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Formed and Forming
Formed and Forming
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Barbara G. Walker, The Woman’s Encyclopedia of
Myths and Secrets (New York: Harper and Row, 1983).
On Bad Days Hot Water
She sat in the sun on non-slip rubber pads (the On this point it is worth considering her act of
kind lining suburban dish cupboards) hoping opening in relation to poet Juliana Spahr’s
for dinner to come by. It was only that her poem thrashing seems crazy:
heart weighed her down.
“there are things people can do to themselves
Turning Point 2: Companions they are:
Sometimes we are lucky enough to meet those leave molotov cocktail on own yard
with whom we are truly compatible. Held set fire to own house
decoratively together in an arranged cluster leave a glass of urine on own porch
like a bouquet, both Frog and Garlic were leave envelope of feces outside own door
knobbled beings. Identification with one send a butcher knife to self at work
another, “clicking,” is an unpredictable lining send letter to health department that self is
up. As the former was an acclaimed totem of spreading v.d.
witches and midwives, the latter protection stab own back”2
against such beasts (as efficacious as a crucifix
if not more so), one might consider them Sianne Ngai writes about this poem as
unlikely comrades. indicating a fear of unintended collusion with a
system one is a part of.3 There is that related
When garlic is crushed, it produces allicin. story about frogs that she could never shake: a
Allicin is a natural defence against bugs and fable of slowly heating and thermoregulation.
fungi and infections. Perhaps they found in It’s been bad science for years, but it’s an easy
each other a sensitivity, and a resilience. metaphor. This story stands in for creeping
normality, not seeing things getting worse and
Frogs are tight beings. Not just amphibian, but worse. Looking back, it is easy to prokect that
also fastener. A closeness, a closure. It is not she might not have noticed when she left the
entirely clear why, but it is also the name for an water to unintentionally collude with the land.
elegantly decorative piece of satin cord. A How much is power like this?
circlet outstretched with a knot to fill it. Knot is
also the name for a group of frogs. (Someone But of course, maybe this is not just bad science
probably came up with these uncalled for but also a faulty metaphor. A slippery
collective nouns in the Victorian era, and riverbank. Healthy frogs with functioning
nobody actually uses them now except in brains (and no doubt metaphoric frogs with
dreadful twee lists, online. Did you know?) functioning ethical systems) will actually jump
out when the water crosses the line between
Dissection hot and too hot. How could she forget first
The careful unpacking and analysis in order to leaving the water? She gained a new
understand. A criticism, of sorts. The cut in the perspective but remained the same being,
stomach, peeling back. Look: here they are, all of however changed. If we are to consider her
my insides. When she was weary of hiding: she legacy, let us have faith in that.
opened her own chest, it was she who bared
squeezing stomach and thudding heart and Something About Metamorphosis
dripping organs for all to see. She refused not Because the amphibian crosses the threshold
to leak anymore. between water and air, one could see it as a
hybrid, stateless. Considering her life, it is
This happened concurrently with being tired impossible to see this as a hazy transience.
of dissecting. She started to trust her gut (you Everything was right there when she needed it
can see it curling there). She told herself (gills, legs, garlic). She was always herself, no
emphatically: you know, you know, you know. question of that.
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Julianna Spahr, Response (Los Angeles: Sun and Sianne Ngai, Ugly Feelings (Cambridge: Harvard
Moon, 1996), 30. University Press, 2005), 303.