Wese mein ye pese tere munh pe marna chahta tha...

par achha kiya bhagwaan

ne ki ye mauka mujhe diya hi nhi kyuki ab m teri shakal bhi nhi dekhna chahta life
me dubara.... aur future me kbhi teri shakal dikhaye bhi na....

Mene neech se neech log dekhein hai duniya me... par tere jitta selfish, neech aur
bevkoof insaan nhi dekha....mein gobar me pathar marna pasand nhi krta... par kyi
baar logo ko unki aukaat dikhane ke liye bolna pdta hai...
Achhi dosti nibhayi yaar tune bahut achhi....aur baad me to aise doodh ki
dhuli...sati savitri ban gyi ki jese khud ne to kuchh kiya hi nhi... mein hi hu sab
kuchh krne wala....

Meri hi galti h ki tere se mene baat krna bnd nhi ki.... mein hi bevkoof tha... nhi
to jab first time vo incident hua tha PTM wala tab sahi kiya tha mene... par bc
uss Sushma madam ke chakkar m aake phir se baat start kar di tere se jo meri
jindagi ki sabse bdi bhool thi....

Tereko aata kya tha jab tu school aayi thi haan... ek ek kaam tu pooch k krti
thi...sir ye kese karu sir ye kese karu....na tere se bachhe smbhlte the na tujhe
knwledge thi ki no kese dene hai bachho ke...dekh dekh ke maths pdhati thi....
sab kuchh mene btaya tujhe....mene teri support ki....roti thi.... beech session
m ja rhi thi school chhod ke... mene rukwaya....ki nhi school mat chhod session
to poora kar.... na bachhe tere se satisfy the.... aakhir me tera ghar bass jaye
iss karan school b chhod diya mene... aur vohi ldki kya kehti hai.... mein to sir
ki supplementary aayi hai ye btaungi sabko.... sabko bta ke jaungi.... waaah....
bc tum sab logo ne milke mera dimaag khraab kiya exams me... kbhi teri maa
baat krti thi... kbhi tera baap baat krta tha.... mere saare exams khraab ho gye....
aur phir kehti hai... sir ki galti h ye to... sir hi nhi padhe.... mene to kuchh nhi
kiya...mene to bola tha sir ko pdhne ka... waah ji....waah
Tere jitta chutiya... dhokebaaz...rang badlne wala aur dogla insaan nhi dekha
mene....apni poori life me....
Mere me wrna kya kami thi...bachhe khush the mere se... padhayi krwane me
kami na thi... chairman manta tha mujhe.... but meri bhi badnaami hui lavkush
me uske karan m bhi nikala gya.... kher phir bhi mene tera sath nhi chhoda.... tera
sath diya....

Tere jhooth ki wajha se meri jindagi ki jhand lag gyi.... pta hai pichle kuchh time
me...mene kitna mushkil waqt guazara hai.... ye sirf mein hi janta hu....jiss site
pe result aana hai... hazaro baar check kiya use...din raat paglo ki tareh check
krta rehta tha.... pta tha fail hona hai phir bhi... akhir mein FAIL ho gya... jindagi
me pehli baar fail likha aana pta hai...kitta dukh pahuchata hai....jab aapki galti hi
na ho....phir gharwalo ko btana ki mein Fail ho gya....kitta mushkil hota hai..unko
face karna... phir poora pahad jitta lmba saal...jisko dubara se guzaar ke sirf 2
paper do....par tu nhi jaan skti jispe guzrti hai vohi janta hai sirf....phir na mere
pass job.... na mere pass pese... na mere pass krne ko kuchh.... aur sirf 2 exams
me supplementary ki wajha se sala poora saal wait kro....phir se exam do.... sirf
aur sirf kiske karan tere jhootho k karan.... uss bechare tere pati ko itta mushkil
time guzarna pda... hath kaat liya usne tere karan.... par tune jhooth bolna band
na kiya.... arre tere se bahut pyaar krta hai wo.... tu to uske paanv ki dhool b nhi
hai....mere se jhooth bola... ki mein to apne pati ke saamne baat krti hu.... mere se
jhooth bola ki mere pati ko hurt nhi hota... aur uss se jhooth bola ki mein to uss se
baat b nhi karti....

Tere pati ka jab pehli baar phone aaya tha mere pass... mereko usi din baat bnd kr
deni chahiye thi.... par mene teri support ki.... aur aakhir me galat kon saabit hua
mein...

