What is my current situation?

I am always feeling like battling the world on every level of my life, it just not
cooperate. I have so many things to worry about, so many unknown horrors lurking
in the shadow of the future. I don’t know what to do about any of them. Everything is
so forgy and grim.

In my head, I always have many things going on simultaneously, which reduce my

focus on the work I am doing. This is dangerous, especially with studying and
playing poker, I just cannot focus long enough and make detrimental mistake which
blow 50% of my bankroll already.

Although it looks like I am in control of everything in my life, it is far from the truth. I
am constantly anxious about my future, regarding playing poker or continuing to
work for VTP with a crappy salary and extreme politic. Everything is so cramped
together, and I don’t know how to make enough time to do anything.

Why is this helpful?

I suppose this is the way life shows me its ultimate message “You don’t control
shit, better observe and cooperate with me when I give you the opportunity”.

Also, all the hardship in the past do pay off to the current stage of my development,
my job, my knowledge and understanding of office politic and power plays.

Therefore, all the hardship to come will pave my way to higher level of my
development. However, this comes with a BUT. I need principles to guide me
through the hardship without beating up myself too much.

What is my guiding principles?

Problem: I cannot control what life throw at me

GP1: No point of overthinking the future, just prepare my mind to solve anything
because my mind at work can solve everything.

GP2: In the beginning of the day, block 30’ – 1 hour to really think about the days
and all the actions required. After that, just do it.

Problem: I do not do well with multiple things in my thought process, because I

make detrimental mistake with such thought popping up during my working time.

GP3: Focus on one, make the purpose and timeframe clear, then execute and forget
all about other things. Get it DONE to the highest standard and then move on to the
next thing.