old lover, is that person. One
day I will write about her, but not today, as I am too sad that she did not come to the
party. I didn’t interact with many people, as I waited to see her face amongst the
party guests. Maybe she was there and I missed her, or maybe she had plans
already for tonight. Tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities and there will be
more parties, fingers crossed I shall see her at the next one. “He [I] stretched out his
[my] arm towards the dark water in a curious way,” (Fitzgerald 20).
Another week gone and another party thrown, and still no Daisy. As much as I am
discouraged, I bring good news! Two of Daisy’s friends came to the party, one by
the name of Miss Jordan Baker, and the other by the name of Mr. Nick Carraway.
Nick lives right next door and served in the war. We began talking and he must not
have known I was Jay Gatsby, as he asked me if I knew where he was. He felt
embarrassed not knowing, to which I responded, “I though you knew, old sport. I’m
afraid I’m not a very good host,” (Fitzgerald 48). When Jordan told me Nick was
plan could work, it could actually work! There is much to do though, and I need to
befriend Nick for this to happen. Jordan and I talked a lot when I found her in the
crowd. Her and I talked for hours on creating the perfect plan. The conversation
ended with Nick inviting Daisy over to his house, and me being his friend shall join
them. I am not sure how Jordan and Nick know each other, maybe they are lovers,
but my goodness is it a blessing for me! I left her to get Nick on board with our plan.
I want to work with him, so I won’t push him too hard, but this is the safest way for me
party.
June 22, 1922
and said, “I’m going to call up Daisy tomorrow and invite her over here to
tea,” (Fitzgerald 82). I wanted to make sure that day suited him, and it did. I have
to buy food, I have to decide on clothes, I have to cut the grass, and that’s just a few
of the many things I need to do. I did not truly believe I would be able to see her.
I’ve wanted to for so long, so many painful weeks of not seeing her, that turned into
months, that turned into years. I’ve dreamt about how we would meet and how our
love for each other would be revived. I’ve wanted nothing more of her than to have
her come back to me with open arms. Each night I would lay down and just imagine
a world with me and her. One of my favorite scenarios is me and her sitting under a
tree by a lake with my arms around her and her head laid back against my chest. I
would rest my chin on top of her head and we would watch the sun set behind the
trees on the other side of the lake. We used to do this, before the war. We would be
able to talk about our lives, our hopes, our insecurities. Maybe when we have tea,
this alternate world I’ve been dreaming about, the only thing that has me living, can
This day has been an absolute rollercoaster, and the weather was quite the same. I
started off by sending someone to go mow Nick’s grass, it was in dire need for a trim
and was not presentable for Daisy until it got trimmed. Once that was out of the way
I had to clean my house. I want Daisy to come over after tea to see my house,
hopefully to aid in winning her back. Everything was set perfectly for her, then I got
dressed. I could not decide on an outfit for hours, but finally I found once that I
believe was perfect. I got to Nick’s feeling confident, but each passing minute made
me more anxious than the last, and I feared Daisy wouldn’t come at all. I got up to
leave before Nick said, “Don’t be silly; it’s just two minutes to four,” (Fitzgerald 85).
Then we heard Daisy coming. Nick went out to greet her and I hid. Everything was
spinning so fast because everything was happening too fast. All I could think about
was the fact I was finally going to see Daisy again. I was not sure if I would be ready
for this, how will she react? How different will things be? How will she react to a
new me? Would she still love me? Does she even remember me? All of these
questions would be answered in a matter of seconds and I could not control myself.
or not.
June 24, 1922
I had fallen asleep yesterday writing my entry, exhausted from such an emotional
day. I shall continue my story, because there was so much to write about I couldn’t fit
it into one day. Daisy walked in and I felt everything stop. I couldn’t even formulate
a sentence to say I was so mesmerized by seeing her in the same room as me. Things
were awkward at first, especially when I knocked over Nick’s clock. I’m going to
have to repair it, but that’s not a worry. Embarrassed by knocking over the clock, I
ran to hide in the kitchen. I was so overwhelmed by seeing her and not being able to
talk to her like I used to made me hide. Nick knocked some sense into me and I
slipped out of the kitchen to talk to her. My palms were sweaty when I walked
towards her. I sat down next to her and said, “How have you been?” She
responded, “I’ve been good, and you?” I replied, “It’s better now that I get to finally
see you again.” Her mood changed and I could see tears forming in her eyes. I got
out of my chair to comfort her, but before I could say anything she said, “I’ve missed
you so much Jay. I miss what we had before the war.” I took her and and nodded.
“Let’s go back to what we had. We can still be us, and what we had can become
what we have.” She shook her head in disagreement and said, “But Tom is my
husband.” And started crying more. She wept until Nick came out of the kitchen and
I am still blown away by that day I mean my goodness that was four days ago.
