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Stephen Fahey
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The second that I opened my eyes a grenade rolled into the room. My quick thinking
guide, the Major, grabbed me by my backpack and pulled behind a brick partition, a split second
later the grenade went off and deafened the pair of us. After we had crawled away on our bellies
and composed ourselves he told me that this happened sometimes, even though they were meant
to deliver us during a lull in the battle. Apparently it “wasn’t an exact science”. A poor choice of
In short order we made it to a dusty, bombed out sitting room. It stank but it was quiet,
almost too quiet. In the brick dust and stale light my guide motioned for me to wait, crawled up
to a large hole in the outside wall and peered over the edge. A moment later he reached his hand
back without looking away from the hole and motioned for me to move up past him, to the other
side of the hole. I scrambled past as quickly and quietly as I could. I didn’t even look as I passed
to the far side of the wall but the Major was right behind me and dragged me to the ground by
my backpack just as a burst rounds came smashed through the brick wall just above our heads,
followed by the echoing report of a heavy machine gun in the distance. As I fell on my back my
guide fell beside me, smiling. I was shocked. All I could do was nod in thanks. A patted me on
the chest, raising a small cloud of chalky dusk, and we were on our way again. The sitting room
lead to a kitchen and out into a courtyard that was covered in soot. Four charred bodies lay
twisted on the ground, one was eerily sat in a wrought iron patio chair, his gun still in his hand.
They were so badly burned that I couldn’t tell which side they had belonged to. The Major said
they must have been hit by artillery. Looking at the spent bullet casings that littered the ground
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he noted that they were likely defending this position when the strike was called in. In the quiet I
couldn’t help but imagine what this small garden had been like in peacetime. It was likely a
Two houses over we moved upstairs, passing bedrooms, lounges and studies, some
utterly destroyed and some completely untouched by the war. The contrast was moving, it forced
the mind to reel with thoughts of the families that had been uprooted and obliterated by the
conflict. And there, in the middle of it all, my guide and I moved to find a concealed place to dig
As we reached the fourth floor of a six storey apartment block my guide barricaded the
door and took out his notebook. Pulling some hardboiled sweets from his pocket, he threw them
to me and motioned for me sit down as he began to read his notes. He sat on the unburnt end of a
half burnt double bed, the floral pattern covered in soot that cascaded slowly onto the floor as he
sat down. After a few moments he closed his notes and stuffed them back into the thigh pocket of
his combat trousers, buttoning and patting it with assurance. Then he looked up at me, sat there
like a child on the floor, and stood and walked to the window. As he looked out on to the street
he said it would begin soon, and that the buildings across the road from us would be destroyed
He was a short man of few words, not even six foot tall, but he was tough as old nails.
The Major looked like he’d been born on a battlefield and seemed right at home in the horror of
what used to be a bustling city full of people. After a brief check at the window he motioned me
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over. We just stood there looking across the street. It was four lanes with a tram line in the centre.
The trees on either side had been blasted away long before, the pavement and the cobbles of the
road had large sandy hole blown in them, like giant’s footprints. The tram line was twisted,
jutting out of its former pure straight shape. The street was only eight houses long on the
opposite side, but it back on to the short end of a park. We couldn’t see it from this side but my
guide told me it used to be a focal point of the district. It had been targeted on the very first
Within minutes darkness fell and the air raid began. Hundreds of planes flew overhead,
wave after ceaseless wave of aerial terror dropping their loads. All around the city we could hear
the explosions and see the flashes of light in the distance. It was mesmerising. We both watched
from the silent shadows, awed by the sight. Such destruction. Such hatred. It was awful and
incredible in equal measures. Then, as if with no warning, the three end house on the opposite
side of the street were hit. The top two floors of each were completely obliterated in a massive,
deafening burst of brick and metal that showered onto the broken street below and bounced off
the opposite side of the walls we were the stood behind. At a storey shorter than the building we
occupied, once the cloud of red clanking dust settled, and we had climbed back to our feet, we
could see over the rubble and across the park beyond. We looked at each other with disbelief.
The Major had known our building would be hit but even he was filled with surprise, the blast
The raid continued for hours, but no other bombs fell near our position. I tried to talk to
The Major but, as always, he seemed disinterested in me. I supposed a civilian on a battlefield is
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a liability to a soldier, even though he had volunteered. Eternally focused on the job at hand, I
watched him for a while as he trimmed his bushy moustache as intently as he studied his notes.
