Sometimes - a eulogy for my mother

by Paul Burrows
(Southend)

Sometimes, the distance between what we think and what we want to say is
unbridgeable. And no matter how much we arrange and re-arrange the words they can
never convey how we really feel inside.

Each person present today knows how affected they have been by my mother – both in
life and in death. Those impressions are too minute and delicate to be substantiated in
language.

But with your patience, I shall try.

It is fair to say my mother’s early life was very fruitful. From 1954 until 1969 she bore five
sons and three daughters. We all muddled along nicely in a modest three bedroom
house. I can’t remember wanting for anything except perhaps a room of my own. And
there was always food on the table even if it was just cheese and crackers.

Unfortunately, through no fault of her own, my mother was left to raise the family by
herself.

Struggling to make ends meet doesn’t come close to describing her new circumstances.
And yet, whenever a birthday came around…

April (David + Sandra)

May (Bryan)
July (Vanessa)
August (Sylvia)
September (Jonathan)
October (Paul)
November (Robert)
…there was always something to unwrap.

If she was pleased when a member of the family left home to make a new life it did not
show. In fact, I think she was very upset. She was never happier when surrounded by her
family.
Tragically, in 1978, after a long illness and a brave fight, my brother Jonathan died. He
was 17. We should take comfort in the belief that he is reunited with his mum after all
these years.

My brothers and sisters formed partnerships of their own. Some set up homes nearby
whereas other traveled further afield. Grandchildren arrived and kept arriving. There
were 19 when I last counted.

Looking back at old family photographs there are very few of my mum by herself. It was
her family that defined her and the values which she fought so long and so hard for -
values that she tried to instill in us so that we might instill them in our own families.

Her devotion also extended to the partners of her sons and daughters.

Special credit must go to Ian F., husband of Sandra, who gave up so much of his time to
make my mother’s home and garden as comfortable and as beautiful as possible.

My mother may not have led the life she fully deserved. But she found happiness and
fulfillment in helping and taking care of those around her. For that we are truly thankful.