Tab to sir ji mere school aao... mera mann nhi lgta... aapko aana hi pdega....
aapko meri kasam hai ye hai vo hai... aap mereko stairs me dikhayi dete ho... ye
vo....aap meri gali me aao...aapko miss kr rhi hu aapko dekhna hai mene....
Ye call recordings tere pati ko sunata phir kya hota haan.... phir b mene aisa kbhi
nhi kiya.... na socha ki ....tera ghar bass jaye.... tera chhota sa bachha hai.... par
tune bc meri life ki watt lga di... aur socha tak nhi ki mein kese halaat se guzar
rha hu....

Mene tere se 10 baar bola ki apne baat band kr dete hai.... uss time nhi sir... nhi
sir... apne baat nhi bnd krenge.... ganganagar chota sa hai... kisi na kisi school m
to mil hi jaynge... mein tere se baat band karna chahta tha... but tune nhi krne di....
phir apne aap se hi... mummy ne kasam dilwayi aur tune baat band kar di mere
se.... kmaal hai.... na btaya na koi baat... pata hai kitta hurt hota hai banda.... par
tujhe kya pta....jb pehle kaha tha ki tu ghar basa le... apna aur mereko chhod..
apne nhi baat krte... par bc nhi ki.. phir khud hi baat bnd kar di...kmaal hai...

Jab sushma madam se mene ye baat kahi thi garmiyo ki chhutiyo ke dauraan ki
hurt hota hai....Rishu madam ne baat band kar di....to tune hi ye baat kahi thi na
unko ki jo gya so gya.... m tab smjha nhi tha...mene socha tu phone pe baat ni
kregi... real me milne par bhi ni bolegi... ye ni pta tha.... kuchh clear ni kiya tune...
kuchh bhi nhi....

Aur dubara se school mein koi sirf tere se baat krne nhi aaya tha.... mereko job
ki bahut jyada jrurat thi... kyuki kuchh krne ko nhi tha poore saal.... mein fail ho
chuka tha M.Sc. final me... tumhari tensions ki wajha se.... mere pass pese b
nhi the... poora din m ghar pe pda rehta tha.... mein koi tere karan nhi aaya tha
ye galatfahmi apne mann se nikaal dena ok...but phir bhi mene ye socha tha ki
shayad phone pe baat ni kregi...kyuki risk hai... but hii hello to kregi... jo ki normal
si baat hai....

But tu to ek dum dhoodh ki dhuli ban gyi mere aate hi.... tune apne pati ko bta
diya ki Nitish sir aa gye kmaal hai.... tune ye socha tak na ki agle bnde ki life pe
kya effect pdega...ek baar mere se baat to kar leti... ki sir aap na aao mere school
me.... mujhe problem ho jayegi... m kya smjhta nhi... jo bnda pehle b itti sacrifice
de skta hai... vo kya smjhta nhi kya haan...

But tune itni neech harkatein ki jo ki mereko baad m pta chali... tune mere
aane se pehle Monika madam ka jankar resume dilwaya unko to pta hi ni tha ki
vacancy hai bhi ya nhi school me science ki.... ki m na aaun.... phir ji sir ko rkhnge
nhi sir ki to dadhi hai.... sir to fashionable tareeke se rehte hai....jeans daalte
hai...beta talent hai mere me.... 5 school join karke chhod diye tere yaar ne.... bula
rhe the sab ke sab... phone kr krke...

Aur to aur agar sir yahan rhe to mein apne bachhe samet suicide kar lungi....marr
jaungi..... aur sir ka naam lga k jaungi.... arre bc mein tujhe itta mada lga kya.... ki
mein 8000 ki nokri ke liye 2 jano ko marwa du.... ye sabse neech aur chutiyaa baat
lgi mujhe.... khanabadosh log hote hai na... jinka thoda sa b khana chhin jaye to
vo rone lg jate hai...kuchh b karne ko tyaar ho jate hai... unme aur tere m koi farak
nhi hai....

Kyuki tujhe pta hai.... sir ko hi mein ye dhamki deke bhgaun... mereko to koi
rkhega nhi saal k iss time...aur na mere me talent... tereko golden rays me b
Rahul sir ki sifarish se rkha tha.... aur lav kush me bhi... ye bhi janta hu.... aur tu
kisi school me bina sifarish k ja b nhi skti... na tere me talent... mein to hairaan
hu ki yaar mene aisa kya kar diya jo itte bde bde ilzaam mere pe lgane ko tyaar
hai.... sir ki supplimentary h sabko bta dungi....agar sir ko maths de diya to....arre
ye din dekhne ko dosti nibhayi thi kya.... agar tumhare me dumm nhi hai to bdi
bdi baatein nhi karni chahiye...agar tum na nibha sko dosti aur pyaar ko to bdi bdi
baat nhi krni chahiye.... i think mere golden rays me aane se teri privacy ja rhi thi...
Mereko aur sushma madam ko to ye bhi doubt hai ki tune apne pati ko btaya bhi h
ya nhi...ya dhakke se ye sab kuchh drama kiya mujhe htane ka.... kher sachhayi jo
b hai vo tu janti hai... mujhe nhi lena uss se kuchh bhi....