His tough, tanned hands as steady as a rock. He was fatherly, but in a stern life and death kind of
way. Tired, I fell asleep sitting up, leading against a tattered wardrobe.
Before dawn we were up and on our way. We had several positions to reach that day and
my guide wanted us on the move before sunlight exposed us. There were soldiers everywhere.
Crawling through the rubble of several streets left us both covered in grime and ash, so
by the time that we arrived at the library we were like two ghosts. Covered head to toe in pale
filth, I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and shuddered. I wasn’t a soldier. I had never been
in a warzone before. Regardless, I moved on, following in the Major’s footsteps. The library had
escaped relatively unscathed, in the shadow of a warehouse it survived many near misses. Half
buried in rubble itself, the main entrance was blocked by a pile of loose redbrick and
cinderblocks so we climbed up onto a burned out bus and into the library through a small
window. Once we stepped inside the sound of penetrating silence consumed us both. The air was
filled with the educated scent of books and old wooden furniture. Every step echoed, even on the
carpet. With a high ceiling, the main hall seemed endless. Bathed in an orange and blue glow
from stained windows in massive gothic arches that dominated either end of the building. The
Major told it that it had been a cathedral before it was converted, it was beautiful. How it hadn’t
been destroyed was beyond both of us, but we moved quickly to the back of the main hall, to the
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reserved section in a small office. There was something my guide had to get before we moved
on.
The office at the back of the building was small, maybe ten feet by fifteen feet, but there
was a large cage that took up most of that space. Once inside, the Major quickly removed his
pistol, shot the padlock on the chain that held the cage shut and pulled aside the thin metal bars.
Turning to me, he handed me his pistol and told me to stand watch. I turned and could hear him
rifling through the stacks of books shelved inside the cage. I stepped further out of the office and
back into the main hall. There wasn’t a sound. No distance dull thuds of bombs. No snapping
cracks of rifles. Just empty musky air surrounding me. I barely noticed the pistol in my hand
until a loud cackling sound above me startled me into pointing it instinctively into the rafters. At
first I had thought it was machine gun fire but immediately realised it was something else. I
couldn’t see what was making the sound so stepped further forward. After a moment’s silence of
baited breath a magpie flapped clumsily from one rafter to another. Sighing heavily and lowing
the pistol, I laughed to myself just as the Major patted me on the shoulder and passed me by,
startling me again. Evidently he was oblivious to the magpie’s presence and walked straight past
me to the same window we climbed in through, motioning for me to follow with a wave of his
hand. And as usual, without a word said. As I came to the window I gave him his pistol back.
Glancing up one last time at the magpie all I see were rafters.
Two streets over we ran into a crew of engineers trying desperately to fix a tank. My
guide had obviously taken a wrong turn, so as we came to a corner to check around it, before our
usual dash to cover, a crewman in drab grey overalls carrying a wrench walked straight into the
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Major and the pair fell in a heap onto the ground, the engineer on top of my guide. Without
thinking, I jumped forward and kicked the engineer in the side of the head as hard as I could,
knocking him out cold. The engineer went limp and covered the Major with a groan so I leaned
down and pulled him off of him. Standing up, he was fuming. “What the hell do think you’re
doing?!” he seethed. “You could have killed him!” But there wasn’t time, we could hear more
men coming up the road so we turned heel and ran. Overtaking me with ease, he mumbled
“idiot” and waved me into a smashed shop window before diving through it.
We each landed in the dust with the clinking gritty sound of broken glass beneath us and
hunkered down behind the shop front. Listening to the other engineers find their friend the Major
looked at me like he wanted to kill me but after a moment his evil stare shifted, as if realised it
was his misjudgement that got us into a pickle in the first place, a moment later he nodded and
patted my shoulder. All five engineers were huddled around their unconscious comrade as the
Major risked a glance. We moved on through the fallen adjoining wall of the shop into a butchers
and back out onto the street, around the corner and out of sight of the engineers. We still had a lot
mausoleum in the northwest corner. The buildings that surrounded it seemed relatively
untouched and there were no bodies littered about like in the streets. It seemed different than the
other areas of the city that we had seen so far, almost peaceful, but as he checked his watch he
hurried. There was something about this place that was obviously important. We rushed through
the high tombstones, passing grave after grave, I in constant fear of joining their occupants. As
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soon as we came to the huge cast iron door of the tomb we hurriedly heaved it open, entered and
slammed it shut behind us. Just as we did artillery began to fall. The reverberations inside the
small brick structure concussed our ears a hail of shells thundered down around us. The
unrelenting attack seemed to be landing on all sides, and for miles around. Never before or since
had I heard anything like it. It was as if God himself was visiting his anger upon this graveyard
and us two souls hidden within it. After what felt like hours the attack ceased. Both our ears were
ringing of course, but we opened the huge door once more and leered outside. I could hardly
believe my eyes. Everything, the graveyard, the perimeter wall, the houses the overlooked it on
all side and every building for a mile around had been flattened. It was astonishing. And here, in
the middle of all this destruction, our mausoleum lay untouched. I looked at the Major in awe.