I had to make sure the next part actually happened before I wrote about it, because
it felt so surreal. I took Daisy to my house, to show off my greatness, and when we
left Nick’s she cried out, “That huge place there?” (Fitzgerald 90). I told her about
my parties and all the fun celebrities who come to them. When we got into my house
and walked around we came across my cabinets filled with shirts, so I tossed them off
the balcony for amusement. Then I heard Daisy sob from below, “They’re such
beautiful shirts.” (Fitzgerald 92). Then we came across my painting of my late friend
Dan Cody. He was a marvelous role model and an even better friend, I miss him
dearly. After this we continued to look around my house and then I had a marvelous
idea, let’s play some music. I called up Kilspringer to play the piano for Daisy. We
sat together and listened to the piano, it felt like just me and her, like before the war.
I do not know if Nick stayed for this, or if he left, but I was not concerned with him, to
I threw my third party of the summer today and I determined to make it the best party
of summer. Daisy came, unfortunately with Tom. I wanted her to have a fun night
and I think I failed to do that. The parties were supposed to bring her and I closer
together. But now that her and I have been in communication, I do not know what to
do. I think I am done throwing parties, since they are failing to do what they were
meant to do. I did dance with her though, but the fox trot can only do so much to
make a lover enjoy a party. I showed Daisy and Tom all of the celebrities in
attendance. Tom felt out of place, so to make him feel better I told everyone that he
was a world renowned polo player. He got upset at this, which I found amusing.
After the party I pulled Nick aside and stammered, “She didn’t like it, she didn’t have
a good time. I feel far away from her, it’s hard to make her understand,” (Fitzgerald
109). Nick reassured me that she felt uneasy with Tom being there. She had to lay
low and not get Tom suspicious of me. I understand that, it is just really sad that this
party.
July 5, 1922
This summer has had so many interesting twists and turns and today was no
exception. Nick tried to get a hold of me yesterday, so I had my new butler send
over a message. Then I called him up. He and I talked about why I fired all of my
servants. “I wanted somebody who wouldn’t gossip, Daisy comes over quite often -
in the afternoon,” (Fitzgerald 114). We continued talking about plans and how Daisy
wanted to know if he would join us for lunch soon. We made these plans a few days
ago when she came over. We wanted to make this as normal as possible. “What
about Tom? Won’t he be at lunch with us?” I asked. “Yeah, but Nick and Jordan
should be able to come. Just say you’re a friend of his and that I let Nick bring a
friend,” Daisy replied. Her and I nodded and smiled at the plan. “I don’t know if
I’m going to be able to control myself from kissing you,” I said quietly. To which she
leaned over and kissed me. “Kiss me now so you won’t have to later.” She said in a
low voice. I’ve always loved it when she changes her voice like that, it’s
mesmerizing.
about my servants.
July 11, 1922
Oh no oh no oh no. Everything is spiraling out of control and I don’t know how to fix
this. Everything happened so fast I couldn’t fix what happened. It all started at the
Buchanan’s house for lunch. It was unbearably hot when I arrived. We sat there,
sweating pouring down our foreheads. When Tom left Daisy learned in and kissed
me. Then I heard Jordan yell, “What a low, vulgar girl,” (Fitzgerald 116). A small
smirk came across my face until Tom returned. We then talked about what we should
do, and after lots of arguing we decided to go to the city. I would take Daisy in
Tom’s car, and Tom would take Nick and Jordan in my car. When we got there Tom
began to interrogate me and my life in college. Daisy told him to knock it off but ti
was no use. He and I went at it, yelling at each other about who Daisy loved. I
wanted her to tell him she never loved him. During all the confusion I called out,
“Daisy’s leaving you,” and she said, “I am, though,” (Fitzgerald 133). The tension
ended when Nick told us it was his birthday. After this Daisy and I began to drive
home. She said she wanted to drive my car, which was okay with me. I end this
As if my last entry was entirely chaotic, this one has to be even more out of control.
As soon as I finished yesterday’s entry, a woman came running out to the car. She
looked scared and asked for us to take her with us. We apologized and said we did
not know who she was and that she’s talking to the wrong people. She began to
stutter and said, “No you were here earlier with Tom Buchanan, this is his car.” Daisy
and I looked confused. “This is my car ma’am, and I was not here with Tom
Buchanan.” Daisy added on saying, “I’m his wife and I wasn’t here either.” She
took a step back and laughed. “Oh I know your husband real well.” Daisy began to
drive away, just as uncomfortable as I was. She mumbled something, and after a few
seconds she slammed on the breaks and turned around the car. I asked her what she
was doing but she didn’t say anything. I saw the girl still in the road, looking around
aimlessly. I tried to get Daisy to stop but she didn’t. We swapped places and I sped
back home asking her why she did that. Her response was, “That’s the mistress who
he’s been with.” I dropped her off at home, then I took my car home and returned to
waiting outside of her house, writing this entry in the bush. I am waiting to see what
will happen with her and Tom. Then I saw Nick come back with Tom and Jordan, and
he filled me in on what he knew. He tried to tell me about the accident but I said,
“Don’t tell me, old sport,” (Fitzgerald 144). I will wait here until Daisy and Tom go to
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