Mene to socha b nhi tha ki itti neech harkton pe giregi tu.... sapne me bhi...pta
hai dil ko kitti chot pahuchi.... kher... aaj sab sahi h meri life me.... girlfriend
b hai....bahut sunder... aur M.Sc. Physics me bhi kar rha hu..jo ki mein pehle
se chahta tha.... bahut bura time dekha hai.... bhgwaan aisa time kisi ko na
dikhaye...aur aise ghatiyaa log kisi ke life me na laaye... jinka khud ka koi stand hi
na ho.... na family ke liye... na frnds ke liye....

Bahut kuchh seekha bhi h tere se ki kisi ki na to help karo... na kisi se jyada baat
kro...na close aao kisi ke.... apne kaam se kaam rkho.... professional life me...kyuki
log bahut chutiya aur ghaitya ho skte hai... uske liye bahut bda sa thnku....

Akhir mereko job chhodni pdi.... pta hai students ko chhodna kitta mushkil hai...
aur jab ek bnde ko pasand hi padhana ho... phir b dil pe pathar rkhke mene job
chhodi.... haan pichle school sarswati aur jindal mene isiliye chhode kyuki mereko
set nhi bethe ok.... ye mereko achha lga kyuki pese achhe the aur time bhi kamm
tha..sath me nazdeek bhi tha.... but tune na krne di job mereko... kisi ki life ko
khraab krne ka kisi ko haq nhi hai.... mene to teri taraf dekhna b bnd kr diya tha ki
agli ko problem na ho.... but tereko to mere wahan rehne se hi problem thi na...ya
to mere rehne se tera koi aur raaz khulta...tu kisi aur se baat krti hogi wahan...
jo ki mereko pta chlta..... koi na.... achha hua jo hua.... teri shakal roj roj dekhni
pdti...sadi c...

Tune to sushma madam ko sab bol diya... ki m aisa kr dungi ye kar dungi vo kr
dungi.... but mene to kisi ko kuchh nhi bataya na... chahta to m bhi sabko sachhayi
bta skta tha....saurabh sir ko... sahu sir ko.... meri unn logo k saamne principal ke
saamne bezzati krwayi.... kyuki m bina btaye gya... unko reason bhi nhi btaya...
ki kyu chhod rha hu school.... mere pe to kbhi vishwass nhi krenge na Sahu sir
ab.... meri vo baat to nhi rehgi na.. aur na m iss school m ab kbhi aa skta....aur
tu kya kehti sushma madam ko ki sir ko to reason bta k chhodna chahiye
tha...waahh....matlb bc saari meri hi galti.... arre reason btata to sachhayi nikal
jati munh se mere... mene to phir bhi teri sochi... ki teri job na jaye...tere pass
nhi h job... aur tu ghar pe kya kregi akeli.... agar mere munh se sachhayi nikal gyi
to.... agar m chairman k saamne aaya aur vo kuchh bhi bola upar neeche mereko
to...aise 8000 ki nokri ko thookta hu tere munh pe... mujhe nhi chahiye... tune
shayad jo teri life me pehle boyfrnd tha uske sath bhi aisa hi kiya hoga na.... aise
hi khraab kiya hoga....jahan tak mujhe lgta hai...

But tune na socha mere baare me kuchh.... phir jab sushma madam ne btaya ki
sir M.Sc. Physics kar rhe hai... mene to sir ke baare me sunana hi nhi hai...aap
baat hi na karo unke baare me.... arre bc m to tera naam tak nhi sunana chahta
apne kaano me.....

Ye pese isiliye de rha hu kyuki mein aise ghaitya ldki ke diye huye pese rkhna nhi
chahta.... aur itta time isiliye lga kyuki mere pass the nhi aur mangana m kisi se
pasand nhi karta wrna tab ka tab de deta terko.... ahsaan nhi rkhta m kisi ka b....

Tab to pese dete waqt kaha sir aapko meri kasam hai.... aap rkh lo.. m nyi sim
lungi.. nya mobile lungi uss se apne baat krnge ye vo...