He just looked back at me, then smiled wryly. All I could do was shake my head.
We had to move before troops moved into the area to mop up after the artillery strike, and
still we had one more stop to make before finding somewhere to dig in for the night. Knowing
that there were no prying eyes watching us from the burning surroundings we headed west, away
from the river. Looking back at what had been the graveyard I just couldn’t get my head around
He was just ahead of me, some two hundred metre or so from the graveyard, leaning
against a crumbling building, when out of nowhere, as he leaned down to look around the corner
at waist height, a bullet stuck the wall where his head had just been. A burst of redbrick clouded
in our faces and wafted to the ground at our feet. Without hesitation he grabbed me by my shirt
collar with one hand and bolted across the narrow street throwing himself, and me along with
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him, to the ground. As I hit the deck my face slammed into the edge of a rusty warped railing that
had been blasted from a balcony above the street, cutting my cheek open from eye to jaw. Sitting
up, we looked at each other, I nodded in thanks and as the Major grabbed a handful of grit from
the street and slapped me on the face with it. Not realising I had be injured, I was confounded.
But as he retracted his hand it began to sting. Seeing the blood on his hand I nodded once more
in thanks. He looked at me like I was an idiot, then patted me on the chest and motioned me to
stay down.
As we crawled, more shots came in over our heads. Occasionally we’d be momentarily
visible, or at least parts of us must have been, because the shooter fired six more shots in the time
it took us to snake across the road. As we knew he had to be at least hundreds of metres away,
outside the scorched shelled area, we knew that once we were across the street he wouldn’t be
able to see us. Once we were out of sight we sat up. He took out a hipflask and offered me a hit, I
gladly took one and then passed it back to him. Taking a hit and a big calming breath himself, he
tucked it back inside his jacket and winked at me, smiling. With no time to waste we were
The chandeliers in Lord St. John’s Manor were decrepit wrecks, nothing compared to
their former splendour evident in photographs of visiting officials that adorned the walls. We
could hear boots stomping around on floorboards above us and muffled voices shouting orders,
but we couldn’t make out what they were saying. The Major put his forefinger to his lips to
command silence, leaned close to me and whispered that we had to get to the basement. He then
crouched and started towards the back of the building. As we came to doorways he would raise
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his hand and halt me, check the other side and then motion me on when ready. More than once
we came within feet of soldiers as they went about their business inside the Manor but my guide,
the quintessential host, had them figured out. Never once did they even suspect we were there.
We took our time, moving painfully slow, but we made it to the basement with time to spare.
The basement door openly with ease and without a sound, the old wrought iron hinges
ghostly in their silence. We stepped inside and turned on our flashlights, the cool air a warmly
welcomed after the sweaty, nerve wracking traverse of the house above. The Major lead us to the
far end of the earthen floor room and turned down a corridor to the right. The brick walls were
buttressed with thick timbers like in a mine and the low ceilings made it dangerously
claustrophobic. After a minute or so we stopped and my guide knelt down. Swinging his
backpack off and down to the ground he took out a field shovel, unfolded it and began to dig. In
no time there was a small hole of one foot wide, one foot long and two feet deep. Stabbing the
ground with his tool, he produced a large book wrapped in cloth and put it in the hole. Without
looking at me or speaking to me once, he filled the hole back in. Finally, he took the flap of his
backpack and placed it against the brick wall right over the covered in hole. He then took his
field shovel and smashed the brick behind it with several hard strikes. Removing the flap and
checking his work he packing up and motioned for us to leave. I knew exactly what he was doing
but I didn’t dare say anything, even though it was wrong. He was my lifeline and I wasn’t about
Leaving the basement was as deadly a venture as entering it. With guards patrolling the
Manor grounds we had to wait for darkness and then moved stealthily to a shack about a mile
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away. As we left we could see engineers attaching aerials to the roof of. They were fortifying it,
obviously readying for battle. In the dark we couldn’t see what side they were on, but that was
The shack had a fireplace but we couldn’t use it, we simply ate our rations and waited out
the night. We could hear the flak and the drone of bombers in the distance, and of course, their
deadly loads being dropped across the city. The Major checked his notes over and over, it was
vital that he got his facts straight. I quietly contemplated the events of the day, still amazed at the
incident in the graveyard. We had both been nearly killed, twice, and I had no idea what the next
day would bring. Whatever came I knew it would be as exhilarating as it would be terrifying.
