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Paraiso Street: by Irene Suico Soriano
Paraiso Street: by Irene Suico Soriano
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When was the last time you saw me?*
The last time my husband saw me was the day Antoinette's nose
bled from lack of sleep. She was crying all morning about the books
and pictures she would have to leave behind. He wore the suit we
bought in Cartimar, the same one he wore months back when we
took our last family portraits. I wore a matching colored skirt, a
type of woolen material too hot for Manila weather. But I had
anticipated the colder weather I was arriving to.
This was also the same day, after good-byes and hugs and
promises to-call-once-we-got there, 0ur son wouldn't leave his
bedroom hoping that when night time passed, he would wake to
Antoinette's voice yelling at the neighbor's dog 0ut in the street.
All this according to a letter the maids sent me months later.
I had forgotten. I think my hair was short. The sun spots now
filling my face were freckles back then. My fingers now wider, he
notices the wedding ring he gave me was now something
decorative for our daughter to wear. Back then, I was worried
about the jewelry I had to leave behind, quick to remind him to
bring them once he could follow.
With the strong motion of the train and her old age,
she slipped, fell and hit the side of the tracks, falling
to the ground. And at once, the train disappeared and
suddenly our surroundings lost color and we were in
a room of gray.
‘Mi’s 5 daughters suddenly appeared, frozen, looking
on with rage. I had been the only one to run to her,
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I.
"Proper girls are the most precious
things put on this earth
and proper girls need proper men,"
was the last thing cousin Marita
would hear her father tell
her younger sister every night
before he sent them off to bed.
He always said goodnight to Mina
and would only give Marita a stern look.
He would say this to hurt her,
but she knew the truth in it and
silently agreed
with what he said.
Communications were limited
to yells about skirts
she wouldn't wear,
hair she wouldn't want braided
and ribbons and clips
she would throw out
the bus window on her way to school.
She was the second daughter,
between the older and younger sister.
The middle daughter
that embarrassed her family
when she stole
a set of her uncle's briefs
when he came to visit from Australia.
He had the nice, imported kind,
the cotton blend that hugged her hips
and made her feel like a proper man.
Mar' was the neighborhood tibo'
who took on
an older brother's responsibility.
She took care of Mina,
befriending her suitors,
so she could find out
what kind of men they were.
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Mar' avoided relationships
with common women
and kept her sights
on seeking the proper woman
not really knowing
what she was waiting for.
When her father kicked her
out of the house for refusing
to wear a dress to her mother's funeral
she knew it was time to move on
and went far to a new country
to leave everything and everyone
that didn't like her short hair and
broad shoulders.
III.
With no word from her father
and dwindling phone calls from her
younger and older sister
this butchero tried out
her life on her own.
Mar' found jobs in different restaurant bars
in East LA where they liked
her short hair and her manly gait
She met a woman named Vianna at work
who wore the short, little skirts that Mar'
liked and had the long legs and deep
brown hair she desired.
Vianna was from Sao Paolo
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IV.
Vianna was all Mar' had in this country.
But that wasn't enough for Vianna
to stay on with her "proper man."
She left Mar' after 4 months
moving on to San Antonio, Texas,
This butchero cried
every night for six months.
She went out with various other girls
wanting only to forget one,
but not quite finding what she had lost.
After 9 months of this,
one night
while playing Caetano Veloso
in a loop,
‘Mar took out Vianna’s favorite belt
which she had hidden in her closet
and hung herself
on a beam
in her bedroom.
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