To the my man and my destiny until he's not,

I thought you're the best thing that ever happened to me. But you turned out to be the worst.
You've caused me pain, too much pain that I can't even felt myself breathing anymore. But
you're acting like I'm the one that hurt you.
What I always did was to forgive you, accept you every damn time. I swallowed my pride to
save us, yet you continue to ruin myself.

It's not healthy for me. For my mind, and my mental health. It's been affecting me, really. I'm in
my last year of my college, everything was not good. I needed you the most, but when someone
else needed you, you just left me hanging go there with someone else and act like I'm the bad
one.

I've been suffering for Anxiety for 2 years now, exactly the years I'm with you, the doctor said it's
just a symptom of my PCOS but I know it's more than that.

No one else know how weak I am but only you. No one else know how I suffered every night
crying for all the things that I'm afraid for. You are the only person I hope that would help me
and comfort me.
You made me believe that I have your shoulder to lean on. That I have you when I'm weak. You
made me believe that you're there for me but no. You cared for everyone else but not me.

My cervix has been aching so bad since 2am. I barely have sleep. 2 hours? Stressful Anxiety
was attacking me. You have no idea. Stop pretending that you're the one hurting. Because you
can't imagine what I'm going through right now. I'm hurt. I need to heal. And I can't heal when
I'm with you. I love you but you make me sad and cry every day. You said you love me, but you
know you don't.

Be with them, the one you cared for. I don't need you. I can handle my self.

-Angel 😔