The early morning was again shrouded by thick smoke and soot as we snuck into the
heart of the city. My guide had done his homework, we didn’t see a soul and had no encounters
whatsoever. Just as dawn broke we were concealed inside the cockpit of a plane that had crashed
and burned in the penultimate floor of a warehouse on the outskirts of the factory district. With a
commanding view of the destroyed city we were as safe and comfortable as we could be, sat in
the pilot and co-pilot’s leather seats, facing north. The Major said that it wouldn’t begin until
after midday, so we took turns to sleep and conserve our energy. After two one hour naps each
we got ready. The field of view was some thousand metres long and three hundred metres wide.
We could see down the length of three long streets, each at least a mile long. The centre street
was blocked by felled buildings at two hundred metres but the other two were clear, bar the usual
charred rubble and soot that littered every inch of the city. Below us and a hundred metres out,
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the three streets adjoined in a circular junction before branching out into the distance. To the east
of the fifty metres wide junction, a row of burnt out cars and trucks, thirteen of them, made a
barricade of sorts that cut off a third of the junction, which itself was ringed by the shells of what
used to be office blocks. Most had been five and six storeys tall but at least half of them were
We were both glued to our binoculars when I saw them first. Skulking down the east
street was a contingent of two dozen natives. They were hugging the walls as they moved down
both sides of the street, rifles at the ready. It looked more like a patrol than a mission, my guide
informed me, his invaluable running commentary educating me as events unfolded. We watched
as they moved up towards the junction below us, it was slow going as they checked every corner
before passing intersecting streets. As I watched, the Major nudged me with his elbow. I looked
over at him. He was looking west through his binoculars so I followed suit. Behind the barricade
lay a line occupying soldiers, resting in three groups of six. He had watched them march in as I
was watching the natives make their way toward us. I suddenly realised what was about to
happen. I looked again to the Major with that same look I gave him in the graveyard. He just
The natives were about to enter the junction, the soldiers behind the barricade were still
resting, both forces oblivious to the other’s presence. As if by chance, this meeting was certain to
be explosive. The open two thirds of the junction that the natives were moving towards were sure
to be a killing ground. The soldiers had cover and, as always, better weapons. Everything was set
for a vicious battle, but again my guide nudged me. I looked over at him once more, he was
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pointing to the rooftops just below us. We didn’t even need our binoculars to see them; a pair of
snipers were crawling toward the edge of a roofless top floor office. The office had been on the
third floor but was open to the sky as the rest of the upper floors had been blasted away by
bombing raids. On side facing the away from us and towards junction the blackened façade of
empty windows still loomed precariously. We couldn’t tell which side the snipers were on, but
As the natives walked into the junction the soldiers behind the barricade realised they had
company. They didn’t open fire but they waited, no doubt baiting their prey. The natives were as
cautious entering the junction as they had been coming down the east street, but they had no line
of sight on the soldiers. As each native entered the junction they crouched and began to make
their way south across the open ground. Once the first man made it to the far side, and the others
were all in sight, the soldiers opened fire, killing five of them outright. As soon as the first shot
rang out the pack of natives all dove to the ground and began to crawl, continuing south. The
soldiers all stood up behind the barricade and continued firing as the natives that made it to the
other side of the junction took up positions and returned fire. Just as the soldiers stood up behind
the barricade the snipers sprang into life, their shots raining down with unerring accuracy. Within
minutes the whole junction was alive with fire. Soon half of the natives lay dead in the open
while the soldiers were falling as quickly as the snipers could work the bolts of their rifles. From
behind better cover and with better weapons, the soldier would have slaughtered the natives, but
the snipers made all the difference. It was harrowing. Soon only three soldiers remained, pinned
down, but out of sight from the snipers. Meanwhile, the surviving natives had scrambled into
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ruined offices below us and out of our line of sight. We counted fifteen dead or dying natives so
we knew a maximum of nine were still alive, less than half their unit.