Mene kbhi kisi ka bura nhi socha to bhgwaan ne bura kiya bhi nhi... galat logo ki
wajha se galat time jrur aaya meri life me.... but akhir sahi bhi hua vo....vo dekh
rahul sir terko b pta hoga uske accident ka.... mushkil se bachha h vo....ICU me
tha vo itte din...ab bhi sahi hone me saal ka time lgega.... nokri gyi....jitte najayj
pese kmaye the vo sab lg jaynge.....accident kisi ka bhi ho skta hai.... par uss
bnde ne mere maje bahut liye mere maade time me.... yahi swarg hai yahi narak
hai...sabko yahi bhugtana hai....
Usne idhar ki baatein meri udhar ki.... vo chata to kbhi baat na bdhti.... phir jb m
fail hua... to mere se bola ki mein krwa dunga sir 100% meri jankari hai University
me.... but bc saale ne itte maje liye... mene itta tak keh diya ki tu pese le le jitte
lene hai... but nhi krwaya.... aur vo dekh aaj pda hai... ro rha h karmo ko apne...

Kher m to phir bhi 2-3 baar jakar aaya uske ghar.... mamaji se bhi milke
aaya....mera mann to nhi badla phir bhi uske liye... mere mann m to pyaar hi hai....
phir bhi....par aaj usko guilt hai apne mann me jb mene btaya ki m M.Sc. kar rha
hu...

Kher sabse bda shukriyaa to mein sushma madam ka manta hu ki unhone mujhe
sab kuchh btaya.... mene to unka number bhi block kar diya tha ki meri baatein
na udhar jaye aur na udhar ki idhar aaye.... taaki m araam se job kar sku... but
agar vo teri sachhayi nhi btati to tere baare m kbhi mujhe nhi pta chlta.... ki tera
asli rang kya h... kitti ghatiyaa soch rkhti h tu.... kya hai tera asli chehra... unka m
bahut bda shukar guzaar hu.... tune to just keh diya ki mene gusse me vo sab bol
diya... pta h dil me kitta hurt hua... pta hai sab kuchh time ke sath sahi ho jata
hai... but aise baatein humesha dil me reh jati hai... uss bnde ke liye jisko itta
mana.... kher tu nhi smjhegi ye baat.... kyuki tere liye sab kuchh mjaak hai rishte
wghera... mere se tu baat bhi kr skti thi ki sir aap mat kro ye job plzz mere liye....
to kya m chhodta na.... itti si baat thi....mujhe b pta tha kal ko tere pati ko pta chl
skta hai.... ya vo krishan sir bta skte h rahul sir ko....itta bevkoof to m bhi nhi hu...
but mere se baat to kr leti ek baar....tune to frst day hi bta diya ghar pe...apne maa
baap ko bhi.... m chahta to m bhi sab jgha kuchh bhi bta skta tha... badnaam kar
skta tha.. mere pass photo the apne dono ke... call recordings thi.... msgs the....
par mene nhi kiya....

I know tune bhi stand liya.... par aisa stand kya kaam ka jo kisi ki life itte time tak
disturb kar de..aur phir tu vo stand nibhaye hi na....ek dum se badal jaye
Ab na mein ghar walo ko bta skta tha asli reason ke baare me ki kyu fail hua....kya
reasons the...
Mujhe hi pta hai mene kese exams nikale....aur kese time nikala...itta jyada
depression me chala gya tha mein....
Arre m bhi to tera ghar hi baswana chahta tha... ki tera chota beta hai kahan
jayega vo baap k bina... mereko kya pta nhi tha....tbhi bola ki m chala jata hu teri
life se.... but uss time baat smjh na aayi....

Kher maafi k like to nhi hai tu... but mera dil itta bda hai ki mene phir b tereko
maaf kar diya.... mere dil me to pyaar hi hai.... sabke liye... tere liye bhi... tere pati
ke liye bhi... aur tere bete ke liye bhi.... but ek nasihat deta hu...aage se kbhi kisi
ki life mat khraab karna aise.... kbhi kisi k itta close naa aayo... ki door jana pde...
kbhi bhi bde bde waaade na karo... ya pyaar na karo jo nibha na sko....aur sabse
pehle family h teri...tera pati aur tera beta... aur tera husbnd sabse jyada pyaar
krta hai tere se....itta koi bhi nhi kar skta...
Jo hath kaat skta h tere liye vo kuchh bhi kar skta hai.... aaj k time me koi nhi kar
skta aise....

Aur sushma madam ke hatho pese ni bhijwaye kyuki unhe tang ni krna
chahta...aur i know vo ye letter dete bhi nhi mera tujhe... sourabh sir ko m kuchh
btana chahta nhi... isiliye meri frnd k jariye bhej rha hu..... ye to mereko pese dene
the isiliye dubara se contact krna pda tereko wrna mujhe shokh nhi h....aise logon
ke munh mathe lgne ko...

Goodbye !!!

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