The two snipers had managed to remain undetected by the soldier as no return fire came
their way, but with their view blocked by the barricade they lay patiently, awaiting their chance
to finish off their prey. The Major and I sat silently, I enthralled and he as seemingly disinterested
as ever. It even sounded like the constant battles around the city had ceased, as if to allow the one
we were watching to rage undisturbed. The whole battle had taken only minutes to come to a
standoff, but it had felt like an hour. It was incredible for a person like me to witness such an
event. The Major seemed unconcerned. For a man like him it was obviously nothing new.
As we watched, the snipers began to back away. It seemed strange, they had the soldiers
pinned down. I asked my guide why the remaining natives didn’t just flank the barricade and
finish off the soldiers. He just looked at me with that knowing look and put his binoculars down
on the smashed console in front of us and leaned back folding his arms with a smug grin.
Puzzled, I took another look at the snipers, but they were gone. I checked the area that the
natives had disappeared into, but I couldn’t spot even one of them. Lastly, I looked over at the
barricade. It was horrendous. There was a row of bodies laid out where they fell, with bloody
messes across the rubble behind each. They had all been shot through the head or chest by the
snipers. I didn’t see one soldier killed by the natives, the snipers had literally done all of the
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As I studied the three remaining soldiers, huddled behind the barricade, surrounded by
their fallen comrades’ twisted bodies, a sudden flash of soot and fire filled my view through my
binoculars, half blinding me. Ripping my eyes away from the glass, I suddenly heard the roaring
sound of inbound artillery that I had been oblivious to with my avid observance. A hail of death
came down from the sky. The shock of the first unexpected shell having heightened my senses.
The sound and smell of each explosion seemed volcanic, blasting huge clouds of dirt into the
sky. The barricade was obliterated, sending cars and trucks flying into the air, some
disintegrating into splinters of metal and fire. In all, some thirty shells fell on the fifty metre wide
junction in about one minute, but the adrenaline surging through my veins it again felt like much
longer.
When silence finally fell I sat, jaw agape, staring at the wasteland in front of me. All the
concrete and cobblestones had been crushed and turned over. The office blocks around the
junction had also been hit, but largely escaped further damage. Whoever had launched the
artillery had the junction dialled in tight. The barricade was completely gone. One car was
twisted into the office block at the west end of the junction, beside where the barricade had
stood, but all the others were in pieces spread out across the junction or imbedded in walls. I
looked over at the Major who was still sat smugly with his arms folded, unmoved from his
previous position. Apparently the look on my face said it all, he just chuckled and punched me in
the shoulder.
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That night we holed up in the woods. It was a small strip of land which the Major had
selected overlooking the river. The view was amazing. All night the city burned and we watched
with saddened hearts, knowing the terrible cost that so many were paying all around us. As usual
the Major didn’t say much, but his discomfort was palpable. I almost asked him what was on his
mind, but couldn’t. It didn’t seem right. The smell of burning oil and spent explosives clung to us
as we finished our rations. The Major offered to continue for an extra day but as we couldn’t
hunt or scavenge anything - another rule - we’d have to starve. I thought about it and decided to
stay on. Even with the cold and the hunger I couldn’t pass up the opportunity. I’d never see this
The next morning it was cold, very cold. We had decent clothes but they seemed to do
nothing. It wasn’t even windy but with nothing to eat our bodies didn’t hold any heat. We were
on the move before dawn again, skulking through a sewer. It stank of death and excrement, so it
was just as well we had empty stomachs. Even my guide was visibly effected, but never once did
he complained. The rats we enormous, like cats, and they were everywhere. I thought it was as if
every rat in the city was hiding down there until I realised that they probably were. After what
felt like hours we escaped that awful dungeon of filth via a crumbling dried up pond. It lay in the
grounds of a hotel, most of which had been flattened by the bombing raids. As we made our way
through the once grand building we came upon a kitchen stocked with tinned foods. It was
painful to look at as we couldn’t touch any of it. Like a gift from the devil, sent to torture our
weakening souls. The Major scoffed, but I wasn’t as subtle. “Don’t even think about it”, he
warned. I knew I couldn’t take anything, but I had to forcibly stop myself. Regardless, I moved
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We came onto the roof of the hotel and were met by the screaming engine of a fighter
plane as it passed us by at head height. The shock nearly took both of us off our feet, then it was
gone as quickly as it had come. The smell of its fuel hung in the air, we could taste it, but after a
few minutes that too dissipated. A search quickly brought up a torn tarp buried under some
rubble so we laid down, crawled to the edge of the roof and covered ourselves with the it. The
Major said it wouldn’t be long, so I took our my binoculars and got as comfortable as I could.
Our field of view was dominated by row after row of trenches. Each dug into the frozen
ground in what had been a public park. The shelling and bombing raids had reduced the park to
little more than a killing ground laced with a web of grave-like lines. Both the natives and their
fatal enemies had dug in the year before but neither had managed to “control the park”, I was
told. Each day there was fighting and each day there were deaths but only in no man’s land, a
two football field sized patch of rotten Earth between the trenches. Today was to be different
though. The Major said he wasn’t originally going to bring me there because it was so
dangerous, but I had proved myself in the Manor house and by staving off hunger. I could sense
though, this one was more for the Major than for me.
In the early hours of freezing mist a young man armed with a handgun and a pair of
grenades climbed over the top of the trenches to our east. He couldn’t have been more than
twenty years of age. His thin face and baggy greatcoat made him look like an old beggar. As he
stood, up his head reached over the mist and it was then that the shots began. He threw himself
on the ground, under the mist, but the shots kept coming. The natives were relentless, even
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though they were shooting blind. The occupying soldiers immediately returned fire and in no
time both sides were firing everything they could lay their hands on. Incredibly though, right
before our eyes both sides suddenly ceased fire and poured out of their trenches and into no
man’s land. Both bands of men were armed with handguns, grenades and knives. None of those
left in the trenches fired for apparent fear of hitting their own so the only volleys were by those
At first the lead men lobbed their grenades as they ran, each missile exploding with
furious dread, and then opened up with their handguns. Half of the men on the front line on both
sides fell within the first minute; some thirty of them lay dead or dying just below the mist, their
screams of agony barely audible over the din of battle. The second wave of expendable youths
came pounding through the smoky gloom and met their brothers-in-death head on. The few that
had survived the first wave were already engaging the enemy in hand-to-hand combat which
defied hope. Their comrades’ reinforcement, to my horror and shameful fascination, served only
to bolster the gory ballet. None of the first waves on either side still stood within three minutes,
the second waves were nearly entirely gone, and a third wave on each side was thundering down
on certain death. Some hundred bodies had dropped below the silky fog, leaving the field of
battle seemingly empty to the eye. But like a lake full of bodies, we knew they were there. The
Major never made a shound, but I suddenly sensed that he was drawn into the conflict unfolding
in the park. I didn’t look away from my binoculars, but I heard him shuffle a little, almost
nervously. Within five minutes of the battle beginning it was raging in full tilt. The grenade
explosions and the report of handguns began to die down and, almost simultaneously, a massive
wailing came from the sky. Suddenly, both sides frozen, some men even freezing mid-knife
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thrust, and looked up. I could smell the fear from the hotel rooftop. Turning heel and bolting flat
out toward their respective tranches, every able man ran for his life, bar one. An older man, and
by older I mean in his late twenties, knelt and lifted a wounded comrade and moved as fast as he
could towards to natives’ trenches. He hadn’t made it ten paces when the first shell hit. It landed
in the middle of no man’s land, some fifty metres from him, but the force was enough to take
him off of his feet. Unfazed, he picked himself up, then his comrade and continued staggering.
Behind the time he was back on his feet more shells were landing all over the battlefield, but he
just kept on going. Again and again he fell under the mist, clouds of dirt raining down on him,
but each time he got back up and pushed on. It was harrowing to watch, this lone soul battling in
hell. His faith unbreakable. After a minute or so he out his comrade down and climbed under the
I rolled over onto my back and sighed a deep, stirring sigh. The Major said nothing.
Having watched that man perform such an act, something had changed inside me. I had seen a
lot since we got to this place, but this was above all other things. Never in my life had I ever seen
someone so brave. I felt like an insect, not a man, knowing that such a person existed. My heart
swelled and broke under the glory that I had witnessed. And still, not a sound or movement from
the Major. I never smoked, but in that moment, I wanted a cigarette. The Major must have read
my mind, as right then he rolled over, tears drawing lines down his blacked sooty face and lit a
cigarette, offering me one from his tin. I refused politely, confounded at the emotion shown by
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He never said a word, he just sat up against the short wall that lined the roof and tugged
on his bent, hand rolled cigarette. He didn’t sob, but the tears were clearly running for all they
were worth. I didn’t speak. I just sat up beside him and waited with him. In that silent
communion, a lot passed between us, a humility and understanding that, as a civilian, I was
permitted, and would never otherwise have experienced. The Major had not shown me his
weakness, he had shown me his strength. And I was honoured to sit with him in that moment.
After he finished his cigarette had stubbed it out and out the butt in his pocket, then we were off.
I felt like I was parting from a lover, I knew I would never see her again, this pained
place, but felt blessed that she had taken me into her arms for those few nights. Before we had
even made our way down and out of the hotel the Major was already his stern self again. He lead
me through the streets, through decrepit buildings and scorched playgrounds, through homes and
offices, then out of the city centre and into the suburbs. As we moved we had to lay and wait for
contingents of men to pass us, hiding in holes in walls that those very men had wrought and
crawling past them in the shadows of the flames that they themselves had lit. We paused only for
as long necessary before coming to the water’s edge outside of the city limits. We must have
been two miles from the nearest cannon. We could still see the light of the fires that raged every
hour of every day, but by dusk it was dark enough for us to wade into the river.
The Major led, as always, walking to waste height and waving me in. By the time the water got
up to my knees he was already treading water. I got up to my neck and swam out some twenty
metres from the bank, where my guide was waiting. He asked if I was ready and I nodded, then
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he reached into his shirt and pulled a chain from around his neck up over his head. I knew the
procedure - the most important rule of all – we had rehearsed it over and over before even
coming to Stalingrad. I took hold of the chain. “On three”, he said, and began to count. I sucked
in all the air I could, my heart pounding in my throat, and held my breath on “two”. On “three”
we both submerged. It was freezing cold but I was too excited to notice.
Under the water, the dim light of death incarnate lingering overhead, with both us holding onto
the chain, the Major took hold of the pendant and depressed the button at its centre. Instantly I
could feel the surge of electricity course through the chain and into my body. No doubt my guide
did too. With the air in my lungs burning slowly away, I held on and resisted the urge to tense up,
as instructed. The discomfort built up as the charge pushed itself into every corner of my body.
As it grew a dull light began to emanate from the pendant. In seconds, the light became a vast
In the light the water seemed crystal clear, completely translucent. We two souls hung there,
suspended in empty brilliance, no cold, no time, just us and the light. Soon my lungs felt like
they would collapse. I fought the urge to gasp as the pain of the electrical charge reached an
agonising peak. The light finally grew to a blinding intensity and then, suddenly, extinguished
itself. With that, my face slapped hard against the polished metal floor of the chamber we had
I looked up as I gasped for life giving air and blearily saw the Major lying on the floor in front of
me. Both of us were still clinging to the chain - our clothes and hair suddenly bone dry. He was
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shouting through his own controlled gasps “controlled breaths, don’t hyperventilate”. I was half
deafened and half blinded, but I’d never felt so alive. Tensing my stomach muscles to keep a
semblance of control over my air intake, I rolled over onto my back and sat up. With that the
chamber door opened and the assistants came bursting in, medical equipment in hand – standard
procedure. They checked both the Major and I and within minutes gave the all clear. I stood,
shakily, and walked from the chamber smiling with the rush of endorphins. The monitors showed
timers indicating we were only gone for seconds. It was incredible. The Major parted without
The manager met me outside the changing room with glass of vitamin enriched orange juice. I
had expected my clothes to be filthy when I came back but he explained that all the dirt and grit
wouldn’t come back with me, just like the water from the river, because “they don’t belonging
this time”. I still couldn’t really wrap my head around it, the technology was like magic, even
now, hundreds of years after the battle I had visited. He thanked me for “my custom” and
handed me my receipt and a pair of commemoratory dog tags which had my name and the dates I
Walking me out to the lobby, he also handed me a certificate and told me that my complimentary
limousine was waiting to take me anywhere I wanted. I thanked him, wanting to ask about the
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The End…
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